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callmelola111 · 8 months

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loser!ellie ♡ dating app headcanons

synopsis: totally sfw hc’s of loser!ellie (modern au) on dating apps, including a cute little 1st date scenario. basically just pure fluff !!!

| 𓆣 | pairing & wc: ellie williams x reader. wc: 1.4k

a/n: never written headcanons before, crazy ass shit. idk if i did it exactly right but i think it will be an entertaining read no matter what. i’ve recently caved and downloaded hinge which is what inspired this---but there’s only like 40 gay bitches on there and that’s it (also like no mascs?? i’m attracted to any kind of non-man but still,,, the shortage is real y’all). ALSO let me know if this is something you’d like a nsfw/smut part 2 of. much loveeee ♡~ lola

| ❀ | loser!ellie who took weeks of convincing from dina and jesse to finally download hinge after she wouldn’t shut up about how she’s “never beating the loser lesbian allegations”. truly she could have any girl she wants but just doesn’t know how to speak to them in real life. they were so fed up with her bullshit.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who only has like 3 pictures of her actual face so the rest of the photos on her hinge profile are just art pics and gay memes

| ❀ | loser!ellie who had to beg dina for help writing all the little prompts just to reject all her ideas because she’d “never say something like that!”

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who started getting so cocky as soon as those likes began to roll in. saying some shit like “ooo i have rizz” in the cringiest way possible. jesse just says it’s cause there’s a masc lesbian shortage and of course she flips him off in response.

| ❀ | loser!ellie whose cockiness immediately leaves her body when she realizes she has to go through the likes and accept/reject every girl. eventually she just gave up and stopped looking because it felt “too mean” and like “too much work”.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who SUCKS at responding to messages and likes after she lost all interest about 2 days into having the app. that is until she stumbled upon your profile…

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| ❀ | loser!ellie whose glued to her notifications after she matched with you on hinge. at this point you’re her fixation, and every other message besides yours are going unanswered. as soon as she works up the courage to ask for your number, and you oblige, she immediately deletes the app.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who stares at her screen for like 5 minutes straight at the first text message she plans to send you, even though it was literally just “hey, is this y/n?”. she even googled the difference in connotations between hi, hey, and hello. it’s safe to say the girl is straight up mental about you.

| ❀ | loser!ellie who gets more and more unhinged as y’all get better acquainted with each other through texts. eventually she's spamming you with updates about her day, instagram memes that she thinks are funny, and an occasional flirty message—but of course, she’s waiting for that first date to really test the romantic waters. like yes she’s obsessed with you, but to the extent where she’s so scared to screw things up so every little move she makes is with caution and regard to your feelings and boundaries. it’s honestly super sweet.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who eventually asked you on a first date after you sent like 3 different flirty memes to get the point across that you like her a lot and wanna be taken out for real. you definitely were sending her some shit like this…

| ❀ | loser!ellie who planned out a whole agenda for y’alls first date so it would be absolutely perfect. she refused to tell you where she was taking you or what you guys would be doing because she thought it would be better as a surprise. and although you were kinda stressing about what to wear and what to expect, the element of mystery was kind of endearing.

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| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who pulls up to your house in her little beat up sedan that she had cleaned for like the first time ever just before she came and picked you up. there was still clearly some reminisce of her mess as seen on the stained seats and crumbs on the floor, but you didn’t mind—yours was just as bad (probably worse).

| ❀ | loser!ellie who took you out for sushi as the first stop on your date, to which she graciously paid for even with you fighting to put your card down on the table first. she looked so adorable with her little california roll, and even cuter when she accidentally got too much wasabi in a bite and was fiending for water while simultaneously trying to play it cool in front of you. you just laughed which immediately made her feel better about the whole thing.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who then took you to your town’s expansive park to walk the dirt trails and just talk. neither of you had ever gotten along with someone so well, the conversation was absolutely effortless. you talked about all your interests, funny life stories, your fears, and so much more. ellie listened attentively with nods and affirmations throughout which made you feel so cared for, something most girls on dating apps could never do. you extended the courtesy back and ellie told you all about her own stuff, including her obsession with space, to which she pulled out her favorite book on the topic to show you. space had never really piqued your interest before, but when it was coming out of the freckled girl's mouth, it seemed like the coolest thing in the world.

| ❀ | loser!ellie who sat next to you on one of the park’s wooden benches. time had flown by and neither of you had realized until your head was resting on her shoulder as the sun set in front of you. the orange cast hit her auburn hair just right and it looked like she was practically glowing. you couldn’t help but stare at her beauty which she noticed and with a concerned look questioned if she had anything on her face. you informed ellie of the trance she had put you in and she blushed the color of your pink nails just before leaning in to give you the most tender, loving kiss you’d ever received.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who couldn’t stop kissing you once she started. your lips remained locked with hers for a solid 5 minutes, lips puffy and saliva exchanging, until the sound of a dog barking a few feet away broke the exchange. the energy had shifted in the best way possible and the both of you quickly opened up about how much you liked one another. one thing lead to another and suddenly ellie has out her pocket knife and is carving an E + R (reader) into the wood of the park bench. how lesbian of you guys ♡

| ❀ | loser!ellie who didn’t want the date to end and you were right there with her, so you somehow found yourselves in an empty parking lot at 9:00pm, drinking slurpees while she tried to teach you how to skate. it started off as a real attempt with her teaching you the basics like where to put your feet and the importance of bending your knees. after about 4 different falls onto the dirty asphalt you gave up on your genuine pursuits. discouraged, you sat right down on the board, knees up, before ellie gave you a push and you rolled across the lot. she was laughing her ass off and you were too until you hit a bump and tumbled off.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who bolted into the CVS the parking lot belonged to and bought a bunch of unnecessary first aid items for the small cut on your knee. she came back out of the sliding doors and you died of laughter as she pulled out a box of peppa pig bandaids for your skating “injury”. ellie insisted you needed to be taken care of though, so you let her do her thing and she finished it off with a small peck to the cap of your knee and one on your forehead.

| ❀ | loser!ellie who spent the trip back to your place with one hand on the wheel and the other on your thigh, driving you absolutely wild. you almost had to remind yourself that this was just the first date.

| 𓆣 | loser!ellie who had been parked in your driveway for 10 minutes already but continued to stall your departure with more of her shenanigans. soon she ran out of things to say though and leaned over to kiss you goodbye. this goodbye turned into more and you ended up in her lap before the night was over. it wasn’t until your back hit the steering wheel making the car honk that you finally exited the vehicle.

| ❀ | loser!ellie who waited for you to completely make it inside before she drove home, giving you a final little wave as you opened the front door. after she was back at her place she instantly texted you about date 2 and thanked you for the best night of her life. in her eyes, you were a keeper!

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rthko · 2 months

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You ready for a REAL brave post? Between 2015 and 2020 or so, everyone had something to say about a common enemy, "masc for masc" gays. Now that the water has stilled (or come out clear, if my boys want a more familiar metaphor), what is there to be said about fem for masc? I'm not here to moralize, I'm really not. I actually relate, and on a purely libidinal level, god does it make sense. But on a logistical level it does not, and masc for masc has a certain integrity by comparison. I mean, they're willing to hold themselves to the same standards as their partners. There's a certain logic to it, even if we don't like the result. Conversely, remember when Christian Walker, obviously not masc himself, filmed himself asking "where are all the masculine men?" This is not even a particularly unusual complex to have. They don't see it as ironic or hypocritical they really do view themselves and the objects of their attraction implicitly as different genders. I don't think that's universally good or bad--maybe we DO want to acknowledge a diverse range of subgenders--but it comes with its own baggage.

We come to an issue at the epistemological foundations of homosexuality that were present from the moment it was first termed as a form of sexual inversion: lots of gay guys want to be fem and still fuckable, but don't want to fuck fem gays themselves. And sure, we "like our men fruity," we love a little piercing or a fagcent, but gays are frankly more permissive of these traits when they apply to muscular bodies--the ground on which the figure of subtle gender expression can be applied. Baby gays think muscle gays are all masc for masc. Nope! Many will queen out, and I'm not saying this to uniformally redeem them but to point out that they get more allowances if they maintain certain body types. Think of that one gay porn blog with "macho" in the URL that posts uncredited pics of muscular men in thongs: THAT'S how you get a safe degree of irony, without which it's just regular cross dressing.

I like the rest of you was part of the anti masc-for- masc crusade, and I don't think we were wrong for it. Maybe we did have an ax to grind! But this was easier to have a principled stance about when we developed a protective aversion to masculinity. Of course I wasn't attracted to it--I had foreclosed any possibility that a masculine man would respect me or not view my effeminate characteristics as sexually disqualifying. But picture this: a man who is masculine in demeanor without being chauvinistic, who treats you as an equal, who isn't emotionally constipated, and lets you queen out without backing away? The glimpses I've had of this are tantalizing! We can rail against heterosexuality--literal or allegorical--but its promise makes libidinal sense. If we could logic our way out of it, we would, but this "where have all the good men gone" complex is the Sisyphean burden we bear. And that's why to this day gays brunch with their straight women friends to dish about how men are the worst.

#i pray we find a way out of the heteropessimist hole

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hereticdrws · 2 months

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Aquarium date w mizu

A/n: did I just narrate my visit at the aquarium and add mizu? Possibly did I use quotes from me and my sister? Also maybe anygays I hope yall enjoy ☺️🤞 should I write a real fic w this? I alr got 1 in the works cough cough baseball mizu

Warnings: NOT PROOF READ idk I don't think there r any but lemme know if there r

Loser!Mizu x (masc?) Reader I tried to make it v neutral but I kinda self projected

Enjoy 😉

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

◇Def spends wayyyy to long on parking trying to find the perfect spot no matter how many times she's been

◇Tells you the scientific names of all the fish on the banners on the way in that are used to attract visitors

◇Tells you every fish related joke she knows while waiting in line to get in

◇Cannot stand up straight in the line to save her life she has to lean (but I mean who tf doesn't why tf would I stand up str8 when I can lean)

◇Tries to convince u to let her bring a fish home (you're not even allowed to)

◇Took 1000 pics of the baby penguins

◇(Also asked to take one home)

◇Does not shut up abt the smell

◇Says every cute thing in the exhibit looks like you

Ex:

After walking past the toucan exhibit we make our way toward the baby monkeys per mizus request, walking hand in hand and shoulder to well head because lord knows mizu is tall as shit.

Once we arrive at the monkey exhibit for the first time since arriving mizu releases her hand from yours

"Omg babe it looks just like you!" She eagerly points out

"It does??" You raise an eyebrow at the 5'7 woman towering you, questioning her ecstatic expression

"Yeah!!"

◇Tried to provoke the toucan

"OMG Y/N ITS THE BIRD FROM THE MEME" spends at least 15 minutes trying to find the meme

◇Made you carry her hoodie bc it was so humid

"Babe I told you not to bring it 🙄"

"I thought it'd be cold ☹️"

"Why are there only birds I hate birds"

"Because we're in the bird exhibit babe 😐"

"oh"

◇Pouts when she can't find the animal in the exhibit

"Babe did you know poison dart frogs are poisonous?"

Dies

"Babe stop ☹️"

◇Stuck her hand in the water 'bcuz she can'

"I bet I could survive that jump"

"No tf you wouldnt?"

◇You had to pay for the slushies bc she forgot her wallet (which she definitely owns) ((she doesn't own a wallet))

"BABE THERES FUCKING CROCODILES"

"Dude there's a kid right nxt 2 u"

"Babe wtf"

"What"

"Your mouth looks like a traffic cone"

☹️

◇Constantly asked what would happen if she threw smthing at an animal

Ex:

"What I'd I threw my slushie at the crocodile"

"I'll disown you"

◇Looks in disgust at all the babies and children

◇I cannot express how much she'd compare you to ever cute animal in the exhibit

◇Leans into u when she gets bored like srsly u are supporting this woman's entire body weight

◇Do not forget how CLINGY she is (totally not self projecting) she would not let go of your hand, not to mention she is constantly pressed to your side esp when walking she is js leaning into you (same 😔) she cannot walk in a straight line for the life of her

◇Mizu is either the most shameful person you've ever met or the most shameless

No inbetween

◇The facts omg So. Many. Facts it's acc insane

"Did you know the 'type of animal' is acc a direct descendant of-"

◇Has a donkey Kong lanyard u drag her around by so she doesn't wander off

"Omg that's literally us in another universe"

(Pic credits go to yours truly 😌)

"Omg yn that's a stone fish the one from the meme 😁🫵"

"What meme?"

😨 (she only scrolls on YouTube shorts or insta reels) ((idk why she's shocked))

◇Constantly pointing out how ugly a fish is

"If it were human it could NEVER pull you"

"???"

◇Spent at least an hour in the shark exhibit telling you the scientific names of all the diff species of them and where they originated from

◇Millions of pics of them everytime a shark swam by at least 25 pics would be taken

◇Everytime you tell her to pise for a pic with one of the exhibits she either puts up a thumbs up with the dumbest smile you've ever seen or accidently flips you off then rushes over to you drowning your face in kisses and apologizing over n over

◇Sitting/leaning every chance she gets (and pulling u down w her every chance she gets) ((she is so clingy I can't express it enough))

"When do we get to go to the gift shop?" ◇She asked every 2 seconds if she's not telling you the most outrageous 'facts' she learned from who tf knows where

"That bird is big as shit 😐"

◇Tries to stand like a flamingo falls not even 2 seconds later claiming you pushed her

◇Literally RAN for the shark plushies once yall got to the gift shop

◇Could not decide which one to get so u js bought her all of them bc ur so sweet/you couldn't decide which one to get so she bought you all of them (whichever u want)

◇Got lost in the parking lot trying to find yalls car

◇Yall stopped at chic fil a on your way home

◇Once yall got home you both changed into comfy clothes and layed down and cuddled ofc yall cuddled with mizus ridiculous amount of new shark plushies

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

A/n pt2: thank you for reading I hope yall like this ☺️

#blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #bes mizu #mizu #art #bes x reader #blue eye samurai x reader #blue eye samurai fanart #digital art #sketchbook

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4am-enha · 1 year

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☕️ .・📖・。. 🖇 ─── ･｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ─── 🧸・。. 🎞 .・🫧

ello ello my luvs! thank you for visiting my page. here you will find enhypen related writings! i only write on here. extra and general stuff will be on my main blog: @4amwon. wattpad coming soon~

you can find the full master list & more below.

fem reader ✩

gender neutral reader ☼

masc reader ❅

ㄴ please let me know if i made a mistake. i may not always catch it.

! currently on a tight life schedule & slow at posting !

OT7

⌲ OT7 text scenarios

ㄴ screenshot format text messages with enha in a certain scenario. (most popular!)

enha when you start your period ☼

enha when you lowkey confess (but you’re drunk.) ☼

enha when you ask them to be your valentine☼

enha when it’s storming ☼

enha when you send them a selfie [snapchat pic format] ✩

enha when you cry over a sloth video (ask) ☼

enha when you forget it’s gfs day ✩

enha when you have an interview ☼

enha when you have a pretty bad argument ☼

enha when you’ve had a pretty bad argument pt.2 (anon ask) ☼

⌲ OT7 short scenarios

ㄴ similar to the above but one-shots in written format.

enha when you’re not feeling well ✩

enha when you go to a haunted house ~halloween special~ ☼

enha when they find you crying ✩

⌲ OT7 bullet points/notes

ㄴ short but sweet bullet points/thoughts on the members.

enha as love tropes ☼

enha as love languages ☼

enha as feelings ☼

enha as your group in a zombie apocalypse ☼

enha reactions when you’re a boxer ☼

⌲ OT7 fic

ㄴ longer one-shots with all enha members together in one.

enhypen eve ~ christmas special ~ ✩

cabin fever (anon ask) ✩

HYUNG LINE ONLY

⌲ text scenarios

ㄴ screenshot format text messages with just hyung line in a certain scenario. only hee, jay, jake, hoon !!

hyung line sending a bold text. ☼

SPECIFIC MEMBER

⌲ 정원 - jungwon

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x jungwon unless stated otherwise!

$3 coffee ✩

a kick in the heart (anon ask) ☼

⌲ 이희승 - heeseung

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x heeseung unless stated otherwise!

late summer lovin’ ☼

late summer lovin’ alternative ending (anon ask)

⌲ 박종성 - jay

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x jay unless stated otherwise!

pouring ☼

⌲ 심제윤 - jake

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x jake unless stated otherwise!

~ coming soon. ~

⌲ 박성훈 - sunghoon

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x sunghoon unless stated otherwise!

sweet (in)convenience ☼(ask)

⌲ 김선우 - sunoo

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x sunoo unless stated otherwise!

studying you (anon ask)☼

puppy bunny love (ask)☼

⌲ 니키 - niki

ㄴ usually longer one-shots on just reader x niki unless stated otherwise!

return home ✩

SMAU SERIES

~ nothing here yet ~

* this is my first time writing on tumblr, and my schedule is insanely packed so please be patient with me!

* practically none of the pictures are mine. almost all pictures i use are from pinterest! all creds go to the owners!

* i will not write smut on minors so don’t even ask! i am also not very skilled in the smut portion of writing, so expect mainly fluff and angst in here!

* feel free to leave requests in my asks, i may not always respond but i promise i look at all of them and will occasionally write them. i’m always looking for inspo!

* feedback is always appreciated, but please be kind. i don’t usually respond to reblogs on here to avoid spam and make my page easier to navigate, but again, i really appreciate and read them all. they matter to me :)

* all fics on here are reader x enha/enha member, if i ever write any member x member fics they will be on my wattpad! i will announce that separately. please remember it has nothing to do with the real enha members and you shouldn’t involve/relate them with fan fiction. don’t be weird and make them uncomfortable, keep it to yourself and the authors. fan fic ≠ reality. xoxo

* my main blog @4amwon is where i will post updates and random things related to enha and probably also bts & nwjns! i reblog on there too. prepare for jungwon posts galore. i love that man.

* asks will be replied to under the #ask 4am!🧸

anon symbols already taken: 🐴 .

my ults bias list: jungwon (enha), taehyung (bts), haerin (nwjns).

languages: english (fluent) & korean (intermediate)

timezone: KST (Korean Standard Time)

#welcome #4am!🧸 masterlist #masterlist #enhypen

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yuyulie · 1 day

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Feel free to ignore everyone but I've just been looking at some of the things I made over the years and its so many things I gave up on lmao 😭😭 I see a bunch of things online, go and recreate them in MD/Blender and most of the time they either don't work in game or the textures look like shit 💀💀 so if anyone wants to see them, check down below 👇🏽👇🏽

Had to go in the whatsapp chat archives with my irl to find this BUT THIS WAS MY FIRST MESH from back in sept 2022 apparently? I was soooooooo proud of myself this took me literally like a week bc of the weights and then the textures and I used the fuck outta this top in my game, every sim of mine was wearing it 🙂‍↕️ lmao but i took a break from the sims in jan '23 bc of my internship and when I came back I was like "OMG this looks like SHIT???

I'll be honest I don't remember ever opening this in game 😭 but apparently this top was like 20k~ polys??? Crazy times

NGL i feel bad abt deleting the first top since i made it for a tiktok cc process vid and people asked me when i was planning on releasing and i was like yea soon 😊 then never did shjdbhjdbfds

THE SANDALS WERE MY FIRST EVER PAIR OF SHOES but the straps would disappear when i made the sims feet bigger 😭 but its fine now i (kinda) learned how to make (very simple) shoes now so maybe ill post some soon 🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽

The hat was cute but in cas my sims would get the question mark when i put it on them i don't know why?? and the bikini belt thing was just meh so i got rid of it

The first top was also my favorite for awhile but the weights were kinda weird, everything else also had the same problems and honestly im glad they did bc they were all ugly af, SUPER high poly and just looked like caca in game thank god i deleted them (there were more things i made in between this and the next pic im abt to show but i don't have any pics soooo)

This hello kitty necklaces I was so proud of and I made SO MANY SWATCHES (18!!!) but bc i always rush to finish everything before getting in game, when i finally checked them they looked real nice im ngl BUT the morphing was sooo bad on small beads😭😭 they looked even worse on the masc frames RIP

I don't have the ref I used for this anymore but it was a really cute bonnet, mine just looked like a crumbled piece of paper plus its from last year so I didn't know how to retopologize or how to sculpt in Blender

This was supposed to come out with one of the simblreen gifts but again I didn't like the morphs but I did use the base of the cross for my other cross necklaces so i guess not completely useless 🤞🏽🤞🏽

Still proud of the lighter but I don't know what I was going for 😪

The mp3 was so fun to make but the weights were kinda weird and I didn't know how to fix them 🙄 (I did ended up using the earphones for the folasade collection 👌🏽)

Both were supposed to come out in the denim set BUT the more I looked at the pants the less I liked them and the skirt I just felt like it didn't belong with the jeans I did release?? its a cute skirt but I haven't felt like releasing it so 🚶🏽‍♀️🚶🏽‍♀️

I made this back when I wasn't mindful of where tops should stop/where the bottom part starts if u don't want any clipping to happen (looking at the heroine top since it also had the same issue but I realised wayyy too late so couldn't go back and fix it LMAO) still its a cute top and I feel like I could fix it in sculpt mode now??? idk

Very high poly 😭

PINKPANTHERESS MY LOVE ♥♥♥ ( I made this around the time I started the follower set so I just kinda forgot abt it, maybe one day I'll go back n finish it)

I think this was the original idea I had for heroine top? I gave up on it bc I just knew the buttons were gonna morph horribly since they sit right on the chest (also i never realised how similar it was to the tiktok top lol)

Ok after this, all the pics are from stuff that was supposed to be on the follower set but this was the original mesh for the dee top and I had to remake it since I couldn't find tops with sleeves of that size to transfer weights from 😭😪 (if that makes sense)

THIS JUST DID NOT LOOK LIKE THE REF 💀💀💀 plus the 'flower' is soooooo bad 😭 sorry to whoever added this pic to the pinterest board I flopped so hard 😖

I just thought the quality of the textures was poor so I didn't even wanna put it up for download 💔 the jean quality I could definitely do better but the sheep patch/stitch(??idk) I couldn't find a clear high quality pic so yea 😪

i LOVED this one but kept having so many problems with it, first the dress was flying off the sim in cas, fixed that then the weights started acting up it was problem after problem lmao maybe one day ill sit down and take a look at it again

Cute skirt but the transparent/lace part would clip a lot

the pants would clip out of the skirt when sims walked and i was very confused since i obviously deleted parts of the jeans that aren't visible but that didn't work so idk

I also loved this headband but it was kinda hard to find a hair that would fit without clipping, if i ever find one I would definitely put it up for download 👆🏽👆🏽

It looks alright in sims4studio (i guess) but in game the textures were kinda blurry

CUTE but i forgot that buttons on the chest have shitty weights/uv's🤐

Thats all for now, I made so many other things but most of the time I just delete them bc i don't have the ability to make them work in game 😞plus I can't stand having files on my pc that im not using bc otherwise they r just taking up space 🤞🏽

#nonsims #some of the things have potential but the weights/uvs are my enemy 😩#sorry if theres any typos lmao 🙏🏽

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punkeropercyjackson · 4 months

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this person is literally a fucking maniac I’m so sorry they did that shit to you??? It’s headcanons and you didn’t even mention anything remotely offensive or required whatever shit they were spitting. Fucking SUICIDE BAITING OVER WHAT?? Dios mío. (to get your mind off it if you would like, share with me your favourite punk percy headcanons)

RIGHT LIKE THAT NIGGA REALLY SHOWED ME NOOSE PICS OVER FUCKING PERCY JACKSON💀And said i was 'fetishizing' trans people as if i'm not trans myself and as if she's not a cis woman and probably straight too.Stop projecting come mierda♡

But tysm,i will and you choose a good time to ask because i've been finally continouing my punk history research!!

Always had the punk mindset as seen in canon since she's anti-authority,rebels against all corruption she sees and protects and is extremely loving towards younger minorities

But was too poor to afford the clothes and piercings and such.Didn't bother him though since he cared more about acting punk than looking it

Thalia was his first real experience with the subculture headon and that's why he admired and was lowkey jealous of her along with a bit of gender envy

Goes to protests and does charity work with Rachel

And she bought him a bunch of punk stuff(from punk bussiness ofc,otherwise what's the point)

Learned to diy so many things it's gonna be a running in my fics of her

Rrrrt girl and Mcr fan-Also not punk but loves Ice Spice and Megan Thee Stallion too ofc.Really likes Green Day too!!

The specific types of punk Percy is are afropunk(because i hc them as half afro-dominican and half black-greek),seapunk(NOT because of Poseidon but because of Sally)and either crustpunk or pastel punk depending on wether we're talking her as transfem bigender and a mix of masc and fem or her as a super femme trans woman.Not for gender roles reasons because that would be ridiculous but i think just that their lives would be significantly different so that leads to a few differences in their tastes

Persephone Amelia has comics!Starfire hair,Perseo Isadore has dreads

Straight edge

His autism definitely contributes to how he approches punkness

Their patches jacket has spikes and frills around the collar and the patches are the dominican and trans flags and a black mermaid to represent Sally,a skull and a yellow diamond to represent Nico and Hazel and he has a god handful of pins but his favorites are the Riptide one Lex made him and the cat one(Yes i'm including my Pjo self-insert in this because i couldn't help myself)

Goes on estrogen but only a light dosage and for a short time compared to full transitions and gets no surgeries.Wears makeup too and gets a tongue ring,an eyebrow piercing and forward helix on both ears

Radicalized Nico and Hazel,who are now goth punk and pastel goth punk

Exclusively buys video games and consoles secondhand because of being anti-capitalism

Killed Luke in TLO not only because of being the hero of the prophecy but also because no actual punk wouldn't unalive a fascist who's also a serial ped0phile the second they got the chance.He made sure it was extra painful too and even had Nico use his soul erasing power we saw in BOO on him

And eventually manages to kill Poseidon too-Idk about Perseo but Persephone exists in my Pjo x DC x Spiderverse crossover where she's got kryptonian heritage and i headcanon krytonians are on the same levels of gods in regards to power so that's how.Zeus is too scared of Percy afterwards to stop her from fixing the greek myths world system LMFAOOOOOO

And for a lil more Perlex because i am down horrendous,him and Lex punk4punk but Lex is pastel punk and solarpunk!!They go on punk themed dates like going to concerts in matching outfits and defacing public property together <3 Also Percy has the cocky flirt punk guy thing you usually see in male characters who are but it's a Lex exclusive

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desultory-novice · 2 years

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マルマホorマホマル?

The vibes are different.

Can I just say I'm so amused (/pos) to get this ask? Thank you for sending it in, Anon! And yes, the vibes ARE different between Marx/Magolor and Magolor/Marx!

Which do I choose? I think it depends on the verse I'm writing in?

"Marionettes' Pavane" is probably more MahoMaru, with Magolor's need for control making him emotionally the "seme" of the pairing. (And he's taller! Well, pre-accident...) Marx, with his androgynous good looks (MariPav Marx is agender with masc pronouns and non-binary presentation) seems to fulfill the pretty boy "uke" role. At least according to the old (dated…?) shipping roles.

(Note: I used those terms above ONLY as a shorthand - since this is essentially asking who “tops.” While I actually ship them asexually.)

Of course, real life is more complicated than doujinshi tropes (...I say, while writing a doujinshi) but Marx, who has a desperate need to possess something, ANYTHING of his own, receives fulfillment from knowing he is the object of Magolor's desires. He now "possesses" Magolor's intense affection. (That Magolor gives freely.)

That affection/desire reaction goes both ways, as Marx - who is less “restricted” in his pick of partners,* since his planet is flourishing - actively chooses Magolor above anyone else. Together, they create a nearly unbreakable bond where their emotional need of the other one binds the two of them together strongly.

(*At first, it may seem Magolor is attracted to Marx due to lack of options, but as time goes on, it is clear he would still be drawn to Marx, even having his pick of people. Marx shares a commonality of thought with him that no one else does)

Talking about need, it’s not that they're dysfunctionally co-dependent on each other, as, after they find each other, they’re capable of operating independent knowing that they have each other there waiting. However, the threat of losing the other one again would be enough to bring them to the breaking point.

Then again, after all they've been through (post-Nova, post-Crown) they are the only ones who understand each other's deep pain and the tremendous cost of their shattered wishes. They’re the ones capable of bringing each other back from the brink of despair that hovers so close in the shadows. (That and their friendship with Kirby, but that’s because Kirby is kind of everyone’s miracle.)

It’s hard for them because they each almost lost everything. The one undeniable upshot to their experiences was to find each other. To lose each other now? It would be worse than having their souls (...heheh :cough cough: ...) torn in two.

It's also more MahoMaru because Magolor is the first one to admit his love. And he does a large percentage of the "chasing" too. (Something something Master Crown…)

In little round blorbo form, it's more up in the air who takes the lead in their relationship. And I like to switch it up more often.

It can be a lot of fun when you let Marx take the lead in making these grand, unhinged, romantic gestures (like supergluing himself to Magolor*) and have him drive Magolor ever so slightly insane.

(*Tbh, I dislike that pic for being so rushed and so bad, but it’s an excellent example of the kind of hijinks only they can get away with.)

In direct opposition to that, but still very MaruMaho, I also enjoy variations on the two of them where an emotionally insecure Magolor is too stubborn/shielded to admit he could ever possibly LIKE the jester, and its the more emotionally in tune with himself (!!!) Marx who is prodding Magolor to confront his feelings.

:reminds myself to draw a thing I have on this topic:

Now, as a fan? I really like seeing both!

Again, I do ship them; they’re my Kirby OTP (and probably my only “active” pairing) but I also just like seeing them together in any form. Goofball friends who bond over pranking the residents of Dreamland? Awesome! Fighting each other and destroying whole city blocks over something petty? Still fun! Bitter villains forced to work together to get what they want? Gimme!

I simply love these two.

#Kirby #Marxolor #Dess Text Post #Dess Answers Questions #Marx Kirby #Magolor #maripav #In that sense it doesn't bother me if...#...people reblog my stuff as Marxolor or not!#(And obvs. I respect posts that don't tag them as a ship)

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verdantvulpus · 2 years

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My TTWBAD Halloween Party Costume Pick Pics and the Original Costumes they’re based on!

October 9. Sexy Dark Fairy Dash

It was surprisingly hard to find a masc fairy costume. Or maybe it isn’t that surprising because, you know, *whispers* toxic masculinity?

Anyway, curio cabinet statuary hooked me up with this little dude’s picture and I could NOT refuse it. So it’s not a REAL sexy fairy costume, but it is a “thing that exists in the world” and that will have to be good enough.

A Dark Faerie dressed as a Fairy. Tangle must have been doing his very best not to laugh when he picked this out.

Dash probably wasn’t as amused when it was assigned to him.

Dash is an Unseelie Sidhe-Changeling, and the most recent member of Knox’s retinue.

He’s been the Prince’s Court Ranger for the last 2,000 Fae-years (give or take a century) and as such, doesn’t live within the confines of the palace grounds. And yet, whenever Knox is called away from the safety of the palace, Dash is summoned to accompany the prince along with Thorn and Tangle.

You might find it odd that a glorified huntsman is attending gala’s and treaties, etc, and you’re not the only one. Especially since Dash is the only one of the faerie entourage who came to serve Knox by contract rather than by choice. No wonder he tends to come across as suspicious and cold when you first meet him.

Unless he’s around Tangle, who’s very good at getting this uptight ranger to loosen up.

This piece is available in high res to Patrons but will be made public next month on my Patreon.

Regular res versions are also together on AO3 here.

Here’s a Dark Fae-ish song for the Playlist. ‘The Other Side’ by Marg0

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holocene-sims · 2 years

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🎂 for grant, paivi, shannon and our new favorite girl Margot 😊

thank you for asking!! also YAY sweet girl therapist margot 💟

🎂: does your OC have any contradictory interests or traits to the first perception people have of them? how do they surprise people?

grant is such a weird dude because i feel like he gives off so many vibes that all of his traits and interests could be believable. but mayyyybeeee it's surprising that he's into sports and played one and was good at it? i mean, you could guess that because he's a big dude and at least somewhat masc, but also that doesn't seem obvious when he dresses 99% of the time like a "former" emo kid and keeps bright sparkly nail polish on at all times. i'll say that for the contradictory interest LMAO. the queer, nerdy, shy, emo kid is into sports. other than that...maybe it seems contradictory that he has PTSD and is anxious in social situations or in places that connect to his trauma but he's also the most relaxed person otherwise. you get the impression he'd be like that 24/7 but no, it's kind of isolated to the things that most relate to his trauma. like he wouldn't get stressed if he were stuck in six-hour traffic and back when he had his former job, he was totally relaxed dealing with crazy passengers or serious mechanical issues on planes. he is the guy you want to chat with in an emergency because he's going to be the one with a plan and a level head.

päivi...hmm maybe it's surprising she's super into social media? she has a very closed-off personality, like she's not friendly at all LMAO and she hates talking to people and can be a real bitch, so you'd think she's equally as private and closed-off online but nope, she's very picky about her instagram feed and she only wants to post the best pics and she craves likes and comments. and yes, all the pictures for the most part are of herself.

shannon, my beloved 🤍 i think it could seem contradictory in a way that she's such a sweetheart but she suffers BIG TIME from "foot in mouth syndrome" aka she's always saying something a little out of turn or awkward or saying something she shouldn't. she can be a bit, um, tactless. it's never her being mean, just not reading the room, you know? like her little brother announced that he and his girlfriend were having a baby and he was dropping out of school, and her initial response was to say, "oh, well, you're going to have a lot of debt to pay off!" she meant it out of concern but it was totally the wrong moment and way to say it and her brother remains pissed at her for it. they get in a fight over it like biweekly. and shannon does this a lot. but you'd think the woman with a PhD in literature...who studies a lot of words and has written TONS of papers and fictional stories...could string her spoken words together somewhat better.

now for margot! you know what, i have this image of her in head being super brave and having a cool bucket list with lots of things already checked off. she's this sweet, artsy, introverted therapist and she definitely has a lovely family at home BUT she's gone skydiving and cave spelunking and all that other wacky bucket list stuff!

#asks #hlcn: oc info #hlcn: story extras #hlcn: grant #hlcn: margot #hlcn: päivi #hlcn: shannon #just think grant could have been that chill 24/7 if he'd never been messed up as a child LMAO

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ranty-ramblestein · 2 years

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(captions~) Jun 11th: Snow has finally set in on Solaceon, meaning the snowballs that form Snowboys were out and about! I made a perfect Snowboy on the first try~ (I did wait for the auto-save before I merged though.)

Of course, I only made this Snowboy because I needed the new v2.0 Snowboy DIY~ Time to make a statue army, huehue~!

Jun 12th: I made the snowboy statue and maple leaf rug today~ (I was carrying around the maple leaves needed in my inventory for a while, heh!)

Jun 14th: I had some fun dialogue with Apple (and some sad dialogue with the dying Snowboy...), but today was New Outfit Tuesday, so I went with the second-to-last outfit I have planned... which didn’t really have a theme until I decided he was going to a concert with those light-up items! (Well, DJ K.K.’s concert is coming up, so that fits!)

Meanwhile, I’m beginning to think Klaus is in Solaceon’s Move-in Queue, and that’s why he hasn’t shown up on the beach in ages. ...I’m gonna have to get his amiibo card, aren’t I?

pic 1: "Wait, it's /white outside!?/" Croissant gasped, hopping out of bed and pulling on his clothes. pic 2: I waited for auto-save before merging them, but I got it first try anyway! pic 3: "Yesss, that’s the final DIY I needed!” Croissant shouted, doing a little happy dance. “Congratulations!” the Snowboy said his happy voice. pic 4: Showing off that I made these DIYS today~ pic 5: "Now you're giving /me/ anxiety about that!" Croissant shuddered. pic 6: "...You just gave me sandals. When it's snowing out." "Yeah? So?" Apple questioned. pic 7: It feels like it's been a while since I gave him a real masc outfit... but I suppose if pants instead of a dress/skirt counts as masc, then the Cinnamoroll outfit counted as masc, ehh! pic 8: The light-up stars and light stick makes me think he’s going to a concert! (Well, DJ K.K.’s concert /is/ tonight...) pic 9: RIP to my final Snowboy... He helped me finish my DIY Card album honorably... *salute* pic 10: "...Darn. Guess this one's going to Flick," Croissant sighed.

#Animal Crossing #Animal Crossing: New Horizons #Island Man Croissant #Solaceon Island

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Tl dr: I just feel no reply as the reply, is unkind.

Rant incoming:

Back On the apps again . I’m not manically/desperately looking for anything at the moment, mainly just looking for friendly faces, people to talk to and some flirting/validation. Maybe even make some queer friends nearby (shock horror)

Its first time in a while I actually have photos uploaded, and I think they’re pretty good photos (previous few times been on the app my profile had note to ask for pics as was in an open relationship, where out of respect and for some limited privacy they weren’t exchanged til talking) and have my profile providing some glimpses of personality.

So…here and there - I’ve reached to a few folks over last fortnight complimenting some profiles or commenting on their profile saying into gaming or something… only to just get a pretty close to zero reply rate lately.

It just sucks. I’m trying really hard to not function from a place of self consciousness and feelings of ugliness

I know no reply is in itself a reply. It’s just the rudest supply. And the only thing it does is make people feel blah or disgusting or whatever.

It’s actually so easy to just say some form of , “hey there thanks for engaging , but I’m not interested/you’re not my type/ I’m actually just using this app to find a partner/hookup at moment and I’m not seeing that for this situation.” Over my life some people have done so really easily in kind ways, and gosh it’s a whole sight different to just not replying etc.

I am perfectly aware that I am not the most attractive, most sexy, or particularly desirable human. But It’s certainly like an exercise in trying not to get fearful/upset.

I also know I’m gender diverse, and a lot of people on the apps I’m on are looking for masc for masc/ something different but I generally wouldn’t message those profiles anyways, messaging the ones I have had more suggestion and listing on profile looking for friends or commentary of looking for friends to watch shit or talk shit with.

Bitter pill being I’ve never felt more me in my life and somehow am most persona non grata.

Oh well life goes on, maybe it’s for the best that I just have more time to talk to myself, and have rants like this,

feels real healthy,right? haha

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A random dump of trauma [or why i stopped worrying about when a friend might backstab me, and just learned to enjoy their presence for what it's worth]

TL;DR: This was going to be a post about me warning people about how to be careful with who you chose to be your friend, but upon revision, I realize that's not the case. Be polite, be efficient, and have a plan to abscond from any toxic community that makes itself hell for you. So for a long LONG time I've spent on the internet I can say that I've probably only had one healthy relationship that lasted several years across the internet, and it was back when I was on Xbox live gold and farting around with other 12-17 yearolds. It was great but we all fizzled out when I lost access to one of my old accounts, but even then at that point life was getting to each one of us one by one. I share this because I think this was the only friend group that I've had online that was genuinely concerned about my well being more often than not, people i was safe sharing some slivers of my living situation with, sure not as much as I'm open to share now but I feel like it was fun. The other 2 major places I had hung out with were less so. One was a far right echo chamber that I had to be threatened with violence (among other things) to get out of [Thank god I actually respect my brother for this] and there was a mentally draining toxic as hell cesspit was slowly wearing me down until I eventual self-exiling. Not going to name names but, respectively These communities were a Doom Multiplayer Community, and the other was a Youtube community. The former I joined during the Height of the whole "Make America gooder again" bullshit parade. When I joined the server I was happy to finally find something that I can actually connect with outside of the random bullshit I was doing in Gmod and Roblox still. I had just started getting into sketching random ADHD addled story ideas in my study notebooks and I thought this was a good place to share them. Then I saw they had a Trump channel dedicated to political shitposting. I did not take this as a red flag at the time. I really REALLY should have. I did eventually start spending a lot of time with these people and forming genuine connections with them because well they seemed nice (and I had not come out as trans at that moment, I was still super masc Identifying despite having a MYRIAD OF FEMALE CHARACTERS AS MY PROFILE PIC) I shortly started distancing myself when I started casually saying antisemetic rhetoric and jokes in my real day-to-day life and my parents had every reason not to like that I did that.

Theeen they started makeing jokes about the Transgender suicide statistics. Then I got really REALLY icy with them and just gave them an Irish goodbye. And then after a while I just kind of went to youtube and started watching through random shit, and lo and behold a new "The Room" of Video games dropped and I was watching so many youtubers reviewing it because it was just SO BAFFLING to me. Through this I got in contact with another community I felt rather comfortable spending most of my time in. I was one of the first wave of people who were even aware of the central community's existence so it felt like I had found something cool! I chatted with a lot of people who were a lot more sane about current events and started making more genuine friends online again. About a year passes, server priorities were changed and I ended up being a solid part of the community, for better and worse. I did have a few hangups here and there, a few crazys here that made it clear that the community needed frequent moderators. And with that a few bad mods that either didn't do their job or rule lawyered over every single user that they didn't like. And then the first really bad thing happened to me. At this point the youtuber, a person who I kind of hung out with on the regular takes me and a few others and gives us a special secret role that sets us in a separate field that isn't visible to the regulars. Their reasoning was because the voice chat gets overwhelming while they're trying to work and talk with people. At the time I understood and for a while it was in fact a great place to hang out! And then one of the members lets slip that their wife actually owns their discord account and proceeds to make another to join the server.

I want to STRESS I met her when I was 17-coming on 18 when I continue down this part. I have already went into detail about how she really messed me up and I have named her on my twitter, but Tumblr won't get that honor (and also I don't want to get anymore death threats over how their favorite furry vtuber got scared off the platform by a meanie clout chaser). For a while the friendgroup and I got along great, including and ESPECIALLY me and the "wife" as I'll dub her, the youtuber, and quite a few other people. Time passes, I find out about how "wife" streams occasionally and since i'm starting to get into watching live streams I decide to give her a watch a few times. Then I let slip that I just turned 18 after a birthday recently. Biggest fucking mistake of my life, I now know that I did the equivalent of accidentally letting a vampire into my life. She then proceeded to slide into my DMs about increasingly lewd topics. I had BILLIONS of questions comments and concerns running through my brain but for some reason I ignored all of the red flags because a girl was interested in me and at the time... i was a little attention starved. Things got more clearly gold-diggy as time went on, her not so subtly bugging me for free art and amazon gifts when I in fact did not have a job and barely any money. On top of the fact she was going around in the youtuber's chatrooms asking for games so she can stream, flat out. But I still thought nothing of it, that it was all ok. It didn't matter that she was married, right? So I hang out with her, Dm her, and attend her streams quite a bit more frequently. I allowed her to all but fully bully me under the guise that it's just a fetish thing, that I haven't voiced consent for because it genuinely flustered me in a way I liked. I even drew fanart of her fursona both lewd and not lewd!!! And then she sends me a picture of a thousand dollar bad dragon dildo. She starts by asking which one she should get, I joke about getting one with seminal fluids, and the bold bitch straight up asks me to help pay for it. I told her "I don't actually have any money to do so... sorry." Trying to let her down gently instead of saying what i was thinking "Why the FUCK are you asking me to help you pay for a thousand dollar monster cock." She went "oh :c" and left me alone for the night. The Next fucking morning a friend asked in voice chat "So uh... did anybody else get "the wife" asking them to help her pay for a thousand dollar dildo?" At that moment my image of her and our relationship was fucking obliterated. It fucking emotionally ruined me. I have some inkling of an idea as to why I was so emotionally invested in this relationship of what was essentially sexting. I ended up recieving one end of a girlfriend treatment affair with The "Husband and Wife" and when this all came to light the illusion faded. I wasn't having a meaningful relationship with anybody! It was just a transaction on one end and I was about ready to just fully dedicate to the bad end of simp culture!!! like full stop she was manipulating not just ME but a whole slew of potential paypigs to bankroll her streaming career. We eventually ban her for the implications of knowing me since I was a minor and probably intelligently sussing me out as a potential paypig. At that point I became a moderator for the community and... unfortunately I was a terrible moderator there.

#rambles #random thoughts #cw: trauma #trauma dumping #friendships #Don't let the dark thoughts win >:u #wall of text #too long #i'm so fucking sorry lol #generic posts #multiple posts

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ullwinner · 1 year

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I posted 64 times in 2021

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For every post I created, I reblogged 11.8 posts.

I added 181 tags in 2021

#text - 52 posts

#art - 18 posts

#pic - 17 posts

#hbtqia+ - 14 posts

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#come on guys. we can’t just let belgium do better than us!

My Top Posts in 2021

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Wanted to get a more genderfluid hair cut.

When I want short, I can put up my hair in a man bun/high bun and when I want long, I just let my hair, a long bit left over the undercut, out.

The stylist asked if she could make an inbaked braid, And I have never had one so I said yeah.

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A ask About my agenderness

Hey, could you tell me a bit about your experience as agender? For example how you figured out you're agender, what's your relationship with gender, what pronouns do you use, struggles, representation etc.

Thanks!

Sincerely, A slightly gender confused child

Ok, so, I lost your ask, SO I am tagging you. @official-virtual-hug-dealer

I am not the standard when it comes to gender or agender and this post is long so i’ll try doing a read more

Very different childhood, not bad, just different from most.

My mother was raised with different “Fancy” “high class” standards, Make-up mostly no (She learned only about old types of make-up that was not great for the body), natural beauty, pretty nails not need, Shaving was not as important to her to talk about to me as I mostly wore long armed and long-legged clothing (When I started wearing shorter, then she started), clothing not an issue, etc.

That, plus other stuff, meant that it took a long time to realize that I was different gender-wise, just thought I was different because childhood.

When you think you’re different just because your family is different, then you can dismiss differences between you and others.

If my mom had push me to be more fem, I may have realize sooner, because I would have been uncomfortable on my non-fem days

how you figured out you're agender:

It started after realizing that people feel gender.

I started thinking, what am I?

Big epiphany a day when the towel over my body laid in a way that made it look like a male part. My brain went: that’s a penis you have and I felt not bad no matter how long I looked or thought about it.

Just a few days earlier I had looked at my foot imaging it being like a chimpanzee, spreading it out and moving the toes, and after a minute, it felt so wrong that I had to look away.

I started recording when I felt a type of way about gender. When I felt masc, fem, and when I felt nothing.

I used to correct people about gender but after I thought about it, I realized that I am fine with any, I only corrected because I was taught that female was right and male was not me. I also wanted to show a different type of women.

It took years to find agender and many more to accept it. (This is first year as out to anyone).

what's your relationship with gender: Gender? I hardly know her! But for real, I can see gender mostly when it comes to others.

One day, I put up my hair. My brain went: A girl. I paused, put my hair in a different way, and my brain went: a man.

I let my hair down and asked my brain, what now, And it was silent.

what pronouns do you use: All except English It/itself, but haven’t had the chance to test any except hon(Swedish she) which I don’t always like and I think I like Hen (a Swedish gender neutral)

struggles:

1. Imposter syndrome, which my genderfluidity is not helping. (When I write “Hon”, I felt bad as today is apparently not a girl day, but 2 days ago I was a girl and thought I was fake, being not cis),

2. accepting that I am part of the trans and nonbinary umbrella (After thinking that I “was not a part of that” for so long, it’s hard to stop),

3. getting others to understand, accepting, and not feel pity because I don’t feel gender. It’s hard to explain to some who need to understand to really accept.

You don’t have to do that but I really really wanted this person to understand. So.

Representation: I am still trying to involve myself in agender things so I don’t know much but, as far as I can tell, we don’t have much.

Most you may find on sites are not human (Robots, aliens, monsters etc) but are around humans.

It’s, in those cases, not the character finding agender and making themselves id as agender, the maker just didn’t give them an id or the media uses agender for things that don’t have a sex and/or as a form of dehumanizing/ seeing or showing the character as not human.

Some reclaiming probably does happen with those characters.

My Tips if you are wondering about your gender is:

1. read about all sorts of gender, (Even “silly” ones).

2. find a label that you like, Labels are meant to make you happy

3. Remember presentation is not gender, pronouns don’t automatically mean any one gender.

4. If how you feel about your gender changes, that’s ok, no matter how many times it does.

5. Try looking at stuff beyond gender eyes (binding, tucking, make-up, sport) What makes you happy, what makes you comfortable etc. Do them, even if you aren’t a part of those who do that. If it makes you feel good(And doesn’t hurt anyone, Including you!), then it’s not bad.

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Agender Pride (A part of a longer post)

Agender Pride

When I was young, I didn’t understand trans people. I didn’t know that others carried baskets of gender, that they could look in their baskets and see their gender. I thought that everyone felt like me: “you don’t Feel like a gender, you just are”.

But as I grew older, I met trans people, and saw on Tumblr, how they talked about feeling their gender, how even cis people feel their gender. I wasn’t the norm, everyone else felt gender.

I was Alone.

And then I found the term Agender and I wasn’t alone anymore.

I don’t feel the same as all of you. I don’t (right now, it may change) feel gender dysphoria or euphoria, And I am sure that some of you don’t feel with my description of Agender. It’s an umbrella term after all and its definition even as a non-umbrella term is meant to include us all.

But I wanted to share this, on this Agender day, to show one of the many ways you can feel as Agender.

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What my gender feels like for me and why I use Agender.

Explanation of gender and My gender.

Imagine that everyone has a basket full of stuff. That stuff is their gender. The gender binary is apples and oranges.

In order to know what gender you are, you have to pick up and look at what you are carrying.

Trans people carry their actually gender in their basket but wear the clothes of their AGAB.

Some people have grapefruit and say: Well, it isn’t an apple, so it must be an orange.” It kind of looks like an orange, but something feels off when they call it an orange.

Some have bananas and quickly feel like something’s up. It’s not an apple or an orange, but unless they learn about other things, they will only think that there is something weird with them.

Genderfluid people carry multiple things so when they look every day, what they pick up out of their basket can be different.

People carry their baskets differently as well. Some carry on their back, not really seeing their gender until they turn to look, some on their front where their gender is always in the periphery, and the smallest movement can bring attention to their gender.

But no matter how you carry, you can do sudden moves that bring forth the gender. the movements are also different for differnet people, but like all of the above, have some taught aspects.

Other people can ask or say something that reminds you of your gender as well.

Things Like: “Apples left, oranges right”, “oranges are so weird”, “If you are not an orange, then you are an apple”

Most of the time, I don’t carry a basket. My parents may have dress me to signal that I’m an apple carrier, and people look at me and think I have apples, but I don’t most of the time.

On rare days I do carry a basket and most of those days it’s apples, but some days it is not.

But because of those few days with apples, I have internalized saying I have apples, even when I don’t, and it took a longer time for me to realize and accept that I mostly don’t.

People ask: “What are you carrying?”, and I say Apples, because that’s what others have taught me

All ideas of "What color are the things you are carrying?", "Maybe you are carrying oranges!" "You just check what you're carrying!" etc, are confusing. I carry nothing.

I have had a hard time describing why I don’t identify with gendervoid. For me, being gendervoid is carrying an empty basket/ a basket with a blackhole. You can see or feel void. I don’t carry a basket, so I don’t feel the void.

Agender Pride

But as I grew older, I met trans people, and saw on Tumblr, how they talked about feeling their gender, how even cis people feel their gender. I wasn’t the norm, everyone else felt gender.

I was Alone.

And then I found the term Agender and I wasn’t alone anymore.

But I wanted to share this, on this Agender day, to show one of the many ways you can feel as Agender.

12 notes • Posted 2021-05-19 09:45:46 GMT

Explaintion of gender and My gender.(Agenderfluid) (Part of a longer post)