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runnning-outof-time · 2 years
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Love, I Just Need to See | Tommy Shelby x Reader
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Request: yes by anonymous
Pairing: Tommy Shelby x reader
Summary: In which Tommy needs glasses and (Y/N) has an opinion about every type of frame that's offered.
Warnings: language, smoking
Word Count: 2281
A/N: this was just a fun request to write...I think it’s one of my favorite stories of mine. Oh to be doing domestic things with Tommy Shelby *sigh*. Enjoy! :)
I’D LOVE TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK! - YOUR COMMENTS & REBLOGS HELP ME WRITE!
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(Y/N) was able to hear the sounds of frustrated mumbling coming from inside Tommy's office as she walked past its slightly ajar door. "Tom?" she questioned as she peered her head in. Squinting her eyes to try to get them to adjust to the dim lighting of the room, she was able to make out that he was sitting at his desk.
"Yes?" he asked as he looked up from his papers, surprise clear on his face. He wasn't expecting her to be at his door.
"Everything ok?" she asked, taking his response as her ok to enter the room. If he hadn't wanted her in there, he would have told her to leave.
"Yes. I, uh..." he paused, his eyes glancing around his desk as he tried to find what he was looking for, "I'm just having a hard time balancing the logs is all," he admitted to her.
(Y/N) furrowed her eyebrows as she walked even further into the room. Once at his desk, she extended her hand and waved her fingers at him, her nonverbal way of asking him for what he was working on. He understood and neatly compiled the papers before handing them over to her. "Doctor said that you shouldn't be overworking yourself like this," she commented as she looked over the work he'd done so far.
"Yeah? Well fuck what the doctor says," Tommy grumbled, focusing himself on lighting a cigarette before he looked at her once more. (Y/N) sighed at his response, knowing that she should've expected something along those lines. But she tried anyway, wanting the best for her husband and his health.
"I think I know what your problem is," she announced after a few minutes had passed.
"What's that?" he inquired, his eyebrows raised.
"Your numbers are wrong," she told him, glancing up in time to see his face fill with confusion.
"That's impossible," Tommy shook his head, not wanting to believe that something like that would be the cause of the error.
"It's what's wrong," (Y/N) insisted as she moved around the desk so that she could be standing right next to his chair. "See, lookit...you've got 119 pounds listed here on the intake and then, for the same day's totals, you've written 109 pounds. You're never going to get the correct numbers if you don't have them consistent everywhere," she explained, glancing over at him before she trained her eyes on the books once more. "Do you have the initial papers you've copied this off of?" she asked then. Tommy nodded his head. "Can I see them?" was her next request. Silently, he grabbed them from his pile and handed them to her. It only took her a few moments to find yet another problem: "these aren't even the correct numbers, Tommy."
"What do you mean?" he questioned, his brows deeply furrowed as he took the paper back from her and then looked between it and the log on his desk.
"What day are you doing the totals for?" she asked him.
"Thursday."
"And what day does that say on the paper?" was her next question.
"Thursday," he responded with confidence, but (Y/N) shook her head.
"That says Tuesday, love," she corrected him before pointing to the paper in his hands, "see? T-U-E-S..."
"I know how to fuckin' spell, alright?" he cut her off with aggrivation in his tone.
"Then why don't you have the days right?" she asked him, not realizing how accusatory her question sounded until she said it.
Tommy inhaled deeply and then exhaled his breath in a long sigh. "It's because the words are blurry," he answered, his voice coming out in a low mumble.
"What's that?" she asked for him to repeat what he'd said.
"I can't tell what's what because the words on the fucking paper are blurry, ok?" he repeated himself, his words stressed and his agitation evident.
"Ok," she nodded, agreeing with him in a soft voice. She wanted to say that she was shocked by his admission, but honestly, she was expecting something like this to happen. He did just come back from his extended hospital stay, where he suffered a cracked skull and internal bleeding around his brain, among other injuries. The fact that he didn’t have many lingering effects or problems from it surprised her greatly.
Tommy sighed again and dropped the paper onto the desk before he ran his hands through his hair. He then dropped his face into his hands as his elbows rested on the desktop. "What am I supposed to do now, eh?" he finally questioned after a few moments of silence had passed. He then looked up at (Y/N) with an expression on his face that gripped at her heart. She'd only seen Tommy Shelby's desperation a handful of times, and a similar reaction was elicited from each.
"Well..." she trailed off as she sucked in a breath and let it out slowly, "I suppose we should take a trip to an optometrist," she suggested.
Tommy nodded silently as he took in what she had to say. It was pretty obvious to him that he needed to seek help with his vision problem. It was impeding on his ability, which in turn made him extremely frustrated. "Ok," he agreed with her, nodding once more, "I know someone who probably has a person he goes to. I can ask him who he'd recommend for me," he then laid out his plan for getting this problem fixed.
"Good. I suggest that you get it done as soon as possible," (Y/N) was happy to hear that he was willing to get some help with this issue.
"I will," he assured her, "but for now, can you help me with these logs so that I can get them finished for tonight?"
She agreed to his request within seconds. "Of course, Tom. I'd be happy to help," she answered with a smile before she managed to drag one of the empty chairs over to his desk so that she could sit and help him finish his work.
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"I've got that appointment today," Tommy mentioned as he entered the sitting room (Y/N) was occupying.
"For your eyes?" she asked, even though she already knew the answer.
"Yes," he nodded, chuckling slightly at her obvious intrigue.
"Oh, that's great," (Y/N) said with a smile before an idea came to mind. "Say, can I come with you, Tommy?"
"For what?" he was confused. In his mind, a trip to a doctor's office seemed like a bore.
“Because I want to be there when you pick out your glasses,” a smile formed on her face as she spoke.
“And you’re so sure that I’ll need glasses?” Tommy shot back.
She sent him an ‘are you serious?’ look as an initial response to his question. “I think that was made pretty obvious the other day,” she said in a matter-of-fact tone. Tommy shook his head as he tried to stop the smile from forming on his face. “Can I, Tommy...please?” she asked him again, putting on her best ‘puppy dog pout’.
“Fine,” he agreed to her ask after taking less than a minute to contemplate it. What bad could come out of his wife attending his appointment with him?
(Y/N) jumped off of the couch with a newfound excitement, and she quickly ran into the foyer to ask Mary to grab her coat and purse. Soon enough, she was ready to go, and Tommy had met her outside in the car that he brought around.
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Tommy quickly realized that something bad could come from his wife attending his appointment.
“What about these frames, Mrs. Shelby?” the doctor asked as he came in with yet another option to look at. After about the fourth time, he stopped asking Tommy and decided to begin appeasing the woman in the room.
(Y/N) pursed her lips as she examined the thicker-framed glasses that held an oval-shaped lens in the middle. She then held them up to Tommy, who wordlessly tried them on without having to be asked to. She then tapped her chin as she stared at him for a few moments. “I don’t like these either. They’re too bulky,” she finally gave her opinion, her words simultaneously making Tommy sigh and the doctor nod profusely.
“That’s just what I was thinking...I couldn’t see such a stately man wearing lenses like these. I’ll go see what else I have in stock,” the doctor was quick to agree with the woman, and Tommy silently cursed him for egging her on. He then quickly hurried out of the room to get another pair. Soon enough, he was back with more options. This time he held two in his hands. “I brought both sizes of these. Let’s see what you think,” he said as he sat them down on the desk.
(Y/N) grabbed the first pair and looked them over. The frame was thin and gold and it once again held ovalic lenses. “Try these on,” she told Tommy before handing them over to him. Tommy nodded and went through the motions of placing the glasses on his face. Once again, (Y/N) pursed her lips as she took in his appearance. “No...I think they make you look like Scrooge from that one Christmas book,” she gave her opinion on it, her words making Tommy sigh.
“I don’t care about what they look like on me, love, I just need to see,” he finally voiced his exasperation, effectively showing her that his patience was running thin.
“I’m the one who’s gotta look at you though, so I’d at least like to find something that suits you well,” she challenged his statement, her words making him exhale a sigh. He knew that this would be a losing battle for him, so he just kept his mouth shut. “Try these on,” she told him then, raising a pair that looked almost identical to the last up for him to look at. The only thing that had been changed was that the lenses were smaller and circular.
“How are they, Mrs. Shelby?” the doctor then asked after it’d been quiet for a few moments. He was eagerly awaiting her opinion on the frames.
“I like these,” she said, nodding her head slightly before she doubled down on her statement: “yes. These are the ones you should get, Tommy.”
“Finally,” Tommy let out a breath of relief at the fact that the trying-on portion of the appointment was over before he turned to the doctor, “I’ll take these.”
“Very good choice, Mr. Shelby. I’ll have those made in the proper specifications as soon as possible for you,” the doctor nodded his head, a pleased smile on his face. “You’re free to go now,” he then told the couple before he stood from his chair and shook both of their hands.
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The rest of the day passed by without further talk of the glasses that Tommy would now be using. It wasn’t until he entered their bedroom for the night that (Y/N) decided to bring them up once more.
“Are you excited about your new glasses?” she asked him from behind her book as he got himself changed into what he’d be wearing to bed.
“What kind of question is that?” he responded with a question of his own, his words holding no malice or condescending tone, “of course I’m excited to be able to read properly again,” he blatantly stated, his vocal tone making (Y/N) giggle.
“No, I mean are you excited about how they look?” she specified her question once her giggles had subsided.
“I honestly don’t care what they look like, love,” he gave her his honest response as he got into his side of the bed, “I just needed to be able to see.”
(Y/N) frowned slightly at the absence of desire he had to talk about the topic. She leaned over and set her book down on the nightstand before looking back at him again. “I think you looked really good with the glasses on,” she stated in a matter-of-fact tone as a grin formed on her lips. “I didn’t think that anyone would be able to make frames like that look attractive, but you certainly did.”
“Yeah?” he asked, certainly amused by her sudden statements.
“Oh yes,” she answered, then rolling onto her side so that she’d be closer to him. “You made all of those frames look attractive, but this pair....this pair is special.”
“Well I’m glad that you think that,” he grinned at her as his arm wrapped around her from underneath, making her move even closer to his chest.
“And just when I thought that you couldn’t get any more perfect...” she trailed off, placing her hand flat against his chest so that she could sit up slightly. Her grin widened as she leaned down so that her face was closer to his, “I can’t wait until you get them delivered so that I get to see them on your handsome face again,” she whispered against his lips before she closed the gap and kissed them.
Tommy only exuded a chuckle in between the kisses she was giving him. He had a quick-witted, cheeky comeback prepared to give her, but it got lost in the feeling of her lips dancing across the skin of his jawline. So he decided to let her keep going, already knowing that her affection towards him would be increasing tenfold the moment that he was wearing those glasses again.
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thisismeracing · 9 months
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Mick + shopping + fluff 🤍
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Shopping | MS47
⸺ the one where you go shopping together. ✓ no warnings.
⁕ one word, a thousand stories blurb night (closed) ⁕ my masterlist and my taglist
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Yn makes a U-turn going straight into the lingerie store.
"Babe, I'm shopping for lingeries now, you can...I dunno, go see some shoes or eat something while I dive in here. You can leave all these bags with me too. Are you sure they aren't too heavy?" She blurted, looking at all the shopping bags Mick was carrying.
Earlier that day when she was getting ready to go out and he was lying in bed, Mick asked where she was going and if he could tag along. And when Yn told him she needed some new clothes and shoes, she thought he would dismiss her and choose something fun to do by himself, but he got up and started getting dressed to go with her. Granted, he wasn't having the best time of his life, but he was sure having fun. Being around Yn was enough for him, and plus he got himself some new shirts and pants too.
And of course, Mick is a gentleman, so he was carrying all her bags and following her around like a lost -but happy- puppy. Yn would try every piece and parade them for Mick who would give his honest opinion and even clap and whistle sometimes. They were having fun together, doing something that Yn never thought would be fun for a male partner -that considering all her's and her friends' experiences. However, Mick was different. Mick showed her how love could be. He gave her all his patience, love, affection, and attention. He was honest, and he would make a point of spending time together whenever they could. And now, he wanted to lingerie shop with her.
"I'm coming. Can I come?" he asked, eyebrows creasing in confusion as to why she was being quick to instruct him to leave.
"Yeah- do you really wanna tag along? Aren't you tired of running around the mall?"
Mick chuckled, "Yn, I'm an athlete. Do you really think walking for a bit will take all my energy away?" he questioned and when she opened her mouth he added, "Don't even mention the bags, they lightweight for me."
"Oh- ok, then," she couldn't help but grin, and grab his arm entering the store.
Not only did he watch her, but he helped Yn find her size when she liked on display, he did all the whistling and clapping too, though he had to charm the saleswoman with an autograph so she would let him into the fitting room with Yn. And though Mick saw everything, helped her choose, and paid for it without her noticing -something he had been doing all day-, he still asked for a private show at home just to hype her up.
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― ⋆🪩 VOICEMAIL: Mick will go shopping with you and not only will he like it, but he'll end up getting stuff for him too. change my mind lol I hope you guys like it! Don't forget to reblog and leave me a comment *mwah*
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starrynightsxo · 25 days
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the inheritance games book review:
SPOILERS AHEAD
5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
OH MY GOD? I hadn't read mystery in a while but am I glad I did?? What was this?? The plot was SUPERB and I ate the romance sub-plot up. BAD.
Every time I felt like I was slightly disengaging from the book. BOOM. Something happened and kept me interested again. I'm so glad I read this because what-.
Opinions on Emily Laughlin? She definjtrly had the last laugh (excuse the pun). I feel bad the way she died but also she had some messed up stuff going on in her head. I also feel bad for Jameson like noooo he blames himself (understandably) but he really shouldn't and it's annoying because he was trying to fight back and resist Emily but she had to go and DIE. LIKE GIRL.
Grayson Hawthorne. Whilst I am a AveryJameson stan, I totally understand the appeal for Grayson. When he says he sees the way Jameson looks at Avery I was ON THE FLOOR. Like ok fine rip my heart out then.
Tobias Hawthorne. The only thing I'm gonna say is that that man is odd. He's playing the long run that's for sure because WHY 😭😭.
Xander is my favourite Hawthorne brother I think. He's so funny and to be honest I relate to him most. He's just a bit like goofy but also an interesting character and I feel like we'd be besties. The whole manipulation thing wasn't GREAT but I forgive him because his grandad died and he just wanted to follow what he said.
So all in all, having not read a 5 star book in a while, I found this AMAZING and freaking great.
(Inheritance Games Fandom hmu in the reblogs I wanna know what y'all thought)
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xnchxntmxnt · 2 years
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The OM Brothers reaction to Levi secretly having a male s/o?
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Fandom: Obey Me! Shall We Date?
Characters: Levi x Reader, platonic!brothers x reader
Warnings: subtle mention of homophobia in mammon's but thats really it
Notes: this didn't specify so i decided to do headcanons i hope that's ok
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Lucifer
he's impressed tbh
first of all, not many can pull one over on him like that
secondly, just had a "if he's happy im happy" kind of mentality for levi
will give you the "if you hurt him..." speech later when he catches you alone for a moment
overall doesn't react much but makes sure to tell levi he's happy for him & proud of him later
sees how happy you two make each other and as long as it stays like that, he can't really complain
Mammon
his immediate reaction is betrayal
levi didn't TELL HIM ?? his wonderful older brother?? the GREAT mammon????
that subsides pretty quickly when he goes into protective brother mode
was a little worried (for no reason) someone might have some 'opinions' abt the fact he was dating a guy
was prepared to glare daggers at anyone who tried to say anything
luckily didn't have to. gave levi a big hug and told you 'welcome to the family' with that super fake "i will kill you if you hurt him" kinda smile
him and lucifer are alike in that way at least
Satan
more or less disinterested
its not a big deal but he's happy for him
more neutral on the subject
doesn't really go out of his way to talk to people so its not like he's gonna be friends with you (unless you initiate that)
doesn't dislike you and its not like he doesn't care he's just very indifferent?
Asmodeus
polar OPPOSITE of satan
SO interested he wants to know everything about you
on one hand, offended he wasn't told but on the other he's trying to figure out if you have siblings
makes a "if he gets boring i live down the hall" joke but SWEARS its a joke when lucifer and mammon glare at him for that one
you have to remind levi you love him later because he gest a little insecure abt that
getting the initial attempts to flirt out of the way he wants to know everything about you and everything about your guys' relationship that he MISSED already
is making interest boards already
so invested already tbh and sometimes he seems pushy but he's just trying to do whats best for his brother
sometimes that means horrible advice and other times that means putting him in eyeliner. who knows
Beelzebub
not a huge deal to him
once the initial "oh he's dating someone that's cool" wears off he's back to asking if he can go to the kitchen ad get something to eat
does try to get to know you though
asks you a lot about food (its beel)
enjoys talking to you when you're around
he's just easy to talk to in general
tries to give you the don't hurt my brother and be a good boyfriend talk but when you mention lucifer already did it laughs and goes "oh good i wont scare you again" and moves on
genuinely thinks you're good for levi and tells him so once he's gotten to know you a bit
Belphegor
was sleeping when levi introduced you to everyone
missed the formal announcement
didn't question it when suddenly there was just this Guy around the house of lamentation all the time
no one else made a big deal about it so he didn't either
one night asked beel before they went to sleep and just
"hey beel whos that guy that's been over like four times this week" "oh yeah that's (Y/N) levi's boyfriend"
...
"oh. ok neat."
literally doesn't care doesn't faze him at all
he's so used to asmo's typical liasons he figures it's nice levi has someone to take care of him
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OK AFTER ENOUGH THOUGHT I WANT TO PROPERLY ASSIGN ENTITIES TO THE OTHER GAMES
I originally reblogged my first post since it also had elevator hitch involved but I decided it was better to make separate post.
(read below bc this is a long post)
Dead Plate
This one was the easiest I'm going to be honest it's very Flesh coded but also the Desolation. Now I want to go specifically on the part with the Desolation since it's not solely because of the 3rd ending, in fact that was one of the 2nd reasons as why I assigned this fear to the game. The Desolation is the fear of cruelty, pain, and destruction (thank you MAG wiki) which happens a lot to Rody in game (the destruction of his relationship with Manon, the pain Vince inflicted onto both Manon and Rody, plus the cruelty Vince has towards others.)
Cold Front
I actually didn't have much to say on this one on the account of it being pretty difficult to assign any entity other than the Lonely to this game. Obviously the Lonely stands for how the relationship between Augustine and Winnie, because of them being so distant to each other. But the more I thought about it honestly, the Spiral, Web, and Corruption have lil' sprinkles in there. I would go into it more depth but at that point I should make a YouTube video analysis. Also I'm not 100% on the web but it feels like it should be in there because Auggie is like Jon (in season 2) when speculating about people and it's so funny to me. That includes the Corruption but I'm sure on the Spiral because, idk, fits. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Eloquent countenance
Ok now THIS one I'm completely torn upon. I really wanted to say the eye but thats just bc of vibes alone. Actually I think the Web. I could say the Desolation as well but that would match because y'know cult stuff. But the Web just feels, right. Think about it. Angelica is practically fighting over control for her body against a fallen angel. The way Forcas seems to be leading us, despite having good intentions, feels, off. When I first played the game I thought it was going to be a twist that he was luring her into a false sense of security. But he wasn't. He was actually trying to help. And that plus the cultist alone feels like the Web. A never ending fight for control of the strings of a puppet.
I really do like talking about this so if you have any other opinions or ideas, PLEASE reblog or send me an ask :3
I absolutely love SIG games and tma so much and when more games are released or there's more info on some characters I DEFINITELY will be doing the same thing.
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rotationalsymmetry · 4 months
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Which btw I'm happy to reblog that sort of thing. (Prev post comparing BDSM to wrestling kayfabe, ie "this is make believe it's fine.")
But I do think an equally significant point is, if someone decides for whatever reason that kink is bad...ok, so what are you going to do about it?
Mostly that's going to cycle back to making things illegal or more difficult. Restricting which zones things like the power exchange can physically exist in. Driving kinky erotica off of Amazon. Restricting people's ability to publish information about kink. Keeping kink talk off of social media sites. Making/keeping it so that there is no legal distinction between consensual impact play and physical assault. Making it harder for people to talk explicitly about kink on dating sites, or in person with their friends.
And the thing about that, is, you can't really stop people from doing whatever they want to do in their own bedrooms (living rooms, cars, tents, hotel rooms, whatever.) Nor can you really stop people from having kinks, from wanting to do this stuff. What you can do is cut people off from community and from safety information, so that when people do do this stuff, it's more dangerous to them.
(Both more directly physically dangerous -- kink is mostly not that dangerous? but there's some risks -- and dangerous as in, people are more likely to get stuck with abusers when they can't talk to people about their relationship, or if they believe no one they talk to will understand.)
For a while it was illegal to produce BDSM porn in the US (or maybe just California? Not sure.) Did that mean BDSM porn didn't exist? Of course not. There were always videos of sexy people hitting each other that other people got off to. It just...had to look like it wasn't porn. So, no affection. No kissing. (Definitely no on-camera negotiation.) They couldn't stop BDSM porn, but they could make it worse.
The first kinky shit I did, in some ways the most extreme kinky shit I did, was with one other person that I met outside of a kink social context. He was going off some photos and his imagination. I'd read some Savage Love, so I at least knew what a safewords was. I didn't have anyone to talk to about what we were doing, I didn't have r/bdsm or anything, I had no way of getting a reality check and no way of getting more safety information as we went. And years later, I found the scene and went to classes and learned why you wrap the rope multiple times around someone's wrists rather than just once and learned about safety scissors and sharp shooting pains and aftercare and negotiation and sub drop and all sorts of things.
And I got really, really angry at the people who want me to only be able to do kink stuff the way I did it the first time. Because they'd rather I get hurt doing kink then be able to do it safely and with a community.
I don't especially want anyone to have a harm reduction approach to kink, because I don't think it's intrinsically harmful. But...I also don't need people to agree with me on that. Anyone who thinks Kink Is Bad, It Just Is well, you're the boss of your opinions! We don't have to agree on everything! But I think there's room to disagree on kink being just fine and also agree that attempting to get people to not do kink, by making it harder or illegal or more stigmatized, can only ever do more harm than good.
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daisys-reality · 8 months
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❊ 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐢 𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞 ❊
Guys I've read all your asks and questions... Because some of you are still confused about what to do to correctly participate in the tarot mini game, I decided to get more into detail to clear up any confusion. There is not much you can do wrong in my opinion but here we go...
❊ THE MAIN STEPS:
Step 1) Please check in my pinned post whether the game is still open or not.
Step 2) If it's open, follow me and reblog the main post.
Step 3) Ask me just 1 of the 4 options at a time! Those asks with more will be deleted, sorry. However, there is no limit to how often you can send in asks!
Step 4) All readings will be tagged with #t.minigame , so you can find your reading under this hashtag once I posted it!
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❊ ADDITIONAL THINGS TO KEEP IN MIND:
🔸 IMPORTANT: This is a game about reality shifting and your desired realities. I don't accept answers that don't have anything to do with those two things! (I thought that was clear but it seems like it wasn't.)
× All readings will be kept relatively short. They are all just tarot readings/intuitive readings, they don't have to resonate as nothing is really set in stone. At the end of the day, you are the one in control and you can always change things to your liking! So, don't take these too seriously, they are just for fun.
× Just request one option per ask. If you want to ask more, you can send in different requests/asks. There is no limit to how often you can send in asks.
× You need to use the asking option on my blog to send in your request. Please don’t write your reading request under the reblogged post.
× You can send your request anonymously. I don't necessarily need your initials or your blog name for this game.
× Generally, I don't mind lengthy asks, feel free to tell me about your DR or s/o as much as you want :)
× For the 'which dr should I focus on' questions: Basically, just ask. There is not much you can do wrong here.
× For the 'love messages from your DR s/o' questions: I need you to tell me in advance if you're ok with 18+ messages. Otherwise I won't mention them if there are any. If you want to, you can tell me additonally a bit about your DR s/o! If you have more than one s/o, please specify which one you want me to connect with. Also, I don't want to do readings about your future spouse or about your special someone "here". Sorry but this is only about DR s/o's because this game is for the shifting community only! (It would be helpful if you write "DR s/o" or something like that in your ask so I know you're a "shifter" iykwim.)
× For the 'yes/no' questions: Just simply tell me your question, then you're good! Fyi, I will not give you an in-depth explanation to my answer, only a brief one. So, take these answers with a grain of salt!
× For the 'choosing between options' questions: Just tell me a bit of the situation and mention your options. Disclaimer: of course you can try out both. These readings are just for those who want their first experience in their dr to be the most 'ideal' for themselves or for those who are really indecisive. Just take it as additional advice or inspiration!
✴️ Also, I already have 60+ requests in my inbox. Just because I don't answer you right away, doesn't mean that I didn't receive your message. Don't resend your message. Just be patient please. ✴️
That's all I think. If you have other questions let me know, I will add them here then. Byebye~
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wait why is the desperate pleasures ask bait
ok so the lengthy context is that i tend to be fairly outspoken about people mischaracterizing amy--and, you know, Other Worm Characters, See Alec--but talking about amy specifically tends to get people heated sometimes. which i think is sometimes a result of people not wanting to confront the ideas i'm raising when i bring up shitty political connotations that i feel certain interpretations of her can run into (as is the risk with fan content about a predatory lesbian stereotype), and sometimes a result of people just being in the fandom so long that they convince themselves of very specific but not necessarily textually based reads of her, and because those reads are touching on sensitive topics like rape, homophobia, etc, people can take offense when they're not taken as universally true. (which also definitely applies to characters outside of amy too--i think a lot of the worm fandom has been so inundated in like...ward retcons and WoG retcons/insistence on the author's interpretation superseding the readers' and fandom discourse without actually going back to the original text for So Long that they end up with very strict but inaccurate fanon misinterpretations, and then assume that because they've been believing those misinterpretations for so long they must be true. shoutout to when i read the book and then went to r/parahumans to look at discussion threads and everyone was confidently saying Absolute Nonsense about all of the undersiders as if it was long-established fact.)
anyway: people getting heated about ameepy opinions i have does on (usually very rare!) occasion lead to me getting anon hate or smth that scans as bait + last night i was posting in a rb chain about a common amy joke i find 2 be in very poor taste + desperate times call 4 desperate pleasures is a super well known amy fic that's in the General Sphere of amy misconceptions i was talking about last night, so the "have you read it/i think you'd really enjoy it" + the explanation of what it was as if i'd never heard of it despite it being one of the most well known worm fics ever + "it really gets amy dallon" scanned to me as, like, fishing for anger over an interpretation i disagree with. i could've just been reading the tone wrong, u never know w/ anons, but it reminded me of some more obviously disingenuous asks i've gotten & never posted. that said if it wasn't bait and i just misread good news for original anon i'm about to reblog a post w my thoughts on it anyway
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Yayyy Mary, I've got some questions for Rodya (does he like to be called like that though?). Feel free to answer them one at a time or all together! Sooo…
What does he listen to with his LemonPod?
Any references for his voice?
What's his own opinion concerning his mental magic? Does he feel like it's unfair towards others? Or does he feel like it can help him make better connection with others? Or maybe he has no idea about his talent?
His favorite scent?
…aaand I just wanna know more about his passion for birds and bird whistles. Birds are fun!
P. S. Love his outfit. Is it traditional for his church, or does he prefer to go a bit... stylish?
Yippie, yummy questions! You're the best, Gray! 💕 (he prefers Rodion, but he doesn't mind at all when his friends call him Rodya :>)
The answers got reaaaaally long, so look under the cut!
He really likes indie rock, although I imagine he listens pretty much to everything (and also i guess because indie rock can be any rock, folk, punk or alternative?).
Uhh, mostly Russian ones, didn't come up with English ones yet... but if you wanna hear them (and have VK), it's "образец голоса" by Михаил Данилюк, Сергей Смирнов and Александр Воеводин! Voevodin is actually the main reference for his voice, you can also hear him in a soviet animated short called "Геракл у Адмета" (he voices Admetus). The other ones work just as well! p.s. when i pick his english voice i'll probably reblog the reference with it...
Well, the magic in ZBDN comes to a person when they hit puberty, and even then it's not guaranteed (plus, Rodion's a half-elf). He wasn't dealing with much bullying at that time, but he still probably felt alienated and had little friends. He felt pretty conflicted with it, since people began gravitating towards him more, and he felt like it wasn't really fair and it wasn't him that attracted people... but he eventually accepted and dealt with it. It works like a passive aura, so he can't really control it, and it's not very strong at all. It just makes him more approachable, I guess, like ✨magic charisma✨. Plus, it helps his sermons get across better!
Hmmm... I feel like it would be lavender. Or pine. He uses different scents depending on his mood and purpose of his meditation session :>
Hehe, I think he just likes nature in general, birds included. Also bird whistles sometimes aren't even birds (я не знаю, какой точный аналог свистулек есть в неславянских культурах...). Whistles and vessel flutes are fun! They're easy to pick up and play, and they look very nice, I think he knows some simple melodies even.
It is traditional for his church! Calm blues and a black-and-white pendant, symbolising harmony in the soul and balance of End and Beginning. One cannot exist without another, and you will gain inner peace and be content with your life only if you seek balance. No true perfect balance exists, of course, but it's good to strive for harmony in yourself! And it's doesn't mean shutting your emotions and getting rid of earthly desire, quite the contrary. Just- just seek mental and emotional stability, ok? :D
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Red & Blue | Chapter 2
Author’s note: First of all: thank you. Thank for reading that first chapter and for all the reblogs, likes and comments. Like, wow. I wasn't expecting it. At all. Especially because when I first shared this story with a friend to have a second opinion, I thought it was a weak first chapter 😅 So, again, thank you very much, and like I said yesterday on the new chapter of Declan's story, welcome to all the new people who started following me! 💜
There are things on this chapter similar to the ones we've currently seeing with both the men and women's teams at St. George's Park, but it is just a coincidence, I wrote this weeks ago. Did I manifest it? Maybe 👀😂 Anyway, thanks for reading, and hope you like it! 💜
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“Hello there” Emily says, opening the door of my car.
“Hello” I reply, getting out and giving her a hug.
“It’s so nice to have you back. We missed you last time.”
“I missed you too. And hello everyone” I say to Eddie, the photographer, and the camera men who are filming the arrivals.
“Oh, someone else is here” Emily says, moving towards the car that just arrived behind mine. “One sec.”
“No problem” I say, focusing on getting all my things from the car and not forgetting anything.
“Mason!” I hear Emily say behind me.
“Fuck” I whisper, the bag with my boots falling from my hands as the driver gives it to me.
“It’s alright, miss” he says, helping me pick them up.
“Do you need any help?” Emily asks behind us.
“We are fine. Just clumsy” I reply with a nervous laugh. “Thank you very much, sir” I say to the driver, moving towards the door. But before I can ignore Mason, he is standing next to me.
“Hi” he smiles. “It’s nice to finally meet you in person.”
“Yeah” I mutter, trying to smile and not look like an idiot.
“Ok, passports” Emily says when we are inside the building. “And you don’t know how things work now, do you?” she asks me.
“Leah has told me a bit about it.”
“Oh, good. You’ll see that nothing much has changed. And...” she says, looking out the door “someone else just arrived, I better go. Mason, why don’t you show her around?”
“Sure. I’ll be her tour guide” he says to Emily before she leaves.
“You don’t have to do it. You probably want to meet the others.”
“It’s fine, don’t worry. I’ll have plenty of time to see them during these days” he smiles again. Damn it, he’s so handsome when he smiles. “Shall we?” he asks, gesturing towards the corridor in front of us.
“Wait, before you leave” Eddie says behind us. “Can I get a photo of you two together? You are two fan favorites.”
“For the fans then” Mason laughs while grabbing me by the waist, his touch making me feel things despite the layers of clothing.
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“Did you have the basketball court last time you were here?” Mason asks when we walk pass it.
“No, we didn’t.”
“Do you play?”
“I actually do, yes.”
“Then we must have a little game when we all are free. Let’s see if your hands are as talented as your feet” he says with a smirk.
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“I can’t believe Eddie made you pose together” Leah says, laying on my bed while checking all the photos from today, picking one to post on her Instagram. “I’m sure he also ships you.”
“Definitely” I say, rolling my eyes.
“I wonder what his fans will say when they see it. Will they go wild? Will they ship you? Will they hate you?”
“I guess we’ll find out soon. He just posted it” I say, showing Leah my phone.
“Let the games begin!” she laughs.
“Speaking of games” I say, putting my phone down and not wanting to look at it until tomorrow. “He asked me to play basketball with him later when we are free. Will you join us? I’m sure Declan will be there too.”
“Bffs vs. bffs? I’m in” she says with a mischievous smile.
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“Where did you learn to play like that?” Declan asks, lying on the floor.
“My mum used to play when she was younger and she taught me” I say, shooting another basket.
“And it goes in clean. Again. I can’t believe it” Mason laughs next to me.
“Annoying, isn’t it?” Leah says, sitting next to Declan.
“Very” he replies, still lying on the floor. “Let’s try again tomorrow. I’m not leaving St. George’s without winning against you at least once.”
“Good luck with that” I say, shooting again, the ball easily going in.
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“Wow, someone had a bad day yesterday” I say the next day, finally checking my notifications.
“Mason fan?”
“That’s what she says. Stay away from him, you filthy gunner bitch. Go suck Arteta’s ****. And yes, whoever this was, censored that last word.”
“No way” Leah laughs. “But why him? He isn’t your coach or anything.”
“Who knows. Maybe he is the only one from Arsenal this person knew” I shrug. “But whoever this is, just got blocked.”
“Good. Is anyone shipping you with Mason?”
“You are so funny” I say, throwing a pillow to her face as someone knocks on the door.
“I’ll answer” Leah says, throwing the pillow back at me.
“Hello girls” says Hannah, our team’s social media manager. “I’m afraid there’s been a change of plans and you won’t be having a free morning. There is some content that we didn’t have time to finish yesterday and that must be shot today. I’ll meet you downstairs in 5 minutes.”
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“Leah, you’ll be doing a TikTok challenge with some others over there” Hannah says, pointing to a table set at the other side of the pitch. “And you will be filming a game for YouTube with Mason.”
“With Mason?” Leah and I say at the same time, she definitely more excited than me.
“Is there any problem with it?” Hannah asks, raising an eyebrow.
“Not at all” Leah says with a big smile.
“What’s the game about?” I ask Hannah as I follow her to where Mason is already waiting.
“Remember the one Chilly and Declan did, the one about the food?”
“How could I. That winner was an insult to everyone who loves food” I laugh. And it isn’t as if I’ve watched it way too many times because Ben looked stupidly handsome. Declan too, not gonna lie.
“This one is about Marvel characters, trying to pick the best super hero” Hannah explains.
“That sounds fun.”
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“I can’t believe Wanda didn’t make it to the final” I say to Mason once we’ve finished the game. “She definitely was the most powerful one! And you chose Thor!”
“Because he is a God!”
“Wanda was able to destroy one of the infinity stones!”
“And then she went nuts. I wouldn’t put my life in her hands.”
“Ok, that’s rude. She was grieving”.
“Sorry” he shrugs. “But at least we agree on the winner.”
“Kind of” I say. “I still think it’s a tie between Spiderman and Captain America.”
“But if it was the end of the world, what could Captain America do for you? Spiderman could fly you away, take you somewhere safe. And he is as strong as Steve.”
“I know, I know. But only if there are trees or buildings around. In the desert they both would be equal.”
“Fine” Mason says, rolling his eyes. “You are a stubborn one, aren’t you?”
“She’s very stubborn” Aaron says, showing up out of nowhere.
“Where did you come from?” I say. “You scared me!”
“I was filming over there. If you didn’t see me, it was because you were too busy with Mason” he smiles. I give him my most murderous look in return, but his smile just goes wider.
“Anyway, I better go find Leah” I say, looking for an excuse to escape from them.
“Are we still playing basketball later today?” Mason asks as I leave.
“Yeah, sure” I say.
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When Leah and I go downstairs, Mason and Declan are already waiting. Them, and Aaron and Ben.
“What are you two doing here?” I ask them.
“We wanted to be part of the fun” Aaron says.
“Meaning that he wanted to see Mase and I being destroyed by you” Declan says.
“That too” Aaron replies with one of his smiles.
“So you are not playing?” Leah asks. “Cowards.”
“We play together all the time. Let them be the ones to suffer” Ben says, not lifting his eyes from his phone.
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“C’mon Mase, you can do it!” Reece says, cheering for his teammate. A little crowd has formed around us, most of them cheering for Leah and I and making fun of Mason and Declan. Eddie is taking photos while someone else is filming, already planning to upload this to YouTube.
“That was so bad, Declan!” Coady yells, he and Mings laughing like crazy.
“If this one goes in, we win” I say, looking at Mason.
“First you’ll have to get pass me” he smirks, already in position to defend.
“There she goes!” Aaron yells as I attack.
“And it goes in!” Leah screams behind me. Everyone around us starts cheering, while Declan dramatically falls to the floor, Mason standing with his arms on his hips.
“Sorry” I say, giving him my best smile. He just shakes his head while licking his lips, and I find myself staring until someone comes to congratulate me and bring me back to reality.
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The rest of the days with the national team go by quickly. It’s mostly training, playing the friendly games and enjoying our free time. Turns out that mixing both teams has been a great idea.
“My tagged photos on Instagram are all Mason” I say to Leah on the car back home.
“He isn’t that bad, is he?”
“He isn’t, he is really nice. You and Aaron were right about that. But look, it’s like I am on his account, not mine” I say, showing her my phone.
“That happens when you spend all your free time with him and Eddie is around” she says with a big smile.
“We are just friends” I say, rolling my eyes.
“For now.”
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aaron rant
ok this is a rant no one asked for but i just wanna put all of my disorganized thoughts out there about aaron and the man my dude could've become without jesson's horrible execution. my grammar may be off and im not a good analyzer or anything, this is just a rant that i wanna get off my chest.
disclaimer :: i haven't watched MCD and i do plan to, and i'm aware of some things that happen but if you wanna share your opinion on anything id rather anyone would keep the reblogs spoil free
lemme start by saying that i love aaron. i genuinely love his character so damn much but NOT his canon. i love the IDEA of aaron and not his execution. jessica and jason did such a bad job portraying him- dont get me wrong i am not bashing them for the foundation they've laid for most of their wonderful characters it's the portrayal of them that gets me so ENRAGED. all of jess's characters have at least some thing going wrong with them and it's genuinely fucking insane. i don't mean what they go through in the series- as in who they ARE. what the fuck is a kawaii~chan? like god. i think so many characters in the series deserved so SO much more, especially aaron.
starting off with pdh s1 aaron. - i don't necessarily loathe pdh s1 aaron. i mean in here, he seems to have a personality than he ever does in season one of mys which is an upgrade i guess? a main problem imo was how his character always revolved around aphmau. i'm not even gonna choose to comment on the horrid age gap jesson's implemented in aarmau's story. i just hate that aaron himself didn't really have any other friend than aphmau and the fact that after they met, the series just continued to revolve around them.. and not them individually either- them as a relationship.
i think seeing certain instances like how aaron became lily's friend and stuff would've been important because technically, wasn't lily aaron's first friend in pdh? how is that just glossed over considering the fact that aaron pushed everyone who tried to interact with him off his back? isn't it interesting how lily managed to get a hold of him and actually became a friend? i don't understand why that was never shown because while students were scared of the dude because of all the rumors and shit going around, some kids like jeoffery actively reached out to him like we see in the ep where aaron asks aph to prom. he never relented to jfry's attempts to be friends w him and through this a girl like lily managed to be friends with him. i feel like something like this shoudlve been shown. i wouldve also liked to see a stronger reaction to him over lily and ivy's scheme. aaron obviously considered lily a caring friend and when he understood that they were scheming from what i remember, when he saw lily after learning about everything all he did was go "if ur gonna treat aph like this we're better off not being friends" or smt?? i think from what we understand about aaron over the series, emotional connections are obviously something he cherishes very much. so seeing him kinda like- brush the whole thing off and not be lily's friend feels so anticlimactic. idk how to phrase it. i know this was premature aaron and the aaron we know over the series is grown up and everything, but i still do feel like aaron would've had a stronger reaction to the scheme.
prob 2 was how after aaron and aph came to know ab each other being shu n fc, aaron didn't become full fledged friends with like ANYONE other than her. this felt extremely weird to me. we see him go to this dinner sylvanna planned and we see him socially thriving there- him cracking jokes and everyone having a fun time around him, travis and garroth wheezing over his jokes- how did this dude not become friends with them? i feel like they (garroth & travis) would've talked to aaron more and become more than acquaintances w him. a lil bonding thing if you get me?? mainly garroth. it's just weird that garroth never became a friend of aaron's imo. they were put in situations where they could've easily become friends. i know that garroth was jealous about aaron coming outta nowhere and swooping aph off of her feet, but he clearly got over it (during the time of s1 anyway, after that he went batshit crazy). they must've had one on one interactions during the dinner or prom right??????/ like come on. it's just weird!! this brings me to the fact that i literally don't see aaron making proper friends other than aph until fcu. like- aph is his only friend ever ykwim?? i feel like im phrasing this in such a dumb way- but it's just frustrating to see his entire social life just being- aph for a while. i just think garroth and aaron could have become friends as well, maybe even travis. and during prom, maybe even kaitlyn. we see aaron also being pretty mature and giving actual, promising advice to aph during the music room scenes. from this i feel like at some point aaron could have also comforted kaitlyn and maybe a friendship could've bloomed out of this??? this thought's just been sitting in my mind. aaron COULD have had a friend other than just aph. it just feels like his whole world revolves around aph and aph only until his family issues and the ultima bullshit comes around.
now in mystr s1, aaron is so FUCKING BLAND AND STALE AND UUUGHGHHHHHHH its actually so fuckin funny because mystreet season one aaron is relatively decent compared to his other versions *cough s5 cough. i actually do like s1 aaron's character. he's the epitome of chill- laid back, honest, communicative and supportive. he's a great friend to aph during her times of need, and during s1 he's the sanest character on the show.
but that's it. all he was was this friend to aphmau until the dumbass play arc during which they decide to go for something romantic. like his whole identity revolved around walking shirtless, being a chick magnet and a friend to aph. he revolved around aphmau, much like his pdh s1 self and that pisses me off so much!! he had no fucking personality other than being supportive to aph for a while. around the end you see him start to gain *something* similar to a personality, and while it was less than pleasant it was better than whatever the fuck was going on while he was only a friend to aph. it's also disappointing seeing him practically only gain emotions after developing a romantic relationship with aphmau. even during this, his interactions are limited to aph and zane most of the times, and even then he doesn't develop an outward friendship with zane- which would've been fucking amazing!!!! while they do start to bond, it's still like aphmau is the only one keeping them glued together while it would've been real cool for aaron to develop a friendship with zane and interactions w him that doesn't solely have to do with aphmau all the time. the fact that aph's brought him out of his shell is cool, but he's still ONLY friends with aph which is VERY eh. he may be considered friends w zane and stuff, but we only see major bonding stuff going on when it's between aaron and aph, but we don't see it with the other characters. it's jsut weird because everyone's known each other for so long, aaron;s bound to have grown closer w someone at the least- for example, garroth or travis. we've seen the unlikely group form during that one episode- aaron, aph, zane and travis- where they have a stupid lil immature game thing or whatever. i feel like travis and zane and aaron could've collectively bonded and it would've been super cute!! plus aph nudging him and zane to be more social as well- a lil detour to fcu where we see aaron trying his best to get out there and make friends w/ aph's adorable support- he has the perfect opportunity to do it during moments like these but it never becomes more than just what seem like forced interactions. like UGH. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. so. much. potentialll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just gone. poof. a strong friendship between aaron and the ro'maeve brothers wouldve been so fucking ack. sfryquoeuiwhiblforhgubhjfwe. litera;;y/. now i wpuldve loved to see tht1!!!! it's also just so weird that we see a drastic change in aaron's character from fcu to myst, in fcu he's so shy and he's trying his best to be friends w others and he succeeds little by little (we never hear of these friends again but ok.) and then in ms we see him as this super chill dude w hot gains sigma male or whatever and his only friend is aph. he was so much more expressive during fcu and while many events occurred in between, it's just weird seeing him not get out there more during s1 esp considering the fact that he has more freedom to. ill mention this later. anyway-----
one thing i liked to see was aaron break out of his cool character during the spectacle of zanemau, another stupid attempt by jess to get another boy to get infatuated with aph which thankfully did not happen.. kind of. id love to see people talk about how zane just heavily depended on aph as an emotional support system and was just afraid aaron would take aph away from him, a feeling of abandonment rising out of his own self loathing yada yada. . while zanemau is a cool ship, this whole thing was jsut extreenmly forced-it was obvious it was just to get another guy to fawn over aph. i hate aph's harem. i'll get off topic if i talk about how every single boy within a 50 mile radius of aph falls head over heels in love with her, but anyhoo. i did get off topic.. . . . so aaron breaking his character was like this breath of fresh air for me. when he's in the resto's bathroom, talking to the mirror ab his frustrations ab aph going all flushed and orgasmy over zane bc of the love ption that he wasnt aware of and how he should stop whats going on bc of zianna (fucking hate her ass), he seemed like an actual person lmao. i love that scene alot because he wasn't just this cool chill flirt(for aph), his feelings finally poured out in some way. it made him a full fledged character (for a little..). then garroth came in and talked to him and whatbnit (another wasted opportunity to grow closer maybe??????? idk) and they went back to the table . i havent talked ab how much i loathe this whole zuzu aph arc though like oh my god it mustve been incredibly uncomfortable for aph and aaron sitting through all that. i hate zianna so much and it was also mega annoying of vylad and the brothers to drag them into this bc he couldnt say no to his mommy. it was genuinely weird and so many things in the show are brushed off as comedic relief- things borderline crazy and worthy of restraining orders and jail. literally. literal kids watch these and may think it's normal bhvr when it isnt. but anyway.
i know that mystreet s1 was a spin off of mcd that just blew up and multiplied into other seasons and as it doubled prequels like pdh and fcu came to life. im very much aware of the fact that jess just developed the characters in their modern steads as the story progressed because it wasnt done something beforehand- mystreet happened to be a happy accident and jess didn't plan the characters out beforehand, including the plot (horribly evident from the shit that started from s4). they developed as characters in stages as the stories went on and that's just painfully obvious, especially when we watch the series in the timeline jess posted it. we see how aaron goes from the stoic chill hot sigma male to this uwu boy personality, which was what jess wanted him as in the end ig? it's obviously very weird though. imo, my opinion, she shouldve kept aaron's laid back personality. through this we could see him gradually grow and insert himself into aph's friend grp as well. we see that happen during s2 and s3 of ms, where he does progress in terms of social interactions- hes seen to be cracking jokes outwardly, he even has his own lil comedic relief spiels, becomes good buds with dante and stuff (which went just as it came from what i remember :[[[) and in s3 he becomes much cooler and is more involved within the friend group. he also seemed to be like this in pdh, like during the dinner as i mentioned before.
during fcu, this just. changes. his character is very... emotional? i dont really know how to put it. it's out of character. he's incredibly shy and relies on aph as a social plug. while in pdh he seemed to be less awkward w social interactions, aaron was 100x times more awkward during fcu. he seemed overly sensitive, and at moments its like he needed to be coddled. i did love it when aph helped him grow more socially, but we see that in ms 1 he has no friends. he's like this hot lone wolf (..), a drastic contrast to what he wanted to be in fcu imo (i believe this because derek was off his back now and he had the freedom to do have more friends and emotional connections like these is what he desperately craved- it's something so evident.) he wanted to have more friends and be more social. while this does happen in fcu, in ms1 we don't really see the results coming into place. like he becomes much more bold- in fcu he used to flush and blush at just hearing aph's heartbeat and in ms1, that one instance where aaron gets picked to play romeo and aph is like "you do realise we gotta kiss?" he just goes "yeah." in the most casual way ever- like it's just another tuesday for him or somethin. it's just a weird ass change. his character fluctuates when we watch the show in the chronological order and it's jsut so out of place and while i know it's no fault to jess ( i mean it is but part of it is justified ) it's still incredibly weird. jess could have prevented this by just keeping him as the character she initially started with.
and his last form- season 5. starlight. god fuck- this aaron was such a fucking baby. if fcu aaron wanted to be coddled, starlight aaron straight up wanted milk from aph's bosoms. he becomes this uwu soft boi- and considering all of the events that unfolded, it's still weird. yes, many things happened during their time at the lodge but it's just so fucking weird!!!!! i don't even know what to make of it. i just hated his character in s5. he stuttered every 3 fucking seconds. jason voice acted him so bad like oh my god im so sorry but it was literally unbearable. rewatching starlight was fucking horrifying. the stupid ass dips in the voice- god fuck!!! im so sorry its just what i think but i really hated how jason voice acted aaron during s5. i liked the fact that he was more expressive but he just changed completely- and i liked the small part where he felt like everyone wanted him to be something different now that he was out as a werewolf, but he really did fucking change and it did not feel like he was aaron at all. it felt like seeing a 12 year old find out about age regression and implement it onto a character like aaron's. it felt childish and just weird. jess couldve done way better with aaron during s5.
this shit was long and i feel liek i still have a lot more to say and when i rememebr ill jsut edit it on. no ones probably gonna reach the end of this but if you did, idk how u got so much time reading all this but i lpve you
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borreloadsavagedragon · 11 months
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8 and 12 for the ask meme 👀
oh my god I reblogged that ask game knowing I am not a mean person AT ALL, so this is gonna push me to my LIMITS
(if you stand by anything in here, you’re cool as hell and I'm glad you interact with media, I am simply over sharing about fictional card game nerds like always!!!)
8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about
I had to sit and stare at this one forever to come up with one because I am just so in my own little corner that I never really notice other people's interpretations of characters, like I have my bachelors and ph.d. in the ones that matter and I write my silly little fanfics using my deranged thinking, that's it, roll credits
BUT there is one thing I've seen a few times now across a couple of months in random liveblogs or opinion pieces that I kind of wanna touch on it
And that's that Kaito wasn't held accountable in Zexal.
I think a topic like accountability and atonement in fiction is going to differ very strongly between person to person and what they feel is the proper amount of justice to someone given their crimes, I understand that, but I just want to throw my own hat in the ring for why I disagree respectfully but wholeheartedly
Here's where I write about it in my analysis(WHICH IS 8K+ RN AND STILL GOING, GOD HELP ME)
"This is one I’ve seen a few times and I wanted to make an entire separate point for it because I do think it's a very interesting conversation to have in regards to the moral playground that a lot of the YuGiOh rivals in general have(with Ryoken Kogami from YuGiOh Vrains sitting as the reigning king in the topic of questionable ethics by some fans, but he’s another character study for another day), but the focus isn’t where I think it should be. I think it’s more fascinating that Kaito’s the character I see called out the most for his work as a Number Hunter compared to other fan favorites in the cast, especially when all we saw from Kaito since his actions in "The Seized Emperor's Key! Showdown, Kaito vs Shark" was his own form of accountability. We’ve known since the very scene following his introduction as the primary antagonist for the first half of Zexal I, Kaito despises the job and his employers based on how he can’t even look Mr. Heartland in the eye when he reports his progress and how his eyes drop to the floor when the premise of taking souls is brought up. He has a special distaste for those with Numbers because of what he was led to believe since we also learn later on he’s been fed almost nothing but lies about the Numbers so the times Kaito might have become far more conflicted with his circumstances sooner were always ripped away from him. In his mind, he's trapped and following orders is his best option right now, but if it means the only thing that matters most to him, his little brother, is ok, then he'll be the worst person in the world. And that's just the explanation for why he did it all. Because even with the truth, he doesn't excuse it.
Following Zexal I, Kaito continues to involve himself with the struggle against the Barians, and while most of it is with the understanding he's avenging the damage done to his family, it’s also in part avenging the damage he did to Yuma, Ryouga, and the many other people he’s laid a hand on. The idea that a character or a person needs to wear their guilt and redemption on their sleeve at every second is unreasonable. I also think it’s important to recognize that atonement isn’t just justice or forgiveness; Kaito, for example, never once asks for forgiveness, nor apologizes verbally. Instead, he shows up. He's there when he has to be and does exactly what he needs to do, because his actions are going to be worth more than his words are going to be. Kaito has always been and is always going to be someone who is going to act, not speak. Zexal I Kaito isn’t showing up to help handle the gang in the first few episodes of Zexal II. Zexal I Kaito isn’t taking Yuma’s place against Mizael in the duel in the sphere field. While Kaito continues to have alternate and additional motivation for his own newfound focus, he does not do these things for his ambition’s sake only.  Anytime accountability and Kaito’s treatment of his allies is brought up, I think it’s also very telling when some things are excluded, like how he pivots the entire project with Chris in the Arctic into getting Yuma sent to Astral World instead of them in order to reunite with Astral is largely overlooked. Another example is his complete turnaround behavior towards Gauche and Droite both in Spartan City, going as far to recognize how strong of a duelist and person Droite is when Gauche is possessed by Alito and that Droite is the only person suited for that duel despite him being seemingly such an asshole towards her in Zexal I. Hell, Kaito’s treatment of Ryouga is far different in one half to another, he goes from reducing Ryouga down to a waste of his time and just another punk who wants a piece of him to respecting him in his own weird little way where he has to pick a fight with him. We've all seen Zexal I, we've seen how Kaito truly treats people he doesn't like. --- I like to look at Kaito through the lens of rejection because loneliness is such a key portion of his character. I feel like focusing on those wrongs doubles down on the theme that’s in place. Kaito has hurt people. But he recognizes that, verbalizes it when he calls himself hell bound even, so he will continue to do better by those people."
THIS IS WHY IM HIS BIGGEST APOLOGIST
I just think he's so interesting, I wanna talk about him being a piece of shit because he IS, how mean he was to Yuma in I says a lot, but he's not THAT much of a piece of shit by the end, his development isn't overwhelmingly apparent, much like most rivals in the franchise, but it's VERY there
12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them
SPECTRE!!!!! I LITERALLY HAVE PIECES FOR HIS WIG AND HAVE HAD THEM FOR A YEAR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
I was AMAZED once to find out that people didn’t like Spectre because Spectre is so standout and fascinating. I HATE how he's boiled down to being creepy or "what happened to Aoi in their duel"-
Before it plummeted to hell, I got a tweet on my Twitter fyp from an rp acct that was like “like this if you hate spectre” and it had ~35 likes so I had to be cheeky and tweeted "what's it like to have bad taste" gjdsakldgskajg My one time with a mean streak..........
Genuinely though, what’s it like to not have taste, he's a freak, it's on purpose, I'd die for Spec
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SO-22: Don't Be So Specific
If there's a lot of engagement on this, this post is liable to get real long, beware before you expand.
No art, but I am working on it and I will add it retroactively. The eyes are letting me draw, just real slow.
Welcome to the Engagement Lounge, for The Rainbow Connection (251|22) an instalment! Short comments can go in the replies, but there's a 475 character limit. Longer ones will need a reblog. Remember to @asksoldieron if you're reblogging someone else's reblog, so I can see it too!
OK! I got super distracted talking about autism and diversity in media on the main blog. Now I get to talk about the Holocaust!
Except, no, that ain't it. And I've got to bend over backwards to show you that, because "Holocaust" and "genocide" have become synonymous. Way back when Donald Trump took Obama's children-in-cages idea and ran with it, I decided to try writing a serial. I was working on it in 2016, but it didn't come out until Trump was already President, saying the quiet part loud 24/7 and dismantling the system that already wasn't working. And I got to see the conservatives shitstains running DC's Holocaust Museum try to prevent people from comparing children in concentration camps to the Holocaust. Also, they're not "concentration camps," call them something nicer, you're being antisemitic.
I WENT to that museum as a young teen, and I got laid into like a red-headed stepchild (sorry red-heads and stepchildren, but you know how it is, idioms come from somewhere) for pushing back when my mom said, "It could never happen here." I didn't think that was what I was supposed to be learning! And, it turns out, for political reasons, that was actually what they were trying to teach me.
The Holocaust is sacred, and special, and it will never happen again. If something similar seems to be happening, you better shut your whore mouth and not compare it. Nothing compares.
And so we lose a significant portion of the language and historical context that we need to identify a genocide and respond to it, or maybe even prevent it. Well, it's not like THAT. Don't respond to it like THAT! Maybe be more reasonable, and do something incremental, because it's not THAT.
I knew what I wanted to do. I knew it would be hard as hell to get there. I knew you'd have to trust me first. And so I started to write.
Now I'm there and I don't have much of an audience that trusts me. Maybe three people are gonna read this. Five, if you count me and the spouse. If anyone rolls up after this, they're gonna know what I'm about and they'll already have opinions of me based on what I've done here, and what's going on in the world while I do it.
I already knew comparing children in cages to the Holocaust had been declared a sin. I did not expect to be pushing back against that while pushing back against a genocide in progress is also a sin, because Israel is in charge of it and Joe Biden OKed it. That got really fucking complicated on me, real fast.
There is a lot rolled into this burrito already, because eugenics did a lot of lasting damage and the Holocaust is only part of that. People come at all kinds of differences with a genocidal mindset - for example, looking to "cure" queerness, disability and neurodivergence, so there won't be people like that anymore.
Thus, the gays are here, they're involved, they're trying to help out, and they're comparing it to their experience. And so are the NDs, being an immie has some aspects of that, as well as some aspects of disability. All of these people ALSO went into the meatgrinder during the Holocaust, and are still liable to get killed when eugenics and genocide are on the table.
And Jewishness is there! Immies are somewhat Jewish, because I was trying to be sensitive to the fact that they're marginalized in fake Europe and we're going to have a war about it. It would be erasure if I didn't fold some aspects of Jewishness and the Holocaust into that! (And now it's appropriation. *sigh*) But I can't make them 1:1 Jewish, because religion doesn't work like that where they are. They can be close, like Milo and Calliope can be close to lapsed Catholics, but they're not exactly.
Immies are so many things in part because I'm trying to get you to understand that the Holocaust itself wasn't just antisemitism run riot. Fascism doesn't have to look like Nazi Germany, 1:1. We're doing it right now, and it doesn't look like that! It's wrapped in the flag and carrying the cross! We knew it would be!
And we still can't stop it. In the States, you're either gonna vote for a pro-genocide candidate this November or abstain and render yourself irrelevant that way. Either way, genocide remains on the table. And I know who's in danger when that's on the table. It's me, it's definitely me, and a lot of other people similar to me. Immies are as many of us as possible, at once, and I want you to see it.
When Vladek Spiegelman, a Holocaust survivor, goes on a racist rant against Black people, which is faithfully rendered in Maus, his son Art, the author, despairs. So does his therapist, who also lived through the Holocaust. He wonders if a newer, bigger Holocaust is necessary to teach us the lessons we somehow failed to learn. So I'm giving you one in fiction, because I don't want one in real life.
But I'm not supposed to do that. You're free to reject everything I'm trying to do because I'm not supposed to do that, and I'm being antisemitic and doing leftism wrong and I'm just one imperfect human being who will not perfectly represent everyone in my work. You can stick your fingers in your ears and go "lalala you don't mean meeee" or tear me apart so anyone who sees me will ignore me for all my faults. Or you can just never read me, which is what most people will do. I can scream until I pass out or die, and no one will hear and come help. Not systemically, which is what we need right now. I need to motivate large amounts of people to push back and keep each other safe, and I can't. I'm autistic with social deficits, limited resources, and no corporate master to promote me. It's my abusive childhood all over again, on a societal scale.
I'm going to keep writing. I will try. I do try. But it's so very little, when so many big things are so very wrong.
If any of you out there know someone bigger than me who might help me, please point them at me. Because, at this point, that's the only thing that's going to make my work matter. And this is the best thing I know how to do that might help. Otherwise, what even if the point of me and all my pain? I want to mean something more than my existence. And I want to help so much. Look what happens when nobody helps.
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I blew up a close relationship this week.
I need to talk about it. I need to grieve it, especially since I killed it. I know you don't need to listen, so I'm putting it all under the cut.
be warned. It's long. Very fucking long.
OK. I'm chatting with a beloved friend a week ago. I'm sleep deprived and behind on my meds. This is very relevant as you shall see.
We have a confusing interaction where I accidentally hurt their feelings. They say we should end the conversation there because things are too weird. I think they have left the conversation entirely, but I find out today they were showing the interaction to a 3rd party to get their opinion on what happened.
Meanwhile I'm panicking because I'd accidentally hurt someone who I love. So I delete any messages that might have been "the cause of the hurt" like an idiot cause a) they are still in the chat and call me on my destroying evidence and 2) I'll never able to point to the exact words I said and carefully explain what I meant.
My panic intensifies and I leave the chat and come back to tumblr where I send them a long message apologising and explaining, while still spiralling into a worse headspace. They tell me to get some sleep.
But I don't.
I'm getting suicidal. Yes I know that is not a rational response to the circumstances. Sleep dep is NOT good for my mental health. And hurting the feelings of someone I care about is a huge suicidal trigger for me.
So I write what is clearly a suicide note. And post it here on this blog. I address it to no one, a generalpost about how shity I feel. I don't even realise it's a suicide note to halfway through it. I don't mention the triggering events, and I say in the tags that it's no ones fault.
I go off and take a (safe) amount of sleeping pills with a (safe) amount of rum. Because even though I'm in distress I know that it's 80% sleep dep, and I can fix that if I self-medicate hard enough.
I come back about 5-10 mins later and delete the suicide note. It had no notes so I hopeful noone saw it.
I put up an apology letter to anyone who did see it, because I don't want to traumatise my followers. And after about 30 mins I take that down, because it too has no notes and I don't want to worry anyone.
I'm starting to calm down and level out, and about 2 hours after I last talked to my friend I go back to send them another apology with the promise that I really was going to sleep now.
Message can't be sent. Blog doesn't exist.
They'd blocked me without a word. I don't know when except sometime in the last 2 hours.
I don't know their mental state. Can't know. I'm worried. I know they also have suicidal issues, so I'm hoping they just blocked me to protect themselves.
I pop back over to discord to let them know I'm OK now. But they'd stopped me messaging them on there also.
Fuck. I had no other contact for them, so I had no way of checking on them to see if they are OK.
Days pass. My worry over them doesn't.
It builds.
5 days I wait. No word.
I'm hurt, but understanding. Their mental health is more important than our friendship. But I can't know the state of their mental health. I was hopeful every time I saw that I had notifications, that maybe they'd re-followed me.
I'd previously reblogged something from one of their mutuals, one I knew they were close to. So I dug through my old posts till I found it, and thus their blog name.
And so I searched their blog for any signs of my beloved friend. And saw they'd interacted 3 days earlier and my friend seemed fine. That should have been enough. If I'd found no evidence of interaction that MIGHT justify some of my following actions. But as it was I... well.
It wasn't enough for me. I made a fake account. A pretty obvious one. Shit, the bio was "stalker". I thought that was a lot less weird then spending the time and emotional energy to craft a believable account. No, none of this is healthy.
I used the sockpuppet to look over my friend's blog. They were posting normally as if their life hadn't had a hole ripped in it. So I followed them with the obvious fake blog. I wanted to get caught I guess. Provoke a reaction. Have them acknowledge I still existed.
They blocked the fake blog without a word.
At this point I'll remind you, gentle reader, that I'm here to explain and mourn, not to try to justify any of my actions.
So yesterday (when sleep deprived again due to a dieing pet) i followed their mutual's blog. With my fake account. I don't even consider following with my actual account, which perhaps might have made sense. Perhaps not. Still pretty stalkery to follow a blog for the sole purpose of seeing when they publicly interact with someone who obviously doesn't want to talk to me.
I still believed if we could just talk I could clear everything up and we could be friends again. Maybe never as close friends again, but they were such a ray of light in my life, I'd hoped to see some of that light again.
But I got their attention. They was angry.
They were angry that I'd deliberately insulted them a week ago, then threatened to kill myself because they'd stopped talking to me. Now as you had read above, that's not how it went down on my end, but now I understood why they had blocked me without comment. If I was who they thought I was being, then yes, block me into the sun. I'd deserve it.
So i felt hope. If I could get them to understand the insult was accidental, that the suicidal thinking wasn't about their actions but mine, that I wasn't trying to manipulate some response from them, then maybe we could fix this.
But of course that wasn't all.
They were also enraged that I'd stalked them and their friend... which yeah, I really had no excuse for. But I still thought that if they could see the first part was a misunderstanding, then a little light stalking is forgivable.
But they couldn't believe that I was innocent of the first part, since I was so clearly guilty of the second. And as they said, they were there a week ago, they knew I'd insulted them then suicide baited them to get them to keep taking to me. And they blocked me again mid my protest.
It could have ended there. It should have ended there.
But I knew. If only I could explain they'd see it was all a big misunderstanding.
So, with the fake account still (God know why?!), I compose an ask to their mutual. And again I'll stress, this is me saying what I did, not what I should have done.
Unfortunately as it was an ask, not a message, I don't have a copy. But it started along the lines of "if you think it would be ok, can you pass this on. I understand and accept that you might ignore it or, block me and that's a fair response."
And so I apologised. I accepted blame. I accepted this was probably the end of our relationship. But I also tried to explain how it was a misunderstanding. And I don't even remember if I addressed the stalking bit. I did say I was never going to log into that fake account again.
then I took a nap. I'd done all i could to mend the relationship (or at least end it with dignity), and I honestly didn't expect a response. Either because the message didn't get passed on, or because my former friend agreed it was the end and didn't contact me again. It was a message in a bottle, cast into the ocean.
I woke to 28 messages.
Threats of police re stalking. 9 messages just with the words "text me". Yelling at me, calling me a coward and immature for not responding. Calling my behaviour disgusting.
and I had been re-blocked. So I couldn't respond.
OK then. That hasn't gone as expected, because I'm an idiot for expecting unrealistic things.
So I spend about 30 mins to find their friends blog again (because I'd forgotten the name), this time with my real account, as I'd said I'd never log into the fake account again.
So to send a quick ask, for them to pass on, that I was asleep and not ignoring their mutual. And could they unblock me if they actually want a response.
Ghost blog. The friend had blocked me also. And fair enough.
But it left me with a problem.
I didn't want to find another friend of theirs and ask them to pass on the "I need to be both unblocked and awake if you want me to reply" message. Even I knew that was too creepy.
So I pinned a little message saying that to the top of my blog thinking that you can't look at blog you have blocked, so there was little chance of them ever seeing it. And thus little chance of me hearing from them again. Can you look at blogs you've got blocked? I've only blocked porn bots and never gone back to check.
Now I had thought that the next time they messaged me was because of that pinned post, but I've been reading over the messages as I'm writing this and I've come to the realisation: they sent me the 28 messages before their friend had passed on the letter to them.
So probable order of events
I sent a letter via their friend -> they message me out of the blue 28 times then reblock -> i pin a note to my blog -> they receive the letter I sent via the friend -> they message me again to yell about that letter.
OK that makes more sense based on what they said.
Anyway. They yell at me. Again. Understandable now as they just got the letter. But they say I'm suicide baiting them, Again!? Now I really wish I had the letter so I can try to see how they came to that conclusion. I mean, maybe because it's tone is of a goodbye (as I think I'll never hear from them again). I'm just confused on that one.
They demand I delete the fake blog. I try to insist I never once suicide bated them. They don't care anymore. They declare the letter via the friend was the last straw and they had now no hope the relationship could be recovered. Which was surprising as I'd thought they were long past that point by now. It was sad but I think I needed to hear them say that.
I said goodbye because I knew they were about to block me a final time. And I said I'll go delete the fake blog. After which they blocked me before I'd finished typing "I'm sorry" again.
So. I'm glad I got to talk this out. It was therapeutic and allowed me to examine myself and my bad decisions. I almost hope none of you read it. I'm going to leave it here, however, as a warning to others to not get to close to me. Or at least make sure those who do know how fucked up I am.
I do want to hear comments and criticisms, sympathies and condemnations. Of me only. No criticism of my former beloved friend.
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One person's response to that confessions post you reblogged doesn't take responsibility for forcing their opinions on others; she just repeats the same tired argument about how the writers are "giving us shit". And really, that's the problem with Chloe fans in a nutshell: it's not that they're too egotistical or stubborn to acknowledge their violation of others' boundaries is wrong, it's that they don't even "operate under any rules of morality where their behavior even COULD be wrong."
Yeah.
Like I don't even think Chloe getting a redemption is that bad an Idea.
BUT!! And this is a very big but.
If someone decides they don't want to do that, you have no right to complain whatsoever. I'm going to talk directly to the Chloe Stans now.
To freak out, bitch, and complain, the way you did, when Asturc said he wasn't interested in redeeming Chloe was not only stupid, and pathetic. It was flat out embarrassing to anyone trying to keep their cool.
Death threats, and harassment are NEVER ok.
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Ok so here are my thoughts on day 3 - honestly it wasn't a particularly eventful day. All of the people who followed me yesterday voted and supported Jaskier, so he unjustly won - obviously this is Tumblr and people are going to vote for their fav, but this was conceived first and foremost as a bracket for MY followers, who I KNOW are mostly superhero fans, except for everyone who followed me because of yesterday's post... Also, not cool to claim bi representation from a character I literally in the post say is only implied subtext at best when it's compared to a canon pansexual man who's dating a non-binary character but whatever. Technically everyone followed the rules, I'm just disappointed.
Penny-anna's reblogs did change the tide mid-day, making it so Lois Lane won over Murderdock who had the lead up until that point.
Everything else was to be expected. Spider-Gwen and Spider-Man are about to face each other, so I guess we'll see if my followers side with one of the most popular characters of all time or with his newer, cooler feminist critique (I know what I'm voting for!). And we have both of penny-anna's blorbos facing up against each other - I wonder which one will end up winning out?
AND we have the losers bracket up tonight as well!! Vote for your favorite of the four who, in my opinion, deserved the most to progress one more round - and I'll pit the top two against each other at the same time as our final round!
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