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neutral-simplicity · 2 months

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How do you shut off the thoughts telling you it’s all a lie…

#I don’t want to go through this again #it feels like life is out to get me #I can’t believe anyone can ever or will ever love me #I just want to give up #the paranoia is starting…

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sweetgaleria · 6 months

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Aaaw, you thought she was being cute <3

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otaku553 · 5 months

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More doodles for the one piece spy x family crossover

#one piece #spy x family crossover #revolutionary sabo #portgas d ace #monkey d luffy #still debating on a spy codename for Sabo. since WISE seems to enjoy times of day I want it to have something to do with dawn or dusk #but that might be a bit on the nose #sabo’s walking stick is like his replacement for his pipe. blunt bludgeoning weapon that he can carry around in broad daylight #ace as an assassin decides his disguise is just going to be. being shirtless #plus those silly sunglasses but the main thing is the shirtless mess #because if he can’t be shirtless during the day in society then he might as well be shirtless when he’s out being a badass #the three of them are dumbasses (affectionate)#the only reason luffy looks as put together as he does is because sabo helped him pick the outfit and it’s extremely comfortable #mostly to help luffy get jobs. luffy does whatever job he feels like doing every day!#some days he’s a waiter some days he’s a gardener some days he’s a cashier #when Lois eventually gets over his paranoia over luffy popping up everywhere and finds out luffy is sabo’s brother he starts #paying luffy to babysit Anya. which of course means sabo is babysitting the both of them because trusting luffy to watch a child is maybe #not the best idea.

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hoofpeet · 1 year

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Them fighting immediately before Ingo gets eebied is good but also. lots of potential for post-Hisui fighting

#hoof draws #submas #thinking abt this ......head full #like . ingo is back but his memories are a bit scrambled and he no longer fully remembers how to read emmet #so he doesn't really pick up on the fact that emmet's anxiety is in full swing post-hisui #while emmet doesn't want to come off as clingy so he just doesn't really communicate it at all #so it takes a few months b4 ingo's phone dies at work or smthn and emmet can't get a hold of him #<-for ingo to pick up on the anxiety :[#i just like . they've changed as people but still care eachother so much #i think after the first little bit where emmet refuses to leave ingo's side at all #<they would make an effort to check in on each other every so often during work or whtv #emmet texts him whenever his paranoia starts to build up & ingo sends a little 👍 back

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jollmaster · 2 months

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once married, thrice divorced, still love each other

#the elder scrolls #tes #morrowind #almalexia #ayem #vivec #vehk #almalexia x vivec #they started to get laid a couple of years before the battle of red mountain #for vivec it was a symbolycally possession his commander's wife #for ayem it was an attempt to comfort when nerevar fell into paranoia and religious fanatism #and after two thousand years they're here

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realbeefman · 7 months

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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whimsyprinx · 11 months

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I feel like now is a good time to announce that I’m in the process of moving blogs! Im doing so for a few reasons, the main one being paranoia, so for that reason I won’t be saying my new urls publicly so like please dm me if you’d like my new url so you can follow me there! I’ll be reblogging this post a lot so ppl can see it (so sorry if you get annoyed by that)!

I’m also remaking my discord account as well so if we’re friends on there then feel free to message me for my new username!

friends and mutuals please do reblog so shared friends/mutuals have a higher chance seeing it!

#whimsy whispers #I’m just like ahdjfjjg #I’ve been considering remaking blogs for a few years now (as some of you may know) and like simply changing urls isn’t enough #no matter how many times I chnage urls the paranoia won’t go away and I think that starting a new blog is the best choice #idk what to do if my newest blog gets found by the ppl I’m paranoid about like idk the odds of that are low (I hope) alas I’m still anxious #about it #for some slight context: I’ve had several people now pop up in my life pretending to be other people/several people and while I’ve blocked #then on every social media account I interacted with them in im still paranoid about them lurking #and then like there’s other reasons to remake as well #I’m tired of this blog like I love it it’s been fun but I think starting over will be nice #tbh this is the longest I’ve had a blog without remaking I usually remake accounts every so often #I don’t intend to remake my next blog like at all but like agdhjfjg I have a habit of getting bored of accounts and staring over (usually #this applies to art accounts like y’all wouldn’t believe how many deviantart accounts I’ve had)#uhhhh idk I’ve been rambling for too long #I have this in drafts rn but you should be seeing this post soon

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painted-bees · 2 months

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raf being the source/butt of all my dumb weed jokes because he's a massive fucking stoner

but also raf being the most hard-working, put together, and responsible member of the trio

is one of my favorite things about him lmao

#he loves his shitty star shaped shades for many reasons and among them is the fact that they hide his eyes when they're a bit red😂#if he knew he suffered paranoia before he started smoking weed he woulda never started #but now his paranoia gets way worse if he goes too long without a smoke--which prevents him from committing to...quitting lmao rip rip rip

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pinetreeshack · 1 year

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elaboration in the tags

#i like to think that even before the whole dinner shabang #there was a lingering tension in fiddleford and fords relationship #because of fords refusal to elaborate on why he was in poor condition all the time #and fiddleford started to distance himself from him #not only because of the weight with the memory gun and everything else #but also because fiddleford eventually got fed up with ford 'using' him as aid after every possession #obviously ford refuses constant outside help because of his paranoia #and it leaves fiddleford feeling like he isnt helping him enough as is #idk. i just know shit was awkward and they bickered a lot towards the end #fiddleford mcgucket #ford pines #doodles #gravity falls #fanart #art diary

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nellasbookplanet · 10 months

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I just caught up with ep 63 and I'm fucking vibrating. The difference of the Bor'dor reveal and the Dusk reveal! Dusk spending their entire time with the party stirring up drama, once caught out still openly provoking and trying to find an angle to straight up kill Fearne's parents, and the party still struggling to find every reason to let them go, let them live. And Dusk never gave a shit. Why would they! They were a fey assassin! And still the Hells fought and argued for them and let them walk away despite openly remaining a threat.

And then we get Bor'dor, wet paper tissue of a man, tragic backstory up to the gills, genuinely spending time to bond with them, having his little practice session with them being his proudest moment, sharing vulnerabilities. And though he drew first blood, he did it trying to run away, not kill! He did it having seen these people murder his friends and drag their dead bodies out of the hole! He was helpless on the ground, all but begging them to end him because he saw no reason to keep going! There was enough turmoil and doubt in him that he could probably have been deradicalized! He hated them but he loved them too!

And had this been early campaign, in all likelihood they would have let him live. But this is a Bell's Hells who have already been betrayed once by an ally, who lost Eshteross to the Ruby Vanguard, who lost half the fucking party to the Ruby Vanguard, who went on a grueling journey to get Laudna back, who struggled and struggled and still failed to stop Ludinus and ended up separated and scared and not knowing whether the world is about to end or not, whether their friends are alive or not.

And they were done. They did not fight for him. This is war. Were Dusk to show back up now, I doubt they’d survive the encounter.

#cr3 spoilers #critical role #cr3 #bor'dor dog'son #dusk #i talked at one point about how c2 was all about the rewards of trust #about taking risks and being rewarded #c3 feels more like the darker side of trust and risk #sometimes you trust and get stabbed in the back.#sometimes you take a risk and your mentor dies‚ or half your party does‚ or you fail to stop the beginning of the end of the world #and you have to keep on going anyway bc it isn't over yet #i also once said there could’ve been a campaign 2 where matt leaned into the distrust and the paranoia #that it would’ve been interesting but much harder on the characters (beau caleb and fjord especially)#and i feel like that’s where laudna and orym are at right now #but bc they didn’t start out with paranoia and distrust as a core flaw the way many c2 characters did #they have better chances of learning and growing from this without being permanently damaged by it #while caleb/beau/fjord NEEDED to have their trust rewarded to be able to grow and heal #lessons in distrust would’ve split the m9 but has the chance to forge the bells hells #idk i just find it fascinating how different narratives serve different characters without eiter narrative being wrong #nella talks cr

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lord-squiggletits · 8 months

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The funny thing about Pharma and the Delphi situation is that that's where the concept of the DJD was first introduced (with the first scene with the DJD at work happening literally the issue afterwards, issue #6) and literally the more you learn about the DJD the more it vindicates Pharma in his paranoia and being convinced that he couldn't ask for help like

In the Delphi issues we learn that the DJD hunts down Decepticon turncoats/traitors/etc and that Ambulon, one of the Delphi staff, was a Decepticon traitor. We also learn that their leader is evidently terrifying in addition to being a t-cog addict, but that's it.

Except in the subsequent issue #6 and all issues with the DJD afterwards, we learn a variety of fun facts about the DJD such as

Several of the members either literally transform into torture equipment or have said torture equipment built into their bodies

Their leader, Tarn, the guy with the t-cog addiction that forced Pharma into blackmail, can kill people with just his VOICE

We later learn that the DJD have a fanatical devotion to the Decepticon cause/Megatron such that they literally worship an idol of Megatron

Even later on, we learn that Tarn's kill-you-with-his-voice powers work both over the phone and via recordings of his voice

Tarn is also very talkative during torture sessions and he seems to find pleasure in his stupid, smug-smart guy persona where he likes to describe to victims what's happening to them and why. And there's no reason he wouldn't apply this to Autobots just as much as he does to Decepticon traitors

The DJD have access to signal jamming technologies that make it so that even if their victim can get a help signal out, no one will receive it until weeks after the fact

Their entire system of hunting people down is based on pursuing them no matter what, isolating them from any help, driving them mad with psychological terror, etc

They're capable enough warriors to slaughter an entire ships' worth of people, apparently without sustaining any meaningful casualties

They're drug addicts that are prone to overdosing and/or losing control and slaughtering people while they're under the influence

So like???

If Pharma was only privy to HALF of the things that we as the audience know about the DJD, it's perfectly reasonable to assume that Pharma probably wanted to call for help at some point, but was convinced that doing so would lead to 1. the signal being jammed/blocked so no one would help anyways 2. him and everyone else at Delphi (including the TRAITOR WHO IS ONE OF THEIR EMPLOYEES) would be horribly tortured to death by fanatical Decepticon torturer freaks.

Like I get that in the text Pharma only says that he did the Red Rust stuff so that he wouldn't be caught/blamed for the t-cog deal and is prideful about how he stopped the DJD from murdering Delphi, but like...... there's no fucking way that Pharma going "oh I didn't want to get in trouble and also I'm better than everyone" was his PRIMARY reason for everything on Delphi. Pharma didn't go from perfectly normal/sane Autobot doctor to raving egotistical maniac because he was always an asshole and he decided to solve the DJD issue in an asshole way. It's bc according to all canon evidence we have of the DJD and the way they react to traitors/Autobots, Pharma had every reason to fear for his life and believe that no aid would come to him.

#not to mention that fucking uhhhh it was BLACKMAIL???#generally when BLACKMAIL happens the whole deal is 'you give me this thing and i don't kill you'#'but also if you go running for help i'll kill you'#or 'you can't call the authorities for help bc you're doing illegal things for me so theyll just arrest you'#squiggposting #pharma apologism #mfs wanna say 'pharma could've just ran or called for help' when the DJD are literally famous #for their ability to hunt people down and murder them horribly #remember when the lost light was getting hunted down by the DJD and they called for help?#remember how it took 3 weeks for anyone to get the SOS and by then everything was already over?#also it's reasonable to think that like pharma was just giving spare tcogs to tarn without having to kill anyone at first #figuring it's just extra supplies to order and it's a small price to pay for delphi not getting horribly murdered #and it was only later that he had to actually start killing people #and by then tarn could've easily hit him with 'you could run and ask for help but then they're going to ask you'#'why you were giving tcogs to a decepticon in the first place. have fun being a traitor for that'#and then there was you know. the paranoia and constant anxiety and trauma from being next door to the DJD

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sweatermuppet · 1 year

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sucks so bad to be diagnosed paranoid because i want to start reading & writing about aliens again because it is a topic that is sooo special to me but it makes me worse every time

#maybe ill start with john keel & see how it goes from there #it's hilarious from the outside. because i don't believe in aliens. but my paranoia surely does

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uninter3sting · 9 days

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every obstacle is a test from God and He Is Always Watching.

hey uh does anyone else experience this

#religious paranoia #religious trauma #ocd #christianity #scrupulosity #religious ocd #i can think of a lot more examples. but there is only so much room on the canvas and i didn't want to draw #not all of these are strictly like ocd either some of it is just paranoia #i've gotten a lot better but i don't trust god anymore #bc the god in my brain is not a kind one #also after going to church for nearly ur whole life you start to hear drastically differing accounts for what god is supposedly like #the killa #uninter3sting art #exvangelical

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perfectly-clear-from-here · 7 months

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if life was perfect there would be a tranquility base hotel + casino film. send post.

#like cmonnnn #just imagine #paranoia and bittersweetness and overwhelming urgency and 10 minute long shots of alex turner just smoking a cigarette in the bar #the choatic 70s decor against all that liminal space #AND THE ARCHITECTURE SHOTS OH MY GOD THE ARCHITECTURE SHOTS WOULD BE SO BEAUTIFUL #and that undercurrent of pure unease going through the whole thing where everything just seems *off* but nothing is uncovered #and the soundtrack would be obvious-#along with that weird beeping thing in the 4 out of 5 mv #an entire scene about the bittersweetness of pictures of friends on the wall that arent really friends anymore #it all just feels like a dream youre about to wake from #all the extra characters would be sickingly charming with an edge of just pure confusion #cant forget the homoerotic undertones #i need to protagonist to get halfblind drunk and stumble about in the dark of a backroom of a bad dream #i NEED mark sauntering about answering the batphone and doing that mad twirly thing with the line cable #i NEEEED miles kane to be in every single fecking scene #i need lola and jeany and lizzie and all the other names in the tracks to have their own wee choatic monologues #i need- to just shut up and open another script document #at this point im just taking notes i might aswell start writing the bloody thing #is my obsession showing yet? i sure hope so.#GO TO BED NOVA FOR CHRIST SAKE #tranquility base hotel and casino #tbhc #tbh+c #arctic monkeys #my post

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phoenixcatch7 · 10 months

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We should totally have more jl fics where someone is acting ooc and immediately everyone is trying to determine whether they're an imposter or brainwashed or possessed without making it obvious.

Like, a running joke on the tower. Batman makes a sarcastic joke and flash immediately asks him to blink twice if he's under mind control.

Someone starting a sentence with 'Not to be possessed but -'

People calling off sick by saying 'if I come in today that's not me and you should arrest them' and then dragging themselves in to pick up something they accidentally left and everyone takes the mick by saying stuff like 'this isn't you! I believe in you, you can fight this!' when they're grabbing a hoodie from a chair like har har.

Superhero community slang just in general slipping into their civilian lives. Clark says 'before I start I assure you I have not had my will superseded by mister mind' as an ice breaker at a presentation and gets weird and worried looks all night.

It actually ends up helping on several occasions because it's so very very hard to infiltrate an extremely high risk team and then respond in kind without missing a beat when people casually accuse you of being an imposter because you didn't hold your pen the way you normally do. It'd wreck any controlling consciousness' self esteem XD. They've made several shapeshifters cry.

Also the exasperated sighs when you make a suggestion you normally wouldn't and everyone starts squinting at you looking for anything out of the ordinary.

#Ironically it helps security #Even jokingly assuming everyone around you is an imposter does wonders to stop people leaving passwords on sticky notes #Really given the amount of times people have canonically been possesed/mind controlled/replaced it is an actual issue #They just make light of it because that kind of paranoia isn't a healthy way to live and also it's happened so many times it's lost its bit #Gl comes in like 'wonder woman has been dosed into a berserker rage again lol' and everyone rolls their eyes and #Starts to dig up their emergency ropes and nets because like it's the third time this month come on #Jl character centric fics have a lot of people acting out of character and there's a lot less suspicion of mind control or w/ever than #There should be lmao #Given how often it happens #batman #jla #justice league #superman #dc #dc comics #captain marvel #dc flash #wonder woman #green lantern #bruce wayne #clark kent #One time Martian man hunter does a prank where he pretends to be someone else on the watchtower when they're not in the room #By evening everyone's been sighted in at least two locations at the same time and the jl is whipping themselves into a frenzy before he #Reveals himself and gets food thrown at him in revenge XD

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angel-of-sweet-revenge · 2 months

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Bestie I'm pretty sure like half your problems would be solved if you just turned off the speakers

#lazytown #lazy town #robbie rotten #he both cant bear the sound and also clearly can't bear not being able to hear whats happening #... I'm starting to realise he may have some sort of anxiety or paranoia #you dont have periscopes and speakers all over town that are permanently unless you're scared something bad will happen and you wont know #at least i get anxious if I'm unable to hear my family and know exactly whats up while also hating the noise

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