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bluemari23 · 3 months

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soul glow | choi seungcheol

summary: you attended your first concert, waiting a long time to see your ult group perform. unable to recognize a soul bond taking place, you leave early, leaving seungcheol to scramble to find you.

pairing: choi seungcheol x neurodivergent reader

genre: soulmates, soul bonds, idol au, angst

warnings: a cinderella moment indeed, mentions of overstimulation,

word count: 1.4k

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an: couldn't help myself. I had a dream of this and needed to write it out.

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The concert was your first, and you wouldn’t question if it was also to be your last. You were overwhelmed to say the least. You could practically feel your skin crawl as the colored lights flashed throughout the stadium.

You had come with your best friend, wanting to see your ult group, Seventeen, while they were finally visiting a city even remotely close to you. You had both waited a long time for them to come, often writing your own prayers on social media with the hopes someone in management would see.

And now, you’re not sure how you feel.

“If you’re not feeling it, we can always leave early.” You friend yelled out to you over the music. You were in the front row of the bottom section, right behind the floor seats. You were to the side of the stage, but still had an amazing view of the boys as they performed.

You loved your friend, how understanding they were, but you just shook your head. You didn’t pay all this money for you to leave early, and because you were overstimulated. You hated feeling like a burden and you knew how much your friend was also looking forward to the concert. You both had been waiting to experience the right of passage for every carat at a concert, the ten thousand aju nices that would happen at the end.

To be fair, you might just be overstimulated by the lights surrounding the boys, particularly on your side of the stage. You couldn’t figure it out, given it was a bright golden glow and none of the colored lights going on in the stadium resembled that glow or even just the lights that lit up the stage.

You tried to make the best of your opportunity and sung along to your favorite song once it played. Shadow held a special place in your heart and you loved the timber of the groups individual voices as they sang, particularly Mingyu and Scoups as they gave their best selves to the performance.

Once the instrumental for To You began to play, Scoups tried his best to remember the choreo but he couldn’t help but to continue to move towards the left of the stage, something catching his eye as he turned to look at their fans.

He couldn’t help but to falter in his steps, thankfully no one caught his mistake as he was quick to sing his lines. The bright glow of gold held his attention, more like the woman who the glow centered around.

He could name numerous different soul bonds, from the Flower Halo to the more common Soul Mark, but never did he think he would be blessed with a Soul Glow as his bond. And never did he think he would find his soulmate during one of their concerts, where he can’t immediately move to greet his soulmate, bringing them into his embrace and holding them tight.

He had even more vigor as he continued on with the concert, knowing that his soulmate was watching him and his brothers perform. Something that everyone seemed to notice, especially his band members.

During one of the outfit changes, Joshua has come up to him and asked him if he was okay, and he couldn’t hold back.

“My soulbond activated. She’s here, Shua.” He admitted, causing Joshua’s eyes to widen in shock, and for the excited shouts of his other members who had not so subtly been eavesdropping on their elder members.

They all quickly dressed in their next set of clothes, and right before they had to go back on stage, Seungcheol has pointed you out to his fellow members and manager, who had been tasked to get a message across to his soulmate before the end of the concert, wanting to meet his soul glow.

Despite trying their best, his members kept moving to the left of the stage, trying to get a good look at who would be their new best friend by the end of the night. Yeah, they would give you and their leader your space, but they were determined to be your friends, seeing as you would be stuck with their leader forever.

This was something the crowd noticed as well, those on the floor moving to the left trying to get the boy’s attention and whatever way they could. It only happened for a couple of songs, but then the boys moved back to giving equal time to all sides of the stage.

It was weird, and something you and your friend both acknowledged.

“I wonder what happened?” You friend questioned aloud, causing you to hum your agreement.

“Maybe something caught their eye?” Was your own reply, thinking that to be the most likely answer.

Either way, the concert continued but not without difficulties. Mainly for you.

You had tried your hardest, but despite that, you couldn’t help but to feel as though you had overdone your tolerance, the biting pain of your nails digging into your palm a sad reminder.

Loud noises had always been a problem for you; the pain in your head and the itching under your skin that had your scratching marks into your arm was always a reminder. You don’t know why, but too much stimulation always caused somewhat of a shutdown for you, where you couldn’t speak and your mind didn’t seem to want to focus on anything in particular.

By the time the third Aju Nice had rolled around, you were past your limit and you friend could tell.

“Hey, you know what, it’s okay. I can see why so many people get tired after the first round. My feet are aching and my cheeks hurt from smiling so much.” Your dear friend helped you out of the aisle and towards the stairs that would lead out to the lobby of the stadium.

You tried to protest, but even those were weak as you followed behind your best friend. You were incredibly thankful for them and knew you would need to make up for leaving the concert early, even if they are adamant about leaving.

Vernon was the first to notice you leaving, following behind the woman who had been sitting to your right. He tried his best to signal to Seungcheol, but only managed to at the end of the third Aju Nice encore.

“She’s leaving, Cheol.” Vernon tried to be discrete, which thankfully he managed. His words caught the attention of the others, who had all huddled together near one corner of the stage, watching a couple of their fans in costume dance. They all watched the two women make their way to the stairs and out of the main stadium area.

Cheol panicked, sitting down at the edge of the stage and gesturing for his manager, making him aware of the dilemma. He could only watch as his manager had grabbed some of their security with him and started backstage, trying to catch up to you.

His heart was racing as he tried his best to focus and make sure the concert ended like every other one, doing his best for his fans. It was like he could feel you getting further away from him, could feel the distance festering in his soul.

As he sang the last encore, he had come up with a number of ideas, ways to track you down if you did manage to get away from him tonight.

Once the last note played and they started to leave the stage, Seungcheol walked until he was out of sight of his fans, the proceeded to run to his dressing room, where hopefully you would be waiting with his manager.

Disappointment and defeat coated his veins as he opened the door, the emptiness in his soul prominent as the room was empty from what he could only imagine would be your inevitable warmth.

“I’m sorry, Seungcheol, they were driving out of the parking lot by the time we managed to get into the lot. One of the security team did manage to get their license plate number so we have that written down.” His faithful manager spoke sincerely, not wanting to upset Seungcheol more than he probably already was.

Everyone was throwing out suggestions, some of the members even going to action as they tried to see if they could access ticket information from the stadium itself. Seungcheol remained quiet though, determination flowing through him as he followed along with Mingyu, calling their company and the stadium head to see what they could do.

One way or another, he would find his soul glow.

#choi seungcheol #choi seungcheol x reader #scoups x reader #scoups x neurodivergent reader #scoups fluff #scoups soulmate #soulmates #soulmate au #soul bonds #svt scoups x reader #svt scoups #seventeen soulmate au #seventeen imagines #bluemari23

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project-sekai-facts · 5 months

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idk if this has its own comprehensive post on here or not but can you explain in depth how rui is gay coded

yeah okay

i think what you'll see people bring up most often is the fact that he has his right ear pierced (see above). incredibly brief queer history lesson for anyone who is unaware: back in the 70s & 80s when it still illegal or otherwise heavily looked down on to be gay, wearing a single earring in your right ear became a non-verbal identifier amongst gay men in America. As far as I'm aware, identifiers did actually vary between areas, but it became far more publicly known that the right ear was the gay ear and the left ear was the straight ear. Even today when the stigma has worn away a decent amount, you still hear people bring up the term "gay ear" and the fact that the right ear is the gay ear is fairly common knowledge. This is also a known thing outside america, i'm not sure how far the spread is outside america and other english-speaking countries but it is definitely known in a fair amount of places (also it should be noted that a right ear piercing can have different meanings in different cultures that predate this meaning, and nowadays people are more likely to get whatever ear pierced they want regardless of sexuality).

obviously anyone can have any ear pierced that they want but things work a bit differently with character design. the only other MCs who regularly wear earrings are An (left ear) and Akito (both). For both of them, this is definitely done to make them seem more cool, which makes sense given they're in the street music scene and following the fashions. As for NPCs there's Nagi (left), Arata, Ken, Tatsuya, Iori, Saku, and Yuuka (all both), which again is probably just to fit the fashion of those characters. Okay, Yuuka just has regular old earrings but as for the others you've got street and punk rock styles which both incorporate piercings as a big part of the style (especially with Saku's punk look).

so all that considered, Rui's earring just sticks out, I guess? it's not really a fashion thing, it's pretty plain and just kinda there, and very conveniently happens to exactly match up with an old way of signaling in the gay community instead of being in his left ear which is the far more common ear for guys to get pierced if they only have one earring. also he almost always only has the one piercing in his right ear in trained cards, the only exceptions being his cheer squad (earrings in both ears) and his canary card (three piercings but still in his right ear).

like i said though, it doesn't have to mean anything but talking from the perspective of character design, sometimes if you want to communicate something about a character then you put it in there.

building off of that, very stereotype-y but his choreo is notably quite.. flamboyant, should I say, compared to the other characters, even shizuku and haruka's more elegant styles. honestly just watch the clip this is so hard to explain. anyway in the process of writing this i found out that his mocap artist lists in his professional profile that one of his specialities is dancing for both masculine and feminine roles, so I get the feeling that there was a reason they cast this person specifically instead of one of the other male artists at the company, and then there was the decision to even have him dance like that in the first place. this doesn't have to mean anything at all and as i said leans very far on stereotypes which is something that i'm not a huge fan of but you do still sometimes have to consider things like this even when talking about modern media.

this one again is more of a matter of perspective. Rui has a few interactions with Tsukasa that could very definitely be read as flirting. it's kinda ambiguous though, which does make sense given the type of game this is; they never really make anything clear so that people who are fans of a pairing can enjoy the teasing and people who don't like it can simply move on. first thing that comes to mind would be the part where he invites Tsukasa to his house in wonder halloween (above), mainly because his L2D uses his smile expression that has a blush with it and that was a choice that someone on the L2D team had to make but didn't have to - they could've easily just kept his usual teasing expression he had at the start of the interaction there was no need to change it.

There's a couple other interactions but this is probably the most obvious outside of the incredibly shameless shiptease of Rui volunteering himself to play Juliet so Tsukasa could rehearse the proposal scene of his R&J adaptation despite the fact that Nene was in the room in Kamikou Festival!.

(TL by pjsekai eng)

there's also that 1koma that I posted about a while ago. you know, the one where he asks for people to call him the "modern day Hiraga Gennai"? Hiraga Gennai as in the 18th century Japanese inventor who was also gay and wrote multiple works about it. The whole joke of the 1koma is that Rui wants to be known as the modern equivalent of a gay scientist and Tsukasa questions if he really wants to be called that.

The 1komas are played for jokes though, and especially the original ones are quite hard to call canon due to some of the scenarios and character interactions not making sense. But then again, someone on the writing team decided to write a gay joke around Rui for whatever reason that may be and it got passed by higher ups and put in the game (or, 3 versions of the game. the joke didn't make it to EN due to Gennai not being very known amongst the audience).

the only other thing i can think of (and arguably like, the biggest bit of evidence for this theory (?)) is that he doesn't really show any interest in women.

First off, the Valentine's Day 2021 vlive. Quick note that in Japan, Valentine's is traditionally a holiday for girls to give chocolates to boys (while white day is the reverse). You can give platonic valentines too, which is what happens in-game... for the most part.

Those chocolates Rui got could easily just be platonic chocolates from other students, but then you have a few factors to filter in. 1) this is very early into the game, back when his only friends were WxS and Mizuki and 2) Those chocolates aren't from WxS, since Emu and Nene give the boys sweets offscreen after the vlive, and Tsukasa is on the receiving end for this holiday. Of course, one box could be friend chocolates from Mizuki, but that leaves more chocolate boxes than friends to give him chocolates.

Immediately after this, Tsukasa gets jealous that Rui got chocolates and tries to brag that he got some too, before saying too much and revealing he got friendzoned by multiple girls, basically confirming that Rui's chocolates were given with romantic intent. I guess you could say that these were chocolates given out to everyone in 2-B, but then why would they leave it anonymously in his locker? Tsukasa's classmates just gave them out to everyone in-person. The only reason I could think of is that people don't want to associate with him, which is canon, but if that's the case then why even bother. I dunno. This is almost word-for-word from that post I made about the in-universe attractiveness of every character so sorry I made you sit through that again.

Getting back on track, Rui seems very neutral about the fact he got given multiple boxes of what was likely confession chocolate. He just briefly mentions that he forgot the holiday was even happening until he found chocolates and then never brings this up again. I think it's worth comparing his reactions to Tsukasa, who seems to care very much about his abilities (or, lack thereof) to attract women. Obviously Tsukasa is the big reactions/brag about a lot of things guy, but Rui does not really seem to care about the fact that multiple women find him attractive.

Second sub-point: Shizuku. Shizuku can be considered as the most attractive character in-universe given the sheer amount of characters that have been shown to be attracted to her or at least comment on her looks (currently at least 8 MCs and a few named side characters). Admittedly none of those MCs are male, but it isn't like it's impossible for people to be attracted to the opposite gender in this game, like we just established that Tsukasa says he's interested in women, so the point still stands.

(TL from Tsukasa's #3 fan on YT)

Specifically I would like to point out a scene in A Once-In-A-Lifetime Pandemonium, when the 2-B trio first meet the Miyajo 2nd years. The three of them immediately recognise Shizuku and Airi and then Ibuki describes Mafuyu as "a beauty". Shizuku gives them her idol smile which in their POV has the same sparkles that often show up when characters are attracted to another character (like how Haruka has this effect on Minori and Kohane, and An has this effect on Kohane). Like it's very, very obvious that Rui's friends are attracted to Shizuku and the other girls and they're pretty surprised that he's hanging around with them.

But Rui never acts like this around Shizuku at all, nor does he ever even address the fact that she's good looking. He doesn't even bring it up in their earlier interactions, when a lot of other characters (e.g: Emu, Ena, and Mizuki) commented on her looks almost immediately after meeting her (they did first meet in a pretty stressful situation if you want to argue that, but it still stands that he's never been attracted to her).

at the end of the day i think you could definitely make a case for it. like it's harder to make a solid argument in comparison to say, Kohane, An, or Minori who are outright attracted to other girls, but there's definitely some more subtle hints and stuff to work with still and it was actually quite fun to compile them (i took the in-depth part to heart as always sorry anon).

#this isn't meant to invalidate anyone's ships or HCs or whatnot like do whatever you want #do whatever you want with this post it's just for fun.#asks #theory #? i guess??#rui kamishiro

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gyuusauce · 5 months

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Stray Kids - Diet

Pairing: Lee!Felix X Ler!Hyunjin

Warning: This is a tickle fic! If this kind of thing isn’t your cup of tea, please continue to scroll!

Over the past two weeks, Hyunjin couldn’t help but worry about his best friend, Felix. He hasn’t been eating as much as he used to and sometimes even skipped meals. This was not common for Felix to do so it really worried the older bandmate. He decided he was gonna go check on Lix after his dance practice sessions to see what the problem was.

It was now night time and Hyunjin finished up the last choreo for his daily dance practices. He took a gulp of cold water to cool down then shortly made his way to go see Felix. He walked up to the door of the older member’s room and knocked gently. “Lix, it’s Hyunjin,, can I come in?” he asked. “Sure, come in” said Felix’s voice from the other side of the door. Hyunjin pushed open the door and walked up to his bandmate who was sitting on his bed, scrolling through social media on his laptop. Hyunjin took a seat next to him and spoke up ��hey, can I talk to you about something if you don’t mind?” he asked Lix, his voice soft and caring. Felix closed his laptop and set it on his nightstand. He nodded his head, waiting to hear what Hyunjin had to say.

“So Felix, I’ve been noticing lately that you’ve been eating less and skipping meals and I’m just worried about you. Is everything alright? You know me and the other members are always here to listen.” Hyunjin explained, a hint of worry now in his voice. Felix looked down and took a deep breath. He looked like he was almost about to cry but then quickly got himself together and opened his mouth. “The fans on my lives have been recently telling me I should eat less cuz I’m gaining weight so I started to diet…” he explained to the older. It was clear that it was bothering him. Hyunjin’s heart sank at his friend’s words. “Ohh Felix..” he said. “Don’t listen to those people. They are not “fans” but just bullies who like to bring people down. You’re perfect the way you are! Eat what you want, Lixie” Hyunjin’s tone was full of love as he spoke to the younger. He really cared about his friend and wanted him to be happy always.

Felix looked up at Hyunjin with a soft smile. “Thanks, Hyun, you always know how to make me feel better” he said, leaning in to hug his friend. Hyunjin smiled and hugged him back. “Anything for you, Lix” They stayed in eachother’s embrace for a moment until Felix suddenly pulled away. “Hey Hyun,, you know what would make me feel even better?” he said to the older as his cheeks went pink. “What’s that, Lix?” Hyunjin replied. Felix blushed even more before saying in a low tone “I’d like it if you could..you know..make me laugh a bit” the shy boy explained as he wiggled his fingers, signaling what he wanted. Hyunjin’s blank expression quickly turned into a smirk. “Ahh, so you want me to tickle you?” he responded. Felix nodded, clearly embarrassed to ask his friend for tickles.

Hyunjin motioned for his bandmate to lay down and get himself comfortable. Felix rested his head on the pillows beneath him and laid down on his back. Hyunjin started to pull up Felix’s hoodie, revealing the soft skin of his tummy underneath. Lix got shy and put his hands up to his face, unable to watch. “Let’s start with your tummy, Lixie” the older said, reaching his hand out to his friend’s stomach. He gently scribbled all five fingers over Felix’s tummy, occasionally sneaking in a playful squeeze to his side or hip. The younger wriggled and giggled under Hyunjin’s touch. “Ahahaha!! Hyuniehehehee!!” Felix’s adorable giggles brought the biggest smile to his bandmate’s face. He loved seeing his beloved friend so carefree and happy. It was even better since he was the reason for his happiness in this moment.

“Are you enjoying your tickles, Lixie?” Hyunjin teased, causing Felix to blush. The older lightly wiggled a finger in Lix’s navel. “YAHAHAHA!! not there, Hyun!!” he squeaked. Hyunjin couldn’t help but tease his friend some more “Aww, does Lix have a ticklish belly button?” he cooed. Felix covered his face in embarrassment but he secretly was loving the attention. He continued to explore the other member’s midriff with his fingers before giving him a little break.

Felix pouted, wondering why Hyunjin stopped tickling him. He was about to say something but quickly stopped because of what happened next. Hyunjin started blowing a series of gentle raspberries all over Felix’s sensitive skin, causing him to squeal and throw his head back into the pillows. “AHHH HYUNJIHIHIHIN NOHOHOHO!!” Lix shouted through loud laughter. Hyunjin let out a giggle. He lifted his head from Felix’s soft stomach and said “Oh come on, Felix. You know you love it when I do this!” the younger’s cheeks went red “shuhuhuhut up!!” he replied while still giggling uncontrollably. Hyunjin decided to end the tickle time with a raspberry directly onto Felix’s belly button. “YAAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!” he shrieked. The younger rolled onto his stomach to get away from Hyunjin’s tickly lips.

Felix rolled back onto his back and laid there trying to catch his breath. “hehe…that tickled a lot” he said as he covered his stomach with his arms. Hyunjin smiled down at his cute friend, glad to have made him feel better. “Glad you liked it, Lix” he responded. After a while of chatting, Felix soon fell asleep, his blanket half on half off of him. The older got up off the bed and left, letting his bandmate rest for the night. Sometimes all it takes is a quick talk and a little bit of tickles to cheer up your closest friends.

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beautifulpersonpeach · 6 months

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BPP!

Did you see the Guilty dance challenge? Why is Jimin so mesmerizing and gorgeous and beautiful and everything...😭 Ngl 2Min are cute, but can he please please do the SNTY challenge with Jungkook as well😭

Also, can I ask you what came to your mind when you learned that all the members sold all of their stocks on the same day? I wonder what could it mean🤔

Edited to add this ask since I just saw it:

Ask 2:

How is your reaction to Jimin’s Taemin tiktok challenge?? he should be chained and feel guilty to set us on 🔥🔥 like this 😩 blondemin is dangerous..

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I’ve not been well since I saw it.

Jimin going blonde again, with his full, long, perfectly salon-styled hair, wearing all black.

I’m not a huge fan of the Guilty choreo but the way Jimin does it… The way that man moves is sinful.

If he does the SNTY challenge it’s over for everyone. That choreo is far more fast paced, and hard hitting, exactly the sort of choreo I love seeing Jimin do, and he’s going to absolutely body it.

As to the members selling their shares, some members have sold it in chunks at various points over the years, none of them have sold down completely and there was some chatter in late 2021 about the rapline using a broker to build their positions on the open market. I don’t see it as a big deal. Selling down shares can happen for a lot of reasons but the most common one is profit-taking. Markets in general have been depressed in Korea due to macro factors and the entertainment industry isn’t spared.

#bts #jimin #park jimin #bts chapter 2

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kkeke99 · 2 years

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I better not see any of you come for Wooyoung.

So, recently there's been a discussion on Pannchoa that talks about Wooyoung from Ateez calling out WeDemBoyz's Vata for stealing their legendary move from "Say My Name" and using it for a choreo he did for "New Thing" (OST for SMF) but not only that, he claimed it as his when it is not.

Wooyoung definitely saw this during a recent episode and when they went in Saudi Arabia for KCON he called Vata out on his plagiarism.

The sign he did at the start of the video is a move professional dancers uses when someone plagiarises them. It's called the "copy sign" and is done in a "=" shape to signal that what the other party did is basically the same thing.

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It's explained in more details in this video by this dance teacher at minute 1:08.

While many Knetz has sided with Ateez, Kpop stans has said that Wooyoung overreacted and that he was being petty over a common dance move, which is something very ignorant to say (but Kpop stans will do anything to hate on Ateez so).

I side with Wooyoung

not cause he's my fave, but cause he's legally and morally right. Ateez got plagiarised 3 times only this year: once by Soyeon from G-Idle who stole the instrumental of their 2019 song "Wave" (and gave us an half-assed apology that everyone accepted just cause it's her, when it's not Kpop fans place to accept the apology but yeah 🤠), the second time by Jyp who stole material from Ateez's lore and placed it in their new gg M/V (this is in no way a reason to hate on the girls, complain to Jyp who's behind it all) and now this; if I was Wooyoung or any of the Teezers I would be pissed too, after this many time of being plagiarised.

Some Kpop fans also complained about Wooyoung calling Vata out cause "He isn't the one who choreographed the move", which is true but KQent bought that choreo/move (which is what occurs when groups get a choreography for their songs) from Anze Skrube and Josh Smith who are the original choreographers of the move and has worked with Ateez from debut until now.

Wooyoung didn't call Vata out for himself and Ateez alone, he called Vata out for Anze and Josh too.

Some time aback Anze had a collab with Steezy (a dance crew/academy) where he and a dancer reacts to Ateez choreos from debut until now and he talked about how they're close, how he admires Ateez as his juniors but also as dancers and performers and how they all respect each others, their relationship is pretty close so of course Wooyoung would call Vata out on Anze and Josh's stead too.

Anze himself talked about it today on his Instagram Stories siding with Wooyoung too, the original choreographer rightfully called Vata out too.

Also can't believe that Vata claims himself to be San's friend, only to go and steal his groups' move and claim it as his for clout and fame just like that... Ateez Deserves Better.

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yourkimjaejin · 10 months

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The Finale Collide

It's finally here my friends!! The long awaited finale to Taeyong and Moxy animosity era!! Honestly I'm both hype and scared for this post. Hyped because I'm proud of myself for writing this down and posting it. Scared cause I hope it lives up to the hype but I guess we'll see. Anyways enjoy the finale!!

Legend - April 2018 | English = Bold

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It started with little comments

“Moxy, could you not play your music so loud at night?”

“Migyeong, maybe shave down a bit of your time in the bathroom.”

“Why aren’t you picking these steps up? You were at the top of your dance lessons right?”

Each word ground at Moxy’s patience with her new bandmates.

For months, Moxy had been dealing with the cold shoulder from all her members. Well, most of them. Haechan resolutely ignored the way his hyungs were acting. Moxy frequently found herself greeted by the group's maknae in her room waiting to gossip about their days. Johnny and Doyoung were pulled between the two sides constantly. Slowly but surely it felt like they were pulling away from her too. Missed hangouts were becoming common. The reasons are usually bogus member-related excuses.

The only time she got some reprieve was with her friends, at gymnastics or at night when all the boys in her dorm were asleep. The makeup noonas have been complaining about her eye bags for a while now. Migyeong figured she had at least a couple more late night snack sessions before managers got involved.

After a year, 127 hadn’t gelled with their newest member and Moxy felt the ice could break underneath her feet. Leaving her to drown at any second. During their first performance of Limitless, Moxy messed up a move she’d nailed in every practice beforehand. For someone else, it was just debut nerves. For Taeyong, it gave him all the reason to nitpick Every. Single. Move she made.

“Your arms need to be bent more.”

“You’re supposed to be expressionless Migyeong.”

“Your jump is still a half a second late.”

“It’s right-left-right Migyeong, not left-right-left.”

Those were just the minor ones though. Chain was the most difficult choreography she had encountered. Moxy spent hours after each practice committing the moves to memory. Any time she tried with Johnny, Doyoung or even Donghyuck, She was fine. Hitting every move with the speed and precision required. Her muscle memory vanished in front of Taeyong. One time she was late by seconds, making everyone look off. Another time, Moxy fumbled her footing causing her to bump into Taeil. During this latest run-though Moxy’s head must have been in the clouds. She was so off. She was basically dancing at half speed. By now, Taeyong had had enough.

“MOXY!! We are a week out from filming. There is no way you can keep messing up this choreo. Not after last time.”

“I slipped slightly during my first performance ever. It never happened again Taeyong!” Migyeong had taken to only addressing Johnny and Doyoung as Oppa. She refused to give Taeyong respect when after all this time he hadn’t earned it. The other members were granted a sunbae or -ssi. Doyoung tried to convince the younger to call them all oppa but Moxy was stubborn.

“What have they done to deserve that title?” Was her response.

“Secondly, I know I have it down. Johnny’s watched me nail it several times.” Taeyong rolled his eyes.

“Well Johnny isn’t your leader I am. Now we're all gonna run the dance break until everyone gets it right.” Some of them groaned but Doyoung noticed that Taeyong didn’t look away from Moxy even when addressing everyone. The manager ran the music again. Everything was going smoothly….

Until both Taeyong and Moxy got the quick movements wrong.

“ARE YOU KIDDING ME MOXY!!” “DON’T LOOK AT ME AS IF IT WAS JUST ME!! YOU MESSED UP TOO!!!!”

“Both of you need to relax.” Johnny tried to diffuse the situation. He and Doyoung walked over to Moxy hoping to smooth out the tension between their leader and their female member.

“Johnny if he looks at me like I’m the only one in the wrong—”

“Johnny, we don't have time for this!”

“OH PLEASE! Like you’ve ever had time for me, oppa!” Moxy’s eyes snapped over to their leaders. Her gaze made the older boy flinch. Whispered conversations all ceased. Everyone's attention was on the leader and the girl.

“I haven’t done anything. For a year! To any of you. I was added to this group. I never expected to be welcomed with open arms. You don’t know me. I don’t know you. And after a year, both statements are still true and I can’t take it anymore!” Moxy points to the closed practice room door, “I walk through that door for every practice scared of the people I’m supposed to rely on. Then that feeling follows me to the dorms where I can’t be myself because everything I do annoys you! The only time I get some piece?! When you’re all asleep. And you wonder why I’m always tired.” Moxy eyes were ablaze. The heat gets to all the males in the room.

“I don't know what it is about me thats got you so pressed but I am SICK of it. Maybe it's because in all the training you did, I made it in half the time. Maybe I’m so good that you're trying any trick in the book to get me to leave.” Moxy tried to make her way closer but Johnny and Doyoung stopped her. Or at least they tried. Moxy ripped out of their grips, not stopping until she was face to face with Taeyong. “I don’t know and I don’t care. What I do know is if you look at me cross-eyed one more time there won’t be a plastic surgeon in Korea that could fix your face once I'm done.” Heavy breaths left her Moxy as the adrenaline of her anger finally dissipated. The room was left tense

Realizing what she said to a guy older than her, Moxy brought her gaze to the floor. Several of the members thought she was gonna apologize right then (They don’t know what a black woman from Chicago's anger is like.). Moxy shook her head making her way to her bag. She threw her stuff in quickly and before anyone could blink, Moxy was out the door, slamming it in her wake. The slam knocked everyone out of her trance. Taeyong watched as Doyoung and Johnny ran after, calling her name. Moments later, the two walked back in with unreadable expressions. The rest of the members looked at Taeyong carefully, watching their leader's face.

“Let’s run it again.” Was all he said.

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Practice lasted hours. Strangely, Taeyong was silent the entire time. His other members kept glancing at each other wondering what was running through his mind. When practice was finally called, Johnny and Doyoung ran to their bag packing their things in a hurry. They got to the door but before they could leave Taeyong voice rang out

“Where are you two going?”

Before Johnny could stop him, Doyoung whipped around to face his leader. Fury written in his gaze, “To find her. And when we do, we are all gonna sit down as a group and settle this. Because this can’t happen anymore and I’m not gonna lose her.”

“So you’re finally choosing her over me. Over us? Someone you’ve barely known for a couple months. Doyoung she’s not your family. We are!” Taeyong shouted. Several bodies flinched at the sound.

“AND SHE COULD BE TOO!” Johnny had enough. His angry voice was like thunder and it made even their leader too stunned to speak up. “Taeyong have you ever given her a chance to be a part of this family? Let me answer for you, you haven’t.” Everyone could tell Johnny was trying to reign himself in. Trying not to yell even though they all felt like they deserved it. “Taeyong-ah I don’t know what's going on in that head of yours. Hell, none of us do because you close us off all the time. But that girl doesn’t deserve this ire from you. She’s good. She’s damn good and you can’t pull your head out of your ass to see it.”

“Hyung,” Doyoung broke the silence in the air, “Johnny hyung and I have had to talk Moxy out of quitting four different times now. And after what just happened, I don’t know if we can make her stay. So right now me and Johnny hyung are gonna do our best to bring her back.” Doyoung shifted his gaze to the rest of their members. All of them in different states of shame. “You all are welcome to come along. Maybe seeing more than just us will be enough to convince her.” Doyoung watched as the boys he either grew up with or watched grow up all stand still, not knowing which way to go. Do they fight to keep Moxy or do they follow their leader who stood in the middle of the floor holding back tears. Doyoung sucked his teeth, turning his back on his members and gesturing for Johnny to follow.

Just as they made it down the hall, the door to their practice room opened.

“Hyung! Wait up!” Haechan and Mark ran to catch up. “I’m coming. I don’t want to lose noona.”

“If Haechan’s going then so am I” Mark added. The two older boys looked proud at the younger members' decision

“So are we.” Jaehyun spoke for himself, Yuta and Winwin.

“Is he-” Doyoung started to ask but Yuta shaking his head was enough of an answer for him. Johnny corralled the boys to the elevator that just opened. They all piled in and made it downstairs to the waiting car. Johnny gave their manager the directions to where he assumes Moxy is. Just Winwin was reaching to close the door, relief overtakes his face as one last voice shouts

“WAIT!” Both Taeil and Taeyong were running to catch up. Once they arrived, Taeil patted Taeyong on the back before getting in the car. Taeyong was left standing in front of Johnny looking anywhere but at his eyes.

“You know you and Moxy are a lot alike.” Taeyong’s eyes finally met his, “You both are extremely strong but hide your soft side behind walls. You both don’t know how to let the other in. But you learned to trust us with who you really are. I’ve seen who Moxy really is and you can trust her too.” Taeyong watched as Johnny got in the front seat. Silently he climbed into the back where Taeil and Doyoung left a seat between them. As the car took off, Taeyong tried to apologize to Doyoung but wordlessly, he grabbed his hand with a smile that said It’s okay. You’re here now. That’s all that matters.

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When the car arrived, all the boys piled out to see a gymnastics gym in front of them. Taeyong watched as Doyoung approached a girl standing by the door. The two greeting each other like old friends. The mysterious girl waved them all inside, leading them past the main gym and into the stands.

“I’m so glad you're here oppa. Migyeong’s been here for hours. Only stopping to eat. I tried to convince her to call it a day about two hours ago but you know how she is. I know your dance practices can be long and after this, she’ll need time to rest.” The girl stopped right outside the opening to a section of the stands that overlooked the whole gym. Music was blaring loud enough to drown out any sound.

“Thanks Jiho. We’ll make sure she rests. Are you heading home?” Johnny asked Jiho. Doyoung led the pack in but Taeyong stayed by Johnny.

“Yeah I got loads of homework. Being a gymnast and a college student was never gonna be easy was it? Tell Thea I went home first. Bye oppa.” Jiho hugged Johnny then bowed to Taeyong before running off. Johnny steered Taeyong inside.

“Who was that? And whose’s Thea?” Taeyong asked as they walked in. Out on the padded floor was Moxy, hunched over trying to catch her breath.

“That was Jiho. According to Moxy, she used to live in Chicago and they both trained at the same gymnastics gym together. Jiho’s on the track to compete in the Olympics so the only time they see each other is here. And Thea is Moxy’s English name.” Johnny smiled at Taeyong trying to pronounce ‘Thea’ properly. They both took the end seats on the beach and watched as Moxy ran halfway across the mat throwing herself into a dangerous thread of mid-air splits, rolls and flips. While Johnny and Doyoung were used to seeing their friend do these kinds of moves, none of the other members were. They all were flinching and shrieking, scared for their female members' health.

Taeyong gripped Johnny's hand while he watched Moxy complete another rotation at the last minute, seconds away from crashing onto the floor, “What is she doing?!?! Isn’t this dangerous?” Taeyong’s eyes were wide with terror. Which only added to the amusement in Johnny's eyes.

“For her? Not really. She’s trained to do this. Before she started idol training, Migyeong was a cheerleader. Her favorite part was the tumbling.”

“Whats a cheerleader.” They heard Haechan ask but Mark took over answering the maknae’s question.

The nine members watched as she bounced around the mat. Sometimes it felt like if they blinked, she’d be in another place that quick. Moxy continued the routine ending in the middle of the mat, jumping in the air and landing on her back in what looked like a rough landing. Some of the members feel out of their seats never seeing someone do a move like that. Johnny had to explain what she did was a death drop and that Moxy was perfectly fine. That didn’t stop the worry.

With a deep breath Moxy sat up. Her back facing the group. She just sat in the middle of the floor for a while before getting up. She was about to set off the mat when the beginning notes of Chain started playing. She froze at the sound. They all could see the look on her face. Everyone was reminded of Moxy’s mistakes during practice. Taeyong could hear Johnny whispering “You got this. You’ve done it before. You can do it again.” encouraging Moxy to go for it.

And she did.

What Taeyong witnessed couldn’t be the same girl from practice hours ago. This girl was nailing every move with precision and a groove that couldn’t be compared to anyone. Taeyong could picture how Moxy would fit in their other choreographies 127. Seeing her dance reminded Taeyong of how he felt the first time he nailed a dance routine after years of hearing he’d never make it. When the music stopped, Moxy stood in her ending pose for a moment just catching her breath. Just as the members were gonna stand to clap for her. Moxy crumbled to the mat. Her sobs broken by gasps of breath.

Taeyong was out of his seat before anyone could stop him.

Moxy curled into a ball as small as she could go. She couldn’t stop the tears from coming.

Why can’t I do it when they’re watching? When I’m supposed to execute this dance. I can’t mess up again. They’ll kick me out before I can leave on my own word. The thoughts became too much. She’d held them back for so long and in this moment she just wanted someone to come and help.

Moxy didn’t even register being held in someone's arms until she looked up and met Taeyong’s concerned filled eyes. She tried to move back but he just held her tighter. The longer she sat there more tears came to the surface. How long had he been here? Were the others with him? What did they think? They must think I’m a baby. Sitting here crying like this when they’ve all done this longer than me. They probably been through worse.

Taeyong’s hand ran up and down her arm in a steady pattern. He still didn’t let go. “You did so well, Moxy” Shock ran through her spine. Moxy leaned back and saw nothing but the truth in his eyes. The walls crumbled one last time as more tears bubbled to the surface. Taeyong just kept rocking her back and forth until she calmed down.

“Sometimes….I’m afraid to fail.” She said, the sound muffled by her face buried in Taeyong’s chest. “If the fans catch a mistake, they’ll latch onto it then Lee Sooman will realize he made a mistake choosing me and I’ll have to start over. I-I can’t do that. I never—” Moxy held back the tears. “Before they told me about 127, I prayed every night to not be in a girl group. I saw what Red Velvet was doing. I couldn't picture myself there. I didn’t see myself in just another girl group competing with all the other pretty girls that have to act like they can’t dance to fit some decade old stereotype. This….This is everything I wanted.” Taeyong watched more tears spill for bloodshot eyes. “I can’t lose this. I can’t lose NCT. I can’t lose 127! I can’t oppa!” Moxy's head landed in her hands, her desperate sobs breaking the hearts of her fellow members.

Finally, he saw the same desperation that tied them all together. A drive to not lose the family they created. A desire to do this with this team forever. Taeyong pulled her back into his chest. Letting the teardrops land on his already wet shirt. One by one, the duo’s members surrounded them on the padded floor.

“I’m sorry…….I’ve always wanted Doyoung and Johnny in this group. When we debuted without them, I was devastated but we kept going.” Taeyong sat back running his thumb under Moxy’s eye gently. Wiping away the tear tracks. “Then Limitless comes around, they tell us we're getting new members. Doyoung and Johnny walked thru the door. Then you did. It felt like SM didn’t trust us to rise on our own. Like……..we needed a gimmick to push us over the edge.” Taeyong paused warding off his own onslaught of tears

“Being completely transparent, Moxy, you’re everything I wish I was when I became a trainee. You are incredibly talented and your talents supersede you.” Moxy could stop her mouth from dropping open. Taeyong wished he was her. When he was the trainee everyone wanted to be.

“Yeah we all heard about the new female trainee that was giving us old SM rookies a run for their money.” Yuta interrupted with a smirk. The comment brought laughs from all the members.

“You were right back in the practice room. I am intimidated by you. And I let my own pride stop me from saying…….I’d rather see you here, with us than anybody else.” Taeyong laced their hands together.

“In better words, You're stuck with us now. We're gonna bleed your talent dry, kid.” Johnny said, adding more humor to the heartfelt moment.

“I’d like to see you try.” Moxy quipped back, the clouds fading away for the sun to come thru. Shining a new light on the 10 member group. They all sat in silence for a moment each one wondering how they went forward from here. Until Haechan broke the ice.

“Noona what were you doing in here before Chain came on?” Moxy sat up. All the members wanted an answer as well.

“Oh that was tumbling. It's a part of gymnastics but what I was doing is more like an improv cheer performance. It helps me relieve stress.” Around the circle the boys asked if she could do more. Moxy agreed though the blush on her cheek showed she wasn’t used to the attention.

Watching his member crowd around Migyeong as she showed off a basic flip for them, Taeyong felt the weight lift off his shoulders.

We’ll be okay. He thought. For once, he believed it.

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midoriyaas · 2 years

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WAIT WAIT I THOUGHT OF ANOTHER THING FOR THE IDOL! Y/N AU

NOW IMAGING BIG STRONG PROHERO DEKU BEING YOUR BIGGEST FANBOY

like in this one you don’t know eachother at all but you do know that you went to ua together

just him having a really popular stan account for you but no one knows it’s their number one hero behind the screen 🥹

shows up to as many of your fan events in a disguise bc he’s yknow, deku!! worlds greatest hero and all that jazz!!

will try so hard to learn your group’s choreos but he needs to clean up the moves a lot 🥹

when you release your first solo album you bet he’s buying every version available

one day his manager calls him to tell him about a photoshoot for his new merchandise with people from the sponsor company but they don’t disclose with who….

to his surprise it’s you!! his favorite idol!!

he has to hold back from fanboying too hard in front of you, but he can’t hide his blush when you mention that he’s your favorite hero 🫶🏽

you two get to talk to eachother during a short break in the photoshoot while they set up the next shots, and you realize you have a ton in common

he also comes clean about being your number one fanboy which causes you to go slack jawed because “DEKU?!? THE WORLDS GREATEST HERO?!? LIKES ME?!?”

face fully flushed and feeling like you’re on cloud nine, you get changed into the next outfit for the last part of the shoot and it goes smoothly!

you exchange numbers at the end of the shoot and start talking after that

that’s when the dating scandals start up, paparazzi catch the two of you at hero museums, and hold i hands at theme parks, they also catch izuku coming out of your agency’s building a few times

you post very vaguely about someone new in your life and the netizens go wild putting two and two together

-you were seen wearing one of deku’s famous “t-shirt” shirts during rehearsals….

-you’re taking pictures in an apartment that looks eerily similar to deku’s……

-and when the pictures from the photoshoot are released people begin theorizing even more, especially since both of you have a two page spread together,,,, and you look like such a power couple

-people also catch deku staring longingly at your advertisements during his patrols

so they catch on really quickly lol, y’all aren’t slick at all 🙄

when y’all do end up announcing your relationship there’s mixed reaction from both of your fanbases, on one hand your true fans wish nothing but the best for your new relationship, on the other hand there’s people calling you a gold digger and saying that you’re just gonna distract their number one….

everyone shuts up real quick when you post a video of the two of you dancing together under a starry night sky, you can vaguely hear laughter and people can notice that he’s nervous to step on your feet, although people cant see your faces fully due to the dark lighting of the video, they can just tell how perfect you are for eachother.

POWER COUPLE!!!!

YALL ARE HELLA INFLUENTIAL

anything you guys do or anything you promote sells out in seconds….powercouple i tell you

icons in love

okay i have no more ideas the brain worms are gone, but i need izuku to say i’m his fav performer of all time please i’m begging g u universeee 😭

#izuku my love <3 #deku x idol!reader #izuku midoriya x reader fluff #pro hero izuku #izuku midoriya x idol reader

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okskz · 1 year

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Friends or More?

mia + changbin

mia and changbin are uncertain of what they are.

hi friends, missed you all. and ofc I’ve missed writing. I hope you guys enjoy this post! I’ll try my best to be more consistent again, it’s just work has gotten to me fr.

[9th member of stray kids]

“changbin, you’re doing it wrong.” mia groaned. “again.” the girl had became a little frustrated with changbin as she was in the middle of teaching him a new choreo. but, he just didn’t seem to be getting it right. even after going over it for almost two hours.

“yah!” changbin yelled. “again? what am I doing wrong?!”

“everything!” mia yelled back. “you’re too stiff, you keep missing the steps and you look like you’re distracted.” the girl crossed her arms, letting out a loud sigh.

“well, your face is just too distracting.” changbin said. “you’re just so beautiful, my mia.”

“seo changbin.” mia grunted as changbin let out a loud laugh. “see that’s your problem! you don’t take anything serious!”

changbin went closer to mia, wrapping an arm around her. the girl was frowning at him, “let’s not frown, it’ll mess up your pretty face.” changbin went in to give mia a kiss but she ended up turning her head so his kiss was on the side of her head.

the boy chuckled, smirking against mia’s head. “oh, mia. don’t act different around me now.” changbin kissed mia’s neck which caused her lips to curl up. “mhm.” changbin said, satisfied. “I hate you, seo changbin.”

“no, you don’t.” changbin tilted mia’s head from under her chin, finally kissing her and the girl letting him. mia didn’t turn away, letting changbin kiss her and her kissing him back.

the two stayed in that position for awhile. mia’s heart racing each second. it wasn’t the first time they had done this, it being one of the many times they have had small make out sessions when being alone. it was beginning to become more common now, at first only doing it once in a full moon.

but now, the two had found themselves always being with each other again. sharing kisses and affection towards each other more than ever. the only thing wrong, they weren’t a couple. mia and changbin never spoke on the topic of what they were doing. mia knew it was a risky game they were playing.

and with it going this far now, she wanted to know where the two stood and what exactly were changbin’s thoughts.

did she see herself being with changbin? it was possible. but only if it was a mutual feeling. the last thing mia wants is to be hurt again.

the two were too caught up in the moment, almost getting caught by none other than chan as he barged in the dance room. mia jumped away from changbin, the both of them wiping their lips.

and that was another thing. they were keeping it a secret once again.

it wasn’t that they didn’t want the members to know, it was more at the fact that they weren’t officially back together.

“there you two are!” chan exclaimed, coming up to the two. “was beginning to get worried, no one was answering their phone.”

mia and changbin chuckled, “lo siento.” changbin said proudly, looking at mia which the girl gave him a thumbs up. “muy bueno, bin.”

chan chuckled, “so what are you two up to?” he questioned.

“uh.” mia stuttered. “you know, teaching bin the new choreography.” which was in fact true, at least partially true. changbin stayed quiet, staring at chan to see if he bought it. mia was always good and making people believe her, so he knew chan wouldn’t see right through her. “very well then.” chan said. “I wanna learn it too.”

“see we could do that, but I actually remembered, mia and I have a studio session.”

“i do?”

“you do.” changbin gave her a look. “oh yeah! now i remember, silly me.” mia laughed.

“I’ll come with then!” chan exclaimed.

“no!” changbin said back. “I mean, no, it’s okay. I got it from here, leader.” changbin grabbed mia’s hand and began to drag her away, leaving chan alone in the dance room. “hm.” chan shook his head before heading back to the dorms.

“I got it from here leader.” mia mimicked as she went inside the studio giggling, changbin following behind. “I can’t believe he actually believed you-“

mia was cut off by changbin as he went in to kiss her, wrapping his arms around her. the girl cupped his face, kissing him back. they sat on the couch, mia on top of changbin as they continued to kiss.

but as they were doing so, mia kept thinking about asking changbin a specific question. and as much as she tried to push it down, the question wasn’t leaving her mind until it was answered.

“bin.” mia whispered when breaking apart from changbin. “hm?” he answered, looking at mia. his face turned into concern when seeing her face expression. “something wrong?”

“it’s just,” she began. “we’ve been doing this for awhile and, I don’t know. I’m just uncertain as to where we stand?”

“ah.” changbin nodded. “if I’m being honest I’ve been thinking the same as you.” he said. “do you see us trying this again?”

“I don’t know.” mia looked down. “it just feels like we can’t just be friends, you know? I mean look at us right now.” the girl laughed, causing changbin to laugh as well. “you’re right about that.”

the two sighed. mia got off of changbin’s lap, sitting closely next to him as he wrapped an arm around her shoulders, bringing her in. “you’re very special to me.” changbin said after a minute of silence. mia stayed silent, grinning. she scooted closer to changbin. “well, whatever this ends up being. let’s not get hurt okay?” mia said, looking up at the boy.

“sure thing, my mia.”

the two stayed close together for awhile. although her question wasn’t really answered, she was okay with it. her problem now, was when she began to think about hongjoong.

#stray kids au #kpop female oc #bang chan au #female oc #female kpop oc #stray kids imagines #stray kids 9th member #stray kids 9th member au #stray kids oc #stray kids female oc #stray kids female member #stray kids female addition #stray kids scenarios #seo changbin au #changbin au

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agustdef · 6 months

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Right Now

Pairing: Kim Yugyeom x Black!Reader

Genre: Angst, Light Fluff, Idol AU/Idolverse

Word Count: 1.4k

Warning: One cuss word; Language; Mentions of lack of eating, but due to workaholic behavior.

Rating: PG-13

Author's Note: I wrote this forever ago and never posted it, which makes no sense.

One thing that fans and choreographers had in common was that tour season was a whirlwind experience that came at you fast and had you begging it to slow down. Though to be honest Hana didn’t really beg for it to slow down, she went wherever it took her and that meant more work than all of the “off season” combined. Something she didn’t mind and to a degree could admit to loving.

And that is where the problem arose.

Yugyeom had his own tour dates to prepare for. Events that were some of his first since GOT7 left JYPE. They made him more anxious than when he had his members to rely on, so he put in more work than usual. But none of it was overworking himself or not taking the time to breathe.

With his new career within the R&B world he’d promised himself he’d take a little more control and do what worked best for him and the life he wanted to lead, even outside of music. It was a must, and it was hard because he was used to the go, go, go lifestyle of idol life, but he wanted to take his time. He had all the time in the world for the fast paced, always moving shit when GOT7 got deep into preparations for their July comeback - something he looked forward to.

But while he waited and geared up for his solo activities, he tried to impart some of that wisdom onto Hana. That meant talking to her about it and getting her to take breaks no matter how small and no matter what hops he had to jump through to get her to give in.

Of course, she had obligations so she couldn’t just ditch jobs. It would make people second guess hiring her or get her blacklisted from working with companies if she changed up on them at the last minute. But the problem wasn’t how many choreographing and teaching roles she took on, or at least not the one Yugyeom felt he could validly argue against. No, the issue was that she was also helping out other friends. She would workshop choreo, act as a member for demos, help them get into different companies to showcase they were the right fit for their artists, and even teaching classes with them when they asked at the last minute.

It left her with so little time to do anything else. Yugyeom feared if she was eating like she should have or getting enough rest in her own bed, because she hadn’t entered his in weeks.

The worry he felt was low at the start of the season, but peaked once some artists began to make their way out a bit earlier than the rest. There were so many last-minute details and intensive work to put in. He barely got a text out of her or anyone he could usually reach out to get ahold of her.

Even popping up wherever she told him yielded low results with him hoping the intimidating nature of being some of her clients' elder age and industry time wise would be enough to ensure they got her to eat or drink something when he dropped it off.

After a while it went from pure worry to agitation. Something that made him lie in bed at night staring at the ceiling as he thought about it until he picked up his phone.

Yugyeom: You at home?

Minutes ticked by with him staring at the screen awaiting an answer, to the point that he found himself a little pissed off and ready to call her, but before he could his phone buzzed a few times.

Hana: No, in the studio

Hana: I had to finalize that killing part for P1Harmony’s new comeback

Hana: I thought I told you???

Yugyeom’s anger didn’t subside despite her answering him, in fact her words seemed to just maintain how upset he was.

Yugyeom: You said it didn’t need to be done for two weeks. Did they push it up?

Hana: No

Yugyeom: So, you’re finishing it at 2AM 2 weeks early because….?

Hana: Because I want it done

Hana: Not rocket science. I got the time so might as well

There were many times in life that Yugyeom wanted to cuss someone out or simply scream and that was indeed one of them. It was like she didn’t know how she sounded, but he knew better than that. Hana knew exactly what she was doing and what he was calling her out on, but she wouldn’t cop to it. No, she preferred to do the thing where she played dumb until he said it outright and even then, she would deny, deny, deny.

It took several deep breaths to get him to calm down and respond to her.

Yugyeom: Come here and I’ll help you

Hana: I’m not falling for your tricks to see me. I’ll see you in a few days

Yugyeom: For work

Hana: And dinner after

He was going to push the issue, but just as began to type another message came through.

Hana: Gotta go. Ireh is back and we’re starting up. Go to sleep. Love you!

Naturally, he knew that she wouldn’t respond to him after that, so Yugyeom threw his phone across the bed. Or he tried to, but the slight force behind it made it bounce and hit the floor instead. He winced hearing it but made zero move to pick it up. All his focus was on Hana. The woman who drove him up the wall but who he loved endlessly.

The thing was he got it. There was no one more understanding than Yugyeom because he lived the life of someone whose work needed a lot of his energy and time spent with people like Monster Woo and other dancers showed him how much went into what they did. How much it could strain things. But all he saw was Hana running herself into the ground for no reason.

Of course, he had to admit part of it was for selfish reasons on his part. He wanted more time with her, even if it was a quick meal and falling asleep together. Spending quality time is something he loved to do with her, and he’d missed out on for months. However, the much larger reason was because he knew her and knew she was in her own head. Knew that a lot of the pressure to work, work, work stemmed from her need to keep herself relevant and employed in an industry that could truly break a foreigner, especially a Black one. She’d made a name for herself long ago and had the backing in the US, but working mostly in K-Pop was something new and she hated to fail at such a challenge.

That was the thing that kept him from losing his shit with her, but it was also the straw to break the camel's back. There was nothing left in him that said he should continue to let it slide, to not push harder for her to take a step or two back. Lines like telling her friends and colleagues to not reach out were ones he wouldn’t cross, but as he drifted off that night, he’d decided that he would put his foot down.

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Days went by with Yugyeom not reaching out to Hana after their last text conversation. She wasn’t surprised that he’d stopped talking; he had two comebacks and tour dates to prepare for. Not that that was the reason he’d cut off communication attempts. Hana was smart enough to know he was worried and probably pissed with her. Something she hated but knew she couldn’t control since she had things to get done and not a lot of time to do them.

Tour season meant a lot of work and she was no stranger to pouring a lot of herself into it, so she rolled with the punches without much complaint. Which didn’t make him happy with her, but she knew it was something she could manage. Something she could explain to him to get him to understand.

Talking to him was in that plan once she arrived at the dance studio that he was preparing for his tour in. She was a choreographer for some songs and might go with him. Though with all the opportunities that rolled her way it looked unlikely that she would.

Another thing he would be upset with her about.

Upon her arrival she assaulted with the smell of food. As she walked further into the building those smells intensified and she basically drowned in them as she entered the break room area that the studio housed.

Everyone sat or leaned against something eating and paying her no mind. It was confusing because she thought they’d agreed to have lunch before coming in, but things had seemingly changed. All without her being in the know, something that she could have brushed off as an over thought if not for the momentary eye contact, she made with Yugyeom as he got up to grab a drink. His expression was blank as he looked at her and before she could blink, he turned around and went back to his seat without a word.

It was clear he was icing her out, which made her upset and a little angry. Not that she had time to process or call him on it, because the moment he sat down people noticed her presence and Ireh popped up and ushered her to the table she was sat at.

“We’re going to start a little later, so get comfortable. I’ll grab you something,” Ireh said.

Hana opened her mouth to tell her she was fine, but then her stomach growled, and she became all too aware of her hunger. She’d had a late night and got to sleep even later. So, in order to get the bare minimum of enough rest she’d slept in longer than she would have preferred and grabbed a pastry from the convenience store on the way. She’d planned to eat another snack before they started because she needed to and because eating a lot before dancing wasn’t something that she loved. But if she was hungry enough for her stomach to make sounds, she knew that she needed to eat something more. Plus, she had more time than she thought.

Another thing that wasn’t shared with her.

That made her irritation spike, so as she shrugged off her hoodie and dropped her bag Hana found her gaze drifting to Yugyeom. He was carefully spooning rice into his mouth as he messed around on his phone, only looking up when someone spoke to him and making sure to never even turn his head in her direction.

His behavior wasn’t something Hana never experienced before, she’d endured the silent treatment a few times before and it sucked every time. However, when it was about something that was work related and part of her livelihood it pissed her off. Even if there was a whisper in her head voicing the reminder that she could slow down some and not push herself so hard. That she had enough jobs for the season and could chill the hell out. The voice was right, but she wasn’t one to acknowledge that when she knew she could keep pushing and be fine.

So, being upset with him would withstand. At least that was what she tried to convey by glaring at a man who refused to give her the time of day.

Before she could do anything drastic, like walk over to his table, Ireh returned with two containers and a bottle of water. Hana took them carefully and was surprised to find kimchi-jjigae inside one. It was the typical food delivered for a work lunch, but it was a favorite of hers and something she craved whenever she worked a lot.

Something Ireh knew.

Once Ireh took a seat and began eating again Hana opened her mouth to thank her, but the woman shook her head.

“I barely even knew we were getting lunch today. You know who picked it out.”

“But he…”

“Hana, you know better,” Ireh said, but in Korean that time.

Though she often spoke both when talking to Hana there was something about the way she switched to it in order to scold that made Hana shrink into herself a little. It wasn’t that her feelings were hurt, but she did know better. Plus, Ireh was the oldest of four children, so she had the older sister act down pact, even if she only had less than a year over Hana in age.

Hana sighed. “I know.”

“If you know, then act like it.”

From there they ate in silence. The food was delicious, so Hana had zero problem finishing it and even after she was done the usual fullness never came. Which made her curse herself for clearly not eating enough especially because it wasn’t her intention, she just got easily wrapped up in things and forgot.

Once everyone finished, they cleaned up, and there were several minutes of sitting before everyone moved into the practice room. Hana brought up the rear and went to close the door behind them but was cut off by Yugyeom slipping into the room. He handed her a sports drink and continued to walk past her.

Or tried to but was stopped when Hana grabbed hold of his wrist.

“Yugyeom,” she whispered.

At first, she thought he would pull away, but after a few seconds he turned to her with an expression much gentler than the one he’d greeted her with.

“Yeah?”

“You don’t have to…”

“I don’t have to do a lot of things, baby. But I do them because I want to and because sometimes people neglect to get them done.”

Not another word was said as he walked away, mostly because Hana couldn’t find any to say. There was the care behind his actions in those words, but she couldn’t miss the dig at the end. She knew it wasn’t meant to be all that hurtful, but she also knew he was being a little mean on purpose. Something that he wasn’t often, and she was unsure if she was angry, hurt, or simply upset that they’d reached that point.

In order to not have to figure that out she took a breath and stood off to the side while the head choreographer and tour manager spoke to them. When all information was disseminated they got to work going over the choreo with those who’d created it. Though the songs she’d worked on were early in the set list she went last and the entire time she refused to meet Yugyeom’s eyes.

Despite the tension they worked through the moves easily and corrected anything that seemed off. It was hyper professional between them and to a degree that made her feel worse, but the alternative of letting feelings leak through wasn’t any better.

After an hour and a half of going through everything they took a small break and Yugyeom tossed her a protein bar before taking a seat on the floor to catch his breath. The urge to say something flared, but Hana just took a seat and ate the bar without question.

Twenty minutes later they were back into the groove of things, but instead of checking for issues they decided to tackle the set list as it was. Most of the people he’d worked with weren’t coming with him, so it was the dancers with him while everyone else watched carefully.

Part of Hana wanted to sit it out because she may not have been going, but also because she was in a petty mood. The more time she and Yugyeom spent with negative emotions looming over them the more annoyed she got, and it was hard to push it down or reason with herself. But instead of taking that step back she got into position.

Keeping her mind from wandering wasn’t hard when she was dancing. It was her passion, so Hana always found joy in doing it. Especially because she’d been so happy when Yugyeom asked her to work on some of the choreo for him. She’d done so on some of GOT7’s music but working closely with the man she loved when he held the same passion as her put her over the moon. A feeling that found its way into her as she danced alongside him.

Their run through went off without a hitch and they were able to do it with very few breaks. Once it was finished, they all took a moment to catch their breath and then any issues were pointed out before they did it again. The second time around included moments where he would stop to talk or to head backstage for a bit, so it was less taxing and also showed there was a better flow of things.

Usually that would have been the end of it, but it was decided on one more run through. Yugyeom had been singing the other two times so to preserve his voice they just let the track play and he lip synced the lyrics. During that practice he found his flow in a way that wasn’t present before and interacted with the dancers more. Hana effortlessly played off that and more often than before they ended up close together dancing in a way that wasn’t so scandalous that they looked like they were five seconds from fucking, but enough to fit the vibe and the sexiness of some of the songs.

With the last song, Hana found they stared into each other’s eyes more than they had most of the day and so it took a moment to snap out of it and walk away once the music stopped. They managed to do so and keep to themselves as they listened to the tour manager again. Everyone was happy with the practice so it ended and though Hana knew most of them liked to leave quickly the speed in which everyone got out of there was next level.

In about two minutes only she and Yugyeom were left, and he was at the door with his hand held out to her. Again, the urge to be petty arose in her, but she’d gone a long time without any physical touch from him that wasn’t dance related and she craved it. So, after she grabbed her bag, she walked forward and laced her fingers in his.

Neither spoke as he led them out of the studio and to the car that he’d hired to drive them around. As they sat in silence, they continued to hold hands and didn’t stop until Yugyeom motioned her into the restaurant they’d planned to go to for dinner. The host led them to a private room and to Hana’s surprise JayB and Youngjae were already there. Both men were often late to dinners.

“Did you even shower?” Youngjae asked as he got up to hug them.

Hana rolled her eyes. “No time.”

“At least she’s not as stinky as him,” Jaebeom said as they switched, and he hugged her.

“Hyung,” Yugyeom whined.

That got a laugh out of everyone and that meant a pouting Yugyeom as they took their seats. A server appeared the moment their butts touched down and they ordered and awaited the drinks.

“So how did it go?” Jaebeom asked.

“It went well. Most of it was already ready, so from here on out it’s just correcting any problems and making sure that we’re one hundred percent happy with how the set list flows,” Yugyeom said.

“That’s good. I know it can be nerve wrecking to do the first solo show, plus it’s in person. Making sure it’s just right means you’ll do great,” Jaebeom said.

“I hope so.”

“Ah, our baby is nervous,” Youngjae teased.

More pouting ensued as they all laughed and Jaebeom reached over to pinch his cheek, earning a light slap to the hand which only made them laugh harder.

It took a few minutes before they settled and their drinks arrived in that time. In the restaurant they went to drinks were fast, but food was slow because they prided themselves in being made to order so most of the food was unprepped.

“Speaking of preparing, how is all the tour stuff going with the different artists, Hana?” Youngjae asked.

Something about the question excited her, but also felt heavy. As if she was beyond tired.

“Good. I thank the heavens that most have been doing online concerts and don’t have a lot of new music coming before tour. It makes it so that we’re mostly just going over things and learning a handful of new choreo. Most pick it up fast, but some of the rookies are so new to it that their nerves are making it harder for them to keep up. But I enjoy being able to help them through it.”

Jaebeom nodded. “I don’t know how you do it. Dance has been in my life a long time and b-boying could take a lot out of you, so I can’t imagine doing it as much as you do. Hell, as much as either of you do. And Gyeomie finds time to do it for fun.”

Hana glanced at Yugyeom, who’d gotten quiet, before saying anything.

“Yeah, it can be a lot, but you get used to it.”

“I just hope you’re taking care of yourself.”

Before Jaebeom finished his sentence Yugyeom scoffed, but Hana ignored it.

“I’m doing my best,” she said.

Another noise was heard but it was softer than the last in a way that Hana almost missed it. What she didn’t miss was the way that Yugyeom rolled his eyes.

If it was anyone else besides his members in that room she would have been embarrassed, but they knew how he could get and saw both of them at their worst. There was nothing they would judge them for or at least all judgment would come from a place of friendship and not rudeness.

Regardless of that it annoyed her, and she wanted to ask him about it, but instead took a deep breath and a sip of her drink.

Seconds ticked by in silence before Youngjae broke the tension or tried to break it, because it didn’t let up even a little.

“So, you ready to go on tour with him? I know you haven’t done one in a few years, and you said you miss it.”

Anger gave way to discomfort then, and Hana paused for way too long.

“Uh… yeah. Some things have come up and so I might not get the chance to do it. But I am looking forward to it.”

“You might not go?” Yugyeom asked, shock and anger coloring his words.

“Yeah, I was going to tell you…”

“When?”

“After dinner. I thought we could talk then.”

Yugyeom’s face was stoic, and it was clear he fought to keep it and not allow anything else to color his expression as he looked at her. For several seconds all he did was stare, before he turned his head to look across the table.

“Hyungs,” he said, voice shaky.

Neither of them said anything, just nodded and got up. As they exited Hana heard Jaebeom mention sitting at the bar to give them a moment to themselves, but she was more focused on Yugyeom who’d risen from his seat and began to pace the room.

“Yugyeom,” she said softly.

Hearing his name didn’t stop his pacing or even get him to look in her direction.

“Yugyeom.”

Again nothing.

“Kim Yugyeom.”

That time there was a bit of anger in her voice, and she didn’t know if that did the trick or the use of his full name, but he finally stopped pacing and turned to her. She watched as he visibly took a deep breath and then leaned against the wall behind him.

“Do you know how worried I’ve been?” he asked.

Hana sighed. “I kn…”

“That was rhetorical. You know how worried I’ve been. You’ve had me checking in on you over the phone. Bringing you food and getting you to take moments to rest. You’ve seen my hold back because I know how you work, and I know it can be intense. I know that you do things a certain way and while it may seem like too much to be doing to me that you view it a different way. I know this industry is iffy and you committing to working mostly for this country’s industry is a lot because of the extra bs that comes with you not being Korean. I let shit slide because of those things. I put aside my worries because of those things, because I’m trying to be understanding. But there are limits.

“You push and push until you push me away. You’ve barely spoken to me for more than an hour in total over the last month. I have to work harder than one should to get proof you’re okay. To make sure that you’re eating and drinking. To ensure that you’re getting the rest that you need. And you don’t give a fuck.”

Throughout his speech Hana felt guilt creep in, but something about that last sentence shoved it down.

“I don’t care? How are you going to sit here and tell me that I don’t care? As if I haven’t been doing my best to keep in contact and as if I don’t always thank you for the things you do to take care of me. I’ve been busy, Yugyeom. You know how much comes up during these months and how much busier I get as tour dates get closer.”

“Fuck that busy shit!” he shouted.

That brought them to a standstill. Not because Hana felt threatened or anything, they cussed all the time so it slipping into an angry conversation didn’t faze her. But the way he raised his voice surprised her a little. It wasn’t scary, but it wasn’t like him to yell even though it had been softer than most people’s.

“Baby…” she trailed off.

Yugyeom’s face shifted from anger to a deep set frown and gentle eyes that told her he was tired and worried. Much more than he was letting on.

“I just… I want to take care of you, and I want you to take care of yourself. I get that you work hard, but you can work hard and also relax. Take moments to breathe. Have some sort of fun. You get into this work mode where it’s like you can’t seem to do anything else, even when there isn’t much else to do. And I get it, baby I do, but there has to be a line.

“And I’m selfish. Outside of you being healthy I miss you. I’ve barely seen you for a month and it’s not like we haven’t crossed paths. I miss being able to spend time with you. Making up dances in the studio just because it’s fun, taking small trips for a day or two, you yelling at me because you hate the way that I cook, and just falling asleep by your side. I haven’t held you in forever.”

As he spoke Hana rose from her seat and moved over to Yugyeom, wrapping her arms around his waist before she pulled him close. She knew she’d not been thinking about herself much and just going with the fact that she felt fine as an indicator on if she needed a break. It worked for her, but it was a dangerous way to live and despite how much she hated to realize it, lack of eating alone was enough for her to know she wasn’t as well as she thought.

That coupled with the neglect of her relationship was a reality check of epic proportions. She’d expected Yugyeom to just go with her schedule without throwing him a bone in terms of even a little affection. Plus, there was the depriving of her own touch and time needs. All of it showed her that she’d been a mess masquerading as someone with their shit together for weeks.

“I know and I’m sorry. I got wrapped up in it all and forgot myself. But even so, I shouldn’t have forgotten your needs. Forgotten that I would have to put in the effort to fix things when I finally came down to reality and not just expected you to be understanding or that I could explain it away. You deserve better than that and I’m sorry I was giving you less than.”

Yugyeom wrapped his arms around her and pulled her tight against him. His body relaxed and so did hers. Not everything was solved, and it was something they would need time to get over, but Hana knew it was the start of a good thing and that she would do better.

After a few moments Yugyeom moved away a bit and leaned down to press a kiss to her lips. It was gentle and came with a spark that made it feel like the first time. A testament to how long she’d been in self-imposed exile of his touch.

As he pulled away from her, she made the mental note to overhaul her planner to work better for herself and her relationship.

“I love you,” he said.

“I love you more.”

Yet another pout took form and as his lips parted to argue the boys reentered the room with the server right behind them.

“Sorry,” Youngjae said.

Hana waved them off. “You’re fine. We’re good.”

“Really?” Jaebeom asked.

“Yes.”

A squeeze of the hand was all she needed to be sure of it.

They enjoyed the meal without the heavy weight of tension in the room and despite how she needed to get across town the next morning Hana went with Yugyeom to his apartment without argument. She said she would do better and that needed to be immediate.

Plus, when she woke up a little later than she’d planned she couldn’t be mad, because being wrapped in his arms was the best night sleep she’d gotten in a while. She planned for it to be a repeat performance for at least a week straight.

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masterpost | instinct variants

since there’s been a rennaissance of mbti in kpop, i’ll introduce you to a related personality typing tool that might interest you. instinct variants!

the three instincts in this system are commonly combined with the mbti to further specify/subtype it (hence it’s called ‘variant’) and, maybe you’ve heard of it, one’s enneagram personality type. but you can also type yourself or others separately, it’s not 100% tied to it. this post will introduce the typology on its own so you can apply it however you want.

:: why “instincts”? because these archetypes indicate the person’s priority in life to secure their well-being, survival, and self-fulfillment. it’s about human instinct, orientation, what compels you.

🍓if you like motivation psychology, this is a great basic way to find out and categorize what drives you/someone. it’s absolutely eye-opening.

so what are the three instincts?

let’s just jump right into it.

we all use ‘em, just by different intensity:

↦ self-preservation (SP), sexual (SX), and social (SO).

that basically covers every area of life. they can be described and associated with the symbolic 6 elements (fire, water, earth, air, metal, wood) like this:

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:: 🍎 SELF-PRESERVATION INSTINCT

SP - being preoccupied with the body, immediate environment, daily life, food intake, state of health, housing/home, room temperature, mundane affairs, weather/climate, close-by nature, money, physicality, pleasure or harm of the senses, decor/interior, your things: ‘stuff’, stability, maintenance, economy, cleanliness, transport, property, errands, constancy, business, boundaries, stress, clothing, travel, any living foundations and resources. # PRIMARY FEAR: mortality, sickness, annihilation, poverty

🌳 ELEMENT: earth/wood/metal - solidity, lasting, groundwork

+ common misconception: “only sensing types = self-preservation!”. intuitives can also tap into SP, especially when they use logic. say, an ENTJ could use the self-pres instinct more than an ISFP in some cases.

🌹 SP EXAMPLE. bts’ min yoongi

yoongi is most known for copious producing. he surrounds himself with work, being a calming presence in person. he’s reserved rather than an energizer bunny or a deliberate center of attention. yoongi handles living area repairs, keeping his body warm, cooking, material/financial security, music equipment, and his sleep to a fault. extremely domestic, grounded, and task-oriented. his personality is very ‘earth’.

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:: 🍎 SEXUAL INSTINCT

SX - seeking stimulation, merging, passionate outlets, immersion, one’s impulses/urge, chemistry, aliveness, excitement, fusion with/taking in whole an abstract subject/person/activity, fiery thrill, desire, steaminess, arousal, turn-ons/offs, craving VS repulsion, one’s impact, showing the underbelly, risk, surrender, obsession-compulsion, bonding, taboo, attraction or disruption, mating strategy, rawness, grit, edge, being a peacock = flaunting yourself. # PRIMARY FEAR: incompleteness, attraction loss, non-desirability

🔥💧ELEMENT: fire/water - instability, energy, back and forth

+ common misconception: “only this instinct is responsible for relationship topics and sex”. SP also entails stable relations in the home, and reproduction. while SO is a major component in forming interpersonal bonds.

🌹 SX EXAMPLE. shinee’s lee taemin

taemin captivates with alluring stage displays focused on seduction, attractiveness, eroticism, dare. he toys with danger, darkness, S&M, and his work explores gender-nonconformity. taemin gets under the viewer’s skin. he’s characterized as a cheeky flirt, fashionable tease, and provocateur with interests and choreos that would make other people flinch. his personality is very ‘fire & water´.

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:: 🍎 SOCIAL INSTINCT

SO - an interest in social surrounding, community, harmonious connection, social protocol, pecking order, looking to others, being a member of sth to derive identity, group safety, bigger causes, competitions, affiliations, broadcasting, self-display, social movements, good/bad people distinction, social graces, upbringing, acceptance, altruism, etiquette, herd mentality, cohesion, family orientation, politics, history/tradition, being ‘seen as ___’, language, articulation, social media, trends. # PRIMARY FEAR: loneliness, alienation, inferiority

💨ELEMENT: air/wind - mobility, communication, fluidity

+ common misconceptions: “people who use SO a lot are extroverts/social butterflies/feelers with a high EQ”. while that is often true, you could be an ISTJ who very much values keeping up community-wise over SP and SX.

🌹 SO EXAMPLE. nct’s mark lee

mark is everywhere you look. he can fit into any subgroup that’s new on the scene. he’s equipped with the latest internet slang and memes - always following the pulse of time and its thousand people projects. mark is seen as a posterboy of his generation, everyone’s younger brother. he’s a guy who can strike conversation with anybody, juggling several fandoms in several languages. his personality is very ‘air´.

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typing people is only the beginning, you can also apply the instincts to general phenomena! for instance.

- instinct examples from the kpop world:

🍒 SP: merch giveaways, ticketing process, designers/sponsors, advertisements, filming and setting equipment, stocks, pop-up stores, physical fanart, food as variety show competition prizes, idol’s dorms, concert logistics, dance studios, physical copies/photocards, organization and schedule, cooking shows, diets, sales, airport touchdowns, idols working out, staff and directors, companies

🍒 SX: music video concepts, fanfic and scenario writers, wake-up bubble messages, one-on-one fanmeets, shipping, youtube fancam compilations, relay cams, aegyo, high note battles, dating bans, things you write in the tags, banger music, choreography, delulus/sasaengs, controversies, group visuals, attractive makeup, niche content creators, romance drama acting, the group center, choosing your bias

🍒 SO: huge scale fansigns, meme creators, multifandom, comebacks, halloween parties, fandom wars, variety shows, clout, viral moments, mascots, fanzines, censorship, music & award shows, kpop slang words, stan twitter, scandals, popular content creators, hierarchy roles (maknae etc), kpop blogs and news outlets/kpop journalism, photoshoots, a concert queue/audience, trainees, debuts and releases, fanchants

☞ see what you pay the most attention to and care the most, where you’re sort of up to date/care a little, and where you don’t keep up with/have no clue. it’ll say everything about which instinct is how strong in you.

how instincts come together

needless to say, these areas overlap and merge. mistyping can be common as this theory intersects three instincts /in relation/ to one another rather than assigning you only one and you’re ready to go.

↳ 🍉 everyone will use a combination of two (!) at once most of the time, one stronger, the other moderate, while disregarding the third. mark, for instance, uses extra SP with his SO, and SX less so. he is an idol that’s more of a cozy social butterfly (SO + SP) rather than having an enticing, intense sensual image like say skz’ hyunjin (SX + SP) that cuts to the chase.

↳ 🍉 almost everyone will hyperfocus on a singular area. attention: SX being a sort of hyperfocus itself, it’s sometimes hard to distinguish. so remember that SX is about human chemistry. in any case — there’s always one strongest instinct contender. hence the other two diminish. the instinct of secondary priority to you will sort of operate in the background. for instance, bts’ jhope’s tidy SP works behind his upbeat SO instinct.

↳ 🍉 in the rare case of someone using all three instincts equally well, they will still have a preference towards one or two and shrug off the third. two instincts always develop at the expense of another one. but are there such people who can do it all? nct’s taeyong strikes me as such:

he looks after over 20 people to ensure inclusion (SO), projects an immense attractive effect on others (SX), cares about cooking/clothing/caring for himself, others and animals (SP). he might have been appointed as nct’s leader as he’s so capable in all instincts. nevertheless, his caregiving SP is his strongest drive, the major theme, added to his sensing function.

...most people have a tendency and crucial order of priority anyway, which i’ll show you now:

instinct stackings

you have a primary instinct, secondary instinct, and blind spot.

😱 the first is the burning focus that’s very set in its tracks: something you almost anxiously/desperately push for. you feel like this piece is missing in your life, so you follow a strong pull. this prevailing motivation is intrinstic, powerful, and on auto pilot. other people will immediately see it in you, while you take it for granted to such a degree you might be unaware. even if you’re not good at it, you want to handle it all by yourself. this area in life is constantly sought-out.

😊 the second is your successful and more laid-back way of going about the first. sort of like a carefree playground, a resource, the home base. it’s the somewhat stashed-away superpower, your area of supporting adjustment to satisfy your dominant 1st drive. the pressure is off here, it’s ‘not that deep’ to you. you ask for help but also can manage by yourself, always adequately so. the secondary instinct feels available and comfortable to the person. there is no extra effort needed. this instinct also keeps other people (!) who overuse or underuse it at bay.

😴 the last is the sacrifice or consequence. your dormant drive that’s blocked out, underdeveloped. it can exhaust you easily when tapped into. it’s an area of awkward insecurity; something you will not wanna talk about. you’re too unbothered, so it wreaks havoc, but you’re also rather ‘free’ from its chains until it suddenly becomes necessary in a situation. you dismiss this overwhelming area of life, compensate with the other instincts. you depend on other people to help you with it.

see how like with stacking together blocks of mbti functions, we slowly move into building individual types by putting instincts into positions of preference?

in essence, the first aka dominant and last instinct positions take things to an extreme (too much VS lack). the middle instinct is usually in perfect tune rather than biting off more than it can chew, or underperforming and never minding the topic at all. you have an entire ‘scale’ right there. and so it follows:

🍓SP in the stacking

SP doms overemphasize dealing with material safety nets and their own body, tidying and organizing and preserving and hustling to survive, building things up to last. they chase their every personal need and self-protect at all costs. (e.g. kun, jennie, xiumin, bom, shownu)

SP 2nds take care of themselves/others as a means to an end checking off all basic survival boxes (e.g. healthy diet, stable income), but don’t take material safety and health to an extreme. they are adequately hands-on, bothering with climate, finance, and living structures in balance. (e.g. wonho, j-hope, chen)

SP blind spots neglect their physical wellbeing and would rather not self-monitor. they eschew topics of proper providing, long-term resources, their living situation/environment. they are anti-conservation with everything and prefer deep transformation, going all out and creating a spark. (e.g. jimin, felix, lisa)

🍓SX in the stacking

SX doms recklessly pursue the juice of a situation, dig deep, divide the masses, go buckwild, and come on very strong, explicit, and shocking. they’re the flame that burns too bright. they want to be polarizingly interesting and feel truly alive jumping from one high to the other: they want all the spice. (e.g. changkyun, yuta, ten, lay, hyuna, jessi)

SX 2nds regularly seek to be rather energized and refreshed, but don’t overdo the heated give and take of SX craving. they’re not obsessive or self-destructive. they control and tame the game of sex appeal and attraction rather than going haywire or fearing to tap into it. they can uphold chemistry. (e.g. chanyeol, minho, bangchan)

SX blind spots are understated, avoid being overly thrilled and immersed in something. they don’t let the guard down. they don’t go at something full throttle and would rather stay too grounded and sterile/bored than getting too much of an emotional, intimate high from something. they’re overcautious. they couldn’t rub the wrong way if they tried and are more subtle in social settings. (e.g. seokjin, johnny, onew, jisoo, suho, boa)

🍓SO in the stacking

SO doms are involved to exhaustion. they know the ropes and ranks, but to a fault, paying attention to influence, connection, status, or acclaim/leadership. they have lots of communication output-input. they screen others all the time. social cues and presentation skills are everything to them. their goal is popularity, display, fitting in, being the 200% team player. (e.g. haechan, baekhyun, s.coups, cl)

SO 2nds will mingle on the occasion. they’re decently community-driven and civil, however not compulsively social nor clout chasers. they are in the loop, but don’t crave ultra-attention. they accurately size up others and curate their friendship/family circle, firm yet flexible in their social identity and position. they join the big cause for its own sake. (e.g. yeonjun, taeyong)

SO blind spots can be out of touch and fall out of social activity, being a one-person island. they don’t want to enter a social order. they omit to ‘present’ themselves and are unaware how they relate to others; don’t maintain social bonds after an initial high. they don’t communicate a ‘brand’ off their identity and character being out there in the herd all the time. (e.g. xiaojun, kyungsoo, hyunjin)

🌹 EXAMPLE. exo’s kai

widely known as passionately ardent to painful extremes with dancing, kai comes forth with intimate solo albums and sultry viral stage moments. he’s an all or nothing magnetic performer, unafraid of doing over-the-top racy concepts that drop jaws (primary SX = the overdrive).

in the meantime, he enjoys general popularity and a lively fandom connection, drawing people in wherever he goes and being the go-to ambassador. he can blend in well, he’s sweet, measured, and lovely with crowds. the will keep disruptive people who step out of line in check. (secondary SO = the adjustment).

“i’d have no regrets dying on stage” — the detriment of his fierce practice have been repetitve injuries to his spine and overwork. kai wants to go the extra mile rather than sparing and protecting himself. jongin also regularly blows up his kitchen 💀🙈 (SP last = the awkward area).

to sum things up:

dominant instinct - most untamed energy is directed and spent here. secondary instinct - stakes are lower, the least problems occur. blind spot - a disregarded area, only ever indirectly or clumsily dealt with.

we use slashes to indicate that stacking order, relinquishing the blind spot.

primary/secondary(/blind spot).

so, kai’s stacking would be called:

“SX/SO”.

meaning: the sexual instinct bleeds into the social one. an individual who will utilize their carnal, expressive display (SX) to entertain/galvanize crowds (SO). it’s a very common stacking among k-pop idols. they embody the sex symbol archetype surrounded by their people/the fandom the most believably, it holds the attention. kai has always gained traction by doing just that.

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the two flows.

there are two ways of “sorting” instinct stackings by the person’s priorities. as in all human history: one camp goes with the flow, the other swims against the stream. you have those instinct sequences that conform or rebel. synflow as in synergy (”with”), and contraflow as in contrary (”against”).

❤️ SYN-FLOW (oriented towards people): sp → so → sx → sp. aka the dominant culture. here, instincts all follow each other logically by evolution. first, humans would secure themselves and their home (SP). then, their tribe to belong somewhere (SO), and then find then intimate attractions and a joie de vivre, a zest for life (SX), only then to settle (SP), and then again orient themselves by their community (SO). and so on, as the arrows show: it’s a cycle. synflow is very “life > decay/downfall”.

🌶 CONTRA-FLOW (compelled away from people): sp → sx → so → sp. aka the counterculture. here, instincts become utopian. individuals of this flow would first secure their own safety elusively (SP), aim for metamorphosis looking for mates (SX), and only then become social animals meeting fellow outsiders (SO), only to settle down (SP), only to break it up again causing a spark not to become complacent (SX). synflow favors revolution over harmonious stability.

[- note: SX/SP can seem contraflow since their SO is so low, and SO/SP can feel synflow because their SO is so high, e.g. like j-hope.]

TIP: you can get a feeling where someone belongs by how against the grain they go or whether they nurture what they have. example:

taeyong is synflow SP/SO. wholesome, uniting everyone. he gains the respect of all he’s surrounded by, being the reliable pillar of his sphere. synflow creates community expansion (SP -> SO): nct centering around him is just that. taeyong takes care (SP) of literally everyone (SO).

but, rather than relying on flow alone, it’s always better to type by what you think the preferred instinct is, their secondary drive, and the blind spot. the same goes for having an overview of the theory before taking frankly mediocre internet tests. look at the person’s vita, find the dominant instinct first. and then the blindspot, which is often easier to determine than the 2nd, simply by its sheer absence.

6 overall types emerge.

if you look at your friends or the people whose personality you crush on, you’ll usually either share your dominant instinct and/or come from the same flow. going by the idea that we use two instincts mostly, in a certain order, this results in 6 instinctual archetypes:

synflow: SP/SO, SO/SX, SX/SP contraflow: SP/SX, SX/SO, SO/SP

so the motivations, topics, actions, and blind spots of the 6 types will look like the following. i love the idea of stepping this up a whole notch (beginner learners bear with me) using symbolic ‘realms’ matching the types in the advanced typology of instincts.

SP/SO (realm of animals) - handling resources/the body to manage people/affiliations. one does not chase a craving for chemistry.

SO/SX (realm of humans) - being out there to act out your desire/passion. one forgets to take care of body and home.

SX/SP (realm of hungry ghosts) - exuding magnetic sexuality to establish stability. one does not consciously join a social cause.

SP/SX (realm of the underworld) - assuring resources to bond with something/somebody. one will eschew other’s social game rules.

SX/SO (realm of gods) - flaunting one’s attraction to socialize. one leaves health, safety, and material things to fate.

SO/SP (realm of titans/demons) - navigating community to acquire material benefit. one does not dive into obsessive self-immersion.

compare the tibetan buddhist wheel of life (called bhāvacakra; bhāva (भाव) = “becoming”, chakra (चक्र) = cycle). it explains our ever-revolving existence and root of striving/suffering like a giant populated rosetta stone of the instincts.

the six inner compartments are meant, this is the wheel’s labelled overview to show what goes on in each section:

the theory is not rooted in tibetan buddhism, this is just an example where instincts can be spotted in overarching concepts/archetypes worldwide. i found this analogy incredible and illustrative to remember an allegory for the stackings. since i learned it like this, it hasn’t left my mind.

example. we talked about SX/SO being a common type of kpop idols. they’re found in the realm of gods/heaven so to speak, which is about creating ecstasy, beauty — makes some major sense to me.

instinct health

why do we strive at all? the whole system depends on an imbalance. if neurosis happens, it will show up in an overly pursued primary instinct or a thoroughly discarded blind spot, which tends to coincide with one’s least implemented mbti function(s), but not always. rather, the idea of health goes like this:

the first instinct is often overused. (= ‘unhealthy’)

the second is mostly balanced, supporting the 1st. (= ‘healthy’)

the third is underused. (= ‘unhealthy’)

the term of health is used pretty loosely in this theory, all it means is: there’s either too much, just right, or not enough of an instinct at work. some people’s first instinct may be less intense than another’s, and we all have blind spots of different severity. some use the second instinct effortlessly, others still do baby steps and encounter some road blocks. no stacking is the same.

regardless, the overall tenet is: your instinct stacking is like a subconscious seesaw.

one point high up doing the most (1st instinct), the other down low pushing against (3rd instinct), and everybody forgets what is going on in the middle (2nd instinct) to keep things running 😂

HACKS:

- 🍓a primary instinct overdrive, your ‘demons’, can usually be dealt with by the mellowing secondary influence. it’s the natural consequence of the first instinct anyway. we all use our secondary to cool off the heat. we saw in the evolution history how these things move in circles. however! the dominant instinct will always be one’s #1 inevitable motivation. it is learned and ingrained. you can’t forcibly change your stacking, only focus differently with deliberation to develop yourself. the more you practice the 2nd instinct, the healthier the first will be: the weight is taken off.

- 🍓the 2nd instinct being almost always ‘healthy’ (= not extreme in either direction, too strong or too weak) can help you type someone. where in life have you or the person achieved an equilibrium? something that neither irks you all day and consumes your attention (first), or something you always forget or brush away (blind spot)? by the way: you might awkwardly clash with the stacking that has the same second instinct as you, but they are from the other flow. SX/SP and SO/SP, for instance. you will prioritize entirely different things (1st), and are excellent where the other lacks (3rd), but act the same way (2nd).

- 🍓with most people, one’s blind spot will remain the somewhat helpless enfant terrible. unless... there are other people of the same flow that take on that task for you. but! say you’re SO/SX, you meet an SP/SX who has your dormant instinct as their hyperfocus: it might solve your problems, but... they too unhealthily use self-preservation, and they’re contraflow, while you are synflow! rather, your best bet is an SO/SP. they use secondary self-pres in a balanced way to help your blindspot, and are 100% on board with your 1st instinct focus. and vice versa. hence:

instinct pairings: intertype relations!

yes, there are patterns, even if this aspect of the theory is less explored and not set in stone. as i see it, people of the same instinctual stack are usually besties by being birds of a feather, have you noticed? e.g., stray kids’ felix and chan are both SO/SX! they both bond (= secondary SX) over being aussies publically (= dominant SO).

all stacks within their own flow are rather compatible, and any pairing can work under the right circumstances. don’t discard someone if they seemingly don’t fit your instinct; they could have same ideal love language, a matching mbti type (e.g. ESFJ + INTJ), instinct isn’t everything, et cetera.

🍎 but there are still some (semi-)duals ([rather] ideal partners), activators (energizers), benefactors (helpers), supervisors (leaders), and conflictors (opposers) as type relations that have been theorized to rank like this. the dual is the most, the conflictor the least compatible.

if you want the whole shebang in one go:

- SX/SO: Sx/sp (dual) > Sx/So (activity) > So/sx (semi-dual) > So/sp (benefactor) > sp/sx (supervisor) > sp/so (conflict) - SX/SP: Sx/so(dual) > Sx/sp (activity) > Sp/sx (semi-dual) > Sp/so (benefactor) > So/sx (supervisor) > So/sp (conflict) - SO/SP: So/sz (dual) > So/Sp (activity) > Sp/so (semi-dual) > Sp/sx (benefactor) > sx/so (supervisor) > sx/sp (conflict) - SP/SO: Sp/sx (dual) > Sp/So (activity) > So/sp (semi-dual) > So/sx (benefactor) > sx/sp (supervisor) > sx/so (conflict) -SO/SX: So/sp (dual) > So/Sx (activity) > Sx/so(semi-dual) > Sx/sp (benefactor) > sp/so (supervisor) > sp/sx (conflict) - SP/SX: Sp/so (dual) > Sp/Sx (activity) > Sx/Sp (semi-dual) > Sx/so (benefactor) > so/sp (supervisor) > so/sx (conflict)

you don’t have to memorize this. it’s just some extra theorizing and playing around with types. let’s break it down with one specific intertype relation:

🍒 synflow benefactors:

SP/SO needs SO/SX

but SO/SX needs SX/SP

but SX/SP needs SP/SO (and repeat)

you can see how the supervisor’s own blind spot is the supervisee’s raging first intinct! so the story of this benefit chain goes on and on. 😅 back to the cycle! the less integrated the blind spot, the harder it is to transcend it.

ideally, you would ‘group’ humans as three in each flow: a perpetuum mobile. a family like that would be extremely functional, or a poly relationship. they all cover each other’s weak areas + balance another’s excess energy. meanwhile: love triangles can happen when a person from the opposing flow but the right secondary instinct, or the same dominant instinct enters the scene.

... but let’s talk about which pairings are the most complementary and drama-free.

the ideal dyad constellation is actually pairing instincts that are from different flows, but have the other’s blind spot as their second instinct: and the same first. 💡

shared values and concerns, they click immediately. their ‘home turf’ being the same sticks like glue. their occupied areas in life are synonymous so they will not drift apart. (primary instincts),

and their way of acting healthily in the world (2nd instincts)...

compensates for the other’s skeleton in the closet (=blind spots).

and the fact that they are from opposing flows ironically creates another balance, but enough tension to keep things fresh and dynamic. so let’s announce ‘em!

🍒 instinct duals / ideal pairings / dream teams:

SP/SO and SP/SX SO/SX and SO/SP SX/SP and SX/SO

so far so good, but as mentioned, it’s not set in stone. you find healthy friendships, parenting, work relations, and lovers of the most random stacking combos. instinct isn’t all there is, it only explains motivation and general focus in life.

and that’s it for now. hope you enjoyed a little deep dive into this theory and got a feeling for why people act the way they do based on their variant. as always: happy typing of your favorites ✍️

- related bonus article for the advanced readers: all enneagram variants described

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