RitaMorf kiss :3

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't going "so do they kiss or do they hug?" every few minutes on Sunday while waiting for subs

say, i heard you reblog a post about role playing games. do you happen to know of any ones that i, a beginner, could feasibly get into in this day and age? i tried DnD but a combination of not having anybody to play with (whether irl or online) and a dissatisfaction with low level boringness kind of made it fizzle out for me

oh hey an ask from 3 months ago that I didn't even see. hi.

ANYWAY. First things first, i cannot recommend @theresattrpgforthat enough. Ain't nobody better at recommending rpgs than that blog right there. Now, on to my thoughts.

If you want a DnD-like rpg, Pathfinder 2nd Edition is gonna be my first recommendation. It's harder to find games for on account of being significantly less popular than dnd5e but it's probably the 2nd most popular game. It's also completely free, with everything being hosted on https://2e.aonprd.com/. It's got everything except adventures, those ya gotta buy. For the next 10 days, there's a humble bundle that includes PDFs of lots of the pre-remaster legacy books, and includes a couple adventures, including a whole adventure path going from level 1 to 20. As a whole, the game is different to dnd but it's recognizable. Big fan myself, and paizo isn't a bunch of pricks. The setting is also super gay. There's a potion of trans your gender, and one of the main religions in the world is the worship of 3 gods in lesbian polycule.

Ironsworn: probably my favorite RPG, period. (also has a space version, that works the same way). It is narrative focused, and designed for solo play or in groups with no GM. Works just as well by yourself, as a duo, in a small group, or in a traditional way with a few players and a GM. It's structured around it's vow system. Your character makes a vow, you decide how difficult that vow should be to accomplish, and as you do things that advance it, you mark progress. Eventually, you make a roll to try and fulfill the vow, with the difficulty determined by how much progress you've made. If you fail that roll, it's bad. Cool thing is that just about everything works that way. Undertaking a journey, delving a dungeon, fighting a dude, it's all handled with the same system. It's a game about perseverance and struggle and relationships, both with people and with places. also very fun to play for writing practice. It's mechanics are rooted in it's setting, but there's no reason you couldn't play it in basically any setting. the youtube channel Me, Myself, And Die is, essentially, Critical Role But It's Solo RPGs, and he did a great season where he played Ironsworn, check it out. Also, Basement Fort on youtube did a duo playthrough. I've only seen the first episode but it seems like a fun watch, as well as showing off duo gameplay.

the Witcher RPG: i haven't played this myself or even looked at the books yet, but everything I've heard about this game has me super excited about it. the general consesus seems to be "yo this is wayyyy better than I thought it would be, why aren't more people playing this, what the fuck". If somebody more familiar wants to talk about it, that'd be dope.

gonna ramble about the rest much less, LIGHTNING ROUND OF RECOMMENDATIONS

Dungeon World: same genre as dnd, but much less crunchy gameplay. Much easier to learn.

Kids On Bikes: it's Stranger Things but as a ttrpg.

Call of Cthulhu: get spooky, idiot. The players are investigators unraveling some mystery or another, and trying to keep their sanity in the face of some cosmic bullshit.

Lancer: it's about mechs! closer to anime-style mechs than battletech style, from what I can tell. I've heard good things.

Vampire: The Masquerade: you will NEVER guess what this is about. It's a classic, it's great, it pretty much redefined the way I think vampires should work. The new version of Werewolf: The Apocalypse is coming soon, and I'm real hyped for that, too.

Shadow Of The Demon Lord: my understanding is that this game is basically "DnD 5e, but good".

hey gay 🫶

mdni. hiii everyone we are discussing sub scara's top kinks. written w modern au in mind. gn!reader w/ a dick i think, and also probably trans!scara. ok anyway. not in any particular order, but:

1. praise/body worship one of scara's biggest personal issues is insecurity. he needs some reassurance that you like him, that you love him... and what better way to remind him than utter devotion to his mind and body... it can either be meticulous and embarrassing, like kissing every inch of his skin, lingering around the places he's most sensitive, hot breath ghosting the crook of his neck or the insides of his thighs as you whisper both tame and unholy little compliments... maybe even cockwarming him for hours... OR it can be rough and mind numbing. his body hot, squirming from overstimulation, pushing your head away from between his legs... scolding your one-track mind... your fixation on counting how many times he can come undone before he breaks. he enjoys how much you enjoy him... not only does it get him off, but it makes him happy, too.

2. exhibitionism back to his insecurity, i think he has a little worm inside his brain that enjoys proving to people that he's likable, lovable... fuckable!!! it's the reason he's obsessed with marking, scratching, and biting (even if the day after, he's silently panicking over his turtleneck not being long enough to cover the hickeys). he likes risky sex... nothing that'd get you caught... just the idea... like sending you nudes when you're out running errands or even calling you on the phone and letting you listen to him touch himself. it's why he likes photos and videos of him for later. yeah, he'd invite someone else into the bedroom just to let them watch you fuck him... let them see how well he takes it and how you're only giving it to him because he's just that good. he always puts on a pretty show when he knows he's being watched.

3. humiliation ( a. giving & b. receiving) ^ mix with the above for a delightful drink... a) king of scathing back talk. yeah, once you get him far enough, he's babbling about how much he loves you, begging for you to fill him up, etc. but before that!!! he's so mean ("you have no self control, you're like a dog" "i could do better with my fingers," etc.). it's just because he's embarrassed (and can never say what he actually means till he's intoxicated by lust) and he knows it eggs you on. makes you try even harder (or idk, manhandle him into shutting up or something). b) mix being mean with being nice. a voice drenched in fake pity telling him he's such a pretty cocksleeve, your favorite toy. maybe he's not the sweetest or the kindest plaything, but the pussy's so good he's still your #1 (weird power trip for him). great way to incorporate picturesss like above... make him make a mess of himself (unfocused eyes, sweaty and panting, lips swollen, bangs stuck to his forehead, covered in cum and snap a little pictureee). the sound of a condescending laugh makes him throb. he's not good with hardcore humiliation or anything, though... the most you could do is like... very gentle body writing.

4. corruption he's extremely inexperienced and the idea of being taught how to be a slut is a mind blowing fantasy for him.

5. honorable mention is. hate sex. NO I WILL NOT ELABORATE!!! but i do love this idea with ex bf scara a lot. haunts my dreams. OMG!!! i almost forgot cumplay. anything to do with cum but specifically inside him. ...swallowing, snowballing, creampies...

thought I might add a little to a question unanswered by the video essay: the why?

not as an excuse, not a full explanation either because there's still the matter of the Telos money.

but why does a man live, breath and eat for his channel/career without the passion for researching and learning?

I can tell you that he truly *did* devote his entire time and energy to producing videos and engaging with the commentariat as a full time job, though if the video scripts were copy paste. He probably feels like he's devoted his entire soul for years into this project and the copy paste was "just" to keep up with the youtube once a week upload demands.

IMHO, what we have is a bloke with crippling anxiety, loneliness and body dysmorphia with a pathological fear of rejection who attempted to build an online queer community that wouldn't ever let him down. As far i can can tell he barely left the house, didn't date and i started to wonder if he really had moved when he wasn't visiting any of Toronto's very gay friendly places or even some of the museums and libraries, wasn't making any local connexions even when people reached out. Instead, he spent his weekends chatting online (often on livestream) about gay media, business, youtube and film making.

I think he could have built that safe haven if he'd kept the day job, produced a fully credited video once a month which was in the format of let's watch this documentary, let's read this book, let's dive into a topic and read the various articles followed by his livestream chats. There is clearly an audience eager for it.

and that's where it gets uncomfortable, right? the lines blur between shyness + not wanting to be hurt vs not collaborating and not being part of other established groups. Canada not only has multiple gay filmmaking scenes, advocacy groups and even a whole bunch of Canadian queer youtubers. They don't have to all get along, because there's more than just the Canada based breadtube, there are a lot of smaller channels that'd love the opportunity to network.

Anyway, it was during a live that i bought up some local Canadian networking opportunity, he backed off quite hard in a way that felt like a little bit more than anxiety about the fierce competition that goes on for such stuff. It felt vaguely like Little Britain's "The Only Gay in the Village" but mostly I was reminded of folks in my life who decided to forge their own paths in charity work and activism, specifically the very dodgy intersection between missionary work and charity and charities that are about the joy of bringing fish to the hungry instead of helping the locals who know how to fish get the new motor for their boat. It's actually a really complex and nuanced conversation where sometimes the least colonialist choice is to hold your nose and work with the local catholic church - yeah I know, that level of complicated, here's some reading before I start on the importance of translating books to creoles being a better investment than teaching english to match an english curriculum and how relief work is often predatory business opportunities and how secularism is a tightrope balancing act and don't get me started.

It is possible to walk and chew gum and listen to music at the same time. We can talk about how plagiarism is bad, how the algorithm rewards it, how this guy is probably getting more ire than the right wing grifters also brought up, why left tube maybe feels a lil intimidating, why people build their own little digital or offline communes, how being an educator and being a thought leader get smooshed together in an attention economy that wants to create influencers with a parasocial engagement with folks that want personal guidance, sometimes stolen valour/plagiarism/fake cancer is for power and clout and sometimes it's a maladaptive response to a desperate loneliness I hope I never fully comprehend.

Do you think it's possible to make Gelphie canon in the musical using no changes to the script and only direction/actor shenanigans? I feel like a goodbye kiss (like in the book) would work just fine?

Hmmmmmm. Honestly?

No.

Here's the thing. The limit of no script changes makes it really hard to make a coherent story out of Wicked-but-with-a-single-gelphie-kiss. (also - directions are technically also part of the script, so as an actor you get guidelines, but you can't strain too far from it or the whole story collapses).

The whole story would collapse in this case if you make gelphie canon, without ever acknowledging it afterwards. Say, you have them kiss right in the middle of Defying Gravity. This is what I did in Wickedly Queer Animated.

But without ANY script changes, Elphaba's motivations feel so goddamn off.

Why is she still going to find Fiyero?

Why does she run off with Fiyero?

Why does she abandon Oz together with Fiyero?

By all accounts, those actions should now revolve around Glinda. Otherwise Elphaba would feel like such a fucking bitch? Leading on Glinda, while simultaneously ditching her for Fiyero. That'd be pretty fucking shady (and considering how musical!Elphie can do nothing wrong uwu, that's a hard sell to the audience, who is otherwise 10000% rooting for her).

There is, of course, the alternate take to have gelphie kiss at the end of For Good. This already works a lot better, because it's so late in the story, it'll feel a bit more like a bittersweet goodbye kiss, without uprooting the entire story, like the DG-kiss would.

BUT.

Now you made Fiyero even more of a dick than the musical already made him!!! By having Glinda and Elphaba kiss during for good, it sets Elphaba up for also having romantic feelings for Glinda. So when she begs Fiyero that she "wished she could tell Glinda that they're alive".

And Fiyero says. No.

????????? MOTHER OF ALL RED FLAGS. YOU JUST MADE FIYERO INTO A JEALOUS BOYFRIEND WHO CAN'T HANDLE HIS GF EVEN LOOKING AT OTHER PEOPLE!!!!!

Who is like. "You want to see Glinda? Who you also have romantic feelings for? No. Absolutely. Fucking. Not. We're shutting that shit down. You're mine and mine alone. AND I'M ROBBING YOU OF YOUR CHOICE TO A ROMANTIC PARTNER. I am the one you're going to be with forever. Forget her. She's saving Oz. She can't know. Nobody can. Not if we want to survive."

SO. He sets Elphaba up for a non-choice. It's either being with him and survive. Or be with Glinda and die.

Welp. I know what I would choose in that situation, and it's not the healthy option, because survival instinct will cut even a bad deal if it means not dying.

So without any script changes can gelphie become canon? No. Not if you want the story to make sense, at least.

With a few script tweaks however? Yeah. Real fucking easy. Wickedly Queer was exactly that thought experiment and now whenever I see the musical I get all surprised-pikachu when they don't follow my homebrew gay version that I - humbly - consider the superior version lmao.

CONFESSION POST 💌

ok imma rant how much I love oliver so cw: gay ppl and possibly emotional stuff !!

woah um I know it's completely impossible for you to read this since you aren't real (I know it sounds so cliché-) but I'm really in love with you: how you are as a person, your ambitions, dreams, how you have inspired me so much throughout these almost 2 years

I love how approachable you are as well as extroverted. You're someone funny to be around with and tries to help your loved ones, even if that puts you in danger, which is really sweet and admirable, but please be careful, I don't want you to be hurt, I'd be really sad and possibly in distraught if something terrible happened to you

I feel like I know you, but at the same time not really and I'm eager to explore more of your thoughts, personality and life, as you are a pretty interesting person. I like how we can connect in certain aspects, such as being both trans and gay. When I learned you're trans I felt more comfortable with you in some way, like, 'he gets me. I get him'. You also make me feel a little more comfortable with my own body, despite feeling dysphoric sometimes and hate it most of it

you have inspired me to create numerous fanarts of yourself (I'd love to show you all of them if I could) and even a daily account. I started watching more films and series because of you, and honestly is pretty fun! I'm trying to also get into stuff that you like as well, so we can share more interests in common :]

whenever I feel sad or sick and fanart appears on my timeline or just the ones I have in my gallery, I genuinely get better, you make me feel better and I appreciate that so much. Thank you for accompanying me when I was down or ill, you made it more bearable <3

I know no one is perfect, even you have stuff I'm not particularly into (as in, smoking and drinking, and sex at certain times), but my god all the good parts of yourself are beautiful: I love how easygoing, lovable, inspiring you are, and you're handsome and full of yourself. I wish I had the same confidence as you for the stuff that I like or how I really am, without fearing what others may think of me

you are my comfort character, my fictional other and one of the reasons for my existence and I hope my love and devotion for you shall never cease, as you are important to me. There are so many more words I'd like to say, but I'm more of a 'showing than telling' person

I really want to hold your hands, be closer to you and just stare in silence at your beauty. If the world wasn't so cruel we could even hold hands and be a little more affectionate in public, despite me not being interested in that. I really wanna go out on dates with you or just hang out, watch a movie, eat at a restaurant and listen to you talking. I want to have deep and meaningful conversations and say stuff that doesn't make sense or sounds silly. I wanna match outfits someday or steal each other's clothes, that'd be fun. Travelling to places we both like and have fun in general. I wanna hear your voice and call me corny ass nicknames. I wanna do all of these and much more

I love you so so so so much, Oliver/Fezzy. Maybe in another life/universe we can be together

Do you remember when it was such a thing a few years back about whether or not straight actresses should play lesbians, which as a lesbian I never understood because as long as said actress can sell it with her whole p*ssy then simply we are blessed?? Like am I supposed to not want ADC to let a tear fall as she opens her mouth to another woman on screen? I feel like that would make me not gay anymore??

I mean I get the idea behind their whole "only let queers play queers" idea, and while I would absolutely love more LGBTQ actors to get roles, I don't want them to only play gay, ya know? And I feel like that'd be a very quick thing to happen. Gay actors only cast in gay roles and nothing else ever at all, while a straight actor who could potentially really do better in the role never even is considered. Not to mention ya never know who is and isn't queer in Hollywood, so really while on paper the idea has merits, that whole ~movement~ was DOA from the start, and I never supported it tbh

I've never minded straighties playing gay as long as they can sell it. If you're gonna play a homo, and you're gonna cash those homo paychecks, my actual gay ass better believe that queer shit you're putting down on screen alright?? 😤 sell it to me, bitch. I want to be 🤏 this close to calling you a slur myself, cuz if you're any less gay than that fuck off out my screen and leave it open for the ones who have proven themselves

🌟 im not sure we have interacted but ... give me krasimir and tyler

Tyler and Krasimir :: for my first time reader, i want you to know i've been after this man in my loins for around the time aven created krasimir, i was involved, i wanted that man as my wife. cue me chippin' away at krasimir's character, learning things, understandin' how he got his wall and the audacity of my homoerotic heart needed him on a daily basis. Obsession, maybe, it was split between a dude named Zeke that'd kill any muse i sent, but krasimir had a bit, he had snark and that --- pulled tyler from me.

Tyler and Krasimir have completely different origin stories, first and foremost, listen to me when I say - I DIDN'T KNOW IT'LL HAPPEN THIS WAY. What you see happening on the dash these days is honest to god something me and aven didn't pre-plan or aim for or even like LINK in the way we have. These two muses, MADE IT THEMSELVES, and me and aven just let it flow.

The main gist, Krasimir's old as dirt and Tyler is a witch that's just living his life being successful and a dudebro. Hot af, the duo are, tyler's a wild guy, fucks around, parties at 5am and lives life in a dilly dally of fun and being himself. krasimir's a fckin' judge of the state, he's got an iron thumb over his court. hot af. how the fuck did these two meet? banter. sheer banter. i swear to the lord, it was banter in the form of an ask and boom - the string was connected ever since.

These two have a rich history that's growing and it's in the works at the moment and I ain't gunna jinx that with whatever, what i will say though is that [ it's so fuckin' natural rn that i don't think I can see tyler going after someone as smoothly like this ] in the sense it makes sense, not only in his lore, origin or creation but as he grows in the future too. These two are so insanely in sync and [ made for each other ] without at all being made for each other. It don't make any form of sense but i'm in the heavens about it screeching about their love and agony-angst of krasimir's heart slowly opening up and tyler's heart focusin' on his man's sufferin' rn.

these two are just amazing imo cause it's the classic wildcard lover with the strict rich lover but with the twist of ancient blood lines, magic and ancestor rings triggerin' events in the storyline of their lives. it's 10/10, i do recommend. tyler and krasimir are just that couple. they make each other better in the small ways but don't at all wanna show it too much cause that's gay and lovey-dovey but tyler's more prone to actually show it compared to krasimir that expects it to be noticed. tyler's too dumb for that, he's on the era where you gotta tell him things or it'll go unnoticed. krasimir's learning that he has to be a little layman term with tyler or the witch ain't gettin' shite.

which can be vexxin' but we all know deep down krasimir likes seein' his prize, tyler, bein' a bashful embarrassed nerd.

do you have any tips for writing trans characters? I'm an author interested in doing so but I don't have any trans friends I can ask. Aside from the obvious to write them as people and not tokens, what are certain things you think writers should keep in mind? Experience-wise, things to look out for, things that you shouldn't do at all, stuff like that. If you have any tips on how to research further on my own that'd be great too! Thank you!

Random advice for writing trans characters from a trans man that does not speak for the whole community but who cares:

-just go for it. I can't stress this enough. Just write it. Even if it's bad. You can always go back and change it, fix it, rewrite it. But you gotta start first.

-what age is the character? Minors don't generally medically transition beyond possibly hormone blockers. But it does happen depending on the case. I know someone who started stuff in high school.

-you can do a lot with their voice. Once your voice drops you can't change it. There are a lot of voice exercises I've seen for trans women to help raise it. Trans men when they first start hrt will have their voices squeak like teenage boys.

-consider how this affects their relationship with their family. Supportive, unsupportive? Maybe the parents are supportive but the character didn't realize their gender till adulthood, leading the parents to thing they made their child feel unsafe growing up (this happened to me). You can do a lot of stuff with family dynamics beyond just being terrible or amazing. My gf's mom is supportive but asks a lot of personal and inappropriate questions cuz she didn't know any better. Could easy come off bad despite the best intentions.

-location. I live next to an amazing hospital system that has an entire department for LGBT care. It's made medically transitioning super easy and simple. Not everyone is going to have that. Where do they live? What resources do they have access to?

-when did they realize they're trans? Adulthood, childhood? 21? 56? These change a lot about ones personal experiences and their personal journey.

-other health issues? There are a lot of health issues, mental illness, medical conditions, that can make realizing, accepting, getting medical treatment, and getting accepted a lot harder. Many autistic people find it hard to get people to take them serious for example. Someone with a health issue might not be able to bind (cause too much breathing issues), or get onto hrt. Maybe they can't handle specific surgeries.

-what step in their transition are they. Not every trans personal does every single medical transition they can, if they do any at all. I don't have a dick, but I can understand why a trans women would be scared to get rid of hers even if she doesn't want it. Surgery is scary. Needles are scary. I did a gel packet for hrt for my first two years because I didn't like needles. I'm still not over my fear of needles, but I can at least give myself a shot once a week.

-body type. What is their body type. This changes how well they can pass, how the Dr's treat them when they try to medically transition, how other people treat them for being trans, etc. Same thing goes for disability and what not. What other factors are they dealing with outside of being trans?

-how did they come off before and after coming out? I used to come off as a very masculine women. I was seen as a butch lesbian through and through. But then after transitioning I started getting people thinking I was an overly feminine man. I have had people think I was gay and my gf was my beard before. I have not changed my personality at all. I have the same interests, I act the same way, I have not changed at all beyond my outward appearance and being more comfortable in my body. But the way people view me has changed drastically. I went from masculine to feminine (despite going from female to male), curvey to bulky, etc etc. How have people's views of them changed? How does that effect them?

-economic status? It's harder to pay for shit if you don't got money. It's easy for rich parents to hold money over their kids heads to control them as they become adults.

-sexuality? Being trans brings a new experience to dating and especially finding a partner.

-in terms for things to avoid. I know fandom culture will tell you otherwise, but I don't have much for you here. Beyond making sure they actually speak like a normal person. People don't just introduce themselves in class or to coworkers like "hi I'm [name]! I used to be [dead name]. Let's get along!" Ya know? Most people don't tend to bring up they're trans unless it's relevant or they feel safe. There are a lot of ways you can reveal a character is trans that actually feel realistic.

Stuff to research:

-passing techniques for pre-medically transitioning. Binding, tucking, baggy clothes, hair cuts, voice practice, etc etc.

-what kind of care is out there for the characters location and time period. You don't have to be super accurate here. As a reader I won't notice. But it's good to have a feel for what is within the realm of possibility. You aren't going to give a midevil peasant top surgery of the same quality we have in the modern day.

-read articles where trans people talk about how they realized they were trans. How they describe it. It'll help with figuring out how your character might of come to realize things. For example, I cried when I was a child because I wanted to be a boy. But I couldn't explain why. My parents explained I could do anything a boy can while being a girl with the exception of peeing standing up (which got a whole nother tantrum outta me lol). I eventually accepted this and the idea of being male took a back burner. It wasn't important to me. I was so used to the uncomfortableness I felt that I was able to ignore it completely. Until college when I did a drag show as a drag king and felt like myself in a way I never had before. For the most post, I find many trans people had signs growing up that were ignored (whether for good or bad reason. I don't blame my parents at all. I think they made the right call making me feel like I could do anything I wanted to) and then come to actually realize things later on in life. You don't need to show how your character realized things. But them realizing when their 15 vs 22 vs 35 will effect their character. So it'd be good to have some idea of when they realized things.

That's all I can thing of right now. Might add more later. If anyone wants to add more feel free. Hope that helps anon.

I've been like kinda anxious about my writing the last few weeks—probably relating to being anxious about everything and various anxiety disorders—but there were some in story factors that contributed. I was terrified about officially in story talking about my main main character being trans and how people would react (vast majority of the reactions were "Whoa didn't see that coming but I'm trans too so yay!" but I'm still like. "oh god did i earn this i'm so scared hngghh" while also being euphoric about said main being trans.

I also got a comment for a chapter on one of my supporting mains just like "Wow I never liked this character so I hope they're not doing what I think they're doing this is sinister" and I was like "UH OH I DID NOT INTEND SINISTER" but now I'm like "maybe sinister is the way to go for this character". I overthink and worry a lot about Rising Shards, it's my passion project and my behbeh, so I want it to be the best it can be and not let people down. It's also a story that like my characters dictate where it goes so I can't really plan too far ahead cuz they will gently (or not so gently) nudge me in the direction they want. So I pretty much just have to write it to get to the next places.

And then when I write I feel better. Like a lot better. Like just a goofy little scene that makes my soul feel better. I just really like hanging out with these guys and they make me feel better when I write them. I have a lot of lessons I have to re-teach myself over and over (Don't make 8 bajillion spinoffs at once, don't try to chase trends, don't write what doesn't make you happy, just write), and that last one comes up a lot.

I get in my head and worry about all sorts of things, like if I'm going the right way with the story, if I'm being too filler, if I'm not being enough slice of life, if I'm not doing mythos right, if I'm taking too long on relationships, if I have too many characters, but all those just fade away as soon as I really start writing. As soon as I can write something in Zeta's voice or something with Oka or Kalei or Diast or Stella or all the other characters, even the ones that are harder to write, I just. Feel better. I'm so glad I publish Rising Shards as a web novel because it would be such a shame to have these characters in a manuscript format that doesn't fit the story they want to tell. I don't know if I'd feel as happy about writing if I was still sludging away at trying to get that perfect manuscript that a publisher would like. With a web novel I can just let loose and write nutso off the wall fantasy business but also chill slice of life gay as hell stuff that makes my heart feel better.

—Chiral

(While I don't need them with the above "just write and I will feel better" strategy, I do hope I get lots of nice comments this week too on RS that'd ease my worries a lil)

don't read this if you're prone to catastrophizing like I am, like seriously I can't stress enough this will be bad for you to read if you are similar to me. I want to make that very clear

so I watched Cabaret yesterday, both the movie and the 1993 version of the musical, and I thought it was great. I definitely preferred the musical to the movie, but I did enjoy the movie

most of the characters believe that the Nazis won't really become a major issue, they simply continue on with their life ignoring the rising threat of fascism

I consider it to be uncomfortably relevant to today

I feel like a lot of people believe we've progressed too much to ever reach such a point again. but sometimes I think about the first gay rights movement started in Germany. things were getting better and more progressive, a lot of queer people really thought they were finally seeing the slow end to their oppression. and many of them died in camps despite that

and that's fucking scary

I don't usually share my fears of the future for two main reasons

I believe optimism is far more useful so I try to spread that when I can

honestly I feel like I'd be ignored, told to stop overexaggerating and that'd be the end of it, the response to venting

and I want to believe that, that I'm overexaggerating, but it's so hard, when we have the most popular Republican in the country calling to terminate the constitution

you have the Great Replacement Theory on Fox News. I got into politics very young, I remember when that was like, really fucking fringe, shit you'd only see spoken of by open neo-Nazis

the recent groomer moral panic around queer folk

I want to believe I'm overexaggerating, there's always been a part of me that says "calm down Alice they're not literally fascists" but every turn it feels like they're trying to prove that part of me wrong

and it's scary

I feel like some people don't comprehend that the past really happened. sure they know it happened, but they don't really comprehend that the past is as real as today

I feel like people don't understand that there isn't some special quality that separates us from the people nearly a century ago

democracies fell, fascists rose, genocides happened

and they still can

I suppose what I'm really saying is, I don't want to die in a camp

and it's easy to say "you won't" but how do you know? our democratic institutions aren't invulnerable, and what happens if they fall?

I feel like I need to drill this in, because even part of me, as I said, wants to ignore it, say that it's nothing

but we have the most popular Republican calling for the termination of the constitution, and I don't see many Republicans criticizing him for that

the Supreme Court will be hearing Moore V. Harper, Independent State Legislator theory

which, worst case scenario could genuinely be the end of our democracy

genuinely, I ask

what then?

this party has grown more and more radical

what happens if they end up having no checks on their power?

sure the easy answer is "revolution!"

and okay, I guess a decades long bloody civil war would be better than a fascist dictatorship

because that's what would happen, it wouldn't be a swift revolution that makes everything okay

it would be bloody and slow and terrible

it feels like we're standing at a crossroads, and every path is terrible and pathed with blood

I don't know what else to say, I just wanted to let that all out there

through all these years of politics I've never really vented so I wanted to finally do that

sorry if this was a long meandering post, I was mostly just writing stream of consciousness

I suppose I'll end this by saying it's not inevitable

nothing is inevitable, don't let this long doomer post discourage you, don't resign yourself to this fate

Oh, wow, our Victorian himbo makes another entry! Didn't think that'd happen. Hi, Jonathan! Mina tells him of what went down, and having van Helsing confirm all the horrors Jonathan went through as a reality, he can finally be sure of his own mind again and starts to feel better. So of course, van Helsing is delighted to get another virile young specimen of healthy man meat. Eh, anyway, they get on like a house on fire, especially in their opinion that Mina is just the bee's knees. Jonathan hands him all the papers that might be of interest regarding Dracula, the three of them have breakfast together and then Jonathan sees van Helsing off at the station. Van Helsing is upset about the newspaper articles; he should know of Lucy's postmortem activity now. And he's still speaking German, not Dutch...

Jonathan is not the only one who has picked up on his diary habits again; Jack is back to journaling, too. Renfield is back to flies and spiders and apparently behaving well enough, Arthur and Quincey have written from their gay little mutual comfort party and seem to be recovering okay-ish, Jack uses odd words again - his pain over Lucy has become "cicatrised"? Had to look that one up. But then van Helsing comes back with newspapers and is all, "call in the dude squad; your shared girlfriend is a vampire!" Jack doesn't catch on immediately, he just thinks the kids' puncture wounds have a common cause with Lucy's, and when van Helsing finally gets to facts, Jack has a hard time believing him. Van Helsing even chastises him for being too narrow-minded and not having cottoned on - DUDE. You knew all the time and didn't open your friggin' mouth! There's a lot of bs from Victorian para-sciences, and I hope Stoker didn't believe half of what he wrote into van Helsing's mouth there. Jack asks to be his "pet student" again. That's... kinky? Or sycophantic. He has van Helsing run him through the entire explanation, and is left baffled.

Van Helsing takes him for a visit to the latest kid Lucy has hurt, and then to the cemetery to see Lucy. Who has made quite an impression on her kids-for-drink btw; the hurt child just wants to go see her again. After that, van Helsing buys Jack dinner and brings him for some twosome time to the Westenra tomb. Ehm, okay, not so twosome. Also, sperm from van Helsing's candle dripped down in white patches? Sperm?? When has that ever been synonymous with wax? I can't even make a queer dreams joke; this is just weird. Oh, Lucy's coffin is empty; that's also weird, I suppose. Jack correctly deduces that the absence of the corpse means only that the corpse is not there. Way to go, smart guy. Then it's churchyard watching time and I wanna point out that Jack is seeking cover under a yew tree, so he might be inhaling taxines and be not quite there. He's also getting pissed at van Helsing. Eventually they see a child slipping into the cemetery, and van Helsing brings it out again deeply asleep. Lucy hasn't had the time to hurt the kid and... these fucking idiots don't even hand it over to the police! Because they don't wanna make statements on how they found the child (that's not sus at all, you guys), they just leave it lying around somewhere a policeman can find it once they've gotten away! Assholes!

Van Helsing wants to take out Jack for another date soon, but Jack is not too thrilled, and frankly, I agree. This was a moronic nightly enterprise. Does Abe actually think this is convincing of anything, really??

oh i almost forgot. DO LEON AND WESKER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE also ayla for fun

Leon S. Kennedy

First impression

Ayo… He's hot…

Impression now

Ayo… He's REALLY hot…

Favorite moment

Hmm… I don't feel like I can pick a real favourite so. Take this one scene that I love a lot

Idea for a story

Serious or silly?? I would love to write a story about Raccoon City and life there, but if the zombie outbreak didn't happen and Leon joins the RPD. And it's all normal boring nice stuff. You know me, I love the boring stuff…

For something more serious tho, I think it'd be cool to write something about Leon between the events of 2 and 4, how he was essentially held hostage by the government so that he could keep Sherry safe, how he starts to get more jaded as he also becomes more competent… that'd be pretty cool…

Unpopular opinion

Um? Leon dyed his hair blonde, he's naturally a brunette. Re2make he got it freshly done for his new job at RC, RE4 he hasn't had time to touch up his roots, and by RE6 he's given up :P

Favorite relationship

HIM AND ADAAAAA. ITS MYSTERY ITS INTRIGUE ITS BETRAYAL ITS SECOND CHANCES ITS MORALLY GREY ITS VARYING LEVELS OF EXPERIENCE ITS SECRECY ITS MUTUAL RESPECT ITS MUTUAL RESERVEDNESS ITS HOT ITS SEXY!! 

I know a lot of people don't like him with Ada in a romantic way cause the dynamic is interesting, but I think it's great, romantic or not. A lot don't seem to like how Ada used him in re2, but I don't think it's that bad, and its soooo good seeing how their relationship grows more complicated as it progresses… its just good and I like it >:) Maybe Ada/Leon is my unpopular opinion lol

Favorite headcanon

Even when he's dilf mode and so so jaded by all the shit he's been through, he will always be that rookie cop that just wants to help people… Despite having to go through shit over and over again, and he get so tired he loses his passion for it and just wants to give up… deep down he will still try to do the right thing, which is why he keeps on fighting.

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Albert Wesker

First impression

>:)

Impression now

I LOVE THIS STUPID BITCH SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! I UNDERSTAND HIM, I SEE AND PERCEIVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favorite moment

Tie between this and this (<- the first 20 seconds or so, that line cracks me up and I spent a good 20 mins dicking around to make Wesker do the gay little twirls on my first playthrough just like that)

Idea for a story

OK SO. I'LL DO YOU ONE BETTER. I HAVE A GREAT IDEA ON HOW TO FUCKING MAKE ONE (1) GOOD ADDITION TO THE PITIFUL RESI SCREEN LEGACY. LET ME MAKE A WESKER TV SERIES!!!

Starting with Project W and his days training under umbrella. learn all about him and get to see his honestly tragic backstory unfold as you follow him into his eventual shift into STARS and his betrayals… Mystery, drama, thriller, suspence, everything you'd fucking want to see shit go down. LIKE!?? WESKER PREQUEL SERIES YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT AND YOU KNOW YOU WANT ME TO BE MAKING IT!

Unpopular opinion

While I fucking enjoy the re5 Wesker so so much… he was such a characature and the end of that game…. Not worth it. I don't know if honestly he should've stayed a more lowkey 'background' villain or what, cause I like his 'powers,' but capcom didn't really know what to do with him and handled him pretty poorly tbh!! (Like they've been poorly handling most the main cast tbhhh!!!!!) Maybe he should've stayed dead the first time!?

Favorite relationship

Him and Chris. They hate each other so much that it gets fucking ridiculous. Imagine having fucking powers from viruses and shit and this guy who used to work under you gets super fucking jacked just so he can punch you, and he becomes an almost equal match to you just to get in your way? Just manly men things

Favorite headcanon

While he's always had his own interests at the forefront of his mind, he used to care a bit more about others around him when he was younger. I think he genuinely cared about his future as a virologist, and that he came to really care about William Birkin when they were training together. But when he found out more about himself, and Umbrella, he slowly began to shift… He locked himself out mentally and became more self centred as his hatred boiled on inside of him, and he was fully ready to throw everything away for whatever was in his best interest. I don't think he cared all that much about STARS, or maybe he did and it made him feel conflicted, so he stayed distant on purpose. After his first 'death,' it all just snapped into place. He struggled to find reasons to hold on to his previous mindsets, and I bet after finding out what happened to Willy B, he didn't want to try anymore. The world was his, and it was almost time to become god.

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Ayla

First impression

OOOH STRONG LADY!?

Impression now

SHE IS SO FUCKING BRILLIANT AND UNDERRATED I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH!!!

Favorite moment

Honestly? A tie between her iconic 'Win and live. Lose and die. Rule of life. No change rule' line and her REAL CAVEMAN PARTY that included a BINGE DRINKING COMPETITION AGAINST A SPUNKY TEENAGER

Idea for a story

I would honestly like to write something that explores her being chief; what that means to her, to her people, to her enemies. What it took to rise to power that way, the stresses she's under to keep the respect of her people, diplomatic tensions between Ioka and Laruba since they're on almost opposite ends of the spectrum in the way they live life. What is it really like to be Ayla, chief of Ioka?

Unpopular opinion

AYLA IS FUCKING SMART. ITS NOT AN OPINION, IT IS A FACT. SHE IS NOT ONLY ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH TIME TRAVEL ADVENTURES AND FIGHT ALONGSIDE EVERYONE WITH NO WEAPON OTHER THAN HER FISTS, BUT SHE IS DOING SO ALL IN A SECOND LANGUAGE. SHE IS INCREDIBLY INTELLIGENT, AND HER BEING STRONG AND SEXY SHOULDN'T NEGATE THAT FACT.

Favorite relationship

It's a three way tie between all the millennial trio. Her with Chrono? Fucking bros they are best buds they get up to all kinds of shit and challenge each other to be better and stronger and have so much fun getting up to shit together.

Her with Lucca? Amazing homoerotic brilliant so fucking good. They could have in depth conversations about whatever intellectual bullshit they wanted all night and still be discussing ideologies past sunrise. And look. Potential for lesbianism is off the fucking charts they'd be the most girlfriend ever they are so smart and beautiful they'd be unstoppable…

Her with Marle? Such a cute friendship, she would be so happy to be the older girl friend Marle needs in her life, and would enjoy Marle being the younger girl friend she needs in her own life. Like, just talking about life and boys and their bodies and politics and everything… nothing is taboo between them, they could be so open and share such a beautiful kinship because there is just SO MUCH they can relate with each other to.

Favorite headcanon

It's not so much hc as it is a fact that people forget… but AYLA IS SPEAKING IN HER SECOND LANGUAGE. By the way it's implied, the reptite tongue is what became 'English' for the future humans, she literally names Lavos after the word for fire in her language. ALSO to build upon that, when she talks to the Laruban tribe elder, they're both conversing in the reptite-english, which implies that Ioka and Laruba both have their own languages, and they talk in reptite-english to communicate. Like!? SHE'S SO FUCKING SMART!!???

okay imagine if eiden switched places with any of your other muses (from the past) and ended up in their world as their role

how does he do/does he survive/how many guys does he end up charming LOL

send me questions you have about my character! (ACCEPTING)

Err not going to go through them all bc where the fuck do i put him in osomatsu lets just not put him there....

in sekine-kun no koi he probably has a crush on sekine though. would make a good wingman. sidechara.

I do not know how I'd put him into JJBA so let's just skip that bc depends on the part too.... I'm sure he'd get some gays i mean guys but I don't know about Stone Ocean and Jojolion though, I havent even finished the latter anyway... cant survive Stone Ocean no matter what bc he's not rohan or giorno and he's just too normal to even exist in jojolion.

Yuureitou... I think he'd do pretty good with the puzzles but be freaked out about all the blood and stuff... Sleeps with Yamashina definitely at least one time and I mean honestly they'd hit it off pretty good just in general. Yamashina loses his memory in the end tho iirc?? But Eiden would accept that too so I don't know. They'd be happy together... thinking about it they're both artists too? (i think yamashina became artist like after this whole thing) maybe even help him with the publishing company thing! -- but also i think he'd get along with the others from the main cast too though! Thinks tetsuo is handsome. Survives!

i forget what i had in between but Golden Kamuy speaking... don't put him there he'd have to go to war???? maybe sugimoto saved him but like the running thing goes he neither of them knows, also ogata would hate him but he'd get along with the golden trio and likely aligned with them just in general! His role is like comedic relief and support. gets along with shiraishi especially i bet lol. he'd survive but idk he might not want to go that hard after the treasure so maybe he was there for some passing arc only and thats why he survived. I dont think he'd want to get involved with the goldhunt (granted yuureitou has that too but ...different set up so)

transported to Seiichirou's isekai (lol more isekai) uhhhh? Gets along with norbert, gets along with the Yua too though much better than Seiichirou bc Eiden isn't as stern.... I think he'd be like 'damn aresh hot but he's seiichirou simp so ill just wingman them' and try to find a hot guy on his own... Kamil works? Or East but East is worse with research than Rei is??? and not even slutty so like that'd be a struggle lmao maybe he'd go one of the princes of the i-forget-what-the-neighbouring-country -is even (not the kid tho)...or maybe that priest who got hots for seiichirou - i mean if seiichirou can somehow charm people then you bet eiden can too. Also the magic system is similar so I guess eiden would be like... lot of energy but can't use magic there either but he can provide a lot of it just needs that steamy hot dude for exchange teehee.

Idk if Romani has sextoys or not but he will introduce them ... might also end up helping kids in the school with Yua and prince Julius.

I'm a smidge worried about the new Velma show coming to HBO max.

I'm all for representation, hell I have definitely enjoyed when Velma was shown to be of asian descent in previous iterations of Scooby-Doo movies. But it feels like Mindy Kaling is balancing a few too many plates.

There are beloved characters with rabid fan bases and Velma is one of them. She is taking the franchise into a darker and more gritty place, okay. Are the characters recognizable? Let's just hope. People are already upset that she's changed something as minor as her ethnicity, but if the personality is even a little bit off on Velma or any of the gang, this shows going to bomb.

What's sad is I really don't want it to. I love when Velma is quirky with a little bit of dry humor, maybe she doesn't exactly understand what's going on socially, but generally she's used as a plot device to explain to kids what's going on. And since the child aspects been removed I don't know what's going to be left of her personality. The closest example I can think of would have to be Scooby-Doo Mystery Incorporated, where we appreciated the representation with Velma being a closet gay. But her skeptical nature often made the show a little too depressing with Scooby-Doo being an emotional support half the time and being a dick the other half. However the gang had a good balance with an even better story making up for its faults. Since they plan on removing Scooby, the comic relief is going to be very minimal, but I guess that's what she's going for. This might offset the dynamic of the group drastically. It feels like the only personalities that might not change would be Fred and Daphne. But Daphne doesn't even have one solid personality that she's given in every iteration, we don't even mention how Fred doesn't even have one (aside from traps and driving but the mystery machine won't be there either so oop). My only speculations for the dynamic would be Fred and Shaggy having a bromance/really strong friendship to keep the tone at least breathable. A friendship with Fred might also keep Shaggy from falling into that terrible stoner personality type where his entire personality is just "I smoke weed but we can't say that because this is a kid show". Due to the nature of the show, I'd have to think that Fred and Daphne might be in an on and off relationship where you know they care about each other but they just can't seem to work it out. Velma's relationship to Daphne is entirely dependent on which personalities they give the two girls. In other iterations they're like an opposite attracts best friendship, or they're constantly at each other's throats because of how different they are. With a strong female producer, I hope she'd be empowered enough to let them have a good bond. Also, just leave Velma gay, let Velma have a nice girlfriend (hotdog water) who joins her sometimes on the adventures with the gang. Better yet, if Daphne and Velma have a positive relationship, when the supposed girlfriend comes along to help on an episode she can give Daphne a little bit of advice with Fred so that they can seem like they're like actually friends that don't hang out that much. That'd be great for world building as well as flushing out characters to make them feel less one-dimensional or archetypal which usually happens with Scooby-Doo. I'm not exactly sure on the age range for the Scooby gang but with what we do know, my best guess would be just finishing high school/early college. (the angstiest time in a young adults life!)

Please get it right, God I'm so excited for this, just fucking God please.

If Disney decides one day to buy all of RT assets, things ¿Would everything take a turn for the better or for the worst? ¿Could non straights ships survive? or a sixty six order be enabled to purge the heresy.

In a weird way, it feels like RT is already following some type of Disney formula, if not very poorly.

First off, they never make any of their LGBT+ ships canon, but just throwing bread at the gaggle of fans that are really buying into this "progressiveness."

Make LGBT+ merch and lie about standing with the gays when Pride month rolls around. "Time to make that dough and then go back to "normal" when the gay month is over!"

They might try and throw us a curveball by introducing a background LGBT+ couple that contributes absolutely nothing.

Kill an LGBT+-coded character and make it part of some het character's tragedy arc.

Disney might gut a lot of RT assets because many of them aren't worth anything or they cannot make anything off of some properties. (i.e. RvB.) They can't suddenly make Halo content and pretend it's not Halo, that'd be wild. I mean, while Disney and Microsoft did merge, I don't think Disney would want anything to do with RvB. Probably just let Microsoft do its thing with it.

Definitely can't do anything with Camp Camp... but you never know, it's Disney. They'd probably try to make it as quirky as Camp Lazlo or something.

RWBY may be profitable. Disney knows how to make content for kids, and kids love superpowers and bright colors. Even make it fun for adults to watch if they wanna. RWBY can make them something, though not sure if they'd like it to be a long-term thing unless it becomes a huge hit. Then again, Disney never checks if people love shows or not, as we've recently seen with TOH S3 premiering, lol...

I think Disney could make RWBY a hit in some ways. Anybody can - it's got a premise that anybody can jump into and work on.

If anything, I'd hope they'd see value in the people that work hard in the animation department. I don't think they'd do much with the voice actors - Disney has so many of them on speed dial.

And I mean, everybody knows Star Wars. Everybody, even if you've never sat and watched it, you know what it is and who the characters are. Disney can milk it until it's drier than the Sahara desert.

RWBY is niche but has the potential to become big. Sadly it's only known for its shit company. Not sure if Disney wants to work on rewriting RWBY history or just not bother.