I was watching luca as I do at least once a week and during this watch I decided to really focus on the eyes and overall expressions and I noticed a scene that I've completely just overlooked every single time apparantly

In this scene luca's grandma is telling him about how alberto convinced Gulia's mom to let him stay while he's at Genova and the way he turned around and just stared at alberto with this sort of aw and just love-struck look on his face absolutely killed me. Plus it was like this for like 5 seconds straight.

Also just enjoy more of them looking at eachother in the following scenes :)

Istg these two we better be getting that project soon because wooo boy do I need more content!!

thinking about ellie with an actor! reader 🫣like maybe reader is doing short films and indie films to start off their career. reader sometimes brings ellie to set with them and ellie can just watch them do their thing and be a certified supportive gf🫡

a bonus thought that i just thunked while typing this; what if reader gets a callback for a pretty big show and gets !! the !! part !! and it could be considered their like “breakout role”, and how proud would be :,))

Ellie Williams Headcanons: Actress!Reader

The start of your career

Supportive gf Ellie is prominent!

Comes to all of the sets of projects that your working on-

Makes you and the whole crew lunch because theirs only like ten staff

Ur biggest fan❤️

Watches every single indie movie your in, every short film, you could be an extra or the lead and she will absolutely LIVE for it.

Sitting next to her giggling away as she watches gobsmacked at every plot twist and cliffhanger of a film your in.

Takes all the photos for your Instagram.

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ellie_sketches @dinnodina look at how pretty my girl is.

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Breakout Role

She was the first one you told when the audition told you that you had gotten the role

The lead in a film adaptation of a well known spy novel. The script was amazing, empowering and had beautiful character development throughout the plot

And as soon as your agent told you of the role you knew you had to do it.

You never expected to actually get a call back.

You had never ran so fast from your car, up the three flights of stairs and into your shared apartment than you did once you got the call.

"ELLIE!!! ELLIE OH MY GOD WHERE ARE YOU!" You screamed before an alarmed Ellie came out of your bedroom.

"Fuck babe- wants wrong are you alr-"

She couldn't even finish her sentence before you had ran into her arms, squeezing the life out of her.

"I got it- I fucking got it Els" you sobbed. Ellie's face light up immediately and her smile beamed before her lips smashed into yours. The kiss lasted for what felt like hours before you broke away from eachother.

Her hands cradled your face, tears rushing down her cheeks "I am so, so fucking proud of you baby"

Lets just say she is the proudest girlfriend ever.

Reads all the books the movies are based off of even though she's not a big reader

Going as your date for the premiere <33

Such a fucking sweetheart, goes with you to every new experience to help you with your anxiety. Whether she's lurking behind the camera during an interview or holding your hand as you meet your idols.

She's there for you. Always.

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ellie_sketches I have never met someone more deserving of this than you ❤️

dinnodina so proud of you bestie <3

florencepugh I'm so happy I got to work with you!!!

Becoming a star

After the success of the spy movie you lead- you were scouted for so many new things.

You became a face in many franchises: scream, the hunger games and even marvel!

It was honestly insane.

And ofc big roles came with high rates. You bought a penthouse apartment in Manhattan- and you bought Ellie everything she wanted.

(Your her sugar mommy fr lmao)

She was able to quit her day job and focus solely on her art. She did something she loved and you were doing yours. It was perfect.

Date nights mainly stayed at home- the paparazzi and constant flashing lights became really tedious- so dinner and a movie was the way to go

Not like the two of you were complained.

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yourinstagram I have never felt so honoured, appreciated and in love than I am right now. Being able to make acting my livelihood is something that I had never thought I would be able to achieve in this lifetime- and I am so so so grateful for everyone that has made this possible. Thank you to the staff, the directors, my agents and my team.

But a special thanks to my Ellie. Ellie has been by my side since day one, she has seen me lose roles, get roles, cry, scream and laugh through this completely and utterly insane experience. I love you so much.

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GUESS WHO HAS AN OSCAR BITCHES!!!!

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Ram Sweeney x Reader || Headcanons

Topic: Dating HC's

Notes:

*Sigh*... I write regularly write for creeps like Freddy Krueger and Offenderman... and am one of the few tumblrs that write for Sheriff Hoyt romantically... and yet Kurt and Ram are my real guilty pleasure characters.

Anyway I hope someone other then me wanted this XDD I'm gonna do a Kurt one too.

Warnings: Some NSFW but not explicit.

Your song: The Way I Loved You (Taylor Swift)

He respects my space and never makes me wait

And he calls exactly when he says he will

He's close to my mother, talks business with my father

He's charming and endearing and I'm comfortable

...

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain

And it's 2:00 a.m. and I'm cursing your name

So in love that you act insane

And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and coming undone

It's a roller coaster kinda rush

And I never knew I could feel that much

And that's the way I loved you

You two as a TV/Movie/Book couple: Bianca Piper and Wesley Rush (The DUFF)

Having the kind of relationship that no one else understands at all. Like, you have nothing in commen except commen history and your feelings for each other (Which are, on the other hand, totally clear to everyone) but when you're together you're always laughing and being affectionate.

Being in an on and off relationship throughout middle school and highschool- but never and I repeat; Never, is anyone permitted to mess with you at all. Because Ram always considers you his, even when you arent together.

So yeah, you always have 2 (Ram, and Kurt) large football star bodyguards at your disposal.

Being very playful together.

SOOOOoooooo much PDA. Including: Making out in the hallways and at school events like football games (You dont care who sees), sitting in his lap or at least squished close to his side at lunch, him throwing you over his shoulder to carry you places, him giving you piggy back rides, him picking you up and twirling you around, him just standing behind you with his arms around your waist and his chin rested on your shoulder when he's bored (With everything but you), his arm being over your shoulders as you walk together, you wiping peanut butter on his nose to get a rise out of him and then running away so he'll chase you, you peppering his face with kisses to make him laugh, etc.

Having a turbulent relationship. Because while, when all is well you two are like peanut butter and jelly and seem like the perfect highschool sweethearts, when you arent it's because Ram has gotten really jealous over something and called you a terrible name (Skank, whore, slut, bitch- any of those) or you understandably got irritated by his bullying and/or being a perverted, sexist asshole and you have huge, blow out fights in the middle of school and by the end of the period the whole student body knows about it.

You give him the silent treatment and the cold shoulder after those (If you didnt break up, that is) and he sends Kurt to give you messages.

When you make up its because he sincerely apologises although he doesn't 100% understand what he did wrong which becomes part of the next fight.

As you've been together so very long, he is basically part of your fucking family. He's so familiar and casual with your parent/s and/or sibling/s. They love him so much that, whether you're with him at the time or not, they allow him into the house and your bedroom with a cup of tea and snacks. (Its the 'American dream' popular-boy / football-star thing.)

So yeah, sometimes when you're mad at him or he wants to get back together (Which generally you want to do, to. You honestly have the same biological timer. Its like, 3 weeks pass by of being broken up and then ding ding ding! You both get the feelings its time to get back together and start sharing grins in the hallway and talking to your friends about eachother) you'll just find him waiting for you in your room when you come home.

Hanging out a looooooot with Kurt. Movie nights at your place, hanging out at the mall together on weekends sneaking out to see them at the football field at night time, etc. When you're sad, they'll both turn up wherever you are to cheer you up, too! Goofballs.

This does not mean there arent times where Ram shoo's Kurt off, though, when you two want some alone time together (*Eyebrow wiggles*) because of course. I'm just saying, you're a close-knit group.

When you are alone together, not much changes from when you're around others honestly XD You're still just as playful and affectionate. You just, you know, also have sex.

When he's down, you rusk your graceful image and climb through his bedroom window to be there with him. You dont fuck, you dont even really kiss. You just climb into bed with him and he'll tuck you under his chin and close his eyes. Legit old married couple. And you two sleep- by morning, he usually feels better and refuses to let you get out of bed with him.

"Five more minutessssss, babe!" He whines, holding you against him and pressing kisses to your head. You know he'll just say that again in 5 minutes time- and over, and over, and over again.

"Oh- no. I've been caught in this trap before Ram. We have school, so we have to get up. Come on!" You push firmly at his stomach (or abs) with your fists; not that that does much as he just just groans or gathers your little wrists in one big fist to stop you (Either way he certainly doesn't even flinch). His eyes are still closed. You sigh.

Now you have two choices, you can either give in and snuggle back into him for the rest of the morning, or threaten to send an attack towards his groin and he'll literally fling himself outta bed. Like "OH LOOK AT THE TIME- Kurt's gonna be waiting for us outside. Lets go!"

There are also mornings that you wake up with him (No sad Ram the night before necessary) and are all too happy to stay there with him. You just adorably nod into his chest, eyes still closed and making the cutest half-asleep morning sound when he asks if you wanna stay here a bit longer and he happily pulls the blanket over both your heads; shielding you both from the real world for a while.

OKAY MOVING ON FROM THAT FLUFFINESS.

You are also the only person who has any sort of control over him and Kurt. Like you can take them down a few pegs with just a look.

You two do date other people when you're broken up but its clear to anyone watching that these are just nice place holders for eachother. Neither of you are ever as happy with others as you are with eachother. You're ridiculously in love, actually.

Ypu were the first one to say I Love You, and he immediately called Kurt for guidance XD

Places you've had sex (Because it is always the full monty with Ram): Both your bedrooms so so so many times, the school bathrooms, his car, Kurts car (Kurt was NOT pleased.), the back of the football field, under the bleachers during a game or pep rally (he was benched for being too violent) + under the bleachers during practise + under the bleachers when the football field is deserted, the back of the school, the faculty parking lot at school, Kurts and Heather Chandler's houses (Parties. Basically a Westerburg High party is not complete without Y/N L/N and Ram Sweeney breaking in someones bed), his parent's car, the woods, cow pasture (a picnic blanket was used), and finally some mall changing rooms.

You leave him messages on his answering machine. He listens to every one of them (Which means something because he doesnt listen to anyone elses, unless he's gotta get through them to get to yours).

Him being SUCH a jealous asshole (With everyone except Kurt).

HIM STANDING UP TO THE HEATHERS FOR YOU.

#PromKingAndQueen

Having Kurt "Smartest guy on the football team," Kelly be your (Occasionally, live in- yes, he has slept over with the two of you on the floor so he could break up fights) couples councellor. Often his advice is 'fuck it out' but he also comes up with oddly wise shit sometimes. Mostly he's just very exasperated though. Like, its obvious you two are gonna end up together- stop bothering me with this shit. Let me get some pussy for myself guys please-

You two getting a bit frisky on movie nights with Kurt and he throws stuff at you. He just starts bringing a pool noodle (That he drew an angry face onto) along with him and hitting y'all with it whenever he feels its necessary. Cuz I mean, on one hand, of course he's happy for his bro Ram that he's getting his dick wet, but on the other- ITS FUCKIN MOVIE NIGHT, PULL YOURSELVES TOGETHER FOR T W O S E C O N D S (Oh the irony- it does indeed escape him). He'll park his ass right in the middle of you two if you keep it up.

If he had survived, you and Ram would have broken up after graduation and spent college apart, before bumping into each other again back home as new (Improved. Especially him) people that fit together better now and ended up getting back together for good.

Denki Kaminaris True Ability; an Analysis.

I had a request by @/arenkuboyashiswife on tiktok to write a longer a longer analysis on Denkis powers. This one will not just be using examples from Hero Rising, it’ll also use a multitude of examples from the rest of the anime. Also, this is purely based of the anime not the manga, as i don’t have the money to read it. Enjoy!

Let’s start off with how Kaminari is perceived by his class mates and the fandom. Denki Kaminari is widely accepted as the “idiot” of the bakusquad, and in general he’s accepted as the class idiot too. Now though his grades may not be the best, Kaminari is not dumb. We can see a brief example of this when Jirou suggests the hero name “Jamming-Whey” and Kaminari connects that to Hemingway. This brief moment is perceived as comedy, however, it does show that even though Kaminari may not be overly smart, he’s not stupid. This moment in my eyes shows that though he may not be smart with topics taught in school, he’s smart in other departments. This skill of his is just never fully exporled. There’s more moments exempting this throughout the anime aswell. Midoriya said that the written exam to get into UA was hard and that he barley passed. Kaminari also had to take that test and pass to get into UA. Even if Kaminari *also* barley passed, that still shows he is exceptionally smart. UA is no joke to their society, the biggest heros go there, so there’s no doubt in my mind that each and every student in the hero course is very smart.

So now I’ve covered the scene in which he refrences Hemingway and how his intelligence may extend outside of school. But he’s also smart in other departments. Kaminari knows the lengths of his quirk, and he knows the risk he’s taking when using it. We know this from when the students got separated from eachother and Kaminari had to explain to Jirou that he’d hurt her and Momo if he discharged electricty. He knows that dispatching a lot of electricity at once can seriously hurt his classmates, but he also knows how much this can hurt his enemy’s. By designing and testing a support item, he’s now able to direct his electricity. Circling back to how he had to pass the UA student exam, we can infer that he does know how to use his power. I wouldn’t be surprised if he was very versed in knowledge on how his quirk works. No one is born a hero, and the real knowlage is earned from having the yearn and drive to learn. Kaminari, along with everyone else in 1-A, have this drive, which proves all of them are way smarter than any test mark can prove.

Now let’s talk about his powers outside of intelligence; his physical powers. Breaking my professionalism for a second, i’d like to say that Kaminari is insanely fucking powerful. Allow me to elaborate. So as most know, Kaminaris quirk is electricity, he can create electricity all over his body but dispatching it will hurt everyone around him, including his classmates. However, using a cleaverly designed supper course item (as mentioned) he can direct it, and potentially kill his enemy’s. The concept of his quirk is already very powerful, electricity is a very dangerous thing to handle. Just 120 volts can kill a person. Kaminari is able to go slightly over 1 million without short curciting.

Not only can he dispatch large amounts of electricity, he can also absorb tones of power aswell. In the movie Heros Rising he received an entire lightning bolt and walked the next day. Lighting bolts have an average of 300 million volts, it is insane that he was up and walking the next day. However, the chances of surviving when being hit by lighting are surprisingly high, but very dangerous for the body. Symtoms can include fast or irregular heartbeat, hearing or vision loss, parilyzatipn, burns, confusion, shortness of breath, clothes or hair catching on fire, and passing out. In the scene where he gets struck, the only symptom he experienced was passing out. We know this because of two quick scenes shown, the one where he’s passed out and the one where he’s rescued. When he is rescued, there are no external signs of burns or any of the other affects I listed. The only one that happened was passing out. His body has to be extremely well trained and powerful to be able to take all that power at once.

(Above is the scene where Kaminari is passed out, the next is the scene where he’s rescued and appears to be completely okay minus tiredness. If anything, Sero looks more brutalized than him.)

Continuing on with looking at his powers, let’s talk about how under appreciated he is. Kaminari is constantly under appreciated for his powers and disregarded by everyone in the fandom and often times, in the anime too. Kaminari may have a downside to his powers when he short curicits, but that doesn’t defer form the fact that he has saved his classmates on MANY occasions. However, in those situations all his classmates are focused on are his weaknesses, not the fact that he potentially saved their lives. For example, when the LOV first attacked Kaminari took out atleast 20 villans with one attack.

ONE. SINGLE. ATTACK. However, Jirou was mainly disappointed in the fact that he went over his limit, and his attack was mainly left under appreciated by his classmates. Personally, this infuriates me beyond belief, Kaminari is not weak at all. In fact, the power he holds is the entire reason he’s still in 1-A. Aizawa is known for expelling students, and if Kaminaris power wasn’t adequate he would’ve been out a long fucking time ago. (pardon my language, I feel very strongly about that statement.)

So what do I want you to take for this? Denki Kaminari is not worthless, he’s not stupid, and he sure as hell isn’t weak. He’s constantly overlooked by this stereotype that he’s the local dumb kid when that’s not true at all. This is not based on personal opinon, it is fully based on facts that we are given throughout the show. Though I do have my fair share of opinions about it, I know based on facts that Kaminari isn’t stupid or weak. I can trust that if Kaminari was given more screen time everyone would be able to see the same message I have explored in this post.

I hope you take somthing away from this post you may have not seen before. And with that, I end this post here. I appreciate you reading more than you can know. :)

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The Dating JJ Alphabet

A-Ass.He likes to have his hand in your back pocket or just playfully slaps your butt throughout the day.

B-Babe.It’s his nickname for you.He hardly ever calls you by your name unless you did something really dumb and he was lecturing you.

C-Cuddles.He loves to cuddle with you on your couch under an insane amount of blankets with his arms wrapped around you as he places kisses on your forehead and neck.

D-

E-Eating.Most of the time you guys hung out you’d eat food and just enjoy eachothers company.Most of the time he ended up eating other things.

F-Fun.You guys have a lot of fun whether it be fighting with toy lightsabers,surfing or running from each other at the beach after you steal his hat.

G-Gorgeous.He’s always telling you how perfect you are and how gorgeous you look all the time.

H-Handsome.You tell him he’s handsome all the time. “Hey Babe.”He’d grin,leaning against your bedroom door.You’d look up at him with a smile. “Hey,Handsome.”

I-Idiot.You always teased him when he did something stupied and you’d call him an idiot.He always knew you were kidding though.

J-Jewelry.He stole you a lot of things including candy bars and jewelry.He’d stolen you three rings,a dolphin necklace and a few string bracelets.

K-Kisses.JJ loved kisses.He kissed you every time he saw you,in the morning after you woke up,when you made breakfast,when you went home after a date,on dates.He kissed you pretty much everywhere.He loved kissing your nose and your shoulder.

L-Love.He told you that he loved you first during a storm.You had made the dumb decision to go stand outside as branches fell and thunder rumbled while rain poured from the sky.He had come out of John.B’s house yelling for you to go inside when he let it slip out.

M-Movies.Every Saturday night JJ would come to your house to watch movies and do other things.

N-November.Your first date with JJ was in late November.You two had bought a bag of doritos and ate them at the beach as you guys talked about life.

O-Overalls.JJ loved when you wore overalls over a bikini.He’d wrap his arms around you and whisper into your ear that you looked amazing.

P-Period.He took care of you when you were on your period and brought you stolen candy bars and popsicles.

Q-Quickies.JJ loved quickies and once pulled you into the bathroom at The Wreck while the others were eating dinner.

R-Relationship goals.When Sarah was with Topper at a boneyard party she’d see you and JJ from a distance and become sad that Topper didn't look at her the way JJ looked at you.

S-Simp.John.B and Pope would not stop teasing him and calling him a simp. “Oh,baby,I love you so much we should get married and live in a castle!God,you’re such a simp!” “Shut the fuck up,you’re just jealous that i’m dating her and you’re not.” “Oh shit,John.B.You just got roasted by a simp!”

T-T-shirts.After you guys would have sex you always took his t-shirts because of how comfy they were.

U-Umbrella.You went out in the rain a lot for no reason other than to piss him off.He ended up buying an umbrella and just walking up to you and holding it over your head.

V-Videos.Half of his camera roll is just videos of you.He records you randomly like when you’re talking about something you're passionate about,when you're laughing,when you’re surfing or when you're playing your ukulele.He watches them when he’s alone at his house so he has something to smile about.

W- “Why do you love me?” “Why do you breathe?” “Cause I'd die if I didn't.” “Mhmm.Same things bitch,different shapes.”

X-X-ray.He wasn't used to people being as reckless as him until he met you.You had been home alone and he was on his way to see you.While he was driving you called him to let him know that you accidentally broke your arm on a door frame.He carried you out to the car and drove you to the hospital.

Y-Yeah.His literal answer to anything you ask him. “Can you grab me a soda from the fridge?” “Yeah,of course.” “JJ?” “Yes,baby?” “Can I have your hoodie?” “Yeah,sure.”

Z-Zoo.You guys had gone to the mainland on a date once and decided to go to the zoo.You didn't pay for tickets,you kind of just broke in and acted normal.

so it's the day after you had fainted and despite jinyoung telling you to rest you decide to go to work. as you arrive you watch jinyoung from afar chatting with one of his workers and you're totally enchanted by his strong but kind aura. everyone loved him as a boss and due to his attractiveness and kindness there were a lot of workers crushing on him as well. some workers are just too much though, arriving at work in the shortest skirts and tightest or lowest cut shirts you'd ever seen (pt. 1)

you had fallen for him too just like many did but you were the only one not dressing to impress him each and every day and even though he never knew if you liked him or not, he liked that you weren't trying too hard to be noticed by him. when jinyoung took notice of you he tensed, a frown overtaking his features. "you were supposed to rest." he told you after crossing the room to get to you. "i know that there's a bunch of stuff to do.. how can i not go to work?" you asked softly. (pt. 2)

"you fainted yesterday and today you're coming back to work? you're really trying your best to faint again aren't you? i wouldn't be able to handle it again especially if i could've prevented it" jinyoung told you concern and hurt visible in his eyes and voice. "jinyoung, look i'm fine okay?" you tried to convince him but he wasn't buying it. "you can stay but only if you stay by my side all day and then go on a date with me." "Deal." you said as you flashed a soft smile his way (pt. 3)

like that jinyoung spent all day not being able to focus on his work too busy with worrying about you. you needed a coffee? he'd get it or make someone else get it. you tripped? he caught you asking you dozens of questions to make sure you were okay. there were lots of similar moments throughout the day. when you arrived at the date destination you gasped as he led you to a restaurant with a stunning view. at the end of the night he brought you home and somehow ended up sleeping at your place.

a/n — fluff, ceo au, mentions of injuries, first dates, slight slowburn, etc

ceo - park jinyoung (part two)

it’s another day at the office, and you’re used to what you see everyday you come in — or you should be, but ever since that kiss with jinyoung, all of your coworkers flirting with him just seemed too obvious for your liking.

they always wore the shortest of skirts and tightest of skirts to get his attention, but it never worked. either he was oblivious to all their advances, or he simply didn’t care. you bet it was the latter, though.

from the corner of his eye, jinyoung notices some bandages on someone’s head, but doesn’t pay much attention. he has to do a double take before he realizes it’s you. his eyes meet yours, and you can see he’s a bit panicked at your presence.

he gives a polite smile to the ladies in front of him, nodding his head slightly and making an effort to walk over to you. he reaches where you are, and you realize he’s in a mixture of anger and concern. “what are you doing here? you’re supposed to be getting rest at home.” he whisper-yells to you.

you appreciate his concern with your wellbeing, but you do wish he’d stop hovering. “i’m perfectly fine. i have lots of work to do, how could i just skip?” you ask him softly. “oh, i don’t know, maybe becuase you fainted yesterday?” he snaps, but you can see he’s hurt and concerned for you. “why am i so in lo-“ he takes a deep breath and rephrased his sentence. “you fainted yesterday, and right now it seems like you’re trying hard to faint again. look, i wouldn’t be able to handle it if you fainted again, especially if i can prevent it.” he finished, looking at you sharply.

“mr. park.” he raises an eyebrow at that. “i am fine, okay?” you tell him, which wasn’t the complete truth. your head did hurt a bit, but it was nothing to stop you into coming to work. he simply eyed you suspiciously. the corners of hips lips turn up into a hopeful smile. “fine. but, you have to stay by my side all day, so i can make sure nothing happens to do.” he says. “deal.” you grin.

it was satisfying to watch the faces of everyone who thirsted after jinyoung mold into that of a frown and he gently pulled you through the building and too his office.

jinyoungs office was neat, and just the way you left it yesterday after you cleaned it. he pulls up a chair for you to sit beside him, and sits down himself. “okay, before i start, do you need anything?” he asks, facing you. “no, i’m fine.” you reassure him with a smile.

he gives a small smile back, and begins working. it’s a while before you talk again, sitting in comfortable silence. as it turns out, he wouldn’t get much work done. “here.” he mutters softly as he throws his jacket around your shoulders. “mr. park — jinyoung.” you correct yourself when he raises an eyebrow. “i’m not cold, promise.” you tell him with a small smile. “i’m doing everything in my power to make sure you don’t feel too tired so you won’t faint again. it’s the least i could do.” he says, placing his pen down on his work.

“i have to go get a few things, would you like to come with?” he suggests, standing up from his desk to help you up. “sure.” apparently, he has a lot more errands to run around the office than you thought because you were getting a little tired as you struggled to keep up with him.

you were in the copy room retrieving blank copy paper, when you tripped over a cord. his eyes widened and he immediately moved to catch you and hold you upright, arms wrapped around your shoulders. “are you okay? does your head hurt? are you tired? do you need me to get ice? are your legs fine?” he asks a lot of questions and he pulls away and his hands stay on your upper arms.

“i’m fine, jinyoung! i just tripped on a wire!” you reassured him, laughing as he breathes out a sigh of relief. “it isn’t funny, i was worried!” he says, but you can tell by the smile playing on his lips that he’s holding back the urge to laugh along with you.

it’s late afternoon when the both of you are still in his office goofing off and laughing with eachother. everyone else had left — even those flirty co-workers who worked late to impress him. he’s pouting a bit when you tell him you’re about to leave, looking at you as you stood up, bag in hand, ready to leave. “wait. how would you like to go on a date with me tonight?” he asks before you can close the door behind yourself.

you turn around and face him. you can practically feel the nerves radiating off of him from across his office. “i’d love to, but i need to go change...” you mumbled, looking down at your clothes. “you look perfect.” he breathes, looking you up and down. you’re bashful under his gaze. “but where are we gonna go? we have no reservations for such a sudden time?” you ask, placing your bag down. “i know a place.” he smiles. “then let’s go.”

the ride to the restaurant was very fun. jinyoung played your favorite songs (that your rambled about when you were sitting next to him) and even laughed along with you when you poorly belted out a chorus, and you were just happy you could put a smile on his face.

he clasped you hand with his once you got out of the car, walking at a steady pace to the restaurant. “hi, jinyoung park?” he asks, introducing himself and leading with his name once the both of you were inside the restaurant. the color drains from the waiters face as he paints on a smile and take the both of you to a secluded booth.

“please, take as long as you need. my name is woosik and i’m you’re waiter for the day!” he says before leaving to assist another couple. “jinyoung this place is really fancy, i hope you didn’t spend too much...?’ you mumble softly, looking alejandro the fancy restaurant. “don’t worry, y/n. i only the best for the best.” he says with a small smile.

he doesn’t expect it when you’re moving from your side of the table to come sit with him, giving him a very cheesy smile in the process. “i wanted to be closer to you.” you tell him when he gives you an eyebrow raise. his cheeks heat up at the compliment and you can tell he struggles to keep his composure. “you’re adorable, jinyoung.” you observe, watching as he tries to hide his face.

the rest of the date goes smoothly as well, and the both of you are cracking jokes the whole time and making eachother laugh, telling stories and simply having fun.

after the date is even better, and jinyoung has loosened up a lot since being at the office, being more comfortable to be himself around you, which he was insanely grateful for. he surprised you everytime he did something, and you found out he was actually a huge dork. an adorable dork, that is. the both of you are sitting in the car, no where in particular to go, simply sitting the the packed lot.

“would you like to come over my house?” you ask, and he raises an eyebrow teasingly. “wait- shit- no-, i meant for like its getting late and- not for anything sexual- i’m gonna shut up now.” you mutter, crossing your arms. “yes, i’d love to come over.” he laughs loudly as he watches you pout playfully.

“okay, here are the directions.” you mutter quietly as he gets the car in gear. the car ride back to your house was fun, possibly even more so than the ride to the restaurant. jinyoung was singing out the lyrics with you, but it turns out he’s actually an amazing singer and leaves you shocked when you heard for the first time as you pulled into your driveway.

“wait, wait, wait, why didn’t you tell me you could sing?” you ask, an incredulous smile in your face. “you never asked.” he replied, standing behind you as you unlocked your door. “my roommate is out of town for a while, so we have it to ourselves.” you tell him, throwing your keys on the counter.

“movie?” you suggest as he looks around. “sure.” he shrugs. “i know you’re really uncomfortable, so i have a few things you can change into, just go into my closet and you should find some comfy clothes to wear.” you tell him. “i’ll change in the bathroom and you can change here.”

he does so with no complaint, looking around your room as he did so, admiring your posters and decor. “your room is cool.” he mumbled wondrously when you come out, eyes still searching about. “hey!” he yelps when you pull him back on the bed and press play on the movie.

it was only the beginning of the movie, but you could tell how he wanted to lay with you more, and you didn’t wanna torture him too much so you decided to suggest it. “wanna cuddle while we watch the movie?” you ask, and he looks relieved for a split second, but doesn’t show it. instead he wordlessly leans into your welcoming arms.

“today was fun. i enjoyed it.” you comment, not really watching the movie since you’d seen it so much. “me too.” he yawns. “sorrry, i’m really tired, i’ve been up since 1AM.” he voices, sighing. “it’s okay, you can go to sleep, here.” you mumble, pushing him down a bit so that his head rested on your chest and your arms were draped around him, and you were leaning your head on his. you could feel his cheeks heat up, but you didn’t comment on it.

“goodnight, jinnie.” you murmur softly, kissing his forehead. “night,” he murmurs back, already close to falling asleep. you bite back a chuckle and cuddle more into him, drifting off to sleep yourself.

I broke up with my 6 year relationship.

I need to talk about it.

I met my ex when I was 19 years old. I had just moved to Orlando, FL from a small midwest town. I hadn’t been in a serious relationship before and I honestly wasn’t looking for anything. We met working at Disney World under fireworks. We talked about music and instantly were hooked on eachother. I remember them asking me if I wanted to hang out and in my oblivious mind, I thought it was just that. A hang out. 

We went to this vegan kitchen and decided to walk in this cute little park across the street. All of a sudden I felt a hand grab mine. At that time is when I knew something was going to come out of this day. Damn. 6 years later and I’m a completely different person. 

The first year and a half was a dream. They constantly told me they loved me, we cuddled all the time, they made me FEEL loved and I constantly wanted to be near them. Nothing else mattered but them. 

Two years in is when they threw a bomb into our relationship. Something huge came to light that I wont share on this just because it’s not my story to tell. Before this, it was something that was apart of them but nothing came of it. Now they needed this. I was so excited for this bomb and I couldn’t wait to support and be there for them throughout the entire new chapter. 

Three years in is when we finally got our very own apartment together. The first two years we actually lived with their mother. You’d think that would be weird but I honestly loved it. She became my mom too. That’s honestly one of the hardest parts of this breakup. I have to separate her from my life and journey and that’s heart wrenching. This was a very exciting year for us. We experienced so many new things together with this apartment and learned and grew so much from it. Everything was so exciting. We were truly building a foundation. I remember one morning I woke up and they came into the room, taking a break from video games, and said “Let’s get married” Now, I know they werent being serious but I will always remember this morning. It gave me a glimpse of hope. This apartment was a tiny 500 square foot apartment but it was huge for our relationship. 

Four years in is when we decided to move out of Orlando.We both felt our journey was ending in that city and needed to start a new chapter. We set our eyes on Portland, Oregon. We had something to get excited about. We took a very spontaneous trip to Portland for a weekend and instantly fell in love with the area. We loved everything about it and just how liberal and chill everything was in that state... literally the definition of our relationship so far. A few months before we needed to tell our landlord that we werent resigning I felt our relationship start to crack. We started fighting more and more. We were getting annoyed with each other for silly things. We’d have fights but by the next day we were completely fine and comfortable again. I remember asking myself if I really wanted to sign another lease with this person. Ultimately, I felt my ex and I were endgame and were forever. So I pushed away all doubts and continued on with our plans. By this time moving to Portland wasn’t feasible but we still wanted to get out of Florida. Out of options, we decided to move to my hometown of Des Moines, Iowa. I hadn’t lived there for almost 5 years and my ex had never been there. So it was a new experience for both of us. 

Five years in we were moving to Iowa. From the outside perspective we were very excited. We were doing something new and unfamiliar to us. This was a turning point in our relationship. There was a reason I moved OUT of Iowa. I hated the Midwest. I was so miserable before... why would I move back. By the second month of living back in Iowa, all I saw was darkness. I didn’t want to be in that state anymore. I told my ex I wanted to move back to Florida but they didn’t want to regress like that. Their time in Orlando was over. Which I get.. it’s the same thing I was experiencing with Iowa. At this time my ex was also getting very depressed with their own shit going on. I felt like we were pulling apart from each other. Usually my ex loved to play video games but it felt like it consumed them. They use to tell me what they were doing online or something funny that happened.. all of a sudden that stopped. It almost felt like we were roommates. I’d go to bed alone and wake up alone. It felt so strange because on the other side of the wall there was my ex living in a completely different world. And I wasn’t invited.  Our fighting became more and more. 

Have you ever heard of jumping the shark? Where a tv show will do something crazy when they feel like the end is near... hoping to get more views and prolong the inevitable. Well... getting a dog was our jumping the shark. I had wanted a dog since two years into our relationship. It was never gonna happen in Florida.. just because the cost of living mixed with dog expenses would be insane. Living in Iowa, cost of living is nothing compared to Orlando. We finally had extra money in our pockets. Christmas came around and they got me my dream dog.. a corgi named Billie. She became my new love and she was all I wanted. I honestly don’t know why they got me a dog. Because thats all that happened. They never shared in anything else. I went to to all the vet visits, I bought her puppy training classes and taught her a few tricks, I bought her everything she has. To this day the only thing they have done is buy her and buy half the spay. They never tried to be involved at all. I wont lie though.. I’m so thankful for my ex because they brought Billie into my life. Billie saved my life. I had something to throw all my love and support to. 

Five and a half years in we moved again.. staying in Iowa. I wanted to move out of state but it just wasn’t in our cards. I went back to college, thinking maybe if I did something with my life I’d be happy again. That didn’t work. I hated everything and I brought that into my relationship, I’ll admit. This past November/December we were fighting every week to the point of us calling it quits each week. At this point we never cuddled, everytime I tried to kiss them they would put their cheek out for me to kiss, I didn’t even remember the last time they freely told me they loved me. They didn’t seem interested in anything I was doing or wanted to do and didn’t support me with anything either. We had no communication. 

At this point of the relationship I felt like nothing. I felt so unwanted. My self esteem was zero. I did everything for this person.. why didn’t they do something.. anything in return. 

One story. Valentines Day this past year. I was so excited for it. I thought I could finally put some romance back in this relationship and help fix it. I planned this day for weeks. I bought them a dozen red roses and left a cute note telling them how beautiful they were and how much I truly did love them. I had to go to work that day but I begged my leaders to be let out early. It was approved and I eagerly bought ingredients for a new recipe that I knew theyd love. I came home and nothing was said about the flowers. Totally fine. I was cool about it. They went to go get their car fixed which took hours. Thinking it was Valentines Day and we needed to be together.. I went with. After we got back I made dinner and we ate and drank a bottle of wine. We decided to watch a movie and they got angry with me because I interrupted the movie. I remember how my heart plummeted and I slowly got up.. grabbed the gift I was going to give them and hid that it in the closet. I went to bed early. They never once told me they loved me or did anything special. Never even thanked me for dinner or helped with the dishes. 

Exactly one month ago. I went MIA and ran to my parents house because I finally was realizing there was no relationship left. I should have ended things a long time ago but I never did. I didn’t want to be alone. I’m terrified of being alone. But one day at work everyone was talking about their partners and I just had a realization.. “I don’t feel the way everyone else does about their partners” That mixed with how my partner was treating me.. I ran to my parents for a night to get my head straight. I refused to text them.. I just needed to figure things out.

The next day I came home and we sat down and talked. I told them how I didn’t see us being together and that I felt like I was holding them back. They were about to completely alter their life and I knew how they had been confused on things within the relationship. It wasn’t fair to me. Their issues with themself wasn’t an excuse for them to be absent. I need someone to be completely sure about me. I’m a fucking catch. Together we realized the relationship was over. 

The next morning I didn’t believe it. We fought all the time and “broke up” quite a few times.. all ending the same.. us being completely fine the next day. The week after that we had serious talks for hours every night just hashing things out and just trying to understand what went wrong. My ex has huge communication problems. This week after the breakup is when they finally opened up their soul to me and told me everything that was confusing them.

I realized I don’t fit in with their life. I was the reason they stopped something that they needed in the beginning of the relationship and I will always hold onto that.. if they had kept with it.. what would have been of this relationship now? Cryptic, right? This whole thing is probably.. but I need this.

In the month of being broken up and being single.. I’ve learned so many things about myself. I realized it was the fear of being alone that kept me from truly ending things. I should have ended things a long time ago... honestly in Orlando. I saw so many red flags that I kept pushing away. I have so much love for my ex. I support them and I can’t wait to see what comes of their life in these next few years. 

This past month of being broken up has brought things out that I am not proud of either. I tried for almost six years to get my ex to open their soul and truly connect with me.. this girl comes into their life a few months ago and instant connection. To say Im jealous and to say that that ruined this whole breakup for me... yeah that would be true. I wanted to be loving and in their life still.. but now there is no room for that because this girl took my spot. Because of this I had done things I wasn’t proud of out of pure jealousy. After a week of denial and crying all day in bed I finally felt a new emotion: rage. I felt angry. Angry that my ex didn’t want to try and actually get down to the core and fix things.. they just wanted to throw it in the trash. I threw all gifts they got me away.. I said hurtful things.. I tried throwing away things I got them.. I was just so angry. I needed to feel something other than denial and sadness. The next day I felt so content and like maybe it would be okay. Don’t get me wrong I am completely humiliated on how I acted and what I did.. but it was so needed for me to be at this point in the breakup. If I didn’t have that night I would still be in bed crying begging them to fix things. I think I was in denial because it was my idea to break up the first night and then realized I was going to be alone the next day and regretted saying I didn’t think we should be together. But I’m so glad I did. I built up the courage to say out loud what I was thinking for months.. even years. Sure, things ending hurt my soul and I’m broken because of it... but things needed to end. I need to find someone who loves me the way I want to be loved and deserved to be loved. 

Whats happening now? I’m moving on to new things. I’m moving back to Orlando for myself. I’m excited to live in a city I loved and not have a relationship consume me. I’m excited to say YES to everything and not no because I want to go back home and be with my love. I’m relearning who I am. I completely lost myself to someone who didn’t feel the same. I have to fix my self esteem and outlook on life. I have to learn to love myself again. And I’m so excited to do so. I’m a fucking bad bitch and I’m so excited to see what I do next.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. 

Top Right: November 2013. Dear Journal, Its been a while so Im going to do a long update. Number one Dad is gone. Hes in prison cause he stole a boat, totalled two perfectly good cars, tried to kill mom in a drunken rampage and drunk driving. Honestly I say good ridance. Joel has a girlfriend now. Brooke WInn. I was pretty pissed for a while because she was the first girl I ever had a crush on and the first girl to give me her number. But after accidently seeing a picture of a conversation between them to (It seriously was an accident) I can see that she really likes Joel and Joel really likes her. As suspected now Joel has had his first kiss, date, and girlfriend. I’ve honestly wanted to do these things for a while largely out of curiosity but I decided to wait until I’m at least 15 years old. Speaking of age, I wrote a letter to my 30 year old self. Anyways my huge passion for the past year has been film making. Unfortunately I dont have the neccesary equipment nor a Job to earn some money but I think I want to do film making for the rest of my life. Me and Josh have been doing a lot of spear fishing recently but I am yet to kill a fish. Something I forgot to mention about Joel’s girfriend, another reason I’m not angry is because I decided long ago I would wait until at least 15 to start dating so I was never going to make a move but Joel did so It’s not like he stole her because she was nevermine. as of the rest of the family, Bria 

Bottom left:  is dating Thomas kreuser now, Josh is playing dating ping-pong with Lydia and its really mean. Lydia’s looking for something serious and Josh is a horn dog. Joel has a phone now and wont stop texting or calling Brooke. Josh, Bia and mom are rarely family interactive any more. Baylee still takes pretty much anything she can lay her sticky paw on but she is a bit more respectful. Jonah has becom “that  little brother”., The kind you NEVER want around friends. Something applicable to all the little kids is that their absolutely disgusting and bossy. Brenna is pretty disobedient but still not as roudy as Jonah or Brooke. Brooke is even more annoying as she was. Whinnes about everything, disgusting, STILL craps her pants and is insanely disobedient. As for me, I’ve fallen in love with music and film making. I take most of the house responsibility. I try to keep it clean and in control but usually end up just hiding out in my bedroom when ever I get a chance. I don’t play much video games any more. Over the past year I have matured a lot but I can rarely noticibly show it because to all my friends I’m the funny guy which is usually fine but sometimes I really wish I could just open up. I got to the farmer’s market alot now and now Jesse is my best friend. He’s very funny, honest, trustworthy. Which I can truly respect and I can’t say yo pretty much any of my friends. Me and Josh work out now so thats cool. But stil I spend most of my time listening to music and thinking about filming.

Bottom Right: Christmas is in a month and a half and if I could get just one peice of film equipment I need to start I would be happy. There is nothing I currently want more than to start filming and directing videos. I’ve done some drawings which I’m a little bit proud of, but I’ve also thought up this big animated TV series. Like the next Avatar: The last airbender which is my favorite TV series ever. I was thinking about having three nations and one kind of secret nation. The protagonist is a young teenageer I haven’t thought up a good name yet but hafter his entire family is killed a few years before due to the war between teh three main nations, he sets out for revenge on the people, specifically everyone who was in that squadron who killed his family, he begin’s to learn the powers of one of the nations the ncomes upon a clue suggesting that the powers of each nation which are believed to be a birth right to only some people of their nation, can actually be learned by anyone. Throughtout the rest of his Journey he comes across a new companion of each nation and begins to learn each of the powers which are Light which is used by a peolpe of monks, Necrocity like using darkness or even the dead as weapons and Nature. The power of having control over living plants and sometimes even subdue animals. Theres a lot more to it that I’m not going to get into so I’m signing out for now.

Left: Nov, 2013. Dear Journal. Today I’m going to go very in depth about something I haven’t told anyone. Joel’s girlfriend, Brooke Winn. I REALLY like her. In my last entry I said it didn’t bother me anymore but it does. I know I said I wont even try to get a girlfriend until I’m at least fifteen and I stand by it. But yesterday she came over to our house for 6 hours right after she hung out with us at the market an I saw first hand how much they care about one another and they really do. But it sucks for me because I still really like her. Plus I met her first, got her number first and I still remember so much about her. Her birthday is in march, her favorite movie is Clockwork Orange, she’s a vegetarian because her brother dared her to do it for a few months and she just went with it after that, she likes Avatar and Pewdiepie just like me, she wants to go into the navy when she’s older, her favorite video game is League of Legends. Also without me, Joel and her might never have met. I remember all this and some more because for a while I kinda thought we had something special. Now shes dating my brother and I may never know if we did. Last night was the worst night of my life because I spent all night avoiding the girl of my dreams because shes dating my brother. Is it just a little crush that will blow away eventually? Maybe. but when I’m around her, when I read some of the things her and Joel say to eachother, it feels like a lot more than a silly crush.

Left: Dec 3, 2013. Dear Journal, well I have obtained some very shocking information. Whilst Joel was playing League of Legends he tabbed out to face book where he had been messaging Brooke Winn and I noted she said “I love you too.” As said before, I really like Brooke in more than a friendly way and I promised myself I wont try to get a girlfriend until I’m minimum 15. Probably not until I have my license but I can’t help but wonder “Did she ever have feelings for me?” Because I taught her how to dance, she  gave me her number. The swing after we spent nearly 2 hours just talking and dancing. Obviously I never made a move but I always had feelings for her. It’s very possible that she was waiting for me to make a move and got impatient. That almost happened to Joel but he made a move and now They’re in love and I wonder “What if?” What if I made a move? Would we be dating now or would she have turned me down and then we’d be akward acquantices? I can’t help but wonder.

Right: Dec 14, 2013. Dear Journal, Today we have Brooke and Thomas over (Bria and Tom are dating) for this tree decoration crap and I realize its getting easier for me to be around Brooke Winn. I still have feelings for her but due to my resistance I can be a little easier around her. But it’s still pretty weird because Joel knows I like/liked her so we rarely get to talk Just me and her. And when we do its hard for me to think of a conversation topic because all I can think of around her is the fact shes dating my Brother! It sucks so badly especially beecause I do still like her and she is DATING MY BROTHER! Its a terrible feeling but one I’m going to have to live with. Part 2. Well I have concluded Dec 14 2013 and it sucks. Yesterday was cool but today I spent 3hrs at a parade. But is that enough? Oh no! Throughout that time I simply stood idly by while Joel and Brooke continuosly made out and cuddled throughout that time. Thomas hasn’t turned into a fag due to his relationship like Joel which is good so we hang out a good bit but it still ended with me as a 5th wheel.

Wasn't Expecting That (Peter Parker x reader)

This will most likely continue into a two part story if anyone actually likes this. I would say that Peter is around 18 in this. WARNING: swear words and minor mentions of sex Part 2 ~https://immortalfic.tumblr.com/post/160700069284/wasnt-expecting-that-peter-parker-x-reader-part-2 •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Music was blasting throughout the whole room. Sweaty bodies were pressed up against eachother, and this was definitely, most likely NOT how Peter imagined his weekend. In fact, Peter doesn't even know why he is here, but thanks to his friends, Spider-Man himself, is now off duty. A reminder that Spider-Man should never, not ever take a day off in a city like New York. This was worse than what he could be doing right now. Music that Peter didn't even like, was playing as everyone was dancing to it. At this point, Peter lost he's friend in the crowd. He couldn't tell if Ned was even here or ended up leaving without him. Peter hoped that he were still somewhere in this 'party' if you could even call it that. In all honesty, this was more of a 'get laid' type of thing. You could see all the people mingling, getting drunk, leaving with strangers.... all the steps of getting laid. Peter wanted absolutely nothing to do with this. For all he knew, the police could be on their way. May wouldn't be happy about that since, Peter told her he would be hanging out at Ned's house. After all, Ned's exact words were, "Pete, we are about to get wild tonight!" Peter, never hearing those words being said to him before, thought that Ned meant they would be pulling an all nighter to fix the lego Death Star that Ned dropped. The wildest that Peter has ever gotten, would be staying up on a school night to watch all of the Star Wars movies. That was a HUGE accomplishment in his opinion, even having to fight off bad guys wasn't nearly as satisfying as being able to state facts while watching the latest Star Wars movie, Rouge One. But as of now, tonight was by far the most insane night Peter has ever faced. Finally getting up, and deciding that instead of self pitying himself like he has been doing since he got here, Peter went to find Ned. Peter spotted Ned in the middle of a conversation with the prettiest girl he has ever seen. Ned looked over at Peter and yells over the music, "hey man! Thought you would have left by now!" Peter diverts his attention from the beautiful girl to Ned and manages to stutter out weakly, "n-nope... still here.... as you can see..." Ned smirks at Peter, "Anyway, I'm glad you're here! Y/N, this is the guy I was telling you about." Y/N looks Peter up and down with a smile on her face, "Peter, right? I've heard quite a bit about you." Peter, who is starting to get more confident, smiles back, "oh really? Wish I could say the same." Ned starts walking past Peter and towards the drinks, "well... This is probably my cue to leave and let the magic happen! Don't do anything I wouldn't do and use protection!" At this point, Peter was a blushing mess. While Y/N was merely giggling. Over the loud music Y/N called out to him, "hey Peter?!" "Yeah?" Y/N started getting closer to Peter, she could now feel his hot breath covering all of her body. She leaned closer to him and whispered in his ear, "wanna get outta here?" Peter started shaking, "o-ok..." Damn, this was not at all part of Peters plan. He may not have ever been laid before, but this was definitely one of the steps. Seductive voices being whispered into one another's ear. Peter mindlessly walked through all the dancing body's, following Y/N's lead. She was leaving the party. Peter, who was still in a daze, followed her out of the party without any questions. After 10 minutes of an awkward silence and continuous walking, Peter finally started to snap out of his cluelessness, "w-where are we exactly?" Y/N halted, "we... umm... we will be there shortly. I promise!" He nodded, "ok. So, Y/N, tell me about yourself?" After a few seconds of silence Y/N finally answered, "there's not much to say. My name is Y/N, but you already know that. Hmm, my mom died a few years ago so it's just been my dad and I." Y/N cocked an eyebrow at Peter, "you know what? I think you would like my dad!" Peter chuckled at her, "oh really?" "Mhmm" Peter frowned lightly, "my parents died when I was about 4. They were pretty cool. Anyway, what's your dad like?" Y/N's eyes widened, "I am so sorry! I didn't know, I swear! We can stop talking about this if you want to." Peter smiled, "it's ok. If you think I would like your dad, I want to know what he is like. So, continue." "Well if you insist. I don't reallly know why I think you would like him, I kind of just have this feeling! You know? Oh, we are here!" Peter looked around but all he could see were dark, scary, alleyways. Nothing he couldn't handle! Y/N smirked to herself as she started to drag Peter into one of them. Peter was getting worried, "are you sure th-?" "SHHH!" Peter rolled his eyes but whispered nonetheless, "are you sure that this is a good idea? It's pretty sketchy around these parts." "Yeah, yeah... it's my house, so calm down." "Oh. Sorry, didn't think you would be familiar with these parts," Peter whispered back. "Annnnnd, here we are. Spiders first." Y/N popped a door open. Peter slowly started walking in but came to a stop, "what do you mean? I-I'm not Spider-Man! That's absurd!" Before Y/N could answer Peter, he was knocked out from behind. Above him stood Wade Wilson, "well fuck me! I didn't think he would actually follow you! I didn't even think he would look at you!" Y/N scoffed, "apple doesn't fall far from the tree, am I right? Whatever, that's besides the point! Why did you even want me to bring him here? He is way too cute for any of your bullshit! I for one, feel slightly guilty." Wade teased, "awww, does wittle ol' Y/N wove Peter? Yes she does! Yes she does!" "Shut it and answer my question!" Wade and Y/N have now dragged Peter into their living room. Wade sat on one couch, while, Y/N sat on the other. Wade looked at the boy who was propped up on the wall and then back to his daughter, "remember that friend of mine-?" "Last time I checked, I am your only friend." Wade faked a hurt expression, "that hurts!" He pointed to his heart multiple times, "right here." "Yeah, I know. I'm an evil person, yada yada. Can you just spill the details already?" Wade sighed, "ok, fine! I'm normally easy going about getting killed and whatever, but this is fucking serious!" Y/N interrupted, "serious enough for you to forget their name?" "Hell yeah! There is so much detail that the name is irrelevant to this. Just shut up and listen!" His daughter laughed at him, "ok, ok! You were saying?" Wade looked oddly satisfied, "ok, there's this guy right-" ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• TO BE CONTINUED. How was that? Tell me if you liked this or not! Remember, requests are open (even for anonymous people).

Just friends, right? END

Pairing: Bucky x reader

Warnings: mild language

Word count: 1760 (oops it got longer than expected)

Summary: Bucky and the reader are madly in love but they both are unaware of the other’s feelings

A/N: Yay, My first completed series! I hope you guys liked it! Feedback, as always, is greatly appreciated.

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It was 7:50 pm as you paced anxiously around the gym waiting for Bucky to enter. Every slight noise put you on edge expecting him to burst through the door. You had been reciting what you wanted to say to him for the past hour and every minute that passed by made your nervousness grow.

You really didn’t have anything to be worried about. You already knew that Bucky loved you, it was just that sharing all your feelings with Bucky was nerve wracking. There was no telling how he would react. Would he try to take back what he said to you in the gardens when you brought it up?

“So Buck, are you going spar with me for real this time? Last time I beat you so bad, I swear you were letting me win” You heard Steve joke with Bucky as they approached the gym door. You froze in your spot unable to move, when all you wanted was to hide. Your nerves were getting the best of you, but you took a few deep breaths and regained your composure. Straightening your shoulders, you turned to the door and waited for Bucky and Steve to enter.

Their voices became clearer as Steve opened the door and allowed Bucky to go into the room before him. Immediately after Bucky’s feet crossed the threshold of the gym, Steve slammed the door closed behind him.

“F.R.I.D.A.Y, lock all the gym doors and do not open them until I give you the go ahead. Mr. Barnes has something he needs to take care of in there” you heard Steve yell from outside the door.

“Of course Mr. Rogers” the automated voice replied and the click of the doors locking echoed throughout the space.

Bucky hadn’t noticed that you were in the room as he was too busy pounding on the doors, trying to get himself out.

“Steve what the hell! Let me out you dick” Bucky yelled, clearly exasperated with Steve’s antics. You were also a little shocked with Steve’s “plan”. This is not what you had expected but if it’s the only way to get Bucky to hear you out, then so be it.

Bucky’s hands were buried in his hair as he turned himself around, obviously not getting anywhere by yelling at Steve. That’s when he spotted you. His eyes widened and he immediately began yelling at Steve again.

“Steve I to swear to god, I’m going to beat your ass when I get out of here” Bucky shouted and slammed his fist against the door again.

“Bucky, we-” you started but he cut you off.

“No, no I can’t do this Y/N” he cried. Hearing him say your name for the first time in a very long time sent shivers down your spine.

“What do you mean you can’t do this? What can’t you do?” you asked and stepped closer to him.

“I just can’t” he said and gripped his hair harder and slid down to the wall and onto the floor.

“Bucky, I-”

“No, I don’t want you to say it...I know it was stupid of me to say. The last thing I ever wanted was to make you uncomfortable. I really ruined everything, didn’t I? You have to know how sorry I am for saying it but I just couldn’t help myself. I know you deserve better than me and I know what you are about to say. I can’t bare to hear it, so please don’t” His words came out rushed and he seemed to be choking on the air around him. His gaze dropped to the floor and you took a deep breath.

“Buck, look at me” you stated firmly.

“Please Y/N, don’t” he begged you but slowly lifted his eyes to meet yours. You stood above him and looked him directly in his eyes.

“Did you mean it? What you said at the gardens?” You asked nervously, picking at your nails. The silence was tense and after a few moments he opened his mouth to speak.

“Every word” He whispered. A warm sensation radiated from your chest and spread down your arms and legs. You smiled and he stood up from where he was sitting on the floor. He was no longer looking at you. He just paced back and forth across the padded floor. His hand were in his hair yet again and he seemed to be getting more flustered by the second. Amidst his pacing his eyes met yours and he stepped forward to speak to you.

“Okay listen. I’ve felt… that way about you for a long time now. At first I thought it was just a little thing that I would get over. But then every time I saw you around, I couldn’t stop staring. I found myself thinking about you all the time. And then I started talking about you when you weren’t around. I’d miss you whenever you left a room. I would wonder how you would wear your hair everyday and I’d practice how I would greet you at breakfast in my bathroom mirror. Your presence made me feel at ease, like I was a human being again. You would help me through my nightmares and play with my hair. You stayed up late with me to watch movies when I couldn’t fall asleep and whenever I came back from a mission you were the only person I wanted to see. You made me breakfast and exposed me to the new world. You trusted me with everything that you had and that is something that I had never experienced. I mean, how could I not love you for god’s sake. You are so intoxicating and insanely intelligent. You were so compassionate and you treated me like a normal person when I felt like I was a monster. We were best friends, but I always wanted more with you. I should’ve been satisfied with being friends with you and I’ve waited for years for my feeling to subside but they’ve only grown. I invited other girls around to distract myself, but on every date I would keep daydreaming that you were the one with me instead. When we went to the gardens I thought that if I could tell you, even if you were asleep, then maybe I could ease my mind. Obviously that was a shit idea. Now I’ve ruined everything and I’m sure you won’t want to be around me anymore. I’ve missed you so much and these past weeks have killed me. I understand that you don’t feel the same-” His words had you nearly in tears. He had just said everything that you had every wanted him to say to you but he just wouldn’t shut his beautiful to allow you to speak. You interrupted him and began to talk.

“Bucky-” he cut you off again.  

“Y/N please just let me finish, I know that you deserve better and-”

“Bucky please-”

“It’s okay if you don’t want to be friends-”

“Bucky goddammit shut up and listen to me!” You yelled at him. His eyes snapped to you, wide, and his cheeks were bright pink. His line of sight dropped back to the floor while he tried to catch his breath from his speech.

“I need you to look at me so I know that you are listening, please” You whispered. He lifted his eyes to meet yours and they held a distressed look that he only expressed after a particularly bad nightmare. You stepped forward and took his metal hand in yours. His body froze as he stared at you.

“Bucky, I love you”

“You-you what?” his eyes opened even wider than they were before if that was even possible. You reached out and brushed his hair out of his face from his wild rant.

“I love you.”

He gaze left your eyes and he gripped your hand tightly.

“I’m dreaming. This isn’t real” he murmured. He lightly shook his head back and forth.

“I can promise that you are not dreaming. I’m real, and I love you very much Mr. Barnes” you smirked and chuckled at his reaction.

“Again” he whispered.

“Huh?”

“Say it again” he pleaded with you and his eyes met yours once again.

“I love you” you stated and kissed his jaw.

“Again” he asked and a smile began to spread over his perfect face. “I love you” you kissed the tip of his nose.

“Hmm again.”

“I love you” you kissed his cheek. His hands settled on your hips quirking his eyebrows to ask if it was okay with you. You smiled at him and rested your head on his chest. You were too lost in eachother to hear the click of the gym doors as they unlocked. Steve peeked his head inside and saw smiles on both of your faces. His work was done.

Bucky’s large hands held your face as he tipped your head up to kiss him. He weaved his fingers through your hair and you wrapped your arms around his neck. You both grinned into the kiss and at some point had to pull away because you were both too giddily happy. Bucky’s metal thumb rubbed the small of your back under you shirt and he leaned down to kiss your neck. You groaned and pulled him closer to you.

“Um guys, this is great and all but maybe you should go to one of your rooms before you have sex all over the gym floor” Steve smirked as the both of you whipped your heads around to the source of the noise. He laughed at his own joke and you smiled. Bucky’s hand gripped yours as he pulled you towards the door.

“Yeah whatever punk” Bucky said and shoved his shoulder into Steve with a smile.

“Oh wait there’s one more thing” Bucky stated and stopped you right in front of Steve.

“Y/N I love you, how’s about you let me take you dancing?” your smile grew and a massive grin overtook his face. “There Steve, how was that? ‘Tell her that you love her when you know she’s listening, and take her dancing’” he quoted Steve’s words from earlier that day.

“I’m gonna say that you did pretty good” You piped up from next to Bucky and squeezed his hand. He smiled at you.

“Alright so dancing? Where are we going?” you asked and Bucky led you past Steve.

“Where ever you want, love” he stated simply and kissed you forehead.

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The Amazon

First off, who forgets a rain jacket when entering the largest rain forest in the world? Well that person would be I ladies and gentlemen and I only discovered this while aboard the motor canoe without any kind of cover as it started to rain. This was just the beginning of what was about to unfold over the next five days as I embedded myself deep in the Amazon rain forest and thankfully my guide Dario came more prepared than I and brought a spare poncho. Our party consisted of I, Dario the Ecuadorian Naturalist, Ainsley a Canadian girl who joined the expedition last minute and thankfully saved me $200, and three native Huarani men. Eduardo who was the best canoe driver and two other guides. We set off from Coca Monday morning at about 830am and drove two hours to the National Parks Port which was our gateway into Yasuni National Park, the deep Amazon. This truelly felt like an expedition as I looked out into the brown murky Shiripuno river which stretches hundreds of kilometers all the way past Peru. With a truck load of provisions such as a tank of gas, food for five days, and whatever else necessary we were all set. Honestly I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I was given a rough itinerary but it was all in Spanish so it was of no use to me, besides I preferred leaving the agenda to the unknown. We set off with the motor canoe all packed by 1130am and began the long journey down the Shirpuno river to the village of Bomeno in the heart of Yasuni National Park. We were already technically inside the Amazon when we left as the rain forest in Ecuador is split in two parts, the Upper and Lower. The upper section is located in the area around Tena which is the home of the Quechua Native people. The population of the Quechua is massive, they are the prevailent Natives of Western South America yet where we were going you would find none as just up till recently no Quechua would roam the Lower Amazon as they feared the Huaorani tribes people. A warrior race who just until recently in the1960s were an uncontacted tribe living off the land in the rainforest as they had for hundreds possibly thousands of years. The Quechua and Huarani had been in constant conflict with each encounter consisting of Huaorani ambushes and ending up with countless Quechua deaths. When the Huaorani were first contacted by European missionaries the contact ended in disaster when all five of the missionaries were murdured all by spearing. This was the tribe I was to spend the next five days with. In the last fifty or so years the Huaorani have embraced the modern world yet still found a balance between their ways and using outside technology. When we arrived late Monday night into the village some of the children and adults were watching their new flatscreen TV just bought in February watching the Marvel movie Thor. How times have changed. Back to the boat ride - It might have taken nine hours but it was absolutley thrilling the whole way there. The rain forest was everything I dreamed it would be. Massive trees growing out into river, plants that looked how I would imagine they looked in prehistoric times. In fact I am convinced I did enter a land before time. Plants that looked like giant ferns but they were really a species of palm tree. The deeper we rode trailing the serpentine river the farther back in time we travelled. That was one surprising aspect of the river how curvy it was, it truelly felt like the Shirpuno river was some sort of Anaconda itself. We passed by white caymen chilling on the beach, tortoises sunbathing on fallen tree branches, toucans and macaws flying through the skies, and finally we passed the king, or was the king. A beached, decapitated anaconda with a huge bulge in its stomach. Certainly its half digested prey left in its belly. Its one thing to see these beasts from the comfort of home on a tv screen but its a completely other level being in arms reach of it. Dinosaurs certainly still roam this earth because that thing was no animal, even labelling it with all the other reptiles seems a stretch. By 630pm it began getting dark and next thing we knew we were sailing in the pitch black of night with our asses sore from sitting on wooden seats for seven hours and yet we still had two more to go. The sky was clear revealing all its stars giving us something to look up too and finally we arrived in Bomeno at 830pm. Their radio system was down so they had no idea we were coming but rapidly they set our surprisingly comfortable hut for us. That first night we slept like bricks. Over the course of the next four days we lived as they did. Many Huaorani men accompanied us on our expeditions into the jungle. The eldest being a man named Ginto who was extraordinarily. The only person I have ever seen make a proper spear within five minutes, and can take any leaf and form it to make a very convincing Harpy Eagle whistle call. On the first day with the natives they took us on a hunt. Yet looking back on it I am not sure how serious of a hunt it truelly was but it was still exhilerating. They possessed a three maybe four meter long wooden blow pipe which was there main weapon for hunting monkey high in trees with poison blow darts they obviously make all by themselves. They dont rely on guns or anything modern except a machete. A blow gun and spear is all that is needed. Along the way we found fresh jaguar prints which was about as close as I wanted to get to one. We swam in the murky Shiripuno river and trekked into the jungle. Every two meters it seemed we were stopping and our guide Dario would tell us of the many uses of plants the Huaorani people exploit. Vines to make baskets and even grip tape for spears, plants for poisons and medicines, trees to make canoes. It seemed like every plant had a usage to the Huaorani people. It was absolutley fascinating yet I got tired of all the stopping I just wanted to trek. Third day we went out Anaconda hunting. Taking the canoe down the river, into the jungle, and then all five of us rode on this tiny wooden canoe that seemed like it could flip over with one wrong shift of weight. We had to all be completely silent as to not disturb the animals. We found a type of prehistoric bird that I forgot the name but the sound of the area around us throughout the jungle was buzzing incredibly loud. The jungle is very much alive. Unfortunately both times we went out to hunt for the Anaconda not to kill but just to see turned out without any sight. Yet that afternoon for lunch I tried my first monkey meat. A howler monkey which Martine a man in the village hunted the day previous. It tasted surprisingly alot like beef. The Huaorani love monkey meat. They will chose that over deer or peckory (a type of wild pig) anyday. They believe when you consume monkey meat you also acquire monkey like abilities. The last part remaining was a paw and when I put it right next to my hand it was oddly similar. The remainder of the time was spent trekking in the jungle and practising with their blow pipe which I wasnt too bad with. Hitting the fruit on a pike a couple times yet the weight of the long pipe affects your aim noticeably. Id like to think my archery practise helped as aiming is really no different. We also went fishing in the Shirpuno and I caught a pretty decent sized catfish that we all ate for dinner. Made me feel like a true Huaorani warrior providing for my tribe. That was really cool. My brief five day jaunt in the Amazon rain forest was something truely special. I remember going to the Gold Museum in Bogota on Day 3 of the journey and learning of the natives and writing on this blog that I wanted to spend time with some in the future and here I am. It was refreshing to see a completely different side of life, of humans. To see some of the insanities of modern life. It just made me want to start my garden again, made me want to be more self sufficient because these people dont rely on anyone but eachother. When the men hunt they give graciously to everyone in need. Another unforgettable life experience in the books and yet I continue forward on the journey to the end of the world.