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wolfishmusings · 4 years

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Healthcheck App:

"Are you experiencing any COVID symptoms?"

Me: "Nah, dawg, just some cripplingly low self-esteem symptoms 🙃"

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On the note of friends ["chosen family"] and growth:

It is vastly important in your teens and early 20s to have friends who are willing to call you out on toxic behaviors. Traits and habits that you may have learned from your environments growing up, from your peers and superiors during those formative years, either by example or as a means of protecting yourself from abuse... these are things you don't necessarily need to take with you as an adult.

It's okay to still be healing from your past. But there's simply no value to be put on the gravity of having friends who can help you break out of the box you were locked in. People who love you and care about you enough that they spend their time and emotional energy to help you grow outside of those walls are unmistakably priceless.

Make them proud by becoming a better "you". Become a better "you" that they want to be around, that other people will want to be around. More importantly - become a better "you" that YOU can be proud of... someone you can stand to live with, at the end of the day. Never be too proud to learn, never be too proud to grow.

Even if those friendships experience turbulence; even if some of those friendships didn't last the lifetime that you expected, for whatever reason may be. Those people are important. Never forget them or what they've done for you. We're all in this together.

I look back on some of my "Memories" on social media and see so much of my cringey and toxic behaviors from my earlier adult years, and - in many respects - I'm nowhere near the same person I was when I graduated high school.

So, to the ones who have shared their efforts in helping me be who I am today, thank you. Even if we aren't still close today, I love you.

#manic musings #Wolfish Musings #friendship #chosen family #personal growth #character development

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Just discovered we can change the hinges on the doors of our new fridge to open from the other side...

I guess you could say it swings both ways.

#wolfish musings #manic musings #punsexual #dumb puns #bad puns #puns #appliance humor #dad jokes #i'll show myself out

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On one hand: Omg pupper fell asleep on my feets, this is so cute and sweet and I love her so much I can't contain it

On the other: I am pinned. I can't move. My feet have been bound, and this is how I die. Tell Hope I'm sorry that I couldn't get him from the airport. Tell my friends I love them. Bring me a pen that I might write my last will and testament before the light leaves my eyes.

#wolfish musings #manic musings #doggolife #doggo #black dog #dog #dogslife #puppo posts #pupper #dogger

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A Japanese company sends a poll to their employees: “Should high heels be obligatory?” 76% of men and 23% of women vote in favour. “Per the poll, the new dress code will start Monday. We will provide you with shoes.” The men are directed to the counter with high heels, the women to flat shoes.

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For all my writers struggling with weaponry of the sword variety.

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as much as the concept of Jesus being a fairly normal lad has its charms, im personally very intrigued by the idea of him being just… extremely weird. not even in a mystical sense, just…….staggeringly BIZZARRE.

you go to the well to get some water, and here’s Miriam’s boy, staring at the sky, completely still. his expression is unreadable. you hazard a hello and ask how he’s doing, and he slowly, unblinkingly, lowers his gaze on you (he’s 8 and is missing his frontal teeth, not that this is making you any less uncomfortable) and says “I cannot speak of the state of my being, Nathan son of Saul, my brother, but rejoice for the water you shall take today will be as pure as the soul of the children of Heaven”

…you start sweating

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You know how Welcome To Nightvale always does the weather?

I feel like that's a key way to explain how executive dysfunction and ADHD work, when you pick up your phone to check the weather, but instead do everything but opening the weather.

#wolfish musings #mental health #manic musings #executive dysfunction #adhd mood #adhd stuff #welcome to night vale #wtnv

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Me: Alright, 2020 is gonna be my *year* okay, I'm gonna get in good financial shape and focus on my *art* and get out of service industry, I'm gonna have time and energy for things. This is good. New decade, new me, yes.

2020: Yyyyyeah that's great, kid. Now, how big of a dildo did you want shoved up your ass--? and what color silicon?

#essential worker life #anyone else still waiting for US stimulus?#I'm still not convinced that I'm fucked #but damn do i feel the heat #2020 #COVID-19 #covid 19 #global disasters #pandemic #please don't inject or ingest disinfectants #at least I've had time to experiment with food in the waffle iron I guess

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Signal boosting myself~

Check out my aaarrrrts

I've been whittling away at a Weebly/Square site builder for the last week, making an actual shop front, where you can buy things from me~

And with that announcement, I wanted to let you all know that I've reopened Digital art commissions within my services, complete with updated prices among my categories.

I've also posted which original pieces are currently for sale and available on my shop page.

You can see more examples with descriptions on my Customs tab on my new storefront homepage.

#manicwolfart #manic wolf art #manicwolf #manic wolf #artist #lgbt artist #support local artists #support artists #traditional artist #artists on tumblr #digital art #fantasy art #artwork #original art #artsy #art sales #art commissions

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Tell me a personality trait that you like, that you're proud of, about yourself.

Challenge Mode::

Don't list one that involves serving others.

#positive mental attitude #self love #selfworth #positive self talk #who are you when you aren't just people pleasing #celebrate individuality #lift your spirits #lift you up

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My little brother and I were trying to get the rest of my siblings in a vehicle because a mob of zombies were coming at us quick. While I was trying to buckle one sibling in, he took down a zombie and yelled, “That’s right! I’m bi!”

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This may not be an "every demi" thing

But something I appreciate about myself as a demisexual is that I match energies of my partner.

Wanna have sex? I'm as excited about it as you are, let's go~

Wanna do some kinky stuff? For you, hun, I'll try almost anything once.

Don't wanna be touched intimately right now? That's fine! Let's share space while we each do our own thing~

Wanna skip sex and just cuddle? Hell yeah, I fucking love soft affection!

Maybe I really am just a canine in a human body; I don't care what we do, I'll be happy as long as I'm spending time with you.

#wolfish musings #manic musings #lgbtq #lgbtpeople #demisexual #transguy #trans visibility #transgender #trans #trans guy #trans man #transisbeautiful #pan positivity #pan pride #panromantic

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Hey there!

I'm in something of a financial pickle this week.

Looking to sell as many $5~10 sketch commissions as possible (price based on size of sketch; i.e. anything under 8×12 is $5, but up to 11×14 would be $10), or some handmade bracelets (wire-wrapped stone, or other styles).

Note: shipping price is not included for things you need/want mailed, and may cost extra for anything larger than 6×8, also for international shipping.

Regular commissions are also available, with prices listed under my Services tab on FB. (I will make a proper commission sheet later this evening).

Even if you can't afford to purchase at this time, please help me out by sharing this post. Thank you!

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I was recently interviewed by Sierra for a monthly artist spotlight.

Come check out our Q&A~

https://sierraseay.weebly.com/blog

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Family

I think I've known what family was supposed to feel like all of my life. I think I've felt it before a number of times... But, sometimes, it's easy to forget what it feels like when you're drowning in negative circumstances.

I am the black sheep of my family. I am the rebel, the LGBTQ+, the angsty punk, and I get my temper from both sides. I am of Scotch-Irish and Nordic descent, and have a bad habit of getting mouthy when wronged or in defense of people I care about; I'm more likely to bark and growl than bite, though I could put up a fight if I tried or wanted to.

When you live your life navigating between gaslights, once you learn the toxicity and patterns behind them, you eventually learn that you can leave them alone. I have a lot of patience for unacceptable behavior (to an unhealthy extent), but sooner or later the buck stops. I've been teetering the edge of this cliff for nearly a decade... whether I would allow myself to fall and land on the jagged rocks below my feet, or whether I would turn the other way and not look back.

My biggest struggle with overcoming my PTSD, anxiety, and learned "people-pleaser" nature, was learning to ignore people trying to guilt trip me into not turning away. No matter what experiences I could have shared with them, even if they witnessed the degrading speech toward me themselves, it was often the same.

"Blood is thicker than water!" they would cry.

False.

"The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb."

My path isn't for everyone. But let me assure you that I am richer for the steps I've taken.

I believe I was desperate for making friends throughout my life not just because I was ostracized for my abnormalities, but also because I wanted a genuine acceptance. I wanted to stop being told to bury myself, hide myself, disguise myself. I wanted to be wholly me, and no one but me. Over the years, I had many friends come and go, and a handful of them were positive influences on my life, even if we didn't stick with each other through later years. I don't know that I ever thanked them properly for helping me recognize passive aggressive language and manipulation tactics. For allowing me to start finding pieces of my puzzle.

The end of 2009 started an amazing journey of meeting new people that I never knew I would stay so close to. Again, people have come and gone, and there have been many heart aches... But I feel as though I've forged bonds with some that are stronger than titanium. Toxic work environments have introduced me to incredible people, and we kept each other going through the pain. My latest job introduced me to a tight-knit family of people that I hope I can cherish for as long as possible.

My familial circles may not always get to intermingle or overlap, but I'm content with being the connector of those Venn diagrams.

This year, I took the most powerful step that I could: I respected myself. I respected myself enough to say "No. I can't do this anymore." I respected myself enough to close the door and cut ties with people who were stunting my growth. I respected myself enough to say that I wasn't going to stand for being pushed around.

But I absolutely couldn't have possibly done any of it without the phenomenal family I have been blessed with. Here I sit in my friends' home several states away, overwhelmingly emotionally moved by the amount of love and kindness given me. I have family sprinkled across the country, and I don't honestly know where I would be today without many of them. I was invited to many homes, ensuring that I had somewhere safe and caring to go should I want or need it. My heart is so full.

I have to figure out what to do about my job situation. But for right now? For this week?

I'm going to allow myself to be happy. Thank you for all of your love. Thank you for giving me a reason to enjoy a holiday that used to be stressful and uncomfortable for me, and helping me make new memories.

May you all find this kind of family, if you don't already have.

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Alexa Sharpe - http://alexasharpe-art.tumblr.com - https://www.instagram.com/alexas_illustration - https://twitter.com/alexasharpe_art

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