I was in the supercorp team… but you all are giving me fandom envy

hey buddy!!!! I haven't seen supergirl but I've always loved the gifs of super Corp, Kara seems sweet and lena seems so kickass!

and haha, the grass is always greener I think however the mdzs/wangxian fandom is pretty fun. it's so large that I can literally just lurk, read fic and Have Brain Rot.

the story is so expansive that once you realize you like it, you're in too deep. I always recommend giving it a go because there is something for everyone. there are excellent fic writers too and a lot of them a wlw who write the ship as is and also as f/f so it's like you have the most popular fic writers who also write f/f content (we are so spoiled in this fandom!)

just fyi most ppl watched the Netflix show, however its based on a novel that is the 'real' story...the series of Netflix had to be adapted to censorship so the plot line is a bit different but the overarching themes are there. there is also a donghua (chinese animation/cartoon) version and YouTube should have free episodes as well (the cartoon is great with the supernatural stuff, the cgi in the live show isn't the best but the actors in the live action sold their relationship even with censorship!)

REQUIRED READING for any noisecouple enjoyers: @manicplank 's "the colour pink" fic ITS SOOOO GOOD and i just had to do a little animation of their date.... so so so so cute i love them forever

gif version under the cut:

idk why it loses so much quality . kind of annoying but oh well

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

You did this? ...Yeah! Yeah, I did this.

Good morning 🙏🏼

I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.

Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.

I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭

seeing ghosts everywhere you go?

are they all in your head or are they here causing that chill in your bones?

thinking about them with pokemon

im having more thoughts about sora. how this 14 year old kid did not hesitate to stab himself in the chest, effectively killing himself to free his friend. didn’t even stop to consider any other option. maybe he didn’t think he’d die but he still stabbed himself in the chest and grinned just before doing so.

i know we saw sora drop to his knees when riku ripped the keyblade away from him and then donald and goofy subsequently abandoned (wonder if that has anything to do with his later actions huh) him but otherwise he didn’t react that much iirc. i feel like that speaks to him being used to burying his emotions from a young, young age. and then him grinning right before stabbing himself is just so disturbing to me now. like as a kid i was like aw he’s trying to reassure his friends and like yeah that’s part of it i think but like that was his only reaction to literally killing himself. he is so not okay.

what the hell happened to this kid before the games even started to make him like this?

and the fact that it’s not addressed again (i think) is so wild to me. donald and goofy watched him stab himself with a smile and then said nothing about it after he’s brought back?? like that’s so concerning, like 1000000000/10 on the concerning scale. but like they abandoned him in the first place so why am i surprised.

idk if this is a dumb question, but does riku know that’s how he freed kairi’s heart? like im assuming he knows sora was a heartless at one point since he has a nobody but did he ever find out how that happened? i forget stuff a lot, so sorry if there is somewhere where it’s shown he knows about it and i can’t remember.

i’ve said before i want sora’s darkness to be explored more and i hope this is part of it. like i want his suicidal tendencies to be addressed and for sora to realize that he is actually worth a damn

headcanon: dick actually prefers wearing baggy clothes in public and is way more comfortable in them because nobody comments on his body when he’s not in form-fitting outfits

and it sucks because he actually really enjoys wearing form-fitting outfits and feels good in them, but any time he does people stare or catcall or even grope him and he just. can’t handle that after everything

plus the villains kissing him as nightwing thing has gotten so bad that he’s genuinely considering getting a mask that covers the lower half of his face

if you do kill wally its gonna ruin me.

the poor man has lived and survived and suffered for so long. desperate to save his friends.

and it just gets cut from under him.

especially if he doesnt die alone.

... *nervously kicks plot document under the rug*

What am I gonna do when croissant finishes the game their journey... TT_TT I don't wanna say goodbye to them!!

I don't know buddy I've been wondering the same thing :') Let's not think about it-

you think i can't keep talking about karl and esther you are so wrong btw episode four timestamp 34:40 he hesitates before rubbing her back, comforting her the way a parent or guardian might. the whole tube scene is karl finally deciding he has to do this ("i'm here, and i'm not going anywhere, i promise") he still HESITATES because he knows he's probably not the right man for the job. he's the man that got her stuck in this problem in the first place. but they've only got each other and he has to try. does it hurt that the moment he finally builds this resolve and determination to leave it all behind and to actually fight for something that matters to him and admit that, even though he hasn't known her for long, he cares about this girl like she's family, esther is murdered and it totally consumes him? does it hurt that he's then framed for her death even though he just spent the last 24 hours killing and taking revenge in her name? not only because he knows he's a dead man, but also because he's out of options to do something that matters, and what else can he do with his grief other than inflict it onto others? yeah it hurts a lot actually

hey haha 😇 you should ask me about my mr. orange interp and headcanons haha 😇 i promise i wont talk about him for three days straight haha 😇

Love those moments in disco elysium where a skill is like “say this shit man, it’s *good* shit trust me” And then u say it and it doesn’t go well so the same skill chimes in like “why’d you believe me? I know nothing. I’m just making shit up. Stop saying what I tell you to say, idiot”

But at the same time they’re also heartbreaking when you get to the final dream and they’re beating themselves up about the past and even Volition gives you the option to just leave before saying “actually, I can’t do that. I want to stand here just as much as you do. I’m sorry.” This game has ripped my heart apart and then mended it and then ripped it apart again and mended it again for good measure. Oh to watch the love you feel as otherworldly leave you time and time again in your dreams while waking up in a city that tells you she loves you, and you love her back, and there’s a hole in her heart just as there’s a hole in yours, and it’ll kill you someday, but not today. I am filled with so much love and it hurts all the time but it’s so, so beautiful. I love everybody if you’re reading this I love you

so.. tired.. zelink shippers who insist only zelink can be canon block me pls

shuffle your On Repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people

Thank you for the tag @echo-the-ghost!!!! Time to find...where my On Repeat playlist is... not me just searching for it instead 💀

Don't Forget - Toby Fox, Laura Shigihara

Worst in Me - Unlike Pluto

All That You Are (From "Lost Ember") - Solid Audioworks

Despicable - grandson

UP TO SNUFF! (I'm on Fire) - atsuover

MEGALOVANIA PHONK - Nueki, Tochonov

Toxic - Britney Spears

Tonight Is The Night I Die - Palaye Royale

Shadow Moses - Choir Noir

But Never a Key - Dirt Poor Robins

Oh like, almost all of these are from D&D OC playlists WHOOPS ^^; Most of them are Tiarnan or the toxic Tiarnan & Corrupted Moirin playlist, though there are a few songs from my work playlist, Killian's playlist, and like, one song from my Kasai campaign playlist.

tagging: @theitalianmafia, @emmettkane, @kingxxlink, @trucbiduleschouettes, @jesterdraws99-blog, @solarflame33, @dudebe-nice, @grand-theftautumn, @ninjasylveon, @eldritch-goth !! And anyone else who wants to join, feel free to still tag me if you want <3