Another way all of these struggles are connected, is the way media decides to automatically exonerate the perpetrators.

It is clear as day, how corporate US media decides to be complicit in the normalization of violence by deciding how it wants to cover things. The bias is in the headlines, and these are just two specific examples.

There is no way that these companies should be getting away with this. There needs to be groups of people to hold a fire to them. If nothing is done, fascists will continue to openly define how events are perceived by the general public in media.

I made this forever ago but These Four are fused with my brain and have yet to leave since

(will they act normal about it or will they blurt out a smug insult with affectionate undertones)

studying how Seven, Michael, and Worf all have very similar experiences of being tragically orphaned as a kid and adopted (or in Seven's case – forcibly abducted) into another culture/species leaving them with difficulties interacting with their own people and culture... i need to lock them in a room together.

listen. listen okay i try not to discourse on this account, i really do, and i try so hard to keep an open mind about the dream team because i used to adore their content and i don’t think they’re bad people, but i’m so serious when i say that this time they’ve actually ruined mcc for me. the behavior they continue to display in these events would have gotten anyone else benched and they don’t seem to be aware of it at all. openly picking a fight in the game chat with a mod as a twenty two year old man and then having the audacity to sarcastically comment about it in the next game to make fun of the choice would have gotten ANYONE else banned and the fact that all three of them have been doing it for TWO STRAIGHT YEARS with no fucking consequences is insane. the only reason they’re still in this event is because they have huge audiences who would be absolutely rabid if they were kicked. i get being an overly competitive person—i am as well, i don’t do well with losing, i’m a perfectionist—but when your competitive spirit actively hinders the mood of people around you or causes you to lash out you need to take a step back and breathe. the fact that dream has been doing this for two years without doing ANY of this or taking responsibility for his comments is astounding. the noxcrew seriously should stage a fucking intervention and reality check these assholes, (not that i’m blaming them for their horrid behavior). the teenagers on orange are doing better and have BEEN doing better at sportsmanlike conduct than these grown ass men for years. fruit is entirely right about dream saying stupid shit in the chat. they are in this event as a privilege not a right and i think it’s time they’re reminded that they’re here on good graces just like everyone else. unbelievable.

My'eah, some Sonic stuff I drew, playing with a different style!

Last 3 pages feature Terios, & the last page features Violet -- both are characters co-adored by @carnation-damnation !

that's such a beautiful sex and magic granny square! i'm new to crochet and have been going ham on crocheting amigurumi but for some reason granny squares are so intimidating to me. one day... one day i will granny the square...

YOU'RE OUT HERE MAKING AMIGURUMI BUT AFEARED OF THE HUMBLE GRANNY SQUARE

Well. hrm. the way they all connect to each other. like it’s all starting to look like a circle of some sort. jess as rory’s mirror/reflection/narrative foil but also jess as he pertains to luke and jess as he pertains to lorelai. luke breaking the church bells luke who says he was troubled but they gave him a chance and just bc a kid has issues doesnt mean they don’t deserve that. luke who is a figure placed against the rest of the town, just in the sense that he is not like them, he does not hold their values, he doesn’t even sound like them. which is of course a result of scott patterson’s new york accent, but adds to this theme anyway. and they use jess to build this picture, because they walk the same and talk the same and they’re stubborn—independent to a near self-endangering degree—and emotionally repressed in the same way and luke himself admits that he spent more time working at his dad’s shop than he did at school, which jess also does. but jess and luke are also. very very different when you get past these similar values that are maybe ingrained into them through different circumstances and same genetic makeup. and in their differences you get a lot of jess and lorelai’s similarities. when it comes to their family dynamics and how it’s affected them in particular. it’s made them independent yes, but it’s also made them hypervigilant, almost paranoid in the way they are allergic to accepting help and especially accepting help from the people who hurt them. jess only goes to his mother’s wedding because luke asks him to, lorelai only asks her parents for money because rory needs it for school. and they, and this is where they differ from luke, don’t know how to trust people and so they don’t know how to talk to people. where luke’s particular brand of emotional constipation comes from a general cluelessness as to how to do it—which is why the tapes helped him so much—lorelai and jess’ come from emotional responses to the situations they grew up in. while it was different—lorelai growing up rich, jess growing up poor—the effect it had on them still resulted in something similar. lorelai with her overbearing manipulative mother and (emotionally) absent father, and jess with his neglecting manipulative mother and (in all senses of the word) absent father. the ways that, despite their effort to distance themselves, they still end up with similar mannerisms to the parent they have the most conflict with (lorelai and her controlling nature + that scene where they have the same nighttime routine, jess and his love for books + tendency to run away). and of course, their romanticism. their big confessions and period drama-esque speeches and, yeah, i do think in a way jess was asking rory to marry him in 4x21. come with me. let’s get married. luke and rory both being the most important people in their lives. literati+javajunkie where they are all melding into each other, and luke is rory and lorelai is jess but on the surface level dynamic luke is jess and lorelai is rory and they are all each other. on accident. by sheer nature of making jess as a character for the sole purpose of interfering with luke and lorelai’s relationship (which means he is important narratively to them both) and by making him rory’s love interest/foil (because ASP casted him before she even had the idea for the character) you have now made an accidental blending of them all together. he is like a skeleton key of a character. Okay. okay.

A low effort offbrand MS Paint autism creature inspired by @vykodlak ‘s post, designed by me, a person who might be autistic and used to frequently get the “what’s wrong” or “why are you upset” questions when it’s literally just my face. It’s still just my default expression.

[id: a colorful cross stitch sampler that reads "Bad Vibes Only" across the center. It's densely packed with different motifs, some include: a death's-head moth, ghost, mushrooms, potions, a skull made of smaller motifs, a starry sky, and a large gnarled tree /end id]

finished bad vibes sampler :) was such a fun stitch except for me misplacing the coffin 5 times T-T

favorite shots

let the akudol games begin! ✨

"nbc Hannibal is a totally different show than WWDITS!" I hear as if Nandor isn't just the complete himbofication of one Hannibal "I laugh at my own jokes and have childish hissy fits when I don't get my way" Lecter

i personally have adhd and watching fourteen in wild blue yonder was like watching myself when i'm not trying hard to mask it:

the overreaction from being overwhelmed and not in control of a stressful situation? then immediately apologising for yelling? check

screaming and hitting or kicking the walls when emotional? check

being unable to stop yourself from talking a mile a minute or going on tangents even when you're in a situation where you shouldn't be? check

finishing sentences? check

talking to yourself constantly? check

wild hand gestures and pacing? check

easily excited/passionate about things? check

etc etc

people have written incredible think pieces about the doctor being neurodivergent across all their reincarnations, and honestly it makes so much sense

i have the cutest sweater in the world btw

some thoughts about the pressures of trialing in dog sports and the emotional environment of trials, partially inspired by this post by the beautiful @mongrelization

this post happened to come at a time when I was at a decision point in my trial career with mav. he had just started refusing jumps (i thought it was a training issue at the time, i now know he was in pain) and he wasn't having fun. we were disconnected in the ring, with him choosing to go visit friends or just blow past obstacles without attempting them. it was frustrating and it was such a stark contrast from our training runs (not flawless but immeasurably better than our performances in the ring) and i was making jokes (as everyone does!) about mav being the worst, etc, etc.

except they weren't jokes.

they sounded like jokes and they even felt like jokes in the moment, but looking back i can confidently see that i was frustrated and resentful and the "lighthearted jokes" from other competitors and from myself were just fueling the fire. i saw darcies post shortly after a particularly frustrating trial where we just couldn't connect, i was trying to decide whether to push through and fix our issues or give up completely on agility.

her post wasn't an epiphany, i probably would've gotten there eventually, but her post that said, essentially hey its fucked up to make those jokes about your dog and its fucked up for people to make those jokes about your dog and thats not how a trial should be - something clicked. its NOT how it should be.

i took a break from trialing in everything and cut training way back and just took all the pressure off of mav while i got my internal emotional environment back on track. im a really competitive person and its hard to consciously dial that back, but more than that, it's legitimately embarrassing when things go wrong with people watching you. if your default is humor about it (like mine), its a hard shift to not make jokes about your dog when things go wrong. but its an important and necessary shift.

i started trialing him again after about 3 months off, very lightly. i stopped entering full weekends and opted to do half-days or only saturdays and he fucking THRIVED. i made time to meet all his needs before trials, i prioritized his happiness over technically correct courses, and i got over the embarrassment of excusing myself from a run if it was going downhill. i fixed my internal emotional environment and that fixed our disconnect and made every win more meaningful.

the thing is, i am 100% sure i would not have fixed my emotional environment if i was actively competing and practicing the same patterns. i absolutely had to take that step back to fix myself. you can't make meaningful change if youre still in the middle of it acting it out.

i lost out on trials with mav and that sucked so much in the moment. i had awful FOMO watching my friends compete and finish titles while we did little low-pressure walks at home. but ultimately i gained something so much more important, and looking back i can't bring myself to regret that at all.

"Black Hole"

Love listening to music and being able to make art from it. Was listening to Black Hole by We Came as Romans when making this!