How my love of OFMD accidentally made my poor doctorate thesis advisor think my grandmother is dying: a course of events
My grandmother was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago. I needed to take a lot of time off from TA stuff, thesis stuff, presentations, etc. because of this. I am usually very active in academic life so it stood out a lot
My thesis advisor, being a decent man, did not pry and just offered his support
My grandmother had surgery and has since entered remission. I tell my advisor her surgery went well but she's doing so good that it just never comes up again
After the OFMD teaser when episode release dates were announced, I went ahead and blocked those days off my calendar
This pattern of taking time off every week looks a lot like when I was taking time off to take my grandmother to appointments and stuff
I also mention that I'm going to be "a bit busy" in October. This is my work-appropriate way of saying I'm going to be way too busy thinking about gay pirates and they should expect very little of me
Having lunch with my advisor. he very gently asks "so how's your grandma"
"Oh she's great"
"she's what"
He explains that he assumed from my comments and my calendar that my grandma was probably going through intense chemo or having another surgery or something. He says he'd figured the cancer had returned and he didn't want to push too hard about it. I have to find the least insane way to say that no, she's fine, I just expect my brain to be entirely occupied by a TV show for an entire month
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So you've got to write a sympathy card for your boss's dog. Or comment on a post announcing the death of your distant uncle. Or go to your partner's grandmother's funeral. But what do you even say to the people left in the wake of tragedy?
Please consider, my personal* list of dos and don'ts for expressing your condolences to the grieving.
Do... Think of your favorite memories of that person. Even something small like what they often wore.
Example: "The cake they baked for the charity auction was one of the best bundt cakes I've ever had."
Example: "When I think of [passed person], I remember how they always had fun sweaters to wear on Christmas."
Intended effect: Grief is a grey cloud that surrounds the mind and blocks out light. Reminding the person grieving of something specific and positive associated with the deceased helps them remember it too. It also gives them comfort that that person, who is physically gone from the world, is not gone from everyone's minds or hearts.
Do... Consider how they passed, the relationship to the person you're consoling, and how that person you're consoling has talked about them/their death.
Example (the relationship was fraught): "This must be a difficult time for you. I am wishing for you lots of rest and peace of mind."
Example (the deceased passed from a long, difficult illness): "Though they will be terribly missed, I'm glad to know they are finally at peace."
Intended effect: Considering the context of how the person passed and how the griever feels about it will make them feel like you aren't just saying words you've heard before to make yourself comfortable. A common phrase that may work well in one situation may work terribly in another.
Do... Question your own feelings about the death. What was your relationship to the deceased? Do you also feel sad for this person's passing? Or do you just want to provide comfort for the grieving person?
Example (you are affected by the death): "I wish I could give them one last hug, but I'm so glad to have known them for as long as I did."
Example (you didn't know the deceased well but you knew them casually): "I was so sorry to hear of their passing. I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself."
Example (you never met the deceased): "I am sorry for your loss, I am thinking of you and your family."
Intended effect: People who are grieving can feel incredibly alone in their grief, especially if the loss was great. If you are also affected by the death, by all means express it (sensitively), because the griever will feel less isolated in their feelings. Even if you yourself are not affected, you can still lessen their isolation by expressing care towards the griever.
Do... Let silence speak for you. If the griever is a hugger, a few words and a long hug may do more good than 1,000 words ever could.
Don't... Bring up religion or an afterlife if you do not know what the person grieving believes, or they know you do not believe it yourself. "I'm praying for you" may be appropriate for some, but "I'm thinking of you" is a safer bet.
Don't... Say phrases like "everything happens for a reason" or "God has a plan for us all" unless the griever has already expressed this attitude around this specific death.
Don't... Say platitudes you don't mean or that are insincere to a point where it would be obvious. For example, do not say "they were a light to us all" if you spoke to the deceased maybe twice, or they were a chronic grump.
Don't... Assume that the person who is grieving doesn't feel anything negative or complicated about the deceased, unless you are extremely close with the griever. Even someone you know on a basic level may not confide in you their negative feelings about the person who passed, especially if they were a close relative. If you are unsure about the nature of the relationship, focus on the griever and express care towards them rather than sorrow for the loss itself.
Don't... Try to fix or solve anything. Be present, be warm, be understanding, and you will do just enough to maybe ease some small fraction of the pain.
Don't... Be 100% positive. It's tempting to try and cheer someone up by not dwelling on anything bad or uncomfortable, but that's more isolating than anything else. It also signals to the griever that you yourself are uncomfortable, which isn't incredibly helpful.
Don't... Be 100% morose. The person grieving may crack a joke, and it may be a dark one, but just go with it and laugh along. The ridiculous is made even moreso in the context of tragedy, and the person grieving will always appreciate/remember any points of levity they had in an otherwise dark time.
Don't... Be afraid to say anything at all, even if it's unoriginal. A simple "I'm thinking of you" is better than silence.
*I approached this topic from the headspace of someone grieving a complicated but profound loss, years after the fact. Trying to remember how it felt to be freshly grieving myself, I tried to be truthful but not too specific. If you have any other tips as someone who is familiar with grief, feel free to add. If you disagree with my list, then we simply process grief differently and I encourage you to make your own post. Thanks for reading 💚
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yeah alright vent under the cut. medical related
me, 12: i've been in a lot of pain for months. I can barely focus on school and i don't have any social life bc all my free time is spent laying in bed with a heating pad. tylenol doesn't do anything
my parents: you're faking to get out of school
me, 13: this diagnosis is wrong. it's not IBS. i'm still in so much pain I physically cannot stand up straight and i can't eat. nothing seems to be getting any better and i don't want to live if it means spending the rest of my life in this much pain.
my parents: just give it time, it'll get better
me, 14: i barely weigh a hundred pounds and I can physically see a bump on my stomach where one of my organs is swelling. i've been in pain for two straight years now, my life is effectively ruined, and you've barely listened to me.
my parents: oh okay it is serious after all, you need surgery
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My mom, today: I was in a lot of pain yesterday and I'm still having pain today so your dad's gonna take me to urgent care
Me: [i'm trying very very hard to feel concerned for you but you've never once acknowledged the fact that i tried to tell you what was wrong from the beginning and you didn't believe me and it almost ended my life] ...I hope you feel better
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