I love Klaus Hargreeves so much. Sorry for making him suffer. 😭
Hey, I'm here again! Wanted to share some of my old drafts and here I am!
Trigger Warnings: This has a little bit mentions of violence, blood and death.
Summary: Klaus reminiscense Dave. He misses him, he misses him so much.
Word Count: 1,242 words.
Note: I posted this on AO3 as well, the link is at the end if you want to read it there.
Let Me Sleep All Night In Your Soul Kitchen
Pitter-patter.
He lays flat on his back on the living room couch. A cigaret between his fingers, humming to the slightly far away voice of 'The Doors' coming from his phone's speakers.
Their voice meddles with the voices of the ghosts around him. He can't quite understand the lyrics sometimes but he knows them by heart already, it is okay.
What is the voice of death around him to the voices in his head anyway?
I know that you can do it, Spook.
He falls so, so deep sometimes. In his head, in his memories. He gets lost and memories keep popping out and he can't stop them. Maybe he doesn't want to.
Pitter-patter.
A soft voice calling his name. A gentle hand caresses his cheek. Chapped lips pecking his own. Beautiful sea blue eyes looking at him like he is the most precious treasure in the world.
I am always right here, love.
He takes another drag, he inhales it until his lungs burns and lets it out.
A memory. A reminder.
He can still hear the gunshots and bombs landing. The gravel and mud under his boots. He can still feel the branches on his skin, scratching him. The feeling of blazing sun.
Pitter-patter.
The smell of blood and gunpowder. The blood of their fallen brothers. The smell of Dave's blood. The feeling of his blood on his hands, under his nails. The shouting, the screams. Screams of a man who lost something, his everything.
Dave? Dave! Stay with me! Medic! We need a medic!
He takes a last drag from his cigaret and puts it out on the ashtray. He opens his eyes and realizes with blurry eyes that he is crying. But he doesn't feel the heaviness, a need to cry. It is a silent cry that even he, himself, is surprised.
Pitter-patter.
He wipes his eyes and sits up. He looks around to take account of the ghosts lingering around.
They sprawled around mumbling curses. Walking around and leaving a trace of blood behind them which is wiped away after a moment. They cry and wail at him or just space out.
The dead nannies never left him alone since their childhood and he doesn't expect them to at this point. They always look disgusted with him and his siblings.
He puts his head to his hands and breaths for a moment. It is so fucking loud and he doesn't know what is real or not anymore.
Pitter-patter.
He lifts his head and looks outside from a window. It is raining. How he didn't realize it?
He gets up and makes his way to the window. He puts his hand to the glass and looks up. The sky is gray and full of clouds. It is raining like the heavens are crying for something that they lost.
Gloomy.
Yes, that's the word, gloomy. It makes him want to curl into himself and cry for eternity, like a lost child. Like the child inside he is.
Hey, don't be like that, love.
He turns around and walks to the courtyard, like he is in trance. He turns the doorknob and opens the door. A chilly and moist air slaps his face. He lets out a relieved sigh and steps outside with his bare feet.
He feels the wet and cold ground and earth. He walks until he is in the middle of the courtyard. His clothes get wet in seconds and he opens his arms, smiling to the sky.
He stops and waits. Closing his eyes he listens to the sounds rain makes.
Pitter-patter. Pitter-patter.
A strong wind shakes the trees and leaves scatter around.
What is in your beautiful head?
He twirls around suddenly. Moving instinctively, whatever his body wants. Whatever he wants. He jumps and lands on a puddle of water and splashes water everywhere.
Giggling to himself he runs and jumps around. Another puddle, another and another. Clothes and hair sticking to his skin.
He twirls around dancing to a tune that only he can hear. He steps and turns, like he did in that nightclub. Like they did.
He feels anger build inside of him suddenly. A yearning. A sudden urge to destroy something.
Unfair.
Feelings filling to the brim and he just can't take it anymore. It fills and fills and fills and fills and-
It pours out.
He lets out a choked out cry. And it gets out with so much force that his throat hurts.
He screams and shouts. To the sky, to ghosts, to his dead bastard of a father, to war, to himself, to everything.
To Dave.
His cries turn into loud, heartbreaking sobs and he falls to his knees. Clawing at the ground, soil under his nails. He punches the ground and hisses when his hand hurts. He curls into himself and falls to his side. Sobbing with an unbearable heartbreak.
His cold heart hurts and he misses. He misses so much. He misses his soldier boy so much. He misses his gentle and warm hands. He misses his voice.
He misses his eyes.
His hand finds the dog-tags and holds it tightly. His thumb caresses the name over and over again. A muscle memory. A habit.
His heart is heavy and he feels so numb to everything. Like he is a living corpse. An empty shell of a man who he used to be. Like the ghosts that haunt his nightmares.
Breathing was never that hard before and he just wants to disappear.
He feels the rain hitting his skin and he's oh so, so tired.
"Klaus?"
He almost missed the voice due to his thoughts and the rain hitting the ground. He lifts his head and looks at the source of the voice. His breath hitches and he can't fill his lungs with air. His head feels like cotton filled in it and his skin doesn't feel like his.
"Klaus? What is wrong?"
It takes a lot more time than he wants to admit to understand the question his brother asked him.
But he doesn't find it in him to form a sentence, a word.
And Ben understands. He always understands.
"Let's take you inside, hm? A bath, you love baths." He crouches down and holds his arm and helps him sit up.
Klaus blinks back the black spots forming in his vision and takes the hand Ben offers to him. And he realizes the moment he holds his hand that he is freezing. He is shaking. Tremors jerkes his body when he stands up, his knees almost giving out under him but Ben steadies him.
"It is okay. I am here. I am here." He whispers.
And Klaus knows, he knows that he is. But the void in his heart is never gonna get filled again. He needs to live with it even though it is hard and it leaves him breathless in its wake.
Even though he feels like he can't.
Everything's gonna be alright my love.
But he knows that he is not alone anymore. He can't fill it but maybe, just maybe he can make it bearable.
Maybe he just needs to learn.
That's it.
"I am here, Klaus."
He cries burying his face to his brother's shoulder on their way.
"I know." He says, whispers. He is not sure if Ben hears him but he says it anyway. "I know."
The squeeze on his shoulder is all the answer he needs.
-The End. (May have a continuation, who knows?)
I hope you enjoyed!
See you in another story! ❤️💜
You can read this on AO3 as well.
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A bend in space-time Season 2 - [Chapter 16: The crossroads of our lives]
[Chapter 16: The crossroads of our lives]
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(…) David is always speaking to me with complete honesty. About his feelings, about Brian, about his vision of the world. What he admits to himself, anyway. I know he stayed outside precisely to talk to me about this. But this time I'm certainly shaking more than I should.
"It wasn't very smart to take Brian's seat," I whisper almost to myself, and to be honest, David isn't really listening to me.
"He told me all sorts of things about the army, about the possibility of me enlisting, about what… might be happening in Southeast Asia in the next few years…"
He stretches out his oversized legs on the sidewalk.
"Probably an anti-militarist who preached against the war. The enlistment office is three doors down from Stadler's."
My eyes squint a little painfully.
"Is that your saying, or is it Brian's?"
He holds his breath for a moment, then lets it go. He'ss aware I know him well, by now.
"It's Brian's."
And before I'm tempted to hold back, I ask him:
"And what do ~you~ think?"
As a customer enters the hardware store and Brian's voice of greeting is heard in the background, he looks up at the sky in his turn - for quite a while - but I give him all the time he needs to talk.
"That my enlistment is not a question that can still be doubted".
"I was talking about the guy".
At my words, I see David's fingers tighten on the glass of his Coke bottle. He hadn't expected me to ask that, and he flinches in a way that might have made me smile if I hadn't been so sad now. Now that I can distinctly percieve the energy inside people, I can sense clearly the attraction that - he - will choose to ignore. And I clarify right away, to avoid any confusion that would disturb him even more:
"Do you think he was really a peacenik?"
"Oh," he sighs with relief. "I don't know about that."
Eventually, he brings the straw to his lips and drinks the entire contents in one gulp.
"I suppose peaceniks don't say they love you."
(…)
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I chose to insert an OC - Rin - into the plot of The Umbrella Academy, appearing almost only in deleted scenes. This fic is not a self-insert nor a OC-centric fic : Rin exists to flesh out the canon characters, and the fic is mostly focusing on Klaus. Please read the introduction for more details ♡
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