#most masculine thing a guy can do is dress femininely tbh
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Hi! I'm here 'cause i love your work so much, you really got my attention UwU
I wonder if you could do how ateez or svt act with an s/o with the same heigth or taller than them. That is my insecurity around boys tbh. Thank you if you read this, ily 🥺 💖 (English isn't my first language, sorry for the grammar)
AHHH OMG YOU’RE SO SWEET!!! I love *you* 🫶🏻 we stan a tall queen, I know 2 lovely 6ft gals, one married a 6’6 guy & the other is in a very committed relationship to a 5’5 (woozi height 😌) short king 👑 we love to see it! I’m sure any short average or tall guy would be lucky to have you 🥰
Ateez With a Tall S/O
Hongjoong
Ok, you know this man is gonna want to dress you up. You just have a great frame for modeling no matter what your style, because of course Hongjoong respects that. Whether you prefer more masculine or feminine looks, both look great on a tall person! If you’re taller than him, he’ll probably be a bit shy about it especially if you’re a tall queen! Don’t tease him and call him short though he doesn’t like it >:( he lowkey wishes he were taller so he can do more protective-looking things, but his personality definitely still shines through without the necessity of height. If you’re his height or really close to it, get ready for the most intense eye contact of your life and the best pictures of you two looking into each other’s eyes!
Seonghwa
In awe of you honestly. You know that look he gets of complete wonder, stars sparkling in his eyes as he smiles? That’s all for you, baby! Especially if you show off, totally work an outfit, or perform some dance moves he’s just like whooooaaaaa even if it was a small thing. Seonghwa’s favorite is to hold you close at his side and having you so near smooch distance is a big bonus! Your height doesn’t make him feel insecure at all, if anything he is reassuring you all the time how unique and amazing you are, whether it’s that or all the other things he loves about you. Having a taller significant other makes cuddling that much better to Seonghwa so he can hold you facing him that much more easily!
Yunho
He probably feels like you guys have natural common ground because both of you are tall. May make jokes or conversation about it to bond with you unless you really hate that. If you hate your height, he’ll just nod and get really understanding because while he’s at peace with being tall, Yunho can understand that it gets you attention. Just because it doesn’t bother him doesn’t mean he can’t empathize! Honestly, having a taller significant other that’s his height or near it is great in Yunho’s mind because it makes it easier to dance with you, which is one of his favorite things to do as a couple. It’s less awkward than if he’s towering over you or moving you too forcefully because he’s so much larger…not to mention the eye contact is very romantic!!!
Yeosang
Is surprised if you’re taller than him, if you’re just close to his height it’s probably not enough to register in his mind. Like ok cool, yeah you’re near eye level, that’s nice. But if you stand above him he will loom at you like :o . He sort of likes the idea of being the taller one in the relationship, but such a small thing would never be a deal breaker! Plus it ends up coming in handy and he sees it differently when you guys basically end up as that meme of Kevin Hart and the lady lol. You protect Yeosang, not that he can’t do it himself but you stand up for your innocent boyfriend and the way his heart beats has him forgetting why he ever wanted to be the tall one in the first place. He’ll definitely want to protect you in turn, pulling you to the half of the sidewalk away from the road and doing as many little things as possible for you!
San
Listens to you vent so well, so if you ever tell him you hate being tall he’ll nod so intently, eyes getting sad as you talk before taking both of your hands in his when you finish. He’ll tell you he thinks you’re beautiful and amazing just how you are and not to listen to those people no matter how hard it is to tune them out. Instead of focusing on your height he’ll compliment every single other thing he loves, like your face when you see your favorite things or how he felt when he met you. Conversely, if you love being tall, he’ll hype you up to oblivion about it, cheering you on and telling you how you’re working it even if you’re wearing the plainest outfit hehe. San’s your little spoon and your big spoon, the one you pulls you into his chest even if you’re taller and he’ll love it if you do the same. Basically he’s used to being the taller/same height one, so he’ll want to try every cuddle and hugging position possible with you!
Mingi
Lowkey loves that you’re tall too because he’s a big baby and it’s less overpowering when he falls on top of you laughing or cuddling, lol! Honestly, Mingi is another one that just thinks you’re so cool for being tall, probably oohing and ahhing at small things you do like reaching things or if you’re strong, too. Having a tall significant other feels like having a playmate to him, but he also loves that you’re that much closer to yank in for a kiss or just the feeling of you pressed up against him, your head close to his- it’s cute but can also be kinda hot. He teases you for being tall as if he isn’t too, unless of course you don’t like hearing commenting about your height! Endearing as heck forehead bonks ensue while Mingi’s either thinking really hard or in zero thoughts head empty mode. He jokes about absorbing your thoughts when he does it!
Wooyoung
Immediately puts his foot in his mouth and goes “Whoa how tall are you?” lmao but he really doesn’t mean it badly he’s just very social and teasing. So if you’re a fair bit taller than him he may make jokes like ‘what’s it like up there’ type of stuff… unless you tell him please don’t, of course. It’s not at all a bad thing to Wooyoung though, in fact he finds someone who can tower over him very appealing honestly! Also will probably ask if you can pick him up just for funsies hehe~ Because he loves to cuddle so much, Wooyoung will want you to be big spoon a lot of the time, probably an alternating spoon schedule lol. He would absolutely adore it if you guys danced and you dipped him, like man would be S W O O N I N G so please do it!!! You’ll get to see him grin for the next hour plus. Have fun in general tall queen/king/monarch because now you have Wooyoung as a backpack for life, good luck getting him to let go of you.
Jongho
Another one who, if you asked him, would prefer to be the taller one, but again not a deal breaker because he’s not that shallow. He’ll be extra proud to be able to lift you up if you’re a lot taller than him, hoisting you onto his shoulders with the most triumphant look! Jongho also really enjoys resting his head on your shoulder, whether your height difference is big enough for him to do it while you’re standing or he just does it while you’re sitting. It’s a small affectionate gesture he enjoys, same with loose hugs from behind, which again he might prefer from you if you’re tall enough! If not, that’s his job congrats. He isn’t much of a cheek kisser, but will do it sometimes because your cheek is so close, it’s just right there!!!
#ateez#ateez imagines#ateez reactions#ateez x reader#ateez scenarios#hongjoong#seonghwa#yunho#yeosang#san#mingi#wooyoung#jongho#gender neutral reader#requested#snowqueen-01
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Some rambling about itsfunneh's YHS and Kyran's and Alec's friendship
Just finished watching the 1st season of YHS!
It's.... KIND OF A MESS? Once again the plot is everywhere and they're not very good at pacing.
Slightly unrelated to the plot; what bothered me the most was the outdated gender roles being pushed on every time.
--"You punch like a girl." (not the extra misogynistic flavour in this quote) "I'm going to roast marshmallows.. LIKE A MAN!"
There's also another episode where they're looking to buy a present for senpai and Kyran said that Gold shouldn't buy perfume for the former because HE'S NOT HER BOYFRIEND?? ANYWAYS This was 7 years ago and I'm not saying you should harass or cancel the krew for this or whatever (it's extremely pointless and it won't go anywhere). I'm just criticising it because this type of generalisation leads to stereotypes. AND THEN these stereotypes both dictate the way you behave because you're scared that people will put you down and brush you off.
ANYWAYS, I didn't mean to make a long ass paragraph about this but here we are.
Pushing aside the ordeal abt the writing pushing these gender roles, there's a paradox about that and the relationship between Kyran and Alec. It's kind of funny because there are some elements in their dynamic that could become a good conflict between them and it could also say a lot of things about how society works and how words have a lot of power.
- Kyran is your shy reserved weeaboo who's often played as the comedic relief because of his tendencies to just suck at physical activities (me asf)
- Alec is the shady hardworking stereotypical bad boy. He's a murderer's henchman solely because he needs money to support his family.
There is a lot of potential to talk about what boys (and equally girls) have to endure in society and how it can be dealt with.
HEADCANON STUFF HERR!! But if you tweak some stuff, Kyran has the archetype of the guy labelled as "too feminine" because he's not athletic and actually voices out his emotions. But evidently he doesn't want to be seen as feminine because it has negative connotations; when he says "I'm going to roast marshmallows.. LIKE A MAN!" it LITERALLY sounds like he has a fragile masculinity because... society. And I'm not blaming it at all haha... I feel like we've all experienced a slice of this.
Conversely, there's Alec who actually fits into the masc category; he's effortlessly athletic and doesn't feel... much I guess. He doesn't really voice out his emotions like AT ALL but he is put down often because he's kind of seen as a delinquent by most people.
So there's this whole thing between the fear of being called feminine as a masculine individual and being feared by most people simply because of the way you dress/act.
I think that's already a really strong foundation for what will ensue next.
So in season 2 we get to know how they first met in kindergarten.
Kyran was getting bullied by some random dude. But Alec just beats the crap out of that person (which he refers alec as the "MEAN BOY", once again supporting my stuff with Alec being seen as a bad person. But thats just my interpretation of it, like there are so many and tbh u would call anyone mean for punching you if you rhink youre right ig). To me it just kind of makes their friendship a little more complex!
1. it shows that Alec genuinely doesn't give a fuck about who Kyran is as a person because regardless of who he is, that kid was doing something wrong. Alec is a decent person for standing up for someone who couldn't do anything against what was happening at the moment. I know they were like 5 but it shows that in nature Alec instinctively does things for what he believes is right (and it's not the only example of Alec doing something nice).
2. To me it says a lot about how children just don't care about who they're playing with based on physical attributes or whatever UNTIL society makes them learn that it DOES matter.
And these facts are so bittersweet to me because in the camping episode of season 1, they just voice out each other's insecurities. It's not even funny anymore LMAO.
"you're a delinquent!" + Alec poking "fun" at Kyran for being childish/not-a-man-TM, but you could interpret him as just asking these questions out of curiosity. He's actually less confrontational than Kyran in the episode.
Despite knowing that they used to look out for each other and accepted each others' QUOTE AND QUOTE """""" flaws""", whatever outbreak happened between these two must have caused a huge impact on each other's perception of each other. An impact that made them internally say "people must've been right. Alec IS a bad person after all. Kyran IS too emotional."
There's another layer of salt to the wounds because deep down Alec probably also agrees with Kyran for being a delinquent because he's Yandere's henchman.
Some suggestions that could've made this story a bit more engaging and interesting, at least for me:
- making alec hate horror + gore would make more sense to me because his side job is to literally cover up someone's death and all of that.
- we get 0 reasons as to why Alec likes Funneh. I feel like they could've played on the fact that Alec didn't make any friends after Kyran and has always been viewed as the bad guy. But then Funneh just doesn't care about that prejudice and hangs out with him anyway?
- the 2 plots (funneh's life + yandere's killing spree) should've been a bit more intertwined. Murder cases in high school aren't peanuts. I feel like it could've been fun seeing Kyran dragging Gold and Funneh into this whole detective thing meanwhile Alec is reluctantly coming with them and having some inner conflicts. Actually, they should've fleshed out their reasons as to why they're doing this whole detective thing in the first place. There needs to be a huge drawing force as to why, yk? Maybe drawing some inspiration to Heathers and Be More Chill could've been fun too!
- Despite them being in America, I feel like we should've seen more people of colour? Like african descent americans. Their thing literally takes place in THE USA yet most of them are like... white or asian or mixed
#why is this so long#1k words#why#anyways#itsfunneh yhs#yhs#yandere high school#itsfunneh yandere high school#rambling
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Pride month is weird for me. I tend to just vibe and support others, but weird when thinking about myself.
It’s always been weird trying to self reflect on things like sexual orientation and gender preferences. Mostly because I really seem to lean into ‘I don’t care’ about most of it, and I always have to wonder how much of that may be due to depression, mental stuff like autism, and how much of it is how I’d feel if I didn’t feel constantly detached from the world at large.
Like. There’s always a part of me that’s aware that, regardless of if there’s a ‘reason’ I feel one way, that doesn’t negate my feelings in the moment or make my experience lesser. But other parts of me want to know the full answer to questions I would never be able to answer unless I were in a safe and secure spot in my life. (Which I technically am, since I have few actual concerns about money or living situation or anything like that. But anxiety won’t let me live in peace unless I had everything under control for myself, and atm things are just good because my parents are good.)
Financial and general life stability aside, I do at least think I’m asexual. My memory is pretty good, and I can’t remember any time I’ve ever been interested in anyone or anything in a sexual way. I’m pretty sure on aromantic for the same reasons. I can remember how I was with people in the past, and I never could understand people asking other people out without them really ever having met before. Felt super awkward to even think about. Granted, if I’ve never dated (and never really had any guy friends), there’s a chance I could be demi, but chances are. Low. In a ‘I have fictional fave characters that I’d love to hug and hang out with, but had a friend who had a harem of her fave guys that she legit found attractive, and I just had to shrug’ kinda low chance.
What I’d really like to know is if depression might be interfering with my perception of gender preference. Mostly because, currently, I would say I have gender apathy, and while I can think back to my pre-depression self and say I just don’t want anything with sexual and romantic preferences, I never really thought about my gender when I was younger. (Or much at all until it became such a big deal online tbh. Not that I ever felt pressure to pick a defined label, but it did make me wonder.)
When I was younger, I had to wear dresses to church because it was still a time where religious people tended to wear more traditional stuff. I was fine with dresses... until I wasn’t. I hated being forced to wear them and get new ones as I grew. Eventually, it was okay to wear skirts, and I liked it slightly better. But when I got to wear slacks, I never wore a dress or skirt the entire rest of the time I was forced to attend church. I was a tomboy who played sports and would roughhouse with my younger brother. I had a naturally deeper voice than most girls my age, and a few people made fun of me for that. I know I didn’t like being made fun of, but I also don’t think I would have been too bothered by the implication if it weren’t specifically done as an insult. I would rarely get violent, but I did threaten people who bothered my friends. Usually with my nails, which grew long, and I liked having long nails and med/long hair. I’d pick out pretty feminine designed glasses, but my face is more masculine in general, and I had zero interest in using makeup that could make it ‘look better’. Mixed feelings about the idea of gender conformity in general, to this day, and just tend to go with whatever I personally like.
In the online space, I join a forum, and eventually a chat group with people that I still know to this day. Since I didn’t use a username that indicates one way or another what my gender was, there was some confusion. Some people defaulted to he/him, others she/her. And Even though I noticed the pronouns, I didn’t feel any need to clarify until I was directly asked if I was a boy or girl. And even now, the rare times people refer to me without talking about me online, I never correct anyone if they don’t use she/her. Even if they do use he/him, it legitimately doesn’t bother me, and I feel no validation or anything regardless of the pronoun used. Nowadays, if people (usually channels with introductions more often) ask for pronouns, I usually just say ‘any’ or all available options. I really Do Not Care. It’s the sort of situation where I can also consider how I’d feel if it were said right in front of me, and honestly? I think I’d be amused if someone referred to me as he/him in public, but I don’t think I’d feel offended or mad. If anything, since I’ve cosplayed, I find it validating if people get confused on my gender. It’s just not usually something that happens day to day, for. Reasons.
But ye. Idk. It sounds almost kinda lazy if I just go ‘no to sexual, no to romantic, and I don’t really care about gender’. I know it’s perfectly valid, since it’s what I feel, but still. Weird. I don’t feel a strong connection with pride month as a celebratory validating time, even if I could be because I’m definitely not the ‘default’ hetero cis experience. If I can’t relate, I know I have a place among the queer, if I so chose. But I do feel happy for people who do feel the excitement and pride.
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So I have opinions on the other stages but like most of us I can’t stop thinking about the SF9 stage. Hanya said it really well in her response but I think we have to break up the members into the ones who tried to emulate Taemin’s androgyny and those who just flat out didn’t try. So in order I’d put it Taeyang, Jaeyoon, Zuho. Those three stood out to me the most as really pushing into more feminine ways of carrying themselves and dancing especially Jaeyoon-like where did that man come from it was very unexpected. Then Chani and Inseong were both more neutral. I can’t put Chani in the first category mostly because of the contrast between his dancing and style with the female dancers that made it obvious that he was still trying to be more masculine despite having certain moves that definitely lend to a feline style like all the hip movements(whether consciously or unconsciously). And last Hwiyoung, Youngbin, and Dawon. I think this is the distinction that some people were making with “sexy” and “Taemin sexy”. Like everyone just associates him with sexiness but opening your shirt to show off your abs doesn’t fit with Taemin’s usual sensuality. Taemin seems to be more focused on movement (throwback to your post on his dancing style) so in order to emulate him there a certain attitude and way in which you carry yourself through movement is necessary. Also youngbin’s rap part did not fit with the concept either-it was too energetic and chill (too much swagger?). Like the way he moved compared to say Zuho was more in line with his usual stuff rather than fitting the way he moved to the stage and song. It’s also interesting to see that the outfits seem to also keep in line with this. Zuho and Taeyang have their midsections showing in a way that’s more common in women’s fashion then in men’s, Chani and Inseong are almost completely covered (so neither in one direction or the other) and Hwiyoung has his arms bared to show off his manly, manly biceps. And of course there’s Dawon. It’s fascinating to compare the members with the more revealing outfits. Like they all have their midsections uncovered but to be more feminine it’s only just a crop top and to be more masculine you open the shirt up completely. It makes sense. Also I’ve been obsessed with Jaeyoon and I can’t exactly pinpoint why he stood out so much especially when Taeyang is RIGHT THERE (though I don’t really think Taeyang got a solo scene but rather was center on the group dances which kind of dilutes his parts). Like his outfit is pretty plain but I love the cutout and the fact that he has long sleeves but they aren’t mesh. It’s simple but effective. I kept thinking this was the Hetero man’s Move especially during Youngbin and Dawson’s parts.
ok this took a really long time because honestly i changed what i was writing about like four times in the middle of the process and i changed my mind like four times because this is a very complicated topic and i could not settle on what the best way to come at it was. tbh i dont think i did the best job even though this is over a thousand words but i have no clue how to make this any more coherent without re-reading all of my flatmate and i's gender theory books and that's just way too much. but here we go.
EDIT: here is hanya’s post about the stage for reference!
where i'm at right now is that i think we are overlaying taemin’s current gender antics with what the actual move was. move has transformed along with taemin, and as such we look back at it with the understanding of what it becomes, but if we take a moment to forget that context, well... let me show you. here’s the 171019 comeback stage. and the 171027. and the 171029. now, here’s the 190223 stage from sketchbook. and from almost a year later, at the 2019 mbc music festival. and now here’s it from a month ago on the tiktok stage. it’s changed a significant amount not only in how he performs it, but in how the costumes and his body affect what it looks like. the cutoff muscle shirt of october 2017 absolutely has a different connotation than the lace back and velvet princess glove and the diamonds of december 2019.
i still do believe that sf9’s cover is missing a huge dimension because it comes from a fundamental non-understanding of what people who present even the slightest bit outside of the gender binary go through, i don’t think they were wrong in interpreting it as ‘man doing non-aggressive but seductive dance moves’ because on the surface, that’s what it is. taemin has actually spent a significant portion of his solo career doing what you described as traditionally 'masculine' dressing; he did famously rip his shirt off for the first non-music show performance of danger, after all. what we associate as 'taemin sensuality' is relatively new for him, it's more prominently a post-want mannerism because pre-move (and for a lot of move itself) he was very focussed on being perceived as masculine.
if we look at sf9's costumes individually, the breakdown looks like this:
chani - skinny trouser, chiffon shirt, and a cropped wrap suit jacket with a tie back
dawon - straight leg trouser, open silk shirt
jaeyoon - asymmetric open shoulder mock turtleneck, wide leg trouser
taeyang - wide leg trouser, faux leather open shoulder crop top
inseong - silk/silk blend shirt, cropped asymmetric suit jacket with a crossover back, tailored trouser
hwiyoung - sleeveless mock neck faux leather vest, straight leg cargo pant
youngbin - mock neck asymmetric crop top with a mesh underlayer, wide leg trouser
zuho - skinny trouser, mock neck crop top, cropped suit jacket with a pointed front
taemin has worn most of these looks. cropped wrap jacket? ngda beyond live velvet suit. open silk shirt? the move album cover. asymmetric shoulder cutout? several want performances. the only exception is that he doesn’t often wear non-skinny trousers, but even then he did for his beauty and the beast moment with the jinro frog. and sleeveless was the whole costume concept for move in the first place. even youngbin’s look is very similar to this outfit from the offsick concert series. but silhouette is only one factor of a complete costume design - you have to take into account the performer’s body, and how that silhouette is perceived on that body. it’s interesting that you specify that hwiyoung’s biceps are ‘manly’ and grouped him in with the more ‘masculine’ of the sf9 members; as i showed at the beginning of this, taemin was at his most physically muscular for move promotions. hwiyoung has just as pretty a face as taemin, but we perceive him differently in this outfit because his body is categorized as more masculine because his muscles are bigger. and this is fundamentally a gender essentialist argument because bigger muscles are not actually ‘more masculine,’ muscles don’t have gender they’re just how humans move around. it’s just our societally impressed gender binary that makes us think that.
another costume point i want to make is how you describe chani and inseong as being completely covered so ‘neither one direction or the other,’ which i would like to break down a bit. for starters, jaeyoon is also essentially fully covered, but you perceived him as being one of the more androgynous ones over chani or inseong. why? because his silhouette was more form-fitted? because there was an uncommon area of skin showing? chani has a tightly fit silhouette as well, and you can see a fair amount of his skin because his shirt is chiffon. why is a suit neutral but something cut to follow the contour of a body not? the fact of the matter is, the suit is the most symbolically gendered garment in the world; it is loaded with western colonial and patriarchal implications. we just view it as 'neutral' because we’ve been normalized to see it as neutral. now neither of the suits chani or inseong are wearing are traditionally cut, and chani’s especially is quite subversive in its construction, but taemin is no stranger to using the implications of a suit for move, here’s the stage from 171105. grey double breasted pinstripe suits were the most popular style for businessmen in the postwar west, and still maintain a prominent indicator of class and power to this day.
you are correct in pointing out that the movements and mannerisms of the members don’t all match the same level, but i want to specifically talk about the intro moment with chani, because you mention him as trying to be more masculine, which i very much disagree with. chani actually does the best at retaining the body neutrality of the original choreo because the original choreo as a stand alone isn’t that seductive or ‘feminine.’ yea he doesn’t have the attitude down pat but the guy’s 20 and is clearly not as comfortable with being this kind of sexy. the reason why you’re perceiving him to be more ‘masculine’ in his movements is because the backup dancers are frankly, being pretty aggressively sexual in a feminine coded way around him. of course he’s gonna look out of place! part of what gives move its uniqueness is that the backup dancers are doing the exact same choreo as taemin, at the exact same intensity. not an altered version where they slut drop behind him.
like i said at the very beginning, i think taemin’s been tipped into the ‘feminine’ category under false assumptions, so it’s doing a bit of skewing of the responses to this stage. if i were to make a very reductivist diagram, i think a lot of responses have been (taemin) <- neutral -> masculine, with the implication that taemin is the feminine analogue, but in reality what taemin is and is aiming for is feminine -> (taemin) <- masculine. because we have been socialized to see things in such an aggressive binary, it can be very difficult to pick out what a true neutral is.
#clothing bodies and mannerisms are all genderless and gendered at the same time#it is the context that makes them gendered and you have to deconstruct and understand that context in order to get closer to neutral#personally i think most of taemin's solo career has been more 'deconstructing masculinity' than aiming at neutral#but ngda and advice have been much more pointed in their use of 'femininity' and get him much closer to that neutral#taemin very specifically uses costume mannerism and body as subversive tools against his perceived gender#and sf9 did not use them in the same way#the mannerisms are the main culprit but also those are the hardest to divorce from gender#and you dont really know how to unless you sit outside the binary#ctrl f how many times i fucking use the word gender in this response but dont tell me i dont wanna know#god this is so barebones and unclear theres so many things i didnt cover#i am all over the MAP with this one#i hate writing analysis about gender because it can be highly subjective#but also it relies on systems that need to be dismantled and analysed FIRST before you can even get to the fun stuff about clothes#ok im done with this if people have questions lemme know but i cant promise my explanation will be any better because my pea brain is mush#kingdom#sf9#taemin meta#text#kingdom asks
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You said we can ask you questions so here goes( hope they arent invasive)
-at what age did u realise u were lesbian?was it easy/hard to accept?
-how was your coming out like? How did your family and friends react?
-were you ever/are you religious?do u believe one can balance between being homosexual and religious?
- were you always masc or is it something that came with accepting your sexuality?
-do you call yourself a stud?
- how hard/easy has it been being an out and proud black lesbian?
- thoughts on the stigma against stud4stud/butch4butch lesbians
-were you ever a TRA/libfem? If yes, what made you peak?
-ive had ppl talk about how masc lesbians being touch-me-nots is problematic/toxic and how its more about upholding a "status" than it is about preference. What do you make of that?
Not invasive at all! I'm happy to answer and thank you for asking :).
- I realized I was a lesbian at age 12 when I developed a HUGE crush on my gorgeous English teacher. I also got a small crush on a girl in one of my classes. I didn't grow up around much homophobia so it wasn't hard for me to accept that I was gay but what was hard was the absolute intensity of my feelings towards my teacher. I used to pray to god to have my feelings for her taken away because they were just so intense and I didn't know how to handle them (she was my teacher so I clearly wasn't going to ask her out. There was literally no outlet for what I was feeling so I kept it bottled.). My parents never brought up gay people in any positive or negative way and the kids I grew up around didn't really either. So me being gay wasn't something I beat myself up over. Once I accepted that I wasn't an overly invested straight ally, the road to acceptance was a peace of cake tbh.
-My coming out was... Well. I first started coming out to my friends when I was 13 and they were accepting of it. It honestly wasn't that interesting to tell you the truth 😅. All the peers that I gave a shit about never gave me shit for being gay. I never lost a friend for being gay. Coming out to my parents took me until I was 16 and the reason for that is because I genuinely didn't know how they'd react. Like I said, they never said anything about gay people point blank period. However, I was kind of forced to come out one particular night because my heart had been fucking shattered by a girl I was strongly crushing on at the time. I was pacing up and down my house, my best friend wasn't answering me, I could hear my dad's TV playing, it was late, I was tired, I couldn't sleep, I had school tomorrow, I was freaking out, I was devastated... I wanted to be comforted so I went to my father, threw my head into his arm and started telling him how my heart felt broken. He asked me if I had a boyfriend and when I said "nope" there was some silence and he was like "it's okay, I've known for a long time". I never actually said the words "gay" or "lesbian" during my coming out but I guess I didn't need to. The next morning, my father asked if it was okay if he could go tell my mom and I said yes. Long story short, my mom was even less surprised than my dad and she's the more progressive of the two so it wasn't really an issue (though she did tell me to keep an open mind in terms of liking men 😅 she seems to think I'm bisexual which is whatever because she never bothers me about it).
-Hmm. I don't like to completely cut out religion from my life. My father was extremely religious and now that he's gone, I feel it's disrespectful for me to say God doesn't exist. Like, "dad, you spent practically your whole life believing wholeheartedly in God but guess what! It was a waste and the thing you dedicated your life is something I think is a fairytale!" that doesn't sit right with me at all. I've been baptized and I used to go to church when I was younger. I think that there's no reason to shake my head at the possibility of a God. In terms of being gay and believing in God, I once watched a video by a devout Christian gay man who went through all the homophobic stuff Christians love to quote from the bible and gave the actual meaning behind them. I, personally, do not think that God is homophobic. I think that God's love is not something we have the capacity to understand. So, I, personally, think Christian gay people are perfectly fine and are already balanced. Here's to hoping that they stay away from homophobic churches!
-No, I wasn't always masc. As a child I was a huge girly girl. Like, legit, I wasn't a tomboy in the slightest lmao. I'm not sure when I started being masc. But what I do know is that I've grown far more masc over the years. I used to not want to dress too manly (no tuxedo's and no clothes from the men's section and no boxers) but nowadays I love all of those things and that's genuinely what I want in my wardrobe so I have no problem going into the men's section for my clothes.
-No, I don't call myself a stud. Love those guys though. The label I feel that's most accurate for me is masc.
-Um, I'm not sure how to answer this since I don't have experience being any other kind of lesbian. I guess it's just kind of tiring. I'm black, female, and homosexual. That's a LOT of different topics to give my attention to. The hardest part of being a black lesbian is knowing who to give my camaraderie to. Do I give it to black women? Black women AND black men? Lesbians? Only black lesbians? The lgb community as a whole? It's just a lot to think about. I will say, though, I think that it's a lot harder to be a masc black lesbian than a white one. Black women are already perceived as manly just based off of our skin color. So for me to willingly present masc can often be... A non-pretty picture in the eyes of society and I'm hyper-aware of that which is why I often have trouble going all out with the wardrobe I truly desire. That's my biggest challenge navigating the world as the black lesbian that I am. On a more positive note though, it's great being a black lesbian because I can have an opinion on everything and nobody can tell me I'm being racist/homophobic/sexist or stepping outside of my lane 😂. I'm on a three-lane road motherfucker and I'm not afraid to use all of them.
-my thoughts are that you should leave people alone. I will say though, I once read something that was like "if you call yourself a femme but the idea of being with a butch disgusts you, you're not a femme, you're just a feminine lesbian" and that rang true to me so it feels hypothetical (and nonsensical) if the reverse wasn't true as well. If a butch/stud shits on femmes and assumes they can't be as feminine as they are and ACTUALLY gay then I do have a problem. Butches and femmes have a history that's damn near inseparable from each other so for a butch to shit on femmes... I'd argue that they're probably not butch but instead just masculine lesbians. However, I don't care if two butches or studs want to date lmao. All the power to them, I hope they're happy.
-I definitely used to support trans rights more than I do now. I would correct people who misgendered others. I thought trans women were women. I was in support of bathroom laws. I never made posts about it, but I very much did believe it. Magdalen berns made me peak. I started realizing that gender makes no sense. I did some research and came to the conclusions I hold today. Even when I want to go back to my ignorance, I can't because I've seen too much by now.
-I honestly don't know. I think that some masc lesbians don't want to be put in that "feminine" position of being touched by their partner. It could stem from upholding a status but at the end of the day, sexual boundaries are sexual boundaries. What are you gonna do? Force your touch on to them? Yikes. Leave them be. If you're upset about your partner not wanting to be touched by you then get a new one. Clearly you're not sexually happy so leave. I don't think it's necessarily toxic unless they think there's something inherently demeaning in being touched by their partner or they do want to be touched but won't allow themselves due to trauma or feeling like there's a certain persona they must uplift. Other than that though, I don't see the issue.
Thanks for the questions, buddy ❤️
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Ateez Ideal Types
this is totally my opinion!! please don’t take anything i said here seriously because it’s probably all wrong hehe🖤
hongjoong:
i’d imagine hongjoong would be most comfortable with someone who was in the quiet side, perhaps not introverted but quiet for sure. he would fall for someone who was mysterious and had a lot to explore would since they would intrigue him the most. of course he’d want someone understanding and not clingy since he won’t be with them all the time, but he’d still want them to miss him and be loyal (that’s a given but oh well.) i think he would enjoy being with someone who likes travelling with him and enjoys going on adventures but also someone who’s down to chill in the studio with him and give him honest opinions on any new music. honesty would be important to him in an s/o i think as well as trust. since hongjoong is how should i say this... vertically challenged, i’d imagine he’d want someone who is also rather short. i always imagined hongjoong going for someone a lil edgy in how they dress and how they cut their hair (and how they do their make up, but he’d rather no make up at all) but still keeping with the quiet vibe somehow. rather than cute, i think he’d prefer a sexy person, someone who is quite flirty with him, almost dominating in fact.
seonghwa:
i think seonghwa would go for someone who was stereotypically good looking. someone who everyone thinks is good looking. someone who KNOWS they are good looking, but he doesn’t want someone who is rude or has a superiority complex bc he’s a really nice person okay 🥺pls don’t put him through that. i think he’s a fan of long straight black hair and a light make up look, perhaps with a bold red lip and a winged eye liner on date nights just to spice it up a bit. i believe seonghwa would like someone who is keen on fashion and maybe even works in the industry. like him, i think his significant other would be someone with a kind heart, even if they do look cold on the outside. honestly, i think he’d really like someone who is quite innocent despite not looking it. they gotta have some table manners, manners in general in fact. being rude,especially when it’s uncalled for, is something i’d imagine he can’t stand!!!
yunho:
i think yunho would like someone small. like real small so he can tease them. i think he would like someone with “feminine feature” such as long hair and a cute lil button nose that he could boop every once in a while. i also think he would like pale skin that matches his. honestly, i don’t see him with someone who isn’t korean because of the language barrier but if he does fall for someone who doesn’t speak korean he’d probably learn english for u because he’s a big cutie like that. personality wise i think he would match well with someone quite loud and care free like him so they can mess around together and be wild (not in that way u cheeky chappy.) i think he would want someone who is a lil clingy and someone who always wants to be around him because secretly he always wants to be around them too. he would want someone who ate a lot i feel, chubby or thin, that doesn’t matter just be able to pack away a lot of delicious food. the main thing he would want is for you to be genuinely kind and happy. i feel like he’s someone who cannot stand “fakeness” so being genuinely happy and kind to him and to others would be one of his favourite things about you.
yeosang:
as he is an innocent lil bunny himself, i think he would want someone who is also quite innocent. someone who looks innocent and actually is innocent. the person must make Yeosang feel comfortable tho, since he’s quite a quiet guy, being all up in his face 25/8 would be a fat no no for him. he strikes me as someone who doesn’t exactly have a type, but more of “if we vibe, we vibe” kind of person so it really just depends on them. although he may not have an exact type, i think he would rather be with someone who could speak korean, he is wayyy too busy to learn english fluently rn so i don’t think that would be the best for him. for some reason, i get the vibe that he would like someone who stereotypically dresses like they go to Oxford. like those round metal glasses, a pleated skirt with tights and a nice shirt and he’s on the floor passed out from ur beauty. of course since he’s a visual GOD, i can see him with someone who also has beautiful facial features and silky soft hair. i don’t think body type matters that much to him tbh.
san:
fuck me san would loveee someone sexy, i don’t take constructive criticism. like typically sexy: curvaceous, tanned, long legs, defined jaw line and an intimidating stare (did i just describe Hwasa i think i did) but at the same time, like the duality king of ateez himself, i think he would like someone who is a b i g cutie pie, especially when they’re in public bc he’d probs get jealous should anyone else see ur sexy side. i think he would like someone with an interest in their appearance, someone who likes to stay fit and healthy and goes to the gym regularly. i see him as someone who wants an s/o that he can share the spotlight with and so confidence is the key to winning his heart. i see him with someone who also likes music. someone who writes music would be so fkn hot to him and he’d love to show off your talents on ur behalf. honestly at the end of the day i think he wants someone who is proud of him. someone who can show him that they’re proud of him and are actually being serious, not just saying it because they know he likes it.
mingi:
this cutie would want someone who is also vvvv cute. someone who dresses and acts cutely would be perfect for him. i see him going for someone who is perhaps considered quite tall, but is still short to him. idk why but i get the vibe that he would like gingers, dyed or natural. i think he would like someone with doll-like eyes and an infectious, gummy smile that lights up the whole room. omg someone who is constantly laughing and smiling would be perfect for mingi, a bright personality would make him super happy and comfortable. i kinda think he would like to be babied, but he’d also want to baby his s/o so it would need to be someone who is a bit of a switch (in a non sexual way ofc.) he would perhaps want someone who was quite loud and playful, especially when the two of them were alone. he’s not really a fan of PDA i don’t think, especially in front of the members, so he wouldn’t want anyone who liked to constantly kiss him or hold onto him when out and about. behind closed doors however, pls be all over him bc he’d love that i’d imagine ahah. idk maybe it’s just me but i think he needs some validation so someone who could give him that regularly would be perfect for him, without being condescending or not understanding.
wooyoung:
oh my gosh i KNOW wooyoung loves affection so his ideal type is definitely someone who is affectionate. as sexy as he claims to be, he’s still a big cutie and i think he would want a cute s/o. i believe he would like someone sensitive that he could look out for to make him feel “manly.” i think he would thrive best in a relationship with someone who isn’t afraid of telling him to calm down when he needs to or to rest occasionally, even if he doesn’t admit to wanting that. an s/o with a great sense of humour would be perfect for him, someone who can adapt their humour to the situation would be especially cool. like him, i think he would want to date a dancer or an idol of some sort. in terms of appearance i don’t think he would be that fussy. i think he’d be a big fan someone who had nice eyebrows tho, like idk maybe he has an eyebrow kink? i think he’d love blue eyes or features that aren’t typically “korean.” i think too, he would go for someone who wasn’t too skinny but was still healthy.
jongho:
literally be his baby and his mother and you are his forever. i think jongho would LOVE to be babied just as much as he loved being the strong masculine boyfriend in the relationship. he isn’t really a fan of PDA but i think he’d make an exception for the love of his life, and he would find it cute to see someone who was touchy with their friends (but he’d also get jealous,,, a sticky one). he would like someone who is cute and their “reputation” if you will is positive and all things about them are nice. if you could sing, he would REALLY like that. like he’d be super into doing things when he knew you had a shared passion for them. appearance wise i think he would like someone kinda chubby with cute cheeks he could pinch hehe. i think he would like someone who looked natural: no make up, natural hair colour, no fillers or plastic surgery. maybe this goes without saying but i think he would want someone short, shorter or just a lil taller than him though he doesn’t mind about that, just not so tall that it looks odd ya feel?
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i was curious about that, how come it was hyper femininity for you? did something about it appeal to you despite not being quite right or was it to distance yourself, or sth else, or did i get that wrong and it does feel right? also i second the thing about it being so damn confusing, i was never very feminine and now i can try to sieve apart what part of my identity/what i want is caused by internalized misogyny, whats overcompensating for internalized misogyny and what's actually right
Well. One thing is that I have a mile wide contrary streak so when I was little and being socially pressured into wearing frills and dresses I was like ‘fuck you no I want to live in the DIRT’, and then when I got a little older and messy chic not-like-other-girls stuff came into vogue I got contrary in the other direction and was like ‘fuck you I'm going to wear pink ALL THE TIME’
But tbh I’ve never ever been good at performing femininity. I barely understand make-up, due to sensory problems I can’t wear jewellery (like, at all. Like. I’ll hurl), I find most images of womanhood weird and alienating, and I’ve always resonated much more with male characters, even if manhood is still sort of alienating.
But without going into too much of the gory details, there’s a lot of power to be had in being super effeminate and being considered attractive. If you’ve spent most of your childhood being treated like shit by your peers and then discover if you wear a certain dress and put on make-up in a certain way, you suddenly get treated very well, it’s hard not to go completely fucking insane with the sudden power.
(Even though this usually leads to being mistreated in new, sexy ways! Fun!)
But also I don’t have a very feminine personality! I’m direct and crude and have a stupid sense of humour and I honestly really enjoy when I kind of wrong-foot people. When you dress super soft pastel femme, people expect one thing out of you and it’s fun when they get another. Like I still really enjoy mixing masculine and feminine stuff together Like, today I’ve got like. Boxers and my binder on, with a men’s shirt and men’s perfume, but I’m also wearing a skirt. That’s fun and funky.
But also I do legit like pastels and bright colours and cute animals and soft fabrics and I find a lot of the colours and patterns in menswear so dull, even though I actively like the cuts and shapes of menswear better.
Also I’m like. Short and mega-curvy so I genuinely thought like. I’ll never pull off the stuff I want to wear (boyish clothes, androgyny) because I’m not tall and willowy. (I used to want to look like that so bad, guys. I still kinda do.)
So since I couldn’t do that I was like. Ok I’ll go radically the other way. I’ll try to dress for the body I have, rather than the body I want. I have a fairly good eye for clothes so I can dress my own body up like a doll, even if it doesn’t particularly feel like me. It’s normal to feel like you’re just piloting a weird meat puppet that has nothing to do with you, right? People are complimenting the meat-puppet, so I am doing a good job, right? This is working, right? Then why do I still avoid my reflection like the plague and photos of myself give me panic attacks? Why does changing my weight not help? Why does wearing make-up and dressing “properly” not help?
The answer is, I think, dysphoria.
This is really rambling and UNBELIEVABLY unhelpful but I’m just kind of thinking, uh. Aloud. In-type. Whatever.
#clefairy squeaks#gender nonsense#Also I've had weird gender feelings since I was in like. The single figures ages.#This isn't new this is just something I've been repressing.#Anonymous
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I may renege on this but i’m starting to wonder if i’m nonbinary in some way? I know “gender non-conforming” is like, discouraged terminology right now, but it feels much more right than a lot of other options to me...
I’m conflicted because ‘she/her’ is absolutely the only pronoun that feels “right”, Considering “they” is deeply uncomfortable. “He” is right the fuck out.
Being fat, being conventionally unattractive, but above all being disabled, I feel constantly denied my gender, my sexuality, my maturity. Like I have to over-perform femininity four times as hard to be perceived as even half as feminine as other women. Like the only thing marking me as Woman in most people’s eyes is my chest, which I resent for all the physical discomfort it brings me, for all of the trauma I carry in it. A lot of the low-grade bullying I experienced as a child was gendery. I remember some random older girls on the playground yelling that I looked like a boy when I was in 4th grade. I’ve gotten so used to male friends basically forgetting I’m a girl, and in fact a friend in grad school admitted as much in a stoned conversation once. That sucked.
I feel a weird alienation from femininity, in a way that hurts. I love feminine-coded things and dressing in a feminine way but i sometimes feel like i’m appropriating something that doesn’t “rightfully” belong to me, which is an odd duck feeling. Like when i wear certain dramatic makeup looks, it feels more like “drag” than just “makeup”. God help me if I DON’T have a full face of makeup on, because then it’s I can’t make sense of my face and if it’s masculine or feminine. And it certainly makes it hard to freely experiment with “masculine” things I like without feeling like I’ll tip the scale (unwelcomely) on how I’m perceived. But how much of this is Me Being Something Behind Door Number Three? How much of it is a lifetime of having my gender Othered by the perceptions of society, instead?
Can you be nonbinary AND a woman? Am I just a lameass anxiety-ridden ciswoman with unaddressed trauma? Am i trans and in deep, deep denial? I genuinely can’t ever see myself being “a guy”, so i don’t think that’s it at least.
I’m scared to explore my gender presentation—much less the deeper identity stuff involved—because i have no idea what I’m doing and i don’t want to give up the woman side of me. I don’t want to be scrutinized or criticized or “worried about”. I don’t want to have my every experiment under a microscope, only to feel like if something doesn’t stick, it was just stupid and a mistake rather than a step on the way to figuring out who i am and what i like and what i want to be.
It used to bother me much less. Look at when i had short hair and wore a skirt-tux to my art expo! Where’d that part of me go? The punk-ass, hurting-but-hopeful Daisy who wasn’t afraid to do what she wanted with her appearance and not give a flying fuck what mom or anyone else thought?
All of this feels pretty intertwined with the bi thing too. That may be ALL of it, tbh.
I have to figure out how to get out and live in my own place. There’s just so much of me. There’s no room to unpack any of it in my childhood bedroom.
#shut up daisy#i dont know how to tag this#personal#might delete later tbh.#gender?#big rant#me makey no sense.#??? And working#womanness go brrrrr#don’t mind me I’m just having a mild crisis while trying on my new earrings#🙃#feels like a bunch of stuff is shaking loose for me ever since i started my anxiety meds...#like i took care of the health anxiety and now I’m peeling back layers of wallpaper of unaddressed shit#like my crippling fear of rejection by friends and loved ones#and gendery stuff that by all rights i probably would have been thinking much harder about in 2013/2014#if i hadn’t just been nose deep in baby’s first depressive jag#wow daisy get a fuckin hold of yourself#anyway should i wear Moon Sword earrings tomorrow#or cupids#or mismatched music symbols#Daisy shut your up#lmaooaooaoaoao#congrats if you read this far#HI#...
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Trans Headcanons
Ok I’m going to make a giant post about this because it’s one of the few things I can actually address, as a trans person. Obviously I cannot speak as to the opinions and experiences of all trans people, but I’m just gonna give you my take.
So obviously in fandom lots of people like to headcanon characters as trans, and in general I think that’s a fantastic thing as well we’re not exactly swimming in representation. But what comes with cis people tryin to write trans characters is that... things get... problematic. Quick.
Headcanoning male characters as ftm
I am this variety of trans so I get excited when people headcanon ftm but I’m almost always completely disappointed.
First off I need to address the “people” who headcanon male characters as trans ftm for that Spicy Fetishization. This is generally, I’d say... more than half of trans headcanons I come across in fics at least, and in this context is used solely for sexual purposes which is disgusting so stop.
Of course it’s ok to write trans people having sex, because well, trans people have sex, but cis people don’t realize that dysphoria plays a huge part into what people are comfortable with. So just a fun fact I feel like it should be obvious trans guys aren’t gonna want to have sex like they’re a straight female, and trans guys are not all bottoms.
I would also like to address when headcanoning a male presenting character as ftm is good or bad rep completely without the sexual element because cis people seem to have a fundamental misunderstanding of Trans Vibes. I’m gonna use mostly ons examples so hang on tight.
Problematic, bad characters to headcanon as trans-
-Yoichi
-Mika
-Shinya
I see an egregious amout of these, and the pattern for this is somehow, cis girls see a feminine boy and think that they’re a good person to think is trans. No. This is the opposite. These three characters in ons are some of the more feminine guys, and therefore come off as gay, in a cis male way. Trans guys generally do not act like that, and although there are plenty of feminine trans guys, they do not behave like that.
Addressing the problems with people saying Mika is trans- People don’t understand dysphoria. He has always been very feminine, and in the case that he was trans that would just. Not work. You could look at that boy and be asking what gender even is he if you didn’t know, and generally trans guys aren’t for that.
With Yoichi it’s even more ridiculous. He’s one of the worst characters I could think of to view this way, as this pushes the most UwU Soft Boi fujoshi shit onto him. If y’all aren’t aware the fetishising girls really invalidate trans folks by assuming they’re all basically the stereotype of Yoichi- small, awkward, shy, complete pushovers, and just. Nah. Same really goes for Shinya, because though he’s more confident he’s very cis gay guy and making him trans pushes the same “make the more feminine person in a gay relationship trans”. Stop it.
If you had to headcanon someone as ftm in ons I’d say some of your best options would be probably
-Kimizuki.
-Yu (though there are many conditions because he’s a victim of a lot of the fujos in fanfic with this.)
I’m trying to think of more but to be honest, that’s your best bet. If you want to go with someone else, Guren might be ok, it would just be harder to explain.
Kimizuki is the best one out of all of them to be headcanoned as trans because he breaks the problematic stereotypes, and if you think about it would make much more sense than the characters ppl usually say are trans.
He is a character who’s fairly obsessed with presenting masculinity and trying to be the strong one in the group, which is a very trans guy thing to do, and it would be the easiest to explain without going through hoops like characters that have a lot of backstory would. He doesn’t look or act feminine at all, but he has more feminine skills like cooking, and he feels ashamed of those aspects of himself even though he shouldn’t. Those are the kind of things that make someone go “that would be nice rep”. Also his hair is dyed pink, like what cis person does that?
With Yu, I see many more people in fanfic try to use the trans thing for him, and out of the context of shipping I think that’s perfectly fine. He is a very relatable character for ftm gremlins like myself and it’s reasonable to say that, although there would need to be a few adjustments for taking into consideration at one point he would have presented as female, probably during his time in sanguinem. That doesn’t really present any problems if you just adjust accordingly. Guren would be cool with “hey dad i’m a guy” and I think that would be pretty epic. But when taken into the context of, well, mikayuu shipping.
To be frank, most of the trans!yuu fics that exist are straight up just for fujos to go “hey look at this gay bottom he’s trans so he’s basically a girl and watch him act like a girl during sex” stop it. Stop it please.
On trans girls
obviously, I am not a trans girl, and I know like. one trans girl. total. So I don’t have as much insight on this as trans ftm but some of this stuff is just common sense.
First I need to address the obvious, the phenomenon that is apparently such a thing in anime and manga for no good reason. The “this character who has a female voice actor, dresses and acts completely like a girl but is stated as male for some fucking reason” is just... hhhhhhhhhh. I think the only reason these exist is some weird japan fetish but I’m not fond of it. Headcanoning these characters as trans girls is in fact completely fine and I’d encourage it, unless them being male is actually somehow an integral part of the plot.
In the case of Asuramaru, I’d say absolutely go ahead. It makes even more sense with this character because Asura used to go by a different name and dressed much more masculine back in Ye Olde Greek Dayes but now has this demon glow up with a much more feminine look, a literal dress, a crown, hair down to their ass- that’s honestly the most valid thing you could say.
In the case of characters presented as female in canon, it’s much more difficult than trans guys because of how girls are presented in anime and manga. And by that I mean,,, hyper sexualized and misogynistic.
In this case I’d always say ask someone trans before jumping to conclusions. Also be wary of the “this is a masculine girl, she must be trans” because well. Again, masculine trans girls are valid but that can’t be your only reasoning PLEASE. I’ve seen trans Mito before in a fic, and tbh that’s ok, but only if you know what you’re doing with it. It can be explained pretty well with her, since she used to present as hyper feminine and pretty comphet with the guren thing, but she’s calmed down in vampire reign and I think if that has to do with her starting her transition at like 16, that’s totally fine. But that has to be handled with care, and be aware that she’s like. The most masculine girl in the series. She doesn’t wear a skirt like literally every other girl in the show, she uses physical force and her fists to fight instead of a weapon or magic, and she’s extremely headstrong. Although it would be fine if she was trans, those aspects of herself are not what would make her so, since even though it would be epic those things could cause dysphoria.
On nonbinary headcanons
These are significantly less problematic than a lot of other types, since they’re generally made by people who know what the hell they’re talking about. And there’s really no parameters for nonbinary people, so if you see someone who gives off No Gender Vibes go ahead and sprinkle in some they/them!! They don’t even have to look androgynous, though if you see a strictly single gender presenting character and want them to be enby prepare to have some explanations. Good examples of this would be
-near from death note, that gremlin wears nothing but pajamas and proceeds to grow hair down to his ass as an adult, plus the austistic coded bit... we don’t have a concept of gender tbh
-practically any demon from ons but raimeiki or gekkouin, they all just have the best vibes
-Shikama Doji, you think that bitch knows what a gender is??? Got lost in the wings pal
Just be aware of the differences needed between thinking “this person is presented as __ canonly and that is in fact their sex just not their gender” or “this person is trans fem or trans masc but isn’t strictly male or female” because those are different.
Bottom line? Ask a trans person, and don’t write a trans person just for their body.
#owari no seraph#trans#idk what to tag this tbh I don't talk about this stuff all the time#trans ftm#trans headcanons#death note#kind of
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This Pride Month, I’ve been thinking a lot about my relation to Gender.
Before I get too deep into this post, I just want to preface this by saying I am not well-informed on the matter. At least, not anywhere near as informed as I’d like to be. I don’t know which terms (if any) may be offensive. If I make any broad statements about gender, I am referring to it specifically in regards to the topic of MY gender. That is to say, if I write something like “gender is insignificant”, this should be read as “my gender is insignificant to me.” It is not my intention to diminish others in any way, and I’m not trying to provide any hot takes or spark debates and conflict.
This post is just for me to lay out my thoughts with the hope that someone who actually has a clue what they’re talking about might help me figure out where my gender identity might lie. This is a long post of personal rambling, so sorry in advance, thanks for reading, and here’s a “Keep Reading” cut for the sake of your dashboards:
Truth be told, I’ve never actually sat down and seriously thought about my gender before now. Heck. I didn’t even know Aromanticism was a thing until last year, and I didn’t know that it (or asexuality) had their own spectrums of varying identities. This past year, upon realizing that I’m Aspec (I’m still trying to pinpoint where specifically on those spectrums I stand tbh) I’ve focused most of my LGBT+ related internal reflection in that area. This past year, I’ve been pondering attraction:
Who am I attracted to?
Do I experience attraction?
How do I experience attraction?
Are there any prerequisites in order for me to experience attraction?
Am I actually attracted to someone or am I just really freakin’ lonely?
Am I actually attracted to someone or am I just really freakin’ horny?
Things like that.
Frankly, I won’t exactly know how to identify in that regard until I actually have romantic and sexual experience, and I’m a big ol’ 26 y/o virgin who has never even had a relationship or first kiss (lmao I know, right?) I can’t say for certain how I respond in those situations, so I can’t say with certainty that I’m one thing or another. So, anyways, I’m at a bit of a standstill in that department, so like I said at the beginning of this post, I’ve been thinking about Gender recently.
Gender!
So, I’ve always identified as a (cisgender) male. I’ve got the corresponding bits, and until recently I did not recognize the dichotomy in definitions between Gender and Sex. I thought the two words were interchangeable because that was what I was raised and taught to believe. But now that I know better, and recently I’ve been thinking “oh, so I’ve been identifying my gender on the basis of my sex, but is there a gender identity that is more applicable?”
I don’t have any issues in regards to accepting my physical attributes, but I do not like gender (or at least the binary) as a concept, and I cannot stand the idea that this stuff should have any sort of influence or bearing over my behavior and interests.
Like a lot of people, I grew up having to put things back on the shelf. The only time my mom bought me something that was a “girly color” was when I got a necktie to match my friend’s dress for a school dance (She was wearing a hot pink dress, so I was in all black with a hot pink tie, we looked fresh af). My childhood wasn’t mine. I grew up playing soccer, wrestling, baseball, football, hunting, and fishing, all because my ancestors ate up some ancient rhetoric that declared boys shall be athletic outdoorsmen, and any who aren’t are deemed lesser.
I never liked being told I couldn’t have or do something because it was supposedly intended for a different type of person, and similarly, I didn’t like being held to the standards and stereotyping of conventional masculinity.
I don’t want to write an essay about every instance and aspect of my personality that goes against the notions of gender and society’s expectations of me in regards to gender, so I’ll leave that there, but as things stand now, I just.... don’t care?
I don’t care if I’m sharing a bathroom with a transgender individual because it’s a bathroom.
I don’t care if I’m wearing a feminine color, because it’s a just color.
I don’t care about what pronouns people use for me, because they are referential. If people are referring to me with pronouns, I’m probably not around to hear them. Pronouns are for talking about me, not to me. Even if I’m in a conversation with multiple people where I can hear myself being referred to, I’m not gonna jump in and correct people because I just don’t care.
If someone see’s me out in public, they’re gonna talk about me with he/him because they see I have a beard most of the time, and that’s a very visible and predominately masculine feature. It’s my understanding that pronouns are frequently assumed because it is up to the speaker to convey their subject clearly to their audience.
I think it’s for this same reason that I will continue to tell others that I am a man despite not personally identifying based upon that which it entails. A lot of people haven’t wrapped their heads around the whole gender vs sex thing. I don’t want to cause any unnecessary confusion because that’s just more trouble than it’s worth for me. I’ll still say I’m a cis male online and on dating sites because if people want to find a hairy person with male hardware, that’s what they’ll search, and I do want to be found.
My gender doesn’t really matter to me, so my gender shouldn’t really matter to you. I’ll say I’m a man because it’s easier for you, but I’m not gonna think less of myself for going to college to write poetry while others expect me to be doing something macho. I’ll say I’m a man because, if you must know, I’ve got a penis, but I’m not gonna think less of myself for ordering a fruity drink while the rest of the guys get their beers.
I’ll say I’m a man, but really, I just don’t care.
“Male” isn’t my identity. Seth is.
I’m still learning, and so there might be something that is more fitting, but I suppose I’m actually something like Agender, Non-Binary, or Gender Non-Conforming???
anyways thanks for reading I love you
#pride#pride month#agender#nonbinary#gender nonconforming#gender stuff#gender#pride 2020#personal#long post#sethposting
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Hey I hope this isn't sudden but I found you through the DE Reddit (seen you around insta too) and thought I would drop my qustions tp you here. 1) what kind of guys do you think Glen likes? 2) if the Hardies seem cool with Glen being gay, why is he still in the closet? 3) what the fuck is wrong with Glen? 4) what's your favorite thing about him? I'm genuinely curious cause I've never seen a background character get this much attention before. Sorry for the multi-questions.
I'm sorry anon but I'm about to drop a long post on you 😔 I just have so many feelings for that man, it's unbelievable.
1) Titus Hardie
That's it.
Jk jk. Idk I kind of see Glen with dudes who are also burly and buff but I also see him with v soft boys. I mean the way the game describes Titus and Glen is that they're basically big buff giants who tower over everyone else, right?
From a psychological aspect I would have to say he probably leans more towards the petite guys because that makes him feel like "The Man" which is the big psychological issue he seems to have in the game. He wants to be a macho guy; He wants to be the dominant one, the strong one, the big guy so that his manliness doesn't get questioned. I can only hypothesize that in his head, being with smaller more feminine men gives him the satisfaction of being the top dog.
Generally though.... Just give him ALLLLLL THE DUDES!!!
2) I don't think anyone actually knows Glen is gay except Titus (and most likely Ruby) as Alain makes a comment about how Ruby likes bo0o0bies more than him. Plus Titus tries to hint it rather than just full on out Glen. He glanced at Glen when he says "some are queerer than others" but no one seems to comment, it either went over their heads (like it did with a lot of players) or they just chose not to say anything out of respect for their bro's privacy in front of stranger cops.
Personally I think some of the Hardie boys are smart enough to already know like Eugene. Alain might know but made the comment as a joke like "she likes tits more than u cuz you're gay lmao" u know?
But seeing the stance Revachol has with LGBTs, I think it's safe to assume that Glen just has too much to lose if he came out. He would most likely be kicked out of the rugby team, and He probably believes that he will lose the Hardies respect.
Again this leads back to his "big man" problem. Media and people in general seem to associate being gay with being feminine or that every gay guy likes to wear make up and dress like a woman. These ideas will stick to Glen and he doesn't wanna be associated with them. He doesn't want to be seen as less of a man.
He doesn't want to be a joke to people.
There's just so much at stake here for him to come out.
After all, the homosexual "UNDERGROUND" is an underground for a reason. They're not welcomed in the surface world.
He has a couple of good things in his life and he could lose everything over night just cuz he decided to tell the world who he really was.
Imagine going from hanging out with your friends every night, being a sport star, getting free beer... to just being alone in your room every day, losing people's respect, your job, losing everything. Not to mention the way others will treat you.
If you were depressed while you still had everything, imagine what it would be like to be depressed and have nothing.
It's tough.
3) a lot.
I can only answer this with my own psychoanalysis of Glen's character with little canon proof so take it with a grain of salt.
I think Glen grew up in a very shitty household with probably an abusive parent(s). The macho manly problem he has probably stemmed from his parent(s) drilling this idea into his head that he has to be a man. His parent(s) might have been close minded homophobes which resulted in Glen just fighting that part of him because he "knows" it's wrong and he shouldn't be feeling romantic things for other men.
Having abusive parent(s) would also explain why Glen is so violent, aggressive, and sadistic. This violence is all he knows and not to mention, being strong is associated with being masculine and manly.
Power makes you a man.
His physical strength is probably an overcompensation for his repressed homosexuality.
He suffers heavily from toxic masculinity and it has really fucked him up.
Of course having to live this way brought a ton more problems. Depression, self loathing, all the shit he tries to numb with beer.
Tbh I think Glen is a bit too hard on himself but it's not easy so I relate to how he feels.
4) my favorite thing about him is how stupid he is. He doesn't understand sarcasm, thinks a fiddle is something gay, and all the repressed homosexual shit he says. My god, he's so fucking stupid it's funny. I love him!
I also admire his strength. Choosing to keep going even after all the fucking shit he has going, it takes a lot of strength. The thought that he even joins the Hardie boys and not goes off to be a psychopathic serial killer is very nice. He might seem fucked up but at least he chose to use his fists for good.
There's still, in his fucked up shattered mind, a desire to be good. To do good. To help save a city that would never accept him. I admire that so much.
He's not a good person, but he's not a bad person. He's literally just human. He's trying to get by in a really shitty place and he wants to help others get by too.
He even shows sympathy sometimes. It's the little stuff that makes me think that he's not completely fucked just yet. There's still enough pieces of him to put his shattered self back together.
(Well had his end been different of course)
TLDR; he likes all dudes, has too much to lose, mommy and daddy issues, and he's dumb but has a good heart.
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Okay, I feel like this is something I need to write.
This is something I have been thinking about for a very long time, never ever telling a soul, and it’s eating away at me now to the point where I don’t think I can ignore it any longer.
I think I could be trans. I’m trying to brush it off but I know deep down that it is probably the case.
I just need to write this to get my thoughts out, to process it, so that at least I’m telling someone; you, a random person on the internet. Right now you’re the most important person in the world to me. You’re going to read some things that I’m only just admitting to myself so please be kind and compassionate with me.
I’ve always thought I felt different to everyone else. Now I’m realising it probably wasn’t just me being into girls.
I remember playing with the boys at school and feeling more at home with them than with the girls who were playing with dolls. For a brief period I tried, and I mean like one day, to play with dolls but I just couldn’t do it.
I was annoyed at lining up in the girls line. Couldn’t explain why. I think I wanted to be in the boys line. At the end of lunch I would arm wrestle the boys to win their spot in the line. Trying to out-boy the boys.
Puberty came and I desperately didn’t want breasts. I walked around without a shirt for as long as I could until one night before dinner my mum told me I couldn’t do that anymore. I was disappointed. My breasts grew and I was ashamed of them. I wore a thick jumper in the Australian summer, kept it on while playing sports in the blistering heat, just so others didn’t see them. I wanted so desperately to hide them.
When I was fifteen or so and staying at a hotel, I saw myself naked in a full length mirror for the first time. I’d never seen myself like that. I stared at my reflection for what felt like half an hour. I didn’t shower. I just looked at my body and didn’t recognise it. I was numb.
I haven’t looked at my genitalia since... well, I can’t think of a time I did. I avoid looking. I don’t want to, it makes me feel uncomfortable and has always felt ‘wrong’. Didn’t know why. Still can’t really explain it. I can’t insert anything it because of the mental discomfort, even tampons. Just the thought of it is off.
I am very uncomfortable when patients refer to me as a lady or a woman. It used to be a mild annoyance, like how it feels when someone spells something wrong or uses incorrect grammar but it’s not really significant enough to correct them.. Now it is starting to make me feel kind of unwell. Not like vomit inducing but it makes my stomach drop or lurch. Hate my full name, if anyone calls me Jessica I feel very disconnected to it. Its too feminine. Hate it. Jess is more my speed as it is a little bit more andro. Still a bit feminine but there is wiggle room. It is short for Jessica or Jesse?
I feel like I’ve only just been writing the reasons why I don’t fit being a woman. Even referring to myself as a woman just... makes me feel strange, it’s wrong and I can’t explain it. But anyway, I need to also write the reasons why being masculine/a man fit better..
So my best male friend ok is very unknowingly gender affirming to me. He calls me man, dude, etc and it has always made me feel nice and warm. Like I’m seen. We have shown up to things dressed in pretty much the same clothes. At work we were once mistaken for twins by a patient who was very high on pain meds. It made me so happy and has become a running joke. I have an intense desire to be like him because he is a genuinely great guy and if I was a man, I would want to be like him. Hanging out with him is like hanging out with a brother but I don’t want to be a sister. I want him to see me as like him.
At work its strange. I feel more at home when I’m around male coworkers. Feel the odd one out when I’m with women. Hard to explain. I always have the most fun when I’m around above friend and one of our other coworkers, nothing gets done because we're too busy being idiots. I told this to one of our students a few months ago (bit of a dick tbh) and he told me, “you’re not a man” and basically that i should stop trying to be. Made me feel terrible for a while.
(TMI coming up) Can’t get off unless I fantasise about having a penis. I can try not to but it takes longer and is not as good. I made something to use to masturbate with like a man and it feels better, takes way less time and is much more intense. Feels more natural, like i have a phantom penis, like I should have a penis, would make more sense tbh. Every time after I finish it’s like I feel like a man, my mind settles in a way that makes me comfortable like yes, this is what it should be like. And I do think that I want a penis instead. I don’t know.
I want to be strong and caring for a woman, which I know can be done as a woman but it feels different. Part of me feels like I could probably live my life as a female (can’t even bring myself to write woman, it makes me feel that strange) and be okay and otherwise happy. But I shouldn’t have to be just ok. I’m not sure.
When it comes down to it, I saw something on a post a few months ago about “searching for a sign” that you’re trans. It said, if you could press a button right now that would instantly make you the opposite gender, that you were always that gender without physical or social consequences, would you press the button?
I genuinely think that I would. And it scares me to death because I’m not sure what happens next.
I don’t know. I’m just looking for someone to talk to about this. For someone to be affirming and give me advice on what to do from here. I’m still questioning. What do I do? It has been eating me up inside for years and I’m scared of the answer that I know I’m getting to. Help.
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Henlo! What led you to the conclusion/helped you realize recently that you are actually a guy? and if you want to, feel free to go more into detail abt your journey of self discovery!
Tbh I??? Don’t really know?????? Like I’ve gone from:
Fem aligned genderqueer, she/her and they/them maybe?
??? Genderqueer person, she/they
Maybe kinda fem enby, they/them (she/her??)
Nonbinary, they/them (maybe he/him?????)
Maybe kinda masc aligned enby, they/he
Masc aligned enby, he/they
Binary trans guy?? He/they?????
And I think a part of that progression is I?? Didn’t feel attached to like. Traditional Masculinity. I’m very much a feminine person. I like to wear skirts and dresses. I like makeup. I love to do my hair and prefer to wear it long. I like feeling pretty. But what’s always gotten me is. I’m not feminine aligned?? I don’t feel attached to anything even resembling womanhood. I feel so gross when I’m referred to as a girl. I hate it (sidenote: ik I’m gonna have to deal w a lot of that. I’m a feminine gay trans guy. I’m well aware of how I come across to ppl. This is more towards ppl ignoring when I tell them I’m trans and uncomfy w feminine terms applied to me) The thing I feel was keeping me from iding as a guy was I guess?? Not feeling like I counted?? I don’t even try to pass most days. I don’t care to. But as times gone on I’ve gotten more and more used to being referred to as a masculine person??
And here’s a thing I actually kinda?? Forgot about??? So not only have I had dreams as a kid where I’d? Wake up as a guy?? But when I found out that ppl can?? Be gay?? Yea I literally. Wished I was a gay dude 👀
How fucking obvious could that fucking be???? Like?????????? Hello???!!????
So yea. Pretty sure I’m a guy. That could change in like. 3 months but eh what even is gender lol
#haha i literally. never wanted to be a girl#local idiot rememebers feminine men exist. more at 11#hhhhhhhhh#shrimp answers#trans stuff
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I thought of a way to describe how being trans feels to me.
So imagine this cis guy. He's pretty masculine, not really ever done drag, but confident in his masculinity. A friend gets him to try drag. They go all out (as drag queens often do) and he looks like a woman when they're done (because duh he's in drag). He would probably look in the mirror and be really weirded out. Like, woah, I look like a girl. Lol wtf that's crazy. But it's not him. He knows that. The difference between me and that guy is, he can take that drag off. He can go home and be himself. But I cant. It's like, instead of him going home, his friend tells him, you're Janessa. Everyone starts calling him janessa, calling him a girl. He looks like a girl no matter what he does. It gets tiring after a while. He can wear a dress and be like, hey I look like a super sexy girl rn. But when you're trapped in the drag, stuff just compounds. You just get tired, because you know you look like a girl, but it's not your face and not your name.
That's what happens when I dress super feminine and put on makeup. I marvel at it, and am weirded out, because I look like a pretty, beautiful girl. But it's not right. And the realization that the boy I love and everyone else who's been sexually attracted to me are attracted to the drag, hurts.
It's kinda sad tbh, but you know one of the first things I think about when I'm excited to go back to my apartment? That get me the most excited? Is that I know I'm going to get called Sam/he/boy/man on a daily basis.
Living with people who, when they say my name, it will be Sam
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My Ocs/Characters
Mainly so I can keep track of certain things about them, also in case any of you wanted to ask about them, but didn’t know where to start.
Hawk: A recent addition!
* Dirty Blonde short hair, idk about his eyes yet tbh
* He has nothing to do with FNaF, I came up with him when I was trying to think of a OC for WKM
* Quiet and flinchy
* Wears a (kind of?) black cloak
* Keeps his left arm hidden
Spring: Obviously, the one I’ll write about the most.
* Her hair length changes often but it’s always long enough to cover the left side of her face.
* Chaos incarnate, but has morals.
* Cries blood from her left eye bc of some damage done to that eye.
*Genderfluid but usually sticks with a feminine appearance/ uses she/her.
* Owns a binder.
* Technically could change her appearance to a masculine one but chooses not to bc it’s not like everyone else has that option.
* 5′10″
Salvage: Spring’s counterpart.
* Basically looks like her but as a guy, but also doesn’t look like Golden, or Spring if she presents herself as male.
* Chill guy.
* Short blonde hair, easiest way to tell him apart from Spring and Golden.
* No bow tie
* 5′10″
Golden: Spring’s twin brother.
*Very dark purple top hat and short blonde hair.
* Almost always wearing his top hat.
* Like, if you see him not wearing it, than it means that Spring probably stole it.
* Positive guy, but that’s because he doesn’t have much of a choice.
* Spring wrangler(TM)
Freddy: The “Leader”
* Short brown hair + blue eyes
* Black top hat, Spring also steals his top hat
* Friendly boi
* Tbh kind of jealous of Spring
* You’ll probably find him humming some song
* He wears an outfit that kinda makes him look like a waiter??
* He doesn’t wear a bow tie
Bonnie: The Goofball
* May or may not have a slight fear of the Kool aid man.
* Purple hair with some brown in it, pink eyes
* Calls Spring “Springles”
* Similar outfit to Freddy
* No bow tie
* An artist!!
Chica: Happy go lucky
* Probably ace aro tbh
* Super excited to make new friends though!!
* Unlike the others who have masks that cover from the nose up, she has a beak that covers from the nose down.
* No bib, she has an apron instead
* Usually wears yellow dresses
* Medium length blond hair that has three short pieces at the top of her head that stick up, purple-ish pink eyes
Foxy: The loyal pirate
* Red short hair with a small long part that occasionally gets braided, yellow eyes
* His hook can spin in place
* He talks with a pirate’s accent because of coding
* He wears much more of a pirate’s costume
Marionette: Pretty much the parent
* Brought them all back to life
* Could probably bring just about anyone back, but the gift of life takes a lot out of them
* What are pronouns?
* Couldn’t care less about what pronouns you use for her
* Is he a puppet or is she human? Who knows
* Three fingers and a thumb
* Long black hair
Soul: Shy boi
* Tbh a mix of my version of the crying child and Nightmare
* Brown hair, brown eyes, but when shifting partially into Nightmare his hair is black and his eyes are red
* His clothes change often, but he’s always wearing a dark grey hoodie
* He doesn’t remember much of his old life
* Bc of the damage to his frontal lobe, he gets frustrated easily and has a hard time keeping control of his emotions
* As Nightmare he gets unreasonably angry, can easily tear things apart.
* Can accidentally shift into Nightmare if he gets spooked
#my post#My writing#?#I guess#long post#long reads#Soul#Freddy#Foxy#Bonnie#Marionette#Spring#Salvage#Golden#Hawk#Chica#Ocs and Characters
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mighty nein fashion sense: modern au [updated]
based on this old post!
fjord:
probably dresses up like trucker ngl (but not really.)
probably looks like he buys clothes from american eagle and only ae
bought all the clothes in the closet knowing that all of them will match
that being said, he loves to layer his clothes
see him in a lot of flannel and denim with plain t-shirts
tan pants? better than he thought
hes probably got loafers or some kind of practical work shoe
summertime? hes takin out the short sleeve button up shirts. no one will stop him
ironically owns a hawaiian shirt
looks GREAT in a suit and he knows it
lady-killer
a pretty boy
caleb:
ever seen a college disaster in the winter?? that’s caleb
his clothes are old, and theyre never really out of style because he tries to buy clothes like that (hes a man of classic apparel)
kind of guy to have a set of monochrome t-shirts that he uses a lot because he cant be bothered to do clothes shopping
the black ones have faded a lot
TURTLENECKS
scarves
slacks!!! and classic belts. ge discovered that it’s easier to clean up a look with minimal effort.
has a leather bomber with the same interior as his coat in canon. it is used almost everyday
if he ever needs to look scholarly hes got it covered but its only one set of clothes and he doesnt really like it because he hasnt bought a new one in a while
the scholarly look is actually just a sweatervest with a button-up shirt and maybe a tie? with leather wingtips
style over comfort to the max (he cannot find it in himself to try everyday when he has more important things to focus on)
mollymauk:
hes fashionable. end of story
hes got slacks in so many colors and patterns.
hes got so many patterned buttonups that he will never fully button (probably just buttons up to his navel and quits)
he probably dresses up in different eras every day
HIGH WAISTED SHORT SHORTS WITH FISHNETS
he does not give a Shit about what society thinks is “feminine” or “masculine”. he will do whatever the fuck he wants to
definitely wears skirts for this reason
he loves to experiment with clothes….. he has so many
probably has one of every type of shoe to try and match his outfits
jewelry is a must!! probably has bought a lot of clip on earrings or has a lot of ear piercings. or just accessories in general. he loves bein flashy
knee high boots are still a thing but shhh those are for very special nights out in town (which is every night in his opinion. just let him live)
if hes trying to be discreet catch him in a burgundy peacoat
beauregard:
shes got the gym look down
basically only owns clothes in her dnd color palette
greenish blue windbreakers on chilly days
workout leggings and sweatpants ALMOST ALL THE TIME not that anyone is complaining
shes got a few pairs of destroyed denim jeans and shorts and they look really good
she just feels like the pants are restricting because she needs to be ready to Throw Down
sleeveless shirts! big arm cutouts! tank tops! racerbacks! all of them have graphic designs
probably just goes out in a sports bra and a hoodie if shes really not feeling it
sunglasses. she looks so good in them.
shes got a pantsuit hidden deep deep DEEP in her closet for special occasions (would rather not wear it)
jester:
skirts!!!! dresses!! yes!! a lot of a line dresses and skirts
shes got a closet of pastel because she looks good in every shade
probably loves knee high socks
shes got those small backpacks in pastel pink she will not leave her house without it
really loves floral designs imo
hot take: she is into embroidery and loves making her own style out of ordinary clothes
high waisted denim shorts WITH FISHNETS. molly roped her into it and she loves it
u know those shirts that button up but u can tie them in the front?? she likes those a lot
off the shoulder shirts too
oversized things!! hit her with an oversized sweater or sweatshirt on a casual day or a lazy day (please take care of it fjord we beg u)
loves loves loves!!! designing her own shoes
she likes to buy paint sets and go to town on some plain shoes and give it her own artistic touch OR she will embroider it
always about her most recent obsession
catch her with some tusk love themed shoes
hair accessories!! lots of bows and headbands
yasha:
practical attire!! if the apocalypse came today, she would be ready
cargo pants (shes got 50 pockets or something)
i can see her owning a lot of heavy jackets (perhaps a parka?)
combat boots are a must. or sneakers but u know combat boots make her looks cleaner
plain t shirts or tank tops (really complements her arms)
monochrome at almost all times or navy blue
will occasionally just come out in gym attire. leggings and a tank top ?? yes PLEASE
probably a former goth u can find her stuff in a storage bin in her garage or something (molly always tries to find it)
probably has a holster bag on top of her many pockets
nott:
master of nondescript clothes
earthy colors are her favorite
discovered that people wear masks in other countries and she hasnt gone back since
plain hoodies!! bomber jackets!! she likes them
sweatpants with those cuffs at the bottom!
tbh she doesnt have too many demands when shes getting clothes…. they just cant be expensive or flashy because she’d rather blend in
loves goodwill. that is probably the only store she goes to for clothes because she is Frugal
she wears converses that are Pretty Old but she takes care of them so they last a while
i want to believe that she hides a fanny pack under her jacket to conceal stolen goods
caduceus:
his clothes are the most true to canon
he does not own one silk shirt. he owns enough to last him a month. he also has a lot of cotton shirts
mainly in floral designs or solid earthy tones + various shades of forest green
slacks in that deep green he always wears
bluchers or open laced dress shoes! or his boots from canon
he accents all of his outfits with some kind of leather (usually its on his belt, but he has bracelets and other accessories to make it work too)
he knows how to use a monochrome green palette perfectly
he looks business casual half of the time
if hes going casual, it’s camo time.
heavy army green jacket with patches that jester made + any v-neck t-shirt he owns
if hes really not feeling it on a particular day, he will wear harem pants and a fruit of the loom shirt that he stuffed into a drawer in his wardrobe
his style is the softest in the nein in terms of his usual everyday wear
#critical role#cr#the mighty nein#mollymauk tealeaf#fjord#caleb widogast#jester#beauregard#caduceus clay#yasha#nott the brave#modern au#I SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS MONTHS AGO#so here it is#everyone has more stuff!!#i edited the other one but i made more tweaks to this version
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