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amourdeleon07 · 4 months

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"What did I do wrong?" - A flash fiction

Two posts in a row?!?!?!? I'm pretty sure I'll be posting daily for a week and then ghost Tumblr until I have a new one finished because I already have a bit in store but I'm having author's block atm!! I hope you'll enjoy this just as much as my first one, and if you haven't seen it then go check it out!!!

Warning: MENTIONS OF ATTEMPTED SUICIDE AND SELF-HARM. VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!!!

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How many hours has it been? How many hours have passed ever since I've promised myself the slumber I crave and longed for?

This is the umpteenth time where I sit at the edge of my bed, staring into nothingness as I drown in my thoughts. Ever since ‘that’ happened, I have been having trouble sleeping, 'I probably have insomnia' I chuckled to myself. The silence is deafening in my ears but it comforts me as I battle my own thoughts.

Where did I go wrong? Why did that happen? Could I have been better? WHY didn't I expect THAT? WHY didn't I CONTROL IT? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?

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‘Calm down, please.' How pathetic, I'm begging myself to calm down? Unbelievable. I bit my tongue, stopping the tears in my eyes before it fell.

Gosh, it really is something else when you're forcing yourself not to cry, telling yourself that everything is okay when it isn't. This has to be one of the worst feelings mankind has to go through.

Can this please stop? I don't want this to continue anymore. I want to sleep, I'm tired but I'm wide awake, I don't feel like sleeping but I know I need it. But…

How do I even stop my own thoughts? How do I stop ‘that’ from playing in my head over and over and over again?

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I have to stop myself from doing that, don't I? So, how do I stop myself?

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What if I grab something sharp and...

“stop” myself?...

Oh, my wrists look really pretty right now. It could use a few slits to make it even prettier, watching the blood seep through the open wound and drop unto the cold hard floor and…

No.

What am I doing? Thinking of ending my life because of a minor inconvenience?

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I really need to stop, but this isn't the first time I've had thoughts like these or had similar situations like this. This isn't the first I've thought about cutting myself open and leaving myself to bleed. This certainly is the first time I stopped myself from doing so. New Achievement Unlocked!

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Why am I like this? Is this why ‘that’ happened? I wouldn't be surprised if this is why that happened.

Sighing to myself, I got up and went to grab a glass of water, quenching my thirst. Placing the glass on top of the coaster, I once again stare into the abyss.

What am I doing with my life? I'm a failure, aren't I? Will I ever do anything right? Will I ever make myself proud? Will I ever make ‘them’ proud?

Thinking about all of this makes my head throb. Pinching the bridge of my nose, I exhale deeply, trying to collect myself.

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I can’t sleep like this. I feel restless. I want to sleep, I know I need sleep, but I just can’t. So do I just sit here and suffer alone with thousands of thoughts running through my head every second?

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How many times do I have to spend my night like this? How many times do I have the same conversation with myself? I can’t let this continue.

Something has to change. I have to change for the better.

It has to.

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I'll be posting another one tomorrow!!! Stay tuned!!

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envelopandkissme · 9 months

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this fucks

#i wish i could turn off the replies of this post now 😭#men are so insecure #you’d think barbie herself called to kill all the kens #barbie movie #barbie #barbie review #1k #10k #20k #30k #40k #50k #60k #70k #80k

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mr-malumm · 2 months

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Stayed gone but vox narrates his passive aggressive insecure ass scrolling text from the bottom of his broadcast 👊💥📺

#plus what definitely canonically happened when this very important breaking news interrupted tv #are we sure this guy is allowed to be an overlord #imagining the audience just trying to enjoy their shows and then BOOM TV MAN AND HIS GAY INSECURITIES #your pitch crush is showing #radiostatic #i fell for the fucking tv #vox #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin hotel #hazbin art #hazbin alastor #hazbin vox #alastor #katie killjoy #my art

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just-a-blog-for-polls · 3 months

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Edit: sensory issues can be counted under "otherwise medically unable to" if you feel that to be appropriate

#plz reblog #polls #makeup #looks #beauty #attractiveness #self expression #self image #insecurity #10k #20k

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black-quadrant · 6 months

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y’all remind yourselves your account is your space. you’re not a performance. you’re not annoying by being yourself. if people aren’t into it they can leave. you’re not obligated to please anyone, especially at the cost of your personal expression. the worst thing you can do for your online enjoyment is to filter or censor yourself.

#I’ve gotten increasingly fed up with ppl calling others annoying #who they fucking follow like? bro no one’s subjecting you to anything online but you #quit making other ppl feel anxious and insecure and bounce

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theshadowrealmitself · 6 months

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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’#who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field?#like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it.#it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks.#that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀)#liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

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batboyblog · 11 months

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Both Parties are not the same.

#Republicans #Democrats #School #school lunch #poverty #food insecurity #politics

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socialistexan · 1 year

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Hey all my food insecure and tight budget folks out there, Wendy's will be doing 1 CENT hamburgers May 26th through June 1st!

#obviously not just for food insecure and poor people but i feel like people need every break they can get

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seagiri · 2 months

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the guy

#my art #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #chilchuck tims #sorry for posting like 5 drawings with completely different art styles im insecure #i feel like ive drawn him naked way too many times he looks weird to me now

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heliianth · 4 months

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i know what this show is about 👍👍👍

#probably the last time ur gonna see mlb art from me im too insecure abt the way i draw humans now after spending a year in sonicsville >:/#mlb #heliiart #miraculous ladybug #ladynoir

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egophiliac · 6 days

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Wait, did you put a photo of Vil and Neige as kids in Eric’s office??

oh good, I was afraid that wasn't going to read properly and people would just be like "what is this supposed to be". :') but yeah! I like to think Eric was pretty fond of Neige as a kid! single dad sees orphan child approximately the same age as his own son and goes "hmm. okay, you guys are going to be friends now." (this did not go as well as he'd hoped.)

(also I do love how it's kind of a running joke that everyone loves Neige except for Vil, who's standing over in the corner and just seething with furious irrational hatred. someday maybe he'll find someone who doesn't think Neige is the best thing since cinnamon rolls.)

#art #twisted wonderland #vil: am i massively projecting my own hangups and insecurities onto someone who i would otherwise find only mildly annoying #vil: no it must be neige who is wrong #idk i just like neige a lot! he's sweet and i find him fascinating honestly #there's ONE offhanded comment about how oh yeah he's been orphaned since a young age and just never talks about it #he lives with a bunch of dwarves and cooks and cleans for them and this has been going on since he was like eight #like. hello?!#there's a whole backstory here that we're never going to get more than this single crumb of and frankly that makes it better #man if i had a nickel for every fandom about fairytale characters in high school #where i instantly fell in love with the snow white character #i'd have two nickels et cetera you know the rest

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tulliok · 20 days

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Tiny….

#artists on tumblr #doodle #grand galloping 20s au #mlp fim #trixie lulamoon #starlight glimmer #sunburst #i feel like trixie would be like a chihuahua that gets rowdy insecure around bigger dogs

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pandadrake · 16 days

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Shots fired by the Spider-man sequels.

Was ruminating on how Miles and Miguel are technically both 'Spider-man 2' in their respective universes. Got me thinking about the other Spider-successors in the cast, and also what if they all got matching T-shirts or something.

#Bringing back Peter’s ITSV insecurity from his mid-life spider-crisis to document his hard swerve into “dad & mentor” in real time #Miles is wearing a variation of the Hobie watch because I cant see post-ATSV Miles wearing a watch with Miguel's parental controls on it #Miguel is reading the instructions for assembling a couch from IKEA 2099 #he has to build a new one for the breakroom b/c the last one died to T-rex butt #Basically I had an idea that involved learning how to draw Ben Reilly and jumped on it. His comic inking look is weirdly nostalgic for me.#my art #miles morales #ben reilly #miguel o'hara #mayday parker #scarlet spider #ultimate spider man #spider man 2099 #spider girl #spider man #peter b parker #peter parker #across the spiderverse #atsv #may parker #into the spiderverse #atsv fanart #spider man: across the spider verse #miles morales prowler #prowler miles #miles 42 #the cooler spider man #the cooler miles #that's not a bit he's just legitimately the cooler Miles #spider-man

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nonasemporium · 3 months

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Gideon would not be some suave fuckboy picking up chicks like skittles and somehow having Harrow as the person that settles her--Gideon has been starving for home and belonging since before she was born, Gideon doesn't know how to interact with strangers even if she barks out something aggressive or recites some line she's read, Gideon nearly blacks out when a girl she finds pretty implies the most minuscule of interest in her.

Gideon is also, without question, submissive when it comes to her relationships, and while she spits like a startled cat at Harrow (rightfully so, I will point out, as their relationship before Canaan House was violent and cruel and oppressive), she responds immediately and desperately to even the faintest taste of approval.

Even when we're in her head, even when we see her make some brazen statement or thought, even when she lashes out and tries to be bigger and bolder than she feels, we still see how awkward she is. She's an unsocialized teenager without peers. She's an absolute mess with no experience. She's the isolated teen who learned everything from material marked as too explicit for her a bit too young and took the scripts of them and then nearly choked on the reality of talking to a pretty girl who wasn't beating the shit out of her in a circumstance she could rightfully resent.

She sat there wanting Harrow to kiss her so bad, Nona dipped down to offer her relief that fell hollow as soon as Gideon knew it wasn't from her morbid mistress of bones. She's a performative little shit. An anxious, floundering, helpless butch who is quite literally dying to have someone use her, want her, and who doesn't know what to do with it other than artlessly throw up her feathers.

#now HARROW #what holds Harrow back is being an incredibly repressed nun who needs to feel 'inspired' in some way to act #but she WILL act #and I don't even think she questions it a lot #she's had people hyping her up her whole life and I think her confusion with romance is less about feeling insecure #and more about feeling undeserving due to the nature of what she has cost and what her responsibilities are #gideon nav #tlt

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rustytubas · 1 month

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Arise, Bloodpact nation; I bring forth an offering

Though tbh this is not very accurate to the characters. I don’t think Astarion would doubt even for a second if Wyll would reject Halsin or not. I mean it’s Wyll we’re talking about here. However, in my Wyll playthrough; after Halsin’s proposition and asking Astarion for his thoughts, I couldn’t help but pick up a hint of insecurity despite him giving his permission (i rejected Halsin regardless). Thus this comic appeared before me.

On a separate note, id like to shout out my friend who I’ve been slowly converting into a wyllstarion shipper and who also hates halsin

#wyllstarion #bloodpact #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 fancomic #i like my men a little pathetic and insecure #bg3 comic #wyll x astarion #astarion #wyll ravengard #baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #fan comic #baldur's gate iii #halsin is there i suppose #halsin

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kandavers · 8 months

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Aleisha wanted to see him in a Suit. So...

Reboot AU by: @bloodrediscream

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