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cowboyjen68 · 8 months

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Hi Jen. Would you mind giving relationship advice?

I have been in a relationship for almost a decade. She didn’t have a job when we first got together, but she previously had a part time job so I thought that she was mostly just between jobs. As we’ve stayed together, she still hasn’t got a job despite me asking and begging her to. She has some issues so it’s kind of understandable but it increasingly stresses me out.

I’m staying with her and her mom (can’t afford a place on my own and have 0 family due to homophobia). I love her but I feel like she doesn’t love me or she would get a job. It’s literally the only thing that I want her to do and she’ll be super sweet and a chivalrous butch. But she just won’t get a job and feels incapable. When I feel like we’re doing kind of okay financially I don’t mind. But other times I feel really taken advantage of, unloved, resentful, hurt, and confused. I think I’ve enabled the behavior too long and she’s never going to change but I literally can’t afford to up the ante and give an ultimatum since everything requires dual income right now. (I just wish the dual income was mine and hers rather than mine and her mom’s). It’s also upsetting because I feel like she doesn’t care enough about her mom either. I feel like the one time I brought that up, she did kind of consider trying for a part time job (more seriously than ever before) which is more than she’s ever done for me. So I feel very unloved to say the least.

I’ve tried communicating and feel at a loss.

I am going to answer this from 17 years of experience. My wife quit her job within a year of us getting together and was in and out of a few jobs but would sooner or late come home and say things like "This job is really stressing me out and It is making me feel sick can I quit? Will we be okay if I quit". I loved her so I, trying to be the supportive wife, would always say "yes, of course, there are other jobs" but knowing full well she might go months without looking or applying for jobs.

Once we became parents she took that opportunity to be a "stay at home mom" but the problem was she didn't clean or do paper work or even want to take them to appointment or do homework. SO i worked two jobs and dealt with the household management for most of the time we were foster parents. IT was terribly stressful and looking back I realize we would not have been constantly financially struggling if she would have just worked an average full time job.

The only thing that drove her to get a full time job was when we separated and she knew the relationship was ending. I STILL ended up partially supporting her until she was able to meet someone new and share living expenses.

In 17 years she did not change. Your girlfriend is not going to change and you need to decide if you want to consistently struggle to support two people on one wage OR just support yourself on one wage. My advice is to decide if you love her enough to give up a chance at financial sustainability. I know you are kind of "stuck" right now. Start to plan ahead. DO not give her any money. IF she asks it all went to other bills and there is none to share. You should stop buying food, nights out and gas. Pay only her mom or ask to take on particular bills and pay them yourself so you know the money is getting to things like water or electric.

It sounds like her mom relies on you as much as you rely on her for help to keep the house/apartment. Use that to you advantage. It is easier said that done but if you want to offer a solutions by where you all stay in the house start a budget sheet listing the house and shared expenses. Divide it by 3 and present that number to your girlfriend. Pay only your 1/3 of the expenses.

If you don't feel like you can do that it is understandable. I would make an exit plan and stick too it. Don't spend the rest of your life with not stability or financial security and working yourself to death in the process. You don't owe her that. Make a savings account, start to look around for roommates at your job or in friend groups. It feels terrible to be sneaking around and making break up plans long before it is feasible for you to break up but you might have to in order to keep yourself safe.

It is possible that you can break it off with her and continue to "rent" from her mom. It sounds like your GF has little respect and no empathy for you and the fact that you are working so hard all the time when she does nothing. Perhaps she only loves what you can give her not you as a person. I hate to even say it but either way, you deserve to be happy and secure and she is preventing both of those things from happening.

She won't change so it is up to you to change your situation.

#love #money #relationships #job #financial security

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emjoyy · 8 months

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I finally saw Barbie and I’m having THOUGHTS™️. Like don’t get me wrong I loved the movie and I loved the feminist message BUT it’s bad feminism. Or at least it’s a very narrow and exclusive and binary feminism that presents itself as the ONLY feminism. I don’t think people understand that there are about as many feminisms as there are people and being critical of different feminisms is essential for healthy and thriving feminist discourse. But there are three things from the film that are keeping me awake at night.

1) where is butch Barbie?? Or gender non-conforming Barbie?? Why are all the Barbie’s so feminine?? As I child I would frequently cut off their hair and put them in Ken clothes and I can’t be the only one. And no, I don’t think Weird Barbie is butch or gender non-conforming - at least not in any meaningful way for representation of queer or female masculinities. I mean I do think weird Barbie is queer and I love her but she is not really gnc. It’s all so fucking binary. There’s men and women, and there’s Barbies and Kens.

2) why the fuck does Barbie go to the gynecologist at the end?? Like both my mom and I got so excited because we thought she was going to get a job at Mattel (TO BE THE ONE WHO HAS IDEAS) and instead she goes to the gyno, like what the fuck. It gives me the biological essentialism ick.

3) the most important of all - NOTHING CHANGES at the end. The ceos and Mattel leaders are still in charge and still men - there’s no women’s voices or changes to leadership or the leadership structure. America Ferrera’s character makes one Barbie idea and then goes back to being a secretary?? And yeah Barbieland changes with patriarchy and Barbie understands why Ken did that and then she leaves?? Like I can only assume things go back to business as usual in Barbieland (like the beginning of the movie) even though we see it’s NOT some utopia. Like why would you make a feminist film in which nothing changes at the end, especially regarding the gendered systems and power structures??? It’s very much a “safe” feminism, right? Like individual change is so powerful - look at Barbie’s transformation into a “real girl”™️ - don’t you dare think about systemic change at all. It’s feminism made palatable for corporations, which is to be expected but it still fucking sucks.

It’s a shame and it’s really a tragedy for the film and how it’s feminism will be integrated into the mainstream. That being said I’m glad it exists and I think it is a powerful feminist film, it’s just not perfect and that’s okay. That’s why discourse matters!

#barbie #don’t mind me #just some nonsense #having thoughts and must post them on the internet #barbie movie #feminism #the dreaded discourse #you’ve been warned #I gotta use my gender studies graduate degree for SOMETHING #spoilers #I also think Greta Gerwig would combust if she learned about womanism #and this film really only reinforced this idea #barbie spoilers

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low-budget-korra · 2 years

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My controversial opinions on Avatar #3

-Katara and Azula are best parallel in the Avatar verse. And yet so overlooked.

-Uncle Iroh failed Azula and I it was because of two things. First is misogyny and second and maybe the most important one, he saw his son in Zuko. He already was closed to Zuko because he was the male nephew, but after Lu Ten died, he saw in Zuko a chance to be a father again.

-Since we are talking about her. No, Azula wasn't pure evil or a psychopath. She did care, she loved, she suffered, she feared, she felt empathy...and even with all the manipulation Ozai did to her, sometimes she was able to show all that. And stop comparing her to Kuvira. Azula was a 14'old who was abandoned, manipulated and emotionally abused. Kuvira is a grown ass woman who knew better.

-No, it wasn't Suyin duty to rule The Earth Kingdom after the queen death, or wherever some of y'all demanded. Her duty was with the Metal Clan. And I know it may be selfish and all but her duty and responsibilities was with the Metal Clan. And especially in that time of caos, is logical she would choose to stay and take care of her city. She could have helped? Sure but I'm being realistic here and even tho I don't agree I also don't think is her fault that Kuvira raised to power like I've seen some people commented

-This one may trigger some people but here we go. It bothers me how most of the Korrasami fandom go way too fast assuming that Korra is the masc/butch of the relationship just because she is tomboyish. Like yeah, let's ignore that she literally wore dresses on the show and seems hella comfortable with wearing them. And that Asami was way more close to wear a suit than Korra ever was.

Personally I think Asami gives more masc energy than Korra, I think Korra is something in between. Like, def not a femme but still not a masc.

And also bothers me that some of people in the fandom treat Korra like she was a savage. She is always being portrait as this brute, super impulsive, aggressive and dumb. And it feels racist u know?! Especially because we know she is smart and caring and sweet and def not a savage. So why people keep portraying her that way? Stop treating Korra like she was just a pile of muscles, she ain't, she is way more than that.

Ps: It's okay to do shit (fanarts and fanfic) with Korra losing it for a moment, or wearing suits and be masc wherever. This is to the people who only portrait her like that, ignoring the canon

-99% of the characters in tlok are developed or have at the very least a closed arc. Don't compare them to tla characters because tla have the double episodes to develop them, and don't compare with shows that don't have half of the characters tlok had. Considering the time and number of characters to work with, they did a amazing job.

When development ain't the same as time screen. And with tlok, half of the development had to happen off screen, with them just suggesting stuff too us complete in our head. And development happened either you like or not. The same goes with them being deep or not, I think they are, but again, a lot os things is suggested and not showed to us. That's why people keeping saying tlok characters aren't that deep or that they didn't have development

#avatar #korrasami #the legend of korra #avatar korra #asami sato #legend of korra #tlok #mako #korra #bolin #azula #katara #avatar the last airbender #the last airbender #zuko #uncle iroh #kuvira #suyin beifong

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madd-devil · 3 years

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Slowly falling in love with Felix part 3! :3

"I don't get why you and Felix argue so much!" Pan groaned as he swung his legs over a fallen tree. "I have been trying to make you two closer… seriously everyone can tell how much you both are smitten with each other!"

"I don't like Felix!" You said, your face flushing suddenly because of the blunt statement. "I don't even know where you got that stupid idea…"

"Come on love, I know how it works. And you know what? You two are my favourites, so get together and stop annoying me with your pointless fighting."

"I would rather die than assume that…" You mumbled as you finished picking berries. "By the way, it is not nice to play favourites."

"You do it too." He smirked, arching an eyebrow. "With Felix." He sang, enjoying embarrassing you.

You approached Pan and handed him the basket with a look. He shook his head with a small laugh, understanding what you meant. After all, you were truly a mother. He disappeared in a foggy green cloud and you hoped he wouldn't eat all the fruits this time. It was always a bad idea to make him your errand boy, but he was fast and could get to the camp quickly thanks to his magic.

Being a mother to a dozen of lost boys was not easy. Between breaking fights and fixing their messes, it was clear you didn't have any time for yourself. You didn’t really care to be honest, you enjoyed being useful and were very good at it, trying to raise those boys.

You sighed as you were closing a hole on Butch's old stuffed animal. The kid would bring it everywhere with him, and even if Felix tried to take it away from Butch, the little one always found a way to find his stuffed animal. It was cute to see that pale and scrawny boy hugging that little plushed dog tightly against his body.

You smiled as you gave Butch his toy back and he muttered a soft thank you before hurrying back to his group of friends. Felix besides you sighed, clearly annoyed at the childish behaviour and you rolled your eyes.

"Stop mothering him." He only stated, his eyes burning into yours.

"I will do what I want, you are no master to me." You replied, slowly standing up to his level. "Besides, I am their mother, it is my job to care for them."

The scarred boy smirked at your remark, and you were a little taken aback. You wondered what was going on through his thick skull. He leant down to your level, and you felt his breath on your neck. It sent a shiver down your side, and you started to grow nervous about what was going to happen.

"You realise they will never be yours, right?"

You let out a shocked and strangled gasp at his statement and watched how proud he was from saying this. That always had been a tough matter to you, and he knew it. He fucking knew it and used it against you, like an insult. You thought he was above using insecurities, but clearly not. You were wrong after all. You pushed him out of your way, walking out enraged, and tried to block out his laughter. He was mocking you as well.

He was a bastard.

You promptly ignored Pan's calls to you as you stomped into the dark jungle and stopped until you approached a cliff's edge. Below it, the sea was crashing against the rocks, and you pondered for a moment. Maybe you should jump, to give your numb body a reaction, or to be away from this mess you pulled yourself into. You just wanted to rest for weeks.

It was never easy to be a mother, to never have someone actually cares about you. You sat down, and pulled your knees to your chest, tears slowly rolling down your cheeks. You hated crying about it, but what Felix told you and... and being exhausted from a never ending job clearly had broken you today.

When you heard someone approaching, you angrily put your head on your knees and closed your eyes, in denial.

"Go away! I don't want to speak to anyone."

"I think you want to listen to what I want to say though."

Your eyes shot up right open and you scowled.

Felix. Of course it was him disturbing your little moment of peace.

You resisted the urge to attack him, and instead focused on ignoring the lost boy. He sighed and walked up to you, kneeling down in the process. You tried to avoid glancing at him, and looked at the horizon.

"I'm..." He started with difficulty. "I am sorry for what I said in the camp. It was... uncalled for."

"Did Pan give you a little recital before coming here?" You hissed, finally daring to glare at him.

"No. I came on my own. I would never lie about this."

You hummed, not fully trusting him. You heard him sighing again and leaving. It was better that way. Felix was like the others, but at least he apologised for his horrid comment earlier.

Later that night, you went to bed with a pained, anxious and sick feeling in your stomach. Deciding to ignore it, you went to bed quickly, very happy that the day had passed and that you didn’t have to deal with Felix. But, you unfortunately had to deal with nightmares

Hands were tied up to your neck, and you couldn’t even protect yourself. The hands belonged to no one, they just swarmed around in the shadows to grasp you.

A set of them were shaking you rather roughly, but you couldn't react. A voice reached your ears, you couldn't understand what it was saying. At this point, you wanted nothing but to throw up. In an ultimate effort to fight the nightmare off, you started to trash against the hands.

"Stop moving! It's me!" Felix's voice reached your mind and snapped you back to reality.

Your eyes snapped wide-open and you gasped, realising you had stopped breathing while you were sleeping. You were sweaty and were pretty sure your hair was all over the place. The blond haired boy was holding both of your hands rather roughly, but you didn't want to say anything about it. You felt like something big was going to happen, and a threat was hung above your head.

Your breath hitched many times as you tried to ask him what he was doing here, but the precious air seemed to stop pumping your lungs and you grasped at Felix's shirt. He immediately took you in his arms, laying down with you as tears fell from your eyes. His big hands circled your back and you slowly calmed down, clutching on to him, your eyes still darting around the tent in the search of danger. Felix must have sensed this, because he kept you closer to him.

"Don't worry, as long as you are with me, no one will ever take you from us. And no one will ever hurt you." He murmured with a soft and the first genuine smile you witnessed him bearing. "I promise."

You nodded eagerly, you never had the intention to leave Neverland, even when you were the first to witness how horrible and terrible this island could be. You have seen Pan snapped so many times toward a boy, but especially to pirates, and you can't count the number of times you had watched him entering the camp, bloody, with Felix at his side, equally looking dishevelled. You realised that you never questioned them about what happened. The only time a boy did it, the second in command screamed it was to protect them and the island. You didn’t know if it was the truth, if they both enjoyed massacring Hook's crew that always came back or if they felt regret at all.

Finally, you felt your breathing come back at its normal pace. You were feeling tired again, but didn't know if he was going to stay. You heard some snores suddenly, and you looked up to see the blond haired boy already asleep. You didn’t care about the consequences of sleeping with Felix at the moment. It was nice, to finally have one little moment for yourself. Ultimately, you curled on yourself, clutching Felix’s arm and fell asleep as well.

"(Y/N)! Devin puts thorns in my shoes!" A boy cried as he entered the tent. "What are you doing with Felix?!" He screeched, waking up both of you.

The blond haired boy immediately blushed when he realised the position he was in, and you completely understood why: you were both tangled in each other limb, and anyone walking through could imagine what had happened. As long as Pan wasn't coming in...

"Come on Felix! At least take the girl on a date before jumping to the most fun part." He chuckled, wiggling his eyebrows with a suggestive tone as he appeared in front of the innocent boy.

"We weren't... doing this!" You cried, feeling your cheeks heating up, embarrassed as you got up from bed to attend to the lost ones.

"What were they doing Pan?" The boy asked curiously and innocently.

"Nothing! Now, let's take a look at your shoes, okay?" You smiled at him while taking his much smaller hand in yours.

As you left the tent, you could hear Pan's laughter echoing in the camp. You bite your lips and ignore the looks of the older lost boys. Word spread like wildfire there. Despite their appearances, the boys were very noisy and you disliked this.

You spent the day avoiding Felix, and by doing so you avoided your feelings growing for him. What was wrong with you? You hated the way he made you feel but you had to admit: what he did last night was... incredible. You had loved the way he had embraced you and calmed you down almost immediately. After all, there wasn't only bad in him.

You cluelessly smiled to yourself as you thought this and nearly bumped into Peter Pan, who appeared suddenly in front of your person with that sly look... You knew it, and rolled his eyes at him with a sigh.

"You are so in love with him, aren't you?" He sang as leant against a tree with his arms crossed. "Felix is shy, so maybe you should... ask him what he feels about you."

"Of course not! That is private. I am not going to pester him with..."

"But he loves you too!" The green eyed boy cut you and groaned in annoyance. "I just want my favourite lost ones to be... to be happy. I know you both can't hear the music, so therefore you aren't truly lost and I don't care about that. I don't enjoy seeing both of my friends sulking." He admitted, a little embarrassed after pouring his thoughts on your situation. "It's my rules after all. I can bend them or break them whenever I feel the need to."

You pondered for a moment after what Peter Pan told you. You walked over, and leant next to him as well. Most of the time, Pan had treated you like you were his maid or a mother, often mocking you for being it. But he knew why it was important for you and that you enjoyed caring for the boys. It was surprising for him to be called his friend, and an immense honor.

"Fine... I will do it. I will talk to Felix." You assured him with a soft smile and you playfully ruffled his hair.

He snorted at your motion and attempted to do the same to your hair. Two members of a sentry appeared, cutting short to the fun. You stayed next to Pan as he listened to what they had discovered: apparently, Hook and his ship were back to Neverland. You gulped nervously: the last time he came, it ended badly for both sides. You had never seen Pan that furious and enraged. You glanced at the lost boy leader and he commanded you to get back to the camp as fast as possible. You understood why, he didn’t want to endanger you.

You spent most of the night at the main campfire, wondering when Pan and the two boys will come back. You hoped none of them were injured... Hook seemed stronger and stronger each time he returned to the island. You shuddered as a sudden cold wind reached and you cursed yourself for not having thicker clothes.

"You look cold." Felix's monotonous voice said behind you. "Here let me..."

Not daring looking at him, you let him do what he intended. The familiar worn out wool cloak was now hugging your figure and instantly warmed you up.

"Thank you..." You whispered, not wanting to wake up the sleeping boys. "I think I am just tired." You tried to justify.

"Why don't you go to sleep then?" He asked as he sat down next to you, his eyes staring into the fire.

"I want to wait for the others. I have to make sure they come back safely." You blurted out immediately and worriedly.

"You are a good mother." The young man murmured, and you swore you saw the tips of his ears reddening a little.

Remembering your talk with Pan, you gulped nervously and played with your hair for a moment, trying to find the right words to admit your feelings. You were very tense, and hoped he would take it well. Finally, you found some courage in your frail body and looked directly at him. The lost one seemed concerned for a moment but waited for you to speak.

"Felix I... I care about you a lot." You tried, hoping he would understand.

"I do too." He confessed with a rare and genuine smile. "I care about you as well, more than the boys actually."

You sighed in relief with a small laugh. So he was not that of an idiot after all! That immediately reassured you.

"You matter for me... as well as Pan."

"Wh... What?" You breathlessly stuttered, eyebrows furrowimg in confusion.

"I care about you the same I care about Pan." He repeated confidently. "I will always have your back. It feels nice to say it."

"Right..."

You were such an idiot. You thought Felix loved you, obviously, he didn't. Then why was he sometimes... caring? Wasn't he the one who brought you the flowers in the first place? Wasn't it the reason why he messed with you a lot? You shook your head, hoping that your thoughts and feelings would disappear.

"I am tired. I should get to bed." You said, clearly sounding disappointed and taking off the cloak.

"It is for the best. I will stay, don't worry. You look a bit sick... you okay?" Felix questioned as you handed him back his cloak.

"Yes... Yes, don't worry about me." You gave him a fake reassuring smile and yet his eyes seemed to understand you were lying but he didn't question it.

What an imbecile you were, you thought as you stomped toward your small tent. Sometimes you wished you could take out your own heart and crush it beneath your foot. You hated having feelings.

#ouat felix #ouat felix imagines #ouat imagine #ouat felix x reader

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friendofhayley · 3 years

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I’m back after my hiatus from fanfiction, to give y’all the best multifandom recs of the fics I read this month. Shoutout to all content creators who helped us live to see the close of this year. This fic includes 15 fics for Sterek, Larry, Winteriron, and Geraskier. The starred ones put me through heaven and hell *chef’s kiss*.

Sterek (Teen Wolf)

1. Six Letter Word for Romance by @troubleiwant | domestic kink - omg there’s only one bed - soft Derek - oblivious idiots in love - 6k

Stiles definitely starts off thinking it’s fucking hilarious that Derek-sourwolf-Hale does crosswords and cares about scuffs on his furniture.

But at a certain point, and he can’t pinpoint exactly when, “fully functional adult couple” somehow becomes a massive fetish of his. Derek in sweats and bare feet, nudging his glasses up his nose while he does the Sunday crossword? Unff. Derek filling out forms to get some renovations on his property approved? Oh God, yes. Derek putting away groceries and bitching that the corner store was out of the right type of Greek yogurt? Take me now, Stiles thinks, worrying at his lower lip with his teeth.

This can’t be normal.

2. *Dirty Little Secret* by @isthatbloodonhisshirt | Cora & Stiles bffs - no one can resist the Stilinski charm - celebrity Derek - human au - 91k

“Holy shit, this is a date!” he blurted out, turning back to Derek wide-eyed. “This is a date! You intended for this to be a date, this was supposed to be a date!” He figured if he said it enough times, maybe he would believe it, but so far, no dice.

Derek was scowling again—seriously, did he want wrinkles?—but he just reached into one of the bags and pulled out a burger, checking what was written on the foil in sharpie before handing it over to Stiles.

“Of course it’s a date, what did you think this was?”

3. Can You Feel A Whole New Part of Your World? by @isthatbloodonhisshirt | i genuinely don’t look at authors names i just click i am sorry for spamming you but you write too good - neighbors Sterek - emotionally mature Stiles - the ideal fluffy world you’d want to live in - 53k

Can you hear me singing in the shower?” Stiles blurted out, because he had to know, now. If one of his neighbours had slid that note under his door, then it meant Parrish as another neighbour could hear him, too! He had to know if this was all a huge joke and one person had walked by and overheard him and decided to fuck with him.

Parrish gave him a weird look at the question, but answered anyway, making Stiles’ plans to leave the country speed up in his mind.

“Of course I can. You’re actually not bad. Though you have been singing a lot of Frozen lately, getting kind of tired of the soundtrack.”

4. Theory of Overprotective Canines by @petals42 | derek can turn into wolf - oblivious Stiles - future fic - mutual pining - 11k

Stiles is totally looking forward to living alone in his super cool apartment off-campus. He is. He is also very excited to bike to school every day, ready to set up an awesome game room, and definitely over his crush on Derek Hale. Completely over it.

Or at least he is until Derek decides he's moving in with him. And then turns out to be the perfect roommate. And then starts attending all his classes. As a wolf.

This is not going according to plan.

Larry (One Direction)

5. **The Changer and the Changed** by @homosociallyyours | literally the best fic of all time i want to live in there - girl direction - NYC ‘70s au - trans Zayn - the girls are so lovely - 59k

It’s the spring of 1977 and Harry Styles has just moved to New York City after graduating college. She knows she’s a lesbian. She just needs to figure out how to meet other lesbians.

Louis Tomlinson works at a popular women’s bookstore in the Lower East Side, Womon’s Direction, where she spends her days reading feminist literature, writing poetry, exchanging friendly barbs with her boss Niall, and dreaming of finding someone to love.

When Harry and Louis meet, their connection is instantaneous. Slowly but surely, Louis welcomes Harry into her community of women. Stonewall veteran and old school butch Niall; Liam, a land dyke who’s moved to the city for love; and Zayn, a lesbian musician who’s been ostracized by a vocal part of women’s community for being trans, welcome Harry with open arms, ready to help her find her place in New York City’s bustling lesbian scene.

6. others i’ve seen might never be mean (but they would never do) by @cherrylouvol6 | aaaaaaaa it’s lesbian When Harry Met Sally !!! - rom com - girl direction - coming out and first times - really great sex - 20k

Louis sighs.

“Do you remember what I said to you the first time we met?”

“That I’m naive and neurotic and would be hard pressed to ever find someone who could put up with me?” Harry snaps.

7. some things fade (some never do) by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed | aaaaaa this story took me apart and back together again just like Louis and Harry - urban fantasy au - second chances - exes to friends to lovers - hurt/comfort - 25k

Matching tattoos. He’d never thought he’d be the type for tattoos to begin with, let alone matching or magical ones, but once Harry had put the idea in his mind it had never quite managed to disappear. And it had made sense. With their relationship a long distance one, this was simply another way of feeling close to one another. Of knowing where the other was, how they felt. It had made so much sense.

Back then.

8. we can take the long way home by @eleadore | i usually don’t rec my porn but there’s so much feels in this one - canon-divergent - kink discovery - friends to lovers - this was written in 2015 as a future fic but it felt like it was taking place now so good job - 27k

“Fertile,” Louis says, and then laughs because it sounds stupid to say out loud. He hasn’t ever really thought of himself in those terms. Baby-making terms. It’s just one of those things his body can do, like exercise, or go without tea. Doesn’t mean he will.

Winteriron (MCU)

9. **Dig No Graves** by @missaphelion | Tony finds out about his parents right after winter soldier au - Tony Stark has a heart - Bucky heals with bots and lots of sugar - slow burn - 142k

"I'm here to kill you, Terminator," Tony said slowly, "does that compute?"

The soldier looked up at him with wide blue eyes and no expression. "Okay."

Tony froze. "Okay," he echoed. "I tell you I came here to kill you and your response is 'okay'?"

10. A Rifling Matter by Penndragon27 | Winter Soldier has such a big crush on Tony’s weapons, he escapes Hydra au - identity porn - pining Bucky - fluff and angst - Winter Soldier is a fanboy and it’s cute - 37k

All the Asset knows is fighting, killing.

He also knows a good weapon when he sees one and Stark Industries... they make some great weapons.

11. *Winter is Coming (aka Fifty First Avengers Dates)* by @tisfan & @everyworldneedslove | enemies to friends to lovers to 50 first dates - pining Bucky - Tony gets amnesia - no Steve bashing but he’s a little bit of an ass - mental health issues - 109k

Bucky Barnes is still mostly The Asset, and he's pretty sure Hydra is going to come back for him soon, so in the meantime he's just going to keep an eye on the Avengers for them. But then Clint spotted him hiding in the shadows, so Tony came out and dragged Bucky back to the Tower, threw him in the shower, and fed him cheeseburgers.

Now The Asset is having anomalous feelings. In his pants.

Geraskier (The Witcher)

12. *no reason to run* by @yoursummerfrost | different meeting au - only one bed but camping - cursed Jaskier - soft Geralt!!!! - poly negotiations - 61k

"You'll change your mind one day," says the innkeep. "The road can't love you back."

What a strange way to flatten something so beautiful, Jaskier thinks. What a small way to love.

13. *He Fell into a Faerie Ring* by @geraltnoises | Jaskier gets bardnapped after the fight au - non-human Jaskier - soft Geralt - Jaskier encourages people to be kind and becomes a god - emotionally mature Geralt - 57k

Traders are a gossiping sort. If there was a scandal within the noble houses of Posada, you’d hear about it in Cretegor by the end of the week. So, the quick spread of a rumor about a little village in the Kestrel Mountain range was not at all surprising. What was surprising was the story that the traders wove. They said that Luibhtorrach, a sad, ghost of a farming town, had miraculously become a hub for trade, as if overnight. Their lands unbelievably fertile and brimming with crop. Even stranger, each and every one of Luibhtorrach’s people professed that their good fortune was the work of a mysterious beast they’d claimed as their personal deity. Most recent news foretold of their plans to throw a midsummer festival celebrating this newfound god. In preparation, silken blue banners were erected in every corner of the town, each bearing the symbol of their new patron: A delicate dandelion wrapping around a golden sun.

14. Barking Up the Wrong Tree by KHansen | 5+1 things - I’m worried about Geralt’s skills - non-human Jaskier - monsterfucker Geralt - crack treated seriously - 11k

Geralt is 100% certain that Jaskier is a vampire.

He's 100% proven wrong.

15. Bardic Idyll by Lisztful | fake relationship - Geralt is soft and oblivious - pining - fluff and angst - Jaskier you can’t show your emotions mainly through song! - 13k

Jaskier is certain he can win the Continent's annual bardic competition, but he needs to be accompanied by a dashing romantic companion in order to enter. Enter Geralt, who is definitely, for sure, only interested in the free food, and not at all in staring lovingly into Jaskier's eyes.

#monthly fic rec #fic rec #sterek fic rec #larry fic rec #winteriron #geraskier #larrie hijinks #witcher #mcu

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popculturebuffet · 3 years

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Blog Updates: New Patreon Stretch Goals, Patreon Exclusive Reviews, New Story Arcs and Other Stuff

MHello everyone. For those of you seeing this through other tags my name is Jake. I do reviews on here that are usually full sumaries of an episode of a tv show or comic, with jokes and analsyis throughout. I’m doing this post as i’ve recently revamped by patreon a bit, check out VIA THIS LINK if your curious. I also have some other stuff going on with the blog that I thought might intrest the general public and especially you lovely followers. Thank you guys so much. Your support means a lot and feel free to interact with this post and any of the reviews. it’s always a pleasure. Leave your comments whatever. So let’s start with the patreon stuff

You Decide the Next Patreon Exclusive Review!:

Yes YOU will decide the Patreon Exclusive review for May. How? It’s simple: i’m currently reviewing the Lilo and Stitch crossover episodes, the first two this week with the American Dragon Jake Long crossover “Morpholomew” done yesterday, the Proud Family episode “Spats” coming later this week, and “Rufus” (Kim Possible) and “Lax” (Recess) coming next week and the week after that respectively.

As a way to gage intrest in the shows crossed over, and if I should review some of them on their own, i’m going to be watching the notes, and after the first week i’ll record how many a review got. This way the first review dosen’t get an advantage over the last and so on. Whichever episode gets the most votes wins and it’s show will get two reviews: One exclusive to Patreon in may you can check out for just a buck, and one for all of ya in June. So if you want to dragon up, get louder and prouder, check out what the sitch is, or have some recess, keep an eye on my blog and check out the review. Like it reblog, it, both. This is all in your hands. And if this little contest works out I may do another one like it in the future.

New Patreon Stretch Goals!:

For those unfamiliar with Patreon it’s a site that helps creators like me get paid for their work, used by such luminaries as Linkara, Pushing Up Roses and greatest of all Rifftrax.

Stretch Goals are an amount of money I get a month from patreons, that’s readers like you paying me. Even a buck a month would help a lot and help me put out a reviews and LIVE off doing this. But it’s a two way street so in order to entice you lovely people into paying me for doing my job and my passion with these reviews, i’ve updated the tiers, adding a wider and better range of rewards. I’m currenntly up to 15 dollars a month, or close enough that i’ve acitivated those rewards. And if you help me hit these tiers EVEYRONE gets PUBLIC, on here, for free reviews. Thanks to my lovely patreons Emma and Kevin you all are getting reviews of the first 5 Ducktales episode, aka Legend of the Golden Suns, with the second coming as soon as I finish this post. Even a buck helps us reach closer and for your dollar you get access to the discord, exclusive reviews, and to pick a short any time I review a bunch of shorts. And with Goofy’s birthday coming up next montha nd Donald’s after that, now is the best time for that. 5 dollar patreons also get one review as month, with 10 dollar ones getting two. You’ve already probably seen some of these: Kev has used one of his a month to have me review a house of mouse episode every month, and newest patreon and longtime friend Emma is using them to have me review the netflix dr. seuss adaptation “Green Eggs and Ham”. So whatever YOU want me to review I will and you’l lhelp unlock even MORE great reviews. So what do you get if you hit the goals? I’m glad you asked.

We’re up to 15 so next is...

20 Dollar Tier: Ducktales 87 Season 2 Mini Series!: Yes indeedy. Already on the Docket was the Super Ducktales Arc, which introducices the OG GIZMODUCCCKKKKK. But since that apparenlty wasn’t enough i’ve also added the OTHER mini series. While i’ll do super first since that’s the one with higher fan intrest once tha’ts done i’ll also review Time is Money, the time travel arc bringing in everyone’s faviroite scrappy Bubba. So if you want a buncha cruncha retro Ducktales pony up. But that’s not all the disney afternoon I got for this tier.

A Darkwing Duck Episode A MOnth: This one has also been promoted every time I could and still stands. If you like that mind behind the shadow disguise, that daring duck of mystery, that champion of right, then you’ll get one review a month about him, as voted on by you patreons.

Danny Phantom: The Ultimate Enemy: And since neither of these have helped me so far and stepping back into Amity Park made me realize how much I love the series, even if it’s creator is a 80 tons of smug asshole packed into a t-shirt he thinks is cooler than it is. So it only felt right to add the ghost boy to the tier and the best way to kick that off is with it’s second best, and only barely second behind Reign Storm, episode: The Ultimate Enemy! Danny finds his future is imperfect and must battle his own evil self! If you want my thoughts on one of the series finest hours, then help me hit 20 bucks a month to keep making content.

25 Dollar Tier:

I removed the Tail Spin content, though rest assured I will be covering Plunder and Lightning sometime this year. But what I replaced it with is even better.

One Danny Phantom Review a Month: YOu like teen superheros? you like ghosts? you like me slagigng off about butch hartman and trying to make it crystal clear his creation dosen’t wholly belong to him? Then you’ll like me reviewing Danny Phantom. And while i’m already doing that, this goal gaurantees one episode a month, and said episode will be voted on by my patreons. So if you pay for this you’ll not only get your monthly dose of going ghost.. but you’ll get a chance to PICK what it is.

Disney Shows To Movies Trilogy : I’ve decided to make it a tradition for my 15 dollar stretch goals to do a bunch of disney movies. And like with my last batch, which you’ll be seeing in may, i’m doing tv shows that got their own movies, theatrical or otherwise. And this time we’re doing MY generatoin: Kim Possible: So The Drama, the best story in the show’s histroy and the best movie in the Disney Channels! Recess: Schools Out! The suprisingly bonkers unsurprisingly awesome finale to an awesome show! and The Proud Family Movie, another UTTERLY BATSHIT finish to a great show. Lost at Sea and Seconds: This one’s for my scottaholics, fourth part of my Scott Pilgrim retrospective coming this week!. If you like me taking a look at Scott’s quest to punch the fuck out of his girlfriends exes while growing up a little, then if you help me get to the 30 dollar tier, i’ll also take a look at O’Malley’s other graphic novels Lost at Sea, which follows a girl who lost her soul and her boyfriend on a trip with what may be Young Neil’s older sister, and Seconds, the story of a woman with issues growing up who finds the ablitlity to travel through time.. or is it space? And some of you savvier readers my know he has nother comic. Where’s that one? wellllll

30 Dollar Tier:

Snotgirl: I’m saving this one for this tier. Reviews of each collected volume of snotgirl, Bryan’s first ongoing series, all three so far and any more to come about, unsuprisingly, a hot mess of a person, this time who might’ve done a murder. You know instead of defintely did a murder but in self defnese and with a longsword.

Gravity Falls Season 1!: One of Disney’s finest finally on this blog. All season 1 episodes reviewed in some way in some shape in some form. Star Vs Finale Arc!: You’ve heard me bitch about the problems in Tom’s story, and wil lcontinue to. Now see the terrible way everyone elses ends! From an amazing build up to an awful finish, see reviews of Every story relevant season 4 episode from Butterfly Follies to Cleaved that won’t already be covered in my tom retrospective. It’s a road to crushing disapointment, come on inside!

35 Dollar Tier: More Disney TV Adaptations!: Doug’s First Movie! See Doug get really fucking weird in his sea monster based movie with a punch line of a name! Teachers Pet, a great movie out of a show I barely saw! Kim Possible Live action! it’s suprisingly okay! and Recess Taking the Fifth: a compliation movie for a season we sadly never got.

Gravity Falls Season 2: Buillding on the first reward Gravity Falls Reviews will go beyond the first season and finish the job. From zombies, to dipcifica, to ford to weirdmageddon, I’m doin it all.

40 Dollar Tier:

Two HUGE Disney Focused Comics Retrospectives!

Darkwing Duck: In addition to the show, i’ll start reviewing the awesome follow up comic that got me into it. From the start to both finishes: the unathorized crossover finale and the sadly short lived sequel series from joe books, the worst mistake disney ever made that wasn’t racist, before Artemis Fowl said hold my beer. Also the short lived Ducktlaes series because why not.

The Incredibles!: The Family Dynamic! A comprehensive retrospective featuring reviews of the movie, the Mark Waid followup, the sequel that ignores said followup and the incomparable Christos Gage’s followup to THAT movie. Also that wonderfuly awful failed tv pilot bob made that he and lucius did a mst3k of.

45 Dollar Tier:

Disney Flims Lilo and Stitch a Thon: All four lilo and stitch movies, Lilo and Stitch, Lilo and Sitch 2, Stitch and Leroy and Stitch! All the hawaii, aliens and sequels you can handle!

Amphibia Season 1: I’ve done Season 2 as it comes out, i’ll be doing the same for season 3, so help me get here to see the start at least once a month, but two at a time!

50 Dollar Tier: The last one for now. I’ll probably go to 10 dollar tiers after this.

The Owl House Season 1: While I wait for the second season to start so I can cover it, have me do the rest of season 1! The only exceptions are the already covered Enchanted Grom Fright and the earmarked for pride month wing it like witches!

The Two Loves and 87 Mistakes of Mordecai: A regular show romancetrospective, as we go through the downs, ups, higher ups and crushing lows of Modercai’s romantic arcs from regular show. His crush on margert, making his move, moving on, moving on to cj, and then the horrible cluster fuck I’ve talked about nonstop and will again and again as one of the worst romantic arcs in memory as they shot the relationship in the foot head and groin! Force me to relive it all!

So yeah I’ll add more tiers, again probably 10 dollars apart if I get to 50, but given I barely got to 15 i’m not optimistic. PROVE ME WRONG. HELP ME HIT 50.

Other Stuff:

Finally outisde of Patreon, that was the main reason for this, I have news on my various arcs. For one thing i’ll be trying to keep the pace better, so expect at least one entry a month for ones i’m doing on my own time like the tom retrospective, life and times and Scott pilgrims. Ones kev does will be done weekly to keep my wallet afloat.

I also have two more retrospectives incoming! The first is paid for by Kev: I’l lbe tackling ALL THREE SEASON 2 ARCS OF DUCKTALES 2017. After the headache of trying to cram the della arc into three weeks to keep up with the lena one, I decided i’td be better for pacing if I did all three at once and kev agreed to it, if using his patreon reviews to cushion the blows. So starting next month i’ll be covering the Louie, Della and Glomgold/Owlson arcs, swapping between them in episode order. With that I should be FAR closer to having covered every ducktales episode. Granted i’ll still have 17 to cover, but it’ll make that much more managable.

The second comes in June specifically timed for Pride Month. With Scott Pilgrim Wrapping up in August just in time for the movie’s anniversary, I decided to start covering another one of my faviorite comics of all time. It’s time to transform, roll out and make this precoius it’s Transformers More than Meets the Eye! For those of you unfamiliar it’s an idw comic that follows a rag tag group of transformers, about half of them gay or gay coded, on a mission to find the lost knights of cybertron and bring ballance to a post war cybertron.. which quickly devloves into hyjinnks with a side order of heartrending deaths and charcter development... and references to dexy’s midnight runners.

So that’s all for now. thank you for reading, please support my patreon as the next pay term is at the start of next month, so if you want me to start on any of those stretch goals, nows the time. Please help me earn a living and until all are one, i’ll see you at the next rainbow.

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and Basics (1, 3, 7) + Life (9, 14, 15) + Wasteland (4, 10, 11, 12) for Sara >:)

BASICS

1. What are their SPECIAL stats?

Strength: 4

Perception: 7

Endurance: 6

Charisma: 4

Intelligence: 9

Agility: 7

Luck: 3

3. Which perks or traits would they have?

Traits don’t exist in fo3 unfortunately but she has the Daddy’s girl (tobey mcguire spider man voice look at little james jr.. gonna cry?), Educated, Little Leaguer and Swift Learner perks..... and Black Widow.

7. Do they have a preferred way of fighting, or do they avoid physical conflict?

She’d rather avoid physical conflict because she’s not very strong.. however she also has no charisma so fights are unavoidable <3 She mainly uses her good old baseball bat and laser weapons :-)

LIFE

9. Do they prefer to travel alone or with a companion or a group? Do they have many friends or connections otherwise?

She travels alone for the first half of the events of fo3... She’d rather have someone with her but that’s the way it is :( after James dies she just aimlessly wanders around the wasteland and makes friends i guess so she ends up with Butch and Dogmeat tagging along c:

Outside her 2 people and a dog gang she doesn’t have a lot of friends and she doesn’t even really consider Butch her friend because of the way he was in the vault -_- The only one she somewhat hangs out with are Moira.. and Bryan Wilks, that kid from Grayditch. Gets weirdly attached to some random kid who lost his dad too 😔 she ends up visiting him in Rivet City a lot after he starts living there with his aunt

14. What sort of things do they always carry with them?

Her old baseball bat.. nr one weapon even though it does little damage. Also a few keepsakes from the Vault.. her tunnel snakes jacket (yes its trash yes she still hates Butch at this point but it’s a nice little reminder of home), a stupid little friendship bracelet Amata made for her and her old favorite ribbon she has since she was about 10 <3

15. What do they do with their time besides try to survive? Do they have a proper occupation?

She technically had an occupation back in the vault.... Pip Boy programmer c: which was assigned of course and she’d rather be something else but it was okay for a vault job.

She doesn’t have a real job outside the vault anymore except the work she does for project purity. She likes to listen to old records in her free time (would love to go to dances like in pre-war movies too but she didnt have anyone to go with in the vault & they sucked anyway and nobody would do that in the wasteland). She likes astronomy though, she loves to stargaze and look at different constellations :) At least the emptiness of the wasteland means less lights so she can have a better look at the stars

WASTELAND

4. Which wasteland animal or creature are they most afraid of?

Centaurs duh 😖 she’s afraid of almost everything initially but centaurs are the one thing she’ll never get used to

10. Do they listen to the radio? Do they have a favorite station, song, program, etc.?

Fuck yes she does... all the time. She listens to GNR of course, she tuned in to the Enclave Radio for the first few days outside the Vault just to hear someone talk but eventually stops, for obvious reasons. The GNR songs are more fun, if a little repetitive. her favorites are mighty mighty man and easy living :-)

As for songs that aren’t on the game’s radio..... playlist time.

11. How do they feel about ghouls and other mutated (but otherwise non-hostile) people?

Omg she doesn’t have anything against them or anything and feels bad for them but they kind of scared her initially... asks rude questions, why they look like that and all that -_- it was out of curiosity and not to be annoying because she genuinely had no idea why they looked like that but yk.

12. What do they think about raiders? Slavers?

The first few Raiders she stumbled upon kind of freaked her out because she didn’t expect other humans would possibly attack her for no reason.. but they did. She hates them especially because they’re making this already shitty world even worse, even though they don’t have to.

#jennystahl #c: sara #thank u :-)#i can post spotify links bc no one reads these anyway #sorry these answers suck

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ilovefanfic86 · 3 years

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Supernatural S15E20 “Carry On” Series Finale

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD

Warning!!! I am going to be very emotional in this post. I kinda still am. There will also be plenty side noes.

I knew they would play that version. (Grabs tissues)

They were babies.

Bobby will always be the dad the boys desrved.

Sam was so damn buff in “Lazurus Rising”.

I like how we get to the old characters/actors.

It feels like they wanted to make us cry before the actual episode.

Here we go...

*Deep breaths*

Lol!! “Ordinary Life”

Dean kept Miracle!

THANK YOU JARED!!!

I’m Sam making the bed.

I loved this montage of Sam and Dean living a free life.

The title card for the last time.

Pie Fest!!

Finally Someone brought up Castiel.

*Side Note*

What Dean said makes sense. Them honoring Cas’s sacrifice by being happy and free is what the should do, but fuck that.

What is this purge shit?!

They are SINGER AND KRIPKE!

Haven’t seen John’s journal in forever. Its beautiful to see that they still have to use it.

Evil mimes = Vamp mimes Thank you Dean.

Well its clear that Jack brought back everyone. Good cause I was worried about Garth.

I don’t trust this plan.

Dean and his ninja stars are too funny.

Yea, clearly a trap.

*Side Note 2*

I am feeling a little let down with the “MOTW” storyline. It’s not what I was expecting. Hopefully this goes somewhere.

Damn! Sam got his ass scooped up.

Wait... What? Jenny? I barely remember her.

Oh... Well bye Jenny.

DAMN IT DEAN!!!!!!!!!!!

I FUCKING HATE THIS SHOW!!!!!

Dean telling Sam that he is proud of him.

STOP!!

I am truly speechless right now. Dean is really dead.

Poor Sam. He had a hunter’s funeral with just the dog.

My heart is really broken right now.

Thank you Donna.

*Side Note 3*

I noticed that the call is from Texas. Like “Walker: Texas Ranger” Lol!!

I am having anxiety watching Sam leaving the bunker.

The Table...

*Side Note 3*

How did Dean fight the universe’s ultimate badasses and was taken out by a FUCKING NAIL!!?!?!?!?!

Dean and Cas deserved better.

Dean is in heaven.

BOBBY!!!

Wait... What did Jack do?

So, no more reliving life’s greatest hits?

Rufus is with Aretha Franklin and John and Mary live up the road.

Harvelle’s Roadhouse.

CAS HELPED JACK MAKE HEAVEN FOR DEAN!! SO CAS IS IN HEAVEN?!?!?!?

Except... WHERE THE FUCK IS CAS?!?!?!?

There’s Baby! With the original license plate.

Sam had a baby and named him Dean!

I can’t see the woman on the porch? Is that Eileen?

Little Dean has the possession tatt.

OH GOD SAM IS ABOUT TO DIE!

An acoustic version of “Carry On...” Who said that this was okay?!!!!

Is he going to meet Dean on the bridge?!!

“Heya Sammy.”

After watching the episode a few more times and reading the lastest gossip about the finale. I do have some opinions on the matter. Some of you may agree and some may not. These are my opinions and thoughts.

Given all that has happened this year I am grateful that they filmed anything. They risked their health and the health of their familes, to get us the finale. I appreciate that. However, there is clearly somethings that were amiss.

First, Dean. (a.)At first I was just completely hurt about his death. I was so mad that he was killed by rebar because of a lame ass vampire. I get the angle that they were going for with it. Now that Chuck isn’t writing their lives anymore, they don’t have plot armour anymore. Basic shit can hurt them now. Just like when the didn’t have any “luck”, regular people shit happened to them. So, if you fight in a barn around random ass rebar sticking out, you’re bound to get hurt.

(b.)Social Media. I get on Twitter and Supernatural is trending. But, not because of high praise. No. It was because a lot of the fandom felt cheated by the finale. Which is how i felt at the time.Then that Jensen did not like the ending. That he thought that the ending was going to be different than what we got. Granted that they couldn’t go full out because of the virus. If I am correct, Jensen said that they would go out “Butch and the Sundance Kid” style. Plus they edited so much of the episode “Despair” that him and Misha felt that the charaters were cheated. Also Jo (Alona Tol) and Ellen (Samatha Ferris) Harvelle were not asked back. Which I thought was strange.

(c.) What happened to all of Dean’s earthly possessions?

Seceond, Sam. (a.)Sam’s life. I am glad that Sam got to live a long life and have the family that he always wanted. I know that because of the pandemic we couldn’t shoot everyone together. That being said, Did Sam marry Eileen? We don’t see or hear from her. The only glimpse of his wife is on the porch and its so far away we can’t tell who it is. Also in Sam’s montage, we see a lot of pictures inside his house. But not one of his wife. It just seems rushed is all.

(b.)Sam’s aging. I am not okay with the wig that they had Jared wear. It looked like a Party City wig. Again, rushed production. But, I do forgive them for a shirtless Sam/Jared. THANK YOU!

(c.)Sam’s heaven. This may go into the plotholes area. When Sam goes to heaven will he see Jess again? Jess was the love of his life and he said that he still thinks about her.

Third, Castiel. (a.) Misha Collins did a amazing job as Castiel. His performance in “Despair” really broke me. That being said, Cas deserved better than the show gave him. A few mentions in the last episode. But no one is really talking about the fact that Cas confessed his love for Dean and it was completely ignored. We just know that Jack got Cas out the Empty and they both made a new heaven for Dean. Does Cas and Dean ever see eah other?

(b.)Destiel/CasDean. DESTIEL BECAME CANON! This was a huge thing for the SPN fandom. People who have never watched the show were interested by this. This made 2020 a little more enjoyable. Now, I know that there are some that are against Destiel. That is your right and opinion. However, it is now plain to see that Cas has always had the feelings toward Dean. And they are not on a platonic level. There has been years of evidence to this. Sam and Cas’s relationship is not the same as his and Dean’s. Naomi programmed Cas to kil Dean but couldn’t once the time came. From angel to demon, Devil and God has all said at one point or another that Castiel was in love wth Dean.. Whenever Cas died on the show, Dean spirals out of control. He always tries to find something else to get his mind off the fact that Cas is gone. Does Dean feel the same for Cas? I’m not sure, but I lean more to that he does. I have always believed that Dean was Bisexual. He’s been seen checking out men on the show. I just wsh that they would at least acknowledged it.

Fourth, Plotholes.(a) There are so many plotholes after the finale that I need answers to. I have too many to put on here. I will put those in a different post.

For what the finale was, I liked it. It did fall a little flat, but if I just focus on the fact that they both got the ending they deserved.

2 brothers, hunters, Archangels vessels, Men of Letters, Legacies, Knight of Hell, Boy!King, ‘Messengers of God’s Destruction’, Dads, Heros. Thank you.

Sam and Dean Winchester... There is peace, now you’re done.

(not my gifs)

#supernatural #Sam Winchester #Jared Padalecki #dean winchester #Jensen Ackles #castiel #Misha Collins #jake kline #alexander calvert #bobby singer #jim beaver #spn spoilers #SPN #spn final season #spn finale #spn s15e20 #SPN Spoiler #Carry On My Wayward Son

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early morn i find a home

Part 2/4 of my diner stories series

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

Pairings: Platonic Prinxiety

Characters: Virgil Sanders, Roman Sanders

TW: self-harm, mentioned abuse, depression

Words: 1,317

Summary: Roman suddenly has a huge problem to deal with, but a waiter’s there to help.

Note: This is probably not realistic. Or maybe it’s just luck.

The diner was silent as Virgil replaced the salt on the last table. He doubted there would be many customers after 2:00 AM, whether it be because it's 2:00 AM or the diner has a 2.5 star rating. He was sure there were a couple other reasons as well.

That's why he jumped when the door's annoying jingle sounded and a teenager around his age walked in. He immediately made his way to the back of the diner, ignoring Virgil.

Was he- crying?

The kid proceeded to sit down at a booth and slam his head onto the table, sobbing into his Letterman sleeves.

Virgil stood a bit shocked, but he'd seen weirder. He set down the salt, half full and made his way to the booth. He pushed down his anxiety. This person obviously needed help.

"Um," he said while sitting down across from the sobbing person before him, "are you okay?"

Stupid question. Of course not.

The boy sobbed harder, and Virgil let him. He soon took off his jacket, revealing blood, bruises and scars on his arms to use the wet Letterman as a pillow.

"Oh my- I'll get something to wrap that-"

The boy weakly objected, but doing so seemed to only make him cry harder. Virgil trembled as he rushed to the back room, fumbling the First Aid kit from its high shelf.

When he returned, the boy was somewhat calmer, but jumped when Virgil tapped him to ask if he could give him his arm. Reluctantly, he held it out and Virgil started wrapping it.

He couldn't help but notice the amount of scars left on this boy's body, and the new deep cuts that would surely make more. He taped the ends and the boy turned his head sideways on the table to look at it.

"Do… you wanna talk?" It felt awkward asking this as a stranger, but he supposed it was the best he could do.

"I-" the boy choked, "I got kicked out," he looked ready to cry again, "of my house, I, I don't have a home, I don't have money, I have nowhere to go, I don't know what to do-"

"Hey, it's, it's okay. Do- do you need food? Have you eaten today?"

"I don't have any money-"

"No, it's okay, don't worry about it."

Virgil gazed at the kid's tear-stained face until he got a slight nod. He proceeded to prepare some bacon and toast (their breakfast was better than anything else) and a milkshake, because even if it wasn't the best milkshake, this kid looked like he could use one.

Virgil brought it over and set it down. The boy started eating slowly, but gaining speed. He finished quickly and stared at the table anxiously.

"When was the last time you ate?"

He mumbled "last night" almost quiet enough that Virgil couldn't hear.

"Oh my God- I'll get you more food."

"You don't have to, I'm already wasting it."

"It's not a waste, I swear."

Virgil gave him a more substantial sandwich, which he did eat a little slower than the bacon and toast. When he finished, he laid his arms crossed against the table and put his head on them, flinching presumably from pain before settling down.

"If you need anything, just tell me."

"What I need is a house," he whispered, “sorry.”

"No, it's fine."

Virgil was greeted with silence, so he spoke again.

"What's your name?"

The boy sighed. "Roman. Like my parents would ever call me that, though."

"Um, if you don't mind sharing, why'd they kick you out?"

Roman choked back tears before he couldn't. He began repeatedly slamming his head on the table, far too hard to be healthy. Virgil tried his best to put his hand between his head and the table, and Roman soon grew tired of trying and let his head fall limp on Virgil's hand.

"They kicked me out because I was trans. Well, that and the point they've made many times that I'm a worthless piece of shit," he gestured vaguely to bruises on his shoulder.

"Decided I was gonna finally cut my hair and wear my fucking binder with them. They didn't take it very well. God, I'm so stupid," he said, resuming attempts to give himself a concussion.

Virgil instead, this time, held Roman's head away from the table, who started crying again.

"If it's any consolation… you pass really well.” Virgil rubbed his neck awkwardly. “When I first cut my hair I just looked like a butch lesbian."

Virgil cautiously let Roman's head go, and to his relief it looked up at Virgil instead.

"You're trans too?!?"

"Oh, uh, yeah. I was dumb when I picked a name like 'Virgil,' though. You picked a nice name. Roman."

"You named yourself after a poet?!"

Roman looked delighted at this news, but it didn't last for long.

"If I even mentioned any masculine names, my mom or dad would fucking beat me. Whoever was there, usually."

"Holy shit. I can't imagine having to deal with that. It's way too much for anyone to ever go through."

Roman mumbled a small "I probably deserve it," before going silent again, tracing the patterns on his cup with his finger, watching the ice melt.

“No, you don’t! You don’t deserve to be hurt like that!”

“You sure? I’m kinda a shitty person.”

“I promise you’re not. If anything you’ve said to me means anything at all.”

A silence fell over them for a few minutes.

"What am I going to do?"

Virgil thought for a moment, looking at the person in front of him. His hair was ruffled and messy, and his eyes were puffy from crying. He glanced at the bandages holding back most of the blood, and the binder strap peeking through his shirt. One earring hung out of his ear, the other seemingly ripped out in someone's anger. His jacket was almost bloody and stained, his shirt not faring much better. Once-twinkling eyes stared dully at their hand, shaking against its glass absently. On one hand, they were basically strangers. On the other, this kid just got kicked out of his house. He had nothing.

"I know we literally just met, but, I mean I don't know, it wouldn't be a guarantee, but I bet my mom would- might let you stay at our house, at least for a little bit. I mean, I don't know, maybe she wouldn't, we’re not exactly rich, but she really cares about LGBT+ youth and if you got a job you might be able to afford a small apartment with someone once you're a legal adult, I doubt she'd mind until then, I mean how old are you? Sorry, I just, wanna help."

Roman looked on the verge of tears, smiling acutely at Virgil.

"S-same thing with the 'don't know you very well', but I could," he paused, "really use a hug right now. Of course like, don’t feel pressured-"

Virgil obliged instantly, switching sides of the booth to give his new friend a tight, long hug. Roman started crying again, but this time he had a real, full, wide smile on his face. He leaned into it, hugging back like his life depended on it.

"Thanks for your offer, but I wouldn't wanna be a hassle or anything or waste your family's money-"

"It's okay. If she's really concerned about that, which I'm sure she won't be, I can use the money I earn here. I won't let you be homeless."

"You'd really do that for someone you met at 2AM at a diner?"

"You need it, and I can provide it."

Roman started crying happy tears, grinning like he'd never been this happy before. From what Virgil could tell, he probably hadn't. Roman could barely believe it.

Not only would he be living in a house, but a home.

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“From Something to Nothing to Something” - Part 4

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Alfred Pennyworth x Reader

Word Count: 2,000-ish

Key: Y/N = Your Name, H/C = Your Hair Color, E/C = Your Eye Color

Warnings: Depression type things, cursing(?)

Summary: After an apartment robbery changes your life, you find out how lucky you are.

Author’s Note: I know Alfred isn’t a high demand character, but I loved his arch and how they portrayed him in the show. I hope you enjoy!

This is not beta-read, so let me know if there are any huge mistakes.

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After a few months, you wished that you could say “I have a better apartment, a better job, and I feel safer than before!”

Only one of those things is true.

You were still living in Wayne Manor. It was beautiful as always, but you hadn’t anticipated living there for more than a month or so. You felt as if you had been taking advantage of Bruce’s generosity even though he always said that it was no problem. You had even tried to give him or Alfred money for groceries, bills, gas, or even just for their willingness to help and house you. They always refused your money. If you ever managed to sneak some money into one of their coat or pant pockets, that money always found itself back on your bedside table.

As for your job, almost a week after moving in with Bruce and Alfred, Oswald’s club had been taken over by Barbra Kean and Tabitha Galavant and is now called “the Sirens.” So needless to say, you were unemployed. You helped out as much as you could around the house while applying for jobs all over Gotham. Hoping something would catch. But so far it was just a lot of “We’ve decided to go with someone else” or “We’re sorry but…” type of emails and phone calls.

With all of the negatives that sprang into your life recently, you could at least say that you felt safer than before.

Wayne Manor was so hushed and far away compared to the constant cars and sirens and people that you had gotten used to. Between the silence and the isolation from the rest of the city, it put you on edge for the first few weeks. But once you got comfortable being there again, it became more and more safe.

Some days were easier than others when it came to motivating yourself. You tried to hide the bad days from Bruce and Alfred. But sometimes it was hard to do that.

Today was one of the harder days.

You had been able to get up and open the curtains and grab your sketchbook, but nothing more than that. Some doodles were scattered on a page while you stayed in bed staring off into space and zoning out. You knew you needed to get up and do something productive today or at least eat, but your lack of energy kept you under your covers with no concept of time until Alfred knocked on your bedroom door.

“(Y/N)? You alive in there?”

“Shit. Yeah! Hang on!” You hadn’t expected anyone for a little bit. You could have sworn that Bruce said they had a meeting at Wayne Enterprises this morning. You shuffled to the door and tried to prepare an “okay” look on your face.

“Good morning, Alfie! What are you doing here? I thought there was a meeting?”

“There was. It was at 11 o’clock.” Alfred looked down at his watch. “It’s now 2 in the afternoon.” You grabbed his wrist to look at the time yourself, then looking back at the clock on your nightstand to make sure you were seeing things right. You ran both of your hands over your face and through your hair as you let out a groaned sigh.

“Goddamnit.”

“Are you alright, (Y/N)?” You quickly plastered a small smile on your face in an attempt to make yourself sound true.

“Of course. I just lost track of the day. Why wouldn’t I be okay?” Alfred lifted the back of his hand to your forehead to feel for any sign of fever. When he found nothing, he opened the door more and made his way to sit on the side of your bed.

“Well something is off, so you might as well tell me now before it gets worse, yeah?”

Alfred pat the space next to him and you shuffled over and plopped next to him, laying on your back while he sat upright. There was a moment of silence as Alfred thought over his next action carefully. While you weren’t looking, he reached out for your hand and took it in his, brushing his thumb over the back of it comfortingly. You already felt tears starting to sting your eyes as you held on a little tighter to his hand and shut your eyes.

After a moment of silence, all you could muster was, “This sucks.”

“I beg your pardon?”

“I am thankful for everything you and Bruce have done for me. But I feel like I’m stuck and I have no idea where life is going at the moment and that equally terrifies me and makes me upset. It’s got me asking myself, `What's the point?’ some days. At least when I was working for Penguin, I felt like I was contributing to something. Whether I was contributing to something good or bad was not my choice, but I was still doing something. Now I don’t even have the chance to produce much of anything.”

“You do plenty here.” With your eyes closed, you couldn’t tell that Alfred was watching your face as you tried to hold in some emotions. “You help cook and clean. I’m sure without you cooking sometimes Bruce and I would miss a meal when we get too involved in our work. Not to mention you have kept Master B in check plenty of times while I’ve had my back turned.”

“I guess. But I still feel so small. I mean, I went from growing really quickly with Oswald and Butch at the bar because of my ability to learn and adapt quickly, to then having everything taken from me. And I couldn’t even go back to work because this is Gotham and nothing is really permanent.”

A brief silence left your words hanging in your head. Another tear slipped as you let out a shaky breath. Alfred saw, but didn’t say anything, he just kept holding your hand and trying to comfort you the best he could.

“Starting over isn’t easy for anyone, (Y/N). All of us have had to restart more than we expected these days. You just have to be patient and take things as they come. And you have a support system behind you, ready to help with whatever you need.”

You really didn’t want to cry in front of Alfred, which made your throat clench with unshed cries. All you could muster was an approving nod. A minute of comfortable silence drifted as you regained your breath and felt your chest loosen. Alfred kissed the back of your hand, your skin heating up at the unexpected but welcomed affection, before standing up and offering his hand out to you. Sitting up, you tilted your head slightly.

“C’mon, you. Since you haven’t been out of bed all day, I’m assuming you haven’t eaten. So,” Alfred stepped forward, grabbing both of your hands as you scooted towards the edge of the bed, pulling you up with a smile, “up ya’ go!”

You didn’t expect to be lifted so quickly and almost effortlessly, meaning you easily lost your balance. You laughed as you bumped into Alfred, his hands quickly moving from yours to your waist to keep you from falling back into bed, your smile not fading.

Seeing you smile like this made Alfred’s heart grow, forming a smile on his own face. Having you in his arms was something he wasn’t sure would happen outside of a normal hug. It made his heart beat so loud that he was sure you could feel it from your palms on his chest. Before he could get too into his own head, he spoke.

“Shall we then?”

The two of you walked to the kitchen, you tried to help cook or at least clean some of the dishes from their breakfast earlier this morning, but Alfred just moved you to the nearby chair. While he had his back turned to put the kettle on and start preparing lunch for everyone, you snuck on some light background music. It was an album of classics: Sinatra, Louis Armstrong, et cetera. You hummed along as you flipped through a nearby cookbook. You heard a soft chuckle from Alfred. “You got a problem with my music choices, Alfie?”

“Not at all, miss! Just amazed that you know some of these.”

“You forget that my parents lived off of artists like these.”

“Very true.”

Alfred was working on making tea for the two of you when you slid to the other side of the stove and took over grilling some veggies for whatever he had in store for lunch. He just gave you a look before fixing your tea exactly how you liked it. Instead of handing it to you when the veggies finished cooking, he set it on the table where he sat you moments ago. You sat down and he took the pan of vegetables off the heat, then finished preparing his own cup.

When he turned around, you were staring at the mug of tea, your eyes starting to get glassy. He walked closer, putting a hand on your shoulder as he sat in the seat next to you.

“Everything alright, miss?” You jumped, not realizing how far into your thoughts you were.

“Yeah. I just.. I wasn’t expecting this mug.”

“Right. I hope you don’t mind. Detective Gordon called the earlier, asking how you were doing. He also said that your old landlord was renting out your space despite everything going on. So Bruce and I went over after the meeting at Wayne Enterprises and got the last of your things out. I thought it would be a nice thing to see that mug again.” Alfred paused, trying to read your reaction. When it didn’t change, Alfred worried he had messed up. “But if it reopened any wound or anything, I can get a different--”

“No. It’s fine. It’s actually perfect.” You swiped a tear off your cheek before reaching for Alfred’s hand and giving it a squeeze. “Thank you, Alfie.”

“Anything for you, luv.” Alfred gently squeezed your hand back.

Something inside of you wanted to just throw every bit of hesitation out the window and kiss him for being so sweet towards you. You felt as if you both were on the same page, but too scared to keep going. You shifted your focus when you saw movement behind Alfred’s shoulder.

“Hey, Bruce!” Alfred pat your hand before letting go, rising and making his way back to lunch preparations. You smiled at Bruce and quickly wiped whatever remaining wetness was around your eyes.

“Good afternoon, (Y/N)! Are you alright?”

“Yes. Just got a bit emotional over a silly mug.” You chuckled hearing yourself. Bruce smiled. “Come sit! Tell me how the meeting went!”

Alfred looked over his shoulder to catch a glimpse of you talking with Bruce. You were always so good with him despite an age gap. It was another part of you that made Alfred’s heart yearn for you.

If only he could tell you how he felt.

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way-down-meme-town · 4 years

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The Prom (Act I) Lyric Meme

Changing Lives 1. "When I'm in character, I go insane." 2. "I make the audiences feel my pain, and if they don't leave depressed, then I've not done my job." 3. "Even the people who are dead inside will shout bravo." 4. "It means that this tour de force will not be forced to tour." 5. "Cheers to a show that's so inspiring it's almost too much to sit through." 6. "In two words, it's history-making." 7. "That's why every actor strives for adulation and compensation that comes from nightly changing lives."

Changing Lives (Reprise) 8. "We're gonna prove that in this day and age, being gay isn't a crime." 9. "This is our moment to change the world one lesbian at a time." 10. "We're gonna help that little lesbian whether she likes it or not." 11. "When you're a legendary thespian, first you help the distressed then you help the distraught." 12. "Why sing and dance when you can take a chance and know you're truly changing lives." 13. "We're gonna match until that town looks like the end of act one of Les Mis." 14. "You don't gotta have a Ph.D in psych to know that people kowtow to the folks in the biz."

Just Breathe 15. "Note to self: don't be gay in Indiana." 16. "There are places where it's in to be out, maybe San Francisco or thereabout." 17. "If you're not straight, then guess what's bound to hit the fan." 18. "Just breathe. Not everyone is that repressed." 19. "Just breathe. It wouldn't be high school without a test." 20. "Just close your eyes and count to ten. Go to your happy place." 21. "Who's this girl you're gonna bring to the prom, anyway?" 22. "I didn't know we had more than one lesbo in town." 23. "You don't know her. She's new here." 24. "Note to self: people suck in Indiana." 25. "Leave today. Pray the grayhound isn't full." 26. "Who knew asking out a girl to prom would go over just like an atom bomb." 27. "Just breathe. Picture a beach with golden sand." 28. "Okay, I just got off the phone with the states attorney. Like I suspected, they think this is a civil rights issue." 29. "Just breathe. Remember that thing called oxygen." 30. "Just breathe. Look at the crazy state you're in."

It's Not About Me 31. "I wanna tell the people of whatever this town's called I know what's going on here, and frankly, I'm appalled." 32. "Unless I'm doing The Miracle Worker, I won't play blind, deaf, and dumb." 33. "Listen, you bigoted monsters, just who do you think you are?" 34. "How do you silence a woman who's known for her belt?" 35. "Go on then, threaten to riot. It won't phase me in the least." 36. "I understand furious townsfolk. I did Beauty and the Beast." 37. "Equality should be this country's norm." 38. "This is how actors intervene, through fiery song and dance breaks." 39. "Although I'm rich and famous, publicity is not my final goal." 40. "Wait, this is not about me."

Dance With You 41. "I don't want to start a riot." 42. "I don't want to blaze a trail." 43. "I don't want to be a symbol or cautionary tale." 44. "I don't want to be a scapegoat for people to oppose." 45. "What I want is simple as far as wanting goes." 46. "I just wanna dance with you. Let the whole world melt away." 47. "When we're through, no one can convince us we were wrong." 48. "All it takes is you and me and a song." 49. "I don't need a big production, streamers hanging in the air." 50. "I don't need to spend the night with confetti in my hair." 51. "I don't need a room of people that I don't really know." 52. "I just want to hold you and never let you go." 53. "Two people swaying slowly, nothing more and nothing less. Why anybody fears that is anybody's guess."

The Acceptance Song 54. "Flowers accept the rain and grow more beautiful." 55. "Babies accept their mother's breast so they can grow strong." 56. "I accept that I was born a handsome man." 57. "Bigotry's not big of me and it's not big of you." 58. "Let's all work together to make rainbow dreams come true." 59. "Acorns accept the sun and turn to mighty oaks." 60. "Let us accept one another. Join our fight today."

You Happened 61. "Since JV football I've been adored, big man on campus but oh so bored." 62. "My life was perfect, but so routine. I prayed for someone to intervene." 63. "Something new happened and turned my life around entirely, and that's cause you happened." 64. "There's not one subject that I could pass before you walked into my Spanish class." 65. "Life without you was no bueno." 66. "I won't hide if you're by my side."

We Look To You 67. "My days have little glamour." 68. "That's why I love theather. It's how I escape." 69. "Theater is a distraction? Is that what you're saying?" 70. "A distraction is momentary. An escape helps you heal." 71. "We look to you in good times and bad." 72. "The worlds you create make the real ones seem less sad." 73. "The curtain goes up and every now and then, it feels as if we're coming home again." 74. "We need a place to run to when everything goes wrong." 75. "We look to you, as strange as it seems, when reality goes to scary extremes." 76. "This I guarantee. Next time you think no one cares, you can look to me."

Tonight Belongs To You 77. "He can turn this butch-y duck into a swan." 78. "Your whole look could use a shake-up. You can borrow all my make-up." 79. "Treat the whole world like your runway." 80. "Make it fierce but in a fun way." 81. "I don't mean to be rude, dear, but you could use some attitude." 82. "Let's show the school that tonight belongs to you." 83. "One things universal, life's no dress rehearsal. So why not make some waves before it's through?" 84. "Go big or you've blown it." 85. "It's time that you own it." 86. "Let's make it clear that tonight belongs to you." 87. "I can guess your whole agenda." 88. "You be Elphie. I'm Galinda." 89. "It's makeover time, so why not just give in?" 90. "Oh, god. I can't believe this is finally happening." 91. "She almost ruined it for all of us." 92. "I hate to sound conceited, but the boys get overheated when I strike a pose or two like thus." 93. "You have to hand it to me. I mean, even I would do me." 94. "I have worked very hard on this night and I have a right to enjoy it, too." 95. "You are going to have a wonderful prom. Like a normal girl. I made sure of that." 96. "Trust me, fixing little problems is what I do." 97. "You're my superstar. Now get your ass in the car." 98. "Make it clear that tonight belongs to us."

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igottoomuchwriting · 4 years

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Sincerely, Me (Chapter 3)

Series: Part 1/Previous Chapter/Next Chapter

Homecoming was just next week, and Connor was not ready. If he could skip a whole week of school with no consequences, this would be the week he does it. Every year since freshman year, he didn’t dress up and without fail, there would be at least one kid from student council who would bash on him for not dressing up with everyone else.

Right now it was lunch time, and Connor and Evan were sitting and watching a girl talking to her boyfriend. Connor could tell that she was a freshman, and he knew the boy as one of the most popular kids in their class. She was showing him texts on her phone and was obviously upset, and the boy just kept looking away and faking care.

Figures.

“I don’t think I will ever understand the hype for homecoming,” Connor mumbled. “Why is everyone excited to sit and watch a game where we will have our asses handed to us, a dance performance where you can’t even hear the music, and go to a dance where at least one fight happens and three couples break up?”

“The drama?” he heard Evan guess. Connor shrugged his shoulders. Evan’s guess was as good as his.

He turned around so he could face Evan all the way, already bored with watching the couple. He saw that Evan had ate a little bit of what the school has given him and he mentally sighed. Sometimes Evan just wouldn’t eat and it always concerned Connor, even if he didn’t eat either. Evan had people who cared if he was suddenly sick and in pain because he didn’t eat lunch.

Besides, he always ate when he was high. That was enough for him.

“Next week is going to be hell,” Connor realized and groaned. Evan shot him a confused look.

“Why?”

“Everyone is going to be dressing up, and I won’t be, and I don’t want to hear the passive aggressive comments about how I don’t have any fucking school spirit.” He folded his arms and laid his head down. “I don’t need to fucking deal with that shit all week.”

“Well, you won’t be the only one not dressed up,” he heard Evan hum. “I won’t be dressed up either.”

Connor lifted his head up in consideration. That would be better. He won’t be signaled out if someone notices that he is one of the only kids in his class not dressed up, and if Evan doesn’t dress up, then no one will question why these two friends have obviously very different school spirit.

“True.” He shot Evan a tired smile, genuinely happy about that turn of events. Evan quickly looked back down at his food, and Connor noticed his face was red.

Was he... blushing?

Connor’s smile dropped off his face. Does Evan know that Connor likes him? Why would he blush if Connor shot him a smile? Maybe he knows that Connor smiles at no one but Evan, and even though Evan is quiet, that doesn’t mean he is an idiot. It’s not hard to put together that the person that the school freak smiles at is who they have a crush on.

“Evan?” Connor warily asked. His head snapped back up at him. “Are you okay? Your face is really fucking red.”

“Um, yeah, um—” He started looking at everything but Connor. Bad sign. “Just--hot. Yeah, I’m hot. That’s it.”

Connor didn’t believe that for a second. The school was always cold, and with it being bad out today, they haven't even turned their heater that they use for the winter on yet. Evan is actually wearing a jacket today as well, so how could he be hot?

Before he could call him out, the bell signaling the end of lunch rang.

“Oh look, I have to go to class. Sorry, bye.” He quickly threw his lunch tray in the trash bin and rushed out of the cafeteria doors.

Connor watched him go. Evan’s answer didn’t help calm him down, so now here he was worried that his only friend has found out that he has a crush on him. If Evan found out, he wouldn’t tell Connor because he wouldn’t want to hurt him and that’s what Connor hates the most. Even if Connor asked him face to face, Evan would stutter and stall, and then most likely lie so that the situation wouldn’t escalate.

Anxious and upset, Connor stormed out of the cafeteria to his next class.

This was something that he’d have to piece together himself.

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Connor has had a lot of weird things happen to him. He’s woken up from many weird weed dreams, has had both men and women flirt with him, he was even once called a butch lesbian by some random lesbian in the street. Though none of those things, or anything else weird happened during school.

Apparently today was the day that would change.

“Hey Connor!” he heard Jared call. Connor looked up from his locker to see Jared walking down the hallway, acting like he was cool shit.

“What the fuck do you want, Kleinman?” he snapped. Today was not the day that he wanted to put up with his shit.

“Don’t get all snippy,” he said with a roll of his eyes. “I just need to ask you a question.”

“Well make it quick.”

“Are you gay for Evan?” Connor snapped his head to look at the boy.

“What the fuck—”

“Yes or no, Connor.” Connor couldn’t believe it. This kid who his whole life has bullied and been nothing but a dick to him has the audacity to ask if he is gay for his friend? No, his family friend. The family friend that he never gave a shit about in the first place.

“That’s none of your goddamn business, Kleinman.” He slammed his locker shut and turned his whole body towards Jared. “So stay out of it.”

“Yeah, that’s a no,” Jared hummed. Connor was fuming.

“Excuse me?”

“Usually it wouldn’t be my business, but since it involves Evan, the man I’ve sworn to protect—”

“Which you do a shit job at.”

“—It has become my business.” He completely ignored Connor interrupted him.

“No matter what you think, I’m not telling you shit.” He shoved past Jared, hoping that he would get the very strong hint that the conversation was over.

Of course, Jared has always been a dumbass.

“Look dude, I just want him to be happy!” he called after Connor.

Connor stopped in his tracks. He turned around to face Jared, who hasn’t moved, with nothing but anger on his face.

“Yeah, because that’s what someone who has done nothing but belittle and boss around their family friend wants.” Jared opened his mouth to say something, but Connor continued.

“You know, Evan always says that you guys are friends, but you never say the same. You are always correcting him, saying that you are family friends, which is a ‘totally different thing’ as you like to put it. Evan never felt that anyway gave a shit about him—” At this point, Connor was chest to chest with Jared, glaring at him. Jared was watching him with fear and anxiety in his eyes. “—and now you think to ask me personal questions because you care about him? You’ve never cared about him before, so you better get your cocky fucking personality and shit face away from me before I beat you to the point that all the dumbfucks here think you’re a new student.”

“I’m sure Evan would love to hear that you did that.” Jared bravely retorted. Connor continued glaring at him, but said nothing. “He has started believing that you are nice and kind—why, I don’t know—but if he finds out that you beat his friend to a pulp, then he is both going to be afraid and hate you.”

“You don’t fucking know that.”

“Who has known Evan their whole life?” When Connor didn’t say anything, Jared smirked. “Exactly. So, I’ll ask again.”

Connor let him take a few steps back from him, glare never lessening.

“Do you like Evan romantically?”

That’s a nicer way of putting it. Connor held eye contact with Jared as he went through all of the possibilities that could happen if he told Jared. He could tell Evan, he could tell the whole school, he could get people to beat Connor up, he could do nothing.

“Yeah,” he finally said. He wants to die, so if everyone starts attacking him for this, it will make his death easier. “Yeah, I am.”

“Great!” he cheered. Connor wanted to punch him in the face.

“What, you gonna go tell the whole school now?” he hissed.

“No, I’m going to help you.”

Connor scoffed. “Yeah, alright.” He shoved past Jared, hands in his pockets as he made his way to the library to meet up with Evan.

“Hey hey, wait!”

“You can fuck off, Kleinman.” Jared ran in front of Connor and stood in his way, holding his hands up to stop him. Connor glared at him. “Move.”

“No,” Jared said confidently, but Connor could see fear in his eyes. “I’m serious. I know we don’t get along—”

“Wow, it’s like calling me a school shooter really puts a dent in our relationship.”

“Okay, yes, that was shit of me to do,” he agreed. Connor raised an eyebrow, but said nothing else. “But I swear I want to help. I’ve never seen Evan as relaxed and happy in all the years I’ve known him. It’s like…” he trailed off, as if he was trying to find the best words. “It’s like you bring out the best for him.”

“Alright, I know for sure he is not the happiest with me,” Connor snapped. “No one is described as ‘happy’ when their around me.”

“But that’s the thing! He is! He has loosened up around you, is more comfortable with saying simple things like ‘no’, and he actually smiles a real smile!” Jared looked exasperated. Connor could guess it was a lot of work to try and convince Connor that he is good for Evan. “I mean, come on man, you’ve grown up with Evan as long as me. You can’t deny that there has been some sort of change.”

“We’re all almost adults,” Connor mumbled. “We all have to grow up at some point.”

Jared let out a groan. “You’re not getting it! Evan is a little bit happier and calmer around you!”

“Okay,” Connor finally relented. “But that doesn’t mean he likes me as a romantic partner.”

“I know for a fact that Evan is not completely straight. He liked Thor just a little too much for a guy who admires gods.”

“Weird comparison, but okay.” Connor looked around the hallway, thinking. Everyone had gone to their classes, and as far as he knew, Jared was supposed to be in class right now. No one was around to hear their conversation, to hear Connor confess his crush to a kid who has hated him for as long as Connor can think.

What the fuck is up with his life.

“Alright, Kleinman,” Connor finally relented. He took a step forward, looking down on Jared just to remind him that he was not afraid to hurt him if he decided to fuck with him. “Since you’re such a know-it-all and know what to do, tell me what your brilliant plan is.”

Jared smiled, and Connor couldn’t help but notice how it was genuine.

---

Jared was confident that his plan would work. He knew that Evan wasn’t straight, even if the boy didn’t know it himself, and as soon as he was able to get him to figure it out, he would be able to get him and Connor together.

The only thing he was worried about is if Evan stays evident that he is straight and cuts off Connor, Connor will come for him and then he will have two people who hate him, even if one won’t admit it.

Jared hangs on to every conversation the he and Evan had about male actors, male characters in games. How Evan would say that they were pretty when they were younger, how he would have his male character be with another male character because “I just want to see if the game will let me, Jared”. The signs were harder to notice the older they grew, but Jared was still able to pick out the looks that Evan gave to men, because he gives the same look to women he openly finds attractive.

To Acorn: hey man is it cool if i come over

From Acorn: Sure. I’m not doing anything

To Acorn: i had a feeling ;)

From Acorn: What does that mean?

To Acorn: ya know

Step one was in motion. Get Evan to listen to Jared and see that he is one hundred percent bisexual. If Jared could do this, then maybe it would be a step closer to fixing he and Evan’s relationship.

As usual, when Jared arrived at Evan’s house, Evan opened the door almost right after Jared knocked on the door. He always worried about leaving house guests out on the doorstep for too long.

“Hey,” Evan welcomed.

“Hey Evan!” Jared patted Evan’s shoulder as he walked past him.

“What are you doing here? Not saying that I don’t want you here or that it’s a burden that you’re here. Just curious.” Evan anxiously rambled on. Jared just learn to either tune it out or to interrupt him. He remembers them growing up and Evan talking forever because he was worried he had hurt someone’s feelings.

“I have a question for you,” Jared started off. A sly way to begin.

“Huh?”

“What do you think about Connor?”

“What do you mean, what do I think?” There was not stutter when he asked. When confronted with questions on what Evan thought about people, he would stutter, question if they thought he hated them, assure that he doesn’t hate them. When confronted about Connor, he doesn’t stutter and looks Jared in the eye. He has a daring look, as if challenging Jared to say something about Connor.

This boy has changed so much.

“You like him romantically, right?” That snapped Evan out of it. His eyes widened and he seemed to take a step back, shocked by the question.

“Jared, what?”

“It’s okay if you do, Evan,” Jared tried soothing, though he has a feeling it came off mockingly. “I know you typically like girls, so even if Connor is the first boy you’ve had a crush on, that doesn’t mean you’re a fake!’

“I-I don’t have a crush on Connor!” Quick to deny. Evan was anxious, Jared could tell that much. This was a different type of anxiety though. This wasn’t his reaction when people confronted him with a lie, this was the reaction when people confront him with something he is struggling with.

Growing up with him, Jared had been able to learn the difference. When people confront him with a lie that somehow involved him, Evan would cross his arms, stammer, look away and deny it. Jared picked up on the difference when someone had told Evan that they were sure he and Jared were brothers.

When someone confronts him with something he is struggling with, he goes throw the same motions—stammering, crossed arms, etcetera. Though the difference between the two was that when it was something Evan was struggling with or knew was true, he wouldn’t look away from people, but he would take a step back. It was as if he was trying to convince them and himself, but the step back was him trying to leave the situation. Get out of speaking the truth.

They were slight, and Jared knew that almost nobody knows the difference between their friend’s anxiety. He had committed the actions to memory because he thought it would help him in the future.

So here Evan was, arms crossed, stammering over his words, but staring Jared right in the eye.

“You don’t think of Murphy in any romantic way?” he pushed. “You don’t think about him holding your hand, picking you up for a date, anything?”

Evan took a step back. Jackpot.

“No, never,” he spat out. “I mean, him and I are friends. Who thinks that about friends? Friends don’t think about going on dates with other friends, they don’t think about holding hands with friends, they don’t think their friends look cute, they don’t think about kissing them and loving them and wanting to eat dinner with their family or—”

“Evan!” Jared stopped him. Evan stopped talking and he looked more nervous than ever. Jared smiled. “I never said anything about him looking cute or kissing him.”

Evan’s face dropped. Jared knew that he had caught Evan in the act of denying his own thoughts instead of Jared’s words. When he is denying the truth, he forgets what they said and what he thought. That’s where Jared usually catches him.

“I-I don’t,” he stuttered. “There's no way. I like Connor as a friend, nothing more. I’ve never even liked a boy, so how could I—”

“Even if Connor is the only boy you’ve ever had a crush on, that still validates you as bi,” Jared was quick to attempt to soothe. “It just means you’re .01% bi!”

Evan started at him with a look of disbelief.

It was silent while Evan went over the information. Jared watched as his friend slowly started falling into deeper panic, causing for some major concern. Even though Jared has been around for a lot of Evan’s panic attacks, he never knew what to do. Whenever Evan started crying, started panicking, or feeling any kind of usually negative emotion, Jared froze.

“Uh, Evan?” Evan didn’t say anything but looked back at Jared. “You okay dude?”

“No—No, no no no,” he started mumbling. Jared coughed awkwardly, not knowing what to do.

“Do you uh, want me to leave?” he asked. Evan nodded his head and looked down at the ground. He was scratching at his cast and staring at the ground with such pain, you would think it had killed his mother. “Alright, uh, I’m gonna go.”

When Evan didn’t make a move to respond, Jared let himself out.

Step one of getting Connor and Evan together complete. Now he just needs to help Connor.

---

Connor was going to lose his mind.

When Jared told him his plan two days ago, he thought it was stupid. Since everything Kleinman does is stupid, Connor agreed to let him go through with it.

Convince Evan that he was gay for Connor.

At first, Connor ignored the fear in his gut. He still didn’t believe that Evan had any sort of crush on him, so it was easy to push out the fact that this was a horrible plan.

All of that changed when he saw Jared walk into the school with a smug smile, as if he had actually done something with his life.

He made eye contact with Connor while they stood at their lockers. Connor almost gave him a look of desperation, hoping that he had failed, that Evan had just called him a dumbshit and that he and Connor were friends and that they were going to stay that way because there was no way that Connor would be anything good for Evan. He would ruin him, ruin his hope at love, his hope at life, his hope—

Jared had given him a thumbs up and wide smile. It took all of Connor’s power to not bang his head against his locker. Jared motioned towards the bathroom that was down the hall from their lockers and started walking that way. Connor gave it a few minutes so that no one would notice that he and Jared were meeting up in the bathroom like weird gay lovers do before heading out.

“I told you I’d do it man!” Jared cheered when he walked in. Connor anxiously looked around and was grateful to see that there was no one else in the bathroom.

“You’re lying,” Connor snapped.

“No way! I got him to realize his gay crush for you!”

“You, Jared Kleinman,” Connor started, disbelief clear in his voice. “Convinced Evan Hansen, one of the most anxious and straightest boys in this school, that he had a crush on the biggest junkie in the school?”

“It’s part of my charm.” Connor was going to have an anxiety attack. He knew that Jared was going to talk to him about their conversation today so he didn’t smoke anything, but man did he regret that decision.

“You better not be fucking with me—”

“I’m not!” he snapped. “I swear, I’m not. I value my life too much to lie to you.”

Connor ignored that comment. “How exactly did this conversation go?”

“That is what stays between me and Evan,” he hummed. “All that matters now is that you ask him out to the dance.”

“Neither of us like the dance.”

“Then ask him out in general!” Jared laughed. “You guys are the most awkward people ever, but know each other so well! Just go for it!”

Connor had a lot of emotions running through his head. He didn’t want to believe Jared, wanted to brush off what he said as a lie, but he couldn’t. This is something that he wanted since freshman year, to actually have someone he likes like him back.

“Okay,” Connor relented. He walked away from Jared, ending the conversation.

“Do I get a thank you?” Jared called as he left the bathroom. Connor let the door shut.

#Dear Evan Hansen #Evan Hansen #Connor Murphy #Evan x Connor #Evan Hansen x Connor Murphy #Tree Bros #sunwriting #fanfiction

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radioactivereactions · 5 years

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What are the companions' vices? And how does Lone/Six/Sole help them deal with these issues?

I hope I got it right when you said ‘Vices’ I sort of grouped it to be ‘Immoral/Irrational behaviour’ I hope that’s okay saksjal

Side note; I literally can only draw mind-blanks for Mac and Nick currently but i really wanted to post this, I promise I will add them soon when I think of something that would be considered a vice for them. Please don't hate me fhsufgyu

Fallout 4

Cait

Her upbringing has led her to believe people are only nice to her because they want her body, she shows this by asking Sole if they ‘like the view’ whenever they’re behind her regardless if they were even looking at her or not, and constantly making sexual advances in unnecessary times. Sole helps her in getting out of this sort of mentality by showing more interest in her as a person and complimenting her actions over her appearance almost all of the time. Its subtle but impactful.

Curie

Shes too eager to help everyone she can. This is helpful when someone has a severe injury, but even if its something as simple as a papercut or cough she will make Sole stop in order for her to treat them. This can be very time consuming and unnecessary, especially when they are travelling somewhere important. Sole simply voiced their concerns and she listened, promising she will cut down on aiding every single person they come across.

Danse

(This is Post Blind Betrayal) He compares himself to ‘regular’ people and believes he’s less of a man because of him being a synth. He always asks if there is any way he could better himself in Soles eyes and it brings him down quite a bit. Sole always comforts him by expressing how much he means to them, all with a big hug and kiss to seal the deal.

Deacon

He hides his true emotions behind white lies and jokes. Its developed a sense of mistrust to the people around him and has severed many relationships in the past. Sole tries to help him with this by being around him as much as possible, whether it be travelling or just relaxing and laying around, trying to build as much trust between the two in hopes he won’t have to hide what he’s thinking towards them anymore.

Hancock

He believes the only way he can relieve stress is by taking chems. And everyone knows it’s near impossible to start an addiction unless you get the right medication and professional help. However you can suppress it, and Sole does just that. They distract him by teaching him how to pen twirl, which he then turns into knife twirling. They also teach him how to whistle and when things get too much they both whistle whatever tune is on the radio.

Piper

She jumps to conclusions a lot and has gotten into many dangerous situations because of it, especially when it comes to synth allegations. Though while Sole can’t stop her from jumping to them, they make her refrain from confronting them until she has gathered enough solid evidence to use against them, and tries to reason things out with her as much as they can.

Preston

He puts the needs of everyone else before his own. It gets to such an extreme point that he has passed out from over-exhaustion, lack of sleep, lack of fluid and just overstress. Sole forces him to take at least an hours break each day to refresh himself, and will literally carry him to bed of he isn’t in it by 11.

X6-88

He’s unable to understand the morality of basically every situation. Sole knows fully that he is unable to and tries to understand that, but they try to explain how they see the situation when the time calls for it.

Fallout New Vegas

Arcade

He’s a bit of a hypochondriac. He constantly panics over the smallest symptom, trying to justify a cough being the start of something like throat cancer or a lung infection. This also relates as to why he hates the sun, it feeds his paranoia on the chance he could get some form of cancer from staying in it for too long. Six tries to appease his fear by explaining the unlikelihood of anything he conjures up and giving more rational answers which is very unlike their usual relationship. It doesn’t help much but Arcade does appreciate it.

Boone

He’s afraid of showing too much emotion and tries to hide himself away emotionally as much as possible in fear something bad may happen as a result. The last time he was openly happy was with Carla and the nagging feeling that if he shows that much emotion another similar tragedy may happen to Six or other people around him. Six helps him show these emotions by having a lot of private time with him, simply laying around inside hidden away from anyone who could see them. The isolation allows him to open up more to Six, both physically and mentally.

Raul

He underestimates himself a lot and generally is pessimistic about anything he does. Whenever Six asks him to do something or for his opinion its almost always going to be replied with “Not sure why you want my opinion” or “I think you’re better off asking someone else to do this but if you want to I guess”. Its small, but has caused him to be very hesitant on his abilities apart from repairing. Six helps this by constantly complimenting him, and doing small things like asking him to open a can of food or reach something on a high shelf and thanking him enthusiastically like he saved their life. As silly as it sounds, it helps.

Veronica

She can be too ambitious and hopeful for things and stubborn to what she believes even if she’s proved wrong. She’s naive to the possibility of things going wrong and when she has to face the hard truth she takes it to heart which really damages her mental health and own wellbeing. Six can’t do much apart from being there for her when she accepts her wrong thinking, that and making sure she is at least aware of the possibility of things not going as planned when she determined for something.

Fallout 3

Butch

His own self-confidence has developed into a god complex. He tends to rush into situations literally and metaphorically thinking he’s king and able to take on anything. This has led to severe injuries to both him and Lone, but he still allows his pride to take hold of him. Lone makes him promise not to do it, but when they sense he’s about to do something stupid they link a finger with his own, as sort of an anchor and reminder that they are there.

Charon

He’s untrusting of everyone and everything that isn’t Lone. Hed glare at every wastelander or creature or robot that comes up to them, sizing them up and even growling at times if he really doesn’t like them. Like a dog. Lone tends to help him soften up more by having some form of contact with the person or creature to sort of proving that it won’t hurt them. Whether this is by hugging wastelanders or petting dogs, it helps him calm down ever so slightly.

Clover

She is very clingy and has to put down other people, especially women, to make her feel better about herself. This is primarily out of fear that Lone may replace her with someone else, but also because of the way Eulogy had brainwashed her to think that she was easily replaceable and worthless. Lone helps her with this by holding her hand or giving her some form of contact whenever they can.

Jericho

Way too demanding, and always looking to extort everything he can out of any situation. This can be by demanding for more caps when taking a job or by threatening everyone they come across to get out of his way, or simply barging into them and pushing them away. Lone can’t talk sense into him, the most they can do that gets his attention is by stepping on his foot or elbowing his side.

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hackedmotionsensors · 5 years

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Here we go Endgame lets talk about it!

BELOW THE CUT

So I’ll say this!!! Over all!!! I liked it a lot. For a lot of reasons.

I also HAAAATTTEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDD a lot of some of the choices. That’s okay. We can have mixed feelings about movies especially the end of a saga. I think they did a good job of getting nods where they needed nods, bringing in storylines from previous movies and conversations that needed to happen.

And they fucking whiffed it on at least THREE REALLY IMPORTANT THINGS!!!

So lets start with what I liked.

1) STEVE TONY EVENT. DO YOU HEAR ME IT WAS A STEVE TONY EVENT aaaah oh my god. From the second Tony lands back on the planet and Steve RUNS to him before even Pepper and he’s holding him and just the look of agony as Pepper takes him away and the fight where Tony says ALL THE SHIT WE HAD BEEN SAYING!!!! WHERE WERE YOU! YOU LIAR!!! and he RIPS HIS HEART OFF OF HIS CHEST AND GIVES IT TO STEVE BECAUSE YOU FUCKING BROKE HIS HEART YOU FUCKING FUCKED UP STEVE!!!!! FUCKK!!!! And then reconciling because “Resentment is corrosive” UGHHH!!! And Steve just barely containing himself when Tony shows up ughh!! UGHHH!!!!!!! AND THE ASS JOKE!!! THERE’S NO HETEROSEXUAL EXPLANATION ABOUT THAT!!!! TONY SAW STEVES ASS AND WAS LIKE TAN FRANCED IT LIKE BITCH YOU NEED AN FRENCH TUCK OF MY DING DONG IN YOUR BUTT!!! and Steve over the intercom being like “omg tony not in front of the kids” AND A STEVETONY SOLO MISSION!!!!!!

A STEVE TONY...

SOLO

MISSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TONY CALLING STEVE MY MAN WOW. WOW. FUCKING EXCELLENT ON ALL ACCOUNTS THANKS SO MUCH!! I was given some bread thank you I will eat this stevetony bread nom nom nom nom nom.

2) Tony’s arc in this story was really beautiful. He finally got what he wanted, some perspective and closure with Howard. And I know initially you want to go “Hey Howard was really abusive” and yeah he was. But its complicated. Because Tony even says in Homecoming he was trying to break the cycle of abuse and he DID with Peter and Morgan. You can see just HOW MUCH he cares for his daughter and he was willing to say fuck you to the UNIVERSE in favor of not losing her. Its always a different perspective when you see your parents as people and not as YOUR PARENTS.

Also Tony lying on the table with Natasha UuU. A lot of the interactions with Tony and the other characters were so good. Tony and Rocket. Tony and Nebula. Tony and Carol (tho brief). Tony arguing with Pierce like his little gay senses were like “This guys a nazi I bet”

3) I genuinely liked the Time Heist. I DID NOT LIKE THE RULES OF TIME TRAVEL IN THIS MOVIE BUT I’LL GET TO THAT. But I looooved the Time Heist. From the New York stuff with Steve fighting Steve and knowing his dumbass loses his shit when he hears things like “Bucky’s still alive” and being done with his own stupid shit “I can do this all day” “YEAH I KNOW” (which btw at this point was basically the last thing he said to Tony in Civil War so maybe that doesn’t have its plucky little fire anymore and now is a sore spot). I loved Loki running away with the Space Stone (even tho as of now I’m still not sure what the FUCK THAT MEANS!? more on that in a sec) Loki making fun of Cap. Loki rolling his eyes at Odin. Tony dressed in a shield outfit screaming Medic!!! The gang all on the elevator and Hulk screaming about it and LOKI WAVING HIS HAND AT THE HULK AS THE DOORS SHUT!! TONY SITTING ON THE BRIEFCASE! SCOTT GOING “how the FUCK did you not know they were Hydra LOOK AT THEM They’re a COP!” Then jumping forward to the 70s and Steve’s legs that went all the way up to his asshole and Tony dressed as a doctor

I drew a doodle of it here you go lol I’ll post it properly later

oh did this not happen? Idk what movie you were watching.

4) The big battle at the end was SO FUCKING COMIC BOOK I WAS LOSING IT. Also I keep calling it the Battle of Five Armies or Return of the King lol T’challa BATHED IN A HALO OF LIGHT LIKE YES WE STAN A KING. MY WIFE

MY.

WIFE!!!!!!!!

VALKYRIE!!! ON HER BEAUTIFUL WHITE HORSE!!!! (also not being given an actual name and called Valkyrie is the funniest goddamn thing. Like that’s like going into a Footlocker and talking to the manager but calling them Manager)

CAROL!!!!!! WITH HER BUTCH ASS HAIRCUT PUNCHING THANOS IN THE MOUTH AND WRECKING HIS SHIT

WANDA FINALLY FUCKING FLYING. LIKE. F L Y I N G. THAT is what the Scarlet Witch is SUPPOSED TO DO!! SHE’S SUPPOSED TO BE SO POWERFUL IT TOOK EVERYONE TO TAKE HER DOWN CMON!!!!!! And she almost got him too. Honestly if it were down to Carol and Wanda they probably could have ended Thanos alone.

Korg coming back for more comic relief AND PUTTING HIM IN TAIKA’S PINEAPPLE ONESIE!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING.

5) This is controversial. And I know it won’t age well. And that’s okay and feel free to disagree with me entirely.

But I liked Fat Thor lmfao. I know it was played as a joke for the wrong reasons but I laughed. I was like fuck yes his belly looks like mine and that’s not why it was funny and it SHOULDN’T BE but I laughed lol. But on the other hand I think it had partially to do with Hemsworth constantly being like “no no we don’t need a shirtless scene” or just sort of a gag at how Marvel always has a shirtless scene and its just kind of funny to have it not be someone cut. EVEN THOUGH its a fat suit and I can’t take off my fat suit but Hemmy can and that’s kinda shitty.

but I laughed. I can’t help it. He was a whole ass mess and I thought it was funny. And I know there are Thor fans out there who wanted more for him but like I said before this was a SteveTony event. This movie and this win worked because it was Steve and Tony finally coming together again.

It felt honestly the most comic book Avengers of the entire series.

And true to comic book events

it whiffed the landing.

Before I get into dislikes I’ll say that I liked this movie more than I disliked it. I cried H A R D at the end of the movie. Because its not a movie that’s an on its own kind of movie. You had to have gone through the journey to get here. The pay off is completely lost if you only watch this movie. Or you only watch one or two of the MCU. Or if you’re like a few people I’ve talked to where they only like Steve and Tony. Or they only like Thor and Loki. Or they only like the Guardians and hate the avengers. If you have hate in your heart for any of these characters the payoff of this movie is pretty much lost.

The theme of this movie is clearly about moving on when things come to an end. When things stop or end or we lose people we love you have to move on. Steve says that at the beginning of the movie to our apparent gay representative straight director Joe Russo.

But like Tony said before.

Steve’s a fucking liar lmfao

But lets not start there. Lets start with the fucking timeline.

I hate.

I H A T E EEEEEEEEE TIME TRAVEL!!!!!! AS A PLOT!!!!!!! WITHOUT ANY RULES!!!!!!!!!

I enjoyed what we SAW of the Time travel but the rules itself DIDN’T MAKE ANY FUCKING SENSE.

So when they’re suiting up Hawkeye for the test run Bruce explicitly says that all these movies that say “if you go into the past and fuck up the past you fuck up the timeline and the present/future is fucked because you’ve changed things”

ARE WRONG. HE SAYS THEY ARE WRONG. He says “If you go into the past. The past becomes your present. But the present then becomes your future. So you can’t go back and un fuck your parents to make you. Or kill baby Thanos. because that happened and you can’t change that but you can change youre present”

WHICH DOESN’T

MAKE ANY

FUCKING

SENSE. BECAUSE THEN YOU AREN”T TIME TRAVELING!!!!!!!!!

If you go into the past yes YOU are in your present but the world is still being written around you STILL so you go into the past and change something (loki making off with the space stone) that’s CHANGED. You’ve created a new reality.

THEY EXPLICITLY SAY THIS IN DOCTOR STRANGE AND Y’ALL I KNOW DOCTOR STRANGE WAS BORING AS HELL BUT IF YOU’RE GOING TO USE TIME TRAVEL AS YOUR STORY DEVICE THEN YOU CAN’T SAY THAT SHIT IN DOCTOR STRANGE DOESN’T WORK WHEN YOU’VE ESTABLISHED IT AS THE RULES OF TIME TRAVEL.

THE ANCIENT ONE EVEN SAYS “you create a new reality. And it fucks shit up”

LIKE!?!?!??!

WHAT THE HELL!!!

So now Loki has the time Stone in reality B, in reality A Steve goes back and puts the stones back where they belong (and I guess.....gives the soul stone to Red Skull????????? wouldn’t you try to get Natasha back????like that itself is a whole movie of Steve going back and putting things away but ??????)

And then we get to the end of the movie where Steve says Fuck you to Peggy’s reality A family and now on this timeline where they’ve time traveled he lived an entire life WITH Peggy but like.......you were Captain America and you just said “No don’t worry about JFK being assassinated. Or the Civil Rights movement. Or stopping Bucky in any capacity. Or maybe saving MLK. Or Peggy continuing to join SHIELD. Or stopping ACTUAL NAZIS from infiltrating SHIELD.

Because if you go with this idea that Steve went back and “lived a life” What did he DO then. What did he FUCKING. DO?

You’re not Steve from 1940s going back to 1940s. You’re Steve form 2019 going back to 1940s. No wifi. No medicine. No cell phones? Gays are still being persecuted. You can’t drink from the same fountain as black people (or rather they can’t drink from your white fountain).

You are.

CAPTAIN.

AMERICA.

and you just said nah fuck it its fine? This shit can all happen but I don’t super care because I get to dance with Peggy. Peggy who on her own had this whole life. Who did all this stuff IN YOUR NAME IN YOUR HONOR. Who married someone else. Who had a FAMILY. Who had a NIECE that you made out with. And just..... wha....

Like if he had gone back and danced with her but came back with Natasha in exchange for the soul stone but during his travels had aged. Or met someone else.

Like movie wise and story wise I get wrapping up Steve’s story. And maybe the person Peggy is talking about in the video of her in TWS is actually Steve from 2019. Maybe that’s it. But it still doesn’t make sense because they FUCKED UP THE RULES OF TIME TRAVEL SO WHO THE FUCK KNOWS.

So. lol I wasn’t a huge fan of Steve at the end of the movie. I know they needed to do something to end the movie with a finality. With Steve being DONE. But instead of finality or closure I just have so many goddamn questions. And I don’t hold it against Evans or even really the directors per say. But I’ll blame Markus and McFeely because they were writing since TWS. They HAD the Cap STORYLINE to write about and that was how they ended it.

its like when you pack for a very important trip and you plan out all your outfits but then wake up late and end up throwing whatever you can find into your suitcase and run out the door.

It felt final and not final.

But I’ll tell you this. From my perspective and obviously I’m going to skew it this way because its me and FEEL FREE to disagree with me.

He left because Tony and Natasha were dead. The two people that he felt the closest to (sorry Sam, Bucky and Sharon [who we didn’t even see as dusted wow]) were gone. Natasha and Steve had become a brother and sister. He would always come back for her clearly. Trying to cheer her up as she’s crying. Natasha understanding Steve’s feeling of being lost. Tony inspiring and fighting with Steve. Like that’s part of what I liked about this is taht you could really feel how Steve and Tony needed each other for this to work but also they needed to not hate each other.

Also I kinda knew the second Scott said “That’s a one way trip!!” before the 70s bit that Steve was going to stay in the past lol What an asshole.

Also I don’t think it was very UN-Captain America because I think people don’t always realize that a lot of the inspo for the MCU came ALSO from Ultimates. And if Ults Cap was able to go back to the past he would have in a heartbeat. Who was a more depressed Cap? Ults or MCU? I just don’t know.

Now.

Natasha.

This was another one I kind of saw coming from a mile away as soon as it was just the two of them on Vormir. I was kind of hoping they’d Hawkeye a way out of the deal by like throwing his daughters picture or something like that. Or that it would be Hawkeye. But they both had an upcoming movie/series so I didn’t know which way it went.

And then there was that big jump. And I was like oh my god they did it right

AND THEN THEY FUCKING DIDN’T.

Wow. Wowwwwwwwwww

Markus and McFeely

REALLY DID THAT

THE RUSSO BROTHERS REALLY DID THAT

THEY DID THE SAME FUCKING SCENE TWICE.

The first time you get because Thanos is a dick and abusive and he would absolutely throw his favorite daughter into the soul pit (which I guess Isn’t picky because she didn’t love him back she hated him but I guess its a one way street with the ol’ soul stone)

And they don’t say during that one (far as I remember) that its a permanent exchange.

But they sure emphasized this time. And they sure killed the original avenger who was the only girl on the team. Who never got a chance to live.

Who Whedon made herself call heself a monster because she can’t have a family and then she gets a found family and then SHE DIES. THEY KILL HER. AFTER HAVING A FAMILY.

WHAT THE FUCK. Like...my problems with Scarjo aside (which are similar with my problems with Paltrow) You DID. BLACK. WIDOW. FUCKING. DIRTY. I don’t care that there’s a movie coming out that was her story. You were supposed to give her a fucking story. And now her story is only how she relates to her TEAM OF MEN.

And now to my last point that I didn’t like. And I don’t hate this one as much as Steve’s ending or Natasha’s ending.

I don’t like that Tony died. I know this is wrapped up in a lot of emotions I have about Tony Stark the character. Robert Downey Jr the person. Tony Stark the character in all his forms is very important to me and I love that he has many forms. 616, Ults, AvAc, Avengers Assemble, the MCU. But his story is important to me. And its heartbreaking. I’m tearing up a bit now writing this out.

I’m just the type of person that hates that a character, in a fantasy setting where you have wizards, valkyries, robots, talking raccoons and trees, Dave Bautista, a giant green rage monster wearing chinos, that you have to take this one part and make it realistic. That we have to keep realism kill this character off because it doesn’t make sense if someone doesn’t die. Because the stakes aren’t high if you don’t make them personal as well.

Which is true like you don’t have high stakes (the planet or universe getting dusted) if you don’t are about some of the people in that universe personally.

I just would have rather he had retired. Moved onto his little farm with Pepper and Morgan.

I think they did right by Tony. Storywise, ending...all the stuff the dropped the fucking ball on with Natasha and Steve they gave to Tony. And on one hand I get it and I appreciate that because (sorry to nat and steve fans truly) I care more about Tony. Tony started this whole thing. In a miracle of accidents they got the right actor, the right story, the right character, the right director, the right timing technology wise, the right social mood and made solid gold. And none of this would have happened if it weren’t for that amazing accident that happened.

And I think it has more to do with not wanting to let go or move on even though i can always go back to Iron Man 1 at any point and start the journey over again and have a laugh but there’s always going to be that ending where its final. Its done. Its over. And in the simplest of terms. I don’t like it. You have to know when to bow out and I respect and appreciate that. I don’t wanna see Iron Man 8 with geriatric old RDJ trying to fumble into a mocap suit.

I understand. I appreciate. But I don’t have to like it as a person. And that’s okay.

Its all about moving on isn’t it? That’s the theme of the movie. Moving on.

Even if you’re steve and your moving on wipes out the existance of a whole other family lmfaaoidnsfasfada sorry sorry.

Okay. yeah that’s all I think I can think of. I’m sure there’s a ton more other people have mentioned aside from what I wrote. Like its a LONG movie and I think its hard to say hey “they fucked this up” or “they got this right” for EVERY SINGLE THING. There were so many characters. Nebula’s story could have been better. Thor’s story could have been more involved. Hawkeye could have been more important throughout the series. Janet could have come back for the final fight and healed Tony. Like there’s a ton of “this COULD have happened” But it didn’t. And that’s okay. It may not be right but its okay. I think they wrapped it up as best you could while still making a good movie. I think you probably can go back after a long while and look at the Endgame and go yeah that wasn’t so bad for an ending. Endings are hard to do with any sort of skill. Its why the joke that the third movie always sucks.

There’s still a ton of stuff to look forward to.

Falcon/Winter Soldier, Loki, Hawkeye, Wanda and Vision (i GUESS??? lol), Black Widow’s movie.

Maybe Steve solved more than he let on who knows. WHO KNOWS. Maybe Mjolnir left him haflway through the journey when she knew he was going to ditch his 2019 family (who again....mostly dead now)

I love Tony 3000. Which I found out is more than a ton which makes Morgan Stark a lot smarter than I am lmfao

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3. Ever done any drugs?

Okay. Listen.

Listen.

I’m not huge on ~mind altering substances~, mostly because it just sounds bad for you. Never gonna try anything like LSD or cocaine because... no? Why. Why would you do that to your brain. I’m not opposed to some alcohol, I like wine, every once in a blue moon I’ll go out and get drunk with the bestie (or at least, I used, to, before the world ended).

However... Let me tell you a short story.

So, I live in Colorado. (You already know where this is going.) And I was once working on a short film for school with a group. And like 3/4 through filming one day, one of my teammates takes out this little dropper bottle and is like “Anyone else want some?”

And here I am, thinking to myself, “Oh, it’s an oil. So it’s probably not that potent.” I... don’t know why I thought that. I don’t know why that made sense to me. But regardless, I was like “Why tf not, it’s not like it’s an actual joint,” and took... an entire... dropperful.

I don’t know how I got this lucky, but I got home before anything really... happened.

And then I spent the next six hours astral-projecting three feet behind my own body.

The worst part was, I fucking *forgot* about the oil stuff, because we were so busy wrapping up the shoot. I completely forgot that ever happened. So when I got home and suddenly was feeling like I was going deaf even though I could hear fine, and that I fucking forgot how TOAST worked, I legit thought I had a brain injury. Like I texted my dad (who was a paramedic for 10 years) and was like “Hey I think I have a brain injury, so if I die, that’s why.”

And then a few minutes passed and I started to remember the dropper that got passed around.

And I got my phone back out and texted my dad again and was like “So. It has come to my attention. That I may in fact by very, very high.” And then he called me, and he laughed at me for about 10 minutes.

And then I watched The Good Place for the first time, which was a really bad choice because that show feels like you’re high even when you’re not.

And that was my first (only) experience with CBD.

Oh and I forgot the other fun little wrinkle, which was that I had two job applications due that night at midnight, which meant that I had to fill them out while very high, and I had to make my dad look them over before submitting them to make sure I didn’t say anything batshit crazy. But hey I actually got an interview from one of those applications, so apparently I did good.

6. Describe your dream home

I have several, and they depend on which “dream career” I happen to have in this particular daydream.

A couple examples:

a) If I was (somehow) a successful film director (”successful” here not necessarily meaning “famous,” but more like “I make enough money to survive and to keep doing it”), I’d want a nice big RV with a kitchenette, one of those “RV bedrooms” in the back with a queen bed, a little couch, tapestries, Christmas lights up (of course), a Himalayan salt lamp somewhere, a nice big TV secured to some wall, etc. That way I can just follow my projects around wherever we’re shooting and home is always with me.

b) If I was a successful novel writer (again, see above definition of “successful”), I’d want a studio or one-bedroom apartment in Chicago. Sunny, big windows, balcony with lots of plants. Preferably on an upper floor so it looks out on city lights. Bathtub. Close to a bookstore and a coffee shop. Again: tapestries, Christmas lights, paintings, big TV, salt lamp. My usual stuffs.

48. Describe your ideal partner.

A girl with similar interests and values to me who I can talk to for hours and laugh with a lot. It would be exceptionally neat if we were also creative partners and could do projects together. I tend to gravitate toward femme girls more than butch, but not 100% of the time. Love a great smile. I’m also a goddamn *sucker* for curly hair and dark eyes, although who am I kidding, I’m enchanted by all types of prettiness. But of course (cheesy voice) it’s what’s inside that’s important!

(Nosy asks)

#asks #anon #nosy asks #personal #tmi time lol

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