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heilos · 1 month
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So this was a wonderful surprise even to me, but Luis just uploaded a whole lo-fi mix of the entire Mystery Skulls Forever album! If you liked the Ghost remix then I think you're gonna love this one too. Each song is also uploaded separately on his youtube page along with a 2 hour version. Go get yourself some good vibes!
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hoshigray · 1 year
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Let me get this out of my system before I forget: toji x fem! reader, both assassins who take each other's missions. But on the one occasion you work together, Toji feels that no good deed goes unrewarded. Cw: dom! toji - fem! reader - mating press - praise - toji acts cocky the first half but is a soft menace in the other half - pet names (baby, sweetheart, sweetie, darlin', good girl, princess) - drool/mention of sloppy kissing - mention of overstimulation (fem! receiving). Cw: 708
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You and Toji are the top assassins in the league, and titles like that spark competition. You constantly outdo each other, taking up his missions because you need the money, and taking yours because he's a petty bastard. Flashing a snarky grin at you whenever he walks by, his canine peaking under the scar on his lips. He knows you hate him and finds it adorable how you roll your eyes whenever you see him.
But you two make an excellent team when you go on missions together! Not that it matters to you two because you both argue about the other's performance; he's too messy and carefree, and you're way too cautious and like to take your sweet time.
Exhaling a heavy sigh, exhausted from the mission and his reckless behavior, you turn on your heel to head home. But Toji calls out to you, "I'm gonna grab somethin' to eat, wanna join?
The quirk of your brow doesn't go unnoticed. "Relax, it's on me. Think of it as a reward for not being a complete thorn in my side today."
You scoff. "Yeah right." After Toji's multiple pleas more like teasing than pleading, you agree to accompany him to dinner. However, you keep your guard up while you're with him. Even if it's past work hours, that doesn't mean he can't pull something out of his ass.
Well, that promise did nothing for you as you're crying, panting, and making the most embarrassing noises you never thought you could make.
Folded into your life's most intense mating press, Toji surveys your disheveled appearance in relish. Sweat and cum connect your bodies together while drool slides down from your mouth. His hips go at an irrational pace that has you see stars, and the sounds of his balls smacking your wet folds make you hide your face in shame. Why the hell did I get myself into this situation? I could've just turned and gone home!
"Haaaah, shit..." His hoarse groans compel you to squeeze around him even tighter. He jolts a bit, smirking at your body's reaction."Haha, damn, baby. Had I known I'd see you like this earlier, I'd — hnngh! Oh shit" Toji moves your legs further with his shoulders, his body weight pushing onto you and making you feel so helpless being trapped under him like this.
"Hey, c'mon now," He chuckles when he sees your face is still covered up. He uses one hand to remove them, trapping them above your head. "Don't wanna miss the perfect view, sweetheart."
Through watered eyes in a haze, you stare up at the man making you feel so fucking good tormenting you. The bedroom lights behind him make Toji appear so deliciously alluring, his tanned skin bathed in sweat that some strands of his hair stick to his forehead. With blatant lust looming over his eyes, you feel small under his sharp emerald orbs.
A small chuckle escapes his lips. "Damn, sweetie, lookin' so beautiful fr' me, ya know that?" He surprises you with a deep thrust, and a sudden yelp becomes sweet music to his ears. "My beautiful darlin'."
You immediately turn to the side, biting your bottom lip before he sees it quiver. "Aht aht, don't do that." He's quick to grab your chin to face him again. "You can't hide from me, not like this." He draws closer to press his lips onto yours and you melt on the spot. You instantly become a mewling mess, his sloppy kisses turning your brain into mush.
And it doesn't stop there, of course not. He then slithers his hand down to your clit, giving it unnecessary yet gracious attention for being disregarded.
That was it for you, your walls spasming around his cock as you cream onto him, your euphoric orgasms taken by his ravaging mouth. He breaks the kiss to see a trail of spit still linking the two of you.
"Good girl," He praises you as he lets you ride out your high, admiring how pretty you look. However, "Sorry, baby, but I still gotta finish here." He grinds his hips into your messy cunt, the overstimulation nearly choking you in your own spit. "Stay with me for a few minutes, okay, princess?"
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steddieas-shegoes · 5 months
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stumbling into you
for @steddieholidaydrabbles prompt 'meet-cute at work' rated: M wc: 999 cw: sexual innuendo, semi-public handsy making out tags: making out, getting together, rock star Eddie Munson, modern au
a/n: let me just say getting this under 1000 words took longer than it took to write the original 1484 words it was 🙁
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Steve's first day was going better than expected.
He'd admittedly lied about his skills to get this job, but how hard could it be to run errands?
A metal band in need of throat lozenges and hot tea was in the studio now.
Easy enough task to do.
When he walked into the control room, it seemed empty.
He looked back and checked the room number on the door.
"Let me help."
Steve turned to see the hottest guy he'd ever seen standing by the mixing board starting to walk over to him.
"Oh. Okay," Steve stuttered out.
"Let me grab the teas," the man said, his hand brushing against Steve's.
"I can just-" Steve let him, flushing when he smiled at him. "I could have set them on the table."
"It's okay, you've got your hands full..." he looked at the badge hanging off his lanyard. "Steve?"
"Yeah, sorry. First day."
"Really?" The man took the pack of throat lozenges from him, opening the bag and popping one in his mouth. "Welcome then. I'm sure we'll see a lot of each other over the next month or so."
"Do you record here a lot?"
"Yeah. We've got this studio booked solid for the next three weeks. Album needs to be perfect and we always get the best quality here."
"So do you sing?"
"I sing. Lead guitar, too."
"Is it a band I know?"
The man looked him over, taking in his business casual appearance, glasses slipping down his nose.
"I don't think we play anything you've listened to. Corroded Coffin?"
"My little brother listens to you! His mom never let him go to a concert though, said it would be too rough on him. He's kinda small for his age and she worries." Steve bit his lip. "Sorry, rambling."
"Cute, Stevie."
Steve blushed.
"I'm Eddie."
"Steve."
"Yeah, Stevie, I got that. You like any metal?" Eddie was clearly trying to have a real conversation with him, but Steve was drawing a blank on what the English language was.
"Never listened to any."
"You wanna listen? Something's off, but I can't put my finger on what. Maybe you could give me an idea."
"M-me?" Steve's eyes went wide.
"Yes, you," Eddie nudged him and tipped his head towards the mixing board. "C'mon, honest opinion."
"I-"
"Pleeeease?" Eddie pouted.
"Okay, but I don't really know what good is supposed to sound like," Steve agreed, walking to the board.
"Good is relative. If you think it sounds like metal music should, that's at least on the right track," Eddie pushed a couple of buttons and flipped a switch.
A surprisingly soft guitar melody filled the room, followed by a husky voice singing.
"This sounds..."
"Sounds?"
"You sound sad."
"Well, that's kind of what I was going for, so I guess that's a good thing."
The music cut off and Steve immediately wished he could hear more.
"Do you have other stuff recorded?" Steve suddenly needed to hear more of Eddie's voice.
"You wanna hear more?"
"If you want?"
Eddie flipped another switch, pressed a button, and a much faster guitar started playing, followed by heavy drums.
"This one doesn't have vocals."
Steve wouldn't listen to this regularly, but he could admit when people were talented, and it was very clear that Eddie and his band were talented.
"You're really good," Steve smiled at him.
"Thanks, sweetheart."
Eddie shut off the music and stood up.
He leaned closer to Steve, playful smirk on his face.
"You wanna go in the booth?"
"I'm not allowed."
"I'm allowed and I'm asking, so." Eddie wiggled his eyebrows, making Steve giggle.
"Okay, sure."
Once in the small booth, Steve felt overwhelmed with Eddie's presence.
His body heat was enough to make Steve sweat.
"You do all the lead vocals?" Steve asked.
"Yeah. Since day one," Eddie said from right behind him, so close his breath hit the back of Steve's neck.
Steve shivered, closing his eyes as he felt Eddie's hand rest on his lower back.
"Tell me to stop if you want me to," Eddie whispered against his shoulder.
"I don't," Steve gasped.
Eddie turned him, pushing him against the wall behind him.
"Can I kiss you?" Eddie breathed against his lips.
Steve nodded, a whimper escaping his mouth as Eddie's lips touched his.
Eddie was a soft chorus, a soft kiss.
A soft moan when Steve wrapped his arms around Eddie's neck.
Eddie's fingers gripped Steve's hips, tugging him forward so their hips met, both already half hard.
"Wait," Steve said when Eddie started kissing down his neck. "When will they be back?"
"Don't know." Eddie nipped at one of Steve's freckles. "Don't care."
Steve moaned again when Eddie's hand found the front of his pants.
"What if-"
"Don't know. Don't care."
Steve threw his head back as Eddie's hand cupped him over his pants.
"Fuck, feels good."
"How fast can you come?" Eddie's hand squeezed, almost making Steve's legs buckle.
"I-"
"Eddie! Thought you were joining us!" A voice yelled.
"Be there in a few! Just wanted to check something!" Eddie yelled back.
"You're a workaholic!"
Eddie checked through the crack in the door to make sure the person left before he turned back to Steve with a sad smile.
"I probably should join them." Eddie cupped the side of Steve's face in his hand. "Maybe after your shift we can meet up?"
"Really?"
"Really, sweetheart."
"Oh. Um, I guess. I mean, it's probably against the rules, but I can give you my number?"
"I won't let them fire you. I made the move, right?" Eddie dipped his thumb into Steve's mouth for just a second, teasing.
Eddie may have made the first move, but Steve was quick to make the next one that night, not giving Eddie a second to say hi before he was in his lap in the backseat of a hired car.
Steve's job had a lot of perks, but gaining a boyfriend was definitely the best one.
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themisimagines · 9 months
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prompt generator: person a and person b sharing a bath content: smut under the cut! - self loving, bathtub shenanigans characters: artem, fem!reader
Thank god it's the weekend. You leave the office at 7, a feat given all that's gone on this week, and pop your head into Celestine's office to say goodbye, thinking you might swing by Artem's office to try and convince him to leave work with you. Unfortunately, he's in Celestine's office already when you look in, and they seem to be in deep conversation.
"Have a good weekend," Celestine chimes. Artem raises his hand in parting. You look wistfully at him, but decide to head home first.
Artem texts you on your way out.
<Wait for me to have dinner. Shouldn't be too much longer, I'll pick up ingredients on the way back.>
Your heart warms. He probably knew that you were looking forward to your first free weekend in weeks, having barely had the time to spend with each other beyond curling up together, exhausted, in bed each night, and blearily getting ready for work in the mornings.
Another text. <Don't eat too many snacks.> Ugh, this man knows you too well.
When you finally reach the home you share with Artem, you can almost literally feel the ache in your neck and shoulders from hunching over documents and screens, so you decide to run a hot bath. It's almost criminal that neither of you spend much time in this bath, with it's beautiful city views and skyline. But to be fair, you both only moved in together three months ago, and that was round about the time work started to pick up again. You even take out a precious bubble bath solution you've been saving for a special occasion, the scent of lavender and hibiscus foaming up underneath the running water.
As the bath runs, you pop in a record on the vintage player Artem picked up from his parents recently, and both of you have been enjoying going to markets searching for records, your recent favourites being jazz ballads, the crackle and pop of these old records invoking a different time entirely. The music drifts into the bathroom as you turn off the taps, stripping down and stepping gingerly into the bath, fragrant steam wafting into your face.
Oh, this is nice. You fiddle a bit with the water temperature before it's finally perfect, and then you sink in, closing your eyes blissfully.
<Tell me why we don't take baths on a daily basis again? Are you home soon, by the way?> You grab your phone and send to Artem, snapping a picture of your legs, just obscured by the bubbles.
The feel of the water caressing your body and against your tired muscles is soothingly erotic, and you feel a familiar jolt of arousal flowing down your body. Your hands run up and down your soft inner thighs, the arc of your collarbones, luxuriating in the sensation.
Ding! Artem has messaged you back. <Almost home.>
Then, a follow up: <It's not good for our water bill or the environment to take so many baths, but I agree with you that ours is underused.> You laugh. Ever the practical boyfriend.
Still, if he's still on the way, that leaves you free to take care of... some business. Your hands plunge back into the water, stroking your thighs, your breasts, slowly teasing at your nipples to send delicious shivers up your spine. All the while, the water swirls around you, making you even more excited. One hand drifts further downwards, settling onto your clit, and you draw slow, lazy circles around it, letting a slow pressure build up in your core.
The music swells, and you let yourself enjoy each and every sensation, a small moan escaping your mouth and echoing around the bathroom, your back arching slightly as you chase the peak of your pleasure. One of your fingers is just tracing your opening, ready to slip in, when a knock sounds on the bathroom door, and Artem peeks in.
Startled, you sit bolt upright, almost getting a mouthful full of suds.
"Sorry," Artem apologises for startling you. "Just wanted to let you know I'm home, and I'll be making dinner downstairs. Come down when you're ready.
From the crack through the door, you see that his tie has been loosened slightly, hair slightly rumpled from the day. Even though he's interrupted your moment, you can't help but appreciate how much of a goddamn gentleman he is, barely allowing himself a glimpse of you in the bath. Artem is about to close the door when you call for him to wait.
"Come and join me in the bath," you ask. "We did get one that was big enough for two, after all."
The door freezes, and even though you can't see Artem anymore, you can sense he is debating furiously with himself on the other side of the door.
"Please?" you wheedle. "The water is still nice and warm."
When the door next opens, it does so uncertainly, and Artem blushes upon seeing your clothes tossed haphazardly around the bathroom, the bubbles leaving very little to the imagination. It's hardly as if you both haven't seen each other naked before, but you always sense that Artem is holding himself back, too aware of trying to perform the part of gentleman for you, being overly considerate of your needs. Always too afraid to let his eyes linger for too long, or his hands to rest too inappropriately (except in the heat of the moment), afraid that you might think him crude or impolite.
You take charge of the situation. "Clothes off, Mr. Wing. Now."
His hands hesitate at his shirt-buttons, but then he steels his spine and strips off his clothing efficiently, letting you admire the hard planes and lines of his body, so often hidden away behind suits, which, while flatteringly cut, look much better off him. Belt and trousers join the pile on the floor, and you can sense that Artem is itching to refold his clothes nicely instead of leaving them there, so you launch a distraction tactic, rising in the bath so that the tops of your breasts are just visible, watching his eyes drawn to them as the blush in his cheekbones grows higher and higher.
"Should I just - get in?" He stutters. It's so cute to see him embarrassed. He clears his throat, and although he shifts from side to side, you can see his cock twitch slightly, already half-hardening before he's even in the bath. You slide your knees up to make space, and he climbs in, careful not to let the water splash out, although it's dangerously close to doing so, with an extra person in the tub.
It's almost comical to see him curl up so tightly into himself, trying to avoid touching you. Arms hugging his knees as he watches you intently. You stretch your legs out so they just barely graze the sides of your legs.
"Are you really comfortable like that?" You tease, leaning forward and putting your face closer to his. He continues to stare.
"Come on, stretch out." You try to get him to loosen up. "The point of a bath is to relax, after all. No point in getting even more tense, right?"
"You... hm." He conceeds, stretching his limbs out tentatively, but it's an awkward tangle of limbs with you both sitting opposite each other. Then, you have an idea.
"Artem, what if we sat facing the same direction? I could just nestle myself between your legs. That would solve our space issue, and we'd be more comfortable."
He thinks about it. "I don't dislike the idea."
You stand up to spin around, your body covered in suds, and Artem politely averts his eyes a little, face still red, although you're not sure if it's from the steam or embarrassment at this point. You settle down between his legs, gently pressing up against his chest, and give a sigh of contentment. Artem is the best pillow anyone could ask for. As you purr and squirm to find a comfortable position, you feel a distinct hardness growing against your back and stifle a laugh to yourself. Artem's hands settle awkwardly around the curve of your waist, as if he's holding himself back from letting them wander.
"Comfortable?" you tease.
"Hn." He agrees. His cock has grown to full length now, and you can't help but rub yourself against it, feeling him stiffen. You turn your face slightly behind to look at him, and he doesn't dare to meet your eyes.
"You have soap on your face." He says in a matter of fact tone, reaching a hand out to wipe off soap bubbles on your nose very seriously. You giggle in response, then close the gap to kiss him, gently at first, then deepening it, still rubbing yourself slowly against his cock. You slide one of his hands up your body, encouraging him to grab onto your breast, and faced with so much stimulation, Artem loses control and lets out a small moan into your mouth.
That tiny noise is a sudden breaking of the floodgates, and you can almost hear him think, fuck it, as his hands surge up to hold your body closer to his, hips thrusting upwards greedily between the curves of your ass. Panting, you both break apart the kiss, and Artem dives for your neck, licking and sucking the soft skin until you are sure he will leave a bruise. Rolling your nipples between his clever fingers until he draws out a desperate cry from you, the other hand teasing your clit, your entrance, just barely slipping a finger in. You are writhing and completely at his mercy, reaching behind you to stroke his cock.
"Bed?" Artem asks, voice rough with desire. But you can't be bothered with all that now - getting out of the bath, drying yourself, all that nonsense. You want him now.
"I have a better idea," you reply, then turn around so that you are facing him again, sitting on top of him, nestling his cock between your thighs. He makes an attempt to continue with the foreplay, but you stop him.
"I need you, now." you beg him, and like the gentleman he is, he lets you climb on top of him, lining his cock up with your entrance, sliding into your slick warmth. You both cry out at the sensation, taking a few moments to stretch out and get used to the feeling. Then you slide up and down his cock, panting and not caring that the bathwater is sloshing onto the tiles below, probably getting all your clothes wet.
Artem throws his head back, until you can see the line of his throat, his eyes closed in pleasure. His hands are unceasing, moving to play with your breasts, guiding your waist as you plunge again and again on his cock.
An angle hits particularly well for both of you, and Artem opens his eyes, a wild abandon in them. He seizes your hips and thrusts his hips upwards, creating great swells in the water, but hitting that spot again and again until you feel like you are about to explode, begging him not to stop.
"I'm going to cum –!" you cry. "Please don't stop, oh, don't stop Artem!"
His hips drive into you faster and faster until you hit your orgasm, clenching around him. The tightness drives him over the edge, and with a last few thrusts, he follows suit, cock pulsing inside you as he fills you with his cum.
You collapse against his chest, breathing heavily, both locked in an embrace. Artem doesn't let you rest for too long, as he taps your shoulder.
"We'd better get out, or you'll catch a cold."
"Can't you let a girl bask in post-orgasm glory for a few minutes at least?" You complain, although you know he's right - the bathwater has gone cold during the time that you both were otherwise engaged. You peer out at the floor, where half the water seems to have tipped out onto. Artem catches what you're looking at and grabs your shoulders.
"On second thought, wait. Let me grab some towels for the floor, I don't want you to slip." He steps out of the bath and you watch him leave, sighing happily at what a thoughtful boyfriend you have.
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jamdoughnutmagician · 4 months
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New Year's Eve Kisses.
Steve Harrington x Reader (Fluff)
Just a short and fluffy NYE drabble with Steve, heavily based on this scene from Friends
Posting this a little early but whatever 🤷‍♀️
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Masterlist / Steve Harrington Masterlist.
The party is in full swing with everyone gathered in Steve’s house for a new year’s eve celebration. There’s banners, decorations and food and drink aplenty as all the party-goers stand around chatting in their groups.
“Yes! ‘87 baby! It’s finally going to be my year, Harrington. I can feel it!” Eddie beams brightly, his wide smile stretching across his face.
“Good luck, man.” Steve cheered back, clapping a hand on his shoulder. 
“We’re both happy for you, Ed.” you smile at your friend, although you wish you could share his enthusiasm about the new year drawing to a close.
You and Steve had been only dating for a few months, and Eddie was the only one who knew about you two. An unfortunate moment where he accidentally caught you both making out in a dark corner in The Hideout one time. Truth be told, Eddie didn’t think too much about it until he saw you leave the bar hand-in-hand with a matching pair of smiles on either of your faces.
Eddie noticed how your smile didn’t fully reach your eyes, and a worry set it’s place in his chest.
“Hey, what’s the matter?”  
“We wanted to kiss at midnight, but nobody else is going to, so we can’t either.” you explain with a sad tone in your voice.
“Don’t worry about that, sweetheart.” Eddie says with a nod. “Just let your old pal Eddie sort it all out.” he tells you all too confidently. 
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Eddie makes his way over to Robin where she is already enthusiastically beginning to countdown the seconds until midnight.
“33! 32! 31-” 
“-Hey Rob-” Eddie interrupts. “Who are you kissing at midnight, huh? Chrissy or Nancy?”
“What?” she replies in confusion.
“You gotta kiss somebody. You’re gay, so you’re not gonna kiss Steve.” Eddie explains further.
“So who’s going to kiss Steve?” 
“Y/N is.”
“Really?” She smirks, cocking her head to the side.
“Look, who would you rather have kiss Steve, me or y/n Eddie says with a quirked eyebrow.
“Oh definitely Y/n.” she decides all too quickly. “I suppose I’ll kiss Chrissy.”
“That’s great!” he smiles at her, with a pat on her shoulder before moving his way around the party.
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“Hey Chrissy!” Eddie shouts over to her above the music. “Robin’s going to kiss you at midnight!”
“Oh okay! Sounds good!” her cheeks flush pink at the idea of kissing that cute girl from the school’s band that she’d had a secret crush on for a while.
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“Nance! Nance!” Eddie shouts, getting her attention as he makes his way towards her. “I’m going to kiss you at midnight, okay?”
“What?” she shakes her head, her dark curls bouncing as she does.
“Everybody’s kissing someone, so I’m going to kiss you. Plus you can’t kiss Steve, you two have that whole weird history going on.”
“And?” she shakes her head once more, as if she wasn’t quite following what Eddie was putting forward.
“Besides, Jonathan’s not here, so who would you rather have kiss you, me or Robin?”  Eddie asks, with a confident nod of his head.
“Robin’s lovely, but I just don’t swing that way.” She confesses.
“Great.” Eddie smiles.
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The countdown to midnight draws closer and closer as everyone gathers by the television in Steve’s living room.
“3! 2! 1! Happy New Year!!” Everyone cheers, as they hug and peck the lips of their respective New years eve partners.
You wind your arms around Steve’s neck to bring him closer as his hands find their home on your hips, giving you a gentle and reassuring squeeze.
 Steve leans in close to you, his lips softly brushing against yours in a sweet kiss. 
“Happy New Year, Honey.”
“Happy New Year, Stevie.” you smile back at him, your eyes sparkling with love for the boy in front of you.
You couldn’t be more happy to have your Stevie in your life, and sharing a kiss with him at midnight was the perfect way to ring in the new year.
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@itsfreakingbats @penguinsandpotterheads @xxhellfirebunnyxx @onegirlmanytales @reidsbtch @willowsgrl @mrsjellymunson
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anakinsgirlfriendreal · 7 months
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Parts Of The Truth
Chapter Eight
Warnings: 18+, foul language, maybe some misspelling, infidelity, angst, family issues, discussions of pregnancy and abortion, honestly can't think of anything else lmk.
Padme, placed the phone back in her purse, nervously playing with the hem of her dress, she smiled at the couple across the table. Old friends from Anakin's college days.
"He's on his way, lost track of time with work," she excuses her husband's lateness.
"Oh, so he hasn't changed at all," Owen laughs.
His wife leans into him, "I'd hope he has, from what I remember he was quite a ladies man."
Padme laughs awkwardly, sucking in as much air as her lungs can take and breathing out again, "maybe we should order drinks." She beckons the waiter.
Fifteen minutes later Anakin finally arrives, kissing Padme's cheek and greeting his friends. She smiles when he sits next to her, his hand on her leg. Her face falls when she smells it; when she smells her, the smell of fresh roses and ocean breeze, a combination that could make anyone happy made her sick. Her mind tuned out the voices around her, the music playing in the restaurant, the laughter of their friends just background noise as her eyes zero in on his appearance, noticing every detail, the small wrinkles in his suit, the way he smelled, the way his hair was a little messy. Her breathing got heavy and she felt her heart beating in her ears. She stood up suddenly drawing attention from the trio around her. "Uh, sorry, I just- I need to use the bathroom," she excuses herself.
He looks up at her, "What's the matter love?" He asks his eyes soft. She shook her head, smiling.
"Maybe I should've stayed light on the margaritas, I'll be back." She walks away from the table and further into the bistro where the bathroom was.
Locking the door, she tried to calm herself down, gripping the sink, he felt her tears fall, she tried to compose herself, she lets out a small sob. Lately she'd been crying a lot; every time he came home smelling like roses, like the freshness of the ocean, every time he came home with his suit wrinkled or his hair disheveled claiming he was just stressed at work and got a bit comfortable, every time he'd reject her because he wasn't in the mood, every time he'd yell at her for pushing the idea of adoption or every time he didn't come home and didn't call to say where he was or if he was okay.
She dried her tears, reaching for her phone in her purse, finding your number.
You groan, reaching for your phone on the coffee table, pausing your show, you couldn't sleep so you decided to melt your brain with whatever garbage was trending, and the interruption was highly unwelcomed. Your mood lightened when you realized it was Padme.
"Padme hey" you smile as of she could see you over the phone, your mood dampens when you hear her voice, she sounded so sad.
"Hey, I just- I don't know why I called I don't know what's wrong with me I just needed to talk."
"okay, okay what's the matter"
"We're- we're at a restaurant right now, and and he was late and I just knew I just knew that he was with her and when he hugged me I could smell her and I just don't know if I can do this anymore" she cries.
You swallow the lump in your throat, if hell exists you were definitely leading the line there. "Padme I'm so sorry." It's all you could ever say.
"I feel so stupid," you can hear her sniffles "Ugh men don't you just wanna punch 'em right in their stupid perfect faces." She chuckles humorlessly.
"Well I know that feeling," you snicker.
"I'm sorry if I interrupted it's just nice to chat you know, I don't mean to burden you but you're like the only friend I have that gives a shit."
Your stomach twists into knots, "You don't burden me Padme."
You can almost hear her smile and you know it's sad, "thanks, alright well, I'm gonna splash some water on my fav and get back out there. Tell Darcy I say good night." She hangs up.
You put the phone down, running a hand over your face.
"You are so fucked up," Grace laughs.
You look at her warily, an annoyed expression on your face. "Grace."
"Relax, I got your back, secret's safe with me." She drags her fingers over her lips like a zip.
The next few weeks were nothing short of horrible, you now remembered why you and Grace never got along. She was constantly on your back about Anakin, walking around the house like she owned it, telling Darcy things she shouldn't know. You were going insane. Your mother was smart to ship her to you instead of dealing with her difficult personality on her own.
On top of all that you were sick; throwing up, constantly nauseous type of sick.
"Maybe you're pregnant" Ahsoka says, hands under her chin as she stared at you with raised brows.
You scoff, you hadn't even considered that. "Don't even joke."
She shrugs, "I'm just saying, this is exactly how you were when Darcy was cooking."
"I'm not pregnant okay, that's- actually not crazy" you shake your head, "fuck"
"is how you ended up here" Ahsoka quipped.
You chuckled, "that's pretty good."
She was about to respond when she's interrupted.
"Y/n." Padme approaches you, swiftly. Ahsoka's brows raised, you had told her of your new friendship, she thought you were stupid for that of course she was right.
"I thought I'd find you here, it's five soon, I thought we could do drinks" Padme turns to Ahsoka, "you're welcome to join."
Ahsoka smiles, "I would love to."
Padme claps, "Great, I could use the strongest...whatever they've got."
You sat at the bar with Padme and Ahsoka, shaking your head as Ahsoka took in all Padme's relationship drama. "I don't know, it's not like I've caught him right, but I know that he's cheating." Padme shakes her head, sipping her drink, "I can smell her on him as soon as he walks through the door." She turns to you, "Hey why aren't you drinking, we should get you a drink," she looks for the bartender. Her words were already slurred and you could tell she was tipsy.
"oh she can't drink" Ahsoka says.
Padme looks between you two, "well why the hell not" her eyes scan your face and then soften when she realizes, "oh, you're pregnant, honey that's amazing, congratulations."
You put your hand up, "well I'm not sure, I haven't taken a test."
Padme smiles, "oh, oh well then we're gonna buy one and do it right now!"
Ahsoka, who was also tipsy, nods along enthusiastically. "I LOVE THAT IDEA," she yells in your faces. Padme claps and calls over the bartender to pay the bill.
That's how you ended here, sitting in the stall of a drug store bathroom, peeing on a stick while Ahsoka and Padme laid on the floor peeping up at you.
"You guys are so weird"
"We love you" Padme says and you feel sick again.
You pick your cuticles waiting for the five minutes to be up, longest wait of your life. When the timer on your phone rings, Padme picks up the stick, staring at you excitedly, almost like she was the one pregnant.
"It's positive!"
You hit your head against the wall.
Padme frowns, "Oh come on this good right? Darcy will have another sibling, you'll have another baby- unless..."
You shake your head, "I can't keep it."
Ahsoka pouts, hugging you, letting your tears wet her sleeve. "Hey hey it's okay, that's your decision."
Padme sighs, in her mind she couldn't understand why someone wouldn't want to keep a baby, but that's because she struggled so much to even keep a pregnancy, she pushes her own feelings aside.
You hold your head in your hands, "I don't know what I'm doing." You confess. "I can't have another baby, what am I even thinking"
Ahsoka rubs your back, Padme looks in thought, "what about the father? He can support you, whoever he is. I don't mean to pry."
You shake your head, "he's-it's complicated." You almost out yourself. "He's travelling for work, his career is at it's peak, we just can't afford to have another baby." You cover up. Ahsoka is silent, she knew; of course she did, you always tell her everything.
Padme nods, taking your hand, "Well you have us, whatever you decide we'll be right here with you" she smiles, god you hate yourself. "Also if you decide not to keep it, at least you won't have to rip your vagina all over again, that's good right." It makes you laugh.
"Yeah that's something."
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girl,,, imagine the little moans and groans Tony would let out as you massage his shoulders and back to help him relax after a hard day!!!!!!!!!!!!! he'd be putty in your hands and he'd melt at how soft and intimate that moment is!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Personal masseuse
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Pairing: Young! Tony Stark x Reader
Warning: 18+ mentions of sex, hand job? fluff!
Masterlist
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You heard a soft groan and a huff as the bed dipped to your right, and a tired Tony Stark lay his head against his pillows.
“Are you alright?” You asked softly, placing your hand on his arm, waiting for your boyfriend to turn around.
“Mmhmm. Just a little sore. I don’t know why.”
“You don’t know why? Have you seen yourself hunch over that ever scattered table in your lab? I’m surprised you don’t have back issues yet, Tones.”
You chuckled, running your hands through his soft hair as he winced a little to finally face you.
“You can yell at me tomorrow, I’d like to sleep now please.” He murmured, not opening his eyes but humming as your fingernails massaged his scalp lightly.
“No.”
“No?”
“Get up.”
“Honey, I swear to—”
Cutting his sentence short, you snatched his duvet and made him sit, shifting on your knees to get behind the man. You could tell he was dead tired but you were simply going to aid him do the same, and you were determined.
Starting at the back of his neck, you placed both your thumbs over his warm skin first, drawing gentle circles around and increasing the pressure ever so slightly.
“Oh my good God Y/N…” he moaned, his muscles loosing under your touch slowly.
“Yes Tony?” You smirked, moving down to his shoulders with your ministrations.
“Don’t stop!”
You simply hummed, thoroughly enjoying his reactions as you massaged his back, soft moans and grunts leaving Tony’s lips every other moment as he relaxed under your touch.
Leaning forward, you kissed the side of his neck and watched him slack against you, insisting you for more.
This Tony was probably your favourite, relaxed and needy, tired but adorable.
“D’you moonlight as a masseuse?”
“Only for certain spoilt, genius MIT students.”
Placing soft kisses along his neck, you moved your hands further south, massaging between his shoulder blades, loosening more knots and feeling him turn to putty in your hands.
“Oh baby you really needed this, didn’t you?” You whispered, wrapping your arms around his middle; your smirk widened at the tent that had formed in his pants.
“What d’you mean?” His voice was laced with sleep as he buried his face against your neck.
“I mean…” you left the sentence unfinished, instead slipping a hand inside his pyjamas and wrapping it around his length, giving him a few pumps.
His soft moan was music to your ears, a sound that travelled straight to your core as you continued stroking him, precum already leaking from its tip. His breath turned shallower and grunts needier as he approached his end faster than usual.
Wasn’t long until his hips stuttered awkwardly and he let go, ropes of cum hitting his lower abdomen and your hand, a sinful grunt leaving his lips as he climaxed.
You wished to capture the moment for eternity; usually Tony Stark wasn’t one to give up control but there were rare days when he absolutely adored being taken care of and was completely at your mercy.
He was a perfect switch when it came to sex too, loved fucking you like he owned you and was the perfect obedient baby when you wanted.
“Now you may sleep. Not before I clean you up though, I’ll be just a moment.” With a chaste kiss against his cheek, you got up for a wash cloth from the bathroom.
By the time you returned, you shook your head fondly at the sight of Tony passed out against your pillows this time, his softened cock resting his abdomen and a satisfied smile on his handsome features.
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A surprise little drabble!
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l0serloki · 1 year
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okay so i was thinking how valo agents are where they’re kid is now more older like 3-8 years old, idk but the thought of it is so??😖😖
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Valorant Parent Headcanons
(Chamber, Reyna, Sova, Viper)
CW : GN!Reader, uhhh viper being a bad bitch as she should
A/N : YOU ARE SO RIGHT. I love soft family valorant agents <3 
ALSO K/N is kids name!!
Chamber : 
He’s the type of dad to enroll his kid in every sport or music class
‘K/N has to learn about the world! They’ll find a great hobby’
100% makes coffee and breakfast in the morning and reads the paper while his kid cries (we love the robe mom chamber look)
He makes time to go to every school recital and records it no matter how long it is
‘Our kid is so perfect Y/N. They get it from me’ (cue you punching him)
He spoils the kid rotten, taking you all on family trips
You walked into the kitchen to see your loving husband sipping away at his coffee as your children screamed. “Vincent, really?” You sighed making your way over to the twins. “It is fine, my love. Let them get it out and they’ll stop.” You loved the man but you didn’t know how he stood the noise.
“Hey kiddos, let’s calm down. Breakfast is made and we have to get ready for school.” The kids calmed down, leaning into your touch. You sat them at the table, placing their trays in front of them. Your son began talking about his violin lessons and how he had learned a new song. 
Chamber hummed, smiling at his little prodigy. “You will have to show me later. I am excited to see your progress.” He smiled towards the boy while your daughter pulled at his arm. “You too K/N, you are just as talented.” He kissed her head, picking up the dirty plates. “Have a good day at school, you two. Be nice to Y/N.” 
Reyna : 
She’s the aggressive soccer mom 100%
‘Touch my kid and you’re dead’
She would be the mom to pick up her kid from school when they got in trouble and be proud of them
‘Your kid threw a chair at another student’ ‘Good’ headass
She will hang up any drawings on the fridge and always be proud of her child
“Y/N, come here. Look at what our daughter drew. She is so talented.” Reyna’s voice sounded out as you walked into the backyard. Your wife stood smiling with a scribbled piece of paper in hand. Your daughter sat beside her, face gleaming with pride. “That’s right! I drew it.” Your daughter shot a finger gun and you could only laugh.
“Wow, this looks amazing. We have an artist in the family!” You leaned down to give Reyna a kiss, your daughter screeching. “EW, that’s gross! Stoooop.” The two of you laughed as you kissed her on the head. You loved your little family.
Sova : 
He’s such a soft dad
He will read stories to the kids to put them to bed (sometimes falling asleep himself)
Buys them little stuffed animals and trinkets whenever he has to travel for work
Your kid made him a bracelet at camp and he hasn’t taken it off since (it’s his good luck charm)
Sits and watches any disney movie for the 100th time with your kid because it makes them happy
“Papa, you kinda look like Ariel.” Your daughter spoke, making you laugh at the thought. “Ariel? You mean Eric?” Sova asked and she shook her head. “You both have long pretty hair! I think you are a mermaid, Papa.” He turned to meet your hues, confusion on his face. Your body shook as you continued to chuckle at the situation. 
“Right? He looks like Ariel.” You could only hum in agreement to your daughter. “He really does. My little princess.” You kissed Sova’s cheek as your daughter rested her head against your leg. Precious moments like these meant the world to you.
Viper : 
Bad bitch mom fr
She will curbstomp someone if they cut in line of the daycare check-in
‘Maybe learn some manners before you cut.’
She makes sure to always be there to support you and the kid, buying whatever you need (sugar mama viper)
‘I got the groceries and some toys for K/N.’ ‘You just got them a toy last week.’ ‘Oh.’
She likes doing little science experiments with your kid (like the volcano one that I feel like everyone does)
She loves taking you out to little theater shows or simple dates like ice skating
Your son screamed as Viper shoveled him in the car.
“K/N, would you stop? I told you I am going to get your toy! Just wait here.” Viper sighed as she made her way into the house to look for said toy. All three of you were going out to dinner and ice-skating. Viper said it would be a “Good family excursion and memory for K/N”. You agreed with her but K/N was not having a good time even buckling up. 
Finally after what felt like an endless abyss of tantrums, K/N calmed down and you all arrived. “K/N, are you ready to go skating? There’s pretty lights too.” Viper cooed as she helped your kid out of the baby seat. The two of you held onto your son's hand as you walked to the rink, happy to finally be out of the house. Viper was right, today would be a day to remember.
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Life Model - Part 1
Four weeks off sounded like a living nightmare for Ghost. Training and fighting was what kept him in routine and out of destructive thoughts. But… being shot in the leg did cause… issues. For his time healing, he had to walk with a crutch under his right arm, so he didn’t put weight on his injured right leg. Price had forced him to take those four weeks off, and had sent him to a paid-for apartment in a nearby city. Surely, he must’ve thought, Ghost would find *something* to do in a city.
No.
For the first week, he sulked in his room, laying in bed until he eventually went stir crazy and started exploring the surrounds. Coincidentally, that week of sulking and not moving did wonders for his leg. Sure, he wasn’t able to walk on it yet, but it was a whole lot less achy when he was out walking.
He started by establishing a walking route. This apartment he was forced to stay in was in the outskirts of the city. It would take an hour to walk to the city centre and an hour back. This was what Ghost decided to do. An hour to the city centre, buy food, go back ‘home’, eat, go walking in the nearby park.
This new ‘schedule’ turned out… rather good. The walking made him feel more useful. Less stir crazy. He was able to soak in the sun, or what warmth from the sun seeped through his jumper and mask. It was refreshing.
On the third day of these walks, Ghost noticed a community noticeboard full to the brim with papers advertising jobs, sales, events, and various religious preachings. Maybe here would be where he would find something *entertaining* to do.
“Group Prayer” - no thanks. Ghost didn’t particularly believe in that mumbo jumbo.
“Join the army!” - been there done that.
“Markets on Sunday morning! 6am!” - he’d consider it. Markets always had the best food.
He flicked through some of the notes until he found a hand written one pinned up with two blue pins. The penmanship was phenomenal.
“In need of life models to draw. Quiet environment. Music or no music. Any body shape, any gender, any clothing choices. Text me:”
This… wasn’t something that would usually interest Ghost. But today, after being cooped up in an apartment for months… it piqued his interest. He took a photo of a few of the notices, then made his way back to the apartment. He had bought a few food items that he could store and eat, as well as some fancy looking tea to drink while doing mundane and brain numbing shit such as reading a book Price had given him.
He made a cup of said tea, no sugar and no milk, he was sweet enough already (he lied to himself), and sat down at the tiny dining table. Here, he could write the dates of some of the interesting events from that noticeboard. When he got to the life drawing advertisement, however, he put down his pen and journal and texted the number.
He was acting on a whim and he knew it, but this would surely be more interesting than staying home.
“I saw your notice in the city. I think I would be interested in being drawn.”
The number responded almost immediately.
“Nice!! When are you free? :)”
Emoticons… stupid.
“Any time. The sooner the better.”
“Oh sweet :) tomorrow? I live about half an hour away from the city.”
“Time?”
“Any time in the morning, then we can have all day. Sound good?”
“Yes.”
“Cool!” The number sent their address. “I’m Johnny, by the way.”
“Ghost. I’ll try to come around 10:00AM.”
“Sounds perfect, see you then :)”
Tomorrow, 10am… with this overly friendly man named Johnny who he’s never met… fun. Ghost sipped his tea and sighed. Hopefully he wouldn’t mind him having a mask on and crutches. He *had* said anyone could be drawn. And yet… he felt as if he had to warn him.
“By the way, I’m a military officer on a break because I’m injured. I have a crutch and I will be masked the whole time. Is that okay?”
“Perfectly fine. I like variety.”
Johnny responded so fast…
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What type of music do you think la squadra members are into?
Also what type are you into!
What’s La Squadras Favorite Music?
Oh good question! This one definitely made me think! Thinking about their lives outside of their work makes you wonder…
CW: weed? And Melone just being Melone
Risotto
Music genre: Definitely metal this poor guy is a walking stereotype I stg 😭
Bands: Opeth, Dream Theater, and a classic-Rob Zombie
Where/what do they do while listening to music?-
He’s usually listening to his favorite songs in his office doing paperwork. Rarely if he’s in a good mood you can hear him lowly hum to the melody 🥺
Formaggio
Music genre: stoner rock - I’m not familiar with this genre but Formaggio would be! I HC him hard as someone who’s super chill and wants to relax with some psychedelic music.
Bands: Grateful Dead, Black Sabbath, Fu Manchu
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Usually when hanging out with others and rolling up a fat one 🌿 what’s better than listening to psychedelic music with the guys while passing the grass 🥳
Illuso
Music genre: classic pop - he’s always knows what’s popular but new stuff nowadays seems to turn to trash to this snooty man!
Bands: Duran Duran, The Smiths, Wham!
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Usually when showering and doing his beauty routine. He also listens to music when he’s cleaning, he hates the silence and always needs some background noise.
Prosciutto
Music genre: swing- ya like jazz? 😉I SWEAR this uptight dork loves jazz ! 😆 I hear people seeing him as a stoner but he just seems too uptight for me so I think this guy must like Jazz!
Bands: Frank Sinatra(supposedly not really jazz but what do I know lol), Michael Bublé, Bing Crosby
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Listening when he’s relaxing. He’s in a big arm chair with his feet kicked back on the coffee table smoking a cigarette and drinking some nice wine 🍷 he likes to be classy 💅
Pesci
Music genre: Grunge- this poor guy needs something to get his angst out and grunge is the perfect genre for him to let him blow off steam peacefully.
Bands: Nirvana, Soundgarden , Stone Temple Pilots
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
He listens to music usually when he’s waiting on something. Waiting at the doctors office… waiting for the train… listening on the train. He also likes to listen with one earbud in when he’s fishing or exercising.
Melone
Music genre: techno/D&B- this guy loves the repetitive sound of drums and bass. It’s good for his focus whenever he’s messing around on his laptop.
Bands: Pendulum, Lords of Acid, The Prodigy
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Listening when he’s deep at work on his laptop. What’s he doing on his laptop? God who knows? 😬 also likes to listen to the raunchier songs during “special activities”. You ask him for clarification not me 😳
Ghiaccio
Music genre: this nerd likes metal too-🩵 I’ve met many metal heads and at least half of them were nerds 🥰 don’t complain to him about Nu metal and what’s real metal- he doesn’t care! If it gets his anger out that’s all he cares about! 😤
Bands: Deftones, System of a Down, Pantera
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
He likes to blast his music loud while he’s driving down the freeway. It boosts his mood and he’s a little bit of an adrenaline junkie. He also listens to it when he’s on a 1000- K run. He secretly wishes his hair was long so he could do those long haired head bangs like the musicians do 🤭 he will take this secret to his grave
BerylCups aka: Kris
Music genre: it’s a tie between metal and techno - odd combo! My music taste is all over the place 🤪
Bands: Rammstein, Alice In Chains, Depeche Mode (My top 3 at the moment)
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
I’m usually blasting it on my afternoon commute to work. Also while I’m working or drawing (all involves me hunched over a PC lol) or I decide to not be a vampire and go outside for a walk 😆
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give me novacaine || reader x myg
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Lost and spiraling, Yoongi can’t stop himself from thinking about what he could have done differently to keep from losing you - if he'd been a better man, if he'd spent more time with you, if he'd been more affectionate, maybe he would have known sooner…and maybe he could have kept you from betraying him. Inspired by When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars. 
Pairing: reader x MYG (if you can call it that); feat. JK and Hobi Word count: 5.6k  Rating: M / R (18+) Genre: angst, breakup au Warnings: descriptions of cuts, blood, and broken glass, (extremely) foul language, hobi being an angel as usual, jk being kind of a badass A/N: hey there and welcome! this is the sequel to my fic bang bang (shameless plug) so i would definitely recommend reading that one first because you will probably be a bit confused if you don’t :) actually really enjoyed writing this one, so i hope you enjoy reading it just as much. beta’d and bannered as always by the amazing april (@onmypillow-onmytable​)! thx! ly - robyn P.S. I do not own BTS or their likenesses, nor do I own the music of Bruno Mars (lol), they just inspire me. 
part of the unorthodox jukebox collection (masterlist)
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“Wake up, sleepyhead.” A soft touch on Yoongi’s cheek draws him out of his slumber and back into real life. 
“Hmm,” he grumbles, reluctantly opening his eyes to find you next to him, smiling gently, pale morning sunlight illuminating you from behind like a halo. “You couldn’t let me sleep a few minutes longer?” 
“I couldn’t help it,” you say. “I like seeing you right when you wake up, all grumpy and half-asleep. Like a cat.”
Yoongi can’t help but let out a small chuckle. “I’ll get you for that.” He reaches out a hand to pull you toward him, bringing your face mere inches away from his. 
“Good morning,” you say softly, staring into his eyes. 
“Good morning.” He presses his forehead against yours. 
“I was just thinking…” You hesitate. “I’ve never met anyone like you, Min Yoongi.”
“Oh? Is that a good thing or a bad thing?”
You lean in suddenly, placing a gentle kiss on his lips. “A good thing, of course. A very good thing.” 
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A crack of thunder sounds, jolting Yoongi awake. Rain beats against the full picture windows, fat drops streaming down like tears. He blinks, the insides of his eyelids feeling like full-grit sandpaper scraping against his corneas. 
He wasn’t dead. 
He was still very much alive. And on top of that, still dreaming about you, even though you were gone and every part of him that had once held love was filled with his hatred of you, his empty apartment still echoing with the sounds of your betrayal. 
How unfortunate. Especially the part where he was still alive. 
He sits up slowly, peeling the side of his face from the leather couch, and his head throbs so sharply and violently that his vision clouds. “Fucking hell,” Yoongi mutters, fingers digging into his pulsing temples, as if that would solve anything. He takes a glance around the room. The place is a mess. He struggles to his feet, swaying unsteadily as his vision starts to swim again. It’s dark still but just light enough to indicate that morning is on its way, ready to remind him that he’d been just stupid and just desperate enough to be taken in by your ruse. Something crunches underfoot as he’s feeling his way out of the room. He reaches down, feeling blindly for the source of the noise, and a sharp stabbing pain pierces into the soft, fleshy part of his hand. “Shit!” he snaps. It’s glass. Of fucking course it’s glass. The remnants of a whiskey bottle lay in pieces on the floor, and he remembered now, that he’d thrown it at the wall last night. Blood pools in the dip of his palm, the cut apparently deeper than it felt. “Perfect,” he says under his breath. “Just perfect.”
The water in the sink runs red for what feels like forever, but it finally stops long enough for him to disinfect it and wrap it in a swath of gauze and medical tape. The wrapping is sloppy, but it’ll keep everything in place for as long as it needs to. He’s struck suddenly by another memory. 
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“Ah, fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck. That hurts!” You’re supposed to be chopping vegetables for stir fry, but he looks over to see you gritting your teeth, a bloodstained dish towel wrapped around your hand. 
“Let me see.” Yoongi reaches for the towel, but you nearly yank your hand away from him. 
“No! I can’t.”
“Why not?” He reaches for it again. 
“I’m afraid to look.” You squeeze your eyes shut while he unwraps the towel from your hand. Blood still oozes from a small but seemingly deep cut on your middle finger. “My finger is still there, right?” 
“What finger? I don’t see a finger.” 
Your eyes shoot open. “Yoongi! Come on.”
“Made you look.” He grins, pulling you over to the sink. “It’s just a little cut. Here, rinse it off first, and I’ll bandage it up for you.” You wait silently, wincing slightly as he dabs disinfectant on the cut. He wraps the bandage securely but not too tightly around your finger. “There.” Yoongi lifts your hand and kisses it gently. “Better?” 
“Much,” you manage, cheeks coloring. 
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Could he have done more? He knows he should have – definitely could have – been better. On one hand, he’d tried, hadn’t he? He’d tried to be gentle and attentive, to go against all of his past experiences with women and relationships; his mother, for one, and her incessant stream of boyfriends, an array of different faces that were all the same, faces who would all sneer at him on his way out of the house and tell him to straighten up and respect his mother. He’d ended up something like her anyway, for a time, an near-ceaseless series of one night stands and unattached partners filtering in and out of his apartment for a good part of his early twenties – but that was different. You were different. He hadn't ever loved any of them the way he loved you. He'd tried to never let you see the side of him that could be angry and sometimes violent. On the other hand – he should have known better. It wasn’t like you were his first anything. He should have known that some women wanted more than just your time. They wanted to be doted upon, made to feel special, surprised with the occasional gift or dinner out on a random Tuesday – and he hadn’t done a very good job of that. He wasn’t good at giving gifts, unlike Hoseok, who somehow seemed to be able to intuit the perfect gift for someone within minutes. He hadn’t ever gotten the impression any of that was something you wanted, and it certainly wasn’t something he wanted, either. He hated those types of little grand gestures. They were sappy. Cringe-inducing. Unoriginal. All qualities he’d never considered himself to possess. 
Was that really all it would have taken for you not to stab him in the back? A surprise date at the nicest restaurant in the city? Could a bouquet of flowers on a random Wednesday make you call it off with every other guy you were seeing? There was no way it could be that simple, could it? If it was, then maybe all of his teachers were right, and he really was the biggest idiot in South Korea, if he hadn't managed to figure that one out. Yoongi closes his eyes and lets out a short laugh, his bandaged hand still humming with pain. “I really must be a dumbass, huh, y/n?” he mutters. “Stupidest motherfucker on the planet. Is that what you wanted? Fucking flowers?” 
He checks the time on his watch. Quarter to six. Too late to go back to bed and too early to go to work. Not even go-getter Jungkook shows up to work that early, and despite being in charge Yoongi is never there before eight or nine unless he has to be. Well, someone has to clean up the glass in the front room, and he can’t show up for work still reeking of whiskey. Jungkook does pretty much nothing but eat and work out in his spare time; he’ll throw Yoongi over one shoulder like a sack of flour and carry him back home to sleep it off if he so much as catches a whiff, so a shower is in order before he can go anywhere. It may not be much but he’s got to do something to keep his mind off you and all of the little things he did wrong. 
The shower does little to improve his mood or his raging headache, but the show must go on, as they say, and he forces himself out the door shortly after eight. As glad as he is to have you and your lies out of his life, he has to admit his apartment feels empty without you, silent in a way that it hasn’t felt since the first time he invited you over. Once he’s at work he quickly sequesters himself in his office, the door shut firmly behind him, and an hour or so in only confirms what he knows already but doesn’t want to acknowledge: he’s not going to be getting much of anything done today. The rain is still beating a lull against his windows, the task at hand is long forgotten, and a nap is sounding more and more appealing by the second. His mind is already starting to drift, eyelids dropping shut like window shades. 
There’s a quick rap at the door, and whoever is out there doesn’t even wait for a response before it opens. “Yoongi-ssi?” Jungkook's looming figure hovers tentatively in the doorway. 
“Hm?” Yoongi barely lifts his head from where it’s propped on his good hand. “What, Jungkook?” He can’t even muster up the energy to bark at Jungkook like he usually does when he hesitates a second too long; he can only turn his head slightly and squint in the younger man’s direction. 
“Is…everything okay?” Jungkook says finally, stepping further inside. “You look like shit.” 
“Thanks for that,” mutters Yoongi, eyes still half-closed. “I’m fine. Go away.” 
Jungkook ignores him. “You really don’t look so good, Yoongi. Are you sure you should be here right now?”
“I said I’m fine,” he snaps, wincing as a sharp pain shoots through his head. “Don’t you have work to be doing?” 
“Well, yeah, but—”
“So get out of my office and go do it, then.” Yoongi scowls. “I’m not paying you for your company.”
“Okay,” Jungkook says, eyebrows pinching in concern, “but, you know, I would understand if you wanted to take the rest of the day. We don’t really have a lot going on at the moment, just a couple of small cases. I can take care of things for a day or two. That’s kinda why you hired me, isn’t it?” 
“I’m fine, Jungkook.” Yoongi lets out a heated sigh. “What I want is for you to leave me alone. Please,” he adds as an afterthought. “Just go away.” 
Jungkook doesn’t budge, instead staying firmly rooted in front of the desk. “What happened, hyung?” 
Yoongi doesn’t speak right away, knowing exactly what Jungkook is asking. “It’s over,” he murmurs. “She’s gone. That’s all you need to know. I don’t want to talk about it.” No need to tell him how you tried to defend yourself, even with the photographic evidence right in front of you, or any of the horrible things you both said to each other, or about the deafening silence that fell after you stormed out, the long night of beating himself up over every little regret that followed and trying to drown out the voices in his head. 
He eyes Yoongi skeptically, gaze twitching from his face to his bandaged hand. “You didn’t do anything…crazy, did you?”
“Of course not,” he grumbles, shoving the injured hand under his desk. “Y/n L/n is still out there walking around on her own two hooves, I promise. Jesus, Kook, who do you think I am, huh? I may be impulsive but I’m not stupid enough to kill anyone.”
“Then…what did you do to your hand?” 
“Broke a bottle. Sliced my hand open while I was trying to clean it up. Any more questions, or can we move on? I’m really not in the mood for this.” 
“No, I guess not,” Jungkook says quietly, dropping his head to avoid eye contact. “I’m sorry. I know how you felt about her, but…it’s for the best.”
 A rush of anger floods through him. No, you don’t. You don’t know how I felt. You don’t know what it’s like at all. Being unwanted, everyone, yourself included, wishing you would just disappear, then thinking finally, here’s someone who accepts you, someone who loves you, despite every bad thing you’ve ever done, only to have it all blow up in your face because she never loved you, she was only stringing you along for her own amusement. It’s mortifying. You don’t know anything. And I hope to God you never do. I hope you stay blissfully ignorant of the way real pain and heartbreak feels, because it’ll make you want to crawl into a hole and die. He doesn’t say any of what he’s thinking and simply shrugs. “What’s done is done. Like I said, I don’t really want to talk about it. Let’s get to work, huh?”
“Yeah. For sure.” Jungkook turns to leave, then hesitates. “She wasn’t a good person, Yoongi. I wouldn’t lose too much time thinking about her. There’ll be someone else one day. Someone who’ll be a better match for you than she ever was. I guarantee it.”
“It’s fine,” Yoongi says, though it isn’t. “I’m already past it. Just go, okay? Close the door on your way out.” What is it with Jungkook and making promises he can’t keep? That’s his problem right there, guaranteeing this and that and hoping for the best when the only thing anyone’s guaranteed in life is death. For all Jungkook knows Yoongi is destined to die alone, just like you said, and even that would be more than he could have hoped for. Maybe you’re right, and no one will ever love him but you, not that you had ever really loved him anyway. He knows he’s hard to love: stubborn, ornery, a little too private for most people's liking. Spend most of your life getting knocked around the way he has and it's no wonder no one wants anything to do with him. He's damaged goods, after all. Scratches and dings everywhere. Too much baggage for even the most sainted person to deal with. Maybe he is better off alone. It’s lonely, but no one gets hurt that way. Hearts stay guarded, hearts stay intact. Is that the secret?
Almost as soon as Jungkook leaves, his phone vibrates on his desk. His number is private, which means it can only be one person. He sighs and allows the call through. “Yeah?”
"Yoongi-ah!" Hoseok's exuberantly cheerful voice breaks through the speakers. Yoongi has always wondered how one person can be in such good spirits all the time. "I'm glad I caught you. I was wondering, did you mean to call me last night?"
"No," says Yoongi. "Just an accident. Sorry.” What he doesn't know won't hurt him. 
"Huh. Okay." Now he sounds skeptical. He can almost see Hoseok’s face pursing into a frown. “Because I could have sworn I heard—”
“It was nothing, Hobi,” he says firmly. “I was drinking and I must have bumped your number or something. That’s all.”
“Drinking on a weeknight? Is everything okay?”
Damn it. Why does Hoseok have to know him so well? “Everything’s fine. Had a rough day at work yesterday. You know how it is.” Hoseok doesn’t know exactly what it is he does for a living, but he has some idea. 
“Well…okay.” He can tell his friend still doesn’t believe him. “I guess I was imagining things. But, you know you can always talk to me, right? If there’s ever something you want to talk to me about. I’m here to listen.”
“Yeah. Of course.” Yoongi swallows hard, the words sticking in his throat. 
Hoseok continues. "Anyway, while I’ve got you, I was going to ask if you wanted to come over for dinner sometime. It's been forever. Hyorin and I would love to see you. And when are you going to come see your godson? Junho has grown so much, you’d barely recognize him if you saw him.” Junho is what, six months old now? Hoseok and Hyorin had insisted on making him Junho’s godfather when he was born, despite Yoongi’s protests, saying there was no one better for the job than him. “Bring y/n with you. We’ve been dying to meet her. And I have to see for myself the woman who managed to crack through that tough outer shell of yours so quickly.” Hoseok likes to claim that it took a year’s worth of his mother’s lunches for Yoongi to crack even slightly, while for you it only took a matter of months to get right to the heart of things.
His words stab at Yoongi's chest like knives. “Uh…yeah. We’ll have to get together sometime.” Coward. The word floats in front of his eyes again, the same way it did last night when he hung up instead of talking to Hoseok. What kind of coward are you that you can’t even tell your best friend that it’s over, that she’s gone, that she played you for a fool? How long are you going to go on dodging him and letting him think everything is fine when it’s not? “About that,” says Yoongi. “Y/n and I – we broke up. Yesterday.” 
“What?” Yoongi can tell Hoseok is genuinely floored by this. “Are you — really? What happened? Didn’t you say you were about to ask her to move in with you? Officially?” 
Yoongi chuckles bitterly. “We discovered some, uh, irreconcilable differences. And she cheated on me. With multiple people.”
"Yoongi..." Hoseok sighs. "I'm sorry. I wouldn’t have said anything if I’d known. You doing okay?"
“Oh, I'm fine,” Yoongi says dismissively. "I'll get through it, I always do. You know me. Anyway, better to have that all out in the open now than later, right?” He can’t even force himself to imagine what it would be like if they’d been married. At least ten times worse, probably. Would he have ever even wanted to be married to you? He’d barely even begun to think about the possibility, to picture what it would be like to have you as his wife, to start a family with you. A happy little family, something he’d never had before. The very idea repulses him now. 
“You don’t have to hide it, you know.” Hoseok seems to know something he isn’t letting on. “It’s okay to be upset. That was a shitty thing for her to do. It’s a shitty thing for anyone to do. You wouldn’t be the only one to—”
“Aish, seriously, I’m fine.” Yoongi rubs at his forehead in frustration, unwilling to admit that Hoseok is absolutely right. “I knew it was all going to come to an end sooner or later.  Everything does for me. It just came sooner than I expected.”
Hoseok pauses momentarily, and for a second Yoongi wonders if maybe he’s gone too dark on him. ”Listen, why don’t you come over tonight instead?” Hoseok says finally. “Hyorin is making dakgalbi. I know it’s your favorite, and she always makes enough to feed the entire military. You should come. We can catch up. What do you think?”
Yoongi lets out a humorless laugh. “Your wife, who likes me for some reason, just so happens to be making dakgalbi the day after I find out my girlfriend has been cheating on me for the better part of our relationship? Almost sounds too good to be true.” Just as it had been for someone like you to have any real interest in him at all. Too good to be true. 
“It must be fate then.” He pictures Hoseok shrugging. “And you shouldn’t argue with fate, right?”
“Thanks, but I think I’ll take my chances. I’ve managed so far, haven’t I?” Managed to screw everything up and drive everyone who matters away from you, he thinks. “I don’t think I’d be very good company right now, anyway.”
“Okay, well, if you won’t come over for dinner, I’ll bring you leftovers tomorrow. How about that?” Hoseok is just the same as he’s always been: trying to take care of Yoongi when it should really be the other way around. He must have had such a glowing, happy childhood to end up this kind and caring as an adult. How had a fuckup like Yoongi ever managed to become friends with someone as pure as Hoseok? 
“Fine,” he relents. “You do that. But call first, okay?”
“Of course.” Voices sound behind him on the other end of the line. “Listen, I’ve got to go now, but we’ll talk tomorrow, all right? And Yoongi?”
“What?” 
“It’s not your fault. I know it hurts right now, but she chose to cheat all on her own. You didn’t make her do it. So cut yourself some slack, okay? Someday it’ll all work out.” Why does everyone keep trying to tell him that? It’s all just empty platitudes anyway. Nothing works out for him. It never has. In fact, it’s surprising that his own company hasn’t crashed and burned yet. 
He hears your scornful voice in his ears again. If you’d paid more attention to me, you would have figured it out sooner. You don’t care. You never cared. Would Hoseok still be saying that if he knew the whole story about what I was doing back then? Yoongi wonders. Would he still choose to see only the good in me? Would he still be willing to call me his friend? Godfather to his firstborn child? Anything at all? “Yeah, right. I’m sure. Thanks anyway.”
“I’m your best friend. It’s what I’m here for.” Hoseok hangs up.“You’re my only friend,” mutters Yoongi dryly, long after the line has gone dead.
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He should not be doing this. Not today. But he’d insisted to Jungkook that he was fine, and being fine meant leaving the office for a few hours to do some surveillance for a case they were working. It wasn’t as if Jungkook had forced him; if anything he’d basically told him that he could handle it on his own, as he’d been saying all morning, but that it was easier for two people than one, just in case anything happened. Yoongi had decided to come anyway, his headache having tapered off some, and the distraction would – hopefully – keep his mind off everything, namely you. He was beginning to regret that decision, almost as soon as he’d made it. The rain still hadn’t let up, and the guy they were supposed to be tailing hadn’t moved from his table at the cafe where he’d been sitting for the past forty-five minutes. It was hard to believe that the client thought that this guy was even a threat to their personal safety – but a job was a job, and a paranoid client with deep pockets was better than no client at all. 
How things had changed in the past ten years of his life. Ten years ago he was still pickpocketing people like his client, on top of working long, miserable hours in the kitchen of some god-awful restaurant, having to scrape just to put food in his mouth and pay the rent on his tiny shithole of an apartment. Of course his mother had been no help; she’d been the one to kick him out in the first place, claiming she’d already done her duty by allowing him to live rent-free under her roof for nineteen years, as if he were just some freeloading roommate and not her son. Yoongi’s thievery had started innocently enough, as innocent as lifting wallets off unsuspecting people could be. A means to an end. That was all it was ever supposed to be, a way to supplement his measly paycheck when things were tight. Then the wrong people had taken notice of his talents, turning it into something far bigger and far darker than he had ever intended for it to be, and sending him hurtling down a path he’d never wanted to venture down, but found himself unable to stop until it was almost too late. Was it his fault, then, that things had ended up this way? All of his past transgressions, everything he’d done and regretted now, falling in love with someone who would never truly be his in any capacity - had all of that been preordained the moment he lifted that first wallet in Gangnam Station? Yoongi was starting to think you might be right, that no matter how much good he did, no matter how many people he protected and thefts he prevented, he would always remain the same on the inside. He could put on an expensive suit and cut his hair and act like he was doing it all for the greater good, but deep down he’d always know it was just that: an act. He was, in the purest sense of the word, a fraud. Just as you had said. A fraud, a liar, and a thief. 
What if you did decide to go back on your word? What if you told everyone – his clients, his colleagues, his friends – about how he’d gotten to be where he was? Would it make any difference? He’d threatened to reveal it himself – but would he? Could he allow everything he’d so carefully built to come crumbling down like a house of cards? If any of that happened he would be right back where he started ten years ago. Alone. Hoseok probably wouldn’t want anything to do with him if he knew what Yoongi had done to get by, certainly wouldn’t want him anywhere near his wife and son. Jungkook, perhaps, could be counted on to stick around, but Yoongi wasn’t holding his breath. Maybe that would be a good thing. No more secrets. No more lies. No friends or associates. A fresh start. 
“Yoongi-ssi?” Jungkook’s voice crackled in his earpiece, startling him back into reality. “Status report?” 
Yoongi glanced up at the man’s table, which was currently being bussed – because it was empty. “Fuck!” he swore under his breath, hurrying out onto the street. 
“Something happen?” says Jungkook. 
Yoongi sighs angrily. “Something happened, all right. I lost him, Kook.” The guy might not have been dangerous, but he’d walked away right in front of him – and Yoongi hadn’t even noticed because he was lost in his head, daydreaming about the past. How stupid did he have to be to let that happen? “He was there two minutes ago, I swear.” 
“Shit,” he hears Jungkook mutter. “Well, he’s on foot, he can’t have gotten far. I’m in the area. Let me see what I can do.” Jungkook goes silent.
Yoongi paces on the sidewalk, unsure what to do with himself. He’s never lost a tail before, not like this. Not even someone trying to lose themselves in a crowd could shake him off. He’s useless. Especially today. The rain pours, pelting painfully against his skin. 
Pathetic, sneers your voice in his head again. I thought you were supposed to be good at this. 
“Got him.” His colleague’s triumphant voice finally breaks through after what seems like an eternity. “Headed for the subway station. We’ll probably lose contact once I’m underground, so I’ll touch base once I’m topside again.” 
He used to wonder where Jungkook would be without him – probably still working for the gangster his father owed money to, still under the guise that he’d be dismissed whenever the debt was paid – but now Yoongi wonders where he’d be without Jungkook. The kid is too good for this business, he thinks, and should really be doing something more honorable with his skills. Police work, maybe, or working in intelligence, not private security. Something entirely unrelated, even. He’s far too talented to waste his life working for someone like Yoongi. “Good.” He exhales a sigh of relief, pinching at the space between his eyes. “Stay on him.” Jungkook doesn’t need him, not anymore. Maybe he never did. Maybe that was just something he’d always told himself to make himself feel better about essentially hijacking the trajectory of Jungkook’s life. “You going to be alright if I head home? I don’t think I’m going to be much use here.” 
“I’ll be fine, but…” Jungkook sounds like he wants to say something else but holds back. “Okay. Have a good night, boss. I’ll update you when I get back to the office.”
“Thanks.” says Yoongi gruffly. “And…I’m sorry.” 
"Don't worry about it," says Jungkook. "I've been telling you to go home all day. Go on, I've got this covered."
Yoongi chuckles wryly before he pulls his earpiece out. Home. That might be the last place on earth he wants to be right now. But where else is he going to go?
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It’s been a long day. A very long day. One with a lot of thinking, and still more to go. The front room is back in order and dark shadows are beginning to fall around him as the rainy afternoon gradually fades into night. He's staring out at the city skyline, lights blinking on one by one like stars, contemplating his next move when his phone vibrates. Jungkook, presumably with an update on today's subject. "Nothing too interesting to report. You were right, the guy’s harmless." 
"Hah," Yoongi scoffs. "I wouldn't take my word for it." 
"I'll keep an eye on him," says Jungkook, "and let you know if anything else comes up."
"Sounds good." Yoongi hesitates. "Listen, Jungkook…about earlier. I'm thinking about taking some time off work. Do you think you could handle things for a while?"
"Of course I can. But how long is a while?"
"I don’t know. Indefinitely?" The line goes silent and Yoongi is momentarily afraid that he's lost him. "Kook, you still there?"
"Yeah. Still here." Jungkook sounds stunned. "I was trying to figure out if you just said what I think you just said. You said indefinitely, right?"
"As in, I'm not sure when I'll be back? No, you heard me right." 
"Well…why?" He pictures the puzzled look on Jungkook’s face, eyes widening, eyebrows scooting together in confusion. 
Yoongi lets out a sigh and stares down, examining the bandage on his hand. “Got some things to sort out. I’m not sure that I can trust myself right now, and I don’t think I should be doing this when I can’t even trust my own judgment. It’s risky for all of us. Someone could get hurt.” That’s all he wants. Just once in his life, for people to stop getting hurt because of him. 
“Right. I understand that, and I recognize what you’re doing, but Yoongi, you know what you’re asking, don’t you? A couple of days is one thing, but I have no idea how to run things for that long. Especially when I don’t know when you’ll be back. You know I don’t mind doing it, it’s just…a really big ask.” 
“I’ll be back, Jungkook. It’s not like I won’t.” Yoongi chuckles. “You’re the only one that’s qualified. And you’re the only one I trust to do this. I can trust you, right?” The question is almost rhetorical. The kid has more than proven himself in the whole time he’s known him. 
He hears Jungkook take a deep breath. “Of course. You can count on me, hyung. I’ve got this.” 
“That’s good to hear.” Yoongi does feel bad about leaving it all on Jungkook to pick up the slack, but he knows he can handle it. Things will be just fine without him, at least for a while. Everything always has been. Black Swan might even be better off with Jungkook at the helm instead of him. “I’m sorry for dropping this on you at the last minute.” 
“Please,” Jungkook scoffs. “I told you, I’ve got this.” His voice changes, growing softer, less brash. “So…what will you do while you’re gone?” 
“Hm. Not sure yet.” Yoongi smiles faintly. “You know, I’ve never really been on a vacation. Maybe I’ll leave the city, go somewhere sunny. Tropical and warm. Maybe the mountains.”
“That’ll be nice.” There’s a beat of silence. “So…this is it, then,” Jungkook says. “You’re really going.” 
“Don’t get all sappy on me now, Kook,” says Yoongi briskly. “I’m your boss. We’re not really friends, are we?” They’re not friends, not just colleagues. They’re partners. Is that really any different?
“Yeah. Sorry. Well, good luck, boss. I’ll be here, as long as you need me to be. I hope you get everything figured out.” 
“Yeah.” Yoongi heaves another sigh. “Me too. Goodbye, Jungkook. I’ll be in touch.” He hangs up before Jungkook can get any sappier on him and stares down at his hands again. He’ll leave town, maybe in a few days or so, go somewhere far away and stay there until it feels right to come back. But there’s one last thing he has to do tonight before he can go anywhere. 
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The door in front of him swings open, and the savory smell of stir-fried chicken wafts out. “Yoongi?” Hoseok looks him up and down, taking in Yoongi’s rain-soaked appearance. “What are you – did you walk here? It’s pouring out. You’ll get sick.” Same old Hoseok, the mother he never had. 
“Hobi,” he says, ignoring his friend’s fussing. “Sorry I didn’t call first, but I was in the neighborhood and I got to wondering…does that dinner invitation still stand?” 
“Always, but…” Hoseok falters. “I thought you said—”
“You know I can’t resist free food.” Yoongi smirks. “And…” He hesitates. His past is dark, littered with thorns and broken glass, winding paths to hell built upon good intentions. He can’t change that. But he can change his present – his future, too. And it starts with being honest with the people around him, whatever the fallout may be. No more secrets. No more lies. Especially to the people he cares about. “I decided I could really use someone to talk to.” 
“Okay, well – get in here, then.” Hoseok pulls him inside, where it’s warm and bright and filled with life. “We’ve got a lot to catch up on.” 
Things will be better without you. Not now, but eventually. Maybe someday it will all work out like everyone keeps trying to tell him. Maybe there is still happiness to be found in this life.
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Pride, Identity, and Advice (Dadbastian Days 1,2,5,6)
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“Young Master, why are you up?”
The butler got used to everything the manor has to offer. The cracks on the stone walls, the plants that grow and overgrow like a human connection, the way the rain falls on the windows during the storms and gentle weather change, the many attackers who come by to try and ruin the manor in some way, the faces in and out of the doors often. But he was never used to seeing his Young Master, now in his teens, awake in the dead of night with a melancholy look on his face. Ciel glanced up to his butler in black as he stood by the rain-covered window of his bedchambers, a blanket barely wrapped over his shoulders like a cap as his bare feet were flat on the wooden flooring.
The sounds of sniffles and the sight of tears still linger a foreign thing to Sebastian even after so many years living among the mortals and humans, yet still now it creates cracks in his beating drum of an organ when seeing the tears on pale cheeks. What hurt his chest more was the sight of his master wiping his face in a hurry with blanket covered hands. “I’m just checking how bad the storm is. Goodnight Sebastian.” Ciel then hurries away before his butler could ask him any more questions on the night’s adventure.
“My my, you’ve grown to be quite a handsome young man My Lord.” “Why hello young man, are you here to pick up an order?” “You’re growing up to be a strong man, boy, you can get married soon.” “Such a kind boy, your future bride must be so lucky.”
All day was busy with the master and butler duo going around London for errands, getting mail, getting some new tea leaves of Ciel’s choosing, picking up some new seeds for the seasons’ changes, and finally a visit to Nina Hopkins’ shop to pick new clothes. Throughout the day, Sebastian kept looking at his little Lord and kept seeing this sunken and tired expression on his face, black gloved hands always clasping and rubbing against the material over his pale flesh.
As the two walk their way into the lovely tailor shop in town, the scent of candle light on oils and various fabrics filling their senses, they are imminently greeted by the woman in question who hurries over down the stairs to the two. “Good afternoon My Lord!” Cried Nina, brown eyes eager and glittering as the usual draw of amusement meets excitement. “Good afternoon Miss Hopkins. You seem excited.” Said Sebastian with a small smile, honestly enjoying the tailor’s passion for her profession ever since he helped the pair with costumes for their musical theater project they shared. They still aren’t quite there to be the friends he would say. Nina smiled wide and straightened her back in pride, “Of course!” She cheered, “I always love to work with the Earl! Measuring him and designing the most perfect outfits are pure excitement, especially since I’m here witnessing the glorious slot of time of when a boy becomes a man!” She practically squealed out the last part as she did a small dramatic spin of her heels, earning some amusement in Sebastian. The woman clapped her hands together when she turned to the small Lord with a beaming smile, “Now then, shall we take you recent measurements, My Lord?” She pauses when noticing Ciel is looking off to the side, speaking a touch louder now, “Ahem.” Ciel’s shoulders tense as he whirled his head to her and blinked rapidly, imminently collecting himself with an assuring smile, “O-Oh I apologize, yes we shall.”
As the two walked to the fitting room, Sebastian glanced to where his master could be looking at only to see the photos of wedding gowns Nina has made over the years.
Sebastian pondered as he sliced the lamb he has in front of him. His master just has been acting weird, it’s almost too questionable with the recent events. He’s used to the thought of “Oh humans are just different” but rarely has that come up due to thoughts of Ciel. Maybe it’s puberty? Could he perhaps be upset about something? Did he maybe have a fight with his twin? So many possibilities that he can’t quite pick and naw on properly.
A small squirt of meat snaps him out of his drowning thoughts, he glances down to the lamb meat before him. In a strange way, seeing the cut lamb reminded him a bit of his master… The pale skin bruised and bitten up as if eaten alive, The sad swollen eyes of misery staring at everyone blankly, The dark wool of hair on top his head with any signs of horns not yet peeking or perhaps cut off, The black coated hooves that ache and numb from many fights and giving ups.
The demon realizes at that thought he’s more so thinking of the night they met… When that Earl was this scared sad child filled with trauma and guilt of a thing he couldn’t have control over nor had the option of what would happen that week… That boy starved and hurting… Sebastian, over the many many years he’s been on this plane of life and death, is used to many forms of humanity being far more cruel than demons can ever be. He got used to those terrible actions on people, on children who people preach and pray should never be harmed in any way only to turn their back when the child needs help most. Yet, he never actually saw the effects of the aftermath of such slaughter and cruelty…
“The meat will spoil if you stare at it too long, Mr Sebastian.”
The butler’s head jerked up fast and hard, almost throwing him in a rough dizzy, and slowly a smile stretched on his lips as his red eyes showed a small twinkle of warmth. “I didn’t hear you enter, Mr Agni.” A bandaged hand touched the shoulder of the demon as the man in green stood beside him, gray eyes warm and softened like melting chocolates as he looked to his butler companion. “What is on your mind, my friend?” Asked him with a small head tilt. Sebastian sighed softly and began to move his hand about to care for the meat to prepare for dinner, his words sliding out easily like a flowing water fountain, “It is my Young Master. He has been acting differently than usual. Wandering the manor at night, growing sadder and sadder with each passing second, spacing out at the strangests of times. And yet I cannot at all figure out how to ease his worried heart and soul. Somehow this feels… far different than I am used to.” Agni listened calmly before giving a thought, “Perhaps you should have a conversation with him. He may be secretly yearning for someone to come talk to him about what is weighing his mind, as I have sensed with you Mr Sebastian.” Sebastian chuckled some, “You don’t need to be so formal with me, Mr Agni. I will take your advice nicely though, but I do fear he won’t answer honestly…” “He will. Your bond is far stronger than anything I have ever seen Sebastian, you both can easily sense when the other is needing care as proven so many times of you to him and him to you, like when you were required to rest of the ship incident.” The butlers look at each other and smile, small giggles exciting lips as they recall the leaving of such a “vacation” only to come back bloody and bruised and scary stories to come with.
Blond hair peeks out the door frame of the kitchen door as Baldroy looks in, his blue eyes scanning the area curiously. “What got you in a giggling mood?” “Oh, just…memories.”
Sebastian looked to his side, only to see it empty but still warm as if a body was there just a few seconds ago. A bitter coldness filled his chest as he took in a shaky breath and a calmer sigh out. He turned to the chef and smiled, “May I help you with something, Mr Baldroy?” Baldroy shook his head and sputtered, “I… was just wondering if I can help with anything…” “Well don’t just stand there, come on in, Mr Baldroy.”
The butler walked down the dark halls of the manor until he arrived at the bedchamber door of the Earl of Phantomhive. Quietly, he enters and sees the lad already dressed for bed and reading, albeit a slight mess much like his life during that damn circus case. “My Young Master, have you decided I am not needed to assist you?” Sebastian said in a joking manner, only to gain silence and avoided day clashing colored eyes back. 
With a sigh and sat at the foot of the bed and turned to the teen, dragging his tongue to lick his dry lips as he chose his words carefully. Finally, after mentally rereading his script of the conversation, he spoke out his query, “Young Master, I have noticed your behavior has been… odd as of late. Is something eating away at you?” Ciel turned away from him. “Don’t be silly, of course no–” “Young Master,” The master turned and looked at his butler, surprised by the sudden stern voice as if a father was scolding a child gently. “I swore to you I would never lie,” The butler continued, “And I would like you to be honest with me, just for tonight. I will rephrase my question; What is eating away at you?”
He took a mental notice of Ciel’s pale lips trembling some and how his hands tighten at the book in his hands. Finally, after what felt like weeks and months of waiting, the Earl sighed and actually settled in his spot on the bed though his eyes haven’t yet reached the older. 
“Have you… ever felt like you were… going crazy Sebastian?”
For the first time, the words threw the demon in confusion and curiosity.
“Excuse me, what do you mean, My Lord?” Ciel huffed, a weak smile cracked on his face, “Of course, what a silly question. You’re a demon after all, you don’t even know the true pain of insanity…” Sebastian took more mental notes as he examined his master’s emotionally weak state, “Do you feel that way, My Lord? That you’re in insanity?” The Earl paused, that’s when Sebastian became aware he hit the nail on the head. “My Lord,” Sebastian started, easing his voice in a soothing calming manner, but was interrupted by Ciel’s sudden emotional words, “Don’t say you understand what I feel! How could you possibly understand this… this… this insane emotional hurricane that bubbles under my skin? To understand the burning feeling of them still lingering? The blood that can never be seen or unwashed under my nails? You don’t! You don’t understand these thoughts that haunt me! Their voices that taunt me! Telling me I can’t feel angered by my past if my heart fluttered at someone of the same sex as me, or if I adore the strong will of a woman outside my line of sight… The constant thoughts and strangling pains when I hear the foul words of everyone around me, telling me how much of a man I should be… The most perfect English gentleman… That I need to wed to a woman or else I’m not lovable… Knowing if I refuse somehow I’ll… I’d…” 
As he watched his small shoulders raise and fall in soft wheezes, the butler in black thought hard of his words. Yes, what he said is true… He’ll never understand these feelings. The feelings society pushed into him that clashed terribly with such strong emotions. 
Sebastian reached out and placed a hand on the Earl’s head who, like a rabbit being pet, the smaller pushed into the palm seeking comfort. Wheezing breaths leaving pale yet bitten lips as paler cheeks are already staining with tears and emotional flush. “What’s wrong with me Sebastian…? I’m losing my mind… I must be… Having such thoughts and feelings–” The butler stopped his master’s words with stern yet gentle words of his own, “There is nothing wrong with you My Lord. The minds of society around you are wrong.” Sebastian carefully took the Lord’s face into his hands and wiped away the tears the best he could, heat breaking at that pained look on his small face, “They tell you since the day you were born what life you should have merely based off their own beliefs without knowing a thing about you and how you feel about them planing the play of life of you. If it were me, I would be more than eager to tell you if you want to kiss a boy, go for it. If you want to wear gowns, then just do it. If you want to scream at Christ and the Lord for not answering your eager prayers, I’ll scream with you in glee. No one should be entitled to tell you how you should feel… Not after I’ve seen how much you dug your own way out of Hell.”
The teen’s shaky breath was his only reply back. Not until their arms fell forward as the Earl’s head landed on Sebastian’s chest as he hiccups and sobs away. Sebastian, with even more ache against his chest, wrapped his arms carefully around the smaller figure, gloved hands rubbing soft circles around his head and back that shake and bob with each cry. “I’m very proud of you, My Lord, you should be proud of the person you grew to be…”
After that night of the Lord crying himself to sleep in the demon’s arms, Sebastian made quick work of making sure his master was comfortable and not stressed out about everything. He handled the stuff connected to the Funtom Company. He made sure the manor and estate were good and clean. He explained to the servants very simply and easy to understand that their master is feeling blue as of late and to politely refrain from calling him things like “Mister” or “Sir”  but not start calling him “Miss” or “Lady” as that’s not what the master wants either and treat him as they treated him prior. He made his master his favorite treats for the day. He called Nina and informed him of small changes of the wardrobe designs to fit more comfortably for his master’s true nature. He even contacted the Trancy Manor and Blavat, two places of people he despises, if the teens under their care can be so kind to visit for the day. After all, if he can’t ease the worries of his master after battling with his own identity and self worth due to society’s harsh rules and the trauma of his past, what kind of butler would he be?
Sebastian watched as the afternoon slowly shifted to night as his master, now dressed in an outfit that’s best fitted in the term of androgyny, enjoying a simple game of Old Maid with the blond Lord of Trancy and brunette circus performer of the stars. In a blink he sees the small child that stood before soiled with blood and ruins and tears, sunken sad eyes staring at him with no light to be seen. 
Blinking again, he sees the picture again now, seeing the light that not only fills the blue eye of his master, but around him.
Yeeeaaaah, lowkey inspired by this song
I missed the previous prompts so I had them planned for yesterday since my head was empty on that prompt, then I saw today's prompt and went, "well this fits" so here we are!
This is for the @dadbastianweek2023 thingy which is very nice lol I grew to like some of your's headcanon of nonbinary OCiel Phantomhive (he/they) so thanks yall for that Edit: I decided to make this yet ANOTHER long story for another prompt, it's already angsty let me have this!
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midgardian-witch · 1 year
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The Consequences Of Being A Brat
After days of Nathan being a brat, Reader decides on a punishment that leaves the resident genius wet and wanting.
Part 1 | [Part 2] | [Part 3]
AO3
tags: sub!Nathan | Dom!Reader | AFAB!Reader | Mommy Kink | Spitting Kink | Humiliation Kink, Dumbification (slight) | cock ring | bondage | cock cage | Chastity Kink | Cunnilingus | Face Riding | CBT (slight) | finger sucking | Orgasm Denial | cursing | Temperature Play | BDSM
ships: Nathan Bateman/Reader
AN: What started as one little fanfic now turned into this almost 3.9k part one of a three part fanfic. The other two parts are already planned out and only need to be written now.
tagged list: @my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction
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You watch him squirm uncomfortably, desperately humping the air, the restraints keeping him tied to the bed spread-eagle and cock ring keeping him hard even after what to him feels like hours spent like this. You've been sitting to the side of the bed, out of sight from him while having the perfect view yourself. His head turns side to side, desperate to see you, to see if you approve or not. He's been slowly but surely sinking into this needy, eager, submissive headspace since you teased and then left him tied to the bed alone without relief. Denial was the easiest way to help him slip into this headspace - too stubborn otherwise to give in to what he really wants, what he needs. 
Finally you slowly rise from your seat and with measured steps make your way over to the withering mess that is your lover. As he catches your gaze, his eyes look vacant, blown wide, almost delirious. His mouth hangs open, drool steadily dribbling from the corners of his mouth, his beard shiny with saliva. Seeing him like this you're sure there is not one coherent thought left in his head. 
Good. 
You sit down next to him on the bed, fingers drawing lazy circles over his torso, your touch lighter than a feather. And yet that simple touch makes him keen, his body instinctively chasing your hand even as you withdraw it again. 
You tsk at him, shaking your head. When he hears the sound of your disapproval he whines pitifully. 
"Are you ready to be a good boy now, Nathan?"
Your voice is as cold as ice despite the heat flooding your core. Nathan looks at you with glassy eyes and you're not sure if he can actually see you without his glasses, his eyes re-focusing every few seconds. 
He nods furiously and when he finally talks his voice sounds broken, raw from moaning and begging, the tension too much for his brain to take, heavy breathing and hiccups slurring his speech. 
"Y-Yes Mommy hic I-I'm sorry Mommy. I-I-I'll be g-good."
You hum thoughtfully in reply as you resume your feather-light touches. Your fingers glide over his chest and stomach as you make a great show of mulling over your options. Laying your hand flat over his abdomen you can feel him try to buck into your touch, only stopped by the restraints holding him down. 
Nathan had a tendency to be a brat most of the time but the last few days have been agony. He had gotten stuck on one of his projects and when working out and drinking himself into a stupor hadn't given him the relief he needed, he had turned his bad mood on you. Nathan Bateman was a smart man, a genius even, but his stubbornness had always been his downfall. Instead of asking you to help turn his mind off of things and give him the mental break he so desperately needed, he decided to behave like a spoiled child. 
Ignoring you when you asked him something. Giving more and more snide remarks when you talked. Starting fights over the smallest, silliest things. After almost a week of living with this you decided to draw the line. 
"You've been a real brat lately, Nathan", you state calmly as you run your nails across his abdomen. You can hear his breath hitch in response. 
"I'm sorry. I'll be good. I-I'll be good, Mommy."
His wrecked, pleading voice is music to your ears. You suppress a smile and shake your head instead. 
"Oh I know you will be after we're done."
"D-Done? But-" 
"But what? Did you really think we were already done with your punishment, Nathan? And here I thought you were smart."
Your amused chuckle fills the room as you pull your hand back again. 
"Not so smart after all, hm? I mean look at you. You're a mess, drooling all over yourself."
Slowly you lean over him, careful that your body is not touching even an inch of his skin. His glassy eyes snap to your face as you look down on him, desperate for your attention. 
Gently you caress his face, fingers combing through his thick beard. His eyes flutter closed and he leans into your touch with a pleased hum. Nathan looks beautiful like this, relaxed and unashamed. The trust he puts in you, to let you see him like this, never fails to make your heart melt. 
Holding his face in your hand your thumb gently teases his bottom lip. On instinct, Nathan opens his mouth wider and you slip your thumb into it with ease. With a muffled moan he begins to suck eagerly on the digit, his tongue swirling around it with slow strokes.
"So eager. It's actually kind of funny, you know? All that genius, building Artificial Intelligence, androids and then what did you do? You used these brilliant machines as nothing more than house maids and human-sized sex toys."
Your disapproving tone gains you another desperate whine in response and you can see tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. You push down on his tongue with your thumb and tilt his head upwards. 
"Look at me, Nathan."
His eyes open, wet with tears as he looks up at you dutifully. 
"See? This is much better, isn't it?" 
He moans around your thumb and nods dumbly. 
You chuckle again, a cruel smile forming on your lips. 
"I figured you out, you know? All these androids? I know why you use them. Not because you couldn't get your dick wet any other way, no. It's because you're actually jealous."
You can see in the way his brow furrows that he is desperately trying to follow your words but his mind has a hard time keeping up, now that you have broken him down so thoroughly. You intend to take him even further tonight. 
"You build these machines while in reality you want to be used like you use them. All you really want is to shut off your silly little brain and get used like a mindless fucktoy."
He nods vigorously and you can feel him swallowing around your thumb. Slowly you pull your digit out of his mouth. You shush his needy whimper at the loss. 
"Y-Yes, Mommy. Please…please use me."
You place your hands next to his head, one on each side. Neither of you is breaking eye contact as you stare him down. 
"Open your mouth."
Instinctively he follows your order, mouth opening wide enough for you to see his pink tongue. 
"Very good."
His eyes nearly roll into the back of his head at your praise, a high-pitched keen spilling out of his throat. 
You position your face right above his as you gather saliva in your mouth. Slowly you part your lips and let your spit drip down. You can feel him try to push himself up, so your saliva can reach his awaiting mouth sooner but it's no use. After what to him feels like ages your spit finally hits his tongue and unable to restrain himself Nathan lets out a guttural groan. Obediently he keeps his mouth open, still staring up at you, eagerly waiting for instructions.
"Swallow."
At this point you're sure Nathan couldn't even think if he tried. Mindlessly he obeys your command and you see his Adam's Apple bob as he swallows your saliva. 
It's getting harder and harder not to openly show your delight. You pull back from him and stand up with one smooth motion. As you turn your back to him you grant yourself a pleased smile. 
With measured steps you make your way over to the box of sex toys you had placed at the bottom of the bed earlier. Accompanied by the sound of Nathan's labored breathing you dig through the various contents. Between multiple vibrators, butt plugs, dildos and strap-ons you find the item you've been looking for. You close the box and place your chosen object on top of it, out of Nathan's sight for now. 
You straighten your posture and pull yourself to your full height. Without even looking you know Nathan is watching your every move. You can feel his gaze on you as you linger a while before taking off your clothes. 
As the first item of clothing hits the ground something in Nathan seems to snap. He lets out an incomprehensible string of words and moans, most likely curses, as he watches you slowly reveal your naked body. 
You click your tongue against the roof of your mouth and shake your head. 
"Could you repeat that? I'm sure there was a sentence under all that whining."
"Please, Mommy. I wanna- please let me take those off."
Torturously slow you undress further, dragging out every movement. It almost makes you feel bad, denying him like this. Nathan wanted so badly to be good for you but you were not done. Not by a long shot. 
"Not tonight. Only good boys get to undress and touch Mommy. And you've been anything but good lately", you remind him, your voice just a touch more gentle than before. 
"I'm sorry, Mommy. Please! Please let me be good for you. I wanna be good!" 
Oh how his begging made your insides tingle. You could feel how wet you were already, just from this. You force yourself to ignore his pleas, instead finally stripping down fully. 
Once you're completely bare, you walk around the bed, like a predator stalking its prey. Squirming on the bed, Nathan follows your every move with his hooded eyes, mouth still hanging half open. 
"Please, Mommy. Can I touch you? Please let me touch you, Mommy!" 
You tap your lips with your pointer finger and let out a thoughtful hum. It's a difficult decision: you know Nathan is good, very good, with his hands and yet, this is still supposed to be his punishment for being a careless brat. And if you go soft on him now all would be for nothing. But just because it's his punishment doesn't mean you'd deny yourself the pleasure of feeling Nathan's body against yours forever. 
You crawl onto the bed straddling his head with your thighs. Slack-jawed Nathan stares up at your pussy hovering right above his face, saliva steadily dripping into his beard. 
"Your hands stay tied to the bed, but this is much better anyways, isn't it, baby?" 
Nathan audibly swallows, nodding and humming affirmatively. 
"Yes, Mommy. Please, can I eat your pussy, Mommy? Please! I wanna taste you so bad."
He slurs his words, seemingly already pussy drunk without even having had a taste yet. You lower yourself down, your pussy just inches away from his face, before you stop. In response to your teasing he whines, craning his neck to get closer to your soaking wet folds. 
"Will you be a good boy for me, Nathan? Promise me to be good and I'll ride your face, baby." 
You're not sure what affected him more, your gentle cooing or just the thought of getting to get his mouth on you. The high-pitched, almost pitiful sounds spilling from between his lips suggest either or both to be true. 
He nods frantically before his begging continues. 
"I promise. I'll be so good for you, Mommy. Please, can I eat your pussy? Please, let me make you cum, Mommy!" 
A pleased grin spreads across your lips. Classic Nathan, already getting ahead of himself. You know how much he loves to make you cum so you're not surprised. And since he was behaving himself so well (for now) you'd give him that. 
Without another word you lower yourself fully on top of his face. As soon as your drenched folds all but graze his nose he is on you. Like a starving man he practically tries to devour you. With rhythmic, practiced motions he rubs his nose against your clit as his tongue licks a long stripe between your folds. Skillfully switching between licking and teasing your entrance with his tongue, all while keeping a soft pressure on that sensitive bundle of nerves, Nathan is intent on giving you as much pleasure as he can in this position. The feeling of his beard against your most sensitive spots makes you shiver in delight. 
You steady yourself against the wall behind the head of the bed as his ministrations make you lose your balance for a second. Nathan was divine with his mouth, unsurprising since he loved to use it so much. Even though usually he used his mouth to be a know-it-all brat. You just had to find a better use for his mouth than that. And what a better use this is. 
With every lick and suck his movements get more sloppy. His muffled moans vibrate against your sensitive pussy, adding to the stimulation. Slowly you begin to move your hips, grinding down on his face, seeking more of that delicious friction. In moments like this you regret Nathan's shaved head and lack of hair to grab and pull. Repeated, broken pleas of "Thank you" and "Mommy" echo from between your legs as you rub your clit against his shapely nose. Nathan licks and sucks your wet folds as best he can, your fluids leaking into his thick beard and joining his own saliva. 
With every stutter of your hips you can feel your orgasm building. You voice your pleasure unabashed, moans and praise spilling from between your lips, mixing with Nathan's muffled groans and begging as the sounds of your shared lust fill the room. 
"You're doing so well, baby. Come on, make Mommy cum.", you encourage him as you feel your legs start to shake from the strain. 
"Yes, Mommy. Please cum, Mommy. Please cum. Wanna make you cum."
Despite the lack of grabbable hair you put one of your hands on his head to hold him in place as you ride Nathan's face, your knees shaking with pleasure. You feel your orgasm building, higher and higher with every stutter of your hips. 
With another grind against his nose, with his tongue as deep inside your core as your position allows, you find your peak, your walls clenching around his tongue as you cry out. Your pussy is still pulsing in the afterglow as you ride out your orgasm. After a few more movements you quickly dismount your lover's face, the soft scratch of his beard starting to be too much on your sensitive pussy. 
You sit down next to Nathan, catching your breath, chest heaving. Your skin is soaked with sweat, your limbs start to feel heavy but you remind yourself that you are still not done with Nathan. 
You turn around to look at your lover and the sight of Nathan steals your breath away. 
He's a mess. With his beard completely soaked with your fluids and his own saliva, the mixture smeared all over his face, he looks ruined. He looks at you with a dopey grin, eyes unfocused and glassy. 
"Did- Did I do a good job, Mommy?", he asks blissfully, his voice cracking from overuse. 
You grant him a pleased smile, your hand reaching out to pet his head. "You did a great job, baby. Such a good boy.", you answer and lean over to place a soft kiss on his temple. 
He looks up at you adoringly, tilting his head up in a silent question. You indulge him and place several more kisses to his nose, cheeks and finally on his lips, lingering there just enough to taste yourself. 
"My good boy.", you whisper against his mouth. Your other hand spreads across his chest, gently tracing his sweat soaked skin. Your lips follow your hands, showing him just how pleased you are, making him feel your love and appreciation. 
Your hands and lips trail down further until you are face to face with the evidence of his arousal. Nathan's cock stands proud against his abdomen, head a dark, angry red as it's kept erect by the cock ring you had put on him at the start of his punishment. It's still leaking a steady trail of pre-cum, leaving him wet and slightly sticky. The ring has done his job in preventing him from both coming and going completely flaccid while you were busy teasing your favorite genius. 
Even your breath against his cock makes him twitch. He squirms again, gasping. 
"Please. Please can I cum, Mommy? I was good! You said I was good!" 
You can't stop your chuckle at his continued begging. "Oh sweetheart. This wouldn't be a punishment if I let you do that, now would it?" 
You get up from the bed, ignoring Nathan's whining for now. 
"Wait here. And don't move.", you order with a wink, knowing full well that he wouldn't be able to move even if he wanted to. 
You return as fast as you vanish, knowing the maze-like pathways of the facility by heart and making your way quickly from your bedroom to the kitchen and back. As you re-enter the bedroom Nathan's eyes are immediately on you.
"Mommy! Please don't leave me again! You were gone so long!" 
You were gone maybe five minutes but you would never fault him for complaining in his state. The poor genius is only slowly getting out of subspace, his mind still a little foggy. 
"I'm sorry, baby. Don't worry. Mommy will take care of you.", you try to soothe him, holding up the glass of water you have gotten from the kitchen. You walk over to Nathan, and sit back down next to him. Tilting his head down you hold the glass to his lips, gently feeding him the cool liquid. He gulps down the water eagerly, some of it spilling into his beard, until there are only ice cubes left. 
You pet his head again and kiss his cheek before returning to the foot of the bed. 
"Now, let's take care of this.", you mutter as you trace his erection with a single finger. His cock twitches and another bead of pre-cum pools out of the head. Gently you remove the ring pressed snuggly around the base of Nathan's cock. He gasps once he's finally free from the torturous pressure. 
"Poor baby. I bet you'd come with only a few strokes."
You tease his balls as he keens and more pre-cum spills forth. His drawn out "Mommy please" makes you chuckle devilishly. 
"Listen well, baby. You've been a brat for almost a week. So as punishment, you're not allowed to cum for the next seven days, starting now. Do you understand?" 
"Yes, Mommy. I-I-I'll be good, Mommy."
"Very good. And since I am so nice, I even have something to help you."
You pluck the item you had hidden from him earlier from atop the toy box. You raise it to the side of your head, showing him the metal cock cage in your hand. Nathan stares at the cage in a mix of horror and arousal. 
"Are you OK with this, Nathan? I need a clear yes or no.", you ask softly, ready to abandon your plan if he is too uncomfortable with it. 
You see his Adam's Apple bob as he swallows hard, thinking it over. You can feel the gears turning in his head as the fog of subspace is slowly dissipating. After a few moments he answers with a sharp nod: "Yes, Mommy. I'm ok."
Your shoulders sag in relief and you let out a pleased sigh. Quickly you put a confident smile on your face before turning back to your lover's straining erection. 
"Well this won't fit at all. But thankfully I came prepared."
You take one of the ice cubes out of the glass and gently hold it to his shaft. Nathan gasps and struggles in his bonds. 
"Cold! Fuck. Too cold!" 
"That's the idea, sweetheart. You remember your safe word, don't you?" 
"Yes, Mommy. Python."
"Good. Use it if it gets too much."
"Yes, Mommy. Please continue."
He doesn't look at you but his tone of voice tells you more than his eyes ever could. He wants this even if he isn't ready to admit it to himself. You'd have to explore that further. Another time. 
You pick up the next ice cube and gently run it along his cock, tip to root. He squirms and writhes underneath you, gasping and shaking, but no words other than "fuck", "oh god", "shit" and other curses leave his mouth. You giggle quietly as you watch his cock go soft and shrink under your freezing touch. 
After a few minutes of the same routine Nathan's impressive cock has been cooled down to a manageable size. You think about teasing him about it, knowing a little humiliation is definitely on his kink list, but you push that away for later too. 
With careful touches you squeeze his cock into the silver cage. You turn the key and with a resounding click the cage is locked. Somehow his cock looks even smaller, engulfed in metal. You run your fingers over the cage, feeling the smooth, unyielding material under your fingertips. 
"How does it feel?" 
"Fuckin' unreal."
You laugh, shaking your head. 
"In a good way?" 
He swallows hard but nods. 
"Yeah…"
You raise an eyebrow at him and he clears his throat with an eye roll. 
"Yes, Mommy. Can you untie me now? Fuck, if my wrists are fucked up because of this, I swear I'll-" 
Seeing your unimpressed stare he stops himself and mutters a quiet "Sorry" instead. Even a bratty genius could learn, it seems. 
You untie his legs first, massaging and rubbing the indents the leather straps left on his skin. Once you're done with his legs you crawl over him, sitting down on his lower stomach and freeing his arms with skilled fingers. You soothe his wrists too, careful not to irritate the skin further. You make him move his wrists, checking for any damage. Once you're satisfied with your check up you lean down for a long kiss, your lips sliding against his. You hum into his mouth, ignoring the wet feel of his drenched beard against your face. 
Needing air the two of you part. He wraps his arms around you, finally free to roam across your skin. You lay there, your forehead pressed against his, just enjoying the feeling of being so close to eachother. 
"I don't know about you but I could use a nap."
You feel Nathan laugh against your lips in response, before his low chuckle turns into a thoughtful hum. 
"Let's stay like this, OK? Just say something if I get too heavy. Or roll me over. You got the use of your limbs back after all.", you joke before pressing a soft kiss to his nose. 
You only get another hum in response. 
Concerned, your eyebrows furrow. 
"Nathan?“ 
"A whole fucking week?", he grumbles, mouth turned into the cutest pout you've ever seen. You snort and give him another kiss. 
"You'll survive. And after…"
"After?"
"Be good for a week and you'll see."
Nathan rolls his eyes at you and you're sure he could hurt himself if he rolled them any harder. 
"A week.", he repeats. 
"Yup."
"You're cruel."
"You love it."
He looks at you, his brown eyes somehow seeming so much warmer than before as he admits: "I do."
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zoneofsmites · 4 months
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love test q's for sylas since youre PREPARED! 3, 8, 17! -@veilkeeper
(questions by the lovely Kellan who send this ask!)
Ok so - I was prepared for one of these questions. And as I was doing music questions and saw the answers of others realised the way I was doing them was so much more convoluted but whatever, I think it is fun.
Answering these questions as if Sylas is the subject of the dryad love quiz - like a companion - with multiple answers and approval ratings!
Putting it under a read more for how long it gets.
3. What is their deepest fear? (this is the one I had answered for myself a while ago)
Sylas - what fills the fearless slayer with terror?
Being alone. "I would prefer it actually, especially right now." his face has gone blank - you have upset him somehow. (Sylas -1 / wrong answer)
His Urge taking control, killing someone he loves. He sneers at you, "Oh of course, let's tell the stranger how fucked up I am in the head." (Sylas -5 / correct answer)
It's him who fills other's with terror Sylas lets out an actual laugh - a rare thing - before replying with a grin that bares his sharp teeth, "Sure, I like that answer." (Sylas +5 / wrong answer)
Never regaining his memories. His gaze has become unfocused - what he says next is not directed at you but something he mumbles only to himself: "There is so little left…" (correct answer)
His father. (if known Bhaalspawn) A look of horror falls on his face, "That isn-… No. No… Of course I don't, he made me-- we're done here." Sylas is getting antsy - he tries to back away before realizing he is caught between you and the dryad on the tree trunk, there is no way to escape. (Sylas -5 / perfect answer)
8. What is their greatest regret?
What happened to the bard. The man before you grimaces, "I thought we had all agreed to never bring that up again." he sounds strained as he speaks and is avoiding eye contact. (Sylas -5 / correct answer)
Biting Karlach to see if she 'tasted spicy' that one time. Sylas looks flustered at being reminded of that blunder, "It was genuine curiosity - I apologized!" he sputters. (wrong answer)
Not telling us about the Urge earlier. He stares at you, "Don't put your own feelings on me - I don't regret a thing." (Sylas -1 / wrong answer)
17. What comforts them on a bad day?
Drawing in his sketchbook. Sylas looks away with a sheepish face - too embarrassed about his hobbies to face you directly, “It’s not very good - but it’s relaxing.” (Sylas +1 / correct answer)
Someone doing his hair. His hands shoot up protectively with the intend of hiding his curls behind them. “Don’t even think about it.” he pouts. (Sylas -1 / wrong answer) If Wyll: He gives a half smile, “As long as that someone is you - others would just mess it up.” (Sylas +1 / correct answer)
Sharpening his blades. He gives you a nonchalant shrug. “Can’t be too prepared - but between us I think Lae’zel is more into it than I.” (wrong answer)
A good hug. Sylas recoils as if you were about to reach out and touch him. “No.” (Sylas -5 / wrong answer) If 100% approval / if Wyll or Karlach: He rolls his eyes but the small smile is fond, “I guess I could be persuaded - by the right person.” (Sylas +1 / correct answer)
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purrassicjet · 9 months
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Requiem
House rested his hands on the keys of his piano, the ones formerly startling white, now dull grey in the gloom of the unlit apartment. Black keys intercut them like patches of the void. Harder notes. The first chord came with a sigh, a slow, melancholy note, the perfect beginning to a slow and melancholy song. The keys were cold against his fingertips, seeming to sap any remaining warmth from his chilling hands. The piece started slow. A simple melody that echoed through the empty apartment, devoid of any other life. He was alone once more. Just him and the piano.
Oh, Wilson.
The good times flowed despite the melancholy of the piece. Hours spent playing poker, knowing exactly when each other were bluffing, knowing when the cards were stacked against them. A connection, stronger than anything ever witnessed by any others. Comfort in the darkest of times. The man in the unlit apartment struck the next notes in the symphony from memory, drawing in more specific feelings. Bowling. The sound of the balls rumbling down the alley, the clatter of the pins when they fell, all of them, a cheer. House couldn’t help but smile. Sometimes he lost, sometimes he won, but every time the experience became burned into his memory. Something he could look back to and smile. Something he could look back on and know that there was somebody out there who cared for him. That Wilson was there. That Wilson would always be there.
A note.
Wrong.
Subtle to the untrained ear, so incredibly loud to the experienced man. A fight. Not yelling, not screaming, but begging . The bitter words of righteous anger, the bitter taste of self destruction. The piece was becoming faster, the movements no longer a conscious memory, the memory of the muscles that had played this piece time and time again. Why did he destroy himself? And why did Wilson care so deeply? Why hadn’t he been left on the sidewalk to rot the moment he had pushed Wilson away so sharply. The moment he had nearly ruined his life. 
The notes were being played properly now, but the torrent of guilt was too much. Time and time again House had nearly ruined the life of Wilson, but Wilson had stayed. What had he done to deserve this devotion? What had he done to deserve somebody who would stand beside him no matter what?
“I don’t want to push this till it breaks.”
House repeated the words over and over under his breath as he played, his outward appearance a serene town, his inner thoughts the civil unrest within. He had pushed it until it broke. He had pushed it until things had crashed and burned. He had pushed it until things had been too much to bear. He had pushed it until he had cared. He had cared so deeply that he couldn’t handle even the thought that Wilson would never want to see him again. He would have rather died than lived in a world where Wilson hated him, and now he was living in that world.
There were no poker nights, there were no bowling nights, there were only nights alone with his piano playing the same piece over and over again until it was burned into his memory. Until there was nothing left but the piece. There could be no emotions, no guilt, no regret, there was only the music. The way the music vibrated the glass of scotch, every slight sloshing reminded him of the feeling of vomit in his mouth, looking up into Wilson’s eyes to see the disappointment. 
Some say Tchaikovsky’s Symphony No. 6 was written while the composer was thinking of bringing about his own end. Funny how House had started playing it after his own life had nearly ended. Wilson had saved him by just being there, but what would happen now? What would happen now that there was nobody? He struck the notes hard and fast, slamming down on the keys with such vigour that he wondered if he would have any scotch left to drink when the piece was over. 
The piece would never be over. House could play it over and over and over and over again but it would never bring Wilson back. It would never take away the cutting words.
“I’m trying to move on”
Nothing was supposed to ever change, people didn’t change, people just became more of themselves. Was what he and Wilson had really real? Was it all just pity?!
House stopped playing. 
The piece was nowhere near complete, nowhere close to being over, but House stopped. House stopped and reached out for the glass on the piano, downing it in one gulp and relishing in the burn.
The burn chased away the memories.
The bad.
The good.
The everything.
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I cry about each song from In The Light individually in hopes that it convinces everyone to listen to it
More under the cut
Prologue:
An intriguing opening, and I mean that in a good way. The initial vocals are quite ethereal and make you curious, then the story begins and you’re hooked. My first listen went like Oh? Oh. Oh.
I highly recommend.
Let Go of Me:
Protagonist song. Jeremy Jordan.
Aside from that, I am of the opinion that it’s clever writing. There are some allusions to other songs in the lyrics and some figurative language that gives me beautiful mental images. If the first song wasn’t enough to convince you that it’s a good album, there are so many others that could win you over.
Behind Closed Doors:
This one I like a lot. It’s grown on me quite a bit. There are so many fun elements and parts that draw you in. The lyrics are hospitable and make you feel like you’re being welcomed and introduced to their little corner of the world.
More:
It’s More. Under the cut. I think I’m funny. Anyway.
This is a peer pressure song and as someone who isn’t easily swayed by peer pressure, I would give in. It has such an interesting sound and the two characters here have such an intriguing dynamic.
She’s Not Me:
Very powerful song. So much emotion. Kind of reminds me of She Used To Be Mine from Waitress because it has a similar feeling of longing and it’s perfect. Crying.
Tomorrow Begins Today:
The emotion. The storytelling. The combination of reminiscing and looking to the future. It emulates ✨🌌 And the harmonies. Please.
This song in particular also has amazing animatic potential and I need it to be popular among the musical theatre community solely for that reason.
The Man I Know:
A look at the past. A little bit sad, a little bit angry, a little bit hopeful, a lot emotional. Ciara Renée gives it her all. If I could sing? I would belt this song all the time because it gives me feelings.
Dare to Dream:
It’s a romance duet but also includes an ambitious woman and gets stuck in my head often.
I’m not afraid to drop names. Antonio Cipriano and Solea Pfeiffer. If you are a fan of either of them and haven’t listened to this song or album, do yourself a favour and remedy that soon. Your ears and soul will thank me.
Rise or Fall/Act I Finale:
Vocals? ✓
Story? ✓
Catchiness? ✓
This is the type of Act I finale that has you shaking in your seat then leaves you in a near-catatonic state during intermission. Once again, I would sing this all the time if I had the ability. It has so much energy and carries a lot of emotion. So much fun to listen to.
He Is No Man:
Haunting and ominous, but not in a way that makes the listener feel uncomfortable. It’s comfortably unsettling, and a really interesting emotional journey.
Sign, Shake, Spit:
Lyrical bookends. I love it so much. You go on a journey and there’s a lot happening and it’s all tied together by the lyrics. The way this song is constructed is just amazing.
Catch the Moon:
The high notes. I am a puddle on the ground. The allusions to the other songs. Perfect for the character’s narrative. The emotion behind the words and the feelings being expressed is a lot to process, but it’s meant to be.
In The Light:
Title song. 11/10. I can imagine a large choir singing this and it makes my soul happy. It would also be phenomenal as just an orchestra instrumental. You have to listen to it to know what I mean. It’s among my favourites from this album.
The Man I Know (Reprise):
A great use of a reprisal. In the context of the story, it’s heartbreaking and bittersweet and very powerful. So much emotion and so little time to convey it.
Her Embrace:
How many times have I said emotion? Because it’s one more time. This is one of those songs that you could make fit any mood. It could be bittersweet. It could be a love ballad. It could be a song you listen to for lyrics or just for vibes.
In terms of what it means to the story, oh my goodness. No I will not elaborate. There is a plot summary on their website. Amazing. I need this on a stage now.
The album is linked below. Listen through your preferred music platform. It’s worth it.
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