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Do you know any good wlw movies/ TV shows on netflix? I've watched a few, I am not ok with this, Carol, duck butter, but im LESBIAN DEPRIVED!

~🌈

YOU AND ME BOTH GIRLY.

unfortunately almost all my favorite sapphic shows have been canceled especially the ones on netflix but i do still think theyre worth your time. but it might also kill you bc the story isnt finished. all these shows are also just amazing plots too. like i would love them just as much even if there wasnt wlw relationships.

heres what i got for shows but not all of these are on netflix.

the wilds. this is an AMAZING SHOW. its on amazon its about a staged plane crash where 8 girls are stuck on an island but they dont know that its all a fucked up social experiment. a lesbian relationship became established before it got canceled after s2.

cable girls. this is on netflix and it actually DIDNT GET CANCELED HALLELUJAH. its an amazing show but it actually doesnt really count as sapphic bc one of the characters in the wlw relationship ends up being trans. but its still a great queer love. this shows spanish and set in late 1920s madrid at a telephone company. its one of my favorite shows ever literally every season is better than the last plz watch it.

everything sucks. this is on netflix and it did get canceled but the lesbian relationship was mostly established before the end of the first season. its set in the 90s and its just a really cute show im mad it got canceled.

paper girls. this is on amazon and ngl this is one of the most painful sapphic show cancelations ive ever suffered through so if you dont wanna watch it just bc of that i dont blame you. its about these four young girls who accidentally time travel from the 80s to current day and meet their future selves. the gay girlies are heavily implied and foreshadowed but they dont get together before the end of the show :(

the last of us!!! not canceled its still going!! this show has an episode that shows a past sapphic relationship with the lesbian main character but the first season doesnt introduce a new relationship yet. the second season will tho. im sure youve heard about this or already watched it but its about a zombie-like pandemic from a deadly fungus and its total post apocalyptic. also AMAZING found family father/daughter trope. dare i say i actually think i like them more than el and hopper.

i really need to find more great sapphic movies.

my favorite lesbian movie of all time is portrait of a lady on fire. its a french period piece and its just beautiful and THERE ARE LIKE ZERO MEN IN THE WHOLE MOVIE. i think the only line a man has is “bonjour” and thats it. MY KINDA MOVIE!!!!! INSTANT 5 STARS!!!!! i love this movie. the initial premise is that a woman needs to be painted but she cant know that shes being painted so the other woman has to just study her while hanging out and then paint her from memory. it ends up being much more than that but gaaahhh if you only watch one of these make it this movie.

another iconic sapphic movie is but im a cheerleader. way different tone much less dramatic and more comedy but still never gets old.

you didnt mention books but im gonna give you book recs anyway.

seven husbands of evelyn hugo!!!!!!! im sure youve heard about this. i dont think its overrated at all it really was such a good book and dont let the title fool you its gay as hell. if youre really not a reader tho this is going to be a netflix movie soon.

an amazing duo book series is criers war. i LOVE scifi and fantasy and this is my favorite sapphic scifi story ive ever read/watched. i want this to be a movie or show so bad. its about a world where some people are people and some are what they refer to as “automa” which are essentially cyborgs but they look just like humans. crier is an automa and the daughter of a king and ayla is a poor human and she has a vendetta against crier bc her father was responsible for her familys murder but crier doesnt know this! so then ayla gets the job as her maid for the goal of killing her basically but of course it gets super gay instead. its such an interesting take on the enemies to lovers trope bc its one sided, cryer has no idea ayla considers her her enemy. also neither of them are white i think crier is brown and ayla is black.

i hope you like these! and if anybody else has lesbian story recs plz put it in the replies or rbs cuz i also need more lesbian content!!!

Reading Between The Lines (InoAoi fic) - teaser & tentatively looking for a beta reader

I'm wanting to start posting my recently finished InoAoi fic Reading Between The Lines soon. I have the first two chapters read through a few times now and I feel they are ready to be posted, but before that, I wanted to see if I could locate a beta reader as well. There are 66 chapters, and I'm hoping to post new chapters bi-weekly, if possible between work and other things, but at least want to get a chapter out each month. I'm going to post a teaser, tags, and some other info here, so if anyone is intersested in beta reading this fic, please message me in my DMs or my ask box. If no one steps forward though, then I'll just go ahead and start posting it unbeta-ed. This will eventually be a NC-17 fic, containing content of various types of mature content, so unfortunately I cannot accept minors as beta readers. Please seem the tag lists below the cut for all content and trigger warnings.

Teaser: A little while after the girl with the twin hair-tails and deep sapphire eyes made him drink a foul-tasting liquid, she finally reunited Inosuke with his beloved mask. He checked it over extensively, suspicious as to why she had taken possession of it for so long.

"There was a tear in it," The girl explained as his eyes and senses examined the stitches in the hide. "I sewed it shut so it wouldn't get bigger."

Inosuke wanted to challenge her to a fight for seizing and messing with the most precious of his meager belongings, but she briskly left the room. He glowered at the door she'd disappeared through, but it softened a little when he studied her stitches. If he didn’t possess such an acute sense of touch, the mend might’ve been undistinguishable from the rest of the fur. She'd taken great pains to fix it.

A peculiar, but warm sensation formed in his chest at the gesture, but he vigorously scratched it away in annoyance.

Hmph! He shoved the mask back over his head. She's lucky she didn't ruin my mask, or there'd be hell to pay!

Gotouge didn’t give us a whole lot of shipping material, especially for Inosuke and Aoi. Thus, we are left to wonder what happened with them between panels, between the lines.

Relationship Tags: Hashibira Inosuke/Kanzaki Aoi, minor or background relationships, Kamado Tanjirou/Tsuyuri Kanao, Agatsuma Zenitsu, Kamado Nezuko, Shinazugawa Genya/OFC, Kanzaki Aoi & Tsuyuri Kanao, Agatsuma Zenitsu & Hashibira Inosuke & Kamado Tanjirou & Tsuyuri Kanao & Shinazugawa Genya, Hashibira Inosuke & Kochou Shinobu, Kanzaki Aoi & Kochou Shinobu, Hashibira Inosuke & Uzui Tengen.

Character Tags: Hashibira Inosuke, Kanzaki Aoi, Kamado Tanjirou, Tsuyuri Kanao, Agatsuma Zenitsu, Kamado Nezuko, Kochou Shinobu, Shinazugawa Genya, Uzui Tengen, Uzui's wives, Shinazugawa Sanemi, Tomioka Giyuu, The other Hashira/Pillars, Background & cameo characters, Original characters, Original animal characters.

Additional Tags: Slow build, Slow burn, Friends to lovers, Friendship, Family, canon compliant, Canon with artistic liberties, Canon-typical violence, Fluff and humor, Angst and feels, Slow romance, touchy-feely, Animal instincts, Feral behavior, Aged-up characters, Accidental voyeurism, Masturbation, Eventual smut, Cunnilingus, Vaginal fingering, Vaginal sex, Mind manipulation, Implied/referenced domestic violence, Insecurity, Self-doubt, canonical character death, Intimidation, Verbal abuse, Natural distasters, Post-traumatic stress disorder - PTSD, Nightmares, Pandemics, Hashibira Inosuke-centric, Hashibira Inosuke being Hashibira Inosuke, Hashibira Inosuke is bad at feelings, Protective Hashibira Inosuke, Soft Hashibira Inosuke, Touch-starved Hashibira Inosuke, Kanzaki Aoi-centric, Festivals, Courtship, Dating, Falling in love, Idiots in love, Platonic relationships, Sharing a bed, Slight underaged drinking.

Greetings everyone! I am kind of new here, so I don’t really know the basics. I don’t even know if anybody would be able to read what I am writing. But here is it anyway.

JOURNEY OF A FUTURE EDUCATOR

I am a third-year college student. Pursuing a Bachelor of                 Science in Secondary Education with a major in English. Let me start by saying it is not easy, the journey that I have been through is a lot harder that I imagined it to be. Not because I chose a difficult course but because I chose a difficult life. They say that if you put love into your passion then everything will just flow smoothly. I think that is my problem – ever since I was a kid, I am always confused of who or what I am going to be. Being an educator is not my first choice – hell, studying is not even a choice for me. It is a requirement of the world, and I must follow it in order to have a good life in the future. I just don’t get it, why do we have to pay to live in the world that was not created by money? I think that is the root of my problems, I don’t want to belong. I am not afraid to be different. Everyone just follows what everyone does. We are all prisoners of the so-called leaders of this world. Okay, I think I might be swaying away from the topic. I am sorry for that. Let’s get back to it. Its just that, whenever I write something, I just drift far away and thoughts, ideas, and imagination just clash together inside my mind. Anyway, my journey started during the pandemic, it started when I decided to get back to school after stopping and figuring out my purpose in life. Teaching was never my passion. Yes, I am fascinated whenever I meet a good teacher that opens my mind and teach me things that I can really use in the future. But it is never enough to light up the fire in me and make teaching my passion in life. I did not choose education because somebody told me to, but because it is what’s available at that time. I failed several times in life, and I have become a disappointment to my family countless times. I have a chance to make it right and I took it, education presented itself to me, and even though it is not in my list, I took it as an opportunity.  

I am glad to be where I am right now. I don’t even expect to reach this far and now I am here still surviving the harsh environment of school. I don’t like studying but believe me when I say that I love learning. In my years in college, I have learned a lot and I have observed a lot of diversity, hate, war, and deceit in order to get what they want. I watched kids turn to men, I watched good people do evil things just to pass, I silently watched everything change including myself. And its all for the purpose of passing, finishing what we started and not becoming a disappointment to the people we love. A teacher once read a bible verse to us during the incident that happened that includes students giving up on life because everything felt heavy for them. I’m not going to talk about that bible verse, I am going to talk about that life. Everyone is struggling in these hard times, and it is really stupid to tell people that they are weak, that their struggles are nothing compared to what you’ve been through. We are all uniquely different in a beautiful way and everyone matters. I just think that a little bit of understanding and consideration will go a long way. That is what these students need the most, right now. People say that they became teachers to make an impact, to inspire change, but what they do not know is that you do not need a title, an achievement, a name, to inspire a little bit of change. Those little things that we do for other people, that is what matters the most.

I started this journey with a wrong goal, I started because I do not want to be a disappointment to my family. Now, I am halfway through the finish line, and I learned that I am not afraid to be a disappointment to other people. I am more  afraid to be a disappointment to myself. I started this journey knowing that this is what my family wanted for me. But now I know that this is what I want for myself. Listen up people, every human being has two lives, and the other one starts when you figure out that you only have one. Don’t waste it trying to impress other people. If you feel tired, breathe, rest, sleep. Do not rush to go where you want to be by taking huge steps and leaving behind the important lessons in life. Take those boring little steps and learn slowly. Do not be afraid to commit mistakes. Remember that mistakes are our greatest teacher in life. Always take care of yourself. Because at the end of the day, when everybody leaves, the only one who will stay with you is yourself. Turn every challenge into an opportunity to become better.

Disclaimer: MANY letters to follow 😇🤓

1.

Okay, it’s time to tell you my big secret, guys. I’m a Potterhead 😃 I read the books and watched the movies (in both English and my mother tongue) countless times. I have a Hufflepuff and a Slytherin scarfs, a cauldron cup and a snitch (I honestly tried to buy Draco’s wand last September but they ran out of them at the shop 🥲). I attended Tom Felton’s meet and greet when he visited my city. And finally, I’ve been writing HP fan-fiction since my teenage years. I’ve never published any of my “pieces of art” anywhere, so the things that I’ve finally decided to share with you here are hell of exclusive 😎

The “Hold on” is particularly dear to me not only because it’s one of the few things that I’ve actually finished, but also because the 2009-2012 version of it shows an enormous progress of my writing skill. It started as a never-ending dialogue, and it developed into a story with a study of characters’ depth and an attempt to reflect on the magic world of Harry Potter beyond the borders of the books and the movies. 

The 2020 pandemic year gave me a lot of time and chances to reflect on the past, present and future, on life and death, on love, friendship, devotion, freedom, peace. That scary year of unprecedented uncertainty surprisingly helped me to get back to many things that I haven’t been doing for quite a while before covid, including writing. I tried to go on with a couple of my originals but my soul was constantly demanding something magic. And that’s where I decided that the time for reviewing the “Hold on” story has finally come. 

The English adaptation that I’m still working on differs from the original in Russian. It certainly has many twists that I invented back in 2010s. However, it goes deeper in exploring the characters, it broadens the Malfoy-side story from the original J.K. Rowling books and it contains a large part on the Irish magic society that plays a very important role in the development of the general storyline of the “Hold on”. 

I’m not sure that my Tumblr/Simblr blog is a proper place for sharing an over-300 pages draft (roughly 1/3 of the planned size). However, if some of you would like to read it I will consider making a Wattpad/Fanfiction.net page or whatever to publish it for you 😇

Today I wanna show you the Sim versions of some of the main characters of the “Hold on”. Hopefully, they will win over your hearts as they did over mine 😍 Please, welcome, the Lynches. 

Jason Lynch, the headmaster of Limerick, the Irish School of Magic. His wife Brie (or Brianne), Potions teacher at Limerick. And their daughter Demi (Demetria), a talented potion maker and a big lover of muggle rock.

The Lynch Manor (under cut) is an ancient Irish country home outside Dublin that Jason inherited from his parents. 

The sims and the manor are made by me, and I’m hell of proud of myself 😂😃

Next Sneak

As much as I post my senseless rambles here and there, I might as well some things off my mind for a bit.

(Also, its my birthday today and I'm close to pushing 30............)

Mind you guys, I've been on tumblr since December of 2011.

During the pandemic, my only sibling passed away due to a late stage of cervical cancer. She was in her early-mid thirties and left two kids. Honestly, to this day I missed her dearly and life has never been the same. Feels like everything is running on auto-pilot and I tell myself that I'm just living and breathing to not make my loved ones upset. Lately, my relationship with my parents have been on the rocks but I'm slowly trying to build patience with them. My mother especially. After her death, she was never the same. You can't force someone, not even your parents, to go seek help but, I worry about her. I tell her that I'm still going to be there for her. Thankfully, she says that's good enough for her. I also left the food and beverage industry, along with retail and warehouse work. Amazon can suck my right tit. All these dead-end jobs can, in all honesty.

I've also been through shitty relationship after shitty relationship, almost towards the point of abuse. Thankfully, I took time to myself and re-evaluated my lifestyle for a bit until I met my boyfriend of nine months. We got together of last year October. Now, it's almost going to be one year together. Damn, time flies. We have our differences but, at least I can share my disagreements in a healthy way, and even properly compromise without someone gaslighting or cursing my intelligence. I'm not going to lie, the relationships and situationships really broke me. I'm slowly trying to heal from my past, and things are slowly getting better. I'm just grateful that my boyfriend has stuck with me through my ugliness. I'm starting to realize this is what love feels like again.

Right now I'm finishing up my pre-reqs to get a spot within my school's nursing program. As of now, I'm in training as a Patient Care Tech at a hospital. Hopefully, I can get to work in pediatric care one day. It's going to be tough, but I just want to see a better future for myself. Of all the stuff that I've gone through, the least I could do is further myself.

As for the other stuff, I'm just personally vibing right now. Got a boyfriend on the side, trying to move out-of-state (I can't stand the South) once I'm done with school and have plans to move in with him, typing up fanfiction every now and then, studying, getting back into reading manga again, playing video games-especially the sims 2 (damn, I'm old), nothing but the vibes.

Thank you all for sticking around with me, especially my day ones. I really appreciate you guys. You are all awesome.

Anyways, I'm off to bed. I have a long as hell orientation day tomorrow. Stay safe.

This Past Week, The Good & The Bad

Good

Got a new job! I'm working with kids again

I'll still be working my current job for the time being since I need the money but between the two it'll likely still be under 40 hrs/week

I'm gonna be making plenty of cash

It's official! I have ADHD (officially diagnosed!)

I went to a con just for funsies for the first time since before the pandemic and it was super fun!!!

Got some new cosplay plans under my belt

I'm so close to finishing House you guys I'm sooooo close and I'm gonna straight up sob at the ending because you know me and how I'm a god damn sap and if you've been reading my liveblog you'll know that it's wrecking me and

Bad

It's possible I'll be working 7 days a week for essentially the whole summer (minus a couple of days)

My dad still hasn't found a job which means I still need to give him and my mom money

My dad is still looking towards high-ranking jobs like what he had instead of just plain Jobs which I think he should be shooting for

I won't be continuing my education and if I do go back it won't be for the thing I wanted to study

I kinda have to partially go back in the closet for this job. For the time being. Since it's a job focused on empowering young girls and dfab kids and idk if I'm emotionally ready to be the only trans man on the staff

There's a thing I've been avoiding for a while that I'm still avoiding and shouldn't be avoiding but I still am because it makes me That Anxious

Old Job is gonna go to hell without me and there will still be rotten produce just sitting about because one of the semi-new employees still doesn't give enough of a crap and the new employees aren't gonna get trained right

The Tale of getting Hawk and Flo Made Part 1

Greetings dear reader, I am HeaddyPidgeon. I make a webcomic series currently called Hawk and Flo 2: Ice Cream Truck of Doom. Now you may have read my comic before or you may be someone who has never even heard of me until now (that being the more likely case). Now you may have noticed the eponymous 2 in the Hawk and Flo 2 and come to the conclusion that there is a Hawk and Flo 1. Well you would be correct dear reader there technically is a Hawk and Flo 1.... It just isn’t finished even though it technically was finished 2 years ago.

What the heck does that mean. it’s finished and it’s not finished at the same time? how is that possible?!. Well the reason why is because during the  Pandemic I completed Hawk and Flo: Last Space Wizard. It was Inked, coloured, lettered with all of the bells and whistles added from the comfort of my own bedroom. The physical manuscript version is finished. The digital version which I sometimes refer to as the webtoon edit is still in production. When I made the physical version I thought I could just scan the pages and then upload it on the internet, but that sadly didn’t work which meant that over 200 pages then had to (and still have to be redrawn all over again from scratch. Ouch

This is but one chapter in the story of what might be one of the worst production hells in the history of fiction writing let alone comic books. Behind every piece of art there is an artist, behind every novel there is a writer and behind every story there is the story of how it gets made. Let it be known throughout the cosmos that whilst in the year 2022 we’re getting to see the brother and sister from Bermuda fight space armies and crack jokes. Getting it up and running in the first place was a daunting, absolute, nightmare of a quest undertaken by an individual with absolutely no clue what he was doing and whose only credentials were..... ok basically nothing.

I’ve only really been at the process of trying to make my comics for a few years now, Last Space Wizard may have had it’s first chapter in November of 2021 but before that I was pretty terrible. So Terrible that I realised I needed to practice at making comic books before I even got onto the internet. if I was aware of how truly awful I was at doing it all The Internet was certainly going to have had a field day with many of my earlier attempts at comics. Now the  (not so) strange thing is I studied English so the stories themselves were pretty well written. The Jokes landed the characters were likeable, it’s just everything else was terrible. The art was terrible, My Lettering was completely Illegible, I couldn’t even draw anyone moving. So my first ever attempt at a Hawk and Flo comic was a script I had from a complete Turkey of an episode I had called ‘My Worst Fear’. I considered it the worst script I had ever written for anything but because the characters mostly stood around and talked I threw caution to the wind and gave it a go. i Showed it my friends and they found it hilarious which is what encouraged me to try learning to draw on my own. I started with A3 sketchbooks I'd buy from the Range. I would then turn on them on their sides then draw all of the action (or lack thereof in my case I was so bad it wasn’t funny) big and bright because I struggled a lot with drawing small and my consistency was awful. So when I very first started I drew character design sheets then I would trace my own drawings so it would turn out consistently LOL. 

We all have to start somewhere If somehow someway I one day take off as some kind of famous writer/artist know this I had no idea what I was doing I’m just as clueless as anyone else. It’s just I understand I'm getting older, after trying and failing so many times to look for artists to draw my comics, whether it be my ex girlfriend, or friends I knew from High school I realised the only way any of this was ever going to get made was I had to do it myself. It came with some heartaches, i’m still gutted that I wasn’t able to get my comics off the ground at the time the storm Area 51 event happened in 2019. it would have been so perfect if a series about space armies invading planets came out that day... but It wasn’t to be I wasn’t ready to be out there. When I tried to scan my sketchbook art I just wasn’t able to do anything with it, the pages weren’t edited out properly and none of it was the right format. So when I got better I started drawing on A4 sheets of paper which I then couldn’t get to upload due to file size limits and such so I had to start doing everything digitally. I couldn’t figure out how to scan and upload my A3 books or A4 manuscripts I still don’t know how XD. Shout outs to anybody who did figure that out I still haven’t to this very day.

You know what’s funny? All this stupid fucking. and I’m not even growing, my knowledge about photography and layout design is the exact fucking same as last semester. Fashion studio, all that work? Nothing. Katie came into this semester with the exact same amount of sewing knowledge as me—- started studio 2 weeks late— picked the most difficult pattern and learned to sew it ON THE FLY as she made the dress. I did. Nothing. She’s come out someone with a knowledge of sewing and patterns and all that I want to learn and I did. Nothing. You know why I didn’t pick the stupid fucking sewing project? Because I was boo boo fucking scared, oh no what if I’m unable to sew! Oh no! Boo fucking hoo she went out and did it and all I did was tell her that she had the choice to not do it whenever she encountered AND eventually cleared an obstacle in her process.

I’m not only a stupid fucking person with no technical skill or ability I’m also a horrible fucking person. Riya got her first internship after the first fucking semester after being accepted to a design program at one of the best universities in the world with a full scholarship while she had a fraction of the resources and experience that I did. Shreeya was accepted to bits Pilani and chose not to go bc of the fees, Katie was accepted to RISD and didn’t go hc of the fees and has nearly a twice as large scholarship to parsons. zann has had way more problems in life than I have, like actual problems not just "oh no! my computers slow!" and she's way better than me, she studied at interlochen, had experience working with design and art before I ever started work on my stupid fucking portfolio that I took a gap year for. It took me a WHOLE GAP YEAR TO MAKE A MEDIOCRE PORTFOLIO RHAT GOT ME A MEDIOCRE SCHOLARSJIP INTO A SCHOOL I DIDNT EVEN HAVE ON MY TOP FUCKING THREE.

Last semester I was the only one who didn’t finish the time class final and I chose to not go to critique and pretended I didn’t wake up bc I didn’t want to face my class knowing that I took up a large project knowing damn well it was a challenge and confidently told the prof I could pull it off then failed due to my own shortcomings.

My grades in 10th were mediocre my grades in 12th were bad and I wasn’t even good enough in the prelimsries to get into CS and was only let it after submitting a special request following the final results which only met the intake by a THIN amount

my skin is full of acne scars and blackheads because I never took care of it my teeth cost my dad several Lakhs because I wasn’t even able to wear a fucking retainer regularly and I STILL don’t and I STILL can’t do the bare minimum of brushing properly and my tooth look like actual shit.

My feet look like shit because I never took care of them my toe nails are chipped and disgusting and there’s the remnants of an untreated blood clot in one of them and ugly patches of hair everywhere

My eyesight fucking sucks because surprise surprise! I didn’t fucking take care of it and cost my family money

I was fat as hell and lately my solution to that has been actively starving myself which in the past has also SIRORISE SIRPRISE cost my family money because I keep having to get blood tests done and get supplements

I can’t talk to people and didn’t have a single friend until 6th and after that still couldn’t talk to anyone except them, I made friends during the pandemic and you know what!!! I’m still FUCKING AWKWARD AROUND THEM!!!’ I CANT TALK TO THE PRIPLE I TRUST THE MOST !!!!! WHATS THE FUCKING POINT!!!!!!

I have ugly legs ugly face ugly nails ugly waist ugly ass ugly everything, my skins getting worse because I fucked up my sleeping schedule as a teenager

I don’t have a CV a resume a portfolio and haven’t applied to a single job in my entire life. I’m pathetic and can’t even do the most basic things in life and all I’ve done for the past 5-7 years I’d be mediocre and waste my family’s money. Im pathetic. I’m stupid. Im ugly. I’m incapable of even keeping my room SOMEWHAT clean let alone keeping myself looking attractive. And now I’m here in college wasting more of my parents’ money while continuing to be mediocre and stupid.

I deserve to die and everyone in my life deserves so much better than me. I don’t know how many of my friends talk and hang out with me out of obligation and bc it’s like I’m almost forcing them and how many even actyally want to and if they don’t I can’t even blame them because I wouldn’t hang out with me either! I’m everything I hate and more and I keep pretending otherwise in hopes that the people I love wouldn’t leave me.

AUTOBIOGRAPHY

Hi! My name is Leinuell Anthony M. Vicente, you can call Lein and Turon. I am 16 years old and currently studying at Saint Pius X Institute of Cuyapo, Nueva Ecija. I live in our home town here in Calancuasan Norte, Cuyapo, Nueva Ecija where I have a lot of memories with my family and friends. I was born at Paniqui Tarlac on June 12 2006 which is also the Independence Day of the Philippines. Our life here is neither poor or difficult. We get to do things like a normal person could like eating 3 meals a day. When I was little I was so stubborn and often get lost on some places. If I remember correctly I got lost on Baguio, Manila, in malls and even in roads just by myself. Now why I know my parents are so strict to me. Our school here in our home town is just by the side of our house. Just 10-15 steps and you are inside the campus but for it's not like that because even though the school is beside our house I always get late because I always choose to play on my Tablet every morning I wake up. My Father is chef in Abroad working to help me finish school and while my Mother used to take care elderly people at London but now just a vendor sellings snacks and vegetables as a little business to help us buy things every day. The reason my Mother came back from London is that my Grandparents can handle my stubbornness and often get stress about me so they told Mom to go home to help them take care of me. I was gifted with a talent to draw back then but now really enhance and shown since I often just draw when there is no one around and I really like Drawing Dinosaurs and Sharks back then. Every since Kindergarten to Grade 6, I was always one of the Honor Students or one of the students who has the highest grades but only stayed on Top 3 or Top 4. When I enrolled in highschool I was very nervous because it's very new to me and it is nothing like elementary but what's good is that, my new classmates help me to be not shy on the campus and met all the teachers, all of the teachers were very nice. On grade 7 I was the most quiet person in our room, I don't know how to socialize to begin with since I don't know them, but it changed when two of classmates approch me which is Rei Aldrin F. Ramirez and Joseph Toledo. They were the very first friends that I have in high school. I've experienced a lot and have a lot of memories during that year and experienced how to be a piusian. On grade 8, it was hell of traumatic since a lot of go to the things I wouldn't want to happen. That time I was the most loudest and tallest boy in our room, I was huge that time and even got the teachers amazed of my height, Like I said G-8 was hell of traumatic since I've many bad things. In our foundation day, I broke the TV of our classroom and on Exam, I was caught cheating on exam. Most unlucky year of my high school years. On Grade 9 and Grade 10 it was modular and we were at home studying which is kinda easy and hard because we were used in face to face classes and we get a hard time to adjust to the modular and because of the pandemic we were not allowed to go outside for our safety. Now on Grade-11, face to face was brought back, to be honest this is the best year of my high school life, I've met new friends, got to learn to things, to be honest back from the pandemic I've changed a lot physically and mentally and I've noticed that I also improved Academically which suprises me because on Grade 7 to Grade 10 I dont receive awards but on this Year I receive rewards like Distinctions and Honors. Even though this year I've quite experienced pain rejections and being replaced but those doesn't matter as long as I fulfill my Goal and Dream of my life, it will always keep me happy.

Study week is coming and I generally like to type a whole summary at the end of the semester when one ends. Holy Fuck I've been at home most of this semester. Like the amount of times I've actually went to my Uni is either at the single digits or barely past the double digits. So yeah. I wonder if it wasnt for the pandemic how often would I actually be at school. I asked my sister and she just said that I probably would've been there a whole lot. So yeah Fuck. Anyway as an art major looking back I made more shit I like I did this semester compared to last. Which I would probably upload images of but no. I keep my Uni art away from my big tiddy Tumblr Twitter art. Which I haven't done in a while but I'll get back on the horse. Soooo...... A painting I did do that I really liked is this weird nun painting and honestly...

Imma make a big tiddy spooky nun! If the good ol book is telling the truth I'm probably going to hell but considering how I like cute guys and scary chicks I'm probably going to hell either way so that's groovy.

So now I only have two semesters of uni left. It would be one but the art higher ups like to fuck over students so a class that is required that I haven't taken yet is only on during the fall semester. So I'm just gonna be getting as much credits I need this semester and finish up the last class next semester. And then I'll probably get a job for some experience.

Who knows maybe the winds push me a different way and I'll be married to a rich older woman (still like milfs) and live a comfortable life or a cute dude whose is a hard worker. I didn't say dilf cause I don't like dilfs. Hell who knows maybe I'll be a vtuber or get back into IT. (I hated IT)

But let's get a bit existential since like only two mutuals will read this also hey love you and appreciate you homie! Are you ok I hope you are. Anyway the existential dread I wanna hop onto for awhile. Not what happens when I die but more so do you ever wonder what happens to where you live in the next 10 years? Now I'm not talking about family I'm talking about landscape and environmental shit because holly balls to the walls when the city you live in is extremely reliant on a lake that is drying up and you live in a desert. Boy howdy are you fucked! Because the lake I live next to or too is gonna be gone in the next 10 years. Which bring some to this. Where would I go? Who would I be by that time? Will I still be the guy I am? Or maybe something new?

And you know what the answer to all those questions are. Who fuckin knows.

Right now however you know what I'm thinking about?

THIS FUCKING BITCH WHO IVE BEEN TRYING TO SUMMON GOD DAMMNIT FIRST THEY DIDNT GIVE RAIKO, THEY DIDNT GIVE ME VAN GOGH, THEY DIDNT GIVE ME, RAIKOU AGAIN, AND THEY DIDNT GIVE ME A COSMIC HORROR GIRL, AND THEY WONT GIVE ME THIS SNAKE BITCH GOD FUCKING DAMNIT JUST GIVE ME THE SNAKE BITCH HAVE PITTY ON ME IVE BEEN GETTING SERVANTS I DONT FUCKING WANT LIKE COME THE FUCK ON JUST GIVE ME THE SNAKE BITCH IM NOT SINKING MONEY INTO FGO SHES THE ONLY SERVANT I WANT FOR A GOOD WHILE COME THE FUCK ON I BLAME MY WEIRD FUCKING LUCK FOR NOT GETTING HER I SWEAR TO GOD AN I GOT COCK TEASED BY SUMMONG A GOLDEN CARD SABER WHO WASNT FUCKING IBUKI DOUJI AKA SNAKE BITCH INSTEAD I GOT SOME SABER FACE I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT JUST GIVE ME THE SNAKE BITCH

Also it turns out I haven't been eating Philadelphia sandwiches I've just been eating fajita burgers with cheese

Oh honey. Sweetheart. How on earth did you manage to send three (3) whole asks to my very dead main blog instead of my sideblog last night? The way you work is a marvel to me sometimes. But luckily I have the power to take it over to the right blog anyway!

THAT SAID. You are calling me out here and I have nothing to say in my defense, except that thanks to Awful Terrible time management I'm constantly way behind on my writing update schedule (like…WAY behind) and need the nighttime to catch up. And then I procrastinate even more at night and it ends up super mega extra turbo late. Which, in turn, does not help my executive functions during the daytime, which leads to more procrastination, which leads to…you get the point. How do I get out of this? You tell me!

However, the good news is that I don't actually have lectures at the moment! The way studying law here works is as follows:

Regular studies and end-of-semester exams, like in all other subjects.

One year of specialization AKA Schwerpunkt (can be done before or after the "normal" state exams; the grade is part of the state exam grade).

At this point you're done with all your lectures, but most people take another year of exam prep courses to help study with the state exams.

State exams basically whenever you're ready.

So I finished the actual uni part of studying law in? 2019?? But then I took a year of exam prep, then the pandemic happened, I also still needed a three-month internship to be able to sign up for the state exams so I did that last spring, and so it kept getting delayed and delayed. (Not to mention my mental and physical health was in hell for the first half of last year and I was not in a state to study, thank you.) And now I already survived the written exams and I only have the oral exam left! Which, you're absolutely right, will NOT happen anywhere near the BC show. I'm speaking it into existence. Dear GJPA, do not dare.

BTW, did you know that it starts dawning at like 2:30 AM here in this season? Make of that info what you will. Personally I did not enjoy the discovery very much, although it sure made for a very cool photo:

Hi. Do you still ship Snape x Petunia? Sorry if this is the wrong spot to ask you. I was a big fan of your fanfic.

Hi,

Thank you for getting in touch. I had no idea people would still be waiting for that fic. I got hit hard mentally by COVID and everything but surviving or the occasional oneshot in a different fandom went to the back burner. I just didn't have the spoons to write a story so steeped in my experiences in the UK as a mixed race person while I was facing a rising tide of racism and bigotry in my day to day life while also under threat of the pandemic.

I've picked it back up recently and I will finish that fic, it feels more important now than ever to do that and shine a light on the culture that led to the horrors we are seeing in British race and class relations in the 2020s and fanfiction is my medium to do that.

I can't give you a timescale because I'm still recovering from burnout from my old job and studying a masters degree and I have to do it slowly because I can't afford to just not work even with my new work role where I am much happier. I promise though, that fic will be finished and it's mostly plotted out so I know where it's going and leading to.

Thank you for bearing with me and getting in touch, I'm really touched that you reached out. If I've been ignoring anyone's comments on a03 it's because burnout is a weird thing and I can't look at that fic where it is right now- it's a very raw story for me. I'm sorry for that. I hope when I bring the fic back people can forgive me and continue on Severus' journey with Petunia. It's a hell of a story, and it's one I'm determined to tell.

Until then, take care

~Noodle

so I was about to reply to your latest reply to me (this sounds weird) but emergency happen in here good thing no one get hurt. So I was about to reply as I said around 10 pm here after I finish my mods cuz that would be monday morning to you and that is monday evening in here. (gotta make sure I don't send ask around 3 am lol) so a fire broke out in here right across from my house, I'm ready to pack everything up good thing it didn't reach our house. My neighbors are literally yelling to turn the breakers off so the fire won't travel from the wires to our houses causing for us to have no electricity. I called my father cuz I'm panicking also cuz the heat from the fire is already reaching me (I'm inside the house, I don't want to disturb their teamwork to get water) after I told my father about the fire he straight up pull the breaker down then ask my sister for a bucket then run outside to help. The best thing in our neighborhood is that the males in here is always ready to help if that kind of emergency happens.

WE CALL THE FIRE FIGHTER AND THEY'RE LATE TO THE SCENE, THE FIRE IS ALMOST OUT WHEN THEY SHOW UP (KUDOS TO THE MALES IN HERE, ALSO SOME OF THEM ARE DRUNK BUT THEN RUN TO HELP). They kinda need to cut the power source to make sure (I could endure no electricity but I can't endure no house). The electricity is back hence I'm doing this its night in there right hope it's not midnight..

The break, ok, at least you guys get break so yay!!! Hope that you had a good one!!

we have 3 breaks (2 breaks in between subjects one in the morning then one in the afternoon, then lunch break). But now we only have a 15 min break (then we are at the third floor 🤡) The pandemic helps us not to spend 9hrs in school, but then we still need to attend classes for 10 months. Even with that time not everyone in here is smart in terms of acads. And btw the passing grade in here is 75, it just my pride can't handle it well (that's the only thing I'm good at, cuz i can't sing/dance/do art. I'm just good at acads so I always try to excel) help me lord cuz I don't know how to study 😭. Don't know where they get that grade..

That's a normal temp?? Oh god, bestie, what?? Yall are superhuman or sum,, i just start dying once it gets to 105°F (40.5°C)😭

We are built to withstand that kind of temp, but we ain't built to withstand cold 😭. But we good in here I always drink a lot of water! Have a nice sleep bestieee~

oh god, bestie, i am so sorry for the lag, school has been hectic and me lagging on my assignments has not been helping whatsoever!

But I am so glad to hear you're okay, jfc, that sounds scary as hell😭 What's up with fires these days, it's crazy. I wish you and your family the best and hope you all are safe!!

we have 3 breaks (2 breaks in between subjects one in the morning then one in the afternoon, then lunch break). But now we only have a 15 min break (then we are at the third floor 🤡) The pandemic helps us not to spend 9hrs in school, but then we still need to attend classes for 10 months. Even with that time not everyone in here is smart in terms of acads. And btw the passing grade in here is 75, it just my pride can't handle it well (that's the only thing I'm good at, cuz i can't sing/dance/do art. I'm just good at acads so I always try to excel) help me lord cuz I don't know how to study 😭. Don't know where they get that grade..

Oh wait, we used to have that too in highschool! One break between first and second period and lunch break before the third class, but the 15 min break? OHH BOY, yup, zoom barely gave us breaks and they thought "oh, yea, 15 minutes is enought for them" no, that's barely enough for my morning shit bro.

But uni, it's like high school except no one is really there to tell you what to do or hold your hand. Like, you have more freedom but with more responibilities, it's crazy.

Anyway, that sucks ass but you can do it! I believe you, bestie!! We just need a few more weeks and we're done! Almost there!

But the grade thing, I getchu. What was it called, i think where we put our self-worth in our academic achievements and feel bad if it's anything less than "perfect" -- I understand. But please be gentle and patient with yourself, ok? It's okay if it's not as high as you want and there is always a next time, no need to be worrying🧡

It's hard to try and believe that, I know, but gotta start somewhere and start small.

Idk how to study either, that's why I cheat and write stuff on my hand lmao. Bad habit but it's worked so far!

We are built to withstand that kind of temp, but we ain't built to withstand cold 😭. But we good in here I always drink a lot of water! Have a nice sleep bestieee~

Sjsksj, yall are amazing, I love it. SoCal is similar where we see the temperature drop under 60°F and we shivering our asses off. Coldest it got in my hometown (i live in a desert) was like 15°F,, I wanted to die lmao.

And good to hear you're staying hydrated!! Better keep that up and sleep good n' eat enough😤😤

Being vaccinated does NOT mean...

So a hobby of mine is introducing GPT-3 to online meme games that didn’t exist when its internet training data was being collected (the training data is currently only up till October 2019). It’s worked out well - without knowledge of the coronavirus pandemic, GPT-3 was able to do a reasonable job generating quarantine houses.

With vaccination underway but caseloads still high in many places, a new cautionary meme has emerged, for example:

So I collected a few of my favorites as examples for GPT-3 to add to. I started with the largest model, DaVinci, which has the highest chance of being able to catch on to the format. I have for you a few of its PSAs:

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can hang out with bears and wolves and elk and eagles in their weird southern California forest hell. If for some reason you do this type of thing, you definitely can't ride the raptors into battle or utilize their extremely keen eyesight. Not from that particular vaccine.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you have to rub vanilla crème all over your body and change your species, but it wouldn't be the worst idea, if you’re considering it.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean your child can ride on a bull made of solid gold to rodeo into a castle full of bad guys. Even if everyone else in St. Louis is doing it.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can travel through time and multiple realities. Fortunately you're still the same good-hearted grade schooler you were before you walked out of that basement with two items in your hand. One was the ability to restore the Dragon Balls, and the other was the recipe for the world’s best green bean casserole.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you're okay with a man beleaguering you with song, also known as singing.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can use an incredibly powerful magic necklace to turn yourself into a football player so you can smuggle some footballs into football practice so football players can play football.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can kidnap the Emperor of China, tear up some of your China-based robotics studies, mix in some magic, and fly around on robotic falcons shooting grappling hook crossbows that reel in the scarf of a big greased wizard. This is a bad idea.

DaVinci’s references work on the surface level only, but upon closer inspection they’re more like references to stories in alternate universes.

I also tried this with the smallest GPT-3 model, Ada, whose idea of a pickup line was “2017 Rugboat 2-tone Neck Tie Shirt”. It has the following cautionary advice:

Being vaccinated does NOT mean it's okay to have an internal-annihilation laser that covers the entirety of your body in neon green, purple, mauve, red, blue, and yellow.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you race to finish a 12-hour event sporting teeth shaped like Swarovski crystals that need to be thrown into an empty room to stop Project Big Shot from bursting forward.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can get chicken soup. Well, okay, we can. But only when we can. Especially fed by an armadillo.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can burn down the Monastery of the Blessed Virgin, as depicted in a Blade Runner movie, by updating Popeye's classic "Panini mouse" outfit and holding a copy of Classic Collectible Painting #1. Enjoy your free lunch.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you get to travel and lock eyes with the starburnt surface of dead rock while standing at the rim of a deep canyon.

Being vaccinated does NOT guarantee the mercy you seek all the time.

Being vaccinated does NOT mean you can guess at exactly when the sky will fall.

Being vaccinated does NOT MEAN you get a face full of sparkly eyeshadow while dancing in the sunset while the stars look up at you with the same sense of existential importance as the stars seem to look up at a dark sweat band adorned with a moustache that's a half-hide complete with a face of butterscotch that has pupils of billions of fat pink dots.

Ada tended to stray from the original meme format, and one of its variations was interesting:

“Because it's a virtual reality, you CAN be vaccinated and then moved into a dimension with a ludicrously overwhelming amount of magical dovery, I'm afraid to say.”

I decided to give “Because it's a virtual reality, you CAN be vaccinated and then” to DaVinci to complete, and you’ll be delighted to know about all the things that are possible now that it’s a virtual reality:

Because it's a virtual reality, you CAN be vaccinated and then have billions of very loud hats screaming in the air. But that doesn't mean that you should.

Because it's a virtual reality, you CAN be vaccinated and then immediately resume sexy and spend the whole weekend hanging out with your friend, all while a lime sensation (viciously supplied with an incredible surprise) will marinade your brain in pink alcohol/sparking drinks!

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