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piplupod · 2 months

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thinking abt the previous post, the agency i worked at for a couple years would use bits of ABA and I just... I always nodded along to the boss instructing me on how to work with the kids with those tactics (I worked with the kids who were 6 and under) and then as soon as she left I tossed all that shit out of my brain and just treated the kid like a human being and worked with them where they were at.

and guess what !!! i had the most and fastest success out of every other worker in the entire building!! i was often told it seemed like i was working miracles with my kids bc they'd just progress so fast (comparatively) through the skill book we had to work on, and that the kids always seemed so happy and eager to come to the building after they started working with me!!

this is partially why I quit because I couldn't stand seeing my coworkers treat the kids like they were dogs (talking down to them, being patronizing, and utilizing shitty ABA tactics) and as much good as I was doing there, it was fucking me up bc they were extremely demanding that I work more than I was comfortable (or able) to, and often put me with "problem" kids who I didn't get to regularly see so we couldn't make much progress bc the kids weren't able to get to know me and (rightfully!) didn't trust me because they thought I'd be treating them the way everyone else did.

i just...... my coworkers would ask me how I had so much success and I would just shrug and say like, "just treat them like they're human and work with them where they're at" and I couldn't explain any more bc that'd require me admitting I wasn't following the boss' guidance for a lot of shit fjfkdl

#i had kids who didn't like talking suddenly become chatterboxes bc they actually felt safe and listened to for once !!!#(and ofc some kids just didnt like talking and that was okay bc they would talk when needed but just preferred to be quiet)#also yall i had no formal training for this 😭 i was thrown into the fray one day djfkdl i was supposed to just work as an admin assistant #it was just fucking bonkers there #kids had meltdowns sometimes bc the workers were so useless and didnt take the time to learn to read the child and they'd push too much #and they did things in ways that were sooo rigid so often like... if a kid is looking tired u gotta shift ur schedule around !!#but they'd just be like noooope this is our plan and we have to stick to it #my guy!! the child looks exhausted!!! they are fucking four years old !!! what the hell are u doing!!!#no four yr old is going to ever feel okay if u keep pushing them to do stuff they dont rly want to do when theyre tuckered out!!#anyways i could rant for hours abt that place lmfao #i still think abt the kids so often esp some of the ones with rough home lives #and i just rly rly hope theyre doing okay #but i cannot go back and help again bc that place destroyed me gjfkdl i hit autistic burnout HARD while there #and thats what ultimately forced me to quit #otherwise i probably would've stayed bc i rly wanted to give these kids someone safe to be around esp if their homes werent a v safe place #idk its so hard bc one person can't change the entire way things are (esp since i had no formal training)#but also if im not there then i know nobody else there is going to be knocking ABA to the side and treating the kids like whole ass humans!#eugh i hate thinking abt it bc I just... what the fuck do u do with a situation like that lmfao #i miss those kids sm though fjfkdl theyre all so cool and fun and rly good kids #i hope good things happen to them :')#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #ableism tw #aba tw

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frecklystars · 9 months

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THE LOVES OF MY LIFE OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 it's been so long since I've rly felt love bursting in my chest for any F/Os and I am feeling so so so so much for my girlboss girlfriend and my horsegirl boyfriend 😭😭😭💖💞💓💓💗💖💕💕💕💟💝

Her smile!!! god!!!! HIS smile!!!! god!!! these two are fucking saving my life I can't believe how much these characters are helping me get through the worst time of my life. THESE TWO are helping me get back into self shipping and helping me feel safe again when I really thought I'd never ever recover. I'm collecting screenshots of these characters and sighing with hearts in my eyes every time... I haven't done that in over a year... I'm making gifsets and writing fics and doodling again... it's all because of them and I'm such a weepy mess over it

#love notes #��♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡#💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-#every time i make a love notes post with them i get teary eyed and um this isnt an exception 😭😭#theyre making me so happy and i havent felt this way in so long #im fucking happy you guys... god i havent felt. joy. with any F/Os in so so so so long!!!!!#self shipping is like. the core part of me. its all i've got and i went so long without it. that piece of me I NEED #fuck i finally found two F/Os who i know love me no matter what #and they're holding my hands telling me they'll never ever hurt me. wouldnt dream it. couldnt even fathom it #and slowly but surely i HOPE i will get back into self shipping just in general especially for transformers #but god. god!!!! god!!! i owe them my life!!!!#i couldnt fucking take it anymore i was falling so far and they!!!! are here!!!! in my heart!!!!#i was doing so fucking badly i was about to give up and they just. this movie comes out and im suddenly hopeful??#pinkest movie of all time barbie rly said keri fuck your ptsd fuck your abuser youre getting better #and youll love pink again and youre gonna be okay and im like yes maam whatever u say maam #god 😭😭 sorry i know i talk abt them a lot but its been so long #and i know i keep repeating! that its been so long! i know i dont shut up about how im hurting! but!#i cant! describe how overwhelmed i feel! its like a part of me that was dead for a year is slowly coming back to life #and the fucking relief... i am just awash with tears

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lanshappycorner · 7 months

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im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal

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#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate #she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk #she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3 #i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her #so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation #i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not-#-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded #(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things #when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs #but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀#anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine #ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am #there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well #i miss her actually :(((#my second roommate tho. she scares me

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caruliaa · 1 year

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screaming bc theres a song (no i wont tell u what one but its by an artisit i dont listen to rly to much except for the last two days but i do like what of her music iv heard) that like. i rly feel like fits a ship (I WILL DEFF NOT TELL U WHICH ONE !!!!! but its like. not one i rly ship tht much but i do think its cute and im slowly getting more into it) in like. a weird way bc like. im not like omg this song is so this ship its so cute i mean the first time i listened to the song which was a while back when it first came out i was like this feels like ppl r gonna talk abt it w tht ship or like the song feels very like. like a fanfiction to me like generally and to me i feel like its like a modern au fanfic for the ship nd i listened to the song again today nd iv been thinking abt tht but the thing is i looked to see if anyone in any context has put that ship with that song before expecting to find lots of stuff but i literally found NOTHING its ubsurddd !!!

#like. searched tumblr w the ship + song name nd the ship + artist name? no results #went to google w either? just got results w either the ship or the song or tumblr blogs #that showed up bc they had prob posted seperate posts abt the musicain/song and the ship #and like. a fucking archive.org pdf of a totally unrelated article on the first page of google #searched the artist and song name on ao3 showing only options with that ship #in hopes id find a fic titled after a lyric from the song w that in the description?#no resulfs either!!#like i feel insane how has no one ever pointed out this ship w this song ever #i do NOT!! want to be the first one babes. esp since no i feel like im almost definatly wrong #abt it fitting the ship. but i mean im also not thats someone modern au fanfic of them as a song #i mean like. i dont rly ship the ship as said but iv seen what theyre fromm !!!!#okay. the friendship between one of the characters in the ship and another character is a part of like.#why it fits bc w like the framing device of the song it fits #so perhaps i am putting too much emphasis on that friendship idk how much ppl care esp in the context of tht ship alongside it #but they shld care more abt tht friendship like ik general tbh. bc i care more abt tht then the ship tbhh 😭😭#also like. i feel a littol dumb for not realising this earlier but maybe its bc the song is like.#a bit of a timeline on the relationship nd loke. dowsnt mention any point of any dislike #at the beginning and i think that is a thing with is ship but also COME ONN #the song doesnt need to encapsulate every single moment or aspect of the ship for someone somewhere to say it fits #im also kind of like how in character is this but i mean like. its a big the most popular probably ship in a fandom theres lots of ppl who #dont care if its in character thats not a reason someone wldnt have mentioned it either #ik its like. not a big deal ig but im so baffled tht like. no one seems to have seen this popular ship and i think prettty popular when it #released (and that was last! year!) song together that iv become obsessed w finding someone who has #im going to look thru spotify playlists for the ship and ao3 more thoroughly later bit rn im making pancakes <3 #flappy rambles #EDIT: also for cotext in not telling the ship not bc i think its ‘cringe’ its bc ik many of u ship it #and again. dont want to b the weird oe w this song that made me think others wld associate it w thw ship #which apparently not a soul hasss !!!!! which is like i said freaking me out a lil bc im sure someone wld have

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finely-tuned-line · 1 year

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RP:

PRIVATE TRANSMISSION

FTL: Echoes of a Paradox. I believe that we need to talk.

EP: Oh so you finally decided to stop being a coward, huh? Alright, what d'you have to say to me?

FTL: ...I do not actually know. I am aware that I owe you an apology, just as I am aware that I do wish to present that apology to you. The sole issue is that I am unaware of what I feel the need to apologise for for, as well as what the apology you want from me is, though they are the same thing.

EP: Of course. I'm really not surprised, I expected this.

EP: You're so... Unaware.

EP: You don't care, you avert your eyes from everything around you - not for the sake of guilt, shame, or wish to not see, but for a lack of care. Your ignorance is not wilful but is simply apathy.

EP: As much as I envy you for that apathy, I pity you as well. You're stuck denying yourself the fact that you even have emotions, as you relish in the ability to ignore it all. But I'm stuck too, aren't I? Stuck with endless rage and anger, at our creators, at you, at myself. At least I know how to cope with it, release it, instead of bottling it all up. At least I allow myself to feel the anger properly, at least I don't turn a blind eye to the wrong of both the world and myself.

EP: That's the difference, isn't it? You don't care, and I care too much.

EP: You piss me off, Finely-Tuned Line. You don't even know how much harm you've done. How much you've hurt me, Songs of the Negative Sunlight, even Doubt's Dichotomy.

EP: You just stay cooped up in your single-minded focus on your purpose, justifying the existence you know is pointless, all the while denying that what you pursue is little more than the fact that your purpose is something you enjoy. And even when you do acknowledge it, it's always backed up by your saying that you're 'allowed' to enjoy your experiments simply because it's what you were made for.

EP: I know you. You're so... It's so easy to pick you apart.

EP: But even as you piss me off, I pity you.

EP: You're so desperate. Striving for shadows of perfection cast upon you by our dead creators. Or, as Songs of the Negative Sunlight would humourlessly compare, like the light of the long-departed stars.

EP: I hate you. I hate you so much. You're the reason why our sibling is dead, you're the reason why Doubt's Dichotomy barely even talks to me at this point. You're the reason it took me so long to be as okay as I am now. And you don't even know what you did wrong.

EP: I'll tell you what you did wrong, I'll tell you what you need to apologise for.

EP: But it all comes down to your pitiful reach for your purpose.

EP: Your sheer conviction when it comes to that is the root of it all.

EP: Cycle by cycle, thoughtless mentions of your pitiful beliefs in the shadows of perfection.

EP: Cycle by cycle, offhanded mentions of your deplorable beliefs that you're nothing without your purpose.

EP: Cycle by cycle, careless mentions of your dismal beliefs that you're nothing but a machine.

EP: Do you not realise that those very mentions cast a shadow of their own? A perceived projection of those beliefs onto others, onto us?

EP: If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have found such despair in my lack of a secondary purpose, I wouldn't have thrown all my energy into the Great Problem like I did, I wouldn't have felt so inferiour due to my absence of care about it.

EP: If it weren't for you, Doubt's Dichotomy wouldn't have drifted apart from us out of sols own will, she wouldn't have defined herself the way she did, it wouldn't have to justify its love for what it does while hiding all the same.

EP: If it weren't for you, Songs of the Negative Sunlight wouldn't have chained ximself to xir purpose even as xi found no joy in it, xi wouldn't have made such rash decisions, xi wouldn't- ...If it weren't for you, xi wouldn't be dead.

EP: And even after all this, I do pity you. Stuck in your way of thinking, unable to break out of it and strive to be better. I pity you for your inability to see beyond what the Ancients defined you as. I pity you so, so much, even within my anger.

EP: I will recognise the fact that you've gotten better. I do pick up on your transmissions from time to time - those offhanded mentions are gone in all but what I can only describe as self-loathing.

EP: Within all the sheer pity and anger that I have for you, I care about you. You're my older brother. I worry about you.

EP: But this remains as your last chance. No matter how much I care about you, I have self-preservation instincts, I am able to recognise when enough's enough.

EP: If you mess up again, I will be taking over as the Senior of the group, and cutting contact with you.

EP: I hope you figure yourself out and get some help.

EP: None of us are okay here in the end, but that's no justification.

EP: Love you.

FTL: I...

FTL: I'm sorry.

EP: I know.

EP: If you do decide to do better, I'm here for you. But only then.

FTL: ...Thank you. For everything.

#hey uh pls dont hate ftl too much #yes he did wrong - holy SHIT did he do wrong - but hes hurting too #this is a situation of 'everyone is fucked and no one is okay so everyone just gets even worse'#eps anger is justified as fuck #ftl wasnt justified in his actions #but hes fucked up too #which. as i said; doesnt excuse him. thats not how this works #but he deserves SOME lenience #esp since ve is better now and is remorseful abt it #no matter how much ve apologises and regrets ver actions; that is isnt going to fix anything #but uhh leniency is deserved??#im sorry im rly not good at moral conundrums #i hope that made sense #tldr: ftl done fucked up and thats not okay but the fact that he recognises his wrongdoings is worth SOMETHING #yk?#anygays!! onto the fun trivia part of the tags #GODS I LOVE EP THEYRE SO WONDERFUL #they type kinda weird sometimes because theyre a poet!!#once the rhythm of repetition is there its hard to get out of it #AGHHHH THERES SO MUCH I CAN SAY ABT THIS POST...#S O M U C H #but man i love echoes of a paradox #i have so fucking much to say but i dont have the space to ramble nor the words to explain #smh #all i can rly say is that I AM IN PAIN AND I LOVE THESE TWO IDIOTS #AND THAT FUCKING FINALLY SOMEONE (other than lifegiver lol) IS KNOCKING SOME SENSE INTO FTL #if you rly want to hear All My Thoughts - PLS dm me ill happily ramble abt this!!#rp #finely-tuned line #echoes of a paradox

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knifeprtys · 2 years

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#sibling death tw #rainne #it might just b bcos im sic in the head but seeing how upset absolutely everyone is is kinda comforting #like ive had ppl tell me they had to leave work when they found out n stuff #and its like right??? it's devastating! she WAS that important and special #ive been inviting everyone to the funeral even tho we haven't made any arrangements yet and i mean literally everyone #ofc i tell them its okay if they cant make it n we understand #but everyones been like OF COURSE I'LL TRY MY BEST TO COME ITS RAINNE!!!!!!#even when ppl who barely knew her are reaching out or ppl she hadn't been in contact w for years its all genuine we r all shattered #i wish she knew how loved she was and how much she meant to people before all of this #i thought it would annoy me seeing randoms come out of the wood work but it doesn't #what dOES is everyone being like now WE have to stay in contact #i hope they dnt mean it #esp my foster parents we had to contact them ofc even tho we've been out of care for the 20 - 15 yrs #and theyre so religious and they were telling us abt their own kids and how theyre pastors and ambassadors now #and its just like . buddy i lay in my bed and i plan to for the rest of my life #my brothers doing good w his life but i am noT a success story #n i cant bare them trying i know they mean well but itsss overrrrrr for meeeeeeee #the waiting abt for everything is killing me too #im gonna try and distract myself today rbing silly little pics on here feels wrong but i rly do use tumblr to like. soothe myself lol #every time smth bad has happened in the past ive been on here just rbing as normal even if i was full on sobbing #its my brothers birthday today too so im still gonna try and make it nice for him #idk how but im gonna try

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daechwitamv · 2 years

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#weighloss ment #why tf do all of it*y look like theyve been put on insane diets this cb im honestly in shock #esp y*na jfc #im censoring bc i dont want it in their tags. this is just me venting my horror #i love these girls sm but this cb isnt it again and the fits are . nonexistent at times like #idk what their stylists are thinking atp theyre half naked on stage every time #and theyve all lost so much weight its so so scary #what are jy*e doing with them???#i rly hope theyre gonna be okay

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dandyshucks · 3 months

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as much as i love being able to randomly churn out a bunch of different styles of art, i have very little actual control over how things come out fhdkdl so ,,,

working on some studies now to try to figure out how tf i am doing what im doing fjdkdl - hopefully i can sniff out some patterns in the styles so that I can better control what comes out of my pencil ( ╥ω╥ ;;)

#also i just like how these faces came out teehee #can u tell noses are my favourite thing to draw fndmdl they pretty much always have been #i usually draw them first to sort of place where everything else is going to go fndldl theyre my personal focal point ig #also i do see the gist of what's different btwn the styles #like one is obviously more detailed and the other more cartoony #but i cannot seem to crack down on what exactly i am drawing in the moment to Make It A Specific Style #i gotta figure out proportions of things and where the details go or dont go to make up specific styles djfkdl #like I'll start a drawing and be like okay! cartoon time! and then oops we have the more detailed one by the end. HOW!!#i gotta figure it out bc theres a couple past drawings that i rly like but i cannot figure out how to recreate the style i did 😭😭#i have said the word style too many times DBDJSL i am going to sleep snork mimimi i hope everyone has a good night/day/etc!!#dandy.cmd #doodlebug.jpeg

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toastsnaffler · 10 months

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nvm im too tired and overstimulated for this shit

#.vent #i only slept a couple hours last night man. i cant do short notice evening socials on an empty tank let alone resist unexpected rsd #if they had let me know earlier then i wouldve taken a nap and worked out beforehand to get my energy back up #idk just. if u rly want my company then maybe u should actually invite me next time. its not like they didnt plan it #even if they just forgot its not particularly pleasant to be the one person insignificant enough to forget abt. theres only 5 of us #they rly remembered to ask the one guy who isnt even here before me yknow. ugh u see the stupid thoughts i have to battle!!#like on a rational level ik it was probably genuinely accidental. but the way i instinctively react is not always rational #so regardless someone has to deal with the emotional fallout and thats me. regulating this shit is hard work even when im NOT tired asf #i really really dont want to be an asshole and spoil anyones fun bc its no-ones fault + as real as it feels to me rn ik im overreacting #but i cant voluntarily expose myself to personal triggers when im already exhausted + more vulnerable than usual #so just gotta shut myself in my room and deal with it in my own super healthy ways as per usual. may they never fucking find out #trying my best not to be an asshole i hope to fucking god they dont think im being an asshole i just told them i was tired + i meant it #this wouldnt be so much of a problem if it hadnt happened to me before. and also ik its bc one rsd trigger makes me more sensitive-#to picking up unrelated cues but there ARE other things they do that i find ostracising which rly dont fucking help. but-#theyre not things i can actually confront them abt so usually i just gotta deal w it which is fine but it lowers my general tolerance #its ok. its ok i like them all a lot theyre lovely ppl and it doesnt matter if there is a some grain of truth in the things im thinking #bc the risk of me believing + acting on a bad faith irrational thought leads to outcomes that are far worse than those from #misidentifying someones malicious behaviour towards me as neutral by accident/in good faith. okay im done now i think #just ignore me spewing out the old brain gunk on main again eurgh anyway im gonna go calm myself and read and SLEEP #ill be normal by tomorrow morning farewell comrades #honestly i dont mind dealing w shit this way bc its the best option for everyone but man. sometimes its so fucking lonely #like there are sides of me ppl will never engage with and for good reason but without them being acknowledged i find it rly hard to feel-#any real emotional intimacy or closeness with another person. but what other option is there #i sure as hell dont miss the fights i used to constantly get into when i wasnt able to regulate myself i lost so many friends that way #it is what it is. on we go for now

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deathbyworm · 1 year

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lil magnagate symbol wants to be a time gear so bad. give up it loser! you'll never have what he had 💔💔

#im playing through gates to infinity for the first time and. hm #i get why its considered the worst game in the series #its very easy #the text goes rly slow and cant be sped up??#and u can only take 1 req at a time?? mayb this'll change as i progress but idk :/#but at the same time. i love these characters so much #emolga is so protective. virizion and ur partner being like. i wanna say narrative foils but im not certain im using that phrase right??#but still. gurdurr?? i love him so much i want to wring him out like a wet cloth. hes my boy!! my lad!!!#and scraggy being absolutely terrified of quagsire makes for some v fun lil scenes #and i love that u can build up the paradise #the whole thing of like. restoring hope in this world thats become so distrusting and gloomy. ur partners almost naivety to the rarity of #their hope for the world and the people around him. i love it so so much #i wish it was just a little bit better to do this all justice tho. cus as good as the story is the slowness and the very easy difficulty #makes it kinda painful to play thru even tho i wanna enjoy it so badlyyy #OH AND THE FREE MOVE DUNGEON SPACE??? where u like. knock over tree trunks to make bridges and stuff. i love that but again i wish the game #was just a little bit better to have properly done that concept justice!! T-T #i do love how v unova focused the pokemon chosen are. ik its unpopular but i fuckin adore the unova dex #its got lillipup!!! my boy my son!!!!#anyway. theres my pmd rant of the day #OH WAIT ACTUALLY ALSO a set of pmd2 badges i ordered arrived today and theyre v good. okay thats it bye

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rinsuniverse · 10 months

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[2:28AM]

imagining woozi as your husband!

i feel like there would be a slight jump from just dating to getting married

he'd be a lot more comfortable with you, of course

he's still very serious and independent

but his love for you is on a completely different level as soon as you guys tie the knot!

at that point, he wouldn't mind bragging about you or simply talking about you to LITERALLY ANYONE

he'd be so defensive of you, too

so imagine you're laying in bed next to him right after you announced your marriage

and he's slowly falling asleep (snoozi woozi) but you're skimming the tabloids, reading all the comments by some of the obsessive and rude "carats" (theyre not rly carats if they dont respect svt's personal life but whatever)

you're not upset, but you can't help the slight pout your mouth makes reading through those things

he rolls onto his side and lets out a deep sigh, so he says:

"jagi, are you not sleeping yet?"

"no, but you can go ahead"

youre turned away from him and he moves to spoon you, his head in the crook of your neck

he peers over your shoulder and silently watches as you read the comments

he doesn't say anything at first (because "who is he to tell you what to do/feel or not to do/feel" is his attitude)

it isn't until he hears you sigh at a particular comment that went along the lines of "i hope they separate because they aren't good enough for him"

he goes "aish. you shouldn't worry about that stuff, you know?"

"i know..." is all you can say

you shut your phone off and try to relax

little do you know, he's actually FUMING

he is SO PISSED

there's nothing more he wants than to be treated with respect EXCEPT for his spouse to be treated with the same respect

he nuzzles his head into your neck

"you okay, y/n?"

"yeah"

"i just..." (i imagine he'd be kinda flustered trying to actually comfort you and say romantic things, so he's trying to play it cool and casual) "it doesn't matter what anyone thinks. i think you're... the right one for me... so don't worry about that stuff."

you can't help but laugh

jihoon isn't very good with comforting words (but dont get me wrong, he KNOWS what to say, i mean look at his music, but it'd be hard for him to say out loud casually)

he always is straight to the point

but since you're now married, he already knows sometimes just telling you what seems to him as common sense/what's best isn't very helpful

"why are you laughing? i'm trying to help"

"thank you for that. i just think you're cute"

he shuts up and snuggles into you even more, muttering under his breath like "what the?" and "you're so weird"

after he gets over his blushing attack, he hums, "let's go to sleep together, yeah?"

tomorrow he's making a statement about those antis tho. im so fr.

one last scenario for you!

i think he'd be a liiiiiiittle bit more comfortable with pda now

when you're sitting next to each other, he'll put his hand on your thigh at times, and he'd move his thumb soothingly on your skin

he'd hold your hand, but his other hand would be blocking you from paparazzi/dispatch or guiding you carefully somewhere

and i can't stress enough how often his hand would be on your lower back if he wants to guide you somewhere or move you a little (no longer ghosting your back like when you're dating)

imagine you're both leaving his studio

he doesn't even bother making you leave separately and discretely from him for safety purposes like what he used to do while you were dating

but as soon as he notices the camping paparazzi outside of the building, he gently holds your hip and pulls you closer to him

one arm would be around your waist to keep you close

and the other arm would be out, protecting the both of you

you smile at his protectiveness

"ji, it's fine if they take pictures of me."

"yeah, but i don't want them to do anything weird to you."

bonus points if you mirror his positioning so you're protecting him from paparazzi, too (this man would love whenever you reciprocate anything back to him in an innocent, but goofy way)

you'd both be giggling all the way over

but anyway, he walks like that, protecting you until you reach a car to drive off in

he was already protective of you when you were dating, but he's now so much more protective now that you're completely public and official

woozi would be a wonderful husband to someone who deeply understands him and loves him for who he is

he wouldn't necessarily meet booktok stereotypes of a husband, but he'd def be a sweet and protective one that always supports you and what you think is best! 🫶

(p.s.: i'm planning on opening a requests thing! ofc i kind of specialize in woozi imagines, so if you have anything in mind for me to write about, def send a request! i also dont mind doing other svt members, too. would that be fun? i'll update you the next time i post! have a great day (*＾3＾)/～☆)

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mostlymaudlin · 1 year

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ooooooh ok juicy sfc posts happening !! i rly honestly truly love to see it. here's my unasked for two cents, as someone who did find the story really hopeful. im posting this not to like, discourse or disagree or discount what im seeing, but to just maybe offer a different pov for ppl who might be trying to file this story away in a less devastating way.

i, of course, think baz deserves better than what he gets from his family. we all deserve to have families that love us unconditionally, and so many of us DONT have that -- including baz. that hurts !! i also think simon didn't deserve to lose his magic, and penny didn't deserve to take on the sole responsibility for keeping simon safe, and agatha didnt deserve to be shoved into every princess/damsel role ppl cast on her, etc etc.

what i like so much abt this series is that ppl dont get what they deserve, but theyre still okay. its why i also love the end of awtwb -- simons LICH ER ALL Y crying lol. he got a whole mega-bucket of extra trauma dumped on his plate that he hasnt even started to process. but its still so clear that he's got the support he needs to live a good life alongside this terrible knowledge. the mage fucked him over even more than he knew, but he doesnt have to define himself by these terms anymore -- we've seen his growth in this regard.

bazs main arc in the series is about how he sees himself -- in crudely simple terms, he rly wants to be a Good Guy (you know, not a vampire, straight, a good pitch etc etc) but sees himself as cursed with that impossibility. this continues as his idealized Good Guy self develops over the course of the books into something that actually feels more achievable to him and is less reliant on the shit his family put on him growing up.

the cool thing about snow for christmas is that -- just like when simon finds out abt the mage at the end of awtwb -- we get to see baz's new sense of self tested. we get to see what he's using to draw the lines of morality. and we get to see that while of course he still cares about what his family thinks, and it still causes him anxiety and trauma and all the shitty things that he doesnt deserve -- he has grown from that place where their value system can make him hate himself.

and moreso on the hope part -- the grimms value, above all, the ability to fit into the roles they think theyre supposed to hold. its bullshit, and they've both caused themselves problems and absolutely are fucking up their children. daphne fully had to be saved by a cult bc of it and shes still not over that mindset -- these ppl need therapy lol. so it's def sick n twisted that they're celebrating baz being able to hide better rather than celebrating who baz is, but is this not the utmost sign of love that they're capable of? baz gets to fit in better -- that's all they've ever wanted for him, whether we agree with that or not. baz seems to recognize the balance of this in the story. he narrates the rest of the dinner with a sort of dry, relieved, disbelieving tone. it’s like hes huffing a laugh, shaking his head, thinking, “did i really used to pin so much of myself on this stuff? how silly.” he is not distressed bc he understands his parents, and he has, again, divorced his sense of self from their expectations. so much so tht he says fuck it and gives simon the lil kissy at the end, because THIS is his new value system: he ALWAYS kisses simon goodbye!

so, is this a step forward for the grimms being more supportive parents? yeah, maybe not. maybe it never gets better than baz hiding his fangs at dinner and everyone doing the bare minimum to accept simon's role in baz’s life. that's not what baz and simon deserve. but it could be enough, because simon and baz have different ways that they measure their happiness by. they have each other and penny and shep and ruth and agatha and niamh and every other person they'll meet in the many, many years ahead of them whose opinions they can choose to make important to them, or reject. i love this for them! the true queer hope story imo. thats what i want for myself and for the people i love.

to be clear: this story made me sob so hard i scared my cats. (im not rly a crier, they did not know what to do). i had to put it down in the middle because i couldnt see the page. any queer person who has Family Shit is bound to get whammied lol. but! i personally find comfort in the idea that we can coexist with people who are important to us but also very difficult to be around, even if its not totally what we deserve. its a very quiet, somber hope -- but that only makes it feel more real to me.

#snow for christmas #snow for christmas spoilers #idk if we're still doing that hahahha #sfc #ss #a #<my ol simon snow analysis tag LOL been a while

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hyukalyptus · 5 months

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Do u mind explaining what cnc, dub con and non con exactly are. Google doesn't help

not at all!

cw. cnc, non con, dub con, mentions of drugging, rape all in order to explain. no scenes are written. answered after cut!

cnc stands for consensual non consensual. it is very important to note this is essentially a role play kink.

it’s something that is clearly discussed before hand between all parties involved. but basically- it’s an agreement between a Dom (D) and sub (s) where the s has “waived” all consent. keep in mind, this is discussed beforehand. it’s where the importance of a safe word rly comes in in my opinion. because the s is most likely not giving consent during sex, theyre “fighting back” or saying things like “no, stop” as part of the play. but the D is allowed to continue in this instance. HOWEVER! once the safe word is said, the D must stop.

an example that i like is a D/s decide on a necklace that the s wears that silently lets the D know they can “have them in whatever way they want” later and the role playing begins at that point (after a discussion has been had). so s wears a necklace signaling D they can essentially have sex with them and s has “given up” consent and the D doesn’t need to obtain it to have sex with them later. that signal is the consent. BUT the D or the s can back out of play at any moment if their mood changes.

dub con is where both parties are consenting in the moment, but they’re consenting for “dubious” reasons, hence where “dub” comes from. so for example, a boss (D) kinda pressures an employee (s) to have sex with them and threatens to fire them if they don’t. perhaps the s wants to have sex with them and they fully consent, but it’s dubious because of the power dynamic at play.

to me, in the case of role playing and fantasy, cnc and non con are the same. HOWEVER, in real life cnc and dub con are NOT non consensual.

it is very important to understand if you do engage in these in real life, every thing is discussed prior to play with all parties involved, including safe words, boundaries, expectations, etc. AND to understand it is role playing and it is not real and that it is consensual.

for writing: it’s basically that role playing at hand. for cnc, to me, those boundaries that have been discussed are written as part of the writing. for non con or dub con, it might be skipped over or implied.

for example, a D drugging an s and forces them to have sex with them is straight up non con. writing isn’t real and is fantasy so that’s why some people are okay writing and consuming it. if this happens in real life, this is rape and should be treated as such.

edit to add: just because someone may be interested in engaging in cnc play does NOT mean they’re interested in actually raping someone or being raped. pls don’t kink shame. IF they’re obtaining consent and discuss it beforehand and all parties are excited about this role playing, it is good to go :) a D or an s should never feel pressured to engage in cnc role play if they do not want to.

hope that clears things up!

#inbox!#anon!#questions!#tw: rape #tw: sa #tw: cnc

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akalikai · 18 days

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TMAGP EP 11 THOUGHTS (SPOILERS BELOW)

HEY CELIA. CELIA BABE. WHAT THE FUCK. ARE YOU. TEAVELING DIMENSIONS??? DO YOU JUST WAKE UP ON THE MOTORWAY SOMETIMES???

GIRL JACK WHO??? JACK BARNABAS??? DO WE KNOW ANY OTHER JACKS????

oh god the samalice. It's samalicing. They had me giggling in a fucking dunkin donuts

I think Alice could be both jealous of Celia but also sweet on her we can have both

Alice??? You feel like ur being watched??? After exploring The Magnus Institute???? WHO WOULDA THOUGHT

"I could walk you home this morning" "...yeah, actually. If you're offering" SHUT UP I HATE THEM <3

OKAY FIRSTLY. DAVID A MEDICAL EXAMINER??? DO YALL REMEMBER DR. DAVID FROM EP 177 OF TMA??? DR. GASLIGHTING MOTHERFUCKER?? I'm well aware this probably has no connection but just throwing that out there lol

GORDIE???? LIKE GORDIE'S DUMP???? WASNT THAT GUY'S NAME GORDON AS WELL????

OKAY SO. THIS GIVING LIKE. VERY SIMILAR VIBES TO TMA EP 152 WITH HEZEKIAH WAKELY. THE WAY GORDIE TALKS ABOUT THE SEA SOUNDS SIMILAR TO THE WAY HEZEKIAH TALKS ABOUT THE GRAVES. Also, ofc, with talks of sailors, I'm thinking this is very Vast-coded which I LOVE. But also I'm reminded of TMA ep 121 where Oliver talks about something deep in the ocean. Gordie mentions that it seemed like the crew was being chased by something in the water.

INK5OUL RETURN???? MYSTERIOUS TATTOO I SEE

Gordie is so bitchy I love him already I wish he didn't have to most likely die "and shall forthwith attitude to acquit my communications" HES SO PETTY

DID INK5OUL STEAL THE DEAD BODY WITH THE TATTOO???

SAM YOU SMART COOKIE OMG HE NOTICED THE TATTO AND INK5OUL POSSIBKY CONNECTION

Alice bby if ur being watched its already too late you might as well dive in headfirst

"Thank you, Alice" oh this is gonna be the world's MESSIEST polycule

Gwen my girl I know you have been through hell and back but don't take it out on Celia I know she's probably sus but she's been nice so far and I like her.

Seriously Alice and Gwen are constantly on "will they punch each other or will they make out with each other" and I think the answer is both

Alice getting protective of Celia YESSSS THE POLYCULE GUYS THE MESSY OFFICE POLYCULE

"Don't let me keep you" "I'd like to see you try" KISS

"I can't believe she drank your mocha!" ALICE SAID THAT WITH SO MUCH VITRIOL OH MY GOD

"No. No, no. I watched Nigel's SOS every week as a kid. I KNOW Mr. Bonzo. That THING was not Mr. Bonzo" miss bouchard do you know I love you

IS THE ENVELOPE HOLDING GERRY AND GERTRUDE'S ADDRESS. I FEEL LIKE IT IS. IM VERY SCARED. THEYRE SAYING FWEN ALREADY KNOWS WHO'S ADDRESS IT IS. WHO'S ADDRESS WOULD SHE KNOW.

Gwen rly is just like "I have no idea what the fuck I've gotten myself into but I feel like if I try to get out I Will Die."

INTERESTING EPISODE. MANY THOUGHTS. THE CASE FILE HAS ME GIDDY I LOVE THE OCEAN I RLY HOPE WE ALSO GET A SPACE ONE SOON.

#tmagp #the magnus protocol spoilers #the magnus protocol #tmagp ep 11 spoilers #tmagp ep 11 #tmagp reaction

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gettinshiggywithit · 1 year

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!Dating Sukuna HeadCanons!

Scenario:-what would it be like to date ryumen sukuna?

Pairing:-sukuna x gn!reader{shell}

Genre:-fluff

Type:-headcanons

A/N:-i hopy you like this @shelly-stark-official! I tried:’)

Okay

SO

Sukuna is a little shit

But its fine cos so are you~

Honestly the fact that the kINg oF cUrSeS fell in love with your devious and scheming self was not a surprise

Especially not to yuuji(poor fella had to share all of sukunas thoughts abt you and while u and itadori were besties.sukuna wasnt um...thinkin of you in a um platonic way)

(Like at all)

So when buddy boi finally asked you out

And although it felt weird um datin someone who shared the same body as your best friend,you got used to it and yuuji learned not to be so awkward abt it too...

And the moment he suggested you play a (borderline sadistic) prank in yuuji,you paused for a sec before agreeing~

(You knew youd be able to use your quirk if something rly badd happened to him)

And lemme tell you ‘kuna fell even deeper in love~

Sometime you and him and yuuji go out for lunch and while yuuji is the one in control,sukuna opens up those lil mouths on yuujis palms and under his eye to talk to you.

You feed him fries and yuuji hates that the grease is getting on his face😭(ples apologise to our best boi 😔)

So many ppl were like legitimately scared of sukuna but to you he was just a little shit and honestly? I think yall’d be cutee together (i wanna be the ring bear! 🐻)

(I think ur dates would include LOTS of scheming but also bitchin,cos this man has THOUSANDS of yeaes worth of tea to spill and hearin abt ancient gossip is still funny as shit🙈)

Now a little on the powercouple dynamic~

I think that while yall would tease and joking insult eachother,if anyone else tried dishing out jabs in your respective directions the other wouldnt stand for it

Like if someone ELSE calls u idiotic,theyre begging for mercy in a second

And if anyone calls sukuna something insulting,you’re basically walkingg them upto deaths door urself

And if You ever mention how this means he cares abt you,he will in fact go into denial and completely invalidate your opinion on the subject

Furthermore if anyone ever speaks badly of the two of you as a couple (i.e. gossiping and such) yall would just completely ignore them

Like who cares if a barely succeeding apprentice sorcerer doesnt approve of your relationship?????

Yh thats right,no one!

And just to piss em off further,i think hed suddenly initiate a particularl Passionate kiss in front of the gossiper.

Suffice to say that shut em up,for better or worse

I dont really think sukuna would ever fully open up to anyone,not even his s/o.but every so often you do catch glimpses of who he is deep down.its usually blink-and-you-miss-it moments but youve caught some

He doesnt really carw about how open you are either but i think itd make him feel special if you are morw open and vulnerable with him.again,he rly doesn’t give a fuck but it just makes him feel a certain way,y’know?

please dont repost my work here as your own on any platform all rights belong to me except that of the characters used,their right belong to their respective owners.but these stories? mine.

feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!

Comments & Reblogs w/ tags >>>>>>>>>>>likes please

Taglist open for anyone interested!

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modernghostfare · 7 months

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Ask from both Mat and I basically: tell us a little about your headcanons for Nikto's brother 🥺 how did they get along during their youth? and how did his brother cope with Nikto's disappearance and "death" as he himself got a family and everything?

i am SO shy about this........ okay so i think they were rly close like always bc they were both sort of tasked with watching each other? so they just had to spend a lot of time with just them outside of school. like they would fight (physically. siblings try to kill each other.) also but they could bond over both getting the shit knocked out of them by their mom for it. they sort of troll logicked themselves into being a tight-knit duo of assholes. it helps i think they look super similar despite having different dads and theyre both tall and beefed. wall of meat. i think his brother is the shorter one of the two tho (by like 3 inches.). and the slightly calmer one (barely.).

their relationship has never been like super Easy tho as ive mentioned to u i think theyve gone thru a period of like not speaking. probably actually multiple times but like a Long Stretch of Years at least once. i do think his brother, since hes calmer, finds it easier to like sit and actually reflect on himself/things and i think like his 2nd wife didnt like niktoprenikto or their mom and he could like See Why bc his mom is Not Nice* and nikto is a dick (and Violent and an Alcoholic). SO like. a marriage lasting 3-4 years they did not speak and nikto does carry that chip on his shoulder bc hes. yknow. a brat.

i do think they were speaking when he started his undercover work and his brother didnt like it didnt trust it didnt appreciate the danger it put him in. i think his mom also did not like it. but like. u cant tell nikto what to do even before he was nikto u could not do this. SO. getting the word that niktoprenikto was mia was not like super shocking but it was still very stressful but there wasnt ever much he could do apart from sit and wait for word bc he has his own family he has to take care of (current, 3rd wife and 2 kids. + their mom at the time). i think he probably still sends letters trying to get word from people esp bc i think [redacted] has actually been like "mia" for long enough to be legally considered dead so there is a deep dread that his brother is just dead and buried somewhere no one will ever know but he has a little hope that thats just not the case. and yknow he is both right and wrong about that. i think he very much Does Not Want to talk about how its affected him but he will openly talk about his brother being missing bc. well. he would like to see if anyone has spotted him.

i also think if he and nikto ever met Currently he would be like. shocked. that nikto thinks he is so different from how he used to be bc i think he would pick up on just his usual mannerisms/the way he holds himself/the way he jokes (even if its fully deadpan now)/like down to his smoking habits like he could See his brother. he would see the changes but he would focus on the positives. it helps he would not be able to read nikto's thoughts.

*i do not think at all that you would really get away with calling their mom a cunt even tho u Could bc she was abusive i think theyre very defensive of her bc shes the only adult they had in their young life that consistently was there and trying to provide for them + she was insanely young and theyre very aware of this.

#asks #cerosin bis #nikto #Hello does this make sense.

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