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#I was really in the mood to do a portrait soooo#though the colors were really hard for me to settle on ngl#like even not im on the fence about them but its cool#the hand and the face are pretty fine tho#art#digital art#my art 🦷#mcr#gerard way#my chemical romance#mcr fanart
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before i started seeing dol fanart i had no idea anyone even Thought of bailey wearing anything other than a wifebeater. like after thinking about it for more than a second i was like oh yeah that makes sense that hed wear a nice suit or dress clothes but i genuinely thought of course everyone ALSO thinks bailey looks like a deadbeat dad. like the kinda guy whod be like hey kid im going to go buy some milk and hed never come home. anyways under the cut is my personal opinion on what hed look like so thats just for me but heres bailey, sorry for the long description this time
#dol#my art#bailey the caretaker#i have like so many combinations in my file#ill post what i sent to my friend on my side account so you can see it#i also have a suit version but i scrapped that because it was too formal#like i have been sitting here basically playing with him like a doll#i even have a version where he wears the undershirt under the dress shirt but its whatever#this one is dedicated to bob squatley i hope you like it and im so sorry if i disappointed you#if i did im so sorry ill redesign him again for you i swear im sorry im sorry im sorry#special thanks to pip n chips and freddie pup tumblr for the help you guys are my saviors#i was so on the fence about a mullet because i was worried i wouldnt be able to make it look good#hope you guys like this one#my friend requested i do winter next so ill be doing that after i finish remy#my friend is so cool and funny and i love them btw#hiii 👋👋👋👋👋#they said something really funny and i wanted to draw it but i couldnt because im not good at drawing#sorry you all have to deal with my jokes instead of theirs#PS. i asked my friend if i should keep that as the description this time and they said yes so blame them for it
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So I know Representation came out today. And any good fan would wait a week before reviewing it as we still have episode 23 to watch.
GOOD THING IM A DEGENERATE
Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 24 Representation
spoilers below
-So as expected, Chloé didnt stay mayor long. But Apparently Ms.Bustier is running for Mayor and might win
-Oh its the Fencing teacher/ guy who was Darkblade. Well clearly Ms.Bustier is going to win
-And Adrien and Kagami are a power couple? But Adrien is watching the news report while they are in London. Something seems VERY off
-Ah, Gabriel is behind it. And Adrien HATES it.
-"By letting your father decide your life and selling your story through a fake narrative as usual." DAMN Plagg holds no punches
-Plagg appologized though.
-Kagami is also pissed about it
-HEY ITS FELIX/ARGOS
-Wait ... is that really my chaotic son? HEARTS ON WINDOWS.
-Thats adorable, WTF
-Okay so THEY got some development.
-Adrien deciding to just say f*** it. He is heading to paris and Telling Marinette he's chat noir!
-Marinette back in paris looks miserable. Poor baby girl. Also its a lovely dress.
-Marinette has been crying. I am going to kill Gabriel
-Marinette being strong for her friends to enjoy this dance. Thats really big of her.
-Unfortunately, Spotlight.
-Wait, how did Argos and Kagami get to Paris BEFORE Astrochat? Unless they left much earlier but even then. My bet is Argos made a sentimonster that would warp them places... but that seems like BS.
-KAGAMI KNOWS MARINETTE IS LADYBUG?! Since perfection. Damn.
-KAGAMI TOLD FELIX!?!?!?! FELIX?!?!?! Okay I am a bit salty about that
-OH S***! THEY KISSED. The Feligami stans are Eating today.
-Felix is dressed like Adrien? Oh I do not like where this seems to be going.
-And Marinette thought she saw Adrien and wants to go after him while her friends are thanking her for everything she's done. Way to ruin a good moment FELIX you ass!
-Side note, WHY is Marinette the only one in a dress? Like its a dance? Why couldnt everyone Have dressed up? Seriously, I know outfit renders are expensive. DID THE KITCHEN COST THAT MUCH?
-Marinette avoiding the Lesbian bee and accidentally interrupting the Bi artist and writer. Sure is Pride month in Paris.
-Okay this is just cruel. Marinette thinks she is having a break down over this. Side note. WHY ISNT ADRIEN ACTUALLY HERE YET? HE IS ASTROCHAT!
-Alya and Nino trying to comfort her. But she aint listening.
-Adrien and Kagami escaped and the parents are pissed
-Oh no Nathalie looks really bad right now. Poor thing. All she can do is watch videos of her true love Emilie
-He took the ring back, guess now that Nathalie is too weak to fight him. Which really brings up the question, WHAT HAPPENED in the last episode that Nathalie took such a turn.
-Gabriel is being a d*** as usual
-Nightormentor sounds like a cool name. And while I thought the color scheme is weird... its probably the best akumatized form Gabriel has taken. Sad but true
-AND OF COURSE RIGHT AS SHE LEAVES ASTROCAT ARRIVES. I know its plot convenience but thats bull s***
-"His father CANT have that much control of him" Oh if only you knew Nino
-And BOOM! Gabriel the bitch agreste arrives
-I am liking Rose so much recently. She is calling out EVERYONE
-So he basically has the powers of Sandboy mixed with Darkerowl
-the guy has the power to make you experience VERY intrusive thoughts. That is evil
-Chat noir is like "Hey ladybug gonna go beat up my father text me later"
-Dude Felix must be an Olympic speed walker
-Marinette is basically being nightormented without that bastard even being here. Felix, Kagami this is just a jerk move.
Duusu: "This is so sad"
Felix: "Dont worry its for Our happy ending"
Duusu: F*** yea lets keep it up
-Oh he made a sentimonster... wait. I know its not human but like a sentimonster MAKING sentimonsters. Feels even more f***ed up
-THEY ARE DOING A F***ING PLAY FOR HER!?
-OH MY GOSH! ITS THE STORY OF EMILIE AND AMELIE!
-Meanwhile, Chat noir is working through his daddy issues.
-Back to the play
-Oh this is interesting.
-Oh and we find out Felix's dad was a rich Cowboy. But also an asshole. (Oh right, this is a French Cartoon, thats why American's suck in this)
-Back to Adrien fighting his father
-This is Cathartic watching Chat noir beat Gabriel's ASS
-HE WAS GOING TO CATACLYSM HIS DAD! Adrien, my boy. Patricide adrien? Well Monarch is still alive, so I guess you think it wouldnt kill him. BTW, Monarch should have had ptsd from that.
-And Chat noir got hit, so his worst fear is... and cuts back to the play
-Oh the twins were infertile. Emilie returned to try and get medical help but still nothing.
-The peacock, that was the sentimonster reference
-Oh so THATS how Gabriel got Gorilla to guard adrien.
-Also yea, any doubt that they arent sentimonsters is dead now.
-ITS CHAT BLANC WITH BLUE HAIR!?
-Oh s*** that is f***ed up.
-"It will end if you give me your miraculous"
-"Take it." ADRIEN NO!
-Oh so thats why Felix's dad was an a**hole. Okay I will give this credit. That is something.
-Welp this explains why Felix might be a sociopath
-Felix revealing why he did what he did
-THE RESISTANCE! COMING IN CLUTCH
-THE TRAY!
-ALYA JUMPED ON HIS BACK.
-They got the akuma in a jar.
-Wait, Chat noir defeated an akuma without Ladybug. (sure he had outside help, but Ladybug has done that too). Good on him
-WELL S*** THAT WAS TRIPPY.
-Felix and Kagami asked for Marinette's help. so was that all the sentimonster doing so? I am lost
-Okay so, I may not LIKE exactly how they went about it. But I cant really hate them for what they did. They are just kids that want to pick someone they trust.
-Oh s***, Ladybug never cast miraculous cure. So Adrien has some perminant trauma from the fight with Nightormentor. He still sees the antichat visions (its not chat blanc, and its just reverse color pallet)
-Chat noir left. before he could tell her. Cause the nightmare messed with him
-WAIT DID TOMOE AND GABRIEL JUST LOCK THEIR CHILDREN IN STERILE ROOMS? WTF!
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Okay! This episode was A LOT.
Well there is no denying Sentimonster theory. Its confirmed. Its done. 100% GUARANTEE NO MONEY BACK.
It did explain a LOT about Felix and Adrien.
So I am still iffy on how it was handled.
Now this DOES NOT justify Felix's Actions. He was still an a**hole. And Kagami shouldnt have told Felix. Marinette is Ladybug. That was NOT her secret to tell.
BUT the play that explained what happened was very well done. It explained a LOT about the Graham de Vanily family and Felix's a**hole father.
I will say that I hated how tortured Marinette was during this. Felix and Kagami could have done something less cruel to lure her there.
I also greatly enjoyed Chat noir vs Nightormentor. very good catharsis and we have Adrien going through some additional mental trauma, inflicted by his father (I wouldnt call it Ironic, more of EXPECTED)
I give it 7.5/10
I will say its the most I have enjoyed the second half of this season since Emotion.
#ml#ml spoilers#gale reviews#miraculous ladybug#ml representation#ml representation spoilers#feligami
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Hello, first I would like to greatly apologize for any spam of likes I have sent your way because my brain decided to obsess randomly with Dp x Dc crossovers for the past few days. I'm not even into Dc comics, and I only watch Danny Phantom when I randomly it exists and the fandom pulls me back into its clutches until I'm able to finally escape only to be pulled back in a few months later. I write this to you at 1:30 am with a bag of shittily made popcorn with my cat accompanying me because my mind has decided to fall in love with Danny being taken care of by the Bat family and it's mostly you're fault. I hope you're happy. I want to kiss you so bad you have no idea. I've come up with so many scenarios and have the balls to share them with you cause I really like the way you write and since I'm not a writer I have no idea what I'm doing but here I go:
Danny and Dani are basically travelling the world, Danny would call it running from the cops but that doesn't have as nice a ring to it. (Situation can be up to you, bad reaction from parents, was framed, anything for Danny and Dani on the run with Danny having protective older brother vibes)
They end up in Gotham for a few nights to rest easily and its snowing cause I said so and theyre starving at this point. Danny's like "We need to hide and need shelter" and Dani's like "Dude look over there at that creepy mansion :D" And they have no idea that its not only very much inhabited, but a bunch of rich people live there (And the Bat family but who cares about that part)
Danny is obviously on the fence cause 1. He doesn't have a good history with rich people so why their houses and 2. They dont know whats in there what if a bunch of weirdos are staying there but they decide they're cold and need a place to rest so they fly in and luckily land in the kitchen.
The lights are off and they're to focused on finding food to notice two figures standing in the middle of the kitchen just watching them.
Dani pulls out a box of the shittiest cereal you can think that shouldn't be counted as cereal all happy "Danny, they have my favorite cereal!" And poor Danny's horrified, "Have you even ever had cereal before?"
They start rambling and then someone turns on the light its Alfred he was in the middle of boiling midnight tea for him and Tim.
And there's just 2 GLOWING awkward teens FLOATING, one's holding Bruce's 'cereal' clearly not assesing the situation and the other has a horrified expression on their face, and looks like on the verge of passing out.
Tim is way to sleep deprived thinking they're hallucinations and sits down, also on the verge of passing out, while Alfred just keeps boiling his tea.
Danny is sweating trying to figure out how hes gonna get them out if this situation and Danis just, munching on dry crappy cereal.
Albert like the God he is just fucking opens the fridge, looks Dani in the eye and asks "Would you like some milk with that, my lady?" And thats all I got out of me FOR THAT SCENARIO.
The other is I fucking forgot I took 30 mins to write all this I forgot what else I had Im so sleep deprived OH FUCK I REMEMBER IT WAS ABOUT DRUGS
Ok so tw for drugs (weed):
Ok so Danny's a teen he's stupid right, knowing him in the show he'd be the kid to decline drugs but then take a hit when his crush says "i KnEw YoU wEreNt coOl" yknow? Delicious social pressure.
Well he's like pretty much adopted by the Wayne's at this point so he's just chilling on the couch about to light a joint and Jason being the noble man he is snatches it out of Danny's hand like "Nono, bad small child dont do drugs" half joking and smokes it instead.
Danny's now panicking, silently following Jason to make sure he's alright and not dead or reacting badly to it.
"Yeah why wouldn't I be fine?" And the high kicks in.
The thing is is that it was ghost weed. And Jason for once feels completely calm, he doesn't feel a single bit of the pit its silent.
He's crying and Danny's like "Omg are you ok???" Thinking he poisoned his family/lover/whatever the fuck they are.
And Jason's just "This is some real good shit" silently sobbing, not even thinking about where Danny got it or why its doing this he's just happy.
And you can turn this into extreme angst by making him codependent or a comedy by him making high jokes
Ok thats it again I'm so sorry I just really had to tell someone this
Homie you, me, behind the Bat Burger; We shall marry at dawn. Man, it makes me so happy that you enjoy the stuff I write that much I’m really proud that I could bring you that much joy! Be sure to give your kitty some pets for me :).
Oh also, “not a writer”?! You spin a web of lies. This is incredible!! Sure it’s rambly, but that’s because you’re writing in a way that’s unsure of yourself. (It’s also very much so how I write so I feel you homie.) I still feel like my writing is equivalent to a middle schooler's but I do my best to shake that off. I don’t write fics because I’m bad at dialogue, I’m workin on it though! You simply just have to try and believe in yourself. You’ll reread it later and go, “Damn, did I just write that?!” And feel proud of what you accomplished. You absolutely have unique and brilliant ideas so take a shot at writing some stuff! I’m sure you’ll do great! :D
Also bro your: "what was I talking about? oH YEAH DRUGS!" was so unexpected. it made me laugh so hard so thank you for that :)
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Danny and Dani are fucking floored that this stoic-ass old British man just rolled with seeing the two. Dani's eyes light up as she accepts the milk from the British guy. Snatching the fancy glass milk container, she haphazardly pours the milk into her bowl causing bits of cereal to ricochet the milk out of the bowl and flying absolutely everywhere.
Tim just stands still and stares at the two very much so Not Human entities that are currently in his house. The tired vigilante rummages around in his pocket for his phone and takes a quick photo of the scene in front of him.
Tim double takes glancing between the kitchen and his phone. At first he assumed they were hallucinations because no figures were present in the photograph… the floating bowl of cereal and spoon says otherwise.
#danny phantom#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc comics#writing prompts#bones replies#anon#genuinely dude your writing is fascinating! sorry it took me so long to get to your ask because this is INCREDIBLE
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hey hi sorry i just came on here to rant for a moment about your road trip au.
so i was rereading my favorite chapters cause ive been haing a bit of a DAY (chapter 3,4, and 6, by the way, i have quotes written in my ACTUAL JOURNAL from them). and ive come on here to make two things known.
first of all, the mix between humour and plot and pining and FUCKING HEARTBREAK is done soooo soooo well. i mean, how are 'James glances down quickly, not even having the decency to look embarrassed. “These? They’re my Jar Jar underwear. Evan got them for me. Are we really not going to have sex?”' and 'Evan scoffs dismissively, eyes rimmed with red, and Regulus feels like everything between his ribs is being ripped out.' be in the SAME FUCKING CHAPTER. HOW. and youve encapsulate each character so well, you've given them layers and plot and FEELINGS AND SHIT AND ITS SO COOL.
but also on a more serious not i feel like we need to talk about evan and chapter 6. what the fuck. what the fuck. the way his ed started because he wanted to look like reg so he was 'enough' for the man who he loved but wasnt in love with him. that is so fucking devastating but so real? everything about the chapter was so real and so twisted but at the same time like just waht the fic needed. and the fact that reg knew about the ed but doesnt know the reason is so upsetting too shit.
anyway i have a few questions for future chapters if you dont mind.
will regulus ever find out the reason behind evans ed?
mattheo from chapter 3 (dorcas' hot model canadian friend) will he show up and cause some drama?
whose pov is the next chapter?
how many chapters b4 the dorcas chapter?
sorry i dont mean to be a bitch but WHEN IS EVAN/ BARTY GONNA KISS HIM?? WHEN?? (im eating this shit up dw but ya girls gotta know)
weve had evan/barty/reg povs and we know we're getting a dorcas pov but are we gonna get james/marlene/pandora?
i adore your fic, its my favortie rosekiller story ever ever ever and i cant wait for the next chapter. thank you for writing this masterpiece have a good day:)))))))
hey sweetheart, first of all wow, thank you, I'm so glad that you enjoy the fic!!!
IM SO HAPPY WITH THE HUMOUR/PINING/HEARTBREAK thing, cause I'm always so worried about making it too happy/sad so i try to mix it up a bit, so thank you!!
evans character is SO personal to me, he is just. writing him i couldn't stop, the words just kept going and i was like shit dude. well. that's truly upsetting, but the amount of people who told me afterwards how much the character and the situation meant to them made me fuckin SOB.
and the questions!
im so on the fence about this i will have to get back to you
yes he WILL, tysm for asking, he most definitely is making an entrance.
the chapter I'm CURRENTLY writing (8) is what i assume you mean, and it is split barty first and then evan.
babe idek i thought it was 1 last chapter and now there's another so maybe next next chapter (9) and if not then definitely the one after that.
HAHAHAH I HAVE NO IDEA!!! its gonna happen (they get close this chapter!!)
ummm we will defo be getting a pandora chapter at one point but that'll probably be a little ways away, and james. boy do i have a chapter for james. marlene may not get one but she will be featuring heavily in the james/dorcas/next (8) chapter.
thank you thank you for this ask is means the world
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Hi, G / T Gravity Falls content? I need some wholesome Giant Dipper content. Also, Giantess Mabel Pines too. They are cute twins no matter what heights.
Also, Adventure Time G / T with Finn growing to be a 50ft giant hero of OOO.
Love Cartoon G/T Headcanons.
heyyy first of all just wanted to say thank u sm for the ask lol!! second of all, ive never seen adventure time sorry!! i think my boyfriend (@im-a-heartstomper) has tho so u can ask him? idk tbh
anyways i didnt rly know if you meant both of them as giant siblings at the same time or one being giant and one being tiny so i made it the latter. and i just did hcs, sry if that isn't what u wanted!!
giant!dipper pines:
if he grew randomly and was normal size before, he would TOTALLY boast about being taller than mabel. i do not make the rules. u remember little dipper? yeah.
he makes fun of her for being short all the time
he would still love to go on adventures with mabel and by himself!!
he'd also want to display real paranormal beasts in the shack (boss mabel) but all the creatures would be able to fit in his hands dghsjdgdhsj
his height makes him even more awkward
he's totally still into wendy btw and is even more insecure of it
giant dipper has a huge fear of scaring people he loves and doesn't want to hurt. (haha HUGE <3) like he hates when people feel intimidated by his size and he always wants them to know they r safe around him
except gideon fuck that bitch
he scares him for fun
we all know he loves mabel and is protective over her and because hes giant he feels like he can protect her even more which is so cute
he was prob teased and bullied for his size in school :(
he hates it when people make him feel like an outsider bc hes a giant
he for sure has an "i just wanna be like everyone else" mentality
which makes for a lot of good angst and hurt/comfort
he's altogether much more of a gentle giant
and hes BIG. like around 50 feet.
i cannot think of anything else LMAO i just love him soo much
giant!mabel pines:
mabels a BIG girlie with a BIG personality
like shes still super hyper and always running around the house and probably screaming and bouncing off the walls
which can cause. issues
cuz if u like scream and jump and ur a giant that can cause property damage
but its ok cuz that usually doesn't happen?
however when/if it does she always feels so bad
also she loves picking people up! whether its her brother or her friends, or even her grunkles, she loves holding people in her hands
like dipper, she taunts him for his height
her and her friends + dipper can do so much cool stuff bc she can just lift them up and stuff
wanna stargaze? do it in the hands of a giant, even closer to the sky
wanna climb this fence? she can lift u instead
mabel isn't actually that insecure about her size
she used to be a lot more but then she realized how awesome being a giant can be
she probably makes bad puns about being a giantess
yes she STILL HAS WADDLES
she carries him in her pocket and hands and has tiny stuff for him
her friends brag about her they're like "we have a BADASS COOL GIANT FOR A FRIEND SO THERE"
she loves carrying people in her pockets too
mabels sweaters are HUGE
her friends lay on them and are like woaaahh so soft and big
they also do her makeup. idk why we don't talk about g/t makeup scenarios more tbh but like on girls nights they totally would
although things are crazy she almost always has a positive outlook
and when she doesn't feel so good she still has her tiny brother dipper <3
again thank you for the ask! and im sorry i couldn't give u any adventure time content :(
#g/t#gravity falls#g/t headcanons#giant/tiny#gianttiny#sfw g/t#< STRICTLY SFW INTERACTION ON THIS POST. DONT SAY ANYTHING WEIRD PLEASE THEYRE MINORS#g/t community#g/t fluff#gravity falls g/t#size difference
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How is hormone therapy going? I've considered it myself but I'm nervous about it. Can you tell me a little about what its like? :)
Ah, thank you so much for asking!! I appreciate it!!
Well, the experience is really quite vastly different for every person on HRT.
For me, it was one of the best choices I have ever made in my life. I was hopelessly and horribly dysphoric for my whole life to the point of nearly not being able to function (dysphoria coupled with severe mental illnesses is for sure A Bad Time) and I was lucky enough to be able to get on it fairly early, thank God because I probably would not have lasted longer-apologies for that dark subject but it is necessary to mention for how much it turned my life around entirely.
I am still not fully transitioned to my liking per sé, as the full range of Testosterone's complete effects is a maximum of 5 years according to my research. I have been on it for nearly 2 years now. I plan to be on it for the rest of my life if possible, as I'd like all effects to stay forever-- I fucking ADORE every second of it, honestly I'm not afraid of needles either like most are so I literally get ecstatic & excited every time it's time to inject LOL!! Probably a weird reaction but--it legit makes me wanna throw a party every time those 2 weeks pass & it is time to.
(Not all forms of HRT have to be injected however, though it is the "strongest, most evenly distributed form" especially if done every 2 weeks instead of every 1 week,
as my doctor described it, which made me choose it--and coupled w my lack of giving a shit about injecting lmaoo)
I have had a lot of effects, I am also finally growing actual facial hair which is nice-though I learned I prefer my face clean-shaven or at least mostly, which is a hilarious twist tbh as I thought I'd want a full beard. I'm cool with both but I definitely prefer how I look without, so I shave every now & then currently.
My body looks entirely different, at least my shoulders and arms HELLA, I've had strong asf cis men say I'm built better than them which gives me giggle-fits of pridefulness LMAO--im petty ig--
but anyway to get to the true point--I would not be where I am today or perhaps here at all, myself, if I didn't go on it and exactly when I did. I am so extremely grateful for it occurring and that I have access to it at all--I am honestly hardly feeling dysphoria except on Really Bad days when it still hits me. Even things I should be dysphoric about and was in the past, idgaf about now. My chest barely bothers me now, and used to be my personal Hell. I have even decided to not do top surgery in the future which is... really bizarre as I was DESPERATE for it before (however this most-dysphoria-removal effect seems to be rare, so don't expect it to "cure" dysphoria, it didn't for me either but I'd say reduced it by like 90% or something lol. But most don't have that strong of a reaction)
My advice for you and every trans person on the fence about it, would be do a CRAP TON of research, on its every effect, type, etc. and talk to or read about/etc. as many people you can find who can give their opinions on their own experiences-as everyone has a different story!
If it is a "HELL YES" after that, then definitely go through with it. If there is still doubt, I'd wait. There is no rush as you can always decide to begin in the future
Know though, that if you do start it, but wish to stop later,
in some ways there's a "reset button",
but in some ways there is not.
Some effects will reverse if you stop taking T, like the fat & muscle redistribution, etc.
however some will stay, for example any body or facial hair that develops will then grow forever as the follicle is "activated" (male hair is a different subtype of hair, so once it's made it can't be reversed) and etc.
Be aware of which effects do this, and just in general, get as much information you can gather.
This info-gathering also has the added bonus, of impressing TF out of your endocrinologist if you do happen to choose to go the route of beginning taking it--
During the consultation, they'll ask if you know about it well, and for me, I began on a spiel of the things I knew & how much I researched because I was so excited to begin and how much it would help me.
By my Dr's reaction she was blown away by my very informed decision, that I had thought about it VERY hard, & I think that is what assisted me greatly in acquiring the prescription for it so fast.
Basically, if they either know or just think you are going into this without much context or don't seek it passionately, they think you may change your mind and that you're "going through a phase" or that you can't consent due to not enough information that you know on it for such a majour medical decision.
If you come in confident asf that this is what you need, and you're like "Yeah I know this, I got this shit locked down" they know they're dealing with someone who is very damn sure this is the path they need, and thus the doctor doesn't have to worry nor explain more, which speeds everything up.
Overall, I will end this by saying I wish you the utmost good luck, and that whatever path you choose, you feel happy and gender-euphoric!! Thank you for asking my advice & I hope I helped in any way!! 👍👍💜🏳️⚧️
(ALSO I SEE UR USERNAME MMMMMNN YES, SOMEONE WITH QUALITY TASTE IN CHARACTERS--LMAOOO SRRY IM A SHAMELESS WILLIAM FANATIC, I GOTTA MENTION THAT
UR USERNAME MADE ME LEGIT SMILE-- HAHDJGNGJGJGJG)
#trans guy tips#transguytips#transgender#trans#transgender guy#trans guy#transgender man#trans man#transgender male#trans male#ftm#ftm trans#transgender ftm#HRT#ftm hrt#transition#gender transition#hormone replacement treatment#hormone replacement therapy#hormone replacement#testosterone#testosterone hrt#advice#transgender advice#trans advice#lgbtqia#lgbtqa#lgbtq#lgbt#queer
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meandering thoughts (reflective style)
with my life seeming to settle a little bit (knock on wood) my brain returns to its favorite dilemma: relationships! how confusing they are for me! how i get crushes all the time on everyone and am too scared of alienating people important to me to do anything about them! operation "just be cool and hot and hope people are attracted to you" does not seem to be working, despite the fact i am both cooler and hotter than ever. i have always given off an unconscious air of "don't interact with me" that I think makes this difficult for people. (probably because I largely don't want most people to interact with me, and because I'm autistic and can't figure out social cues, and because even casual touch with people outside of a very small bubble activates like seventeen goblins in my brain!)
i talked to my therapist about these feelings last week and we're probably going to focus on them moving forward. this was really the year where i realized that the depths of the damage done to me growing up were much deeper than I thought. it's difficult to acknowledge that! it's hard to really look in the eye how much work I still have to do even now.
I've been reading about relationship anarchy and finding it appealing. the trouble of course comes in the practice. my therapist, who's trans and poly and is someone I trust to have good takes on these things, said something like ... "you can just ask the people you want to be closer to if they're interested in exploring a possible deeper intimacy." im both fascinated and terrified by this. sure i can just ask. what if i get told no? ive been told no so many times. it does a number on your self confidence! what if it makes this person who is important to me uncomfortable? what if it pushes them away from me? it's happened before! i can't risk losing what I have!
i suspect the fact my support network is almost entirely friends makes this much more frightening; without the kind of anchor relationship most people i know have in the form of immediate family, expressing interest in changing the relationships i do have kind of feels like fucking around in my operating system's files without a backup. it's sort of funny to be okay with the mortifying ordeal of being known, but being too afraid to even get to it.
relationship anarchy says, do away with preconceived notions of what a relationship "should" look like. kick out the fences and define new borders. fuck your friends and live domestically with your platonic life partner, if you want. this fascinates me. it's something I've been writing into many of my characters' relationships for some time now, without having a name for it. do i want a traditional partner? part of me thinks I do, but maybe that's just a lifetime of social conditioning. what would be the most fulfilling for me? i don't know. it seems like something you can probably only figure out with experience, and right now that's my problem.
i was raised by people who wanted me to "court" instead of date. (My therapist made a terrible face and said oh I hate that for you when I told him this.) i was raised by people who definitely would have tried to get me to read "i kissed dating goodbye" if i had done anything other than have a crush on a gay boy all through high school. I still talk to that guy all the time, crush free even, and he's in a great relationship with another man now. their relationship is strictly romantic; the partner fulfills his sexual needs with other people. i thought that was so cool when I first heard about it. I think it was the first time someone I knew personally demonstrated a functioning, nontraditional relationship. Others have followed. I'm so happy for them! I watch, fascinated, from behind the iron wall I've built for myself while "Hello My Old Heart" plays in the background.
it's Christmas as I write this, and I've got no plans. a few people have checked in on me, because I'm always alone at this time of year. (honestly, the checking in kind of makes it worse. "hey I'm celebrating with my loved ones and I know you aren't, how are you?") that's another complicated topic, but it's been a little easier this year. it's probably to do with both time and the fact that my adhd is being managed for the first time ever; it's common to have increased emotional regularity when that happens. I'm lonely, but I'm used to it, and things will go back to normal soon. It would be nice to have someone to spend it with. i don't know if it's in the cards for me. maybe next year.
I worry sometimes that I sabotage myself. Oh, I'm into this person, but they're in a relationship, or they're straight, or they're ace, or they live far away, or I work with them (as if any of those things are a hard limiter in all cases). I can find any excuse not to express my interest in someone. It's something I'm working with my therapist on.
As morose as this post is, I'm okay. today I'll mess around with my server project and go feed my friend's pets while he's away. I'll spend a lot of time thinking about this and distill my feelings down into something I can overlay onto a character; i see myself most clearly when I do it through a mask. I've got things to cook and a fridge to clean and an indoor bike to ride. There are people who care about me and it's important I try to remember that.
uh, happy holidays! i promise i am okay enough. please don't make me think about it any deeper than that. I really truly hope you have a good one.
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Celeste LORE?? PREHAPS?? ANYA ?? A N DY ?? FUVKINB- EXPLODES
i am free from the road once more so i will answer ur ask now :)
Im going to talk about Anya and Celeste’s world itself first though so i can get into more character specific stuff.
Since they are super cool supervillains, they gotta have powers right? In this world, magic mostly genetic. There are alternative magics, think like potions and shit, but its weaker and more finicky. The most worthwhile magic is passed down from parent to child. It works like regular genetics, some powers are more dominant than others, generations can be skipped, etc. Anya got her powers from some distant aunt, and most of her close family does not have magic, save her cousin. Celeste’s family have had very strong, dominant magic, so she and her siblings all have their fathers magic. Magic is influenced by where and how your ancestors lived, Anya’s ancestors lived near water, so she has water magic. Celeste’s ancestors were the ones who would keep night watch, and as such has darkness and shadowy related powers. Not everyone has powers, and over time the number and diversity of people who can use magic has gone down.
Anyways Character Time Yay
Celeste grew up super rich. Like uber mega crazy rich. Not Jeff bezos kinda rich but really fucking rich. Eldest of four children, she grew up expected to bear the family name, business, and riches when her father dies. As such, a lot of pressure was put on to her. Everything was chosen for her. Every extracurricular, every class, even her outfits were planned ahead. She was allowed no individuality. She was the heir, designed to be a carbon copy of her father.
You could imagine how terrified she was when she realized she was trans.
She knew she couldn’t come out. While she didn’t like how she lived, it was better than the streets. So, for years, she sat on this revelation, growing more and more uncomfortable and angry at everything. She would reach out for support and be dismissed, restrictions for her behaviour were getting tighter, and the dysphoria was becoming overwhelming. That is until she saw the perfect chance to end all of this.
Her father had just wrote his will. One day, she went into his office to ask a question and saw it lying out on his desk. He had named her both sole heir and power of attorney to his estate, and knew that this was her chance to get out of all of this. Despite her increasing restrictions on her movement, she was able to secure enough cash from around the house to hire a hitman. No paper trail was left behind. Everyone in that house died that day, and she inherited huge money.
Anya grew up in a standard, suburban home. White picket fences, oak trees with tire swings, garages with suvs and minivans. Her childhood was ordinary at best. Despite a lack of expertise in the area, her parents managed her magic well and her abilities developed nicely. It wasn’t until middle school until things went wrong. She had been pestered by a small pack of bullies for a while, but had recently started escalating their behaviour. So she fought back. Small things at first, directing tap water back at their faces, causing clouds to pour rain down onto them, innocuous things like that. Over the course of middle school and high school she was starting to get fed up with the increasingly agressive attacks from her bullies, when it all came to a head on the night of her graduation when they tried to drop the stage lights onto her. She was a theatre kid though, and was able to get out of the way fast enough to not get crushed. In a fit of rage for ruining her moment in the spotlight (which they just tried to kill her with) she lost control over her powers, sucking every ounce of water out of their bodies. Feeling the adrenaline rush, she let herself go completely, savouring the power she felt. Eventually though, she stopped, and realizing the damage she caused, ran away.
She wasnt going to let up on that feeling of power though. Not a chance. After honing her newfound power on the local wildlife, she packed her bags and started life anew in a different country, becoming a hit man. One night she was approached by a young man seeking to inherit his fathers wealth. He knew he would be caught if he was the killer, so saught out her instead. He asked to frame it as a home invasion, as not only would he pay her in cash but in whatever valueables she wanted from his home. She took the deal, and got to work. After everything was said and done, they parted ways, Anya using her extra wealth to fund a far more lavish lifestyle. This lifestyle lead her to a house party, where she would meet an awfully familiar face.
Anyways they get together and decide “fuck it lets just cause problems on purpose” and become supervillains the end.
and for andy i have something planned for him ;) its fun dont worry :)
#robyn isnt the only one whocan have cryptic april dates#howdy's asks#howdy's mutuals#snatche i know this is you love ya bud :)#howdy's ocs
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For the head canon ask 3, 28, 34 with your current favorite blorbo
My favourite blorbo? Ok so tatsu and 3, 28 and 34? Got it soo boop baap here we go.
warning: very long
3. Do they exercise, and if so, what would they do? How often?
For someone like him, he doesn't seem like a sporty type (the ones I can think of that also fit him are fencing and ice skating in the winter). He sometimes goes swimming either by himself or with the other 2 (wangan midnight beach episode) but only during the summer. However outside of that I can just think of him stretching himself after a surgery or doing yoga while sitting on his office chair. He also does a lot of finger exercise and has a pen for fidgeting (his favourite too).
28. Who do they see as their best friend? Their worst enemy? (very long)
Shima has 2 sides: 1 side is him on the Highway, making everyone his worst enemy (even himself). Willing to bring anybody down even if it's sacrificing himself (sometimes). The other one is him being the chilliest person out of anyone in WM and we are going to talk about that side. Kitami is obviously someone he hangs out with a lot (especially when it's about his car/about wangan-sen so mostly at night) however, sees Jun as pretty neutral and sometimes brings coffee because why not. Tatsu finds him quite annoying as well just because of how smug Jun is. Once jump scared tatsu at some point because why not (you could say scarecrow hehehe). Akio is somebody he either doesn't like or feels bad for, like shima thinks of him as just a guy who doesn't know any better with the Z but at the same time he doesn't like him because ✨rivalry✨ and akio just annoys him sometimes, but both do get along just ok. Shima does however hope he also doesn't die like the last akio did. Oooooooooh boy Reina and Shima the bestest way I can describe them is Really-Sad-Best-Friends. Ever since I saw that scene during Masaki-ark where they both just hung out after the encounter with the yellow RGO rx-7 and afterwards Tatsu being the cool guy that he is invites Reina and akio for a coffee just ENHANCED my headcanon about Reina and Shima being best friends. LIKE,,,both would sit in the cafe and talk for HOURS. Reina also tries to convince Shima to be diverse with his clothing and always shows him new stuff to try, and Shima is willing to help with general life things. While tatsu sees each other as just good mutuals, Reina sees him as a really good friend, also she calls him either shimi or BB (short for blackbird). Otherwise Shima sees the rest as neutral.
(finally, also note: i dont ship reina and shima btw, just making it clear if i sound like i do)
34. Thoughts on privacy? (are they a private person or are they prone to 'TMI'?)
Tatsuya is a very private person, especially on the wangan. Hed rather be called Blackbird then his first name there since revealing himself could lead to possible conseqences. But hes fairly open with those who dont know his Races or those who dont say "Blackbird" openly. So everything goes by his expressions then his identity.
i hope this was understandable enough for everyone. im really sorry if its long or the grammar sucks
#wangan midnight#tatsuya shima#fang asks#fang answers#ask#this took me some time so im sorry if it took long#i wanna draw badly
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The Next Generation!
for the ask game!!
blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)
data. DATA. he is my favorite character of all time. i could write (and have written) essays on his emotions but to sum it up he has them and u cannot tell me otherwise. he's a cat lover he's an artist he's a sherlock cosplayer he's a poet, whats not to love. picard is up there as well because i love his character arc but data is forever my fave
scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)
geordi and data!! i don't want to repeat data in every question but geordi alone and their friendship is so cute. geordi is shaped like a friend and i just feel like hes the most genuine guy there, like he would just be your pal in any timeline. i could totally just hang with him in 2022 and the 2300s yknow
scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)
ro laren? troi? barclay? too many under appreciated characters to name. but i always really related to barclay and i was so happy even when i was little that they added a character with real life problems like anxiety and not just transporter accidents and all. ro was a favorite as a kid and has a really cool arc, but i dont see her talked about alot. i didn't like troi at all when i was younger but now i kinda separate the character from the writing and u know what it was not deannas fault they only gave her like one episode of character development. i adore her and the gene roddenberry vision of being in tune with emotions/therapy being so important that its on the bridge of a starship is wonderful
glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)
guinan!!!!!!!! any lady with a cool hat and witchy powers is my friend. she stabbed Q with a fork and basically spirit-guided picard across time, then fenced with him for ten years until he found out. queen. and other obscure fave- lal!!! my beloved baby we are completely ignoring the fact she died idc. im considering doing a rewrite fic of "the offspring" where lal lives and data realizes he has emotions
poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)
lore for sure. he has that morally questionable thing going on that i love. lore's backstory is so sad to me because literally if noonien had just realized he was alive he could have tried to help him. and his reaction when he finds out noonien is dying is my one and only piece of evidence that he's good but im clinging to it
horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)
Q? picard? i love the ep where Q becomes human because its basically this prompt in canon form, putting him in a little jar and tormenting him. i do like him i just think its funny when he suffers idk. with picard he is so repressed i just wanna put him a tapestry style situation where he has to cope with one emotion and watch him go wild
eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)
i dont think theres even a tng character i hate? i guess the borg in general? maybe those admirals who tried to say data didn't have rights or lal had to go to starfleet
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can i ask you about being pregnant because i just found out i'm pregnant and im probably keeping it but my god its so anxiety inducing
first, whatever you decide, it's valid. no shame in keeping or terminating, you have to do what you feel is best for you, so there's absolutely no shame in being on the fence right now.
second, every pregnancy is different. with my first, i was barely sick at all. mostly i was just tired allllll the time, and chronically uncomfortable. which is normal honestly. they did studies and found that pregnant people are basically living at the limit of human endurance all the time. by my 35th week i was ready for that baby to get the fuck out. honestly i preferred the labor to being pregnant.
this time around it's a bit different. i'm way more sick, more sensitive to taste and smell, plus all the exhaustion and uncomfortable feeling.
the anxiety is normal. just facing the prospect of maybe raising the next generation can be daunting, never mind all the other medical stuff. but you're not alone in that anxiety, even if people around you seem like they have their shit together.
you'll probably have weird vivid dreams. it sucks, but is temporary. cravings are normal, but what nobody told me is that they're like. all consuming. they were not normal cravings like "oh, i really want pasta right now!" it was more "IF I DON'T HAVE PASTA RIGHT THIS SECOND I WILL START CRYING AND PROBABLY DIE". it was ridiculous. it is what it is.
you'll probably cry over stupid stuff. honestly it's not just the hormones. it's the exhaustion, the cravings, the anxiety. anyone who tries to blame all your emotions on the hormones should get fucked.
but there's some cool shit too. your body does some really interesting things when you're pregnant. it's really kind of amazing getting to feel a life growing. it's fun figuring out what things will make that baby start moving around. sometimes they get hiccups and it feels weird, but it's also hilarious.
honestly though? doing your research helps with the anxiety. i had an amazing obgyn and midwives the first time, and i kept them on for this one too. a good team will make you the priority and alleviate fears.
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I HAVE NO ONE ELSE TO RANT THIS TO SO IM SORRY, YOU COULD TOTALLY IGNORE THIS.
So, I'm a minor. I'm 15.
I have amino. There are teenagers and adults on amino. NSFW is against the guidelines and such.
Im going to talk about the kpop BTS roleplay community with like OC's and all that jazz.
You arent to interact with the adults and the adults don't interact with you unless platonically and even then, the legals don't even really interact then.
I never really cared. That's your boundary? Cool, respect it- I'll stay on my side of the fence. Its whatever, I stay talking with the minors anyways. We are in neutral grounds, just stay cool.
But then they post NSFW thoughts in the timeline, knowing that it's against policies and there are at least 13 year olds on here, maybe even younger and Amino doesnt approve of that content being on there. It's not filtered and you cant block a "tag". They talk about being fucked roughly in skirts, giving good blow jobs, etc.
And then tell us, minors who hasn't interacted with them, to go back to our cradles and practically like try to treat us like infants and when a 17yo pointed this out and said they were disgusted and preferred if they made a wiki for those post so no one else had to see it besides people who wanted to, so they could go on said persons account to see it. But someone within the legal community around 25 had commented bad about how they "generalized" all legals and made people 25yo look bad and the 17yo said that they are missing the whole point of the post BUT did correct their wording on the post but this adult was completely missing the pont and continuing to nitpick.
Where the fuck is the mutual respect?
Maybe I'm just being overdramatic because I'm just a minor but it's really annoying to see this and then get told we're babies. Like if we're babies, why post your sexual content where us "babies" are going to see it and start a chain of everyone doing it because they're like bowling ball pins and the ones that stay up and missed with the ball are the asexual adults who are uncomfortable as well.
ughhh see that's so frustrating!! if you were a minor in their 18+ space that would be one thing, then you'd be in the wrong. but if it clearly states in the rules that nsfw stuff isn't allowed in a general public space because there are minors there, that's totally on them!! that's irresponsible of them to let their sexual fantasies bleed out into what's supposed to be a safe space for all ages. is there any other authority figure you can talk to about this? it seems like a serious issue that could get a lot of people in trouble.
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i saw a bunch of other people doing trafficsonas and since its come to my attention that cringe culture can burn ive decided to make my own lol
still on the fence about the skull and bone charm thing. idk someone give me feedback and i might change it out or remove it
this is ermine. his name isnt permanent i might change it considering its literally just polilla’s dads name. also if it isnt obvious hes based off polilla bc my current skin doesnt have much to work off of
lives in a cave in the middle of the tundra because its ‘easier to defend’, which is codeword for ‘who the hell would put effort into building a house when you got a house built by mother nature herself right here’
literal menace. finds joy in blowing up peoples houses despite the current life hes on. also disappeared for the entire first session just to breed an entire army of dogs for the sole reason of He Could
depending on his life, his pupil color and sword gem changes color, while the badges on his sash crack and stop glowing. theres also moths on the back of his shawl that change color, and starting from green life as he loses lives he also loses moths, until hes only left with a big red moth on his last life [queue laugh track]
the beads are random colors but the ones on his dogs do correlate to the life theyre on- btw if your wondering why the heart colors are weird its bc i just color picked from his outfit and just turn the saturation and brightness up, hence why green is yellow and yellow is orange
i am planning* [*see : rotating it in my mind] on making a traffic hc post about how the players make their clothes, but the basics is they spawn in with their clothes from other servers, but as their clothes get torn up from classic scuffles such as Dying, they have to make new clothes with what they have to work with, for example: wool, leather, string, cotton / hemp / other plant-based materials, furs, etc.
as for ermine, he spawns in with his base clothes [sweater, pants, and boots] and has to make the rest of his clothes with various leathers and fur. and for the select few of you asking where he got the polar bear parts: um uh uhm,,, i personally believe that the map he plays in is alot bigger and encompasses more biomes, including cold biomes such as his tundra and also frozen oceans.
its kinda like a uhc game in a way if you think about it, with a bigger but still enclosed map, and the border slowly closes in each session until all the players are forced into the middle and ok i need to just make a proper post for this stuff Moving on
the dog breeding deal kinda backfires on him when he dies to a skeleton while farming bones [he just like me fr [bc he is]]
after that he kinda begins to realize ‘damn. im gonna die’ and starts wearing the mask more, kinda as a threat, bc we all know characters with masks are more mysterious and therefor dangerous. except for him bc he runs at the sight of any conflict as he is absolute ASS at fighting. hence the blowing everything up part
when he dies again his were-aspect starts to show itself in places like him growing wolf and dragon parts and scales and fur showing up on his face and limbs. its kinda annoying but he supposes its useful considering it also comes with heightened senses + partial night vision
and now red life. This is when it all goes downhill for everyone including him
like all stereotypical weres, he loses the majority of his sense of humanity and just starts going literally, as the cool kids say, off the shits- he doesnt hesitate to attack everyone and anyone, even if it risks him getting killed in the process. there is no stops for this man, someone is going to die and it doesnt matter who
yes he still has his dogs, at least the ones that remain, though at this point hes less a commander and more one of them, attacking in one big pack of fluffy piranhas
dubbed ‘the bloodhound’, he attacks mainly under the cover of dark, be it at night or in dark places like caves. just like his namesake, once he gets a scent on his next victim, he will track them down to the ends of time until they finally turn and fight back
the name ‘bloodhound’ comes from the concept of werewolves shifting during the full moon, the inherent violence of red lifes, the fact that hes literally a dog, bloodmoons, his red circle markings, etc. etc. tl;dr its cool
#if anythings spelt wrong sorry i dont care lol#trafficsona#trafficblr#digital art#artists on tumblr#illustration#:0
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(inspired by ”The End of Art: An Argument Against Image AIs” by Steven Zapata Art on youtube, watch it please)
If youve already decided ai art is bad for the art environment as a whole or have watched the video i referred to above then dont bother with this post as it was probably better elaborated on in said video, however, if you don’t have the time to watch a 47 minute video or are still either on the fence or a supporter of ai art then i implore you to read the rest of this post as im going to list arguments for ai art and try and counter them
firstly, ai art and people using references is not comparable, a person even if they follow an image as closely as possible will still have slight alterations whereas the ai can copy it exactly. to extend upon this akin to how someone may trace or use someone else’s art as a reference, these ai algorithms have databases which contain billions of images, including ones with copyright which we would normally not have access to in order to use like this, from hundreds of thousands of artists and will precisely and electrically splice your art into its results
corporations and stingy bastards stand to make ridiculous amounts from this, as people who may have hired an artist for a job or commission can now tell their ai to pull up desired images instantaneously, not to mention that the ones who sold these people their ai will be getting paid instead, and they will be getting paid NICELY with your money (openai etc)
finally, and i hope iv saved what i feel is my best point for last, is against those who argue “it gives people who were not gifted the ability to make great art” or “the ai is a tool which is dependant on us feeding it prompts”, starting with the first argument, no artist is “gifted” or “talented”, what artists actually are is determined and hard working and pillars of mental fortitude & work ethic, im no fine arts master but personally i have only gotten to the point i’m at because i would often spend all of brake & lunch at school and then anywhere between 1-3 hours nearly everyday just drawing, the fact that the act of drawing is what i use as a coping mechanism for any stressful times in my life is irrelevant as i and anyone else who partakes in art and the craft have only achieved there skill through effort which is possible and obtainable to absolutely anybody, if you are upset by your perceived inability to draw then either simply improve through practice and documentation until you create works which meet yours standards or just stop drawing until you can do it without becoming overly upset at your quality; do not steal the blood sweat and tears of honest artists so you can LARP about as somebody who is actually willing to put the time in for results (this does not refer however to those who happened to have innocently used ai art before or those who credit the specific artist/just share cool ai art as my anger is only directed at those who use this technology to pretend the work is theirs or avoid paying artists, i myself used dalli.mini to import burt reynolds onto the moon and into RGU some time ago out of pure curiosity); continuing further, referring to how this ai needs human made prompts, allow me to forwards you a question if you believe this to be the case, if algorithms akin to the ones on tiktok or other SM platforms and search engines which are massively capable of monitoring a persons searches and precisely adapt at using this info to show the users stuff that they know the user will enjoy, then what is stopping these algorithms from being applied to these ai art generators? if the ai art generator is given the capability to monitor and act upon your searches and info like the algorithms i just mentioned then what is stopping it from, for example, auto generating some images from your interests for you to look at? now consider that this ai will be making a sweatshops worth of generated images for literally everybody and that while this happens, as the the ai produces more and more, whether the prompts were manually put in or not, that it is perpetually and ALWAYS LEARNING. why stop at simple images? books, poems, animation, music, each medium with which man has used to express themselves since the start of time will receive its own ai with which to steal literally every recorded piece of art or literature ever in order to churn into automatic and spontaneous content, by then all we will be left with is this auto generated primordial pool of content puked up by the ai, you may look up references for a cool drawing you are trying to do and five minutes later youll receive a ping from your phone sayin “heres that drawing you were working on, dont sweat it i already finished it for you in color and everything just as you imagined” just so you can scroll through walls of images which each look like they were pulled from your head, 20 minutes later itll send you the drawings you were going to draw 2 years from now, and 55 minutes later it’s going to send you auto generated pictures of you next to your idealised and perfect partner going kayaking, on a picknick, getting married etc in an album under the name “your hopes and aspirations”; because these computers KNOW us, far better than you or anyone else could ever hope to know yourself or eachother, and if there’s anything that these algorithms and corporations know about the human brain it’s that it loves the quick, dopamine inducing, highly addictive, blitz krieg style content which allows tiktok and other SMs to fester in the modern atmosphere
im not saying we need to all smash our phones in tandem as that would be obviously ridiculous, neither do i have an answer as to how we should get rid of or counteract ai art, all i can say is that i believe ai art is the biggest threat to essential human expression, 2nd only to us all nuking eachother, and the we SHOULD be angry about it and SHOULD not simply sit around and let it ruin us, even if it’s jus by bringing up to someone else via conversation how awful ai art is then thats still fighting back art and i would implore that you do that if possible. thanku for reading my ramblings if ur still interested in the topic of ai art then simply search for the video i referred to at the start or do independent research on they topic outside of that, maybe what youll find may debunk me who knows anyway im very tired gn😑👍 (also again let me reiterate that those who use this technology while crediting the specific artist/ sharing cool ai art they prompted while fully acknowledging its ai art and not there own work are completely innocent, i’d rather you just share the work of actual people but whatever its hardly an issue when confined to this scale)
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"i can call him up and tell him what i want!
Jesus.mp3
(first im gonna tell him, again, how i love glorious sound; the tambourine forever convulsing, the concertina and horns in stereo imperfect mirroring, the full stop || to announce the entrance of guitars. the church bells, and beautiful beautiful the one man who comes in wrong towards the end but everyone smiles through. thump thump hit your foot on the floor and all this worry goes away. and ry cooder isnt even really supposed to be cool, is he?)
am i sick? do i want to get well? is such a goal possible? i am goalless, theres just thump thump this beat, and merely attending to each new downbeat, thats what im going to do. after every hit of the drum there another one coming up. on it. right now im riding fast through midnight a slipper of ice, and the walls of night are a million cymbals suspended and waiting for my playful picket fence stick. im hitting more than ever...abandon the metaphor for a moment and revel in the quotidian count, ive got 7 plays lined up for the first 6 months of next year, and i am thrilled psychedelic sick about each and everyone. listen: a cabaret, a song played on a solo saxophone, a train to catch, a gun goes rooty toot toot, russian rock n roll beamed into outer space, prayer both silent and full, and finally a birth of light. i must be fucking crazy. i must be! am i sick? do i want to get well? these seven bursts of metal with wonderful souls talent so beautiful, none of them will be the single goal, each night will be another cymbal sizzle crash through starlit wind flying past me as im riding so recklessly down the hill, weaving past cars technicolor lit, and its going to blur in the speed to just one stream of light pouring out exhausted. i love the challenge, the sleepless push to hit every next note, keep playing, keep going, i want it.
i can call him up and tell him what i want!
do i want more than this? im making a living at it now. im paying the rent on these outbursts now; and the people are good, everyones mind is reeling in another way and i love the laughs each one gives me. how can i ever come close to knowing them all? is there room for me? do i want more than them? maybe, maybe. real success, that elusive flame of fame, ha ha my musical opening on broadway in 2007, my god, why not, why not. i can call him after all, and ask him for this, right? what i want. what i want.
when the whiskey veil wears away for just a second i look down at my hands and they are white knuckled for im freezing cold causing im going so fucking fast and i forgot my gloves or i lost them in a bar on mission street or in the bart station, but i cant go back because i jumped the gate, i jumped the gate again almost every day a bart train renegade heart racing fast everyday but i cant remember right now. i must be crazy. there are so many things to wrap your hands in anyway...and look at her with her mittens fingerless, and her with her hat fizz fuzz blue, and her with her legs i can see fishnet stockings, garter and all, under a wider fishnet hose, that lovely leg all wrapped twice. every woman around me wrapped up different and my fingers trembling no matter where or when for a little more warmth, a fabric new always, why? why? i must be crazy wanting that when ive already got those eyes to get so lost in that temperature vanishes like direction in the dark, floating through centigrade in a shivering sweat flawlessly true. i must be crazy, but i can ask him, what i want, what i want.
i dont want anything, i dont. god, please i dont. please let that be the truth. cause ill get so sad if i want it and dont have it and ive got so much right now that im almost blind. i can be what i want to be/i can choose whatever heaven grants. but i just want to be whatever heaven grants, any cymbal so bright and lovely to be seen when im riding fast like this, god its like a new moon gold in the sky! crash a cymbal that i want to hear ring clear, crash peel, i want to hear them PEEL!
and i fear the shallowness, maybe theres too much and im not there deep where i could be. theres someone ive known as long as possible in real pain and i cant understand it really, cause i felt real pain once and said never again? no, surely not? that was so little...
but solo now so: lo the cymbals,
only the cymbals and my bike out of control too fast, but god theyre so glorious shiny! ive been working on riding no handed so i can grab a stick in both hands and catch my ears in the nodes and hear a mountain range valley strange of waves in the cold night air.
one asked me, why do i perform? i cant answer you, i cant. i have no idea. its what im here to give? its just there and its beautiful and thats all i can do. maybe im doing too much? i can barely feel.
tomorrow ill make the drummer a vegetable lasagna in exchange for a haircut, god my hair is so long, its the only helmet ill wear. i know how to make a good vegetable lasagna; i just have to pick the right vegetables, and only a few, so that its about *mushrooms*, or its about *broccoli*, its about the *one* taste, dont lose it, dont lose it//
(but on cannery row hazel pours all the half drunk drinks into a single jug, and comes home with a wild punch maybe champagne spiked one night and fernet the next. one taste.
i have no idea what all of this tastes like,
i have no idea what god looks like,
i have no idea how there can be so many sounds in the universe that when i open my mouth next time ill sing one brand new song, once and only once always one note to the next never ending, never goal, just sound all the way SHHHOOM! to the end of the universe getting absorbed by all around it cymbalstars bursting and dying brand new)"
Dave Malloy, 09 December 2005
#obsessed with this one#but solo now so:lo the cymbals#dave malloy#pointless dave malloy#try reading this out loud seriously#it's lovely
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