ADHD Note Taking

I'm reading an online text book now (while YouTube is playing) and I wanted to do this right now real quick on how I do notes and people can add how they do notes with ADHD or other learning disorders. (Also at least I am doing this when I started this who knows if I'll add this to my drafts)

I write in differnt colored pens. -- I find writing in one color kind of makes everything blend together just like, bleeeeggghh. Writing in different colors separates the points to me and also when I inevitably lose my reading place, I have a general idea where I was.

I also think the routine thing works in here. Some say routine helps ADHD, I disagree, I think routine irritates me. I think of routine like the Doctor from Doctor Who does. It's appalling to me and it makes me want to scream or rip off my arm just so something happens. (You may think that's overdramatic but who are you to judge me, likely neurotypical person!?) I think routine bores my brain and makes it drift off and the different colors helps that.

I write one side of the page, not on both sides -- When you write and you turn the page, it caused the led or ink to smudge on the page and it kind of messes me up and also if you write in ink it bleeds slightly even with gel pens that I use and that also messes me up so I write on the front side of every new page which I know is wasteful but so is writing notes that don't help me.

I always seperate each line of words with those notebook lines -- When I was in elementary school (because I had a motor skills problem) I would be brought out of class to work on my writing and I was taught to write inside the line which is how most people probably do it but I've found if I go to the next line it also makes it blend in together and it like, where am I, there's too much in this one spot. There are hanging hooks of J's and Y's and I slanted my writing a little, so I put one clean space of notebook lines between my writing.

I have something of relevance playing -- I'm studying psychology right now--I want to delve more in the psychology of people for writing and what not and I always knew I understood psychology better because of my ADHD and I had started watching Criminal Minds which is about the FBI's branch called the BAU (Behavorial Anayalsis Unit) where they use psychology and statistics to narrow down who a criminal (like a serial killer) is and understand them and I found I actually understood what they were saying a lot--so I play Criminal Minds while I study. It's relevant and so it keeps me on task--ideally I do episodes I've already seen but sometimes I do new ones. (I'm only season 12)

i’m curious if there’s a link here, please tell me in the tags if your inner monologue has subtitles, whether or not you have a hearing or auditory processing disability, and whether or not you learned to read early and read a lot as a kid

(by subtitles i mean that you automatically visualize the written form of the words you are thinking. the way this actually happens can be anywhere from the written form of the words just popping into your head to an actual subtitle-looking area. the only criteria are that 1. you visualize the written form of most or all words 2. it is completely automatic and happens without trying or thinking about it)

there is a time, as a child, where stones or sticks or a pot over fire are warm not just for the flames, but for the way it is about learning how to look after yourself. and how to look after others, in turn! do the kokiri cook? i believe, yes. does link cook? i believe even more, yes. nature gives — lushly — and the children of the forest take — reverently. the act of hunting is that of respect. the act of feeding is that of love. the act of cooking is that of trust.

when link cooks, even by the bare definition of it as a meat-over-fire sort of thing, it's so easy to do in the face of words he can't seem to find. he doesn't need to use his voice for this care at all, and the words will be conveyed anyway. in a place like kokiri forest, where everyone always knows when the fruits are just ripe enough, home tastes like the earth: like chestnuts still warm from the fire, berries with a tart aftertaste, lemongrass on game meat.

castle town brings with it new foods and textures — he likes sticky rice the best. over the course of his journey, he looks to street foods and inn/home-cooked meals. lon lon ranch brings with it lon lon milk, and i imagine creamy soups. zora's domain is where the fish are really juicy, and there are things like shellfish, molluscs, hard things that can be cracked open the way forest nuts are. he can't eat rock sirloin or roasts on death mountain, but goron spice is a kick he enjoys for its newness. the riches and dishes of the desert, all eaten with whatever sense of camaraderie the gerudo are willing to build with him — he enjoys these, too.

i think he's someone who likes eating when his head is in the right place for it, or when he's with the right company. he tends to just go through the motions after everything.

because apparently I need to “redirect my energy” into advocacy in order to help with the overwhelming feeling of loneliness, lack of community, and silence from my medical school, here’s the link to my resources for justice page, which has:

- Articles - Organizations - Shops - Toolkits - Self-Care - Books (oh lord are there books)

https://desicosplay.tumblr.com/justice 

happy new years guys!! i hope you're all having a wonderful day/night so far <3

i'm not sure about everyone else, but it really doesn't feel like a typical new year! i think with the heaviness of the mars & mercury rx (especially considering the signs are inconjunct, which makes things extra tough), it kind of just feels like another day!! if you have a day chart, you might feel extra impacted by the mars retrograde as compared to night chart babies. definitely take it easy if you're feeling off/stressed/etc, and perhaps use january as a time of reflection, and focus more on putting plans into action in march! (or, in january - if it feels right for you!! but if you feel overwhelmed or lack motivation for any sort of resolutions or planning, just know you aren't alone, the sky right now is a bit "heavy")

personally i tend to celebrate the new year as per the astrological new year (aka first day of aries szn as the new year) which feels extra right because that'll be around the time mars is no longer rx nor in the shadow period!!!

anyway!! how are you all feeling?! any thoughts about 2022/2023, plans/etc?! personally the only thing on my mind rn is genshin impact girl groups, and relaxing as much as possible in january until mars and mercury chill out!!! 2022 was rough!!

i need to meet another schizo and see if our neurodivergency clicks the way the other ones click with each other . im Failing at being nd bro

I hope you're finals go/ went well!!!

they've been pretty good actually! ive gotten A's on all of em but 1 so far, even the ones i wasn't too sure abt lmao (catastrophizing spacie at it once again) ive got my last final taday at 1pm and then................

freedom

for at least a few weeks anyway

just wrote three pages in a notebook from my first article on misophonia, very happy to be working on this.

all the articles i have so far:

i have only finished one of these, but i hope to have more soon and put all of them in my little notebook :)

american comics are wild, man.

On some logical level I know I’m being very arrogant and maybe a little delusional to think I know better than swathes of scientists and researchers when I’m just some bitch. But I can’t shake this feeling and worry and suspicion that the reason the recent literature the recent research and discussion of inattentive adhd is SOO similar to autism and so overlapping. I mean Virtually indistinguishable. May be due to the vast number of people especially women diagnosed with inattentive adhd who may just be autistic. To the point where there are significant numbers of undiagnosed autistic people in sample groups of “inattentive adhd” studies are unknowingly skewing the results and data to just be an autism study at that point. But also I know that neurodivergent research has for so long excluded actual neurodivergent input that the science is uniquely predisposed to get it wrong in ways that people living it may get it right, and everyone including the doctors themselves admit the medical understanding of autism and adhd is honestly extremely primitive. Feeding my ego and concern that even as just some bitch I could be on to something the scientists are kinda missing. My deepest dumbest conspiracy is that in 20 years we will realize that “inattentive adhd” is literally just being on the autistic spectrum and they will change the labels again because I swear to god the symptoms have more in common with autism than with hyperactive adhd itself. Not to mention the way that adhd people and autistic people are constantly blood relatives like . Many autistic people I know has an adhd parent and many adhd person I know has an autistic parent. Like. IM CONNECTING THE SIGNS WITH RED THREAD ON A CORK BOARD . THE GENETICS. THE SYMPTOMS. ARE THESE EVEN WORTH CALLING DIFFERENT DISORDERS OR WHAT . Especially when autism it’s a spectrum that is known to present VASTLY differently but with certain underlying truths. Like how adhd and autism are. This is how ancient aliens people feel

I just been reading about Heart Diseases and chronic blood disorders for the last couple of hours. For South Park. To make South Park fan content.

And now I have headcanon Tweek with Dilated ccardiomyopathy (DCM) mainly due to pre-existing drug abuse and stress. (Also quirky note that Stan or randy could have this due to alcohol abuse)

{possibly paired with an overactive thyroid for a time due to medical treatment for arrhythmia, common with heart disease, but I need to read up more}

Possible with Graves’ disease (esp if I want to ignore meth based root, which I rarely do. But this disorder is very befitting of tweek)

With stress being a trigger. Externally very Tweek. But you could simply go for an overactive thyroid finding other root causes (as I did with his DCM Sortve)

There was more like a bone based illness? Possibly MS but I can’t find it in my tabs? But either way that’s what I found if you want to utilize my labour.

I probably will make actual essays in the future if I’m smart enough about chronic ailments for character writing. Since it’s good to research, and I find it really refreshing to write about?

More people have conditions than we talk about, with myself and many people I love with certain ailments that affect their life. And I am for all means encouraging of possible education or involvement through means of media. Even through South Park fan work lol.

Today I discovered that THC is the opposite of helpful for bipolar disorder. Whoops

Once again I am on the edge of failing a test. Dammit. This time it’s math. I put pride in solving math problems, I have always been good at it. But no, life has to throw away my constants and drop me into the wilderness.

I spent the majority of my life (6 out of 8 years of school) being one of the best students. And now I am on the edge of failing every single subject I have. Dammit, damn the system, why did I have to transfer to one of the famous schools in my city, I can’t even transfer back now. I’m better off in some random hole being the best in my small horizon than out here in the Big Wide World competing with all these amazing people. Now I’m just this weird kid who is seemingly anti-social and has obsession problems. I don’t even know what I am capable of anymore. Most of the marks I lost come from being unable to finish my paper and forgetting how to explain my answers properly.

So here comes the question. I REALLY think that I have ADHD or some other mental disorder. I can’t focus at all and it’s bothering me like crazy. What do I do with it? How do I cope with it?? In elementary school it really didn’t matter because the syllabus is tiny, but now the syllabus is huge and my teachers aren’t shortening it even with the pandemic forcing us to use Google meet. My exams are coming up and I need to start studying or else I’ll fail again. please help

mauybe I hate drawing and wanna just make silly anime video edits all day actually (is also bad at that) (crying about it) (wailing even)

caffeine caffeine caffeine caffeine caffeine caffeine about to buy some caffeine gum