#this healing journey is hard af
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so drained from talking with my mom about some serious shit and crying.
but on the other hand, my ex-situationship tried calling me miserable yet he waits till after aot to hit me back up when he hasn't hit me up in months.
#he makes me sick#like what you bothering me for?#who you think you are hitting me up like you special or some shit#nah fuck that#this healing journey is hard af#i hate talking to people#i hate talking to anyone tbh#especially men like that#who hate women#then i tried to block him and his texts were still going through like wtf??#i told him to suck a dick so that's all that matters ✨#a win is a win#anyways enjoy the levi drabble i will be going on a road trip with my cousin won't be back till next week#( sugusearrings rants * )
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PAC: How can you wear your "Big Boy" pants right now?
Sometimes we need reminders that we can in fact, be "big boys" in our lives and take responsibility to change what we don't like about our lives. Happy reading!
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Pile 1:
There's a lot you CAN do. In fact, you have been doing a lot by yourself, weathering proverbial storms all on your own. Unfortunately, you haven't been conscious enough to acknowledge all the effort you've been putting in to simply push through. Let me be the one to give you the kudos you deserve, Pile 1. You've been doing way more than you think, albeit these are mostly internal efforts (like maintaining a headstrong attitude in the face of a challenge). You currently feel challenged to take active steps in your external life, though. You might find it hard to apply things you learn to your life or simply lack the discipline to see your (quite excellent) plans through. You need to be reminded that you do have the free will to choose to make all your plans come to life :) You have what it takes, sweetie; you really do.
Bonus - How do you need to go about it? One thing that can EASILY help you execute your plans is to bring in help (trigger warning though). You all seem Independent AF, and I get it, sweets. With everything you've been doing, of course, you can handle anything, but you definitely need some support too right now. Especially if you struggle with something like discipline (or whatever challenge you're facing right now). Bringing in even just ONE person (or multiple) to help hold you accountable to your plans, with compassion, would help you a lot (that person/people don't have to be real too; you could bring in a bot from an app or AI, I don't care) as long as you feel like you have a buddy, you know? Somebody who makes you feel like your plans matter. It's an excellent way to pour into yourself right now and show yourself some TLC ✨️ You deserve to make your plans a reality and have a bit of fun on your path towards it.
Love, light, and hugs!
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Pile 2:
Doing things your way and rejecting convention might be a BIG step for you, to be honest, but it's well worth it, Pile 2. Celebrate yourself, basically. Slow down and enjoy yourselves a little bit. Maybe you've been living your life BY THE BOOK so far, and now you're going to put your big boy pants on by letting loose and doing things differently for once. You're not abandoning yourself and your needs nearly as much anymore, and so you're quite stable in your own skin as a result. That's really impressive, Pile 2! You have lived in fear (possibly a fear of failure), and I'm sensing some mommy wounds maybe? This is where your fear stems from, and this fear has kept you from really truly living. You might identify as a workaholic too. Maybe you prefer to keep yourself busy as a coping mechanism to ward off any feelings of anxiety. This has a direct correlation to childhood wounds of yours. So put your big boy pants on and put an end to conforming to standards that don't respect you and what you stand for, Pile 2.
Bonus - How do you need to go about it? I feel like this pile needs extra guidance on how to exactly wear their big boy pants. Start by acknowledging that you do have wounds from childhood, specifically those from female (motherly) figures, if not your mother herself. Take a radical approach to your healing journey right now. Look into the concept of mothering yourself and come up with customized ways to do just that. You got this, Pile 2 :)
Love, light, and hugs!
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Pile 3:
It seems like you've already been wearing your big boy pants, Pile 3. Good job! Looks like you've been on a healing journey, and you're now at a point in life where you can reap the benefits of all the inner work you've done. You've reached a level of mastery over the mind, and now it's time to make room to tend to your heart. You need something that your authority figures couldn't give you readily, and that's unconditional compassion. Show yourself kindness even when things don't go as you'd like them to. Hold yourself through the thick and thin of life, as you would a child. This should open up a brand new way of living and viewing life that you never thought possible. It has always been waiting for you and your attention. Nurture yourself on a whole new level and be ready to receive 10X from the universe. You're going to feel so spoiled, I love it, haha! 😄
Love, light, and hugs!
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#PAC#pick a card reading#pick a pile#pick a card#pick a picture#tarot reading#practical spirituality#astrology community#spirituality#spiritualgrowth#tarotcommunity#divination#tarot cards#tarot witch
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How do they feel about you? (Romantic involvements only)
General reading
Pics credits to their original owners
Current energy+feelings (LGBTQ friendly)
Take it with a grain of salt if you feel like the Message is meant for you then great if its not then dont stress abt it (:
Psychic reading
Excuse any mistakes
Take a deep breath and select your pile
The purpose of this pac is not to disregard anyone's feelings but rather to bring clarity to the situation,the decision is always yours in the end .
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Pile 1- 🖤
They feel like you are a secretive you dont like to show who you truly are ,they feel like you are afraid of change ?!someone who wouldn't change for anyone ;high way or my way typa person ,they feel slightly intimidated and ignored they think you do it on purpose tho ,They like your style and wants to be friends but is unsure of the first move ,they feel like its a burden to stay quite have secret interactions, glances, they feel tired and cant move on i feel like this person is frustrated and wants to focus on themselve they, feel like if they work on themselves then only you'll notice them ,they are willing to give a try but its hard to make up their mind i dont feel like they pick up on clues or anything, they want people to be upfront and direct with them even if you guys are in communication they have no idea of how they can move this forward to stable ground ,i feel like transformation in this relationship will be beneficial cause at the moment things are stuck ,this might be a new person, they are burdened with responsibilites right now .
Pile 2 -🌬️
Aww they are grateful to have you in their life i feel like they lookup to you they are inspired to take action but they are kinda shy they don't feel like they have a lot to offer and they see you as a fulfilling person i think you are someone who is sweet or heal them like touch their heart in some way they feel like you guys connect deeper each time you meet each other i dont feel like they have expressed this feelings this is someone who doesn't want to wait if they feel like they have found the right person they'd do anything to get their attention,they feel protective over you i feel like if you have shared some moments with them thats where this sense of protectiveness is coming from ,they think you are detective? Lmao so random they may feel like you have them figured out or you know something which you wouldn't confess .Do you stalk them or keep an eye on their actions i see you bae
I was getting online for some reason?
Pile 3 -🔥
This person is in their feels they are ready to embark on a a new journey towards self live they see you as light-hearted individuals who likes to take action and share their resources with others they dont feel like you are snobbish or cold they see you as a helpful person who's willing to help everyone around them they feel like you should love yourself first and put yourself first they feel like you over extend yourself to the point you don't realise people take advantage of you they see you surrounded by weird individuals honestly ,as for their feelings they feel like you are closed off from them and wouldn't wanna talk to interact with em ,they find you interesting but they have no plans as of now , they feel focused on themselves and the things they are working on takes half of their time. They might be a loner who doesn't appreciate being close to others they might distant themselves from time to time if they are giving you mixed signals yeah its just them being themselves basically only their closed friend knows this , they dont let anyone " in " easily.
Pile 4 -❤️🔥
You might come from pule 1 this person might be very secure they are happy go luck ,always optimistic ,popular af realise their worth this might be a crush if it is... they know you like them but i dont think so they want long term commitment , they think crushes come and go and its not a lifetime feeling this person is not the type of person to date around,make people compete for their attention,they are aware of their power but their focus is not on love they have been hurt before and its possible they are moving on from a past relationship they feel kind of tense they see you as someone who's young and growing. Their feelings aren't that developed they see you as a good person or a good worker .argh i dont like this person's attitude but you guys gotta deatach they dont have strong feelings atleast not in romantic sense .I do feel like you will receive clarity on the situation ,keep being Positive.i feel like this person is willing to teach you or this could be a karmic they know you will learn something from them and its unclear what they are talking about ,they do understand and respect your feelings tho .This person chanelled messages i got is stand strong , " be brave" , accept yourself , dont back down , show yourself appreciation!! This person is indecisve regardless ,oh is this someone you hada conflict with?!
Pile 5 -💥
This person is feeling down by the way you treat them oh gosh i feel like they have bern guarding their heart for the longest time ,this is an heartbroken individual who's wanting to take a risk they are drawn to you, they see you as a person who they wanna be like OH you might inspire them to be a better person or after meeting you they have seen significant changes they are aware of your impact they like your eyes? Oh hmm
This person is sexually attracted to you they like how you laugh ,how you interact with others ,how you touch them ,they are kind of giddy lmao but they put a brave face tho as if the tower has not just broken down by the amount of attention they are getting from "you " there is a lot of emphasis on you they feel possesive they would be very hurt if you decide to ghost or juggle them they are trying to hide their cards and play their game quietly or you might get scared ? By their feelings ...i feel like the way they will confess could shock you i dont know if you like this person or not they can see you are confused ? they also feel like you can tame them with your charming qualities or it has alrdy happened uff ,they wanna play hard to get -make a poor attempt atleast, establish healthy boundaries if you dont like them
😭this was so cute i like this person's energy,but yo be aware they might turn cold or hide in their coccon once they feel something's off.
Pile 6-🪭
Oh this this person someone new or a friend? Oh babe this could be a potential partner the feelings are reciprocated they ARE attracted to you, was it love at first sight for you?! cause it was for them ,i feel like this person is into manifestation and actually they see you as their ideal though they are afraid to advance their movements with you they take their time and they dont settle for less they have be sure of their feelings ,this relationship will be very beneficial for you pile 6 you will grow much confident in yourself and this person will bring the stability you deserve i'm so happy for you pile6 i can feel you guys have been through shit that lead you feeling empty ,they feel like you guys will make a good couple, they're daydreaming the feelings are kinda intense tbh feels little bit pushy even ,if this is a new person its like an highschool crush they have they feel like a child again and thats scary for em Capricorn? its hard to tie this person they value their individuality this person wants to grow and experience different things you could be on and off or ride it along with this person but they require alone time they might get secretive but its for their own good .
A very positive reading indeed but be careful they might not be the best lover and transformations could exhaust you ,Use your discrement.
Thanks for reading!!! Have a great day/night ahead 🕯️
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Random Astrology Thoughts #Foe
Contrary to popular belief, Venus in Gemini people can commit to one person and not cheat. It just has to be a hyper stimulating, spontaneous, overactive, and borderline cracked out relationship but it could definitely work. Venus Gemini’s partners have to understand their need for sharing ideas, strong communication, great experiences, and again SPONTANEITY. You can’t bore them, or shall I say “us” hehe 🤭, with doing the same repetitive things everyday. They need to constantly be intrigued by you, learn something from you, share new experiences with you. If you are the type of person who does the same old mundane shit all the time, *cough,cough* earth Venuses, heavy earth or Saturn. Then Venus Gemini people may not be right for you. In fact they’ll probably just piss you off. In a similar sense, Gemini is not an emotionally charged sign. It’s ruler is Mercury: the mind. It will be a relationship grounded in logic first. Gemini is mutable air, air cannot be contained or controlled. You have to give the Gemini the room and freedom to breathe, to air out. Therefore water Venuses or heavy water energy may not be so suitable either with them wanting to hold their partner close and jealously and shit. *cough,cough* Scorpio, Cancer. Fire and air Venuses or people with more of those energies get it, and make a perfect unhinged match for the Venus in Gemini native.
Mars in first house people can be so incredibly childish. Especially the guys, only they are assholes about it. Even as they age, there remains an air of immaturity somewhere. I don’t think there’s a planetary placement more me, me, me then Mars in the first. Sign placements matter, but even still there is an obnoxious quality about them. Place it in a fire sign and OMG 😑.
Let’s talk about the Sagittarian laziness. Sure they can be the traveling, adventurers, seeking good times and fun experiences but usually they don’t feel like doing jack shit. They could honestly stay in their homes for days and be hermits and feel perfectly fine. They may mentally travel some place, be on some spiritual journey, or think about planning a trip all on the comfort of their couch. Oh and have you seen the inside of a Sag’s car? Filled with shit, usually useful shit…but some of it can be just plain junk. It’s the Jupiterian “everything in abundance” that can make them wasteful. Saggy’s do like to get out and do everything BIG and in excess when they do, but they can be just as overindulgent in doing absolutely nothing.
Capricorn Moons are sensitive. They won’t let you know this unless they really trust you, but they are sensitive AF. I’m liable to say more so then Cancer Moons. They’re cry in the corner of a dark closet kind of sensitive. They don’t like to express emotions because they simply fear them. They think hard work, and achievement will heal them when in fact it’s a distraction from their real problems. Ultimately placing one of those little round band-aids on a gushing wound. It’s important they confront their real issues, usually related to their mother, primary care takers, or living situations as a child. Though if you get a Cap Moon to open up to you or just cry and express their deepest self to you they really fucks with you…and you should feel honored.
The 8th House is the house of the inevitables and the unknown. Taxes, death, inheritance, other peoples money and resources, secrets, mysticism, crisis. People with heavy 8th house placements no it doesn’t mean your gonna die young or some horrible death but usually they venture into careers or are very interested in things relating to the finances of others, death, psychology, magic. Heavy 8th house makes therapist, morticians, stock brokers, investors, psychiatrists, mediums, psychics, astrologers. The 8th house though contrary to beliefs has very little if anything to do with your sexual proclivities. On a basic level that would be the 5th house and where-ever your Mars is and sign placement in your chart.
The 6th House is everything that you gotta do before you can enter the 7th House. Hence you have to handle 6th house bullshit before you can enter a successful partnership with anyone. The 6th house is daily duties, daily routines, work life, physical health and to an extent with it being the direct opposite of the 12th…your mental health. How are you gonna have a good relationship with your spouse and your mental health is fucked up? How are you gonna be able to run around in the yard with your kids and your physical health is fucked up? How are you gonna have time for the people who love you when your daily routine and schedule is fucked up? Gotta handle those before seeking anyone else out and waisting their time and yours.
#6th house#7th house#8th house#astrology#capricorn moon#sagittarius#mars in 1st house#venus in gemini
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Honey I've seen how you write for taehoon and I must say that you're really good at doing his characterization.
I personally think that, because he's someone who has quite a hard time expressing himself and with relationships, he would actually not put that much efforts in his relationship with reader. Like not trying to respect others' boundaries and working for the relationship to work, because for him of reader knows he like them and they like him why do anything else ? It'd be a waste of time. That is until reader is fed up because he's doing the bare minimum and wants to break up. As soon as reader says this, he feels something beating and throbbing in his chest. He's scared. In a way he didn't feel since a while. He can't lose them right ? He can do better! He just got to show them! So when reader let him a second and last chance, he becomes the best partner. So much that it's not easy to believe he didn't put any works at first. But it's weird because it actually doesn't really bother him. When he see how reader smile when he just sit next to same and enjoy each other's presence. Did they always smile so brightly ? Now that he've seen how a relationship work he's gonna do his best to not let reader down again.
Hey anon, thanks for reading! It's always pretty fun to see people's differing opinion of the characters so ty for a chance to discuss! I think everyone's Taehoon HC varies a little and my Taehoon probably is a bit more mature and a little less wild.
Some more Seong Taehoon x Reader hc below...
I build a lot of his maturity based on the trauma of losing Dowoon. In my hc, I cannot overstate the impact this has had on him. He's healed somewhat, but it's an ongoing journey and he has learnt a lot from it.
With Taehoon losing someone so close to him (and seems like the only friend he had), he makes the effort to be a little bit kinder to you if you manage to get close.
Kinder is subjective though.
But he's had the experience of pushing someone away, and then it resulting in the worst possible outcome so he's not likely going to repeat that mistake again.
Of course he is an asshole to everyone, you included but he tries.
He's not a complete robot. He's smart and perceptive af. Taehoon knows how other people sees him, the effect he has on people, he just doesn't care.
In a relationship though, he would show he cares. In his own way. He gives you a little bit more leeway, does a bit more for you, tries to make himself a better partner for you.
Note - partner, not person. He's not going to fundamentally change who he is, but he will learn to read you a bit better and if there's something he does that genuinely upsets you and doesn't clash with his morals/principles then he will give it a go.
Honestly, I think if he's doing the bare minimum with you then your relationship is on the way out. He's not going to put in the effort if he doesn't want to be with you.
Then again, Taehoon imo is the kind of person that would just straight up tell you that. He doesn't mince his words.
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Happy happy birthday @cavendishbutterfly! I still remember the excitement and blissful joy of finding your writing through Bridges, which remains one of my favorite Drarry oneshots to this day! I’m so happy to share this space with someone as talented and cheerful as you. Your fics have brought me comfort and warm, fuzzy feelings when I needed the most, and I love your supportive and positive energy towards fandom and your friends. Here’s a humble Cav reclist to celebrate your birthday and spread some love for my favourite gems. Check out that range with so many comfort tropes and ratings, plus the sexy healing and evocative atmosphere we deserve. From short shorts with beautiful prose to an 80k 8th year epic, this list has everything you need to get through one more week. And btw, Cav was incredibly prolific last year and I think everyone should go check their full catalogue right away. Then join me to add your own favorites 🎉🎉🎉
Windy City (T, 1.6k) - one of my earliest faves, such gorgeous prose and a sharp sense of place, the melancholy urban atmosphere is breathtaking. And journalist Harry as a treat!
Harry works hard at this whole journalism thing, even when they send him abroad to do his investigating. He'd just rather be home.
In The Wings (T, 1.6k) - this short is so gentle and healing I could cry, I’m enchanted by Draco’s soft pov and those vivid ballet descriptions, so very dreamy!
Ballet has been a path to healing for Draco after the war. Now, it's his final performance in the starring role, and his boyfriend is in the audience for the first time.
To Make A Way (E, 5.4k) - the fuck buddies cinema AU you didn’t know you needed! Sexy af mixing casual and sweet, organic slow burn and a gorgeous contemplative tone underneath. It’s about the aching!
When Harry finds Draco in the back row of the cinema, he doesn't mean to accidentally befriend him. Or fuck him. Or catch feelings. The thing is, Draco only does casual.
Glowing (T, 9.7k) - the softest vampire cottagecore domesticity you’ll read today, this made my heart melt. So darling and intimate, it felt like I was right there beside them. Flatmates by Cav just hits differently, I’m telling you!
Harry's lived alone and vampiric in his cottage for ages, until a long-lived Draco Malfoy suddenly shows up to answer an advertisement Harry had practically forgotten he'd put in the Prophet. Cue soft blood drinking, quiet nights of reading and crocheting, and Harry thinking that maybe--just maybe--he might not be so alone anymore.
Bridges (E, 16k) - ultimate comfort read with travel roommates exploring Budapest, Harry exploring his sexuality, soft contemplation and poignant conversations. I love how easily this fic flows and the atmosphere is 👨🍳💋
Harry and Draco are on a trip to Budapest to help with Kingsley's re-election, but that's the boring bit. More interesting: Harry Potter is changing his Tinder preferences to include men.
The Hardest Hue To Hold (M, 17k) - another incredible love story set outside the UK with a charming academic background and fascinating characters. I love how Cav included different mythology references, and the honest, delicate take on Harry’s trans journey.
Harry needs to get the hell out of England. So he sets up a teaching assistantship in America, hops on a plane, and heads off to a fresh start. Except there’s a familiar face among the university faculty, and it’s really not the familiar face that Harry wanted. Or at least, it’s not who Harry wanted at first.
Inertia (E, 83k) - almost 100k of delicious 8th year enemies to friends to lovers, I live for the angsty slow burn and the exquisite coming of age vibes. Soft and healing and full of hope!
It’s three months after the war. Harry has already mucked up all his plans. Draco is no longer the prince of Slytherin house. And they sure as hell didn’t both mean to go back to Hogwarts at the same time. Cue snarking, long conversations…and unexpected snogging.
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Healing is hard af (Ch2)
I suppose its been a long time since i wrote a post. I keep this as a journey and to remind myself that im wise af. Sometimes our intuition or thoughts could be the best advice. There have been ups and downs crying for months. Ill be honest i just thought giving it up. Just rotting away in my bedroom. I came across this post on reddit on the r/nevill goddard subreddit. My life changed, everything started making sense to me. My negativity started attracting negative things. The moment i started changing my mindset, things started happening a lot of things, good things precisely. Definitely there were ups and downs but those things keep pushing you to go ahead.
small post for now.
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do u know what level crafter gauntlet open? I did searching yet find nothing like literally so i kinda clueless here
I hate how unclear some of the instruction are smh, I wish they make the tut much more detailed cus Im dumb and slow af
also please do share some tips for beginner I literally crying screaming throwing up ripping my hairs off over here cause I didnt understand a single shi
thxxxx and have a nice day btw🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻😘😘😘💕💕💕
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The Crafter Gauntlet is unlocked at Room Rank 3!!!
I totally understand what you mean though, I had so much trouble trying to understand the game mechanics as a beginner 😭😭
I researched a bit and added a few of my own tips for beginners, hope this helps! 🩷✨
Some tips I can share for beginners would be:
Send and accept friend requests: When going into battle you're able to use their cards. Some of those friends could have some really useful cards to use. I've had many instances where a card from a friend that I needed really helped.
Do not skip events: Many events can give you valuable resources and materials. These events may not give SSR Rank cards but they will give you an R Rank or SR Rank card if you participate in them. They give gems, thaumark and keys and other useful materials.
Save your gems: The game is playable in f2p and gives a normal amount of gems to do so, but do save your gems and don't waste them unless you really want or need a card. When it comes to Sam's shop there is a set that comes with 10 magical keys and is only 250 gems though it's only available once a month. By buying this set, it does save you a few gems. A normal 10 pull is 309 gems.
Team: When it comes to forming your team I recommend teaming them up based on the cards Duo Magic and Buddy Level. Train the cards that you would like, level them up and team them up based on Duo Magic/Buddy Level. The Characters give each other important boosts during battles based on their buddy level and could be a great help.
Lesson's: History lessons grant EXP that contributes to the cards level. The additional rewards are "Blooming Honey". Flight lessons grant EXP that contributes to the cards vignette level. The additional rewards are "Snacks". Alchemy lessons help increase the Buddy Level of cards, additional rewards are "Alchemy Tokens" and spell upgrades.
Card Ranks: Three different types of Rank cards. A R Rank card has a max level of 40 that can be extended to 60. A SR Rank card has a max level of 60 that can be extended to 80. A SSR Rank card has a max level of 80 that can be extended to 100.
When TWST allows you to pick a card to start the game, these are some beginner cards lots of people and I recommend (their info in there as well):
Riddle Dorm uniform – Highest ATK.
Leona Dorm Uniform – Highest HP.
Trey Dorm Uniform – High DEF and great healing.
Cater Ceremonial – His power boost is very good during the early game.
Rook Labwear – Decent HP and attack which helps beginners.
Malleus Ceremonial Robes – Gives power boost.
Card's: I recommend leveling and upgrading your cards one at a time. You want to upgrade all the cards or at least a few cards in each element. By doing this you can have a pretty big upper hand when doing battles because elementary bonuses play a pretty role in the game.
Tests: You should do these and try them as much as you do with the lessons. Unfortunately for me, I didn't know how much of a help doing these would have and didn't do them. Doing tests can give you interesting and good things when you get good results. They also help train your cards faster.
I really hope this can help you on your gameplay and journey for Twisted Wonderland!! ✨🍬
I can always go into more detail or add more things if they still seem a bit hard to understand 🫶🏽✨
#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twisted wonderland#twst game#twisted wonderland tips#twst help#twst guide#🌺. random twst things#[💌] answers☆#[💌] talks☆
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AAAAAAAAAAAAA BRO I NEED IT
tl;dr is that Professor layton helped w trauma, listed is the journey through the games and future hype for PLWoS
So, I recently got into professor layton (a year ago, to be specific) and I must say, It has helped me SO FUCKIN MUCH WITH SO MUCH TRAUMA--
I have schizoeffective disorder. I have severe PTSD from years of mental and physical abuse from my parents. I have ADHD and may also be autistic, getting tested at 25 years is difficult.
When I started Professor Layton, I decided to play in release order--"I want to experience what long time fans experienced." I felt it would be more genuine. So, I downloaded an emulator (yeah i know, bad Vero) and started to play. I wrote down my reactions to each game after i beat them:
PLCB: THIS MAN GOT CHASED BY A FERRIS WHEEL!!!! THATS COOL AF! It was a really fun game, cool story with neat puzzles tHaT wErE hArD aF (i was kind of nonchalant about the games, just getting into them)
PLPB: ayo he got a box OH WAIT HE DED--i enjoyed the gameplay and watching the bad guy be the bad guy. interesting sequel, hopefully luke stays with the professor a long time lol (I jinxed it lol, also felt a bit more connected to Luke as a character and his admiration for Hershel)
(I took a long break after this one due to college lol but now i just play after my homework is done)
PLLF: I didnt write anything after this one. i just sat in silence for about a week, and I didnt eat for a few days. This was when my foster dad died, and i felt strangely as if i had healed a lot. After that week. I guess I just kinda took the time to process the loss of someone who i consider my true father. It was at this point I realized that playing the games had helped. I also didnt mentally process that luke left the professor lol until i watched someones playthrough of the last part of the game again
PLSC: BRO ITS LUKE AGAIN BUT HES YOUNGER AND HAS TRUST ISSUES WTF ITS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE except luke didnt go through massive trauma (unless you count the ghost stuff and the witch stuff and the house stuff as trauma) yeah i like it very good
PLMM: RANDALL IS WAY TOO FUCKIN HOT FOR MY LIKING I JUST NNNNNGGGUHHUHUHUH also SIBLING BINDING WOOOOOOOOOOO
I am currently playing through Azran Legacy, and I must say it lives up to the hype. Havent reached the ending tho so im trying to not run into spoilers. also I know descole is sycamore im not dumb THEY LITERALLY LOOK ALIKE AND THE BUTLER IS THE SAME WTF if theyre not the same person im gonna spazzzzzzzz
All in all, I plan on figuring out how to a b s o r b all the content from the spin offs (in order to do this i also want to play all the phoenix wright games, wish me luck lol) and will eventually get the Katrielle game.
I have a lot to do in preparation for New World of Steam! I hope im able to do it in time, and also that its just as good as the previous games. I know Quizknock will do a good job, its just whether i will enjoy it or not.
Thank you for reading, sorry for the long post; i have no potatoes to offer but nevertheless have a good day~!
-Vero
#professor layton#new world of steam#pl nwos#hershel layton#he isnt my savior but MY GOD I GOT SO ATTATCHED TO THE SERIES#rant post#self healing#self love#healingjourney#rip dad i miss you and love you#i wish i couldve said goodbye but i know youre doing alright#nintendo#nintendo switch#ill be okay#tldr#puzzle games
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Omg I noticed you were gone but I had no idea you were in the hospital. I hope you're feeling better now! Sending healing vibes and love 💖💖
I am trying so hard!! thank you for so much !!! I am starting a new journey and I am scared af. but it’ll be worth it
sending you so much love !
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Top 5 fics you’ve read this year?
I was meant to answer this forever ago and now that ao3 is back I will celebrate by finally answering (ik you sent me this at the end of last year but forgive me I finally have a laptop now and getting the hang of links!) Also my dumbass has only recently started bookmarking and I was late af making an account so I'm in the trenches trying to find these rn, some ik by memory because brainrot anyway..
Endgame, Not Checkmate by @geekymoviemom I could write an essay on how much I LOVE this fic, this was a gift for moi for the 'a second chance' mini exchange and this fic is all I could've dreamed of I highly recommend, its beautiful well written my heart does flips just thinking of it, absolute FAV, this is my canon now, the healing I needed, God is real I know because this fic exists. Read this it's for your own good, ok?
this charming man by @imperialstark THIS FIC consumed my entire brain and everytime it gets updated it ramps it up again and I get mega stony brainrot, one might say I'm obsessed ANYWAY, its still being updated and its the highlight of my day week whatever when it does, very much recommend if you love a bratty young Tony Stark, hot as fuck, 90's, and just ugh the exploration of Steve's emotions, just the way both of them are written is chefs kiss dude just read it, this definitely tugs at my heart and is also a lot of fun chefs kiss 10/10 already, author makes me feel all the feelings.
this love came back to me by meidui a lot of feelings for this one as it was one of the first stony fics I read and probably the first one I truly fell in love with, massive soft spot for this one and ugh I just love it, they're so soft and AGH, big big sucker for the canon divergence endgame because yes this is just how it should've gone and yes this is how it did ok! Just beautiful I love them, I love THIS! READ IT
Love Bites by @cowboyhorsegirl oooooo I love this one, also a massive sucker for biting :)) ok sounded very vampiric of me anyway this is just beautifully written and aaaa I'm reading this again and its making me feral all of it just ALL OF IT its gorgeous intimate beautiful just fucking read it okay I am terrible at these summaries and if you've made it this far you already know but yeah, this is all the feelings i love packaged nicely in a fic 10/10 nice B)
choke on me by @imperialstark yes this author has ruined my life(in the best way) anyway last but definitely not least ho ly shit do I love this fic, again one of the first fics that made me fall in love with stony fics and here I am now! Writing is just magnificent I can FEEL these characters feelings man this is just so good, still being updated so more to come guys please just fucking read it its so beautiful, it gets me in my feelings so hard, Steve and Tony are written so well, this fic absolutely captivates me!! The dialogue, the BEAUTIFUL writing the gorgeousness of it all AGH PLEASE read this my silly summary gives absolutely no justice I swear this is one of the best things I've read chefs fucking kiss 1000/10 highly recommend
ok ik you only said 5 but I found some more favs on my journey of finding the fics I love so v quickly i recommend
Paradise Blue in 1872 by @cowboyhorsegirl beautifully written, love love, love. Religious symbolism and pining and ugh short sweet and beautiful. Brilliant relationship study! GOD I'm in my feels again.
speak novels like beat poetry by meidui MASSIVE MASSIVE sucker for Steve's brooklyn accent in fics holy shit yesyesyes and this is just perfect I'm in love, very sweet very AAAAA i love
This is my first reclist I hope I didn't fuck it up bc its so late here right now and- oh shit the sun's just come up, check out all these authors they are so talented and yes there is pattern here I love to be absolutely crushed knocked down and swaddled nicely, I love fics that make me feel so hard man and these writers are amazing, makes me love this fandom youre all very talented dude it inspires me sm
don't let my dumbass rambly summaries fool you these fics are genuine works of art pls I am so in love
#asks#i ramble but i just love these#i suck at summaries which is part of why i put this off for so long#I LOVE LOVE#and everything in between#fic recs#fics#anon#stony
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Rather than sleep, I'm gonna talk about a Pokémon fan game I recently beat:
Realidea System
Like Opalo, it's another Spanish fan game, this one focusing more on aesthetics and mechanics with a little less under the hood in terms of new Pokémon, but still having a lot to offer story wise and game wise.
Spoiler, 8/10 for the good stuff, but a point docked off for incomplete translations and just a tad too many mini game issues.
More under the cut
So Realidea System came out around September I think, and the main you'll see right away is a gorgeous art style with bright colors and very intricate tiles. Every location looks cozy af or scary where appropriate, and it has a ton of different aesthetics that it works very well with for each.
Also, unlike most fan games, there's talk portraits for the story that help convey who is talking and the emotion conveyed- this is actually very pleasant tbh, and there's a lot of good designs you can better appreciate due to it. Tbh I have issues reading, and sometimes it's hard to tell who is talking via text alone. This actually helped me a lot more than the creator probably intended, but it's something I'm still thankful for.
The sprite work, what's made for the game anyway, also looks very good and has a unique but simplistic style with eye catching shading and colors. I'm actually pretty jealous of it and sort of taking notes from it, because there's not a lot of the same style of shading as the gen 5 or 4 sprites, but the style still works in its own way. I'd almost compare it to a 2d cell shading style, but idk if that's accurate? I like it, I'll say that. Not to mention that there's a lot of fun Overworld sprites that convey just as much if not a tad more emotion than the portraits.
The sprite work also extends to fakemon. Now I am a little bit disappointed that there were so little new Pokémon to experiment with, I'm not gonna lie. There's the starters, a legendary, and... about 5 or 6 variants. That's it. However, obviously they went with Quality over Quantity, which I can respect. Each of these are really well designed and excellently sprited, and most importantly fun to use! I chose the water starter, and it's ability and 2 signature moves are really fun in a fight and can potentially let it sweep.
Continuing off of this, to make up for the lack of new Pokémon, there's obviously a huge variety of old Pokémon to choose from, including lots of starters such as Chikorita and Rowlett. Megas also make a return, and some regional variants appear too.
Now on the technical aspect, there's a lot of cool shit under the hood, mainly the Realidea System that is the heart of the game's story. What this does is replace the HM mechanics (hallelujah), such as the Fly mechanic, which is now Teleport (although it functions exactly like Fly), and Surf, which now just happens as soon as you touch the water without any prompt needed.
The RS also comes with a couple extras that require certain points attained from using items on your pokemon or just generally bonding with them. Some of these include a repel system that repels as many steps as you use, a heal system that basically functions as a Pokémon Center, and an automatic level up feature that functions as a Rare Candy. The last two were actually very helpful for my journey and filling out the dex.
Outside of the RS there's codes you can put in at the Pokémon Center to sort of help with grinding, which can exist if you want or just completely bypass it by changing the levels of any Pokémon in your party up to the highest level in your team (be mindful that this will not trigger evolution, the Level Up feature will tho). Honestly, it feels dirty, but I actually do like this feature just so I can keep everyone around the same level. The EXP all works in conjunction with this btw, about like the Switch games function without making the game too easy. Basically all of this is to ensure you can just catch a new little guy and bam, he's already caught up, and grinding just isn't a thing anymore, so you can just be on your happy little way.
You can also remember moves on your own from the party menu, which honestly is just very helpful and makes it so you don't miss any by using the level up trick. If you're so inclined, you can also change the nature's of your pokemon via 3 heart scales from the party menu.
Basically a lot of tedious bs is completely ironed out, letting the game be fun without too many hold ups beyond a puzzle.
But speaking of puzzles... good lord there's a lot of mini games. Mind you they're doable, but a lot are kind of trial and error, especially the ones that require the ability to read and understand Spanish. You may think "oh just Google translate," and you'd be correct in assuming that does help with a good portion. But I'm not lying when I say that there's a section dedicated entirely to PUNS. It was fucking hilarious just trying to guess what's going on, but also frustrating. Even without the Spanish though, the rhythm games kill me.
The translation is also just not complete. I'd say 70% complete, because you still get bits of Spanish in normal gameplay and a good many puzzles are only instructed in Spanish. Not to mention the journals are ALL Spanish, so i had to have some friends help me read it. What is finished is about 95% decent though, with only a small handfuls of grammatical errors or odd translations, so kudos for that.
Now, characters and story. The story is about standard fair for a normal Pokémon game, but there are some interesting twists here and there. In cooperation with gorgeous visuals and art, the story is told pretty well and is really immersive. The characters too are also very entertaining and hilarious, and also have a fair bit of depth. I have to say I found myself attached to Elliot, Owen, and Alba, which is very strange since I'm usually not one for rivals or Lilly type characters. There are some groan worthy moments, cliche bits, or some not so ideal things done, but I do think it's a passion project someone put a lot of heart and soul put in.
Oh, and this game is hilarious. Check everything that looks interactive and you'll see what I mean.
Oh oh, there's also a very well managed side quest system. Tons of side Quests pop up and are easily found in the overworld, so that's a bonus if you're like me and hate having to hunt a specific NPC.
Lastly, the music: i believe the music is mostly original, which is amazing because every town and route sound magical in some way, and the original trainer themes are very, very good. When I say prepare yourself for the champion, I mean that in so many ways but ESPECIALLY the music. My one grief is yet again the reuse of the BW gym theme. I think it's okay, but I was really hoping for something original. But what is here is awesome.
Overall it's a fun time and a lot of effort went into this. There's a lot of fun poked at the series (especially towards Kanto) and the entire game feels like a fun adventure. I hope to see another project by this dev, maybe with more fakemon? Please? That's my favorite part of playing fan games.
Anyway, 8/10
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I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED TLND 🥳
Im pretty sure my whole family hates me at this point. I have spent my whole weekend doing nothing but reading tlnd.
Yeah yeah you said to take my time w with tlnd but I've been waiting for this shit for MONTHS I was obviously gonna binge read it. No regrets 😎
Anyways, is there a tlnd support group I can join?
Okay now just. Here's a whole list of incoherent ramblings -
1) Every single Lightwood Bane deserves a medal in saying hurtful shit like. OUCH
2) when Anjali said the lightwood banes run more on testosterone than brain cells? I FELT THAT :')
3) MAGNUS. FUCK. LIKE. THE EPISODES LEADING UP TO THE DIVORCE. FUCK. THAT SHIT HURTED SO BAD. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
4) Something I liked - from an angst writer perspective and not a readers mind you - was how instead of Magnus single-handedly serving the divorce you prolonged that shit and had Alec realise just how much Magnus was hurting and have HIM initiate the divorce instead. Something Something poetic cinema but also. You sadistic motherfucker.
5) Alec realizing he CAN live without Magnus but choosing not to >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
6) The way Magnus and Alec's views on divorce during the 1st timeline completely shift when it comes to their own marriage :')
7) BROOKLYN :')
8) MAX OMG MAX MY ICONIC BABY. ALSO MAVID>>>>>>>>>
9) I fully expected to hate Shinyun going into this fic and even expected some sort of plot twist at the end but??? I'm pleasantly surprised lol
10) THE RING. HE KEPT HIS WEDDING RING IN HIS BACK POCKET HE ALWAYS YTOUCHES HIS RING WHEN HES NERVOUS WHEN I TELL YOU I FUCKING SOBBED
11) HE HATES RAISINS HES ALWAYS HATED RAISINS BUT HE EATS THEM FOR HIS HUSBAND FUCK
12) Alecs lil gasp when he found that magazine poster thingy in Magnus’s closet :')))
13) TWO MOMENTS WHEN I ALMOST THREW MY PHONE AT THE WALL - ONE, WHEN ALEC SEES MINYUN (EW) KISSING AND TWO, WHEN MAGNUS GETS INTO THE FUCKING ACCIDENT LIKE. CMOOOONNNNNNNN YALL WERE SO CLASE
14) The way Alec sits down and dies research everytimes he hears of some political issue or just. Anything to do with Magnus and his mental health. My boy ❤❤❤
15) Rafael. Fuck. His whole arc was just. HNNNNGGGG PAIN. I kinda thought Rafael would be the kind of child who saw the divorce coming and didn't mind it but HE DIDNT WANT THEM TO DIVORCE AND THATS JUST. SO MUCH WORSE. IT MUST HAVE BEEN LIKE WATCHING A TRAIN WRECK IN SLOW MOTION MY POOR BABY 😭😭😭
16) ANJALI. my beautiful scary badass babe I love her.
17) DAVID MY SWEET SWEET RWRB LOVING ASS BOY. I WANNA EAT HIS DESSERTS
18) You did not. YOU DID NOT FUCKING HAVE ALEC ENGRAVE "TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES" IN LATIN INTO MAGNUS’S RING. THE LITERAL TITLE. I FUCKING SOBBED.
19) Must actions have consequences? Must I not be satisfied with Alec beating up and breaking the hand of the asshole who tried to hurt Magnus?? Yeah angst this angst that but also. How very rude of you :(( #letAlecbeatupmfswithnoconsequences2k22
20) THERAPY. AND ALL THEIR HEALING JOURNEYS I JUST. AHHHHHH
21) No but reading about how Alec made that clause to make Magnus stay back in NY and triggering that wholeass angsty petty war and reading the scene with Alec asking Rafe choose Magnus some 20 chapters all like. ...Oh :((((
22) DAVID PUSHING ASMODEUS INTO THE POOL. FUCKING TOP TIER CONTENT.
23) I literally went OH SHIT when Magnus found that gun in Alec’s safe cause fuck his trust must've been shattered in that moment but then reading on he always knew Alec kept the gun and where he kept and I just. HNNNNNNGGGG
24) AND. The way Magnus sometimes seemed to attribute blame on Alec when shit happened like. When the nudes were leaked and later with the assault case like. Shit was heartbreaking af :') idk where I'm going with this but yeah. Why :')
25) Anyways, I'm glad Magnus realised that shit was hard on Alec too - he saw the media hurting his family, hurting the fucking love of his life but he couldnt do about it and just- Ooooofffff
26) Literally every fucking moment Alec cried. 😭😭😭😭😭
27) THE WHOLE LAST CHAPTER. TIMELINE 3 OF THE LAST 2-3 CHAPTERS. ALEC WAITING FOR MAGNUS TO REACH OUT TO HIM AND HE FINALLY DOES AND AHHHHH
28) Jace finally retiring after the divorce so he could be there for Alec :')
29) Magnus dating Shinyun keeping Rafe and talking to Luca all because they reminded him of Alec :') also 2D Alec sksjsjsjzjzkzkzk
30) THE EPILOGUE THE REMARRIAGE HECK EVEN THE ORIGINAL MARRIAGE 😭😭😭😭😭 LIL MINERVAAAAA
Oof okay I think I'm done rambling now.
Anyways, I'm fucking proud of you. You wrote a wholeass 600k fic and you wrote it BRILLIANTLY. THE THREE TIMELINES. FUCK. Kudos for keeping the plot straight and cohesive and extra kudos to the middle timeline. Non linear narratives are a clusterfuck and I will never touch them cause they scare me so I have extra respect for those who tackle them.
Thanks for writing this fic. Thanks for being amazing. And Thanks for ruining my life these past 6 months while I waited zksjsksk now that I've scratched that hugeass tlnd itch, I'll hopefully be functional again 😭
Love ya 😘
The way I'm sooooo happy you read it 🥺🥺🥺🥺
There is always something special (and utterly terrifying) about another writer reading our stories. You are a writer I love and respect so this means so much coming from you 💚
i won't have much time in the coming weeks to write (i think - i don't trust myself lol) so i am hoping to catch up on my TBR and fanfic recs. Cannot wait to read the latest chappy of the Kanthony au.
Love ya too 😘
ps - mad respect for people who had the self-control and discipline to wait to read tlnd until it was over. CANNOT RELATE.
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Offerings and Honey and Wine
I'm putting the poem under a read more, because oh boy is this thing long af. It's written to be song lyrics, but I can't write music to save my life, so it's just the lyrics. I was listening to a lot of TAD at the time, so if I could write music, it supposed it would end up as the same genre.
When you bury something, sometimes it blooms...
Offerings and Honey and Wine
I left to bury parts of myself I thought long dead.
A journey
To where no human feet have tread,
To inter the pieces of me that only exist in my head.
A daunting odyssey
Through foul, ill-fated places.
A pilgrimage marked by sorrow and unholy graces.
An expedition which came to a quiet conclusion,
One frigid day,
Where I found myself surrounded by shades
Of white,
And gray,
Of Death,
And decay.
CHORUS A
I do not know what
brought me here,
perhaps fate’s design.
A promise of salvation
from a ruined shrine.
A whisper of a prayer
under all this grime.
Listening for
The silent call,
Unheard response,
Of offerings and honey and wine.
I stand in strange unfamiliar surroundings,
Alone, while
My apprehensions are mounting.
In an abandoned graveyard, long forgotten by time,
One filled with broken headstones,
drowning under brittle vines.
I thought the ghosts of my past
Would not,
Could not,
Follow me here.
Yet silently
they gather close,
intentions unclear.
CHORUS B
I do not know what
brought me here,
perhaps fear sublime.
The horrors that one faces,
The terrors that one embraces,
Haunted and unwanted,
Losing myself in stages.
Listening for
The silent call,
Unheard response,
Of offerings and honey and wine.
My palms are as cracked as the icy earth beneath my feet
where I crouch,
And with bare, bloodied fingers,
Into the ground I gouge,
Hollowing out a shallow grave.
A home for the relics of my soul, my grief, my shame,
My suffering.
With shoulders shuddering,
And heart stuttering,
Hands raw,
Blood-red,
I lay to rest the parts of myself I thought
Long dead.
CHORUS A
I do not know what
brought me here,
perhaps fate’s design.
A promise of salvation
from a ruined shrine.
A whisper of a prayer
under all this grime.
Listening for
The silent call,
Unheard response,
Of offerings and honey and wine.
Hollow eyed ghosts track my movement with gazes unkind
As I leave
The parts of myself behind,
Broken pieces of me that live only in my mind.
Long branches creak overhead,
Glittering and snow frosted,
As I drag myself to my feet, utterly exhausted.
My thoughts distracted, scattered like the sunlight refracted,
I take no notice
Of the tendrils of change in a place so still.
An evolution
Signaled by slowness.
The gradual onset of a transformation
Brought into focus.
CHORUS B
I do not know what
brought me here,
perhaps fear sublime.
The horrors that one faces,
The terrors that one embraces,
Haunted and unwanted,
Losing myself in stages.
Listening for
The silent call,
Unheard response,
Of offerings and honey and wine.
I left to bury parts of myself, vile and rotten.
Those I believed
That should be lost and forgotten,
The hard edged slivers of each hardship that had on me befallen.
When you bury a seed,
They said, one day it will bloom.
Even when it’s buried in a place mired in grief and gloom.
Recovery can sprout in the most unlikely of soils,
Heralding growth,
And healing, at a time when I least expected.
A garden
Of hope.
A fruitful field,
A vibrant grove.
CHORUS C
I know now that which
brought me here,
It was fate’s design.
Found and fulfilled salvation
from a ruined shrine.
Joyous song of a prayer
under all this grime.
Witnessing the
Deafening call,
Divine response,
To offerings and honey and wine.
#functionally-immortal writes#my writing#my poetry#poetry#poem#it's symbolism baybee!#i worked on this for over a year#writing and rewriting and rewriting and re ... you get the picture#then i completely forgot to post it anywhere lol
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Mr. Morale and The Big Steppas Review
Mr. Morale i get the name of the album now. This album is about to have people upset cause I'm even conflicted by some of the subject matter and his personal views as an observer to the world. Just like I was conflicted with j.cole's out of touch rap but this has a lot more "im human and I'm not sure what is morally just." It also calls back to when BLM protests rose up during 2020 again and everyone kept asking where Kendrick was and the inner community conversations were two sides. The side saying "he is not a God just a man and hasn't he done enough for us where he can a break" and "he needs to be out here with us because he is in his mansion safe and we aren't." And from this album Kendrick was also having those conversations and struggles not just with the people in his life but with himself. "I" wasn't referenced too much but he does have conversations with himself in his previous projects. But I can't just give Kendrick's thoughts a pass because it has more nuance and pass judgement elsewhere. Or maybe I can? Most of these songs have a lot of questions and he has no answers. Talking about black trauma and how its led to black culture being full of judgement, no nuance, and faulty "bad" coping mechanisms. He's showing Kendrick the human a bit more than he usually does or that he does usually with a character. This is less a character and it is Kendrick. Spiritual Kendrick in growth which reminds me a lot of Kehlani' recent project Blue Water Road. Where they are also detailing their journey with spirituality, growth, and finding yourself. The true self, the flawed human, and the healed/healing one. He is asking people to think about others with nuance or just to see everyone as complex indivuduals with their own issues some bred out of generational trauma. Not everyone especially not every black person is raised to be that way. Mr. Morale has left me with many questions some that I have definitely had before about society and the unique parts of it I'm in. Kendrick has chosen himself and his vision for his future at the end of this album, the end of his journey with TDE, and maybe albums in general. But i am still gonna have to sit and think on this one especially the conversation with his younger self on Auntie Diaries and the use of the f word, the misgendering because on one hand i can see why spme trans ppl will be upset but i can also say thats really what people who are trying actually trying to understand sound like if they are black people who grew up with certain understandings. And we can all act better than those people but some are genuinely trying and we can't act like people don't talk like that. So im hmm.
Anyways the album as of first listen is a 5/5.
Favorite songs in order kind of but this album really has no misses if you know/are in the culture: We Cry Together, Crown, Mirror, Savior, Silent Hill, Mother I Sober, Mr. Morale (the lyrics had me like oh but the beat slaps hard af)
"I choose me."
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2 Months and a Week (?) : Healing Journey
hey. so i forgot to write last week. i am just really burnt out. i still remember that i write here but i also cram this BRUH
anyways 2 months ? i am losing my sense of time but yeah its been 2 months and i'm still not graduate. academically and of her. maybe because i keep gaslighting or convincing myself that i am over them OR i just miss the feeling of having someone . IDK
so less than a year left before college . i'm still not decided what course i'm gonna take. THE ANXIETY KEEPS GETTING ME . so right now, i have so many option for what course should i take.
a) film or fine arts
b) comsci or com eng or it
c) behavioral sci
d) psych
i don't want to settle for another safe course just like what i did before (settling to humss because it was my safe strand) . i hope this interest in computer related shit last long because i don't want to think of shifting courses in the middle of semester just because it's not for me. PLS PLS
anyways back to everyday life, relapse happens often again. by relapse, i mean that heavy feeling, chest pain, heart ache, feeling back to zero. sometimes i also feel like craving for some care but at the same time i do not want to talk to anyone atm . IDK ITS NOT THAT ITS NOT HER well technically its true but the urge to talk to someone only happens at night . i don't want to hurt another person so :/
i am getting confusing af . this year i'll try to focus on myself . gonna bring back the academic achiever in me again. i am getting left behind hahaha. college is pressuring me might as well do my best this school year. not for someone to be proud of me, but to be proud of myself again. i focus on other people too much that i lost myself so i'll redeem myself this time.
idk what to add . ummmm RIGHT there's someone who told me they're serious about me and pursuing me But again . I AM NOT READY . but i kind of remember, all of the people i dated (just two), i was the one who pursued them first. NOT THAT IT MATTERS BUT yeah ... being a masc is hard, people expect you to be the one who PURSUES not the latter . idk i dont give a shit about it anymore.
anyways, that's all i guess ? see u again tumblr if i have the time . fuck school !
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