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#it would drain me of life
beelzeballing · 9 months
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everyday im like "well i mean, the magnus protocol can't make the TMA ending worse. right? right????" and then i remember that there is a very real possibility that we find out that jon is dead and martin ended up somewhere else alone and the fact that this outcome is possible fills me with the purest dread and horror imagineable.
listen. mr jonathan jwriter sims. mr jonnywaistcoat. jonny. my guy. you cruel, cruel man. you've done it. okay? you've stricken fear into my heart. your writing has plagued me with the thought of the horrors of loss. you have made your point. i am BEGGING you to leave it at that. i wouldn't be able to deal with martin being stranded somewhere else all on his own. you can't do that to me. listen to me you CAN'T.
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questing-wulfstan · 9 days
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Oh hi hello yes, is Delirium a character that sparks joy for you ? Do you enjoy fics in which Hob rescues Dream from the fishbowl ?? Have you ever wondered what would happen if Delirium lent Hob a hand in one of those fics ??? Well wonder no more, for I have just the fic for you !!!!! AND it has illustrations by the most wonderful @mock-arts ~
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skyloftian-nutcase · 1 month
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Gosh, listening to beautiful, epic music makes me want to go on an adventure, why can’t I be a resistance member or go on missions and difusiqqowhf
I’ve definitely been away from work too long lol
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rutadales · 4 months
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people who participate in hate-fandoms need to get an actual hobby I'm so serious 😭 not to be a hater but for the love of God log off. genuinely humiliating to be spending that much time caring about something that makes you so miserable that is ultimately so meaningless
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amaraudermind · 1 year
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Something something Bruce love Gotham because it's his home, jason loves Gotham because it's in his soul, Duke loves Gotham because it's his family, Steph loves Gotham on purpose
#the void screams#duke thomas#bruce wayne#jason todd#stephanie brown#each member of the batfam having a complicated relationship with gotham is something that can be so personal-#but yeah bruce loves gotham because this is where his family has always lived. leaving would mean leaving them behind.#he loves gotham because it's the only home he's ever known#i don't know what fucked up tether there is between gotham and jason. compells me though.#even when he leaves he can't stay away along. gotham's in his head. in his soul. it's where he's alive and it's where his life is drained#the people of gotham are duke's family and he wants to protect them the way they've always tried to protect him#the city is the people and duke knows these people. he's one of them. he's seen what they go through to survive because#he goes through it too. he loves gotham because it's his whole world. his family. and he'll protect that family#until he dies.#steph though? steph grew up here and hated it. hated the city. resented the people. resented the heroes.#and still every fibre of her being goes into loving this city. into hoping for it.#on purpose. she's going to love this city on purpose. even when it hurts. even when she'd rather die.#even when the whole CITY turns against her. time and again. because she's already decided.#she's going to love gotham. even if gotham never loves her back.#don't mind me i am just rambling nonsensically. i am right though by the way. it doesn't make sense but it's Correct
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thebirdandhersong · 8 months
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well mark that down as situation 2938489 that I don't know how to handle
#i would love advice on this if y'all have any thoughts to share because i know what my parents think and im having trouble sorting it out#i love these three friends of mine but it is really draining to be around them now because all they will talk about is church drama#(re: our old church) and rehashing it all and being Outraged about the horrors etc etc#either that or being downright condescending about protestants/non denominations and acting like it's funny to talk like that all the time#i end up being more angry or resentful or exasperated at the end of our conversations than glad and at peace like i did before#(before all THIS ish happened and the three of them were like okay this is all we're going to talk about now)#i've tried to say in gentle ways (i am simply not capable of this kind of blunt confrontation) that maybe we should not be talking#so uncharitably towards other people especially behind their backs. like. yes bad things happened. we have to acknowledge that.#but continually making jokes and jibes at a priest's expense really rubs me the wrong way especially since i KNOW that he loves us#and in many ways was trying his best in the circumstances. and are we not supposed to be loving our neighbour#and is this not downright slander to keep going on this way esp since it goes on for HOURS at a time#anyway i don't know what to DO because if i keep chatting with them/meeting up with them conversation will be 90% this thing and i Hate It#but on the other hand i feel responsibility towards them because my godson's one of them and another is a friend who is a fairly recent#convert and if i leave them to stew in their own echo chamber i doubt it'll do them good#am i supposed to keep some distance? am i supposed to keep arguing whenever one of them says something unkind or inflammatory?#am i supposed to keep speaking up so that they hear a different perspective? am i supposed to run in the other direction for my own peace o#mind? anyway i am still thinking this over and it stresses me OUT#it used to be fun and life giving to be around these people and now it is so exhausting and seriously alarming in many ways
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baeshijima · 5 months
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it is now officially the 25th which means...
merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33
#sophie's idle chatter#this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays....#i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true)#also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god#(not so) mini life updates :#the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and....#my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...)#my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF#currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔#the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :((#oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series...#sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently.....#the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;)#my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps#on my own 🧍‍♀️#OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT???#i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this#i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series.......#tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them#idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG#thats abt it i think?#anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33#ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶#queue... ueueue
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ash-and-starlight · 2 years
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i love drawing. i would love to draw some day
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k i thiiiiink i'm gonna close my inbox for a Bit bc there is... so much in there... and more gets buried with each new ask & i Want to get to them all! but there are ninety-five (95!) asks in that box rn. and i know from experience that if i don't take care of it that number will build to ungodly levels, and then it'll get so overwhelming i won't be able to get myself to answer Any <3
#its just that i want to respond to Most with scribbles#and since it takes me so long to do anything#especially lately with... everything that's happening... my Motivation and Energy has been more drained than normal#and 'normal' is already at Low Levels!#but yeah and i just Want To Get To Everyone#there are some real good asks in there!#but then each new one is like Oh I Wanna Do That#YALL ARE GIVING ME TOO MANY TASTY RECIPES!!!#i cant bake 95 cakes at once!!!!#all of this said affectionately ofc#i never imagined my lil art blog's inbox would ever reach double digits#let alone nearing triples!#i just need to take things a bit slower than usual. implement some personal moderation yk yk#absolutely unprompted#do i know when the box will reopen? nope!#in all honesty it might be a couple months... idk idk. idk!#my life is very uncertain and stressful and will be for At least until november#mid-november probably. late november. perhaps even early december...#depends on how quickly i get settled in my New living situation or how fast i empty the inbox#cause im moving late october... i just dont know!#everything is kinda falling apart! but its fine its fine . i will work on asks and art#*will graham voice* this is my escape#there are several that im excited to get around to!#mainly a couple'a Lights Out ones but there are Others as well...#if you were planning on sending an ask. uh. sorry!#im grabbing your tongue and shoving it back in your face. hush.#edit: AND i wanna respond to some replies cause those get sooo neglected#its like my brain says 'you can either respond to replies or asks. not both. die'#and i have to be all 'thanks cool thats totally reasonable! perish'
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duhsty1 · 1 year
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okay so this was supposed to be an expression study of some description, no colours, really simple, but as you can see that did not happen
Art block is kind of subsiding but augh might have to draw in my sketchbook or something to power through the rest of it
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elliesbelle · 10 months
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lol
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running-in-the-dark · 3 months
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had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)
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virgincels · 3 months
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have been ill since i was a kid it is not going to get better or pass likeeee sick of people telling me otherwise
#🏩.diary#I’ve always been this way#like there is no fixing it it’s not even like#idk my mental illness isn’t even something i can use as an excuse it’s just me now like idk#my friends are insufferable they don’t get it that#it’s not the fucking same like im so upset why do they always make things ab themselves#im the one that has no other friends no job no love life im failing uni with no social life like no you don’t get it#and they’re always like oh i wish I wasn’t known on campus like you talking to people is so draining I hate it#I hate it so bad i need to kill myself#I’ve been suicidal since I was 11 like that’s it’s not gonna change#and then they wonder why I don’t wanna talk like sorry im too suicidal to hear ab you having multiple jobs and boyfriends and driving sorry#like im too bitter#why don’t you just do this I CANT!!! im ugly and repulsive and can’t go outside#I’ve been made fun of for my weight and face by family n school friends like why would k want to go outside when it’s not even. me that#thinks I’m repulsive but everyone around me too#my parents don’t ever call me pretty unless I have makeup on they’re repulsed by me I know they love me bc they have to love me but im such#a loser there’s nothing to be Proud of#I don’t know what to do at all it’s like I’ve fucked it over so badly I can’t fix a single thing#it’s like I have everything wrong w me and it’s humiliating#tw vent#sorry im worked up godddd#I hate when people talk me like it’s my first time feeling this way and that it’s easy to get over#just try getting ur license or doing this I psychically cannot bc I’m crippled by anxiety and facial and body dysmoprhia like fuck off#whatever whatever im too pussy to kill myself so I’ll just live in this fucking cycle forever and ever like bc im literally a fucking .#pussy what’s wrong w me#in other news my sisters separation anxiety is back and she won’t let go of me I can’t go to the bathroom without her coming she’s sleeping#in my bed again#she’s so clingy I love her but I can’t do anything
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skyloftian-nutcase · 11 months
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People be out here having side blogs dedicated solely to their work so people can enjoy it without irrelevant stuff thrown in the mix, and here I am going “nah I’m keeping it all on one blog y’all can sort through it” 😅
Sorry guys lol
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asteralien · 2 months
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not to be like “i miss college” even though i do but mostly i think i miss being smart. before depression and life events had chewed up and partially swallowed my brain. just getting to problem solve and think, being Very Into something as the norm. i know being an english major is basically the easiest thing you can be at the undergrad level but i do feel like that was the one and only time in my life where my natural state was actually a pro instead of a con. i graduated with the highest honors and absolutely no one cared but i cared
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heavyedit · 2 months
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medical websites love to be like “how to stop having physical stress symptoms: 1. be in less stressful situations 2. don’t be stressed”
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