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My Fics Masterlist

Most of these are My Hero Academia because I have a hyperfixation, but one of them is an original work. (I also have three unfinished fics from another fandom, but I'm not linking them because I don't see myself finishing them anytime soon.)

The fics I'm most proud of will be in bold.

Series (complete unless otherwise noted):

Pit Of Vipers | Explicit, 27,333 words, 3 Works

Sparring Sexy Times | Explicit, 2,443 words, 2 Works

Shinkami Month 2022 | Explicit, 20,783 words, 17 Works

Denki Needs Therapy | Mature, 2,884 words, 3 Works (Incomplete)

Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald | Explicit, 19534 words, 4 Works

Stalker Monoma | Explicit, 1,942 words, 2 Works

The Merry Whump of May | Explicit, 28,257 words, 31 Works

Original work:

In The Shadows | Mature, 991 words, 1/1 Chapters

Hunger leads to feeding. Ravenously.

Now with music!

My Hero Academia (organized by date updated):

Saimon Says | Mature, 4,971 words, 7/13 Chapters

Rody thought he didn't have any more family until a letter came and proved him wrong.

He's not sure if he truly likes this new family.

But they seem to like him.

"We need to talk" | General, 1,296 words, 1/1 Chapters

Something's wrong with Shitty Hair.

It's not bothering me.

It's not.

So why can't I sleep?

Powder | Explicit, 1,490 words, 1/1 Chapters

Hawks has an anniversary present for Dabi.

Dabi has his own present for Hawks.

For My Family | Explicit, 4,124 words, 2/2 Chapters

When I said I'll do anything to provide for my family... I really meant anything.

Underappreciated | Not Rated, 518 words, 1/1 Chapters

A hero was always there for his friends when they needed him.

But… who was there for a hero when he needed someone?

No one.

The Venom Of Serpents, The Deadly Poison Of Cobras | Explicit, 8,595 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 3 of Pit Of Vipers

Upon returning home, Viper is at Cobra's will in more ways than one. he torments Viper day after day, but one thought keeps Viper from succumbing completely.

Katsuki.

Memories | General, 1,095 words, 1/1 Chapters

So what if he couldn't remember small details here and there?

Everyone got gaps in their memory, right?

This was normal… right?

Snakes In The Grass | Explicit, 15,346 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 2 of Pit Of Vipers

After being captured, Viper finds himself in a strange, new environment. And he has a new objective: kill Katsuki Bakugou. He'll do whatever it takes to complete his mission and get back to Father. But, will his heart get the better of him? Anyone and everyone could be a snake in the grass.

Into The Snake Den | Mature, 3,392 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 1 of Pit Of Vipers

Viper has lived his entire life with Father.

Father saved him.

Father cares for him.

Father loves him.

He owes Father.

He owes him everything.

"How does it feel?" | Mature, 1.410 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 3 of Denki needs therapy

He moaned, low and pitiful.

Why weren't the heroes here?

Why weren't his friends here?

They had to be on their way… right?

Feline Gold | Teen & Up, 2,262 words, 1/1 Chapters

Hitoshi has found a cat that now takes up his entire life.

But something's not right about this cat.

Emotional Casualty | Teen & Up, 757 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 17 of Shinkami Month 2022 Part 4 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald

Katsuki Bakugou is managing his crush on Hitoshi Shinsou okay... all things considered.

Maybe.

Not really.

He's not okay.

Cold. Hot. | Explicit, 1,184 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 16 of Shinkami Month 2022 Part 2 of Sparring Sexy Times

His entire life, he'd been cold.

Cold from the tattered blankets his foster parents of the month gave him, that never kept the draft out.

Cold from how everyone shied away from touching him, interacting with him, even speaking to him.

Except when it was hitting him, punishing him, or cursing him.

Cold from that unyielding muzzle that always found its way back to him.

Hitoshi would always shiver, unable to help himself.

He was so cold.

Want You | Explicit, 1,402 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 15 of Shinkami Month 2022

Bzzzz

Bzz-

"Hello?" Hitoshi groaned into the receiver. It was late, and the buzzing phone had woken him up.

Not that being woken up in the middle of the night was unusual for him, but usually Denki was here to help him fall asleep again.

"'Tooshi…" Speak of the devil. "'Toooooshiiii…" his boyfriend sang.

"Denki? What's going on?"

Muffled laughter rang through the receiver. "Yurr what's goin' on." There was a pause as Denki hiccupped.

Late-Night Hypotheticals | General, 304 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 14 of Shinkami Month 2022

"'Toshi."

…

"'Toooshi."

…

"'Toshi."

"What?"

"Are you awake?"

…

"Who do you think said 'what'?"

My Moonbeam | Mature, 1,544 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 13 of Shinkami Month 2022

For the most part, Hitoshi's patrols were unremarkable.

That's not to say that they were boring. There was always some illicit activity that kept him alert through all hours of the night.

But usually, they were just that: illicit activity. Drug deals and drunk fights.

Nine Lives | Teen & Up, 1,713 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 12 of Shinkami Month 2022

The glazed eyes and blank stare felt like a slap to the face, but not as much as Denki's words had felt.

"I... slept with Jiro. I was drunk! It-it didn't mean anything!"

Opportunities | General, 342 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 11 of Shinkami Month 2022

As the pair walked out of the restaurant, Denki felt happiness bubble up inside his chest.

They were just finishing up their second date, and he could tell that Shinsou was beginning to open up to him.

The Psychology Of Our Chemistry | Teen & Up, 1,125 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 10 of Shinkami Month 2022

In his second year at UA University, Denki took a Psychology class.

In truth, he wasn't even sure why he was taking it; he was a music major, but he apparently needed some extra credits, and he'll be damned before he takes, ugh, statistics.

Drowning In Despair | Explicit, 6,835 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 3 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald With commissioned art

Izuku doesn't take the events of Tidal Wave well.

At all.

Aizawa Discovers His Student's Love Life | General, 1,332 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 9 of Shinkami Month 2022

Shouta Aizawa loves cats.

Because he loves cats, people would normally assume that Shouta Aizawa would rather enjoy being a cat.

He naps a lot and he's grumpy, but he's also very loving and sweet (in his own way) with people he's deemed 'good' and 'deserving' of his attention.

However, in actuality, Shouta hated being turned into a cat.

Unknown Number | Teen & Up, 1,205 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 8 of Shinkami Month 2022

Unknown Number:

hey, sorry if this is out of the blue

but my friend Ashido gave me your number

She said that we might hit it off?

Me:

Oh, yeah that's right. I almost forgot. I'm Shinsou.

The Scars That You Left | Mature, 2,702 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 7 of Shinkami Month 2022

As long as he can remember, he's had his scars.

Although, technically, they weren't his scars, per se.

They couldn't be. His scars might be small, but they were noticeable, marring his face, mocking him every time he passed a mirror and dared to look in.

These scars were beautiful, running over his body like branching ferns, across his limbs and torso.

No, they couldn't be his scars.

He didn't deserve anything as beautiful as that.

Stuck Like Glue... Without The Glue | Explicit, 2,079 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 6 of Shinkami Month 2022

Hitoshi woke slowly, his arms stretching lazily up above his head. He felt his shoulders pop, followed by his spine; small pockets of tension that faded quickly into a lovely sensation. He tried to rotate into the stretch, so he could fully appreciate the feeling, but paused when he felt resistance.

He pried his eyelids open in confusion, squinting against the sunshine as he willed his blurry vision to focus.

Next to him, in his bed, was a mop of messy blond hair, almost as bright as the sunlight. Hitoshi froze, staring at the intruder until the hair moved.

Bright, golden eyes blinked slowly up at him. "Mornin'…"

As You Wish | General, 1,234 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 5 of Shinkami Month 2022

Popcorn ready to be popped? Check.

Floor vacuumed? Check.

Showered? Check.

Candle?

Denki hesitated, thinking about the implications of a candle during a date. He might think I'm trying to set the mood or something.

Better not, then.

Distraction | Explicit, 1,259 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 4 of Shinkami Month 2022 Part 1 of Sparring Sexy Times

Denki gritted his teeth as he grappled with Hitoshi. He sent a shock rippling through his opponent's body, causing his arms to tense up and spasm.

There. Denki found his opening and grabbed Hitoshi's arm, pulling him over his shoulder, and slamming his back against the floor.

A second later and it was all over. Denki perched on Hitoshi's chest, holding his wrists tightly and well out of range in case he decided to try to kick his way free.

Hitoshi wheezed for breath, and Denki allowed himself to admire his catch.

Addict | General, 264 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 3 of Shinkami Month 2022

"I'll take, uhhhh, a double mocha chip frappuccino with extra whipped cream, please!"

Denki loved his coffee sweet. It was the only way to drink it.

Reconnections | Teen & Up, 1,018 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 2 of Shinkami Month 2022

Hitoshi shoved his hands in his pockets as he walked out of work.

It was his birthday, but he had gone to great lengths to ensure that nobody knew about it.

It was just another day; he didn't like being the center of attention. He never had.

It was a hot day out - so hot that the drizzle seemed to evaporate as soon as it hit the sidewalk, making a light mist - but Hitoshi was so tired that he didn't mind.

He was so tired, in fact, that he didn't even register a certain electric blond standing in front of him, calling his name.

Birthday Shenanigans | General, 1,319 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 1 of Shinkami Month 2022

Hitoshi twirled the pencil in his fingers as he thought furiously.

It had to be perfect. It just had to be.

Kaminari's birthday was coming up, and Hitoshi wanted to treat him to lunch.

It wasn't a date. It was not a date.

Here For You | Teen & Up, 1,327 words, 1/1 Chapters

What happens when a Pro Hero has a panic attack in front of other people?

He sucks it up and pretends everything is okay.

Even though it's not.

Tidal Wave | Mature, 6,277 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 2 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald With commissioned art

When a Ripple Effect goes unchecked, it can lead to disastrous consequences.

Quirk Accident | Mature, 5,665 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 1 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald Inspired by art

Denki's Quirk goes out of control. But there's something much more sinister and destructive hiding underneath the surface.

Fuck You, Monoma | Explicit, 1,978 words, 1/1 Chapters A retelling of My Dear Hitoshi

Hitoshi Shinsou goes through life in the Hero Course normally. He sits through boring lectures, chats with friends, and spends his evenings in the arms of his boyfriend.

Until there's a break in the pattern.

Until… Monoma.

He Had A Quirk The Whole Time | General, 956 words, 1/1 Chapters

For the longest time, Izuku thought he didn't have a Quirk.

He tried to use telekinesis and to breathe fire, but nothing worked.

Izuku was distraught. All he wanted to be when he grew up was a hero like All Might.

All Might was the coolest in the universe, and all Izuku wanted was to get a Quirk so he could become a hero just like All Might.

It wasn't until his early middle school days when Izuku discovered that he had a Quirk.

"...Sir?" | Teen & Up, 1,208 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 31 of The Merry Whump of May

Three people had gone missing in the past week. The three victims - one woman and two men - had been last seen in the area, and Mirio had volunteered to check out the local park.

…it hadn't helped that the last missing person had been Sir Nighteye.

"What are you doing?" | Explicit, 1,522 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 30 of The Merry Whump of May Part 2 of Stalker Monoma

Neito giggled again as the light faded from Shinsou's eyes and he fell still. He had been planning this for a long time, but this was so much better than how he had imagined it.

"Don't make me" | Mature, 653 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 29 of The Merry Whump of May Part 2 of Denki needs therapy

When Deni regained consciousness an indeterminable amount of time later, he was feeling much more alert.

Unfortunately, this had the side effect of letting him feel his impaled hand with disturbing clarity.

"I'd rather not" | Teen & Up, 423 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 28 of The Merry Whump of May

His body had been an inferno before, but now he was shivering in the cold, winter air. He was sitting in a ditch as far away from the Todoroki estate as he could walk, but he still didn't dare use his fire to warm himself.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" | Mature, 1,639 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 27 of The Merry Whump of May

Workstudies were hard.

That was the only thing circling through Oboro's head as he fell down onto his mattress at the end of the day.

"I don't know what you mean" | Teen & Up, 652 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 26 of The Merry Whump of May

When Hizashi was sixteen, he was introduced to the world of gambling.

He loved the rush, the thrill when he had a good hand, the satisfaction of blurring convincingly.

Throughout the years, he won a lot of yen that way.

…But he also lost a lot of yen that way.

"A little louder" | Teen & Up, 497 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 25 of The Merry Whump of May

It was dark, so Tenya's first instinct was that he'd awoken earlier than his alarm and to roll over and return to sleep.

But the material pressing up against his back was rough.

The air was warm and heavy.

"Do you need a break?" | Teen & Up, 720 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 24 of The Merry Whump of May

Denki wasn't enjoying the summer training camp anymore.

He'd had remedial courses the previous night until two in the morning, then had to return to the classroom the next morning at seven.

Did Mr. Aizawa have to sleep at all?

"Please" | Mature, 1,173 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 23 of The Merry Whump of May

When Eijiro debuted as Red Riot, he had shown off his Quirk at its maximum: Red Riot Unbreakable. The publicity from the fight had made his mind spin.

But, as all seasoned Pros knew - as Eijiro was about to discover - publicity had the tendency to backlash.

"Get in" | General, 674 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 22 of The Merry Whump of May

The kitten stumbled into the room, giving a small, pitiful mew.

"Are you cold?" | Mature, 744 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 21 of The Merry Whump of May Now with a sequel: Are you happy to see me?

As a 'present' for his seventeenth birthday, Endeavor gifted his son with a wife.

"Don't leave me here" | Teen & Up, 1,620 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 20 of The Merry Whump of May

Hizashi had a plan.

He hated the plan, but he had one.

And it was better than nothing.

"I'm all you need" | Teen & Up, 568 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 19 of The Merry Whump of May

He felt cold, hard ground beneath him. His eyelids cracked and he blearily saw a dark figure looming over him.

"It's getting late" | Teen & Up, 996 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 18 of The Merry Whump of May

"It's getting late."

"Mm-hmm."

"You should go to bed."

"Mm-hmm."

"…I'm pregnant."

"Mm-hmm."

"Let's go back inside" | Mature, 1,154 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 17 of The Merry Whump of May

The light above them flickered, humming faintly.

Hanta watched his classmates wake up one by one.

"You're scared, aren't you?" | Teen & Up, 919 words, 1/1 Chapter Part 16 of The Merry Whump of May

He always kept a strong, stoic mask on whenever he was around anyone.

He couldn't afford to let people in.

If they saw the kind of person he truly was, under his mask…

The son of Endeavor couldn't afford to show any weakness.

"When did you get so brave?" | Mature, 1,407 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 15 of The Merry Whump of May

Katsuki growled at nothing in particular, straining once again to free himself.

He'd awoken to a dark room, strapped down to a metal bed. Normally, he'd just explode his way out, but his asswipe captor had tied his hands to his thighs, ensuring that if he tried to use his Quirk, he'd just end up burning himself in the process.

How the fuck did I even get here?!

"Trust me, you don't wanna do that" | Mature, 821 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 14 of The Merry Whump of May Part 1 of Denki needs therapy

The world drifted in and out of focus as Denki's head lolled. His eyes were blinking weird, one at a time and too heavy. It was too hard to try to keep them open, but Denki knew that he should keep them open.

He wasn't sure why, though.

"Wait right here" | Teen & Up, 358 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 13 of The Merry Whump of May

"Deku, where are we going?" Ochako had been sleeping when Deku had barged into her room, pulled her up out of bed, and began dragging her outside.

He was still holding her wrist tightly as he led her away from Heights Alliance. It was early, before dawn, but he seemed unnaturally energetic.

"Deku?" she asked again, trying to get his attention. "Where are we going?"

"How squeamish are you?" | Teen & Up, 514 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 12 of The Merry Whump of May

Tetsutetsu groaned as he opened his eyes. He tried to look around, but he couldn't see anything. "What the hell..." he whispered to himself.

"Hello?" he tried calling out, but his voice faded into the air, leaving his surroundings just as empty as before.

"Lock the door" | Explicit, 2,094 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 11 of The Merry Whump of May An unofficial sequel to Let's Play A Game

The door flew open so quickly that it slammed against the wall behind it.

Shouta didn't pay it any mind. The only thing he was focused on was the man in front of him attacking his face. He moaned as sharp teeth nipped at his lower lip.

"You're eager," he hummed as his hands made their way to the man's slim waist, pulling their hips together.

"They're not here" | Teen & Up, 940 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 10 of The Merry Whump of May

Tomura paced back and forth along the length of his room. His fingernails scratched against the skin of his throat, leaving red lesions in their wake.

They should be back by now.

Why weren't they back?

If they were wasting their time, they were wasting his time.

And that couldn't go unpunished.

Back and forth. Back and forth.

"You can cry, it's okay" | General, 359 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 9 of The Merry Whump of May

Nemuri had been working late one evening when she received the phone call to her work number.

"Hello? I can't find my little sister."

"Does that hurt?" | Teen & Up, 483 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 8 of The Merry Whump of May

Minoru hated his luck.

"Relax" | Mature, 1,220 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 7 of The Merry Whump of May

Hitoshi set his jaw tightly as he walked up to the stage after his name was called.

He was finally done with high school. He'd graduated from UA's General Studies at the top of his class.

It all felt fake. Like they were patting him on the back and telling him 'good job' for taking a step, while everyone else around him, everyone with blessed Quirks, flew through the air, leagues ahead of him.

Condescending assholes.

"Who died and left you in charge?" | Teen & Up, 1,218 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 6 of The Merry Whump of May

Even with her sensitive hearing, Kyoka had trouble distinguishing where she was.

In fact, now that she thought about it, all her senses seemed to have been snuffed out.

"Mind if I cut in?" | Teen & Up, 455 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 5 of The Merry Whump of May

Himiko Toga skipped gleefully between the couples scattered across the ballroom floor.

In her mind, they were dancing to a beautiful waltz, each of them bleeding from some gash or another, just making them even prettier.

In reality, her prisoners were each tied to a rolling chair, so weak from blood loss that they couldn't even try to escape. They were set up in pairs, unable to do anything until Himiko decided which one she wanted to play with next.

"Shoulders back, eyes on me" | Mature, 1,606 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 4 of The Merry Whump of May

Hizashi leaned back on their couch, tossing a handful of popcorn into his mouth. "Okay, the next movie is better than that one, I promise.

"Sequels are rarely worth watching," Shouta grumbled, but turned his attention to the opening credits of their third movie. "And any movie after that usually just deteriorates in quality."

"Don't mind me" | General, 420 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 3 of The Merry Whump of May Part 1 of Stalker Monoma

It was dark.

That was the first thing that registered in Hitoshi's brain when he clawed his way into consciousness, sleep-heavy limbs still numb.

"Beg to differ" | Teen & Up, 745 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 2 of The Merry Whump of May

Ochako came to slowly, a cool breeze blowing against her cheek. She felt her back aching, which only confused her sleep-addled mind.

Her bed at Heights Alliance was soft and plush, and while her bed at home wasn't as good, it never left her feeling sore like this.

Her eyes blinked open, and her mind began to race in panic as she registered her surroundings.

"Don't hold your breath" | Teen & Up, 455 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 1 of The Merry Whump of May

Eri felt tears silently fall as she was led quietly down the corridor.

It was silent, always so silent.

But she preferred the silence over the screams.

This life was all that she had known, but she never got used to the screams.

Those Damn Flowers | Mature, 32,459 words, 24/24 Chapters

Shouta Aizawa is content with his life. He teaches, patrols, spends Saturdays with his best friend, then does it all over again.

This all comes crashing down when he coughs up a petal.

Lost | Teen & Up, 2,469 words, 1/1 Chapters Inspired by The Roundabout Way Of Fate

While he's defending Izuku, Katsuki gets hit by an unknown Quirk. Now Izuku is acting weird, but everyone seems to think that Katsuki is the weird one.

Quiet Day | General, 748 words, 1/1 Chapters

What happens when the Voice Hero - the guy who seems incapable of shutting up - shuts up?

#my writing

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omegavearth · 2 years

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Threadfics, Fanfics, Brainrots

Twitter is chaotic af, so here’s a little masterlist of my threadfics, fanfics and brainrots/ideas for easier nagivation :) All links lead back to Twitter or AO3! Please have a look at the original tags, in case I forgot some here.

SOME OF THESE ARE NSF/W and I did not specifically tag that. Generally the content of my TWT is not suitable for minors and I discourage anyone under the age of 18 from accessing it.

So far the ships appearing in these are: Kaeluc, Luckae, Chiluc, Crepluc, Chaeya, Chaeyaluc, Dainluc, Dainkae, and a minor instance of Jeankae. All threads are listed by ship!

FANFICS (published)

Here are my Genshin fanfics on AO3 :)

THREADFICS

K A E L U C:

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae Tags: angst Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya has to make a deal with the Tsaritsa in order to save Mondstadt from destruction. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: mild Diluc angst but good ending Genre: canon-based, fantasy Summary: Kaeya is rewarded with a few minutes of seeing someone again who died in the past (not Diluc). Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: sexy Genre: modern Summary: Diluc has a raunchy one night stand, only to discover the next day that the guy he slept with is the son of the company attempting a hostile take-over of his own father’s firm. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: angst, character death, sad Genre: Victorian AU Summary: Diluc is the son of a noble family while Kaeya is the son of their housekeeper. They fall in love. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: underage, Diluc is a teenager, Kaeya is an adult, some angst Genre: canon-based AU Summary: Young Diluc falls in love with (adult) Kaeya, who works at the Dawn Winery after being taken in by Master Crepus. Read it: HERE and HERE (extra). Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: “hybrids” (Catluc) Genre: royalty, medieval setting, fantasy Summary: Prince Kaeya, who is known for sharing his bed with many lovers, falls for the cute son of the tavern owner, Diluc. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: alien!Kaeya, eggpreg (Diluc) Genre: sci-fi AU Summary: Diluc wakes up captured by the infamous “collector” and has to team up with two questionable individuals in order to escape and return to his base ship. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished Fanart: x

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: Diluc whump, angst, happy ending Genre: modern high school AU Summary: Diluc is not popular at school, so it’s very confusing to him when popular!kid Kaeya suddenly tries to befriend him and ask him to be his date at the school dance. Read it: HERE and HERE (extra) and HERE (extra) Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: A/B/O, dubcon elements, alphas are treated like slaves/pets, part of the story is underage (teenagers), (eventual) happy ending. Genre: Summary: Reverse A/B/O society in which alphas are kept like slaves or pets, only meant for breeding and omegas are considered the ruling class. Crepus buys alpha!Kaeya for his omega son when he’s nearing his first heat. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished / this is a fanfic wip.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: INTERACTIVE Genre: royal AU, mystery Summary: Kaeya wakes up in a world that is not his own but familiar enough, and tries to piece together what’s going on. Read it: HERE and HERE (Part 2) Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae Tags: self-harm, depression Genre: angst, Diluc whump Summary: Diluc find relief in the pain. Read it: HERE. Status: kinda finished, might add thoughts later on

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: mpreg Genre: canon-based AU Summary: Diluc has cravings. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: incest (half brothers) Genre: modern, college AU Summary: Just bros being bros :3 Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: implied mpreg, heavy angst, klc baby, careful this has multiple endings attached one of which has MCD Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc comes back after his absence from Mond, with a little 2-year old surprise for Kaeya. Read it: HERE. Status: I have no idea.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: mental illness, Diluc whump, break up, mental clinic, good ending Genre: modern Summary: Diluc suffers from severe psychosis and it’s a strain on his life and his relationship with Kaeya. Read it: HERE (Part 1) and HERE (Part 2) and HERE (Part 3/extra) Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: incest (half brothers), some angst, happy ending Genre: modern, college AU Summary: Diluc and Kaeya are half brothers. They’re also lovers. They manage to hide their relationship until they’re forced to move in with a new rommate. Read it: HERE 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 Status:

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: demon!Kaeya, womb tattoo Genre: modern, demon AU Summary: Diluc notices a cute little stray cat and takes it home, not knowing he invited the devil into his bedroom. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: incest (half brothers), angst Genre: modern Summary: Diluc has never been in a relationship but not because he’s not interested in it. He just lost his heart a long time ago. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: pussy!Diluc, A/B/O, forced mating bond, angst/betrayal, pheromone control Genre: canon-based A/B/O AU Summary: Kaeya can’t resist the temptation of the beautiful Ragnvindr boy, a rare omega. He doesn’t go about it the right way. Read it: HERE and HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: vampire!Kaeya and human!Diluc, dubcon Genre: dark fantasy AU Summary: Crepus makes a deal with vampire Kaeya but tricks him out of his reward. Unfortunately Kaeya is smarter than him and he will do whatever it takes to get what he was promised. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: heavy angst, Diluc whump, heartbreak, dubcon elements (alcohol), no happy ending Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc is very very lonely. Read it: HERE and HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: witch hunts, bullying/harassment Genre: canon-based fantasy/witchcraft AU Summary: Years ago Diluc’s mother was burned for being a witch. Now that he is a young man himself, he and his father are still shunned by the people for their connection to dark magic. But Kaeya knows them as nothing but kind people. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

L U C K A E:

Ship: Luckae Tags: minor Kaeya angst, kid!Luckae, scars, loss of eye Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya struggles with the loss of his eye and Diluc tries to console him. Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Luckae Tags: vampire!Diluc, hunter!Kaeya, biting (blood) mention Genre: dark fantasy Summary: Diluc and Kaeya have a long-lasting rivalry that borders a romantic relationship sometimes. (And by borders I mean they’re totally in lust for each other.) Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished / this is fanfic wip.

Ship: Luckae Tags: ghosts Genre: modern dark fantasy Summary: Kaeya moves into a new house and soon finds that he has an unwanted roommate, the late father of his beautiful landlord. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Luckae, Chaeya, Dainkae Tags: A/B/O, mpreg, heavy angst, heartbreak, Kaeya whump, multiple endings one has MCD Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: Kaeya is so in love with Diluc, but no amount of love can change the fact that they’re not fated mates. Read it: HERE and HERE (good ending) and HERE (bad ending) and HERE (horror ending - unfinished) Status: finished

C H A E Y A / C H I L U C:

Ship: Chaeyaluc Tags: brocon, actual incest (half brothers), dubious consent Genre: modern Summary: Kaeya has always been in love with Diluc but Diluc says they can’t be together because they’re brothers. Diluc is dating Childe, who knows how Kaeya feels and isn’t opposed to sharing.. Read it: HERE. Status: unfinished

Ship: Chiluc Tags: noncon/r*pe, loss of bodily autonomy Genre: canon-based Summary: The Harbingers capture Diluc and Childe decides to have a little fun with him. Read it: HERE Status: kinda finished, might add to it at some point

D A I N L U C / D A I N K A E:

Ship: Dainluc Tags: angst, (eventually) unfinished ending, MCD in the past Genre: reincarnation AU Summary: Diluc sees the traveler speak to a mysterious stranger and it triggers memories he doesn’t remember actually living. Read it: HERE with HERE (kaeluc option extra of a past life) Status: unfinished

O T H E R S:

Ship: Diluc x Mitachurl Tags: monsterfucking, thigh fucking, dubious consent, non-con elements, stuck in wall trope Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc gets stuck in a wall while travelling with Kaeya :) Read it: HERE. Status: finished

Ship: Crepluc Tags: incest, Diluc is a teenager Genre: canon-based Summary: There aren’t many moments left Crepus and Diluc can spend alone together, since Kaeya arrived. Read it: HERE. Status: finished, part of a fanfic wip.

BRAINROTS/FANFIC IDEAS

K A E L U C:

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: A/B/O, Alpha!Kaeya, Omega!Diluc Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: Diluc comes back after his 3 years in the wild with no idea of how omegas are meant to mask their scents because he lived in the wild and all the alphas he met were enemies he pretty much murdered anyway, so their advances were not registered. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: brocon Kaeya, pussy!Diluc, underage Genre: canon-based Summary: I can’t write a summary for this.. Kaeya wants to bang Diluc and Diluc doesn’t know how sex works. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: horny Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeluc having sexy times at the office and they’re very vocal. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: Diluc whump, bad dad Crepus, angst Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc tries his hardest at being a good son and a success at everything to gain his father’s affection and praise but Crepus puts more pressure on him than he can handle and still never seems satisfied. Kaeya wishes he could make Diluc see how great he is. Read it: HERE and HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae Tags: fluff, A/B/O, alpha/omega not specified, mating Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: KLK being stupidly happy after mating. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: hurt/comfort, fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc is not as tough as he pretends to be. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: angst but also fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc and Kaeya have a fight during which the infamous vase breaks and Diluc’s heart shatters right with it. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: fluff Genre: royal AU Summary: Prince Kaeya gets pouty when his knight doesn’t pay attention to him for too long. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: hybrids, phoenix!Diluc, dragon!Kaeya, stillborn, eggpreg, mpreg Genre: fantasy AU, angst Summary: Phoenix Diluc is married to dragon prince Kaeya and expected to birth his heirs but they run into some trouble. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Implied Kaeluc or Luckae Tags: depression, Diluc whump Genre: canon-based Summary: Thoughts on Diluc having depression. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: dumbassery Genre: modern high school AU Summary: Kaeya and Diluc used to be friends but aren’t anymore. Now they have to survive a month of doing the baby/household project together. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae idk yet Tags: Genre: canon-based mystery Summary: Diluc wakes up one day and nobody in Mond remembers him. Diluc Ragnvindr died when he was 5 years old, they tell him. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: horny Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya has a virgin!Diluc kink. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: you can read this as trans!Diluc and/or as forced feminization; arranged marriage Genre: royalty AU Summary: Kaeya doesn’t want to marry some arrogant princess. Diluc doesn’t want to live like a girl just so his father can trick some poor prince into marrying him. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc, Dainluc Tags: love triangle, A/B/O, alpha!Kaeya, alpha!Dain, omega!Diluc, mpreg, memory loss Genre: A/B/O royalty AU Summary: Diluc is married to Kaeya but they’re still strangers to each other. An accident happens and Diluc disappears, only to wake up without his memories, saved by a mysterious stranger. Read it: HERE.

Ship: / Tags: angst, Diluc whump Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc.. is very lonely again. Set after his return to Mond. Read it: HERE and HERE and HERE (extra).

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya remembers falling in love with Diluc. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: fluff, dumbassery Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya had sex with Diluc and isn’t shy about it. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: A/B/O, incest (half brothers), omega!Diluc, alpha!Kaeya Genre: modern A/B/O Summary: Omegas need to be scented by their alphas, if they don’t have one usually a family member does it for them. Kaeya scents Diluc but he can’t keep his feelings out of it. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: prostitution Genre: modern Summary: Diluc wants experience before getting married and Kaeya is really good at his job. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: dumbassery, incest (half brothers) Genre: modern, college Summary: Diluc is broke and Kaeya is a tease. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc Tags: merman!Diluc Genre: fluff, mermaid & pirate AU Summary: Pirate Kaeya gets stranded and meets a pretty merman. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc, Dainluc Tags: love triangle, incest (half brothers) Genre: fantasy Summary: Diluc discovers that he’s the heir to the throne of a magical kingdom and also that his half brother is really handsome. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae (not really romantic) Tags: kid!klk Genre: canon-based Summary: Crepus used to kiss Diluc on the forehead before bed and Kaeya didn’t understand the magic of it. Read it: HERE.

L U C K A E:

Ship: Luckae Tags: A/B/O, alpha!Diluc, omega!Kaeya Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: Diluc likes Kaeya. That’s the summary. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Luckae play some Hunter and Rebel. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: MCD, angst but kind of good ending Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya dies and Diluc doesn’t want to live without him. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: jealousy, teasing Genre: canon-based / Prince of Khaenri’ah Kaeya theory Summary: Dainsleif enjoys making Diluc jealous and Kaeya finds it funny. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: horny, food play, vomit mention Genre: royalty AU Summary: Prince Diluc is a gentleman in the streets and filthy in the sheets, but only his best friend and guard Kaeya knows. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: fluff, underage Genre: canon-based Summary: Luckae’s first kiss. Read it: HERE. Fanart: x

Ship: Luckae or Kaeluc Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc is Kaeya’s weakness. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae or Switch Tags: angst, body dysmorphia (scars) Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc can’t see himself as something desirable anymore. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae, implied Chaeya Tags: jealousy Genre: canon-based Summary: Childe visits Mond and Diluc is jealous. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: dubcon (alcohol), teasing Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc is “punishing” Kaeya for drinking so much. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: yandere!Diluc, dubcon, noncon biting Genre: dark fantasy AU Summary: Hunter!Kaeya is careless and gets captured by vampire Lord Diluc, who decides he’d make a pretty little bloodslut. Read it: HERE and HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: angst, unrequited love, unhappy Genre: canon-based Summary: Diluc is getting married, Kaeya can’t bring himself to celebrate. Read it: HERE.

Ship: / Tags: angst Genre: canon-based, Prince of Khaenri’ah Kaeya theory Summary: Where is home? Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: fae!Kaeya, human!Diluc Genre: fantasy AU Summary: Diluc, a knight, is captured by the faeries of the wood realm where he meets the beautiful fae prince Kaeya, who treats him like a lost lover. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae Tags: A/B/O, alpha!Diluc, omega!Kaeya Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: Tiny headcanon :3 Read it: HERE.

Ship: Kaeluc or Luckae Tags: mild angst (about Crepus’ death) Genre: canon-based Summary: Kaeya and Diluc meet at their father’s grave. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae or Kaeluc Tags: underage (16), time travel, implied MCD Genre: canon-based time travel Summary: Diluc loses the one thing he cannot lose in the fight against the Abyss and finds a way to defeat time itself to bring Kaeya back. Read it: HERE. (unfinished?)

C H A E Y A / C H I L U C:

Ship: Chiluc Tags: incest Genre: canon-based AU in which Chiluc are half brothers Summary: Childe brings Diluc home to his family and for some reason his mother has a big issue with them being in love. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Chiluc Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Childe reminds Diluc what it feels like to have a home. Also Diluc is shy when he’s sober. Read it: HERE and HERE.

Ship: Chiluc, Kaeluc Tags: incest (half brothers) Genre: modern Summary: Diluc is dating Childe and one night during sex accidentally calls him “Kaeya”. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Chaeya Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Just cute Chaeya thoughts. Read it: HERE and HERE.

O T H E R S:

Ship: Jeankae Tags: A/B/O, alpha!Jean, omega!Kaeya, pussy!Kaeya, adultery, implied Luckae Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: Diluc is gone, Kaeya is lonely and Jean is too protective of Kaeya for her own good. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Luckae, implied Jeankae OPTION Tags: A/B/O, alpha!Jean, alpha!Diluc, omega!Kaeya Genre: canon-based A/B/O Summary: After a certain age it’s dangerous for omega Kaeya to be unmated and without the protecting and scenting of a family member, so Jean takes over that role for him. However when Diluc returns she has a hard time letting go of Kaeya so easily. Read it: HERE.

Ship: Waeya/Kaegner (Wagner x Kaeya) Tags: fluff Genre: canon-based Summary: Wagner makes a special birthday present for Kaeya. Read it: HERE.

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Thoughts on destiel?

Oh boy.

I have thoughts on this, a multi-part fuck-off sized meta level thoughts on this, but as it happens my past self has done me a huge favor on this one.

Devoted followers of this blog will remember the Muffin and I made our own TV tropes. This is not a tropes dictionary we'll ever publish in full, so don't ask, but every so often an ask hits just right (like when we have to justify "Aro is Charlie Kelly") and there's nothing to it but to publish an entry.

And it so happens that I made a Destiel entry some time ago. Note before you read this, the structure of these tropes is that we include definitions of what the trope is (sometimes there are several meanings, hence the enumeration), as well as an explanation of what the trope even is.

Keep in mind that this was never meant to be published, it was meant for our eyes only. But hey, you asked and this saves me time.

Also, yes I know all of this is fucking weird.

Edit: another important note, I stopped watching in early season 9 and really only consider the first five seasons canon. This is in large parts because the show just failed to do anything at all that I enjoyed after that, and several things the show did, like “oh season 4 wasn’t anything special for Cas, he actually rebels all the time lol. CRACK IN HIS CHASSIS”, made it impossible for me to enjoy the show. It’s just easier to make the cutoff at the Kripke era while things still pretend to mean anything.

Destiel

/dəstɪel/;

Noun

A nonexistent ship. A Destiel ship is when the fandom ships Character A with Sexy Lamp B. The Destiel ship is past incompatible, because you could still get relationship angst and in turn a ship out of incompatibility. The Destiel ship is nonexistent because one half of the ship is of a nature that means he cannot meaningfully be in a romantic relationship with anybody, regardless of how much character development he goes through or even how much love there may be between him and character A. Originating from Supernatural, a TV series whose fans came to passionately ship one of the show’s main characters, Dean Winchester, with the angel Castiel. Dean Winchester is a womanizing redneck dudebro with daddy issues. Castiel is a multi-dimensional celestial entity created to fulfill God’s Will. Castiel is not boyfriend material. Not to be confused with Anna/Elsa or Christine/Erik.

Lily/Rabbit is a Destiel ship.

Steven Universe is full of Destiel ships.

Destiel, the abbreviation of Dean Winchester/Castiel, is the insanely popular slash ship that rose up in the Supernatural fandom in the show’s fourth season, when the character Castiel was introduced. Originally a Honey Maren ship, the ship has since grown to quite possibly have the most notable fandom on the internet. Notable is really the only word for it, these people invented ABO, ruled supreme on social media for years, and in many ways made Supernatural’s reputation what it is today. Their impact on fanfiction and slash culture is immense. Unfortunately, the ship is the worst. On a very fundamental level, Dean does not understand what Castiel is, and he never truly forgives him for being a supernatural creature. When he tries to bond with him, it’s over human things Castiel has no understanding of, which in turn only serves to highlight how lonely Dean is, that the closest thing he has to a friend is a celestial entity he doesn’t begin to understand. Castiel, on his end, loves Dean, but in the way of angels. He loves all of God’s creations, some more than others but still not in a carnal way. He’s a multidimensional wavelength of celestial intent, he feels no hunger, thirst, pain, or pleasure (or if he does then it’s usually a sign something is extremely wrong and he’ll spend the episode whining about it). The one time he does experience temptation, he’s not actually experiencing his own temptation, it’s Jimmy Novak’s consciousness giving him trouble. Angels don’t feel emotions the way humans do, what they have seems to be a different concept altogether. There’s also the fact that Castiel can’t walk the Earth in his true form, so he must possess the form of Jimmy Novak if he wants screentime. Jimmy Novak is not happy about this, he at first didn’t understand what he was saying yes to then was later coerced with the threat of certain death and his daughter’s endless torment if he didn’t let Castiel possess him. If Dean and Castiel are somehow having sex, they’re raping Jimmy Novak. Lastly, the relationship is quite toxic, as Dean is a toxic person, and his relationship with Castiel is no exception. In short, Destiel is a horrifying, impossible ship that hinges on Castiel looking upon his Father’s creation and saying “I want to stick Jimmy Novak’s dick in that.”, Dean raping a vessel after spending his life freeing people like Jimmy, and sexual love between a human and a divine entity being feasible.

#supernatural #castiel/dean winchester #anti castiel/dean winchester #supernatural meta #anti supernatural #supernatural angels #castiel #dean winchester

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krreader · 3 years

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ensorcell | chapter 8.

pairing: prince!taehyung x reader fandom: bts warnings: non idol!au ; prince!taehyung ; arranged marriage ; language ; sex genre: fluff ; angst ; smut word count: 2.7k+ previous: 1 ; 2 ; 3 ; 4 ; 5 ; 6 ; 7

summary: it was funny, how meeting one single person could change your life forever. you were ordinary, he was not. he was rich, you were not. he fell in love with you and so did you. even though he was never supposed to.

a/n: i’m so sad I never get to update my originals as much as I want to, but I’m really happy when I do. especially with this one BECAUSE IT’S FINALLY SEXY TIME

It was on days like these that you were harshly reminded of not really belonging here.

It was on days like these that you realized that the girl struggling in college to get her degree and having frequent anxiety attacks due to the uncertainty of the future was the real you that you had left behind to play pretend. Because unlike some others, you were not cut out to play this game of royal intrigues that some seemed to excel in.

“You're mad.. aren't you?” the familiar voice would have made you turn around and smile a few hours ago, but now you kept your eyes firmly on the horizon and watched the sun set in the royal gardens while royal guards and maids were all around you, making sure that you were well taken care of.

Why, you might ask? Well, because they all thought you were carrying a royal heir, thanks to the man that now sat down next to you. When in reality, the only thing you were carrying was the weight of the lies that kept piling up.

“I'm not mad. I know why you did it,” when Taehyung let out a relieved sigh, you quickly added, “Doesn't mean I like what you did, though.”

“I had to say something. I've gotten so many inquiries about whether the rumors about Dae and me were true today, I knew the only way to make it stop was to say you were pregnant. A royal heir is the most precious thing a kingdom could have. You being pregnant will put an indefinite end to any possible other 'proposals' that my father could make.”

“But I'm not, Taehyung. I'm not pregnant. And I don't intend to get pregnant. Because in case you forgot, we've only been dating for a few weeks. Marrying is a big step after such a short amount of time, but having a baby?”

“I know,” he put his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands, brushing them over his tired eyes in desperation, “I thought it was the best solution at the time. I should have discussed it with you first, I'm sorry.”

It was a mess. A mess that would be hard to get out of, but at the same time, you really couldn't bring yourself to be angry with him. His father would have married him off to someone that he hated. He did it to ensure that the two of you could stay with each other. In some way, it showed you that he did it because, like his sister said, you meant a lot to him. And from the way he was acting now, a child hadn't been something that he had considered so early on either.

So at least you were on the same page in that sense.

Now, you'd have to figure out how to fix this and get out of this without birthing a baby in nine months. It’s not like you already had enough shit on your plate already.

“Give me a second,” you said when you felt your phone vibrate in your pocket, letting out a heavy sigh when you saw the name on the display. You already knew you were in deep shit when you answered, “Let me explain..-”

“No, you let me talk now and you just listen,” your mother started angrily, “You run off with some foreign prince that I've never met in my life without so much as a word to get married to him, because there is no other way to stay together, despite you and him only knowing each other for a few hours. Then you get knocked up by said prince before even getting married to him and are now pregnant without even having finished college yet and having absolutely zero fucking stability in your life while being in a country that is not home. Did I get all the details right?”

You clenched your jaw as you looked at the terrified 'foreign prince' that your mother seemed to like so much. Taehyung maybe should have asked more about your family, now that he was hearing her scream like this.

“I'm not pregnant, mom,” you lowered your voice, “It's.. extremely complicated and I promise I will explain it all eventually, but I am not pregnant, okay?”

“You know what? I've had enough. I'm taking the next flight out and I am taking you home with me.”

That alarmed Taehyung so much that he sat up straight, but you just put your hand on his leg to stop him from worrying, “I'm not five anymore, mom, you can't just come and get me. I'm an adult who can make her own decisions and I've made this one. I am getting married, with or without your approval.”

You knew that she was worried. That her saying that wasn't said out of any ill-will, but she was worried sick for you being here, so far away from home where she couldn't be with you.

And she instantly showed that side of herself when her voice broke a little, “Just come home, sweetheart. We can figure all of this out when you're back here. And maybe your boyfriend could come here too? Why can't he just..-”

If only it were so easy.

“Mom,” you got up and started walking, wanting a moment alone with your mother, “I miss you as much as you miss me, so I'm going to suggest that maybe, if you can, come here and spend a few days here. I actually would really like you to be here for the wedding. I want you to meet Taehyung and see what a great guy he is and his mother and sister, who take such good care of me. I want you to meet them.”

“It's not them I'm worried about. It's everything else. You don't understand how big of a thing this is, the media coverage on all of this is insane. Everyone is suddenly talking so much about you and I'm so afraid of what it's turning you into. I just don't want anything to happen to you, so leaving now..-”

“..- is not an option, I'm sorry, mom,” you said firmly, but at the same time, with a soft undertone, “Call (Y/B/F). She'll be here soon, maybe you can take the same flight as her. I'll prove to you that I'm doing okay and that you won't have to worry about me. I've got this.”

Fake it till you make it, right?

“How could you be so stupid?!” the king was pacing up and down the room, the queen and Taehyung's brother and sister all sitting across from you and him on a couch opposite, “I told you, the worst thing that you could do is get her pregnant and you do exactly that. This is an outrage!”

“Have you even listened to the news? Read an article? Because everything I've seen so far is well-wishes and happiness,” Taehyung leaned back and crossed one leg over the other, “We live in the 21st Century, father. Having a child before marriage isn't as big of a deal anymore as when you were younger.”

He was challenging him, so much that his mother had to gently shake her head to tell him to stop.

The king was already furious enough. Taehyung shouldn't add more fuel to the fire.

You had thought that Taehyung might have told his father the truth about the situation, but that would make little sense. What he did was to stop him from trying to ruin yours and his relationship. If he caught wind of this pregnancy being fake, it would be back to him trying to marry Taehyung off to princess Dae. His mother seemed to be unaware of the situation as well. Only his sister knew, why she did, though, you didn't know. Maybe Taehyung had confided in her beforehand.

“I thought I had raised you well, you know?” gone was the mad king, now all that you could see on his face was disappointment, “But ever since you met her..-” and as soon as your eyes met his, it was back to anger, “..you ruined everything.”

Taehyung let out a snort and got up, “If that's everything you have to say, then we shall take our leave. My fiancé has to rest,” he emphasized the word fiancé, which only seemed to make his father angrier.

But before this could escalate any further, he pulled you up by your hand and out of the room, walking with you to your bedroom.

And as soon as the doors behind you two were closed, his shoulders slumped and you could see just how tired he actually was.

You weren't the only one that was drained by all of this, he just hid it better than you.

Taehyung moved to the bed, then sat down on the foot of it and closed his eyes for a moment.

You watched him, but couldn't do so for long. Your need to reach out and support him was too great. And so you followed him and knelt down before him, gently cupping his face in your hands so that he looked at you.

“This is all my fault,” he whispered, “I made it worse.”

“Why did you do it? I mean.. really, why did you take such a drastic step?”

He looked into your eyes for a long while, then he put his hands over yours to hold them, his eyes becoming sadder by the second, “I was scared to lose you. The only one that I ever had feelings for and that I wanted to spend my future with. That was selfish, wasn't it?”

The corner of your mouth curled into a smile, “I wouldn't be here anymore if I didn't feel the same way about you.”

And the longer this eye contact lasted, the harder your heart beat against your chest. So much, that it felt like it was about to jump out. The urge to kiss him, to hold him and just... be with him, was so overwhelming that you couldn't hold back anymore.

And for the first time since you came here, it felt like you shut off your brain and just listened to your heart. You leaned up and kissed him, carefully at first because you were afraid of taking it too far, but Taehyung was as desperate for this as you were.

This wasn't even about sexual needs, this was about feeling the other person so close to you, to feel a union that would bring you closer together and would help you feel a little better in a shitty situation like this.

He wanted that too... so he deepened the kiss.

You sighed against his lips and slowly got up, only so you could straddle him a moment later.

His hands traveled from yours to your waist, holding you so tightly that you felt like his hands were leaving marks on your skin.

Keep in mind that you haven't had a proper moment like this since that first kiss that you shared back home. All those emotions, those feelings... you both just bottled them up because you had no other choice. But now, the bottle was overflowing. And there was no going back anymore.

Taehyung fell back into the mattress, you with him, without ever breaking the kiss once.

The only moment you both did, was for you and him to take off your shirts, then it was back to exploring the others mouth.

Fingertips running over your back, a trail of goosebumps forming where they touched and once he unclasped your bra, your entire upper body was covered in them.

One of his hands came up to your neck to hold it firmly, his thumb brushing against your jaw, stopping to kiss you for a moment, but leaning his forehead against yours and breathing heavily.

You thought he might say something, but he couldn't. It was all too much in that moment. Too many feelings and emotions. All he could do was quickly turn you around so that you were lying on your back and he on top of you.

His lips found their way to your neck, beginning to kiss every single spot on it.

Your hands were running through his beautiful and soft hair, letting out quiet moans every time he found a spot that made you shiver.

It was clear that he wanted to make you feel good. As if he wanted to make up for something, which he really didn't have to. But as his lips wrapped around your nipples, you couldn't bring yourself to say no. Not when his tongue felt so good and felt even better when it was finally between your exposed legs.

You had only been able to imagine what kind of lover he was before, but you were glad to see that – despite not knowing his sexual history – he seemed to know what he was doing. His tongue was caressing your clit, kissing it and biting down on it every now and again. Every time your moans became louder, he slowed down, just so you could fully enjoy this and he could draw this out for as long as possible.

He didn't say a word, just enjoyed making you feel beautiful, loved and outright good.

Soft kisses, hard kisses, sucking on it.. he drove you mad relatively quickly.

“I think..- I think I'm..-” you couldn't finish this sentence, Taehyung had already felt your grip tighten in his hair. He licked on your clit like he had before and to top it all of, sucked on it a little harder than he had earlier. And that was all it took to bring you over the edge and to have you moan out his name. Loud.

Your body became limp afterwards, breathing heavily as he kissed his way back up.

A grin had spread on his face, kissing your cheek when he whispered, “I should thank whoever built this castle for making the walls thick.”

You let out a chuckle and spread your legs a little wider, grinning when he looked down, “You're not done, though, right?”

“Right..-” he dipped his head to kiss you once, twice, then he leaned down to your ear, his hardened length now resting against your throbbing clit, “Are you sure?”

Butterflies erupted in your belly when he said that. This caring and wonderful man, still worried if you maybe didn't want to continue after all this... it might have been stupid to think that way, but in that moment, you thought to yourself: ‘It's all worth it...’

“Yes,” you wrapped your arms around his neck, “I want you. All of you.”

“You have me,” he whispered back, slipping inside you so easily because of how wet you were, “All of me.”

You had seen his dick earlier and had seen that it was long, but now that he was actually inside you, rock-hard at that, you could really feel just how long.

The moment he was completely buried in you, you let out a breath that you had unconsciously been holding and waited for him to continue.

But it took him a while.

He just waited, held you in his arms and kissed your cheek every now and again.

“Hey.. are you okay?” you asked eventually, putting your hand on his cheek to make him look at you.

And when he did, you were surprised to see tears in his eyes. Worry filled your face, but he quickly laughed, “Shit, I'm sorry. I'm just... I just really needed this.”

“My vagina?” you said, mainly to lighten the mood. And it did.

Taehyung let out a laugh and kissed your forehead, “No.. happiness. A moment of peace. With the woman that I'll marry.”

Your smile softened, your thumb brushing over his cheek, “Well then.. why don't you show your wife-to-be what she can expect from her future husband?”

“Many,” he pulled out a little, “many,” then pushed back in, a little harder than the first time to make you moan, “Orgasms.”

Now, that was music to your ears.

And the moans that escaped his throat afterwards as he continued pushing himself inside you again and again were an even sweeter melody. Every time he moaned your name and told you how good you felt, your heart felt like it was exploding.

This is what you had both needed.

Because now, there was no uncertainty anymore.

This was right. This felt right. You and him together.

And whatever obstacle would come your way, you would face it.

Together.

#bts imagine #bts x reader #kim taehyung x reader #taehyung x reader #v x reader #kim taehyung imagine #taehyung imagine #v imagine #bts #bangtan boys #bangtan sonyeondan #bangtan #kim taehyung #taehyung #v #reader #mine

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might-guys-acorn · 4 years

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Could you please write a story where Iruka is on a date with y/n who was originally his student? It leads to them being in a closed room leading to sex?

Of course! I need more Iruka content tbh, I love this man. Also I realize now that I didnt *technically* write an NSFW piece for this, but I still like it, so I hope thats okay. I love you💕-🦎

TW: Unwanted Advancements, Drunken Behavior

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"Wow. You look. Just. Wow." Iruka stammered, watching you step down from the end of the staircase outside your apartment. You had asked him to accompany you to this party a while ago, after seeing him a few times around the village. Truth is, you'd thought he was incredibly attractive since you studied under him, but that was so long ago, and now the 6 year age difference seemed so small. As you walked up to him, you smiled brightly.

"I could say the same for you, Iruka. You look amazing." You said, reaching forward to undo the top button in his button down, and placing your hands on his shoulders. "But, its not that formal, try to relax, hun."

He blushes slightly, sometimes it was easy to forget how young you used to be. The way your hips rounded out beneath your jeans, not to mention the way you filled out that wine red low-cut blouse. Wait. Inappropiate. He shakes his head, freeing the thought from his brain. It was just a party.

"I- well, we should get going." He stammers, still blushing at his thoughts. You smiled and grabbed his arm, walking towards the party. On the way there, you two fell into conversation about the old days, how clumsy you had been, and how different life was now. He found himself relaxing in your presence, and a little caught up on how much chemistry was there. Was that weird? It shouldnt be, right?

"Honestly, Ive thought about getting back in contact with you for a while, Iruka. Its been, what? Like 8 years now?" You said and he nodded. 8 years. How life has changed.

"Yeah. Seems like forever since you were that 12 year old, still tripping over her feet and begging me to take you under my wing." He laughed at your blush. Even then you had a huge crush on him. You were stunned when you came back from your 2 year mission and he was still single. Who wouldnt love this man?

You two came up to the house, hearing the music thudding inside. It probably wasnt his scene, but you didnt want to come alone. You pulled him inside, and grabbed a beer as soon as you got in the door. He smiled as you cheerfully greeted everyone, you were always a social butterfly. He grabbed a beer of his own, and downed it quickly, this amount of people was going to take some liquid courage.

You pulled him into the kitchen and smiled, finishing your drink, and quickly grabbing a second. You didnt want to show it, but you were a little nervous.

"Not really your comfort zone, is it, Iruka?" You ask over the music. He smiles at you and takes another drink of his own.

"Not usually, but I couldnt turn down an ivite to be your date." He replied, and you blushed deeply. He was so sweet, dammit. You finished your second drink and grabbed his hand.

"Lets go dance!" You said, pulling him into the next room, his face flushed with surprise. Dance? He couldnt dance? But as you swayed your hips, and moved his arms with you own, he found himself enjoying it. Must be the booze. He spun you, and watched as your hair floated in the air. Youve become so beautiful, a butterfly from a catterpillar. After about 5 songs, you two collapsed on the couch in laughter, everyone around you chattering, a few claps from the show of you two swaying in time to the music. You didnt let go of his hand once, and as you sat down on the couch, you felt the bit of alcohol in you, and leaned you head on his shoulder. He ran his thumb over your hand, showing you that this was okay.

"Iruka?"

"Yes, Y/N?"

"I.... Well. Um. Could you get me another drink?" You asked, giving up on the real reason for your disruption of the moment. Not enough courage, I suppose. You just needed a moment to think.

"Sure." He smiled, and stood up, leaving you on the couch by yourself for a moment. But his spot was soon replaced by another. You looked up at this new company in confusion.

"Hey, sexy. Saw you dancing earlier, you could do better than that dweeb." He said, his words slurring together and his hand found a spot on your thigh. You shoved it off in disgust. "Aw cmon baby, dont be like that."

And suddenly this mans lips were on your neck. You sat stunned for a minute, and before you had any reaction, the hot smell of alcohol from his lips were ripped away from you.

"I-Iruka?" You asked, taking in the face in front of you. He had the collar of the man in his tight clenched fists, and he was giving him a look so poisonous it could kill an army.

"You keep your filthy hands off her, asshole." He said, and the man on the other end smirked for a second, right before Iruka's fist met his face. The rest of the party was staring now, as the man crumpled for a second at Iruka's hit, coming back quickly to lunge at him in a rage. Iruka kneed him where it hurt, but not before the mans fist hit him in the jaw. Iruka stumbled for a second as the man crumpled to the floor, clutching the soft spot between his legs.

At this point, you were so overwhelmed you were sobbing, and youd gotten up from yhe couch, running off to a room upstairs. As you shut the door, you heard Iruka yell at the man, "When you forget how to respect a woman, remember that pain, douchebag."

You clutched your heart, sitting on the bed, and sobbed. You just froze, you did nothing. All you wanted was a nice night, and now Iruka's gotten in a fight. Because of you.

Your sobs echoed through the room, but footsteps broke through the vibrations, and you heard the door open cautiously.

"Y/N? Are you alright?" Iruka's voice pierced the room, and your sobs quieted slowly.

"I-I'm. F-Fine." You reply, through hiccups. This was too much. He walked into the room, and saw your tear stained face, rushing over to sit down beside you and pulled you close to his chest. Your whimpers continued, soaking his shirt with your tears.

"I-Im so sorry." You said into his chest, and he chuckled for a moment, placing his fingers under your chin to pull your face up to look at him. He brushed his thumb across your cheek, drying the tears before more fell.

"Dont you dare apologize. Id fight every disrespectful bigot for you. You deserve that, and more, love." He said, and your face heated up at his words. No man has ever said something that sweet to you.

"B-But tonight was supposed to be p-perfect." You said, whimpering, and he looked deep into your eyes, seeing how much it meant to you that he was your date. He leaned in, not even knowing what he was doing, but for once just taking the moment before it left forever, and his lips were suddenly pressing against yours. You took no second to freeze like before, this was a scene youd played in your head a hundred times over, and somehow it was more perfect than youd imagined. You kissed him back, passionately, the taste of beer and built up emotion lingering on both of your lips. You wrapped your arms around his shoulders, running your hands through his hair, and pulled him down to lay on the bed, an urgency in the air. As his hands finally wandered your curves, and you unbuttoned his shirt to finally feel the bare skin against his muscular chest, you smiled into his lips. After all this time, all those moments imagining the way he'd feel against you, he was finally yours. And there was no way you were going to let him get away again.

#iruka umino #ft. all the respect women juice #iruka #iruka sensei #iruka x reader #iruka smut?#mild smut #iruka fluff #naruto imagines

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I saw Frozen 2 and there’s a lot to say. I’m not gonna write in any particular order so I apologize if this seems a bit...disconnected.

- Elsa is a cute little angel when she sleeps. Expecially in the wagon scene. I wanted to take a pic. lol

- Elsa and Anna entering the castle, arms in arms at the end of “some things never change” is something I’ll need to rewatch over and over.

- I didn’t like how ready Elsa was to leave at any time (night and day) forgetting she has Anna following her. Even after the fire, she’s following Bruni and boom, Anna hugs her from behind. Of course she’s fast to recover and ask her how she feels...but if they wanted to show her priority was to find the voice....mission accomplished. It shouldn’t have been this way tho.

- One of the K’s proposal was really ridiculous, Anna’s watching the dam, she casually talks about how it may break, and he has to “reassure her” it’s gonna be fine and she needs a hug over it. Fanservice. It was a casual convo, not a dramatic scene. There was no need for all that thing even if it didn’t bother me, it made ma laugh. They did it to prove Anna cares about him and it explains why she says yes later...otherwise the audience has no idea the relationship evolved since last time we saw them. Anyway it seemed weird as fuck and totally ridiculous. Nobody needs a hug over something that it’s ... NOT happening in that very moment.

- Kristoff’s song. It totally stopped the movie. The song is cute, but it’s one of those things that could have been cut to give more space at the end.

It was “pee time” for all kids in the theater who were bored, and it was “let’s check the time” for the moms who reached for the phone in their purses. I would have cut it, but if you cut that...well you also cut the only thing he does in the whole movie. :/ Cause it’s his only storyline.

- I loved how furious Anna was when Elsa made her leave. It was a dick move, Elsa, and again, instead of opening up to her sister she sent her away. She may have “changed” into a 5th spirit, but this is NOT growth. Not at all. She’s still not sharing her pain, and still not opening up. She didn’t change, and she should.

Anyway if this is all the “fighting” they did during the movie...lol I’m on board. It’s not a fight at all.

- “Show yourself” is amazing. I loved how Elsa is crying when she’s reaching the glacier. She’s so beautiful when she wipes the tears from her face.

- I’ve cried a little bit over “show yourself” but the fact that it was in italian really stopped me from being emotional. I need to watch it in original language.

There were young kids there...3/4 year olds, who didn’t understood most of the movie. It was too difficult for them, the plot too complicated, and what’s happened to Elsa wasn’t properly explained in a way kids would understand it. They were annoyed at Olaf’s “big words”, and didn’t cry cause they didn’t even understood Elsa died. They cried when Anna cried, cause it was obvious what was happening there.

Older kids (7/8) as my daughter cried for the minute Olaf started to melt, and on. Elsa’s death wasn’t too emotional to be honest.

Kids cried but were also annoyed after 1 minute of Anna’s song. It’s not “harmonious” enough, people got bored.

- The moment when Anna apologizes to Kristoff for leaving him behind felt totally wrong. It wasn’t the right moment. Any sane woman who just lost a sister would even remotely THINK of something else, like...apologizing for something like that. Again, the way they had to bend the storyline to prove the proposal made sense, it’s unbelievable! I said it was fanservice but it’s not.

It’s about the little things they had to insert here and there to show it makes sense for them to do the next step.

Spoiler: it doesn’t.

Every one of those moments, as the one in front of the dam I’ve discussed before, feels out of place, exaggerated, like they were “reaching”.

- When K does the proposal and calls Anna an extraordinary person look at Elsa, she’s nodding. Not because she agrees with the proposal as “they” said LMAO but because she is confirming how amazing her sister is. I loved how after the proposal Elsa bends her head trying to catch a glimpse of her sister’ eyes, to see how she really feels. She goes to look for her face, to look at her in the eyes. Very human, I loved it. She didn’t react in any particular way to the proposal tho, as expected.

- Honeymaren. It’s nothing. Nothing at all. A not-existent relationship. I don’t understand what’s there to see. Now that i’ve seen her interaction with Elsa and Anna I have 2 things in my mind:

1) there was NOTHING REMOTELY SEXUAL in their enteractions. No flirting, no hints to anything, it confirmed to me what I already knew, that Elsa is asexual.

Yes, in my mind she’ll always be a lesbian and in love with Anna, but this is my ship, my dream. In the reality of the show, in canon.....I strongly believe they’re painting her as asexual.

There is nothing about Elsa that hints to romance, to flirt, to interest towards women or men. She’s pure as a virgin, she’s an ethereal goddess, an angel. And I’m perfectly fine with it.

2) Since there is this...not existent relationship between Elsa and the Nolthundra, I’ve found extremely arrogant from Honeymaren’ to say “your place is in the forest”. Like uh??? Who asked you? You are you? Who cares about your opinion? Why do you believe you know what’s better for Elsa? It irritates me, but I’m wrong to be irritated to her. I should be irritated with the writers who didn’t find a better way to explain why Elsa should stay there. I know, they changed your story and you couldn’t kill Elsa....but a better “plan B” had to take place!

- The end: it’s clear as the sun that Elsa lives with the Nolthundra and that she’s doing a trip to the glacier in the end. You can absolutely see Anathollan in front of her, the same shape we saw before in the movie, as she runs towards it. Yes, the dark sea is iced cause it’s almost winter now, but it’s there. She’s NOT going to Arendelle at all, not in that moment anyhow.

- Anna as Queen feels extremely weird. She looks like Iduna. My daugther noticed how her clothes matched..................Mathias’ ones. lmao. I see now how naive we were to think we’ll see a coronation. We saw it in one movie, no chances in hell they’ll do another similar scene, it would feel like a unnecessary copy.

Now....on with the characters and ships’ reviews:

KA: there’s nothing sexy at all. The wagon scene was innocent and pure and I can’t believe people thought it was flirty. Even the “leather” comment.....I think the italian translation here really helps to explain what Anna meant. They translated it with “I prefer you when you wear animal fur”, which is exactly what Kristoff wears. Translators didn’t see an innuendo and I don’t think there was one. Anyway Kristoff’ only plot was to propose. If you take the proposal out of the movie you LOSE NOTHING, and you gain 10 minutes who could be spent on expanding the rushed finale.

elsanna: I felt an enormous affection and love between the 2 sisters, for Anna it lasted for the whole movie, for Elsa I didn’t feel it when she was too focused on her trip, but every little gesture screamed “love”. I didn’t think it was “too much”, it could 100% pass as sisterly love only, and if you don’t rewatch the scenes in slow motion and don’t see the little things as Anna staring at her lips....it’s really NOT “too much” for the anti-elsanna viewer.

elsamaren: not registered.

Elsa: she’s larger than life. She’s everything. Of course I didn’t like when she sent Anna away, or when she ignored her, or when she dumped her responsabilities like that.....But she was magnificent. My Elsa is still Queen of Arendelle and I’m taking home from this movie only the good things. She definitely has to apologize to Anna, and if there will be a third movie, I would like it to be about Elsa running after Anna, about Elsa showing how much she cares and about Elsa making sacrifices for Anna. She has to. Otherwise it’s not fair.

The kids loved her tho....it was like she was the only thing they saw on screen.

Anna: I’m sorry to say it but if Elsa was more popular before.....now they’re not even on the same planet.

If this movie accomplishes one thing, is to increase the gap between the love/attention Elsa will get from kids, and the love/attention Anna will. And there’s nothing to do about that. Elsa is this gorgeous magic being, pure and beautiful, who rides an ice horse and control the elements....and Anna destroyed a dam once. I’m sorry for Anna cause there is really no game now. It’s the sisters’ franchising but this is this movie consecrates Elsa as its star.

My daughter is in love with Nokk and her favorite scene is when Elsa turns Nokk into ice. She thinks it’s “not fair” that Elsa isn’t Queen anymore, she laughed at the Kristoff’ song (she liked it=, and she would want Elsa to live with her sister because “I don’t like the idea that when you grow up you have to go to live elsewhere”.

LOL @ Jenn who wrote a movie for kids with adult messages they may not like.

I will probably find more to add later, but this is for now.

I want to ask a favor to my anons.....instead of sending me questions about what I’ve seen, please, interact with this post. I want to keep it all together. Otherwise (no big deal!) I will screencap your anons and add them here, if they’re related to this post. :)

#Frozen 2 #Elsa #Anna #elsanna #anti-kristanna #Queen Elsa #BringElsaHome

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ltleflrt · 4 years

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Ltleflrt’s Writing Year in Review

Once again I felt like I could do more this year, so this is the theme for the decade. But I got SO MUCH DONE too! And more than I did last year, so I’m happy to see an improvement :D

Total 2019 Word Count: 215,491 Total 2019 Kudos: 7,581 Total 2019 Hits: 63,620

My 2019 Fics:

Dreaming in Digital: 173,818 words (44,142 from 2019)

When Dean finds a deactivated sex bot, he knows it’s his lucky day.

Set in a Cyberpunk world where global warming and climate change has driven most of the human population into domed cities, Sam and Dean hunt rogue tech and science experiments gone wrong in the shadows, protecting the lives of those the government doesn't care about anymore. On a trip to the dump to scavenge for valuables Dean finds Castiel, an Angel Industries sex bot, which is worth his weight in credits. But when he turns the sex bot on, he learns that Castiel is sentient.

Artificial Intelligence is illegal, and for good reason, but Cas doesn't put off dangerous vibes. That doesn't stop Sam from researching his creators while Dean's off making friends with the android. If there's someone out there creating a robot army unconstrained by the 3 rules of robotics, Sam's going to make sure the operation is shut down for good.

Castiel just wants to exist. He wants to read and work in the Winchester's greenhouse and have movie nights with Dean. But he also wants to understand. Himself. His unexpected reaction to Dean. What it it means to feel.

I started this fic in February 2018, and finished it in April 2019. As of this post, it is the longest thing I’ve ever written. And definitely the hardest thing I’ve ever written. You know that saying about blood, sweat, and tears? So true. (the blood was from a cat scratch when Kitty Cas tried to jump in my lap while I was writing and I got clawed, but it counts!) I am proud of the results, even if I got tired of it and cut out a bunch of stuff I wanted to do. 2020 goal is some timestamps!

Where The Heart Lives: 12,876 words

Home is where the heart is, but it's nice to have a cozy little love nest too.

A collection of related short ficlets without a plot. Just small glimpses of Dean and Castiel being happy and in love.

This was a 30 day art challenge called Cottagetober, that I turned into writing prompts and added a 31st day since it was an October thing and I wanted a ficlet for every day. Writing these fluffy snippets every day made me very happy, and I think I might do something similar in 2020 if I can find a list that sparks joy.

Reunited: 2,681 words

Castiel has changed a lot in the 10 years since he was a shy bookworm in High School. But it seems like few of his previous schoolmates have grown up much, if the revival of the rumor mill as soon as he walked in is any indication.

Dean Winchester certainly grew up, though. And he seems far more interested in Castiel than the rumors.

Written as a prompt from @melilovesmakeup-blog, this little fic spawned much joy, and inspired a prequel from @bendingsignpost, which is honestly so dang flattering. I love this little universe, and I’m heckin’ glad I randomly decided to take prompts.

Cloud Nine: 2,254 words

“Hey, angel.” Dean’s voice is warm with love and pride, and it makes Castiel squirm in his bindings. “You think you can take more?”

I love finding new ways to write non-traditional a/b/o! One day I was driving around, and thought you know what I need? Dom!Omega!Dean and sub!Alpha!Cas. Not a lot of it out there yet, so had to write it myself. And I really want to revisit this and write a prequel. I Have Ideas!

The Git (you) Up: 1,323 words

Dean's been crushing on his new neighbor across the street from afar. When he gets an invitation to a neighborhood BBQ, he's finally going to meet the hottie. Now if only he can get the courage to talk to him.

I saw a ridiculously cute video on the internet and I was inspired!

Burning For You: 1,998 words

Due to their busy schedules, Sam and Eileen hire a wedding planner. As Best Man, Dean steps in to help as much as he can. The fact that Castiel is gorgeous and immune to the dangers of Dean's touch is a bonus.

Another prompt! I do prompts like never, but I’m so glad I did and got this one. I had an immediate, and visceral need to write this fic as soon as I saw the ask, so thank you very much @alessariel! This prompt was for both of us! :D

To Build A Bower: 633 words

Dean decorates his home to attract a mate.

Look. Look. I just really fuckin’ love bower birds okay? Okay. Thanks for the prompt @zarauthforsaken!

Special Delivery: 2,012 words

Castiel accidentally gets a package meant for his sexy neighbor.

Another prompt! From @queenandthree <3

Fun story about this fic, the premise was originally going to be used in Satin and Sawdust, but got discarded. I’m thrilled I found a reason to use it in a short story!

Work Life Balance: 2,227 words

As leader of the Horsemen of the Apocalypse, one of Dean's duties is to balance Order with Entropy, and enforce the will of the Fates. When Castiel's nature as the demigod of War urges him to destroy more than he should, he seeks out Dean's council.

A prompt from @kazshero! I have had Four Horsemen headcanons for years, and could never come up with a story for it until I got this prompt. Super grateful for it! Death!Dean is my jam :D

The Menagerie: 1,452 words

Baby the Pegasus is giving birth to her first foal. Dean and Castiel are there to help her through it.

A prompt fill for @nickelkeep! An excuse to turn Baby into a pegasus! FLUFF! <3

A Trip To The Beach: 734 words

Camp Counselors Dean and Cas take the kids on a field trip to the beach.

Yes, this was definitely based on a conversation I had with @jupiterjames. When I got the prompt from my bestie, I *had* to make it about us lol

Quoth the... Wait that's not a Raven: 930 words

Dean, Castiel, and Sam are paranormal investigators. Tonight's haunted spot is a Pet Store.

A prompt from @purgatory-jar! And to be honest, I may revisit this idea with something longer someday. Writing TFW as paranormal investigators is too much fun to pass up :D

Hunter's Caress: 142,229 words (WIP)

Castiel Jameson won't rest until the outlaw who murdered his brother faces justice, and Dean Winchester is the only man alive who can help him track the villain down. Some say Winchester is a cold-blooded killer himself; others say he'd been wronged his whole life. All Castiel knows is that the desire glinting in Dean's green eyes is even more dangerous than he is. Castiel fights to keep his mind on business, but during the long nights on the trail with the dangerously handsome hunter he finds himself dreaming of yielding to Dean's illicit kisses and losing himself in lawless passion.

Dean Winchester is about to hang when Castiel saves his neck with his crazy plan. But dying might be better than spending day and night playing nursemaid to such an infuriating city slicker. He appreciates the stubborn detective's desire for justice, but he'd appreciate Cas a lot more if he'd stop being a lawman long enough to just be a man. He certainly has all the right equipment. Dean aches to run his fingers through Castiel's dark hair, yearns to know how Castiel's golden skin will feel against him. And before the coming of the next dawn, Dean vows to teach him the pleasures and sweet rewards of a Hunter's Caress.

I’ve had this idea since the first year I started writing Destiel fic, and it’s been sitting in my WIP folder since 2014. I don’t want to be done writing Destiel, but I’ve been struggling with my writing for about 2 years now, and I’m afraid it will only get worse when the show ends and the fandom starts to slow down without new content. I figure if I don’t do this story now, it’ll never get done. And that’s unacceptable, because this has been on my mind for far too long to let it never see the light of day. Of all of my stories, this one is the most For Myself thing I’ve ever written. And based on the way it’s going, it’s probably going to overtake Dreaming in Digital as my longest fic by the time it’s done lol

#oops i ficced #destiel #year in review #2019 year in review #long post for ts

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millennial-star-gazer · 4 years

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Fire And Gold: Chapter: 2

Fire and Gold

Nalu Lovefest 2019 Prompts: Magic, Memories, Reckless, Worship & Cravings (All Implied)

Genres: Romance, Humor, New Adult Fanfiction

Pairing: Nalu/Endlu (Natsu x Lucy & E.n.d. Natsu x Lucy)

Rating: T-M for language, steamy and mature adult sexual content (all consensual) in these and future chapters. Reader Direction is advised.(You've been warned!)

Summary: Let the day be known when fire tested gold in the most intimate sense. The forging of a mating bond between the dragon-demon hybrid and celestial maiden while further strengthening the relationship they already have. Natsu finally confesses his romantic feelings for Lucy at and asks to claim her as his mate and queen; though not without it taking a bit for it to fully sink in for the poor, baffled woman. The first chapter is one of my entries for Nalu Lovefest 2019 and part of my ongoing Nalu (The Demon-Dragon and His Celestial Princess) anthology series set not too long after the events of the original manga/anime.(Slight Au).

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A/N: Hey guys, here's the long-awaited second chapter to Fire And Gold! Fun fact: The chapter title is inspired by the Eivor song of the same name which fits the overall mood of said chapter. Anyway, just wanted to give a major kudoos and shoutout to the amazing @bmarvels for acting as my beta which included edits and further development of this chapter! Now without further ado,back to the story! Enjoy!

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Legend

Italics: Flashback/literary or song quotes (If Any of the most former )

Bold: First Person Thoughts

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"Piece by piece

You put me together

Till I am no longer

Broken"

"You see who I am

Deep down inside

I grow by the light of your gaze

You fill me with wonder

Fill me with hope

You have opened up my mind

I see everything in every little thing

When you're by my side"

( Eivør : Snippets of Piece By Piece)

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"Some of our friends are talking about us like we're not there ."

"Come on, Luce... don't worry about it." Natsu blithely waved off his partner's observation with a grin, clearly unfazed by their guild mate's less-than-discreet side conversation. "You and me got way more important things to discuss. That kiss spell it out enough?"

"Yep — Message received loud and clear."

"Good—- though took ya' long enough weirdo." He teased, eyes twinkling with mirth. "Been subtly dropping hints for weeks ever since I decided try to make my feelings known. Didn't think it'd take you this long seeing how you're one of the smartest people I know. Just a bit slow on the uptake, I guess. Least' it helped knowing that you're just as crazy about me going off what I overheard from your 'girl talk' with Levy and the others. Otherwise, I woulda’ thought you weren't interested and given up trying."

"Oh... I see" Lucy noted a little more meekly than usual; heat-infused blood most likely rising in her cheeks. She couldn't help but be a tad self-conscious over unwittingly leaking the lurid details of what was honestly believed to be a discreet conversation.

My bad...

"So... uh... that's how you already knew— Oops. Ehh... That's kind of embarrassing.” Fingers were twirling a loose strand of hair in a physical display of mortification. " You really heard those, huh?"

"Yup!" The fire wizard popped the "p", flashing Lucy a smug-shit-eating-kind-of grin that set her heart a flutter. "Got hypersensitive hearing, remember? All those awesome things you were saying really fired me up, too. Anyway, you really should be more careful— never know who might be listening." He gave a wink with his usual teasing chuckle.

"That's for sure— guess I will have to more careful." Lucy's voice was a bit softer, mentally betraying herself for the other guildmates presence slipped her mind.

Man can it be a real challenge to keep anything a secret here at times...

"Definitely. It's all good though— you're still amazing, intelligent, loyal to a fault," Natsu's voice dropped lower with an extra pause between words. Not to mention the glimmer of intent in those onyx-green eyes.. The fire wizard's hand reached towards Lucy's face, calloused fingers tucking a stray tendril of blonde hair behind her ear in a feather soft touch; before cupping the cheek of said mage who couldn't help but lean into his palm .

This is a completely new side of him I've never seen before-more gentle and romantic.

"Not to mention you're sweet, caring, and an incredible wizard in your own right with plenty of spunk and a heart of gold. Definitely a great listener and super easy to talk with too — all in all an amazing and fun person to be around. Oh and did I mention how easy on the eyes you are?"

"You.. really think so?" The celestial wizard inquired, voice sounding breathy to her own ears from being completely spellbound by her firey partner's words .

Natsu's not always much for words but he seems to be saying all the right things right now to keep me hooked. Basically putty in his hands here.

"Yeah! And I mean you seriously are the most gorgeous, sexy, and adorable girl I've ever laid eyes on. With that on top of everything else, what's not to love? You're everything I could want or need in a mate-slash-queen and more."

"Mate?" Lucy echoed in question, the last words really catching her attention. Interesting. The celestial mage's brain was buzzing swimming with piqued intrigue from the implications of Natsu what said; despite only being familiar with mates as a general concept.

I remember learning about how some animals mate for life in my lessons growing up—but don't think I've ever heard that term come up in conversation with Natsu before. Wonder what that could mean for us...

"You mean like a soul mate?"

"Exactly like that, yeah" came the dragon slayer's reply with a touch of pride; as if recalling centuries of ancient knowledge that were passed down— most likely through Ingeel. "The exact word you used is basically another term for mates that pretty sums what it means for dragon slayers. Ya probably learned growin' up bout' how some animals mate for life , right?"

"Yeah..."

"Okay, cool . So that whole thing isn't really that different for dragon slayers . Same goes for demons and hybrids—myself included- though those mates are also their queens. Oh and instead of just for life, they're soul-bonded for all eternity."

"Sounds pretty intimate." Lucy peered up at him through through the fringe of her thick lashes, the heat of his hand on her cheek still very much noticeable.

"It definitely is— believe me. Gods know how much I want you to be my girlfriend— but also far more than that at the same time. Dragons, demons, and hybrids have one person who they're drawn to- one person they're meant to be with. Not to mention the burning passion for their chosen that's unlike anything else— even by regular human standards."

"Wow..." There was so much she didn't realize, or maybe just didn't think more into about it, just how much a slayer's mate entailed. Yet, here Natsu was discussing the details to her as if it were one of their every -day conversations. Mavis knows she couldn't help the fluttering in her stomach with the way he was speaking about it all.

Normally, this would might overwhelming for some but not when it comes to the one guy I've been pining for so long. I mean it's all so exciting!"

"I know it's probably a lot to take in, but Lucy, you're literally that person for me. You're the one I've been always been inexplicably drawn to ever since we first met. The one who I see in my dreams when I fall asleep at night. The one who I'd go to hell and back for, who I'd do anything for to protect and keep safe. The one who I can't stand to be apart from for too long and whose face I wanna wake up to the rest of my life. Can't help but—" Natsu's thumbs were stroking along the curve of Lucy's cheeks; so light, delicate, so tender, so gentle in touch that it sent electric sparks racing through her nerves . "I just can't help but want to claim you for myself and myself alone. "You're pretty much my other, better half, who I didn't even know I was searching for until I finally met you— and now I have. I don't always pour my heart out so publicly like this— ask anyone we know-but there's no one else out there for me. Never has been and never will be."

Holy hell did the celestial's heart melt delight from the sincerity resonating in each and every one of the dragon slayer's words.

Huh... Just when I think I couldn't fall any harder or be more attracted to the guy, he goes and says all this.

"It's no secret to anyone now that I've fallen for ya', Luce— hard. No going back now— you're all I see in the romantic sense. Not that others aren't important or that I care any less about them — but how I feel for you is different. Not inferior, just different. You've always been among those most precious to me... kind of like the brightest star of my universe that lights up my life in a way no else could. Damn, I sound pretty sentimental right now I don't care. Hell, said this more than once already—- but I swear I'm gonna love you with everything I've got in me. Not just today, but for all of this life and each and every one that comes after that—forever."

Holy crap does he have a way with words...

"Wow Natsu, that was something else…" Lucy was in awe, deeply touched by the stirring power of his heartfelt pledge.

"Thanks— means a lot to hear how impressed you are." "I'll say..."

"Yeah, we both know I'm more of a man of action— but my words are straight from the heart. Which leads to the question I wanna ask".

"Shoot." Lucy watched the fire eater with attentive eyes .

Wonder what else he wants to say.

"Kay, here goes. Will you let me claim you, Luce?" Nastu's voice was hopeful with just a tiny smidge of nerves . Probing, emerald eyes were meanwhile searching Lucy's face as if gauging her reaction. "Officially? As my mate and queen?"

This might be the most open I've ever seen him..

"Yes," came stellar mage's automatic reply without a shred of hesitation or second thought. Not to mention how the thrilling, romantic prospect of belonging to the fire demon for all eternity flooded her veins with a cozy warmth unlike any other.

Not only do we have an entire lifetime to spend together—but I also get to be bound to him in every conceivable way for all time? Awesome! Can this get any better?!

"I'd love to be yours, mate,queen, soul-bound—everything."

"Really? You accept?" He couldn't seem to help but double trying to contain the bubbling excitement threatening to burst from him.

"Of course— nothing would make me happier!"

"Score!"

Nastu's entire face lit up with an audible whoop just as Lucy let out a feminine squeal; from arms spinning her around after a lift .

" You... this... I can't .. holy crap this is so awesome!" The fire wizard dropped another ecstatic kiss on the moonstruck astral mage's waiting lips . "Did i mention how much I love you already, sweetheart? Well that's just too damn bad—won't ever grow tired of reminding ya for as the rest of our lives here in this world and after that! So glad that you're finally mine! I mean, I had a pretty good feeling you'd accept my claim... but hearing it directly is... Holy Crap! So stoked—like people have no idea!"

"Though I do " came Lucy's reply, a fond smile tugging at the corner of her lips. God, was being in Natsu's arms ever incredible—absolute perfection she couldn't help but revel in.

Don't think I'll ever get enough.

Not to mention, he didn't seem intent on releasing her from his embrace any time soon if the pure adoration shining in his eyes was any indication to go by. Not that I'm complaining.

"And you're definitely right about me feeling the same." Lucy assured him, her hands resting on his warm, well-muscled chest.

"Course' I was, weirdo!"

"Aw, look how smitten those two are!" Levy fawned over the couple from the sidelines. "Beyond sweet!"

"Yeah, I'll say" Gajeel concurred , admiration colouring his tone. "Looks like one of Salamander's official term of endearments for Lucy already came naturally to him— like it often does with other dragons slayers, demons and their mates ."

"Oh my God yes— I heard that too! I absolutely love that Natsu called her sweetheart— just as sweet as the endearment terms you have for me. Plus, can I just say how amazing it is that these two are officially an item now? "

"Definitely— I'm happy for them too."

"I know, right?!"

"Aye- they make a great couple already! He loves herrrrr!" trilled Happy in a sing-song voice. "Isn't that right, Natsu?"

"You better believe it, little buddy!"

Damn is he amazing ... The way Natsu was practically shouting his undying love for his mate to the rooftops with exultant abandon. No wonder adoration swelled in her heart!

"Hear that, everyone?! I love Lucy Heartfilia with all my heart and soul!"

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Billboard #1s 1974

Under the cut.

Steve Miller Band – “The Joker” -- January 12, 1974

It always throws me when I remember how old this song is. Two years older than me, and yet I associate it with my own mid-20s partying. Okay, my "partying" was pretty mild. One of the things my friends and I often did was go to a dueling piano (really keyboard) bar, and they always played this song. I can taste the rum and Coke now. We had tipsy discussions about what "pompatus" meant. A guy tried to pick one of my friends up with "really love your peaches." Anyway, I love this song, but it's also so embedded into my life that I can't judge it fairly.

Al Wilson – “Show And Tell” -- January 19, 1974

1970s Philly R&B is great music. This is a pretty typical example of the genre; lots of strings, lots of horns, an adult with a voice he uses like an instrument to impart strong emotions. It's a love song, and the lyrics aren't anything spectacular, but they do the job. Very good.

Ringo Starr – “You’re Sixteen” -- January 26, 1974

GAH. Next!

Barbra Streisand – “The Way We Were” -- February 2, 1974

I was tempted to write, "GAH. Next!" here too, but I'm determined to save that kind of thing for songs that have elements to them that I don't want to discuss because of moral issues. That's not this. The problem is: I hate Barbra Streisand. Or I should say I hate her singing; though from what I've seen of her personality, I don't like that either. Every song she sings, she sounds like she's singing to the glory of the greatness of the only person who matters to her in the world: Barbra Streisand. I once read an article that called her singing "masturbatory," but that's not strong enough. It's full-on self-worship. I hate it.

The Love Unlimited Orchestra – “Love’s Theme” -- February 9, 1974

This is Barry White's orchestra, but sadly it's an instrumental, without his glorious voice. It reminds me so much of the Love Boat theme that now I'm wanting to watch it. Absolute kitsch, but as kitsch goes, there's worse.

Terry Jacks – “Seasons In The Sun” -- March 2, 1974

The singer is dying and saying goodbye to everyone. That kind of sentiment may be made to work in pop, I suppose, but I've never heard it done. It belongs in opera. This is schmaltz.

Cher – “Dark Lady” -- March 23, 1974

As one of only a couple dark-haired dark-eyed girls in my quite blonde high school graduating class, people used to call me "exotic." Apparently my high cheekbones had something to do with it too. I was asked where my family was from pretty regularly. I wasn't offended -- more bemused. The answer is "Europe," though I guess the dark hair and eyes are probably by way of France. It's rather tough to say, considering my mother's side of the family has been here since the 16th century (indentured servants), and were not the rich types who stuck to their own ethnicity. Anyway, this is to say that I feel some kinship with Cher, and how drawn she was to songs like "Dark Lady." Though in this case, the "dark lady" is someone Cher's character murders for cheating with her boyfriend. She kills the boyfriend too.

This song is dated ("gypsy music") Las Vegas cheese, and yet I like it. It's wildly melodramatic and fun.

John Denver – “Sunshine On My Shoulders” -- March 30, 1974

Bleeeeeh. I like big melodramatic songs. This is the opposite. Now, I do like small, sweet songs often too. But I just can't with this one. It's too slow, too simple, and feels aggressively, shallowly cheery.

Blue Swede – “Hooked On A Feeling” -- April 6, 1974

I learned from the Todd in the Shadows video about this song that its stupid "ooga chaka" thing was inspired by 1960's "Running Bear." Now I hate it even more! The original of this song is a nice, simple love song. Blue Swede made it shouty and dumb.

Elton John – “Bennie And The Jets” -- April 13, 1974

It's Elton John. Therefore I don't like it. I feel like it's too slow maybe? I feel like most of Elton John's songs are too slow maybe. I don't know. I'm bored.

MFSB & The Three Degrees’ “TSOP (The Sound Of Philadelphia)” -- April 20, 1974

An instrumental disco track. It is one I find danceable, so there's that. Not bad.

Grand Funk – “The Loco-Motion” -- May 4, 1974

A rock cover of The Loco-Motion. Sure, why not. Though this version is not very good. It feels like they slowed it down, and they definitely made it extremely loud. I don't really see a reason for this song to exist.

Ray Stevens – “The Streak” -- May 18, 1974

Streaking was a fad in 1974. This is a comedy song about it. I had never heard it before this, and I hope never to again. It's deeply dumb.

Paul McCartney & Wings – “Band On The Run” -- June 8, 1974

The wee-oo-wee-oo-wee-oo thing at the beginning of the song sounds neat, but then it goes on too long. That's my feeling about this entire song: It goes on too long. It does change up substantially multiple times throughout, but it's no Bohemian Rhapsody. Bohemian Rhapsody is, imo, perfect. The pacing of "Band on the Run," otoh, is a mess. The second section needs to be a lot longer and the final section needs to be a lot shorter. Paul McCartney needed an editor for this.

Bo Donaldson And The Heywoods – “Billy, Don’t Be A Hero” -- June 15, 1974

A young woman tells her boyfriend to not "be a hero" when he goes off to war (probably the Civil War.) Because she wants him to come home alive. As anyone who knows this kind of song can predict, he decides to be a hero and dies. Cliche and weirdly bouncy for the subject matter. Still, at least songs were acknowledging that dying in war was not a great thing. Unlike the putrescent "Ballad of the Green Berets."

Gordon Lightfoot – “Sundown” -- June 29, 1974

The singer is jealously obsessed with a woman. He knows this isn't a good thing, but he doesn't seem able to -- or be trying to -- move past it. This is about something real; Gordon Lightfoot was obsessively, violently jealous over Cathy Smith, the woman who was later convicted for injecting John Belushi with the heroin that killed him. The lyrics are mean, but the music doesn't go hard at all. Except, compared to the rest of the stuff I've looked at for 1974 so far, the music does sound a lot harder -- it's minor key and there's a distinct bassline. It still feels like a mismatch.

The Hues Corporation – “Rock The Boat” -- July 6, 1974

A disco song I can dance to some. Not entirely. It's a song asking you not to "rock the boat" of your perfect love with the singer. It's incredibly schmaltzy -- schmaltzy disco. Ugh.

George McCrae – “Rock Your Baby” -- July 13, 1974

The singer is telling you, "woman," to take him in your arms and rock him. I.e. fuck him. I have perfect pitch. George McCrae is no Ella Fitzgerald. When he goes to the high note, he does not hit it right, and it's like nails on a chalkboard. I can't listen to this song all the way through.

John Denver – “Annie’s Song” -- July 27, 1974

Ugh, 1974. This is a simplistic love song to John Denver's wife. Not just simple, which is fine, but simplistic, which is not. They divorced years later, and Denver became violent during it. (Denver's the one who brought that to light and he obviously felt terrible about it.) The Stereogum guy was shocked by this. I'm not. For one, celebrity is horrible for people. For another, I can't think of any of Denver's songs that have depth or complexity. Trying to live at the surface is also horrible for people. I do like a lot of simple love songs, but John Denver's songs have always made me go "ick," even when I was a child. I feel like there's nothing in them.

Roberta Flack – “Feel Like Makin’ Love” -- August 10, 1974

The music to this song, with the calm but interesting percussion and romantic guitar, combined with Roberta Flack's whispery vocals, is lovely. It gives me asmr feels and makes me want to lie down and drift off to sleep. So, uh. Not exactly what I consider a sexy song. I do like listening to it, as it's nice and calming, but I don't think that was the intent.

Paper Lace – “The Night Chicago Died” -- August 17, 1974

And I will definitely need some relaxation after this garbage. Okay so, this travesty was by Brits who: 1) Thought there was an East Side of Chicago. That's Lake Michigan. 2) Thought it would be cute to write a song in which Al Capone tried to literally take over Chicago by killing all the cops (he bribed cops, he didn't kill them, and he was a criminal, not an insurrectionary.) 3) Sing "glory be" because they obviously think that's a super American thing to do. "In the land of the dollar bill." WHAT? This song makes me want to punt Paper Lace into the East Side of Chicago.

Paul Anka – “(You’re) Having My Baby” -- August 24, 1974

Notoriously one of the worst pop songs ever. The singer thinks "you" (that makes it worse) are having his baby solely and only because you love him. Monumental narcissism, just completely heinous, plus it's musical glop.

Eric Clapton – “I Shot The Sheriff” -- September 14, 1974

This is not Bob Marley's version. Bob Marley's version is so much better, and it's the one I've heard a lot, so when I turned this one on I was confused for a second.

Barry White – “Can’t Get Enough Of Your Love, Babe” -- September 21, 1974

Oh thank god. Barry White is one of my favorite singers, and this is one of my favorite songs. This is a sexy love song by a great artist.

Andy Kim – “Rock Me Gently” -- September 28, 1974

Andy Kim's voice sounds incredibly mid-70s. What's with men asking their lovers to rock them this year? The chorus is pretty good, and has a real beat. He's asking his lover to be gentle, and "I have never been loved like this before." That's nice. It's cheese, but it's fine.

Olivia Newton-John – “I Honestly Love You” -- October 5, 1974

A lot of the time when someone says they "honestly" something without prompting, they're lying. So this song sounds weird to me. "I love you/ I honestly love you" -- um, you sure about that? Though the singer has no reason to pretend she loves the person she's singing to, and every reason not to, since they're both with someone else. She just wants to tell you she loves you and leave it at that. Yeah, that's likely. Olivia Newton-John is a good singer, and she's especially good at acting a song. I feel she should have been on Broadway. In any case, while this is a slow soft song in an era with way too many of those, it's one of the better ones. It's not overly slow or particularly goopy.

Billy Preston – “Nothing From Nothing” -- October 19, 1974

If there's such a thing as vaudeville rock, this is it. He doesn't want to be your hero or your highness, so it sounds like he wants an equal relationship. He also says "I'm a soldier in the war on poverty," which makes it sounds like he's saying you have to have money if you want to get with him, but maybe not. He sings "you gotta bring a little something, girl, if you want to be with me," which may or may not be monetary. It's bouncy and all, but Billy Preston's done better.

Dionne Warwick & The Spinners – “Then Came You” -- October 26, 1974

A song about finally finding love. Plenty of good orchestration, a good beat, and of course Dionne Warwick's voice. I like it.

Stevie Wonder – “You Haven’t Done Nothin'” -- November 2, 1974

The "you" in this song is Richard Nixon. Stevie Wonder is one of the most love everyone, let's all come together artists in existence. But here, he was angry. "We would not care to wake up to the nightmare/ That's becoming real life/ But when misled who knows a person's mind/ Can turn as cold as ice." The Republican Party is still Nixon's party -- they love him almost as much as they do Reagan. This song is funky and good and the only reason I don't feel it more is that it's not angry enough.

Bachman-Turner Overdrive – “You Ain’t Seen Nothing Yet” -- November 9, 1974

They were goofing around in the studio, and lead singer Randy Bachman wanted to make fun of his brother's stutter. When this song became a hit, Randy was mortified. But even with nasty, juvenile intentions behind it, this song is good. It also sounds happy and not mean at all. It's a rather silly song about first experiencing sex, and it's fun.

John Lennon – “Whatever Gets You Thru The Night” -- November 16, 1974

John Lennon's voice was always kinda nasal, but it's really nasal on this song. Anyway, this song may as well be called "you do you." It's a song that in theory I should not find boring, but in practice I do. I have finally found out why: Elton John helped him with it. It sounds very Elton John-ish. Which means I don't really have anything else to say.

Billy Swan – “I Can Help” -- November 23, 1974

Some old-fashioned rockability is a nice change. The singer sees that the woman needs some help, so "let me help." "I got two strong arms/ Let me help." I immediately think of a romance between a farmhand and a widow woman. "It would sure do me good to do you good." That's a pretty concise description of love. Billy Swain's voice is kinda thin; Elvis did a cover of this, and it's a lot better. Billy Swain's version is sweet and all, but Elvis' is irresistible.

Carl Douglas – “Kung Fu Fighting” -- December 7, 1974

This isn't a song about actual kung fu; it's about kung fu movies. It's a fanboy telling you all about the cool movie he just saw, though not telling you a thing about the plot. Just the "expert timing" and stuff. Trying to analyze "Kung Fu Fighting" feels really silly. It's a rare enjoyable novelty song by an actual musician.

Harry Chapin – “Cat’s In The Cradle” -- December 21, 1974

A cover of this song by Ugly Kid Joe became a hit in 1992. And it was massively overplayed, so I hate this song. This father/son stuff bores me anyway, speaking of overplayed.

Helen Reddy – “Angie Baby” -- December 28, 1974

This song is deeply strange, which is a mark in its favor. It's a story song about a girl who has no friends and had to be taken out of school because she's "a little touched." She lives in a world of make-believe, listening to the radio all the time. A neighbor boy comes along to rape her. But as soon as he walks into her room... "Toward the radio he's bound/ Never to be found." He becomes her "secret lover," trapped in the radio. "It's so nice to be insane/ No one asks you to explain." Is Angie really "insane," or is she a sorceress whose rock n' roll powers everyone looks away from? Both? I'm not sure what I think of this song, but it is interesting, and that's always good.

BEST OF 1974 -- "Can't Get Enough of Your Love, Babe" by Barry White WORST OF 1974 -- "(You're) Having My Baby" by Paul Anka

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So, for Claude (because I'm intrigued by her); 2,3, amd 36, and for the writer; A,B, and E!

YEEE, thanks for sending! (and for being intrigued! If you want, you can send me a prompt, so that I’ll write a drabble! hehe) Also @francehonestly, I think you might be interested in this. ^-^

Sorry, if this is long like a thesis, lmaooo.

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?

It’s difficult. Sometimes, Claude laughs at her own damn clumsy mistakes or her own jokes. Sometimes, she laughs at someone’s jokes or at moments that weren’t meant to be laughable. She laughs, when she’s truly happy. She laughs, when she’s having fun with her friends.

In short, it takes a while to let her walls go down, and show her amusement to someone.

3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)

She has insomnia, so sleep is hard to come by and she stays up all night, thinking. But when she does pass out, she takes it as a gift.

36. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?

OKAY, RIRI, HOW DARE YOU!?!? just kidding, i’ll happily answer this, lol

*clears throat* so, Claude, when she’s really in love with someone *cough* Ray Palmer *cough*, she actively do something to show that she does have feelings for them. She checks if they’re okay, gives them thoughtful gifts (roses that she grew on her own garden, books she think that they might like, a useful gadget), and tries to spend time with them, even though her social energy might drain.

In other words, she tries being active when she’s romantically interested with someone. (and the dude, I shaded is a damn idiot. but she’s patient, lmaooo)

A) Why are you excited about this character?

Hmm, because she means something to me as a writer. She’s different from me, and the fact that she’s not the stereotypical sexy, pretty girl in most media is interesting. (Here’s how she looks like). And writing a confident smart-ass, who’s a woman is refreshing. Hollywood are cowards, it’s a fact™️.

B) What inspired you to create them?

Here’s one of my dark secrets... I had read lots of Beauty and the Beast re-tellings. Most of them have guys with scars, and some of their personality is basic, and I noticed how there aren’t many women who are the beasts.

So, with Claude, she wasn’t meant to be scarred, but when I imagined her with scars, it stayed stuck with me.

Basically, Disney’s version of the Beast inspired me. But Claude has her own original traits that the Beast doesn’t have, I think.

There you have it, my darkness. Lmaooo.

E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

Heh, it depends. I’m sure that I might get annoyed by her ego, and her constant smart-assery. It might take Claude a while to warm up to me, lmaooo.

Ask me uncommon questions about my OCs and their creators!

#enchant answers #ocs: clawie #27dis

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Final Destination 5 (2011)

Date watched: 17 November 2019

At this point, ngl, I was pretty burnt out. It had been a solid full day of watching nothing but people getting ripped apart in increasingly violent and random ways, but I knew that if I didn't commit and watch them all in one day, I wouldn't finish the series. So I just had to do it.

And I was glad I did! I bloody enjoyed this movie. Honestly, if I see it for cheap on DVD I'll probably buy it. Enough was different about this movie that it kept me engaged – it's almost the same story, but with a twist, and then a surprise twist ending (that I spoiled myself about).

It also stars David Koechner and Courtney B. Vance, as well as the guy from Trial & Error, which was a pleasant surprise.

So this movie starts with an epic bridge collapse, and as a lover of disaster movies, I was here for it. Epic, scary, gruesome – yes, yes and yes. That's why the bridge collapse is my no. 2 opening to a Final Destination movie. It was very well done.

We've now got six people from the same company who survive, and everybody else who works in the office there dies. Our hero, the Trial & Error guy, is trying to win his girlfriend back – there was some bullshit reason they broke up but I don't remember what it was. This movie also reintroduces the creepy funeral director guy from the first two movies, who adds and new and exciting plot twist – if you kill someone, you take what's left of their life. So you can essentially "buy time" by killing someone else.

Why this twist has only been added in the fifth movie I don't know.

So the remaining survivors talk this out, and the climax is one guy going mental and trying to kill our hero and his girlfriend, but the tables are turned when our hero kills the would-be killer.

The twist to the twist is that you would then only live as long as the person you killed would live – so if they only lived five minutes longer than you, you'd only gain five minutes.

And then, guys, PLOT TWIST – it turns out this movie is set pre-Final Destination 1, and our hero and his girlfriend are flying to Paris on the same plane that explodes in the first movie. Amazing. I so wish I hadn't spoiled myself for that because I don't think I would've seen it coming, but there are a few clues – you never see anyone talking on a cell phone, for example, which would give away the time period.

Honestly, way to go out with a bang. 10/10 ending.

Not sure how the take-a-life-gain-a-life plot twist works into the fact that our hero dies in the plane crash – does that mean that he was always meant to die in that plane crash, or did he take the life of a guy who wasn't going to live that long anyway, or was it part of death's original plan, or did he get caught up in it accidentally? It is not clear. I've thought too much about this.

Disaster ranking:

10/10.

Just epic. The bridge swaying and collapsing, the high tension wires snapping, David Koechner getting tarred and screaming and then falling to his death, like, it's the little details that make this special. One dude gets skewered, another guy gets smushed – it's everything you could possibly ask for. This would be my number 1 but there's just something special about the highway pile-up in FD2.

Death rankings:

· Special shout-out to David Koechner – honestly, if him being tarred hadn't happened in the vision of the bridge collapse, it would be number one. Unfortunately, his ultimate demise wasn't quite as special – he took a wrench to the head.

· Courtney B. Vance gets shot, but he's not even really part of it (he's investigating), so does it even count? I can't believe they got Mr Angela Bassett himself for this role. Errbody gotta get paid, I guess.

· A guy who was not on the bridge but works in the warehouse of the company gets a hook to the head – this is important, because the guy who "killed him" and gained his life is the last person to die in the movie. Turns out warehouse dude had a fatal heart condition and was going to die in a matter of days anyway. TWIST.

· So there's a whole laser eye surgery sequence where this poor chick gets blinded by the super powerful laser, but she ultimately dies because she falls out the window. It's a missed opportunity for some more laser-related shenanigans. I couldn't watch that scene, by the way. It got the better of me.

· The annoying dude who wants to have a bunch of sex goes to an Asian massage parlour thinking he's going to get a happy ending, but instead he gets a bunch of acupuncture needs embedded in his face and body as the room he's in burns around him, but he is ultimately taken out by the Buddha that falls off the wall and crushes his skull.

· Then we had the plane explosion sequence, which is shown from the perspective of the new characters – the poor girlfriend gets sucked out the window of the plane and cut in half by the wing, but the hero of the movie (the guy from Trial & Error) burns to death as the plane explodes. The guy who was responsible for the warehouse dude's death is squished by a plane engine.

· But the best death, in this movie and all of the movies tbh, in my humblest of opinions, is the poor gymnast bitch who comes off the parallel bars and is literally snapped in half when she lands, with her legs over her head. It was very unexpected and very creative.

So yeah, skip Final Destinations 3 4, and go right from 2 to 5. You won't miss anything by skipping the middle two. I bloody enjoyed no. 5, I was thinking it was going to be the worst of the bunch but ultimately I felt the series went out on a high.

And now I'm totally burnt out on horror movies for now so I'll be back to my usual mix of comedies/sexy 90s thrillers/weird 80s movies.

#final destination 5 #movies #movie review #2011 #courtney b vance #aka mr angela bassett #david koechner #nicholas d'agosto #emma bell #miles fisher #ellen wroe #and other people #but yeah this franchise ends on a fucking high note #this movie is really good

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Sigurd and Brynhildr are really the most stark and obvious illustration of the difference in the way Fate/Grand Order handles male fanservice and female fanservice, and how they deal with their male and female audience. Until we get Nefertari, or maybe someone like Actually Fate Shirou, they’re probably going to be the best comparison there is with the least wiggle room of ‘but there’s this’. They’re a couple who were released with a large gap of time between them (unlike Ryouma and Oryou or even Aster/Euryale Teach/Drake), and so exist as their own characters. It’s not a case of unrequited or uneven love, and neither had a harem.

Anyway. Sigurd and Bryn. Let’s talk about how they differ. (there are pictures)

Bryn is an unimportant bonus character introduced early in FGO for a special download campaign because she was popular in a different Fate work. She had very little presence in the early game, and only one rate up for two years. Sigurd is a significant character from one chapter in part 2, and for at least a year I think he’s only had just one rate up. Both of their designs are meant to be fanservice and cool.

This is Bryn’s FA -

This is the famous Valkyrie warrior, cursed to kill who she loves. She’s wearing a Japanese school girl outfit and armor that conveniently shows off her breasts, short skirt, thighs, long neck and one of her shoulders. She’s also in heels. Her ascensions are fairly weak, as this was an early game character, so they just put the armor on her that you see here. She’s posing in an alluring and girly way, blushing at the viewer, as the camera is angled upward to look at her goods.

This is Sigurd, the warrior king/prince’s final ascension. He’s in full mecha armor, with only his face exposed. He’s standing sturdily, looking cool and with his weapons at the ready, prepared for battle. The camera is from above, so that you won’t see much below his shoulders, almost completely obscuring his chest and abs, even covered by armor as they are. His ascension path - despite being new - is similarly boring, starting with a full fask mask to top off his armor, then showing off his glasses, then finally ending up like this, maskless. The tone and mood of this is completely the opposite of Bryn’s tranquil scene.

Their valentines and white day CEs are deliberately similar, so I’ll show those, too.

Brynhildr’s frozen chocolate (not meant to be eaten)

Sigurd’s return gift (meant to be worn)

As you can see, they are intentionally meant to be similar. Their bond CEs are also intentionally referencing each other, as Brynhildr’s is named after him, and Sigurd’s is named after her valentine’s CE. Thus, the ways that they’re different are deliberate and significant.

Right out from the gate, we can see that Brynhildr is designed to look feminine and sexy. Her final art is clearly geared toward making her appealing to waifu. Sigurd is designed to look cool. There’s no sex appeal in his design or in his final art. The only part of him that is designed to make a husband lover swoon is that he wears glasses and is voiced by a person who usually voices heart throb characters.

But it goes deeper.

Their My Room lines differ significantly.

As you talk with Brynhildr, she’ll mention that she is intentionally avoiding falling for anyone, because if she loves them, she’s cursed to be driven to try to kill them. As you build bond with her, she inevitably fails to resist Guda, and ends up in love by the end, now determined to hold herself off from harming this person she loves.

As you talk with Sigurd, he’ll mention that he doesn’t believe there’s any room for even friendship between master and servant. He’s cold and abrupt. As you build bond with him, he’ll slowly warm up and realize that despite himself he’s become friends and then very tightly attached to the master - to the point where he’ll compromise his own sense of morality and look the other way if necessary. Love, however, is not mentioned at all.

When Sigurd debuted, he debuted with a line for Brynhildr, and she was given a line for him. Sigurd’s line is him saying that he will prove his everlasting love for Brynhildr. Brynhildr mentions how long it’s been without him, and waffles about whether or not she can now continue to be the master’s servant, but ultimately decides that no matter what, she’ll never hurt the master.

S: “ Brynhildr, is it... She tries to prove her love with that murderous impulse. That makes me happy, but, unfortunately, I will be unable to prove the love I feel towards her if I die. I must survive and also let that love be proven. A difficult thing to accomplish, don't you think... “

B: “Oh, finally ... That person finally came here ... ... .... I understand ...... I just can not understand it. Master, I would like to be your servant if possible. But, if, if ... .... No, nothing. No matter what, Sigurd or I will not hurt you.”

As you can see: just in these lines, Brynhildr’s line is still directly romantic toward Sigurd, but also keeps the master in the situation. And this is worth noting, because a common argument could be ‘oh, Brynhildr was early on, they didn’t know what they were doing, so of course she was made waifu’. Her line for Sigurd is modern (not counting other stuff she appears in), and it remains in the same tone as she’s always had. Sigurd’s is nothing but gushing love for Bryinhildr.

Let’s talk briefly about their roles so far in the story, now.

Bryn’s first *story* appearance is in LB2, same as Sigurd. However, before that she appeared in a few other events, most significantly JAlter’s event. This is relevant, because in this story Brynhildr is yandere dedicated to JAlter, fostering JAlter/Bryn yuri in fandom for years. In this event, it’s not ‘technically’ Brynhildr who loves JAlter, but a copy of her. She appears in other limited capacities after this point, but they’re not that significant.

Sigurd’s is similar. When he appears in LB2, he’s romantically attached in a yandere level to Ophelia (not important who this is, it’s a girl). Technically, it’s not him, as he’s actually possessed by another being while he’s behaving this way. However, unlike Bryn, who remains yandere for JAlter all event long until she dies, Sigurd is able to escape this and has a romantic time with Brynhildr, which people who like Sigurd x Bryn will be happy to go into detail talking about, as it gets plenty of focus.

Now, finally, their Valentines scenes. The scenes are generally accepted to be at least some level of fanservice between the master and the chosen servant. It may be romantic, sexual, platonic, or familial, but the relationship is still the focus of it.

Brynhildr’s scene is from the original round of valentines, so her scene is shorter than later scenes, and it’s straightforward. She says that she wants to express her love for the master, and so in the process of expressing her love for her hero, the master, she created glasses that looked similar to the ones Sigurd wears. She determines that the glasses will definitely suit the master (the chocolate is not meant to be eaten, it’s magically frozen), because the master is her hero, much like Sigurd was. She does mention that Sigurd is the person ‘she loved’, but it’s clear her feelings for the master are both separate and also romantic.

Sigurd’s scene just got released this round. It’s a nice, thoughtful gift where Sigurd gives the master special glasses that will protect the master’s eyes from strain, damage from light, or attacks by beasts or enemies less powerful than servants. And they’re stylish. However, it’s strictly a friendship gesture, as aside from the master getting flustered by him leaning in close to compute the proper measurements for the glasses, there’s not any kind of flirtation or indication of any kind of romantic or sexual feelings for the master. And even worse, one of the times that Sigurd blushes is not when Guda gives him chocolate - he considers that a matter of course - but when he mentions Brynhildr. How does he mention her? By hinting that they did something romantic or sexual for valentines day.

Yeah, that’s right. During a white day/valentine’s scene with Sigurd, the only romantic context involved is hinting that Sigurd did the nasty with someone else that day.This is the same problem that Paracelsus and Saber Diarmuid have (and what Arthur had, until they retconned it as a half-hearted attempt to make up for having nothing for White Day last year), where instead of talking about themselves or the master during their bond lines, they talk about someone else. Except it’s even worse, because at least bond lines can be excused with the idea that sharing thoughts about an important person can be a sign of closeness (though these lines really don’t work like that). Valentines/White Day has only one purpose. It’s fluff fanservice. The only reason for including Bryn is to say that the reason people like Sigurd is for his relationship with Brynhildr.

Now, remember that between these two, Brynhildr is the one who is more hung up on Sigurd in lore. She’s cursed to kill all who she loves due to her misery over killing Sigurd, who she loved. She’s further cursed to try to kill Sigurd because of this, making her character naturally Sigurd-focused. Sigurd, on the other hand, died because he was unfaithful to Brynhildr (in a passive way, but it still amounts to this) and has no associated fixations or curses with this. He’s just a normal person. If anyone should be leaking their love for the other into everything and hard-blocking romance with the master or anyone else, it should be Brynhildr, not Sigurd.

Just a quick note - yes, Brynhildr’s master used a command seal on her to get her to believe her enemies were Sigurd so that she’d kill them, but Rin used a command seal to prevent Archer from harming Shirou, too. Command Seals don’t stay in effect when they’ve been summoned again by a different master in a different timeline. The closest that we have is that she’s drawn to love heroic figures, and because of her love for them she hearkens it back to Sigurd. It’s not a berserker Kiyohime or Phantom thing (which is another kind of unpleasant comparison to make) where they think the master is someone that the master isn’t. The master merely reminds Bryn of Sigurd *because* she loves them, she doesn’t love them because they remind her of Sigurd.

So.

That was rather lengthy, but I wanted to go over all the differences, because on their own, people like to try to pick it apart and downplay it. It’s worth noting that in Bryn’s bond CE it’s more about her love for Sigurd and in Sigurd’s bond CE there’s some indication of romance/sexual behavior with the master, but this is the only time it’s swapped like that.

The evidence here should speak for itself. Short of Nefertari debuting and being into the master, we probably wouldn’t get any more direct and obvious an illustration of how FGO deals with female players vs male ones than this. In this, we see that the female side of the romance has two separate existences - one in the main story where she realizes her romantic subplot with Sigurd, and one in the side story stuff/my room fanservice lines where she’s into the master. It’s not treated as weird or inappropriate to waifu her or for her to have romantic interests in people other than Sigurd despite her love for him being so important to her character and lore.

In the male side, Sigurd only exists to be romanced with Brynhildr. He has a nice little friendship built up with the master, but his story is all about his romance with Brynhildr, his design and FA is actively avoiding having him made up as a husband/swooning material, and even his valentine only has romantic fanservice for Sigurd/Bryn. If you’re not into Sigurd/Brynhildr, you’ve still got plenty to get from Brynhildr, but you’re SoL with Sigurd. This extends into fandom, as you’ll find plenty of Bryn/JAlter yuri and a good amount of Bryn/Guda art and material, but if you look for anything with Sigurd other than Bryn (or sometimes Ophelia, related to him being possessed), there just isn’t any. And don’t even hope to find Sigurd/Guda stuff, because there’s nothing.

And this is just how it is. That’s why Saber Diarmuid pointlessly has his lines all cluttered with talk about Artoria for no reason - when he hates her by the end of F/Z - but Semiramis barely speaks about Amakusa and instead flirts with the master. There’s the odd outlier like the Prince of Lanling who is super dere for the master and Tomoe who friendzones the master, but for the most part, the women are almost entirely designed with the explicit intent of making them moe, waifu-able, and romanceable. The men...aren’t.

And this double standard is pretty vexing, as someone who is more interested in swoonable husbands than moe waifu.

If you somehow don’t believe me about all this, just wait for Nefertari and Haydee to debut. If they’re summonable, wait for their blushing my room lines and valentines scenes where they acknowledge their feelings for Dantes/Ozy, but confess anyway. And if they’re not, well...even Nobukatsu experiences this compared to Nobunaga (Nobunaga having a mostly naked FA, romantic content for the master, and a full fanservice alt character, and Nobukatsu again having 100% of his character entirely based on being moe toward Nobunaga, with zero room for the master in that).

#fate/grand order #fate/prototype #brynhildr #sigurd #fgo #ooc #meta #rant

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marielle-heller · 5 years

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I’ve been talking with Julie (@marsvronica) about Tim Murphy a lot and I just feel like I need to share our headcanons so here we go, some random ideas:

so I think that most people agree that adult Tim is a paleontologist--and I want to add professor, Dr. Tim Murphy, which is very sexy--and he is extremely passionate about it. despite his experiences in the park he hasn’t been deterred from loving dinosaurs, though he does much prefer them from afar (in both physical distance and time), as nature intended them. he loves this piece of the past, but all of his dealings with it tell him that it should be left in the past

because of this, he is absolutely opposed to the idea of Jurassic World. from the moment he first hears that they want to try again, he is just incredibly angry, like there is no way this is going to be a good thing. and Julie decided that because of this he actually ends up storming into Simon Masrani’s office (who initially anticipates that the arrival of John Hammond’s grandson will be a good thing) and just chews him the hell out, though Masrani won’t budge

Tim also finds out in this meeting that it was apparently his grandfather’s dying wish to make the park work and that just adds to his anger. pal is pissed

so speaking of, Tim is typically rather calm, but when he is angry, he will go the fuck off. he just flies into a rage, comprised mostly of yelling, but combining some over-gesticulating and stomping (even once knocking things off a desk), and it’s kind of incredible just the way he lays into people for being so IDIOTIC. he doesn’t swear much normally, but many a bad word is used

so also since he’s not in the films he may not know, but if he ever finds out that that bitch was trying to sell dinosaurs for soldiers and for entertainment? oh my god the rant would be legendary. like viral on youtube worthy. he would just fucking go at it, yelling until his voice is hoarse and he’s seeing red and he has to sit down and someone has to get him a glass of water, because oh my god when will we fucking learn that man cannot, and should not, try to control dinosaurs? like how many times?

Tim is tired

anyway, Tim is actually pretty surprised when Jurassic World opens and things go well. he even manages to relax after it’s been a few weeks and it seems like no one’s died. but he keeps pretty close tabs on the place, and being Hammond’s grandson gets him good intel--even if he and Masrani are not on speaking terms anymore--so the second he finds out they’re trying to engineer scarier dinosaurs, he just knows things are going to end badly

in fact, he tries to get another meeting, and manages one with park operations manager, Claire Dearing. despite trying to be as calm as he possibly can while freaking out, he is not able to convince her it is a terrible idea

so yes he sees the park’s collapse coming a mile away, and no, no one will listen to him, and yes he is so tired

when the park is evacuated and the dinosaurs are left to populate the island without human interference, he feels like it’s absolutely the best case scenario. even when it turns out they’re going to be taken out by the volcano, he is staunchly against interference (not that anyone will listen to him). yes, he loves the dinosaurs (especially the herbivores who technically have done no wrong) but they were never meant to be alive and all they’ve ever caused is chaos and this is literally a solution to that problem but no one sees that

also, at the end of that whole debacle with the dinosaurs now just roaming free in America?? and some of them are the violent kind??? oh my god the boy is pissed. like he did not survive the park just for this bs. he literally refuses to die in a dinosaur attack 30 years later because someone couldn’t get it through their thick skull after the first time that this was a bad idea

getting into some slightly more relaxed ideas:

I do feel like he’s generally a calm dude. but an enduring quality from his youth is that he is incredibly talkative, and has a great tendency to cling to people whose work he admires, or that he’s just met but sound super fascinating. he’s just very lively and passionate and loves to talk to people! it does still scare some people away at first, but it’s endearing enough that he tends to grow on people

Julie- as passionate as he is about his own work, he's also definitely the kind of guy who encourages other people to talk about stuff they’re passionate about (ooh especially his students and they love him for it), which comes from the fact that he kinda knows what it feels like to not bring up interests when you know people will just give you grief for it. so he’s always trying to bring out the passion in others and it just really makes him the kindest guy

like he’ll go to a friend’s party and he’ll meet some new people and he’ll be trying to get them to tell him all about what they care most about in the world and it’s just so cute

this especially applies if he meets a child. he will listen to them talk for ages, and will tell them that they can absolutely achieve their dreams and they just have to commit to whatever they care about and it will happen

this makes him incredible with kids, and especially I can see him being the world’s most amazing uncle when Lex has children. like those babies are getting the most affection and love and encouragement, they are gonna grow up to rule the world

(also, he’s really good at playing with the kids and like, just getting down on their level and joining them with the toys and it’s just iconic)

so Julie added that Tim is partly this way because he remembers being the kid obsessed with dinosaurs that everybody got tired of hearing from, or else that they only wanted to know about what he went through on the island, so now he's like "just tell me whatever you want to talk about, whatever you care about, I wanna hear all about it"

and to go off of that, people would totally hound him about the island and I feel like he’d just get so annoyed. cause like, the first few times, especially relaying it to people he knows, fine. maybe a bit taxing, emotionally, but it’s still not worn-out in his mind, and this is his family, and his closest friends, so it’s whatever. but when it’s always the first question a new person asks, he gets so tired he just does not want to discuss it

also, sometimes people don’t know who he is but they ask about the scars on his palms or his eyebrow (I can’t imagine it ever healed back to normal, or that the hair came back, so he’s just got a cool scar in lieu of the majority of it and it makes him look kinda badass even though he’s really just a soft nerd) and unless he really likes the person, he tends to come up with a ridiculous excuse to throw them off because it’s so much easier than opening up the whole Jurassic Park can of worms (which is interesting if he later comes to like the person and ends up telling them the truth at some point)

but I feel like sometimes when he’s extra annoyed with the question of what it was like, he’ll just kind of be like “well, there was a t-rex, and fun fact about them...” and then launch into like a 30 minute spiel of all the facts he knows cause it’s a loophole to A. avoid the question, and hopefully convince the person it’s not worth asking again and B. put his focus into gushing about what he loves which is much better for him

J- just like “you thought you were gonna learn about Jurassic Park but joke’s on you here's everything you need to know about dinosaurs from a paleontologist’s perspective”

and yeah he’s the most encouraging person most people know and everyone loves that about him, which also thankfully means that he’s able to start to amass a reputation for being like everyone’s personal cheerleader rather than Jurassic Park boy, which he really appreciates. especially the first time he’s intro’d to someone new and it’s not like “this is Tim, he’s John Hammond’s grandson” or “this is Tim, he was one of the few people who got to see the original Jurassic Park” and instead just “this is Tim and he’s the kindest person you’ll ever meet, you’ll love him” like big 💖 energy

this also happens a bit with his academic work, that he reaches a certain point and he’s finally known more for his research than his family/experience. but unfortunately he is still an academic in a field of people obsessed with dinosaurs, so the topic does come up pretty easily and people do point him out

speaking of, the first time another paleontologist trashes Jurassic World in his presence, someone quickly points out who he is, and the person is in the midst of saying “oh my god I’m so sorry” when he cuts them off with a simple gesture and is like “no it’s okay, I absolutely agree”

after that, most of colleagues know that he will not only participate in, but also sometimes lead the trashtalk, and it’s a fun time, though every once in a while if there are a few new people around, the same scene of realizing who he is and apologizing will play out

one time it happens when he’s a bit tipsy and he’s just kind of a lot less filtered and it comes out more “no it’s okay, fuck that place”, and it’s very non-malicious, but no one’s ever heard him swear when he wasn’t angry so everyone’s kinda looking at him for a few seconds worried he’s about to get pissed about the park again, but then he’s like “um... okay, come on let’s dance” and that’s how his colleagues know that they have given him too much alcohol (at Julie’s suggestion, it was only like 2 glasses (maybe even less), the boy is a light-weight)

also if you thought sober Tim liked to ramble about dinosaurs, just wait till you meet drunk Tim? he’s basically the same, but just a lot more stream-of-consciousness in a way where he doesn’t make any sense but he’s always like “ya know?” and you feel obligated to be like “yeah, I sure do”

and he also likes to make dinosaur jokes. and dance. he’s already got quite a bit of energy when sober and when he’s drunk it just all leaks out in dancing

also one final thing but a few ideas on scars:

so obviously he has quite a few, but as cool as the eyebrow is, I really wanna focus on his palms

I’m imagining them like white patches on his hands, softer, more sensitive skin, that branch out into sharp spindly lines running up his wrist? he thinks they look kind of cool, but they’re definitely a magnet for unwanted attention

sometimes they tingle a bit during a thunderstorm, and times like those he finds it a bit harder to work with his hands

similarly, if he’s been writing for too long, either with a pen or typing, they tend to ache quite a bit, so he’s forced to break more often than he’d like. he tries not to let them slow him down, but occasionally they get to him

especially when he’s working on his thesis (which, sidenote, I don’t know a thing about theses, but I’m gonna go ahead and say that his definitely had to do with the technological breakthroughs that allowed the dinosaurs to be brought back to life, as well as the inaccuracies (due to the missing DNA and a desire to make them scarier rather than realistic), and how they can have a severely negative impact since they were meant to be extinct), they can really frustrate him, but he just tries to take deep breaths, go do something simple for a while like watch TV, and eventually he’s able to get back to it. but seriously, some days when he’s in the flow and he does not want to break it, he either has to fight past the pain (which is going to leave him hurting for longer), or sacrifice that train of thought, and he just gets so frustrated sometimes

his students can usually tell when the scars are bothering him while he’s trying to write at the board. he’ll start to get a bit restless about it, moving around the room more in between writing his notes. in response, they tend to try raising their hands more, asking simple but distracting questions so he has a bit of time away from writing

when he first realizes what they’re doing he’s so appreciative he almost starts crying. he loves these kids and they love him and it’s so sweet

okay I know I said final thing but just one more and then I am finished

Julie and I talked about this a while ago so I can no longer remember who said what, but Tim absolutely has a Jurassic Park shirt

it was given to him by his grandpa a bit before the trip to get the kids really excited

unfortunately there was an order error and the only shirts that came in time were adult large, so Tim didn’t exactly fit into it

that’s fine with him though, and he basically wears it as a night-gown for the whole week leading up to the trip

afterwards, he feels a bit weird about it, and doesn’t really wear it until years later, after his grandpa’s died, when he finds it buried in his closet as he’s packing up to move out for school

he starts wearing it again to bed some nights. he likes to wear it when he really misses his grandpa. despite mixed feelings on the park itself, Tim feels close to his grandfather in that way

by now he’s grown into it, and it’s just the exact perfect fit for him, a little loose, but so well worn in and soft that it’s just absolutely perfect for him 🥰

I think that might actually be it. I love Timothy Murphy so much, this is a PSA

#tim murphy #jurassic park #joe mazzello #long post #nicole watches jurassic park #sorry it's so long?

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ralfstrashcan · 5 years

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Possible Origins of Magnus's Warlock Mark Insecurities

I've read it countless times in fics that Magnus is super insecure about his cat eyes. After some prodding he will admit that it's because other people (most likely past lovers) have told him they are ugly and/or because he himself thinks they are ugly. Don't get me wrong, I have a soft spot for that trope because it always ends with Alec saying cute romantic loving things to Magnus and Magnus deserves all the cute romantic loving things, but....... I've always found it hard to believe. Here's why.

First off, I think it's important to point out that in the books (as far as I know) Magnus never uses a glamor and has his cat eyes on display all the time. So why the glamor on the show and in the movie? Possibly for the intended dramatic effect whenever he reveals them or (what I personally think more likely) to save some CGI-budget for demons and explosions and stuff. Either way, the outcome is the same: Magnus covers his cat eyes with a glamor most of the time and reveals them only on a few special occasions. From now I'll focus on Show!Magnus because I know the show way better than the movie and I want to characterize Show!Magnus. Some observations may be true for Movie!Magnus too, but he's not the point in this.

1) Magnus is not only a downworlder but also a person of color, so I think it's safe to say he has faced his fair share of discrimination from people of the Shadow World (I'm looking at you, shadowhunters) and the Mundane World alike over the course of his long life. And he really doesn't seem to be the kind of person to be fazed by that. He's the kind of person to stand up for himself, to laugh a narrow-minded racist in the face and beat them at their own game. So I don't find it too convincing that someone telling him something negative about his cat eyes would upset him too much. Of course it's different from being discriminated against for his warlock-dom or his poc-dom because while there are fellow warlocks and fellow people of color there is no one with the same eyes as him, so being insulted for something that's part of him as an individual and that nobody else has is far more personal. It stings. A lot. But still. I can't really see other people's opinions about his eyes influencing his own opinion to that extent when he's used to tuning out insults and the like.

2) It seems kind of dumb, but why would anybody tell him his warlock mark is ugly? I mean, if an enemy insulted it, Magnus wouldn't even take it seriously. So the insult must come from someone close to Magnus for it to even possibly have any impact.

Okay, so which one of Magnus's friends could insult his warlock mark?

--- Warlocks: I can't really imagine a fellow warlock friend insulting his warlock mark, because, seriously. Who does that.

--- Other downworlders: I also find it unlikely that a fellow downworlder friend would do it. Downworlders share a history of being oppressed by shadowhunters (openly before the Accords, more subtle after the Accords, but if I remember correctly the Accords are like 200 years old? That would only be half (or quarter or whatever) of Magnus's life) and that creates common ground. Some sense of companionship. Sure, vampires and werewolves still hate each other, but we were looking at Magnus's friends. I find it hard to believe that any downworlder would insult the mark of a warlock friend.

--- Mundanes: It's a little hazy on the show if/how mundanes know about the Shadow World, there are some scenes in 2B that imply a few mundanes at least hang out with vampires, to feed and stuff? So they probably also know about all the other downworlders? Even though I thought the Clave was very insistent on mundanes not being in the know, then again who cares what the Clave wants? The downworlders certainly don't. Anyway, assuming Magnus really does interact with mundanes on a friendly basis (probably selling them potions and stuff) and reveals his warlock mark to them... I still find it unlikely that they would call it ugly since a) he'd likely only show it to a mundane he has some trust in and b) if the mundane wants something from him like a potion they would be pretty stupid to insult him. I could be persuaded that they are afraid of it. But being afraid and being disgusted is not the same thing, so there's that, and also I think a mundane happily meddling in the Shadow World should have better nerves than to freak out over some harmless cat eyes.

--- Ex-lovers: If an (ex-)lover really told Magnus that his eyes are ugly and he should keep them covered because they're disgusting, well, that sounds to me like extreme insensitivity at best, emotional abuse at worst. Also I think a person that says something like this doesn't act kind and gentle in every other aspect of their life, but is probably really rude and insensitive half the time anyway. Meaning after that relationship ends Magnus would, with time, see that that opinion shouldn't influence him because it came from a bad place and he wouldn't attach much importance to hurtful things that person might have said about his eyes. (.........yes I'm basically talking about Camille here lol.)

And of course there is that whole thing that I don't understand what anybody could find ugly about his cat eyes because, let's face it, they're sexy as hell!!!

............ugh, I'm man enough do admit that this really is no rational argument </3

Okay, but what now? If nobody close to Magnus really has a reason to insult him or Magnus has no reason to take a received insult seriously? It's kinda undeniable that Magnus has some kind of issue with his eyes, right? Just remember that bit in 2x18 that was actually from 2x07 during the infamous First Time Scene, where Magnus didn't even want to face Alec after his glamor dropped. And of course he described it as 'losing control' so he admitted to deliberately hiding his cat eyes.

Then there's this whole issue with Valentine and Magnus swapping bodies. Even though Valentine claimed he didn't have any control over Magnus's magic at the beginning, the glamor stayed up. Okay, that's probably because if Magnus had suddenly started walking around without his glamor after the failed summoning everyone would have been suspicious in two seconds flat, but just because there's a Plot Reason for something doesn't mean it can be ignored.

To me, it means that the glamor Magnus uses on his eyes is not something he actively maintains, but something that is firmly in place and that he needs to actively remove if he wants it gone.

How does that really fit together with Magnus saying he 'lost control' which made the glamor slip, implying he has to sustain the glamor? I don't know. Maybe he meant it in that way that his magic went haywire (= he lost control) and it dislodged the glamor... or maybe the show just contradicts itself in this, insinuating things in both directions. Which.... wouldn't be all that surprising, honestly.

One way or another, the fact remains that Magnus doesn't want his eyes on display all the time. To get behind a potential reason for Magnus's issues, look at this:

On what occasions does Magnus intentionally let his glamor fall?

1x01 Flashback: Answering the door (for Jocelyn, a shadowhunter) 1x01 Flashback: Performing the spell to take Clary's memories 1x01 Threatening a Circle member at the Pandemonium 1x04 During a fight with a Circle member at his loft 2x01 Practicing magic on the balcony (though he hides them as soon as Alec approaches, long before turning around) [Not counting 2x07 while macking with Alec because that wasn't intentional.] 2x08 Showing them to Max* 2x10 Showing them to Madzie [Not counting 3x02 because Magnus says his magic was useless and so his glamor disappeared unintentionally.] 3x08 During the Connection-to-visit-Jace's-Subconsciousness-Spell

*Taking a look at Magnus revealing his eyes to Max

it's obvious how uncomfortable he is: His smile disappears and he clenches his teeth. (Gif Source: pinterest.de/pin/556405728951646689)

So, besides revealing his eyes for the sole purpose of showing them to someone we have two situations:

i) While practicing magic. To be honest I'm not too sure if he really does that intentionally then or if it's just a byproduct of using his magic, but there's no way to know that. It is noteworthy though that he often practices (very poweful) magic without dropping his glamor, so him dropping the glamor doesn't seem to correlate with the severety of the spell he's casting. For example his glamor stays up while summoning a memory demon (1x04) and even a greater demon (2x11) or when fighting both Iris (2x08) and Lorenzo (3x09). I find it hard to believe that all these tasks were easier than a simple memory spell (1x01) or the dream-connection-thingy (3x08), so I think it’s reasonably justified to claim that he does it intentionally then. Coincidentally, those are occasions where shadowhunters (Jocelyn / the Lightwoods) are present while he performs the magic, but it is also noteworthy that in these instances his eyes aren't directed at a person but focused on the task at hand.

ii) During a fight with shadowhunters. I think it's pretty obvious that Magnus uses his cat eyes then as a means of intimidation, as a threat, a warning sign for others that he is dangerous. Not to be underestimated. Deadly.

Why? There are two possible explanations:

a) Because they are his warlock mark, highlighting the fact that he is a warlock with magic and he can kick ass with his magic. → It's not the eyes themselves, they act as a symbol for his warlock-dom.

or b) Because his eyes by themselves are a frightening sight. → It's the eyes themselves.

Either way Magnus himself thinks his eyes represent – directly or indirectly – danger and should be feared.

Why is that?

Well. You mostly believe something to be dangerous when you either know that it holds a certain destructive power or you know from experience that it has caused damage in the past. Since the cat eyes themselves hold no power I think it's safe to go with option two: Magnus has experienced the extreme and grave damage his eyes can do to someone. They were the reason, the trigger for his mother to kill herself. The reason his childhood found a violent and rather traumatic end, the reason he became an orphan and lost everything he had known up to this point.

In my opinion Magnus associates his eyes and what they mean to him with this event, because it was the first reaction, the imminent fallout of his eyes revealing themselves. That's why he thinks they are a means to strike fear in the hearts of his enemies and that is why he covers them, because they are a constant reminder of what happened to his mother. I don't think he himself finds them pretty or ugly, they are a part of him like everything else, but they are the part of him that broke his family and that's why he can't stand the sight of them.

Edit: Now, after 3A aired (since I wrote this whole thing before that) there is another, pretty straightforward explanation: They are the one thing he has in common with Asmodeus and they are a constant reminder of their time together which, on his own admission, made his skin crawl. To him, they are a symbol of his weakest moment, when he trusted the wrong person easily and let himself be shaped into something cruel and twisted. Those memories are shameful, and his eyes are evidence that once upon a time his wish to not be alone anymore and to mean something to someone managed to outweight his conscience. His eyes are living proof of the darkness within him, a darkness that would make him do unspeakable things, and so they represent the deadly force that is his power if he unleashed it.

In my personal head canon, when Alec inevitably says something cute romantic loving about Magnus's eyes, it doesn't magically heal his issues with them. But I think it soothes a part of Magnus, the knowledge that something that is so terrible for one person can be something beautiful for another, and with time I think he can accept that his eyes themselves are nothing inherently destructive and bad. I believe he would let himself be coaxed to lower is glamor occasionally, if Alec asks; but I don't think that he'd ever walk around casually without a glamor, not even at home when he's alone with (or without) Alec. That is a little sad, but I don't think you have to erase every issue you have in your life to be able to be truly happy.

#shadowhunters #some episodes #magnus bane #alec lightwood #malec #magnus bane's cat eyes #meta

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honeylikewords · 5 years

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why don’t you take your old posts down if you don’t want people liking them?? not being rude just curious.

Well, I actually have considered that. And, in some cases, it does seem like the best option, specifically regarding the old Grady posts, which I am sincerely considering taking down, and because of that, I answered a similar question to this one back when I was explaining why I don’t write for Grady anymore.

The thing is, there’s also a couple of reasons not to do that for other cases. For example:

1. I don’t want to just get rid of my old work; I sometimes actually like the things I used to write, so on a certain level, I like being able to look back and see them and remember the pieces and enjoy them again. I guess I could just copy-paste them into a Google doc and archive them for myself that way, but it’s nice to have this blog in its entirety for me to look through on my own.

2. Some of these old posts seem to be the way people find my blog and then get interested in other things. I sincerely doubt I’d have any followers at all if I hadn’t posted Frank stuff, and if I didn’t still have it up now. While I’m not at all caught up about having a droves of followers, what I do care about is still getting interaction on this blog-- meaning people talk to me, I talk to them, I get anons that give me fun ideas to write and exercise with-- and it seems that one of the ways that people get interested in my blog and, by extension, the newer work I’m making is through these old posts.

3. I don’t necessarily hate or despise Frank Castle or Jim Hopper or even Shane Walsh (though out of the three, he’s the one I have the hardest time finding any remaining love for), nor hate the content I made for them.

When I made that content, they were still good, rich, interesting characters with loveable sides to them (and, for Shane, I hadn’t watched every single one of his episodes, knowing full well that he only got worse with time, so I quit while I was ahead), and I know that, for many people, they’re only invested in that good side that we knew before they got progressively worse through their shows.

I still hold nostalgia for early seasons Frank and actually do still like Hopper on some levels, and, heck, when Shane made that return on TWD, I was incredibly excited and it did re-light a small candle in my heart for the work that Jon did on that show, so I also understand that, for some people, they’re still running on those early-season-mindsets, the mindsets where they loved that character, and they don’t want to let that go. And I also understand that it’s a scale of badness and that these characters are not necessarily “entirely canceled”, and that there’s a lot of nuance in my opinions on these characters, and nuance in how other people look at them or try to reconcile early incarnations of them with their later downfalls (a la Daredevil season 2 Frank versus Literal Friend To A N*zi In Punisher season 2 Frank).

But the problem is that I get frustrated by the fact that A) people seem only interested in content for aggressive white men, B) people continue to seek out content for these aggressive white men after they have done incredibly reprehensible things within the most recent incarnations of their stories (for example, getting a huge influx of Frank fans immediately after season 2, meaning these people SAW him do all the horrible, horrible things he did in season 2 and still found him attractive and fetishized him for those self-same horrible things) and C) my very vanilla, SFW, loving, gentleness-focused posts for these characters get reblogged onto violence fetishizing blogs, serial killer blogs, IRL shooter blogs, etc, which violates not only the site policies, but also violates my work and my own feelings, horrifying me to think that my art is being consumed for its adjacency to sexualized violence.

4. I actually still like Frank. I do. And I wish I could still write for him. But when I step back and look at the whole picture, I realize that if I did continue to, it would just be ignoring the problems created by his story and adjacent fandom, willfully ignoring the worst realities of this media and its biases, and what I want now is for people to be able to critically engage with that and know that it’s wrong to continue glorifying the violence and excusing the bigotry embalmed into the corpse of what used to be a good show and character.

So I leave up my kinder, gentler posts to hopefully combat the masses upon masses of other posts that sensationalize, glorify, and deify his violence and aggression, hoping that maybe it’ll draw people into the conversation we need to collectively be having about the way we look at male characters, the way we look at violence, and the permissions we give to white (or white-passing) characters regarding violence and abuse that we don’t give to non-white characters.

That mentality is applied across the board to all the other characters.

5. Honestly? One day, I could come back around to these characters. Right now I’m at a stage in my life where I find it too difficult to reconcile the badness of the most recent incarnation with the good parts I saw earlier, and I also am trying to avoid seeming like I condone, excuse or turn a blind eye to these bad things by continuing to apologize for a character. But I might not always be in that stage, and may be able to someday articulate a more complex and nuanced understanding of media consumption and creation, and so I want to have these pieces of what I used to love about them still available to me if I ever change my mind.

And what bothers me isn’t necessarily that people enjoy those old works-- they’re left up for that reason, so people (myself included) can enjoy them-- but rather that people engage with them uncritically, or without a conscientiousness about what it is, exactly, that they’re consuming. When I see people reblogging my old Shane posts, ones about family and healing and kindness, and then see on their blog that the other things they’ve reblogged are about him being brutal, violent, aggressively sexual, or demeaning towards women, it makes me aware that, in some way, people consider my content complicit with and equitable to content that allows for, excuses, or even adores and romanticizes the worst, most vile parts of characters like Shane or Frank or whomever.

I know there are good fans out there. Good, critical, thoughtful fans who have been able to think about what it is they’re consuming and like parts of it anyway while simultaneously denouncing the bad parts. That’s what media consumption is, a lot of the time: balancing what we love about it with calling out what we hate about it. So I leave my posts up, hoping to find those thoughtful people who love what I love about it but also understand what there is to hate about it, too. But it worries me over and over that people continue to just glorify and digest abuse and violence as if it’s good, sexy, enticing, complex, or passionate, and that these people find my works and think that my work is aligning itself with these glorifications and digestions of wickedness.

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At the end of the day, though, I keep the posts up because they used to make me happy and they seem to continue to make other people happy. They get people to engage with this blog and hopefully find other, healthier things to enjoy. They’re not really even necessarily bad posts, sometimes, but when I post about being frustrated that these old posts are the only ones getting attention, what I’m frustrated with is the online cultural fixations on characters who seem to be nothing but aggressive white men. I’m frustrated not by my work, nor by people enjoying it, but by the awareness I have that this enjoyment can be connected to a tacit (or even outright) endorsement of white male violence.

So I don’t take them down in the hopes that people will find my blog and engage with me about stuff I care about, stuff that I like to write nowadays instead of from however many years ago. I don’t take them down in the hopes that people will read them and be happy, or read them and see a more nuanced perspective on what makes a man attractive (which, 100% of the time on this blog, is gentleness, sensitivity, protectiveness, and kindness). And I like having these old pieces of my work to reflect on and learn from, and hopefully do better in future.

It’s a little like preserving a time capsule, in a sense: I may not like or need the things that were originally put into the capsule, but it’s sometimes nice to remember what they meant to me back then, and what they could mean to me some other day.

I know this response got ungodly long, so please don’t think of it as me roasting you; I promise, it’s not. It’s just me trying to articulate and explain how complicated it can be to negotiate the space between loving something-- for example, the work Jon did as an actor who I like and appreciate-- and the things there are to hate about it-- such as the detrimental portrayals of and subscription to hypermasculinity, violence, and white supremacy that can be found in this most recent Frank Castle iteration-- and why I have such a complicated, frustrated relationship with my old posts.

#long post #messages #anonymous #sorry this got so long and complicated! it's just a long and complicated problem in and of itself

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