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maddy-ferguson · 10 months

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Ngl, I really think that these bylers that are crying 24/7 about "purity culture" or whatever, are playing dumb when they start with their "but Nancy and Steve were 16 and 17 in that scene of s1!!!1" like... We got introduced to these characters at that age and the people playing them were already adults. So yeah, sorry but I think it's easy to see why most viewers would be uncomfortable with a more sexual scene of Mike and Will and it's not automatically homophobia, I think that would be the case with any of the kids since we got introduced to these characters when they were 12 and the actors were babies as well. We literally saw those kids grow. And I'm not saying byler should only get to peck or hold hands, It'd be cool if they have their epic kiss or whatever, but Will hasn't even had his first kiss yet and some of these people are already talking about sex scenes, like... Be for real 😭

funny you should say that...because i've used the nancy was 15-16 in season one argument (last tag) before while also saying that i understand why people find the sex part of their sexualities uncomfortable to discuss. and i wanna reiterate that, again, i totally understand that people feel like they've seen them grow up etc etc and that they still think of the actors themselves as children even thought they're not anymore.

i don't think it's all homophobia because like you said, people would probably feel the same about lucas and max and discussions of sex (i don't know if anyone is discussing that because there's much less discourse to have there and you can't argue that people are homophobic if they disagree with you) but i don't think it would be justified either. the "but we knew the characters when they were little" argument makes me think me of an ancient disney channel/abc show that old people and girl meets world fans who watched it for the first time in the 2010s will know, boy meets world (1993-2000). classic comic of age show, look at these kids. and eric in the back (he's fifteen).

they're eleven at the start of the show and then, what happens in any coming of age story happens, you guessed it...

they grow up. this is them in the later seasons, when the main characters are still in high school i think. they grow up, they talk about sex and about having sex at prom in season five and then they don't have sex right away because they figure it's not the right time yet or something like that, and then they have sex later and get married, the details don't matter. but my point is, who watches a show for five seasons, over years and years and gets upset at the main characters having sex because "this is crazy they used to be children"? isn't that the point of coming of age stories that cover multiple years or that focus on the latter years of adolescence, that they're not children forever and that at one point the characters "come of age" which usually includes their first sexual experiences?

i don't think the having sex part is particularly important in stranger things but also it doesn't have to be for it to be portrayed (see jonathan and nancy), teenagers have sex, it's just the way the world works. i'm not advocating for sex scenes of any kind especially because stranger things isn't a show that features a lot of sex in general, the only "explicit" sex scene being nancy and steve in season one with cuts to barb dying, but i genuinely don't think the duffers would have any qualms about portraying teenage sexuality in general with the party. if they did, they wouldn't have included erica threatening lucas to tell dustin what she found under his bed (it wasn't the communist manifesto) and they wouldn't have had max looking at a shirtless steve for an amount of time that's supposed to make the audience laugh. it's been 7 years. if they do a time jump, the babies will be about 17, played by actors who will all be around 20, the age natalia was when filming season one. the characters are teenagers, babies grow up. it happens to the best of us. i get why people would find it uncomfortable and maybe i would find it uncomfortable too but i wouldn't be scandalized. the duffers had no problem having a child actor portray everything will goes through in seasons one and especially two, i really feel like sex is fine and...not traumatizing or hard to watch compared to every single thing will's gone through lol. and again, i'm not even expecting them to have sex lmao, but i wouldn't cry myself to sleep if they revealed that everyone in the party actually knows what sex is.

last question: do we have any indication that jonathan had talked to more than one other girl (the girl at the halloween party being the one girl i'm counting for him) before he got together with nancy. i'm just asking because of your last sentence, because if we don't he should have slowed down also😭

#yes i'm back to calling people old for no reason. <3 #saying that they will all be around 20 isn't a stretch because noah's turning 19 in 4 months and they haven't begun filming yet. thank you #i'm not mad at you anon sorry for not really agreeing with you and again i get where you're coming from and i don't even expect them to #have sex and if they did i would expect it to be implied like jonathan and nancy but yeah #what i mean when i say it's not particularly important in st is that i don't think they need to have sex for will's arc to be complete or #anything😭#i would've been happy with jonathan and nancy only kissing in s2 like idc yk it's a detail #i'm not advocating for sex scenes means HERE in this case i'm not anti-sex scenes in general lmao #i didn't watch bmw over years and years i watched it in like. a month and a half maybe i really was not crying when cory started wanting to #have sex and i was 15...an impressionnable kid who knew what sex was...disheartening i know💔#<- that wasn't me making fun of you anon lmao again i get where you're coming from i just respectfully disagree #i looked up the episode where they have sex and (spoiler alert lol) cory and topanga end up only having sex on their wedding night i think?#and that's not the episode in s5 i'm talking about but they consider having sex and talk about it so still bringing that one up #i found an article about something rider strong (shawn) said about not liking this episode because while they talk about sex at length they #never talk about safe sex and he even talked about his concerns to the showrunner because he thought it was irresponsible since yk young #viewers and all that and he was like maybe you don't get it different generations mine grew up with aids and everything this is really #important and he brushed him off! i thought that was interesting. this has nothing to do with st #ask

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kkujo · 6 months

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also idk i feel so fucking good abt myself idk genuinely being consistent with my gym routine has done everything for my mental health and confidence like i still feel bad abt myself sometimes but for the first time since i was probably 9 i'm having days where i look in the mirror and thinking DAMN i look good and those days are getting more frequent it's really the best feeling

#and it's not just the weight loss like. being overweight was such a struggle for me esp bc i've had issues w eds and stuff and.#idk it made me miserable. and i wasn't the healthiest bc i'd gained a lot due to pcos and my periods were irregular etc like it wasn't good #and now i'm medicated and fuck man my period is regular now and my weight is more normal and i just feel like. good abt that #bc i spent so long being unable to lose bc of my hormones and it was so disheartening bc i was doing everything 'right'#i feel a little bad talking abt it bc ik it's a sensitive topic and i have had issues w eds i obv don't think weighing less makes u healthy #etc etc. for me it was the healthy thing to lose what i've lost so i'm proud of that and i did all of that mostly without relapsing #over 2 years and i've had like. maybe a month of relapse total over that time and each time i've come out of it after a week or two #so i'm definitely stronger mentally etc BUT. my point is. the confidence hasn't come from trying to be smaller #and now i'm actively trying to build muscle and for the first time ever my confidence comes from looking BIGGER bc i want muscle growth etc #the confidence truly comes from within and when i was overweight i started to give myself that confidence #by starting to wear cute clothes and stop hiding my body #it is so true that losing weight won't make you like yourself or your body.#like. you can lose weight if you want but you HAVE to respect yourself first. i lost a lot of weight unhealthily in 2019 and regained it #& bc i did it out of self hatred i NEVER felt better abt myself when i got smaller. you rlly have to be able to love yourself as you are rn #it's cliche but very very true #anyway i don't rlly talk abt this stuff on here bc ik it's a sensitive topic but!!!#i really would recommend weightlifting and strength training if you wanna feel more confident #ik it won't work for everyone but for me it's genuinely transformed the way i see myself.#i no longer try to force myself to be as small as possible. and for me that's everything yk #ALSO LIKE. THE MENTAL HEALTH ASPECTS. just having the routine and getting exercise and getting out every day rlly helps too #i really would recommend it i've never felt better or more confident abt myself #the only thing is unfortunately and it's a very real problem but gym/gym bro culture often leans v close to e/d culture #it really sucks bc a lot of gym folks genuinely do love it and are very healthy with it #but the chicken and rice gym bro types are pretty rampant too and there's a LOT of dysmorphia and such in the community #so i kind of avoid gym bro circles for that reason bc i do think a lot of people take it too far and are very mentally unhealthy with it #but weightlifting/going gym in itself isn't the problem and if you're eating properly & taking care of yourself it's not gonna be like that #it's just knowing the types of ppl to avoid bc a lot of the mindset is pretty toxic 😭😭 but there are def a lot of ppl who do it healthily #like. i understand why people do it but i'm kind of against bulking/cutting at least for myself #bc for me it's not abt looking as strong as possible it's abt being fit and healthy physically & mentally if i look buff asf that's a bonus #but a lot of ppl take bulks/cuts too far & a lot of it is just regurgitated e/d shit unfortunately. just b careful who you interact with

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yohankang · 2 years

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btw sorry for the influx of negative posts but this is. literally a life defining moment for me and i'm scared shitless so <3 i'll calm down in a week i just need to be dramatic first

#just burst into tears on my way home 🙃#just had a realization that therapy really did help me and i am in a better place now. but at the same time #it's really fucking disheartening to realize that if something bad happened you wouldn't be getting any help from your parents. again!#because why would they learn from their mistakes lmao #lately they've been just. so mean to me for no fucking reason. and it's fine usually but not now #i'm like okay! i'm starting my life again! we'll see how it goes #and they're like btw if you fuck up this time you'll be the only one to blame :) also we won't help you because you're an adult :)#like i did not!!! fucking ask!!!!#i did ask for a bit of your support though and got yelled at in return!!!#sometimes i'm just. amazed. like holy shit you guys can be normal but sometimes you're cartoonishly mean.#like i asked my father if he could ask his friend if i could sleep at his place one night. and the response i got?#'until you've proved your worth to me i have no reason to help you' like HELLO. this is. wow #he says shit like that all the time unprompted #he acts like i'm a criminal or something lmao but what i did wrong was dropping out of uni.#after 2 years of fighting with officials about something i had no control over and getting fucked over again and again #like sorry i could not take it anymore!#i restored most of my self-confidence through therapy but this shit sometimes gets to you. yk #godddd i am getting so personal it's fucking embarrassing but i promise it's the last time <3 or i hope so lmao #i just have to survive this week. i will calm down after first 2 days of classes.#and if after that i'll decide i'm not ready yet? then i still have my job and enough time to try again #yeah i'm trying to convince myself at this point abjsvjscjs #k.txt #dl #btw this sounds way dramatic than it actually is so <3 don't you worry about me i'll be back to normal soon

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muraar · 1 year

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What happen to your other account?

#I deleted Vaaiz #Reasons well????#Might as well come of clean #I felt like no one was reading my writings here in tumblr #I try not to look at notes but like its disheartening to just be so excited about writing and sharing it with everyone #And then yk have... No one to really see it.#Silly goofy stuff getting into my mind #So i delated my writing blog 👍#And just stopped posting my writings here #Havnt though about it much ever since #🔆Asks

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daenerys-targaryen · 2 years

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how is it anyone's business what you decide to post? it's your blog, if anon or anyone else don't like, there's this magical thing called the unfollow button. fucking morons.

Yeah it's not the first time I've gotten asks like that (and won't be the last) and that's exactly what I say, "unfollow!" It really is that simple. It's the entitlement for me. Demanding someone to do something on their own blog bitch you better be joking. It's partially my fault because for the longest time this blog was primarily a taylor swift blog when I first started it, so I gained a lot of my followers that way but I'm also no longer 18 and have more interests than Taylor now. Also I made this blog my primary blog (aka multi fandom) in 2019/2020 so it's been years since I've been purely 100% taylor lol. To say that all my other edits 'fall to the wayside' aka flop is so funny. I have shrek gifsets that have 50k LMAO

#i would say i have more taylor edits that flop than not #and also i don't post gifs FOR notes #clearly i post them to share my interests and it's disheartening if something doesn't get a lot #but i also know going in if i'm posting an obscure fandom or an obscure ship #it most likely won't get a lot of notes #like bates motel for ex. i gifed norma knowing the set wouldn't get a lot of notes because i lOVE HER #does that make any sense #i've mostly been posting stranger things edits the last week or so cause it's FUN #i've been having FUN editing and playing around in photoshop #i've been having fun playing around with mask layers and colors and typogrpahy!!!#and i want to share that growth yk?#sure like i said if something doesn't get a lot of notes i'm like that sucks #but for now i'm really enjoying gifing and it's not going to deter me from posting #just because i don't think it'll get notes #/// that has been the case BEFORE because burnout is legit #but i have a full notes app with ideas of gifsets so i'm having fun regardless if something gets a ton of notes #funnily enough i actually feel pressured to make taylor edits which makes me not want to make them #so jokes on anons they played themselves #anyways didn't mean to ramble on #but as you guys are aware. it happens.

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21st-century-ninja · 3 months

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art reposter

So up front!! This is not intended as a call to dogpile, harass, or bully op. I just wanted to make an awareness post, because I saw people on my dash reblogging their works who didn't seem to be aware that the art was stolen. Just block and/or don’t interact with them and move on with your life, yk?

Anyway @sophia336 posted a fic called Earthbound last night (link). A cool premise where Cole merges with the earth in MotM, right? The only problem here is that they also posted artwork along with it, artwork which, by the watermark at the bottom left, seems to belong to a Mr. Essy.

Okay, I thought. So maybe they have two usernames for art, for personal use, etc. but going to their blog revealed no more art with that watermark on it.

So I searched it up in a couple of minutes and found the original artwork as, indeed, belonging to Mr. Essy over on instagram. (Link)

Okay. So the art belongs to Mr. Essy. Maybe they got permission to post it, even there was no mention of “The art isn’t mine, art belongs to Mr. Essy, etc” on the post.

But here it is again, and with a different artist.

(sophia336 link)(usagi haruka’s insta link)

Again, this took me two minutes of googling to find.

(Both of these artists appear to be non-native English speakers, which isn’t necessarily a pattern of anything, just something I noticed.)

Okay. So they’ve reposted art without credit or seemingly permission. Maybe they don’t know any better.

I found this post, though, on their blog from May of 2022 that suggests they have been made aware that this behavior is harmful.

(link)

For the third time, it took me two minutes of googling to find these artists I'd not heard of before. In the aforementioned May 2022 post, sophia336 wrote "All art isn't mine" in the description. In their ninjago posts, it seems that they never make a claim either way.

Tl;Dr: Sophia336 reposts art with their (as far as I can tell and have no reason to doubt) original fanfics. They are aware that this behavior is harmful and not what should be done.

And I get where they're coming from! Honestly I do! As a fellow fanfic writer, it can be really disheartening to see artwork getting more love than fanfic, even when the same amount of effort went into both. From what I read of their fics, they've got really great writing skill. I just wish they didn't feel the need to use stolen art to get views.

#ninjago #fabro cessat

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01zfan · 17 days

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i just read the whole statement about the boycott and lemme just say my two cents (agreeing with you btw)

suju fans had to buy stocks to make sm listen to them. lemme say it again. SUJU FANS HAVE TO BUY STOCKS to make sm listen to them. yes this was decades ago but it still applies do yall really think sm will listen if it doesnt benefit THEM.

like lets not be dumb buying trucks trending shit and even this boycott wont do shit cause it doesnt affect sm

yall also need to remember that KOREA literally the KOREAN public likes riize theyre not fans they just listen to them do yall really think they, who really only care about the music.

if yall really gaf about seunghan why yk do the things that could make him money like idk stream the songs hes in? making his post the most popular one?? streaming his fancams??? but all yall do are things that could be easily ignored like the boycott will not even be an issue center 5 has like fee active artists as much as i remember but no here yall are discrediting everyone else in riize cause of sm mismanaging one member like

yall claim yall are ot7 but hate on sungchan substituting seunghan's lines, think that wonbin cannot be a good lead vocalist in riize even though wonbin is better in being a vocalist, thinking riize as a whole has a weak vocal and dance line and being the weakest in sm without him like all of them cant sing or dance i feel like half of yall just even care about seunghan cause yall have a savior complex and want him back which yeah he should but talking bad about the other members just to make him superior isnt it like lets be serious???

(also feel like the only reason yall came to the conclusion of boycotting is cause its the buzz word today to boycott something)

SAY THATTTTT YOU SPILLED…i believe alot of ot7s are secretly seunghan solo stans/akgaes because they only will uplift other members of riize when it relates to seunghan positively…like i see so many ot7s trash sungchan and call eunseok fake unless they drop little hints about ot7 and sudden theyre the best members in riize😭. also i see sohee only get mentioned alot on twitter when ot7s project onto him or wonbin when they try to group them together like wonbin isnt more than enough on his own?

also when siren dropped the amount of discord and shadiness towards the members of riize was like actually astounding lmfao. i think it just shows that this boycott/movement isn’t impacting anyone except the boys. like i just imagine them looking in their comment section on tiktok or intl briize reaction to siren and being disheartened seeing what their “fans” are saying about them.

i just hope that this boycott is resolved soon so riize can have the best comeback ever but with their popularity in korea im sure it’ll be a successful comeback regardless heh.

#askz #anonz

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altheasmeadow · 1 year

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hey hun,

idk if u're taking requests, but i'd like to requests something, feel free to ignore it if u don't want to write it or you're not taking requests hehe, don't worry <3

i was thinking of something very angsty/fluff like "he calls you clingy but then regrets it" yk? with changbin please :(

i've been following u for a while now and i love your writing sm and i really find it very comforting.

ly bb ♡

You're Loved

Summary: In which sometimes words slip out without meaning, but he can always make it up in the end

Warning: Angst

She knew being an idol while dating an idol would be hard but if she had any idea that she would be so touch starved she probably would have second thought it all. Especially with a new comeback in the works for both of them, the two had gotten together right before his debut, being together for almost every milestone in each of their careers.

“All I’m saying is it’s both our day off and you’re here with the guys you see everyday and not spending time with me for the first time in months.” The woman said, feeling very disheartened by her boyfriend's notions.

“We never have down time together, we just wanted to relax!” Changbin argued, already irritable from the recent workload.

“Okay but you haven’t spent more than five minutes with me since you were sick a few months ago, and even then you were whining about the boys.” She snapped, throwing her hands up in exasperation, her boyfriend finally looking away from the game he was playing with the group who were now watching the argument in shock, they thought that she had been the one to cancel their plans for the night, that's what Changbin had told them.

“God if I knew you’d be this clingy I would’ve second thought all of this.”

The sentence elicited many gasps to erupt from the men, while the woman simply widened her eyes, scoffing out a laugh of disbelief. She took in the realization dawned on her boyfriend’s face before grabbing her keys, phone, wallet and jacket and walking out the door as quickly as possible. She could hear Changbin scuffling trying to get his things together to follow after her but she was quicker, ducking into an alley and waiting till he passed before making her way in the opposite direction of her home.

Knocking rapidly at the door before her fighting off the tears threatening to be released.

“Bug?” A voice cooed behind her, she spun turning to face Jimin who wass holding groceries in his hands, he quickly dropped them, embracing the distressed girl into his arms gently. He manouvered them into the apartment, nodding with his head for Yoongi, who had come to visit, to grab the groceries.

“What happened?” Jimin cooed, tightening his hold as he felt her losing her grasp on her emotions.

“It’s been months since we’ve spent time together, he just wanted to hang out with the boys.” She sobbed, feeling the months of emotional turmoil take its toll, “I don’t think he loves me anymore…” She finally said it, the sentence she had been thinking but refusing to say for months on end, hoping to deny it for as long as possible.

“Oh honey.” Yoongi cooed, pulling the two into a cuddle pile after setting the groceries in the kitchen.

“There is no way not to love you.” Jimin reassured, his statement only proved correct as 10 minutes later another round of rapid knocking erupted from the door.

“I know she’s here! Let me see her!” Changbin’s voice followed, both Yoongi and Jimin sat up away from the woman with warm smiles.

“You’re loved, and we could tell you all day but we aren’t the ones you need to hear it from. I can open the door, but if you don’t think you’re ready I’ll send him away.”

The choice was hers, she could fall back into the never ending cycle of feeling like she wasn’t good enough or she could open the door and hear the crying man out.

She stood from the couch moving to open the door, she leaned her head against it for a moment to regain her composure.

After one last breath she opened the door, facing her lover who had red rimmed eyes and his hair now dishevled.

“You didn’t go home, which I should’ve expected, you never go home when you’re upset. Jimin was your comfort person so I came here. I stood pacing for a while then I heard you say you thought I didn’t love you and oh my god how could I ever let you begin to think that. But then I started crying and I couldn’t come to you crying, you didn’t deserve that so-” He was silenced by his girlfriend holding her hand up to get him to take a breath between his rambling, “I just, I love you I do. I just got too comfortable and didn’t feel the need to keep trying because I thought I’d always have you, but after the words slipped out today I knew it would be so easy for you to leave me if I pushed you far enough, and I don’t want you far. I want you right here with me always.”

The woman teared up a bit as her boyfriend tried getting the proper words out, talking way too fast for anyone who didn’t know him to understand. She grabbed his hand gently and lifted his chin that was turned towards the floor so he’d face her.

“We both have a lot we need to work on, but for this to be worth it we both need to put the effort in. Always, not only when you feel like I’m slipping away. We need to always put effort into this relationship.” After receiving the fast nodding in response, she turned to her friends with a grateful smile, both of them moving to ruffle her hair before nudging her out the door with her boyfriend. “You’re loved.” being the last thing uttered between the group of four.

#straykids imagines #straykids fluff #stray kids #stray kids imagines #stray kids x reader #stray kids reactions #stray kids angst #seo changbin imagines #changbin imagines #changbin x reader #kpop imagines #kpop idol x reader #idol x reader #kpop #fanfic #kpop scenarioes #idol imagines

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chuuyrr · 2 years

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Hi, I really love your baby!fushiguro x bsd series!! I swear it’s really good and it‘s so good that I am requesting something (and I have never done that so i‘m sorry if what i‘m saying is not good) but anyways..

So I wanted to request a scenario with baby!fushiguro in bsd and reacting to dazai being shot or after he‘s been shot because idk after that happened i didn’t see anyone really caring about dazai i mean they were concerned but still and that made me kind of sad so yeah.

I think baby!fushiguro would be devastated when kunikida tells her the news about dazai in the hospital and what happened to him and I think she would visit him in the hospital then and bring him a gift or something and she‘d tell him that she‘s glad that he didn’t actually die yk… It’s kind of an angst to fluff.

I hope that this request is alright with you and thank you, if you write it!!

Keep up your great work<3

scarlet witch! baby fushiguro! reader finds out dazai got hurt

jujutsu kaisen x reader x bungou stray dogs

masterlist of the series

╰➤ CW(s): possible spoilers for bsd season 3 (cannibalism arc), mentions of suicide (dazai) and scarlet witch's powers

╰➤ PAIRING(s): platonic! bungou stray dogs x reader (dazai osamu, kunikida doppo, nakahara chuuya and etc.)

haven't written in a long while. finally got some free time after being busy and loaded with schoolwork and such! thank you so much for requesting dear anon. enjoy ♡

you had drifted away from your reality, the world of jujutsu kaisen, yet again, much to the dismay of gojo and the other jujutsu sorcerers, and entered your favorite universe of gifted mafiosi and detectives, but something was off.

if it's one thing about you being a witch, you were highly sensitive to energies. there was a feeling of dread in the air. you dashed into the armed detective agency's office and gasped when you discovered that everyone had gone missing.

"where is everyone?" you blinked, searching each area before coming to a standstill.

you closed your eyes and concentrated on your chaos magic. people in this world may not have cursed energy, but you can still feel their presence in some way. you furrowed your brows and twitched your fingers unconsciously.

they were inside a room in a building not far from the armed detective agency's office. you instantly used your reality warping abilities to reach them, vanishing into a red mist and reappearing.

you easily found atsushi, tanizaki, kyouka, ranpo, yosano, and kunikida, who were troubled and disheartened, as well as kenji. your presence, however, immediately alerted them and caused them to straighten up.

"everyone!" you exclaimed joyfully, sprinting up to atsushi, who was standing next to you, clinging to his pant leg.

"[name]-chan!" atsushi cried, evidently surprised to see you. "how did you get here?!"

"you shouldn't be here.." the silver-haired boy continued, muttering quietly as he looked at the others, who were staring at him and you with a sorrowful yet concerned expression.

"what do you mean?" you asked, tilting your head to look him in the eyes, "you guys weren't at the office, so i used my wiggly-woos magic."

"we have a bit.. of a situation right now, [name]," kunikida strained to explain, taking a step forward to join atsushi and yosano.

"is it work? then, i can help out!" you yelled, squeezing your fists after releasing atsushi's legs from your grip.

however, your gaze was drawn to the figure resting on the single bed inside the room, "huh? who's that?" at that, everyone jolted.

"n-no one! it's nothing!" tanizaki quickly blocked fukuzawa's vision as you tried to peer around kunikida and atsushi, to which yosano and ranpo slowly nodded at and shakily gave thumbs up.

everyone knew how much you loved your uncle fukuzawa just as much as you loved your dazai-nii, and not only would it be difficult to explain the situation they were in with the cannibalism virus and how the port mafia was also after them to you, but they also couldn't tell you how your uncle fukuzawa's life was at stake and that your chuuya-nii was most likely going to kill him along with his comrades.

however, everyone failed to stop you because you simply vanished and reappeared, your psionics subconsciously augmenting your speed to get to him.

"...uncle fukuzawa?" you muttered, eyes widening to see the silver-haired man laying in bed with his eyes closed, "why is he.. sleeping?"

after being elbowed by tanizaki, atsushi declared, quickly adding up the last part, "y-you see, uh, the president caught a virus—like a flu—i m-mean!"

"atsushi's right, [name]-chan! he's only a little sick right now, with uh, a fever, which is why he's on bed rest right now and sleeping!" tanizaki said next, a cracked smile on his face.

"and that's why we're trying not to get you too close to him right now. you could catch his fever," yosano added, gently picking you up and bringing you away from the sleeping fukuzawa, "and of course, we wouldn't want that, and neither does your uncle fukuzawa."

"oh, okay," you muttered sadly, wrapping your arms around yosano's neck and leaning over her shoulder to look at fukuzawa, "please get well soon, uncle fukuzawa."

you remained quiet for a brief moment until it hit you. someone was out of the picture.

"say, everyone's here with uncle fukuzawa, but where is dazai-nii?" you raised your brows, realizing and furrowing your brows as you drew yourself away from yosano, just enough to glance and everyone else, "he's not here."

"dazai's also hospitalized," kunikida somehow blurted out, prompting yosano and ranpo to give him a look he quickly regretted.

"what? what happened to dazai-nii?!" your eyes widened and blinked profusely at kunikida.

your worried expression deepened immediately. something was horribly wrong, and you could sense it, and you were beginning to take wind of it as you noticed dazai's absence.

"he just... he..." kunikida suddenly strained to compose words and was cut short by you.

"what happened to him?!" you exclaimed. your lips trembled as your [color] eyes glowed a red color for a single second.

kunikida took a deep breath, lowering his head and pinching the bridge of his nose before raising his head to face you, who was now unconsciously clenching yosano's collar. they had already lied about your uncle fukuzawa being affected by a mere virus that caused him to have a fever, so covering up dazai's genuine health would be difficult at this point.

"dazai got injured," kunikida explained, trying not to stiffen up too much in response to your already tensed reaction, "he got shot while trying to gather information. atsushi found him in an alleyway."

in a hushed whisper, you deduced, your eyes widening in comprehension, "so that's why he feels different, and that i was able to feel you guys first. dazai-nii feels a bit faint to me, and it's kind of like uncle fukuzawa's."

"look, i understand your concern, [name], but it's going to be okay. alright?" kunikida outstretched his hand towards you to ruffle your hair and comfort you, "just stay here."

"but dazai-nii!" you yelled out, disappearing into a red mist, only to emerge on the ground, just next to the door, having escaped yosano's grasp, "i have to go to him!"

"wait a minute, [name]! you can't go out!" kunikida said in a worry, already hearing tremors and booms from afar. the port mafia was already on its way, and if you left now, they may just take you, especially since one of the executives was nearby.

before they could catch you, you had already ran off, determined to reach dazai. you dashed through the corridor and took the stairs, where you encountered chuuya, gin, akutagawa, and other port mafia members who are about to head towards direction where you had just gone from.

"oi, chibi!" chuuya's eyes widened as he saw you fleeing in a panic and stepped in front of you, blocking your path, "what are you doing here?"

even though you adored your chuuya-nii, your dazai-nii was your top priority.

you subconsciously augmented your speed with your chaos magic, allowing you to easily go by him and make you walk fast in a blink of an eye, surprising the port mafia members. you then vanished into a red mist, entirely out of their sight.

"what was that?" higuchi blinked profusely.

"should we go after the kid? maybe we could use her to save the boss!" motojiro suggested with a grin, alreading taking out a lemon bomb.

"don't even think about it. leave the kid be." chuuya's gaze narrowed into a small glare, causing the young man to immediately shut up.

despite the fact that motojiro was correct about you, chuuya knew better. given your ability to bend rules and laws of physics and whatnot, you could possibly negate the virus infecting both organizations' bosses better compared to dazai's, but it wasn't right for him to actually harm or force you to do something like that.

he couldn't involve you in this predicament, and it seemed that the armed detective agency had done the same when they let you off the hook.

"we're not going after her. we're after the armed detective agency's boss. understand?" chuuya sighed sharply before adjusting his hat as they continued on their way to where the president and the rest of the armed detective agency members were.

back to you, you concentrated on your chaos magic once more, this time to track down dazai. you found out where he was and even got him a little something on the way, but you had to go through a nurse at the hospital who was astounded that her patient had a "sibling."

anyway, it was a good thing you were able to convince her. because if you hadn't, you might have used your red psionics on her to force her to bring you to dazai, which wouldn't have been a good idea given how intense your mental manipulation can be.

"dazai-sama! you have a visitor!" said the nurse as she knocked on the door, turning the knob open and entered while holding your hand.

as soon as you saw the familiar brunet that was covered in bandages, you instantly broke yourself from the nurse's grip and went towards dazai, who was dressed in a hospital gown and sitting up straight in bed, on the phone.

"dazai-nii!" you immediately burst into joy.

the brunet's eyes widened in surprise as his gaze darted towards you, "[name]-chan?!"

you immediately climbed on his bed without giving him a time to respond and practically jumped on him, earning a small "oof" from dazai himself and a surprised gasp from the nurse.

"oh my, ojou-chan, don't do that! he's still injured!" cried the nurse, trotting towards you to get you but was stopped by dazai, who raised a hand to stop her while holding you close to him.

"it's okay," dazai managed out as he held you close to him, "see? i told you it was a life or death situation. my younger sibling ran away from home looking for me. it's a good thing she made it here all on her own." he lied easily.

you were finally alone with dazai after shooing away the nurse with his sweet talk and deceit and dismissing himself from his phone. "what are you doing here, huh? how did you get here, [name]-chan?" dazai chuckled again, drawing you away just enough to face you.

"uncle kunikida said you got hurt." you explained in a mutter, frowning, "you weren't with the others back at uncle fukuzawa's room."

"you.. you went there?" dazai's eyes widened.

you nodded, "mhm, they said uncle fukuzawa caught a virus that made him get a fever, and then uncle kunikida told me you got shot."

as he placed you on his lap, dazai promptly patted you all over for any injuries, knowing full well the situation between the armed detective agency and the port mafia, "fuck! did you get hurt? are you hurt anywhere, [name]-chan?"

"no, i'm not," you responded, perplexed as to why he was reacting in this manner, "i should be the one worrying! you're the one that got hurt."

"i'm alright, [name]-chan," dazai sighed in relief, his lips curving into a smile as he cupped your face in his much larger palm, "you safety matters more than mine, okay?"

you found yourself with your head hanging low as you clutched the small package in your hands. dazai's brow furrowed in worry as he watched your lips and hands tremble.

"hey, now. what's wrong, [name]-chan?" dazai asked in a worry with his heart breaking at your sad expression.

"i'm just glad you're okay.." with that, tears filled the brim of your eyes and streamed down your face, "i was really worried about you dazai-nii."

"oh, you poor sweet thing. come here," dazai pulled you back to his embrace, letting you cry as he cradled you in his arms with care, "i'm okay, [name]-chan. i really am. i promise."

dazai then reached a hand towards your face, gently wiping away your tears with his thumb as you sniffled, "shh, there's no need for tears."

you whimpered out as you clung onto him desperately, "i don't want you to die, dazai-nii."

for a split second, dazai's eyes widened at you as he swallowed the lump that had developed on his throat. never before had he had someone cry tears for him, let alone care for him in this way. his words on life and suicide were frequently dismissed by the others, but more importantly, how could he promise something like that?

death was and will always be welcomed with open arms by dazai. it was something he desired more than ever before, but why is it that when you're around, or when he sees you, dying becomes the last thing he wants?

"please don't go." you cried once more, sniffling.

as dazai cradled you, he glanced down at you and gently patted your back. he couldn't leave you. he couldn't make you sad. how could dazai possibly turn down someone like you either? you were someone he saw and cherished family; a little sister; a niece he loved spoiling.

with that, dazai then started to wipe the fresh, hot tears that were welling up in your eyes.

"i'm not going anywhere, okay?" dazai's lips curved into a soft smile, "so, please stop crying. you cry like you're on the big screen, my sweet little belladonna—it's breaking my heart."

you were no longer a crying mess after dazai calmed you down, and you were now leaning on him with the gift you had gotten him. he had also finished wiping away your tears and combing your hair with his fingers after it had become disheveled.

"say, what's that little thing you got me anyway?" dazai asked softly, his gaze drawn to the small present you had nearly forgotten, also to distract you and keep you from crying any further.

"it's for you. i got it while on my way here." you exclaimed, opening the small gift you held in your hands, which dazai's eyes widened somewhat at, "i got you crab omelette over rice."

dazai glanced at you, surprised, as you opened the styrofoam bowl containing the aforementioned food and took out a plastic spoon, "how did you know i like crab?"

"i read your mind once, although i didn't mean to...," you fiddled with the spoon as you hung your head timidly, "it was when we were eating omurice together. you were thinking of crabs."

dazai couldn't help but smile at you. you even remembered the smallest of details about him?

"thank you, [name]-chan." dazai gently took the crab omelette over rice you got him along with the plastic spoon, "this should make me feel better in no time! i'm sure of it!"

dazai's phone rang not long after you let him eat the gift you got him. the sun was setting at this time, and he was on the phone with someone about your uncle fukuzawa, and well, about this seemingly important man named natsume soseki, who is a legendary gifted and the backer of the armed detective agency.

you were sitting by dazai's side on bed, making red vapor like hues using your fingertips, when the two of you saw a cat outside the window. it was, in fact, a small calico cat. it had white, brown, and orange fur and, for some reason, a little fish in its mouth. a dried sardine which dazai pointed out as he took the phone away from his ear.

"it's a kitty!" you exclaimed happily.

"[name]-chan, wait!" dazai called out, but you had already hurried to the window. you eagerly opened the window and couldn't help but smile and giggle as the cat leaned in and rubbed its head against your face affectionately.

"it's a friendly kitty, dazai-nii!" you giggled, petting the calico cat in return, "look!"

you put the cat in your arms, and as it meowed, your eyes widened, prompting dazai to gaze at you with concern. the cat's eyes were fixed on your [color] eyes as you stopped petting it.

'give the flashdrive to him, little one. it's in the sardine i'm carrying in my mouth.'

it was a man's voice inside your head.

the cat seemed to know you could read minds, but that was the least of your worries right now.

"what's wrong, [name]-chan?" dazai asked, about to get out of bed when you gently took the dried sardine from the cat and walked towards him to hand it over, as instructed.

"i think kitty wants you have this, dazai-nii."

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parachutingkitten · 14 days

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Forgive me for like yapping at you for a while this is gonna be a long one, and I totally get if you don't respond to this at all and just delete it from your inbox it's just something that has been bothering me sooo much

And before I start I want to clarify this is not hate! I'm just intending to like. Discuss yk?

So in your video analysis of female characters in ninjago I was quite excited to get to the bit about Harumi because she's a really interesting character and absolutely one of my favorites. But when I did it was like you missed every major aspect of her character and motivations and it was especially disappointing because like. The video was worded to accomodate new/non-fans who don't know about these characters! And it's disheartening when a character is completely misunderstood especially in a video where the point is to explain these characters and how they are often misunderstood or poorly represented by the writers

I think you were really hung up on the idea that Harumi had any good motivations for what she was doing which is just. Not true. Harumi never wanted to help people who had similar situations to her. The whole point of her character is that she's held onto her anger and hatred to the point it's all that drives her, which is what makes her death so impactful- It's the moment she sees the error of her ways and the fact that she's only perpetrated the same cycle that hurt her.

You brought up the fact that it didn't make sense for her feeding the poor to be an act. But it does if you think about the rest of the context of the scene. I know it's easy to miss things when you're trying to get all the information together for a video like that so I totally don't blame you for this one, but Lloyd brings up the fact that her room seemed ransacked and her window was blown open. The intent there on Harumi's part was to get him to follow her so he'd see her doing something "good" that'd throw him off her trail. This is something she does OFTEN. Like when the ninja are discussing who the quiet one could be or when Lloyd is shocked by her ability to throw the machete.

Harumi, in the oni trilogy at least is consistent with her motives. They screwed her up real bad in crystalized, but in the Oni trilogy the point of her character was that her worldview was fucked up and she didn't care who she hurt until she realized that she was being no better than the people who hurt her.

I think since there is such a drastic tonal shift when we get to the Oni trilogy, you were probably unintentionally looking at it through the same lense as the rest of the series where the themes and such are very surface-level and spelled out easily so again I don't like hate you for not understanding her motives or hell even falling for the manipulation tactics she employed that the viewer was supposed to look a little more into but I needed to like ramble about it SORRY this ended up much longer than I intended ^^; don't feel pressured to respond or anything

OoOOOooo! I usually answer my asks in order, but this one is real tempting right now, so I absolutely will respond. And before we get into everything, I want to extend you the same exact courtesy you did me. I'm just here to discuss. Absolutely zero hard feelings or hate.

First off, I think that is a great, and perfectly valid interpretation. Have fun with it. It's certainly a little more cohesive than what I got out of the season. I do, however, think you underestimate how much thought went into my video. As a bit of behind the scenes, Harumi was absolutely the piece of the script I was most paranoid about missing something for, because I don't have the same love for the character as most of the fandom, so I was thinking about her characterization a lot. Unfortunately, I have in fact considered all the pieces you have presented here. I just don't think those pieces actually fit together so neatly as presented in the show.

Specifically, I think it's very clear that we are supposed to have some amount of agreement with/sympathy for Harumi. Her backstory in flashback is supposed to be very heart wrenching. We see her child self go numb at the end, not angry, it's not trying to show us the start to a hardening progression, it's showing us harumi, currently angry at what happened to the little girl she used to be. If she were supposed to be a pure evil villain like Aspheera who's just evil because she is, whose justifications don't really line up, they would not have tried so hard to make us cry about her past. The backstory is structured so that it seems to give her a proper motive. She outright states her motive in her villain reveal monologue. If the point was to highlight how far from those original motivations she has strayed, it should have, I don't know, been highlighted in narrative? Have people bring it up? Have people try and appeal to her supposed motivation, have it not work, and then realize how far she's gone?

Harumi going to feed the poor was a move to throw Lloyd off the scent? What kind of 4d chess is she playing? She's got to assume lloyd will come look for her after happening to see a trashed room in a very narrow timeframe, follow her, and then talk with her while feeding children, all so that he... trusts her? After he already very clearly trusts her? All the other examples you bring up are harumi misdirecting attention after they start to catch on to her with minimal logistical effort. This is not that. Feeding the poor would be an insane preventative measure to take with a ton of extra complicated steps, that ultimately doesn't even gain her any new advantages. At that point, it's just bad writing. And if this was supposed to be an example of how she's betraying the motives she claims to be fighting for, again, it should have been highlighted in the narrative. As we have it, it's only brought up as an example of how manipulable the ninja are, not how far she's strayed from her purpose.

Now, is what your trying to say here what they intended to portray? Very likely. That's what the best written version of this character looks like. It's the only way her arc in the oni trilogy makes sense. Which, I do praise once I get to my season 9 bit. I talk about the cycle of hurt, and how good her death is, on multiple levels, and I end with an overall positive outlook on the character as flawed but ultimately impactful until we get to crystalized. But again, that is not what actually got portrayed to us in season 8. Do not give the writers credit for dots that you were able to shuffle around into making sense. I think I make it pretty clear that I understand Harumi isn't supposed to have a reasonable motive in the review. My confusion is at the narrative dissonance this reveal has when we get to it, because of the hints that tell the audience to relate to Harumi as a villain. The backstory, the attempt at a logical motive, and the girl boss feminism twist all point us in the direction of there being something she's actually fighting for. I think they did a bad job at portraying the ideas they wanted to get across, and my goal in the review is to highlight where those dissonances are, because the writing on her character to portray these ideas wasn't done correctly.

That, on top of the basic factual timeline errors in her backstory and logistics around her plan just push my perspective over the edge for me. I wasn't blind to the points your making here, I was intentionally de-emphasizing them to bring attention to the poor writing that tried to show us those elements. My thesis is that harumi was underthought, and I stand by that thesis. I have yet to come across an argument that has convinced me otherwise, though I don't discount that there may yet be one out there.

But even if you do read my analysis as a shallow first time viewer's perspective on things(which again, I assure you it isn't), if the point the writers were trying to get across doesn't translate to a first time viewer, isn't that a problem?

If it makes you feel any better though, one of the top comments under the video is a thread of people trying to explain their interpretations of how harumi's character makes sense, so there is discussion being had about this stuff.

#long post #holy cow #we both be yappin #it's great #asks #thanks anon!#harumi #harumi critical #parachuterants #ns8 #sons of garmadon #ninjago

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theladyofbloodshed · 1 year

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yk i can’t even blame you for wanting to leave the acotar fandom and stop writing fics for it. everyone knows that the characters that aren’t the inner circle will never get the same justice for their stories that the ic got. it’s honestly really sad. i’ve seen this happen with another fandom that i was a part of, and it honestly sucks. it’s hard to be fans of those stories because it feels draining sometimes.

That's my big issue I think. Creators put so much thought into their fics/art and do so much more world building than the actual writer and I would rather put that effort into my stories. I started prioritising fics over my original work because I was so disheartened and upset on Nesta's behalf. No matter how many fix-it fics I write, how many happy endings I give Nesta or Lucien, it will never be canon. My favourite character will always be miserable and believe she has to earn love. The messages in the books are canon; the message that if you're depressed, you just need to try a bit harder and a man (who you don't deserve) will magically make it better is the message in all of her books. It just puts me off. It's nothing against the people within the fandom as I've met some great friends and I've loved seeing the art. I love when anybody is passionate about something. I am just disillusioned with books and a writer that are lauded as the bread and butter of fantasy romance when actually the world building is atrocious, the characters have no development or variance, and the messages are vile. :(

#asks

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finniestoncrane · 2 years

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The riddlers w a s/o that visibly grows extra n dark body hair n refuses to shave bcuz yk shaving sucks🤭

Body Hair

Riddler Headcanons hey this is uh super project-y of me because i love thick, dark body hair omg, the guys, gals and nonbinary pals serving it make me drool and so guess who else loves it in my stinky little mind >:) request info • prompt list • send me a request • kofi minors DNI!! 🔞 cw for nsfw stuff: suggestive language, body appreciation

unburied

definitely into it like a lot a lot

makes you look strangely tough

maybe it's the stereotypical association with the masculinity

but he would be ok if you wanted to try and lift him

and carry him to the bedroom

and have your way with him

telltale

hey, call him old fashioned all you want but he prefers a natural body and natural body hair

i mean he spent a lot of his teenage years looking at porno mags

and in his day, it was armpit hair and bush for days

so it makes him nostalgic for a body that's fuzzy

makes him feel young and virile again

gotham

an impressive feat, especially to him

puberty didn't hit him as hard as it could

it delivered the height but it fell behind on body hair

he can't even grow a little moustache

so please could he gently touch yours because the tingle is nice

arkham

he loves body hair, as is obvious from his display of his own

especially on arms and legs

something about it drives him wild, almost animalistic

then again he's used to rougher textures

so wired hair against his fingertips is preferable to smooth skin

twojar

ok so one of you has to have some modicum of body hair

and it's not him

he's shaved smooth, completely

it started with the chest so you could see his scar better

but he just kept going

and now he misses the feeling of it, so your body hair is his body hair now thanks

dano

a body is a body, he's in this for the soul mate connection

so don't be disheartened by the fact he never comments on it

or any part of your body

it's just a vessel that happens to contains the stuff about you that he really loves

your heart and your soul and your willingness to be with him

capullo

the only body hair allowed is on his face and on his chest

why anyone else would need any when he's already owning the game is beyond him

but he could admit that you look hot regardless

and maybe your chest hair against his chest hair does feel nice

but he has the most (it just doesn't look like it because it's red)

young justice

hey you guys could have matching facial hair

but as long as yours wasn't cooler or thicker than his

that might crush his little ego

to be honest he could take it or leave it

as long as you're willing to let him touch you

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iztea · 3 months

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I live in Egypt and with escalating conflicts in Africa and the middle east people keep bringing up the prophecies about the "Great battle" well I'm not well informed about the religious part but this could turn into a global conflict and yk ww3 breaks out , it's not like anyone want a global conflict but the thing is it breaks out anyway

So was doing my daydreaming things and thought this couldn't be so bad maybe i could finally meet my online friends (in shelters) but damn I won't be able meet iztea 😔

Joking hope things resolve soon

please stay safe anon..

i wish i could say something that would make things better, but we are really truly powerless when it comes to such big scale events besides just spreading awareness which is incredibly disheartening so i pray you'll meet your online friends in much safer and better circumstances

#god i'm really sorry

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girlreblogger · 10 months

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honestly i don’t understand how ppl get mad because others don’t wanna read no traumatic, struggle love, lowkey violent, cheating, smut galore toxic shit. the amount of thug, plug/drugdealer, bum!, straight up scary, PRISONER (which is crazy yall romanticizing mfs getting outta/being in jail??) black reader fics (from all kinds of fandoms btw) is actually concerning.. like frfr let’s be honest with ourselves cause the things i’ve seen on here has truly been interesting. (thanks to the ppl who’ll put warning tags tho ig) and ofc ima eat up some of them fics cause they be good sometimes but also that’s all i be seeing. i truly wanna read sumn cute and sweet that don’t leave a bad taste in my mouth like i don’t wanna read the fic and then be pissed off after. obvi we all can just scroll and not read what we don’t want which (if you harassing ppl for what they write it’s never that deep… be fucking fr. write something in your notes to fulfill you or sumn until you find something. don’t use that as a reason to spread negativity) and ik a lot of ppl get at blk writers abt how yn talk which (???) idc cause i talk the same so we’re not talking abt that. also i gotta say sometimes the drug dealer fics be treating yn like a princess (which 🫶🏽) but that’s every now and then when it’s not toxic or drugs, extremely excessive smut and cheating isn’t involved. ofc ofc write what you want but pls bffr and don’t act like them characters don’t be putting yn through some bullshit. yeah tension and stuff is cute cause yk you don’t want it to be boringg but toxicity and attractive tension isn’t the same. there’s sooo many ways of going abt getting that tension. and so many other blk girls say the same and it’s just can we get something positive please. and that legit can just be maybe possibly no aggressive smut.. or a annoying situationship, or all the other lowkey scary shit i be seeing. it’s disheartening to wanna read something abt blk girls and your fav that’ll have your feet kicking up and stuff and then getting pissed off cause your fav character just manipyadipped and cheated on yn or sumn. i’ll keep writing self indulgent fluff in my notes app tho until then. (and if you want to read something positive write something for yourself then too if youn wanna post it or be a writer but PLEASE reblog ppls stuff when you not at least) and not to mentionnnnnn all the fluff on here that is for black readers we barelyy find like you can type “x black reader fluff” and barely any will pop up honestly. which some ppl don’t want certain ppl interacting with their stuff and some ppl don’t gaf abt fluff at all so that writer gets no interactions (or half as much of what they would get on something with smut or etc) and it discourages them from writing it more and it’s also harder for ppl to find what they did write. so even if you don’t care for it at least reblog or sumn pleasee to support the writers. i really appreciate all the blk writers or their works that don’t get enough attention. that’s why i post fluff or just more positive fics for the blk girls who are tryna find them. i’ll def make a list of writers that i like as well. if you want sweet rainbow glitter blk reader fics you gotta do sumn in return too dont just read and do a lil scroll nawl you can make a lil side blog and reblog stuff. mfs have lives tho ian reblogging every sec in general tho i feel like blk writers don’t get enough attention and exposure sometimes but that’s… another thing .. anyway dont stop writing what you want but idk dont act funny or be rude when someone don’t want to consume the same shit as you alllllll the time. i just felt like saying this cause i legit can’t go on here no more and find something that’s not toxic. when i heard ppl saying this i thought they was just talking to talk but nawll. anyways i wanted to say that bye.

#black reader #x black fem reader #black fanfiction #x black reader #black writers #anime x black!reader #i sound like i have an attitude but i promise i don’t #i say which a lot but wtv #if you don’t agree or gaf scroll tho

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