Vielleicht habe ich mir diese Krankheit nicht ausgesucht,

aber irgendwie halte ich krampfhaft an ihr fest.

- iamthedisorder

Diagnosetermin

Genau heute, in einer Woche, Donnerstag, den 04.04.2024 habe ich meinen ersten Termin bei einem Therapeuten. Aktuell bin ich noch gar nicht nervös oder aufgeregt. Warum auch? Es ist ein Termin wie jeder anderer. Das rede ich mir aktuell jedenfalls ein. Bleiben wir gespannt.

Fakt ist: Ich nehme euch mit auf die Reise zu einem besseren Ich.

PLEASE, I NEED HELP. THIS IS SERIOUS.

This text is for professional psychologists or people, who have a system, due to trauma.

I was at school today, and I had a stupid idea: pretending to not to be myself. I was pretending to be a character based on Ticci Toby. At first, everything was fine - I was thinking, that I was him, I was thinking like him, but it was only visible for myself. Later on pfif lesson (basics of photography and film), I was pinching my hand. I didn't know why, I was just doing it. Later, I went to men's bathroom. I'm nonbinary myself, but I don't go to men's bathroom, because I'm embarassed. But not this time. Later, it got worse. My friend started to talk to me. I wanted to go back to "normal", but I couldn't. It was impossible. At first, I was just nodding my head or doing small movements, but when she asked "How are you today?" - the problem started. I was struggling to speak, I was doing the "eeee" noise, later I said "I don't know". Then, I finally started to speak in a very low voice and stuttering. I got "normal", when I was on a train (my way home: tram, train, getting home with dad). When I got to the car, my dad asked me something about time. And something weird happened - I couldn't remember, what month it is. My head was just empty. Nothing. After like a couple moments of thinking, I remembered, that it was my birthday not a long time ago, so I remembered it was december. When my dad asked me "How was school today?", the same thing happened. There was nothing inside my head.

I did some reaserch about a thing called "did". I have no idea, if I have this, my dad said to not to do reaserch, because it will end up not very well. Wikipedia said something about trauma, and I remembered something, that has influence on me right now. When I was 11, I was constantly watching p*rn (I'm serious). Like, I was even addicted. I stopped at the age of 13, but it still has influence on me today. (I'm 15 right now).

I was diagnosed with something that not a long time ago was called "Aspergers syndrome". Right now, it's called autism spectrum, I think (?). I do take pills, although I take them since a very long time, and this incident happened today.

I am going to visit a professional psychologist, but on the begginigng of February, and I need help as soon as it's possible.

I have some questions for people, that know more than me:

Is it possible, that I may have did or some other personality disorder?

Is it even possible for this to start at such a late age? (once again, I'm 15)

How can it stop? Can it even stop?

I am worried. If you know about this more than me, please write something in the comments. If you are not a professional psychologist, but for example a person with did, I may not listen to the comment fully, because you know... You're not a doctor. But any help, even a good word, will be helpful.

Thank you for reading this.

(sorry for my bad English, I am Polish)

Heute geht's zum nächsten Arzt. Mal sehen auf was meine Probleme diesmal geschoben wird...

Waiting for a meeting with a psychiatrist

We will see what will she say

We will see if she finds out about my cuttings

I'll try talking her into doing a diagnostic test

Maybe we will know something

I'll keep you updated

Wait about 40 minutes for the news!

How do you quit troubleshooting yourself?

Angelina Mazza, from “On Reflection” in Maisoneuve.org, Dec 16, 2022

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