#not his love | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

blossompoet-fanfiction · 3 months

Text

No you don't understand I need his gender

#Not his love #Sorry jess girlies #Yes I love him #But I don't need him #Just his gender #Thanks #jess mariano #gilmore girls

14 notes · View notes

to-the-one-before-me · 10 months

Text

I don’t know where to start other than this one truth: I know you miss him, and I know he misses you, every day, all the time.

He misses more than just your face, your touch, your laugh, and your infectious energy. He misses the life he had built with you. This was a life that he might find similar ones with another person, but that won’t be with you, and it breaks his heart.

I am nowhere near you. I am just a woman who met him when she too was going through heartbreak. I am just a woman who wishes nothing more than the two of you to find love again. I honestly don’t know what that means anymore though. It’s truly remarkable to hear about how much he admires you, cares for you, and wishes he could still share each day with you. He regrets his actions at the end and he regrets becoming the villain that he always knew he could be, but never wanted to be for you. He talks about you in a way that one would talk about the most precious thing they’ve ever had in their life. And that’s what you were to him that’s what you still are to him.

You are forever his babygirl, and I am just a woman in his life right now. Your relationship with him was complicated. I won’t say more than that. The intricacies in the power struggles seem to been part of the downside but I’m here to talk about the upside’s. This is to hopefully help you heal some and to help him know that it’s okay for him to not love me the way he loves you.

You two met and connected over time. From what I can tell it seems as though you two spoke a language that no one else even came close to understanding. You two were so in sync that his nonverbal tendencies would not even be an issue for you and you were able to anticipate his needs in the exact way he’d always wish someone had. He cannot find the words to describe what it was like to have a partner that just got him, but I will do my best to describe who you are through his eyes.

Not only were you kind, and patient, and gentle, but you were also his best friend. He could talk to you about anything, although he admits that you may not have understood it all, the important thing is that you were there for it all. You were there when he first started on his great journey. Although it may have started long before, you were there at the catalyst, the turning point. You were there through some of his greatest discoveries. And you were a muse for him. I doubt he’s going to be willing to admit it, but I think you were always on his mind and his work.

I can feel how much he cared about you in some of his pieces. Some of the songs he plays for his work, I can hear your laughter, and I can feel your compassionate smile. He knew with you, he could be himself, and you would love him through all of it. And I think part of that scared him in a way he still won’t admit. People who have a fear of being put into labels, or boxes, or categories, do not want unconditional love. It confuses them because they have conditions for everything. He has standards that are extraordinarily high, and from what I can tell, you lived up to most of them. That in itself shows how remarkable of a person you are. Actually, he uses the word spectacular. And he’s not just talking about your appearance. Although he would be right to do so, since you are gorgeous, and I hate saying he deserves someone like you.

I know that I am not special enough for him. I know at first I was just a placeholder until you and him worked things out together, and some days, it still feels that way. He doesn’t cry over anything as much as he does when he talks about losing you. You struck a chord in him that will never change. It’s hard being around him when he has something that reminds him of you around. Certain movies are off-limits. Certain songs, if I don’t appreciate enough, he’ll shut down. When it comes to intimacy, I can tell he misses you the most then. I am not warm. But I know that you were.

He never hesitates to remind me that he learned how to be soft with you. He has told me this on multiple occasions when he’s talked about how cold I am or how stiff I am, and how it’s something that he too had to learn from you. It must have just been natural for you, as you were such a loving person as he described, and I hate that he has to settle for me. His hands reach for your body, not mine, and I can tell. He’s used to your touch; yearns for it and it’s so obvious it hurts. He gets disappointed when realizes that it’s me and not you. I do not blame him for this one bit. I understand him choosing you over me.

If things have gone differently between you two, I know I would not even be in the picture at all. I am grateful that I am in his life and that he is in mine, but I know how much happier he could’ve been had he been with you. He misses all of the activities you two used to do. Whether it be gaming, watching movies, cleaning, or cooking. I’ve told him that he needs to forgive me for not being you. For when he gets short with me, when I don’t know how to do tasks he asks me to do or expects me to do, because they’re clearly things you used to do, it hurts. I have to remind him that I am not you, and his face falls just a bit in that way. I know you know what I am talking about. It’s the simplest things that make him think of you.

He misses waking up with you in the morning, and how you two used to interact at the break of dawn. He misses not having to remind me, as his partner, to snuggle with him, because it is not my instinct to do so, but it was clearly yours.

Although, in someways, I think he has achieved more with me in his life; he himself has admitted that he would have more fun with you in a day but he has an a month with me. I know he misses that. I don’t want you to feel like you have to go back to him, because that is not what this is about.

I want you to know that he has not gotten over you just because he is with me now. You still are a part of his every day existence and will be forever. Nobody will ever take your place beside him. For you are his babygirl, his one and only, And everything he ever said about how much he cared about you is true and it still is. I’m sure that doesn’t erase any of the pain and I’m sure that you still have extraordinarily complicated emotions about him. I know that this won’t make you fall asleep at night any easier, or make doing these tasks without him any better, but I hope you find some sort of comfort in knowing that you’re not alone. He is missing his other half right now as well. You mean more to him than I think he ever told you. I hope you know that he cared for you in the way he told me he would never care for another person. Including me.

Learn from that what you will about me. As I said, I was going through heartbreak as well and I don’t think I’ve moved on either. Him and I have found companionship together, but it is not anywhere close to what you and him had. If you see any sign that he is or that he has forgotten you, ignore those signs. You will be with him for as long as he will be around. He remembers your birthday and gets very emotional around then. He still can’t remember mine. He has taught me a lot about affection, intimacy, and so many other things, that I know he learned from you. I know this, because he has told me so, and he is so proud that he learned them from you.

I want you to know a few more truths about him without you. I bring out some of the worst sides of him, and I can tell that you brought out the best. He has also reminded me that those sides of him that I see sparks that are absolutely wonderful, are only brought out because of you. It took him a while before he started cooking again, and I didn’t understand why. And then he showed me something which he called “the definition of you and him”. And it looked like the things he was trying to re-create with me. A lot of the things he does with me are knock-offs of what he used to do with you.

I want you to know that when he would say to you “that you will never find somebody like him”, he also meant that he would never find somebody like you.

I sometimes wish I could just talk to you when I don’t know what he wants from me at that time. He’ll get in this mood, and I know that he’s expecting me to do something that you used to do to get him out of it, but I have no idea what that was and he has yet to tell me. It is obvious he doesn’t wanna admit that all he really wants in those moments is you. I can tell that you used to calm him down better than anyone else ever could; you also could hype him up like nobody else could. He is missing every single facet of your existence and that you still matter even though you two are apart.

8 notes · View notes

wasabi-gumdrop · 1 month

Text

local ladies man’s signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabru’s fumble era at 6

#i’ve seen so many interpretations of that 1 hr freeze frame of Kabru’s smile in ep 16 #he’s meeting his long time crush of course he’s trying to charm him #Kabru so obviously has a big fat giant crush on Laios #like atp in the story he’s tried to talk to him and get his attention so many times agjdjajdj #Laios is the human rubix cube he’s been searching for his entire life #everyone else is almost too easy for Kabru to pin down #Laios on the other hand … a treasure trove of autistic mystery #Kabru is so locked in #Kabru used signature move: charming smile #Laios: no effect!#there’s something so beautiful about the popular pretty boy entering his fumble era when his one true love turns out to be autistic #labru #laios touden #kabru of utaya #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #wasabi rambles #seen so many clock that smile as nefarious and machiavellian #baby no Kabru is just dialing the charm up to 100 and what we’re all feeling is second hand embarrassment LMAO

29K notes · View notes

lesbxdyke · 6 days

Text

I could think of no better way to share the news than this!

So when I was 17, my cat went missing and I'd given up hope of ever seeing him again.

Until on Monday, 27th of May, 2024, my friend sent me a FB post asking 'isn't that your mother?' about the person named on the microchip.

Here he is! 16 years old, and found safe, twelve whole years after he went missing!

Yesterday (Tuesday the 28th of May, 2024) I went to the rescue that had him, and I reclaimed my boy, renaming him Artie! (He'd originally been called 'Cat' because my mother and I couldn't decide on a name)

He's home safe with me now, currently inhabiting my bathroom and purring up a storm every time someone goes in there!

I'll be doing slow introductions between him and my current cat to give them the best possible chance of living in harmony!

Here's some pictures of Artie once we let him out of the carrier:

#personal #okay to reblog #my cat #cat people #honestly i can't believe this #like it happened to me and it still feels so fanciful and unreal #like something out of a children's story book or something #he's such a good boy!#he purrs like a motorbike and loves his brushy!!!

31K notes · View notes

noelledeltarune · 8 months

Text

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

#talk tag #IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still)#(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'')#GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!!#one time i saw that a person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi.#they are TWIN BROTHERS.#not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this.#just horrible #also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you

69K notes · View notes

spr0utsies · 9 months

Text

63K notes · View notes

crabussy · 2 months

Text

challenged myself to make simpler redesigns that match the show constraints because I often create very complex designs and I wanted to see if I could make something I liked without going too over the top!! pretty happy with these [:

if you have any questions about my design choices ask away!!

part 2 with ten gazillion background characters including sunburst, luna, and twilight's canterlot friends!

#mlp #my little pony #mlp redesigns #mlp designs #mane 6 redesign #twilight sparkle #pinkie pie #rarity #rainbow dash #fluttershy #applejack #man. I love ponies right now #I REFRAINED FROM GIVING THEM SHINY COLOURFUL HOOVES ARE YOU PROUD OF ME.. DGHJSHK #hi 4000 followers. look at my horses

25K notes · View notes

lordspoooky · 9 months

Text

Ice king is a really good character because they intoduce him and you're like "haha what a freak what's wrong with him" and then the show goes "oh! You want to know? Let me show you :)" and you end up just sitting there like

#hi you clicked on the root post :)#good ass character #i love characters that are 'hehe goofy weirdo' and then they show their backstory and they're the most tragic fucking character in the show'#adventure time #ice king

66K notes · View notes

sully-s · 4 months

Text

Listen, if I had the time I would just make Justice Leauge the mockumentary, lol.

31K notes · View notes

phantom-of-the-501st · 10 months

Text

Remember that this is not the proof that they love each other

That was a last-ditch attempt from Crowley to get Aziraphale to stay

This is the proof that they love each other

Their love wasn't just made real because they kissed

It always existed

#i will argue this point til my dying breath #they always loved each other #if you think the kiss was the only proof #then i adviae you to reexamine the relationship #the kiss wasn't romantic anyway #it was desperate and painful #it was a last ditch effort from crowley because he loves aziraphale so much #but it was not the confession #he'd already confessed his feelings #the kiss was never necessary to do that #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers

68K notes · View notes

mydairpercabeth · 4 months

Text

Everyone holding Annabeth to an impossible Standard

And then there’s Percy

29K notes · View notes

hansoeii · 10 months

Text

we go just right.

68K notes · View notes

andy-dandy · 6 months

Text

love seeing the beginnings of perseus "pay your fucking child support" jackson's crusade against the gods' parental negligence problem in ep 1 & 2 of the pjo show. the absolute KING of "my daddy gave me issues so HE'S about to HAVE issues"

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson tv show #pjo series #i love his faceoff against mr d #'the FATE of the WORLD is at stake!'#'ok AND?'#percy is TRYING to refuse the call but the call KNOWS WHERE HE LIVES (and kidnapped his mom)#'i'm the son of SALLY JACKSON' what an icon

28K notes · View notes

sapphic-storm69 · 1 year

Text

Spiderverse thots

#across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #across the spider verse spoilers #ALSO GHE COWBOY SPIDER-MAN????? 🩷🩵💖💗#I guess #not really but just in case :)#I fucking loved spider punk #hatred of British people temporarily paused #fuck Miguel #fuck Jess #miguel o'hara #miles morales #gwen stacy #peter b parker #spider man #the word spider doesn’t seem real anymore #god couldn’t have made that movie it was too beautiful for his corrupted hands to tarnish with his sins #god bless the spiderverse #god….. poetic cinema

66K notes · View notes

goryfluff · 1 year

Text

Nautilus expedition live streams (+ their commentary) 2020 / 2021 / 2022

#ev nautilus #nautilus live #marine biology #sea creatures #ocean animals #marine animals #works #HI THERE AGAIN #LOOK AT THESE LITTLE GUYS #I love them so much!!!#talented brilliant incredible amazing show stopping etc #remember when I made gifs of the older streams #I never know how to tag these though

77K notes · View notes

lilislegacy · 4 months

Text

imagine being someone at new rome university and not knowing percy is the same guy as “percy jackson, son of poseidon, two-time hero of olympus, former praetor” because the thought doesn’t even cross your mind. like… he’s percy. he’s a total frat boy. on a normal night, he walks into a party, refers to everyone as bro or dude, socializes with every living (and not-living) person in the room, makes at least 50 sarcastic comments, plays 12 rounds of beer pong, drinks way too much, and then skates around campus on his skateboard yelling “I LOVE NEW YORK” (which makes no sense, because they’re in california) until someone calls his girlfriend to come get him.

and then one day there’s an attack, and frat boy percy is all of a sudden a fighting machine. he’s yelling battle cries alongside the praetors frank zhang and hazel levesque as they lead everyone into battle. (why is he with the praetors? and why…. why in the world do the praetors seem to be following his lead?) his sword slashes through armies of monsters faster than you’ve ever seen. he’s controlling the entire river surrounding the camp, creating huge waves as tall as skyscrapers that crash down all around him, wiping out monsters and causing mass destruction to his enemies’ ranks. the sky is suddenly dark above you, ice-cold water droplets are slashing through the air, and the wind is blowing so aggressively that it’s making it hard to stand up steadily. because he’s somehow created a hurricane.

and he looks terrifying. you can feel the power radiating off of him. he’s like a god. or maybe a monster. it’s hard to tell. you’re a little scared of him, to be honest. but also in total awe, because it’s extraordinary. he’s extraordinary.

frat boy percy is not who you thought he was.

#but at least it makes sense why annabeth chase is dating him lol #I AM NOT SAYING PERCY IS A BIG DRINKER #if he even drinks at all #it’s just the frat boy concept #it’s just for the sake of the post #anyway #i love how fast his mood changes #he’s so terrifying #but in a cute way #frat boy percy #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #trials of apollo #chalice of the gods #heroes of olympus #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo

21K notes · View notes