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borderlinebelle · 1 month

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ARE YOU OR SOMEONE YOU LOVE LIVING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS?

Cool, me too.

I’m assembling a community of like minded humans who can relate to the feeling of their own flesh+bone matter constantly contending with their sentient consciousness in a bid for power and control over their decisions and emotions… and/or humans who love other humans who continuously battle their own prefrontal cortex and endorphin creators for a bid at happiness…

come… rest here, weary traveller. find out more below ⬇️

delivered in a clear & chaotic voice of authenticity, my content centers around conquering challenges made into marathons by, often times common, mental health symptoms.

FIRST EPISODE: MY ROTTING TOOTH THAY ANXIETY AND FEAR HELPED ME AVOID

i didn’t explicitly reveal in the video… but I lived with a rotting tooth in my skull for months until it finally fell out of my jaw, months after my first botched root canal. 🙂

EPISODE TWO: STUPID WACK TAXES AND SHOCKINGLY I END UP MORE POOR!!! BUT I DID IT! (spoiler alert)

this new editing style for the 2nd video is going to land so ✨wildly✨upon your retinas…

i wanted you to FEEL what I feel and understand what those closest to me experience when I bang their lines with a new story of hardship overcome, as friends often do 📱🧠📱

unexpectedly entertaining & a true visual representation, a reflection, of the way I often perceive and process information and life😵‍💫

EPISODE ONE… was the prototype

for a fleshy & meaty ep 2: TAX TORMENT

(because it IS and ISN’T that serious) 🫠

I also fought a bug i guess… because spring sprung all up on me…

SO JOIN ME IN BEING BORDERLINE MANAGEABLE!

You can support the channel by stubbing & turning on notifications so you’ll know when my new video drops. I really really appreciate your not being a jerk about the ad, thanks.

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neshatriumphs · 6 months

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ty 🥹 vm for it’s just me and my two small hands trying to achieve the things… so ty for seeing me.

❤️❤️❤️

#answered #borderlinebelle

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charonte-simi · 1 year

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You can't Blaze a post trying to advertise Live and not expect people to call you a shill 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️

#good job somehow making it about race though??#im so over these online libs and their progressive peacocking #pulling out all the buzzwords in the dictionary when you call out skuzzy behavior #simi speaks #yeah this is a vague-post. someone sent me a short story in the ask box because i agreed that them promoting themselves on live was sketchy #actually no I'll use their name idc #borderlinebelle needs to go touch grass

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mysticlavendar · 3 months

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Recently finished comm 💖 thank you for the commission! For @/borderlinebelle

#digital art #clip studio paint #drawing while black #illustration #black art #mysticlavendar #support black artists #commission art

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someloudguy · 4 months

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You guys do it too!

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And anyone else is free to join!

#me #personal #accent challenge #voice

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anoraktrend · 4 months

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Things happening Jan 24th, 2024:

Apollo Justice Ace Attorney Trilogy release. @/dilfasaur News

Tumblr Live shutdown. @borderlinebelle News

#it's true #love is magic #death of tumblr live #Tumblr Chats were another failed experiment like this

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maya-inu · 8 months

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@borderlinebelle

kinda like a painting!

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theeaesthete · 9 months

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1. Favorite color(s)? Lavendar, lilac, powder blue

2. Any piercings? double earlobe on both ears, tragus on right ear, and helix on left ear

3. Any tattoos? No.

4. Favorite TV Show? There are so many shows that I have seen and likeit's hard to pick one

5. Favorite movie? Big Hero 6 and Friday

6. Celebrity crush? Rihanna

7. Favorite musical artist? Sade is on repeat these days and Amaria is a recent artist I've come across, I enjoy her

8. Height? 5’8"

9. Favorite thing to do? Reading and pondering the depth of my being or the purpose of my existence

10. Introvert/Extrovert? naturally an extrovert until i wear myself out

11. Favorite book? Seven Days in June by Tia Williams; Verity by Collen Hoover; Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn; Ever day by David Levithan

12. Last fanfic you read?

13. Favorite thing to drink? Water, tea, kombucha,

14. Favorite food? Seafood mei fun, seafood gumbo, veggie pizza

15. Favorite OTP?

16. Favorite actor/actress? RIP Chadwick

17. Favorite song? You won't make me choose lol.

18. Currently watch (TV Show & Movie? Beastars, HunterxHunter, Temptaion Island, Superfan Episodes of The Office

19. Last thing you googled? ModKat Litterbox

20. Last song you listened to? it was a Sade song I'm sure of it

21. If you had a superpower, what would it be? quantum leaping would be cool

Thanks for the tag @p8tientred

I tag: @dahlia-noire @borderlinebelle @tiffanyaliyah @butterflykisses331

#this was fun #questions

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bellarkewrites · 7 years

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A King's Queen

by BorderlineBell

'I think it’s time we updated your Princess status to one of a Queen'

Words: 978, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/M

Characters: Bellamy Blake, Clarke Griffin

Relationships: Bellamy Blake/Clarke Griffin

Additional Tags: Engagement, Fluff

Read it on AO3 at http://ift.tt/2rQ7MOT

#Bellarke #Bellarke fanfiction

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ao3feed-the100 · 7 years

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A King's Queen

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2rQ7MOT

by BorderlineBell

'I think it’s time we updated your Princess status to one of a Queen'

Words: 978, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/M

Characters: Bellamy Blake, Clarke Griffin

Relationships: Bellamy Blake/Clarke Griffin

Additional Tags: Engagement, Fluff

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2rQ7MOT

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #the 100 #the 100 fic

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borderlinebelle · 5 months

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#mental health matters #borderlinebelle

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borderlinebelle · 2 months

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ARE YOU OR SOMEONE YOU LOVE RECOVERING FROM A MENTAL ILLNESS?

Cool me too.

pls go subscribe and watch my channel on YouTube. I’m trying to create a community of healing humans as I am rewiring my brain to run on: healthy, happy, and being checked into my own life … at least until the depression cloud comes to take me again 🤷🏽‍♀️🧠💥✨

LINK BELOW FOR THE HUMANS LIKE ME

#mental illness #trauma healing #recovery #personal #black coquette #borderline personality disorder #personality disorder #personal growth #emotional regulation #borderlinebelle #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #healing era #soft girl #soft girl era #soft girl energy #support black women #support black creatives

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borderlinebelle · 4 months

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Tumblr Live: it’s not that serious. By BorderlineBelle

Literally I met mutuals of 10+ years on tumblr live.

The hatred over tumblr live was over the top and insane… it truly wasn’t that serious.

If you can stand to be thought critiqued, stay. 🙂

Yes, they robbed us of all our personal info, that’s our choice. Basically.. that’s every single app ever. Wake up. Everyone is just choosing their daddy to participate in this society, which exists ONLINE in equal measure.

Ya’ll bend over to SOME cloud daddy collection somewhere.. unless all your family photos hit printer ink 🫨 why is this the hill you were willing to die on?

Tumblr Live was good.

People hung out, did hobbies, met mutuals, discussed old and new tumblr, made new friends, shared art and music and passion and hobbies…

Before the flood of MeetMe folks… (which was awful. as an OG… I get it) .. it was a chill place to hang out.

The active and consistent and LOUD trolls made it so negative and latched on and like the USUAL TUMBLR PIRANHAS… wouldn’t let it GO.

You made a hashtag and shopped it day and night. Like why???

#TurnOffTumblrLive … was wild.

I consider myself part of the few who supported EVERY FANDOM.. kinda 😅. I’ve been on tumblr for my whole life and before that and I try to be a GOOD community member!

I wasn’t actively working for every fandom 😅 but if it was a high holy holiday of your fandom or a meme or a joke that was so popular it circulated into the main highways of tumblr… that needed spreading… I of course let it roll across my dashboard. I reblogged your top chosen artists and musicians, whomever your communities had chosen … we supported. I supported. As a bit of an outliner. A sad girl yadda yadda mentally ill and sexy… screaming into the void at the porn bots 🤷🏽‍♀️ it was a niche trust me… but I did and do participate with positivity even if I didn’t get the joke.

And … YOU ALL… BURIED AND KICKED AROUND tumblr live as if she was a DiLaurentis triplet. 🤧

It was way overboard imo. 🤧💅🏽

Some people used tumblr live for good. 👁️👁️

Then the REALLY determined trolls harassed the poor CEO guy and we ALL KNOW HE’s STRESSED. His hair is thinning. We can see it and ya’ll demand and do too much. i hope to one day sit with the man and say, “you’re doing mostly, kind of .. a fine job.” 👍🏽😬

Tumblr, in general, is one of the few places left on the interweb that maintains the primary basic deliciousness of self expression through the works of others. It remains from LONG AGO.

Don’t fucking ruin the overall umbrella of the tumblr space… with deep… leaving funny and entering disturbing… cynicism.

Remember the LISTEN to OTHER pov’s too. 🤷🏽‍♀️🙂

Real people exist behind the cameras.

That’s all.

I’m glad it’s gone too.

2024 tumblr is gonna be shmexy.

#personal #tumblr live is dead #rip tumblr live #i love tumblr #tumblr live #tumblr drama #tumblr community #tumblr live is dumb #tumblr meta #tumblr update #tumblr ceo #turn off tumblr live #writers on tumblr #tumblr girls #photographers on tumblr #recovery #mental health matters #borderlinebelle #meetme

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borderlinebelle · 3 months

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Has anyone ever taken a stimulant for ADHD and it cured your manic mess but simultaneously erased your creative joyful childlike wonder at the world and your interest in the people you share it with?

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Am I cured or broken indefinitely to better suit “adulthood”?

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As I wade through the vibrant and manic mess that was the BEFORE STIMULANTS and I look out onto the starkly dull and muted tones of the AFTERS STIMULANTS… the pendulum swings and I violently and obediently bend with it.

🫡

I can balance my budget now. Proficient in punctuality and productivity. Finishing work projects that used to take weeks? EASY. Calculating and efficient, I am almost unemotional as I smash through barriers that once kept me at a stand still for weeks.

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The counter balance to these super abilities is glaring:

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1. I find it difficult to produce an ounce of creativity.

2. I am colder, more calculating.

3. I find empathy over other people’s emotions a far off tingle of familiarity I reach for and only brush.

4. I find even accessing my own emotions to be difficult.

5. I find little pleasure from completing tasks just a dull and far off ✅ that reminds me of pleasure but has none of the organic material.

6. I lack spark behind my eyes.

🗣️🧠

In conclusion, the video I filmed for today’s YOUTUBE launch felt… soulless and lacking. It felt disingenuous. I wasn’t talking to YOU, my mental health friends. I was just … talking.

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TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST: I’m unsure how to proceed with the channel, with my content… with my identity outside of MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL … I feel really really defeated if I’m honest. I’ve spent my entire adult life in survival mode and for the first time, on this new medication, I can see dozens of strategies to LEAVE SURVIVAL and CHASE AFTER THRIVE… but I didn’t think it would COST ME… my personality, my creativity, my identity.

🔎🤷🏽‍♀️

Idk but, I guess .. that’s the way with these things. Mental health, medication, stabilization…

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Mental health isn’t “pretty and punctual” so said my producer tonight. It can ALSO be “imperfect and valuable”. Nothing is a perfect science, everyone is just doing their best I guess.

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Fighting your own brain 🧠 daily, hourly, weekly, monthly, yearly is exhausting work. I’m so deeply proud of everyone out there choosing to fight another day. I hope to continue being as brave and resilient as you all are.

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It’s 12:00am. I’ve officially missed the “NEW VIDEO EVERY SUNDAY” standard I set for myself and I have to admit I’m taking it very poorly and I feel pretty defeated, but I had to come let the few who support my cross platform… that I’m sorry I couldn’t get there today.

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Returning to YouTube after being run off by a parasocial making very real threats years ago, has been a delicious dream of mine for so long.

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I just deactivated both my Instagram and Facebook as they were both just reminding me of this missed deadline, of this empty channel, of what feels like a failure. In the age of comparison and competition, TO BE A HUMAN IS NOT EASY.

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So I’ll regroup, recoup, lean into coping mechanisms, touch base with my therapist + psychiatrist… and keep trying to find a way through.

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Thank you for your interest in my content.

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I appreciate you deeply.

🫶🏽

I anticipate that this hopefully … won’t be the end.

🖊️ xoxo borderlinebelle

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borderlinebelle · 13 days

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I am proud of this one. Thank you for your feedback!

My video editing style is a reflection of the way I personally “see” the world. It’s a visual representation of my perception and the way I receive information. I’m📱calling you, watcher, and identically I’m 🗣️🧠calling the recesses of my own mind and displaying them delicately and deliberately so you can see it too. It’s lovingly intimate to show you the magic and intensity and vibrance with which I see the world, all nestled right behind my cornea.

“Welcome to my portal in my perspective…” my bio, my videos, my captions, my effects, my music choice, my stories, my backgrounds, my personal details… i want to take you with me new friend. I’m so excited to MEET you. my weavings spell so many scintillating slow burning and bewildering secrets tucked discreetly between the ruckus and chaos. if you care to look closer 👁️💕 next episode, i promise I’ll even let you in the house.

I am having such a good time creating things for someone I know will love it and understand it.

Maybe that’s you. 🥹 👍🏽

channel below ⬇️🧠💕🙂‍↔️ < (this is a spin btw)

life is brutal enough, if you don’t like it.. just scroll on pls

#BorderlineBelle #personal #mental health matters #recovery #personality disorder #depression #anxitey #ptsd #borderline personality disorder #anxiety #fear #personal growth #soft black women #soft feminine #calling kind hearts #life is brutal enough #don’t you think?

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borderlinebelle · 28 days

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If mental health has you or someone you love by the NECK my haphazard garbage content might be for you.

video is like 1 min long, don’t panic.

ALSO… if you’re broke af .. this content might uh… might also be for you … if it helps I’m crazy and poor too. I’m crazy poor if I’m ffr. 🤣

come away with me … in the night… link beneath👇🏽

DOING MY WACK TAXES EP 2 IS UP NOW…

also I fight a bug I guess?

SUBSCRIBE! I can only really post when my brain allows so it’s sporadic. Sorry.

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