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chapel-of-rizztual · 18 days

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If you fuck with it perhaps some puppy mountain content :0

I do fuck with it. I always fuck with puppy Mountain.

There’s a whine from under the desk that Cumulus is busy working at. She’d been doing the admin work for the infirmary when Mountain had wandered into her office with big puppy eyes and his collar jingling around his neck. He’s wordlessly crawled under the desk and tried to nudge her thighs apart with his head before she’d pushed his head away with a simple,

‘Not now, I’m busy.’

He’d stayed under the desk though, making himself comfortable by sitting at her feet and resting his head in her lap, purring gently as she runs her fingers through his hair. Cumulus thought that was enough, that he’d be good and wait for her to finish her work but he wouldn’t stop whining and shifting his weight so he can pull her leg between her legs. She’d flicked him on the ear and hissed, making him whine sadly and rest his head back on her lap, looking up her with sad puppy eyes.

Mountain whines again, trying to pull her leg between his thighs again making Cumulus tut at him and pull away from the desk a little so she can see him. “I thought you were a good puppy?”

Mountain whines again and pouts up at her. “I am! But I just- I need you.”

“And I told you I’m busy, puppy.” She runs her hand down from his hair to his jaw, to his chin and scratches him there. “If you need it that badly there’s plenty of other people you can ask.”

Mountain shakes his head, tipping it back slightly at Cumulus’ scratching. “No, need you. Has to be you.”

Cumulus coos at him.

“You’re sweet puppy. But you have to wait. I have a lot of work to do and I can’t get distracted., so if you want to stay here you have to be good, okay?” She gives his hair a sharp tug.

Mountain gasps, resting his chin on her knee again. “Yes, ma’am.”

Cumulus pushed herself back under the desk fully without another word. Mountain manages to behave for approximately two minutes before he’s whining again and trying to grind himself onto Cumulus’ leg.

“Mountain.” She warns.

Mountain whimper and shakes his head on her knee.

“I can’t-cant stop. So hard, ma’am, please. Need it, need you.”

He hooks his arms around her leg to himself more leverage to hump against her shin.

“Need you. I’m sorry, sorry. Just need you.” He pants out.

Cumulus looks down at him again, raising en eyebrow as she feels Mountain’s cock rut into her leg.

“Satan, you’re pathetic.”

Mountain looks up at her with wide shiny eyes and nods, feeling too good to give a shit about the embarrassment.

“Yes, ma’am. I am, I am pathetic.

She glares down at him, her intense look making his hips slow but she can tell he’s desperate to keep going.

“Five minutes. You have five minutes to cum and if you don’t by that time I’m banishing you to your crate.”

Mountain pants and tilts his head to the side so he can rest his cheek on her knee. He hugs her leg closer to him, his hips rolling down. He whimpers, feeling his cock leak precum, making his boxers feel all sticky and wet.

“Yes, ma’am. Five minutes.”

Cumulus tried to focus on her work, she really does. But when she can feel Mountain leaking through his boxers making her leg all sticky it’s hard. It’s even harder when Mountain starts whimpering and moaning into her skin, hot breath making hitting her leg making her shiver.

She reaches down and pets at Mountain's hair, tugging lightly, making him whine and look at her with watery eyes.

“Oh my puppy. So desperate aren’t you? Just needed me, didn’t you?”

His eyes flutter closed as he pants, pushing against her leg even harder.

“Yes, yes ma’am. Had-had to be you.” His whole body shudders as he presses himself closer into her leg. “Oh fuck.”

He keeps letting out these needy whines and moans as he keeps humping her leg, desperate to get off before the five minutes is up. He looks at up Cumulus with wet eyes.

“Please? Lus- ma’am? Please.”

Cumulus pets his heart again, running her thumb down his jaw to his mouth. She traces over his lips until he parts them with a moan. She pushes her thumb between his parted lips and he moans again around her thumb, sucking eagerly.

“Please what, puppy? What do you want?” She hum, watching his cheeks hollow around her thumb.

Mountain blinks up at her all dumb and brainless. What did he want? He didn’t even realise he was begging for something.

“Awwh puppy. So dumb and stupid, aren’t you?” Cumulus laughs at him. “All your brains have leaked out of your cock, hasn’t it? Made all you brainless and useless for me.”

Mountain whines and hides his face on her thigh, drooling around her thumb and onto her leg.

“So messy, puppy.” Cumulus pulls her thumb from his mouth and wipes up some of the drool on his chin.

Mountains eyes roll back as he rubs himself against her leg ever harder, adjusting his grip on her leg so he can pull it even closer to him. Cumulus coos at him, running her claws through his hair and scratching at his scalp.

“So good for me, aren’t you? My good little pup, just needed me, didn’t you?”

“Oh fuck-fuck, Lus.” Mountains hips stutter against her leg.

“I’m-fuck, ma’am I’m-uh.”

“Awwhh already, pup?” She smirks down evilly at him, pulling sharply at his hair. “Good boy.”

Mountains whole body freezes and he lets out a choked off sob as he goes completely rigid, his eyes rolling back into his skull, his jaw slack and drooling everywhere.

Cumulus can feel the warmth seeping onto her leg as Mountain rocks against her leg shallowly working himself through his orgasm. He whimpers pathetically as his boxers get wetter and wetter with each spurt of cum.

He lets out a long groan as he collapses against her, hugging her leg. He rests his head again her knee, panting slightly from his comedown and blinks up at her all sleepy.

She smiles down at him, gently petting at his hair. “That wasn’t even two minutes, you know.” She laughs lightly. “That’s a bit embarrassing, puppy.”

Mountain whines and bites her thigh lightly. “Couldn’t help it.” He mumbles.

“Oh I know.” She coos at him. “Just too puppy brained to think about anything.”

Mountain hums in agreement with her, blinking up at her with little hearts shining in his eyes.

“I really do have work to do.” She whispers at him.

“Can I stay here? Don’t wanna leave you.”

Cumulus hums. “As long as you promise not to distract me again, puppy.”

Mountains hips jump on their own accord, rutting his cock back into her leg.

“No promises.”

#ask #the band ghost #mountain ghoul #cumulus ghoulette #puppy mountain #anonymous #my writing

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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months

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*explodes into your request box*

HEY HEY HEY, im back.

Came to ask an platonic Child!reader with the rest of the gang.

BUT HEAR ME OUT

Child reader is like an wolf in sheep's clothing, like reader has an cute expression on their face but when someone tries to touch them, they'll go like: "touch me and ill rip your hand off" in a full innocent voice and that cute smile.

And child reader has shark teeth.

Tyy!

*explodes*

- 🦭

The cast x child!reader (platonic)

throwing this together after waking up from a really nice nap! i still have the kinger request to work on but my brains still stumped.. sobs.. requests are still open by the way! you can find the link to my rules in my previous post, or you can look in my pinned! :O apologies if some sections for the characters are a little short, my brains still a lil okfvokffvovf from waking up TToTT

CAINE:

a child? in the circus?

he doesnt quite know how to make of it, i mean... its not like he has to make any accommodations, the circus is a place for all ages afterall!

i give you this new concept: dad caine

lightly scolds you when you threaten someone, bad manners!

i think he would be like a stereotypical eccentric dad

in house adventures seem to tone down just a touch so theyre not too intense or dangerous for you, keeps an eye on you to make sure you dont get stuck anywhere or flung across the room

rip bubble, you probably pop them when theyre within a foot of you

pinches your cheek only to have his hand comically chomped off ("now now (reader)! what did i tell you about biting! time out!)

POMNI:

similar confusion that caine has, but like, more so

how did a kid even get their hands on one of the headsets??

honestly i think pomni might be the type to be uncomfortable around kids; she doesnt hate them she just doesnt know what to do with them

also kids can possess a different kind of cruelness when they really put their minds to it and shes already in a mentally precarious position as it is

she doesnt avoid you though!

was bitten a grand total of one times, she made the mistake of trying to take you somewhere during an IHA and she didnt make you aware that she was going to put her hand on your shoulder

JAX:

okay you cant swear in the circus, but i feel like jax has some very creative ways to work around that, making these new colorful euphemisms that dont skip out on the crudeness. he teaches you some of his favorites just to watch the world burn

lightning fast reflexes, should you try to bite or hit him; not that hes going to try to put his hands on you

actually

i can see him picking you up via scooping his hands under your arms, or literally just holding you up by the scruff of your next

congrats theres now the image of jax holding a flailing sheep child in our heads. his shins will be kicked in the second you get put down

thinks its funny when people have to do double takes when you let out a threat or say something dark

RAGATHA:

i think she would be a cool babysitter, or big sister figure to you

similar to caine she will lightly scold you when you're being 'rude'

doesnt try to figure out why you dont like being touched, also respects it. respects your space as well, she doesnt totally baby you

she is a little sad that a kid so young got stuck in the digital world, though

even if you could remember things, i dont think she would ask out of fear of possibly upsetting you

likes making you little things (small pillows, plushes, ect) since i can see her being into sewing.. might be because shes a doll, though

KINGER:

i said it once and ill say it again, kinger is dad. like i already hc he had kids before getting stuck in the digital world, but i also like to hc that he and gangle have a dad/kid relationship, at least when kinger was less... paranoid

like he still has the capacity to be a father figure to you, but i think with you being a little... ermrmfl.. he might be a little put off

tells you stories about "being a king" (ie embellishing the one time he was put in charge during an IHA ages ago) and tells you about some previous in house adventures

youre so short he genuinely doesnt see you approaching sometimes so he either gets jumpscared by you or literally trips over you on accident

is so so apologetic once he gets over the initial shock of suddenly meeting the floor

really if you follow this guy around and show interest in his interests hes gonna adopt you

he knows your threats arent empty, even if they arent hes not going to try to find out

ZOOBLE:

zooble seems like the type of person to find some vague amusement in kids swearing or saying out of pocket stuff, i cant explain why

cant teach you swear words thanks to the censoring of the digital world but hey... they can still spell it out...

honestly i hc that zooble themselves doesnt like being touched so hey you dont have to worry about that, they personally get it

cool older sibling energy. while ragatha gives off sweet n caring older sister, zooble gives off the energy of a cool older sibling who like. idfk skateboards or something

zooble skateboarding real

not much else to say here

GANGLE:

similar to pomnis but this is more so because gangle is intimidated by other people thanks to her shyness!

i think gangle would be in the same boat as you and zooble, in terms of touching, but in gangles case its because shes made of ribbon and thus can be pushed around very easily

would cry on the off chance you snap at her :(

she lets you into her room sometimes to let you draw with her! kids like drawing right?

thats her reasoning, at least

i mean hey, it gives you something to do and gives you a break from all the chaos

actually pretty okay when her comedy mask isnt broken, actually makes an attempt to properly get to know you and crack a few jokes

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #digital circus x reader #caine x reader #pomni x reader #jax x reader #ragatha x reader #kinger x reader #zooble x reader #gangle x reader #caine x you #pomni x you #jax x you #ragatha x you #kinger x you #zooble x you #gangle x you

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zeldasnotes · 1 year

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VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE

”There was a whole magnificent soul burning brightly behind her shyness.”

RELATIONSHIPS

•The first experience with love, sex and friendships was most likely painful or just extremely weird. They were definitely hurt early on. This can be something that happened so early that they barely remember it.

•There is some kind of betrayal that happens early in life that made them paranoid and sometimes even obsessive and controlling. This makes them hold on to people to never feel that kind of loss ever again. Most times the first betrayal was from a parent.

•They feel like there is this wall between them and others because they are so deep and so aware of themselves in a way most people arent. Especially when young. They love to dig deep into themselves which most people avoid. This makes them feel very lonely.

•They feel so intensely for their friends and lovers and when young they have a hard time understanding that not everyone feels like them. People might tell them ”You still havent gotten over him?!?” And they be like ”Uh no it was only 10 years ago”

•People were afraid of the sexual energy oozing from them and avoiding them to not be reminded of their own shameful lust. So the blame was put on them. ”You are vulgar” ”You disgust me” ”Dont stand so close to me”. Anything to ignore this lust that the Venus 8th house person made them feel.

•They attract people who can become very obsessive over them and they are obsessive themselves. They want to know the person they love to the core. They cant stand secrets or disloyalty.

•Since the 8th house rules secrets these people have at some point in their lives been somebodys secret. It could have been a partner or a friend who for some reason couldnt go public with them or wasnt allowed to see them. This added to their bad self esteem by making them feel worthless.

•From an early age they knew that something about them made others react strongly. Adults looking at them in a weird way. Being told to not dance like that while they were just dancing like the other kids. Peoples deepest darkest sexual fantasies projected onto them. ”Dont dance like that you are just a kid” but did she dance sexy or was it just the old mans fantasies making him oversexualize her?Doesnt matter they were blamed anyways.

•To not gain these strong uncomfortable reactions from others they often become people pleasers. Hyper aware of their surroundings and how they come across, trying not to do something to awake a strong reaction from anyone.

•In their teenage years something strange happens, same sex friends they grew up with starts acting weird. Puberty. Somewhere along the lines the other girls/boys started noticing the reactions the Venus 8th house person gets from the boys/girls at school. Envy. This changes their relationship to the same sex forever.

TRANSFORMATION

•These people have the gift of transformation. They transform all the time. Their style, persona, body language, face. They change so much that people might not even recognize them after a few years.

•They transform their selfworth since they were taught from a young age that something is wrong with them. When they reach a certain age they start to understand and notice how it wasnt them who was at fault.

•If you tell them something they did or said a few years ago they might get shocked. ”That does not sound like me?”

•The biggest transformations usually come after a breakup or end of a friendship.

•Sometimes they become very sad before a transformation is about to happen. Their bodies need to purge all that enery from the person thats now out of their lives. They could even become sick. There is always a glow up after this.

APPEARANCE

•These people have very mysterious appearances. There is a mystery to them that reminds you of a creature from a scary movie but at the same time an innocence that reminds you of an angel.

•The eyes, lips, nostrils and even ears are extremely beautiful because the 8th house rules endings and the holes on the body but mostly the genitalia. 8th house rules purging and we purge from our holes. Basically their holes are beautiful.

•When young they care A LOT about their appearance and probably have bad self esteem because people overfixated on their looks. They know people are gonna stare so its best to look perfect. Thats why they could experience an obsession with clothes and makeup that later dies completely bc they dont want to be looked at.

•They become better and better with age and their style changes completely. Their style is extremely elegant but at the same time sexy. But not in a revealing way because these people love to hide.

•These people knew they were sexy before they knew what sexy was. They grasped early that something about them made people feel a weird feeling in their presence. This made them feel dirty and wrong so a lot of them hide behind baggy clothes.

•When they reach their 40s they are incredibly captivating. When they have gone through all that transformation and finally found themselves. If you ever met an 8th houser in their 40s you know what i mean. They ooze a confidence and passion that makes the neighbourhood teenage boys drool over their milfy/dilfy neighbour.

#astro notes #astrology #astro observations #astronotes #ascendant #venus 8th house #birth chart readings #astrotidbits #8thhouse

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diaryofaprettyprincess · 2 years

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Wait- what if bimbo reader was actually more of the cold and uptight type. Hyperfem and naive but has walls pushing people away. But by some miracle starts dating yandere!Eddie who burrows himself into her heart until she cant live without him, hes the only one she can trust. Makes her his little baby that only needs Daddy. Always has to hold hands with Eddie or be in his lap to feel safe. Basically bimbofication but reader was always a bimbo at heart, just pretended she wasnt to protect herself

:,)) <333

CW: bimbofication, daddy!eddie, ddlg dynamics, yandere!eddie babies reader, pacifer usage, fluff, crying, dark!eddie, little!reader, littlespace, eddie picks reader up/carries her

you're a top student, but eddie can see past that. you're tired, and you need someone to take care of you because you're so busy takin' care of everyone else. he knows what you need, and even if it takes a little time to get your defenses down, he will succeed.

but !! but !! but!! imagine eddie just plants himself in your subconcious (and heart) so when your feeling upset or sad you just think of him and wanting him to comfort you <//33

he gives you a big hug in the morning before school, taking a deep breath in as he smells your scent, his heart fluttering in his chest.

he starts to do small things to baby you before you begin dating. like for example, trying to force you into your 'little mindset' so you can be open to him caring for you.

at first you were stubborn, "no, eddie i can do it myself!" you would huff, but eddie could hear that little whine in your voice. he knew he was getting somewhere.

he'll call you nicknames like, "baby" on a normal basis, but when he starts calling you "sweetheart, princess, 'my little___"" you begin to feel yourself slip.

even when you begin dating, your walls are still up.

but as you begin to slip further and further, he'll drive you away from your friends saying things to you like, "i'm the only one you can trust, sweetheart,,you don't have to be someone everyone else wants you to be around me." and "they don't understand you like i do, princess. you're my little baby an' you need me to take care of you.."

he can sense your walls starting to crumble but one specific night, everything changes.

you call him, crying.

"a-an' then, she jus' yelled at me! 'm so tired, eds," you whimper, and eddie can feel his heart break, but he also knows that right now is the perfect time.

"poor thing," he murmurs, and you can feel your mind get that familiar fuzziness, except now it's intense. "y'wanna come over, baby? we can watch a movie an' i'll take real good care of you.."

you sniffle, "y-yeah, da--eds, i--- 'm gonna go now, mk?" you slur, and eddie could hear it. he could practically taste the word that is sitting so heavily on your tongue, just begging to fall out.

"m'okay, sweetheart, be careful--i'll see you in a few.."

"m'kay, an' when i get there can we cuddle n' stuff?" he can tell your shy about it, probably fidgeting with the phone chord.

"'f course, princess. we can do anything you want."

you nod, although he can't see it. "m'kay eds, m'gonna go now, okay?"

eddie laughs softly, "yeah, princess, i'll see you soon."

you both say your goodbyes and hang up.

once you get to eddie's he embraces you tightly as you hiccup over sobs into his chest.

he kisses the top of your head before pulling your face back gently with his hands.

you feel so..tiny.

"let's getcha all nice n' cozy m'kay, sweet girl?"

you nod, sniffling as he swipes your tears with the pad of his thumbs gingerly.

he changes you into his Hellfire Club shirt, kissing your forehead once your head pops out of the material.

you giggle when he steals small kisses from you, brushing stray hairs away from your seraphic face.

the night progresses and eventually, he can tell your holding back on calling him what you really wanna call him.

"da--uhm, e-eds can you hold me, please?" your voice is unintentionally higher and whinier than it usually is, so he can tell your really fighting being fully submerged in your 'littlespace' mindset.

he's cradling your head, his body leaning on his bent arm on his bed, his hand cradling your face as he looks at you softly, making your body feel like mush.

"'s okay to call me whatcha wanna call me, sweetheart, i know you want to.." his voice is alluring and kind and gentle and you so badly want to give in but that pesky wall is still there; even if it is about a few inches high at this point.

you whine, your bottom lip trembling as he kisses it to calm you, "can you relax for me, bunny, hm? do as daddy says, he knows what's best for your little head.."

that's what does it.

"d-daddy, wanna cuddle lots tonight.."

your cheeks are red as he praises you softly with, "that's my good girl, my little baby.."

and from that night on, you felt so deeply connected to eddie that you would follow him around everywhere like a little lost puppy (one morning he woke up having to pee, and you felt him remove his arms slowly so then that resulted in you waking up as well. so, you grabbed your teddy bear with heavy, sleepy eyes, holding eddie's hand as you both walked to the bathroom.).

you're always sitting on his lap, and he buys you cute little onesies and pacies and toys to aid your little side.

one night your hair is in cute little pigtails, a pink pacifier in between your pouted lips, your cute little baby blue onesie on (not the ones with the long sleeves and long pants, the ones with the sort of underwear cut that buttons under the crotch and with the short sleeves).

you're playing with your pink bunny eddie got you when he came home one saturday afternoon. eddie's sitting across from you, legs spread open as he fidgets with a little doll he gifted you (this man is constantly spoiling you). he's looking and admiring your child-like happiness, watching you play with your toy as you sit on your haunches.

you crawl into his space, on all fours as your face is right in front of his.

"hi, princess," he coos, and you wrap your arms around his neck, his big hands going to your waist as you hug him. "lub you." you muffle, nuzzling your head into his neck.

he kisses your shoulder, "i love you too, sweet girl."

you let go of him and turn around, lying your head back on his chest, his left arm extended behind him and holding him up, your pink rabbit forgotten as you fidget with his rings.

you twiddle with his hand, rubbing your fingers gently over the calluses on his palm making eddie want to fucking cry.

oh and don't get me started on the fact that when you both are out with like Steve, Nancy, Robin, or something how you literally cling onto him like a koala.

you whimper into his neck when you want his attention on you. you're always sitting on his lap and holding his hand and it's now hard for you to even go to a class where he isn't apart of the roster of students in that period.

when you both come home from school, he takes a bath or shower with you when you mumble out a, "need daddy."

he makes you feel safe, calm, and happy.

he tells you that you don't need to think with your little brain, because daddy'll think for you.

he knows what's best for you and he loves you deeply.

#eddie munson #daddy!eddie #daddy!eddie munson #daddy!eddie munson x little!reader #bimbo!reader #mail 💌#eddie munsonxreader #dark!daddy!eddie munson #note: i didn't check for errors again

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ganondoodle · 7 months

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still thinking about that text post i reblogged bc it articulates so well what some of the bad vibes i got from totk that i couldnt really pin point that well (and still cant put it in my own words lol); botw is all about trying to act out an old legend and it backfires severly, and i SO hoped the sequel would then move forward or try to explore the reason why clam gan could even come back at all (which isnt really done in totk bc tbh as sad as im to say this ganondorf really is kinda just clam gan but he talks now and looks hot, other than his first human appearance he isnt rly humanized in any way, might as well been an evil cloud talking)

botw left me with the intense feeling that now it would move forward, in the present, we must not keep looking at the past as its done now, move and rebuild (hmmmmm windwaker anyone??) together with zelda now and i wanted to see where it would go so badly bc exploring hyrule with zelda as your companion would make room for SO much character interactions and to me it just feels RIGHT, in botw you were seperated for so long and were finally back together with your best friend and one of the only survivors from the main people hit by the calamity at the end, now you tackle the next catastrophy together-

and totk just kinda reverses it all, whoop zelda gone again lol, no no we must look FURTHER into the past and exactly play it all out again, which doesnt just feel repetetive but also like its back-pedaling what botw was themed around bc in botw it went wrong and had to try picking up the pieces and save whats left to save; in totk its like yeah this is the RIGHT way to reenact the past and as a supposed sequel it just feels ... off its like, imagine windwaker ending with you sailing off to search for new lands and let the past rest like the game directly tells you and then theres a sequel where you are back and suddendly are supposed to bring back the old hyrule that was flooded at the end of the previous game actually if totk was that you had to go back to figure out ok how did it end up like this and how do we solve it now in the present so it wont just restart again yEAH!! and while the game may seem like its doing that on the surface .. it really isnt bc turns out how to solve it is just ... kill the evil guy but HARDER and the reason it got this far is ... he was always an evil guy and the only mistake that was made was the divine god king not stabbing him to death immediately

its all so hollow and with all the other stuff i have ranted about its just .. man what happened here

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #very non structured thoughts #again previous post way better #i am not good with words i can only vomit them all up in a fit of overly strong emotions #i wish i knew what it was like when totk was still a DLC #i honestly think it would have been better to let it stay that way

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moonshynecybin · 4 months

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Marc not being with Vale in Austin is fine because Vale crashed anyway and it's been a week since Argentina and Vale is still processing what Marc said (and it's not like they picked each other 100% of the time when things were fineTM, so, anyway)

Marc not picking Vale in Sachsenring, though? After the moment they had in Barcelona? Definitely feels wrong and Vale burns with jealousy (which was Marc's plan all along) (Vale goes out that night and picks up someone and it's the least satisfying one night stand he's had in forever) (and he's fully the one to blame for it)

I think it also shows Vale that Marc is not as desperate as he might have thought (and let's face it, there was obviously something satisfying thinking he had the upper hand there) and it fucks him up a little too

context on this post!! go read it...

see in my brain im thinking marc is enough of an all-or-nothing dichotomous little guy that he DOES choose vale every time he can... idk how that would work out with the rules of podiums but i have been tortured by enough gifsets (wait a minute you made some of those. find them here friends) of his 21 year old self wallpapering his room with valentino merch (and his own merch like he WAS doodling mr marc marquez rossi <3 in all of his notebooks rip king) that i think the first time he chooses anybody else is post ARGENTINAAAAAA 2018. down horrendous. down catastrophic. down so bad we might have to send him to the medical center so they can declare him medically fit to ride anyways. and thats not as fun for jealousy stuff anyways bc by then vale has realllllllly entrenched some narratives in his brain and would simply repress that <3

so!!! this au hath been set in the 2016 season where marc is half agony half hope.... one word from you would silence me forever.... so marc is um. winning a lot, and choosing valentino every time like. please talk to me. and as youve said initially its like i have nothing to say to you!! you betrayed me!! and then as it goes on a gradual thawing and they are having like. intense tender fraught winners room sex the ENTIRE time like insane people. marc fully lowkey like once he unblocks me the wedding is back on... and then as youve said in catalunya vale picks marc and blows his back out and theyre both soooo kind of. tired. of pretending that they dont like this so i think there IS a moment where marc tells a dumb joke and vale laughs (SEX LAUGHERS TILL I DIE) and then his eyes get all soft and marc leans in and its a very sweet kiss and a very sweet moment and they both think. maybe..... marc's breath caught in his chest vale's thumb on his cheek....

but this is rosquez the GOATs of motorsport divorce (no one tell me the brocedes lore shhh) so i think vale makes an offhanded comment in front of marc about picking up or something. maybe talks to uccio and blocks marc's number after he tries to call him afterwards... SOMETHING happens that pisses marc off idk what. and the next time he wins in germany hes like fine. okay. i wont choose valentino he clearly doesnt want me to. so he chooses dovi and they dont fuck but they do let everyone THINK they fucked (dovi is lowkey sad about this. cal crutchlow known marc fucker and p2 this race is despondent that he didnt get chosen.) and vale feels LITERALLY INSANE... sitting at home thinking about marc with dovi... cant get it out of his head....

#me looking at this like how can i make this bronte sisters level toxic and somehow ignore 90% of the premise of the ask. SORRYYYYYYYYY ily #callie speaks #motogp #asks #rosquez #winners room au

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mollyolikeme · 8 days

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Thoughts as I read TSC: A Stream of Conciousness Part Two!

Filthy Spoils!

classic kevin.

LOL keep saying i see how much you bench as if thats an indicator of someones ability to kickass

HA! i always forget about the sixteen hour days shit, i cannot, i find it too fucking funny it's fucking impossible. mfs would be DECEASED. like DEAD.

they are so hardcore this fantastical has me CACKLING every time

like a ken doll!

BLONDE.

ill advised thoughts....

uh oh jean, your crazy is showing.

goddamn. to hate but need. complicated and absolutely screwed up relationship dynamics are fascinating.

okay, i like to rag on our beloved kevin (because its fun and easy) but like props where props are due. i know we didn't get to see his transition from raven to fox but i honestly think the boy would have handled it a lot better than jean jean morose over here. boy isssssss messed up.

foreshadowwwwww SWIM SHORTS!

dangerously low? dangerous for who jean?

do not be slut shaming, lucas. thats fucking gross of you and i'm not even gonna mention the nonconsensual factor...........

oh. my. word. its not funny but i feel the morbid sense to laugh at the ravens dropping like flies.

bad therapist. you cant force it. where is Dobson?

OMG LOL i summoned her!

dont you worry about kevin babe, the foxes got him

thats two hands on chin! thats two!

he's got a big dick! lololololololol boys not tryna be gayyyy

oh the heat! the HEAT! yes jeremyyyyyyyy

fear of water.

what happens when he losses his grip......i want to see you lose control......... hi familiar phrasing and trauma, i ADORE you.

in my head, jean has a very french tsk of his tongue reaction to almost everything people do around him.

yesssss the foxes ARE synchronized.

you tell him jeremy! none of his raven intentionally injuring people bullshit

omg were gonna get a little kevin trip to cali! reunion of the abused buds! (again gotta take the morbid hilarity into account for my health)

LOL wheel throwing! Patrick Swayze where are you?!

not the self flagellating notebooks he kept.....

oooooo intense. it all comes to the surface. the truth will always come out.

this is clever, gives just enough info about the ravens without explaining the crime side of things. go nora.

okay damn lucas.... issues buddy. dont be comin after jean jean. you'll regret it.

chin grab number 3! this time by jeremy 🤩

omg cuuuuuuuute little motorcycle ride and seashell gifty

again. uh oh jean. your crazy is showing to the coaches now. this truth is really spilling out the cracks

pause.......... guys my sanity........ my INsanity upon reading this........... im losin it! ......... okay resume.

morbid laughing morbid laughing morbid laughing fuck fuck fuck

yo. to somehow make me feel like neilio's story is a positive tale................

wow lucas. doubling down are we. his character does have a very difficult truth to come to terms with. its fuckin rough and a hella interesting arc.

you should call dobsonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

OH SHIT! neil's here! Thats not good news for you jean!

fy faen neil. you're kind of a gangster babe!

oh. dead sister. so sad. (typing it out like that looks sarcastic. It's not.)

yaaaaasssss thats the smart mouth we know and love! telling an agent he parked illegally!!! ahhhhh lolololololoolol

OMG Neil!!!! sweetheart! you care so much! awwwwwwwww wow nora seriously, what. a. treat! he cares about his buddy jean.

jeremy...... you got it so bad hun. always with the 'what do you need?' like just promise yourself to him forever and ever.

CHIN!!!!!!!!!! FOUR TIMES NOW.

woah Jer.

i like that jean actually doesn't like exy. such a good contrast to neils pov obsession.

im curious where this whole 'its not freedom its a pretty cage' thing is gonna go. like, yea i dont think you'll ever be 'free' free jean. but honestly this is pretty damn close. professional athletes lives are very straight forward. and if youre that good, fuckin easy.

#tsc spoilers #the sunshine court spoilers #jean moreau #jeremy knox #tsc #the sunshine court

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partylikemajima · 8 months

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I'm reading Wool and I'm starting to see points the book has done way better than the show. And vice versa. Mind you I'm not half way yet but at the part where Jules is sheriff.

❗️Spoilers for the show and Wool Book 1:

Like the depths of Marnes's and Jahns's relationship is shown more in the book and means more.

The way Lukas is shown in the book is so much more intimidating and interesting than in the show.

Also the generator repair was a different kind of intense in the books than the show. In the book its a silent, people holding their breathe, a few days deadline type of intense. The show was hold your hair hoping nobody gets their head chopped off intense. I like both.

I like they played up the mystery of Benard for the show, also him being a tall person added to his sense of a helpful nice guy but actually he isnt. In the books from the get go you can tell he knows so much shit you cant fathom and every character feels it.

Shirley has a husband?? I really like her in the show, not read much of her in the book.

The book really makes you feel how difficult it can be to travel up and down the silo, how tedious and labor intensive it is.

Theres more 'outside' screens.

Holston's death in the book is so heart-wrenching. Like in the show its very sad, but in the book? We get to read exactly what he went through and what happened and I felt like crying omg.

Hardly anyone watches the cleanings unlike the show. Though theres a party afterwards as a relief they weren't chosen to go outside (so odd never occured to me that they end up choosing someone to go out, like i think the sheriff chooses out of people with a really bad record? Holston mentions something like finding someone to clean cause of the sensors blurring.)

Also Allison talks to Holston calmly about her suspicions before the whole scene in the cafeteria.

There's no birth control scene of her taking it out, its just she runs from the computer to the cafeteria begging to go out.

George isn't a main character, just a past Jules finds hard to talk about to herself, a lover she lost. (Idk if theres actual conspiracy in the book like the show, but so far its just case closed thing she doesn't suspect any foul play).

Marnes WANTED Jules to be sheriff. Benard did not.

I will say I've been finding it hard to get into new stories lately but since I watched Silo, imagining it in my head helped a lot with reading the book so far cause I already have the scenery. I always imagine the scenes in my head for reading but sometimes its hard to grasp with stories new to me. This was almost seamless for me. Great writing.

#silo apple tv #silo series #wool hugh howey #hugh howey #silo #silo spoilers

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helloo i just read our inferno and i love it!! i just saw your # saying nobody said anything about it and that you weren't sure if anyone has read it so im here to assure you that it's been read and loved🫡🫡 i wasnt expecting it to go the way it did when i first started reading it (dont wanna spoil it for those who havent read it but shite got intense after the car scene, i was expecting romance i guess) but nevertheless i loved how things ended up there!

i'm new to the concept tho, you said something about this being haechan's version so it will be haechan's version for all other chapters (idk how many it'll have) right? also super excited for the next one <3

HI ANON OMG :( was not expecting this AT ALL and i cant tell you how much i appreciate you reaching out!! and im so glad it was a turn of event even with the warnings and whatnot stated LMAO BUT IM SO GLAD YOU LOVED IT :(((

so basically, this work was meant for hyunjae, so he's the original muse! i replaced all the names in his version to make a haechan/nct dream based version so my work reaches a bigger audience!! all chapters for haechan will be released a week after i drop hyunjae's chapter, so they're both basically being updated at the same pace!

its such a large series that im assuming we'll potentially hit 100k words total since the first chapter was almost 20k and im not even halfway into the first section of the entire plot (and there's 6 total sections...), but yes haechan will have the full story!! if i discontinue haechan's version, its bc i gave up on the original bc its such a big project 💀 i am very passionate about it though and to have people like you who reach out and show their appreciation is what really keeps me going, so thank you so much for doing this again :(

if you thought the first chapter was a wild ride, i can Confirm that the second chapter is just as insane, perhaps even worse?! im excited to write it and have yall experience it :(( this is a completely new kind of genre, writing style, and everything else for me so i hold this series so close to my heart AAAA it makes me so happy to see this i hope you can see how passionate i am about inferno 😭 thank you so much for supporting and i hope you stay around 🫶 and my inbox is always open! i need more dreamzen moots I SWEAR i get so sad knowing i have almost zero to none :(

thank you again! stuff like these always motivate so many writers to stay on this hellhole of a platform, and i really really appreciate you reaching out and taking some time to send me this :(( biggest hugs!!

#inbox: anon!#so giddy knowing theres a few who have been receptive to hyuck inferno and enjoyed it!!#i put my heart and SOUL in that chapter esp bc it was my first time with smut

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long post of me Thinking Aloud about the way i ship bushmedicine and how i personally write them in my fic series, which you can read here.

lots under the cut!

i have a really specific kind of story i’m trying to tell.. i think you’re supposed to not only relate to sniper, but also be frustrated by him too! like "augghh why cant he just let himself have a little love!!" ykwim…!! its supposed to feel sweet but also melancholy…

medic is being delicate with sniper not because he’s smothering himself (because that goes against his own “code”), but he’s coming to terms with the fact that he Wants to be sensitive to the needs of someone else, even when it’s complex and not something he knows how to do right away. he's fine with (eager to, in fact) putting time into learning sniper. it's fun for him, surprisingly!

i think both medic and sniper are people who are frequently wrapped up in other aspects of their lives (professions, hobbies) that finding A Partner in the midst of that is either something that he doesn’t feel like he deserves (sniper) or is something he swore he never wanted (medic).

medic is a healer. he’s a healer because that’s what he wants to be (although he prefers to do the Hurting! hehe) and not because anyone told him he should be or because he had some Higher Calling To Help The Sick. he operates on the basis of “i do not walk to the world, the world walks to Me” (imo this suits healers more than the stupid “healslut” trope lol but anyway). he knows his worth and has no problem asserting his place in the world, taking up space that is his right to take up!

sniper on the other hand, isn’t meek or even shy, really, but is always warpped up on having to “earn” everything. has to earn putting creamer in his coffee has to earn a long shower etc, it’s how he was raised. in my fics i talk about his struggle with feelings (“y’know who’s got a lot of feelin’s” <- uhhh. you!) and how he feels them and if he has the “right” to feel what he does.

so when medic says/hints to sniper “you are alive becuase i wanted you to be. i WILLED it because i WANTED it”, sniper absolutely does NOT know how to deal with someone feeling so intensely about him or his life in general, especially not someone who he didn’t really.. know. this calls into question his feelings of Worthiness and what, or why, medic is doing, being so sweet on him anyway! he didn’t do anything to Deserve It!

but to medic, sniper doesn’t Need to do anything To deserve it. it was mutually beneficial for him to do at the time (to prove he could and to revive his teammate); the revival was the catalyst that brought them together, but not the thing that makes them fall in love. they do that all on their own, much to their mutual surprise. it’s not Fate, its not Soul Mates, it’s just… them. together. in sync, understanding one another and finding peace within each other.

in another vein, i think silent envy is a characteristic for sniper that is easily applicable to his character. not that he’d take it out on the subject of his jealousy, but it adds onto this Complex Melancholy that hangs over him like a sad little raincloud….

medic feels freely and does whatever he wants whenever he wants and he’ll be polite and be nice to others of course, he also doesn’t feel like he should change any part of himself for others. Sniper’s envious of this, wishes he could just feel things and move on immediately and not be constantly feeling like he has to do things to please others (his parents… or what he himself Thinks he wants).

both of them have lived In Their Ways their entire lives and these ways have been what has kept them alive, so both of them see it as “well if it’s not broke don’t fix it”, but when they start having these Feelings for each other they realize no, it’s not Broken, but what’s wrong with a little fine-tuning? a little give and take. push and pull.

these kinds of things can be very hard for medic and sniper specifically bc i don’t think either of them are quick to hand out apologies or admit when they’re wrong (sniper is a sore loser and medic just does everything with Conviction so he usually genuinely doesn’t ever think he’s wrong), and grappling with not only the Desire to change, but to do so because you care about the person you have feelings for, not out of professional necessity or because something about you is Fucked Up. some change IS good and can make you a better person for it, too!

i also use food as a metaphor for hunger. hunger as in, romantic, sexual. drive and desire like a base need, like instinct, something within our blood and our biology that says ‘i need this. if i don’t get this, i don’t know what i’ll do.’ feeling that Pull for a person for the first time... knowing that hunger and nurturing it, not feeling ashamed for your desire or your Instinct to feel those feelings. Feeling them because they’re a part of you and, when you let yourself, you Love that part of you.

speaking about Overindulgence like it’s a fear; “be careful! if you feel those feelings too much, that’s Bad!” the fear of Being Bad to the point where you’ve done your damndest to wall off Feeling Feelings at all because you can’t imagine anything worse than being “bad”…. or being Unprofessional. :-) Unbecoming. some kind of Faceless Beast that your loved ones always cautioned against. and now look at you! you’re mad with love and you hate it. but you don’t want to hate it. you want to feel your feelings and revel in them, crush your jaws around the person that’s giving you those feelings and feeding that hunger, want to keep them there so that they’ll never leave. it’s scary to think about how badly you want it, isn’t it? best to not think about that plover bird that sits in your jaws it all, then, isn’t it, hungry crocodile?

to me, the apricot is the perfect fruit for sniper in this metaphor. obviously “the apricot” inside of the body where sniper’s aim for is a super cute reference that i think medic also gets a kick out of (morbid humor that ties them together in a more flirty chemistry kind of way). the apricot is a stone fruit, soft on the outside but hard at its core. easily bruised despite its hardness. i think sniper sees himself as something similar, but is actually the opposite. i think he’s hard around the edges, tough, but inside he’s quite sensitive, and he resents that sensitivity and softness.

in my writing, the apricot serves as a symbol of his profession (the spot sniper’s aim for where the head connects to the neck) And as the person he truly thinks he is. he’s convinced he’s bitter and hard at his core, which wouldn’t be such a bad thing to be if it was what he really was. but no, he’s soft, actually, and in the hands of someone who won’t bruise you, being such isn’t really so bad. maybe it’s a good thing, even. something to be cherished, instead of a flaw, like he’d been told all his life that softness was.

the readers haven’t gotten to medic’s fruit yet! :-) but i’m excited to elaborate more on it when i post the rest of my fics. there’s no sense in talking too far in advance before i’ve even published the fics i’m talking about, hehe! but medic’s perspective and take on all of this will become more prominent soon, so >:) stay tuned!! HEHEHE

#i want to talk about SOOO MUCH MORE but im trying to keep things vague in purpose AKSDFKASDKF #litcherally nobody asked And Yet... i post my thoughtse anyway >:)#bushmedicine #thou giveth fever #dutchiehcs #dutchfoolery #medsnip

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ineffeblygay · 8 months

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Does anybody else just lay in bed when they can’t sleep and just have a mild (severe) crisis about their gender identity and sexuality because for the motherfucking life of them, they can’t decide what they want to identify as- like they’ll just be laying there, and they’ll be thinking: ✨women✨, ohhh but non-binary people, BUT THAT ONE MAN- that one fucking man who doesn’t even fucking like you and looks like sewage and makes you cry and shouldn’t even be mentioned in this fucking post - fuck him - or that one male celebrity that makes you question your entire life or that one female celebrity that has you on your knees, or that one tiktoker who’s gender you just want to steal because it’s just so GENDER- like HOW?? How is it so perfect? It’s the perfect perfectness of perfect. It’s sugar and spice and everything nice. But then you remember you can’t steal gender, and you can’t wear your hair like them, or change your name like them, because you don’t look like them and their name doesn’t feel right and so you *cant* steal their gender and you have to find your own and so you try to find your own and you realize you have no fucking clue what the fuck your gender is and you sit there thinking: WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY GENDER- SOME BITCH TOOK IT FROM ME IN THE FUCKING 5TH GRADE AND WON’T GIVE IT BACKKK AND I WANT IT BACK *intense wailing*

and then you realize you’ve been using they/them pronouns this entire post and you don’t know if you did that because it was a “hey does anyone else do this” post or because you were referring to yourself and you’ve gotten so used to those pronouns that you automatically used them for yourself, and then you realize that whenever someone calls you your birth name - especially someone who knows your nickname/chosen name - you feel this pit of darkness and sadness inside of you, like the world is ending but not on the outside, on the inside: inside of *you*. And it used to be FINE when people called you it but it’s becoming less and less fine and it hurts more and more and it’s starting to hurt even when people who don’t know the chosen name do it- which is crazy because like *what the fuck* and then you have another crisis because you don’t even know if you LIKE your chosen name because it’s “cringe” and “basic” and all that other shit but you can’t do anything else because you want it to sound similar to your birth name, for whatever FUCKING REASON? and you also want it to be totally different? And you don’t want people to hate you and think you’re an attention seeking slut who’s faking all this because they just can’t live without being under the spot light, but maybe- just maybe - the truth is, I may want the light off me. The light has been on me for YEARS, and by god, it burns. It burns and I want it off. I want my sense of self and my identity and my friends all to myself in a little corner, away from the big bright spotlight of everyone - because the spotlight burns and sizzles and shoots rays of judgment and bigotry and hatred and mean-ness and bullies and assholes and just A BUNCH OF FUCKING DICKS-

Everyone will tell you that you need to “pick one” or “choose a label” and FOR FUCKS SAKE, all you want is to just find a label, anything, to just identify with so you can tell people and click with them so you can feel safe and at home - because WOW, god knows your actual house isn’t “home”, and so you spend all your time looking for your home away from home till the point where your so burnt out with extracurriculars that you’re sitting there, sobbing, saying you want to go home, and then you realize you can’t go home because home isn’t safe either so you can either hide from your problems with your friends - that you now apparently have (weird, I know, scary shit), or you can go home and face all that bullshit.

And so you have the problem that your sister is quite possibly insane and she gets dangerously angry every day, to the point where sometimes you fear for your own life; you have the problem that your father has anger issues the size of the Roman Empire (when it was still kicking) and chooses your ass as a scapegoat; you have the issue that your mother is emotionally immature and though she’s trying, she’s struggling a lot and isn’t able to help you much because she has too much of her own shit going on to support her child; you have the fact that you are literally having a genuine, full blown, identity crisis at FUCKING FIFTEEN; you have the fact that you’re chronically ill and keep getting sick or injured and your doctors refuse to help you at all and you’re hurting and you’re in pain and you want it to stop- you want to be normal, you want to run through a field of flowers with your best friend and laugh at the top of your lungs, you want to SCREAM, you want to exist in all your neurodivergent joy without being told you need a cure for your autism or that your ADHD is too disruptive.

you have the fact that *all of this is a lot* and the antidepressants aren’t anti-depressing like they should and it’s not like you want to kill yourself - no no, they help with that part - it’s just: you’re so fucking *busy*. Your mind is busy, your life is busy, everything is busy. And you’re fine, really. You’re okay. You’re just- tired.

No. . No one else? Just me? Alrighty then-

#how the fuck do I tag just a big ass callout to MYSELF #gender #gender identity #non binary #transgender #this is a cry for help #gay. I’m gay. that’s all I know #queer #bisexual?#i dont fucking know #would it make me a pick me if I added a parents and a trauma tag-#2:30am

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icallhimjoey · 1 year

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I don’t really have the emotional strength or lucidity to do this right now but here we go. It should be illegal to be this effortlessly talented. Love you are a living source of inspiration for me, I always look forward to see your lovely username appear on my screen, I simply can’t get enough of you. Your words never leave me unsatisfied, I’m always left with an intense longing for love and warm fuzzy feelings inside my chest. (Even if it’s the saddest shit you could come up with) More people should adopt your philosophy, writing what you know is something that every beginning writer or not should do, there’s nothing more beautiful than real pains and emotions. I’m clearly repeating myself but the content you write is so damn relatable that I often feel myself slipping in their reality. It wasn’t really hard picturing them sprawled out on that pristine new carpet while emotionally gutting each other with a full glass of wine in hand. Their laughs fluctuating in the air trying to touch the ceilings, all while leaving a sad aftertaste in their mouths. The tenderness of it all made my heart ache. ~I know it’s sad and a bit pathetic but sometimes, when my insomnia is at its strongest I take a moment to myself, in my heart I know that it won’t work and I’ll be feeling even more miserable than before but I just can’t help it. I dim all the lights in my room and then lay down on my bed trying to make little noise, I wrap in my duvet while I slowly reach under my pillow to find my other hand, squeezing gently. Sometimes I weep but it’s pathetic enough as it is. I lull myself to sleep wishing to have someone holding my other hand under the cool side of the pillow. So yeah, big art imitates life at the end of the chapter, HUGE reality check for me tonight.~ And please if I’m too much just tell me to shut up, I tend to ramble a little to close to the sun sometimes.

Please take all the time you need to write the next chapter, don’t forget to take some breaks to clear your head, if you want to talk about everything and nothing I’m always here, goodnight love. Have a wonderful day tomorrow! #write what you know is becoming something so personal to me ahhh #soft joey for the win

the way that you write these comments, i cant describe what they do to me????? thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, you're the nicest <33333

#in 120 hours

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Im a Bit curious about who your favorite characters are from the fandoms your writing for (also love your taste in kpop)

PS: k-drama recommendation

- Strong Woman Do Bong Soon

- Until we meet again (it's thai but still good)

- The sadness (Korean film)

- How may I help you

- Mouse

- Lovenest

- Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok-joo

- Style (from 2009)

Ohoohoo~ anon you fell into my trap I love ranting about my faves also thank you(x3) for the recs Strong Woman Do Bong Soon is one of my favorite kdramas and Park Boyoung is like my third favorite actress so I already know your taste is good without having seen anything else also putting my faves below the cut because only god himself can stop me now. (I promise I will try to keep this short and sweet)

Warnings: spoilers for some series, cursing, bit of sus wording and thoughts yknow

Stardew Valley

Sebastian (Sebby/Seb/Loml)

Can you tell that I'm a sucker for grumpy bf x sunshine gf tropes????

Honestly along with the reader insert fic in gonna write(lets hope I finish it) I wanna write maybe a Seb x OC or something idkidk

Of the bachelorettes Penny is my favorite bc shes lowkey me (I sometimes teach kids and I want to have a bunch of them love housewife vibes)

In ridgeside so far Phillip is my favorite mostly bc I don't know the others that well amd im only gifting 6 people at a time and he just so happened to get picked he's so cute I love it when people are passionate about something

In Stardew Valley Extended Victor is the loml like yeah he's a rich guy but he also seems like a huge nerd and I love him

Also Claire(the joja mart girl) my tired queen plus

Also in terms of the kids Yuuma>Jas>Vincent>Trinnie>Keahi

Mystic Messenger

At first I was a Zen girl

Then I was a Yoosung girl

Then I was a Jaehee girl

Then I was a Jumin girl

And now I'm in my final form as a Saeyoung girl

I love him so much my man my man

I played this game for MONTHS like I was at school pulling my phone out to hurry through a chat room so i didn't miss anything

Was waking up in the middle of the night

The chokehold these men had on my PLS

Five Nights At Freddy's

Ok so at first i hated this game bc im a crybaby and it scared me so bad

Also bc I had an intense fear of animatronics and people in the mascot suits as a kid after going to chuck e cheese and being terrified of the things om stage and then getting stuck in a ride its a whole thing omfg

But then security breach came out and I was like oh? Why'd they make the animatronics sexy????? So like the first couple of games I dont have a favorite(except i think Chica is ugly dont hate me) bc like theyre kid souls but since the sb animatronics arent ghost kids indo have a favorite

Which is Monty

I love him he is my gator man<3333 also justice for Foxy I know he would've been cute af.

Dead By Daylight

Killerwise Ghostface is my favorite

And I know its a basic bitch answer but omfg that man could be the cause of my demise and I would say thank you

Also Oni is cool

Also trickster is cute

Womanwise for killer the Artist is my favorite shes so pretty I love her

I hate specifically wesker and the twins I feel like i needed to add this BC I hate them so much also Freddy kreuger but like thats obvious bc its included in my rules

Survivors I love are Leon(again basic bitch answer) Jake Park, Dwight, and theres more but i cant remember r n

For women its Nea(I main her), Meg, Ada, Kate, Elodie, again theres more but I cant remember and my brain is hurting

I do not like feng min or whatsherface the kpop manager lady bc of how people play them

Twilight

Team Edward or Jacob?

I am an Emmett girl

I am also a Seth girl

They have been the loves of my life since the movies came out

When I read the books I liked Carlisle the most <3

Honestly twilight making a comeback was the best tike for me bc of all the new content people were making

I love the series pls

Also again Womanwise Rosalie is the loml

Also alice

Also Esme

Also Leah

Pls the women are so amazing

Harry Potter

Also lemme preface this by saying I do not agree with jkr or anything she has been saying

But I did get into this fandom a couple years ago when i was in high school because of a friend

And I do still love the series but now I only consume fanmade things

That being said Remis Lupin has my heart

Also Fred and George

And Cedric

And if anyone wanted to know my house I am a Hufflepuff<3

The Outsiders

Through and through I am a Dallas girl

Can yall tell my type yet?

When reading the book I was also a Johnny girl and I literally wanted the best for him and was so mad When he DID NOT GET IT

Now that I'm older that entire situation is bullshit

Like as a 22 year old that still lives with her family the thought of having to take care of myself plus younger siblings with no help and also have the house where everyone hangs out stresses me out

Like I love my little sister but i am so glad my parents have raised us to have and keep jobs even if we hate it bc I know she would help me with everything

Like I know Soda helped as much as he could but GOD bad situation for everyone

Johnny did not deserve the ending he got

The Walking Dead

Okay so lemme just say that I am into dilfs this is a dilf loving safe space idc

Rick can get it and him being lowkey insane is attractive (do not be like me pls)

Love his long hair

Also had a crush on Carl when he was in the show (he is a year older than me im not a creep)

I have not gotten to later seasons so maybe there are still cute people idk i need to re watch

I also hated Lori and Shane with a passion

I still do

I cannot imagine hooking up with my husbands friend of my friends husband or whateverbskkakslal

I will rant on and on about this it genuinely makes me mad

I do however love Maggie and Peggy(is this her name? The sister?) We love country girls

I am a Michonne simp through and through

I am a simple lady

Cool woman with sword? Count me in

Once Upon A Time

Though I hate Regina I find her so attractive its not even funny

When I was younger i had a huge crush on Peter Pan

Now rewatching I am a Captain Hook Simp

Also Mad Hatter

Also Ruby

Also Graham in season 1 if anyone remembers him

Gawd these men

Ruby number 1 IDC IDC

Also Mulan

PLEASE

I have also not gotten super far in this show

Marvel

I'm gonna just list my favorites bc like I already feel super exposed and im writing all of this in one go bc I am so excited to share but my phone is broken

So number one is Steve im so mad he went back to Peggy but at the same time he deserves happiness

Number two Bucky again im a basic girl and tragic men attract me idk

Peter loml so cute also the only spiderman movies ive seen dont kill me

Wanda love her still have not seen Multiverse of madness last thing i watched is wandavison

Loved pietro

Thor my bb

I cannot think of any more

Doctor Who

I guess this one is going to be different because I have only seen new who and I do not dislike any doctor at all so i guess imma just rank them

9th(watched his season twice once when I was younger and was just getting into the show and then once a couple years ago when I committed to watching the show)

11th

10th

12th

13th(I do not hate her I am just new to her bc I am still on her first season since i procrastinate to make the series last longer)

Then i guess I'll rank the companions bc again I dont really dislike anyone

Martha(best girl i love her so much)

Donna

Amy

Clara

Bill

Yasmine

River(literally going to name a kid River bc of how much i like the name)

Graham

Rose

Jack

Ryan

Nardole

Rory

Mickey

Criminal Minds

Spencer Reid

I have had a crush on this man since 2005

Since I was FOUR YEARS OLD

The first time i saw him I fell in love

No one will compare to my love

Hotch is a close second I do love my dom daddy(I am so sorry for saying this)

Penelope is also my love but in a platonic i would kill someone for her kind of way

Also Emily

White Lotus

Okay so lemme start by saying

Season 2 >season 1

The only people i like im season 1 are Tanya and Belinda

Everyone else are kind of dislikeable

Well the rich guys wife is fine but shes not my favorite

Season 2 however i like like half of the characters

Obviously Tanya is on the list bc she is so funny

But Ethan is my favorite especially later in the season bc again guys like that are my thing

Also Harper but mainly bc of Aubrey

Then Daphne is the loml and she deserves better

And Lucia my bb

And Valentina

And Albie even if he seems like a "nice guy"

Love these characters

WE HATE GREG IN THIS HOUSE

Ouran High School Host Club

Takashi Morinozuka has my entire heart love this man

Honey is just me but male

And Haruhi loml pls shes so cute but also she tries to be the best person I love her

Also Kasanoda(and in the manga the girl he ends up with is kinda cool)

This again should also just be a ranking bc i love all the characters but im gonna limit myself

Kuroshitsuji

Again imma give a basic bitch answer and say Sebastian

I know hes a demon

I know he would hate me bc duh

But pls sir

Give me one chance

Also the undertaker

Also Agni

Also snake and joker

Grelle would be my platonic soulmate shes so funny

I also would like to protect Ciel(not the twin like not the real ciel or whatever I mean our ciel)

Like I understand that he basically siccs his demon on people and had them killed

But at the same time in my eyes he is literally just a traumatized little boy and i feel so bad for him

I know hes fictional but if i could change what happened to him i would

Finny is baby

I have typed for too long pls

Also thank you for asking this<3 feel free to ask other things and request stuff!!

#stardew valley #kuroshitsuji #ouran high school host club #the outsiders #the white lotus #once upon a time #twilight #harry potter #criminal minds #doctor who #mcu #dead by deadlight #the walking dead #five nights at freddy's #security breach #mystic messager #im so sorry #my type is so obvious this is embarassing

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ratllu · 2 years

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obscure tips n tricks- touch starvation!

though we talk about touch starvation flippantly, it’s actually a pretty big deal, for everyone ofc, but ESPECIALLY for those who are dealing with stress, mental illness, and any other ailment that signals the release of cortisol, which is the stress hormone. physical touch (not just sensual/romantic!!) triggers oxytocin, serotonin, and dopamine, which are all the happy chemicals!! because many forms of mental illness are directly correlated to these specific chemicals, it makes it all the more important. what’s also interesting is that you brain recognizes this. Touch not only triggers the happy chemicals, but it’s also been shown to lower blood pressure, alleviate physical pain, and benefit the immune system????? gnarly amiright.

that being said, not everyone likes being touched, specifically nuerodiverse people or those who are dealing with PTSD, anxiety, all that stuff. if u dont like physical contact or it just isnt available for u, then here are some things ive used that have helped me :)

1. if you have a backpack, put it on. the heavier the better. ugh this is one of my favorites. I can’t tell you for sure why this works, but there’s something about the weight and the pressure of it that’s just so. relieving. i dont walk around because ive got weak ass shoulders, but to just chill and hang out while wearing a backpack is really nice. one way that’s especially comfy is wearing the backpack backwards (like. where the bag part of the backpack is on your chest yk? im sure u get it) and then lay down like this.

those weighted blankets can be expensive, so if u dont have one, this is a lovely alternative :)

2. ROLL??? im dead serious about this bro just trust me: roll around on the ground. first of all, it’s so ridiculous that you just cant help but laugh. like what. just rolling? around? it’s especially funny when you’re sad because the visual of someone so isolated that they just roll around miserably is. it’s hilarious. BUT there’s more to it. not only is it loosely similar to certain self-soothing motions, when u roll around, it’s like. man. nvm. im not even gonna try to explain this. source: trust me bro

ALSO, there’s another thing that’s nice where you curl up into a ball, wrap your arms around yourself, and then rock around, which is equally effective for me. bonus points if you do both of these activities while wrapped in a blanket

3. loud music, but specifically the ones that make houses shake. like the ones where the bass is just off the walls insane and your pictures are falling off your dresser from the sheer intensity of the sound. if you’ve ever been to a loud concert with lots of bass boosting, it’s like you can feel the music in your heart but not in a metaphorical way– where you can feel it in your sternum. listen to that. the pressure of the bmmmmmm and euphoria of a groovy song is unparalleled.

4. brushing your hair or giving yourself a scalp massage. it feels nice! it’s also really good for your hair because it stimulates blood flow to your follicles. this one isnt obscure but it sure as hell works, ill tell you that.

find what self soothing gesture you enjoy the most. i cant really instruct you on how to self soothe, because the way i self soothe is. yk. for myself! one thing i like to do is rub/massage my hands, and my friend likes to caress their arms. just pamper yourself a little bit and indulge in a comforting gesture that brings you joy.

5. adrenaline rushes. this one is less gentle and it probably wont work for everyone, but personally, adrenaline rushes make me feel more grounded and stable, which doesnt really relieve touch starvation, but it helps me cope better with it. dont do anything stupid tho. not only because getting hurt rn is NOT what you need rn, but also because i dont wanna be liable for u morons. i dont want you guys to be like “okay now that im done rolling around im gonna do an olympic style sprint into oncoming traffic. red said it was okay!” NO dont do that. watch a horror movie or something fucker

6. core workouts- situps in particular are great :)

7. LAUGH!!!!!! this one isnt specifically for touch starvation, but more for a buildup of cortisol. i cant stress enough how great this one is. if youre in need of a laugh visit my page because im hilarious. curing touch starvation one tumblr user at a time

alright thats all ive got for you today. it’s important to remember that it isn’t lame or weird or anything. theres nothing wrong with craving contact. it’s normal- nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed about. it’s a beautifully human thing to long for the love of another so wholly and intensely that it’s unbearably painful. i’m not as much of an expert on this topic, but i digress! oh also pets. ofc. here are some articles that i found that discuss this :).

@lucisadventures

#touch starvation #im so touch starved #advice #adhd #autism #nuerodivergent #depression #quarentine #alternative solutions #feeling lonely #fear not dearest hellsite inhabitants

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obscenity · 2 years

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⛧ ; hiihi

thank you for your response, again! do you have any favorite things about being schizoid or ones that you consider positive?

also, do have any views on szpd in the sense of it being a disorder and all that? i find it interesting because it's technically considered among the Serious Mental IllnessesTM and personality disorders (the latter of which makes sense but i wouldn't be surprised if people with other pds find it much harder to deal with theirs) but i don't really perceive my experiences as.... suffering? ill? or the like? perhaps it's because some other pds tend to come with intense emotions and i'm just. dissociated all the time pfff. the way i am feels normal to me, even if neurotypicals would consider schizoids very confusing or hard to understand or abnormal in general. though then again i have this sorta mindset that suffering and pain = negative emotions that are felt, like sadness or anger. not Nothing. emptiness isn't negative if you compare it to feeling upset. sure, there's supposed to be fullness, perhaps, but i don't view it that way aha. but regardless it's funny when you're neurodivergent with little awareness about others no matter what your neurodivergence is, because i can't comprehend neurotypicals are unlike me and that i'm supposed to be the weird one. i've always called them aliens instead aha. i'm perfectly normal To Me, so what're the weirdo neurotypicals on about? (/joke but also i do think that way.) i figure it's just interesting to think about.

hiiiiii again sorry it took me so long to answer this time ive been busy being insane (playing tower of fantasy)

anyways . for me it really depends on the day. sometimes i have a lot of fun just reveling in my space and existing with entirely 0 responsibilities and obligations from other people. its very nice. i like to imagine a future in which i continue to exist as i am now (doing absolutely nothing. at least for another 2 weeks before i have 2 start college) and i dont find myself upset by it. i dont find myself being sad or feeling lonely if i continue living in my own little world where no one is ever allowed in. im not overly upset at the possibility i might just be single for the rest of my life. im content to coast through life feeling very little. though like i said, it depends on the day. sometimes i get really mad at myself (im angry more often than sad) and wonder why i cant just be "normal". and why its so hard for me to just talk to people. its an uphill battle just to remain in peoples lives. its very difficult for me because i rarely, if ever, am the one to reach out first or message people first. i just dont, im often not thinking about other people for long enough to want to text first. which obviously means most other people take this as a sign of me not being interested. which isnt always the case with me. i just dont like being the person to do it. im terrible at putting effort into relationships because it just feels so ... hard. and not worth the fight to keep someone in my life. i often think things like "if they really wanted to stay, they would have" when i drift apart from people. of course i know relationships have to go both ways, realistically i know one person cant just always put in the effort. but the little schizoid devil that sits on my shoulder tells me otherwise. (if you were wondering the angel would also be the schizoid. ie the euphoria of cancelling plans and avoiding social situations)

i do consider it a disorder (because my nothing is in equal parts enjoyable as it is suffering) but youre right in that it just does feel very normal to me. ill probably never go to therapy for it, as its not something thats so debilitating to me that i need "fixed". theres nothing to really fix, i think this is just how i am. im not really interested in putting allthe effort in to make myself "normal" when i have no problem with myself in the first place. and i dont really consider myself abnormal, i dont really care honestly. i dont care if people think im a creep... or that im a weirdo.... or a freakazoid or whatever. im too busy having a superiority complex anyways

#i think i got a little off track on this one mybad .#asks #⛧ anon #long post

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