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twsted-garden-imagines · 11 months

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Third Years Finding Your Diary (Part 1/2)

I'm back, continuing my first post with the third years since it did so well on here (Thank you all so much for the love on it, btw ❤️).

A little note before I begin, the third years (and second years if this post and the next one do well on here too) will be split into two parts to keep me from getting too overwhelmed by writing for so many characters (my mistake for the first part haha 😅) .

This part will be including Trey, Cater, Leona and Vil. The remaining four third years will be in Part 2.

The same headcanon set for the first years can be accessed here, and the one for the remaining half of the third years can be found here once I get it posted (hopefully by the end of next week).

Headcanons are under the cut!

That should be all for now, and as always, I hope you enjoy!

With love, Daisy

Trey Clover -

- although this habit was much worse when he was younger than he is now, Trey sometimes misplaces his glasses

- with him being near-sighted as fuck without them, he'll have to have his face a few inches away from whatever it is he's trying to read

- (totally not Daisy projecting here, nope not at all)

- it doesn't help that the cover of the Alchemy textbook and your diary are almost the exact same color

- so after you left to go find materials to practice making the potion for an important group project for Crewel's class, he decided to take some notes based on the textbook passage about the potion you were both trying to make

- unfortunately, you were both in the laboratory at that time, meaning Trey had to take his glasses off

- when he tried to grab them from his pocket so he could read the textbook, they were nowhere to be found

- he ended up shrugging it off and grabbed the book closest to him to start reading it

- he grew more confused once he was able to make out something about a certain dim-witted duo from his dorm in your handwriting

- it wasn't until he stumbled across his own name that he realized his error

- unfortunately for him, you were right behind him holding his glasses in one hand and one of the tools you needed in the other

- "Hey, I think you dropped these. Also, is that my diary?"

- "..."

- cue him apologizing repeatedly and offering to make you your favorite dessert in order to have your forgiveness

Cater Diamond -

- Cater knew stepping foot into the Mostro Lounge one day for some amazing Magicam pics meant he'd be paying some kind of price....

- ... but he didn't expect to be asked by the Leech twins to find some piece of blackmail material on anyone of his choosing!

- he frantically tried to find anything, ANY embarrassing story that the twins didn't already know about his dorm mates, but of course, either they refused to willingly give him any information or they told him something the twins already knew

- thinking he was doomed, a glimmer of hope appeared in the form of a plain-looking book abandoned on a library table, no other belongings nearby indicating that someone was sitting at the table

- attempting to make it look like he was trying to find the owner, he discovers it's someone's diary

- Perfect! But whose is it?

- He flips to a random entry to find a whole treasure trove of information about the writer's admiration of a man by the name of "Hornton"

- Hornton? Why does that sound famil- Wait... this is the... oh no.... Oh no, it's the Prefe-

- "Well, well. Looks like this unfortunate soul was desperate in looking for a way to repay us, Floyd~"

- "Hehe, sure does! I'm surprised, Sea Bream! I didn't think YOU of all people would stoop so low as to snoop into someone else's diary!"

- "We were only kidding when we told you to find us some secret we didn't know, but it appears you gave us one anyway~"

- Shit...

Leona Kingscholar -

- It might not seem like it, but this lazy lion is more perceptive than meets the eye

- so it took him no time to notice you carry around this small notebook with you to pretty much every class

- It frustrated him since he's been wondering what it was, but never got around to asking you and whenever he got the energy to take a glance whenever he saw you writing in it, you always promptly slammed the book shut

- Seriously, what's so important to that herbivore to try to keep something from prying eyes?

- he finally got his chance one day during lunch after you were suddenly dragged away by Ace and Deuce, forcing you to leave your stuff with him in the greenhouse

- he opened the book to find your handwriting, a random entry talking about your change in feelings towards him

- "I don't understand how or why, but watching Leona at spelldrive practice on my way back to Ramshackle... I can never get that image of his overpowering motivation out of my head...."

- Wait, did he read that right?

- He doesn't immediately show it, but his constant rereading of that entry is enough to have his mind spinning until he hears a loud cough.

- "Uh... Leona? What are you doing with my diary?"

- Damn it, caught red-pawed.

Vil Schoenheit -

- Considering that his profession usually puts out a bit too much of his personal life out for everyone to see, Vil understands how important it is to have at least one thing to keep all to yourself.

- so he's not the type to go snooping into your personal things without your permission.

- Being tricked into reading personal things, on the other hand? Quite easy to do considering his dear vice housewarden.

- Your mistake was trusting Rook Hunt - of ALL people - to keep an eye on your things while you and Epel were dragged off by Ace and Deuce for who knows what chaotic endeavor.

- With Rook being Rook, it didn't take him long to find your diary and read it cover to cover.

- He then starts a conversation with his precious Roi du Poison about his findings, cleverly disguising them as beauty tips he'd randomly stumbled across.

- Vil goes along with it, not putting much thought into Rook's words until you and Epel return moment later.

- "Why am I not surprised that you read my diary? But did you REALLY have to do it with Vil in the room?"

- Despite his fury at his vice housewarden, Vil somehow maintained a calm composure while apologizing to you on behalf of both him and Rook, albeit still blushing a bit from the many compliments you'd written about him.

#twisted wonderland headcanons #twisted wonderland #twst #twst headcanons #roses #lion's tails #apple blossoms #trey clover #cater diamond #leona kingscholar #vil schoenheit #heartslabyul #savanaclaw #pomefiore

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dreaming-about-seireitei · 2 months

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Re: the 'talk about for hours meme' -- "2. Certain fictional characters : from books or anime, I can give you full essays on them"

Could I have your full essays on Matsumoto and Shinji!! (Feel free to split into two posts if it's weird/too long to do them both in one, haha.)

OUH. MYGOD. This is what I have been waiting for. Yesssss I CAN. Also, I think I will split it into two separate posts, because I want to cover more aspects. So this will only be about Matsumoto Rangiku. But beware, you brought this upon yourself. It will be long af (roughly about 1900 words). I hope it all makes sense!

Also, everything I say is totally my opinion, the way I see them, and the "analysis" (nothing too formal) I made is based on anime only and/or maybe some spoilers (because I don't own any Bleach manga yet😭)

In the beginning, I need to mention that in my opinion (and as I mentioned in a previous post), she is actually a very humane, relatable and complex character. And this is why I like her so much. However, she is, most of the times, underappreciated.

So usually when people are talking about her, they get to mention her her physical appearance, which is normal and is what you do with everyone, but then something interesting happens.

When it comes to her personality, she is often viewed and portrayed as a shallow, superficial and unbothered woman. Kind of the standard beautiful but ignorant woman trope portrayed in most media.

But she is not just a plain character made to fill in some gaps and have a few lines. And while I agree she has a few flaws (that I'll talk about later), I feel like this portrayal of her couldn't be more wrong.

In actuality, she is a very well constructed character, that we subjectively misjudge, because we have certain expectations when we see an architype of fictional universes and forget to look past certain traits. And you might ask "Okay, dude, but what do you mean by that?" Well, let me explain.

But to get even deeper with how much of a complex character she is, as we go further along with the anime, we know that Gin leaves with Aizen. Even since then, we knew something was going on with those two, when he apologized to her. But as it was revealed later, Gin was her childhood friend, the one she even lived with for a while. The first person she ever loved from what I know (not sure if romantically or platonically, but love, none the less). Now, imagine how destroyed she must feel about him leaving with a man that betrayed, used and lied to everyone in their community without any explanation whatsoever. More so, imagine how worried she must be everyday for him, not ever knowing if he'll come back. Imagine how she has to live with this constantly in the back of her mind, and still be a good shinigami and fight with the fear that one day, she might have to fight him. The strength one has to have to be able to continue life with these realizations in mind, every day, without breaking once, is colossal. How mature you have to be adapt to this kind of situation so fast, even if you hate the reality this is bringing you in, is the proof of being not only very emotionally intelligent, but also intelligent overall. And not to mention how she carries this burden seemingly alone, because nobody seems to ever ask her if she's alright or care whatsoever for her problems, probably because of her optimistic, cheery personality.

Firstly, when we initially get to meet her, in the episode of Aizen's "death", we see her restraining Hinamori and getting her to jail, as a good lieutenant would do at the orders of her captain, right? But after that, we witness a conversation those two have, in which we can clearly see that Matsumoto does empathize with Hinamori, telling her she understands how frustrated she is, but she needs to think about her squad and priorities and to not make any allegations (when Hinamori was about to say she knew who "killed" Aizen).

In that small dialogue, we get to understand that not only, is Rangiku very levelheaded, but also she cares about Hinamori enough to tell her it is not her place to make those accusations and she lets to be understood that she will regret saying anything more, and tries to guide her to better priorities. She does everything in a serious, yet not necessarily harsh manner. She feels as many emotions as everyone about what just happened, and yet she thinks about what is best to be done and how to be efficient, while still empathizing with and not blaming Hinamori for anything. And she keeps that attitude towards her even later, in the fake Karakura Town arc, when Hinamori clearly calls Aizen "captain", but Rangiku still has an understanding, yet compassionate and worried attitude towards her (and to be honest, that is more than I would've had for her at that point). That already says so much about her character and moral compass.

Which brings me to the next point. We always see her as being this bright, obnoxious ray of sunshine. Party girl who likes to drink, sometimes a little too much (but I would too in her situation), who's everyone's friend. From hanging out, getting drunk with the boys, or being there for Hitsugaya (she was even the one who told him to be a shinigami in the first place, and made sure to make him understand it would be best for him to do so), to even having a heartfelt conversation with Orihime when she gets jealous and depressed. Rangiku is an optimistic, reliable person who you can have fun with and trust with your heart. But who's there for her the way she is there for others? Because I don't see her talking about any of her personal issues, besides this one exception with Hitsugaya once. So not only is she strong to keep herself composed and with the mind clear, ready to battle anytime, but she is also succeeding in doing so alone, with no support system (that I know of). So she has the power of continuing to battle for what is right and be there for everyone in a very enthusiastic way, with a broken heart that still has room for hope, and with an intelligent mind that still makes room for fun.

Now, everything I have mentioned so far are her positive traits. Of course, she wouldn't have been a very good constructed character if she didn't have any flaws. That's also what makes her even more relatable and humane. But what is again very interesting here, is that her flaws seem to be very much in contrast with her positive traits.

Also, talking about being ready for battle, there is one more point I need to add. Considering everything I mentioned earlier, we also need to talk about how good of a fighter and strategist (not to mention how strong willed) she is.

Remember: she had a portion of her soul stolen (at least that's what I understood) by Aizen! And if we are to recall the encounters she had with arrancars (and fights overall), we can surely say she had some interesting strategic moves, as well as some decent, interesting decisions in battle. So we can only imagine what kind of a fighter she would have become if she had her soul intact. All though I will not dive deeper into this (because I will have to rewatch all of her fights, and even then get into a subject that I'm really not good at), I can definitely say she is not a lieutenant for nothing. She is definitely a capable, devoted and loyal lieutenant, fighter and ally.

We can also see a similar circumstance with her shallow and vain demeanor whenever she talks about shopping and getting nice things. Because we need to remember she grew up poor! And not only that, but she was dying of starvation. When Gin found her, she was on the verge of death. And as she grew, like most kids in Rukongai, she had mostly nothing. So to one extend, I can really understand why, as an adult, she would prefer to spend her money as she likes without any reservations. I think it helps healing her inner child and can also be a coping mechanism that she developed along the years, to help cope with everything she goes through by herself.

When we think about her flaws, we picture in our minds her laziness and how conceited and vain she can be sometimes. We can also talk about how unbothered or easygoing she seems to be in many situations. And her drinking problem (which I am not going to talk about, because in my own balkan view, it doesn't really look like a problem, just that when she parties, she goes hard, and I would too and I get it).

But I found that her laziness is in strong contrast with her strong will to fight and how ready she is for battle anytime. Which is not something a lazy person will do. We have plenty of great characters that can be very intelligent and impressively created, but who are very lazy and find many things (such as fighting) as a "drag" or "nuisance". She could do the same, but she doesn't. Which leads me to believe that it's not laziness per se, it's most likely the boredom and uninteresting facade of doing chores like paperwork. And I see that as fitting to her, because she probably needs strong and intense sensations to fixate on something and not be distracted by her own mind (my opinion).

And even that, I think it really depends on how important her role would be as the responsible person in said situations. Because if you remember the flashbacks of her being a lieutenant under Kurosaki Isshin, she was the one who scolded him for not doing work. Of course, it wasn't like she was working anywhere near the amount Hitsugaya would, in any day, but still more than now. And I think that was exactly because someone had to. It was important for the captain to have someone who would nag him from time to time, so that's what she did. Just like how it is important for Hitsugaya to have a ray of sunshine to cheer him up and get him out of his sometimes-too-serious way.

And sure, she doesn't like being called "old", like most women, and she cares about her looks a lot, but I think that also comes from a place of not knowing or having the privilege of getting to care about those things as child. Which she finally has now, as an adult, and of course she takes advantage of that now and thinks about those things.

With all of this being said, I think the only conclusion here is that Matsumoto Rangiku is a strong, very reliable, smart woman with the emotional intelligence above many other characters (and people) that we get to see usually in fictional universes (or even real life). She is the kind of person I would love to have as a friend, and I wish I could have the honor of being there for her, because she deserves it. With a heart of gold and a personality brighter than the sun, Matsumoto Rangiku is the glue that holds so many things together and is one of the many needed pieces of our Bleach puzzle. And yes, she is also very hot and I would tap that.

And concomitantly, we see her seemingly self-absorbed personality that shows up from that to time and the contrast that makes with how much empathy and devotion she demonstrates.

This made me think of just the way we perceive people sometimes without having the full story on them. Because I think that it may be a misunderstanding of her character.

What I mean by this is that, maybe, we misunderstood those traits, and in reality is just her confidence. A lot of self confidence and care for one's self can be missinterpreted as shallowness if we either don't have the full story, or if that person is not slightly modest in admitting the good things about themselves. Which is an interesting way to see her, that would further demonstrate how cool she is (but considering this hypothesis is only that, a hypothesis, it might just be two contrasting traits she has, which either way, make her an interesting person).

Bonus: this is the song that always reminds me of her for some reason -

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#i tried my best to be coherent #i hope it all makes sense #matsumoto rangiku #bleach #my opinion on characters

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woman-respecter · 3 months

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(discussing i/p) i keep seeing these posts along the lines of “i can’t believe (((they)))’re centering antisemitism/(((them)))selves when tens of thousands of people are being brutally killed” as if jewish people need to pipe down and meekly accept the rise in hate crimes against them because a government they have extremely little if any influence on is massacring palestinians. like, biden and blinken have been trying for months to influence netanyahu to back down with little success. idk, im a white western goyim so grain of salt and all, but i think it’s attaching a lot of value and moral purity testing (“are you one of the Good Ones”) to… posting.

i can understand the emotional journey, i guess (i care so much about this horrible thing going on, how can people even think of talking about something else) but i don’t think talking about something, even at length, on one’s own blog = centering it. i also don’t think that not talking about another thing on one’s own tumblr blog means that you’re not keeping up with (the actual ie not Posts) news or that you don’t care.

anyway i was wondering if you’ve seen these sentiments and if im missing something/am off base in my thoughts about them. anyway thx for being cool and i hope u eat lots of chocolate today and tomorrow!

i've defo seen the sentiment that talking about antisemitism is "centering" (((our)))selves when we shouldn't be and that makes us sooo selfish. in fact it was also big during the conflict back in spring 2021 and i remember a viral tweet about it that really frustrated me. the thing is theres that quote that goes like "if i am not for myself, who will be for me" and that's how i think about it. the reality is antisemitism is rapidly rising to dangerous levels and we have a right to be scared of and talk about it. gentiles will very rarely post about this stuff so SOMEONE has to speak out about it and you can't say that now is not the time because now IS the time. i too was afraid of posting about this back when this conflict started because i know i would get shit about it but it just got so bad that i felt the need to speak up.

and the reason a lot of people are posting more about antisemitism as opposed to other aspects of the conflict right now is that a) like i said earlier someone has to talk about it and 99% of people on this site won't and b) its something that is a lot easier for us to understand and be knowledgable about, while i think that actual people living in the middle east should be the voices we "center" in converstations about what is happening there yknow?

also i totally forgor its valentines day tomorrow but thank you. i might get discount chocolate on the 15th haha

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thirdwifeofriversong · 2 months

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okay i need to rant incoherently about HOFAS (and the sjm fandom)

so if you don’t care or haven’t finished the book, feel free to ignore this

(to make a couple of things abundantly clear though, the general discourse in this fandom frustrates me to no end, no hate to anyone obviously, but i get real real tired of the ship wars - i literally don’t care - and of people not using critical reading skills… all/most of these characters are morally grey and flawed and imperfect and it literally does nothing to debate who’s good/bad based on one reading of a morally grey character. they’re grey. even the ones you like. even the ones you hate. that’s the point. also this is mainly aimed at the acotar fandom.)

anyway, some thoughts on HOFAS

i absolutely loved lidia’s characterization. one of the best parts of the book. we love a complex female character. we love a complex double agent who does horrible things and has to live with that. we love female characters who aren’t sidelined just because they have kids

speaking of

i have Feelings about the characterization of lidia as a mother and am still trying to figure out what those are exactly.

but my feelings certainly align with her absolutely demolishing ruhn with that line about her tragic female backstory. what an absolute QUEEN.

i’m not quite sure how to feel about the ruhn/lidia relationship. i love their dynamic, and i support her in her decision to choose ruhn because she did choose him

but also he was pretty sketchy/a little bitch to her at times. was pretty shocked when he shot her in the leg (it seemed out of character). not unforgivable, that’s for her to decide and him to atone for (reminder to the fandom in general) but yeah… interesting… and questionable

okay moving on from them

i do love an ensemble cast. it’s very enjoyable.

the firstlight being gone is a really interesting world building device

you could definitely see the extra emphasis this book on motherhood, through lidia and ember — interesting to see authors evolve and grow with their own lives influencing their themes

honestly, enjoyed the subplots a good bit

ITHAN AND THARION ARE SUPER HOMOEROTIC! i had hope for a little bit that we would finally see a queer relationship unfold. but no. one of them just got married off and now is attached? like bro this werewolf literally almost got himself killed and then murdered someone very important to him to rescue you from enslavement. but that’s totally platonic.

AGH I’m really REALLY frustrated with the lack of queer rep in the MCs in sjm books. like fine, i don’t care that much, at least you have some rep, but it really shows the limitations of comp het storytelling

was very much a guilty pleasure but the crossovers were a very fun touch

ALSO. getting very tired of the “males are all the same across the universe. such alphaholes haha.” BRO THATS NOT HOW PEOPLE WORK AND ALSO DEFINITELY NOT HOW GENDER WORKS. my little queer brain cells are dying here.

#hofas spoilers #hofas #house of flame and shadow #crescent city #sjm #sarah j mass

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ramonag-if · 11 months

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I just played the newest chapter and aaah, I loved the scene with Danzor and Rana so much! My MC is so nice and sweet and mild, but he'll probably go feral if someone harms his sister in any way haha!

That aside, I have realized something interesting. My MC have never ressented Salyra or anyone else in the family, and by extension I don't resent them either. But I have noticed I'm increasingly annoyed by Ishari in general? Somehow, the people there feel even more judgmental than the people in Cyre to me - or well, at least the ways in which they judge the MC annoy me as hell. The way they start by only judging them by their blood, some of them being angry that they are loyal to Irus, other considering they don't belong in Ishari, depending on what side of their heritage they focus on. And then a lot of them changed their tune when they learned they are Salyra's child. And then yet again with the blessings. They sort of feel so self assured in their assesments based on criteria totally unrelated to who a person truly is that they don't even bother to look past that, even after a while. Now, my MC doesn't really notice this actively, and simply misses Vinia. But as a reader, I perceive it that way and it frustrates me. Not in a bad way, eh! I still enjoy the story just as much. I just noticed what bothers me in Ishari.

The family drama is my favourite thing to write. So much emotional angst is good for the writer's soul 😂 I'm glad you're so attached to Rana! Though she hasn't had her time to shine as yet, she's one of the characters I have a fond spot for.

One of the main themes I wanted to showcase in the game was that there is nothing different between Cyre and Ishari. Sure, Cyre is responsible for a war based on religious discrimination, but Ishari also has prejudices of their own. Both sides are flawed and complicated - and neither are completely in the right either. You'll find that not everyone in Cyre hates the MC (Irus and Dena) and not everyone in Ishari approves of the MC either. Erlan started the war but his views don't represent everyone's views.

#crown of exile #answered asks #rana #cyre #ishari

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fairyquill · 3 months

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as a sapphic lover of musicals, i enjoyed mean girls a lot! it was a fun time. c:

as someone who knows the original musical by heart and is passionate about adaptations, i do have a lot of thoughts!

they definitely gave the songs a pop remix makeover in attempt to appeal to a mainstream audience... some of them i liked, some of them not so much. i prefer the broadway soundtrack, maybe out of familiarity, but i could see why someone else might prefer the movie's interpretation. this is the musical in a brand new form so i like that they tried something different. it makes total sense that certain things got changed around or cut. (not that i agree with every choice that was made, but i digress.)

i think cady's role and songs suffered the most from these changes. her lines were sung very softly and prettily... but her songs weren't particularly memorable. regina stole the whole show away from her. i knew she would going in, but still.

regina's songs were excellent, as expected! i love a good villain song and enjoyed myself thoroughly through every single one. sexy was also solid! random note, but i'm also so glad they nixed the 'i never weigh more than 115' line in regina's intro / the fat-shaming jokes.

making cady meek and soft-spoken was a choice. it was interesting to see a brand new take on her character and she did come across like a relatable teenage kid. the actress did great with what she was given. (her emotional moments towards the end of the film tugged at my heartstrings, too.) however, i think seeing her like that made it clearer than ever that cady needs more spunk if she's going to hold a candle to regina george.

it really showed in apex predator when they gave cady's 'and though janis is great she does not have this power, people literally cower, janis can't do that' line to damian instead. that whole song is supposed to be cady strategizing how she's going to survive high school based on what she knows about animals and how they interact. apex predator fell flat for me because the movie musical's cady seemed more like an innocent observer amidst all the chaos in the hall. meanwhile, the musical cady is full of boundless enthusiasm and takes a more active role in pursuing the plastics for her own gain.

also, changing direction here... but there was waaaay too much of the actors looking directly at the camera. like. stop that! (maybe it was a stylistic choice bc the film started out being filmed on a phone? idk but i was not a fan of that haha.) i did like how the movie started and ended in the garage and how that was handled tho.

i understand why they cut a lot of songs from the second act, especially those that don't really contribute to moving the story forward, but i think they should have at least kept more is better or do this thing. (i get why they cut more is better if they didn't want aaron singing... but that song ties everything together with i see stars at the end / gives us a little time to check in with cady after her plastic transformation.) the end of the movie dragged for me-- it was mostly the new actors reenacting scenes from the original movie. when they were talking through scenes i knew the musical had specific songs for it was a bit frustrating to watch. those songs could have moved the story from one scene to the next in a new way-- this is supposed to be a musical after all!

anyway-- regardless of these thoughts i still had a good time watching mean girls! there were a lot of things to love about this adaptation. the costumes, the representation, the cameos and some of the tweaks they made to the story. regina george. saying outright that janis is gay and seeing her go to prom w a girl! the new lore, the new jokes. (the comedy of regina getting hit by the bus in the bg as janis finishes singing i'd rather be me.) regina george. seeing a new movie musical in theaters is always a treat and i had a lot of fun watching this one!

#mean girls 2024 #mean girls musical #txt.#i had so many thoughts i just had to write them all down somewhere haha

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wafflesrock16 · 1 year

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Squigglysquidd mentioned that you're working on an original fantasy romance series, Rifts. I'd love to hear a little about your series and your experience writing it! I assume it's published somewhere? Congratulations, by the way! What a fantastic achievement!

Howdy! I do have an original fantasy series that is available in ebook and paperback on Amazon. There's two books out, Aerials and Fathomless Depths and the third book will (hopefully) be released late next week. The overarching plot circles around a theme that sometimes, the monster deserves to get the girl. So if you like monster romance, female protagonists, and immersive fantasy settings, give the Rifts series a read.

This is my fanfic/fandom account so I try not to cross-pollinate too much with original works, but rest assured after finishing book 3 of 5, I'm deep in OC hell, haha.

So far as my experience self-publishing an original series and all the leg work that goes into that, I'll put a full answer under a cut, because it's long.

I was one of those that actually got a college degree in fiction writing and held onto a cozy notion that in-between a day job, I'd submit stories to journals and anthologies as a fun hobby. Unfortunately, my day job ended up beating the love of reading and writing out of me for several years. It wasn't until I started reading fanfiction that I rediscovered my own love of writing. While I do write main characters, I enjoyed creating fics featuring all original casts, or else putting a fantasy spin on the scify setting. Which led me to considering doing my own totally original works...

I am fortunate in that I knew a professional editor through another friend. We agreed to meet for coffee, and she gave me the run down on the writing/publishing process. Initially I had thought I'd pursue traditional publishing, but after in depth conversation with the editor, whom I'll call "K," I was more than a bit overwhelmed. While I knew publication wasn't just emailing a publication house my book, I never realized how in depth and daunting the querying process for an agent was, and all the other things that entailed. Likely seeing my wide-eyed look of shock, K had a suggestion for me: self-publish on Amazon.

K walked me through that process and given my own self-perceived feelings of still not being "good-enough" she advised I try to self-publish an original series first, build my skill and confidence, and then if I was still interested, circle back to traditional publication.

So that's what I did. First, I had to write the story; which was a journey of frustration in itself. I was lucky to have met the fabulous @squigglysquidd through fanfiction and she graciously offered to alpha read my chapters as I completed the first draft. Without her cheer-leading I might have given up.

After finishing a complete draft, I went over and fixed the glaring issues myself before handing the manuscript off to a beta reader. My beta reader happens to by a huge fantasy nerd and a trained editor of sorts, and while their concrit is sometimes very... lets say blunt... it's always great. After getting the book back from my beta, I overhauled it again with all their edits. Once I was confident that it wasn't a total turd, I contacted K again and hired her at her freelance rate to do a general edit of the manuscript. (Most freelance editors offer different services from general review to line edits, for my purposes general edits worked best). K was absolutely fantastic and taught me SO MUCH about writing and details and pacing ect. After I again overhauled the manuscript based on K's edits, I gave it over to a beta reader one more time for final critique. When it was returned I fixed any issues they identified and then began the painstaking line edits for any grammar issues.

While I have not used an empathy reader in my own works (yet) I did find a fabulous resource, fiverr, where you can hire empathy readers to review your work for areas where an author might unintentionally sound racially insensitive, ablest, ect.

So far as cover-art goes, I'd met an absolutely incredible artist through the Mass Effect fandom: @savbakk is the most talented land-mermaid of an artist and when I approached her about a commission for cover art, I hit the jack-pot when she agreed to do it. I adore her style and gaze fondly at the three book covers she's done in pure disbelief that she captured my characters so perfectly...

When my book is as polished as it can be, and I feel the narrative is tight and characters fleshed out with a solid plot, I self-publish on Amazon. It's a fairly straight-forward process, luckily.

I then marketed on Twitter and other social media platforms, with varying success. I was fortunate and my series was selected for a book club and I did an interview and gained some nice readership from that. I definitely could be better about marketing, but admittedly I get lazy after a while on that front.

And that’s my process in a nutshell. Eventually when I complete my fantasy series I’ll tackle traditional publishing. Until then, I’m enjoying myself and the experience. 😃

And that's my experience/process in a nutshell. I still have 2 more books planned for my series. I feel that I'm a stronger, better writer, with each story I complete. When my series is all finished, I will pursue traditional publication on my next project. Can't say I'll be successful, but I believe I'll be ready to try and enjoy the learning process.

I'm always happy to chat self-publication with anyone who's interested, just pop into my DM's if you like. =)

#Rifts #original work #self-publication #waffles answers #I'll be advertising a bit on here next week for original work #Oasis goes live!#monster boyfriend

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em-writes-stuff-sometimes · 1 year

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Hi Miss Em ! I just want to say that I read the new chapter and honestly I have never felt more frustrated with someone in a fic than now, like Viserys just pushed all of my buttons and installed a new rage in me I never knew I had. I truly resonate with Daemon's line and what a beautiful line to describe the whole feeling for half of the fic-

his hope turns to ash

I honestly felt that pain when a parent/brother doesn't understand what your going through but somehow manages to listen and understand to everyone else.

After watching the show I finally understood who had attempted the murder of Babey and her babies. But to see that in this chapter and him being so smug about it pissed me off as well as Alicent's and Otto's highass ( sorry for my language but then again this is a Daemon series we're talking about )

Now I just want Babey and Daemon to leave and never comeback to these assholes, truly terrible people. I want Babey to get her Kepus , her good brother Laenor's and finally her elder sister's comfort, she needs to be wrapped in a blanket and given all the love in the world !

I'm thinking why don't we unleash Ulla, Daemon, Athfiezar together on King's landing, like let them just go mayhem on the whole place for poor babey. I'm also very happy that Blood and Cheese were introduced in this chapter ! This is going to be very exciting !

Hehe sorry I went on a huge rant, thank you for another amazing chapter !!! I may be busy for the coming weeks ( lot of project works ) but I want to say if i don't message anything, please know that whatever you post is amazing and I hope you're healthy and happy 🩷

-🧇

Hey, 🧇! Aaah, I’m so glad you enjoyed! How are you? I hope you’re doing well!

Yeah, Vissie T was a giant wad of dicks in this chapter. From a third-party stance, I do kinda get his inaction; he’s not just Babey’s dad, but the King of an entire continent. He can’t just arrest a dude based on the aggro say-so of his nutjob brother, let alone a member of his own governmental hierarchy. It’d send a really bad message to the Realm as a whole if he were to act without due diligence.

That being said, he is committing the very same mistakes Jaehaerys did; in continually upholding the Realm, he’s simultaneously ignoring or outright rejecting the needs of his own family. He’s caught between a rock and a hard place, unfortunately for him. As a Daemon stan, I hate his guts; as an objective party, I kinda get how he reacts in this chapter. It’s disappointing, but there is just more at stake than an 18-year-old girl’s feelings. Daemon has only very circumstantial proof; it might be enough for him to go on, but not the ruler of a nation.

LARYS IS A FREAK AND I STAND BY THAT. But yeah, I wanted him to be as creepy and inflammatory as possible so that Daemon would have an excuse to beat his head in. Luckily, Daemon’s doing his problem-solving and has got some very iconic peeps in to deal with the guy, haha!

Daemon and Babey and Daeron are getting the hell outta there, home to Dragonstone! She’s lost a bunch of support, but she’ll be gaining some too - that’s a part of growing up, I suppose. We realise how flawed our parents are, we cut out the people who aren’t good for us, and we reinvent our circle of peers. Babey’s pregnancy has disrupted the uneasy peace that has existed in the family - with each opposing side believing they have the political advantage - because what had just been a marriage is now an alliance bearing legitimate heirs for the Blacks side. Thus, the Greens are lashing out in panic, ergo the whole King’s Landing drama. Rhae’s gonna realise that her petty resentments are meaningless in the face of the larger threat, and we’ll get some sis reunion action soon! Yay for Babey reworking her circle. And I totally LOLed at the idea of Daemon, Ulla and Athfiezar taking down the capital - those chaos demons would vibe with that, haha.

Thank you so much for your comment! I always love reading them 😘😘

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hoghtastic · 8 months

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I must admit, I feel "seen." 😋 As I sit here, reading all the posts, I totally feel seen but in a different way than you may think. Typically, anyone who "feels seen," gets defensive and then sends in an ask that is calling someone out. I want to address this differently and hope for someone to help me. I'm serious. And I'm not going to be rude, so don't worry. I seriously am asking for your opinions and suggestions.

I'm about to lay all my BS out on the table and open up and be completely vulnerable here. Please, if you answer me, be kind, because I'm honestly not pointing fingers at anyone but MYSELF!

Well, am I someone who has also been "desperately trying to prove that Johanne does not live with Alex?" Yes, I am. Have I analyzed stuff to exhaustion to prove my point that it hasn't happened yet? Also, yes. Does it mean I'm a bit on the crazy side? Absolutely. It has to. Or completely crazy? Probably also, yes. (Even though my friend tells me that crazy people don't usually sit around and question if what they're doing is crazy or not. Haha)

And the question here isn't AM I jealous of her. The question is, WHY the F*@K am I jealous of her? I have my own life, that I am quite happy with, actually, and I know whatever happens with them, between them, absolutely has no bearing on my life whatsoever! They could have 2.5 kids, 20 brand new cars, a white picket fence, and live happily ever after, and it would not affect my life at all. They are complete strangers that I only know and make my opinions of based on what they've posted and what I've seen and read about them. How does it make any D#@M sense, then, that the thought of them living together or omg, getting married makes a part of my heart break a little? And seriously, not because of anything she has done or posted and deleted, (because I won't make an assumption based on who she is entirely based on just the ridiculous sh¡t) but just because I'm just woman enough to admit I'm jealous! I know even if they weren't together, it doesn't increase MY chances of being with him or anything even close to that, so why the H3LL do I care?!!!!!!!!!!!! I have thought and thought and analyzed it to death and I still can't figure it out.

I want him to be happy, I do, but why does him being happy make a part of me sad? And even though it does still make me happy for him, it makes no sense!

So I come to you all to sincerely ask if I am the only one. Surely I'm not the only person in this boat! 🤞🏼 and even if I am, is there anyone who can explain this to me? WHAT THE F☆@K is my problem? Because it seems I seriously have one! Ugh!

HELP! Please! I feel so dumb. And I'm usually smarter than this.

Oh, And just in case someone says it or thinks it, no, I don't think me and Alex are in any kind of relationship, I don't think we're all friends, and I don't think he's mine or belongs to me. I'm not completely lost haha

Hello anon! 😊 First of all, I truly admire your courage and sincerity for sharing your feelings with us in such an honest way. I do believe you're not the first, nor will you be the last to feel like this. Most people, in any moment of their lives had some sort of celebrity crush which may or may not have had some sort of impact in their lives.

Especially in today's age, social media has made it extremely easy to have access to one's favorite celebrities. As we get more glimpses into their lives, and even some interactions sometimes, we feel closer to them and they truly become a part of our daily lives. We see these people everyday, we get to know what they've been up to, and therefore we grow to know and admire them even more. Sometimes their mere presence brightens our day and gives us some comfort in tough times, to help us through the day, much like a real-life friend would, and our attachment grows. And like a real-life friend, we won't always agree with everything they do or say, so sometimes we also get a little frustrated or even worried about them (or jealous, like you mentioned). And these feelings are real, the time and emotional (and sometimes monetary) investment in these people is real, however, the relationship is not, since it's really one-sided. And that's the key word here, which defines parasocial relationships.

From your description, it seems to me that's what you're experiencing. According to this article, there are various levels of parasocial relationships, and it seems that while you are aware of their one-sided nature, which is actually a good thing, it's still affecting you in some way, so it has become intense-personal.

While parasocial relationships can lead to negative consequences like stalking and avoiding real-life relationships and responsibilities, they also have a few benefits, like helping socially anxious people eliminate fear of rejection, or helping against depression and loneliness, as people feel some sort of connection to their favorite celebrity (and sometimes even make friends in the community/fandom). So it's easy to understand why some people are more vulnerable and end up experiencing parasocial relationships.

It's also important to acknowledge that today's industry also capitalizes on these relationships, creating an illusion of face-to-face interaction. In said article they mention more personal advertising campaigns in which celebrities or influencers talk directly to their audiences, maybe even sharing some personal stories to establish a closer connection. However, since we're talking about Alex, I'd like to mention the countless conventions he attends, during which he acts as his fans' long time friend, speaking and behaving exactly how they expect him to, promoting this sense of proximity and giving the illusion of a more realistic and intimate connection.

In conclusion, what you're experiencing is actually very common, anon, and I'd advise you to look a little more into this topic to better understand your feelings. However, if you feel they're having some sort of bigger impact in your daily life, my best advice would be to talk to a professional who could better guide you. Regardless, I hope this was helpful and if you ever feel like talking to someone about this, my asks & DMs are always open. 😊💖

#anon asks #parasocial relationships

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I genuinely hate kaeya so much he's such a jerk (to me at least) like that comment he made in ventis story quest was so unnecessary and yet his fans still think he's an "innocent bean🥺" who's brother treats him like trash Like literally no 💀 I ALSO HATE THE PEOPLE WHO THINK DILUC IS MEAN TO HIM IN WHAT QUEST WAS DILUC JUST MAKING RUDE AND UNNECESSARY COMMENTS ABOUT HIM I hate kaeya and kaeya stans and people get mad at me for it

That is super frustrating because people took Diluc wanting some time alone as some offensive thing. (Which ya know if a little bit real to life) But seriously, how can they say with this exchange

Kaeya: The thing about wine is, you have to drink it at the tavern or you miss out on half the fun. Diluc: Seems to me you'd find some way of keeping yourself amused even if you drank alone. Kaeya: Haha, if I didn't know any better, I would say you're being deliberately uncivil. Diluc: Just... drink responsibly on my premises, okay? Kaeya: Oh? And if I did have one too many, what then? You'd throw me out along with the trash, is that it? Diluc: "Throw you out"? Kaeya: You know... the same way you threw out Father's legacy? You sold off his mansion – or maybe you've forgotten?

That's such a low fucking blow on Kaeya's part. And yeah, he's got some right to be upset but to say something that cruel and hurtful? And yeah, it's implied he's a little tipsy but still, I will never get over how just absolutely cold and unkind that is for just a "Please drink responsibly."

This is why I kick canon Kaeya out and replace him with my own. Like normally with characters, I will stay in a realm where I can argue my point. But with Kaeya. I'm 100% OK with being totally off base.

#diluc and kaeya #diluc ragnvindr #diluc #kaeya alberich #kaeya

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having au brainrot today and I want ur hot opinions on the theory/concept thingy that the ai base their ‘human’ names off their hosts… like O’Malley being a combo of Omega and Allison, Gary being a mix of Gamma and Reginald etc….

cause…. I know we don’t know the freelancers names but…. Please imagine a universe where epsilon calls himself Eddie or something…. Cause pls I’m 🥺

anyway hope ur having a good day lmao

Oooh, OK so, I have several ideas about this!

For the obvious canon in the show, we know that Alpha initially thought his name was Church because of some left-over thoughts regarding the Director, and Epsilon also liked using that name (I think because Caboose gave it to him and he just kinda liked how it sounds, but not in the sense that he was "the same Church", y'know?). As for the other AI, we never know FOR SURE why they picked certain nick-names/personal names (except the combination of the Meta, but that was a whole other situation). The idea that they kinda want to use different names together to make something of their own is really cool though! I'm not sure what they would all pick for themselves, but it would be really sweet to see them have different names they liked~

The awesome @leonardalphachurch once made a post that stated Gamma named himself after the snail from Spongebob, and honestly? Yeah, I totally accept that as factual. The thing about RVB is; sometimes the meanings behind what the characters do is very deep... and sometimes, it's just because of Spongebob haha. My thoughts behind that though; at some point, Gamma was finally allowed the chance to watch TV, and he genuinely enjoys cartoons, it just supremely vibed with his sense of humor (for a long time, the AI weren't allowed to experience much within Project Freelancer, so just being able to watch TV was actually a really important thing... what better way to get a glimpse of humanity than to see what humans create, and just enjoy it like people do?)

Personal thoughts about the Omega/O'Malley name (and why it continued with Doc); in sort of an extra/deleted backstory, there was a bit in which Omega left Tex and temporarily was in the head of some other dude... she got him to return, but the AI commented on the man's name being "O'Malley", and that he liked how it sounded. This isn't technically canon, but it is interesting. Caboose also seemed to imply that his name WAS O'Malley, but everybody was calling him Caboose, so he went along with it to avoid being difficult. That is VERY up in the air, what with all the confusion going on at the time. In my head, I imagine that maybe Caboose's parents didn't take a shared last name , and his father's last name IS O'Malley. If I want to include that little bit of the backstory, perhaps the person Omega was talking about was Caboose's father! Thus, the name stuck (and it didn't even seem too weird for Caboose at first, because he knew that name). As for Doc... I have a whole thought process that he has actually had his O'Malley since childhood; it was extremely traumatic after his brother died, and unfortunately the people around him decided that the best way for Frank DuFresne to "get over it" was to just STOP talking about the things that made him sad. Basically, keep acting happy until you are happy! Which is NOT good... also, his family listened to a lot of alternative medicine advice, which is why Doc thinks that drinking orange juice is a cure-all. As he grew up, Frank DuFresne ignored the part of himself that needed to vent his frustrations and express his needs, while also avoiding anything that reminded him of his brother...so he totally forgot that they used to watch a cartoon show together, which had an over-the-top villain named Malloy (this is why when Omega became part of Doc for a while, he was EXTREMELY more excitable and talkative; that was always Doc's O'Malley, he had just been denied an outlet for too long)

Last thoughts about AI names; I once thought of a "slightly more normal" High School AU, in which Church is indeed still a system (with his own fragments being named after the Greek Alphabet, as the AI are named in the actual series), but he also has extended family members who share certain traits; Dillon (Delta), Thaddeus "Thad" (Theta), Emmet and Isaac (Eta and Iota), Gary (Gamma, obviously), Owen (Omega, though his dad is the one with a genuine rage problem. Owen has anger issues as a result, and Church doesn't care much for that uncle), Silas (Sigma). In this AU, the Director is Church's older brother, and they were both named after their grandfather Leonard; the elder brother is Leonard L Church, and the younger is Leonard A Church (the A is for Allen, but this is also symbolic of him being Alpha. Epsilon is who comes forward when Alpha is no longer there... he's obviously not "dead", like the actual series, but he's dormant if that makes sense, so Epsilon is there to kinda be The Guy now. He doesn't legally change his name or whatever, but for his own purposes, he chose the middle name Elliott for himself to differentiate). LL Church was married to a woman named Allison, who had a younger cousin named Bethany. LA Church and her met on their own, not even realizing that their families already had a connection (Alpha HATES his older bro), and then they found out they were technically cousins by marriage, and went EWW WE CAN'T DATE GROSS (they were teens at the time). At some point, Allison and LL had a child together, whom LA never met; he was literally in the hospital with a head injury. By the time he woke up, he had memory loss, and Allison was dead... Beth was there to try and help LA recover, and this was where they actually started their own relationship, as well as calling each other Church and Tex. Church has several more problems with getting hurt and losing memories (just bad luck!), and down the road Epsilon finally reconnects with his niece, Carolina. Tex actually met her as well, but never knew this was her cousin Allison's daughter.

Sorry that was A LOT, haha. Thanks for asking~

#red vs blue #rvb #ai fragments #anon #ask #answer

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Crisis Core - The Nibelheim Mission

Alrighty, at long last I've gotten back to playing Crisis Core! And before we actually get to Nibelheim, we need to finish up saying goodbye to Aerith! Or, making her a flowercart, essentially the same thing. Also, another long one, so I added a break!

This games is just, it's so funny what it decides it needs to shove in here. 'Did you know that Zack actually named the bar Seventh Heaven, and that the guy who made it already knew it would have a secret room and be a base for terrorists'. Like, it's so funny but also c'mon, why'd ya do this?

Zack's little moments with Aerith are so nice. I think, you know, a more fleshed out game showing their relationship would be better, but they do have such a fun dynamic when they off each other, just this chemistry that is so likeable right away, at least for me.

Saying goodbye to my boyfriend Kunsel, who I'm sure I'll see again so so very soon ;-; I really love him. Again, like Aerith, i wish we could see more interactions with Zack and Kunsel, but you do still get the sense that these two are friends.

So, surprise surprise, I wish we got to see Zack interact with the Turks more. We've had a few interactions between Zack and the Turks - I think exactly three - and then we're told that he's hung out with them a lot since Angeal died. Still, i do like that we get to see Zack getting Tseng to more or less promise that he'll watch Aerith - not just for Shinra, but for Zack's own peace of mind.

The three flower carts <3 I love that Aerith loves the cute one, and Zack loves the cool one haha. And I just love the idea of Zack putting all of these together, trying to make Aerith happy. Even more, I want to imagine they actually built the later two together.

CLOUD SHORT LITTLE BABY BOY!!!! It's so weird to think that he's sixteen. In my mind, he's like 26 in FFVII and 21 here, because that's still pretty young but in my opinion a little more believable.

Can't believe they made Tifa stand so far back, she looks even shorter compared to the tall ass SOLDIERs! It's so weird to be that the climbing Nibelheim scene is just told through photos. I'm not even sure you can tell the bridge fell???

As good a place as ending to add I love that Sephiroth tells Zack he's considering of leaving Shinra. I think it goes with the trajectory of what's been going on that he's thinking about it, and to me Sephiroth specifically requesting Zack to come with him on this mission to me means he's hoping that Zack also leaves with him.

Weird way to ask someone if they're down to bang but whatever floats you boat.

For real, it's so funny that Genesis just kicks Zack and decides to have a moment with Sephiroth. He really is just flailing around trying to figure out something that is going to work. I don't think I totally hate him showing up here in concept, but the fact he reveals Sephiroth's true parentage like, a scene early, is just so weird and jarring and I do think I hate that.

I've been very vocal about hating how heavy handed the symbolism in this game is, but I do love this line and how it contextualizes further the connection between SOLDIERs and monsters and what makes one a monster, and also how Genesis is using this ongoing conversation to hit Sephiroth hard.

Tall Zack! They're fine, but thank's Tifa for taking care of Cloud.

I love most of this scene between the two, getting to talk about their anxieties, their fears, especially Zack getting to kind of vent to Cloud. Also I love Cloud's little pose. Zack's speech about being so frustrated and angry with the choices he's being forced to make, becoming disillusioned, I love it, but then the ending of the scene feels so weird, where Zack compliments the sword and Zack seems to have some revelation we don't?

I'M SORRY ZACK, YOU SEE A LIVING PERSON SLEEPING IN A COFFIN IN A LOCKED SECRET UNDERGROUND ROOM AND JUST DECIDE TO LEAVE HIM??? AND WHY DOESN'T HE HAVE A MODEL YOU COWARDS SHOW ME VINCENT!!

The montage of Sephiroth reading is one of my favorite things tbh, you really see him pacing and going a little crazy, I love it. I do *not* love how it throws you right into the Nibelheim fire???? The pacing of this whole section sucks ass.

Oh my god, how Tifa curls away from Zack in hate and in fear??? Brilliant stunning amazing, I love it.

And Sephiroth is going crazy! Sephiroth, who has lost so much, thinking that he's finally gained something, some kind of connection, that he's learned the answer to why he's had to go through so many bad things in his life, why he's so different. This game has definitely made me like him so much more.

FUCKIGN GET IT CLOUD HELL YEAH HELL YEAH HELL YEAH!

Being normal human, that had to have been so hard for him to life and fight Sephiroth, even just the few blows that he manages to land, but I love him getting this moment to finally act.

AND THEN HE OVER POWERS SEPHIROTH!

It is so importnat to me that Cloud, a normal human, managed to kill Sephiroth. That he's a normal guy, a regular joe, who killed him. It speaks to the power of all human people in the whole world of the game, in my opinion.

And Sephiroth, in his shock, doesn't even think to let go of his sword, like he can't even comprehend what is happening.

Seeing Cloud slide down the stairs tho was so fuckign funny.

I love that Zack's vision of Angeal shattering, those wings that mean freedom, was him shattering the glass and obtaining his own freedom. Beautiful, chef's kiss. I hope he killed that scientist.

Yay, Zack and his bestie Cloud! Watching Zack have to go through such lengths every step to get Cloud just out of the mansion gives you such a vivid picture of how hard the rest of it is going to be, getting Cloud to Midgar. He has to clear the way, then go back and drag Cloud through again. I don't even want to think about how hard getting Cloud up the ladder must have been.

He cares about him So Much. He doesn't even worry about himself, just tries to find a change of clothes for Cloud. Wonder what a First uniform is doing here, though. Maybe it was Zack's? I think in the original he slept in the mansion while Seph was going crazy in the basement. Also, Zack trying to get out of Nibelheim as people try to drag Cloud away??? Oh my god, so mean but also I love it? Again, Cloud is this dead weight right now, but leaving him behind isn't a choice, it's not something Zack ever considers.

Oh Cissnei, if only you had more screen time to I actually cared about this. I do love, though, that Zack is willing to kill her for his freedom. I mean he's not, like, excited about it or anything, but that he's fully accepted that Shinra and everyone associated with them is a threat to himself and Cloud, and he's not going to let anything happen to them again so long as he can help it. And god, how he jumps to Cloud's defense the second she sees him??? Everything I've ever wanted.

And then Cissnei, well, good move on your part for giving them a motorcycle. Why did she have a motocycle? We'll probably never find out, but still, thanks anyway.

Motorcycle boys! Further question on the motorcycle is why does it have a sidecare. My sister suggested that Tseng usually sits in the sidecar, which just makes me imagine him T-posing in the sidecar like Saionji does in Utena.

It really never ends with this fucking guy, huh. What has he been doing for the last five years??? That one of the things that's really bothering me is that so far we never get a sense of the passage of time. I mean, last we saw Genesis, he was dying. But I guess he wasn't dying too badly because it's been five years and he looks exactly the same. Personally, I feel like the Genesis stuff probably should have been wrapped up before Nibelheim, or have a better integration into the current time in the story.

Also fucked up what happened to the copy who ate Zack's hair. God, Genesis really doesn't view the copies as, like, people, does he? He's still searching for answers, but I'm not sure he's ever going to find what he's looking for at this point.

And somehow, we made it to Gongaga! I can't believe Zack didn't realize he was getting so close to home? Don't know what we're doing here, but maybe he'll run into his parents, so that's fun!

All in all, I have to say, this section of the game feels like we've lost the breaks. It's just going two miles a minute over here, and cutting out some stuff that I think should have been shown. It clearly expects you to have played the original game, and I don't think that's fair tbh. Oh well, at least it's still fun to play with friends and laugh at all of the terrible pacing issues and weird line reads.

#browniefox speaks #ffvii #ff7 #crisis core #criss core reunion #brownie plays ccr

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idyllic-affections · 7 months

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hi hello!! ⭐️ here!!!

i’ve been writing some stuff for my current favourite ocs. their dynamic is pretty much ordinary guy and supernatural being that adores the ordinary guy, but in a completely platonic way because platonic soulmates are top tier and underused!!

honestly platonic love in general is underused. like yeah, i like romance but not every pair has to love each other romantically! i just want to see more best friends who would absolutely die for each other and care about each other more than anyone, without them getting together in the end. there’s so many ways to show love that doesn’t necessarily involve romance!

like pet names and nicknames!! i don’t know why they’re always seen as romantic, calling someone sweetheart or dear or lovely is just so cute. (side note, are you comfortable with pet names, aph? i wanted to ask bc i know not everyone’s cool with that)

anyway i think that’s why i like your blog so much—it feels like a relief for my ace (possibly aro-spec but i don’t have the energy to question myself again) soul. i love the idea of being friends with my favourite characters, and before i found your blog i kind of just pretended the x readers i read were actually platonic. it was sometimes effective!!

ah sorry for getting a little ramble-y, i just have a lot of thoughts and your inbox is the only place i can think to put them haha

alright i’m about to go to bed considering it is very late where i am, but i hope your day is lovely!! (at least i think it’s day for you? you might have mentioned what timezone you’re in but i also could be thinking of someone else)

- ⭐️

hello dear!!!!

i love platonic soulmates (i say, as if that wasn't obvious AJSKAGJFHF). they sound very neat based on that alone! but you really are right, not every friendship needs to end in romance, and i find it really frustrating that it happens in so many novels. i don't mind romance when it is done well, but honestly there are very few canon romances that i enjoy in the media i consume. it seems so forced sometimes.

AND THAT IS SO TRUE i love platonic pet names, so please feel free to use them on me!!

i also used to do that before i started writing my own content LMAOOO so i totally get it. i'm really glad i can provide that kind of safe space! that is my goal with this blog.

but no worries, i don't mind rambles in my inbox c: all rambles are always welcome!!

and yes, you're right!! it is daytime where i am. it was about 10 AM when you sent this ask, but it's almost 3:30 PM at the time i am answering it.

#aphelion replies: ⭐️ anon 🌸

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steamishot · 8 months

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3 year anniversary 😵‍💫

i had totally forgotten until today, but it had just passed my 3 year anniversary of living in NYC on 9/11. that's crazy. this is now 3/4 of the time i spent in college lol. i guess i'm a junior now.

we (mostly i) drove to boston last thursday. it was about a 5.5-6 hour drive due to the traffic. my laptop was on in the backseat with the mouse jiggler on. matt had just got off 9 days of working straight and was ded. the first night, we had AYCE shabu which was recommended by matt's coworker. it was just OK and our stomachs didn't feel too well the day after. we checked into the hyatt in cambridge (thanks chase points again), and was very close to MIT. there was a sign welcoming MIT parents because it was the back to school era. the hotel was situated across from the charles river, and we got to creepily watch smart looking people run along this river from our room. we opted to park our car 0.8 miles away in a different lot to save money ($40 vs $95 for two nights).

on friday, we met my reddit friend K in her condo in cambridge. i remember her to be meek and softspoken when she was in NYC for a short period, but she was quite the opposite in cambridge. now i understood it as her being overwhelmed in nyc because of all the stimulation, which caused her to shut down a little. anyway, her voice was a little louder than i remember haha, and her presence was a bit intense that i became quite shy. i got to meet her two cats and her bf M, who ended up hanging out with us for the majority of the time.

because K and M are both very intellectual (hello cambridge), matt really enjoyed conversing with them. M kind of embodies an altruistic jewish man with SF tech culture. M has an open library project, is anti-consumerist, and often wears a purple shirt with his name and QR code to his website. he keeps a public spreadsheet of his goals since 2015 and told us he's done 80K pushups. we walked around cambridge, went to an ice cream shop, linen shop, and a tea shop. then we chilled a bit at her condo where he made us some tea. got yummy udon at the nearby lesley university, and then went to a brewery afterwards. it was a long hangout, lol!

right after this hangout, i felt really self-conscious. i was the least accomplished one and honestly felt like the dumbest one in the group. they're (more so her) quick on their feet, decisive/opinionated, and can churn out thoughtful intelligent responses in seconds. her condo had a tiny TV, but many books and board games. she texted me after the hangout saying it was so nice meeting us and she appreciates me for going to visit her. i was dealing with my own feelings of unworthiness, and feeling like i don't quite fit in. i also usually don't see the intellectual side of matt often because he's totally drained from work and doesn't want to do more thinking outside of work. he had more of the spotlight because they were interested in his career. i felt like i didn't have much to share.

i felt self-conscious for a whole day afterwards, and felt weird responding to her texts, even though we chat so often (over text, reddit, and IG). i kinda wondered if we would even be friends organically if we didn't already have such deep chats via the internet. i finally got over that mental hump of not being worthy enough, and began chatting with her like normal again. instead of feeling unworthy, i tried to shift my perspective to feel lucky and inspired to have such intelligent company who i can learn things from.

matt and i also got to stay in the machimoodus getaway cabin in connecticut for the first time for two nights. i'm keeping a google sheet of the number of countries and states i've been to. so far, it's 18 countries and 18 US states. i didn't count the ones that were just layovers/pass throughs. we got into a frustrating argument in the car ride there, which i understand is all based on emotions. he's pretty much ded after the longer work week + one whole day of socializing with new people, which made him highly anxious and easily stressed because he had not had any alone/quiet time for a while. so, he gets highly anxious when i'm driving (stop!, slow down!) and i in turn get upset and react negatively to his anxiety because it triggers my anxiety. i get super annoyed at back-seat driving, especially when i'm the better (and more conscious) driver between the two of us.

i know that this was something that was discussed in my therapy session, where i don't have to fix his anxieties, and at the very least, don't need to take it personally. it's a work in progress for the both of us.

the getaway: it's the most secluded glamping site that we've been to. it's semi-luxurious, and not nearly as luxurious as autocamp. autocamp provides very nice dinnerware, a hairdryer, a TV, fast internet, etc. both autocamp and undercanvas had a community area where you can purchase food/drinks and hangout. getaway was much more isolated, and their store is self-service. no hairdryer and the dinnerware is a little cheap. the cabin is actually very tiny and thoughtfully designed (to stow away luggages and shoes). i really enjoyed the giant glass window and the windows throughout the cabin to feel at one with nature. since we had a 4 night package and also wanted to go glamping during the fall foliage season, we booked another two nights in october. K&M may join us (but not sure, as M does not like to spend money).

CT: so beautiful and lush, went to the nearby cat cafe where we were the only asians and they displayed an "antiracism" sign on the door (which i'm guessing that means that racism is prevalent in that area), checked out boho farms and got a pumpkin spice candle, went to the local grocery market twice, and did a short hike at machimoodus state park.

work: my new boss (director) officially announced my promotion yesterday in an email and included what duties will be shifted to my previous manager and my colleague. it's definitely weird to give my old manager work to do? so i'm trying to do as much as i can. there's a lot on my plate right now as i'm taking over compliance management and resolving previous payroll issues, all while still doing majority of the work for the VCP and housestaff populations. i do feel happier though, like that i'm actually looking forward to doing this type of work. it's very introverted and a bit more challenging so i'm excited to give a good impression in my first few months.

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At first I got to know HnG through TV, then through my classmate's I read all the volumes. I remember the last volume was published when I was in exams. And I cried all night because I didn't want to read END even though I was in love with Hikaru.

Haha, I almost forgot about my exam. I even forgot how it turned out, I think at least I didn't need the extra class. But I couldn't forget about Hikaru. I used to come to the school's computer lab to find out about HnG. I had also played Go several times through Yahoo games. I was not really playing & learning Go, fufufu, but chatting with other fans.

Maybe you've played with me? I remember there is a Fangirl my age from Spain. I tried to speak in English even though I had to open-close the dictionary many times. Unlike me, she preferred Naruto and we discussed these two shounen manga. I give some spoilers because the progress of the story in my country is more advanced.

I also watched HnG anime until the end. I never miss it on TV. You know all the OSTs, both opening and ending are super cool! The scenes of Hikaru crying in the library & in front of Isumi is truly unforgettable, both screaming and sobbing 😭, I wanna hug him and say, "please.. please.. please don't despair…”

After getting stuck on hikaaki's lemon, I immediately stopped. Totally. I was fucking serious. I feel frustrated and hurt that Hikaru and Akira were misunderstood like that. It wasn't until May this year, when my friend reminded me of that old memory, that I became nostalgic.

And then I read many fanfics in fanfiction, ao3, and several personal blogs. But I did it more selectively because I don't want to read hikaaki's lemon anymore. Ugh, it's like a nightmare for me if I remember it again. Well, this time I hate Akari's exploits as a hentai character, even to satisfy pedophiles. Ugh. Save the pure innocent Akari!

I have found some who are quite like me: Akari is the best for Hikaru. Not only because of eastern and especially Japanese culture -although that's one of the reasons- but because Hikaru needs a girl like her. Yup, they really suit each other IMO.

I was looking forward to the continuation of "The Move", "White Stones", "Purpose of the Game", and "Paradigm Shift" on fanfiction.net & ao3 (ups, sorry, actually it turns out so many fanfics about Hikaru/Akari but I can't remember all), but the authors don't seem to have intention to continue. That's okay, I did come too late anyway.. not even there, I chose the practicality of writing on Tumblr, gomen ne.

I think I can enjoy some shounen-ai fanfics. If it's a kind of brotherly love without the desire to own, monopolize, and for physical reasons. Hikaaki's romance drama in this context turned out to be quite fun. So I thought about writing again.

Hmmmm, can I still hope for a sequel? Or maybe there is another kind of drama series based on HnG?

#HikaGo fanfics #writer talk #hikaru no go #Brotherly love hikaaki-akihika

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