#to tell anyone what im doing. but i want to. idk this all sucks so bad like i wish this wasn’t happening lolllllll
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crying again lol ok
#purrs#and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking#damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I#miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out#FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks#being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i#even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just#text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or#at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju#just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an#and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be#been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode#and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b#be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a#breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing#on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here#delete later#like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway#and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy.#retreat tag
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I always think I'm dying cause some new awful thing will pop up and then I wait a few days and I'm not dead. Like the thing is still happening but I'm not dead and that's ok.
Most recently I've been getting like super dizzy and there's been something wrong with my brain and I get like. I want to say eye spasms? Idk what they are. It feels like I'm really tired and I've been staring at a phone screen all day like all the time. Even when I just wake up. And the top and front of my brain always feel wrong, and sometimes they hurt but it's not like PAIN pain but it is pain. Almost like a when someone puts a light in your eyes sort of feeling. Anyways the point is that I have been preparing for death or at least a significant amount of cognitive decline for two weeks and so far there has been almost nothing. Except that I struggled to read a few words I would have normally been able to read just fine but it's ok cause I can still read and walk around and I haven't started losing control of going to the bathroom
#i am actually so tired of there being something wrong with me#i just want to be normal and happy and healthy#idk why thats so hard#why do i have to constantly feel bad that's just not fair#talking about suicide past this point lol#im not joking when i say that stuff#ACK I FORGOT ABOUT THE ENDOCRINOLOGIST IM GOING TO ACTUALLY FUCKING KILL MYSELF#going to doctors always makes me feel like shit and that might actually be it for me#what if i literally died after the endocrinologist visit#there will be no answer i can guarantee that#she will have no fucking clue whats going on#and i will feel so fucking horrible that ill spiral and kill myself#one of my worst fears atm is that she'll be the kind of doctor that looks at genitalia#i will throw the biggest fucking fit anyone has ever seen mark my fucking words#if i have to undergo that sort of thing#anyways going to the doctor always makes me feel like the biggest fucking liar even though im not lying at all#she just doesnt believe me and i can tell and it makes me feel like maybe shes right#cause the pain isnt usually happening right then#so i just think that i must be faking it EVEN THOUGH EVEN MY MOM FUCKING SAW IT#AND PEOPLE HAVE SEEN ME FUCKING FALL OVER CAUSE MY KNEES SUCK ASS#i want a knee brace or a cane but im not always in pain so i think “do i really need it?” YEAH SOMETIMES I DO
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#im seeing things again that keep me from getting sleep and i feel like the world is trying to tell me something and im very scared#i know its not real but its hard to shake a feeling. it sucks idk ive tried therapy and meds neither really worked for me#i havent told anyone how bad its gotten because im afraid wnd people are counting on me#everything is too much effort and i selfishly just want to rest and do nothing#delete later umm#no like actually everything is telling me im not supposed to be here#cant do shit right. i fucked my whole life up and im only 22#so stupid tothink i could do anything with art and when im given the opportunity i get too overwhelmed becsuse i have one billion mental#illnesses. my parents are disappointed in me for like five different reasons i could name off the top of my head alone#its just like last year when i thought it was all over bc ingot rejected from 200 jobs then i got one but im not happy there euther#what a waste#i soent 22 years trying ti do art but once you lesve school you realize youre not good enough and you fucking suck and you cant get any job#and also you cant get into anything you want to donfor fun eithet#it literally could not be any clearer. im not supposed to be here this was a mistake#made the wrong choices in the wrong body doing the wrong thing always
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I've been popping pills like they're candy lately. (Also known as I've been in pain a lot and my allergies are horrible bc of all the mold in my room).
#diary#personal#on another note entirely that i didnt want to put it in the main thing. i feel so. different from what ppl know me as sometimes#like. i may talk to you. and you may think you know me. but do you really? ive been thinking. if ppl met me would they even like me?#like. when i have meltdowns or sensory overload or just need time to chill n stim. or just lay down n nap#like. idk if others could tollerate that of me. if i met someone irl and arent heavily masking my personality you can tell im strange#fuck. just today i spent like 5-10 mins just. tapping on my collarbones hard bc it feels nice feeling ur bones vibrate#idk. like. honeslty i cant even put it into words and speaking itself is so ineffective tbh.#it just really sucks tho. cuz i mask so much of myself so much of the time. i mask the pain. i mask my happiness.#heck i even mask everything inbetween.#honestly i sorta just dont believe anyone would like me if i acted how i want to. like. i am very autistic natually. VERY AUTISTIC#i just hide all of that for everyones comfort and it makes things activly less enjoyable for me.#idk. i just. want to go out. cling to someone i care about and make them guide me. wear noise cancelling headphones everywhere#i rly just want to never go anywhere loud or crowded (even tho i like trying new food n things).#i want to jump up and down when im happy. run when i feel. scream if i want. cry if i need.#id like it if someone saw me meltdown or shutdown they wouldnt freak out.#id like to be able to mess up things in social situations and it wouldnt matter. i just wouldnt worry about if id still have a friend.#id like to be able to be heard when i say no i cant have/do that. i really wish that was the case even now.#i. really have just become so much more autistic the more ive focused on myself. my needs and my feelings .#like. today my dad wanted to order something that *admittedly* is the exact same thing i was gonna order.#HOWEVER THERE IS ONE KEY DIFFERENCE. IT IS NOT WHAT I PICKED OUT. so what if its different from what i want????#i cant have that!! so i panicked a lot. and he repeatedly ignored me when i said no i dont want x food.#eventually mom stepped in and made it so i got what i wanted.#yknow? existing hurts so much. just all of the time too. i keep on coming back lately to the same thought.#over and over and over again on repeat. just. idk. its hard to explain.#i keep on thinking how itd be better if i was like replaced with someone else. if someone else was born instead of me.#like. im utterly useless. but maybe if only x sperm was born instead of me they wouldnt be like me. idk.#maybe then everyone would be happy. maybe then theyd be able to work and make my parents and everyone else happy.#theyd be able to fit in. they could lead a much better life than me. i wish i wasnt so utterly useless.#i just want a long break. its exhausting living and im not rly cut out for it. too bad i wont get one anytime soon. god i hate this.
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#im just. really mad. ok. just the fact that yay its my birthday tomorrow woo. and i keep asking people hey i want to do stuff for it#and every tune theyre like no :/ so. like. ig im just not doin anything and that sucks. ive been making plans for weeks now and everyones#canceling on me like. fuck cmon man. i get that getting older not to expect people to want to celebrate ur bday anymore but really.#really. i just wanted to play some dnd and go to a cat cafe thats all. like. but no. cqnt do shit now. it just really sucks ig.#and im not even expecting to get anything from anyone cuz they said uh bought you smth a while ago ig that was ur present lol. like. what.#im just so. tired. and this sucks. and i just want to do fun things with friends but no cant even do that.#and now my parents said well you forgot our bdays so now we're not doing urs and like. yeah i messed up but cmon.#im so bad with dates ok. if it isnt written down somewhere or no one tells me i forget it. i have no concept of time. cmon.#we gave our cats bday parties but not me ok then. idk i know its stupid to gdt this mad abt it but fuck i am#i only remembered the cats bday cuz it was written down. i dont even know when anyone elses is unless its written down ok.#idk im just so. angry and upset abt this. i know its silly to want to have at least 1 bday go right but i was really hoping. ig i shouldnt#have expected anything and just not asked abt doing anythihg at all idk. i know as you get older you stop doing stuff for bdays but fuck#i still want to do stuff. and i just cant and this sucks.#b.text#lol dont rb
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UGH why does eating always make me feel like throwing up :/ that is the opposite of what i want
#the bin#i feel less bad todaynthan i usually do. i think. but physically my body feels terrible. i am also still super stressed and sad but. i dont#feel as utterly horrible as i usually do so thats good i guess. i wish i could turn it into something productive but thats fine#i mostly wishbthat i could being myslef to do something fun like watch something or whatever but my brain still says no#and i wishbi could draw but my brain says no to that too#well. i can probably actually afford some weed after all bc itll peobs mostky be gas i gotta pay for for thw trip so#idk when ill see my sister next but ill have to fully figure this out then. and i gotta measure the inside of her boyfriends car so i can#know how much i can pack. i can also probably afford to get the things i wanted for my siblings from here before i leave. maybe.#gas will be a lot but they still owe me $300 so that helps a lot. i should be able to afford the trip fine. im really sad i have to leave#most of my stuff though. i dont trust my sister with it. but i dont have a choice so whatever. ill just have to deal.#well. im glad i dont feel so empty and horrible now. i hope it lasts and i can do something with it. its probs bc i had a meltdown honestly#ive felt like maybe thats what ive been needing to feel better. things still suck but i feel marginally better#usually i try talking to my mom just to get an ounch of social interaction and also i can complain abt stuff to her and she doenst tell#anyone. she has issues but shes pretty good about my privacy i think because shes scared id stop talking ti her if she broke that trust#which is true. i would probably stop talking to her. that was originally the plan before she stopled being such a bad mom anyway so#but idk. i havnet talked to her since she asked if i was coming to the funeral and i said no. she wasnt mad at me or anything but i havent#talke to her about non dad dying related stuff in a bit so. i shouod tho. im moving and i need to find out when a good time for that is.#and make sure she knows around what time i had been planning. and i need to know if she got an update about some stuff too.#also helath insurance stuff. im assuming she didnt end up getting a chnace to add me yet considering what happned. shes been busy#but my tooth pain has gotten even worse this past week so id like to see a dentist in june if possible bc god this thing hurts so bad
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man. getting a little sick of being everyones 15th option for everything. when is it my turn to be someone's first choice :^[
#or even second tbh I'll take it#i had a couple old friends from college msg me recently to tell me what theyve been up to#which is sweet and i care abt them n wanna hear it! but they dont ask after me or show any interest in how I'm doing#and it makes me feel like I'm just their journal or smth. a brick wall they happen to be standing near#don't get me wrong I love to be useful. but when ppl only ever interact w u bc they need smth from u. well.#rly not doing anything good for this complex im developing where my self worth is directly tied to my usefulness to other ppl lmfao#i dont want to be ppls fucking dog!! or not any more than i already am but whatever thats all im good for i guess!!#and i desperately want someone to be my fave person rn bc all my energy is going nowhere + im at my best when im at my most devoted#so ppl treating me like this rn is just making me incredibly vulnerable to being taken advantage of.#like yeah i am eager to please and ill follow anyone around and do whatever for a crumb of attention but maybe#if you're actually my friend u shouldnt be encouraging that behaviour. even if it makes u feel good like cmon thats not so cool man#or if you ARE going to encourage it then maybe u should acknowledge the power dynamic ur creating + try not to abuse it. idk 🤷♂️#urgh idk maybe im just saying words rn im very tired#I just feel like all the friendships etc I have atm are slipping into that dangerously unbalanced zone + becoming v one way#and I don't know what I'm doing wrong I'm trying the best I can and I guess its just not enough for anyone and that really really sucks#I'm doing better mentally rn but I dont currently have a support system + there are a lot of destabilising forces in my life#so im just. worried abt the direction things could take if I lose this foothold I've dragged myself onto yknow.#and I wouldnt have to be so worried abt that all of the time if I just had someone literally anyone I could rely on or even trust#but oh well. it is what it is. doing all I can to take care of myself so hopefully it won't come to that anyway.#sorry for rambling on so much if u read this far I'm giving u a kiss on the cheek don't worry abt me honey I've got this#anywayy goodnight#.vent#.diaries
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God I feel so dirty requesting this off anon lmao- may I have some titty worship with the moon boys? Any one of them will do, I don't mind :) I hope this request is ok!!!
a/n: im sorry this took so long bb also idk if this is what u wanted I'm sorry i tried!!
hershey's kisses
pairing: Steven Grant x f!reader and Marc Spector x f!reader
summary: You stumble upon a wonderful secret
warnings: 18+ MDNI, cum in pants, oral (m receiving), nipple play(?)
wc: 1.4k
a/n: it's called hershey's kisses cus that's what oscar isaacs nipples remind me of also sorry abt the gumdrop thing lmao
Steven Grant - 0.8k
You have him laid out on the couch, whatever movie that was playing is long forgotten about and he’s whining your name beautifully, a little symphony just for your ears as you suck his sensitive bud into your mouth. “Sto- The movie, baby. We-” His head falls back again as you scrape your teeth over the skin gently.
You were just playing with the hem of his shirt when this all started, but Steven had to go and be all squirmy about it so of course you ventured further. You trailed your hand up his abs, listening to how his breathing sped up the closer you got to his pecks. He let out the most satisfying moan when you pinched his nipples between your fingers. So obviously you had to up the sensations. You backed him up until he was laying down for you and being the good boy he is, his legs instantly spread to make room for you between them. You shimmied yourself up his body until his chocolate kisses were level with your eager lips.
His back arched beautifully, pushing his chest further into your lips as he tried to hold his moans in. “Stop it, get-- get off.” You pause for a moment looking up. His fingers are digging into the fabric of the couch as you kiss all over him. Your hand comes up to make sure both nipples are getting enough attention before diverting your gaze to his face.
His eyes are shut tight but you can tell they’re rolled back behind his lids. His hips are thrusting ever so slightly, gaining ghostlike friction for his rapidly hardening cock. You’re sat between his legs but not close enough for him to grind against you and it's the most annoying thing he’s ever experienced. “Please I can’t--” He cuts himself off with another gasp and his hands come to grip your shoulders, a warning of sorts but he does nothing to pull you away. You bite and suck at his nipple like you’re trying to leave a hickey over it.
“More--” His voice is broken, every word coming out as a raspy gasp. You stop your assault and look up at him with a deviously innocent smile. “What, baby?” You ask him with the sweetest voice you can conjure. “What do you need?” You watch his adam’s apple bob as he tries to hold in his whines of frustration.
“I need more.” He sounds like he could cry, so after watching him squirm, you give in. Your hand comes to cup the bulge in his pants and he reacts instantly. A pathetic moan slips from his lips as his hips press themselves into your hand as roughly as he can, shaking and whimpering as he does.
You admire the sight for a bit before bringing your attention back to his nipples, earning yourself a cut of moan of “Oh! F--” His hips stutter against your palm in their pace. His lips are pursed shut, giving you ragged little hums of what his moans should be and you have to bring your other hand up to grab his jaw, force his mouth open to hear them. They come pouring out of his mouth, more debauched than before, they’re barely moans at this point, more like shouts of pleasure.
You feel bad for assaulting him like this. He’s probably never had anyone pay this much attention to his nipples before but they're so soft, smooth, perfect in your mouth, and you get the bonus of hearing his angelic sounds above you, so why would you stop?
You have to pull your mouth away from him within the next minute because one of his hands grabs your wrist that's holding his jaw in a way that's more than a little warning, it's a frantic and desperate grip. You look up instantly, worried that maybe you were gripping him too tightly but when your eyes land on his face you're met with someone you hadn’t even considered.
His eyes are rolled back, deep into his head, his mouth is open wide, his plush lips trembling as he moans silently and his hips bucking gently into your hand as he fills his pants. His eyebrows pull tauter the longer he’s cumming, it’s knocked all the breath from his lungs and his face is turning a bit red. You’ve been entranced with him since you laid your eyes on his beautiful face but now you’re getting a little worried.
You lean into his ear and whisper gently, not wanting to startle him. “Breathe, baby” and thankfully that seems to do the trick, all his groans and whines shoot from his mouth as his eyes come forward and shut tightly, he leans into you for comfort and you instantly wrap all your free limbs around him, and your hand still massaging his spent cock as he shakes in your hold.
Marc Spector - 0.6k
You’ve been on your knees in front of Marc for around fifteen minutes and your knees are starting to hurt. He’s groaning gently above you but it doesn't sound like he's anywhere near close. It sounds like he’s just soaking in the pleasure your mouth is giving him, relishing it, losing himself in it, but the carpet is digging into your skin, and your jaw is getting so sore you're afraid it’ll be stuck open by the time he’s done. So you start roaming your hands around his body, scratching his thighs lightly and feeling them jump. You’re trying to figure out anything you can do to speed up this process.
His sounds get a bit more frequent, a little more breathy as you work your way to his hips, just admiring his body, his smooth, soft skin. Your hands can feel his stomach tensing as you slide up to his chest. His moans have died down a bit, sounding more like they're stuck in his throat as you rub over his body. His hips are beginning to grind further into your mouth, nudging down your throat as you reach his pecs.
His mouth finally opens again and a gasp flies out as your fingers pinch down on his nipples gently. You meant it as a playful little gesture, something he does when he's going down on you but the gasp is telling as to how he feels about the action.
Your thumbs press into his nipples a little roughly to get his hips to buck again. “S- Baby--!” You can hear him struggling above you, choking on air and your eyes open to see his hands clutching the bedsheets like his life depends on it. His cock is twitching more frantically in your mouth the longer you tease his gumdrops.
Marc is losing his mind above you. He’s never ventured over his body like this, whenever he’s getting himself off, all he needs is the thought of you, he doesn’t need all this. But of course, you’d be the one to give it to him. His eyes are shut as tightly as he can, his fingers digging into the mattress as he tries not to melt into your mouth. All his thoughts are clouding, he can’t think about anything aside from how perfectly you're touching him. How when you saw the stress in his face, you instantly got on your knees to make him feel better. Fuck.
He wants to last and relish in the romance of how you’ll serve him but you know him too well. You haven’t stopped assaulting his nipples since you found them. He can feel you please hums over his cock and heat is pooling at the base of his stomach, sliding down and warming his balls as he feels your lips pull into a small smirk.
He can’t help the broken whimper that falls from his lips and his entire body seizes as his dick explodes down your throat. His entire body flashes with heat and all he can see is white. He feels all the hairs on his body stand, alert to every sensation you're giving him. He can hear your moans over his cock, he can imagine that beautiful look of bliss you always have when his balls feed you like this. When he floods your mouth for so long you have no choice but to drink it all, he can feel himself shaking in your grasp, your thumbs still dutifully circling his chest in a way that has him arching into you embarrassingly, trying to prolong the immense pleasure you elicit.
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the jisung fic/hard hours…idk about everyone else but if it’s jisung i eat it up! like im blushing and giggling…it’s almost embarrassing 😅 I AM 100% ENCOURAGING YOU TO WRITE THAT!! if u want to ofc <333
*deep breath* alright….here we go
warning. omega Jisung+alpha y/n, thigh riding, messy orgasm
“Jisung, I don’t fucking care that you’re not an Alpha.”
He stops abruptly, pinned under your hips, bridged over his stomach to diminish his chance of getting away. His fussing calms down long enough to lower your face into the crook of his neck. “This is why you never smell like anything?”
A struggled whimper pushes from the back of his throat, flinching at the contact as your nose grazes over his scent gland taking in deep inhales.
“Caramel, vanilla and caramel..”
Jisungs falls flat letting out a long deep sigh the more you take in the barely there hint of his Omegan scent, it’s faint, but enough to render you breathless as it traces past your tongue and fills your lungs. “You smell so..”
He flinches, reaching for your shoulders to push you away. His typical clumsiness and awkward behavior had surprised you, months of living a lie that had you convinced enough despite his abnormal mannerisms and traits.
The Omegas size over you swayed your apprehensive thoughts well enough, even now as he manages to overpower you enough to at least switch your positions in spite of your effort to keep him down.
“You have to stop!” Jisung says frantically, grabbing your wrists to pin by the sides of your head before you can take control over him again. “Promise me you won’t tell anyone!”
“You know I can’t do that, Omega.” You bristle, twisting your hips to push off the floor and free from his hold.
Jisung’s blown pupils dilate rapidly, grinding his teeth together in a panic as your thigh propels up and settles against his groin. “What do you want from me?” He gasps, sucking in a ragged breath. “Pack leader will have me killed.”
His grip on your wrists loosens enough to squirm your way out, inadvertently crushing your thigh between his legs to push yourself up into a sat position, circling around the same waist you always found oddly slim, too defined and miniscule for an Alpha. “You really think I’d let them touch you?”
Jisung’s cheeks flush, bright pink on the apples, a deeper shade of red making its way to his nose the more he succumbs to every desire he’s contained for so long now. Nights of shoving a towel between the crevice of his door, leaving his bedroom window open in hopes of not awakening any Alphas with his sweet delectable scent. Not even suppressants could stop him from biting into his fist, cock rubbed raw against his pillow for a petty taste of relief.
“There’s always been something about you.” Creeping beneath his shirt, you tickle across his back to the dip of his waist, greedily delving your fingers into the carved hollows until your thumbs nearly meet at his navel. “Too pretty for an Alpha.”
Jisung can’t stop the moan that draws out from his parted pouty mouth, left open to swallow in as much air as he can the more you inch closer to him until your chests stick together; heartbeats thrumming at a matched pace. “All this time wasted trying to convince myself that these sub-genders mean nothing.”
His head shakes, eyes wrinkling shut to stop tears from rolling down his cheeks. It’s useless from the moment your thigh nestled between his muscular limbs, bending at your knee to rut against his growing size in a rough manner. “When was your last heat?” You ask huskily, tracing up deep lines of lean muscle carved into his stomach. “It’s been a while hasn’t it baby? So desperate, humping against my leg like some pathetic pup.”
Jisung whines, dropping his face in heated shame as embarrassment scorches its way across his features. Even the tears streaming down his cheeks offer a cooling sense of relief as arousal and need for more take over his mind.
“Please,” he wheezes, arms thrown around your shoulders to lean his forehead against yours, panting out faster to match each adrenaline fueled pump of blood racing through his veins. “Don’t ask me, please.”
“That long?” You coo, smoothing your thumbs around his hardened perked nipples. “Think you can cum from this alone? Is that how long it’s been, pup?”
Jisung nods pitifully, bottom lip trembling as you tweak and pinch at his chest, tugging his peaked nipples roughly and successfully earning a chase from his hips. “So long Alpha.”
The whimpered cracks between his words hide his weak attempt to stay strong. Head too clouded by lust and the delicious abusive friction against his covered length. “More, need more than this.”
With thick pink lips hung open, he leans forward, nose to nose, blinking dumbly and whining. “Will you give me more? Touch me more?”
“Cum for me like this first.” Dragging your nails down his sides hard enough to leave stains of red behind, you grip around his narrow hips, firmly gathering the fabric of his jeans between your digits. “Wanna feel you make a mess on my thigh just like this, show me how good you listen.”
Jisung’s teeth chatter, biting down and shifting his weight lower on your thigh until the hot center between his legs sits half on your pelvis, hands moving to your shoulders to hold on tight and fuck against you in earnest.
“Is this what you wanted pup? What my Omega needed?”
He groans, eyes rolling back far enough to leave only the whites visible, long neck stretched back further enticing you to claim and ruin every pretty inch of clear smooth skin.
“Alpha, I’m—oh fuck, I’m cum—“ his hips jerk, gasping out harshly. Lower half thrashing against your thigh hard enough to leave marks and bruises behind. The rough texture of his boxers and jeans adding a different sensation with each rub and sloppy thrust.
“Cum for me.” You breathe, chest rising rapidly. “Pretty Omega, so pretty for me. Give it to me baby.”
Jisung gasps, stomach caving in as his limbs give out and he drops against your chest, losing his breath with the strike of powerful orgasm ripping through his body. The release drenching right through his bottoms and leaking out onto your thigh forming a huge stain of sugary wet slick and cum.
He’s easy to lay back down after, limp and dizzy, the exposed bottom half of his stomach twitching with the last bits of bliss exiting. Fresh tears have him blinking quickly, a dreamy gaze following your movements as you reach to unsnap the button of his jeans.
“Alpha..”
“Shh shh..” you whisper, slowly unzipping him. “Alpha wants a taste.”
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Malleus x f!reader
Mating (this man is in heat),Rough cause that's all ik to do, my first ever malleus piece 😋 cause im in love with him
Implied breeding
Not proofread 👍
Anyways hope you enjoy 🩷or something
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Malleus has never been a harsh person or exactly rough in bed
But on those times whenever it's "mating season"
Just say bye to any sort of soft sex with him
Smut below here 🤧
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For you it was a regular day going as it usually did you met up with ace to talk about god knows what and you left back to your dorm
Little did you know malleus was watching from a good distance and now that it's that season he's been really jealous of anything/anyone that gets to spend time with you
But you didn't know that you didn't know he was watching and was slowly losing his shit
Over any guy that you talked to
Since malleus was always prepared for this type of stuff and since it came unexpectedly he didn't tell you about anything cause he thought it might be weird
But oh were you in for a surprise when you had decided to visit him
You normally visit him whenever you get the time or almost everyday
So today didn't feel as weird when you visited him and today you wanted to wear one of those nice outfits that mal has given you,maybe thinking it might be a good surprise
So you headed on over to dorm
When you got there you'd normally see someone just chilling in the lounge but you didn't
So you made your way to malleus's room and knocked
But he didn't answer
So you tried the door and you noticed it was open so you went in and in that room was malleus in his bed
Covered in layers of blankets sweating from head to toe
"Malleus! Are you okay? Sick?" You asked
"You shouldn't be here" he said in a raspy voice a bit weaker
"What why?" You asked concerned coming closer to him and sat on the bed not too far from him
"I need you" was all he said back
Before basically jumping on you and kissing you harshly, as you where frozen cause you didn't even realize how fast he was
He started kissing you and trailing down to your neck and started sucking and biting, normally he wasn't harsh at all but he was using his full strength not to rip all your clothes off right now
He asked if you where okay with what's going to happen and then it caught you
Now you had realized that he was in heat or mating season (or whatever)
But you couldn't just leave him like this to suffer and since this might last a while on him
So you gave him your full permission to do whatever he pleases with you, thankfully malleus has some decency<3
So he started to take off your clothes as he did you rapped your legs around his waist
He started to play with you like sucking your tits and he placed one finger in your entrance Which was added on with two more
Cause you didn't realize this man apparently grows in size whenever it's mating time (malleus x3 idk however big u want you get)
So now you already where a moaning mess grabbing on to anything close like a pillow or the sheets
Not to mention the tears that where already streaming down
He continues to play with you until you came on his fingers so he pulled them out and stared licking
So he got down and started eating you out making sure to leave no drop as you muffled your noises with the pillow to not make anyone else hear
As he started massaging your clit with his thumb and the other hand massaging your boobs
He started basically tongue fucking you since his was long af
And so you came in his tongue, tasting your sweat from here he couldn't get enough
So he pulled his tongue out licking off any remainders and started kissing you, you let in already
And he started to put his tip in your tongue
Fucked cunt
Even the feel of his tip made you get shivers everywhere since you already where so sensitive
He slowly inched in you felt the stretch of his big cock since in heat it gets bigger isn't that wonderful
As he was half way in you grapped his horns as a support and he lifted your bottom half for a better reach in
Once he was fully in you where out of breath, shaking and crying and seeing the bulge he couldn't hold back
He slowly started pulling in and out with his pace getting faster as he kept going
You grabbed his horns shoulders anything to keep you up
He was fucking you so harshly :(
You couldn't even feel anything but pleasure
He was basically fucking you into to mattress
As he violently fucked your cunt all you could do is scream and hide them in the pillow
The more you grabbed his horns the more turned on he gets
But even after you came so many times he's yet to cum you started biting him and even after a while you had gone completely brain fucked too only a bit of human decency stayed with you
As you has changed positions so many times
And when he did come in you he didn't hold back he basically filled you to the brim some leaking out but he wouldn't allow that now would he
So he would fuck it back into you <3
Now he was satisfied and how Long where you two going at it, for about a few hours
You had already passed out and he was too intoxicated with you to leave your side
You definitely can't walk for a while
And once you woke up all you felt was sticky all over especially in-between your thighs, malleus has yet to wake so you tried to walk to the bathroom and failed
Thankfully to your beloved Malleus who scents that you moved he woke and helped you clean off
And you know who was waiting for you two outside Malleus's room?
Lilia!
Good luck explaining the noises to him (he knows he just wants to fuck with them)
So as Malleus and You are sat outside, you with a flushed face and Malleus scrambling to say anything
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The end I'm too lazy to continue you gotta convince me.
Thanks for reading ig 👍
This took me about 34 minutes to make
YES I'M GONNA WRITE MORE SOON CAUSE I HAVE FREE TIME :3
(Shout out to school being closed for Christmas)
#malleus x reader#malleus draconia#twisted wonderland malleus#malleus x yuu#twst malleus#malleus smut#smut tw#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland headcanons#disney twst#twst wonderland#twst
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Big fckn redesigns here. Well mostly Charlie but Vaggie somewhat too 🥰🥰
Blue fits Charlie soooo much and I cease to see that many redesigns with this color. I still want red to be used in most of their designs because well. They are in hell, but not too present so to make way for other unique colors. Charlie has several physical traits from her parents but also she has some details in her clothes that match with them. When I uhh, introduce their designs you'll see lmao. I also tried to make her have a more roundish design, I jst LOVE those typ of designs omg. I just want the characters with not too many sharp corners pls Viv bro... 😔 oh yeah she's mixed cuz her mom's are darker in their redesigns. Alot of their genetics went down to Charlie so she doesn't look like an exact copy of Lucifer, I kind of hate that trend with hh and hb characters, like did the moxxies dad give birth to him bro 😭 also I kept her bow because it looks so cute and silly on her it just fits, I wish they made it bigger in her show design because it would fit her silliness so much. She has a cape with stars because morningSTAR smh why didnt they do something fun with that, missed potential but whatevs yknow I still love og designs no matter what anyone sayss. Did you know I love Charlie, I could ramble for days. I think I love Charlie guys. Maybe jst a hunch idk... also... s-snake fangs.. jeepers anddd..... snake tongue.... shiver me timberz
The wife ever. I had animation in mind more when I designed her, not like in a "How easy or hard would this be to animate" way. But I like to imagine when she's shocked her hair kind of fluffs out plus her actual fluff, when she's mad her bow turns into kind of horns and then her jacket expands like wings. Gave her a more hotel like outfit, she likes to work for fun (ew). Her socks are socks but she has some fluff under them she just tries to cover it up because she hates herself 🤪 (she doesn't hate her bigger body she actually feels much more comfortable chubby than when she was skinny with Adam. She was burdened with the weight of Adam's image of women... In this sorta rewrite she gained weight when she goes to the hotel because she's more happy. I'm dying I love chub Vaggie so much guys please) headcanon: she kind of likes fashion, it's like a fun hobby of hers to stitch together clothing and go out and buy clothes she'll never wear. She taught Charlie how to stitch and she SUCKS so you can jst see it on Charlie's pants.
Second outfits! Charlie's hotel uniform for. Well. Hotel stuff. She usually only wears it when new people come to the hotel, which.... isn't often, if at all. She still likes to keep it just in case. Also she goes really cartoonish when it happens, she does the looney tunes run and changes into her clothes in like 2 seconds. Can you see my vision? 😭😭
Vaggie's is in her armor. She has several pairs of armor lying around in the hotel in completely hidden spots. It's kind of surprising uhh. Yeah she wears it alot more than Charlie wears her alt uniform but still rare to find her in it. I don't get the whole thing with the exterminators and them not being able to fight according to Carmilla. Which is kinda stupid, I'm not gonna lie. So, instead of that, Vaggie has just let her guard down and has gotten much more comfortable in her surroundings so she feels like she doesn't need to fight anymore, she's just gotten rusty 's what I'm sayin. I have no idea how to draw armor. You can tell...
Extra below cut vvvv
BABY CHARLIE!!! With the heads of my redesigns for Luci, Eve, and Lillith. Haha you still cant see them. Uhh, ill definitely finish the thing one day. Its not even that big of a project thing, i think i jst keep going to other drawings so im like not focusing on one thing lmao. Lucifer has heterochromia because he was cursed to forever be reminded of his betrayal. I only explained that because Charlie has it too, it's kind of a curse on the entire blood line where at least one eye is red. This is like. Slightly older Charlie than the baby Charlie in show? I jst wanted to put her in overalls cuz omg that's jst so cute ughhh 😭😭
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel charlie#hazbin hotel vaggie#hazbin hotel lucifer#hazbin hotel eve#hazbin hotel lillith#chaggie#varlie#rainbowmoth#charlie x vaggie#vaggie x charlie#ill get to the other........ one day#art#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#charlie morningstar#vaggie#i hate her name. its now Valerie. or was it Valarie. i dont remember. uh. hi#i totally forgot abt my human au ILL ANSWER QUESTIONS SOON YOU GUYS I JST HAVE ALOT IN MIND RIGHT NOWW#lillith morningstar#lucifer morningstar#eve morningstar#WHY AM I SO HAPPY THATS A TAG. ITS LITERALLY CANON THEY WERE PRT MUCH POLY. I JST LOVE THE FACT ITS ACCEPTED 😭😭#hazbin hotel chaggie#hazbin chaggie#lucifers stolen wives#could that be the ship name for those three. or if someone comes up with a better one 😭🙏 im ass at ship names#baby charlie#also every morningstar member has a curse of some kind. sooo ill explain in the other post thatll come out in 2069 /j
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ZB1 LEGAL LINE AS FRAT BOYS
a/n : i lost the ask 💔
tw : mentions of drinking, drugs, sex (?), suggestive content, cussing, nsfw
mdni !!
• jiwoong
- the biggest asshole out of them i don't care fight me 💔
- will obsses over you at basically stalker level until you sleep with him cus he's delusional
- but the minute he gets you in bed he'll act like he doesn't even know your name — or he genuinely forgets a day later
- he probably doesn't remember half of the times he's ever fucked anyone cus it's not a big deal to him he was just horny
- has multiple girls thinking " guys i slept with jiwoong last night i think we might get together!! " but he's doesn't even remember what you look like 🙁
• hanbin
- a literal girl magnet
- like he could just sit there drinking and he'd get like three girls numbers in the span of an hour
- has a girlfriend for everyday of the week ( @lunicho is friday 😛 )
- he just has this certain charm to him that all the girls want a piece of him
- he's not as outgoing as the others, but he gets a good fraction of the girls
• zhanghao
- born to be valedictorian forced ( by ricky ) to be a man whore 🙁🙁
- no but frl i don't think he knows how insanely attractive and alluring he is — which is hard cus he lit has one girl on his lap, one girl under each arm, and like six other girls in the room wanting to talk to him ??
- but zhanghao is also rlly wanted because he is a man of mystery
- once you get into his pants ( which is a rlly hard thing to do — you go girl ) he's never speaking to you again
- like the minute he cums, he won't even look at you. like he'll literally go make a sandwich or something ??
- but out of all the ( 7 ) girls he's slept with, they say he's they best they've ever had. so now EVERYONE needs to experience zhanghao
• matthew
- DONT FALL FOR HIS TRICKS ‼️‼️‼️‼️
- has fucked the most girls.
- he likes to trick people with his sweet and caring demeanor, but really just wants his dick sucked 😛
- i feel like he'd be the only one to actually take you out on a date before he fucks you and then ghosts you 🥰 ( my standards are low..... )
- he's the most heartbreaking one cus he actually seems like such boyfriend materiel before he leaves you on read until he wants head again 💔
- but the girls always come back because he's literally in watch mojo for top 3 pussy eaters in the world
• taerae
- HE DOESNT GHOST YOU AFTER YOU FUCK 🎉🎉🎉🎉
- oh but he does fuck like twenty other girls while he's " dating " you
- he dates bunches of girls at the same time and they're all aware, but at least they're one of kim taerae's girlfriends ⁉️
- will take you on really good, perfect dates, but he's doing it to nineteen other people so it's not special 💔
- basically rotates girlfriends every two months, so that's sixty girls he's dating per year... you go rae 🥰
- his schedule is honestly so serious for him so the minute the two month mark hits you're cut off.
- but he's a good guy besides all that 🤗
• ricky
- is basically the leader of the fraternity like idk 🗣️🗣️
- the longest he's gone without taking a girl home is like.... three days ( i was last tuesday 🥰 )
- has fucked like every girl on campus like it's not even an exaggeration at this point
- kind of an asshole but it's okay i love when they're hot and toxic 🥰 ( can you tell i have relationship trauma )
- SUCH AN ASSHOLE WAIT CUS NOW IM THINKING..... he'd like flex his rolex while taking a picture on his family owned yacht that his rich ceo mom bought for him while wearing gucci....
- he's honestly such a smooth talker?? like he could def get you to sleep with him in under ten minutes of speaking, that's how good he is
- professional frat boy 😛
• gyuvin
- he's actually insane
- like he's going around snorting cocaine from girls' tits kind of insane
- he's the person everyone is chanting " CHUG! " for like ??
- LIFE OF THE PARTYYY
- if you show him any signs that you want to fuck he'll pull you into the nearest closet cus he'll buss it down anywhere
- NO BUT THE THING IS, HES SUCH A GOOD STUDENT NO ONE EVEN TRIES TO REPORT HIM FOR DOING DRUGS CUS THE TEACHERS WONT BELIEVE IT
- he's honestly the nicest cus he's actually such a fun guy to have around
#bubblegyu00#zb1#zerobaseone#zb1 frat boys#zb1 ricky#zb1 matthew#zb1 jiwoong#zb1 hanbin#zb1 zhang hao#zb1 gyuvin#zb1 taerae
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🍯 how about prompt 5, but fem!reader is using a strap on Lute
Hope you like this~ I decided to do an idea I was thinking of for this prompt and the final smut one next
Warning(s): mating season, demon x angel, something with a tail and horns idk?, wings stuff, enemies to lovers? Execution day♡ breeding talk, hate sex(?), talks of wanting to claim(make mate), accidental courting moves
Also I don't know how to write fights still-
Lute x F!demon! Reader
Execution day suck.
Of course it does- being hunted for sport or- whatever you weren't actually sure why those angels those 'oh high and mighty!' Angels came down to do such a cruel thing.
Odd thing to think. Never once would you have thought angels would be cruel. Would do such a cruel thing, much less do it inhumanely as well( it doesn't matter that technically you weren't a human anymore) you were still one once. Growling panting face flushed as you can into an alley way- not only was it mating season for the kind of demon you were. But execution day as well? Oh, how it was cruel.
"Fuck"
A dead end.
A fucking dead end.
Hearing a familiar laugh- a flap of wings as something landed behind you. Taking a deep breath glancing behind you. Paling at the sight. Of all fucking demons you could have seen. Could have ran into. You had to run into the cruelest bitchest one?
"Hello sinner"
She snarled that threatening(hot) voice as she stormed up to you, her sword bloodied along with herself from other demons, making you swallow thickly. Your tail tucked "i- hey~.. how are you.. girl?" You awkwardly spoke backing up, cursing the fact you weren't given wings. The urge to submit to her from the season strong.
"Just be good and just fucking-" swinging her sword at you as you dodged, whining our yelling "DIE- FUCKING-" yanking you by your horns, to the wall behind you as you swallowed a moan from the touch wincing before ducking
"Stop it!" Taking the move dor the sword stuck to push her against the wall accidentally bending her over bucking into her to get her to stop moving."Stop it, I said damn it! I don't wanna fucking fight!" Accidentally rocking into her making you pant as she snarled
Grinding against her on instinct, the toy you wore(for some stupid ass bet angel made you agree to) the angel snarled, pulling your tail, making you whine as she froze above her "wha- fuck is this turning you on you sinner?" She snarled out, glaring at you through her mask- clearly sneering at you as you humped her slowly tearfully in shame. A deep sigh escaped her as she pushed you back, easily getting up and watching you closely, turning around to look for what? You weren't sure.
Before right in front of you taking her clothes off "listen sinner. Im- I'm bored, and i can tell we both need this, no? Need the stress release?" She growled out glaring, taking the mask off, revealing her face to you. Making you flush- the asshole of an angel was HOT
"Y-yeah! I- its.. ifs mating season.. so- some demons are very.. needy" you gasped out as she came close, easily helping yoh out of your clothes smirking at the toy strapped to your waist- humming she grabbing your chin watching you closely before nodding
"Guess you'll do for now"
Shoving you onto the ground straddling you "be good~ and maybe I won't kill you~", purring out slowly, moving to take the toy in fully moaning heavily grabbing ahold of your shoulders bouncing against you wings fluttering "tell anyone about this and I'll fucking kill you~" snarling pulling you into a deep kiss roughly riding you panting heavily
"Wo-wouldnt dream of it pretty~" groaning loudly pounding up into her gasping loudly at the sight - seeing her getting lost using you as a stress release- panting wildly getting lost in the need to breed her- you grabbed her waist roughly rutting into her snarling
Easily flipping her around once you saw her getting lost into it- pulling out, flipping her onto her stomach, pushing back in- "hey- wai-" pounding into her roughly snarling into her neck nipping at her roughly "i- I said wait~! Relax~!" Moaning flushed under you, leaning to hold your horn yanking roughly which- made you pound even rougher
"I fucking hate you so much." Lute moaned out weakly glaring up at you flushed as you pounded faster causing her to reach over to tug your tail moaning you whine moaning louder
" oh i hate you too~ but.. Then why is my dick in you?" You growled out clawing into her waist "fuck to bad it wasn't a real one~ would be mating you all day~ filling you up~" nuzzling into her wings watching them puff up aggressively flapping against your face expanding- making you glanced in curiosity
"Too bad then~ Then you'd be able to p-properly breed me," she gasped out, arching her back and letting you shove more into her at the thought, making you whine heavily tail thumping in her hold at the thought "yeah~? You like the sound of that? Go on. Try it~ act like it's your real c-cock" she stuttered out, moaning at how that? Seemed to flip some switch.
Like the whole time? You were holding yourself back from her. To keep yourself in check. But the second she uttered those words? :yeah? Wanna be bred? Fine." Grabbing her waist again, pounding into her rougher snarling loudly biting anywhere you could on her bruising her roughly "gonna carry my pups~"
Sobbing out, arching her back, shaking under your hands, digging into the ground, she broke. Submitting to you. "Fuck~, please~" she sobbed, begging. Which later? She'll be disgusted either herself about. But for now? She was fine with it. Fine with submitting
"Yeah? You want that?" You snarled out, panting rutting into her harder - faster as if you truly were attempting to. Groaning loudly moving to tower over her gasping "wanna mark you~ claim you as mine~ my mate" your instincts? Wishing to take over to do so. But logically, it wouldn't allow it
"Fuck~" gasping out her wings, expanding under you, fully flapping as if to make a show. As if she was courting you- she growled at the thought, praying you didn't pick up on it. That you didn't notice she an angel? Just courted you-
You didn't pick up on it.
For some reason, that? Pissed her off. Snarling tearfully at the accidental courting and accidental rejection moaning loudly rubbing your tail in her one hand, tugging hearing you whine gasping loudly
"C-close~?" You gasped out flushed darkly, watching her turn her head nodding without thinking, reaching down, kissing her deeply, biting at her lips roughly getting faster into her, ignoring how you ached- how you wished for the sweet release hearing her gasping almost sobbing out under you as she finally came "did so good~" Leaning back so she sat on your lap nuzzling into her bitten neck "so good~" you praised watching her whines puffing up softly
Panting she got off, your legs shaking, turning kissing you deeply moaning against your lips "fucked me good like a good whore~ maybe I should rewar-" her voice cut off the the alarm- letting you know. It's over. Execution day is over. With a deep sigh, she pulled away from you quickly, dressed once more. "Shit. Ok I got to go-"
Making you whine gently, holding her arms panting tail tucked "but - but I need you ma'am ." she stopped holding her mask, staring at you before sighing, reaching to kiss you deeply, shutting you up swallowing the whines and Begs
"Lute. My name is Lute." She huffed, looking away grabbing her mask frowning "next time. I'll fuck you. I have to go now-" without waiting. She put the mask on flying off grunting loudly not looking back.
Cursing softly, you hummed. Can't wait for the next execution day if it's gonna turn out like this- as you laid in the alley moving to get up once more.
She couldn't wait for it either.
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Okay, second post, this ones mostly about Feyre because honestly, as of chapter 3 I havent really noticed Tamlin being out of character and from what Ive heard his character assassination was supposed to happen very quickly. Idk, right now he just seems like the same guy but traumatized although I'll fully admit that I didnt care that much for him outside of the Feylin romance (which was pretty sweet but too boring for me) so maybe I just didnt pay enough attention to him to fully grasp his character
Feyre is frustrating to me right now because I dont think shes out of character either, right now shes also just the same woman but traumatized, but like, I already know the extent to which her character will be bent for the sake of Rhysand. In these first three chapters she literally thinks something along the lines of "What's there for me to do but sit at home and spend Tamlin's money" Tell me, what does she end up doing in the night court huh????
Another thing thats frustrating is that Feyre clearly has issues communicating her feelings and wants, I know because I also had issues with that, and instead of learning that very valuable skill of telling others about your inner world and trying to work on her relationships (with both Tamlin and with her sisters), shes just gonna end up with a guy who can read her mind so theres no need for her to challenge herself and grow in any way. Yay. One thing especially stuck out to me in this regard was her attituide towards wearing dresses. Feyre does not like wearing dresses, its not like she never got to wear them back at home even though she wanted to, she just doesnt like wearing them in her day-to-day life, but she feels like she has to because she thinks its what Tamlin wants and because she thinks that if she wears pants its gonna somehow signal to the citizens of the spring court that something is incredibly wrong. But again, she doesnt tell anyone this, she doesnt ask Tamlin if he can just explain to everyone that everything is fine and that Feyre just has an unconventional way of dressing, which he would probably be fine with if its still the same guy from the first book. And it doesnt even seem like Tamlin directly made any kind of comment to her about the dresses she wears, she just saw that he was happy when he saw her wear them, which couldve well been him being happy to see her in general but she doesnt even consider that
Theres also the fact that its very unclear what she wants/what her problem is. Now, this actually isnt something that bothers me that much on its own, Feyre is traumatized and lost, obviously she doesnt know exactly what she wants at this point beyond "the situation Im in sucks and makes me feels bad, I want to get out", I think what bothers me is mostly the knowledge that Tamlin is gonna get blamed for a lot of this stuff when its really not his fault.
And I do want to make it clear that I dont think hes doing a great job handling this situation, I know a lot of people in the acotar critical sphere find his actions understandable and justifiable from his perspective and thats true, but hes still doing a bad job handling Feyre's emotional state. Like, one of your beloved's main issues is that she feels horrible because she feels trapped at home, for the love of god just let her go outside on her own. Maybe send her to village thats far inland or close to the border to the mortal realm, surely those monsters are not gonna manage to come that far if youre all going on patrols to kill them as soon as possible. And even if they do, the people of any village are gonna bend over backwards in order to protect their capital c Cursebreaker, shes gonna be fine
But, to get back to my original point, even if Tamlin was a daemati or whatever like Rhys and could read her mind the way she needs it to be read, he would still not be able to figure out what exactly Feyre needs right now because she doesnt know it herself! I literally read all of her thoughts and I dont know! Does she want to help others and be responsible for a whole bunch of people because its what shes always known to do? Does she want to avoid resonsibility for now because she wants to recover from her traumatic childhood of having the responsibility of keeping her family alive on top of all the new UTM-trauma? Its hard to say and that makes sense for Feyre at this point in her life, but she cant just blame people for not understanding her when she doesnt properly understand herself and refuses tl verbalize her feelings
Anyway, thats it for today, hope you enjoyed this
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END OF 2023
sorry to anyone who didn't want to be tagged xx
hi! most of you will know me as lucy (unless you're @m3ntallyunstable34 and know my real name lol)
so yes, i am lucy. and this is me reflecting on 2023 on tumblr because it seems like a logical thing to do considering this year sucked like 20% less (one of us is lying reference) because of all my amazing online friends. so yes i guess in a way this is a mutual appreciation post 🫶
@berryzxx you wouldn't believe me when i tell you you were the first mutual i didn't have to be all professional and got to be a crazy bitch with lmao so thank you for not judging me and talking to me like we're besties (we totally are btw bc i said so) mwahh
@longlivestv the loml literally owe my life to you bee 🫶🫶 you are one of the main reasons i'm friends with all of the people i will mention after, so tysm and thank you for being so sweet to me and i love flirting with you /hj ilysm 💗 also if im too young to fall in love why do you keep running through my brain? 😍😍
@loserdiaz one of the very few people i get to openly talk to and not feel weird doing it akshdasjhd ilysm april <33 and youre one of the only people i will ever admit has better pick up lines than me (thats a huge honour btw) so thank you for keeping up with me and flirting with me it makes me feel very special mwahhh and ily and we should totally snuggle by the fireplace you know i made those cookies you like (sab reference) 😍🫶
@weeping-in-the-willows thank you for being the absolute SWEETEST person to me <3 ilysm and btw you were my first discord friend and i'm so honoured about that ajshdnjfe you're so nice and ily and i hope you get everything you want
@theladyinwhite13 thank you for appreciating my unhinged comments and you're one of the few people who deserve to be told that they are funnier than me (i rarely ever give anyone this honour btw so its very special) and i think you might appreciate this reference 'so what if i just wanna be a little out of my mind'
@bodybetters and @its-tortle karo and tortle my beloved <3 ilysm you're like two of the BEST mutuals ever and i was so honoured happy excited (any other positive adjective) when i realised you followed ME back?!? i was literally so ajshdnjfe i can't even put it in words you're like my favourite people on this hellsite (affectionate)
@suugarbabe ajdhhgajsgf my pookie <33 you always stand up for me and ilysm for it youre the nicest to me what did i ever do to deserve you 😭❤️
@patrophthia omg the absolute sweetestt!! youre an angel and ilysm and i hope you have the best life every <33 ilysm thank you for being so nice to me and making me feel valued asjdhajksd i love youu
@theautistmwitch omg idk how youre still sane after hearing to my traumatising jokes 😭 ilysm mwahh❤️thank you for being so sweet to meee it makes me so happy <333 can't wait to traumatise- uh i mean make you laugh even more next year!
@kurtcobainsgreencardigan ajkshdad i had the time of my life 'bullying' [insert their name] (i dont wanna get cancelled yk just in case people actually like them) with you <33 [i mean you technically didn't 'bully' them but we bonded over that] you're so funny and sweet and ily<3
@catastrxblues nadine the loml <33 i LOVED chatting with you and ranting to you and reading your answers to my asks akgdskg im so glad to have you as a mutual and i would love to have some more ranting convos with you in the future haha asdhjhajsh ilysm mwahh <3
@nyctophile-me omg you're so sweet to meee 😭😭😭 ily you're like one of my favourite wives too you're one of the only people i will ever share sab with mwah ❤️❤️ id love to talk to you more next year <3
@magicandmaybe @andi-is-bored @alltheliars and @animallover4000 omg you're all so sweet and ily and we didn't really interact a lot this year but i loved chatting with you on discord 💕
@imperpetuallylost omg ilyy you're so unintentionally (or intentionally?) funny ahsjdnfne and i guess it's inevitable sorry sky but it looks like you (lea not sky) deserve to [redacted] goosebot and it's well deserved ajsjdjdne ily and id love to interact more with you next year <33
@london-affairs literally started talking to you like 5 days ago and we were flirting non stop that's CRAZYYYY ily btw pookie 😍
@m3ntallyunstable34 my literal best friend!! i absolutely love you mwah mwah mwah thank you for being my best friend and dealing with me for 12 years llama im shocked you're not insane yet ahsjsj ilyyyy ❤️
these are the mutuals that made me throw my phone across the room and scream in excitement when i realised THEY followed ME
also i will take this moment to thank all of you for making my year amazing and i love you all so much and i hope you have THE BEST 2024. thank you so much for being a part of my crazy blog i would never have imagined 438 people would find this silly little blog 🫶
@cassiopeiasdaughter @faultsline @underthenightskydreamsneverdie @theostrophywife @slytherinslut0 @imperpetuallylost @themidnightarcher @stvrlighhttt @psychedeliccc @prettybaby-grande @nqds @themidnightarcher @i-miss-you-im-sorry @cottoncandywhispers @svnflowermoon @finalgirllx @fallingforfictionalcharacterss @ashisgreedy @moonffe @suugarbabe @wordsarelife and @xobridgertonblues (i might've tagged some people twice sorryyyy)
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