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Electric Love - Full Chapter

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Chapter 3: What's in a Deal?

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The extermination was coming in six months.

News spread immediately after the Princess of Hell met with the angels and to say Hell was freaking out was an understatement. For the first few weeks after the announcement, you avoided going outside as much as possible. No one was in their right mind and the more you kept your head down in your little cloaked observatory, the better.

Baxter really had been a game changer when it came to your living situation. You’d put in a lot of hard work fixing up the abandoned place and it looked pretty nice. Too nice for the dark corner of the Pride Ring you were in. He’d given you a cloaking device that made the observatory look as shit and abandoned as the rest of the dead neighborhood while the inside was in comfortable condition.

Even with the system in place, you slept with one eye open as you noticed more sinners slink into the area. Due to the recent news, it seemed some were considering using the district as a potential hideout for the upcoming extermination. Everyone was on edge and nothing felt safe.

Despite this, you had a life to live. Everyone did. Which is why after a while, things went back to normal. You buried yourself in your work to avoid dwelling on the anxiety of the shitty afterlife you were dealt and that was that. Work wasn’t the only thing occupying your attention either.

For the first couple of weeks, since Vox had gracelessly stumbled into your life, there was silence. Not wanting to get anyone’s hopes up, you kept your mouth shut and didn’t tell anyone about the deal you had made. Even with the protection of the deal, you didn’t doubt that someone as powerful as an Overlord could easily double-cross someone like you.

But then it happened. First, it was just one of your friends texting the group chat you were in that they were free of their contract. You’d all hopped on a group call and planned a celebration while she happily cried uncontrollably. She had no other explanation for Valentino’s change in heart other than him telling her that he simply got bored of her services and didn’t want to waste the studio slots on her. While that comment did bruise her ego a bit, she was too relieved to care.

Then it hit all at once. Everyone on the list was suddenly blowing up your phone with the news that they’d been released from their contracts and could start a new afterlife with their newfound freedom. Apparently, Valentino had covered up the entire thing by saying it was a quality cull for the sake of his image. Only a few people took the time to wonder if there was something more to the whole thing. Especially since some of the sinners he released were fairly popular for their work.

The only time you left your home for anything other than basic errands was the night you all gathered at a club and celebrated over the weekend. It was one of the craziest parties you’d ever been to, filled with drugs, sex, and a lot of happy crying.

You thought that was the end of it. Life would go back to normal aside from the growing political tensions between Heaven and Hell. You would stay cooped up and work your ass off on putting together your game and keep to yourself aside from the occasional night on the town with friends. So you personally thought your disbelief was entirely warranted when your day was interrupted by a certain overlord knocking on your front door.

Vox tapped his foot impatiently as he looked around the neighborhood. The place was a piece of shit. It wasn’t like anyone hiding out here would be stupid enough to attack someone with his reputation, but he still felt unsettled as he knocked again and waited for you to let him in. He wasn’t in the mood to repeat what happened the last time he barged in unannounced.

The sound of you crashing about behind the large double doors could be heard. It took a moment before you finally appeared, opening the door with disheveled hair and a bathrobe lazily hanging off of one shoulder, barely revealing your pajamas underneath.

"Vox," you breathe before you chuckle awkwardly. "I'd say you should have called first, but you don't have my number."

"Technically I could if I looked hard enough," Vox chuckled as he looked at the disheveled state you were in. “But is it really so surprising that I’d check in after finishing the last of our little deal?”

"Kinda, yeah," you shake your head as you step back to let him in. You were immediately skeptical. There was no way Vox came all the way to such a sketchy corner of Hell just to be told he did a good job. He wanted something and you weren’t too keen on having that discussion out in the open. The faint shimmer of a cloaking barrier could be seen in the doorway. "Come on in."

The overlord stepped inside, his eyes flicking around the room and taking in everything that he could. He’d only seen the small office tucked in the back of the observatory the last time he was here. There was a big circular opening with a broken-down telescope that connected to the dome-like ceiling in the middle of the room. A desk covered with papers was pushed up against the side of the telescope and you’d split the large space into three areas in an attempt to refashion the space for living purposes.

There was a kitchen made out of plug-in appliances and mismatched furniture on the left. Vox cringed as he saw the power cords working overtime just to keep everything running. The telescope seemed to act as a secondary office for you and you had a couch with a TV setup not too far from it to imitate a living room space. There were also dozens of boxes filled with junk that he had to imagine originally belonged to the observatory and you just never got around to disposing of properly.

"Can I get you anything?" You say as you step into the main space after closing and bolting the doors behind you. Annoyed that your bathrobe keeps slipping off of your shoulder, you fight with it for a moment before foregoing it entirely and tossing it over a tower of books.

"Coffee, if you have it," Vox replied as he followed you into the small living room area. “The amount of shit I’ve had to take care of every since the bimbo leading Hell fucked us all over has left me running on caffeine for the past month.”

He didn't mind the sight of books being stacked up on top of each other as he glanced around, taking in the area. Though the place wasn't the best-looking, it was evident that you had put a lot of work into making it livable. Considering how it looked on the outside, he could only imagine the state the place was in back when you found it.

You start prepping a fresh pot of coffee, wanting some for yourself as well. "So, my friends texted me," you say.

You turn and lean against the counter to look at him properly while the kitchen appliance worked its magic. "They all told me the same thing. How Valentino cut their contracts, saying he was doing quality control for the studio out of the blue. You kept your end of the deal."

"Yes, I did. But that's not the only reason I've come here," Vox murmured as he idly looked at some of the papers on the coffee table in the corner. "I couldn’t help but be intrigued by your… connections.”

You quirk an eyebrow at him as you watch him put down a paper that doesn’t keep his attention. “What about them?”

“At first, I didn’t care too much about your friends,” Vox admitted. “But I couldn’t help but shake the image of you with Angel Dust. So I did some digging and I’m just going to cut to the point. You’ve been to that hotel the princess has been running, haven’t you?”

You cross your arms, studying him carefully, “Well, aren’t you quite the stalker?”

“I like knowing things,” Vox waved you off with a frown. “But for good reason. It’s true, right?”

“It is,” you shrug, not seeing a reason to hide it. “At first, I just went to visit Angel. Helped him move in and stuff like that. The group there grew on me and I help out around the hotel sometimes if Angel and I aren’t already doing something else.”

Vox grins and you immediately catch on to his line of thought. "I'll say it now, don't get your hopes up," you warn him as the coffee pot beeps behind you. "I care for Charlie and Angel Dust a lot. I helped you against Valentino, but I won't betray the hotel."

"I’m not stupid,” Vox chuckles. “You’re a fool if you think that I don't already know you wouldn't betray them." The overlord scoffed as he watched you turn to search the cupboards for mugs.

"You're far too compassionate for your own good, little drama queen,” Vox said with a roll of his eyes as he walked over to you. “Which is why you're rather easy to read. You claim you don’t care about the power struggles in Hell, but in the same breath, you helped me against Valentino… That tells me that you may be willing to strike up another deal."

Your fingers freeze just as you’re about to pluck a mug from the shelf. You knew it was coming and yet, it still caught you off guard. "...What did you have in mind?"

"You see, my dear old rival Alastor has been up to something and I don’t know what. He's getting a bit too close to little Miss Morningstar for my own comfort, and it's becoming… rather bothersome." Vox murmured as he watched you idly. "Though that's just the surface; there is also the fact that I'd like to be able to keep a constant eye on him. As you well know, Alastor enjoys playing with his cards close to his chest..."

“So what?” You frown as you pour the coffee into the mismatched mugs. “You want me to spy on Alastor?”

“Precisely,” Vox grins. He’d chosen someone too naive and careless the last time he attempted to get eyes on the inside of the hotel. You met the requirements Velvette had clearly laid out and unlike the snake, you had proper potential. Still stupid in your own ways, but not like the previous dumbass he’d tried to use for this particular purpose.

"And why would I do that?" You frown. "You've already played the card you had with me. There’s nothing else I could possibly want from you.”

"Oh, I wouldn’t be so sure," Vox smirked as he took one of the mugs. "I’d like to think our last little exchange was rather beneficial for us both. I’m nothing if not resourceful and everyone has their price.”

"And you think you know mine?" You frown, pulling open your fridge and grabbing the ingredients to turn your bitter black coffee into a mocha. The fact that Vox was drinking his black disgusted you, but you supposed when he needed that much coffee to get by, he didn’t have the time to be picky. "Even if I were to agree to this deal, it'd come with a lot of conditions. I meant it when I said I won't compromise the hotel."

"I’d expect nothing less,” Vox shrugged as he took a sip. “And we’ll get to that part next. Right now, you want to know what’s in it for you. Any smart demon wouldn’t bother with a deal that didn’t benefit them in some way and I’ve got just the thing.”

You’re completely unimpressed by the shift into a sales pitch, but say nothing as you mix chocolate powder and raspberry syrup into your drink.

“I know that you have rather a deep love for your work and your creations, so if you were to help me keep an eye on Alastor... I’m happy to give you what you want more than anything,” Vox grinned as he prepared to offer you what he was thoroughly convinced was the key to pulling you under his wing of control.

“More than just money, more than that Radio Demon could ever offer you… I’m willing to give you your very own company. A company that would allow you to complete whatever project your heart desires with the full financial support of a top-tier overlord in Hell.”

Vox smirked as he watched your movements slow to a stop throughout his sales pitch. “Does that sound interesting to you, little drama queen?"

He knew he had you. There was no way he didn’t. He’d done his research and saw how low your statistics were. You’d posted art and various other types of content on your social media and you had a following, but it wasn’t large. Especially not compared to what he knew it could be. The game you were working on was clearly meant to be your big debut into the industry, but even without that, the quality of your work was nothing to scoff at. With the power and control he was offering you, your numbers would skyrocket. You’d no longer be a team of one and could bring your visions to life at a much higher speed with far more efficiency than you could dream of on your own.

Your hesitation speaks volumes and he’s just waiting smugly for you to take the bait. However, instead, you just smile softly and shake your head. "You're going to think I'm crazy, but I'll actually pass on that."

There’s a beat of silence as Vox replays your answer in his head to make sure he heard you right. He nearly dropped the mug in his hands as he comprehended that you genuinely just turned him down.

"You're… joking, right?" Vox exclaimed in disbelief, as he set down the mug on the counter. "You're going to pass up on being the owner of your very own company with infinite financing and control?”

"Yup," you say with a pop for emphasis. "My content is my heart and soul. It's my passion. It has to be built up from my hard work, my dreams, and my well-intentioned connections. If I let someone else just hand it all to me on a silver platter, it wouldn’t be the same at all."

"You're absolutely insane," Vox muttered, shaking his head as he questioned your sanity entirely. "You’re seriously refusing my deal? You refuse infinite fucking funding?! All because of what? Pride?”

"Yeah," you said easily with a relaxed grin as you went back to stirring your drink like you hadn’t just casually declined all the power and money to make your dreams come true.

The overlord took a deep steadying breath as he tried to process the absolute stupidity of your decision. There wasn’t a single sinner in Hell that would pass up on a deal like this, and you just... turned it down in favor of hard work and dedication. The insane stubbornness of your choice left him speechless.

"That being said," you hum thought thoughtfully. "I do think you have something else that I'd be willing to trade for."

The overlord's attention snaps back to you, looking over you skeptically. "Oh, well now I'm curious... What could you possibly want more than an entire goddamn company?"

"It’s something you actually brought up during our last deal,” you say as you sip your drink and lean back against the counter. “I know Valentino would never release Angel Dust's contract willingly," you start carefully. "So instead, I want you to distract Valentino. For as long as I uphold my end of the deal regarding Alastor, you will do everything you can to protect Angel Dust from Valentino's anger and abuse.”

"Protect Angel Dust from Valentino's abuse..." Vox murmured as he shifted back. It wasn’t an easy request. In fact, Vox wondered if it was even possible. He was already running scenarios and contradictions over in his mind as he considered the possibilities. "And… how would you want me to go about doing that?"

"Subtly," you sigh. "If you're too direct, it could just make Valentino angrier and more violent with Angel. Butter up Valentino, distract him, send other sinners his way, whatever it takes. Just… lessen the damage and keep Valentino from catching on.”

"Hmm... that is quite a fascinating challenge you've given me…” Vox murmured as he ran his thumb along his chin. “But, I think I can manage.”

If anything, your proposition intrigued him. Rather than getting to just hand you money and power, which he had plenty of, you were putting him in just as sticky of a situation as the one he wanted to put you in. It set the playing field on equal ground. Neither of you were asking the other to completely betray their factions, but you were both putting each other at high risk.

"I'll keep tabs on Alastor, just like you want,” you frown. As much as you hated the idea of doing it, Alastor was one of the only people at the hotel you had no real connection with. He’d never seemed interested in what you had to offer, so he didn’t waste his time on you. Likewise, you were too focused on Angel and Charlie to pay him much mind either.

“However,” you clarify. “I'll only relay the information I discover of his personal activities. Anything involved with the hotel or Charlie is off-limits."

"Hm..." Vox murmured, considering the terms of the deal. "Very well then, I'll agree to these terms. I may not be a fan of the hotel, but ultimately I don’t care about it half as much as I do Alastor. I want to know what he’s trying to gain from the hotel, but anything involving the princess’s little pet project doesn’t particularly interest me anyway.”

You pause, thinking hard before nodding. "One more condition. If Alastor catches me and kills me for what I'm doing for you, you have to keep protecting Angel Dust from Valentino until whatever you had planned for lessening Valentino’s influence is underway.”

"Hmm..." The overlord murmured as he thought for a moment before he slowly nodded. "Very well, I accept these terms. I’ll protect Angel Dust until I take Valentino down for my own schemes. Do you have anything else to add before we conclude this deal?"

You shake your head, "I'm guessing you'll want to make at least one other deal with me one day. Knowing that, you'd be foolish to try to loophole or double-cross me with this deal. So I think we're good to go."

"I think you have a rather good understanding of me, little drama queen." The overlord grinned. Every time he thought he knew what to expect, you managed to pull the rug out from under him. Rather than being annoyed by the change in his original plans for this deal, he was excited and curious to see what other surprises could come from being involved with you. "Alright then... with that being said, we should seal our deal."

Your magic flares, as the familiar purple mist flows gently around you. You hold out your hand, ready to seal the deal. For the protection of your friend, you were willing to betray Alastor. You may not have hated him like Vox did, but you were somewhat wary of him. The way he always seemed like he was hiding ill intentions behind his permanent grin never settled well with you. There had been times you wondered yourself what he wanted from Charlie and while you weren’t as close to the princess as you were with Angel, you could tell if things kept going the way they were, you’d care for her just as much as any of your other friends. With that in mind, this was a risk you were willing to take.

The overlord's own magic flared to life, blue electricity filling the air. Your hands connected and the mist and sparks swirled around each other in a bright flash before dissipating entirely.

You slowly pull back, flexing your hand as you feel the sparks from his magic still tingling your skin. "So that's that," you hum.

"Indeed it is," The overlord murmured as he let out a quiet sigh of relief. "Our deal is sealed. There’s no going back now. You realize that, correct?"

"I know," you say softly as you accept the weight of knowing there was a good chance if you got caught, Alastor would broadcast your slow and gruesome murder on the radio for all of Hell to hear. "At least if shit goes south, you'll find out pretty quickly," you chuckle dryly, cringing at the thought.

There was a faint hint of a smirk that appeared on the overlord's face as he considered your words. "Well, if nothing else, you’ve earned my respect. You’re fully aware of what’s at stake, yet you agreed to the deal anyway. You are either insane... or extremely brave."

"Why not both?" You chuckle. You were putting your life at risk, and you had rejected his offer of riches and power, opting for the protection of a friend instead. To say your priorities were skewed would be an understatement to most sinners.

"The longer this little game of ours goes on, the more I want to pull you into the world of Hell’s politics," The overlord murmured with a smirk. "I’ve seen your video game work and I won’t deny it has potential, but I think you underestimate your potential for something more.”

You cringe, sticking your tongue out as if the very thought of it left a bad taste in your mouth. “Pass. I’ll leave the evil overlording to you and your stupid bow tie.”

“Fuck you, it’s classy,” Vox snickered as he shook his head. “Plus, how much room do you have to talk when I haven’t seen you wear proper clothing since we’ve met?”

“Fuck you,” you say playfully with a grin. “We’ve only met twice and both times you’ve shown up without warning to my home. Are you seriously telling me you lounge about in your time off in that getup?”

“Bold of you to assume I have time off,” Vox chuckled. “Now... it seems that we both have our parts to play in this deal. You’ll keep tabs on Alastor, and I’ll protect Angel Dust from Valentino when I have the opportunity to do so. I’m around often enough, but it may take a moment for me to get the hang of things. Do you have any other thoughts you wish to add before we part ways?"

You try not to show that you're disappointed in how quickly the meeting is ending. It was true that someone like Vox didn’t exactly have the time to spare to chat with you. It’s not like you were friends or anything. Just convenient dealmakers. But you’d be lying if you didn’t say you found your interactions to be fun despite the risk that came with them.

"How do you want me to get ahold of you if I learn anything about Alastor?" You ask.

Your phone suddenly vibrates in your pocket and you jump with a startled yelp, spilling some of your drink on your shirt. Vox laughs as you grumble and lightly kick at his shin. When you pull out your phone, his face is mocking you from the screen.

“I have access to every device with a screen in all of Hell,” Vox smirked as you tried to swipe away his face to no avail. “I’ve put my number in your phone and yours is now in mine. I have access to anything on your device I want. Your notes, your texts, your camera, your microphone. I can see anything I want, whenever I want. It shouldn’t be too hard to get my attention.”

You huff, crossing your arms after you shove the phone back into your pocket. "Stalker."

The overlord's grin narrowed. "I prefer to think of it as surveillance. But if you prefer to think of it as stalking, it's up to you."

You roll your eyes and shake your head with a melodramatic sigh, "No more reading fanfiction on my phone in the shower for me."

The overlord couldn't help but laugh at your comment. "I wouldn’t necessarily complain.”

Your face feels like someone just set you on fire and Vox smirks as he mentally checks another point in his favor in the little game of back-and-forth between the two of you. It was extremely amusing for him to see how the occasional little comment here and there threw you off your game so easily. He was used to all sorts of depraved commentary from Valentino and Velvette’s sass was unmatched. Pulling reactions out of you so easily was delightfully entertaining.

Acting like he hadn’t just casually dropped such a comment, Vox switched back to a more businesslike demeanor as he added. “Just know that I will be checking in every now and then, regardless of how often I hear from you. You’ll have to start going to the hotel more as well and I’ll know where you are from now on too.”

Shaking off your embarrassment, you give a mock salute with two of your fingers as you make a note of the conditions of your deal, "Yes Sir, Mr. Stalker, Sir."

The overlord smirked slightly back at you before he chuckled. "Well, little drama queen, it looks like our business with one another has concluded. I’ll keep in touch."

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It was a while before you finally had a substantial update for Vox. Neither of you were too surprised that it would take time before you could naturally find anything of use. Still, it left you feeling unsettled not having anything to offer. You didn’t want to risk Vox getting fed up with your lack of results and calling the deal off. Especially after the shit show that happened at Valentino’s studio when Charlie tried to get time off for Angel. But now you finally had something.

Charlie had been freaking out as the clock whittled down the time until the next extermination. So much so, that she had put aside her raging daddy issues long enough to invite her father to the hotel. When she asked if you’d come to the hotel to provide emotional support and help in case things went south, you happily agreed. You’d been coming by more often and as you suspected, you ended up growing even more attached to the hotel and the rag tag team keeping it together.

Every time you visited, you had to push down the dark, squirming guilt that behind every laugh, every smile, every mishap, was an ulterior motive. You were always watching Alastor out of the corner of your eye. Waiting for something, anything that could be of use to Vox that didn’t involve the hotel.

Between the chaos of Lucifer setting off something competitive in Alastor, the unexpected appearance of Mimzy, and the chaos that came with Charlie’s desperate attempts to prove her point to her dad, there was finally a crack in Alastor’s carefully composed disposition.

While everyone was preoccupied dealing with their own slice of the chaos, you ducked into one of the empty rooms and pulled out your phone. Vox hadn’t been kidding how easy it was to get ahold of him. All it took was a single text with nothing more than his name and the little bubbles that showed he was typing immediately let you know that you had his attention.

Vox: What is it? Did you discover something of note regarding Alastor?

Y/N: I did. It seems like he's under a contract with someone. I don't know who or what the details are, but I overheard him talking in the hall, and it sounds like someone else might own Alastor's soul.

The overlord's eyes narrowed as he read your text. The idea of someone having a contract with Alastor intrigued him, as it was the potential to have a certain level of control over the radio demon.

Vox: I see... and was there any indication as to who they were?

Y/N: He's too tight-lipped to let something like that slip. But honestly? My bets are on Lilith. She disappeared at the same time he did, and she’s of higher status.

Vox paused as he read the text and considered your words. Valentino and Velvette were bitching about something he hadn’t been paying attention to as he slipped out of the room and rolled the possibilities over in his mind. His heart was racing and he could feel the static sparks dancing across his skin. He finally had something.

The big unanswered question that had been haunting him for so long came with no hints, no arrows pointing him in a direction that could finally give him the answers he was owed. But now? Even if the information you’d given him was circumstantial, it was something. After seven fucking years of having nothing, there was finally a straw for him to grasp at.

Vox: I see where you are coming from. Lilith or someone of her caliber would have something of interest worthy of a deal. The real question is what could be worth a deal like that to Alastor? And what did he offer in exchange?

Vox: This is good. Like really fucking good. If you find out anything else, let me know.

You send him a little thumbs-up emoji before asking,

Y/n: Have you been protecting Angel Dust?

All Vox wanted to do was retreat to his surveillance room and get to work on digging up what he could with this new lead you’d given him. He was already marching his way through the penthouse shared between him and the other Vees as he typed.

Vox: It hasn’t been easy, but I’ve been ensuring that Angel Dust has received a very minimum level of abuse from Valentino. So, yes, I have been protecting his soul for you little drama queen. It is our deal, after all.

Y/N: Stop calling me that >:((((

Y/N: And thank you…

Vox barked out a laugh at your irritated response. He hadn’t realized he’d given you a nickname, but now that he knew it bothered you he would be sure to double down. He ignored Velvette asking him where he was off to in such a rush and simply waved off Valentino with promises of updating them later as he stepped onto the pad that’d take him down to his lair.

He was too glued to his phone to notice the look of bewilderment the Vee’s exchanged from where they sat on the couch. They’d only seen him so attached to his phone when he was in a foul mood from dealing with work shit. They’d never seen him with such a downright giddy grin like the one he was unknowingly wearing as he started a call on your phone without warning.

Not expecting the call, you jumped with a startled gasp as his face suddenly flooded your screen.

“Shit, fuck- motherfucker!” you swore under your breath as you grabbed at your phone in the air, trying not to drop it.

Vox laughed as you tumbled with the device and if you weren’t broke as hell, you would have considered chucking it out the window.

“Vox!” you hiss quietly as you step further into the empty hotel room and away from the door where anyone in the hall could hear you. “You can’t just hack into my phone and pop up without warning when I’m at the hotel! What if I wasn’t alone?”

“I tapped into the microphone and didn’t hear anyone else,” Vox rolled his eyes with a smug grin as he made his way to his surveillance setup. “I’m not that stupid, drama queen.”

You groaned, hating the corny nickname even more as you heard him say it out loud. “My point still stands, you shitty stalker.”

“You’ll learn to love it,” Vox chuckled as he sat in his dark office chair and swiveled around to start doing some research on his computer. “Now then, where exactly did you hear about this contract Alastor may have?”

"One of his old friends came to the hotel to escape some loan sharks,” you say slowly as you sit down on the bed. You take your time, trying to consider what you believed was safe to tell Vox without giving too much away. “I overheard someone telling him what to do regarding her, and it was brought up during the argument. They didn't know I was nearby."

Vox hummed as he started looking into the disappearance of Lilith and the events leading up to it. "Interesting... very interesting indeed. So Alastor may have made a deal with Lilith before they both went off the radar… If not her, then someone of similar status…”

You nodded and hummed along as he began to go down the rabbit hole of research and theories. The sound of Charlie and Lucifer having a heartfelt showtune moment down in the lobby softly reverberated through the walls of the hotel and you couldn’t help but smile as you listened to Vox’s excitement as he followed the lead.

Now if only you had noticed the shadow in the corner…

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rosemariad · 3 months

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Supernatural season 14

Oh boy!

So Alt-Michael has taken over Dean’s body and absconded to parts unknown - what an unprecedented plot twist who could’ve possibly seen this coming, certainly not Dean, the one guy who doesn’t trust angels and has a history of being short-sighted & making shitty deals.

Since this is season 14, and there’s only 1 more season after this, I presume Dean will never grow out of these bad qualities 🤦🏾‍♀️, so…moving on.

Check you out Sam, leading your new band of hunters, like some sort of Hunters Incorporated©️. I’m glad Sam gets to spend more time with his mom, but he won’t let her take care of him 😔😭

Was it me or did that Michael & Anael scene feel like Jensen x Danneel role play 🤣 - at least when he caressed her face. Like really bro? I don’t think the scene would’ve played out that way if the actors weren’t actual husband and wife 🤣

Shoutout to Supernatural for keeping Mark Pellegrino employed lol 😂😂 cuz I don’t see Why the fuck he’s still around if the devil is supposedly dead - wasn’t Mark P. also doing 13 reasons why around this time?? Anywho, Nick, luci’s longtime vessel, isn’t dead???? What does Nick have that jimmy novak didn’t (or literally any other angel vessel for that matter) — plot convenience? That must be it 🤣🤣🤣

Cas honey, why are you letting these demons beat you up? Cuz Dean is gone on your watch? cuz im sorry there’s no way im believing Cas was weaker than all them demons. That’s also plot convenience IDGAF!

After yet another demon-hunter showdown, Mary and Bobby are spotted sharing a beer & flirting…I wish John were around to see this AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Oh Jack, poor guy feels worthless for having no power. He should’ve been like ‘Castiel what’s it like being worthless?’ since that was Castiel’s arc for a minute too, which again fuck Supernatural for. Cas had like 1 badass moment last season when he fried Donatello’s brains but that’s it. Meanwhile Nick totally called Cas out, bringing up Jimmy again and driving that guilt straight into Castiel.

Alt-Michael is recruiting?? Brief Dean cameo in 14x02, you give him like 2 lines, wow 😒. Even Sam got more screen time in 5x22 swan song…but Dean suddenly comes back at the end of the episode???? Nah, bullshit!

Also lol karma for Dean in 14x02 when Jack is like, ‘Dean doesn’t matter’, Michael has to be stopped. Ahahahahahahaha. He was the so called pragmatist when it came to Jack, now it’s Jack’s turn. Castiel’s face when jack said it tho…

Dean got stabbed by AU Kaia? What?? Oh look yet another instance of Dean running away from his problems and pain and being a dick to Kaia (though she's technically a different person) again! Good for you tho AU Kaia for giving Dean a taste of his own medicine and telling him off.

Bobby leave Sam alone, I’m here for his captain my captain era. The lovable giant is doing his best!

So some necromancer gets away from Jack & Dean but we’re not gonna see her again, right??? There’s just a little over 30 episodes left in the show at this point. They probably didn’t know that at the time though.

Shoutout to the devil for basically condemning his child to die from a lack of grace :/ while Cas was able to survive (cuz plot convenience most likely) Jack as a nephilim was unable to do so. Gabe’s spare angel grace couldn’t help (I wonder if he were still alive in canon, if it would’ve made a difference. Oh well).

So this is where Cas made the deal with the empty (yes I know about it, how doesn’t everyone that shit went viral the very night it originally aired amidst the infamous nail-biting 2020 election week), tumblr is still serving the memes to this day.

Cas doesn’t want the Winchesters to know cuz Dean 😭 idc, if I was Jack I would NOT keep that secret. Dean would know IMMEDIATELY.

I think more angels died, but heaven hasn’t fallen yet…right? They keep coming back to that. Hm…

Nick’s arc is…bleh. Pretty sure in his desperation he just brought Luci back from the empty…welp. I guess when you’re an archangel who was predestined by God to fight in a fateful epic battle against your big bro, you just get certain perks in the afterlife 😒

Sam doesn’t want Alt-Charlie to go when its like bro! She. Is. Not. Charlie!!! For fuck sake guys SMH, let her live her fucking life! God forbid she want to run away to fucking safety and not die bloody like her counterpart 🤬

Bobby and Mary run off to a cabin for weeks on end 😏😂 to recuperate, sure Mary 🤣

Garth is back! Working as a spy for the Winchesters, oh dear Lord no. I know he makes it to season 15 but maaaan I don't like this….

The nerve of Dean to challenge Alt-Kaia to either hand over the weapon or kill her. What if she just killed him? Also, can't they just replicate the weapon for their own uses? All they would need to do is ensure they're using the same materials Kaia did when she forged the weapon in her own world.

How many hits to the head is Sam supposed to fuckin' take? I feel like it's happened more in this season alone than the entire show so far? He should probably be dead at this point 🤣

Jack got taken, oh no! why didn't Michael kill him? To take him as a ward? Seriously? Whatever.

And it turns out the past episode was a long con to get Dean right where Alt-Michael wanted him. I know there was a catch to him letting Dean go in 14x02.

So Alt-Michael chose to trap Dean in…contentment? With Pamela Barnes? And they weren't even a couple, just friends. She called him out on something.

Why not have him be with a real girlfriend of his, like Lisa or even Cassie? I’m supposed to believe Dean's dream is an unsuccessful bar living out his days with a platonic lady friend??? Really??? Bullshit!

John returns for the final time to go back to 2003? Okay. His hair is cut and grayish. Lol so I’m gonna see that as John gained some weight (from food/drink or muscle training idc) and dyes his hair black but the root are grey and come out every so often 🤣 but yay JDM I wish you had been in more episodes! Oh well.

So no one’s gonna talk about:

a) Adam’s existence

b) Bobby X Mary or how Bobby essentially replaced john as the father/husband by getting involved with Mary AND being a surrogate father to Sam & Dean (with a clear preference to Dean but whatever)

I’d care more about Sam & John’s convo if we had more time with them together on screen. But it was nice to see them squash their beef.

Dean & John’s convo was faaaar too brief. But insightful to their relationship. John wanted dean to have a family, echoing his wishes for his eldest in season 1 in his convo w/ Sam.

But Dean was like I have a family 🥺 my emotions!

Back to the Michael bullshit – a fight with a gorgon fucked up his containment so he literally broke out of Dean's body and killed all the hunters who were conveniently at the bunker when they brought an unconscious Dean back there. Even poor unfortunate Maggie. For a second I thought Mary would be there since Maggie mentioned she was on her way back but no, he ended up possessing Rowena.

Then they bring the old angel torture device of disabling our heroes' ability to breathe, like in the season 5 premiere, making them blind (that's new) and making them hurt.

Jack gets his chance to take Michael down, and takes his grace??????

Oh Sam bby, it's not your fault. Those people were doomed no matter what. TBH I'm surprised they lasted this long. But cuz he's a Winchester and he was raised by Dean & they've rubbed off each other too much at this point (nobromo), he decides to focus on yet another case even when Dean himself isn't willing since big bro has pointed out they have done 3 cases back to back. They're not the young men they used to be lol.

Cas goes with Sam to a milkshake town and given his legendary levels of awkwardness he's immediately seen and called out for his inherent queerness by the townsfolk (in all senses of the word).

Aw Sam wants to stay, ofc he does. This town is simple and peaceful. He could use some of that. Too bad this place is making people's heads explode.

This is why we can't have nice things.

Ah subtle there Supernatural, making Jack, a Nephilim who's the offspring of the devil himself choose between angel and devil food cake 🤣 Dean why would you put him in that position?

Cas why you gotta be snitching on Sam to your boy bestie like that 🤣 – typical boyfriend tomfoolery

Oftentimes since Jack started in this show, he's felt like an intern and 14x16 is one of those times. They don't wanna bring jack along so they think to leave him alone doing chores. Good Lord.

Oh honey Sam you didn't have to tell the sheriff you're not FBI, just stick to the monster stuff. He knows what's up.

And Jack sweetie pie you don't need to impress those kids. He should be hanging out with kids his own age. Just Jack with a bunch of babies 🤣. So cute! My headcanon is that he can actually talk to them. At least then it wouldn't have ended with a stabbing. Thankfully he cleaned up his mess, even though the local kids are terrified of him. It’s a shame he doesn’t have friends. If only he was allowed to have Claire in his life.

They finally resolved the Nick storyline (I hope) by killing him off via Jack but Mary is not happy. She’s concerned. She’s been concerned about him the whole frickin episode since he sassed her as they tried setting up a game night with Dean.

It’s like these people keep forgetting what Jack is capable of.

He didn’t have to relish the kill though. On the other hand, it felt like Mary’s concern was a bit much — if it were me I would’ve kept my mouth shut as to not upset a powerful fledging being into killing me by accident.

So Mary dies…again.

This is also why we can’t have nice things. I know Dean’s never gonna let this shit go. Sure Cas has fucked up a bunch, but killing a direct blood relative of Dean’s…nope. That’s unforgivable. I know they’re not gonna let Dean kill off a kid but I know he’s NEVER ever gonna forget Jack’s role in Mary’s (second) demise.

Why couldn’t you leave the boy alone Mary?!?!?!!?!

The boys show up, did they not circle back to pick up their mother? Seriously? Goodness Lord. So depressing watching the brothers just assuming their mommy’s coming back 😭

Cas (cuz of course this shit went tits up while Daddy was away) calls Dean to get caught up on what happened the last episode and is concerned that the Winchesters left their mom alone with Jack. Then why did you leave him Cas? You could’ve taken him with you. Like it would’ve been better if one of the brothers was alone with Jack? Badasses they may be, but they would’ve ended up just like Mary let’s be honest. The only difference would’ve been whichever brother got got would’ve come back. Mary will not be getting that special treatment…

Jack is tripping out since he murdered his foster G-maw - ends up flying all over the world (so his soul is definitely gone? But if it were gone, would he even care about killing Mary? everyone’s trying to track him down IDK why he doesn’t just destroy the phone he has. We get flashes of Mary & Jack’s time together and technically I believe she spent the most time with him (at least in season 13)

They’re still giving Mark P work on this show making him the manifestation of Jack’s subconscious cuz the kill is driving Jack insane 😭🥺 He’s reacting so much like a little boy who knows he fucked up it that makes this so much sadder 😭 Jack’s being driven mad with grief.

Oh fuck they’re going to where she died. Oh fuck.

WTF is wrong with these people! He’s a fucking boy! A super power nuke of a boy, but still a fucking boy! Like the Winchesters never made a mistake! What about the nurse who got killed in 4x22 by Sam? All the people Dean slaughtered under the MoC, as a demon! That’s just off the top of my head! No but cuz they’re the fucking protagonists 😡🤬

Samuel Winchester you know manipulating this child Is 5 different kinds of fucked up!

Jack why did you call it an accident! Did you not want to use the words murder? Destroyed? Obliterated?

Dean you piece of shit, why are you lying to this boy!!!!!! You know Jack’s desperate to make peace with you, and you lead him to a grave he’s never supposed to escape?! Poor thing Jack was sooo scared!

Sam, the regret is gonna eat you alive! Sam, for fucks sake, SPEAK THE FUCK UP! You clearly got shit you wanna say, fucking say it!

Dean you’re surprised Jack’s going along with it?! Of course he’s gonna go along with it, he wants to please you, you shady, manipulative BASTARD!

That’s right Castiel stand up for Jack since nobody else is willing to!

Oh boy, the celestial boy is freaking out. Claustrophobia was kicking in, this shit ain’t gonna end well. It’s a dark day when a psychological manifestation of Satan is making sense more than everyone else.

I’m not surprised Jack got out though. That box was made for an archangel and he isn’t that. He’s a nephilim, technically a different entity, right? now, the Winchesters have a pissed off mega-powerful creature on their hands. Great job team 🤣

that’s right Jack, give them a piece of your fucking mind! Fuck ‘em up queen.

Oh shit! I’ve watched this part a dozen times on YouTube, the part where jack makes the whole world tell the truth no matter what! Donald trump is canonically Crowley’s bitch! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

All hail the stapler queen! Iconic!

And God reveals Himself, what grand timing! He says He came for Cas’s prayer (but Cas prayed to Him in season 6 too, no?) but then He states the real reason for His arrival — Jack.

Meanwhile Jack went to see his real G-maw, not a good plan Jackie boy. She’s put 2+2 together that her daughter Kelly is NOT ok and now Jack has to confess the truth. (Where’s the dad? Was the actor unavailable or dead at this point?)

Sam was outed to love Celine Dion (I love her two Sammy it’s ok, her songs are AMAZING! My favorite is it’s all coming back to me now, I crush that shit in karaoke.) Dean follows a mommy blog 🤣 of course he does, probably cuz he identifies with her more & loves that her life is so full of shit (like I said, he identifies with her).

God don’t sanction lying, the real God would never do such a thing. Isn’t it like the 6th commandment, thou shall not lie? Like dude, the fuck?!

And no, writing means telling stories that are often made up but it’s not meant to deceive anybody. But Hollywood on the other hand…yeesh.

Dean breaking Chuck’s guitar 🤣

Chuck saying ‘DON’T!’ Having Dean shook 🤣

Why are you asking them how things are, like you don’t know?! You’re omnipotent!

They canonically made the British queen a lizard? Damn. These old Americans (the writers) are dicks!

Finally Sam is speaking up! Thank God!

Dean stop blaming people, Jesus, it was an accident (Jack you phrased it sooooo poorly though)! shout out to Sam for taking it this so well cuz he’s been through too much this season alone. He lost a whole fucking army, then his mom after he got to know her this time! And the concussions! So many concussions.

Angry Cas is sooooo fucking hot 🥵 when he slammed that truck with his fist 😏

Awww the first thing he does when he sees Jack is hugs him. Jack needed that so bad!

The biggest travesty is we never got to see the SquirrelVerse!

When Sam asks if God is watching them — Sam do you even know what omnipotent means?!

It’s just like I said in season 11. God doesn’t owe anyone anything. But everyone owes Him everything. He gave everyone the freedom to choose, for better or worse. But this iteration of who God is seems to watch what people and creatures decide to do with their lives. He made the weapon to see who among Sam, Dean or Cas would take it and strike Jack down.

So ultimately when Dean tracks Jack down and Jack throws Cas into a tombstone and Sam is running dramatically to stop it, Dean ultimately decides not to kill Jack. But why though? He kept talking shit about how Jack needed to be dealt with, but when the moment comes, he won’t do it?! I mean I’m glad but it doesn’t really make sense?!

Was it the puppy eyes? Did Sam teach Jack that trick? But Jack closed his eyes at the last second???

Oh Dean, you’re such a fucking softie. That’s on you God. You made him softer than Mr. Pillsberry.

If anything, Dean is the step daddy. Cas is Daddy. And then there’s Uncle Sam 🤣

Sam is many things, but stupid is never one of them. Naïve maybe, trusting, desperate. But not stupid. And not crazy, this time 🤣

I will say what makes this story compelling is the fact that the Winchesters find themselves locked in a cycle of violence at the hands of their Creator, and they’re refusing to commit further acts of violence in effort to stop it all and rebel against their cruel, dispassionate maker. But they have no means to back it up…today.

Not the Burger King catchphrase🤣🤣🤣

Not Jack being…smote?

Not Dean being yeeted into another tombstone?

Sam, why did you think that was gonna work on God? He made the weapon. You really think He’d make something that could kill Himself? Nah bruh.

So we’ve approached the ending of the penultimate season. 20 more episodes to go! Ah!!!! I’m excited but also not since the ending is what I know (mildly).

Side note - Sam & Dean still don’t know about Castiel’s bargain with the Empty (kinda seems pointless since God killed Jack anyway…Cas basically fucked himself for nothing 🤦🏾‍♀️ [I know how it ends but yeah still])

It’s not about the destination though, it’s the journey (I keep telling myself that).

God said fuck y’all. Shouldn’t’ve poked the bear…now these poor innocent people gonna die like sheep to the slaughter. Y’all got a lot of cleaning up to do and with so little people to help you.

So did God undo all the killings the Winchesters did? Cuz damn….that’s 10+ years of work undone. In 1 moment.

They’re not getting out of the cycle anytime soon.

#supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #rowena macleod #mary winchester #john winchester #jack kline #chuck shurley #destiel #deancas #bobby singer #charlie bradbury #rowena supernatural #supernatural season 14

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survivingandenduring · 5 months

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At the start of 2023 I was a quiet Pedro admirer; although Narcos was my gateway Pedro I was just admiring from a distance; following films and interviews but definitely not engaging. Too scary. 😟

The Mandalorian came along and I peeked into fandom but didn’t engage 🫣

HBO’s TLOU changed all that.

I put my big girl panties on and dipped my toe in the water. I wanted to join in with the fun 🤩 Not having a creative writing bone in my body I started making some video edits on the clock app; Some really, really poor quality and quite shitty edits. 😂 But I was having a lot fun making them and it was purely for my own enjoyment. 💗

💜🖤💜🖤💜

Got my Mandalorian/TLOU tattoo it says endure & survive in Mandalorian script cos I was Six when Star Wars came out and it’s been my comfort for nearly my whole life; and then the TLOU hit me with all of its feelings!!! And Endure & Survive has pretty much been a mantra for my life at times. So..

The Met Gala was life altering.

Gradually I’ve taught myself how to make edits that are a bit better; and some people even seem to like them!! And I started to get followers on the clock app! Crazy!! Still think it’s crazy that anyone takes time to watch or comment on them. I’ve not been confident enough to post much of them on here amongst so much cool stuff but I’ll try to push myself to do that more in 2024

💜🖤💜🖤💜

As the odd; ND, but I’m gen x so just weird, person I’ve always felt I’ve been the one on the outside or the edge looking in; I still mainly feel like that; but Pedro fandom has let me feel like I’m a tiny part of something; which is such a gift. I wish Pedro could understand that his work gives so much more to people. I’ve made some wonderful friends because of it and I hope to make more in the next year.

Fandom has truly allowed me to feel ok being myself 💗 and that’s so fucking cool.

💜🖤💜🖤💜

After reading fics on a03 I switched over to here; and then made an account.

Wow!!! What a difference. I love the interaction with the writers; the fact that you all take the time to respond to comments and thoughts is amazing to me and truly valued 💗🥰

The silliness on tumblr is like beautiful fresh air to breathe.’; whether it’s Marcus P and DONUTS; or the Catfish PhD program 😁 these bring me such joy. 🥰

I’ve read soooooo many amazing fics there are too many to mention. But if I’ve commented, liked or reblogged your fic it’s because I really truly enjoyed it 💜💗💜

And it’s like some sort of miracle that you guys give us this..for FREE…just to share and enjoy. What a gift; when my head feels out of control I can come here and quieten it down with your words.

💜 THANKYOU 💜

and if anyone took the time to read this brain spew then double thanks ❤️💜

If you do fancy looking at some shitty edits then I’m @enduringandsurviving on the clock app

Here’s to 2024 and all that Pedro. There’s a chance I may self combust at some point.

I thought G2 was going to do it but I’ve a sneaky suspicion that I won’t make it past Freaky Tales 🤣🤣🤣

#personal #my random thoughts

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stillresolved · 4 months

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GET TO KNOW THE MUN

NAME?: ferre :)

PRONOUNS?: they / them

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION?: tumblr ims for newcomers, discord for friends/longtime writing partners!

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: rn aeri's taken over, but on here, it rotates fairly often; i also always have brainrot for suki & patrick ♡

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: 9-10 years? i started in the shitty ims of quizilla, didn't realize this is something ppl actually did as a hobby for another year before i moved to tumblr. i believe i was on-and-off for about four years before in 2018, i made calum, where the hobby became more permanent, took a year long break and then came back in 2021....u're all stuck with me for life now :)

BEST EXPERIENCE?: THE PLOTTED GROUP VERSES I HAVE WITH THE PPL :'D from the thg verse to the crime verse AND NOW!! the celebrity verse i never thought i'd get to write and plot such intricate ideas with my partners, so it makes me SO HAPPY and thankful to have stuck around here all this time; also whatever's going on with suki & her co-workers i'm in, i love it

RP PET PEEVES?: admittedly, a lot :'D but moving blogs has helped with getting away from constantly encountering these pet peeves :D if i have to name one then recently i've been getting turned off by ppl who are always their soapboxes lecturing about rp. they talk about how rp should be and how people should interact with one another, but most of the time? i hardly see them practice what they preach. if you want quality partners, you have to be one first- that's how you find ur people :/ also excessive, consistent saltiness- i get uncomfortable.

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: i don't really care, just as long as there's character/relationship development going on. that being said- if you want pain that will make u yell at me in the dms, hit me up ♡ ( i have references :DD )

PLOTS OR MEMES?: honestly plots all the way, but i'm also very picky with who i plot with in-depth, so memes are good ways to break the ice.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: i tend to match my partners so most of the time my replies end up on the longer side...that being said, i am always down for shorter threads, it's a good exercise in brevity.

TIME TO WRITE?: recently it's been more on the weekends as i have solo writing projects i work on during the week although i do tend to hold onto completed replies/memes so that i can mass post them when i have a few more completed.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: NAH, one thing that's been making me happier these days is that i'm starting?? to branch out a bit more from the good beans i'm accustomed to writing....when it comes to portraying my characters, my goal isn't to make them do the right thing so much as do the most interesting ic thing ♡

tagged by: i stole it ♡ tagging: @geaesaekki @mythvoiced @velvetineblue @theimpalpable ( for when you've finished renovating :D ) @bloodxhound @byanyan @crue1 @irrwicht and you! stealing is acceptable in this house :D

#( ferre answered. )#( dash games. )#today is mun day and even tho i didn't write much on here ( yet hopefully ) i wanted to do this....#so!! take it <3

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azurextz · 1 year

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Idia Shroud headcanons as a boyfriend!

GN!Reader x Idia Shroud

This blog is a "x reader" or the so said, you! Well, the gender used is none at all, everyone can read! This is pure fluffy! I wanted to share some things of my mind with some people from tumblr, also, this is very shitty and its totally made for fun, dont expect something so good...

remember, i am not a native english speaker or a very good writer, i only write this because i was bored and wanted to try something new.

Very short, and maybe some things of the character could be wrong since idk so much about him, sorry...

Idia usually would at any contact feel extremely umcomfortable, he is really a person that didn't have alot of physical affection of literally anyone, and any contact feels very weird and strange, he would try to act cool and even try to accept the touch to not make you feel bad, but you probally would see in his eyes that he was umcomfortable, was very clever when he was, which would be exacly why every time you said this in these moments he would say the truth, but of course, trying to act very cool and confident (which he failed alot, and you tried to cover just to dont make him feel embarassed, sometimes you teased him for this, but thats another thing, for another headcanon or scenario-).

Like said before, everytime you said about his faking confidence he would say the truth, though, if you stayed with your mouth shut, he would continue trying to act cool and confident as he most of the times looked (or at least tried to look, so much in front of you).

He probally lives for your compliments and praises, he act like he dont care so much, but, deep inside he feels very flustered and shy, he even feels like he is slowly going to explode, gosh!

He is trying his best to be the perfect boyfriend forever, he really do try, but sometimes he fails which makes him very insecure, like, VERY insecure, please hold him and tell him its okay and that he is a good boyfriend, before his insecurities takes over his mind (its not cool, its never cool, you dont want your boyfriend very anxious because of it, do you?).

He indeed its very anxious and stressed, any affection and love, care and attention and all lovey dovey stuff would make his day a calmer and better, i promise you, a good and comfortable hug could make his day 100 times better.

He plays alot of games, like, a very big amount, and most of the times would call you to play with him too, maybe some pizza while playing would look good? Hell yeah! Want some others things? Not pizza? Maybe some sweets? Candy?

You love to tease him, or probally would, its so fun to tease him until he turns into a flustered mess, he just looks so adorable! Kiss his cheek and say you love him, you will get a cute reaction from him, he will get the colors of a tomato as if he is doing a cosplay of an actual tomato.

Talking about cosplays, you're two do duo cosplays, usually of couples, he loves you very much and want his partner to cosplay cool couples with him, be them from animes, games or even films, at the final of all he just want to have some time with you.

His love language its more time quality or acts of service, as he would pass much time with you, and help you all the time If possible doing favors and overall trying to help you, he has his flaws, but, he really tries to be the best boyfriend you could ever have, to him, you deserve only the best.

He prefers dates in his room, he clean his bedroom, if not, the whole dorm itself to look completely, and utterly beautiful for you, he want to have perfect dates with you, so much in his room which he also himself thinks its not normal, and tries to make anything comfortable for you, he wants to have good experiences with you, not only good experiences, but fun ones.

Buys you some things you wanted, like that jewel you found yesterday, or that beautiful anime figure you found today and felt bad for dont having the money to buy.

He also says, "LOL" and "LMAO, FR" among many varied others when playing and sometimes even when not playing, he just says, nobody can change my mind about that!

He is either more chatty/talkative or very quiet, dont have in between, only some little exceptions, but, i can promise that in either way, he still listen to everything you say, he truly do.

Pretty boy, a very shy one.

FIRST WRITING, OMGGG, IM SO EMBARASSED KLAGJSJSJSS, SORRY ITS SO CRINGEY AND ANYTHING, ITS MY FIRST WRITING HERE AJSHSJS. 😭

#IdiaShroud #xreader #TwistedWonderland #twstxreader #IdiaShroudxreader #twisted wonderland #xgnreader

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xseplayhuntressx · 1 year

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I posted 621 times in 2022

That's 616 more posts than 2021!

63 posts created (10%)

558 posts reblogged (90%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

shandzii

hunny-bxscuit

twinanimatronics

bamsara

fluffffpillow

I tagged 93 of my posts in 2022

#xseplayhuntressx - 15 posts

#gacha club - 7 posts

#human au - 6 posts

#help - 5 posts

#fnaf security breach - 5 posts

#lmao - 4 posts

#fnaf security breach oc - 4 posts

#my art - 4 posts

#a- - 3 posts

#shandzii reblog - 3 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#nah but seriously. i though shandzii was gonna rip my head off for having their characters in ponytown (even with credits in the name lmao)

My Top Posts in 2022:

Drew a smol Cloudy :D

(was kinda rushed tbh-)

Anyways! Cloudy is owned AND created by turret-dorito! So full on credits to them! :D

I absolutely adore Cloudy, and may draw her more often in the Future, since she's super fun to draw :D

Picture in the top right was made by Turret-Dorito themself!

I only own the Drawing i made °¬°

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I really dont like it bro, i wanna cry-

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Here's how far i came with the Tear drawing on whiteboard '^'

This was basically the Tear drawing i was talking about haha

I hope it doesnt look as shitty as how i wanted it to turn out ^^'' [i drew this with a Mouse btw, and it hurt /hj ._.'']

I kinda gave up on it honestly, cuz i dont think i will finish it in time before the board will expire-

but meh, it was worth it ig xd.

Teardrop belongs to oriiduckko !

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DROPS THIS AND RUNS-

COUGH, drew a Funky Water Haired Lesbian Fish in Vocabulary College today.

Mariza is a lot of Fun to draw! :]

I may actually draw her more often now, so that i can finally fucking learn how to draw certain Hairstyles or Armor X'd.

Mariza is owned and created by shandzii!

Here's the Traditional version aswell! :]

[sorry for the bad Quality btw ;<;"]

See the full post

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My #1 post of 2022

Rando SR_Kaif Drawing.

I drew this bc i was bored.

And bc i thought of making an Salt Raiders Friday Night Funkin’ Mod /hj.

But instead, i scrapped the idea, and stopped thinking about making one, bc i cannot really animate + make a transparent bg sprite ._.’’

Anyways, i hope you like it!

(Icon on the Beanie: [Kaif] )

(Text on the Mic.: [Salt Raiders] )

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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #i hope removing the @'s work for not pinging people ;-;#A-#also here i am thinking i had more shit on here. Guess i am actually more active on Twitter LMFAO-

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zalrb · 3 years

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Can I beg you to talk about Jim Halpert's great traits and moments? Tumblr's hatred for him has grown to Ross Geller levels of over the top-ness, and while I get that Jim has major flaws and should have been kinder to Dwight, not made unilateral decisions without consulting Pam, and not been so smug and self-superior around his coworkers, I think we also saw on a lot of occasions that he's a good guy overall. He's smart, independent and goodhearted--he really does care about people even when he doesn't want to and wants them to be happy.

Honestly, this whole thing is stupid to me because what's really going on is that Jim is one of the more realistic characters on the show so he gets more flack than the other characters because they're extremes, because, like Dwight exhibits sexist tendencies

He cheats with Angela on Andy

He actually treats Phyllis pretty shitty

He tricks Angela into marrying him the first time around and this was after having killed her cat

Angela is homophobic, xenophobic and constantly slut shames

she abandons Andy in a pond in the middle of nowhere

but hey let's pile on Jim because he hates his job and pranks Dwight - which everyone in the office either actively participates in or sits back and watches for entertainment (besides Angela)? Like Ross, it’s arbitrary. Especially considering that the show does bring up Dwight's feeling about Jim pranking Dwight, Karen essentially calls him a child for doing it, Jim feels both grateful and guilty that Dwight protected him from Roy because of the pranks.

And I'm also tired of hearing how Jim feels superior to his colleagues when what it actually is is he doesn't care about his job, which many of us have felt

it's basically Stanley and his crossword puzzle

the person who feels superior to their colleagues (besides Angela) is Ryan

Like the WHOLE THING is just ridiculous to me because Jim isn’t only his more negative qualities, when Michael wants to put the blame for the Golden Ticket idea on Dwight a) Jim tells Dwight that he deserves better b) when Michael tries to backtrack when David Wallace congratulates Dwight, Jim doesn’t let him

he also does his best to help Dwight through his breakup with Angela

(just like how Dwight ends up being grateful for Phyllis trying to help him with Angela even though he’d been terrible to her)

after pranking Andy who was transplanting his experience with Angela and Dwight onto Jim’s relationship with Pam, he expresses sympathy toward Andy about what he went through

he knows Kelly enough to know exactly what to give her and is genuinely pleased that she’s happy

he helps Michael with Holly so he doesn’t appear to be too inappropriate and has genuine moments with him when he realizes things from his perspective and that it’s not as easy as he thinks it is to be in Michael’s position

and even before that, things like, despite not initially inviting Michael to his party, when Michael gatecrashes, instead of letting it just be awkward and uncomfortable and leaving Michael hanging, he just embraces the fact that he’s there

and then there’s the fact that things are played for comedic effect -- the pass Michael gets for all of the racist, homophobic, sexist things he says while also being an overbearing, manipulative boss because it’s comedy but Jim doesn’t get a pass for pranking Dwight and not making some of the best decisions, like a nuanced character should, is just like, honestly tumblr is SO annoying.

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misanthropiczombie · 2 years

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I posted 2,126 times in 2021

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#also playing the what game but then physically feeling your brain reprocess what it missed and replying in the middle of them repeating game

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Note to self: next time design something a bit more simple for cross stitch project.

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So the live action bebop is... surprisingly okay??

Like the first episode is TRASH and I'm pretty sure was a pitch pilot they just did not have the time/money to re shoot, but after that they do actually hit some stride and the quality, writing, and acting gets waaaaay better.

Also Vicious looks like a Discount Witcher, and that alone is worth watching it for because I mad laugh every time he pops up

2 notes • Posted 2021-11-23 06:16:33 GMT

When tumblr decides to refresh itself and put me back at the top of my feed, it's time to do literally anything else

3 notes • Posted 2021-03-03 04:46:11 GMT

What do you do with complicated, contradictory feelings?

For the tldr of my life and a bit of the family drama, my dad essentially disowned or went no contact with everyone but me and a cousin, for reasons which I feel like were..... kind of shitty. Regardless, his decision to make and provided I wasn't roped in to the constant bitching, whatever.

But the thing is, I was still extremely close to my grandparents. They practically raised me in the summers when I was growing up (bc dad couod not be bothered). They had thier faults, but goddammit they were still important to me.

When my grandmother died, I called my dad crying to tell him, since nobody else was going to, and I asked him to come to the funeral because that was the first big loss in my life and I needed my dad. He didn't come. He didn't even tell me he was going to bail. Regardless of thier relationship, I needed him and he failed me in every way possible.

When my aunt died last year he texted me to tell me, and then left me holding the bag to call and tell thier other sibling the news, because he wasn't talking to her for whatever reason.

Now my grandfather has passed, and he once again texted me about it, which, hm. But he's also now saying he's going to, definitively, come to the funeral. And on one hand I am so, so angry. Why couldn't he have come earlier. My grandfather never forgave him for cutting and running, and my grandma always would have dropped everything to have him back. Is it spite? Is it some sense of growth? I asked neutrally because regardless of all of the drama, he deserves the chance to say good bye. Regardless of our fraught relationship. I'm glad he's going for that sake. I'm glad he's stepping up. I want him there, but I'm also still so angry and I don't know how to reconcile these thoughts. Very little of this is my drama.

I don't know why everyone stopped talking in full, and frankly I don't really care. They're all adults and I will forever be the child or the niece or granddaughter and I want no part in however fucked up those dynamics have become. I've got separate drama with my dad, because he's made some shit moves in his life, and I'll probably never fully be over them or fully forgive, but with time I have mostly moved past.

My husband thinks I should go no-contact, but I don't really want to. I have some foolish hope I have carried over my whole life that maybe once he'll pull through. Maybe once he'll step up to the plate. He's always been kind of generally shitty in the misguided sense, and has only ever been particularly maliciously shitty once (which is perhaps a story for another time if I need to scream it into the void, rather than vent at the people around me when the topic arises). I don't know.

I'm stuck in this awful ambiguous middle ground emotionally and I have no clue how to begin sorting through these feelings. Maybe I never will. In a year it will go down as a sour footnote in a fraught relationship, with no real clear answers. The feelings are valid, but fuck if I know what to do with them.

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I know agender, gender fluid, and gender queer all exist for me to use, but consider: gendershrug.

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wreckofawriter · 5 years

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Painted Books

Pairing: Young!Sirius Balck x Slytherin!reader

Word Count: 3,297 (I'm sorry I got carried away)

Warnings: Swearing, Underaged drinking, Mentions of alcohol abuse/addiction, Super long

Summary: After a prank Sirius ruins something extremely important to you, so you get pissed. While sneaking around he realizes why you were so pissed and tries to apologize

A/n: Omfg I havent been on tumblr for like a month I'm so sorry I was inactive, high school has sort of been kicking my ass. I hope this super long story makes up for it. I actually kinda like this one alot, hope you enjoy it.

Hatred filled you like air into a balloon. Your blood had been replaced by lava and it was steaming, white-hot through you. Those idiot Gryffindors were going to regret everything they have ever done in about 10 minutes you thought as you looked at your common room. Red and gold covered everything. Every couch, every chair, every table, every wall, and unfortunately for you, every book and paper on the tables. You screeched loudly.

You had simply left for 30 minutes to eat dinner before returning to your homework and now, not only was the positions essay you had almost finished been ruined but so had your charms, Defence against the dark arts and herbology essays. Along with the seven books for those classes you had bought at the begging of the year. There was no way that you would be able to clean the paint off, it was surely enchanted and now you would have to stay up all night finishing essays that would never be even half of the quality the originals were.

As the rest of the Slytherin house began to clean up the mess you had ideas of making a new one. And not of their common room but of Sirius Black's face.

You snatched your soggy papers and books off of the table and stormed out of the room. The second you saw him your anger returned like a boiling title wave. He had just ruined all of your work from the past week and now he was laughing throwing his head back as his shiny teeth flashed and his glistening black hair fell away from his precise jawline and cheekbones. You walked straight up to him and before he could even look at you, you grabbed the collar of his shirt and threw him against the wall holding him there. As you did you heard many people utter gasps of surprise and James yell something but you were defened by wrath. His eyes widened in surprise then relaxed as you saw your small frame.

“You think this is funny?” You yelled holding your paint-splattered papers and books up for him to see.

“I do find it quite amusing.” He answered with a smirk.

You screeched again, shoving your fist upward effectively throwing him back against the wall and jabbing him in the throat. You may be small but you were far from weak.

“Look if you wanted to throw me against the wall you could have just asked.” He winked, his voice coming out raspy from his throat being half closed by your hand.

“You absolute piece of shit!” you screamed, “You just ruined all of my work from this whole fucking week! I'm going to fail because of you!”

“You could just sleep with the professor again.” He sneered Your eyes widened in shock, it had been a year since the rumor of you sleeping with a teacher had ruined your social life and here was this high and mighty asshole, who had slept with half the school bringing it up again. You had had enough. You brought your knee up and as it connected with his crotch you dropped his collar and he tumbled to the ground with a scream.

“You say anything like that again I will break your nose.” You hissed down at him, throwing your ruined essays and books at him. With that, you turned on your heel and left pushing past the group of students that had gathered to watch. Before you could exit the scene a hand grabbed your wrist.

“What the hell was that for? It was just a stupid prank!” James yelled as you snatched your hand from his grasp.

“It wasn't just the prank asshole.” You growled glaring up at him.

And that was the truth it wasn't just the prank. It wasn't your homework being ruined, hell it wasn't even the fact he accused you of sleeping with a professor. All of those things were insignificant to the real problem. He had ruined your books. No, you’re not some Ravenclaw who obsessed over books, and it's not like they were signed by the author either they were simply books. But not to you. To you, they were the extra hours you worked at a stupid coffee shop. They were the late nights and early mornings you had forced yourself in to. They were the reward you got for getting stared at by men twice your age because of the stupid tiny skirt that was somehow considered as a uniform. Hell, you worked all fucking summer. Your whole summer was just dumped in paint by some pretentious brat and his even more pretentious friends.

When you reached the Slytherin common room you were close to tears and when you entered you saw the one thing that could cheer you up. Kathy. Kathy was your best friend, she was also one of your few friends, I mean you were a Slytherin half-blood, you were no Lily Evans. She was also Slytherin and was the good cop to your bad cop attitude. When she saw you she rushed you upstairs as you explained what happened.

Sirius, Remus, and Peter crept quietly (not so quietly) through the halls under the famous invisibility cloak. James stood beside them his head-boy badge shining in the light of his wand.

“Shut up Wormtail,” James scolded, “I think I hear someone.”

They all stopped and listened. With the shuffling noises silenced they could hear something. Laughter drifted through the halls. Soon muffled voices could be heard from some hidden place.

“I think they're in the kitchen,” Remus whispered.

“I hope they’re Slytherin.” James giggled as they approached the hidden door to the kitchen. James poked the bowl of fruit, hitting the apple once and the orange twice. The door swung open into the first layer of the kitchens. They shuffled in James taking the lead they were about to continue through the next doorway when Sirius heard a voice that made him jump.

“Wait!” his whispers called to his friend.

“What?” James whispered back.

“That's Y/n,” Sirius explained.

“Hell yeah this is going to be fun,” James smiled wide happy to catch you out of bed. “Finally get the bitch back.” He began to walk toward the second room in the kitchen when Sirius stepped out from beneath the cloak and grabbed his shoulder.

“Just let me see what she's doing.” He asked.

James’s eyebrows scrunched together in confusion he opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted.

“Please.” Sirius begged his friend, “Then we can bust her.”

“Fine” he muttered

Remus handed Sirius the invisibility cloak sighing, “This better be quick.” disapprovingly

Sirius rolled his eyes throwing the cloak over him and walked into the next room what he saw made his jaw drop.

There you sat, on the kitchen floor in nothing but a deep green crop top and a pair of shimmery silver booty shorts. Your y/h/l y/h/c hair was cascading down your back like a waterfall that seemed to glow in the candlelight. Next to you sat a brunette girl in a hoodie and sweatpants that Sirius recognized as Kathy Underhill. In your right hand, you clutched a bottle of fire whiskey and in your left, you held a spoon filled with chocolate ice cream from the carton at your feet.

“You know everryboddy thiks that imma stuck up bish now right?” You slurred, clearly drunk.

“I'm sure they don't,” Kathy said clearly sober.

“Oooohhh yeahhu they do.” You continued. “They’re all wike look at that tempershmental bitch who cants take a joke, wow somebody locks her up shes crazy, she fucked a professor for an and she is sooooo stuck up.”

“Well it's not true,” Kathy said grimacing as you took another swig from the bottle.

“SOO WHAT?” You shouted, your voice suddenly rising as you did from your crossed legs dropping you spoon on the ground, “What am I gonna say, I'm not shtuck up my mom is a alchohalic that blows her money on booze and I had to work all fucking summer in a shitty Cafe where middle-aged men stared up my skirt, to afford the books that the two ashholes you call “funny” you added very dramatic air quotes on the last word. “Ruined for a stupid prank ecaus they are stuck ups dicks who shove money up their asses for fun.”

Sirius’s eyes widened, he really shouldn't be listening to this conversation.

Tears began to fall from your eyes in large drops and Kathy sighed as you started to blabber nonsense.

“Alright sweetie, let's get you off your feet before your trip and kill yourself,” Kathy said rising toward you. You continued to sob as she took the bottle from your hands and helped you to the floor where you buried your head in her lap as she stroked your hair.

“Looks like imma just like my-” You hiccuped “- my bitch of a mother.” You groaned angrily.

“Hey honey, you will never be like that woman, I promise.” Kathy soothed, “I promise.”

“Your the best. I love you” You muttered as you began to drift into sleep.

“Love you too.” Kathy sighed.

Sirius was so caught up in the scene in front of him he almost forgot about his friends who were waiting for him. He quickly turned and walked back to the second room where he removed the cloak and looked at his three wide-eyed friends.

“Oh shit,” James muttered as he looked at Sirius who looked on the edge of a breakdown. Without another word, Sirius thrust the cloak into his friend's hands and bolted.

Of all the people he knew what it was like to hate your mother, to have nothing, to work your ass off for things that are ruined by someone who had so much more. Now he had caused that pain. He had ruined your books. He had destroyed your hard work. He had caused those tears that sprung from your eyes. He had become what he hated most.

Sirius may be fast but James was faster, and he caught the young boy’s wrist before he could escape to god knows where.

When Sirius world around James saw something very rare in his eyes, tears. They were glassy and full. One cascaded down his cheek leaving a shimmering river in its wake.

“Sirius it's not your fault.” He said looking at his friend quite concerned.

“I ruined her books.” he sniffed,

“We didn't know, it's not our fault her mom’s an alcoholic,” James explained.

Sirius glared at his friend ripping his hand from James's angrily, “Would you have cared?” he asked bitterly.

“Of course I would,” James said sincerely

“I don't think you would have,” Sirius seethed taking a step towards him. “You have always had everything, the parents, the money, the house, the smarts, the skills, the girlfriend. YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO HAVE NOTHING!” He yelled his face red with fury, “So you don't know what it's like to have the one thing you did have ripped from you.” He whispered stepping away from his friend taking a couple of steps turning and sprinting back to the common room.

The next morning Sirius woke to see a stack of books on the end of his bed with a note stuck on top.

“Your right, I'm a dick, now please go give that girl these books and essays before I feel even more like shit. P.S you owe Remus big time for the essays” Sirius lifted the note to see a stack of brand new books and on top four essays each with the name Y/n Y/l/n printed in your handwriting on top. He then glanced at the stack of paint covered books in the corner you had thrown at him, they were still there covered in paint. Confusion covered him He then remembered who he was friends with and smiled.

“James you idiotic genius.” He muttered looking at each perfectly crafted essay. His eyes were shining.

You woke to a less pretty sight. Your head throbbed as you sat up in your bed groaning, you looked at the clock, you still had an hour till your first class but you were too hungry to pass up breakfast, even with your head about to explode. You got up stretched moaning at the pounding in your head and changed into your robes. You headed down to the grand hall after downing five Advils.

When you arrived you saw Kathy chatting with a few other girls you knew. You sat down next to her grabbing the pot of coffee of the table and dumping it into your cup as Kathy greeted you.

“Damn Y/n you look like shit.” a girl named Emma said.

“I feel like shit too.” You answered as you took a massive swig of the coffee.

“You stay up late finishing your essays?” Another girl asked.

You groaned throwing your aching head onto the table as the essays that you had forgotten about reentered your half-awake mind.

“I swear next time I see one of those four assholes I'm gonna put them six feet under.” Kathy hissed.

As if on cue Sirius Black tapped your shoulder. You spun around and were about to speak when Kathy rose, “I think she's seen enough of you Black.” she said sternly.

“Look I know I was I dick I just want to apologize,” Sirius mumbled seeming very uncomfortable as all the girls at the table glared him down.

“She doesn't need your fake apologizes, she’s had enough for a lifetime,” Kathy growled.

“It’s fine Kath.” You sighed, “I'm way too hungover to deal with him asking all day anyway.” You grumbled quietly to her.

She huffed and sat down glaring the boy down as she retracted to her seat.

You looked up at him waiting.

Sirius flashed bright red, an unusual sight, “Oh um I thought I could talk to you in private.” he asked his voice fading in the last words as he scuffed the ground with his feet.

You sighed, “If this is another prank Black I will break you back.”

“No no no I swear it's not.” He said hurriedly.

You groaned standing from the ground and following him out of the hall, still feeling like shit.

“Look, before you break my back can you let me finish what I’m saying?” He asked nervously, You had never seen the boy so nervous.

“Depends on what you say.” You answered narrowing your eyes.

“Alright then here goes,” He sighed “So me and the rest of us were with James last night and we umm heard you and Kathy, and I just-” He was cut off by a fist hitting his jaw.

“YOU ASSHOLE!” You yelled as you realized what he must have heard. Anger once again overrode your systems and you glared at the boy in front of you, “I swear to Merlin I'm gonna drive my-”

He slapped his hand over your mouth muffling your shouts. “Please just listen,” He begged, “Please.” when you looked at him you saw something you had never seen on his face before, desperation. This made you stop nodding as he slowly removed his hand from your mouth. Today was full of new experiences.

“Look I just wanted to say I'm really sorry for ruining your books and that I was a dick and well here.” He said as he reached into his bag and took out a bundle of books and papers.

You gasped when you saw the papers were essays, in your handwriting but much better than you ever could have written, and the books were all of the ones that had been ruined in paint except they were all hardcover and pristine as if they were bought last night.

“How did you….??” Your voice trailed off as you scanned the papers and books.

“My friends may be idiots but they’re geniuses.” He chuckled nervously.

Your amazement was replaced by rage (again) when you realized what was happening and anger flashed in your eyes, “I don't want your pity, Black.” You seethed handing his books back.

“No no no, it's not pity please.” He said as you turned to go.

“What is it then?” you glowered.

“It’s empathy ok? I know what it's like to have an asshole for a mom who never did anything for you ok? I know what it's like to have nothing. I know.”

You stared at him confused, what did a pureblooded rich kid know about that?

“Look my mom kicked me out last year, I mean not out of the house but out of the family. She disowned me and I get it, it sucks. I just got lucky to have amazing friends like James whose parents are super cool.” He sighed handing you the books back, “I was a dick, I’m really truly sorry.”

Your mouth hung open eyes wide. How had you never know this? You knew his brother and him didn't exactly get along but you never knew anything like that had happened to him. And then you did the last thing you expected you would ever do. You took two steps forward and hugged him. Dropping the books and papers on the floor, you wrapped your hands around his waist and buried your head in his chest. At first, he was surprised but it only took him a second to react and he wrapped one arm around your waist to the small of your back and his other around your shoulder resting his hand on the back of your head and pulling you closer to him.

You noticed he smelt of mint and smoke as you let your tears fall from your eyes, soaking his robes.

He buried his head into your soft y/h/c locks and he smelt pomegranate and ginger with the slight tinge of vanilla linger there. His eyes filled with tears and he squeezed them shut as he felt your body shake with sobs. You don’t know how long you stayed there but you wished to forever. When you did pull away your eyes were puffy and red as were his. You were about to turn to pick up the books and papers that were scattered on the ground when Sirius spoke.

“Hey Y/n one more thing.” He said.

“Wha-” his lips collided on yours and it was your turn to be shocked. After a second you melted into the kiss and leaned back into his minty scent as you felt his toung run along your lower lip, you tipped your chin upward giving him better access to your mouth. As his hand found the side of your cheek and yours found his hair. You pulled away after a few seconds later gasping for air.

You looked up at him cheeks flaming red, “Sorry I pushed you into the wall” You paused, “And kneed you… and punched you in the face”

“You could make it up to me by got to Hogsmeade with me this weekend.” He suggested voice barely above a whisper as he stroked your cheek.

“Sound good.” You giggled just then you glanced at your watch. “Shit!” You yelled quickly gathering you new books and essays from the ground. “I've got to get to Herbology!” you turned, turned back placed a quick kiss on Sirius' cheek, “I'll see you later.” You said before dashing out the doors onto the grounds. As he watched you go he touched his flaming cheek with his hand. A few seconds later James walks up next to him.

“She a little less pissed?” he asked nervously.

“You have no idea how much I owe you right now.”

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emeraldbabygirl · 4 years

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Vanner reaction to you moaning/liking it when they spank you as a punishment

Because 1. I’ve been wanting to post a Vanner reaction for awhile 2. I feel like posting a lot today and 3. it’s Vanner, hello sexy daddies uwu also there’s no Vanner content and I’m hoping with my writing more people will find them and write for them. Just like Enoi, Argon and Great Guys uwu and I’m a whore anyway

Hyesung: Hyesung had you bent over his lap with your panties down and as his hand made contact with your ass you let out a soft moan. “Baby, this is a punishment, you’re not supposed to like it.”

Yeongkwang: after you had been a brat all day in front of the other boys Yeongkwang didn’t even wait til they had left the driveway before he pushed your body up against the door. He pulled your shorts down and applied two quick smacks to each cheek. You shrieked at the feeling and giggled. “You’re really into this? Good to know.” Yeongkwang said

Gon: you were tied up on his bed with your ass in the air and he was standing behind you. After he spanked you across your ass you let out a loud moan. “since you like it so much maybe I should spank you harder.” He said moving his hand down to finger your wet pussy

Taehwan: Taehwan had you on your knees with your arms up in the air. His large hand came across your ass and you flinched. “you know the rules Princess. But if you’re gonna like it so much,” he said grabbing a chunk of your hair and pulling on it, “maybe I should find you another punishment.”

Ahxian: Ahxian didn’t care that the boys were over, you were disobeying his rules and he wasn’t having any of it. So he grabbed your wrists and hauled you over his lap before pulling your skirt up. “Lift your ass up and spread your legs.” you did as he said but your face turned a bright red as Gon had a perfect view of your pussy. Ahxian’s hand came down on your clit and you screamed, “oh fuck harder Daddy!” You cried. “Harder? You want harder? Alright Kitten.” he laid three quick swats across your clit and you were a shaking horny mess. “Yes Daddy.”

I have these gifs in my camera roll but they wouldn’t load when I placed them so I had to go back and find them again. I need to learn how to make gifs because I need Great Guys, Argon, Vanner and ENOi gifs for my reactions uwu. But I don’t know how so I just use Tumblr to make them and although that way is shitty quality it works. But gifs for these groups don’t exist on tumblr so I have to find videos and take clips from that uwu

#vanner #gon #taehwan #yeongkwang #ahxian #hyesung #vanner smut #vanner reactions #kpop smut #kpop reactions #smut #smut reactions

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markantonys · 5 years

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basic gif tutorial (photoshop cs5)

today i’ll be showing you how to make this gif!

note: i will not be covering coloring in this tutorial because i personally tend to use psds that other tumblr users have created and shared (this psd pack is by far my favorite, i use it for 90% of my gifs - just remember to check the uploader’s terms of use before downloading psds for your own use to make sure it’s okay!) rather than doing my own coloring. if you want to make a really nice looking gifset you MUST add coloring to it - i would never upload this gif completely uncolored like this, i only left it out in this instance because it’s not part of the tutorial.

there are loads of great coloring tutorials out there by people who are better at it than i am, but the rest of the gifmaking process is shown below! i might have overexplained some stuff, so hopefully if you’ve never made a gif in your life, this tutorial will be just as helpful to you as to an experienced gifmaker who’s just curious about some of the settings i use

now, first thing’s first: you need a high quality video clip to gif from. the higher quality the video, the higher quality the gif. you can make do with lower res videos if you absolutely have to (god knows i do when i’m giffing matteo martari in obscure italian tv shows that are only available as shitty streams for people outside italy lmao), but try to find an hd version if at all possible.

some people torrent or download full episodes of shows in high quality, but personally, i find the easiest method is to use the xbox windows app to record my computer screen while i’m playing a video on netflix, youtube, etc. (i’m not familiar with macs, so mac users, you’ll have to poke around on your own to see if there’s a similar screen recording program available for you). this way i can just get the brief little clip that i want to gif rather than having to save an entire episode on my computer and take up space.

you’ve got your clip (the one i’m using in this tutorial was recorded from netflix) so on to business! some people use a screencapping method to gif, but i have never done that and i don’t know how it works, so i’m just going to walk you through the method i’ve always used. i don’t know if it’s more or less efficient than the screencapping method, but it works great for me.

make sure to save your work as you’re going because photoshop can crash OFTEN (esp if you have a lower powered laptop) and there’s nothing more frustrating than getting to the final step of a gif and losing all your work because photoshop crashed and you hadn’t been saving as you went along.

1. open photoshop (i’m using version cs5 in this tutorial, so if you have a different version, some steps might be slightly different idk). go to file -> import -> video frames to layers.

2. browse through your computer to find the video clip you want to gif from. click on it and hit “load.” you will be brought to this screen:

in the “range to import” box, make sure to select “selected range only” rather than “from beginning to end.” this will allow you to just highlight a specific portion of the clip to turn into a gif. do NOT click the “limit to every [x] frames” box, this will auto delete one frame per whatever number of frames and it will make your gif look choppy rather than nice and smooth.

3. find the specific part of the clip you want to turn into a gif. while holding down the shift key, click the arrows in the bottom right until you’ve reached the end of what you want to gif (the little dark portion to the left of the video cursor is the selected part that will become a gif). then click OK

4. now we have our gif! it’s not pictured here, but do make sure to delete extra frames on the beginning and end if you overshot the portion you meant to select in the previous step. i can’t tell you how many times i’ve seen gifs where the shot right before or after the intended shot flashes up just for one frame at the beginning or end of the gif because the gifmaker forgot to make sure they didn’t have extraneous frames in there.

5. this next part is, i think, an extra step that people who gif using the screencap method don’t have to deal with, but it’s really just a minor little hassle so don’t worry. it’s not always the case, but depending on the video you’re using for the gif, there may be duplicate frames in there. i’m going to make a gif of my gif tutorial to show you what i mean:

you see how every few frames, the gif stops moving because there’s two or three frames in a row that are all the same? you MUST delete these duplicate frames or else your gif will have weird laggy spots. so yeah, you have to click through every single frame to delete the extras. it’s a pain, but once you get the hang of it you can go really fast through it and it only takes a minute or two.

6. now you’ve got your frames all set, so the next thing to do is cropping. select this tool:

with this tool selected, click and drag to select the part you want to keep. everything outside the box will be cropped out. even if your video doesn’t have black bars at the top, i always trim a little bit off all 4 sides just to be safe.

now go to image -> crop, and voila! the part outside the box will now be gone

7. next up is resizing. here i’ll tell you my typical gif dimensions and show examples from other sets i’ve made. the way it works on tumblr is that gifs MUST be a certain width or else they’ll look blurry, but height you can play around with (as long as the height is consistent for all the gifs - if you have 2 gifs next to each other and one is 200px in height and the other is only 150, tumblr will try to autosize them to be the same height and it’ll make the gifs look all wonky or cropped)

large gif to go across the whole post: MUST be 540px in width, height doesn’t matter. i use a wide variety of heights for 1 gif across sets depending on how many are in the set, if i want more square or more narrow gifs, etc, so just play around and decide what you like best (pictured: 540x325)

2 gifs across: MUST be 268px in width. again, height doesn’t matter, but i’ll tell you the heights i usually use. for 4-gif sets (2 by 2) i usually make the height 325, 300, or occasionally 280 depending on whether i want the gifs longer rectangles or closer to squares (pictured: 268x325)

for 6-gif sets (2 by 3) i do 200px height, for 8-gif sets (2 by 4) i do 180px height, and for 10-gif sets (2 by 5) i do 160px height (pictured: 268x180 from an 8-gif set)

but again, these are just my personal preferences so feel free to mess around on your own! just remember that width must ALWAYS be 268, no flexibility there

3 gifs across: MUST be 177 or 178px in width. technically, tumblr’s dimensions make it so that in a 3 across set, the left and right gifs should be 177px in width while the middle gif should be 178 - i really doubt 1 pixel makes that much of a different in quality, but i usually follow this rule just to be safe. i don’t often make 3 across gifsets, so i don’t have any standard heights that i use. this gif here is 177x250 and is from a 9-gif (3 by 3) set

right now i’m going to make my tutorial gif 268x180 just because those are the dimensions i find myself using most often. go to image -> image size (or ctrl + alt + i). in the dialogue box, type in one of your new dimensions - i have to do the 180 height for this one because if i make it 268 width, the height will be too small

i never touch the settings at the bottom here so idk what they are, but make sure “constrain proportions” is checked off because otherwise, only one of the dimensions will change in size and the gif will get all stretched and wonky-looking

8. crop again! as you can see above, the new width of my gif is 363px, but i want it to be 268. go to image -> canvas size (ctrl + alt + c). change the unit to pixels and type in the new value for whichever dimension you want to crop (i’m cropping the width, but if you resized the width in the previous step and the height is too big, that’s what you have to crop here)

9. now that our frames and dimensions are all correct, we’re on to the final steps. first, change the gif speed. select all the frames, click on the little arrow next to the frame speed on any frame, and this little menu will come up. select “other” and type in 0.05 or 0.06, whichever you prefer. typically i do 0.06 as i find 0.05 slightly too fast, but i’ve seen other tutorials where the person said they think 0.05 is better, so it’s really up to personal preference.

10. convert to timeline animation (this little button in the bottom right of the frames bar)

11. select all the layers on the far right panel, then do layer -> smart objects -> convert to smart object. now all the frames will be condensed into one layer, which makes coloring and sharpening easier. you MUST convert to timeline animation before converting your layers to smart objects, otherwise it won’t work

once the layers are all one smart object, it’s also easier to reposition the gif - i’m going to click right on the canvas and drag the layer so francesco is more centered, and because it’s all one smart object, this will automatically move every other frame of the gif as well (unlike in frame animation when moving one layer only affects that one frame)

12. now we’re going to sharpen it. filter -> sharpen -> smart sharpen. these are the smart sharpen settings i use. some people go fancy by oversharpening, then adding a layer of blur and making the blur layer 50% opacity or so, and there are plenty of tutorials for that out there if you want to try it, but i prefer to keep it simple and you can’t go wrong with these smart sharpen settings:

13. at this point you want to add all your coloring layers, but like i said, i’m not doing coloring in this tutorial, so we’ll skip that step. if you have a psd you want to use for coloring, add it now, or play around with coloring layers on your own. if you’re putting text/captions on your gif, you want to do it now too. (i’d be happy to make a separate captions tutorial if anyone wants one, but i'll leave it out of this one so we can stick to the giffing basics)

14. save the gif. go to file -> save for web and devices (alt + ctrl + shift + s). these are the settings i use:

watch out for 3 things:

1) make sure to change looping options in the bottom right from “once” to “forever”

2) the file size (circled in blue). tumblr’s max file size is 3MB update 2020: tumblr max is 10MB. if a gif is 3MB 10 MB or more, it won’t move when you post it on tumblr. we’re in luck here because this is a small gif with relatively few frames, so we’re well under the limit. if you’re over the limit, don’t panic! there are several ways you can fix it which i’ll explain in a second

3) play around with lossy (circled in red). this is also a way you can decrease the file size. the higher the lossy, the smaller the file size. i vaguely remember seeing a tutorial throw around a range of 2-20 for lossy and if you go outside that it starts looking bad - my go to is 10, i don’t know why, but it’s just a habit by now and i like how it looks. however, for big 540px width gifts, my go to is 16 because those gifs will obviously have much bigger file sizes than small gifs. fiddling around with lossy is a great trick to decrease file size without having to delete too many frames, but it can only get you so far and if your gif is seriously over the 3MB limit, you’re gonna have to delete frames

update 2020: because of tumblr altering some formatting and the way gifs display on the site, adding lossy now makes gifs look too blurry. so these days i always do 0 lossy on my gifs! if the filesize is too big, the only way to make it smaller without sacrificing quality is to delete frames.

15. this brings us to the last step. go to file -> open and select your new gif wherever you’ve saved it. you’ll see that it’s now in frame animation again. this is good because a) it allows you to easily delete frames if you need to decrease the size and b) when saving from timeline animation, photoshop automatically slows the gif down, so you’ll have to open the final gif and readjust the frame speed.

you remember we originally set the gif to go at 0.06 seconds, but now here it is at 0.07, which will look too slow. so just click “other” and type 0.06 seconds, save the gif with the exact same settings, overwrite the old version of the gif, and voila! you’re good to go!

i hope this tutorial was helpful, feel free to shoot me an ask if there’s any step of the process you want more clarification on!

#gif tutorial #photoshop tutorial #photoshop #tutorial #i know this looks like a lot of steps but that's just bc i really overexplained stuff lmao #and once you've gotten the hang of the process it goes really fast!#for me the longest part of the process is a) just deciding what shots to include in my gifset in the first place and b) coloring #the actual creation of one gif rarely takes me more than 10 mins

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i made my first basics post on nov 23 2016 and current me doesnt even know that innocent bitch anymore.. though she made some points

i won’t be repeating myself from before unless it’s to clear up somethin so here we go class

there’s no simple way to this. this relies on so many things such as post quality, interaction, active posting, and personality. if u got a shit personality, u’ll only be in this town for a month or so before getting kicked out in some way.

make friends. yes, it’s easier said than done, but u gotta. reply to people’s posts, send asks, ask for collabs, make jokes, etc. etc. it helps to hang out w people who have similar aesthetics or interests as you! ur just gonna publicly clown yourself if u just hang out w people who have 0 commonalities w u...

also posts? POST. preferably only sims-related stuff. many people, including me, avoid blogs that are mixture of irrelevant fandoms or are super personal. make a sideblog or a twitter to put that stuff in. yeah, its fine to post some personal updates here and there but... have mercy

this ties in with your posts getting attention. everyone starts off rough and getting lucky with a single like or even a reblog. it may take some people longer to get through, but you’ll make it if you try hard enough. don’t get easily disheartened!

this is just a reality check everyone needs entering this community, just about ANY community. at some point, you’ll most likely get some form of anon hate in your inbox or on simsecret. don’t take it seriously. laugh it off. make some jokes about it. clown them. key point is that there is a difference between a criticism and just plain rudeness.

within the past year, tumblr has done goofed up bad and has an automated system that flags posts that they believe is “sensitive content”. 99% of the time it isn’t so you gotta appeal it. sometimes, if you’re lucky, it’ll show an appeal button for you on the posts. if not, you can follow this method to appeal. if that doesn’t work, well, might as well just repost it.

most of the things that trigger the system are warmer tones (thinking its skin). i haven’t really noticed what else triggers it but i don’t even think tumblr staff knows that.

there’s been an uprising of patreon creators, esp in the ts4 community, and many use this as a way to earn some money for their work. may it be early releases (most popular), exclusive cc (which you shouldn’t do. it’s shitty), wips, benefits, etc. etc. it’s basically a fancier version of a donation box.

a lot of patreon creators do exclusive cc which is quite frustrating, esp for people who 1. do not have extra cash to spend on two files of cc 2. are literal children and can’t pay.

support who you want and know who you are supporting. don’t waste your money.

i’m answering this as someone who creates for ts4. download sims4studio and blender (3d program - covers just about everything for ts4). you won’t really need anything else (besides, of course, photo editing programs) until you go on the deep end of 3d meshing. watch youtube videos. read tutorials (and resource tags). go wild with what you wanna do. figure out which area you wanna go ham in. poses, recolors, retextures, new meshes, building, decorating, etc.

if you’ve been following me for the past couple of months, you know the general jist of this. legally, according to ea’s TOS, anyone is allowed to do whatever with someone’s UGC (cc) even without notifying them. this is when it gets a little crazy.

simblr has the reputation of having rigorous TOUs where you cannot edit at all (or you can with special permission). understandable, it’s just a respect of each others’ rules. people then go to the next step to copyright their cc, which isn’t truly legally correct. i’m no lawyer, but once you put your shit into the .package format (dedicated format for sims content [EA ownership]) then it’s a free for all.

here on tumblr, people can submit DMCAs and take down your posts and give you strikes to your account (three [uncontested] strikes and you’re out within an 18-month period). for example, marigold (sims4marigold) sent me 2 DMCAs over 3 of my posts that recolored/retextured their cc. with my cc respectfully going along their TOU (reminder: this is all just a respect thing), I submitted a counter claim through support (follow the steps it shows > if it doesn’t show, choose the “other” option) and explained how the DMCA was false.

you will then go through a ridiculous process that will take months. you will need to submit personal information to properly submit a counter, so be wary of that. after that is processed and you agree to all the terms, you will go through a 10-business day process of waiting to see if the DMCA sender rebuts it. typically, such as in my case, they did not so my content was restored after the wait.

if you were truly falsely DMCA’d, this will be a tedious process and annoying, but it’s worth it. contest to all of them and remove those strikes so your account is not terminated permanently.

and that bout does it! those were the tips i could think of that would benefit newbies in the community and hopefully helped anyone else who was a little confused by certain things. if you have any further questions, please go right ahead and ask!

#simblr #simblr tips #there are prob grammar mistakes in here but it should b fine enough to read iosgnsioedsfd #feel free to reblog!

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I haven’t really watched movies in 2018, not good ones-- things got kinda all messed up in that last half of 2018, but I should try to make a year-end list anyways since that’s a thing I think is a good exercise. But I missed all the big adult movies-- Cold War, Beale Street, You Were Never Really Here, First Reformed, Sister Brothers, Eighth Grade, Zama, the Favourite or Roma-- boy, I have a lot to catch up on. I might end up having a really great January, I guess. Except that Star is Born-- I’m pretty good not having seen that. No thanks, there.

(The last really great movie I saw was I finally watched Personal Shopper which I thought was terrific, I really like Assayas a lot, but that’s a 2017 movie. Or the first great movie I saw last year was Phantom Thread, but again technically a 2017 movie).

Anyways, here’s what I end up with, with the dregs that are left (though Tumblr is saying one of the movie I saw in 2018 posts is porno according to their advanced filter technology, and I can’t see what it is, so my memory is imperfect)(my favorite movie of 2018 was SSNI-355 Student Nurses Are Gang Banged Together ~ We Were Fucked By Perverted Doctors At A BBQ Party, and I don’t know why Tumblr would have a problem with me saying that):

10. Mission Impossible: Fallout-- After the “oh wow” of it all wears off, I think I like these movies for the reason people who sniff about them hate them-- they don’t have a screenplay that got worked on all that much. They just had 30 pages of a treatment, and then it was time to film so they could hit their relase date-- and it doesn’t really fucking matter because they hired the right people and they were making the right kinda movie for that. The stuff of this kind of entertainment isn’t that complicated and it’s not necessarily helped by overthinking it. There’s a girl who the hero wants to be with but can’t be with-- there’s a bad guy, and the bad guy’s cooler henchman-- there’s a femme fatale and masks and chases and double-crosses within doublecrosses. The things that really matter for these movies-- cool, velocity, glamour, impact-- are so direct and simple and to my mind, wonderful, wonderfully reptile-brain. “What if they hired some poindexter to spray false profundity all over it” is just not an interesting question to ask about them to me-- they've done that-- it was called the Dark Knight-- I don’t give a shit about that movie, by comparison. I’d rather watch this. It’s more fun. It feels more honest.

9. The Night is Short, Walk on Girl-- one of the worst character types in anime (scummy sexless guy who we’re supposed to root for, despite his personality) slightly sours this otherwise effervescent ode to drinking and carousing and the nighttime. Visually woozy, and just... I’ve had good times at night, back when I had good times, so I like that they made a cartoon where that’s the premise, that certain kinds of things can only happen at night. It’s a magical realist take on the One Crazy Night genre which is a genre I’m fond of. The best one, Scorsese’s After Hours, it’s all happening cause the guy wants to get laid and not be stuck in his daily grind, and then things go wrong. It’s simple and clean. This one has some of that quality to it, that simplicity, at least in the opening stretch which is the most winning...

8. The Zen Diaries Of Garry Shandling-- I liked Garry Shandling back when and had a lot of admiration for his TV work, so I enjoyed this documentary about him. It probably smoothed over a lot of rough edges, but the affection to it was nice, understandable. But more, it was just that ... just hearing a guy who wanted to push himself a certain way’s always interesting. I’m probably not one of those guys! It’s probably a relief not to be one of those guys. But it’s just interesting, hearing someone articulate all that and push for a personal vision of how he had to do what he did, at least for me.

7. Isle of Dogs-- the internet discussion around this movie was a bummer, but I just thought it was a really cool visit into Wes Anderson World. The drums; the scene between Chief and the girl dog; there’s a Youtube video about the amount of work that went into stop-motion sushi that’s pretty jaw-dropping. Sure, it’s always a wallow in style, but Anderson’s always got a heart-on-his-sleeve sadness shot through his stuff that I look forward to just as much. He’s never just putting Futura font up there alone-- there’s always a melancholy that I think people are overly dismissive of.

6. Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse-- weeks later, my very high opinion of this really hasn’t diminished much. It’s just... It’s a creation of pop culture (a spiderman animated film-- which just has “Business Decision!” written all over it), using pop culture as part of its bones, as part of its toolset to make a larger case for the importance of pop culture and for an expansive and inclusive vision of what that culture can mean. It’s about an artist who sees a void when he tries to imagine himself in his world, finding a place for himself in a larger pop culture “universe” by daring to imagine that there could be “alternate worlds” than the one he’s stuck in. And it’s a stinging rebuke to the worst kinds of narrow fans who insist on a closed-off vision of what pop culture means and has to mean for its audience, at a time when that debate is very now. While it may not be narratively especially interesting, it’s just so thematically generous besides being visually just such a delight, and comedically a surprisingly entertaining piece. Spiderman is a crappy character, but I think that movie is really fucking a neat piece of work.

5. The Other Side of the Wind-- It’s kind of astonishing this movie exists in a watchable state. But also: it’s kind of good? Or interesting at least. There’s some stuff in it that’s just pointlessly mean and petty-- one character’s just about Welles trying to shit on Pauline Kael. But it’s got a sort of exhausted quality that I find really... I just found it interesting-- everything hip goes stale eventually, and seeing someone who’d gone stale but was still Orson Welles, try to process that angrily-- I’m not sure how else a movie like that could work, which wouldn’t be as distracted by the moment. It works here because so much time has passed, that you can read it in a way that maybe is more how it was meant to be read, perversely. I don’t know. It’s too weird not to rank. The Other Side of the Wind!!!

4. Paddington 2-- it’s just good! I don’t know-- Hugh Grant fucking kills; Brendan Gleeson’s great; Sally Hawkins! The first one’s o-kay, but the second one has scenes where they use the computer graphics to dazzle in more childlike ways that feels so much more fun to me than other CGI spectacle movies. The pop-up book sequence, in particular, I just thought was really something to watch. I saw some of it on an airplane and it stood out on a little airplane screen...

3. Death of Stalin-- just a mean, nasty, heartless movie, for the mean, nasty, heartless times we get to be alive for. The movie’s about a historically interesting period, but besides that, look, read the papers-- we’re a bad people, worse everyday, so seeing a movie about where that leads, what becomes of that, I don’t know, I thought that was pretty fun. Fuck hopepunk.

2. The Ballad of Buster Scruggs-- It’s not my favorite Coens, but it’s just got a bunch of what makes Coens stuff work in it. Done as simply as it is, you really get a clearer look at what makes their stuff work than usual. Especially because they just tell you flat-out in the last one-- “You know the story, but people can't get enough of them, like little children. Because, well, they connect the stories to themselves, I suppose, and we all love hearing about ourselves, so long as the people in the stories are us, but not us. Not us in the end, especially.” They present fools scampering around hiding from death, chasing foolish dreams, hiding from the bleakness of the world, and then death finds them, that bleakness finds them, a darkness awaits. And that’s their movies-- comedies and dramas. If there’s some songs, it’s a pretty good time. They’re my favorite directors going.

1. Support the Girls-- when I think about it, this movie about a breastaurant manager having a bad day is probably the best movie I saw this year, in terms of just... It was just the warmest movie towards people generally. Or well, not people-- women specifically. It’s a love-letter by Andrew Bujalski to working class black women (such a weird thing to write out!!) and just... Without being sugary hope-hope-rah-rah bullshit-- it didn’t end up on on some shitty Vox list of “things that make tumblr morons want to hug themselves” with Discworld and Harry Potter and Brooklyn 99. It’s admiring without sliding into glorifying, or over-sentimentalizing, or faking the underlying exhaustion of it all, how exhausting it all is. Regina Hall gives probably the most likable performance this year, though the Oscars seem almost certain to ignore it. It’s about characters keeping their dignity in an undignified world, in a system that's designed to rob them of that dignity as the basis of its commerce. And it just has the best ending-- one that the experience of seeing and feeling really kinda would beat me trying to describe it in words, the way you want from a movie (provided you feel what it’s trying to get you to feel, which perhaps is a big if). I think it’s a smarter movie than it lets on, but it doesn’t really matter as much as how much more empathetic a movie it is than anything else I can imagine being out there this year...

Worst Movie: look, I saw Sicario 2, but I knew what I was getting myself in for there. I hated Sicario 1, and I think everyone involved in those movies is fucking braindead. So I can’t pretend I was like “Oh no Sicario 2 how could you” because I knew. I knew. So for me, even though Sicario 2 is academically worse, mathematically the worst movie, I’m still going with Duncan Jones’s Mute, starring Paul Rudd and I don’t know who else, assholes, all assholes. Just the most unbearable shit-- hand-me-down visuals from Blade Runner, trying to bring life to some dopey rudderless story about toxic masculinity, but utterly failing to do so. Just a slog. A very unpleasant memory. It’s delusion that it was “saying something” about men and patriarchal violence, was almost as noxiously stupid as imagining it had anything interesting to say about the future or technology or just anything, anything at all. Just bad. Just a bad, unentertaining movie.

#year in review

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brightsmile · 7 years

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WOO WEE this is a long time coming & I should have done this sooner seeing as I have actually broken 100 followers and am now somewhere in the 120 range. Anyways! Better late than never, I’m gonna have a mushy thank you under the cut!

This is the first time I’ve ever done one of these so please excuse the mess. Anyways, when I first started fates I never had the intention of making a blog ( or three, for that matter. ) My history with RP blogs has been bad or nonexistent, so the thought of coming back to tumblr was out of the question. But I was bugged, and begged, and eventually roped into making a Soleil blog and honestly? I never expected to get past 20 followers. If I’m gonna continue on this blog it feels right and proper to give out thank you’s.

THE LOVES OF MY LIFE; those of you who have gotten me this far.

@daughterdusk / @inferioriity :: PERRIE YA FUCK. Thank you so much for being such a slut for the FE Fates boys, because without you I would have never realized how much I loved Soleil. And thank you, also! For being my main and only Ophelia, being constantly gay with me and coming up with all kinds of adorable content between them. This is short bcus we talk 24/7 but I love you you’re my big sis and never ever forget that.

@armsthriift :: Rey my darling dearest dad, you have done so much for me and I can’t ever repay you, tbh. Seeing you, such a quality, meme filled Laslow getting so excited over my first shitty promo, really validated me and gave me the courage to keep going. I never thought we’d be this close and I’m so SO glad we are! You make me smile with every piece of father daughter content you post, even if it isn’t directed at me, and I’m always excited to hear from you.

@achiingblood :: Glasses, you’re nuts and I love it. Honestly I was pretty scared to talk to you, and then Perrie and Rey bullied me into it and made that wild group chat. But I don’t regret it now; I love you and our group so so much, and your sporadic and excited yelling always makes me happy.

@nilmen0s :: ZERO!! You’re just as crazy as Glasses and it’s GREAT. I was scared to talk to you too, but now you’re like the collective group chat mother and it’s always fun to see you and Rey and Glasses fighting over us. jsgfgkj I probably know you the least out of our little group and that makes me really sad?? I want to learn more about you and get closer.

NOTICE ME SENPAI; those of you who I am mutuals with. I would love to talk to you all ooc some more !! You all are so insanely talented and your graphic skills slay me. Keep having fun! & also I apologize if I tag blogs that are run by the same mun I’m just going through my followers lol

sorry if i tagged you and you’re inactive, & i’m sorry if i didn’t tag you either i blurred over your url too fast or i can’t tell if you’re inactive or not aahh!! i love all of u too much to tell

#『 THE FELL DRAGON GRIMA TULS || ooc. 』#『 GOODIES || save. 』

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pluiethewolf · 7 years

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PATERSON

Recently I went to see Paterson with a friend and when I got home started writing a message to him about it which quite quickly became 1000 words long. It really struck a chord with me which I didn't necessarily notice while watching it.

For me the whole film is about people's personal passions and art, as well as the joys of life even when it's unexceptional. In fact I think the word 'even' doesn't fit what the film's doing, it doesn't feel like there's a hierarchy in it of what success means, that Paterson's life is good DESPITE being unexceptional. In a 'mainstream film' (i hate using phrases like that but it's an easy standin for 'films not like this') it would be about Paterson and/or his wife trying to hit the big time and the joys and difficulties that come from achieving or not achieving that. They would be special in their talent and ambition. But they're not. The film shows that through little girl's poems and the guy in the laundrette rapping and the barman's chess. Even the conversations on the bus are about passion and interest and enjoyment. The characters live in a town filled with the memories of people who 'made it big' by their art but they're ALL making art and living passionate lives. It reminds me of a really, really good show I saw called 'The Castle Builder' by Kid Carpet and Vic Llewelyn. It's all about people making amazing works of art in their free time. Not for money or fame or even sometimes to be seen by anyone else but just in order to make it. (That's a real simplification of what it's about but this is a fantastic review of it which gives a much better picture http://exeuntmagazine.com/reviews/review/).

In general I feel like the film wasn't just about people having their own art but through that about people having their own lives. Film's so often are about exceptionalism and encourage exceptionalism in us. There's some shitty motivational quote that I've seen about how we always let ourselves get away with much more than other people because we know the context and the motivations of our own actions and to me that's how we relate to the main characters most films (really a lot of fiction in any medium). We can support them doing things that would normally make us hate a character because we’ve been shown it in their context. It's an odd (but I think true) contradiction that in order to make the main character of a film more relatable to more people you have to make them more special, because everyone is special to themselves. I'm not talking about the idea of 'young people these days' having been told by their teachers and parents that they're unique and so have an inflated sense of their specialness. It's incontrovertible* that everyone has a clearer understanding of their own inner life than they do of anyone else's, and their vision of the world is formed around them. Movies reflect this. Either the main characters in films are incredibly talented/have some other personal quality which makes them stand out or they're an 'ordinary guy' thrust into a strange situation where they have to sort it out. If anything when the 'ordinary guy' is the main character it encourages exceptionalism even more: it doesn't matter that there's nothing that you can pinpoint which makes you amazing, you're the main character, you're John McClane, you're Will Smith in that film where he accidentally gets caught up in all the spy shit.

Paterson completely goes against this trend. It completely unpatronisingly asserts that everyone is special and makes it seem like something both completely obvious and beautifully original rather than an oft repeated cliche. There's a word - sonder- which means 'the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own' (it's made up but then again aren't all words?2) and I think Paterson really encapsulates that word. The friend I saw the film with talked about how great Paterson himself is as a character, his favourite character in recent films, and I agree with him that he's an amazing character but despite that he's hardly the main character. He doesn't do anything more extraordinary than anyone else. And we don't really get any more insight into his character than we do anyone else's. In fact for most of the film I found myself wondering what he was thinking, whether he was happy, even what kind of person he was beyond what we saw. When we were talking I mentioned that although it was 'quirky' and weird it felt more like real life than most other movies because stuff just happened. I think a lot of that comes from the lack of exposition, which also lead to the very loose narrative structure and the fact that Paterson isn't 'the main character'. Obviously he is; he's in the title (though after thinking about it I would argue the film is actually about the town rather than him), the film follows him around, we hear his thoughts/poems and see the world through his eyes, with the camera focusing on the coincidences he sees, time passing on his watch etc. BUT without the exposition we don't frame a narrative around him, when something happens we don't think 'oh that's bad for him because’ or 'YAY that's what he wanted', because there's no exposition to set up his objectives and fears. All the characters in it are people rather than pawns which either help or hinder his objectives. Yes, some of them may be played for laughs (for example the guy at the bus depot who seems to have all the problems of the world) but they are just people whose lives happen to be intersecting with Patterson's, and they never seem like a tool to further the 'plot' (a helpful side-effect of not really having much of one). One of the oddest points of the film for me is at the end where Patterson talks to the Japanese poet. I can't tell whether it's satirising the 'wise mystic Asian' trope or just repeating it. But what makes me feel like it's not JUST repeating it is it feels like the poet sees Paterson the same way as Paterson sees him. It feels like the poet has his own story, in which he talks to this strange bus driver in the town he poetically romanticises. None of the characters are 'fleshed out', we don't find out anyone's physiological motivations or anything like that, but this doesn't stop them from being real people to us, if anything it increases it. We're given a small glimpse into a much larger life that they live, much like those of the people we meet every day.

Earlier I said I think the film's more about the town of Paterson than the man but I think possibly they're the same thing, in more than just their names. He's a metaphor for the rest of the town, for most people as he just keeps doing his ordinary life and has this rich life which isn't what he is known for or defined by. He's not really lying when he says he's not a poet (at least in one way) because in the town most people will never be seen as their private passions, they're seen as their jobs. Even above I didn't refer to the guy who played chess as the chess-player or as the local celebrity enthusiast, but as the 'bar-man'. This is also shown in the fact that the only person who seems defined by their 'art' is Patterson's wife and in order for that to be the case her whole life has to be centralised around creativity and ambition (also possibly motioning to the fact that in our society you have to have the financial freedom and time in order to make this happen, which Laura has by being financially supported by Paterson). Like in the first line of the Maddy Costa article above, the general view is that 'To be obsessed with art, in whatever medium, without making it oneself is to live in a state of quiet disappointment at your own lack of facility and bravery'. I think Paterson is about a rebuttal to that view.c

THE CASTLE BUILDER (In which I argue back and forth with myself about ART) 

I've been thinking recently about The Castle Builder anyway. About people making 'art for art's sake'. I've been thinking about how wonderful the Internet is. I think of people making weird gifs and strange youtube videos (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FavUpD_IjVY) and fanfiction. Does the internet mean that people can make those passion projects which exist outside of money and fame, just as people always have, but that they can be out in the world as well, to be enjoyed and shared (and possibly ‘discovered’?). A fair amount of the media that I consume is created by people who want to make something cool and consumed by me for free. Is this the same as the 'everyday artists' in The Castle Builder (and Paterson)? Is this an alternative (dare I say subversive??) form of entertainment/art culture?

I mean the internet has been painted as a frontier for alternate lifestyles and cultures since its inception, but the cyber 'frontier' has undoubtedly been marketised and for the most part people's internet experiences are mediated by a small number of popular sites, almost all of which are run for profit (whether or not that's a good thing, pioneering anti-establishment spirit sacrificed for being accessible and usable by a much wider group of people, is a discussion for a different time). Art created online can now seem very separate from the ideal of creation untainted by commerce. People who use Twitter and Tumblr can sometimes seem more like 'content creators' making money for the platform than anything else. By gamifying entertainment with a sense of competition with followers and retweets and likes, it feels less like creation for creation's sake and more like something else, like another realm of labour (this is a good video on how game/film/tv consumption can be seen as labour - https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=quWtUnDA8Uk - which is even more the case when you feel pressure to create and maintain an online presence) . And with being a Youtube star now a valid way to become a celebrity it feels like more and more people are turning to it as a way to get famous and turning likes into money.

But what's the problem with that? Surely I shouldn't be complaining about people getting paid and recognised for what they make? The internet can still serve as a democratizing place where people have more choice in how to invest their cultural capital and so creates different stars, different artists get money for what they do. Thinking about it it kind of echoes the recent debate about theatre bloggers. If anyone didn't see it it started with this (https://www.thestage.co.uk/opinion/2016/matt-trueman-why-im-worried-about-the-decline-of-theatre-blogs/?utm_content=bufferc1b1b&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer) Matt Trueman article saying there weren't enough dissenting, independent blogging voices and responses (very good ones (okay admittedly the only ones I've read but that doesn't mean they're any less good) here: https://walkingwithheadphones.wordpress.com/2016/12/16/a-response-from-a-young-and-unpaid-critic-or-theatre-blogger-up-to-you/ and https://www.thestage.co.uk/opinion/2016/megan-vaughan-has-theatre-blogging-really-changed-or-is-it-us/) included talking about the financial strains of unpaid blogging, as well as feelings that people just aren't reading what they write. (also the talk of false nostalgia makes me wonder if all these boring philosophical conundrums are just coming from missing what felt like the refreshing innocence of WoW music videos to Jonathon Coulton songs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4Wy7gRGgeA). In the messages I receive from the world that I agree with there's a romanticisation of 'making art for the love of it' (I mean the romance is even in the name), but also full-throated defence of arts spending and funding. I'm not sure how these concepts sit with each other. Are they in opposition? And if they are I have no idea what side of the debate I fall on. Whose art deserves pay and whose doesn't? Does placing increased importance on people making art for themselves give further weight to only people with a lot of money being able to create, or does it encourage people who aren't rich or successful to see what they make as more important, or encourage people to make more? And I get to the point where I know I'm going in circles because there's no way of consolidating my beliefs within society’s current system (and this is the point that if I was saying this out loud I would start speaking in a funny voice because these are all things that I believe but it all seems a bit sincere and poe-faced so just assume my voice is now more nasal%), because in the current world (maybe all possible ones except for those populated only by art-egalitarian squid) some art will get funded and some will not and that will necessarily support a set of values, will give power to some people and groups and not to others.

I mean we've strayed very far from Patterson but I guess I've been thinking about things because I'm graduating soon and I want to make art and I have to make money but I'm not sure how I want those things to interact. Getting into a creative profession takes so much work and there's so many people also trying to do it that I find myself questioning not whether what I would make would be ‘good enough to be professional’ (I've seen enough bad 'professional' work not to think that) but whether it should be. Whether my art, or my voice would add to the vision of what I think the art/theatre world should be more like. I feel like the question that I should be asking myself isn’t ‘what is the point of art?’ or ‘why should I make art?’ because there are many, many possible good answers , but ‘why should people pay for my art?’. And that I’ve got much less of an idea on.

* I have a really clear mental image of this word being said in a really funny way in a film but can't place what it's from

2 specifically it's from The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows by John Koenig

cI could also write a whole other thing about how the two best films I've seen recently (this and Arrival) have both been thoughtfully hopeful and how much I love it but that's for another time

%My urge to do this, especially when saying words like 'capitalism' or 'heteronormative' reminds me of one of my favourite lines in Edinburgh this year, in 'Mouse' when Daniel Kitson said something along the lines of 'the greatest success of the patriarchy was in making the word seem ridiculous so that anyone who used it's arguments would become immediately invalid. Well not the greatest. The greatest was the systematic oppression of women but you know what I mean.'

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