So are any of you bumfucks on this godforsaken app gonna talk about how Brazil (Declan McKenna) was written By and For Ronan Lynch or am I gonna have to do it myself let’s do this bitches
Fair warning I’m sorta really bad at analysis according to every English teacher I’ve ever had so this is a lot of me freaking out but I think it turned out ok (this took half a year)
Starting off strong with Cars and Animals (Ronan’s favourite) !! Anyway the vibe I’m getting from this is like. The barns and then the He’s got eyes talks like an angel looks like me part is about the like. Greywaren vs Ronan Lynch dream vs human stuff we see in Greywaren (not super spoilery but it kinda doesn’t make sense unless u read the book lmao)
I could write a whole second post as long as this one just about this line but let me unpack this because ohhh my god. First up the use of religion is so perfect for mister Lynch over here and then. IM THE FACE OF GOD IM MY FATHERS SON IS INSANE FOR HIM IM GOING SO FERAL OVER THIS HE LITERALLY IS GOD AND HES HIS FATHERS SON (“and Ronan was everything that was left: molten eyes and a smile made for war” and also The Scene in TRK where Adam goes into Ronan’s room and thinks Niall is sitting on the bed) THIS IS CANON
He’s Not what u think u see he looks so mean but he just wants his little farm and for his husband to get into heaven when he dies (he’s worried about his agnostic tendencies) jk but this is 100% ab stereotypes and how Ronan doesn’t rly fit into what anyone thinks he is (the whole thing about Adam wanting to be unknowable and realizing Ronan Is Unknowable [poetry chefs kiss])
Can’t eat leather is so self explanatory. The bracelets are RIGHT THERE you can’t fool me Mr mckenna
I’m done. I’m done. I don’t even need to keep explaining this it’s RIGHT THERE AGH
And onto the ecoterrorism
I’m kidding (not really) bc this part always makes me think of literally the Entire Plot of TDT when Ronan is going around destroying capitalism to save dreamers. This IS the servers scene and the underwater pipeline and the Mirrors lady and also the way all of TDT is about self discovery and learning who you are and how to deal with that in a society made to destroy you and how isolating and sad that is (it gets him down 😞) and I can KEEP GOING
And just the way the song is so melancholy and also happy at once hits me so hard cause it feels like what the Barns does when you read the book like it SOUNDS like something Aurora would sing to kid Ronan it’s so homey and sweet but also sad and perfect
And obviously I don’t go through the whole song here but I feel that I’ve made my case sufficiently enough thanks for reading this far I love u mwah
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being true to my url, i HAVE to talk about the grace family rn and how all three of them were doomed from the start. (ao3 user loverboxd i am kissing u on the mouth btw)
first beryl. even if we only go off what we know of her in canon, which is very little, we know that a) she was an actress desperate for fame and controversy and b) she managed to win the affections of both zeus and jupiter. famously, women who were favoured or hell, targeted by zeus, didn't end up so well. whether they were victimised by his methods of getting to them, his attempts to cover it up or the wrath of his wife, those women end up, nine times out of ten, dead or cursed.
beryl is no different. in getting both zeus and jupiter, she opens herself up to twice the godly wrath. and not only that, but in the deeply toxic world of hollywood elitism, the only way to maintain the high she lives in is through excess - more drugs, more fame, more press, more affection from the most powerful of all gods, with little care for the consequences. if she continues her relationship with zeus/jupiter, she's going to die, but there isn't a world in which this is real enough of a threat for her to stop. if she continues to pursue fame and fortune, partying and doing drugs, at one point she will go too far, and she's going to die. and in my fic (here), if she stays at home and lives the life that is expected of her, her dissatisfaction would be too much for her to live with. beryl's life, through any and all of her choices, is predestined to be cut short. with or without zeus, with or without fame, beryl is fated to die.
then there's thalia. thalia, the firstborn daughter, a child that breaks the big 3 pact that, more than likely, her father was the one to propose, being the king of the gods. thalia is cursed from the moment she's born, through no fault of her own. there are only two outcomes for her - she will, as the (age-wise) oldest big 3 child, reach 16 and die in battle as per the prophecy, or she will run away from her fame-crazed, grief-stricken, drug-addicted mother and sacrifice her life at age 12 in order to save her new family. thalia's story ends in death in every iteration. zeus turning her into a tree saves her, but only temporarily. luke poisoning the tree almost kills her but then leads to her essentially coming back to life - only temporarily, before she turns 16 and is killed fighting kronos. she narrowly escapes her fate by circumventing it, choosing to stay 15 forever. thalia loses all of her biological family, and survives, ironically, by gaining access to her mother's greatest unfulfilled wish - to live forever.
lastly, jason. arguably the biggest victim of them all. jason does everything right when the odds are stacked against him. jupiter is harsher and colder than zeus. juno is even more vengeful than hera. beryl is much deeper into her insanity and addiction when he is born. at the age of 2 he is surrendered to juno and to wolves, trained to be the perfect hero, to command a legion, to save the world. his life is wracked with tragedy but he remains stoic, he's kind and thoughtful, he focuses on justice and duty, even when parts of his mother's endless ambition and his father's power start to shine through in MOA. he was groomed to be a leader but he accepts his position as the right thing to do and tries his best to be a classic, good hero. we don't know if the roman counterparts of the gods made the same oath, but even without that curse, jason is a pawn of juno's, uncared for by his father, and given the weight of the world to carry away from his own family. and he isn't even given the dignity of a mighty hero's death. his life is ended swiftly, violently, and then it's done. his entire life's purpose to help others, and no one to help him.
the grace family were always cursed. every single one of them was fated to die. greek or roman or hollywood bound, they are a tragedy.
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So Kira is here to ramble about one of the biggest problems that exists within Kumo and Kaze's relationship and it came up when Kumo was talking to Sam's Kaze. So for the sake of not confusing people to clarify, from this point in the post forward:
Kaze = Sam's Kaze (AU Timeline Kaze / Omega! Kaze)
Black Wind = Quen's Kaze ( Kumo's Other / Bahamut! Kaze)
So the one of the MANY things Kumo is struggling with is actually a huge problem between the two and Kumo explained it to Kaze, because they were talking about the differences in their age gaps, is that Black Wind slept for 12 years but consistently neglects to remember / realize / act on - the fact that Kumo was awake the entire time.
Kumo explained to Kaze "He fell asleep to a terrified boy and woke to an exhausted man. He wants me to see him how he is but in his eyes I am forever a child."
The problem here as Kumo explained to Kaze is "He seems to fail to respect the fact that, while the gaps must be terrifying and I am willing to help him with whatever he needs, the world did not simply stop without him and that I did not simply stop without him. "
Kumo went further to explain: "I have been here for nearly 15 long years now but to him, he has only been in Wonderland for 2 short years. The memories of my home have grown fuzzy in my mind but he can still hold his fresh in his hands has if it all happened only a few years ago. He has only known me for roughly 5 years if we count what Black Wind cannot remember, but I oh but I have known him for decades."
Kumo carried on further to explain: "Time moves differently for us."
And while at no fault of his own, I think it's important to remember that Kaze is missing over a decade's worth of time and in that decade Kumo grew from a boy into a man and he survived hardship after hardship all for the sake of keeping Kaze's sleeping form safe. Kumo was awake and Kumo was alone.
Kumo explained to Kaze further: "I used to sneak out to care for him. Brush his hair out and wash his face. I couldn't do much but I did whatever I could. I would get punished severely upon my return, but it was worth it in the end because someone needed to look after him."
So this aspect of "Black Wind is older than Kumo" by ten years is sort of a moot point at this point because by all rights - Kumo is older than Black Wind as he was awake for the entire time they've been in Wonderland. Kumo simply knows Wonderland better. By all rights, he's been there longer.
Kumo went through hell in the time Black Wind was asleep and it's important to remember that Kumo went through that hell for Black Wind's sake. He's seen horror and survived (and not survived) so much.
So just looking at the aspect of time wise: when it comes to knowing how Wonderland works and interacting with the people there and being able to speak a multitude of languages - more than just Wonderlandian, Misterican and Windarian -> Kumo had the time to learn them and he did. Kumo's aspirations and endgame goal were born from the fact that he's been in Wonderland for so long and experienced so much more of it.
From all his escape attempts to the horrendous tasks The Earl sent him out to do. He's simply experienced Wonderland more because he's been here for basically half his life at this point.
Time moves much slower for Kumo. That's why his soul scars have him so afraid because now it's not.
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to be clear i am not at all serious about this, but i went into a deep dive into the playlists (inconclusive but i had fun so-) and this is what i have done. the numbers are the song number in their playlists.
I also have no idea if this has been done or not. Like the playlists are from 2017 so I’m assuming so? but idk. anyways this was fun, thought i’d share. I bolded my favourite ones (also the most cohesive ones)
1. Small town boy, should I stay or should I go now?
2. Always there to remind me; walk on the wild side.
3. I can’t hear you, she blinded me with science.
4. Stuck in the middle with you; I ran (so far away).
5. I’m still standing in the face of evil.
6. Hold on- a real hero.
7. Mirror in the bathroom, still haunting me.
8. When love breaks down every breath you take.
9. Love is stranger under cover of darkness.
10. Radio, radio; beta girl lost in forever.
11. Don’t you want me? Upside-down and inside out.
12. teenage kicks, staying alive.
13. Ghostbusters, don’t you (forget about me).
14. Icky thump, running in the night.
15. Destination unknown? I won’t back down.
16. Something about you (7 version) searching the blue.
17. Are friends electric? You don’t mess around with Jim.
18. Slug song, if you leave.
19. You spin me round (like a record), run for cover.
20. Cars, under pressure.
21. You really got me afraid of everyone.
22. It’s my life, living on a prayer.
23. Space age love song, out of breath.
24. My generation; vale of shadows.
25. Dead of night; cold, cold, cold.
26. Start me up a victory of love.
27. Dark days, mad world.
28. Another one bites the dust. What is love?
29. Howlin’ for you, spirit of the night.
30. Telephone operator, don’t stop believing.
31. Hand on a gun, another brick in the wall.
32. Blue Monday, creature comfort.
33. Don’t you want me free falling?
34. Danger zone, after hours run.
35. Drawing board, too shy.
36. Carry on wayward son, no other way.
37. Machine age voodoo, beat the devil’s tattoo.
38. Everyday is Halloween, breath in (the air).
39. Echo home, make no mistake.
40. Ziggy stardust, shake your molecules.
41. Come a little closer? Run away.
42. War; sympathy for the devil.
43. It’s up to you now, if you leave.
44. How do you like me now, night crawler?
45. Blue veins, let’s cruise.
46. (Don’t fear) the reaper, be afraid.
this is some form of poetry. i can feel it. Mash song titles together and think- poetry. Some of these are pretty cool
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When you yell at me, I'm a child again, but I'm not a child. I'm 33.
You make jokes about my breasts, & suddenly I'm 10 years old again. But I'm not 10. I'm 33.
You tell me how "hot" or "sexy" I look and suddenly I'm 16 again being told by an Adult to put a shirt on because my Uncle had Adult Men coming over. But I' not 16. I'm 33.
You lie to me and suddenly I'm 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16 and 17, wondering why I'm the only one that tells the truth when everyone around me lies and why do you call me a liar when I'm the only one that is telling the truth? Only I'm no longer a child. I'm 33.
You chose them after you vowed me forever. Only I'm not 14, 15, 16, 19, 24, 27, 28, or 31. I'm 33.
When you tell me I'll never be a "Good Mother", and suddenly I'm 19 again sitting on stairs listening to the then love of my life and all of his family discussing taking away a possible future baby because, "I'll never make a good Mother". Crying on the floor because the ONE THING I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED, I allowed people to take away, and I agree with you, breaking my own heart. Only I'm not 19. I'm 33.
I'm 33 now and I still carry the weight of all of my life experiences leading up to now. For so many reasons, throughout every interaction I have with people who seem to think they know better than I do when it comes to my life, I age regress and I go back to a time that you were never even there for.
Yet somehow... EVERY. SINGLE. WORD that you EVER speak, whisper and/or yell at me, or even the passive aggressive actions you do when you are angry, EVEN WHEN IT IS NOT AT ME, send me right back to that place that I never want to remember.
You were never even there!
Then the question "Why does this remind me of home when you weren't even there?" arised and the following question came up:
"Why is home a place of Chaos, pain and hurt?" I left that home at 19 years old and I promised myself I would never return to a place that classified any of this as "LOVE" and yet, I created that exact "Home" I ran away from as a child.
So instead of running away as an Adult, I changed the people around me. I moved myself. I chose better for myself. I raised my Standards and FINALLY chose myself over every single person that I love more than myself, for my own sanity, peace, happiness and overall well-being.
I have a choice NOW and I have a voice NOW and that is why I choose to walk away from people that do not serve my life in a good purpose.
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Sex Ed Final
Going through this semester has really opened my eyes to how sexual wellbeing connects to your overall wellbeing. In this class we made journals for modules 3,5 and 6. It helped me keep focused on all the parts in this program, not just a test here and a reading there. I personally was hit with module 5. Module 5 was about how we as people express the love language and how we show it. Chapter 11 brought me into a whole new territory, I have always had the mindset that sex is love. It’s not but growing up with little to know parental presence I was always looking to be loved. I started hanging around people who were 16,17 and 18 at the age of 14 and a big part of that was because I was looking to be loved. My husband was 18 when we got together. It wasn’t love back then it was co-dependency and we both know this. He was dependent on drugs, and I was dependent on feeling wanted and needed. We had many ups and downs throughout the years. This class has stabilized our marriage. We now are using actual means of communication and affection to each other. We learned what love languages looked like together and apart and how they work together. This was new to both of us, we would not be as strong as we have become this last year in our relationship if it wasn’t for this class in my opinion.
What really jumped out to me in chapter 9 was the statistics that the book had offered. Things like "6 percent of adolescents have sex before age 13 (Eaton et al., 2012). Experts agree that sex at age 15 or earlier is “early” sex and that it carries a number of risks (Price & Hyde, 2009)." The reasoning behind this is I don’t know if I was just engaging in life before my time or what but, that 6 percent just doesn’t seem realistic to me. Now if it would have said the 6 percent that doesn’t engage early. That would have been believable. The reason being is I was engaging in sexual behaviors un-forced by age 12. I thought this was normal too. I peaked in sexual activity when I was about 14 years old and had my son by 15. Partly the people I surrounded myself with at that time and partly because I felt I could do anything an adult could because not like anybody was going to stop me. So, reading the statistics on this was shocking. It did explain why I went through a whore faze just trying to figure out what a real connection was when I was 17.
We may look a little deeper into chapter 10, it brought a fight or flight message to me. Chapter 10 brings up Co-habitation and how it is a doomed day to marriage that I really didn’t understand. It still doesn’t make sense when I think about it either. Co-habitation is a part of our nature, not even in a sexual manner either. We as mammals thrive off the connection of others. It also made me think about how some religious groups who say you can’t live together before marriage confuse me, you never know who somebody really is until you are around them regularly, you get sick, healthy, angry and happy. You see how they cope when they are stressed and what they truly believe in. I always believe that if you do not stay actively in your habitat with somebody you can end up in over your head when it comes time to be forever or never.
Thankfully this chapter brought my attention to how married couples have dry spells in life and in the bedroom. That is normal and it’s okay. What scarred me about this chapter was the rates of failure in relationships that fact that when studied thirty-seven percent of men and thirty-eight percent of woman admitted they believed they would cheat. Yes, flirting is cheating. For two people who mutually agree to monogamy have such a high rate to believe they will step out of the relationship for a feeling of desire.
What I didn’t expect from this class was a sense of realization to help my relationship and bring unity to my marriage. I originally signed up for this class just because I needed a health credit. I am happy with my choice, this class has given me an understanding of the differences and similarities that sexuality plays on our daily lives, as well as how to approach the differences amongst people. I learned how there are different groups of love, it’s not just an “I love you, you love me” relationship. I learned it’s a triangle and realistically we need all points to excel. I learned how the development of fetishes and kinks are created in one’s brains. Coming from somebody has actively participated in the world of femdom/fetdom as a dominant this class has truly given me some insight, I never thought about in doing such behaviors.
Sexual Coercion was a very well written chapter to investigate. It brings attention to information most people don’t really consider as coercion. I am however appalled at the rapes reported. When you think about it that is just the amount of people who admit they were raped what about the countless MEN and women who don’t report. Rape is a serious problem and its not just a woman problem. Rape is one of the worst crimes that can be committed yet it is treated as if the victim is crazy, or they just drank to much. Never has a police officer asked a victim of car jacking or even mugging “Are you sure you didn’t want your car stolen?” as that is honestly a big message, we as society need to get across. How come the rape victim isn’t just believe and supported that they need to prove they were a victim. If we stop acting as if its up to the victim to prove that they were attacked, we might have a more accurate representative on how much rape actually occurs.
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*holds the microphone up to Cookie* For the ask game -Joel
1) How did you get your name?
2) Age?
Late 30s early 40s
3) Height?
Who's to say? Taller than Nate. I don't know if I'm taller than Jay. This is all pretendsies anyway. Might change my mind later.
4) Are you nonhuman?
Nope!
6) Favorite colour?
Orange.
7) What languages can you speak? Does the body know them?
English and basic Spanish. Same for us actually.
8) What's something you consider yourself good at?
At the moment I excel at thinking too much and making myself sad. My biggest flaw is I'm a perfectionist! In five years I hope to see myself still alive.
9) Any foods you'd like to try?
No 🧡 I'm a boxed in bitch. In my comfort zone and thriving. On my autism game. (Chuck says he wants to go to a Margaritaville but I know we wouldn't eat seafood so it'd just be for the ambiance 😒)
10) Do you have a playlist for yourself? What's the most 'you' song on it? How long is the playlist?
Both Award Show and Stress by Jim's Big Ego are very me. I also like the band Cheekface.
11) Are you a subsystem?
No.
12) Coke or pepsi?
Diet Coke.
13) For Fictives: Would you recommend others watch/read/ect your source?
Can't be much worse than the current fans. Go nuts.
14) Do you have an inner world? Anything neat go on there?
We just woke up again after having a system reset so there's not much complexity right now. I have an apartment though. It sucks shit.
15) How does being a system affect you in everyday life?
As a girl it made me mysterious and therefore irresistible to socially inept and emotionally unstable nerds that projected their ideas of what I was onto me. As a man it makes my clothing style difficult to categorize and financially unfeasible.
16) Are you open about it?
I've told a couple people. It feels very important to us, it's a big part of who we are and it hurts to not be seen as ourselves, but when we've told people it hurts more to see the confusion or disinterest. So we don't talk about it usually.
17) Anything you carry with you to help feel more like yourself?
Our main way of expressing ourselves is by dressing as ourselves so clothes.
18) If you could change the body at all, would you? Howso?
I'd want to have my voice but. I don't know about other people. I wouldn't feel comfortable doing anything permanent, knowing I'm just a renter.
19) Does your gender or sexuality differ from your "singletsona" at all?
We're a trans guy, but I'm a cis guy. Honestly a lot of us are cis men so that translates to transitioning to male. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
20) Favorite song in general?
Award Show or Stress.
21) Tell a random fact about yourself
I'm brand new! I just woke up! I'm scared of going away forever! Just alter things!
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You Were Made for This Moment
Today's inspiration comes from:
You Were Made for This Moment
by Max Lucado
‘To whom will you compare Me? Or who is My equal?’ says the Holy One.
— Isaiah 40:25
As Moses announced:
"'Who among the gods is like You, Lord? Who is like You — majestic in holiness? — Exodus 15:11
And the psalmist asked:
Who in the skies is comparable to the Lord? Who among the sons of the mighty is like the Lord? — Psalm 89:6 NASB
As Augustine prayed:
What then are you my God? What, I ask, except the Lord God. For who is the Lord besides God? Or who is God besides our God? — Most high, most good, most powerful, most omnipotent, most merciful and most just, most secret and most present; most beautiful and most strong; most stable and incomprehensible; unchangeable (yet) changing all things; never new, never old; making all things new, and bringing the proud to (the collapse of) old age; ever acting, ever at rest; gathering, and not needing; carrying and filling and protecting (all things); creating and nourishing and perfecting; seeking, though you lack nothing.1
Consider the work of His hands.
But ask the animals, and they will teach you,
or ask the birds of the air, and they will tell you.
Speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish of the sea tell you.
Every one of these knows
that the hand of the Lord has done this.
The life of every creature
and the breath of all people are in God’s hand. — Job 12:7-10 NCV
The next time you feel the weight of the world, talk to the One who made the world. As your perception of God grows greater, the size of your challenge grows smaller. If God can sway the heart of a Persian monarch, if He can reverse certain death into victorious life, if He can turn a scheduled holocaust into an annual holiday, do you not think He can take care of you?
I’m sorry for your exile in Persia. I’m sorry for your deep wounds and weariness. I’m so sorry that you so quickly understand the meaning of words like pain, fear, and sadness.
"Relief will come. Will you be a part of it?"
— Max Lucado
Springtime seems like forever from now, I know. But, friend, it isn’t. The story of Esther dares you to believe that God, though hidden, is active. He brings life out of broken things. The apostle Paul was summarizing Esther when he wrote:
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. — Romans 8:28
“We know,” Paul said. There are so many things in life we do not know. We do not know if the economy will dip or if our team will win. We don’t always know what our kids are thinking or our spouse is doing. But according to Paul we can be dead certain of four things.
We know God works. He is busy behind the scenes, above the fray, and within the fury. He hasn’t checked out or moved on. He is ceaseless and tireless.
He never stops working for our good. Not for our comfort, pleasure, or entertainment, but for our good. Since he himself is the ultimate good, would we expect anything else?
To do this He uses all things. Panta in Greek. As in panoramic or panacea or pandemic. All inclusive. God works, not through a few things or just the good things, best things, or easy things, but in all things God works.
He works for the good of those who love Him. Good things happen to those who trust God. The umbrella of God’s providence does not extend to cover the evil and hard-hearted. But for those who seek Him and His will, in all things God works.
A puppet in the hands of fortune and fate? Not you. You are secure in the hands of a living and loving God.
A random collection of disconnected events? Far from it. Your life is a crafted narrative written by the Author of life, who is working toward your supreme good and a sublime ending.
Relief will come.
Will you be a part of it?
It seems to me that the entire world is in a state of trauma. People do not know why they were born or where they are destined to go. This is the age of much know-how and very little know-why. The invisible enemies of sin and secularism have left us dazed and bewildered.
The world needs you! We need people with the resolve of Mordecai and the courage of Esther. The world is in desperate need of a people of God who will stay steady in the chaos.
People like the ones who gathered in war-torn London. No one would have blamed them for canceling church services on that Sunday morning. A bombing raid had roared in the city throughout the night. London was a circle of fire. Buildings were destroyed. Even the walls of this church were flattened. Members arrived to find pews covered with dust and mortar. But rather than despair, they chose to worship. Amid the heaps of stones they began to sing:
The church’s one foundation is Jesus Christ her Lord; She is His new creation, By Spirit and the Word: From Heav’n He came and sought her
To be His holy Bride,
With His own blood He bought her, And for her life He died.
Can you envision that circle of brave souls? Smack-dab in the center of global chaos, they worshipped. They set their faith on our unfailing God. The song was an admonition of sorts, a declaration of truth amid a crumbling society.
The song may well have saved the life of Ben Robertson. He was an American war correspondent who had arrived in London the day before. The night bombing left him undone and terrified. The explosions, sirens, and cries of the wounded caused him to despair of life itself.
“If this is what modern civilization has brought us to — if this is the best that modern man can achieve, then let me die,” he prayed.
At some point he dozed off. He awoke to the unexpected sound of people singing a hymn. He looked out the window and saw the congregation gathered in the rubble.
He later wrote: “Suddenly I saw in the world something that was unshatterable — something that had endured through millennia, something that was indestructible — the spirit and life and power of Jesus Christ within His Church.”2
Bombs are still dropped. Worlds still explode. Walls still collapse. Pandemics still rage. But in the midst of it all, the Lord still has His people. And when they proclaim the truth of God in the middle of a crumbling world, you never know who might be changed.
God is in the middle of this. This steep climb. This uphill struggle. This cold, fierce headwind you are facing. You feel overwhelmed. Weary. Ill-equipped to weather it. But lift up your eyes. That is your Father standing on the driveway. He is in this moment with you. Who knows but that you have been chosen for such a time as this?"'
Fr. William Most, “Excerpts from St. Augustine,” 1.4, EWTN, https://www.ewtn.com/catholicism/library/excerpts-from-st-augustine-9962.
Benjamin P. Browne, Illustrations for Preaching (Nashville, TN: Broadman, 1977), 72–73.
Excerpted with permission from You Were Made for This Moment by Max Lucado, copyright Max Lucado.
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Need a place to save my life’s work for keeps- they do say the internet is forever...
I have fears of losing my master music collection that I’ve been curating since I stole an ipod out of a drunk dudes tent while he was passed out in my backyard and hand recorded each song so, without further explanation, may I present “The Collection” in complete text file.
COLLECTION 1:
11 Girls
12 12
13 She Way Out
14 Menswear
15 Play It Loud
15 Pressure
18
25 to life
27
1000 nights
1983
1994
1996
1998
A heartbreak
A million men
Acadia
Achievement
Acid rain
Adderall
Addict with a pen
Addict
Afraid
Again
Against the grain
Agnes
Ain't gonna drown
Air I breathe
Alaska
All about us
All day and all of the night
All the kids are depressed
Alone
Always
An art gallery could never be as magnificent as yo
Anchor
Another brick in the wall
Apologize
Are you gonna be my girl
Asshole
Astoria
At seventeen
Atmosphere
Away
Ayahuasca
Back to you
Backbeat
Bad Bitch
Bad boy
Bad habit
Bad liar
Bad Reputation
Bad things
Ballin
Barbed wire
Barcelona
Basket case
Be wherever you are
Beautiful
Because We Can
Beggar In The Morning (Barr Brothers)
Beggin for thread
Belong
Berzerk
Beside you
Between us
Big girls don't cry
Big machine
Big yellow taxi
Bills
Bite my tongue
Bitter leaf
Black And Yellow (Dirty)
Black Betty
Black Holes
Blackbird
Bleed it out
Bleed
Bleeding out
Bliss
Blood in the cut
Blood water
Boogie
Born to die
Bourbon
Break my heart again
Breakeven
Breathe me
Breathe
Broken bones
Broken
Brother
Bruises
Bubbly
Bud like you
Build it better
Bury it
Buzzcut season
California rain
Call me
Calm down
Can't stop
Capable
Capsize
Carry on
Cavern's dark
Caves
Cecilia and the satellite
Ceilings
Celebrity status
Chanel
Change it all
Changes
Charlemagne
Charlie brown
Chasing cars
Chasing pavement
Chateau
Chemicals
Chemistry
Chills
Chris Collins - Ain't Ready
Chris Tomlin - Good Good Father
Chris Young - Goodbye
Chris Young - I'm Comin' Over
Chris Young - Lonely Eyes
Cigarettes & Loneliness
City life
Clarity
Classy girls
Clementine
Cleopatra
Clocks
Coastline
Cocaine
Coconut water
Cold wind blows
Come and get your love
Come hang out
Come Together
Comfort of strangers
Connection
Conquest
Could it be another change
Crazy bird
Crazy love
Cringe
Cross my mind
Dance
Dancing in the daylight
Dani California
Dark necessities
Day gaunts
Daydream
Daydreamer
Days move easy
Deep end
Defeated
Different
Dissolve
DNA
Do I wanna know
Do it alone
Do you feel it
Done with love
Don't bring me down
Don't Forget Where You Belong
Don't just sit here and drink yourself to death
Don't let me get me
Don't threaten me with a good time
Don't
Dots and dashes
Down on my luck
Downtown
Drama
Drift
Drive
Drops Of Jupiter
Drug ballad
Drugs 2
Drugs 3
Drunk
Ease
Echo
Edge of town
Elegy
Elevator
Eminem - Drug Ballad
Eminem - Without Me
End of the summer
Ends of the earth (live)
Epiphany
Eros and Apollo
Ever since new york
Everybody gets high
Everybody wants to rule the world
Everything is alright
Eye to eye
Eyes closed
Face
Fake you out
Fall for you
Fall
Fancy shoes
Far alone
Faux
Favorite color is blue
Feel it still
Feeling whitney
Feels
Female energy
Fight song
Fire and the flood
First time he kissed a boy
First
Flashed Junk Mind
Fool for love (live)
Fool for love
Foolish love
Forces of the unseen
Foreplay
Forever ago
Forget about dre
Freaks and Geeks
Friends
From the dining room
Full disclosure
Genghis Khan
Geronimo
Get away
Giants
Girl I met on the internet
Girls like girls
Girls your age
Girls, Girls, Boys
Give me one reason
Give me something
Go flex
Go fuck yourself
Go
God I hope this year is better than the last
God is on the move
Gold
Good girl
Good man, bad man
Good old days
Gotta be somebody
Green light
Greenback Boogie
Grown up
Gummy
H.S.K.T
Halcyon
Hall of Fame (ft. will.i.am)
Hallucinogenics
Hands on the wheel
Hannah
Hard feelings
Harry Styles - Sign Of The Times
Hash pipe
Heartbeat
Heaven
Hello my old heart
Here comes a thought
Here it goes again
Here we are
Hideaway
Highschool
Holdin out
Holocene
Holy Spirit - Francesca Battistelli
Home
Homegrown
Homesick
Honey sweet
Honey whiskey
Hopeless
Hors d'oeuvre
Hot mess
Hotel Andrea
Houdini
How we feel
I Am Who Am
I built a friend
I can't stand it
I don't mind
I Dont Wanna Live Forever - Zayn and Taylor Swift Cover
I feel everything
I follow rivers
I get knocked down
I hate myself for loving you
I have made mistakes
I know what I am
I know you care
I know you love to fall
I love you so
I might
I need a woman
I need some sleep
I run empty
I told you I was mean
I wanna get better
I want to feel alive
I Will Always Be Yours
I will follow you into the dark
I will follow
I won’t give up
Iggy Azalea - Work
I’m alive
I’m an Albatraoz
I’m not famous
I’m not really fine
I’m ready
I’m with you
Imma Be
Impossible
In my head
In my veins
In spite of all the danger
In the end
In too deep
Ink
Innocence
Insecure
Into the sun
Iridescent
Island In The Sun
Islands
It’s;s not my fault, I'm happy
It’ss not over
It’ss on us
It’ss time
Jenny
Jet Pack Blues
Jocelyn flores
Juicy sweatsuits
Jukebox Hero
Jump
Just can't get enough
Just to get high
Kate Voegele - Hallelujah
Keep your head up
Kids
Killing me to love you
Kings
Kiss like a woman
Kitchen sink
L.S.D.
La la la
Laser gun
Last of her kind
Latch - Kodaline
Laughing on the outside
Leave a trace
Lemon boy
Lemon to a knife fight
Let you down
Letdown
Let's Skip To The Good Bit
Liability
Lies, Lies, lies
Lifted up
Lighters
Like gold
Like toy soilders
Lil Wayne - Mirror (feat. Bruno Mars)
Little do you know
Little secrets
Little Things
Little white lies
Location
Lone digger
Lonely alone
Lonely boy
Lose yourself
Lost generation
Lost in space
Lost kitten
Lost song
Lost
Love again
Love game
Love is mystical
Love like this
Love lockdown
Love on the brain
Love somebody
Love
Loveless
Lover boy
Lovesick
Mad behaviour
Mad Sounds
Mad world
Magnets
Malibu
Mama always told me
Mars
Me
Medicated
Meet me halfway
Meet me in the woods (live)
Memo
Mercedes Benz
Mercury
Middle fingers
Migraine
Mockingbird
Moments I’m missing
More
Morphine
Mountain to move
Mr Jones
Must be the ganja
My band
My fault.m4a
My generation
My house
My Lighthouse (The Rend Collective)
My name is
My own worst enemy
Nancy Drew
Need you now
Neptune
Netflix & Dusse
Netflix
Never enough
New fears
Nightshift
No angels
No CD
No faith in brooklyn
No interruption
No love
No name
No scrubs
No stranger
Norwegian Wood
Nostalgia
Not afraid
Not too late
Nothing without love
Nothing wrong with me
Numb
Number one
Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da
Ocean eyes
Oceans
Ode to the bouncer
Oh well
Old friends
Old pine
Old school turntables
On the other side
On top of the world
On top of the world
One man town
Ooh la
Ophelia
Out of it
Out of mind
Overdose
Owl City - Fireflies
Paint
Paper crown
Paper moon
Paper thin
Parasites
Past lives
Peach pit
Peanut butter jelly
Perfect day
Perfect places
Perfect.wma
Pills n potions
Pink lemonade
Pink Love
Plastic dreams
Play with fire
Pleader
Please don't say you love me
Plot twist
Pork soda
Pretty little gangster
Priorities
Promise
Promising light
Pump up the jam
Punchin bag
Punching in a dream
Purple Haze
Questions
Radio
Rap God
Raw
Ready to change
Rebel Rebel
Rebel
Recover
Rental
Replay
Revenge
Ribs
Ride
River
Rivers and roads
Robbers
Rock and Roll
Rock 'n' roll ain't noise pollution
Role model
Roman Holiday
Run rabbit run
Run
Runaway
Running
Sad Machine
Sad
Salt
Satellite
Saving us a riot
Saw mill
Say anything.m4a
Say anything.wma
Say my name
Scary Love
Science vs Romance
Secrets
Self control
Senior skip day
Settle down
Seventeen
Sex
She moves in her own way
She was
Sheep
She's dope
Ships in the night
Shout
Show it to me
Sick of it
Silly boys
Simple song
Simplethings
Sing for the moment
Sirens
Skinny love
Sleep in the heat
Sleep on the floor
Sleepless
Smile
Sober up
Sober
Someone New
Someone to stay
Someone to you
Songs about your girlfriend
Sorry
Soul To Squeeze [October 1993]
Space bound
Spaceman
Starcrossed losers
Stay high
Stay quiet
Stay together
Step
Stoned & Starving
Stop the world I wanna get off with you
Strange love
Strangers
Stronger than I was
Stuck with me
Suburbia
Summer
Summersong
Super far
Superhero
Surrender
Surround me
Sweatpants
Sweet Child O'Mine
Sweet creature
Sweet dreams
Sweet
Sweetest thing
T.I - Dead And Gone Ft. Justin Timberlake - Copy
Take control
Take it slowly
Talk to me
Tangled
Team
Tear in my heart
Tee shirt
Teenage Evolution
Tempted
That's how you know
The anthem
The big bang
The birds are singing at night
The broken hearts club
The color blue
The girl
The good part
The good side
The last time
The love club
The middle
The monster
The moth and the flame
The mute
The night we met (live)
The nights
The one
The outsider
The real slim shady
The re-up
The silence
These memories
These Times
Thinking of you
This is America
This is what makes us girls
This life
Thoughts & Prayers
Tightrope
Time of your life
Tiptoe.m4a
To be human
Together alone
Total eclipse of the heart
Trust issues
Trust
Turn
Turning out
Turning Pages
Twenty Flight Rock
Twisted
Two coins
Two fingers
U.N.I.
Ugly
Unconditionally
Until we can't (let's go)
Up we go
Uptown Girl
Upward over the mountain
Van Halen - Black And Blue
Vines
Vulcano
Wait a minute!
Waiting on the world to change
Wake the fuck up
Walk on the wild side
Walk on water
Walking all day
Walkway blues
Want you back
Was there nothing
Waterways
Waves
We are all astronauts
We might be dead by tomorrow
We R Who We R
We stayed up all night
We will run
Weak
Welcome home
We're not just friends
What they want
When I'm gone
When we were young
Where Is My Mind
Where is the love
Where the sky hangs
Who Are You
Why can't I
Why
Wide awake
Wild Ones
Wild things
Wild
Wiser
Without me
Without you
Written in the stars
Yesterday
You And I
You are not a robot
You don't get me high anymore
You don't know where you stand
You got to hide your love away
You gotta fight for your right
You make my dreams
You
Young blood
Young kids, old love
Young, dumb and broke
Young
Younger now
Your shirt
Your somebody else
Your song
COLLECTION 2:
Everyday
The Funeral
Above The Clouds Of Pompeii
Bury a Friend
( slowed down ) zipper
Toy Box (Remix) - Cal Scruby
Phantom
Feels like summer
Out of my head
Threatz
Ghosts (dylan owen)
Edward Sharpe The Magnetic Zeros - Home
Home
Eminem - No Apologies Dirty Version
Space Bound
Talking To Myself-em
grandson Apologize
American Teen
Mariners Apartment Complex
White Crime
Classic Male Pregame
Gratitude
Personality (feat. T Pain)
It's Alright
Notepad
Ghosts (2)
Who Knew
King For A Day
blue cheese
Skrillex - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites
Jailhouse blues
Snak The Ripper - Poison
The Wheel
Stuck in the middle with you
Drugs
What Redbone would sound like if you used to know it
Borderline
- Till Its Gone
{L.H.} Ghost on the Shore
03 Adolescence
(8D) Do I Wanna Know
(8D) Lucid Dreams
21st Century Breakdown
Affairs of the Heart
Ain't no rest for the wicked
Ain't No Rest For The Wicked by Cage The Elephant
Aint Your Right
Alec Benjamin - Outrunning Karma
The Alphabeat
Always Forever
American Boy
Animal
Apparently
Aquilo - You Won't Know Where You Stand
Aquilo - You're Like Me
Arrested Youth - Brightside
Ashnikko - Hi, It's Me
Ashnikko - Special
Ashnikko - STUPID feat. Yung Baby Tate
Ashnikko - Working Bitch
Avicii - Levels
Bad day
Bad Decisions
Bad Things
Bagpipes From Baghdad
Bangarang
Beauty
Better Love
Big Bad World
Big Black Car
Billy Idol - Dancing with myself
Bitch, Dont Kill My Vibe
Bitter Sweet Symphony
The Black Eyed Peas - BIG LOVE
Black Veil Brides - In the End
Blank SpaceStyle
Blindsided
Blood
boy pablo - Feeling Lonely
Brain Damage
Bridges
Broken Arrow
Broken
Broken.
Buisness
CA Plane Pour Moi
Car Radio
Car Radio-Twenty One Pilots
Caring is Creepy - The Shins
Casual Affair
Caterpillar
Catey Shaw - Night Go Slow
Cats, Dogs & Rats
Cemetery Drive
Charles William - No Ordinary
Chelsea Dagger
Chelsea Hotel No 2
Cherub - Doses and Mimosas
Cigarette Daydreams
The Clash At Demonheads - Black Sheep
Cocoa Hooves
Come Home to My Heart (mashup of every lorde song)
Come On Eileen
Comfortably numb
Cops
Cough Syrup
Criminal
Crossfire (8D)
Cryin'
Dan Mangan - Road Regrets [Nice, Nice, Very Nice - Track 01]
Dancing with Myself
Darkness
David Guetta - The Alphabeat
David Guetta (Feat. Jessie J) - Repeat
David Guetta (Feat. Usher) - Without You
Dead Presidents III
Dead Sea
Dear friend
Delete Forever
Democracy (Bonus Track)
Disenchanted
Dog Days Are Over
Doin Time
Doja Cat - Trauma
Dreams
Drunk In Love
Dynoro- Hangover
EAGLE EYE CHERRY - STREETS OF YOU
Eminem - The Ringer
The End
Enter Sandman
Erode
Estelle - American Boy [Feat. Kanye West]
Everyone Says I'm Paranoid
Farewell
Fast Car
Feel Again
Feelings
Fineshrine
First Aid Kit - It's a Shame
First Day of My Life
First of the Year
For Elise
For The First Time
Futuristic - I Guess, I'll Smoke
G.O.M.D.
Getting Better
Ghosting
Give Up
Godzilla
Good LIfe
Good Vibrations
Goodbye Stranger
Gorillaz - Rhinestone Eyes
grandson x Moby Rich Happy Pill
Gun Song - The Lumineers
Guns For Hands
Gypsy
Happy
Hard Sun
Have you ever seen the rain
Heathens
Heavenly Father
Heavydirtysoul
High Hopes
High You Are
Holy.
Hopsin - Witch Doctor
Humility
The Hype
I Can't Help Myself
I Lost Something in the Hills
I Wanna Get High
I Will
Idaho
If I Go, I'm Goin
In The End
In Too Deep (em)
Indie Rock and Roll
Iris
it ends tonight
Ive Got This Friend
J Ember - Lower Than Low
January 28th
Jazz
Jungle
Kerry Hart - I Know A Gun
Kiiara - Gold (prod. by Felix Snow)
Kill You
The Kills - What New York Used To Be
Lana del Rey - Summertime Sadness (SxAde Synthwave Remix)80s
Lana Del Rey - Young and Beautiful (from The Great Gatsby Soundtrack)
Landslide
Last Night (beer fear)
LauvFeelings
Leader Of The Landslide
Leave it all behind
Leaving Heaven
Let It Go
Let My Love Open The Door
Lisztomania
Little Pistol
Look After You
Love In Stereo
Love letter
The Lumineers - It Wasn't Easy To Be Happy For You (Part 4 Of 10)
The Lumineers - Left For Denver (Part 6 Of 10)
The Lumineers - My Cell
Man To Man
Marsh
Matilda
Me & You Together Song
Meaner Girl
Metallica Enter Sandman
Miike Snow- Animal
Milk Man
Missed Connection
Monster (DotEXE Dubstep Remix)
Morning Song
Move
Mr Fear
My Kind of Woman
My Smile Is Extinct
My Type
Nantes
National Anthem
Need a Minute
New Perspective (acoustic)
New Soul
Nicotine
Night time, my time
No Fun
No Ordinary
No Tellin'
Now I'm In It
Obsessions
Oceans (7 Layers Sessions)
Oh no
Old Time's Sake
On Melancholy Hill
Once Upon A Dream
One Day
Out for a rip
Outrunning Karma
Outta My Head - The Eagle Rock Gospel Singers
Over My Head
Pain - Three Days Grace
Party Favor
Power Trip
Preacher
Promises
Purity Ring - Fineshrine (4AD)
Puzzle Pieces
Re Stacks
Repeat
Return Of Simba
Rhiannon
Rhinestone Eyes
Road Regrets
Rock Bottom
Rocket Man
Rocket Man (I Think It's Going To Be A Long, Long Time)
Roses
ROSIE
Roxanne
Ryan & Dave
Sabotage
Sad Dream
SADE IN THE 90's
Salad Days
Salt And The Sea
San Luis
Santa Fe
Say You Love Me
Scar Tissue
The Scientist
Secrets
Self Aware Bitch
Setting Sun
Seven Wonders
Sex, Money, Sneakers
Shake it off
The Sharpest Lives
Shelter Song
She's A Riot
The Shins - New Slang
Skinny Love (Das Kapital Remix)
SKRILLEX - Bangarang feat. Sirah
Skrillex - First Of The Year (Equinox)
Sleepyhead
Slide Away
Soaked
Soap
Social Sites
Somebody told me
Speed Of Sound
Spin Doctors - Two Princes
St. Tropez- [2014 Forest Hills Drive]
The Stable Song
Stan (Dido)
Stay High
Stay High (Britanny Howard)
Sticky Situation
Stop and Stare
Stop Children What's That Sound
Streets of you
Strung Out
Sublime - What I Got
Summertime Sadness (SxAde Synthwave Remix)
Supalonely
Sweet Talk
Take a Walk
Take Care
A Tale of 2 Cities
Talk
The A Team- Ed Sheeran
Tessellate
TLC - Waterfalls
Tried to Make You My Own
TRNDSTTR
twenty one pilots - Goner
Twenty One Pilots - Heathens (Suicide Squad)
Two Weeks
Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear
Unaccommodating
Undone - FFH
Venice Bitch
The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony
Viva La Vida
Waste my time with you
Waterfalls
Watsky - Love Letters
The Way I Am
We Built This City
We Didn't Start the Fire
We think too much
Wet Dreams
What I Got
When You Were Young
White Rabbit
Wild Thing
Wonderwall
Yah Yah
Young and Beautiful
Young and Beautiful in the 80s Lana Del Rey (Retro Remix)
Young Man
Youth
[not alphabetically sorted]
Everyday
The Funeral
Above The Clouds Of Pompeii
Bury a Friend
( slowed down ) zipper
Toy Box (Remix) - Cal Scruby
Phantom
Feels like summer
Out of my head
Threatz
Ghosts (dylan owen)
Edward Sharpe The Magnetic Zeros - Home
Home
Eminem - No Apologies Dirty Version
Space Bound
Talking To Myself-em
grandson Apologize
American Teen
Mariners Apartment Complex
White Crime
Classic Male Pregame
Gratitude
Personality (feat. T Pain)
It's Alright
Notepad
Ghosts (2)
Who Knew
King For A Day
blue cheese
Skrillex - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites
Jailhouse blues
Snak The Ripper - Poison
The Wheel
Stuck in the middle with you
Drugs
What Redbone would sound like if you used to know it
Borderline
Till Its Gone
COLLECTION 3:
{L.H.} The Yawning Grave
{L.H.} Time to Run
9 Times Out of 10
17
38 Years Old
1985 (Intro to The Fall Off)
Ain’t That A Kick In the Head
Aint No Peace
All The Places
All The Right Moves
All’s Well That Ends
Always Forever
Angel
Angel Of Small Death & The Codeine Scene
Animal (Sky Fierra-Miike Snow Cover)
The Apple
Apple Tree
AUATC
Back In The U.S.S.R.
Back to you
Bad Girls
Bellbottoms
Bennie And The Jets (Remastered 2014)
Benny Goodman
Big Parade
The Birthday Party
Bitterphobia
Black Sun
Bloodflood pt II
Blue
Bobcaygeon
Boys Will Be Bugs
Brain Damage
Breezeblocks
British Bombs
Brittle Bones Nicky
By The Way
C’est La Vie
Celebrity Status (Acoustic)
The Chain
Chasin’ Echoes (Re-Mastered)
Chasing Pavement By MGK
Chicken Fried
Clean Eyes
Closer
Cold Cold Cold
Coldplay - Shiver
Comin Home
Common People
Concrete
The Creator
Current Joys - A Different Age
Current Joys - Fear
Current Joys - Kids
Curse of the Currents
Dance Monkey
The Dead South - In Hell I’ll Be in Good Company The Umbrella Academy Season 2 OST
Dear Dictator
Death Bed (Coffee for Your Head)
Declan McKenna - Daniel, You’re Still a Child
Declan McKenna - Rapture
Delicate
Depress
Diane Young
Diet Mountain Dew
A different Age
Doin’ Time-Summertime
doja cat - 4 morant (better luck next time)
Doja Cat - Kiss Me More ft. SZA
Doja Cat - Trauma
Don McLean- American Pie
Dont Feel Like Crying
DOPENESS
Down To My Last Cigarette
Drake - Jungle (432Hz)
Dreamland
Eagles - Hotel California
Ego Death
Elephant Gun
Ellie Goulding - Halcyon
Ellie Goulding - Lights (Single Version)
Eros
Exile
Exquisite Corpse
Fear & Delight
Featherstone
Feel
Feeling Lonely
First Class
For Sure
Freakin’ Out On the Interstate
Fresh Roses
Ghetto Gospel
GHOST
Glass Animals - Heat Waves
Glass Animals - Toes
Got It
Got My Mind Set On You (Version II)
The Grand Optimist
Guerra - Residente
Heart
Heart Of Glass
Heaven Up There
The Heavy- This ain’t No Place For No Hero
Help I’m Alive
Hip-Hop Saved My Life
Hoax
Hold On
Hold On (John)
Holding On To You
Holiday
Home (johhnyswim)
Hometown
Homewrecker
A Horse with No Name
House Of The Rising Sun
Hullabaloo
Human Geometry
Hymn For The Weekend
The Hype
Hypnotized (fever fever)
I Am Not a Robot [Clock Opera Remix]
I know you care
I Lost Something in the Hills
I Love You Like An Alcoholic
I Never Learn
I Should Have Known Better
I Think I’m Going To Kill Myself
I’ll Be Around
Immortal
In A Manner Of Speaking
In The City
In The Shadow Of The Valley
In the Year 2525 (Exordium Terminus)
Infinite Victory-The Notorious XX - Wait What
Island In The Sun
It Was A Sin
It’s called freefall
It’s in the Way That You Use It)
It’s Still Rock and Roll to Me
Jarod Lawley - Company
The Joker
Josie
Just Desserts
Kaleidoscope Dope
The Key to Life on Earth
Khalid - Hundred
Kid Cudi, Eminem - The Adventures Of Moon Man & Slim Shady
Kids (Lady Danville- MGMT cover)
The Kids Don’t Wanna Come Home
L.A. Not Alone Girl!
Lady Madonna
The Lakes
Laredo
Lauren O’ Connell - Dancing in the Dark
Lemons (Brye)
Let’s Go Outside
Lights
Listerine
Little lion man
Lockdown
Lonely People
Los Angeles
Love Me Tomorrow
Mad Woman
Madness
Major Tom (Coming Home)
Maniac
Manic Monday
Marcy Me
Marianas Trench Masterpiece Theatre I
MARINA- Savages
Masterpiece Theatre 3 - Marianas Trench with
Meaner Girl
Medicine
Memories
Message
Message For Your Mind
MGK - Mind Of A Stoner ft. Wiz Khalifa
Milky Chance - Cocoon
Milky Chance - Ego
Milky Chance - Unknown Song feat. Paulina Eisenberg
Milky Chance - Where Is My Mind (Pixies Cover)
Miss Atomic Bomb
Modern mystery
Moral of the Story
Move Along
Mustached Messiah
My Life
My Mind Playin Tricks on Me
My Stress
N.E.R.D & Rihanna - Lemon
Nice Fox
Nightmares
No Church In The Wild
No Diggity
No Rain
Novocaine
Numb
Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da
Offer
Oh baby
OK
On The Train Ride Home
Only the Good Die Young
Open By Rhye
Pale Blue Eyes
Panic Attack
The Passenger
Past Perfect
Peach Tinted - The Unknown
Pepper
Phantom Planet - California
Pity Party
Play That Funky Music
Polk Salad Annie
THE PRAYER
Psycho Killer
R.I.P. 2 my youth
Radio Ga Ga
Rare Americans - Berlin
Rare Americans - Garbage Day
Rare Americans - The Moneyz
Rare Americans Gas Mask
Read My Mind
Ready To Go
Rejjie Snow - 23 feat. Caroline Smith
Revolution
Ricky
Rolling Stone
Rose
The run and go
Run Boy Run
Run This Town
Runnin Down A Dream
SAINT MOTEL - Preach
Satellite
Save Me
See You Soon
Sega Genesis
Seven
Seven (taylor)
Seven Wonders
Sex on Fire
Shakin’ Off The Rust
Shameful Company
Shelter Song
Sick Shit
Since The Last Time
Sincerity Is Scary
Sippin
Sister Golden Hair
Sit Down Beside Me
Sleeping Sickness
Sleepyhead
Slick Rick - Children’s Story
Slow It Down
Slow Motion
Small Hands
Small Talk
Snow On Tha Bluff
Sorrow
Soul Of Mischief - 93 Til infinity
Space Oddity
Sparks
Stalker’s Tango
Static On The Radio
Stay Alive
Still Feel
Strung Out
Summer Breeze
Sunshine
Take Me Away
Take me home
Take The Long Way Home
Taylor Swift - the last great american dynasty
Tear you apart
Teenage Wasteland
That’s All
THAT’S THAT
Therapy
They Reminisce Over You (T.R.O.Y.)
This Is Me Trying
This Life (Vampire Weekend)
Three Second Memory
The Thrill - Wiz Khalifa
To Be Human
To My Enemies
Tokyo
The Trip
Tupac-Keep Ya Head Up
Unknown Mortal Orchestra - So Good at Being in Trouble
Until we bleed
Up all Night (beck)
Vampire Weekend Giving Up The Gun
Video Killed The Radio Star
Vienna (Billy Joel)
Vulcano - Francesca Michielin TESTO
Walking On The Moon
Warm Glow
Wax Tailor - Que Sera
We Can Work it Out
Weeds
The Weight
What A Perfect Day For Crying
What Is Life
Whateva
When It Lands
When The Day Comes
When the Night is Over
Wide Open
Wonderwall
YARMAK - ТУТ МІЙ ДІМ
Yesterday
Yesterday (Atmosphere)
You Are the Right One
You Cant Always Get What You Want
You Don’t Mess Around with Jim
You’re Nobody Till Somebody Wants You Dead
Young And Beautiful
Не приму и даром (Navai , Bahh Tee)
Юность (Dabro
COLLECTION 4:
2Pac - Changes
2Pac - Keep Ya Head Up
4
(8D) Believer
(8D) Do I Wanna Know
(8D) Don’t Stop Me Now
(8D) Everybody Wants to Rule The World
(8D) It’s My Life
(8D) Lucid Dreams
(8D) Shout
(8D) Stolen Dance
(8D) The Less I Know The Better
(8D) Till I Collapse
(8D) Viva La Vida
(8D)-Another Love
(8D)-Blue Monday
(8D)-Like Toy Soldiers
(8D)-Lose Yourself
(8D)-Ocean Eyes
(8D)-Sing For The Moment
(8D)-Somebody That I Used To Know
(8D)-Summertime Sadness
21 Guns
29 #Strafford APTS
99 Luftballons
1901- phoenix
1979
Affection
Agnes
Ahead By A Century
All These Things I’ve Done
Alt-J (∆) Leon
Always- The Snuts
Ancient Dreams In A Modern Land
Angela
Another Day In Paradise
The Antlers - Kettering
ARE YOU LETTING GO (bennee)
Arizona
arms tonite
Axel Thesleff - Bad Karma
Back 2 Hiphop
Baggage
Bagpipes From Baghdad
Beck - Up All Night
Being special
Bellyache
Ben Franklin
BIG SHOT
Blister In The Sun
Blow At High Dough
Bobby Bloom Montego Bay 1970
boogie (slowed)
Boy Bye (slowed and reverb)
Bread
Burning Pile - Mother Mother (Slowed)
Bury It
Butthole Surfers - Pepper The Umbrella Academy Season 2 OST
Cancer
candy - robbie williams (slowed)
Caves- Noah Kahan
Chaise Longue
champagne problems
Children’s Story
Chris Webby - La La La
Circles
Claire Rosinkranz - Backyard Boy
closure
Cocaine
Coconut Water
Cold War Kids - First
Colorado
Conrad
CONSTANT
The Cost of the Crown - Mercedes Lackey
Courtney Barnett - Before You Gotta Go
Crabbuckit
Dabbla - Psychoville Feat. Graziella (Prod. Roast Beatz)
Daydreams
Dear Prudence (Remastered 2009)
Democracy (Bonus Track)
Dion - The Wanderer [Fallout 4 - Wanderer Trailer Song]
Doja Cat - Boss Bitch
Doja Cat - Kiss Me More ft. SZA
Dominoes - Sixty Minute Man - The First Rock and Roll Record!!
(Don’t Fear) The Reaper
Don’t Look Back
Don’t You (Forget About Me)
Donovan - Season of the Witch
Dont Stop Me Now
Dope & Smoke
Down On My Luck (vic mensa)
Drive- Oh Wonder
Drugs (swum)
Easy
easy life - have a great day (visualiser)
easy life - skeletons
Eddie Cochran - Summertime Blues [stereo]
The Effects of Climate Change on Densely Populated Areas
Emerald Lake, AB
Eminem White America (Uncensored)
Emma Louise - Jungle
Eve Of Destruction
Evelyn
Evermore
FALLOUT 4 SPECIAL RAP Dan Bull
False Creek Change
Feel It In My Bones
Feel It Still
Feels
For The Camera
Four Out Of Five
Froot
Fuck U Pal
The Gambler
Gerry Cinamon-Kampfire Vampire
Gerry Cinnamon- Sun Queen
Gerry Cinnamon-Canter
Gerry Cinnamon-Head in the clouds
Gerry Cinnamon-Outsiders
Gerry Cinnamon-Six String Gun
Gerry Cinnamon-The Bonny
Gerry Cinnamon-War Song Soldier
Gerry Cinnamon-Where We’re Going
Get Back (Remastered 2009)
Getting Better (Remastered 2009)
Ghost
Gimme More
Gives You Hell
gold rush
Golden
Good Luck
Goodnight Chicago
Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood
Gorillaz - The Valley of the Pagans ft. Beck (Episode Eight)
The Guess Who - No Sugar Tonight - New Mother Nature
Hahahaohhoho
Happy Little Pill (Remix) s l o w e d
Heavenly Father
Helena Beat
Heroes (2017 Remaster)
High enough (Slowed Down)
Hit the Road Jack
Home- Leo
Hozier - Dinner & Diatribes
Hozier - Nina Cried Power
Hrdza - Štefan Stephen Штефан
I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
I Follow
I Follow Rivers - Lykke Li
i kissed a girl katy perry s l o w e d
I Lied
I’m Fine (hazel english)
If You Were Here-Thompson Twins
In A Week (hozier)
It’s in the Way That You Use It (1999 Remaster)
ivy
Jackie and Wilson
Jake Bugg - Two Fingers
José González - Line of Fire
The Judge
Kid Cudi, Eminem - The Adventures Of Moon Man & Slim Shady
Kids (Don’t End Up Like Me)
Kings Of Leon - Closer
Kings Of Leon - The End
Kiwi
Knives, Guns & Bed
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
La Foret
Laredo
Left Hand Free
Libraries
Little Slice (feat. Danny Skyhigh McClain)
Location
The Logical Song
long story short
The Lovin’ Spoonful - Summer in the City
Made in Heights - Hors d’oeuvre
Majical Cloudz - Downtown
Man’s World
Maneater
maneater ( slowed + bass )
Måneskin - I WANNA BE YOUR SLAVE
Maniac
Marijuana
MARINA - Karma
MARINA - Purge The Poison
Marinade
Message In A Bottle-The Police
The Moneyz
Montreal
The Mother We Share
Mr. Loverman (slowed with reverb)
My House
NENA 99 Red Balloons
New America
Nico And The Niners
No More Questions
Not Your Summer
Nothin’ on You (feat. Bruno Mars)
nowhere to run - stegosaurus rex (s l o w e dd o w n)
Number One
Off The Radar
Oh Wonder - Landslide
Oh Wonder - Technicolour Beat
Old Pine
One week
THE OUTER WORLDS...
Pale Blue Eyes
Peace To All Freaks- of Montreal
Peach Pit - Seventeen
PHARAOH - ДИКО, НАПРИМЕР
Pickup Truck
Poor George
Pumped Up Kicks Remix
Pyro
queen of broken hearts
Rapp Snitch Knishes (feat. Mr. Fantastik)
Real Smooth
The Revillos - Rev-Up
RING THE ALARM
Rip It Up Ready Teddy (Remastered 2010)
Rock Bottom
The Rolling Stones - Paint It, Black
Romans Revenge (slowed + reverb)
Rosanna
Roslyn
Run Through The Jungle
Running Wild-Palace
Sedona
Seven Nation Army (Glitch Mob Remix)
She Will Be Loved
Sia - To Be Human (ft. Labrinth)
Sign O’ The Times
Sober (gambino)
Solsbury Hill
Stabilo-Flawed Design
Steve Miller Band - Jet Airliner
Stolen Cars
STORMZY - VOSSI BOP
Stromae - Tous Les Mêmes (Clip Officiel)
Stuck on the puzzle
Technicolour Beat
Therefore I Am
Thrift Shop
Tiffany - I Think We’re Alone Now
Time To Win - Down With Webster
tis the damn season
Treat People With Kindness
Two Ghosts
Ulysses- Franz Ferdinand
The Valley of the Pagans ft. Beck (Episode Eight)
VAULT NUMBER 76 Fallout 76 Song
Ventura Highway
VIDEOCLUB - Amour Plastique
VIDEOCLUB En nuit
VIDEOCLUBRoi
Violent (slowed)
Virginia Beach
Waiting
WALLS
Wasteland, Baby!
Wellerman
West Coast
Whale- Yellow Ostrich
What Goes Around- Comes Around
Wheat Kings by Tragically Hip
WHOKILLEDXIX - Spy My My I think we have a spy
willow
Wovoka
Yellow Ostrich - Mary (Alternate)
You Don’t Mess Around with Jim
You Get What You Give 1998
COLLECTION 5:
3AM (matchbox 20)
The 1975 - Chocolate
The 1975 - Give Yourself A Try
Alphaville - Big In Japan
alt-J - Hunger Of The Pine
Apocalypse - Cigarettes After Sex
bbno$, y2k - lalala
Beastie Boys - Get It Together
Belter - Gerry Cinnamon
Big Data - Dangerous (Oliver Remix) euphoria OST
Big Pun - Twinz (Deep Cover 98) (Feat. Fat Joe)
Big Sean - Wolves ft. Post Malone
BIRTHDAY
Blue Foundation - Eyes On Fire
Bon Iver - Perth (Stripped)
Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy
Broken Bells - The High Road
Byjoelmichael - Be With You
California Dreamin’
candy - robbie williams (slowed)
Centerfold
Chase McBride - 1937
Chet Faker - Cigarettes and Chocolate
Chet Faker - Gold
Circus Britney Spears
Creedence Clearwater Revival - I Heard It Through The Grapevine
Daniel Powter - Bad Day
DARE
Don’t Be Nice
Doug E Fresh & Slick Rick-The Show
Ed Sheeran - Grade 8
Eminem - Berzerk
Eminem - No Apologies Dirty Version
Eminem - Tone Deaf
Eminem White America (Uncensored)
Eric B & Rakim - Follow The Leader
Eric B. Is President
Eve Of Destruction
Fall Into Place
Florence + the Machine - Shake It Out
Flower Face - Angela
Flume & Chet Faker - Drop the Game
Footsteps in the Dark, Pts. 1 & 2
From This Valley
Funnel Of Love - Wanda Jackson (ft. the Cramps)
Future Islands -A Dream Of You And Me
G-Eazy - Lady Killers ft. Hoodie Allen
G-Eazy - The Outsider
G-Eazy Achievement
George Ezra - Green Green Grass
Give Yourself A Try
Good Day Sunshine (Remastered 2009)
Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood
Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc
Got To Get You Into My Life (Remastered 2009)
grandson- Apologize
Gregory D and Mannie Fresh - Buck Jump Time
Harry Styles - As It Was
The Head And The Heart - Down In The Valley
Homeless
Homeliss Derilex - Daily Operations
Human of the Year
Hurricane (Johnnie’s Theme)
Hypnotize (2007 Remaster)
I Feel Alive
I Heard It Through The Grapevine
I Saw You Close Your Eyes
I Still Haven’t Found What ‘m Looking For
IDGAF Watsky
Iggy Azalea - Posh Spice (Visualizer)
Insane in the Brain
Intergalactic (Remastered 2009)
Istanbul (not Constantinople)
Iyaz - Replay
Jai Paul - BTSTU
James Hersey - Coming Over (Filous Remix)
Jay-z 99 problems
Johnny Jump Up - Gaelic Storm
Juice WRLD - Conversations
Kavinsky - Nightcall (Drive Original Movie Soundtrack)
Kid Cudi - Tequila Shots
Kid Francescoli -Moon
Kids In America [2020 Remaster]
Kings Of Convenience - Misread
Kings of Leon - Pickup Truck
Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
Lennon Stella - Thank You (Dido Cover)
Lilly Wood & The Prick and Robin Schulz - Prayer In C (Robin Schulz Remix)
Little Simz - Point And Kill feat. Obongjayar
Little Slice (feat. Danny Skyhigh McClain)
Lord Huron - Meet Me In The Woods
Lord Huron - The World Ender
Lord Huron - We Went Wild
Love Letters
The Lumineers - A.M. Radio
The Lumineers - BRIGHTSIDE
Lupe Fiasco- Hip Hop Saved My Life
M83 - Go! feat Mai Lan
M83 Steve McQueen
Made In Heights - Drexler
Made In Heights - Viices
Maren Morris - My Church
MARINA - New America
MARINA - To Be Human
Marshall Mathers
Medicine (daughter)
Mild Orange - Some Feeling
Milky Chance - Love Again
Milky Chance - Tainted Love
The Moth (Les Deux Love Orchestra Cover) - Aimee Mann [Mr. Robot S02E12]
Mother Mother - Hayloft I
N.W.A - Straight Outta Compton
Nas - It Ain’t Hard to Tell
NEVER REALLY MINE
New Motion - She Said
O Children - Nick Cave & The Bad See
Of Monsters and Men - Phantom
Of Monsters and Men - Visitor
The Oh Hellos - Soldier, Poet, King
Oh Wonder - Twenty Fourteen
OMC - How Bizzare
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark - Electricity
Outkast - Two Dope Boyz (In a Cadillac)
Palace - Friends Forever
Peace Prevail
Peach Pit - Vickie
The Pernice Brothers - Judy
Pham - Golden State[feat. Ben Zaidi]
Pham - Movements (feat. Yung Fusion)
PHARAOH - ДИКО, НАПРИМЕР
The Pharcyde - Runnin
Pink Lemonade
Promise
Rainbow Kitten Surprise - Hide
Rainbow Kitten Surprise - Matchbox
Rainbow Kitten Surprise - Mission to Mars
Rare Americans - Black Sheep (Offici 1
Rare Americans - F_K U Pal
Rare Americans - Pandora’;s Box
Rare Americans - PHD
Rare Americans - Rhythm Kitchen (ft. D Smoke)
REMINGTON
REPRISE
Rocket 88 (Original Version) - Ike Turner Jackie Brenston
The Rolling Stones - (I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction
RUN DMC, Jason Nevins - It’s Like That
Running Up That Hill
Safe & Sound feat. The Civil Wars
Said The Whale Gambier Island Green
SAINT MOTEL -Move
Saint Valentine
Santigold - Disparate Youth
serial killer - lana del ray (slowed + reverb)
She Wants Me Dead
Sigrid - It Gets Dark
Slaine - 99 Bottles
Snail Mail -Ben Franklin
Snak The Ripper - Eight Hours A Day (High Quality)
Snak The Ripper - Eight Hours A Day
Snak The Ripper - Forgotten
Snak The Ripper - Trust the Process
Snak The Ripper - Yup
Son Of A Preacher Man
Special Ed - I Got It Made
Square Dance
Stick to Your Guns (feat. Julia Nunes)
Stornoway - Zorbing
Strawberries & Cigarettes
Stromae - carmen
Stromae - Fils de joie
Stromae - L’enfer
Stromae - Santé The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon
Sublime- April 29, 1992
Sunflower- Post Malone
Supertramp - Breakfast in America (Written & Composed by Roger Hodgson)
Surf Curse - Freaks
Tamino - The First Disciple
Taylor Swift – mirrorball
Taylor Swift – peace
These Boots Are Made for Walkin’
This House is a Circus
Tongue Tied
The Tragically Hip - New Orleans Is Sinking (.)
Triggaman (The Showboys)
Ultrasound- Johnny Massacre
Unwell
Wake Owl - Gold
Wallows - Are You Bored Yet (feat. Clairo)
The War On Drugs Red Eyes
Warren G - Regulate ft. Nate Dogg
Watsky- Bet Against Me [All You Can Do]
Wet Leg - Wet Dream
Where’d All the Time Go?
Wiz Khalifa - So High ft. Ghost Loft
Wonderful Life
World Renown - Come Take A Ride 1994
The xx - Crystalised
The xx - Islands
Young Magic You With Air
Younger Hunger - Dead Inside
The Youth
Youth
Zen- K Flay
COLLECTION 6:
The Black Keys - Gotta Get Away
Bon Iver - 00000 Million
Bon Iver - Beth/Rest
Bon Iver - Blood Bank
Bon Iver - Flume
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Bon Iver- Wash
Cage The Elephant - Trouble
CHELJI - 23
David Kushner - Miserable Man
David Kushner - Mr. Forgettable
Dennis Lloyd - NEVERMIND
For Emma
The Glorious Sons - A War On Everything
The Glorious Sons - Come Down
Gorillaz - Cracker Island ft. Thundercat
Gorillaz - Tomorrow Comes Today
Harry Belafonte- Day-O
I Sat by the Ocean
Lil Wayne - Mirror (feat. Bruno Mars)
Madness - Our House
Mungo Jerry - In The Summertime ORIGINAL 1970
My Chemical Romance -Sing
REO Speedwagon - Take It On the Run
Sarah Osborne Fire Moon
The Suburbs - Arcade Fire
T.I - Dead And Gone Ft. Justin Timberlake
THREE DOG NIGHT One (1969)
Towers - Bon Iver
Vance Joy - Saturday Sun
Young the Giant - My Body
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It wasn't real
Pairing: Bucky x reader
Posted: 04/30/2021
Word count: 2.5k
Warnings: None? Maybe a lil angst just a lel bet.
A/N: I think it might be good? Idk You let me know. But like frfr, don't just give me feedback in your mind, put it into words. Also I apparently have a thing for Bucky in a dotted apron soooo yeah.
FYI: time zone/era is open for interpretation. Bucky never became an avenger/soldat and steve isn't part of this one.
The wind that blew around you was warm and sweet with the scent of freshly bloomed flowers. Perhaps it was an act of kindness from some God trying to distract you from the cold bitterness settling into your bones. Closing your eyes you conjure the very memory that left you so desolate.
The sun snuck it's way through the curtains to illuminate the room, effectively disturbing the sleep that you always seemed to be craving. Waking up is always hassle but whenever you remember that you get to spend your day with the only person who tolerates you and you him, getting out of bed is the easiest thing. Bucky is crazy and the damn boy is never in one spot for to long and he always has something to say, but you can't imagine how boring your days would be if you guys had never met. well technically if your parents had never met.
When you were a child you parents had to move to new york for business and they decided that Brooklyn was the place to be. You had been Bucky's neighbor and the first day you guys moved in his mom had dragged him over with the most delicious angel food cake that he so proudly claimed to have made mostly on his own. He just loved cooking and baking since forever, he would tell you that he just liked experimenting with foods but you knew the truth was that the boy liked to eat and didn't have the patience to wait for his mother to come home.
Only a few years after your family had moved to Brooklyn you and Bucky had already built an unbreakable bond. You guys had found a beautiful cherry tree one day when playing tag and had deemed it to be your's and Bucky's spot. Whenever you had a bad day or needed time away from the world you guys would go to the tree and just pick cherries, in the winter time you and Bucky would lay under the tree and kick the trunk so that the snow would fall from the leaves. It was the place where at only 15 years old bucky swore he would open his own Bakery and to quote him "I'm serving my ma's food my way doll, It's gonna be the next best thing to hit New York."
You were laying on the ground with your hands crossed behind your head looking up at Bucky swinging upside down from a branch when he told you all this. You felt something you had never felt before at that moment, looking up at the wild haired boy who loved to eat, loved his family, and had the most ambition you had ever heard from kids your age. Your heart felt full and your cheeks grew warm as you looked up at the same blue eyes you had know for years now, only this time you notice the way they twinkle in the sunlight and how rosy his lips are. Now 7 years laters you and Bucky were preparing to open the very bakery he promised you he'd open. Banners were beautifully strung along the walls and cute retro china was set out, ready to be filled for opening day. There was no hesitation from you when Bucky had asked you to run the bakery with him, you were excited to spend your days with the person you hoped you would spend the rest of your life with.
At around 6:30 in the morning you had arrived at the bakery but it seemed that Bucky had beat you to it. The smell of fresh angel food cake and cocoa danced up your nose as soon as you opened the door. Closing your eyes you smiled at the memories that it brought back. Moving to the back you grabbed your Disney themed apron and placed your bag and coat in its place before scurrying over to the kitchen while trying (and failing) to tie your apron. There in all his dorkiness was Bucky wiggling around to the chordettes. He knew that you loved the 50's aesthetic so he found a way to incorporate it without going overboard, by adding little trinkets, a jukebox, and even those cute little dining tables. In fact at the moment he was wearing a ruffly red polka dotted apron as he frosted some cupcakes.
Apron tied, you were finally ready to get to work. You walked up to Bucky bumping his hip as you reached for some cupcake pans, "Whatcha doin here so early Buck, we don't open until 12" he looks at you with squinted eyes, "The hell are you doing here so early." "Woah,woah,woah completely unprovoked. I'm just saying cuz' you were the one complaining about the opening time being set at 8. Like damn." Breathing out a huff of air he wipes his forehead with a towel "I'm sorry doll, I'm just super nervous and I couldn't sleep so I came to start baking things. I already frosted the ice cream cakes and I just finished the pies, but I was thinking that maybe we needed some cupcakes too, even though we already baked so many pastries and stuff last night I'm worried it won't be enough."
Setting down the trays you move to hug Bucky from behind holding him close to you. "Buck I know we'll do great your food is too good to pass up on especially when it's free." You place a soft kiss to his shoulder " I promise you'll do great, everything you do is amazing you try your hardest at everything Buck, You've worked your butt off and made mine considerably larger to get here, don't start losing your mind on me now." A cute little laugh from Bucky lets you know that he's hearing you and he isn't so stressed anymore. "I just want this to be perfect ya know?" with your head still against his back you nod, "I just want it to be a special day for my special girl."
You couldn't stop the slight blush that rose to your cheeks or the way that your heart suddenly started beating three times faster. You had also wanted to make him something special which is why you had got here so early. Finally releasing your hold on Bucky you straighten your apron out before gathering everything you need for some red velvet cupcakes. Bucky loved your red velvet cake so you loved making it for him. After hours of mixing, baking, and frosting had passed, you guys were rewarded with a bakery that looked as great as it smelled. "Alright doll, I'm heading out, I gotta go get ready. Meet you back here at 12 , Love ya." He didn't even give you a chance to answer as he ran right out the door. "Love you too."
You had stayed behind just a little while longer as you perfected your secret project. Carefully you added snowflakes to some of the cupcakes because you knew how much he loved snow even if he hated winter, some cats, flowers that reminded you of bucky, and one extra special cupcake. When you finish you decide to clean up a bit more and prepare some drinks for later before heading home to get ready. As soon as you got home you took a shower and did the simplest of make up with a light pink lip. You had decided to wear a dress to match the blossoming flowers that spring had brought. Pink with a yellow lace trim and flowers embroided all over the dress, matching it with some yellow flats.
You had decided that it was a perfect day for a walk so you grabbed a light scarf and slung it over your shoulders, grabbed Bucky's cupcakes, and headed over to the bakery. You felt as if a Hundred pounds had been lifted from your shoulders knowing that Bucky had felt the same way about you. You had decided that you would tell him today with your special cupcakes. As you rounded the corner you felt giddy and you couldn't wipe the smile from your face no matter how hard you tried. As you reached the bakery you saw that a majority of the people had already arrived and you knew that it would put Bucky at ease to see all the people enjoying his food. You stopped at the window, closing your eyes to take a deep breath to prepare yourself to join the celebration.
Opening your eyes you reached for the handle only to stop at the sight on the other side of the door. Bucky stood there arms wrapped around a woman eyes locked on hers as he leaned in for a kiss. It must have all happened in about 30 seconds but it felt as if time himself had slowed it down for you to watch the way he tilted her head and ran his tongue along her bottom lip before finally uniting their lips. Your heart dropped as quickly as your smile did and suddenly you felt so stupid for thinking this could be real. You willed yourself not to cry as you allowed your legs to carry you anywhere but there.
That's how you found yourself sitting underneath a blossoming cherry tree. A tree that held only happy memories because it wasn't a place you could be sad... back then. With your back against the tree and box of cupcakes full of unrequited love in your lap you realize how much you over romanticized Bucky. Opening the box you decide it would be a shame to let them go to waste. The first one you grab has a big red heart frosted in the middle, you let out a deep sigh before breaking the cupcake right down the middle. You shove half of the cupcake into your mouth and only then do you allow the tears to fall. You sat there for hours crying eating cupcakes, watching the sunset, and thinking about everything that Bucky did for you, as a friend. You realize you had no right to be angry at Bucky, after all you never told him how you felt you just assumed that he would feel the same way after so many years. With every broken memory another cupcake vanished.
He was always there for you, when no one wanted to come to your slumber party Bucky did and he even did all the girly things with you. Painting your nails, doing your hair, watching chick flicks, and pillow fights. once he even asserted that no one could protect you as well as he could, when you had decided to go camping with your friend from class so he insisted on taking you himself. Your friend was most noticeably gay so you had assumed he wanted to spend time alone with you. But now that you think back on those memories these are things that anyone would do for their bestfriend. And that's what you realized 8 hours and 11 cupcakes later.
The moon floated above you and as it's white rays settled upon the lake you decided it might be time to go home now. You get up and dust your dress off before leaning down to grab the mostly empty box. Turning around you are stopped again by what's in front of you. Bucky stands there brows furrowed as his eyes flash from you to the box in your hands. "Where the hell have you been, I've been calling you all day." swallowing the lump in your throat you go to answer but are interrupted. " everyone's been asking me about you all night and I had no damn idea what to tell them, but apparently you were just out here being inconsiderate. You go and tell me I can do great tonight, that you'd be there for me, but you weren't." You try to answer him but are again interrupted. "You could have told me something earlier instead of leaving me there like a dumb-" "SHUT UP!" this time it was your turn to interrupt him.
Taking a deep breath you look into his eyes before explaining. "Of course I was ready to be there today, you think I wore this dress to sit under a damn tree? Well I didn't. When I left my apartment I was ready and I was excited, so excited. I couldn't even stop smiling on my way over, but then I got to the shop and I saw-" Immediately you stopped as you realized what you were about to say. He cocked an eyebrow and shook his head slightly as if to say 'Hello?' "You saw what? What did you see that would make you abandon ship just like that?" Shame flushed through your being and you could no longer keep eye contact. "Nothing, you know what, it doesn't even matter. I'm sorry I was being dramatic I should have been an adult and dealt with it on my own time. And I'm sorry I abandoned you all, but the night was about you anyways."
"The night was supposed to be about the both of us so it does matter if you saw something that made you want to leave. Just tell me doll, what did you see?" his voice is soft as he pleads with you. "I saw... well I saw you kissing that lady and I just wanted get away and ended up here okay!?" You said it all in a jumble hoping that he wouldn't be able to understand what you had said. But luck wasn't your friend so of course he did. "So seeing me kiss another person was so gross to you that you had to run away, what the hell? are you 13 again?" You hadn't admitted it outloud yet and it seemed that the dumbass in front of you was going to force it out of you.
Stepping around Bucky you pull your scarf tight around your body as you focus on not crying anymore until you get home. You distract yourself by thinking of all the love you saw in all the little things Bucky did for you. Dancing around the newly furnished bakery body against body as frank sinatra brought you heart to heart, watching rom-coms and ugly crying together, but by the time you get home you force yourself to face the ugly truth. The Love was always in your head. It wasn't real.
A new wave of tears blurred your vision as teardrops fell perfectly to the ground. "It's because I have feelings for you Bucky, and I now know you don't feel the same way." Sniffling you don't bother looking up because your heart is to broken for that right now. "I'm Just gonna need a little bit of time and I'll be back good as new like nothing even happened." Still unable to lift your gaze from the ground you decide to focus on the last cupcake left in the box. 'I Love You' is written in tiny light blue frosting letters. "I uhm, uhh." That brought your attention to Bucky, as embarrassment pulsed as strong as ever through your veins. " You don't have to say anything Buck, It's fine, I'll see you next week, on monday" you hand him the box as you go to pass him "I think you would have a better use for this than me I ate 11 others already so."
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Chapter 54
Emperor Wei WuXian And His Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Birthday
Prologue | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 Part 1 | Chapter 8 Part 2 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10 | Chapter 11 | Chapter 12 | Chapter 13 | Chapter 14 | Chapter 15 Part 1 | Chapter 15 Part 2 | Chapter 16 | Chapter 17 | Chapter 18 | Chapter 19 | Chapter 20 | Chapter 21 | Chapter 22 Part 1 | Chapter 22 Part 2 | Chapter 23 | Chapter 24 | Chapter 25 | Chapter 26 | Chapter 27 | Chapter 28 | Chapter 29 | Chapter 30 | Chapter 31 | Chapter 32 | Chapter 33 | Chapter 34 | Chapter 35 | Chapter 36 | Chapter 37 | Chapter 38 | Chapter 39 | Chapter 40 | Chapter 41 | Chapter 42 | Chapter 43 | Chapter 44 | Chapter 45 | Chapter 46 | Chapter 47 | Chapter 48 & Chapter 49 | Chapter 50 | Chapter 51 | Chapter 52 | Chapter 53
It is past midday by the time the grand hall doors can be opened.
Wei Ying had intended to hold the meeting in the early morning, to spend the midday meal with A-Yuan, to perhaps have an evening alone with Lan Zhan. He had planned the day’s events with his old body in mind, counting on his old resilience and boundless energy. Instead, it had taken nearly two hours just to dress him, the majority of the work accomplished by A-Sang and shijie, while Wei Ying struggled with the simple task of remaining upright. It is astounding, how many mindless, day-to-day tasks, he had taken for granted in the past. Meaningless actions, such as putting on his own robes, securing his own belt, standing on a single foot to slide into his own shoes. Each one so straightforward and undemanding, each one suddenly transformed into an arduous undertaking, requiring many hands, frequent periods of rest, and more than one muttered curse by everyone involved in the process.
Running over the rooftops seems a distant dream. The act of walking, supported by both A-Sang and Lan Zhan, to the grand hall dais, settles a trembling ache into every one of his muscles. By the time he is seated on the throne, his robes adjusted, his sleeves pulled down to cover the splint on his wrist, he is tired enough to sleep the rest of the day away.
Patience has never been his strong suit, and the inability to force his body into obedience fills him with frustration that can find no outlet. Lan Zhan’s eyes settle on his broken wrist so often, that Wei Ying can practically hear the unspoken string of self-recriminations. In the wake of his earlier confession, A-Sang has been mostly silent and subdued. It is impossible to be angry with shijie, whose patience can rival the Immortal Mountain itself.
Jiang FengMian is admitted to the grand hall before any of the others, and Wei Ying, irritable and exhausted, snaps at the man without thinking. It does not lessen his discomfort, and the reproachful look he receives in response only sours his mood further.
At the root of this frustration, there is a fear he cannot voice. His body will recover. His current weakness will not last forever. But will he ever again belong to himself alone? Will he ever again be able to view his own anger as justified? Or will he be forced to forever question the root cause?
Any descendants that posses the affinity, Xue ChengMei had told A-Sang.
The words have replayed in Wei Ying’s mind countless times, invading every thought, tainting every past decision. He wonders if the boy knew the terror that his words would carve into Wei Ying’s bones. Is there another YanLing DaoRen waiting somewhere inside of Wei Ying? How deep does the affinity run? What will it take, to bring it out into the open?
If these were questions that Wei Ying had never considered before, he would find Xue ChengMei’s revelations easier to bear. But they are not new; somewhere, in the murky depths of Wei Ying’s belief that he had never truly been suited to the throne, these questions have reared their ugly head each time his confidence had faltered. He had never executed a man without wondering if YanLing DaoRen would have done the same, without wondering if his mother would have offered a pardon instead. Now, even his simple frustrations are no longer just his own, forever tainted by the blood that he shares.
Can he ever again trust any decisions he makes? Can he ever again be certain that they came from a righteous place?
Fingers brush his hand, mindful of the injured wrist. Lan Zhan’s gaze is focused on the entry of the hall, on the task ahead. His face is cool and collected, any emotion that is concealed beneath the surface impossible to read. But his fingers are a gentle reassurance, a promise and a pledge, spoken in a language Wei Ying is finally beginning to understand.
The touch does not take away the anxiety, but it muffles it into something bearable, something Wei Ying can push down, back into the dark recesses from which it came. If he cannot trust himself, he can trust Lan Zhan. He can trust A-Sang and shijie, Jiang Cheng and Wen Qing.
“They may enter,” he says.
It is immediately obvious that there have been some slight changes in the hierarchy. The Jiang and the Nie are the first to be admitted, as they always have been, but the place traditionally taken by the Jin is now filled by Lan XiChen and a small number of Lan disciples. The Jin Sect is next, but instead of MeiShan Yu, the Fan Sect follows immediately behind, Fan XiaoHu striding proudly at her father’s shoulder, and making no effort to conceal her contempt for Jin GuangShan. This arrangement has, of course, pushed some sects further to the back. Wei Ying notices Sect Leader Yao’s disgruntled gaze measuring the new distance between himself and the dais.
Any arrangement that keeps the man further away from Wei Ying is a good one, regardless of the circumstances. He thinks, if only he had known that nearly dying would have such an unexpected benefit, he may have risked his life sooner.
It takes some time, as it always does, for all to settle in their respective places, for the shuffling of the feet to cease, for the murmurs to grow silent. On Wei Ying’s left, Lan Zhan had refused the pillow, opting to stand. On his right, A-Sang had settled in his usual place, his easy posture concealing nerves that are just as brittle as Wei Ying’s own. The weight of the dragon crown is pushing down on Wei Ying’s neck, a dull pain radiating through his shoulders. His ribs ache, resentful of his stiff posture. His wrist, a minor pain compared to some of the others, is beginning to throb with greater frequency. He does not know how long he will be capable of keeping his spine fixed in a straight line, how long before his weakness becomes apparent to men who have always known exactly where to look.
He does not have the time for diplomacy. The thing he must do, which would have taken a great deal of finesse and caution in the past, must be done through crude and forceful tactics instead.
“There will be no war with the Wen,” he says, his words cutting through the murmurs.
Before any of the Sect Leaders can gather their thoughts to voice opposition, Wei Ying signals to Jiang Cheng.
A group of Jiang disciples carry forward an object wrapped in a red silk cloth, setting it down in front of the dais. Unwrapped, the parcel reveals a set of armor, the steel polished and shining, an intricate dragon with milky jade eyes depicted on the chest plate.
“This is the gift from Wen RuoHan,” Wei Ying says coldly, “The gift that was delivered by the Wen Sect disciples, and later replaced by a cursed object in time for the Gifting Ceremony.”
He does not mention the fact that the gift had come with a message, Wen RuoHan’s decisive hand easy to read in each ruthless stroke. Wei Ying had been right to assume that the man had been ready for war when the gift was sent. The note had offered the Emperor sincere congratulations on managing to reach the age of eighteen. It had also expressed a hope that this set of armor may actually make Wei Ying a worthy opponent in the upcoming war, as well as an offhanded assurance that, at the very least, the armor will guarantee a dignified appearance to his corpse.
The others, especially Lan Zhan, had been deeply offended on his behalf. Wei Ying, relieved to not be suiting up for battle, could muster up very little resentment. He had always found Wen RuoHan’s arrogance amusing, rather than disrespectful, but he is fairly certain that none of the others would understand his forbearance.
The note is currently tucked in his qiankun pouch, where it will remain, unread by both the General and the High Councilor.
“Your Majesty,” the High Councilor says, “Are you certain this is not some trick by Wen RuoHan?”
“The Royal Companion had inspected each gift the day before the Ceremony. Between the inspection and the Ceremony itself, the Wen Sect gift was replaced. Wen RuoHan may be untrustworthy, but the Royal Companion is beyond reproach.”
“I wonder why,” Jin GuangShan says carefully, “the Royal Companion did not set our minds at ease sooner? It certainly would have been a grave offense, to have attacked a blameless Sect due to a misunderstanding.”
“An attack?” Wei Ying says, his voice dangerously low, “How can there be an attack without a declaration of war? Who, other than the Divine Ruler, would dare declare war in His name? Surely, the Jin Sect Leader did not mean to use those words.”
“Certainly not, Your Majesty,” Jin GuangShan stutters, “Forgive me, I misspoke--”
“The Royal Companion,” Wei Ying interrupts, “has behaved in a manner befitting his position. Those who have overreached during my absence will find that my tolerance has limits. The Sect Leaders may prepare to extend their stay in the Immortal Mountain until these matters have been resolved to the Divine Ruler’s satisfaction.”
The silence that greets his words is thick and indignant.
Wei Ying believes he may have very little time left before his spine gives up on the tedious task of keeping him upright.
“You are dismissed,” he says.
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Even after all these years, riding on a train still brought a small flutter to Lucy’s stomach as she remembered the long ago evening when she’d met her husband. From an innocent meeting to a death defying experience, talk about a roller coaster ride. And yet, if she had to do it all over again, Lucy wouldn’t change a thing. Crazy sounding yes, for why would anyone not want to avoid what she’d gone through? Touka had truly pushed her sanity to the breaking point, but well, the therapist was right in the end and Lucy felt almost invincible now. All that pain, all the struggle she’d pushed through had made her the strong and resilient woman she was today. Happily married to Natsu with their fraternal twins Nashi and Ryuu. Mrs. Natsu Dragneel, Lucy smiled to herself, there was no way she’d change a thing.
Of course, it hadn’t been easy. After Natsu proposed and Lucy had accepted, there were still a lot of work to be done. But that measure of acceptance and affection did wonders. Any worries she’d had that he wouldn’t want a broken woman melted away and gave her the confidence to get better. With each passing therapy session, her strength grew, and by the time they graduated college, Lucy could honestly say she’d been cured to a functional degree. No longer struggling through nightmares and panic attacks, her anxieties were under control and the debilitating depression a distant memory where it belonged.
Yeah... Lucy sighed happily as she watched the landscape pass by from her train seat. Meeting Natsu was the best thing to ever happen in her life, well, aside from the kids. They’d married about a year after graduation on the anniversary of their meeting. It was a beautiful affair at an indoor venue, with close friends and family to join them. They’d gone a more modern route for the ceremony but did take pictures at a garden dressed in the traditional attire for sentimental reasons. Lucy wore the shiromuku white kimono while Natsu a montsuki haori hakama. And no, it wasn’t train themed! Levy was the Maid of Honor and Gray was the best man. By then, Levy and Gajeel were also married and Gray in a serious relationship with a girl named Juvia Lockser. Lucy was so happy for them both. All of their lives were moving in the right direction.
Everything was perfect. Great jobs in their fields of interest, lives settled into a comfortable routine, when 5 years later Lucy was pregnant with fraternal twins. It was a total surprise since twins didn’t run in either of their families. Always the jovial optimist, Natsu joked that they’d been doubly blessed because of what they’d gone through, and Lucy couldn’t help but love such a concept. Of course, once the euphoria of the motherhood prospect waned, reality set in that she was having twins! Two! Double the babies meant double of everything, from the pregnancy concerns to raising them. Growing up without a mother and as an only child, Lucy didn’t have a lot of experience with small children. But Natsu patiently assured her, that she’d do just fine. Think of it as a new challenge, and after overcoming one pretty tough situation, this would be a walk in the park. On the bright side, Levy was also pregnant with the couple’s first child so the two best friend’s kids would grow up together.
And Natsu was right, there were a few bumps in the road but nothing too difficult. During her fourth month Lucy was diagnosed with gestational diabetes as well as some minor gastrointestinal issues, so Natsu swayed the doctor to put her on bed rest. Better safe than sorry. The babies were healthy, but by the 7th month, she really couldn’t move much, and she was miserable being stuck at home all the time. Lucy missed her job because she genuinely enjoyed working for the magazine. But in the end, it had been a good thing. She could manage her health easier that way and it gave her time to do something she’d thought about doing as part of the healing process. With Natsu’s support and permission, it was time to put her writing skills to good use and write a book about their experience.
It became an instant hit, especially with female readers. The book was not only an autobiographical reflection of what had happened to them but focused on shining a light on the dangers of stalkers, as well as the importance of taking the warning signs seriously. Lucy didn’t hold back in her re-telling, even pointing out the serious flaws in Japan’s laws in protecting citizens from stalkers which at the time were nonexistent. Feminist organizations working to change those laws used her story with permission for their cause. She had no intentions of becoming a poster child for the movement, but in the end her role may have played its part, because 2 years after the publishing, Japan finally adopted anti-stalking laws making it easier for police to string together harassment cases, as well as for victims to get the help they needed.
Her life was nothing but exciting to say the least! And with two young children, now age 10 certainly kept them on their toes. Their daughter Nashi was just like Natsu, very outgoing, friendly, but a bit of a daredevil while her brother Ryuu born 4 minutes after her was the quieter of the two. He preferred books like his mother to adventure. Of course, that never stopped Nashi from dragging him into shenanigans! But the best part was how close they still were and fiercely protective of each other. Lucy and Natsu couldn’t be prouder of them and hoped this would continue throughout their lifetimes.
Fifteen years... come to think of it, their wedding anniversary was coming up shortly. With Natsu now a senior fire inspector for the Tokyo prefectural government, he was often busy. Lucy did mind it, because frankly it gave her some peace and quiet. She chuckled at the thought. Not that it was all that peaceful with the twins. But she digressed. His success meant their lives were very comfortable, and her own journalism successes while not as financially based, were still celebrated in their relationship. Natsu never waned in being the dutiful and supportive, always loving husband that Lucy felt blessed to grow old with.
‘Two more stops, pick up the kids from school, stop at the grocery store for dinner...’ Lucy tapped out on her phone a to-do list of ingredients to pick up at the store. Perhaps katsudon... ‘Mmm, or maybe nabe,’ hot-pot soup since it was expected to be a bit chilly that evening.
Lucy looked up briefly, really just spacing out in thought when someone catches her eye. At the other end of the train car, she noticed a woman facing slightly away, but enough to where she couldn’t quite see a face. It couldn’t be... Lucy looked away not wanting to stare, but somehow... for some reason the woman was awfully familiar... looking exactly like Touka. Well, not exactly, but enough to make the hair on the back of her neck stand up. It was a blonde, with a different hair style— and that could always be changed. Similar body type, the facial side-profile features that Lucy could see resembled Touka...
Now despite being better, her anxieties still bubbled up from time to time, so she immediately switched to her coping techniques to calm them down. ‘You’re fine,’ Lucy talked herself through it, ‘no point in getting riled up.’ The woman hadn’t done so much as looked in her direction, so it must be okay. Contrary to popular belief, things like depression and anxiety never fully goes away, especially when someone has experienced a severe level of it. Those emotions and irrational thoughts are forever programmed into the brain, but there are ways to keep them at bay and Lucy’s successfully done just that for 15 years.
‘Just go back to what you were doing. Katsudon or nabe? And don’t forget you need to pick up milk...’ But, fifteen years... could Touka have been released by now? Lucy shook the thought away again. ‘Stop it! Everything is fine. It’s not her!’ The train was semi-full of passengers all minding their own business... including the woman. There was no reason to start panicking now. Lucy adjusts her position on her seat away from the woman’s direction. If she couldn’t see her, she could pretend she didn’t exist. ‘Maybe I should pick up ingredients for both, that way I don’t have to shop tomorrow.’ Lucy thought to herself, and with the kids with her, they could help in carrying the shopping bags. ‘Yeah, we’ve got a plan…’
After figuring out her shopping list, Lucy pulled up social media to keep herself distracted and for a few minutes it did the trick. Silly videos of entertainers never got old. The train reached the next stop and she felt it come to a stop. Since it wasn’t hers, she didn’t pay it any mind as she scrolled through her feed. But as the disembarking passengers funnel past Lucy, her eyes pick up on a pair of pink high-heels peeking from over the edge of her phone. Her body instantly stiffened up from the similarity to the ones worn by the woman, while her curiosity slowly got the better of her. ‘Breath, act nonchalant!’ Lucy’s eyes tracked the high-heels moving past her until they left her periphery. She then slowly sat back up, pretending to readjust her position, when she caught a pair of eyes looking back. Lucy’s breathing hitches with a shaky exhale. “Oh, my god—"
Standing at the doorway with one hand on the frame, the blonde woman smiled at Lucy then winked before stepping off the train.
It was Touka!
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tragic star: keith moon
“If you don't like it, you can fuck off!” - last words of Keith Moon
This one was a long time coming, but frankly, it took me a while to get interested enough in the subject to actually do this analysis, let alone finish it. At any rate, Keith Moon, like most of the drummers from the rock ‘n’ roll period that we still read about today, led a self-destructive lifestyle. A close friend of his once said the drummer was “like a train ride you couldn’t stop.” Not only was his drumming chaotic – so was his life. According to some, he was at his core a kind and generous soul, but to others, he was lost, lonely soul, and terribly immature throughout his adult life. Perhaps it was the sudden success, upon joining the rock band The Who, when he was only 18 (although plenty of others of the same era were as young, or younger, and survived just fine), but Keith was so eager to please and make everyone laugh that he eventually became the “Moon the Loon” character that he was portrayed as in the media. It got to the point where he wasn't sure who he really was. A true Leo, he made a circus out of everything and he wouldn't walk into any room and just listen. He was an attention seeker and he had to have it. He used amphetamines, tranquilizers, drank way too much alcohol, destroyed hotel rooms and friends’ homes, threw TVs into swimming pools, set fires, and the list goes on. He was ultimately unable to outrun or outlast his demons; whether it was the wife and child he drove away, the friend and chauffeur he accidentally killed in early 1970...whatever else haunted him, it ultimately caught up with him just as he was finally trying to improve his life. Friends were well-acquainted with the many sides to Moon’s strange personality; one minute he was insulting, exaggerating, joking – the next minute he’s a wide-eyed, innocent-looking drummer boy. The public Keith Moon was The Who’s manic drummer and hellraising, daredevil comedian; a man who only ever lived in the moment. However, the real Keith Moon was a son, a brother, a father and a deeply insecure man. A man of extremes, his was a complete shitshow of a life.
Keith Moon, according to astrotheme, was a Leo sun and Cancer moon (the moon is speculative). Moon was born to working class parents in Wembley, London, England. He was a hyperactive child by nature and a mediocre student at school. His art teacher said in a report: "Retarded artistically. Idiotic in other respects". His music teacher wrote that Moon "has great ability, but must guard against a tendency to show off." At the age of 12, he had joined the Sea Cadet Corp and was given his first musical instrument, the bugle. He left school by 15 and was in his first band, The Beachcombers. While performing with the Beachcombers, he used to attend concerts of a band called The Detours. At that time The Detours were planning to sign a deal with Fontana Records and for this deal, this band required a new drummer. The Detours changed their name to The Who in 1964. When Moon learned about the band’s need for a new drummer, he approached them for an audition. After the audition, he became their new drummer, and performed with The Who for the first time in 1962.
From the moment he joined, musically the band was complete, although adding his already volatile personality to those of the other three equally headstrong members meant that the early years of the Who's career were fraught with drama and violence, despite their almost immediate success. Much of the tension came from the fact that Keith readily joined in on popping pills with guitarist Pete Townshend and bassist John Entwistle, while lead singer Roger Daltrey (with whom Keith was never particularly close) didn't. After sacking Roger for two weeks in mid-1965, he was reinstated, band relations improved, and the Who continued to release a string of successful singles and albums before a downturn in their fortunes in 1968. However, the release of the album Tommy in 1969 turned them into international megastars overnight and from that moment until the day Keith died, they would remain one of the top rock bands in the world. Running concurrently with the Who's rise to stardom in the 1960s was Keith's relationship with his wife Kim. She first met Keith in 1965 when he was 19 and she 15, and while they fell in love rather quickly, he exhibited twin streaks of jealousy and insecurity and Moon was occasionally violent towards Kim. While his mental issues, which would now be readily (and correctly) diagnosed as a combination of ADHD and BPD, reared their ugly heads on innumerable occasions, Keith's true personality shone through enough that Kim stayed with him; she decided to marry him when she became pregnant within a year of dating, and they got married in 1966. Their daughter Amanda was born on 12 July. In those days, there was a belief that married rockstars with kids weren’t as appealing to their mostly female fans, and the marriage (and child) were kept secret from the press until May 1968. He loved his daughter, but his absences due to touring and fondness for practical jokes made their relationship uneasy when she was very young. "He had no idea how to be a father", Kim said. "He was too much of a child himself."
The chaotic sixties would not hold a candle to what the new decade had in store for him, however. Shortly after New Year’s in 1970, Moon accidentally killed his friend, driver and bodyguard, Neil Boland, outside the Red Lion pub in Hatfield, Hertfordshire. Pub patrons had begun to attack his Bentley; Moon, drunk, began driving to escape them. During the fracas, he hit Boland. After an investigation, the coroner ruled Boland's death an accident; Moon, having been charged with a number of offences, received an absolute discharge. Those close to Moon said that he was haunted by Boland's death for the rest of his life. Moon had nightmares about the incident and said he had no right to be alive. Also, compounding this tragedy, was the fragile state of Moon’s marriage. Even after marriage and his daughter being born, he was still jealous, self-centered, and abusive to his wife Kim, both verbally and physically. His mental state also deteriorated as his appetite for all manner of pills escalated and he exploded into a full-blown alcoholic. Even after separating for a year, Kim returned to him, hoping that he had finally changed, but the insane lifestyle Keith kept up at their house became too much. Kim and Amanda (nicknamed “Mandy”) finally left for good in 1973. Since his marriage was a central part of Keith's life, their divorce would come to affect him perhaps more than any other event in his adult life and it was a devastation Keith would never recover from. While most people would use an event like this as the impetus to clean up their act, Keith used it instead as an excuse to drive himself further into oblivion.
Moon's lifestyle began to undermine not only his health but his career. During the 1973 Quadrophenia tour, at the Who's debut US date, Moon ingested a mixture of tranquilizers and brandy. During the concert, Moon passed out on his drum kit during the song "Won't Get Fooled Again." The band stopped playing, and a group of roadies carried Moon offstage. After he was given a shower and an injection of cortisone, he was sent back onstage. Moon passed out again during "Magic Bus," and was again removed from the stage. The band continued without him for several songs before Pete Townshend asked, "Can anyone play the drums? – I mean somebody good?" A fan in the audience, who happened to be a drummer, came up and played the rest of the show. During the opening date of the band's March 1976 US tour at the Boston Garden, Moon passed out again over his drum kit after two numbers and the show was rescheduled. By the mid-1970s Keith was living in Los Angeles and getting up to even more insanity with John Lennon, Ringo Starr, Harry Nilsson, and other stars. Even a new love in his life, Swedish model Annette Walter-Lax, couldn't get him to slow down and take control. There were even stints in psychiatric wards after some mental breakdowns brought on by his despair at losing Kim and his daughter and his drinking. His alcohol and drug abuse was now not only affecting his health (he put on a significant amount of weight at this time due to infrequent gigging) but sadly, his drumming. In 1978 soon after he recorded Who Are You, his final album with The Who, depressed by the deterioration of his drumming and threats from the rest of the Who to clean up his act or else, that he finally decided to get some help. By the summer of 1978, he seemed to be trying to get his life in order, staying sober and solidifying his relationship with Annette. He was terrified to go into rehab or under psychiatric evaluation, however, and instead self-medicated with Heminevrin, a drug used for treating acute withdrawal from alcohol. However, he took too many on his final night and sadly died on September 7, 1978 at the age of 32.
Over forty years after his death, it's still difficult to think of Keith Moon as anything more than just a hard-drinking insane rock star who would smash his drum set on stage or destroy a hotel room. But regardless of the human being behind the drumkit, the legendary drummer should be remembered as the man who forever changed the sound of rock 'n' roll.
Next, I’ll go back to my beloved star analyses by covering a personal favourite of mine; a force of nature and an unsung pioneer of cinema whose death was ridiculously sensationalized and whose colourful life was almost as wild as Moon’s: Cancer Lupe Vélez
Stats
birthdate: August 23, 1946*
*note*: due to the absence of a birth time, this analysis will be even more speculative.
major planets:
Sun: Leo
Moon: Cancer
Rising: unknown
Mercury: Leo
Venus: Libra
Mars: Libra
Midheaven: unknown
Jupiter: Libra
Saturn: Leo
Uranus: Gemini
Neptune: Libra
Pluto: Leo
Overall personality snapshot: He may sometimes have wanted a safe, simple life where he felt emotionally contained and able to pursue his own creative interests. Then, however, the compulsion to strive for a more central, leading role reared its challenging head, and he knew he had it in him – so out into the spotlight he went. So immense was his creative energy as well as his warm feeling for others that he could become both the artistic home-maker and the home-loving artist/writer/entrepreneur. His personality was large and welcoming, colourful and theatrical because he had such an uncanny knack of dramatizing his vivid impressions and selling himself in the most genuine, heartfelt way. Both the paternal and the maternal urge was strong in him. He needed to use his will to project and establish your identity in the world, and to use his instincts to nurture and protect his emotional and material security. The Sun and the Moon are in their ‘home’ signs here, so that potentially he had the creative vision of Apollo and the lunar wisdom of Diana all rolled into one. This could make him pretty overpowering at times, and indeed he needed a partner and a family on whom he could lavish his emotions. His bearing was often aristocratic, sometimes haughty, oversensitive and self-absorbed, but he always seemed to have enough affection to go around so that no one felt left out. He also managed to remain approachable and compassionate because he was so aware of his own vulnerability and need to be loved. Thus he made a warm and understanding friend, and he enjoyed expressing his feelings with original flair and thoughtfulness.
He was protective, possessive and clannish, a stalwart member of his family, group and nation, and utterly devoted to his ideals. Deeply honourable and dependable, he brought an attitude of devotion and romantic style to all he did. He may have actually had a good head for business because he possessed an instinctive knowledge of security needs as well as a shrewd understanding of people, their desires, fears and foibles. His refined taste for comfort and beauty was part of the impetus for success – he knew his own mind and did not easily budge from his preferences and high standards. Aesthetic sensitivity was strong, and combined with his innate tenacity and quiet ambition means that he was quite successful in the arts. Even though he readily turned a bright face to the world, he did not always feel confident and strong. He had a lively sense of individuality, but his potency was sometimes too dependent on emotional familiarity, and the range of his self-expression too circumscribed within repetitive emotional patterns. Inwardly he shied away from encounters with the big, bad world, and early in life he may have needed to find ways of handling challenges that normally push the panic button. This wouldn’t have been hard for him because his creative drive was tremendous and his individuality needed recognition.
He was ambitious, sound at giving orders, carried responsibility well and was a good teacher, especially able to bring out the best in children. He believed in herself and generally knew the right thing to say at the right time, although he could show a stubborn and dogmatic side. He had a high opinion of his mental powers, and it was certainly true to say that he had plenty of mental energy. He was quite sociable and expected other people to behave well at all times. He was eager for close personal relationships, so he tended to have a wide circle of friends. Self-indulgence was a problem for him, as was laziness and conceit in relationships. He tended to be impatient with superficial details, preferring large-scale situations, and he disliked being tied down by obligations over which he had little control. Conservatism may have affected his creativity, artistic values and love affairs. This expressed itself as self-imposed restrictions or as selfishness. He often felt inadequate, which created an insidious form of oppression over all his forms of expression. He could also take herself so seriously, that people think that he was older than his years.
He was part of a generation that was strongly interested in humanitarian ideals, new avenues of communication and progress in mechanical skills. As a member of this generation, he was able to bring original ideas to both his career and spare-time interests. Crises in thought and ideology arose because he looked beyond tradition and old attitudes towards new original and inventive ways of looking at things. His active mind tended to need constant stimulation and his tastes could be quite fickle and difficult to satisfy. He belonged to a time of peace-loving idealism when the family unit and the way relationships were managed underwent great changes. He could be too idealistic and a little unrealistic when it came to matters of love, sex and romance. As a member of this generation, he tended to need to be motivated to make the most of his potential, because the line of least resistance appeared very attractive, especially when it involved pleasure-seeking. He embodied the Libra Neptune generation in the sense that he was a huge part of a time when beauty reappeared in fashion. He was part of a generation which was highlighted by the clash between authoritarianism and individualism. As a member of the Leo Plutonian generation, he wanted freedom in his relationships and demanded the loyalty of his friends as a right. As a member of this generation, he wanted power over his own life and was prepared to challenge established structures. He didn’t feel comfortable being dictated to, unless he in some way agreed to it beforehand. He was a part of excesses of the sixties. He was part of a generation that brought about a revolution in forms of entertainment, recreational activities and leisure time, as well as attitudes towards children.
Love/sex life: He was a lover so in love with the idea of love that nothing else matters. At times his whole-hearted idealism made him too optimistic and too easily deceived by people who promised to fulfill his ideals and then renege but, as delicate and unworldly as his romantic fantasy may seem, it was remarkably durable. Though he may have been misused and hurt, he never lost his faith in the power of true love. Issues of the flesh were always secondary to him and he was apt not to give them much thought. If such urges must be satisfied, then so be it. If sex proved useful in reaching other goals, that was fine too. As long as sex did not intrude on his ideal of perfect love such physical inconveniences hardly mattered. Unfortunately, most of the rest of the world did not agree with him on this point and, measured by their standards, his sexual behaviour may have seemed immoral or at least strangely naïve. He needed to learn to allow for such harsh realities even as he strove to create that grand idyll of perfect love.
minor asteroids and points:
North Node: Gemini
Lilith: Capricorn
Juno: Libra
Chiron: Libra
Vesta: Aries
Ceres: Aquarius
Pallas: Sagittarius
His North Node in Gemini dictated that he needed to prevent his idealism from influencing his thoughts to such a high degree. He needed to consciously develop a more clear-minded and analytical approach involving his thought processes. His Lilith in Capricorn dictated that he was dangerously attracted to women who had a scrappy plucky attitude hot-wired into their psyche. Against his better judgment, he liked to be around a woman who needed to be in control and to be mistress of her own destiny, because her life was in the control of not-so-well-meaning others as a child. Juno in Libra, he sought a mate who was harmonious, artistic, musical and intelligent. He liked beauty and balance at home. He believed in equal partnerships where all lived up to the letter of the law. Chiron in Libra, he often felt wounded in relationships and could wound others in retaliation. He may have felt he was constantly hurt or rejected in relationships. Through learning that he was whole on his own, he could have freed himself from this destructive pattern. He would have benefited from a partner that could have helped him heal in some way. Vesta in Aries, he was incline to initiate work for religious and humanitarian projects. Action came from a desire to improve every situation. There was a great deal of insecurity in self-evaluation. Ceres in Aquarius, at his best, he had tact and the ability to compromise, making him well liked by all. Pallas in Sagittarius, he had the ability to evaluate true personal worth enabling him to use his resources in the most advantageous ways. Other people may think he was lucky. Ideally speaking, he could have been generally positive instead of being wasteful, and he could have been confident and reliable. Nonetheless, he still used his ideas in a practical way, especially in his career.
elemental dominance:
air
fire
He was communicative, quick and mentally agile, and he liked to stir things up. He was likely a havoc-seeker on some level. He was oriented more toward thinking than feeling. He carried information and the seeds of ideas. Out of balance, he lived in his head and could be insensitive to the feelings of others. But at his best, he helped others form connections in all spheres of their daily lives. He was dynamic and passionate, with strong leadership ability. He generated enormous warmth and vibrancy. He was exciting to be around, because he was genuinely enthusiastic and usually friendly. However, he could either be harnessed into helpful energy or flame up and cause destruction. Confident and opinionated, he was fond of declarative statements such as “I will do this” or “It’s this way.” When out of control—usually because he was bored, or hadn’t been acknowledged—he was bossy, demanding, and even tyrannical. But at his best, his confidence and vision inspired others to conquer new territory in the world, in society, and in themselves.
modality dominance:
cardinal
He was happiest when he was doing anything new, and he loved to begin new ventures. He enjoyed the challenge of claiming territory. He tended to be an initiator—and a bit territorial as well. Also, he had a tendency to start more things than she could possibly finish.
planet dominants:
Moon
Sun
Venus
He was defined by his inner world; by his emotional reactions to situations, how emotions flowed through him, motivating and compelling him—or limiting him and holding him back. He held great capacity to become a part of the whole rather than attempting to master the parts. He wanted to become whatever it was that he sought. He had vitality and creativity, as well as a strong ego and was authoritarian and powerful. He likely had strong leadership qualities, he definitely knew who he was, and he had tremendous will. He met challenges and believed in expanding his life. He was romantic, attractive and valued beauty, had an artistic instinct, and was sociable. He had an easy ability to create close personal relationships, for better or worse, and to form business partnerships.
sign dominants:
Leo
Libra
Cancer
He loved being the center of attention and often surrounded himself with admirers. He had an innate dramatic sense, and life was definitely his stage. His flamboyance and personal magnetism extended to every facet of his life. He wanted to succeed and make an impact in every situation. At his best, he was optimistic, honorable, loyal, and ambitious. He loved beauty in all its guises—art, literature, classical music, opera, mathematics, and the human body. He usually was a team player who enjoyed debate but not argument. He was, at his best, an excellent strategist and a master at the power of suggestion. Even though he was likely a courteous, amiable person, he was definitely not a pushover. He tried to use diplomacy and intelligence to get what he wanted. At first meeting, he seemed enigmatic, elusive. He needed roots, a place or even a state of mind that he could call his own. He needed a safe harbor, a refuge in which to retreat for solitude. He was generally gentle and kind, unless he was hurt. Then he could become vindictive and sharp-spoken. He was affectionate, passionate, and even possessive at times. He was intuitive and was perhaps even psychic. Experience flowed through him emotionally. He was often moody and always changeable; his interests and social circles shifted constantly. He was emotion distilled into its purest form.
Read more about him under the cut.
Keith John Moon was an English drummer who played with the English rock band the Who. He was noted for his unique style and his eccentric, often self-destructive behaviour. His drumming continues to be praised by critics and musicians. He was posthumously inducted into the Modern Drummer Hall of Fame in 1982, becoming only the second rock drummer to be chosen, and in 2011, Moon was voted the second-greatest drummer in history by a Rolling Stone readers' poll.
Moon grew up in Alperton, a suburb of Wembley, in Middlesex, and took up the drums during the early 1960s. After playing with a local band, the Beachcombers, he joined the Who in 1964 before they recorded their first single.
Moon remained with the band during their rise to fame, and was quickly recognised for his drumming style, which emphasised tom-toms, cymbal crashes, and drum fills. He occasionally collaborated with other musicians and later appeared in films, but considered playing in the Who his primary occupation and remained a member of the band until his death.
In addition to his talent as a drummer, however, Moon developed a reputation for smashing his kit on stage and destroying hotel rooms on tour. He was fascinated by blowing up toilets with cherry bombs or dynamite, and by destroying television sets. Moon enjoyed touring and socialising, and was bored and restless when the Who were inactive. His 21st birthday party in Flint, Michigan, has been cited as a notorious example of decadent behaviour by rock groups.
Moon suffered a number of setbacks during the 1970s, most notably the accidental death of chauffeur Neil Boland and the breakdown of his marriage. He became addicted to alcohol, particularly brandy and champagne, and acquired a reputation for decadence and dark humour; his nickname was "Moon the Loon." After moving to Los Angeles with personal assistant Peter "Dougal" Butler during the mid-1970s, Moon recorded his only solo album, the poorly received Two Sides of the Moon.
While touring with the Who, on several occasions he passed out on stage and was hospitalised. By their final tour with him in 1976, and particularly during production of The Kids Are Alright and Who Are You, the drummer's deterioration was evident. Moon moved back to London in 1978, dying in September of that year from an overdose of Heminevrin, a drug intended to treat or prevent symptoms of alcohol withdrawal. (x)
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A big, messy Linked Universe playlist
Link for Links
Heavy on the angst, because of who I am as a person. (At the same time, don’t take it too seriously, man.)
Influenced by canon, manga (TP Link is really Going Through It™ ), my personal perceptions, and popular fandom canon.
A pretty wide variety of genres, with a bias towards metal and prog rock.
I kept snippets of lyrics for most songs, also because of who I am as a person. (Some were particularly hard to narrow down to just one verse or chorus.) Those - and a little more rambling - are under the cut if you really want, in the order of the playlist.
But.
It’s long.
I didn’t initially make this with the intent to share, but hey.
Throughout my past year+ of listening, I’ve been haphazardly adding songs to a playlist I very creatively named Links. If something reminded me of them, whether through the music or lyrics or both, I threw it on the playlist, so some songs might seem odd or vague.
Some are really on the nose, as subtle as a sledgehammer. (Sky for Sky? Dude. Sorry.)
Some are there because of a fitting line or two that stuck in my head.
Ultimately, music - like any form of creative expression - can be interpreted in a multitude of ways.
My listening habits and tastes are erratic, which is why this is one big, jumbled playlist and not separated for different Links. Not to mention if I did that, some (Wild, Legend) would have a lot and some (Wind, Four) would have none, both because of my own familiarity with them, and because of the general themes of the music I tend to listen to. Most songs are a general ‘hero’s spirit reborn’ mood, anyway - those are the first part of the playlist. The second half is more nuanced to specific Links, plus a few Ganon vibes.
1. Deep Purple - April
(Koji Kondo, composer of the original Legend of Zelda theme, was into Deep Purple as a kid, and it shows.)
2. Kamelot - Regalis Apertura
3. Au4 - So Just Hang On, Beautiful One
(I’ve posted this here before. I can’t hear it without thinking of LU now.)
So I slipped in through the gate almost unknown.
All my border stamps were late. Seven days old.
Cold hand griped my shoulder blade, broke the bone.
Bloody nose and turned away, all the way home.
4. FC Kahuna - Hayling
Don’t think about all those things you fear, just be glad to be here
5. Glass Animals - Youth
Boy, when I left you you were young
I was gone, but not my love
You were clearly meant for more
Than a life lost in the war
6. Pain of Salvation - Restless Boy
A restless boy in a world too slow
A flame born into cinder, ash, and glow
I've given everything I gave it all
Yet find myself alone
7. Haken - The Endless Knot
Our design shifted frame by frame!
Across the line our cycle starts to fail.
Our design shifted frame by frame!
Across the line we die to live again.
We need a story to believe in.
We need a hero to prevail.
We need a challenge we can overcome,
it takes a tragedy to make us one
8. Kamelot - Memento Mori (I particularly associate this with Time and Twilight)
I am the god in my own history
The master of the game
I may believe if she would come to me
And whisper out my name
Sometimes I wonder where the wind has gone
If life has ever been
Sometimes I wonder how belief alone
Can cut me free from sin
9. Katatonia - Fighters
Look I told you so
We never stop
If we said that We'll back it up
For sure
You know
We're fighters
10. Megadeth - This Day We Fight! (I mean, all Links, but particularly Warriors)
For this I was chosen, because I fear nothing
With confidence I tread through the dead of the night
Off to another war-torn, faraway battlefield
Wherein lies a demonic enemy horde
11. Moon Tooth - Igneous
Well, the spirit took me
And this old broken body leapt up and danced
Settin’ out
Settin' out with all my heroes in a bundle at my back
Hawk am I
More wings span in my shadow than overcast
Yeah, you know what they say
Always need something to look up to, ha
12. Samael - Moongate
Destiny, tomorrow is today
Destiny, without boundaries
How many nights will we spend together traveling infinity back and forth and again
How many times will we go together questioning eternity about us about our wonders...
13. TOOL- Parabola
This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality
Embrace this moment, remember
We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion
14. Lunatic Soul - Blood on the Tightrope
No matter how hard you try
To shut down your feverish thoughts
They hunt you down with no regret
Cause you have to fix it all
15. Hybrid - Keep It In The Family
16. Soul Savers - Unbalanced Pieces
Gone, now carry on
Through violent seasons
I call you mother, mother, mother
In vain, absent chain
The twilight's bleeding
And the playing board has two unbalanced pieces
17. Steve Von Till - Valley of the Moon
All she gives is a stone facade
Like ill-given flowers at a dead man's wake
Here we slave for the dreams of another
And fight over scraps like wayward dogs
18. Ludovico Einaudi - Experience
19. Lunatic Soul - Summoning Dance
Three stones on the right side
Three stones on the left
My vicious circle of life and death
“Oh you want it”
I hear it again
“Oh you want it”
My burden
Curse to break
20. Lunatic Soul - Through Shaded Woods
Run through your shaded woods
Run through your shaded mind
Run through the night
Run away
Run through the darkness
Run
21. Lunatic Soul - Naavie
22. David Bowie - Nature Boy
There was a boy
A very strange, enchanted boy
They say he wandered very far
Very far, over land and sea
A little shy and sad of eye
But very wise was he
23. The Dandy Warhols - Sleep
Well, I could sleep forever
But it's of her I dream
If I could sleep forever
I could forget about everything
24. Au4 - Everyone is Everyone (and Everything is Everything)
Tripping and tumbling,
Flipping and fumbling.
Flowing on the rivers of sadness
That have been forever rumbling.
But from dawn until now
Of all the paths that I could have gone down
Of all the valleys
That I could have been flowing through.
In spite of all the chaos
And all that has come between us,
How is it I still find myself
Here with you.
25. Kingcrow - Everything Goes
Your hands again upon the ground
Falling rain for hours and hours
As you learn the game
Time dispels the fog
...
Ever been there?
Ever felt like prey?
Ever thought your mind was feeble?
Lot of things that don’t make sense
26. Pain of Salvation - Icon
As a child I felt too old
And now when I'm grown-up I feel too young
A different kind so I've been told
Just slightly out of reach and out of time
27. Sophia Loizou - Divine Interference
(I got spooky dungeon vibes. Also, the title.)
28. Carpenter Brut - Fab Tool
Runnin
Gunnin
Forward in the phantom shatter so grand
Splatter grand, arcanum fuel
Wrought iron out of the sky
Over me, tells no lie
29. Blue Stahli - Death Will Have to Run
All on the open road
Where none will ever grow
A journey toward the known
With countless miles to go
30. Gyroscope - Mistakes & Ladders
I am the first?
No I can't be the first
A continuous nothing, destined for something
Tell me who you are and why you trapped me here
31. Queens of the Stone Age - Run, Pig, Run
Run, pig, run
Here I come
32. Chali 2na & Krafty Kuts - Guard The Fort
The swords are drawn and odds are stacked
And we clash the impact's a thunderous clap
Calm demeanor
Even though we are under attack
[...my turn to guard the fort ready for combat]
33. The Great Discord - Army of Me
(lol)
34. Kongos - Terrified
I think I'll start again and change my name
You only live once or twice, what a shame
Somebody fucked up when designing this game
35. Woodkid - Run Boy Run
Run, boy, run!
This ride is a journey to
Run, boy, run!
The secret inside of you
Run, boy, run!
This race is a prophecy
Run, boy, run!
And disappear in the trees
36. The Beta Machine - The End
A million miles away from you this time
I'll do what it takes
I'm on my way
If lines are in the sand
I'll go under
If I can make it in time
I will bring you back with me
37. Devin Townsend Project - Gump
When we last met who was I?
I'm sorry we no longer see eye to eye
The energy to keep you in while keeping myself out
I'm sorry how you'll take this
But I just don't have the patience anymore
38. Arrested Youth - Riot!
I can't get much satisfaction living in this cave
It's tough to breathe, I'm in the belly of the beast
Can't sleep with all my rage
With me and all my generations living in this cage
Pick up your guns and tell your sons, tonight we break the cage
39. Led Zeppelin - Friends
So anytime somebody needs you
Don't let them down, although it grieves you
Some day you'll need someone like they do
Looking for what you knew
40. Faunts - M4, pt 2 (Wild)
Fight your foes you're not alone
Holy war is on the phone
Asking to please stay on hold
Bleeding loss of blood runs cold
And I need you to recover
Because I can't make it on my own
41. Faith No More - Ashes to Ashes (Wild)
I want them to know it's me, it's on my head
I'll point the finger at me, it's on my head
Smiling with the mouth of the ocean
And I'll wave to you with the arms of the mountain
42. Devin Townsend - Jupiter (Wild)
I know you
At least I think I do
Everything's changed
But in the days that are so dark
It's wonderful
43. Katatonia - Neon Epitaph (Wild)
Shadow of my shadow
Cling not to my grief
I am long left behind now
You are free
44. The Smashing Pumpkins - The Beginning is the End is the Beginning (Wild)
Time has stopped before us
The sky cannot ignore us
No one can separate us
For we are all that is left
The echo bounces off me
The shadow lost beside me
There's no more need to pretend
Cause now I can begin again
45. Katatonia - Lacquer (Wild)
My voice travelling
Soaring bird above your head
The house we lived in
Ridden with disease
...
The levee breaking
I can't live to fight once more
The road to the grave is straight as an arrow
I'm just staying around to sing your song, baby
46. Eskimo Joe - This is Pressure (Wild)
There is no romance in suffocation
The walls fall down like your expectations
You want to scream
And you want to shout
But you've built up steam
And you can't let it out
This is pressure
47. Portugal. The Man - 1000 Years (Wild)
We'll wait 1000 years
Until the end of time
We'll wait 1000 more
Dressed up in gold and white
We'll climb the mountain sides
To find what's in the sky
We'll dig through mountain sides
To find what's deep inside
48. Au4 - An Ocean’s Measure of Sorrow (Wild)
Forgot my name and who I was.
Memories of nothing floating up.
All of the sorrow we once knew,
Colours the ocean's water blue.
49. Band of Skulls - Carnivorous (Twilight)
I am corrosive and cohesive
Like a chemical bond
I'm all together undone
I am the broken kingdom
I'm just so, so, so
So carnivorous
50. Glass Animals - Flip (Twilight)
I wanna go back with a club and attack
I wanna take to my guns and break you
I gotta make my little foe take his own
51. TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me (Twilight)
My mind has changed my body's frame, but, God, I like it
My heart's aflame, my body's strained, but, God, I like it
52. Kamelot - The Spell (Twilight)
All my demons cast a spell
The souls of dusk rising from the ashes
So the book of shadows tell
The weak will always obey the master
53. OSI - Radiologue (Legend)
I was dreaming I was heading west thirty days faster
Had a fever
woke up in a sweat
bailing out the water
Can't go on
Can't go back
Heard your voice coming through the noise
wrote it in the radio log
Hurt my head, wondering what you said
so I threw it overboard
54. Katatonia - Don’t Tell A Soul (Legend)
I have been destroyed by the perfection that is a lie
see I'm moving soon
see my feet are already on the road
and if you know where I’m going
don’t tell a soul
55. Haken - The Mind’s Eye (Legend)
The shape of things to come are closer than they seem
Changing your design every time you disappear
I'm planning my escape through portals of your mind
Where people seem to drop like flies
56. Pain of Salvation - Species (Legend)
Sometimes I hate my fucking species
Yet most days I'll do anything to please it
My generation was fooled to pursue our dreams
But it is not what it seems
You never need what you want
And you rarely want what you need
57. Euringer - Do You Kiss Your Mama with That Mouth? (Legend)
All my life, misunderstood
I'm fuckin' too smart, too smart for my own good
The last question, before I go is
"Hey motherfucka, do you kiss your mama with that mouth?"
Yes!
I kiss your mama with this mouth
58. !!! - Pardon My Freedom (Legend)
Like I give a fuck, like I give a shit
Like I give a fuck about that shit
Like I give a fuck about that motherfucking shit
59. Team Sleep - Ataraxia (Legend)
Froze asleep
Coma deep
I dream I'm out with you
Alone at sea
60. Oliver Tank - Embrace (Legend)
You're in my dreams
The world is torn apart at the seams
And I don't wanna leave
Wearing my heart on it's sleeve
61. Machine Gun Fellatio - The Girl of My Dreams (Is Giving Me Nightmares) (Legend)
The girl of my dreams is giving me nightmares
I don't know what it means but she's got multi-coloured hair
When she stands in the sand I dream of peaches
And I'm not sure what that means either
62. Earl Greyhound - Shotgun (Legend & Hyrule)
I am nobody, nobody is who I am
I am a traveler on this land
And nothing, nothing, nothing in my hands
63. TV on the Radio - Staring at the Sun (Hyrule)
You're staring at the sun
You're standing in the sea
Your mouth is open wide
You're trying hard to breathe
The water's at your neck
There's lightning in your teeth
Your body's over me
64. Echo & The Bunnymen - The Killing Moon (Time)
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
65. Sufjan Stevens - Sugar (Sky)
Don’t break my heart, don’t break my flow now
And all this rage has got to go now
Let’s take up this lifeline
Come on, baby, gimme some sugar
Don’t make me wait
Don’t make me wait too long
Don’t make me sing the sad song
Come on, baby, gimme some sugar
66. Obsydians - Ascension (Sky)
Rise above the hardships you’ll face
I will sign and keep on rising
As long as you are giving me your soul and keep me awake
Feel like home and spread your light around
I will listen and just be there
As long as you are giving me your love I’ll give you my soul
67. Sonique - Sky
-_-
68. Enter Shikari - The King (Ganon)
Watch your back, my friend
I'm about to kickstart a cycle
Of never ending revenge
And this time it's primal, it's tribal
69. Saul Williams - WTF! (Ganon, Hylia)
"You've been polluted, uprooted by time
You have been muted, computed but I'm
A living vessel of the one, of the moon, of the sun"
Hey! You ain't as dead as you seem, what the fuck?
Hey! But you keep living your lies
70. These New Puritans - We Want War (Ganon/ Dark Link/ any nemesis I guess)
Shadows dance back up, it's happening again
If you listen carefully you might hear them whisper:
"We hold all the secrets, we hold all the words;
But they're scrambled and broken so you'll never know"
Can't you see them
Floating like black ash?
Can't you feel them
Crawling down your back?
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Prompt: Victory!
Brian and Ellen AU / Tell Me About Your Family
Chapter 1 || Chapter 2 || Chapter 3 || Chapter 4 || Chapter 5 || Chapter 6 || Chapter 7 || Chapter 8 || Chapter 9 || Chapter 10 || Chapter 11 || Chapter 12|| Chapter 13 || Chapter 14 || Chapter 15 || Chapter 16 || Chapter 17
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On the morning that changed her father’s life forever, Faith Janet Hildegard Fraser was three months shy of her seventh birthday.
She didn’t quite understand it all at the time, though she clearly remembered Uncle Rab and auld Ned Gowan - whose eyes always looked funny from behind his spectacles - riding through the dooryard and narrowly missing the buckets of washing that Mama and Mistress Crook and Grannie and Auntie Jenny had set up in the dooryard.
She remembered Mama sending Fergus racing inside, and him returning moments later with Grandda and Uncle Ian and Da.
She remembered how worried Da looked. And then how Da had let out a whoop of joy, twirling Mama around, when auld Ned had handed him a wee scrap of paper.
She also remembered how she’d stained the front of her dress later that day, mixing berries to help Mistress Crook bake a pie to celebrate Da’s freedom. How happy they had been that evening - and how she was allowed to stay up with the grown-ups as they sat around the fire. And the strong arms of her father, carrying her up to bed and kissing her goodnight before bringing the quilt up to her chin.
“Da?” she had asked him, sleepily.
“Aye?” he had whispered, mindful of Bree snoring on the other side of the bed.
“Does this mean we can go to Edinburgh now?”
He had ruffled her hair. “Aye. And Aberdeen and Glasgow and wherever yer heart desires, a leannan. We can talk more about it in the morning.”
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“Is she all right?”
Jamie kissed the crown of Claire’s head as he settled back down next to her on the settee. “Aye. Tired out, puir thing. She wants so badly to grow up.”
Claire took his hand, squeezing. So full of joy.
Across the room, Brian poured Ned another dram. “So what will ye do now?”
Jamie pursed his lips. “I’m no’ leaving Lallybroch, if that’s what ye’re thinking. This is my home.”
Ellen let out a breath she didn’t realize she had been holding. “But surely ye want to at least go to the village, perhaps?”
“Aye - in good time. I’ve lived these past years wi’out it. Will be strange to see people who aren’t one of you.”
“I’ve the five certified copies in my satchel,” Ned repeated - unknowingly - for the third time that evening, his face cheerily flushed with mirth and whisky.
“Ye should have seen him.” Rab smiled at the wizened old man beside him, then clapped him heartily on the back. Ned choked a bit, but cleared his throat with even more whisky. “Arguing yer case in that room full of magistrates. He’s a force of nature.”
“My father did right when he brought you into his service,” Ellen remarked.
Ned blinked owlishly, hand gripping the side of the couch. “I realized long ago that I wouldn’t make my way in this world with my back or my arms - but rather with my brain.” He wiped his nose on his sleeve. “I’m afraid I won’t be of much use to you here, now that this mission is accomplished.”
“Nonsense.” Brian’s voice was slow and clear. “You’re welcome to stay with us until the end of your days. A man deserves to live out his auld age in peace. And ye’ve got many good years ahead of you yet.”
Ned sighed. “I cannot tell you how grateful I am, Brian. Ellen.”
“It’s us who are grateful,” Claire interjected quietly. “You’ve given so much to our family.”
“And the bairns love ye something fierce,” Jenny added, adjusting a sleeping Kitty against her shoulder. “Not to mention - with the way things are going wi’ the redcoats these days...we could use a good lawyer to keep things to right.”
Ned stood, then - legs wobbly - and placed his hand over his heart.
“Then I pledge my fealty to the Frasers of Lallybroch,” he proclaimed.
Then he gently collapsed back onto the couch, stone asleep.
“Do ye think he’ll remember that oath come morning?” Ian smiled.
“Oh, aye.” Ellen rose to fetch a blanket from the closet in the hallway. “My father didnae bring him on for nothing - and Ned didnae survive Colum and Dougal wi’out developing a few peculiar talents. He’ll remember, all right.”
Ned’s snores echoed off the walls of the room.
Jamie rose, Claire right beside him. “We’re lucky to have him.” He turned to face his family. “And I’m lucky to have you. All of you.”
Brian could only smile. “It’s us who are lucky to have you, Jamie. And to celebrate your freedom.”
For free Jamie was - his honor restored - and the world was open and bright and fresh with hope and possibility.
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Reki and Langa’s dynamic
It’s speculation at my part and a shameless rant on what i like about sk8 just to get it off my chest I’ve been so fixated help
it’s 5am I’m at uni and i have a shit ton to do, am I really gonna make an essay about sk8 instead? yes abso-fucking-lutely. strap on to your metaphorical skateboards kids. this is going to be long ride
this isn’t to call out anyone lol so in case you get that impression I’m sorry. I understand everyone is out to interpret media in whatever they like and that’s fine, but sometimes i feel like either some missed some points of the story? anyway here are my thoughts tho
alright so what i absolutely love about sk8 is how they didn’t make anyone into a genius.Genius is a mockery of the hardships everyone does to attain that level of skills. And no Langa is not a genius or a prodigy which I will explain later. I’ve seen enough shounen animes back in the day and usually it’s ‘annoying heart of gold beginner vs. calm and collected genius’ they usually hate each other’s guts and bicker all the time though secretly, deep down care for each other but would rather die than admit it dynamic. While I’m glad we’re moving past that, I really thought Reki and Langa would be like that so....
imagine my surprise when Langa was the ‘beginner’ in skating. He has the potential to be a second sasuke here lol. (blue, handsome, cool) but no he isn’t. he’s an adorable idiot, an airhead, head empty only skating dude and i love it.
Reki as well. He could have been the usual protagonist. (sucks at his sport, loud, hardworking, and by the power of friendship he suddenly beats everyone else which i think is pretty overused at this point, don’t you think?) some people complain how Reki despite being the MC isn’t given screentime and hasn’t won a single beef. (and sure that’s true. he should have won some and langa lose some but we only have 12 eps so lol) but he’s not the usual protagonist you know? and sk8 isn’t about winning. if it was, I think they would have focused on the techniques. the hows and the what to do.
Idk if you noticed, but sports anime with winning in its goal would often explain in detail certain techniques. (see haikyuu) but shows like Free and Yuri on Ice isn’t exactly talking about how to win that seriously as Haikyuu did. It’s more focusing on the feelings and how their lives are affected with their passion for this sport. it’s about the character development!!! and i think SK8 is something like that too. It explores the character’s feelings rather than sport. (like what i tell my sister, they use the sport as a character device if that makes sense?)
this was literally in the opening lol. it’s really about the feelings you know?
so anyway it’s been pointed out several times that Reki was already feeling insecure about his skills in skating since ep 1 way before Langa came. But he still likes to skate and despite feeling never enough, he still enjoyed it. (some also pointed out that Reki’s reason of going into a beef against Shadow has been because he insulted his way of skating not because he wanted to be the best) so the show from the get go was already hinting at his self esteem issues.
this also implies that Reki has always been feeling like this in a while, added with his tendencies to bottle things up, it makes sense that he’ll blow up at some point and he’ll need to release all of those feelings. (so yeah i think this is just the right amount of eps for their fall out. i see some people complaining shush. otherwise it would also feel too rushed. this is years weighing him)
and i guess it’s also implied in here he’s had days like these too in the past! seriously it’s an ongoing problem he’s been carrying. i think 3 eps is pretty good enough pace to internalize it
so point: Reki was already down way before Langa came. langa just added to that. And don’t go blaming Langa cause the boy did nothing wrong.
Consider that Langa just lost his dad (i think we need more backstory on this though. please sdsjkdksl i need little Langa and his dad interactions) he just moved countries, and the only connection to his dad (snowboarding) is gone cause it doesn’t snow in OKinawa
though one also argues that Langa hasn’t been snowboarding since his dad was gone.
so for Langa, Reki introducing skating to him was revolutionary. You’re someone grieving over the death of what is probably the most important person in your life, the thing you love the most no longer gives you joy (as was shown in the flashbacks and basically Langa going ‘it’s the same’) and you’re in a new country with a language you barely are fluent. you can’t even read or write, and you barely have friends granted you don’t have much back in the day. it’s horrible.
and then this guy you barely know talks to you, befriends you, helps you get a job, and teaches you something you thought you’ve lost and through that you made more friends??
yeah you see why Langa likes Reki. You also see why he’s obsessed with skating. It’s kind of like a coping, a fixation. plus he’s bad with social cues i guess? the interview says he’s likely to get dumped for being too inattentive lmao and that’s what makes him interesting!
also the thing that really surprised me when they first interacted was how supportive Reki is to Langa. it also got to me with how much Langa thinks highly of Reki. Again a deviation to the ‘i say i hate you but deep down i care for you’ trope. they’re full on supportive and protective. i like that. it’s fresh to me. I thought Reki was going to the tsundere ‘hmph that’s not a big deal’ route at the start of ep 2 but he’s really amazed. (kinda also says he’s been very desperate for someone to share skating with but that’s another topic)
so Reki teaches Langa how to skate. and Langa sucks. Which was interesting to me because I thought Langa would be some flawless prince-like character. But nah. He trips and faints at his own blood lol. He’s so uncool and i love it.
Some people say Langa is over powered with a thick ass plot armor which gets him to win (which is why i see people saying he should have won against Joe and I actually agree that Langa should lose some beefs but again only 12 eps, so little time)
but I still wanna talk about it anyway so it’s revealed Langa was snowboarding since 2. That’s 15 years. I think that should be around the same time Joe and Cherry should be skating. and i think if you start earlier as a kid, your body develops differently. (should Langa, “an amateur” win against Joe a pro? the question falls more on whether you can classify Langa as an amateur) i think it’s like Langa being very used to motorcycle tricks from age 2 then suddenly he’s using a regular bicycle, and sure the feeling is mostly the same but there’s just something off. Your body doesn’t easily forget what you know, especially if it did it for 15 years. and so Reki customizes a board for Langa so it’ll feel exactly like snowboarding
So Langa has a customized board that he needed to get used to before he went pro. He really sucked the first few eps lmao. but that’s more of him getting used to the new rules. he pretty much told Reki in ep 2 that he can’t do a skateboard ollie, but he can do a snowboard one bec it’s attached to his feet.
(i may just want to add that one thing i also like about sk8 is that it really doesn’t care what you need for accommodation? if that’s how you do it best, then go for it. When Langa says to Reki he can’t do the ollie without the board attached to his feet, Reki immediately goes his way to accommodate him. usually people in real life might say ‘it’s not real skateboarding if you need a modification etc. but look at Cherry with a freaking AI board and people are like yeah whatever do what you want man. whatever rolls your board.)
so anyway Langa vs. Joe with Langa winning despite being an amateur? if you can even call him an amateur that is. Plus all his tricks are snowboarding tricks lol. everything he’s done is testament to his 15 years of snowboarding?? We don’t even know how good Langa is in snowboarding. Someone make a post about how difficult the snowboarding equivalent of those tricks Langa has done just to show people it means he’s pretty pro (I’ll even argue maybe Langa’s real talent is his creative ways of going around things which kind of why Adam is highkey obsessed, and calls Cherry who calculates everything to the last second boring but that’s a different can of worms I’m opening later) plus Langa barely won against Joe so there’s not much difference in level i think. Should Langa have lost though?
I think some have missed the point of that beef in Reki’s pov. and if the Renga reconciliation is done well, it would be worth it.
that beef got Reki to realize he what he really wants! that it’ll kill him if he can’t skate anymore! that he doesn’t wanna only cheer on for others and be a support! THAT HE WANTS TO SKATE BY LANGA’S SIDE WHICH IS THE REASON FOR ALL THIS INSECURITIES if Langa lost, that cathartic realization might not have happened. He might have gone to Langa and cheered him up, brushed off his insecurities and, made up with Langa halfheartedly without addressing his problems
I’m going to go back to Reki’s insecurities. In ep 6 he’s been afraid of being left behind, and sure Langa came back for him but he still forgot until midway. (will that parallel how Langa got too excited with the idea of skating, the same feeling he thought he lost forever. The same thing that he thinks connects him with his dad, and might have left Reki behind, but later remembers and goes back to chase him? hopefully) in ep 4 it’s obvious he’s afraid of the near death experience Adam gave him, and he’s just realized how different their skills were. in ep 5 he worries about Langa, enough to get nightmares about it. mixed with his friend getting hurt. it’s obvious the feelings are very very muddled there.
So he begs Langa not to skate with Adam.
And what did Langa do? say that he wanted to skate with Adam. (again he’s not the most attentive. he probably thinks he’s just skating with his best friend, all is good then boom. Reki leaves. as a person shit with dealing with other people, i don’t blame him at all) he’s trying to fix it though, but his bond with Reki primarily revolves around skating! how else was he going to warm up with Reki? He also doesn’t know that Reki has self esteem issues that’s always been there since the beginning. He probably doesn’t understand it too because he holds Reki up highly. in ep 6 when Reki was going over his board, Langa thinks he’s pretty cool. he didn’t hear what other said to Reki. He’s earnestly having fun with his friend
We should also note that Reki was never angry at Langa’s skills, he wasn’t resentful that Langa was far ahead. Again he’s been nothing but supportive. He doesn’t want to pull Langa down. He wasn’t like Miya’s friends that lashed out at Miya for being better. in ep 7 he tries his best to follow Langa
it feels like he’s mostly regretful that he can’t catch up. he doesn’t want Langa to slow down, he wants to go faster and meet him where he was. So it makes the realization that all he wants to do was be in equal with Langa more frustrating because he thinks he can’t keep up. (and this only ever started when he heard he’s like Langa’s plus one. there’s that daunting feeling about being pulled around. not being his equal)
if you need further proof, when Langa and Joe were having a beef, he wasn’t aggressively hoping Langa would lose. in fact he encouraged him. He worries deeply He calls him out when he was doing badly. Still very supportive as ever. So really the frustration isn’t to Langa, again, it’s all internal. He wants to be better
so he’s feeling shit and Langa goes to him in the middle of the rain, bless langa for trying, thinking talking about skating (what he thinks Reki loves and would probably cheer him up, not knowing that’s exactly his problem) tells him
which is probably the worst he could say.
THAT’S what got Reki mad, not really Reki being insecure though that’s part of it, that’s what they’re fighting about, Reki is angry he’s breaking his promise. He thinks Langa doesn’t care about Reki, that he’ll easily break a promise between them that Reki obviously cares about just so he can go skate with Adam who is way better than him. It blows to the self esteem. Reki probably also think that if only he was better, langa wouldn’t bother skating with someone that dangerous. it doesn’t help at all.
but langa doesn’t know this. he doesn’t see all this. Langa might have been too up the high of skating like in ep 6, he sorta left Reki behind again.
it kinda makes Langa’s mom’s words hit harder though
and he did just that. he got too engrossed.
It parallels adam, cherry and joe’s friendship then probably tadahsi’s too but who knows? reki and langa, and tadashi and adam might parallel too, the master and the student thingy Adam might have gotten too obsessed. So Joe trying his best to make sure Reki and Langa won’t end up like them hits a little harder in my chest ;’)
but Langa won’t be to engrossed i think
because unlike Adam who’s aggressively looking for his ‘equal’, Langa is just looking for someone who makes his heart beat, to make him feel like he’s skating with his dad again, someone he loves dearly. (there’s a parallel about loves here too between Adam’s and Langa’s. but I can’t write it now) and he probably already thinks Reki is his equal anyway. He just wants to have fun. he doesn’t think much about the skills.
maybe at first he does. that’s why he’s drawn to Adam but from ep 9, it was pretty much shown that skills really doesn’t matter from when he skated against Joe
if Adam easily discarded his friends because he think they’re boring (which was why the whole skateboard to the face thing with Cherry), langa doesn’t think like that
if anything Reki is important to Langa because he only has fun skating with Reki, who taught him how to skate and made his board. (his board that was customized to fit his style btw, and arguably the only reason he could skate that well. without it, he might as well be a beginner once again.) so without reki, langa is left with nothing. especially with his broken board
no fun in skating, no way of skating. He’s only manage to get this far because of Reki and he knows that now. All of it would be pointless if he doesn’t have Reki (and either he gets so obsessed in chasing that feeling again, or he stops completely) but in case you haven’t noticed it, Langa’s motivation revolves around having fun with skating no matter the skill or place. And he’s having most fun with Reki.
But Reki obviously doesn't know Langa’s feelings. He thinks Langa was forever looking for someone better. So he’s still caught up in the idea that Langa won’t want to skate with him (even though Langa has never shown this) and he left S entirely, thinking what he wants is impossible. fucking just talk you two motherfucker
(I also wanna point out that Reki has always been shown from episode one to be good at making boards. And that’s amazing? We need some support recognition and appreciation, seriously) I think maybe most who find problem with Reki not winning beefs like the usual shounen protags aren’t used to the nuance and perspective of being someone ‘ordinary’. Reki’s character is relatable because most of us feel ordinary, never enough, surrounded by geniuses, ‘inferior’. And if we’re being realistic since a lot are saying joe should have won because langa winning is unrealistic and you want realism so bad no I’m not salty at all there will always be someone better than you. ALWAYS. but what’s important is for you to have fun in what you love! in what makes you happy! AND even if you’re not good at one thing (in Reki’s part, skating) he’s also good at other things (making boards) so does he need to stop one for the other? no. He’s shown to enjoy skating with Langa, he doesn’t wanna stop it hurts him so much he quit. But he can also hone his skills in making boards as well as skate. He’s equal with Langa in a way he doesn’t even notice when he made that board for Langa, but even Reki’s presence alone makes Langa enjoy skating the way Reki also wants Langa by his side.
So I think the next ep is the best time to confront all these feelings. And how it happens might be what’s tricky. Like romantic or not, i personally can read it both ways though i prefer if they do become canon. (idk if it’s queerbaiting. i guess friends can care as deeply as that but ngl, these shounen bestfriends having deep connections that are written off as friends while also giving us bland af hetero love interests who did nothing but exist and be straight really is messing with my perception of romantic and platonic love irl) anyway their talk better be done really well, or else all those episodes of tension would be for nothing
It’s a nice perspective to give a shounen protagonist this time. It’s new, it’s fresh. How many incarnations of underdog turned the best at their craft can you take? variety is nice! and if you don’t like it, there are always a dozen other animes like that for you to turn to. to conclude, IT ALL GOES BACK TO THE START: WHAT IS YOUR HAPPINESS???! AND FOR THEM IT’S THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP BUT IN A VERY DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. FRIENDSHIP DOESN’T SUDDENLY GET YOU TO LEVEL 100000000000 TO DEFEAT THE FINAL BOSS. FRIENDSHIP IS WHAT MAKES DEFEATING THE FINAL BOSS WORTHWHILE
Anyway tldr; maybe the real Eve is the friends we made along the way :D and idk if I’m making sense but obviously I’m head empty only sk8. Renga needs to talk, i can’t believe they have the audacity to make a recap episode as if i wasn’t head empty only sk8 since february, and if there’s more emotional edging to come, i will burn some of the palm trees outside my house
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