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heavenlyeros · 11 months

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lion sprout !

(i made this ages ago and didn’t get to post it before the end of spring . . . i have a lovely neighbour who keeps the most beautiful little garden. she is in her 90s and very inspiring. i like to watch her tend to her rose bushes from my window. i’ve been trying to hang out with her more frequently. it sparks joy and i love hearing her talk about her plants. i hope she finds the company enjoyable too... i am teaching her about succulents, which is the only kind of plant i can claim any sort of expertise on. i have a few baby ones to gift her once they get a little stronger. i originally made lion sprout for her, she has one she can hang in the garden)

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ryllen · 5 months

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heated machine whirring noise

#i think he canonly still tells about himself confidently when asked but he is kinda like this in my head #understandable tho i don't like talking about myself either because i don't exactly have anything i am proud of myself so i just divert #the conversation to just listening mode for me #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst mc #twst yuu #fanart

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nikuttek · 8 months

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a glow in the dark 🗡️

i almost never draw backgrounds so this was a really experimental drawing...

#the hobbit #bilbo baggins #lotr #lord of the rings #my art #i am still a little bit unsure of the background haha #but i guess it's fine because obviously it cannot be perfect as i haven't practiced #on the other hand i adore how bilbo turned out akdjskjd i'm so proud of myself #tolkien

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exhausted-undead · 9 months

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i swear im alive (I wish I wasn't after drawing this) hah

drew this based of the part in the leroux novel where erik plays desomonda on the harp for christine until she falls asleep (thank @or-what-you-will for the idea)

(also this was initially drawn with christine, uh, not in a chemise so that's a fun fact)

#this took me 42 hours in like 3 sittings #i am not well #however im proud of myself BECAUSE LOOK AT ERIKS SIDE PROFILE #and also pretty christine #this took me so fucking long please don't let this flop #phantom of the opera #art #digital artist #poto #erik poto #artists on tumblr #phanart #christine daae #the phantom of the opera #harp #musical

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hamletisintown · 1 month

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Can i offer you some ultrakill in this trying time

#art #my art #ultrakill #ultrakill gabriel #ultrakill V1 #i'm starting to understand how the robot body works. i'm so proud of myself #and of course i'm putting these skills to work on gay stuff #because of course i am

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fatuismooches · 2 months

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EVEN MORE CUTE DOTTORE MOMENTS TO MAKE YOU SMILE 🙏 (because I am too tired to post anything of quality)

#smooches talks #ouhhhh... to experience the domestic life with him...#someone motivate me to start writing actual fics again...#the dottore honeymoon fic merely has the title “medicus scriptor amorem” and “Honeymoon fic” in the actual document LMFAO #i made it on... january 27 oops #idek if im gonna stick to that name because google translate for latin is so bad omfg #(TO THAT KIND PERSON WHO SENT ME IDEAS ILY AND I PROMISE I WILL RESPOND. I PROMISE IM NOT IGNORING U)#i also have another wip i havent touched with loving the harbingers when they weren't in the fatui yet #no like seriously i think churning out 50k words did something to my writing state 💀🙏#a snippet from dottores part: Il Dottore’s strength was nearly unmatched in the Fatui being the Second Fatui Harbinger and all.#what most people do not know is that he was… certainly not the best fighter during his Akademiya days.#A claymore was also out of the question - he grumbled when he had to lug his numerous research materials and parts to the desert…#In the end you settled on teaching Zandik the basics of a sword. do with this as you will...#however i am still so proud of myself for fabulam diu oblitus #i was rereading in class bc i was bored and i was like #damn i kinda ate with this #thanks for listening to smooches mini writing life crisis if u made it here #okay i go sleep now... i have midterms this week #OMFG THESE TAGS R SO LONG IM SO SORRY

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alexiethymia · 3 months

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Hazbin Hotel Ep 5

Ok wow Ep 5 (and 6) was such a ride.

It's so fun to dissect Alastor since he's pretty much the only one who's character is hard to pin right now.

I can easily believe that Lilith is the one he has a contract with (hence the on a leash comment). I can believe that he might or might not be there because of Lilith (either he's obeying Lilith or he's getting close to Charlie because that in some way will help him get rid of his leash). I can also believe that he is intentionally pissing Lucifer off.

BUT

The thing is, even with all of this, I really thought that the Alastor we would see was the same Alastor we saw who handled Vox with so much class. Someone did a mini analysis about their face off. Alastor was completely unbothered and in control of the whole situation. He didn't bother interrupting Vox and the whole encounter with Vox losing his top and Alastor keeping his cool definitely showed that Alastor won that round.

But with Lucifer, it's different. Lucifer is pathetic and desperate. It would be so easy for Alastor to rile him up while still being calm, but there's none of that here. Where's the manipulative persona? Rather, it even seems like Lucifer brought Alastor down to his level of pettiness.

There's visceral rage right from the beginning when he sees the welcome banner, and the uncontrollable twitching of the eye when he sees Lucifer hug Charlie. The funny thing is Alastor is the first one to react to Lucifer while Lucifer is completely focused on his daughter. Twice we saw this petty eye twitching - when he was annoyed with the Egg Bois and when Carmilla could care less about where he disappeared to. So we know Alastor is capable of it. He's not as high and above everyone as he thinks he is.

Lucifer's lame comeback was enough to get him to swear?? It was such a whiplash from what was established about Alastor so far. But for him to show his annoyance at Lucifer in such an obvious way, shows that there's something about Lucifer that just pisses him off, enough to slip his usual control.

Same with his final encounter with Mimzy. They're established as good friends, but the hotel is a red line. He's not all lofty like in the past episodes when Mimzy confronts him about whether or not he actually cares about the hotel. We as the audience are supposed to be sure that he doesn't, but I was expecting at least a smirk or his usual pleasantness and I-know-something-you-don't attitude. But he was as serious as he ever has been when he gives Mimzy an ultimatum. And the thing is, it's not a show he puts on to get on Charlie's good side or to piss Lucifer off since neither of them see it.

Again, I could easily interpret the entire sequence between Lucifer and Alastor as Alastor still being on top, and willfully manipulating and using Charlie just so he can have one over Lucifer if not for those two things. His uncontrolled reactions - swearing at Lucifer and the uncontrollable eye twitching when Lucifer and Charlie hug - because what benefit even does that get him??

So maybe he is taking this step-dad thing seriously because Lilith and him are involved somehow (which, yikes in so many ways), maybe he hates Lucifer for a separate reason unrelated to Charlie and/or Lilith or his hatred of Lucifer has everything to do with Charlie (even if it started with a deal with Lilith initially) and Charlie (as well as the hotel) are starting to have more of an influence on him than he expects.

Either way, it was awesome and this was exactly the found family chaos I was hoping for and I sure am glad to get it.

#hazbin hotel #alastor #charlie morningstar #lucifer morningstar #like ep 5 and 6 were both great for found family feels #the fact that Alastor near says it verbatim in the song and shows their f'd up li'l hotel family #(except Sir Pentious) no I correct myself Sir Pentious was in the kid-friendly drawing!#but no nifty so I guess height? or because she appeared in the song already. but the drawing itself is funny though it's so pg haha #ep 6 was so great #I am so so proud of Angel Dust #how he always gets the courage to fight against Val when he's fighting for his friends #first Charlie then Nifty #like he is probably the most selfless to endure everything #as long as none of his friends are hurt #and perhaps it's saying something that he's protective over the girls #because he remembers molly #it's even in the little things like watching out for nifty's drink #or wanting to actually commit on going on the straight and narrow #husk being proud of angle dust #the grayness of morality #I'm glad we got emily #and that charlie isn't just a naive optimist #it's what makes her so admirable #AND THE FORESHADOWING WITH VAGGIE #I am late to the party #I didn't realize about the pilot outfit #BUT AGAIN duh it would make sense even in the pilot people were wondering why vaggie would be in hell #but I mean even that throwawayline in ep 4 about vaggie learning to trust through military drills which didn't make sense #from her earth background but we know now is because she was an exorcist #and even the obvious and not obvious origin of her name

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toshidou · 10 months

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insecure about a part of your body? just imagine ghost, soap, gaz, whoever fits the bill, pressing their lips to the flesh without a second thought. imagine them groaning into your skin as though they can't believe that this is theirs, that you're with them.

try to imagine how it would feel as they sink their teeth into the skin, as though trying to consume you because simply touching you is no longer enough. listening to how they whisper praise in awe and reverence, quiet enough you know it's not for you, loud enough to know that your body is such a marvel to them that they cannot help but voice it.

they worship you, regardless of your own opinion. not a moment goes by where they don't find you sexy, where they don't look at you and melt. in every scenario, they will always find a way to make you feel loved, cherished, and seen.

and on the days you really can't face yourself, on those days where the cruel whispers creep on your subconscious and grip your mind like a vice, they'll be there. steadfast and constant, they will be there.

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lenaellsi · 2 years

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a concept for Riku’s heart station at the end of re:mind/start of kh4!

#surprise im a kingdom hearts fan #kh riku #kingdom hearts #riku kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 3 #kingdom hearts re:mind #i love riku so much....my sad gay son #i am so proud of him #and i am. a little salty that they reused his CoM heart station for kh3 but it's FINE i just have to do everything myself #soriku #he's reaching for sora because he's searching for him in quadratum etc etc #but also because eyes emoji

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thespermdonorstorylineisstupid · 11 days

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don't let this darkness fool you / all lights turned off can be turned on (call your mom / noah kahan)

#chriss makes edits about eddie because she can't stop thinking about him #eddie diaz #911 abc #eddie diaz edit #he has come so far and i am so proud and emotional about it #i see so much of myself in eddie's character so i just couldn't stop thinking about it #plus this song just HITS #and yeah buck IS in both of these moments because they are so connected

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takethelx3 · 1 month

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They're bathing they're chilling ☺️ sweet boys lovely boys ☺️ would never harm a soul ☺️

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givemewallywestorgivemedeath · 6 months

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Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard?#i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug?#i would. a million times over.#anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal

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verraising · 2 months

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i am short of breath standing next to you. i am out of my depth at this altitude. -♡-

#ffxiv gpose #myrrbert #wolbert #a'myrrhis venko #ardbert hylfyst #hello. i've been having A Time lately so i decided to cheer myself up with some disgustingly sweet gpose shenanigans #and it worked ;w; look at them... babies.....#and MAN i am kinda proud of these esp how the lighting and the angles worked out!!! and the hands!!! i had to futz with the fingers so much #but they line up quite nicely which is very satisfying #i am commited to their matching bracelets too. it was a joke initially but they are canon now. lil keepsakes for when they are apart #also ignore me with the sleeping at last lyrics again lmao but they're just. so perfect.#also just as a side note these are NOT wedding pictures lmaooo my partner saw them and was like #'aww they're getting married!' but that was not the intention #they're just in all white because i thought it'd look really nice with the purple forest #(and i was right about that)#ANYWAYS #sorry for the ranting i am just. excited. to have produced something really nice imho #and to see those two together <3 #i should talk about them more but i always get shy and embarrassed lmao but maybe i will do that sometime #anyways!

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thatonefandomjumper · 1 year

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Nico and Reyna should have been a part of the seven. Not Percy and Annabeth.

I am long past the point of being upset about this, but it’s still something I feel is worth talking about.

Percy and Annabeth had their story. They had five books of that story in fact. Their arcs were pretty much completed by that point. Sure, there was room to expand the scraps that were left untouched, and I definitely think they should do that, but to do that there was no need for them to be parts of the seven.

I am aware that this would completely change the narrative of the story, but they can still be parts of the Argo crew

Now, when I say that, I mean that they'd function in a similar way that Nico and Reyna did in the original books

Reyna is a new character and Nico is one that’s far from having been developed to his fullest. Making them parts of the seven would give them more time to shine. Especially Reyna. The dynamics of the characters on this shp would need to shift and change from the beginning!

Like- Think of how this would effect the politics of Camp Jupiter? The fall into Tartarus? The blood of Olympus!?

And honestly I’d love for Percy and Annabeth to be tagging along to the quest, just not as part of the seven.

But of course, the people wanted Percy and Annabeth, and Percy and Annabeth was given too the people. They were even thrown into Tartarus for the people.

Judging from the reaction people had to Jason in The Lost Hero, the reason why Percy and Annabeth were a part of the seven is, of course, very clear, but that doesn’t mean I think a more interesting story could have been told if it had been Reyna and Nico.

#I don't really trust Riordan to write the sort of complex story im envisioning this change would have brought though #Especially during his hoo era #But I can think and speculate and I suppose that's all I need #Also I maniged to restrain myself from adding some of my Valdangelo agenda to this #Be proud of me. It took all my streangth.#pjo #hoo #heroes of olympus #Nico di Angelo #reyna avila ramirez arellano #the seven pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #The Mark of Athena is the only thing I am a bit mixed on how I would handle #Replace it? Or keep Percy and Annabeth along for that part of the quest?#I dunno! But brainstorming is fun so I ain't complainin.#Also before I read hoo I honestly though Nico was also a part of the seven and was very confused when I found out he was not #Also as for their Tartarus replacements I would nominate Nico and Leo but that is only because Hellbent has rotted my brain #The Tartarus in that fic is the only Tartarus I will accept

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camelotsheart · 1 year

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did i spend three hours learning how to use audacity because i couldn’t get the idea of a merthur song duet out of my head? maybe. was i unable to edit the whole song because the rest of it was too complicated? maybe. but at least i have a physical example of the concept now even if its super messy. i can finally sleep in peace

(merlin’s voice is from the james arthur cover and arthur’s voice is from the stephen scaccia cover)

#its 4am and i am. in a place. idk what place it is but its a vaguely good one #bbc merlin #merthur #merlinedit #merlin #arthur pendragon #music peeps dont come at me #my musical skills are approximately: not getting any higher than grade 3 in piano despite taking lessons for 7 years #aka abyssimal #i'm proud of myself for even figuring out that negative decibel thingys means a lower pitch #edited: just realised that arthur's voice only came out of the left earphone lmao this is why i shouldn't wear only one when editing ;-;#ok so apparently i didn't notice before because the left ear thing only happened when i was on my phone lmaooooooo

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gxlden-angels · 1 year

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Controversial take but I'm much more comforted by the idea of a deity that makes mistakes and admits it than one that insists they're perfect and punishes anyone who says otherwise by sending them to be tortured

#I'm having Thoughts #I got a new tattoo #it's based on Tomcat Disposables by Will Wood #because that song makes me think of being a mouse #and the morality we hold mice/rats to as a concept despite them just wanting to survive like us #I say all this as a proud Appreciator of Rats #love those lil beast #a person with rats (not as pets) is seen as an unclean. lazy. morally bankrupt person rather than a person who just so happened to have rats #my highschool had mice and/or rats #I've lived with roaches before #am I morally unclean because of that?#Am I any better than a mouse in hole? Is my government-paid shitty student apartment morally better?#Does each rat represent a new sin I commuted?#Am I tormented by pests by being one myself?#Is it the mouse's fault it carries certain diseases?#Is it the person's fault that they carry sin?#It's just nature I guess #ex christian #religious trauma

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