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darksteelreign · 8 months

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@levinstrike

There is no reason for him to be here. No higher purpose in his actions. This is no means to an end that would benefit his God. What it is, is hypocritical. It's near blasphemous, for him to stray so far from the paths he needs to tread to usher the world's story along after decades of waiting. Being here is not what a devout man that has sworn his undying loyalty would think to do, what a man who has shirked his own will should even be capable of doing.

And yet he is here, where he has no right to be. Where he isn't wanted.

The wood of the flooring in Cidolfus' little hiding place creaks quietly beneath his boots. The solar is barely illuminated at such a late hour, the candles that remain burning flicker as they stand vigil against the encroaching darkness. It makes his lips twist in a wry smile. How very fitting of their circumstances.

He draws closer to the man that sits hunched over at the desk, arms crossed and head resting on his forearms. It's still a familiar sight, even after all these years. There are a few more lines edged into Cidolfus' features now, lines that don't ease even in sleep, lines of worry, of stress, but there are those around his eyes too, speaking of the laughter, the joy he has experienced in the time since he's last been so close, close enough to touch.

Something inside him aches at the thought, but it is dull and far away, barely an echo of what he once felt clearly, of what he once wanted. It's the one thing he cannot let go.

He lets Cidolfus believe his merry band of misfits is safe within the walls of these ruins. And they are, for now. Cidolfus does not need his help to protect his people, nor does he want it, but the king has held his hand protectively over Cid and his Hideaway when it was necessary. He is told they still have their part to play, and while he quietly and selfishly wishes it wasn't so, there is no denying that a day would come in which Cid would play an integral part in the making of Mythos, as would he, as would all of them.

But Barnabas would let him pursue his little dream, let him further his own agenda which his former Lord Commander has created driven by guilt and that misguided sense of duty, hoping it would help him make amends, would make him feel something other than pain. Barnabas understands.

They've both sought a means to dull the aches of their existence, of their choices. Once they found solace in eachother, for a time the king even thought of what he felt as happiness when he was with him, but those days are long past.

Then why is he here?

Barnabas leans against the edge of Cidolfus' desk, right beside him, watching him sleep and breathe audibly, a light snore to his every inhale. The more things change, the more they stay the same. His presence is still as soothing as it used to be, the curl of his aether still as familiar. Like this it almost feels like Ramuh is welcoming Odin into this space like one would a long lost friend, even though Cidolfus would likely not be as amenable to the idea, not so long as there is bad blood between them.

The king reaches out a hand to comb it through Cidolfus' hair, finding it just as thick and soft as it was back in the day. The sensation is numbed and it doesn't quite compare to what he felt years ago, but it's enough to remember, enough to reminisce. Enough to ache.

Perhaps he doesn't seek to numb the pain after all. Perhaps what he wants after all this time is to feel something, just to remind himself that he still can.

#levinstrike #//idek #//barns felt like rambling and like paying cid a visit #//creepily watches him sleep as if he's a vampire in a campy ya novel

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sweetlesson · 1 year

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{You would never guess from these icons that this man was talking about wanting to eat sweet herbs. This is how he intimidates students despite wearing pink shirts and jigglypuff aprons. His resting expression looks like he wants to fridge you. The way he's glaring from under his eyebrows man.}

#✿ no need concern yourself with me ┊ ooc #//should i post this as a headcanon?#//idek

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thisisntabackalley · 2 years

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//I know I’m very far behind on knowing what modern slang is but the idea of bucky learning on the internet what “cap or no cap” is and going off on anyone on the “no cap” side of anything and adding “Sam Wilson is Captain America!!” to everything before he learned what the phrase actually is is giving me so much life

#//listen theres a reason i rp bucky #//memory problems aside #//im old and not hip #//not down with the hipsters #//young grasshoppers #//idek #//bucky -would- get on that bandwagon too late tho lol #but listen #sam wilson is captain america #ok thank #it's his online signature #we will fight anyone who thinks otherwise #ok bye #;ooc

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aquuaryo · 4 months

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"Earthshaker, stormbringer, father of horses. Hail Perseus Jackson, Son of the Sea God." 🌊

#i guess the key for learning how to do backgrounds is not drawing for over four months cause idek how i did that #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv #percy jackson and the olympians #walker scobell #walker percy #percy series #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv show #fanart #digital art #art

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miseria-fortes-viros · 7 months

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best trope is the one where the character’s godlike power is also killing them btw. they don’t even lift a hand to kill the monster but now they’re delirious with fever. they save a friend’s life and said friend immediately finds them emergency medical care. they raze the enemy to nothing and it takes far too long to find their pulse with all the bruising. their friends just constantly having to patch them up and worrying over which feat will be their last. et cetera

#tropes #idek who this is about #but. disability metaphor i love you #helenaposting #greatest hits #best of #barbi.wip

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oars · 7 months

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#i feel like tge fact im apprehensive about posting this is kinda proving my point #the way everyone talks about both weight gain and weight loss is just horrendous #like idek if i could fit all i wanna say in here especially while im at work but #i so badly wish people could be normal about weight gain and talking about it #its like if youre not in some constant state of wanting to lose weight people want to kill you #god forbid you want to put on weight to feel more comfortable in your body outside of muscles and a butt #fatphobia is a given thats a whole other few paragraphs #im grateful i have mutuals and friends who are normal but ill have or hear these convos and go #ok i feel sick. why do i feel this way why do you feel that way.#anyways i think fatphobia is one of the worst things to ever happen

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zagreus-eats-your-bread · 4 months

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*booktok voice* Do you want to read a gay story about two guys who speedrun enemies to lovers, go against their designed nature by being together, who become unstoppable fighting side by side to much dismay of the gods who created them? Do you want to see one of them eaten alive by the grief for his lover when he dies from a godsent sickness? A book about someone fighting so hard for a chance at eternal life that he doesn't notice he is throwing away the precious time he has got, filling it with agony? Well, in the 2100 BCE poem of Gilgamesh-

#read it.#gilgamesh #idek why but im in such a gilga mood today

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damnfool-of-a-took · 1 year

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we hunt the mighty pasta BEAST

and breadsticks are its BONES

ALFREDO FLOWS inside its veins

its organs are CALZONES

#I'm at olive garden and hangry idek #pasta beast #we hunt the mighty pasta beast #kai mutterings

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thatdykepunkslut · 3 months

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