me after spending all my dad’s money because it’s basically just reparations

My shopping addiction is so real.

Like, I would do crazy stuff for money just to buy things that will make me happy for probably less than one week. Realizing that I can't spend money on every cute thing I see online is painful

omg so I’m a bit of a compulsive spender (I have a shopping addiction, it’s a problem but I’m working on it) and someone on one of my support pages said she takes pictures of the things she wants instead of impulse-buying them and it helps and I realized OMG I could start a tumblr with pictures/prices of things I managed to NOT buy then I could see how much money I’m saving by doing so AND I COULD CALL IT THE RESISTANCE. Anyway I’m in love with this idea. 

lana must've hired a new merch team or something bc why are they coming for MY money now??

Buying cute things will make me feel better

Buying cute things will make me feel better

Buying cute things will make me feel better

I have a shopping addiction 😔

But my Vivienne Westwood purse comes tomorrow!!! 😊

Found a new YouTube channel called The Financial Diet. Videos include:

"You're Not Ugly, You're Just Poor": A Deep Dive (watched)

How The Wealthy Gaslight America

It's Not Just You: Jobs Didn't Used To Be This Terrible (watched)

The Toxic Boomer Money Advice You Need To Unlearn (watched)

3 Lessons From My No-Buy Year That Totally Changed My Finances (watched)

3 Things I No Longer Buy After My No-Buy Year (watched)

4 Lies From The Beauty Industry That Trick You Into Spending More Money (watched)

4 Minimalist Principles I Practice After Quitting Shopping For 1 Year (watched)

Overcoming "Post-Traumatic Broke Syndrome" & Building Real Wealth (watched, features TheBudgetnista Tiffany Aliche who talks about the finances of grief, the lasting effects of being broke, and what it means to be truly good with money)

Why ADHD Makes Money So Hard (And What To Do About It)

So, I've been doing a low buy/no buy yarn challenge for around a month now. I have over $1000 of yarn that's just...sitting in my room at any given time due to all the donations I've been blessed with, and it's been getting to me just how much I have sitting there. Sure, I crochet for a living, but I don't thinn having this much around me encourages me to experiment as much as it may seem.

So, I made a challenge for myself until at least the end of the year. No buying yarn for myself unless it's to finish a project I started prior to this challenge or if it's for a custom order that requires specific materials due to customer requests. I can still accept donations and gifts, since I help allocate resources for other crafters near me, but I can't go out of my way to get myself stuff.

Now that I'm one month in, I've looked back on my behavior this past month and realized just how bad my impulse yarn shopping is.

I finish a big project? I want to celebrate by buying yarn.

I get a custom order that I already have the yarn for? I want to go buy new yarn anyways.

I manage to meet some store management deadlines I set for myself? I want to reward myself with more yarn.

I had a really rough day and had a PTSD episode? I want to comfort myself by buying more yarn.

It's insane to realize how instinctively I reach for consumerism as a coping mechanism. I don't need any more yarn. I have more than enough, even if it is my job. It's kind of scary seeing how badly this impulse has affected me, but it's also for the best I realized it now versus it getting worse down the road.

To help with reducing these urges, I've been avoiding haul videos. On one hand, I look at them and see excess consumption, on the other, I see a bunch of products I'm tempted to buy. It's a weird dichotomy, to be sure.

I'm not even sure why I'm sharing all of this on here besides to acknowledge that I'm trying, even if it is to the void that is Tumblr 😅

WE DON'T HAVE A PLUSHIE ADDICTION YOU DO

Bought calendar and a few cheap rainbow pencils, for like eleven dollars total. WHY DO I STILL FEEL THE URGE TO SPEND CONSUME SPEND CONSUME SPEND CONSUME SPE

Beginning to reckon with the idea that I earnestly have a shopping/spending addiction... I moved this week and actually having to face the mountains of clothes I've acquired over the past year made me feel so disgusting. I've been kind of in denial about the compulsive aspect of it for so long, the way my emotions play into a need for new things, how much money I've wasted on things I never use, never even look at...... ugh. And I don't get rid of things because everything has a sentimental justification for keeping it, I'm afraid I'll regret it, I procrastinate dealing with selling/donating, or whatever. Not even just clothes/accessories/knick-knacks, it's scraps of paper, receipts, literal garbage that I think is interesting, birthday cards, broken glass, etc., etc., etc., ad infinitum. People give me so much shit for how much stuff I keep, but then they try to unload all the things they don't want on me! I don't usually make personal posts, but I guess I just wanted to vent and see if anyone has any resources to help reframe the way I behave surrounding clothes and shopping and "collecting" as an excuse for hoarding. Or even just words of encouragement from people who have been in the same situation. Okthankyouloveyoubye.

i swear i need constant attention in my life. also constant control over something cuz if not then i go crazy. like rn. self loathing type shit. back to the point though. i crave attention so much. of course as a kid i never had a lot. so now days i self obsess, have ed's and buy new clothes just so anyone could notice. ofc no one gives a shit.

so mnny packages waiting 4 me at school im itchy about it