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factual-fantasy · 9 months

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Sorry. I don't take art requests! And also trust me, I've seen it everywhere. Its a very bizarre series indeed.. <XD

(Also thank you! :D)

@multifandomjays

:DDD Thank you so much!! I'm glad you like my art! Also BIG thank you for the acknowledgment of boundaries, it means a lot <:}}}

@annathefenecfox

Actually, someone made a post discussing this. I cant remember who it was but they made a good point-

In Above and Beyond(?), Natquik is introduced to Tracker and they both act as if they are meeting each other for the first time. But in that flash back with Barnacles, Tracker was there.

If you look at Barnacles and Bianca compared to the other scouts, their outfits are different..

They put it all together and it looks like Natquik was there for Barnacles junior/younger years in the polar scouts. But at some point he disappears..? Then later on when Barnacle is a senior polar scout he falls in the ice. So it looks like in canon that Natquik wasn't there when he fell in the ice. WHICH would be wonderful angst materal.

Barnacles and Natquik are back together on an adventure and they fall in the ice. Natquik is fine but Barnacles is panicking. When they get out he tells Nat the whole story. Nat would feel horrible for not being there for Barnacles all those years ago.. :'(((

HOWEVER.... I'd like to think that Natquik was there through all of Barnacles polar scout years and saw him graduate. Where he eventually retired young to go and do research in the Antarctic. Hmm.. I'll have to think about this one <XD

Uhhg, yeah. The DLC lost me at Cassie. That was already complicated enough. And then the Mimic came around and the 3 other suits and the weird glitchy computer bunny thingggg

I mean don't get me wrong, I love all of FNAF to death but sometimes I wanna push it down the stairs XDD

@astrokea

XD Our army grows bigger and bigger everyday!

@cudlycorncornsworthcoberson

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! Right after posting that I looked back and cringed a liiiittle bit because I felt like maybe the angst was too much/unnecessary. So I'm really glad to hear that you liked it! It makes me feel better about having posted it XDD

@easterartist

Oh don't worry! The fact that you don't have a default pfp wipes you of any suspicion XD

Also thank you! Its always fun to hear about people getting into Octonauts because of my art! :DD

@gregorythechild

Also today currently I am dizzy and full of anxiety weee

Also I love the ',:) too funny! XDD

Sorry, I don't take art requests. That character looks great though! Also thank you! I'm glad you like my artwork! :DD

@worldsaskingmachine

That's an interesting thought actually. I imagine Freddy wouldn't really like to look at it too much. I have this idea that none of the Glamrocks really like their new forms. Freddy especially, he misses when he was shorter and softer. He was very huggable and it was very rare that a child was scared of him.

Now a days he's mostly just designed to look flashy, not really to hug. And his sheer height means that some of the little kids are afraid of him. :( So looking at one of the older model behind the glass- although its tall too, it'd probably make him sad and miss his old form. :((

@wolfie-777

XD They might fight at first, but then they'd be two peas in a pod.

Foxy: "Yarr, I cant believe it! Yer a REAL pirate!! I wish I could sail out on the watr' and be a true pirate too.."

Jack: "Yarr, sailin the seas don't make you a pirate, Its what's in yer heart lad! Yer just as much a pirate as me!"

Foxy: ":DDD"

@fallingbones

THANK YOIUUU!! I'm so glad to hear how I've inspired you!! :DD

Actually its funny that you mention Foxy's legs. Since I've designed Foxy, Bonnie and Roxy with those legs, I've been going back and forth constantly on whether or not it was a good design choice. I kept considering going back and redesigning all of them to have normal legs in my FNAF recap/repair. But I ultimately I kept them for reasons that will be explained later 👀 All in all- I'm glad you like them! :DD

XD Heck yeah! There's quite a lot of us here on Tumblr. Type #octonauts in the search bar and see for yourself! :DD

@problematicskeleton

THANK YOU SO MUCHHH!!! I'll be sure to take it easy <:}}]

That.. is a good question. I never really thought about it. :00 Also thank you! :D

@burningmusicfunnygiant

Mmm, I'm not so sure. Some older employees know that Bonnie and Foxy are down there. I don't think seeing him active again would make them bring him back to the stage. They don't have the authority to do that. They would most likely just shut him down again. Maybe even remove his battery so he cannot be reactivated..

Also if I were to make a Glamrock Bonnie design, personally I would keep him purple and make him look more bowling ally themed. <XD Maybe someday I'll draw that! :0

THANK YOU!! :DDD Of course everyone is free to do their own thing. But I personally got kind'a tired of the CONSTANT shipping everywhere. Its like some people think that fandoms cant be fun if the characters aren't romantically pinned together. Or like the most powerful kind of love is romantic. Which is just not true.

So I've just wiped away any and all shipping from all my fandom content. With a tiny select few of exceptions. I wanna show that these characters can love and care for each other, WITHOUT romantic interest being the motive.

@funkymonkeyzz

I have drawn him before actually, twice that I can recall!

Once here, and Here! Although if I were to draw him now? Or even add him to my AU? He'd look a lot different than he does in those drawings <XD

:DDDD Thank you so much!! :}}}

I've been drawing literally as far back as I can remember. So I'm not 100% sure what initially inspired me.. Although I did draw a lot of sonic back in the day so maybe it was that? :0

@paytonthefrog

AAAAA THANK YOU!! :DDDD

Hmm.. that's not a bad idea :00 Maybe I'll draw it sometime!

@pinkbomb08

XD Thanks for the reminder. I'm doing my best to take it easy while working on all these projects-

#my response #fnaf security breach #fnaf security breach dlc #fnaf security breach dlc spoilers #octonauts

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sweet-child · 11 months

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Do you have any headcanons about any of the socs? ☺️

Social

relating to society or its organization

needing companionship and therefore best suited to living in communities

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In which we discover more about the socials

a/n: I love the new pfp! And I hope you like these. Im sorry I don't have much for them <33

"Bon Appétit"

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Cherry Valance -

I feel like she has multiple personalities? Like, she’ll act differently depending on who's around? What she said about the sunset to Ponyboy, and how she used to watch it, I think she was just saying it to say it.

She hasn’t found what she likes. Everything she has in her room, what she wears, everything; it was influenced by other people.

She didn’t want to visit Johnny in the hospital because of her reputation. She cares too much about it.

And if she really liked Ponyboy, like she said, she would’ve acknowledged him when he waved at her.

She hates vanilla.

Hates the smell, the ice cream, everything.

She really likes citrus stuff.

Loves bananas, hates banana popsicles, pudding, etc.

She probably would’ve cheated on Bob with Dallas.

Dallas, if she did cheat on Bob with him, would probably blow her off and refuse to talk to her. He hates cheaters.

Marcia (the best soc ever, don’t lie to yourself.)

She loves to hang out with Two-bit.

They are best buddies

After meeting Keith, she doesn’t care much about her reputation, so she’d probably end up losing Cherry as a friend.

I don’t think she ever liked Cherry. We see her talk to Two-bit more than she did Cherry. The drive-in scene was the only time we saw them together, and they barely talked.

I don’t think they were actual friends. They were just considered friends because their boyfriends were friends.

She’s appreciative for everything she’s given

I also think she’s in the lower part of the upper class.

Partially because she drank the coke that Dallas bought her.

She loves to cook

And she’s a crafty person

If Two-bit smoke weed and got the munchies, he’d be wanting Marcia to cook for him

She’d do it, no complaints.

Also: She loves tea.

As much as Two-bit loves beer.

I honestly would love to be her friend.

Bob

I bet once a lifetime ago he was funny, and actually fun

Probably in elementary

In middle school, he’d hang with upperclassmen because of sports.

He’d hang out with Paul on occasions.

That’s probably where he discovered his hatred for the lower economical class (greasers)

When he became a freshman, Paul probably took him to his first party

That's where he became an alcoholic.

When he started to date Cherry, he wouldn’t drink around her.

But slowly, as their relationship grew closer, he started to drink around her more.

He’d take her to parties, and play those party games with her; always with alcohol in his hand

If he didn’t die by Johnny’s hands, he’d die by either Alcohol poisoning or drunk driving.

Randy

He was a good guy in middle school

But when Bob got introduced to Paul, he got introduced to Paul

Randy didn’t get hooked as quickly to alcohol as Bob did

He got peer pressured into drinking and smoking.

He picked up habits and traits from Bob.

My heart breaks for this boy.

He loves homemade meals

He’s a mama's boy.

Love’s his mama

Would hate to disappoint his mama

He would be friends with Ponyboy if he was a greaser

He was probably nice and sweet back in middle school and elementary

110% used his manners then

Only uses his manners on old women and his mama now.

#the outsiders #randy adderson #marcia the outsiders #bob sheldon #cherry valance #soc headcannons

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qpr-culture-is · 4 months

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I know it's not really a confessions blog or something like that but I'm just so confused and lost and I just want to describe my feelings to someone. English is not my first language, sorry for any mistakes

So first of all I'm trans, I think it's pretty important to the story, kinda had a transphobic phase because my country it's not only very lgbtqphobic but our queer community is also very hostile towards trans people, like more than I have seen in other communities, so it's common. Pretty closed about this, tried to come out to some of my friends and classmates almost 2 years ago now, went wrong, don't talk to them and become very paranoid. Not even planning to tell someone about me being trans before a lot of people transferred to our class, they all were added in our group chat and I immediately pin pointed this dude with gerard way as their pfp who then asked to refer to him with he/him only and use other name. Holy shit. I literally never in my life seen an openly trans person, not even a closed one, never interacted with someone also trans irl so it was HUGE for me. Skipped first week of school, was kinda worried that I'm going to be an outcast, but that I finally meet him, and like the first thing he said to me was "wait are you that person with *fandom* as your pfp?" so we immediately connected. I was on cloud nine because he is SO COOL and only a few girls in our class are deadnaming him and it's so nice no one is being mean to him and I think it kinda changed my way of viewing how people will react if I come out to them. Because most people just don't care. Then I gave him my other socials and he saw me using any pronouns and he was like hey! How do i refer to you! Cool! And i told him that I'm actually also trans and he never ever questioned or doubted it even though I'm pretty fem presenting.

So yeah I rambled sorry it was just a really cool experience really cool dude. So the reason why I'm writing to qpr blog it's because I lately started catching feelings for him?? But I'm not in love?? I don't really know how to explain this but for a really long time I was just thinking that I just have a friend crush then that I want to date him and like I knew about qpr and I knew that qpr is way more complex and it's not just the secret third thing after dating and being friends. But like, I want to kiss him and give him gifts in a way that I view as romantic but when he's mentioning dating or his exes I don't feel a thing. Today was weird, I slept for only 3 hours and felt a little bit wonky, so I said a lot of things that were like straight up flirting. And I felt embarrassed and blushed and shit but not in "hehe I flirted with my crush!!" way but more in "holy shit it was embarrassing why did I say it" way. And he also talked about a guy that he has a very weird relationships with for the past 2 years, he said that like yeah we're friends but not really we had some periods of dating but not really and he also constantly flirts with other people including me. And I was just yeah kill him and didn't thought much of it, not jealous or sad that he have something going on with other people, but I still want to date him, but in friends way. So after I pondered about it for a while I think that I just want to have that Secret Third Thing with him. Still feel lost because I never felt like that before and because I think that I'm alloromantic and I was in romantic relationships before so I know how I act when I'm in love with people. With him it's so close what I feel when I'm in love with someone but at the same time it's so different and such weird foreign felling. Woud like to hear some advice for how people realised or what people feel and want in qpr relationships, I know it's different for a lot of people, but I want to hear something from heros who read this wall of text

Giving you a little breakdown of things I have noted;

-You can absolutely be alloromantic and want a qpr/have a squish

-To me it does sound like it may be a squish

-All in all you'll have to make that decision for yourself, and it could very well just be the fact that you've never connected with a person like you have with him before so it's all a bit different for you

And here's a bit of my past experiences

It's really a bit hard to remember since it's been forever, and given I'm aroace squishes have always seemed like legitimate crushes (in a weird way) so keep that in mind.

The last squish I remember having was a little over a year ago. I really connected with the person and they made me laugh a lot. I felt pulled to them in some kind of way. I wanted to spend time with them and I wanted to be called their partner. It was just,,, different than my previous feelings towards friends. Now, if it weren't for events that happened later on, I could have very well been convinced it was a romantic crush (we ended up in a romantic relationship for a bit but my aro ness got in the way and I began to feel very uncomfortable with the whole thing), and am honestly not sure how to differentiate those feelings from that of a romantic crush.

The only other time I can think of having a squish would be quite a while back, and at the time I was completely convinced it was romantic (I had not even really been aware of the aro and ace labels at the time). Once again, the feelings were towards a close friend. They were my best friend in fact, and at the time I really thought we understood each other like nobody else did, and it was almost as if we were very drawn to each other. Contrary to what you noted, there was a bit of jealousy here and there when they were with someone else later on (tho I know believe to be more in a platonic context anyways). And... thats basically all I've got

So those are my main experiences with having squishes, if that gives you an idea of what to expect from one. I'd also like to say that I'm so sorry for taking so long to reply to this! I've been a bit busy the last few weeks and am currently on holiday break now and haven't felt up to doing a whole lot (and keep forgetting to post as well)

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your-yandere-darling · 1 year

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✿.⋆Hello My Beloved Darling!!~♡

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✎.⋆About This Blog⋆.➳

This blog is centered around yanderes; oneshots and headcanons with either fictional characters, my ocs, or just character types you want to see as yanderes (who may or may not become an oc of mine)

My DMs and inbox are almost always completely open for you to send a request (or chat but I’d suggest chatting on my main blog which I’ll tag in a bit :3)

Though, if requests are closed I’ll keep my inbox and DMs open just in case someone wants to chat or ask about something but if requests are closed, please wait until they’re open again to send a request :)

My pfp is my oc Klaus who is my favorite version of a yandere! My friend @torchiiko drew him for me!!

❥.⋆↜Masterlist↝⋆.★

❥.⋆↜My Ocs↝⋆.★

✎.⋆About Me⋆.➳

I go by Amber and Jonas and I’d really appreciate it if you used both names for me! I identify as genderfluid and a trans man; male, female, and nonbinary; and my pronouns are He/They/She. I’d really appreciate it if you mix up my pronouns/gendered terms when referring to me (ex: “Where are they, I saw them a while ago? Actually, I think he might be in his room. She’s always on her computer writing something.” or “He’s in here, but they’re too busy on her computer writing something.”) but if you must refer to me with one set of pronouns, I prefer they/them or he/him rather than just she/her

This is a side blog, my main blog is @selfshipping-shapeshifter where I chat with mutuals and gush about my f/os!

I have a few other writing blogs:

@self-shipping-selfcare where I write x Reader oneshots and headcanons (my main writing blog)

@gt-cafe where I write exclusively Giant/tiny oneshots (both original works and fanfics)

@letters-from-your-fo where I write exclusively letters (typically but not limited to love letters) from your f/o to you

@fnaf-edits where my friend and I post exclusively Fnaf (he does edits, matchups, and kin assignments and I write oneshots and headcanons)

✎.⋆I Will Write⋆.➳

Fluff

Angst

Suggestive scenes

Romantic oneshots/headcanons

Platonic oneshots/headcanons

G/t Stuff

Polyamorous relationships

Yandere Character x Reader

Yandere Character x My Oc

Yandere My Oc x Reader

Yandere My Oc x My Oc

Yandere Character x My Self Insert

Yandere My Oc x My Self Insert

And maybe more

✎.⋆I Won’t Write⋆.➳

Character x Character (sometimes, ignoring polyamory)

Smut (I can write really suggestive scenes but I can’t write full-on smut)

YouTubers/Celebrities x Reader

Taboo topics such as Insest and pedophilia and more

Some of the weird fetishes

✎.⋆Fandoms I Write For⋆.➳

At Dead of Night

Beastars

Bendy and the Ink Machine/Bendy and the Dark Revival

Call of Duty Zombies (Primis and Ultimis Richtofen only please)

Cuphead

Danganronpa

Detroit: Become Human

Doki Doki Literature Club

Five Nights at Freddy's

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss

Homegrown Pet

John Doe Game

Portal 2

Puss in Boots The Last Wish

Red Shoes and the Seven Dwarfs

Scrutinized

Skyrim

Spooky Month

Super Mario Bros Movie (Bowser only please)

Team Fortress 2

The Bad Guys

The Great Mouse Detective

Trapped With Jester

Undertale/Deltarune

Villainous

Yandere Simulator

Your Boyfriend

And maybe more I can't remember at the moment (please don’t hesitate to ask me if there’s a certain fandom I’ll write for, because I believe I write for more than this but I can’t remember all my fandoms)

✎.⋆Other Rules You Should Know⋆.➳

If you’re requesting something from Call of Duty Zombies, I’m still learning the lore and everything and I only write Richtofen as of now

For Danganronpa, I’ll write for the games only. I haven’t seen the anime yet, reason why I can’t write for it. I’ll also write for any character except Celeste and anyone from the anime and Ultra Despair Girls. My favorite characters to write for are Teruteru and Hifumi

For the Super Mario Bros Movie, I’ll only write for Bowser for right now

For Villainous, I haven’t seen the show yet but I have seen the shorts so I won’t write for anyone from the show only yet

I love writing for yanderes because I find it fun but I don’t support anything any of them do

I heavily prefer to write for soft yanderes who are still very sweet and loving towards their darling, who still allow them to have friends and go out but are a tad bit controlling and manipulative but also very much lovesick and obsessed with their darling; I don’t really want to write for anything extremely abusive

I have the right to reject a request for whatever reason (I think I can’t write it, it’s not a fandom I’m in, I’ve already written something too similar to it, I’m uncomfortable with it, etc) and I might either answer your ask politely rejecting your request or I just delete the ask

If I'm obsessed with a certain fandom I'll be more focused on writing for it but I don’t mind if you request something from a different fandom (though I prefer if you request something from the fandom(s) that I’m currently obsessed with)

I’m a lazy procrastinator who fears I won’t be good at interpreting the characters well. It might take a while for me to finish your request because I either procrastinated, didn’t know how to write the character you requested, or both. Another reason why I wouldn't finish a request quickly is because I had a lack of motivation and/or inspiration which has been happening a lot recently, so if your request takes longer from that then I sincerely apologize

Please be specific when requesting something, if you aren't specific I'll assume you're fine with something random. And for polyamorous relationships, please specify the relationship (ex: Is Character A and Character B dating each other and the reader or are they simply friends who are both dating the reader?)

Crossovers are welcome here, the only rule is it has to be in my list of fandoms. You can still ask me if I know a certain TV Show/movie/video game/book/anime. If you request anything anime, chances are I don’t know it since I haven’t seen a lot of anime. I want to watch more, though (at some point)

Please be respectful and I hope you enjoy your time here!

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#amber's pinned posts #amber's important posts #yandere writing #x gender neutral reader #x male reader

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misc-obeyme · 2 months

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😭im trying to find this sumt fic rn but I think I accidentally unfollowed the person and I reblogged the post like 1-2 months ago and I have so many reblogs rn thst I can’t find it 😭 all I remember it was a series called only demons and it had beels version out.

Hi there, anon!

Is this perhaps the post you're looking for?

All I did was use the Tumblr search function. I put in the tag "obey me beelzebub smut" and filtered it to show the recent posts instead of the top posts. Then I just scrolled for a bit. This was the first thing I saw that said Only Demons on it, so I thought that must be it!

Tumblr's search function isn't exactly top tier, but it can be used to find stuff like this! Your best bet is to use common tags, especially if you happen to know the character involved!

So even though I had no idea what you were talking about lol, I was able to find it that way!

I might also recommend tagging stuff you reblog that you want to find again! It makes it super easy to search your blog's archive for things that you reblogged previously. You can also use the archive to search through untagged things on your blog, if you remember around when you posted it!

To use your blog's archive, you'll have to be on desktop. And I don't mean go to your blog's posts in the account section of the site because that'll just show you your own posts. You want to click on your pfp so it opens up your entire blog and you can see your bio and header. Then click on the meatballs menu beneath the ask box button (it's the three dots). Click on "view archive" and you'll be taken to a thumbnail gallery of all the posts you've ever posted or reblogged ever forever. You can use the bar at the top to filter by month, post type, or tag! It's suuuuuper handy and I use it all the time to find stuff that I need to find again. Because stuff definitely gets lost otherwise!

Anyway, this isn't the first time I've had someone ask me about a fic they lost, so I figured I'd include this little explanation of how I find stuff! In case it's helpful to anyone else who might be searching for something!

Hopefully that post I found was the one you were looking for!

#a lot of this stuff is not exactly intuitive #so I think there are a lot of tumblr features that people just don't know about lol #like the archive #and the emoji keyboard on desktop #and how to do a read more on mobile #though I think they fixed that one #anon asks #misc answers

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homoqueerjewhobbit · 1 year

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I have no idea how to appeal to staff for you, but rest assured, if I knew how, I would. I miss seeing Greg on my dash. I know it's still you, but without him the experience feels not quite whole.

I put in my appeal 10 days ago and I haven't heard anything! I think maybe I need to try again and be more obsequious.

Here's a bit of Greg for you until I get my profile pic back!

(new followers who never saw my pfp might assume that it was Cousin Greg Sprinkles based on my recent Succ posting but I would never! I've had otgw Greg for 10 years. And that's a rock fact!)

#Friendly-neighborhood-wizard #post o' mine #Asks answered

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sunset-mp4 · 2 years

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Salutations, i am making a bio for my page since im actually getting a couple people here now. this is a bit new. (actually doing this cuz i saw some other people do it and thought it was cool to try)

◍~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~◍ My name is Sunny or Sunset. nicknames include: sun, sunny-d suns, any of those. pronouns: after a tumble through gender exploration, he/they/it age?: your mom (minor). about me/fun facts: ☙i am very autistic. so my tones can be off sometimes and I will misread social cues, apologies in advance TTwTT ☙i change stuff about me often so if something happens such as my personas got a whole new look for some reason, that is why. ☙i can play the ukulele good, and the harmonica mid ☙ i am microwavable ☙current obsessions include: Hummus lore, ducks, Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde, (not in order) that's really it- apart from my own oc's ☙i have my own stories and ocs i all made up, more of them can be found on my youtube if your intrested ofc. ☙i express a lot of my emotions and other thoughts and expressions through art, more than your average person- at least I think so. ☙my emoticons have 4 eyes, it became a habit after a while ago

Conditions or somethign idk what to call em: ☙ you can use my art as pfp's and whatnot just credit me whenever people ask about it and when you need to. (like leave who made it in your bio and or other applicable spaces) ☙ ask me questions any time about anything as long as its not inappropriate ☙ over here, we dont support GROSS SHIT!✨ like r*pe, inc*st, shit like that. like gore or nsfw is fine but there's a line in the sand. ☙dont repost! just reblog! ☙Fanart is welcome and highly appreciated

thats it! i hope you enojoy your stay folks and folklore ◍~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~◍

#text #about myself #bio

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pixiecaps · 2 years

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I remember like, the first time I saw you. I hadn’t recognized your pfp, and after seeing it a few times on my dash I decided to click. After scrolling a bit, I came to the realization I had followed you on accident (something that happens plenty to me). I usually would’ve unfollowed, but you seemed just interesting enough for me not too. A few months later, I’m surprised when you follow me back, especially since I don’t make original posts, and am not ranboo-centric.

Nowadays, you’ve managed to become one of my favorite mutuals. I always get giddy when I see you in my notifications, and 90% of the time I make note to see what post you liked and/or reblogged. It’s the “I’m getting a good grade in reblogging, something that is both possible to achieve and normal to want.”

We aren’t close mutuals, though I definitely wouldn’t mind it. I’d love to send more asks, however I’m horrific at carrying conversations and also have some social anxiety that makes me nervous. I also don’t want to intrude, as previously mentioned we aren’t close mutuals, and I don’t want to be pushy or annoying, haha. And I would start by responding to some of the posts you make that expect responses, but I don’t refresh my dashboard enough to see them in time. And I don’t know if it’d be appropriate to ask for a discord, which I’m better at checking, because I know it’s usually used for friends.

All in all though, you are funny and witty, and I often to stop and read your posts when otherwise I’d scroll. I like your opinions when you do decide to get serious, and despite some non-common interests, you present them in such a way I can easily engage in anyways. I wish you lots of love and luck, take care of yourself, and keep your chin up, king!

(P.S. sorry for the rlly long message whoops, I hope I’m not too late to send this.)

helllooo anon i think this was for the ask game:0 im sorry i didnt see this hours ago im pretty sure you sent this around the time i went to sleep but yes hii hello!!

“interesting enough” LETS FUCKING GOOO. okay! i usually follow back people i’ve seen around a lot on dash or urls i recognize in my notifs!! i must have recognized you:)

thats so sweet thank you i appreciate it😭 also wanna thank you for sticking around the idea that you’ve grown to rlly be fond of me after accidentally following me is heartwarming

ah dude don’t worry about. look i started this blog because i had horrific social anxiety and my irls were encouraging me to make new friends!! so even though i was shaking and wanted to throw up (that bad ik) i started posting and slowly but surely it wasn’t as scary anymore. it takes time so you can take your time dont feel pressured to interact if you dont want to. that being said i don’t mind if people who arent “close mutuals” send an ask or dms me. you become a close mutual by doing these things ya know😭 oh!!!! you can ask for discord too!! all mutuals are allowed to :) i however suck at holding conversations too so be aware of that lmao

AW TY!! ehehe you like my takes🤭 genuinely though i try to stay away from discourse or serious topics cus it may come off intimidating and thats the last thing i want to come off as but im glad whenever i do make a few posts like that you found it easy to engage:) i will! i am trying my best to take care of myself and for u i shall hmmm i was gonna say go outside but i already have plans to do that so it’d be disingenuous. i’ll just drink a lot of water today 👍 omg have u ever noticed theres no water bottle emoji on ios. i wait every update to see if they added one but nope. i would use that emoji so much…

anon congrats on getting the award of longest ask ever sent BAHSJD i woke up and saw this and my eyes popped in a good way

( also adding this after i posted this. i know anons dont usually like their own asks to stay hidden so i need you to know you seem lovely:D )

#pix asks aaaa #anon #long post

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the-invisible-queer · 1 month

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Lol I also assumed something was wrong. I almost asked after I saw you post the dick-grabbing pics like you were horny for them if that was a cry for help, but then I realized you hadn't said anything about Joe's song snippet and figured he'd upset you somehow and you probably wouldn't want to talk about it lmao. I did think at one point it was MAYBE an early April Fools joke but then I was like "nah they wouldn't be able to not ramble about solo Joe just for a bit they must be going thru it" 😂

THE TIMING WAS BAD I ADMIT IT

I thought of this "prank" like 2 weeks ago

I didn't think anyone actually read my "if I change my pfp to Nick it's me lighting the beacons" post because I assume people usually don't read 90% of my posts

I just figured it'd be funnier to be on my Nick bullshit out of the blue because I keep swearing up and down that I'd never be a Nick girl full time

The worst part was posting the dick grabbing pics

Like bro I went through my Jonas content and picked out the Nick centric clips and photos purposefully for this

I EVEN PURPOSEFULLY DISTANCED MYSELF FROM JOE SO I COULD FIGHT THE URGE TO SCREAM ABOUT HIM

But last night at the bar they kept playing songs from my Joe playlist and I was soft 🤣

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frostbite-the-bat · 5 months

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OK, I'm on mobile so it May Be Goofy BUT - here's the story of how I got banned from advertising and selling commissions on a furry server. Full edition because (beffica voice) DRAMAAAAA.

This WILL be long. I have adhd, it's 4 am, and I overexplain. you should know me by now, however. have fun reading!

vvvv under the cut

Also, warning - when a piece of this happened, it left me very upset, but nowadays I just kind of laugh at it and go "wow what an asshole that other guy." so don't worry about me (aside from the fact I have trust issues with commissions now)

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Okay so, years ago on discord, around 2018 when I first got the name Guzma (that's where it stuck), I joined a furry server. I wasn't doing well mentally and wanted like minded people to talk to, so I joined a furry server

I befriended people there rather quickly, as I was active all day for hours in the pokecord channel. I even got past like 2k messages there which was a requirement for a level up thing and I did it in ONE day.

I became buddies with the staff and the owner. like many people she jokingly adopted me as a kid into the goofy server family tree and I considered us all friends there. (many of these people I know to this day, we just don't chat often)

However.... She turned out to be not so great. Throwing the n slur around like it's candy alongside other questionable things I cannot remember too clearly. The server was in hot waters, and despite it's popularity, it vanished one day and I was invited into a side server for people the server owner liked. It was.... Horrible. Slurs everywhere and inappropriate images (not sexual I believe tho, just bad shit.) were shared. Most of us were minors at the time, but there were some young adults, too, I think. Still doesn't excuse the shitty place it was. I was madly uncomfortable and I left.

Also before I move on, run fact! In this server and my friends were in a quackity video - I think I saw him join but didn't react and thought of just some generic raider we're gonna get rid off... I kinda always sniffed out the new joins who were raiders well. But yeah, he joined the vc, said "wanna do the owo and the furry" and then got banned. My friend who shows up next and the server owner were in this call. After the video dropped we began getting more raids, and negativity towards the furry Fandom in general got a bit more aggressive with teenage kids with war pfps joining the server to call us furfags and to die. So yeah! Fuck quackity for underestimating his impressionable fan base and for doing joke raids in general. not my only beef or drama regarding him, but I'm not sharing that.

Eventually I got contacted by one of my still good friends who I met there, about joining another furry server - where the actual story takes place! But, I believe, backstory with these people is necessary. And we did want drama, didn't we?

A lot of people from the old server moved here, so I adjusted quickly. Most of them were ex staff, and so they became staff here eventually too. I chatted there daily and constantly, and I'm still considered a trusted highlighted member there even if I haven't spoken there in over a year. (well, I stopped speaking there like around 2021 in general... Only joining for small chats and sharing my art only. A year ago I stopped entirely.)

But like yeah, I was a respected member there and people knew me there. I was basically friends with all of the staff. I was like the only og person who didn't join staff there.

And, as always, I became friends with the owner and we had our own little adopted family tree again. things were good! It was fun.

Until I did some commissions for Minecraft skins (2019ish going into 2020 at the BAD part of the story I believe), and a friend of the server owner contacted me. I did his commission (HAD TO WORK WITH A CRUSTY SHADED PAINGING JOEG AS MY REF BTW. BAD.) and delivered him his skin! He'd ask a lot for updates, but... I didn't mind it.

I got paid in discord nitro, as I was and still am unable to be paid in real money. Especially back then as a minor.

That went smoothly! He then commissioned me again, this time for a full piece. It was to be of his fursona and the server owners fursona, full-body - got an drawing as a pose reference to use. I forgot my work process here, but it was slower. Back then I tried a more realistic style before I grasped anatomy as well as I do now - without much stylization. Especially back then in furry spaces this sold better than heavily stylized cartoon styles... I yet had to accept this type of style even if I wanted. So... I wasn't having fun with it.

I'd get asked a lot for updates, again, but I did get the drawing done! Both loved the piece and at this point it was clear they trusted me for commissions. I mean I was recommended to the commissioner guy, who I'll call Ourple at this point(his sona was mainly purple colored) BY THE SERVER OWNER, who was my friend.

until, I get a commission again... And it's of the two characters again! I forgot the secofics, but it was meant to be tropical themed. I... Struggled with this one deeply. I didn't have fun with it and I struggled with school and my grades and my pretty severe bullying.

on top of that my undiagnosed adhd, and this was before I learned about any mental health or disability positivity. I knew I had adhd but I didn't know what it did yet. In my eyes and to everyone else, I was just lazy - even if it was painful for me to just.. Want to do something and my mind and body not cooperating. Its HORRIBLE.

And, issue is, I already got paid, and claimed my 6 months of nitro as payment... I couldn't give a refund. You see where this is going.

So, he gave me approximately 6 months to work on it, saying to take my time though, and that he'll check on the progress. I said that's fine... And I began initial sketches the day of. I didn't like them much and I struggled a lot. I dropped it a bit and just did things in my own life... With this kind of in the back of my mind.

Sometimes he'd ask me for updates and I'd deliver. And then about 2 months in, he noticed I was posting doodles and shit posts that took me just.. Super quick to like 5 minutes. Tho this memory is fuzzy and I max mistake it for another dms call out incident from him. He annoyed a Lot.

he finally snapped and went into my dms, asking me how DARE I draw other things when he commissioned me.

His "uwu hii hugs how's da commission doin? OwO?" talk was gone and he suddenly began speaking very formally and scarily, and well. It scared me. I forgot what exactly I said but I did mention hey I'm a kid and I'm stressed??

But he didn't speak to me he said something and bitched out, using the server owner as someone to speak for him. the server owner knew how stressed Ourple made me and how bad this kinda was - seeing I couldn't refund and I simply wasn't doing the commission.

OH I FORGOT TO MENTION. IM NOT GOIGN BACK. HE CONTACTED MODS ABOUT THIS FIRST INSTEAD OF GOING INTO MY DMS. I JUST REMEMBERED THAT. THE OWNER DMS CAME FIRST. my memory is a bit bad when it comes to unpleasant situations, apologies.

so he got THE STAFF INVOLVED WHO WERE NOW SOLVING THE SITUATION WITHOUT ME EVEN INVOLVED. the person IT WAS ABOUT.

AND I even explained to purple hey I have adhd and I'm like a kid you're an adult you should've known better commissioning a fucking child (15 at the time?? Idk... Years and numbers may be incorrect in the story.)

But he was still angry and refused to speak to me. And I was too scared to speak back. I cried and cried and I was so worried.

At this state I could not do the commission especially as my mental state was just... Bad in general at the time mostly due to school.

And then... A saint old friend from the previous server... A total sweetheart of the sweethearts, who was also dating someone who I called uncle who was genuinely the bed test ever who I had MANY pleasant commissions with - came in and offered help and that the staff discussed things.

they would finish the commission for me and I take some time off to focus on myself and get better. and this was someone with basically professional level art. Fancy fun very well rendered art, could so stylized and cool as hell realistic too. And I couldn't thank them enough for the offer and their kindness.

Eventually... Time passes... And I get over all this. I continue my school life and my art life as I did. I began posting more art and at this point I think it was 2021 and I was into bugsnax so this is my early new Tumblr era I believe. he noticed I've been drawing again - and demanded I finish the commission.

Turns out he also denied my friends help to get a free commission from an arguably better artist, because he was so bitter over me. He basically saw that I was better and wanted the commission done. I think this was told to me through server owner, too.

So... I did finish the drawing. More quickly put together because I couldn't care less, I wanted to be done with it. He got his stupid commission and we were done.

But... Then... As I was switching up art styles (this could've been before it, too, remembering the styles I used... But I think it was After.) I decided to open quick headshot commissions, for steam stuff and nitro! it was fun as the ppl who commissioned me were my good friends from the server. It was advertised on the server, too, in the advertising chat where artists can advertise their commissions for all to see.

And then I was contacted by a different mod, or server owner I can't recall ... And my commission advert on the server was removed. I've been informed that I'm BANNED from posting ANY AD on the server, as it was something that was discussed between the mods when Ourple went whining to them instead of asking me about the commission. I was NOT INFORMED ABOUT THIS. so I was like?? What load of BULLSHIT??

And WELL.. TIME WENT ON... SERVER OWNER GOT INTO DRAMA... RACIST SHIT AGAIN... I GOT SCREENSHOT OF THINGS AS THEY WERE DELETED I CAN PROBABLY SPILL SHIT ON THIS GUY IF I WANTED...! one day a small argument in general broke out basically and Boy, Were Messages Being Deleted. But... I stopped being active because of some Of My Biggest Life Trauma Ever when I broke up with my ex friend. It scarred me horribly I won't elaborate however.

So I was inactive... And the server got a new owner (also a friend of mines, we still chill we just don't talk. Tho someone else may own it now idk) and I eventually asked mod friend if I can advertise there again since CHANGE OF OWNERSHIP and I was told yea ur fine lol.

So yeah. That's how i got banned from advertising on a furry server

In retrospect, it shows to be more knowledgeable when doing commissions, and to have a way of refunding someone. But also, thay the commissioner, an adult in the situation, should've been more responsible as he knew he is commissioning a minor who Most Knew Is Unwell.

He should've handled it with more nuance instead of harassing me and scaring me at first (Literally pulled up the doodle I did and went What is this? You do this while daring not to work on your PAID WORK? YOU DARE HAVE FUN??) and then refusing to speak to me and get help and free shit from others - and used someone else to speak for him. Big props for the other mod friend for being so nice to me and willing to take matters into their own hands, prioritizing my mental health first.

I've learned a lesson from this, of course, but wow I didn't need to get through all that. delightful!

#Guzma story time #<- if I do more of these this is the tag

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gurugirl · 1 year

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And the girl in wattpad profile of yours is you??? A brunette with books I think (saw a bit ago when I had an acc there) they were so pretty and cuteeeee

ahh yeah! that is me! i keep wanting to change the picture to something harry related but it just never happens. lol

i need to get my act together and update my wattpad cover and pfp soon. one day...

xoxo

#ask #i'm blonde actually #but the lighting makes it look darker there #thank you babe

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xo-cuteplosion-xo · 2 years

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Also the one with the Armin pfp is me ^^ I revealed myself not even a week later hehe 😅 anyways, the song I was listening to is 7th sense by NCT and the plot I thought of was like reader writing in a notebook the English translation of the song lyrics and Kaeya reads it (they’re in a relationship btw…or we’re in this case) and he gets like a flashback to when they were fighting and how his s/o met their demise. Yeah…a n g s t. I personally love angst hehe

-G

I think I found a new favorite song o-o. It fuels my need to already write angst T_T. I took the "were" to heart here and made it more angsty U-U.

A reincarnation to modern-day Au (kinda?)

Warnings: Only Kaeya remembers the past U-U. Angst, language, minor violence (medium???), angst, it got long, uh... Kaeya is written to how I imagine he is under the flirty persona. so, talk of putting oneself down... depression? suicidal thoughts? idk put that there just in case-

Kaeya x Reader Angst

“Open your eyes”

Kaeya was used to seeing you around, his chest afloat but heavy at once. It was you, yet it was not. With such differences between you then and now. Each stroke of your pen caught the attention of his eyes. His eyes, which had been scanning his textbooks while you were supposed to be working yourself, now focused on the letters of your pen. His head tilted slightly as he watched. The earphones laying within your ears must be playing a song you enjoyed, perhaps on repeat? He hadn’t seen you look… so like you once had before. His eyes caught the words, slowly reading them, suddenly struck with an ache in his chest.

His eyes faded into the distance as he fought to stay present with you, here in this library… but ever since he’d been small, he knew you, or at least the you he’d known at some point.

His eyes glanced around, complete loss of control, stuck within the memory. His vision was always so different here than what he’d grown up with… with only a single eye to see, the other covered, it was to be expected. He hated being able to feel the light warmth of the sun. He hated every bit of this world. He felt… cold, bitter cold like he was in an eternal freezer, trapped in ice. He’d seen moments of sweet comfort that left him with a bitter tang in his mouth… never seen answers to why he felt… cold. He knew that in both lives he’d been taken in by the same family, only here he did not get along with his elder brother… but here there was a version of you who saw him as more than a simple friend.

His lips moved without his permission, calling out your name with a sweet tone he’d never have the confidence to speak to you with. “Y/n, where are you off to so early? Yet another commission? Has Master Jean asked you to go take things on your own again? Don’t you get lonely traveling on these long commissions? Come on, stay a little long Y/n, you only just got back… can’t this wait? We were going to drink silly today.” He hummed walking close to your side, wrapping his arms about your waist, filling you with his abnormally cold temperature. He watched you shiver with a small chuckle.

“Kaeya, I’m actually doing a small favor for your- er for Master Diluc. It’s not much, he’s busy aiding the traveler today, so I promised I'd take care of some meddling Fatui. He’ll join me himself when he finishes helping the Honorary Knight. It’s not a harbinger, so it’s something I can handle on my own.” You turned in his embrace, lifting yourself to land a peck to his lips. That cold feeling warmed with the contact, his cheeks heating as he chuckled against his will. His mind screaming, a different yell than his usual memories that surfaced… Those tended to tell him he was safe, that this was not real, and not to get lost in this past life. The voice inside his head was screaming for him to wake up, that he shouldn’t remember… that if he did, he may never recover.

“Oh? Look at you, not long ago the traveler and I were teaching you to wield your weapon the right way, teaching you to use that God’s eye… yet, here you are all mature now. It’s so… pleasing, but I wish you had never grown into your skills… as selfish as that is.” Kaeya pressed his lips to your forehead, running his fingers through your hair.

“I never said you couldn’t come along, silly captain.” Your laugh… ah how much his heart fluttered with that sound. Why couldn't you, the present self, make such noises? Why did you never laugh like that with him? Had he not tried to court you right this life? Had he been wrong to use the same tactics he used in that past life? What changed, was it not remembering yourself, or were you simply their lookalike? No… There were times where you did what they had done, acted so similar he had to stop and question if it were another scene meant to torment him.

“Then I shall accompany you, my dear.” He let go of your waist, motioning with a bow for you to lead them away.

A mistake… to not talk you from this commission… he was realizing that.

Wake up…

Before it happens… again… right there… wake up… forget… forget… don’t remember… I don't want to see it… no… please let me snap back to the world… notice… notice the distant look… suck me home… please… forget… Kaeya…. Forget… don’t look…

It was the first time he saw the power he had in that life. Ice flinging from his sword or even his hands from mere flicks of his fingers… and you were no dead-weight yourself. Strong elemental energy coming in bursts as you fight. Even with the unexpected ambush of the Fatui agents, more than initially expected. Anger in their eyes as they swore curses, Kaeya struck with skilled mercy, aiming not to kill despite having complete ability several times to do so. Enemies fell, knocked out, dropping to their knees and surrendering. The chest at the end seemed a pleasant reward if the two of you ever managed to clear the enemies around.

“What the fuck… they’re everywhere.”

“Look at you, cursing like a true knight under frustrating conditions. You’re truly amazing, my angel!” Kaeya called out as he drove ice in a circle around himself, catching Fatui, who backed up to avoid being slashed in half by the sharp form of his capabilities.

Behind you… move… damn it… movie Kaeya… stop it… pay attention… sense it… why couldn’t you see it… why… why… Why them? Couldn’t it have been you? Traitor, monster… worthless scum… just pay more attention to the fallen enemies… not all… no…

The sound of their voice, the moments slowing as they did that day… despite his pleas at the memory to stop progressing or to change the events, he couldn’t do anything. Stuck watching the mistakes of the moment catch up to him again. Their body jumped in front of his back… “KAEYA!” The holler of their name as their blade moved to block, missing… they missed… leaving that small opening… their blade slipped… they couldn’t block it…

No… stop it… stop showing this… forget… forget… open your eyes, quietly just open your eyes, look out and open your eyes… open your eyes…. Open your damn eyes… don’t look…

No matter what he chanted internally, he couldn't change the memory…

Wake me up…

He didn’t wake… he stayed trapped as he dropped to catch your slumping form. The ice he’d been so careful not to use lethally showed no restraint… impaled over and over… that agent who dared hurt you fell gurgling on crimson as his eye glared dark shades of black. Darker black than an angered harbinger… a darker aura than a god who’d been angered… nothing could compare to the feelings he had forgotten…

How long ago had it been since he felt this much pain?

He lived in it.

He lived with the regrets of watching his adoptive father die, his birth father, abandoning him to infiltrate Mondstadt… he hadn’t felt this much… furry since that night… when his life had changed from a peaceful childhood in a palace… to a wandering boy who had no home. The remaining Fatui attempted to flee, seeming to sense his current state… of the masses, only a handful made it out… alive… none without injury. “Y/n… please don’t close your eyes… don’t try moving though, don’t talk… I'll do something… let me just… Can I freeze it? Ah no, that could make it worse… the church… but if I move you… fuck!”

“Kaeya… am I?” he shook his head, grabbing your hand as you stared at him with… terror… you were terrified… truly terrified.

“No! You’re just a little hurt… nothing that can't be fixed at the cathedral. Just let me...” He paused, feeling the hand in his go suddenly limp before you rolled on your side, lungs gasping as blood… as blood seeped from your lips…

“Kaeya…”

“N-no… listen, don’t waste energy… I can get you help…”

“Kaeya… it’s bad…”

“… please don’t go…”

He was never vulnerable… not the way he was now… not to the point he was ready to plead and beg... to shove pride up his ass.

“If we ever meet… in a new life… let's fall in love again.” You coughed between your words before reaching his covered eye. He let you remove it, staring at you with both eyes.

He’d never seen the world this way… not in his memories… he saw in the reflection of ice why he covered that eye. “Y/n…” he started before your lips shook. Breath coming off in a puff of white smoke… one… last… time… Kaeya took a few moments to comprehend what just happened. Your hand hitting the floor in slow motion… It was quick, but so drawn out to him. His hands moved to your shoulders…

Tap…

Shift..

Shove,

Shake-

“Y/n?”

“y/n?”

“Y/n?”

“This isn’t funny?”

“Open your eyes, look out, open your eyes…”

“Please?”

“Stop joking…”

The slightest movement from the unconscious members he’d let live resulted in their demise… his emotions controlling him as he leaned over and belted… his voice rattling the freezing caves… any moisture freezing as he shook your body with more force than he’d ever use to wake you from a nightmare.

Can I wake up now? Please… I don't want to keep remembering this… he thought to himself as he observed the mess he created… even his tears fell like ice crystals…

He didn’t register the sound of fire breaking ice, melting it, only to see it freeze again. He didn’t care if the person saw the splatters of blood from Fatui… didn’t care if they called him a monster…

He failed… worthless… he couldn’t keep anything that he loved… everything slipped by his fingers.

His home

His only relative

His adoptive father… who was more a father than his birth father.

On the same day, his brother… because he wanted Diluc to kill him… he had felt guilty for feeling relieved Crepus died, not knowing his secret…

And now... He’s lost the only person who promised to stick by him till they saw peace… and to become a married couple and raise kids after peace set in.

Was this worth it? The pain? Were the moments of freedom worth this? Yes… he thought… they were. To see that smile and hear your voice… It was worth it to feel loved.

“Kaeya?” He knew that voice… ah so Diluc did come… too bad he’s… late. Just like Kaeya was when their… when Diluc’s father died… he forgot sometimes… that Diluc no longer thought of him as a brother… he never said our father… always my father this and that…

“You were right… you always are Diluc...” He didn’t mean to sound so defeated… and broken. Oh… Diluc knows about the eye… he’s never seen it… best he keeps it closed… unless… would Diluc perhaps be disgusted enough to… kill him?

“Kaeya… what-” he seemed to almost gag. Kaeya heard it. Must be the obnoxiously gory scene… the ice was… melting… ah so he was calming down? No, Diluc’s pyro… it’s the stronger element against cryo… pyro melts cryo…

“I really am everything you think. I am Diluc… a worthless traitor… scum.” He wasn’t making sense… at least now that he was thinking from a viewpoint that didn’t feel what this past self felt… he seemed overly dramatic… “I couldn't… it was my fault… I should have seen it… sensed it. I’m a captain… a knight of Favonius. We really are worthless… I can’t live up to you… you’ve always been… better than me… I wonder… had she gone with you… she’d probably be alive.” What had he been on to think this way?

“Kaeya? Move… let me see.'' He didn’t budge, but he didn’t fight or try to cling to the dead body as Diluc melted the ice before him. His eyes stared for so long before looking at Kaeya… “what happened… Kaeya”

“You don’t care… So why should I elaborate… they're dead… I lost it and… killed them in return… you wanted to do the same when… your father died.” Diluc stood as tall as he could at that small note. Kaeya never called him like that… even when Diluc shouted that Crepus was not their father, only his… Kaeya rolled his eyes and stubbornly called him their father.

He felt guilty? This was… his commission, but there were no more than three when he’d been asked to handle this situation… Where did the others come from?

Diluc had to… it must have been his older brother instincts kicking in, but he picked the younger lad into his arms and, despite the burning cold against the heat of his body, he placed Keys in the light. His eyes… they had a sparkle, didn’t they? Why were they… dull… duller than a masterless vision? Why was Kaeya simply letting things happen?

Why am I still living this out? Why am I not awake yet? Kaeya hissed within his mind, hating the pain that welded into his brain, traveling down to his chest. Diluc’s hands removed the blood-stained fur and garments, before wrapping Kaeya in a jacket… oh this is… Diluc’s coat? Kaeya’s eyes moved for a moment to stare at the fabric that wrapped him. He watched Diluc turn back to the icy cave.

It was his first reaction since Diluc had moved him from their body… his hand reached out, grabbing pathetically at the older male's pants leg. He felt so small… like a child grasping an adult… perhaps because in his mind… Diluc would always be his big brother. “Please… don’t… go.” Diluc had never seen Kaeya like this… not since they were little… long before the knights…Diluc kneeled…

He set their foreheads together, letting his feeling about that night fade… he’d implemented that thought into his head… the one that made Kaeya think he had no worth… and they… his lover… had helped him find himself… find that he did, in fact, have worth outside being a tool for others. “It’s okay… I’m going to clean up, but I won't… I'm not going to leave you again.”

Kaeya let him leave… it felt like ages before Diluc pulled out the body, carrying them in his hands… Kaeya leaped from his spot to their body, tapping them again… “Kaeya they're...”

“Not yet… not… they just need to open their eyes Diluc… why can’t I have this one thing?” Maybe he should stop talking? He said things when he got emotional… like that night… so compelled to spill everything because of the guilt… he was so vulnerable to his emotions… he was a smooth talker because he had to be… If he started to talk about himself, he would lose himself within the words… his emotions led him to do stupid things… and those things never go well…

If he was able to reason he would have stopped there without venting to the man he shouldn't be able to trust… considering that fight they had and the numerous verbal quarrels they had each day. “I never get the things I want… home… gone… abandoned… But I don't mind… I was taken in only to lose that family to… Because I’m nothing but a weapon… a stupid tool… a useless one though. Guess the gods really do forsake me… don’t you think Di-” His eyes shot wide when he was… hugged? Diluc… holding him? Pressing his head to his chest? Was he high, drunk? Was he dead and dreaming?

“Shhh, just… it’s okay to cry Kaeya… It’s alright to cry… I...” Diluc seemed to pause in his words… Was he about to see he wasn’t being himself? Was he about to shove him away again? That’s what Diluc would do? Diluc hates him, right? “Your big brother is here… and your big brother isn’t going to leave you to suffer alone anymore… don’t go saying things like you're about to… about to drive that sword through your body…” he sobbed, not that echo of a scream that he’d felt watching you die… but a genuine cry that hadn’t left his lips in years. He finally gripped tightly onto Diluc’s shirt, knowing his tears would stain the white collared shirt… his brother wore.

He didn’t register anything else… nor did he remember

His eyes opened quietly. “Kaeya?” he snapped to look at you, voice caught in his throat. “You scared me there! You were zoning out worse than usual… I know you tend to have spells where your mind is elsewhere, but you… were crying silently and kept moving like you wanted to wake from whatever it was… I shook you, but you didn’t snap back like you usually do...” He smiled as if nothing had played in his head.

“My bad… I apologize for worrying you.” He picked his book up, staring at it… he couldn’t focus anymore… maybe he’d talk to somebody… mostly Diluc, who seemed to also remember that past life… less than he did but he could understand Kaeya… at least to some point.

“Kaeya… I… oh gods help me… this is so not a good time, but I know I won't get the courage to ask you again, but… would you… maybe wanna go to… some sort of restaurant… just us?”

“Like a date?” he smiled, leaning over the table to stare into your eyes. Watching you blush and chuckle… oh how his heart did a little dance at that sound… a sound he’d only heard in those memories till now.

“Yeah… like… a date.”

“Then, I’ll pick you up at about seven tomorrow.” He rubbed your head before setting his book down and grabbing his bag.

“Kaeya… one last thing… it doesn't make sense… and if it’s weird I’m sorry if I uh… just don’t pay it mind if you don’t get it okay?” He raised a brow, two eyes, the same shade, color, and shape staring at you. “If we ever meet in a new life… let's fall in love again.”

A tear slipped unwillingly from his eye… pausing to make sure he heard you correctly. “I… keep my promises, my angle.”

“I’m sorry that I don’t remember any of our happy moments from then, but… I really did fall in love with you Kaeya… this you… not the man who called out to me as I watched myself die on loop for years at night with nothing but those words.” Kaeya smiled, kissing your forehead…

“We’ll make new memories.”

“Yeah… and we’ll be happy.”

“Yes… happy.”

And he was… he was happy knowing you loved him, would laugh and smile like you always did.

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