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okay. i mean this with the utmost affection. but. while imogen and laudna telling each other "im you're anchor. you're my tether" as reassurance about going "dark" or giving into the lure of power is very meaningful and important. it also kind of struck me like. hey wait one of you anchoring the other. fine. possibly-functional. but doesnt BOTH of you tethering to each other risk creation of a spinning centrifugal blur whirling down the road to power.
and like yes yes this isnt an original thought and the proper terminology for this is probably like "dual corruption arc" or in CR "i broke the world for you" yes but. i wanted to share the specific imagery my brain provided for this train of thought, which is roughly:
like. thanks. brain. i guess.
bonus thought that popped up when drawing this:
#critical role#imogen temult#laudna#c3e65#cr spoilers#kinda#sorcery pact#LOOK I CAN ABSOLUTELY WRITE MORE THOUGHTFUL IN DEPTH ANALYSIS OF THIS or i can illustrate this and giggle at it#orbs spin fast. hah.#:)#(once i watch. proper meta is coming. this is both a promise and a threat)#i was partway thru making this post when i lost signal for a while and had to ask someone around me whether centrifugal is the outward forc#and couldnt explain why i was asking#the sacrifices i make for cr......#shitpost#spar speaks#imodna#.....?
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HELLO here is............ reference art for my liam design/interpretation!!!!!! a lot of these r ideas ive already had and/or included in my liam art already BUT !!! now its all in ONE PLACE!!!! :)
#hfjone#liam plecak#hfjone liam#hfjone backpack#my art#i feel like there was more i couldve added but i sifted thru my liam ref art and couldnt find any#but!!!! im very happy w how i draw him so this was fun to put all in smth :)#esp bc i was able to explain my thought processes on him a bit more!!!! bc i put. SO much thought into how i draw him#its why my design for him changed like every week for a few months a good while back. was adding n adjusting stuff SM#this is not even counting the bone diagrams i made. i am not including the bone diagrams#(theyre just for limbs but ive spent a long time on this already and im TIRED its been over 5 hrs and it is now 2 am)#BUT!! this will be queued for a good time !!!so i may not be awake when this is posted lol!!!#(also i am VERY much willing to discuss my designs if thats smth anyone wants to ask abt.... i have so many ideas)#additional fun fact that i specifically dont draw his shoulder ANY higher than his pocket bc thats as high as it goes on my design#ANYWAY im tired so im gonna queue this now
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just got cheated on i need angst fics or hurt/comfort fics to help me cope pls and ty
currently obsessing over bakugo, todoroki, and corio snow dont judge me thnxz
#help me pls#need x reader fanfics#valorant#genshin impact#bts#jjk#tbosas#mha#mf couldnt even explain why he did it he just said he was sad and we werent talking for as long as he wanted to this past week#so he tells me he wants to pause cause hes in a tough spot w family#then i find out from his friend that he asked someone out and she rejected him#so#ahahahahahahahahahhahaha#why didnt i think of that#feeling pathetic!#gimme some hurt/comfort pls
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Fun fact joker only wears the glasses to soften his appearance or something
And also in the original p4 princess yukiko was impossible to defeat at all because you needed a specific skill or something I think
ok i know that joker's glasses are canonically fake but whenever a character wears obviously fake glasses i think its infinitely funnier to just. assume that they're real. like idc why joker wears those things in canon in my mind the man is fucking blind because the concept is hilarious to me. real reason he got arrested after hitting shido is because he wasnt wearing his glasses and couldnt see the cops coming
#canon reason is kinda funny too tho. like ok i got arrested for assault what can i do to fix this? fake glasses. perfect#i do also think joker being blind would explain why he couldnt recognize shido until he was literally staring him in the face. like#hes not exactly a normal-looking guy. i think joker just cant fucking see#also WHAT DO YOU MEAN YUKIKO WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO BEAT. ISNT SHE LITERALLY THE FIRST BOSS IN THE GAME#sorry everyone! our game is unplayable because we made an oopsie whoopsie in the FIRST BOSS FIGHT#asks
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Moral OCD sufferers🤝🤝🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 (and we are both Sam stans .... omg almost like he also has OCD ......)
NO BUT SERIOUSLY THOOOOO. its about the constant fear that something is intrinsically evil about yourself....
#hey i want to say thank you btw bc your posts abt this have helped me for literal YEARS#like spn was my main coping mechanism with it when i was 13 and worried i was evil bc of Dumb Stuff#and it wasnt until i was like 21 and saw your posts and was like. oh. huh.#that.. might explain why i was desperately googling 'guilt complexes' at the age of 13 trying to explain to myself#why i couldnt stop thinking about one (1) 'mistake' for months on end#anyways#i FEEL you#and sam REPRESENT#its SO ingrained in his character and why i LOVE him#suncaptor#lea answers asks
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today worst day ever 🥹🥹 so glad to be home
#god forbid. a person ik owes me money and im lowkey getting annoyed bc i feel she has it but wont give it to me 😞 i paid for sm of her food#and i felt like she kept interrupting my convos w ppl!! i need her to get off my back#like i dont understand why she asks me to go outside to get food?? if she doesnt order??? like ik i have a complicated money process and its#annoying af IM SORRYYY IM INCONVENIENT!!!! but also man. the app was down at an inconvenient time for two days#and i couldnt pay thru gcash 😞😞#so i 1) went out for NOTHING and 2) just felt so sad idk like ;((#when i came back i was just sad. like idk i felt ashamed to ask for money bc im so annoying or smth#some of my other band mates asked if i str and i just started to PISS MY EYES LIKE IM SORRY!!!!!#idk i feel like i just release stress out in bursts like that like why cant i express these things normally#like i have a past gripe bc i used to be so sensitive as a kid i wojld cry and ppl would just give me things#and like. idk. i dont want to come off as that like im not crying for attention you asked me How are uou Doing and the doing came out thru#pissing my eyes out. idk what else to say fellas#i got issues 😞 but im so grateful there were ppl looking out for me when i was feeling annoying and was broody#i feel like a lot of ppl ive met havent been able to handle that v well and its like oh man that explains why i try#not to cry in the first place!! hahaha okay!!!#but like yeah man. idk i am miffed w this girl bc like. it just always feels like she tries to ctrl what or who i talk to#i cant wait to not be classmates w her 😔#caw.txt#vent
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i can't take any discourse post seriously if it says "x side is refusing to listen to survivors" because if you can't accept that survivors are not a monolith and may disagree with you in regards to your shared type of trauma then it really begs the question, are YOU actually listening to survivors? or are you only listening to the ones who say what you already thought and disregarding the rest as a) people who are incapable of understanding their own trauma and therefore can't be trusted to make decisions about it for themselves or b) outright fakers?
#i also go out of way to try and take all discourse posts with a heaping helping of salt but these ones specifically im like#conflicting access needs dude what hurts you might help another person so you need to step back and ask yourself if what they're doing#is overall harmful or just harmful to you specifically and act accordingly#theres nothing wrong with you being the problem here‚ its ok to be like 'i cant be around this' and dip#ik the word problem has negative connotation but idk ive always felt like my brain worked a little differently than other ppls w that#problem doesnt mean anything morally bad it just means somethings not working as intended and so#you need to problem solve to fix it#you have a problem that is you can't be around xyz thing while others can#and in your own spaces youre allowed to solve that problem by requesting others not bring it in with them if doable or to work together#to minimize its impact on you if you have to be around it#but in spaces where that thing is accepted and enjoyed and you are the outlier‚ theres nothinf shameful abt the solution to that problem#being removing yourself from that space#you were the problem‚ so you solved the problem. it doesnt have to be a bad thing yknow?#same with 'broken' ive had multiple people to me explain why i shouldnt use that word about myself but im like#no i understand abt forming neural pathways with negative words but its not negative to me genuinely !!! its just a descriptor!!!!#like. a part of my body is supposed to work/exist in a specific way‚ but it didnt. it was broken‚ it couldnt perform its intended function#it was broken‚ and we fixed it#you wouldnt tell me to call a broken bone a fuckin. 'area for improvement bone' it got broke! it dont work anymore!!#my brain doesnt produce the chemicals its supposed to‚ its BROKEN and im taking medicine to fix it#i think veronica got it but i only got to see her for a few months#anyways. that was kind of offtopic but i think still follows the central theme of just. understanding that sometimes people's brains#work different from yours and they process the world differently than you#i dont call other people broken because i know that would be mean given how their brains interpret the word but i do feel comfortable#using my own version of language to describe myself#autism dialect KENFKSBFKSBFMDB
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The only thing I liked about the extended ending is 1) the RG crumbs and 2) the knowledge that Oz is fighting the merge all for Oscar’s sake. It makes my Ozdad heart happy to see.
Hey anon!
Couldnt agree more.
While the RG crumbs didn't surprise me one bit (lets be honest, it was OBVIOUS oscar was gonna get a reaction towards ruby's disappearance, like, come on. It's freaking Oscar Pining on Ruby Rose. She's clearly important to him just like his important to her, hi was inspired by her since the beginning, if we didn't get something, THAT was gonna be unexpected) it did bring a smile to my face cause, confirmation is always good right ?
Plus, I wasnt exactly sure if we were gonna get angry oscar or depressed oscar or anxious oscar, but I can see we got the whole package- So, that was also good to see.
and oh gosh the merge. yeS. that was also another thing I was happy that it was brought up, for most of us were afraid they would just.. skip the merge lore, and Im really glad to see that they plan to work on it, and even better, focus on it on v10, hopefully. With Ozpin and Oscar switching roles (Ozpin being the one who's giving his all to stop the merge, and Oscar lost in himself) hopefully we'll get to see more about lil farm boy and who he is/was.
But like I said, most of those things, I already expected, so, I wasnt much surprised, but I was glad, indeed, to see some theories get confirmed.
what Did surprise me tho, was seeing Nora's and Ren's pov in all of this, like, of course we knew they were gonna be miserable, but, gaH. Nora's monologue ???? it's. so. painful to watch, and it gives us so much of her, I feel like Nora and Oscar will bond a lot in V10 cause they're both on a journey to "find out who you are"
Ren's perspective was pretty interesting to see, and I wonder if we'll get to see Ruby and Ren bonding too ? (Cause Im a sucker for parallels lmao-)
With all that said, anon, you might have sent this duo a post I made some days ago. And sure, I was pretty content with it's content but.. sigh. I guess I still got a bit.. disappointed ? thats not the right word but. Ugh, I just dont want to get my hopes up for a v10 when we dont even have confirmation, and a v9 animatic is great but, everything can be discarded in a blink of an eye so.
idk, part of me is just trying not to get attached to the main focuses the animatic had (specially the RG crumbs) cause
everything could change and take different directions
so ye aksjka sorry for the long ramble, but Im glad you enjoyed the rg crumbs and merge situation ^^
#rwby#ask#anon ask#tbh i feel like this animatic was kinda like a punch in the stomach for me#i cant exactly explain why but just. i saw some friends get so excited. and i just. couldnt bring myself to be hyped abt it at all#eh#idk. but im always here for rg crumbs i guess
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I hate this week so much hfdh
#haha#almost had a panic attack in school today because of a power outage haha#and couldn't speak for a half hour which made me freak out worse#speaking of#is it normal to just. not be able to speak#literally i got so scared because#i was trying so hard#to say something#but it wouldnt#i couldnt speak#made my anxiety spike worse#bc thats not normal for me#never happened to me ever#literally all because of a stupid blackout#why the fuck am i so pathetic#a fucking POWER OUTAGE and im over here panicking like a child#i have no right to be like this#(didn't help how like 2 of my friends were really confused and kept asking me to sleep and didnt understand that i couldnt)#(tysm zach my irl friend for explaining to them. god tysm)#ive never panicked like that before. all over a power outage#i feel so stupid#cw vent#vent#simon says#vent numero dos because this week sucks#doesnt help how i keep fucking up everything so im unmotivated and literally cant do the only two things im ever good at#i want to cry but i cant even do that#too much#delete later
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how to tell white friends that yes i have in fact heard of the new border/immigration proposal because uh. i fucking live here
#like. i know they're well meaning? probably? but#idk how to explain Why it feels so. disconnected? shallow? performative??#like 'greetings token latine friend look i am aware of this horrible situation im being a good ally look at me being a good ally'#i know thats maybe a harsh way to look at it but like#none of the ppl who did this to me over the past couple of days actually asked how im feeling about it so like. :^)#at least it was none of my close friends. whew. like gee wonder why! couldnt be i avoid getting close to ppl who do things like this asjkdh#ky speaks
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#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation#which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would#i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road#i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed#but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable#as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy#again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos#in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st#started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very#firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me#to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck#me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault#i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when#im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress#dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol#idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but#my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing#but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month#bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get#stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha#unrelated
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im being such a fucking crybaby i need to get my shit together so that i can study for my exams tomorrow WHICH actually thinking about makes me feel even more miserable
#i cant stop sobbing#if anyone asked why i couldnt even be able to explain it#i facetimed my mom hoping it would make me feel better but she asked if i cried and i said no#and then she said she would hop on a plane if i wanted to#and i think it just made me feel worse
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yall i went to pull my wallet out to pay for some cat litter at petsmart and the ziploc bag of cat shit i had in my pocket came out with it and the petsmart guy just sort of stared at it and I didnt know what to do so I just put it back in my pocket and didnt say anything ☹️ girl with cat shit in her pocket buying litter. what story does this spin
#i had it bc i was going to drop it off at the vet office so they could do Annie’s annual sample#i dont know why i couldnt just explain this to him. i was too mortified#my hair looks so good today too i was feeling myself and then.#OH AND THEN at the vet the receptionist asked me to spell annie’s full name (Antoinette) and I just Could Not. I could not do it.
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one of the worst parts of being literally only woman of colour at work is that every time you're treated differently you question whether it's because of your identity or just your personality or like the way you work. like there is always that question
#the other intern is a white guy too which really makes that question. even more lol#anyway#having a Time at work today#why is my manager asking the other intern about the code i wrote and merged. it has my name on. why is he asking the other intern#like there exists a chat with both of us ?? he couldnt ask there?? what?#idk lol either im just notoriously bad at explaining things or the manager just thinks the other guy will know more about it which is like .#umm likeeeee i literally wrote all the code 😭 anyway whatever
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thoseve yall who were here a year ago might remember that a year ago He was liking tweets like "idk how people can cheat when im in love im obsessed😍" and "the honeymoon stage rlly doesnt die if youre with the right person🥰" and he was liking stuff like that up till recently now shit like this is in his likes something is BROKEN in him
#i feel bad. i dont even mean it in a conceited way but i cant help but feel like a bit of this is my fault#hes so bright eyed and ambitious that the idea of him losing any of that idealism is nothing short of a goddamned tragedy im sorry#yes this is the guy who lead me on (unintentionally???) and flirted with me for a year despite seeing TWO people during that time#the latter of which became his girlfriend (who i told Everything to ...)#and like. he never apologized he never explained what was going on or why he acted like a fucking simp for a year#but basically we're not talking now and we're on bad terms and angry at each other#(me because. well yall were there for that . hes angry because i ratted his flirty ass out )#god that all stings so bad i havent talked about the details of what happened to anyone......#but yeah i just. even still after all this time i hope he stays bright eyed. the idea that he wouldnt is heartbreaking in and of itself.#that one crush situation lol#idk if theyre still together. it was early novembet i reached out to his gf and laid the whole thing out for her#& she said theyd 'take it from here' (??????) and was uncomfortable with me and him communicating with the knowledge that THAT ALL happened#even while they were together. i told her i could respect that (even though i wanted to ask her who the FUCK she thought she was. anyways)#and then i reached out to him one last time to clarify i wasnt dredging it up for retaliation or to break them up but bc she genuinely#deserved to know. then he sorta said fuck my feelings and then reiterated what his gf said that we shouldnt be talking anymore#its been radio silence since then from bothve them. if they did break up id feel bad (cause how COULDNT i?) but if they didnt.#that means the only factor that changed here was. well. his 'relationship'/chances of a relationship/flirtationship/friendship with me.#i dunno. im not gonna act like i have all the facts and im not gonna act like he hasnt screwed me over#but getting back to my main point. imagine knowing him and watching him lose his idealism. try not being heartbroken over that.
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was talking to customer service abt a booking issue and i was on hold for ten minutes and i was starting to freak out so to keep calm i was just scrolling thru gerard images. it worked. gerard to the rescue
#omtai post#plans changed so i have to be in brussels an extra day#and i called the airline to see if i could change my return ticket to be later#which i knew i could because i deliberately booked a flexible ticket incase plans changed#which they did#and i Knew i could because the airline had an extra flight available for the next day#cuz i googled it#so i called and explained my situation and this guy JEAN was like#sorry :) you cant change your ticket#so i asked why#and im gonna be honest i couldnt really understand him he was very french#but he said something about fees and policies#and i was like okay but my ticket is flexible and i dont mind paying a fee#and he said more unintelligable stuff#and then he was like ok ill call you or email you back with more details do you have any questions#& i said so can i not book this flight?#and bro LAUGHED. HE LAUGHED and said NO ! :) and hung up#so then i was just sitting there like. -_-#and at that point i was Really freaking out#so i called back and got a new guy on the phone i couldnt hear his name but#i explained my situation the exact same way to him#and boom in 5 minutes he found the flight i wanted i paid the fee changed the booking just like that so easy#so moral of the story is#dont trust guys named jean#FUCK jean all my homies HATE jean#& if youre ever in doubt just try again#yippee
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