i've finally decided to try out using ze/zir :) been contemplating it for over a year but felt really hesitant 😭

i'm cosplaying remus next saturday at japan weekend i'm actually shaking crying throwing up

oh BOY do i have a story for tumblr. im pretty sure yall arent gonna care but im bursting at excitement after realizing this.

so basically there's a girl in my class who sits behind me now; super sweet, super shy. she was in my class last year too, but i never really bothered talking to her. (silently whacks past me over the head for making such a stupid decision)

well, i was absent once and asked her for notes. she gave then to me, we exchanged numbers and thus started a beautiful friendship.

when i say we clicked, we clicked. we became best friends over the span of a month, and tbh im not surprised. we basically complemented each other in the best ways possible while also sharing certain interests.

for example, she is pan while im ace. she likes drawing, i like writing. we both like cats and science. we both hate loud noises and bitchy people.

this is a HUGE deal to me who's never had actual friends. like, never. i had acquaintances and people who i was friendly with, but never prioritized as a friend. at one point i had genuinely thought i was aplatonic because i genuinely didn't understand how to make real friends and/or keep those friends once i made them.

but we're friends!!!

need to get a button/patch that says "that's mr. dyke to you" so so so bad

happy [late] valentines day!

coming right at ya w/ some Lumini

(this took way more days then it was supposed to ._.')

shoutout to selfshippers with trans f/os!!! affirm THEIR gender!!! give THEM gender euphoria!!! your f/o finds so much comfort and safety in you, and they feel so validated and seen by you!!! imagine helping your f/o find things that affirm their gender!! go shopping with them, help them find things that make them feel good about themselves!!! go get a trans flag together!!!! help your f/os through their transition!!!!! you bring your f/os SO much joy!!! they love you so very much!!!

PRO.SHIP DNI!

Guys guess who just bought a strap and been running around the house yelling "I HAVE A DICK" taking ugly ass dick pics and laughing maniacally the whole morning???

looks like I'll need a bigger front door!

"All genderfluid/nonbinary people want to shapeshift!!"

Today's gender euphoria was kindly delivered to me by:

brushing my teeth in my underwear, freshly showered and waiting for my T gel to dry

i didnt wanna do a background :33333

so so honestly genuinely i love being trans. i have absolutely zero desire to be cis, because being trans is such an insane joy. like, the idea that being trans involves wishing you were cis is alien to my personal experience atm because i love being trans so much and no part of my trans experience rn is wishing i was cis of any kind. i fucking love being transexual, i love transitioning, i love being on testosterone, i love that every day i gain greater understanding of my gender and gender itself and take delight in my body, both how it is and how it's changing. while i wish the whole "legislate us out of existence" thing was not such a thing, i actually give zero fucks if anyone understands my trans-ness and my gender, because i get it and it fills me with the most gorgeous affirmation of life and human-ness and the mysterious unfathomably complex strangeness of the universe, and i don't need anyone else to understand it for me to just be it, and i get to be it every day, and i fuckin love it

I think I got a couple of weird looks for wearing a tie but yknow what I don't care. Wearing it makes me feel good.

i keep trying to uninstall gender but society keeps forcing mandatory updates that won't let me completely remove the program from my device, so instead i have to settle for just going into settings and removing all permissions & silencing notifications regularly. wish there was an Opt Out button. this gender shit starting to feel like tumblr live & i just gotta keep snoozing it weekly for the rest of my life