you know the rhythm game is getting a little too crazy when your eyes start burning and filling with tears

one of my favorite parts of moby dick is when ishmael wants/needs to tell us something but he desperately doesn't want to have to talk about it, he just buries it in a bunch of irrelevant information.

at the very beginning, he goes to church. a place filled with "silent grief... insular and incommunicable." and he sees these marble tablets on either side of the pulpit and says 'I don't really remember them all that well' (which is likely a lie. at the least it's extremely out of character for a man who directly quotes the internal monologues of other men) and proceeds to give three paraphrased examples. the first tablet is for a teenager, lost overboard off patagonia. the tablet was paid for by his sister. the second is for 6 men, taken by a whale they were hunting in the pacific. the tablet was paid for "by their surviving shipmates." the third is for a captain, killed on his own boat by a sperm whale off japan. the tablet was paid for by his widow. all seemingly normal.

except they're not. the first one is a red herring, seemingly irrelevant to our story. but the second? a memorial for a crew lost to a whale, left by their surviving shipmates? that's exactly what we're reading. the surviving shipmate is ishmael. he's all that remains. and then he pivots, drawing our attention to the much clearer parallel- the captain who loses his life on his own boat to a sperm whale. and we all immediately go "oh I know who that is! ahab!!" and ishmael succeeds. he needs us to see the sailors remembered by their surviving crew, but even more he needs to not address it. he needs us to not ask him about it. he wants this story to be told but he doesn't want to be the one telling it. he wants to pretend to be someone else, to be someone other than the one who survived. and for 135 chapters, he gets to be.

i’m so sorry to say this. and i’m not saying all sad wet gay fantasy boys is the same necessarily. however. i must live my truth. i must call a spade a spade. alfie allen would make a fantastic rincewind.

i love the ephemeral and temporary nature of live theatre except when i don’t get to see a play i want to and then it sucks

thinking about song of the ocean from dimitris papadimitriou's moby dick musical... girl.....girl.....

I think the pacing in 2001aso is something i have nevr seen before in a movie. It takes its time for you to take in scenes and shots and to build up music(different discussion entirely the music makes me sofucking autistic). I think it works well bc like. the dialogue itself TO ME feels sparse and among🤯 the quiet and stillness it makes exchanges btwn characters soooo much more special

God, I'm almost finished with listening to The Beatles' discography. Can't believe that, after two months!

Got to listen to whole "Abbey Road" today. Of course, I knew some songs, "Something" is my favorite so far, but there's "Octopus's Garden", which is again, a very catchy song by Ringo, but then there's "The End" with that sweet moment of a drum solo.

Drum solo. And you know how I love this instrument. This lil song might just kick the two previously mentioned out only and solely because of drum solo in "The End".

Same happened with "Helter Skelter" on "White Album". Listened to it once, twice, fell in love with the drum part and now it's my favorite from all 30 songs on this long album.

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truly believe in my heart tennant realizes crowley is someone’s (my) the doctor and he behaves accordingly even if he’s not in the fucking trenches

In defense of Garak, if I was in exile and lonely and shared art from my home planet to the one guy that talks to me, and he told me it was "kinda mid" I would have started throwing hands

there is unfortunately a link btwn revolution is an act of love/liberation theology and. mcyt rp. but i have drafted the several paragraphs i wrote abt that meanderign thru theater of the absurd & its offshoots (mikey and nicky clock fight i'm always thinking abt you) because i could make the argument and even a small amt of people might appreciate it but it's esoteric to such a degree it's functionally useless to spend time arguing. but i know it, in my heart

Moby 18 - In My Heart

mgsv has so many literary references to books i have essays abt it kind of makes me.

Doctor=funkbeat(????)

Is such a fun song on expert

Wish I could play more songs above 24-25 on expert 🥲

Only made it thru the beginning of hatsunes creation or whatever its called