this has been a difficult, awful week only for it to end friday at 3pm with an invitation to interview for a management position next week.

So, i've been gone for quite sometime. And alot has happened, it being me becoming director of respiratory at my facility, hating every minute of it, stepping down after 5 months, and picking up a full time job at a former facility. There were quite a few things that made me step down- actually alot of things:

1. Short staffing

The issue with short staffing and trying to approve peoples vacation times was a nightmare. I catered to these people thinking yeah its gonna be fine. Ill figure something out. Then when i get call ins, no one is willing to work. Im not about to run 20 hours working at this place when 8 hours is already dreadful. And guess what, i still did it. I tried. But the consistency of how bad no one wanted to work was more than enough of a problem for me to step down. And i low key hated people to begin with and it didnt make the job any easier.

2. Supply shortage

This was probably the worst one. Id do my daily tuesday routines of ordering supplies, and yet i seem to never get the main supplies i need. Trachs. Bacteria filters for suction machines. Pulse oximeter probes and cables. And its out of my control. I get it. Ever since covid cane around it hasnt been any easier for anyone. But again, being blamed for something i cant control was already daunting and i hated

3. Inheriting a staff i've worked with for 7 years

It sucked. They know my work ethic. And they see me as one of them. Not as a supervisor. Only when they need my signature to sign off on their overtime. Or their vacations. Or their bullshit sick days. And when i needed the help only a few were able to pull through. The fact that im somewhat salty about this whole situation makes me think: what could i have done differently? Why dont they look at me as someone who can take over a department? But then again. It is what it is. The lack of respect was already more than enough for me to leave. Aside from that, another guy who didnt even work more than 8 days a month became the director and they seem to give him more respect than me. But, like i said i could of done things differently, but i wouldnt know what to do anyways ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

4. Taking work home

This was one thing i told myself- never take work home. Thats what i did. I took work home. I think about when the next time im gonna have to come in to cover a shift, why no one responds to my group me texts, or whatever shit that i needed to come in for. The stress and anxiety of coming home really fucked up my sleep. So bad to the point where id stay up super late just to enjoy what little time i had to myself. Thats bad on my part and probably affected me to the point where i dreaded work.

BUT

Ill admit, i low key miss goin to work whenever i want, but i dont miss goin to work when i shouldnt even be there. The amount of stress that has been lifted from my shoulders is so nice, i forgot how it was to just go to work, get things done, and leave with no worry about anything more or less. Im pretty content with what happened, how i did, and i appreciate the few support of people who really had my back. Funny thing is, they didnt even decrease my pay rate, so although i stepped down as director, im still getting director pay! I guess if theres a way to cheat the system, that was definitely it.

So, in hindsight, Im on call / per diem at my old facility, and got hired as full time at.. another old facility. BUT my pay has definitely increased in both places. Ever since i left, everything has looked alot brighter. i bought a new car, im back to working noc shift again, im happier as a whole, and i just think everything that ive dealt with was a lesson and that not all things at the top is so mint. The new guys i met at work seem pretty chill, and we have a few hobbies that we have in common so it was really easy to get a long with them. Plus i think this whole subacute dept as a whole is just good for myself and patient care. Its really nice to be able to go back to work and feel like im making a difference with what i do. I couldnt help but feel useless as a director. I guess one of the perks is the amount of overtime im gettin here, it is so absurd that im probably gonna be making more than my other places i worked at. Anyways, im happy and thats all that really matters. Ill probably post some pics of my new whip soon, just gotta find the time to take some decent pics. Hope you guys have been well, and this was just me ranting.

I’m looking for fanfics where Peter is Tony’s biological child and he goes missing/gets kidnapped as a young child. He is raised by someone else and doesn’t know he’s Tony’s son. I’ve already read Lost Boy and Things I Almost Remember on archive of our own and I wanted to find stories with a similar plot.

WHEW! It’s kind of a long list, but we did our best finding several fics that feature both BioDad!Tony and Peter being kidnapped at a very young age. ENJOY!!

PETER IS TONY’S SON BUT THEY WERE SEPARATED WHEN PETER WAS A CHILD REC LIST

Lost Boy by winterda

Isaac Stark disappeared from a crowded park a few months shy of his third birthday. There were never any signs of him, and no arrest were ever made in connection to the case. It was as if the toddler had simply vanished off the face of the earth. Twelve years later, Peter Parker has a really bad day, which only get worse when his prints are put through the system.

Things I Almost Remember by IcedAquarius @icedaquarius31​

Peter's past is not as it appears. It all starts one day with a genetics project and slowly spirals into something Peter never could have imagined.

hydra's not a home by tempestaurora @tempestaurora​

At 6 years old, the son of Tony and Pepper Stark, Peter, is kidnapped, never to be seen again. Or, so they thought. Ten years later, while raiding a HYDRA base, the Avengers come across a new, enhanced individual, working for the enemy: in black spandex, with a tendency to stick to walls and shoot webs from his wrists, the Black Spider is a pain in the ass in more ways than one.

If They Knew All About You by MsHermia

Tony Stark had lost his son when he was only 2 years old, stolen away in broad daylight with nobody the wiser of what exactly happened. Years later, Tony has just made it through the disaster with Ultron. He is trying to keep himself and the team together but relationships are strained and tempers are running high. Then a random turn of events leads to his path crossing with that of a particular vigilante. They are strangers to each other, or so they think.

Peter Parker is on top of the world. After a few shitty years, losing his parents and then losing his Uncle, things are finally looking up. Sure he lives in a crappy little apartment with his Aunt but he might have just found his mission in life.

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This is an AU story obvious by some of the tags. I'm starting out a few weeks after Age of Ultron took place. Civil War will be a thing. Other than that I'm not too concerned about sticking to every canon detail and storyline.

Finding Their Way Home by ElliahRose

Peter Benjamin-Edward Stark went missing on a Tuesday. For months the entirety of the New York police department, as well as anyone else the Starks could convince to join, searched for the tot. He was only three when he was taken and for four months, two weeks, and four days, Tony Stark and Pepper Stark (nee Potts) worried and fretted over their beloved child.

Peter Benjamin-Edward Stark was murdered on a Friday. A ransom call gone wrong spelt the end of the child’s life. The world grieved as the kidnappers gleefully told the devastated parents they’d find his body in the morning.

They never did.

Twelve years passed and the family was still grieving, and Tony Stark worked tirelessly to find his only child’s killer and gain justice for his son.

Meanwhile Peter Parker was having literally the worst day ever. He just wanted to help make the world a better place, but instead he got stabbed. That's just his luck, isn't it?

missing, presumed dead by hailingstars @hailing-stars

They hadn’t had a funeral for Peter.

There hadn’t been a casket or a service inside a church.

There had been, before Tony decided in his heart that Peter was gone, candlelight vigils and pleas on the media for whoever had taken him to bring him home. Neither of those did any good. Neither of those brought Peter home.

OR

Tony Stark's son gets kidnapped when he's two. Twelve years later he comes back.

I told you to be better (and you became the best) by HaruK

Tony was blessed with a healthy baby boy, and for once in his life, was actually happy. Until everything derailed and he had to send his son away to keep him safe, because those related to the Stark family, one of the worlds biggest and most targeted families in the black market, always end up hurt. With a new name and identity that Tony himself doesn't know, the young baby was wiped off the map, his existence erased, never to be heard of again. . Years later, Anti-hero Iron Man meets a local superhero vigilante and Tony becomes surprisingly close with young Peter Parker.

The Curly-Haired Boy In The Paper by Svn_f1ower @svn-f1ower​

When Tony sees the blurry, grey scale photograph of someone he thought he had lost years ago, he follows the trail to a newspaper company, to a hospital, to an adoption agency, to the police station and finally to May Parker's house.

hold him tight & don’t let go by jessicagoddamnjones @farremoved

Peter Stark went missing when he was four years old.

Eleven years later, he’s found.

Only now he’s Peter Parker by day, Spider-Man by night, and he doesn’t like the idea that his entire life is a lie.

Rise from the Ashes; Just to See You Again by Mintstream @iwritedumbshit​

Tony Stark didn't expect Mary Fitzpatrick, or the news she delivered. He didn't expect that he would become a father, or that he would actually enjoy it. He didn't expect Penny to love him just as fiercely as he did her.

He didn't expect to lose her so soon.

In the wake of the loss of his daughter he tried--tried to do right by her. He became Iron Man, he was an Avenger, he protected his world because he couldn't protect his daughter, but through it all, he hoped to be reunited with his daughter.

He didn't expect to be alive when he was.

AKA the biological daughter kidnapping AU no one asked for. Hope you read, and hope you enjoy.

Updates on Saturdays.

Coming Home by inkinmyheartandonthepage

AU – Peter Stark was kidnapped when he was just three years old. Tony and Pepper never stopped looking for their boy. Years later, Peter finds his way back home.

A Change In What We Knew by Imissyoutoo @imissyoutoo

Tony scoured the floor behind Steve as though his one-year-old son had somehow crawled to him, before finally, he looked up. The realisation dawned on him like an eclipse; the decaying darkness hiding the sun. Hiding his son. Because his boy wasn't there.

”Where is he? Steve? Where's my son Rogers?!” At only a year old, Tony Stark’s son is taken, leaving him shattered. Little does he know, his journey to find what is lost only begins twelve years later. In the most unlikely of places, and all because of two words.

”Hey kid.”

I Found You by honestchick

Tony had a son; he raised him for two years until someone kidnapped him. Tony was devastated and heartbroken. And who would have thought in Starks Expo, he’d be able to see his son once again?

move back home forever by chasingflower @evahmohns

The results say he’s not actually Peter Parker.

They say he’s Peter Stark. You know, the one who’s been missing for 10 years.

Yeah. He knows.

Soon You'll Get Better by lostinmorewaysthan1

Peter Stark was kidnapped. That was all anyone knew. He vanished into thin air, no traces left behind, when he was eight years old.

Six years later, on one of the final raids on the HYDRA bases, they find an enhanced assassin, with super strength and the ability to climb walls. No one imagined that it would be Peter. Least of all Tony.

With no memory and brainwashed by HYDRA, Peter Stark goes home and tries to recover.

Let This Road Be Mine by CommunicationFlail

Ten years ago, five year old Peter Stark disappeared. When the trail went cold, the case was closed. Now new evidence has been brought to light and Tony will stop at nothing to get his son back. No matter how many fakes he has to meet. His son is out there, and he will find him.

Return to me, the one I love so endlessly by SuperHeroTiger @superherotiger

James Edwin Stark was born on the 10th of August 2001, and for the first time in his life, Tony Stark cried tears of joy.

All the fears, all the dread that had once consumed his soul washed away with a single look at the baby’s gentle features, so familiar and yet so distinctly unique at the same time. Tony made many promises that day. Promises to love his son, to protect him, to always be there for him.

On the 10th of August 2002, James Edwin Stark was stolen in the middle of the night, and his father’s world came crashing down. Shattered and alone, Tony whispered the same promise he’d made to his son the day that he was born.

‘…My love for you is endless…’

Fourteen years later, hidden away from the world in a forest of pine, Peter Beck would dream of a day he might get to see the towering city of New York. And when a wounded stranger stumbles onto their property a week out from his birthday claiming to be a famous billionaire from New York, his dream might just come true.

Once Lost Now Found by FreckledAvenger11

Peter Parker was just trying to get used to life without his uncle. He wasn't expecting to find a familiar face in an article about Tony Stark's missing son. Follow Peter on his journey to discover just who he is. Is he Peter Parker? Is he Spider-Man? Or is he someone else entirely? Just who is he and what secrets died along with his parents in that plane crash?

So He Walks The World Alone by Miola014

This is a story 'bout a broken boy With his headphones in just to block out the noise Of everyone around him telling him the way to go So he walks the world alone Wondering if it gets better Or if he's always gonna feel empty forever So he gets lost tryna find another way back home As he walks the world alone

Or

The Kidnapped Peter Stark AU that I promised y'all!

The CEO’s Son (M)

Your relationship with your boss’ son was never one HR would approve of...

Pairings: Jungkook x reader

Word Count: almost 4k

Warnings: smut, dont let someone talk to you like this at your work, jungkook having a size kink

A/N: LITHEN rayan wrote a jungkook size kink blurb and lotte kook came for my fucking throat and im not sorry!!!! reni get the four loko,,, bete.., i inked

When you first landed this internship, you couldn’t believe how lucky you were. The internship was actually well paying, incredibly insightful to your field once you graduated university, and you would even go as far as to say-although incredibly nerdy of you- it was very fun. Overall this internship at Jeon Enterprises was a dream come true. It was almost too good to be true, and that’s because it was. The bane of your existence as of late was your boss’ overly flirtatious, pompous, and ridiculously attractive son. Jeon Jungkook. With his stupid shaggy hair, God you simutanilousy wanted to run your hands through it to sniff it but also shave it off his stupid head. Then there was his stupid face, and his stupid body. You didn’t think a guy in a suit could affect you as much as it did, but here you are, ogling him from your desk as he’s stopped at the water cooler. As if sensing your stare, Jungkook turns his head and you two briefly make eye contact before you redirected your gaze to your computer screen. Yes, pretend like you’re doing work, he definitely didn’t catch you staring at him. As if he could hear your thoughts, Jungkook saunters over to you with a shit eating smirk plastered onto his face. I would give up my employee discount to slap that right off you think to yourself.

“How do you get any work done when your staring at me all day, baby?” Jungkook coos, he’s leaning against your cubicle divider, and his crossed arms are pulling his already tight fitting shirt more taught against his muscles.

“How do you have so much money, yet still can’t find a shirt that’s actually your size?” Your tone is falsely sweet but it has Jungkook grinning wider.

“Y’been staring at my bod that much to notice huh, Y/N?” This is your relationship with your CEO’s shit head son. He flirts, you sass and flirt back, you go home insanely sexually frustrated, rinse and repeat.

Your thoughts are interrupted by one of your supervisors reminding everyone of a meeting in five minutes. Everyone around you slowly shuffles to the meeting room down the hall, and you get up from your chair and begin your way towards the boardroom when you hear a low whistle, “damn, have I ever told you that that’s my favourite skirt on you? Your ass looks amazing, babe” Jungkook is still resting against your cubicle, chin poised on the palm of his hand. Of course he didn’t have to go to the meeting, he was the CEO’s son.

“In your dreams” you’d be lying if you said your heart did beat a little faster when these exchanges occurred.

“Oh but we do!” he mockingly groans and grips harder onto your cubicle wall, “at least four or five times a night!”

You only answer back with a scoff and a shake of your head as you make your way down the hall.

Once the meeting has begun, your supervisor informs the interns that those that are the most promising and likely to be hired on once graduated, will be given more work, to better prepare them for what life is really like and Jeon Enterprises. After a few grumbles your supervisor assigns days to each one of you, stating that you will work a sort of “over-time”, to get you used to times of the year where the typical 9-5 just simply isn’t enough hours in the day. You’re assigned Tuesday nights, and will begin tonight. Forcing a smile on your face as you accept your that your plans tonight are now ruined, you thank your supervisor for the opportunity. It’s not until you’re walking back to your desk do you realize that you in fact, did not actually have plans anyways, you never really do, but the option to make plans is always nice to have.

As you near your desk you notice Jungkook is poised against your cubicle wall again, as if he never left.

“Are you stalking me now, Jeon?” You tut, a smirk finding itself on your lips without you even realizing it.

“Just wanted to make sure your seat was clean,” he pulls your chair back for you as if he’s an actual gentleman, as you sit down in it he comes around to the front of you and sits on the edge of your desk, “and this one of course.” He circles his face with his hand.

“Well, it’s good to know you at least recognize the importance of giving good oral when you have the world’s smallest dick.” You turn to your computer before you can see the dark look that flashes through Jungkook’s eyes. He leans down closer to your ear and quietly says, “oh, you have no idea.” And with that Jeon Jungkook leaves you with a tingling ear and damp panties.

It’s about ten minutes later when you hear a ping and see a message bar show up on the corner of your screen. Clicking the flashing bar, your heart does a little flip as once you see who the message is from.

Jeon Jungkook

8=========D

“What the fuck?” you chuckle under your breath, hands already typing a reply on their own accord.

Y/N L/N

Did you just send me a dick pic??

Y/N L/N

As an emoticon?

Jeon Jungkook

Big isn’t? ;)

He’s lost his fucking mind, you think to yourself. This is hilarious, but Jungkook has actually lost his mind.

Y/N L/N

I had to increase my screen zoom to see it, but its cute ig

After hitting send, you hear a dramatic “Ha!” from the direction of Jungkook’s desk before you hear another ping.

Jeon Jungkook

Remember that im the supervisor thats overseeing you on your overtime nights ;)

You didn’t, infact, remember that. But now you’re rubbing your thighs against each other trying to relieve some strain as your imagination begins to run wild of what it’d be like to be the only two people in the office.

Y/N L/N

fuck you

Jeon Jungkook

thats the plan baby

Oh my God.

Your relationship at the office has always been one HR wouldn’t approve of, you two always took things most would consider “too far” but it never lead to anything. You said shit like this to each other all the time, but this afternoon felt different. You couldn’t quite put your finger on it but something told you tonight may finally be the night you don’t have to go home and touch yourself thinking of your boss’ shit head son.

Two hours later, it was finally the end of the day and everyone was packing up to head home for the evening. Some of the other interns give you looks of pity before they leave, but you don’t feel an ounce of dread about having to stay late. Your mind keeps wandering to that stupid conversation with stupid Jungkook. You guys were always talking to each other like this, but now it felt different, and you couldn’t help the butterflies that started abusing your stomach.

It’s now half an hour since everyone’s gone home and you’ve continued to work through the extra load given to you for tonight, when suddenly a familiar ping sounds again. You subconsciously squeeze your thighs together when you read the message from none other than Jungkook.

Jeon Jungkook

Come to the board room

You didn’t know what was louder, the squeak escaping your lips or your desk chair being pushed back as you abruptly stand up. You don’t dwell on that too much as you quickly make your way to the board room. You try to calm yourself down, you and Jungkook heavily flirted all the time, his dumbass probably broke the screen in the meeting room or something, yea, yea that’s it. Just because your last conversation was a bit more heated than usual and ended with him saying he wanted to fuck you, didn’t mean he was about to plow you in the board room.  You slow your walk as you get a few steps before the closed door. Quickly running your fingers through your hair to tame any stray hairs, you glance over your clothes before taking a deep breath, hand clutching the door handle. After a brief pep talk, you’re pushing through the door to find Jungkook sitting at the board table seemingly working on something on his laptop. As soon as you enter, he stops typing and leans back in his chair as that devilish smirk appears on his face again.

“Close the door behind you,” holy shit this was really happening, you were really about to fuck Jeon Jungkook, and in the office of all places. “Lock the door behind you” he’s racking his eyes up and down your figure, when they finally reach your eyes he says barely above a whisper, “only if you want to, that is.” Oh, holy shit. This was him giving you a way out, to get a sense of whether this was more than just back and forth flirting and banter, to see if you really wanted him.

With a speed you didn’t know you possessed, you locked the door behind you without breaking eye contact. Jungkook stands up from his chair and gestures for you to come closer, as you do you can feel a blush already heating up your cheeks.

“I’m surprised you wanted to have sex with me,” his voice is still a quiet whisper, and his hands are now at your waist, pulling you closer until you can feel the beginnings of his arousal through his pants, “y’know, with me having such a small dick and all.”

“Well…” lord, girl get it together, you’ve been dreaming about this since you started your internship, “that may be true, so I thought I should see how your much your oral makes up for it.”

He crushes his lips to yours before you have a chance to say anything else. The kiss is rough and hurried, clearly the several months long sexual frustration was mutual. He spins you around and grinds his hard on against your ass. You can’t help the few whimpers that escape you as he starts to suck at your neck, “gotta mark you up nice, huh baby? Can’t have anyone in the office trying to take what’s mine.” You shake your head in agreement as Jungkook pushes you forward so your hands are against the table and your ass is bent up, the sight has him groaning. No one’s ever really manhandled you like this, and it’s gotten you more worked up than you thought it would’ve.

“Fuck, I really do love this skirt on you, but I really want to see what’s underneath more.” Jungkook stops his aggressive groping to push your skirt up around your waist and you quickly dispose of your blouse and bra. Bending down, he places open mouth kisses along your ass cheek, as his hand continues to roughly grope the other one. The unoccupied hand is now rubbing you through your panties, and you feel like your about to loose it from all this pent up frustration.

“Please, Jungkook.” You beg, your voice already sounding strained and whiney.

“Please what baby? You need to tell me what you want,” you gasp as he applies even more pressure, “use your words.”

“I want your f-fingers, and your mouth. I want you to eat me out.” Your practically panting, and Jungkook’s erection is now painfully pushing against the fabric of his pants after hearing and seeing you so submissive, so different from your normally sassy attitude, and it make Jungkook want to wreck you. You only hear a low chuckle from Jungkook before one of his fingers is pushing past your underwear and straight into your wet heat. He doesn’t start off slow, he immediately starts to quickly finger you, your arousal already starts to drip down his hand as he harshly sucks on your clit.

“Such a pretty fucking pussy,” Jungkook coos, licking up your folds, “I guess since my dick is so small you only need one finger, huh?”

Before you can protest, Jungkook removes his finger from your pussy and begins to pull you back up so you’re now chest to chest. He runs his thumb along your bottom lip, and without having to be told you open your mouth and begin to suck on the digit. Jungkook chuckles at your submissiveness and switches his thumb out for the finger he used to finger you. He stares with such intensity at his finger disappearing behind your lips, that it only make you suck faster, harder.

“I really want to fuck your stupid little bratty mouth,” he’s almost mumbling to himself, but you continue sucking on his finger, this time he speaks louder, more controlled, “but I really just want to fuck your bratty little pussy already.” You’re furiously nodding your head, as he retracts his finger form your mouth. He’s roughly kissing you again, as he grabs underneath your thighs and sits you on the table. Your hands are roaming over each other, although his are much more dominating. He’s grabbing your hand and placing it over his clothed erection, and your mouth waters from the sheer size of his bulge. Jungkook, of course, notices this immediately and with great pleasure.

“What, not big enough for you, baby?” He’s taunting you because he knows he’s big, he’s fucking huge, and you can’t move your hands fast enough to unzip his pants. Jungkook’s hands are turning your hair into a makeshift ponytail when you pull his underwear down and his hard on practically smacks you in the face. Oh, holy shit. You never would have thought you would use this word to describe a dick, but Jeon Jungkook has a monster cock. You don’t have much time to dwell on this thought before Jungkook is tapping the tip of his dick against your cheek, and you’re now just realizing that your mouth had been agape since you first had your hand over his crotch.

“On second thought,” Jungkook tightens your hair in his hand, “I really do want to fuck this pretty mouth.” You manage out a whimper before he’s guiding his cock into your open mouth. You’re swallowing around his cock, trying to take him all in, but you’re only about half way down and there’s an obscene amount of spit seeping out of your mouth, and you’re about to run out of air. You pull away from his cock, desperately trying to fill your lungs, and you notice a trail of saliva connecting your mouth to the angry red head of his cock. Jungkook catches the trail as well, and he’s darkly huffs out a laugh as he grabs his dick to tap against your face again, “what? Can’t take it you stupid little brat?”

The degrading catches you a bit off guard and has you pouting back, “‘m not stupid.”

“Huh?” He taps his cock a bit harder against your cheek, “What was that baby I couldn’t quite hear you.”

“I’m not stupid!” You huff, your lips are spit slicked and pouting and your eyes are almost adorable when they look up at him. God he can’t wait to wreck you.

“Of course you’re not stupid baby,” Jungkook probably should’ve asked you want your kinks were beforehand, but he takes note that degradtion probably isn’t on that list for you, at least not yet. “You’re not stupid, no. You just can’t take my cock.” If you didn’t want him to fuck you so badly you would’ve smacked the shit eating grin right off his face, but you’re shaking your head furiously at him. “No, please fuck me Jungkook, please. I promise I can take it, I promise.” Jungkook could’ve blew his load just from finally hearing you be so submissive towards him after months of attitude. He kisses you again and he guides you to lay back on the table, hand guiding the tip of his dick to your heat. He doesn’t enter, just simply rubs the tip against your clit and you feel like you could explode.

“Think you can handle it, baby?” he whispers in your ear, and a quiet uh huh is his green light to enter you. All the dominating behaviour aside, Jungkook, much to your happiness, actually enters you slowly. He enters inch by inch, allowing your aching pussy time to adjust to his massive size. When he’s fully inside you, you both let out a pant and Jungkook waits for you to give him a signal to move. Although you teased him about having a small dick, you never really thought Jungkook did, but you never would’ve dreamed he was hiding a fucking python under his designer dress pants.

After a few moments, you feel relatively adjusted to his size. If you’re being honest with yourself, you don’t think you could ever fully adjust. But, nonetheless, you breathe out a soft move and bite Jungkook’s ear lobe. You both groan as he slowly pulls out, nearly all the way. He sets a moderate pace at first, and although your grateful due to his size, you’re honestly a bit surprised he isn’t rougher with you. As if sensing this, Jungkook smirks down at you, “need to get you a bit more adjusted, baby, can’t have me accidentally ripping you in half huh?” and that has you moaning out as he hoists your legs up higher and he plows into you. Honestly, you really do think he could rip you in half.

Your moans are pornographic as he fucks into you with such speed and power your eyes nearly roll into the back of your head. His chiseled muscular body is glistening so beautifully under the fluorescent office lights that you don’t even wonder when his shirt came off, but fuck you’re happy that it did. Your transfixed watching his ab muscles move as he fucks you. You don’t really know where to look, he’s just so hot. His shaggy sweaty hair dangling in front of his eyes, his half lidded eyes watching your tits bounce every time he fucks into you, his slightly parted mouth that occasional lets out a guttural moan. You’ve never felt so full in your life, and he’s just so hot and you just need more. When you voice this, Jungkook just smirks and wraps his arms around your legs to keep them parallel to his chest, and he’s fucking into you even harder.

“Fuuuck, your pussy’s so tight and wet for me baby, shit you’re hot.” Jungkook pants, and when his eyes drift down from watching your tits bouncing, that’s when he notices it. With every thrust, Jungkook can see a little bump come from the inside of your lower abdomen, and something inside him snaps. He’s fucking into you even harder now, and you’re nearly crying at how animalistic he’s being.

“Fuck baby, look at you. Your little pussy can barely take my cock, look at it sticking up inside of you.” He thrusts a little extra hard to really make his dick protrude and you’re nearly seeing stars. You couldn’t believe it. Jungkook was actually so big that his cock would poke up your belly. You’re nearly gushing around him at the revelation, and Jungkook just keeps fucking you nice and hard, his hips a rough stactoo against yours. He’s groaning and panting while he watches the bump come up with every thrust. “Shit baby, look at you, your bratty little pussy can barely handle my cock, it has no room for it. I bet you love my fat cock don’t you, baby? Huh?” His hand reaches forward to slap your bouncing tit, “You fucking love my huge dick don’t you?”

“Yes! Yes, I love your fat cock Jungkookie, please fuck me with your fat cock, I love it so much!” Your screaming, and you honestly don’t care if the late night office cleaners can hear you.

“Tell me how much you love it baby, c’mon, tell me how much you need my huge dick, tell me how big it is”

You don’t know if he’s being this rough because of your earlier comments about him having a small dick, or if it’s because he can visibly see that your pussy can barely handle the size of him but you don’t care either way. “It’s so fucking big Jungkook, you’re stretching me out so fucking good, baby oh my gosh.” You feel like you’re about to cum any minute now, and when you voice this Jungkook pulls out of you and flips you so your hands are on the table once again. You nearly scream when he enters you again, the pace just as brutal. His hands are now roughly gripping your ass cheeks, the occasional blow being delivered to them. He’s panting into your ear telling you how much a good girl you are for taking his cock so well, how he bets you won’t ever say his dick is small again, how he’s going to ruin your tight little pussy every Tuesday night in this board room. “You’re not going to be able to listen to a single thing they say during these meetings, your just going to be thinking about my huge cocking stretching you open.” You slip a hand down to play with your clit as Jungkook continues his assault on your pussy. You’re so close to almost hurts. “C’mon baby, show me what you look like when you cum, I wanna hear you” He delivers another smack to your now cherry red ass, “cum all over my huge cock, baby, c’mon.” A few more powerful thrusts and you’re coming harder than you ever had in your life. Jungkook follows quickly behind you, unloading onto your ass, moaning at the erotic sight.

You think you might’ve black out in all honesty, but the next thing you know, Jungkook is wiping his cum off your ass with a tissue and gathers you in your arms. Looking down at his now soft dick, you nearly laugh at the fact that, even when soft, Jungkook is above average size. Apparently you said that out loud, because now Jungkook is laughing as he hands you your clothes. You see him tuck your panties into his pocket and when you question it, he casually replies with, “you’ll just have to get them back next Tuesday.”

You definitely love this internship.

HOLIC - 40 |  jb x reader

pairing: Im Jaebum x Reader

genre: enemies to lovers au | roommate au

warnings: angst

words: 5.2k

disclaimer: i do not own the gif, please let me know if it belongs to you, so i can give proper credit

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The leisurely contract did entail a couple of rules – that Jiho was kind enough to point out before you added your signature – such as not attending any public events with anyone other than him during the “PR process” as he’d dramatically called it. To be fair, you didn’t understand that part – if making a name for yourself meant causing unnecessary rumors, then wouldn’t this whole process go much faster if you were seen with not one, but multiple people at photography events? But this was probably where the loyalty – mentioned in the contract a couple of dozen times – came in. They’d probably be okay if you went out with some of the other staff members from the gallery as long as they weren’t complete outsiders.

In the end, the few rules weren’t enough for you to call the police instead of signing the contract, and, another moment later, Jiho was already ordering champagne -- which you refused even if a few glasses would have surely helped you get through the rest of your day.

Your head hurt when you left the restaurant and returned to your own gallery to get back to work. You always dreaded the end of lunch break – it was probably natural for humans to hate having to go back to work – but this time, as you tip-toed on the edge of a new life, going back to work—returning to your old routine—was something you welcomed and even looked forward to.

Avoiding a group of children on tour with their teacher, you popped into the staff room for a moment to grab your electronics and take your jacket off, and then replied to Jaebum’s text that was inquiring about your plans tonight. You had none. You just wanted to sleep until you were miraculously hosting your exhibition while Jaebum’s album played in the background and all was well.

Deep inside, though, you were hoping Jaebum was going to say something that would make you forget your wish to hibernate for the rest of your life. He wanted to say something like that, too – and if he’d known how you were feeling, he would have – but he had a different obligation now; an obligation that he apologized for – because he couldn’t invite you with him, – but an obligation nonetheless.

The agency he’d just signed with had invited him and Jackson out for dinner and celebratory drinks later. Even if you wanted to, you couldn’t have asked him not to go there. This dinner was probably as important as the first meeting itself; Jaebum was given even more chances to impress his new employers. It was good. It would make sure that his road towards success wasn’t just a sandy path, but rather a solid highway that was able to endure any storm and hurricane that might threaten it.

With a heavy sigh, you turned around to return to work but not before checking in with your friends. It was unfair of you to rely on Jaebum so much, anyway, so, to avoid truly locking yourself up in your room for the foreseeable future, you were going to need someone to keep you company and, perhaps, tell you if the decision you’d made—the contract you’ve signed—was a mistake or not.

You’d texted your friends’ groupchat, looking for company but, as always, May – the youngest – was the only one who was free to get drunk on a Tuesday night. And, as if she had some magical telepathic powers, she immediately offered her listening services. Although, to be fair, the number of crying emojis you’d used when texting her might have been a huge hint.

Smiling at May’s eager approval to meet up tonight, you took a mental note to be a better friend to your friends – you suddenly weren’t sure if they were so independent that they just never needed your help, or if you just weren’t there for them, – and headed back out into the gallery, ready to spend the rest of the day focusing on crowds of children, high university students, and snobby customers. Somehow, all of that still put you in a better mood than the lunch you’ve had with Jiho earlier.

For the first time since Jaebum introduced you to Mark, you managed to show up to his bar when he wasn’t working. You shot him a quick text while you waited for May to show up and learned that he was going to work today, after all, but his shift wouldn’t start until nine. That left you plenty of time to get drunk before he got here.

Somehow, even though you knew Mark much shorter than you knew the rest of your friends, he had become one of the most reliable people in your life – but, then again, perhaps, being reliable was one of the traits every bartender had to have. Still aware of Jaebum’s strong reaction about your and Mark’s friendship back in the day – even if Jaebum did change his mind later on – you weren’t brave enough to openly address the bartender as your friend but, in spite of everything, he still felt like one.

“Hey, I’m here!” May’s rushed voice was suddenly by your ear as your friend leaned in for a quick hug and sat down on the stool next to yours. “I might have just escaped a serial killer on my way over here.”

You never knew with May – she tended to exaggerate – but your eyes still widened in surprise. “What do you mean?”

“I called a cab,” she began to explain after making eye contact with the bartender-on-duty and earning a nod from him, “and the driver turned out to be the creepiest man I’ve ever seen. I swear, he’s Freddy Krueger’s long-lost brother. Even looked a little like him. He asked me when I was going to go home and if he should pick me up as if that’s something that normal taxi drivers do.”

“Shit, I hope he’s not waiting for you outside of the bar.”

“No, no, I waited until he drove away,” May said, still breathing heavily. She looked like she’d sprinted over here. “Otherwise, I would have called the police.”

“You need to get a license,” you reprimanded her for the umpteenth time.

“I do,” she admitted like she always did. “But, then again, what would I do with it? I’d only use it to drive to class and back.”

“Hey, I only use mine to drive to work,” you replied. “There’s nothing wrong with that.”

“Yeah, but, hey, speaking of driving,” May smiled and then was forced to pause when the bartender came over to take your orders and make you your drinks. “You’ve got yourself a chauffeur for a boyfriend. That’s cute.”

“He’s not my chauffeur,” you shook your head, having nothing against the particular occupation and yet feeling as if calling Jaebum your chauffeur was offensive. You didn’t really pay him for his services—although…—so it sounded like you were using him.

“I want to ask how the roadtrip went,” she stopped to take a sip of her martini. Her love for gin was unrivaled. “But, since we’re drinking tonight, I guess, it didn’t go that well.”

You sighed, toying with the slice of lemon on the side of your cocktail glass. “No, it went well. Really well, actually. It’s… it’s what happened after that’s forcing me to turn to alcohol.”

“Did you fight again?”

“No. But that’s in the future, I’m sure.”

And then you told her about everything that happened after you opened the door of that damn gallery – a true devil’s lair protected by the remarkably pleasant administrators – starting from the surprise you felt when you saw that Jiho was the one who’d made sure you got the interview, and finishing with the meeting you’ve had to endure earlier today.

Of course, as you spoke, you ended up having to take detours from the main story and introduce May to Jiho – since, by a weird coincidence, she wasn’t aware of what had gone down between you two – but you felt like you’ve lost twenty kilograms of weight off your shoulders when you finished talking.

May listened patiently, not moving at all – aside from tipping her head back to finish her drink in one big gulp as soon as you wrapped the story up.

“That’s one big load of information,” she admitted, her head bursting with so many new facts. “That was extremely unlucky. I’m sorry. Did a black cat cross your road every morning for the past week?”

You scoffed. “No. That’s what I get for daring to consider myself blessed to get that interview with the gallery in the first place. There’s no such thing as—”

“No, that was blessed,” May said. “Even if it’s Jiho who sought you out. I mean… I don’t know. I don’t like the guy, either. Anyone who doesn’t mind the negative image of themselves in the media is suspicious to me but maybe getting some exposure won’t be that bad.”

“But unlike him, I do care about my image,” you continued pointlessly.

The contract was signed, there wasn’t really a way to back out now. And yet you kept on talking as if hoping to hear comforting words. As if hoping to hear May tell you that you hadn’t just made the biggest mistake of your life.

“I get that,” she said. “It’s why you’ve hesitated before signing the contract, isn’t it? Because this sounds ideal. I know I’m supposed to become an architect after I graduate but, hell, if I got an offer like that, I’d agree to switch to photography.”

You have her a sarcastic look. “Want to trade places?”

May scoffed. “As if you’d ever allow that.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“You didn’t really agree to do this for yourself,” she concluded. “You mostly agreed for Jaebum.”

“What?” you frowned, feigning confusion even though your heart had picked up speed, catching on faster than your mind did. “I don’t understand—”

“You understand very well,” she cut you off with a shake of her head. “I can see right through you, you know.”

You knew. Of course, you knew. Even strangers would have been able to tell what you were feeling but May was one of your closest friends – not to mention, she was the kind of person that would have been able to crack the toughest spine of the most complicated book. If she was the one who’d moved in with Jaebum, she’d have gotten him to open up in just a few days, guaranteed.

“You signed the contract because he signed his,” May concluded. “Isn’t that right?”

“Well…” you looked away, swallowing. “It may have encouraged me. But I’m not doing this for him. I’m doing this for myself.”

“No, but you mean photography,” she said. “You’re doing photography for yourself. You’re thinking of hosting an exhibition for yourself. But you’re agreeing to work with Jiho for Jaebum. Because this isn’t something that you’d do. You’re going to have to pretend to be Jiho’s friend, his colleague, and whatever the hell the media assumes you are – and pretending to be someone you’re not is not something you’d do voluntarily. You’re just not good at that.”

“Thanks,” you said dryly.

May gave you a kind smile in return. “You’re good at being yourself, sweetheart.”

Somehow, even though she was younger than you, the endearing term softened your heart. It also made you feel like you were the younger one but that wasn’t a new feeling. If you caught May at the right moment – that is, a glass of martini in hand and a suffering friend by her side – she was wise beyond her years.

“Everything is going so well for him,” you couldn’t help but say, the words pouring out of your chest faster than you could learn how to stop them. They sounded stupid when said aloud and yet you still said them because that was what you were feeling and feelings didn’t always make sense. “I don’t want him to feel like he’s leaving me behind when he starts to make it and I’m still stuck in the same place.”

May nodded – that was what she’d suspected all along – and, after ordering another round of drinks – even if you were still only halfway done with yours – she placed a reassuring arm around your shoulders, leaning over the bartop to be closer to you.

“There will be other opportunities in the future if you’d prefer to wait,” she said softly. “You’re talented.”

“Yeah, but there are lots of talented people,” you replied. “I’m nothing special.”

“You—”

“Oh, May, it’s your job to call me special,” you interrupted before she could say anything, “you’re my friend.”

May retreated, smiling playfully. “I wasn’t going to call you special.”

“Oh,” you looked at her, surprise and embarrassed anger mixing in your blood. “Well, you should have. That’s the nice thing to do.”

“Yeah, but you wouldn’t be listening to me if I’d come here to tell you nice things,” she pointed out.

She was right but you still sighed, “I’m not sure I prefer the cold hard truth right now, to be honest.”

“You’re just going to have to deal with it,” she decided and then proceeded to tell you all that you needed to hear and more, “your own attitude towards this is exactly what’s the problem. You don’t think you’re special and that’s why you’re agreeing to do this. You need to sit down, convince yourself that you’re the most extraordinary person in this whole world and any gallery would be lucky to have you. You don’t have to do it this way. And then, once you’ve managed to convince yourself, you can drop Jiho, forget all about him and his half-assed attempts to get you both popularity, and go home to make love to your singer boyfriend.”

You shuddered, giving her the most disgusted expression you could muster even though your chest was full of nothing but gratitude.

“I was going to say you should be a motivational speaker,” you said, the first traces of a smile appearing on your face, “but I’m afraid you just made me cringe into the next year.”

“Come on, I’m serious,” May continued but she was beginning to smile, too. “Have a little more faith in yourself. I know it’s easier said than done but if you’re not going to work on your confidence, then you might as well just go through with this whole ordeal. Maybe having your first exhibition – under whatever circumstances – will open your eyes so you can see how wonderful of an artist you are.”

Her words got you to quit playing with the sad slice of lemon on your drink and finish the cocktail inside of the glass instead.

“I thought you weren’t going to be nice and would hit me with the cold truth,” you told your friend then.

“I am hitting you with the cold truth,” May replied. “You’re a good person and a great photographer. Do whatever it takes to prove that to yourself.”

She was right, of course. Before you proved your worth to everyone else, you needed to prove it to yourself. You’ve helped Jaebum out of his seemingly bottomless pit of insecurities about his music, but you were drowning in a similar pit yourself. You weren’t alone, though. You had your friends who were there to throw you a rope in case the deep water of your anxiety threatened to swallow you whole and, if you’d just told Jaebum about this, you knew he’d be here for you, too.

But he had so much going on already. He’d just released his first song. Just signed his first contract. Just went to his first formal dinner with his new employers. He was already riding on the highway to his future while you hitchhiked, hoping that a passing car would pick you up and help you follow after him. You didn’t like this way – you didn’t want to depend on anyone on your way to your dreams – but, right now, this seemed to be the only way to get to your destination at the same time as Jaebum got to his. Not years – or, worse, decades – later.

You’d just have to find a way to believe in yourself while you tore out a few pieces of your soul to be able to follow Jiho around without killing him on sight.

“Will you have my back if everything backfires and all that I’ve worked for explodes in my face?” you asked May then.

“No,” she replied, “because I don’t want to get burnt, too.”

You rolled your eyes just as the bartender brought you a new round of drinks. “A true friend you are.”

“I will visit you in the hospital, though,” May promised. “I’ll bring flowers.”

You laughed. For the first time since you’ve left the house today, you genuinely laughed. And you were suddenly overwhelmed with affection for your friend because, for the first time since that visit to the gallery, now you felt like you weren’t committing a huge, horrible crime. Perhaps you just needed to talk to someone and, having May listen to you and reassure you in the most realistic words she could manage to find, worked as a medicine of sorts.

You still felt a thick heaviness inside of your chest – you didn’t need just anyone to talk to; really, you needed Jaebum – but it didn’t feel so suffocating anymore. Maybe, as long as your mind remained on this moment, you’d survive this.

“You look like you’re going to start crying,” May observed, breaking you out of your thoughts. “Should I be worried about something else?”

“No,” you shook your head, inhaling deeply and then giving her a smile. “I’m just glad you’re here. Tell me how school is going. Fewer asshole professors this semester, I hope?”

“Oh, boy,” May rolled her eyes before finishing her cocktail and breaking into a story about her day-to-day life, never once abandoning her sense of humor as she complained about her deadlines.

You listened, nodding along and smiling whenever it was appropriate, because listening to her talk wasn’t just a wonderful distraction. It was also something you truly wanted to do.

A couple of hours later, both you and May were already preparing to head out but then you saw Mark arrive. Deciding to stay back for a few moments to help him get started on his shift – he asked you to, claiming that the biggest bartender superstition was that, if no one ordered a drink within ten minutes of the start of their shift, the night wasn’t going to go well – you waved May goodbye and then walked her out to wait for the cab with her so the creepy driver from before wouldn’t show up again.

Once you went back inside, however, Mark was already pouring a drink for someone else.

“Looks like you don’t need me, after all,” you joked, sitting down in your old spot.

“No, but it looks like you need me,” he countered. “How long have you been here?”

“A few hours. Why?”

“You don’t look drunk in the slightest,” he said. “The only people who stay at a bar for this long and don’t get drunk are either psychopaths or people who are suffering from something that’s way beyond the superficial level. I’d say you’re sane enough, so which kind of existential crisis are we dealing with tonight?”

“Bartender sociology 101, huh?” you teased but after Mark showed no signs of playing along – he genuinely wanted to know what was going on with you – you ended up having to find a way to tell him all that you’ve just told May.

Except, Mark was Jaebum’s friend. You felt bad telling his friend about Jiho before you told him, but you’ve stumbled into a situation where the opposite wasn’t possible, considering that you didn’t have enough courage to run away from the bar and find Jaebum right this moment, and Mark obviously wasn’t going to let you leave unless you told him what was up first.

“I don’t want to make you uncomfortable,” you admitted, still hesitant. “Because I haven’t talked to Jaebum about it.”

“I’m a bartender,” Mark said. “No one keeps secrets as well as I do.”

“No, of course, but—”

“Are you pregnant?”

You paused. “No.”

“Then we have no problem with you telling me first,” he shrugged. “Especially if it’s a loaded conversation that you’re not prepared to have with him yet.”

“It is,” you confirmed. “A-and, actually, maybe you could help me find a way to tell him about this.”

Mark wasn’t sure he would – apparently, he struggled with talking to Jaebum as much as you did sometimes – but he allowed you to open up anyway. He did have to ask you to pause for a moment while he poured drinks for the other customers, but, other than that, he listened to the story of your trip to Jiho’s gallery with great interest. A concerned expression remained on his face all throughout your monologue.

Once you’d finished, you expected Mark to give you a lecture – the look on his face was indecipherable by the time you mentioned signing the contract – but, instead, he just sighed, finished wiping the bartop, and leaned on it on his elbows.

“I don’t think you’re doing anything that’s inherently wrong,” he spoke but the slight shake in his voice was a subtle indication that he didn’t think he should have been saying that. “It’s just a somewhat conflicting way to start off your career, but, look – at least, you’re not sleeping with anyone.”

“I’d never do that,” you shook your head. “I have my limits.”

“Well, see? Then I don’t think it’s that bad,” he said, pulling away. “You only have to show up at a few events and then you can host your exhibition. That’s what you’ve been working for and that’s what you will get to do.”

“Yes, but it’s Jiho I’m supposed to show up to those events with.”

Mark considered this.

“Don’t think of it like that,” he said after a moment. “I mean, you and him are both photographers, right? So, even if you weren’t going to go out with him in public, you would probably still run into him at some event sooner or later. And, since you know each other, chances are, he would come over to talk to you. You would have to be civil since you’re both in a public place. And maybe reporters would catch you two talking. Maybe one particularly shitty journalist would even snap a picture and write an article about a-a ‘budding love affair’ between two aspiring photographers. These type of things happen without your consent all the time.”

He had a good point that left you hesitating for so long, Mark ended up having to leave you alone for another moment so he could serve a new customer.

“This feels different, though,” you said once he was back, “because now I’m purposefully waiting for that shitty journalist to do just that.”

“It’s for the greater good,” Mark said. “Or, rather, for a greater future.”

You chewed on your lip. “You really think so?”

For the first time since you’ve finished your story, Mark was the one hesitating before replying. Your stomach sunk lower and lower with every second that passed before he spoke again.

“Not really,” he admitted finally, lifting his apologetic gaze from the floor to look at you, “but that’s not what you want to hear.”

“No, no, don’t tell me what I want to hear,” you asked as a typhoon of anxiety washed over your insides. “Tell me what you really think.”

“I think you should talk to Jaebum.”

You should have seen it coming.

“Yeah?” you asked awkwardly.

“Mmhmm,” Mark nodded. “Because I don’t think that this way of getting your name out there is bad in itself. The bad thing is you keeping this a secret from Jaebum. That makes this into a bigger deal than it really is.”

That was true. If things hadn’t escalated so badly – if you hadn’t reached a point where Jaebum seemed to hate Jiho with a burning passion – he might have even supported you through this. Perhaps he wouldn’t approve – he did showcase some relatively possessive tendencies, although they never bordered on the extreme – but he wouldn’t dismiss just the very thought of you doing this.

“He would never agree to it,” you decided miserably. “He’d never let me do it.”

Mark seemed surprised to hear this. “Does he control you?”

“W-well, no. Of course not,” you said, unsure how to explain what you meant. “I-I… I just—I care about him a lot and I don’t want to fight with him.”

“If this is something that’s going to start a fight,” he said, “then maybe there’s something wrong.”

You didn’t understand what he meant. “With… with us?”

Mark shrugged his shoulders. “You tell me.”

You looked down. Deep down, you knew what he meant. In any hypothetical situation, if there was something that one person wanted to keep from another, it was likely that this thing – this secret – involved the first person doing something that wasn’t right. Wasn’t appropriate. Something that would damage their relationship.

Your head was suddenly as heavy as your heart was.

“I can’t tell you anything,” you answered. “I don’t know what I’m doing.”

“You signed the contract, didn’t you?” Mark asked, his voice more sympathetic when he noticed how dull your normally bright eyes looked. “Just try to go through with it. Like Jiho had said, it’s a business relationship and you have the legal papers to prove that if you should ever need to.”

You looked up at him. “You mean… prove that to Jaebum?”

“I mean, if you’re not going to tell him, and you’re hoping that this will just pass quietly—”

“I’m not sure it will. We’re talking about the media, after all—”

“Oh, love, don’t get offended,” Mark shook his head, not letting you finish, “but I don’t know a single person who would be interested in news about photographers aside from other photographers. I couldn’t care less about who Tyler Mitchell is dating or what he does in his free time – I only care about the pictures of Beyonce that he took – but Jackson was here the other day, trying to get me interested in that photographer-related gossip because he’d met Mitchell while traveling and the guy was, apparently, holding hands with someone.”

You felt your own interest in this conversation increase tenfold at the mention of the photographer’s name but Mark was obviously not going to elaborate – he nearly yawned just as he was giving you the abbreviated version – so you just nodded instead.

“You have a point,” you said, suddenly feeling the first bits of relief. “News like that probably wouldn’t even reach Jaebum.”

The bartender narrowed his eyes, asking slowly, “are you considering not telling him at all?”

Honesty was painful now as you replied, “I don’t know.”

“Okay, good,” he said, his voice rushed as if he was afraid you’d continue talking before he finished. “Don’t tell me what you decide then. I’ve already gotten more involved than I’m comfortable. I can’t support your decision not to tell him because he’s one of my closest friends, but, at the same time, this isn’t my story to tell. I’ll be quiet about this but... I don’t think you should be.”

“Yeah, I understand,” you said, awkward now that you’ve realized you’ve stepped over the line. “I’m sorry I’m putting you in this position.”

“It’s fine, I don’t mind listening to you,” Mark said. “Sorry I couldn’t help you with much, though. I’m afraid this is something that you have to do on your own. If you find the right words to explain what you’re doing, Jaebum will understand. You just have to believe in yourself and stop looking like you’ve killed three people on your way home to talk to him. Have more confidence.”

“More confidence,” you repeated, almost scoffing. “That’s what I keep hearing.”

“It’s the truth,” he said. “Jaebum always talks about how talented you are. And he recognizes art, he’s not saying that just because he’s into you.”

Your heart banged against your ribcage, reminding you yet again about how much you cared about Jaebum. About how special it made you feel to know that he was talking about you to his friends.

“I hope you get to host your own exhibition,” Mark added before you could stand up and dial Jaebum’s phone number. “I really do.”

Hearing that meant a lot and you felt your lips stretch into a smile. “So, you don’t think I’m selling my soul to the devil by trying to get it this way?”

“No,” Mark laughed. “I just think you’re very dedicated since you’re willing to give up so much for your goal.”

You couldn’t help but find his words ambiguous. You feared to think of what else – aside from your dignity – you were unconsciously willing to give up for your ambition, but you didn’t ask him to explain what he’d meant. You didn’t dare.

“You know, it’s extremely refreshing to talk to someone who doesn’t immediately assume the worst of me,” you said instead.

“Who immediately assumes the worst of you?” Mark asked.

“Me.”

“Ah,” he nodded with a chuckle and then clocked a group of customers that had just arrived. “Hold on for just a moment.”

You nodded, using this time to check your phone. The screen was decorated with multiple texts from Jaebum – most of them seemed excited as he told you about the divine food that the agency dinner had served – but it also showed that it was nearly ten o’clock already. You hadn’t planned to stay here for this long; you still had to work tomorrow, not to mention the mess of thoughts inside of your mind you’d have to deal with even before your alarm rang the next morning.

“Thinking of leaving?” Mark asked when he returned and caught you putting your jacket on.

“Yeah,” you said. “I’ve stayed far longer than I should have. Thank you for listening to me and for being so open-minded. You’re a great person, Mark.”

He laughed, the comment clearly flustering him. “Must be the reason why I’m single.”

“Oh, you’re going to make a great partner for someone one day,” you said, your mind flashing back to him and Kiera. You were suddenly glad you weren’t drunk or you would have brought your friend up and you didn’t think you were in the right position to talk about them together. “Anyone would be lucky to have someone like you. It’s just me who’s stupid; apparently, I like my men complicated.

“Men?” Mark cocked an eyebrow.

You smiled at this. “You’re right. It’s just him.”

Mark stopped cleaning the glass he was holding to give you a serious look. “You like him a lot, don’t you?”

“I…”

You couldn’t finish the sentence and Mark was quick to notice that as a big smile spread from one of his ears to the other.

“What?” he asked, his tone teasing. “Is that not the right word anymore?”

“Oh, shut up,” you got up from your stool, looking down to avoid having him see your embarrassed face.

Mark laughed again, recalling the same exact words that Jaebum had said to him when he asked him the same thing.

“It’s okay,” he said, sending a mischievous wink your way when you looked at him again. “I happen to know that he feels the same way about you.”

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All I Want [Tom Holland a.u] pt.6

a/n: took me forever to get this out I’m so sorry! here’s a longer chapter to make up for it!

warnings: heartbreaking angst, a bit of fluff, just angst mostly lol. im laughing because I’m a sad person

words: 2.6k

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You’re in too deep.

Days turned into weeks, and now here you are, 2 months into the relationship with Tom. You were meant to break up with him a long time ago, and you told yourself you would day after day. That day has yet to come. But how could you break up with Tom? He was absolutely amazing, charming as hell and the sweetest man you had ever known. He cared for you, always attentive and sure knew how to make you feel special.

Not only that but the sex was great, you’ve had a couple of partners in your life but none of them could compare to Tom. He sure knew how to please a girl, whispering sweet nothings in your ear all night long. And the aftercare? Always so caring and even runs you a bath or a massage when you’re sore. Now who could leave a man like that? But you had to, eventually.

And that day seemed closer than you thought when Tom asked you a question after a lovely night of romance.

“Baby?” Tom asks, rubbing your lower back sweetly.

“Hm,” you hum, snuggling closer to him. He kisses the top of your head and wraps his arms around you.

“Would you like to have dinner with my parents?” He questions, making you tense up instantly. Panic suddenly begins to run through your veins. Dinner with his parents? Now that meant he was serious about this. You were dreading the day he’d ask this, hoping to have enough courage to cut the cord before it.

“O-Oh, um, you want me to meet them?” You mumble, and he pulls you back far enough to look at your face. You don’t meet his eyes and he notices this.

“Do you not want to? You don’t have to,” He tells you, making you feel guilty when you see his disappointed face.

“That’s not it at all! I-I do!” You sputter out quickly. “But are you ready for me to meet them?”

“Of course I am! I want my family to meet the girl I’m crazy about,” he grins, nuzzling his nose on yours. “Besides, they can’t wait to meet you.”

“They can’t..?” You ask Tom. He nods, “Yeah, they want to get to know you, properly.”

Oh great.“Oh well, I’d love to then,” you say, a fake smile on your face. Inside your mind is telling you to run far, far away.

“Good! It’s settled, well have dinner with them on Saturday,” Tom grins, and your eyes nearly fall out of your face. Saturday? So soon? It was already Tuesday and you didn’t know a date was going to be set, “oh I’m so excited for them to see how great you are love.”

“Yeah.. me too.”

He seems pleased with your answer as he turns you over, and kisses you tenderly. Running your fingers through his hair, the kiss turns heated and you resume your nightly activities.

-

“You are so not breaking up with him!”

You roll your eyes, wiping down another table as customers leave, it was almost time to close.

It was Wednesday night, and you still hadn’t broken up with Tom. You didn’t want to, but you were days away from meeting his family. If you kept this up any longer, his parents would surely as about yours and what you do for a living. That was the last thing you wanted, to lie to his parents or have Tom find out the truth. That you were dirt poor.

“I have no choice Missy,” you sigh, picking up dirty plates and moving them to the kitchen.

“Well of course you do, you bafoon! It’s called telling him the truth,” your friend says, making you wince at the thought.

“And tell him what exactly? Oh hey, by the way, I live in a shitty home, work overtime to pay for bills? I’m not stupid,” you move back to the front, Missy following behind.

“You sure? Because you act like he’s going to be disgusted with you or something!”

“And how do I know he’s not? He could probably buy half of the land in London, you honestly don’t think he’d reject me?” you hiss quietly, eyeing the last bit of customers.

“Well with that sort of nasty attitude, anyone would fuck-“ “Shh!” you cut her off, saying goodbye as the last customers leave.

“Y/n, just tell him! Why are you going to end it, if you don’t even know what could happen? Hell, what if he doesn’t care? You’ll never know.” Your inner goddess applauds your friend, and you know she has a point but you can’t help it.

“But what if he doesn’t? What if he ends it,” you whisper, “I don’t think I could take it, watch him break my heart like that.” “He won’t y/n,” Missy eyes turn sympathetic, giving you a hug, “you are an amazing girl, you’re fit, funny and hardworking as hell. And if he can’t see that, then fuck him! You don’t need that.”

You didn’t even realize you were crying until the tears ran down your cheeks. “Thank you Missy,” you sniffle, giving her a sad smile. “But sweetie, give him a chance.. Don’t do something you’ll regret later on.” She tells you, walking to the back room. Leaving you with your thoughts.

By Friday night, you were already coming up with excuses to not meet Tom’s parents. Trying to hold onto the relationship for a just a bit longer.

Rummaging through your clothes, you cannot find a single piece of clothing that is fit to meet his parents in. You’re sure they will wear something classy, something expensive. Something you don’t own. You sigh and slump back on your bed.

Dialing your boyfriend’s number, you hold it up to your ear. After a few rings, he picks up. “Hey honey, I was just thinking about you,” he muses.

“Oh really? At this time at night?” You say, playfully.

“Oh you know me baby, always thinking of you at this time,” you can hear him smirk, “how are you doing love?”

How am I doing? Terrible.

“Great actually, well, there’s a bit of a problem..”

“What’s the problem?” Tom asks, concerned. “I just don’t have anything to wear for Saturday,” you sigh, “maybe we should postpone the dinner? I want to meet your parents when I look my best.”

“Sweetie you could wear a potato sack and look perfect,” he jokes, and you giggle at him, “did you want to go shopping? I can pay.”

“Shopping? No! I-I just think we should wait until I can get something nice for the occasion,” you say immediately, “maybe in two weeks? A month?” “Baby is everything okay?” The worried tone in his voice makes you suddenly feel guilty.

“Of course! I was just thinking..” Do it! “how I have nothing to wear,” you grumble and he sighs in relief. “Baby we can just go get you something nice tomorrow before dinner, don’t worry about it.”

“Maybe I can just borrow something-“ “No y/n, I’m getting you the most beautiful dress money can buy!” Only your money can buy, you mentally snort.

“I-I don’t know Tom…”

“Please? For me love?” You know he’s giving you those big brown eyes that you can never say no to through the phone.

“Okay.. for you.”

The next morning, you’re rushing to make it downtown where all the prominent designers stores are at. Of course you wouldn’t have had to if you had taken Tom’s ride offer, but you decline, as always.

As you look around for your boyfriend, you notice other people staring at you curiously. Glancing down, you notice your attire isn’t quite up to par as some of the people around you. Denim jeans and a knitted sweater with beat up boots.

“Hey sweetie,” Tom comes up from behind you and you turn to look at him. A grey button up shirt loosely tucked in to his black right slacks and suede shoes. Now he truly looked like he belonged here.

“Hi Tom,” you smile tightly and he kisses you lightly. “Ready to shop?” Tom teases you and it makes you want to crawl back into bed and avoid this whole thing. “Of course,” you say instead, taking his hand, pulling him inside the shop.

Immediately a young woman approaches you both, “Hello Mr. Holland, here to look at our new men’s collection?”

“No not today Mary,” he chuckles and wraps his arm around your waist, “we’re here to look at your dresses, dining specifically. Do you have anything new?”

She looks at you for a second, “Of course, sir, I’m sure we have something.. special for her,” she gives you a tight smile before turning around and walking further into the store. You look up at Tom and he gives you a big grin. Wonderful.

The woman returns with a rack filled with beautiful dresses in many designs, from silk all the way to lace. “We have this new line that just came in yesterday, no one’s had a chance to get their hands on them yet,” she tells you both, glancing at you once in a while.

“Well have at it,” Tom tells you, sitting down on one of the comfortable sofas the store has by the dressing room. You nod, walking inside to try on the dresses.

The first dress fits odd, too tight in all the wrong places. Moving on to the next one, it’s all ruffles and drags at your feet, not exactly dinner table material. Slipping it off, you try on the third dress and it immediately looks beautiful.

Grey iridescent material that stops right above your knee, it is a bit loose around the bust area, but perhaps you could just pin it to your brassiere. You walk out of the private room to look at yourself in better lighting outside.

“That looks beautiful,” one of the other employees says, “though you do need some tailoring around the bust, here I’ll help.”

She grabs a few pins and helps adjust it to fit you perfectly. “This dress looks amazing, important event you’re going to I assume?” she asks, still focusing on the dress.

“Yeah, meeting my boyfriend's parents,” you hold in your breath, trying not to move too much.

“Parents? They must be a big deal then,” she looks at you playfully, pinning the material carefully not to poke you.

“Yeah, they are,” you say nervously.

“Don’t worry about it sweetie, with this dress you’re going to impress everyone,” she tells you reassuringly, making you relax a bit, “too bad you’re not single though, I heard Tom Holland’s right outside, kind of a big deal huh?”

“Oh yeah, he is isn’t he?” You laugh awkwardly.

“It’s not like he’d look at us anyways, prominent families like those have their lives planned since birth.”

“What do you mean?” You ask, curiously.

“Well you know, rich families marry other rich families, to keep the money in the circle. The parents are usually the ones who pick their future partners, that kind of thing. Too bad huh, wouldn’t mind having a fine rich lad like him,” she clarifies with a little giggle.

“Yeah.. too bad,” you give her a fake smile.

4 hours later, you’re dressed to kill. But to kill what exactly? The relationship? You have yet to do so. So why are you wearing a full face of makeup and the thousands of dollars dress that you know you’ll have to give back? Are you really going through with this? Go through the humiliation? You don’t know.

Pacing back and forth in your room, you try to collect your thoughts. If you break up with Tom, it’ll be over, he might hate you for doing this but then again, he might hate you more for deceiving him. But you didn’t exactly deceive him, did you? Of course, you never really let him into your life. Just gave him bits and pieces to make yourself seem perfect enough.

But you love him, over time you’ve realized this. He is absolutely wonderful to you, so understanding and romantic towards you. Would he really care if you held a penny to his hundred dollar bill?

Give him a chance, Missy’s voice runs inside your head. Can I?

Finally, you pick up your clutch from the dresser and head out.

-

You arrive at his mansion a bit later than you expected due to traffic, which didn’t really help with your nerves. The taxi waits for his payment and you pause, “Could you wait here a second, I’ll be right back,” you tell the driver and walk out of the car.

Walking up the steps of his home, your heart feels like it’s beating out of your chest and your hands are sweating. Taking a deep breath, you nod on the door and wait patiently before the door opens a moment later.

Instead of seeing the warm brown eyes you’re used to, you’re met with a pair of beautiful blue eyes. She’s tall, with long blonde hair curled to perfection and a tight red dress that fits her like a second skin. “Hello, are you here for Tom?” She asks, giving you a beautiful smile. You nod, dumbfounded.

“How do you do? I’m Sabrina, Tom’s childhood friend,” she holds out her polished hand to you, and you take it, still stunned by her beauty.

“Who’s at door- Oh, hi love!” Tom suddenly appears, breathtaking as well. He kisses you softly before pulling away. You stare at them both, they look absolutely beautiful together. Like a match made in heaven.

“Hi Tom..” you smile sadly.

“So this must be the extraordinary Y/n, I’ve been hearing about. Well Tom, I have to say, she’s a keeper,” Sabrina giggles, and Tom blushes at her teasing, “I’ll see you both at the table.” She leaves, her silky hair swaying behind her.

“You coming in?” Tom jokes, holding the door open for you.

“Actually,” you swallow, trying to hold back tears, “Tom, I have to talk to you..”

Tom’s eyes soften, he closes the door behind him to give you both privacy, “Is something wrong?”

“I.. I can’t do this Tom,” you whisper, feeling cold suddenly.

“What do you mean? Can’t do what?” He asks, worried.

“This, I shouldn’t have come,” you shake your head, walking down the steps but before you can go down another, Tom is pulling you back. “Wait, wait, wait,” he furrows his brows, “is this about my parents? Are you that worried? Sweetie, they’ll love you.”

“But they won’t, she’s the one..” you softly mutter.

“Who’s the one? Darling, please tell me what’s wrong..” he asks, a confused tone in his voice.

“Tom, thank you so much for these past few amazing months but, I can’t keep doing this anymore. I’m not the one for you, I can’t give you what you want. You might not understand right now, but I hope that she will make you happy, make your parents proud and love you the same way I love you,” you confess, tears streaming down your face now.

“You love me?” He says stunned, reaching his hand up to your soaked cheek. You lean into his touch one last time, “Who are you talking about? Who is she-“

“Yes, I love you Tom, I love you so much that even if it hurts, I’m letting you go,” you say, looking at him once more before pushing past him to the waiting taxi. You climb in quickly and lock the door before Tom can open it.

“Hey! Wait! Y/N!” Tom begs, banging on the door frantically.

“Go! Please go,” you tell the driver and he nods.

“No! Baby, please stay! Don’t do this!” Tears run down his cheeks now and it breaks your heart in half.

“Goodbye Tom,” you whisper, the vehicle moving away from him, his home, and from his life forever.

-

a/n: why am I so sad lol an angsty chapter oops

Through His Eyes - Part 3

Summary: Losing your sight after your accident was traumatic, and Jaebum’s guilt of knowing it should have been him instead creates an intricate bond between you both, as you overcome adversity and try to find your way in life again.

Genre: angst / romance

Characters: Im Jaebum x female reader

A/N: This story is emotional and raw compared to some of the content on my blog. It is in no way an attempt to glamourise or undervalue the lives of those who suffer from something similar. This story is purely fictional.

Through His Eyes will be posted every Tuesday at 10am NZST.

Index: Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 [M] | 13 - FINAL

“Where are you going?”

Jaebum turned and smiled at his manager Yong, jiggling the car keys in his hands. “I’m going to go out.”

“Where to?”

“Do I have to break down my every step?”

Yong rubbed his face tiredly and then stared at Jaebum. “Again?”

“What?” Jaebum shrugged nonchalantly as Yong gave him a knowing look. “We made plans, and I’ve already arranged Youngjae’s track for the OST as promised. I have no planned schedule for the rest of the day. Now can I go?”

“I won’t be able to stop you from going to Y/N, will I?”

Patting the manager’s shoulder playfully, Jaebum smiled again. “Why would you want to?”

“Your obsession with her needs to stop, you know this right? Fans aren’t dumb; they’ll start to think something is going on.” Yong waved him off all the same and Jaebum promised to be careful and resumed leaving the building.

Once in his car, Jaebum drove out into the sunny afternoon, heading towards your apartment complex. After parking in one of the car spots allocated to your apartment, Jaebum placed on his cap and mask before exiting the vehicle, locking it and going inside. The elevator ride to the fifth floor was its usual juttering self, and he wondered how scary it might feel to you to ride it now.

The doors sprang open after the jolting stop and Jaebum exited the potential death trap, going down the hall and then climbing the small set of stairs to your front door. Your apartment was larger than some of the others on the floor, but it also was in the corner and raised above its neighbour. Jaebum couldn’t quite understand how the building design worked, but it maximised as much of its space as possible. Pressing the doorbell, he waited for someone to answer, smiling as he could hear your voice nearing.

“Who is it?”

“Someone handsome,” Jaebum called out teasingly. The door opened and you peered around, as if you were trying to see. He smiled at the habit and then frowned. “Well, aren’t you going to let me in?”

“I’m searching for someone handsome, but I forgot I can’t see!”

He laughed and stepped into the apartment, removing his hat and mask whilst slipping out of his shoes and into the guest slippers. “You seem to be in a good mood.”

“I don’t know, this morning I fell over.” You fumbled for your leg and then winced as you pressed on an area near your knee. You then extended your leg out to Jaebum. “See, I apparently bruised myself.”

“You’re only adding to your bumps and bruises collection daily it seems.” You shook your head as you navigated over to the sofa. Jaebum sat down beside you and gazed around the room looking for your Mum.

“She’s not here,” you mentioned as if you read his mind and Jaebum blinked rapidly, somewhat amazed at the connection you both sometimes had. It wasn’t the first time you had managed to read him and he tapped you gently, investigating you curiously.

“How do you do it?”

“Since losing my eyesight, I’ve gained magical powers,” you explained, not missing a beat in the conversation. Your personality had come a long way over the past month. 

You then started to move your arms about. “They say when one sense dies off, the others pick up. I’m kind of special, you know.”

“You don’t say.” He eyed your arms, quietly avoiding them as they waved about too close to his face. “So, magical being, what are we doing today?”

Your arms dropped to your lap and you sighed. “It was you who contacted me first saying you could come visit, how was I meant to plan something?”

“You mean I just travelled here and you have no form of entertainment for me?” He laughed and then nudged you, in which you instantly nudged Jaebum back, your past flinching upon sudden contact nowhere in sight. He smiled again, enjoying the confidence that you had started to exude with lately.

“Stop evaluating me.”

“Stop reading me!”

You both laughed and then fell into a comfortable silence. Jaebum glanced around the small living area as an idea came to mind. He wondered how annoyed your Mother would be by the thought though, and sighed.

“What are you thinking?” you asked, your voice halting his thoughts.

Jaebum glanced at you and smirked. “You mean, you don’t know? What happened to being magical?”

“Har-har. Tell me?”

“When did you last go outside?”

Your expression grew nervous. “The other day. We went to my physio appointment.”

“I mean, just to get out, not for an appointment or task?”

“You know I don’t go out much.”

“So maybe we should?” Jaebum gauged your expression, hope and dread mixing as one. “We could just walk around a park?”

“You’ll get recognised,” you instantly replied, your eyes glued to the wall in front of you. Jaebum leaned forward, trying to break your stare. You blinked at his movement but didn’t falter.

“I have a hat, mask, and besides, you said no one handsome was at the door. So no one will be paying attention.”

“My Mum would never agree to this. It’s dangerous. I can’t see.”

“But I can. And I’ll be with you the whole way.” Jaebum could see your judgement changing, the hope out-winning any doubt. “And if it gets too overwhelming, we can just come straight back.”

“Mum is meeting with her friends for a few hours, so I guess it won’t be any harm to go in and out whilst she’s away.” You smiled and turned to him, making Jaebum shift back as he hadn’t realised how close he had been leaning. You also moved and stood up. Pressing down your tee, you then sighed. “I can’t believe I’m asking, but-”

“You look perfectly good to go for a walk around the park,” he assured and a light smile crossed your lips. Then you looked down. Jaebum followed your gaze to your feet and then got up. Heading to the shoe cupboard, he found some blue sneakers and came back to your side, guiding your hands to grab the right shoe. You slowly tied your laces up and then looked at him expectantly. Jaebum double knotted them for good measures and then stood back up.

“Shall we?” you asked, your voice lighter than it was before. Jaebum grabbed your hand and led you to the door.

“Wow, the air smells so crisp!” Twirling around, you grinned and stretched out your arms, experiencing all the new sensations as you walked along. Jaebum stayed near your side without holding onto you, allowing you the freedom to grow outside again. It was like watching a young bird getting ready to take flight after failing its first attempt, and he proudly walked along, soaking up as much of your energy as he could. The air did feel crisper, and not because it was heading into autumn. It was as if you were both breathing in new life together, and Jaebum smiled behind his mask as your steps grew bolder.

“There’s a tree just ahead, do you want to touch it?” he asked and you nodded excitedly, your arms already out and ready to collide with it. Jaebum gave you verbal directions, not wanting to hinder your temporary independence, and soon you were feeling the textures of the bark on the tall tree.

“Jaebum, this is so much fun!” He merely smiled and then your face lost all its colour. He tilted his head to the side at your sudden change in demeanour. “You’re still there, right? Jaebum!”

“I’m here.”

“You didn’t answer,” you mentioned with a grumble, pushing away from the tree and spinning around to find him. Jaebum quickly shifted into your path and you reached for his shirt, gripping it and then smelling tentatively. Relaxing when you realised it was him, you then hit him and Jaebum yelped at the sudden attack. “Too much freedom!”

“Alright, so that was wrong of me. But you were doing so well.”

“I’m still blind, you can’t expect me to understand and hear and smell everything in a foreign atmosphere.”

Jaebum nodded softly, placing his arm over your shoulders to pull you closer. You stiffened as he chuckled. “Is this good then?”

“Oh my god, what if someone recognises you? Get off!”

“You just said-”

“Your skinship is out of control for a new friend, Im Jaebum. Are you like this with all the girls you know?”

Jaebum chuckled and then grabbed your lower arm gently. You accepted this readily, your own hand slipping to grab onto the hem of his shirt again. “I don’t normally have girls rely on me so much.”

“No, because they’re not blind like me.”

“I didn’t mean it like that,” Jaebum groaned and you sighed. You both started to walk again in silence and Jaebum wondered what to say to excuse his poor wording yet again.

You beat him to it though, your head turning away from his direction as you spoke. “I like it, you know. Not because I’m a fan or anything. But your constant touch, it calms me.”

“It does?”

You nodded. For some reason, Jaebums’s heart started to beat irregularly at your statement and he too had to look away to calm down.

“That’s why I panicked. I couldn’t smell you or feel your touch. Don’t do it again okay? If you take me out somewhere, stick to my side so I don’t feel alone in this world.”

“You won’t ever be alone,” he told you firmly, your lips curling up into a shy smile.

“You promise?”

“Of course.”

He then nudged you and you returned the playful gesture, soon feeling confident again to walk without holding onto him. As Jaebum stared at you, he thought over his words to you just now. His promise was one thing he would always keep. It was his fault you couldn’t see the world anymore. However, letting you feel it as normally as you could was just as important to him as making music was.

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college!hyunsuk au♡part two

a/n: the long awaited part two is here!! thank you all again for the love on part one :((( idk how to make links so you if you haven’t read that, just go through my ygtb imagine tag to find that. I thought this was much needed considering all the hate suk is getting lately :/ feel free to leave any questions/asks/comments in my inbox! mwah ♡ 

so it’s been a while since the night of the party

first things first, mina and gon are a couple nowヽ(*＾ω＾*)ﾉ

you really never thought you could see any of your friends in a romantic relationship but these two go so well together uwu

they’re kind of like the resident mom and dad couple

and because of that, your two friend groups have officially been adopted by them!!

and at first you were lowkey scared of his friends ,,, esp seunghun

but when you found out he’s actually just a puppy in a buff man’s body , shit got LIT

idk what i meant by lit, it just seemed to fit

anyway

so you guys basically hang out every day, usually congregating at the boy’s place bc they’re sophomores and have their own apartment

and u and hyunsuk are basically besties now

now,,, you can’t deny you were very attracted to him before

lol don’t tell anyone but u still kinda are(๑>◡<๑)

but you just assumed it was surface level and decided he was better as a best friend anyway

so basically you guys found out you share a bunch of the same classes

and now you guys walk to all ur classes together!!!

and suk brings u iced coffee in the morning

and walks you back to your dorm at night

and sometimes you guys hold hands

╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

you’re also his calculus tutor now

and in return he buys you food!!

usually that would be a pretty good tradeoff but tutoring hyunsuk is so,,,hard

“so can you complete this problem using integration by parts?”

“if you give me a kiss on the cheek, yes”

(O_O)

this man is really after your heart isn’t he

hyunsuk flirting with you is kind of a common occurence

“fuck you suk”

“fuck me yourself you coward”

(´⊙ω⊙`)

anyway,,,,,

usually it’s just harmless pickup lines

but sometimes,,,, you’ll be doing homework or listening to lecture, and he’ll just stare at you

“what r u looking at”

“how pretty you look today”

HOW DARE HE

＼＼\٩(๑`^´๑)۶//／／

and you can’t help how your heart flutters when that happens

but also, you have to force yourself to snap out of it bc this is hyunsuk we’re talking about :///

he’s just so ,,, out of your league

not only that, but you were sure he had this flirty nature around everyone

and even if he did magically end up liking you, you didn’t want to risk losing him as a friend

(◞‸◟)

sad hours: activated

so it’s been a few weeks and the guys decided to throw a party before everyone left for thanksgiving break

obviously the whole gang™ is invited

tonight,,, you are NOT drinking

bc you are a responsible individual who has decided to be the designated driver for the night

＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

but some other people have different plans

right as you guys walk in the door, your eyes are immediately drawn to hyunsuk

perhaps it’s because he looks so completely ethereal with the top few buttons of his dress shirt undone, smile glowing under the dim lights of the living room

or perhaps its because he’s taking shots like there’s no tomorrow

hhnnggggg

and your inner mom is just like

“HYUNSUK NO”

“HYUNSUK YES”

and then he downs his fifth shot of the night

so now you’re hyunsuk’s babysitter for the night

y/n, you really outdid yourself

so after maybe two hours of smacking solo cups out of suk’s hand and watching him try to wall twerk to eyes noes lips,,,

he’s FINALLY gotten tired

\( ˆoˆ )/

so now you guys are just chilling in the living room

most people have left so its just the og gang

and hyunsuk’s just laying on the sofa with his head in your lap

(^-^)

and normally you would find that cute, but you’re still kind of mad at him for getting so drunk

＼＼\٩(๑`^´๑)۶//／／

but you can’t help yourself from playing with his hair bc you’re whipped lol

anyway,,,you’re kind of zoned out of the conversation and you’re pretty sure hyunsuk is falling asleep

until you feel his hand grab yours while it’s still in his hair

which kind of brings u back to reality

and u look down at suk

and he’s just looking up at you with his eyes all crinkly and a goofy smile on his face

and he’s just like

“y/n you’re so pretty” (´∀｀)

and you’re kinda like (^.^) but also ur like

“lol suk ur drunk”

and then he’s like

“NO”

and suddenly he’s sitting up and hugging you super tight, his face buried into your chest

at first your like (o_o)

because this is hyunsuk and his face is literally in your boobs hhngg

finally you snap out of it and you’re like

“THATS IT, IM TAKING YOU TO BED”

and suddenly everyone’s just looking at you two like

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

and you’re like

(・・?)

and you realize hyunsuk still has his face in your boobs

and suddenly he properly sits up

and brings his face really close to yours

and you’re just frozen like (°_°)

but you can’t help but notice how soft his lips look right now

and the way he’s staring at you, you just know he knows the effect he has on you

and you’re wondering how socially acceptable it would be if you just closed the distance with your lips

and you suddenly realize how frantically your heart is beating

“you want to take me to bed?” ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

this HOE

FINALLY u snap out of it

“t-that’s not what i meanthhbbdjnj”

and you’re just stumbling over ur words

and suk has that drunk dopey smile on his face again

and everyone’s still looking at u two like ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

and you just take his hand and drag his short ass up the stairs and make him lay in his bed

“i love a woman who’s domineering in the bedroom” ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

“shut the FUCK up” (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾

but once suk is finally tucked in his bed

he calms down

and as ur about to leave

he grabs ur wrist quickly

and u weren’t expecting it so you kind of stumble on to him

and you guys are really close in proximity again

and he whispers in a soft voice

“y/n, you know i like you right?”

you can’t lie that your heart stutters for a second

but you smell the alcohol in his breath

so you heave a sigh

and gently kiss his forehead

“sweet dreams hyunsuk”

and you leave the room

uhhh so like fast forward two days to the monday after the party

you,,,, have kinda been ignoring everyone

ESPECIALLY hyunsuk

you’re just so

hnbbggggghhhhhdhhdhbdh

＼＼\٩(๑`^´๑)۶//／／

so here’s the thing

you like hyunsuk

you KNOW you like hyunsuk

you’ve basically admitted it to yourself that your head over heels for him

and you KNOW he doesn’t feel the same for you

but the way he acted with at the party the other day made you think different

and you’re so CONFLICTED

i mean he was drunk????

if he actually liked you, wouldn’t he act that way when he WASN’T drunk?

and it just makes you sad more than anything

so you stay in your dorm all day

and you ignore suk’s calls

because he’s been calling you since the next morning

but you can’t bring yourself to hear his voice, let alone TALK to him

and you know there’s no way he can get to you bc you’re in your dorm all day

until you hear a knock on your door

and you look through the peephole and see mina

and you’re debating opening the door or not bc you really look and feel a mess and you’re just sad and embarrassed

“I KNOW YOU’RE THERE OPEN THE DOOR OR I’ll KICK IT DOWN MYSELF”

and you lowkey believe her

so you open the door

and you look at her

and she looks at you

and then you just start SOBBING

as if you weren’t already a mess, you’re even MORE of a mess now

so mina has closed the door and guided you to your bed

and she’s just letting you cry, patting your back and whispering comforting words

and when you finally calm down

you look up at her, tear tracks marking your cheeks, your nose red and runny

“mina, i really like him” (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

“i know”

...and you’re sobbing again

and then when you calm down again you’re like

“i don’t even know why i like him!! like sure he’s good looking and sure he has great fashion sense and sure he’s nice and cares about me and takes care of me and ...”

...surprise! you’re sobbing again

and mina just lets it happen

she knows you’re going through it

and when you’re finally out of tears

she looks at you and she’s like

“it’s ok to like him. it’s ok to like a guy. so what if he may not like you back? not that that’s true, but you never know until you try! and if he doesn’t, so what? you know your worth! and you are worth so much! don’t let a guy stop you from living your life, because you are so much more than that.”

mina for president 2020

and you look up at her

(´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

you’re so lucky to have her as a friend hhnng

so you’re feeling better now

and you skipped your classes on monday, because you were still getting it together

and you didn’t have any classes with suk on tuesday

and you think he knows you just need your space

bc he’s stopped calling you

but he’s still texting you

and you may have checked them and you may have squealed bc he called you babe

anyway

it’s wednesday

you know what that means

it has come full circle... the dreaded 9 am chem lecture

so you leave your dorm extra early

because you know you need the time

and you get to your class at 8:50

and right as you’re about to enter the building, you feel a hand grab your wrist

and by now, you know who it is

so you let him lead you a little away from the building where no one was

and he finally turns around and looks at you

and you can’t find it in yourself to look him in the eye

so you just look down at his hand that is still holding onto yours

and you gently pry his fingers from around your wrist

and you let your arms rest at your sides

“y/n....why have you been ignoring me”

you already feel tears coming on

but you bring your hands together in front of you, still staring at the ground

“it was only three days” you mumble

and he’s quiet for a sec

“i missed you”

lol ur rlly whipped and you know it

you finally look up at him

and he just has the most devastated look on his face

and you can’t tell if it’s the glare from the sun, but his eyes look watery

and he his lips are pouted

and he just looks like a kicked puppy

and everything in you is just SCREAMING to hug him and apologize and tell him everything will be ok

but,,,,you have to do this ... for yourself and mina ＼＼\٩(๑`^´๑)۶//／／

so you take a deep breath and look him in the eye

it takes a while for you to formulate words but

“why do you always flirt with me like that?”

“wha-“

“when you know i like you, why would you play with my feelings like that? i thought you had some respect for me, but it’s so degrading when you lead me on just to reject me later! this isn’t some game suk...”

you finally take some time to breathe and take a look at him

and his face is just blank

and his mouth is kind of open

and he’s staring at you ~like that~

and you’re about to snap at him again

but then he opens his mouth to say something

“...you like me?”

you’re kinda confused

“obviously, you know this already???”

he just stares at you for a little longer

and he kind of looks like he’s about to cry again

“...no i didn’t”

uhhh huh

now you’re the one who’s speechless

he takes a little step closer to you

your heart is starting to beat really fast again

“you know i only every flirt with you right....and it’s not because i think it’s funny, well i mean it is kinda funny -“

you: ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

suk: ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

“anyway.... i only ever flirt with you... because i like you too”

he kind of whispered the last part

but you heard it

and you’re looking at the ground but you can’t help the smile growing on your face

so you just close the gap and hug him

and he’s kind of unresponsive at first

but he lets his arms wrap around your waist and pull you closer to him, his head falling into your hair

and you can’t see his face but you know he’s smiling bc u are too

you lean back a bit to look at him

and you notice the way his eyes keep flickering between your eyes and lips

and as much as you would love to kiss his pouty lips, you have to put ur foot down

“NOT IN THIS HOUSEHOLD WE ARE LATE FOR CHEM LECTURE”

and that’s the beginning of a beautiful relationship

･:*+.\(( °ω° ))/.:+

Kratom as detox/withdrawal management.

Hi there fellow internet traveller, I am an addict. I never thought I would try heroin let alone become addicted to the point of pawning all of my things and wasting my inheritance. But i did. Thats exactly what happened. You truly do become a shell of your former self when addicted to heroin/opiates and I imagine the same goes for people who are addicted to uppers, but I have no room to talk as i do not know that side of addiction. I never injected only snorted and I was 'only' on heroin for about 4 months. After all my money was gone it was then that i realized the true extent of my problem. I needed help getting and staying clean. So I opened up about my problem to some close family members and planned for the withdrawals. I tried going to an outpatient clinic for suboxone but they sent me through hoops, misrepresented or poorly communicated important information and when I was ready to get off, they told me I had to continue using H for the next week. In other words, possibly kill myself so that i can be in active wd when i see their special doctor who is only in on tuesdays from 9am to 12pm.

I said fuck it. I'm going to try getting off by using kratom. WELL IT FUCKING WORKED. I only had enough kratom to last me 5 days but during those five days I never once felt like i was in withdrawal. I was able to eat and keep stuff down, I could catch something that resembled an actual healthy sleeping pattern and yes, it even stopped the rightfully dreaded restless leg syndrome. I was damn near 90% as opposed to the usual 2% or so that one feels during cold turkey withdrawal.

I have read that 1 out of 9 people get the help they need when it comes to getting off opiates/out of addiction well fuck that. TAKE IT INTO YOUR OWN HANDS.

After i ran out of kratom it was a good two weeks or so before i finally got more. But even during that time that I had no kratom, I felt almost 100% kratom took me from needing to use every single day multiple times a day to not needing any at all.

That does not mean by any stretch of the imagination that kratom comes without its own negatives. Just as you can get addicted to nearly anything (coffee, smoking, poem, gaming, etc.) You CAN become dependant on kratom and if you get to that point and you cold turkey yourself, YES you WILL go through withdrawals. Just as doctors would taper you off of suboxone or methadone you ABSOLUTELY need to taper your doses down until youre almost taking nothing then jump. Its a naturally occuring plant that also happens to have opiate like qualities. It demands your respect and smart use otherwise you will have a bad time, just as any other drug in the world be it caffeine or heroin or anything im between.

I find it sad yet pathetically funny that there are people who became surprised when they realized they were addicted to kratom and their stories are always the same

"i was taking up to 30g per day i started small but increased the dose as my tolerance went up, then after daily use for 5 months I tried stopping and it was so awful the WD hurt so bad, turns out its not a miracle" NO FUCKING SHIT YOU GOT ADDICTED. you did not respect the plant or take it in moderation or even take a t break once, you went full steam ahead and suffered the consequences.

The fda and higher ups of Ohio claim that people are injecting kratom and that it has no evidence of being a possible use of weening addicts off of harder drugs. THEY ARE FLAT OUT LYING just so we have to keep buying suboxone and methadone. They stand to lose a LOT of money if kratom becomes as huge as the pills they pay doctors to push.

Kratom saved my life by comfortably getting me out of a heroin addiction I never wanted. Ive been using kratom for these last 2 weeks just because I wanted something. I started small @ about 4 grams taken twice in the dat then upped it to 6 grams three times a day. Those with HEAVY opiate experience need more of the plant to get appropriate effects. well guess what, after 2 weeks of daily use and even increasing my use I ran out and have no money to get more until my missing paycheck decides to make its way to my mailbox (4 days late rn) my last dose was at 4pm yesterday its now 10:51am other than a massive shit, i am having no withdrawals.

Please people, do your own research. Check out the kratom subreddit. (Use Google if you arent already familiar with reddit)

This plant can save lives and because of that, they are trying everything they can to make it illegal.

flirting

basicallyido407 fic - [ fluff request ] warnings: flirting, pick up lines. 1481 words

anon request. prompt: “office workers not-so-subtly flirting and the whole building ships them” [ sorry i forgot to do the building shipping them ^^”, but have a frustrated tyler ]

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Tyler dreaded working Mondays to Thursdays. His job at the station wasn’t hard, it wasn’t annoying, it wasn’t tedious - he was fine working on Fridays and Sundays. But getting asked to work all day Tuesday and Wednesday was the worst thing he’d ever agreed to.

He got there nice and early, punctual and hopeful that maybe one of the pair would call in sick. Maybe he won’t have to worry about it. Maybe he’ll have a painless day where he could just get his work done and talk to Craig.

Marcel was the first of the two to arrive, perfectly on time with a face that told the entire building he was not a hundred percent awake. He sat at his desk, opened his computer and allowed his head to find rest on his keyboard.

Tyler returned his focus to reading through the file Evan had dropped on his desk when he’d arrived. He paid only half of his attention to the paperwork as he watched the numbers of his digital clock tick through. When the screen flashed 8:23am, the glass doors swung open and Tyler’s head dropped to his desk in disappointment.

Scotty walked in, late like every other day, Starbucks coffee in hand and grin on his face. He was naturally attractive and charming and strolled through the station with ease and confidence. His tardiness was expected and the most anyone did was roll their eyes. At Tyler’s upset glare, he just winked, and continued up to Marcel’s desk.

The black man didn’t even look up as the drink was set down on the table beside him. Tyler watched as Scotty leant back against his co-worker’s desk, smirk one they’d all seen before. “Good morning, Sleeping Beauty. Tired, are we?” he asked, tease in his voice as Marcel pushed himself upright.

Dark brown eyes seemed to study the Caucasian man for a second before his focus fell to the coffee. After a few sips, he found the energy to offer a flirty smile to the man and Tyler slammed his head down on his desk, preparing for the worst.

“Do you work at Starbucks, Scotty?” he asked, sipping his drink again in acknowledgement. A grin crawled across his face and he leant closer to his co-worker. “Because I like you a latte.”

Scotty’s smile didn’t falter, focussed on no one but Marcel. He rolled his eyes, grin soundless and lacking any sort of response that could incorporate his humour and pretend boredom. Instead, he pushed away from the desk and walked across the aisle to his own. Marcel shamelessly watched his butt as he walked away, taking another sip.

“Did you sit in a pile of sugar?” he offered, ever persistent, and Scott’s gaze slowly slid back to his as he opened up his laptop and pulled the papers on his desk towards him. There was nothing anyone could do to take the amused little smile from his lips. He could tell Marcel was happy with himself, his lips pulling back to show shiny white teeth in a grin. “Because you’ve got a sweet ass.”

Scott shook his head, unlocking his laptop. “Got anything original in that big head of yours?” he inquired and the other let out a chuckle as he finished off the last of his drink and leant on the closed file sitting on his desk.

He wiggled his eyebrows at Scott who pretended to focus on his job. “I’ll show you something original if you let me take you home,” he fired back, not a second of hesitance or thought. It was natural for him to flirt with the man who pretended he didn’t care. He could see the amusement in his co-worker’s eyes, could see the interest that he barely tried to hide. There was always a glimmer of hidden laughter in those swirls of blue that showed itself with each dorky line Marcel delivered.

His stare didn’t stray for a long few moments before Scotty turned, lips pouted in thought. He pointed a thin finger at Marcel and tilted his head. “Are you my appendix?” he asked

“Why, do you have a funny feeling in your stomach that makes you want to take me out?”

Scotty hummed in thought before shaking his head. “No… No, I think it’s because you’re absolutely useless and all you do is cause me pain.” He smiled sweetly as Marcel threw his head back with a laugh. He obviously meant nothing that he’d said, knowing his co-worker wouldn’t listen to him even if he did. His subtlety was never that great, not that it ever mattered when it came to being attracted to Marcel: he was an even worse flirt than Scott.

The back door opened, Luke walking in with a stack of files beneath his arm. He dropped several on each desk, ignoring Scott because of the pile he already had waiting for him. The boss stopped between the two flirting workers and eyed Marcel’s charming grin with distrust. He dropped several files beside his laptop. “Get some shit done today, Cunningham. If you’re going to flirt, don’t do it in my station.”

“Yes Sir,” he said respectfully, Luke shaking his head as he walked away. Marcel leaned to the side, winking at Scotty. “How about I take you on a date and we can flirt there?” he offered with a grin.

“Cunningham!” He flinched, sitting back in his seat and opening the file in front of him. His focus sharpened, typing on his laptop as he wrote down information and sorted through the papers clipped in together between the folded piece of weathered yellow card.

Tyler thought for a second that the storm may have passed, that possibly the rest of his day would be one of peace and silence for once. His hopes lasted ten minutes until Scotty cleared his throat.

“Alright.” The simple word had both Tyler and Marcel looking to him in confusion. The black man blinked, brows furrowed.

“Alright-what?” he asked.

“Alright,” Scotty paused, turning to him, “pick me up at seven.” Marcel’s brows raised. “You can take me on a date and we’ll flirt there.”

It took the shocked man a few seconds before his look of confusion and surprise morphed into one of excitement and satisfaction. His grin was blinding and it spread to Scotty’s own lips too as the other couldn’t hide his smile. “You’re serious?” Marcel asked, nodding hopefully. Scott nodded too, filling out the page with data from his screen. “Does this mean I can call you my boyfriend?”

Scotty laughed, shaking his head. It was no surprise the other would instantly be pushing for a little bit more. “We’ll see how I think of tonight,” he commented, knowing full well he was going to accept.

“How about ‘Babe’, can I call you ‘Babe’?” he suggested. His eyes sparkled at the smile Scotty wore.

“Yeah, alright; ‘Babe’ is tolerable,” he sighed, acting like it was more of a burden than anything. Both he and Marcel knew how awful an actor he was when he couldn’t pull the smile off his lips.

“Awesome, babe. I can’t wait for tonight,” Marcel said, licking his lips to try and get rid of the big grin on his face. He shot Scotty a glance before adding, “babe.”

Blue eyes rolled and the two smiled for the entirety of the day. Tyler suffered through the little smiles and lingering stares that weren’t just of longing and attraction, but more of excitement and anticipation. When Scotty got up to leave, things packed and bag over one shoulder, Marcel leaned across and smacked his ass, making him jump in surprise.

“Marcel, I swear to fucking Christ,” he uttered, cheeks pink in embarrassment as he glared at his to-be boyfriend.

“Sorry, babe,” he whispered back, grin completely unfazed and obviously not sorry in the slightest. “Can’t help myself.” He winked, collecting his own things as Scott rolled his eyes and walked past Tyler and out of the station.

Marcel followed a few minutes later, head high and walk proud with his success of the day. Both men were too caught up in their own little worlds of excitement and happiness that neither noticed Tyler’s glare and the fed-up co-worker just sighed, rubbing his eyes. Relief filled his lungs at the thought that his Tuesday was over and he could go home and sleep off the migraine his co-workers had given him.

That was, until of course, he realised it was only Tuesday and he had a whole day tomorrow to deal with both men again. He knew that after their date they would only be ten times worse. There were definitely not tears in his eyes on his drive back home; no, definitely not tears. They were… uh… he got something in his eye! In… both eyes! Yeah. That’s, uh… That’s definitely what happened.

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anon’s ask

note: sorry it’s so short and sorry I didn’t include the whole building shipping them. i’ve had the first page of this opened on a window since xmas and i’ve just been avoiding it because im awful with dialogue but here it is! finally finished. it was fun to write and just a short thing, hope you enjoy it! 

thanks anon for the cute request of the cute ship <3

gi

Consistently, inconsistent!

I suppose the one phrase that covers North End`s season so far i sthat we have been consistently, inconsistent. No better example of this than the two results in the last seven days taht say North End thumped 4-1 at Watford last Saturday afternoon only to go to Bournemouth on Tuesday evening and come away with 3-2 win. I know people will say that there was some mitigation for the Watford result in the fact that we had so many injuries and suspensions but the dody lanuguage at Vicarage Road was poor to say the least. Contrats that with the up and at em approach seen at the Vitality Stadium on Tuesday evening and you just end up scratching your head. North End have won five times on the road this season already at yet have lost six times at Deepdale in what has been one of the craziest first third of the season that I have ever known.

Reflecting a little more on the last seven day and a heavy defeat at Watford saw us go two goals goal before getting back into the game. A mistake for the first and a penalty for the second made it difficult enough. Backhuizen got one back before a superb third from the Hornets put the result beyond doubt before adding a fourth late in the proceedings to make the afternoon misery complete for North End and leaving the managers position in question. However the manager and the squad answered all the questions down in Dorset on Tuesday evening as we took three points fron second placed Bournemouth. North End were three up after sixt five minute with goals from Barkhuizen, Bauer and a world class chip from Scott Sinclair for the second. The home sid emade it a nervy finish though with goals in the seventy first and eighty sixth minute and with twelve minutes added time it turned out to be a bit of a nail biter. One big down side to the evening was Patrick Bauer ssustaining a bad achilles injury which may well put him out for the season. Im sure we all wish Pat the speediest of returns after this awful injury.

Im starting to dread trying to preview weeks when we have two home games because as predictions go I don`t seem to be doing very well. This week we see Wycombe at Deepdale on Saturday, 3:00pm ko, followed by Middlesbrough at home next Wednesday, 7:00pm ko. Saturday sees the return of former North End favourite, Gareth Ainsworth, with his Wycombe side and the Chairboys have found life difficult in their first season in the Championship. Under normal circumstances this should be a regulation home win but with the way our home form is going at the moment anything could happen. Undettered Im taking North End to win by two goals and to start to turn this home form round. On Wednesday Boro visit Deepdale for what well might be a turgid affair as Middlesboro are doing quite well in the Championship this season but reports of their performances are less thanencouraging for the purists. You are usually looking to take six points from two home games and hopefully North End will. Once again the fist result on the Saturday can influence the manager for the midweek game and two wins would certainly put it in a much better position and probablt on the tail of the play off as it is very tight this season at the top of the Championship.

And finally this week:- football fans werefianlly let back into to some grounds this week after eight months on the sidelines. It is of course only in Tier 1 and Tier 2 areas so I am afraid Lancashire will be starved of football for a while longer yet but at least its a start and if everybody does their bit over the Xmas period then maybe a return to Deepdale might not be that far away.

JR`s HIGH FIVES            

Cheltenham to draw with Exeter 5/2           

A £5 Stake returns £17.50 on bet365      

SEASONS STATS            

Returns  £55.00    Stake £65.00    percentage profit  - 15%       

Predictions 13   won 5   lost 8 

In Seven Days.

Title: In Seven Days Characters: Hyungwon/Reader Genre: fluff It was monday. To describe the day, it was fairly beautiful day with a clear sky yet chilly breeze. People are busy with their own tasks, works and even playing for the little children. Bodies walking here and there. People on their phones talking, checking their schedules and the current news affairs. The normal life of a grown human. After sometime of the day. A unusually tired body walks in on a cafe, ordered and sat down near the huge window over views the streets. The body slumps his bag on the vacant chair and looks outside with dread written on his beautiful face. With his heavy heart and a string of low toned profanities escaping his mouth, he took out a marron notebook and a pen. Every single time that he sees that notebook it feels like he wants to throw up or submerge his self on a tank of water and never come up again. Never. But he is Hyungwon. Chae Hyungwon he never gives up and this? This is just an essay. What could go wrong, right? After sometime of telling himself words of encouragement he begins to write on the said maroon notebook. Two pages had passed. For the forth time he started again for an hour. Yet, every time, every single time that he reaches the third page he looses words to write. Paper balls are all around the table and causally falls on the floor everytime he decided to rest his body on the table. He took his coffee to drink it but eventually stopped because it was already cold for his liking. Therefore he sat his cold coffee down on the table to be long forgotten and resume to try and work on his essay. “Thank you! Please come again!” When he heard that he looks up and saw the cashier and the bartender bowed to you, your whose back was facing him. He had a clear view of the your face when you turned around and started to walk out. Your hair was silky brown locks, tinty cheeks, plump lips that are now on the lid of the coffee cup on your hand. Unusually you had this quite untrimmed eyebrows that seems to be complementing your soft facial features, under the round eye glasses your eyes where sparkling or so does he thinks. On the sound of the chimes hitting each other made him snap back to reality, and when he did he already saw you passing by the window of his side. He saw how you hold the cup tightly on your hand getting most of the warm, because its chilly outside. As you passed by, he took his pen once again and stared to write his essay. But this time with clear and visible beautiful smile that adorned his equally beautiful face. Now. His pen is dancing rather gracefully on the paper leaving inky traces of words. His words are flowing like water on a river. The smile never left his face and once in awhile he takes the cup of coffee and drinks it, not minding it being cold. He is inspired to care. The next day, Tuesday. He is there again. On the same spot, with the same cup of coffee accompanied by a slice of cake. Hyungwon is there smiling by himself just by thinking on you who made him more motivated to write and write the whole day. Heck, he even finished writting his first seven pages. He had been on this crisis from the day it was given from him. Since that day he had been writting then after some time he needs to re-write or to start all over again. It happened in repitition for the whole week que the two lifeless covers of a notebook. Yes two. Just by thinking of it annoys him. But still. Thanks for her he is now down to eighteen more pages and he will sure be done before it will be dued next week. He will be lying to himself if he didn't dressed himself a little more, hoping that she would visit this cafe again. Once in awhile he looks outside the window or everytime that the chimes on the door will sound. Hoping that its you. But most of the time its not. He become a little moody, by the thought of she might just have passed by and gave him that short span of inspiration. It makes him want to loose again his hope, because it makes hims feel that if he will not see you again he might start all over again. Slowly his worries are again painting his face with a frown. The chimes sounded again indicating that someone might went inside or left the cafe. "Thank you, please have a sit and we'll serve you, your order~" the cashier told you and with that you walked on one of the vacant table and sat. Your back once again facing him. Groaning in frustration he tried to maintain his momentum on writing, seeing it being pointless to try he abruptly stopped and put his pen on the table and looked outside. After a few minutes he stood up and left the cafe. Wednesday came and it was really chilly outside. Hyungwon walked in the same cafe were he ordered the usual. Looking around he saw that the cafe was quite full and his usual place is currently occupied, he walks around and saw that there is one vacant chair and walks towards it asking the other if he could sit at the other chair if it wasn't taken. His pupils dilates, warmt crosses his body to his face and he swears he felt his heart skipped a few beats. His hands started to sweat and his stomach is making twist and turns. "Ah, yes you can take the other chair im not with anyone" you said with a smile that graced her face. He cracks an awkward smile which earned him a chuckle from the other making him laugh a little as well as he sat down. He took out his maroon notebook and started to write down his thoughts like how it was on monday. Once in a while he looks up to take a peak of her reading. He hears your quiet chuckles as you read, he'll look at you and you'll take a peak just to see him looking at you with a small smile on his face while you will mouthed an apology then going back on your book and he will go back on writing too. He was going to take his cup of coffee but when he was about to reach for his cup he felt another hand on top of his. Abruptly he looks at his hands with wide eyes and flushed cheeks as he looks up and saw that you has the same flushed ones. He will going to lie to himself if he didn't find it adorable. He immediately took away his hand and awkwardly looks outside, then to you and then to the cup. "Oh... I-I think that is your coffee..." he said as he trailled off looking at the two identical coffee cups. "Yo-you sure? This might be yours.." "I doubt? " "You doubt? Well... this is weird but... lets just take the cup we think is ours and claim it." You said as you looks at Hyungwon with your big sparkling eyes "how about it?" With that both of them took one of the cups and drank it. They smiled at each other as if something is off and resumed to their task at hand. Thursday. It was the same routine. Hyungwon was wearing his thick glasses and his hair rather quite tousled in every direction. He heard that the chair in front of him was pulled out and a body sat opposite of him smilling. Ah yes, it was you again. He wonders how this your eyes seems to always sparkle and you smell extra wonderful. Not like you wasn't yesterday but you smells... really fresh with a hint of minty. "You look... umm... well-" "Really handsome even if my hair is not fixed? Yeah, I always get that. Thank you very much" he said with a smug smile across his face. "Hyungwon. Chae Hyungwon by the way, you my lady? " he asked. "Y/N, nice to meet you, very handsome Chae Hyungwon" you extended your hand with a smile and he took it. "So... Hyungwon what are you writing?" "An essay. This is dued next week and im about to be finished" he said. And if not with your presence I wont be able to finish this in no time. After writing few more lines and finishes it with a period, he looks up to you adjusting his glasses and speak. "So... what do you do in your free time?" "Well... I just read and drink coffee, sometimes looking for fun things to do, and you?" You asked as your eyes wander outside the window. "Fun? Well... since im finished on my essay how about we go out?" He took a sip of his coffee. "Like a date? Are you asking me for a date?" You gave him the cheeky smiles as they locked gazes. "It seems that you took it as it is, and I think you we're the one asking me for a date" he put his notebook on his bag, standing up and offered his hand for you to take. "Ah~it must be nice to be asked out by a really handsome man isn't Y/N?" He said with a smug smirk on his face as they went out of the coffee shop for their 'date'. He feels all fuzy inside as he can't controll the smile on his face, looking down he can see that you had flushed cheeks. Can this day be any better? If it can please come true. Friday. Friday came as if it was like monday yesterday. He was walking on to the same direction he walks to almost every day. He was greeted by an old man on the flower shop as well as his wife who was smilling at him sweeetly. He looked ahead and saw that you just went inside and without further a do he took a yellow rose and paid for it. But the old couple just gave it for free. He even heard the old lady said go get her, with that he dashed his way to the said cafe. He walked in and immediately saw you on the crowd. You just simply stands out even if you just wear the simplest attire and makeup. He took the chair and sat down placing the yellow rose on the book you is reading and smiled.He mouthed 'your welcome' and took a sip of his frappé. After a good few minutes of silence, a comfortable and inviting silence he spoke. "So, what do you think about yesterday?" He asked awkwardly looking at you. His confindence vanishing. "It was... well it really fun and very tiring but..." "But what?" He asked eyeing you with worry. "But it would be fun if you literally hut your head on one of the sign posts" you giggled "why? Did you think I didn't enjoyed it?" He scratches his nape as he looks outside as he say yeah. They had talked and talked and even ate lunch together outside. They had fun again, and mainly teasing each other. They call it the day and bid farewell as she rode on of the bus and he was left there standing with a shy grin cross his face. When he looked at his hand, he saw your handkerchief and a paper fell. With scribbles. 'Call me? :)' He laughed at himself for your cute childishness. They talked and talked as the night grew darker and colder. He was on his bed twisting and turning while he laughs at your awful jokes and they even made cringe worthy acrostic poems and things they see. "So I am an inspiring writter and you my lady is a painter. This is really awesome I can say" "Im awful. Im not what you think I am. This? These are not art if you ask me" you said on the other line. He can feel that you are sad saying it. "Well... if it's awful. I would like to ask you out tomorrow and might as well tour you more around since you're new here." He paused as he heard you squealing "so.. how about it?" "Yes!" He laughed at your response as if heaviness was lifted from him. They called it the night and sleep, because they would be early tomorrow. "You helped me with my essay... and this is the least I can help you with" with that said he closed his eyes and letting darkness engulf him to sleep. Saturday. He got up as soon as his phone rang. It was unusual for him to get up that fast, but he did because well... he will help a friend with her painting. Its not a date Hyungwon. Not a date. He went to the bathroom to shower. Dressed himself casually with one last look on the mirror he kissed his mom, went out and made his way to the cafe. The usual. He ordered two coffees. One for you and for him. He sat there minding his own business as he listen to the music that flows from the phone to his ears. It was a calm day and so he was. But he almost got a heary attack when you surprised him. "Yah! Y/N! You scared me pabo!" He said as he clutches on his chest and trying to calm his racing heart. "I almost hit you!" He added as he let a nervous laugh. "Sorry handsome. You just look so... at peace. Is that mine?" You asked as you took the other cup and drink it. As the liquid passed your taste buds you looked at him with shocked but eventually smiled. "So lets go? We have many things to do handsome!" You grabbed him by the arm and walks out. "So... let me guess we are going to some place with beautiful scenery right?" You asked as she walk in front while facing him. "You'll see." He said as he spun you around and resting his hands on your shoulders. Him walking behind you was great because he can literally smell your sweet perfume and your hair? It was really silky as what he always thought they would be. As they walk, they reached an art museum. He felt that you tensed a bit so he squzzed your shoulders a little telling you that its ok. After a few hours of walking around the museum they went out and ate lunch. They been quiet for the whole time in the museum also as they eat. Both are eating in silence. Even finished it. He felt bad for bringing you there. It was stupid of him now he thinks that you hate him for that. After they ate. They rode a bus to a train station. Hyungwon bought to train tickets to Jinhae a place where he thinks you would love. It was still the same. You were quiet the whole trip, but as they got nearer to Jinhae you smiled at the place. It was already beautiful, eyes are wandering around with a smile on your face. He saw that a little weight was lifted from his chest but he still cant deny that he is worried that you hate him. They were walking here and there, he has his camera with him and takes pictures and stealing some pictures of you. They went to Yeojwa stream and there he can see that she loved it. "On april. We will go here again. When the cherry blossoms are at bloom. This place would be extra beautiful" he said as he stares far across. "Umm... Hyugwon. Im sorry" he looked at you and about to say a word. "Sorry for making you feel that you did bad, back at the museum. I just dont know how to react. But seeing the arts there. I can say that I can have my own art exhibition" you look at him with the familiar sparkle in your eyes. "Then I would be you number one fan!" He said with a smile on his face "Same here. I will definitely read your books!" After sometime they went home. Your head was on his shoulders for you were so tired from running here and there, but he cannot hide the fact that it was a great and exhausting day. As they went back to Seoul they rode their respective buses. 'Call me when you got home' he texted and you replied. As he got home. He immediately took off his shoes greeted his mom and went to his room and slumps in. He heard his mom told him to eat but he is too tired to get off. He decided to go down with heavy eye lids. He ate dinner with his mom and dad. Cling he heard his phone notification he checked it and saw that you are already home. Guess I can sleep right here, right now he looked up to see his dad looking at him as if he read his mind and shoo him off to bed. Taking a quick shower he went to bed as soom as he was in pajamas. Sending you one last message for the day, he dozed off instantly. Sunday. He didn't noticed what time it was and also his phone ringing. When he saw it he was bombed by your messages and 15 missed calls. He went straight to the shower to take one quick shower and dressed. He greeted his mom and ran down the hall outside of their house. As he got off the bus he started to run to the cafe, but as soon as he got there you weren't there. But he saw a little letter on the table. On the usual letter. Hyungwon, I was going to let you take a peak of the painting I did yesterday when I got home. I got hyped up when I saw my canvas. It'll be on the school's art gallery... so you can see it... school mate ;) -Y/N "So... your my schoolmate? Why didn't I noticed? Pabo" he told to himself as he waltzed to the cashier and ordered the usual and sat down. He took out his maroon notebook and went to the last page and wrote again. Monday. It was the school's art gallery showing day. This is the day were students, whether it is that you are an art major or not you can submit an art that you made. It doesn't need to be painting or something. It just need to portray something really meaningful. He was walking down the hall looking piece after piece. All are beautiful but he looks at the names carefully not wanting to miss your art. There you were. Standing giddily as soon as you saw his form. His body went stiff as he saw the smile on your face and when he look at your side. He saw a master piece. It was like what you said. Its not what he think you will do. But he can say you put your heart into it. As if the little tour last Saturday was the last piece. But it wasn't. "Its not how you paint beautifully, even if you do horribly as long as someone is there to appreciate it. You're good. Right?" She said to him out of the blue and he can only smile at you. "So... poetic of you Y/N" he teased you. After the short tour at the school gallery he went back to his class and passed his essay. At the end of the essay it reads. 'Even the greatest writers and painters needs more practice. Because you wont be called great in an instant. You need to fall and rise once in your life. You just need an inspiration as well a friend to keep you company, make you laugh and feel bad for the simplest things. But would never leave you.' "I dont know if I'll call you a friend or not. You seems so special but we will take everything slow and carefully." He thought as a smile graced his features looking outside the window.

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Hi, my car insurance covers for liability only and now I have an accident with a big truck. The big truck hit my car from the side. We were driving from 2 lanes next to each other and at one point the two lanes combine into one. While I was alittle pass over the truck, it hit me from the side. Their side has no damage since it is a big truck and our side has damaged from the driver side. The police report didn't explain clearly about whose fault it is except it mentions what the two drivers said. I think it is not my fault and the other driver denied it is his fault either. My insurance company didn't help much because we only have liability. Now, the other party insurance company called me and said they can't pay for the damanges since it is both parties fault. Therefore, pay for damanges on our own. Like I said, the other party didn't have any damages. If we have to fix it by ourselves, it will cost over $1500. :-( How should I fight with the insurance company to get my claims?""

""My adult brother is living with my family, do I need to put him on my car insurance policy?""

My 29 year old brother has been living at my place for a few months. He's still covered by my parents car insurance in another state, but I wonder if I have to put him on my policy since he practically lives with me. He only drives one of my cars occasionally. His living with us should be temporary (hopefully no more than few more months)""

Can my car insurance be in a different name than the title of my car?

Can I put my car insurance in my dads name, if the title is in my boyfriend's name? I've heard that it doesn't matter as long as both people live with you, but is this true? I don't know!""

""By looking at these charts, can you understand why the U.S. needed health insurance reform?

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/03/health-care-costs-_n_3998425.html

Does anyone know where I can get cheap short-term car insurance?

I'm due to go away travelling in January, so just want to insure my car (previously declared off the road) for a month or two before I go. Thanks in advance for your help! :) Sarah""

Why do people keep comparing health insurance mandates to car insurance mandates?

Car insurance mandates are done at the STATE level, in accordance with the Tenth Amendment of the U.S. constitution. Yet people (the president included) continue to claim that a FEDERAL mandate to buy insurance is no different than being required to cover your car. (Completely ignoring that you have to BUY a car before you must get insurance...the govt's basically saying they own your body...insure it or be taxed) So isn't a FEDERAL mandate unconstitutional unless you plan on writing an amendment to the Constitution so that such a mandate is in accordance with the Tenth Amendment?? http://www.politico.com/news/stories/0909/27384.html The questions from ABCs George Stephanopoulos highlighted a politically dangerous new aspect of the health reform debate for Obama  as critics from Republican leaders to the U.S. Chamber of Commerce say his reform proposals amount to a middle-class tax increase. Obama promised during the campaign that Americans earning less than $250,000 a year would not see any tax increases from an Obama administration. Obama strongly denied that the mandate amounts to a tax increase  saying it was no different than requiring people to have auto insurance and charging a penalty if they dont. He also said it was important for everyone to have insurance so that people who do carry insurance dont have to shoulder the load for people who dont. The excise tax is designed as an enforcement mechanism to ensure people will carry insurance.""

Can I change my auto insurance without extra cost.?

I just purchased a vehicle and had to get full coverage insurance. I have been with Safe Auto for over 6months. I changed coverage on 6-24. I have a bill due on July 11. I want to change to a cheaper insurance company would i be able to do this without more charges? Also would I have to pay the bill due on the 11th.

Do landlords usually have homeowner insurance?

Do landlord usually have homeowner insurance? Also is it true that most homeowner insurance have liability coverage? And if they took out a mortgage does the mortgage company require them to have some kind of homeowner insurance?

What are the costs of an older used car?

I'm not talking too old here, but something about five for six years old used for around $9000 i am looking into. There seem to be quite a few used cars in this price range around here. Now from someone with no experience in buying a vehicle from a dealership, and having average credit, what kind of costs am i looking at if i were to go ahead with this? Is it common for the dealership to provide financing, and what would be my options? I know i'd need a down payment and that there are other fees included, but i was interested in more of my monthly payment options. I could afford roughly 200 a month plus insurance, but is something like this possible? Or would a dealer just laugh at me and tell me to get lost?""

Anybody could give me a estimated how much money do a 18 years olds would pay for a car insurance a full cover?

Anybody could give me a estimated how much money do a 18 years olds would pay for a car insurance a full cover? He is going to buy a 2007 Dodge Durango SLT He will fianced the car on his name! The car is for my son. We live in the states of Florida ! If you guys can give me some information about a cheaper insurance Thanks!

Why is my car insurance quotes so high?

Hello, I'm 17 years old and have just pasted my ful uk license and am looking for a car and insurance. The car i want is a vaxuhuall corsa 1.0 litre 3door. My friend has a 1.1 litre and his insurance is 1,200 with his dad on it. But when i look with exactly the same details (locked garage, mileage, etc) with my dad on it (i also entered my friends post code to see if there is a difference) but the cheapest quote has been 4400. Help?""

What are average prices for small business insurance?

This is for my high school project. Please answer!

Auto insurance for drivers with little/no credit history?

While shopping for car insurance, I usually use a fake name/address with all my real information (DOB, driving record, etc) just so I don't get a bunch of annoying calls/emails from every company I get a quote from. The fake email address I always use got an email the other day, which basically said that when they ran a credit check they consumer reporting agency couldn't provide a full credit history (not surprising seeing as they were checking on a name that doesn't exist). The thing that concerns me is that being only 19, I also don't have much of a credit history (the only credit I do currently have is a card I got a month ago). I couldn't really tell from the email (since I didn't read it too closely, I was really just clearing out the fake inbox) but I'm not sure if they were saying We couldn't get a credit history on you, if we had been able to, the rate you were quoted could have been lower or something more drastic like because we couldn't find a credit history, the quote we gave is no longer valid and either they won't cover me or will charge way more. I'm concerned because the email came several days after I got the quote. When I decide which company to use, and I get a quote with my real name/contact info and buy it right way online, am I going to get an email in a few days saying the because of my lack of credit they either want more money or are cancelling my policy?""

Will I lose my life insurance with AIG?

I have a life insurance policy with AIG. With the recent news about the AIG financial troubles, what happens if this company folds or goes bankrupt? Will I lose my life insurance policy with them?""

How much is an Audi A4 to Insure?

I don't want a quote, and I don't want an american insurance bracket or whatever they're called, just, if you could, name a car that would be about the same as an Audi A4 to insure. 1.8 litre, say, 2000-2002, I hear they're cheap to insure but, if anyone could confirm or deny I'd appreciate it.""

Car and car insurance for a 16 year old?

What is the best company for a 16 year old to get car insurance from? (needs to be fairly cheap but also, very reliable) Also, what would be the best car to get? (also needs to be fairly cheap and very reliable) Thank you for your time and give as much advice as you can!""

Can I tax my car without insurance?

My car is Sorn at the moment and I wanted to he it taxed and mot so that I can drive it if I need to. I was going to just buy one day or weekend insurance when I need it. Is this possible or will I need proper insurance in place?

Can you collect on a life insurance policy after suicide?

A friend just killed himself and I'm wondering if his wife will be able to collect o his poicy. I've heard the insurance copmpany can void a policy in the first 2 years. But he has had his policy longer than that.

Farm Bureau Car Insurance question?

Hi, I am wanting to go and get my full license, I'm suppose to be added to my dad's car insurance before hand though, if he has to pay $70.00 more a month, will he have to pay 70 at the exact moment that im added ? Or is that charged when I am on the insurance a complete month.""

Cavities before getting health insurance?

What are the rules with getting dental insurance. I am willing to pay monthly for it because I really need my teeth fixed. I heard you can't get any teeth fixed you had before the insurance and also you had to have the insurance for a certain amount of time before getting your teeth fixed. Who knows what the rules are about this?

Aircraft insurance rates with DUI/DWI?

If one is a partner in a small airplane, what effect would a potential DUI/DWI have on current insurance rates?""

""I have taken out car insurance last month,i have found a cheaper insurance,i want to find out if i can cancel ?""

my previous insurance,i took it out on installments""

Is a tree house covered under insurance?

We are thinking of creating a tree house to use as a office and need to know if it is covered under the home owner insurance or will new insurance and coverage be required. Bonus: Will property tax go up?

Can you pay car insurance with a credit card?

in a few months I'm going to be moving, but due to certain circumstances, I won't have enough during the time period for Car insurance, So I was wondering if I could charge it to my credit card. I'd like to know from someone that knows for sure, rather than a guess. -Thanks""

What could i expect to pay for insurance being a first time driver?

Hi, im looking to buy my first car with some money im getting from school; it will be used of course but i would like to know if anyone can give me insight on insurance costs. I will soon be 21 years old, have had a license for about a year and a half, and i have one accident on my record (possibly) that happened almost a year ago while driving my sister's car; and i was not listed on thier insurance as a driver does that make a difference? With all that being said how much could i expect to pay for insurance? Oh and i live in Philadelphia,PA if that helps with answers. Also what additional fees should i expect to encounter outside of insurance? Thanks!""

On average how much more would the cost be for insurance for a house with a pool?

We are thinking about buying a home in So Cal that is a 4 +2 house on a 10,000 sq ft lot. The house has a pool though, and our concern would be what the cost of insurance would be. The pool is deep, and there is no diving board, and at the present time there is no fence. What do you all think? We have small children, so once we purchase the home, we will put a fence up, but we're just trying to guesstimate at this point. If anyone has any thoughts, by all means share them! I really appreciate any direction I can get with this. *I would rather not call 50 Insurance agencies to get quotes and have someone selling something I don't need yet!* Thanks a bunch.""

""Cheap sports car, and to insure and run ?""

does anyone know a sports car in the uk thats cheap, maximum 1000 pounds, cheap to insure and fuel consumption is good ? thanks""

""If you had an extra car that was paid off and cheap on insurance, would you sell it or keep it for a back up?""

If you had an extra car that was paid off and cheap on insurance, would you sell it or keep it for a back up?""

Average insurance for a 500 cc motorbike?

hi, im 18 and soon will have passed my driving test, im hoping to get a restricted Honda cbf500. but it all depends on how much the insurance is. can anyone guess the average third party insurance for an 18 year old on a restricted cbf500. o and i have a 2 year no clams bonus on my 50cc scooter. don't no if that makes any difference""

How much does a married couple spend on monthly bills?

house, insurance car..etc... Im trying to plan ahead and want to know what I'm in for and if I can manage it with two teachers salaries. oh, it would be great if you can tell me a round number of each thing. and yes, i know everyone varies, but I'd like to see what everyone else has. thanks!""

Will my car insurance be able to transfer over to another car without extra fees?

My mother-n-law has an extra car that she doesn't have insurance on because she doesn't drive it shes letting me use it for a month. If i get my own policy and pay the 6 month premium in full and add that car to it when I take that car off after i give it back to her will i have a credit that I can transfer over to my car when i get one in a couple months without paying anything extra?

Car insurance in America for non citizens on holiday?

I have a few questions about car insurance in America for non citizens. I am going to the USA this summer and will be driving alot.I have car insurance on my own car and have a full license and an international driving permit.Do i have to get insurance on the car in america or will my own insurance in ireland cover it or will i have to start another policy with an american company?Will this cost alot?My insurance here is not expensive and ive never been in an accident or made any claims.Is it possible to be put on my friends insurance as a driver and if so how much would this be cheaper then buying my own insurance?Any information would be great, i am very confused on the matter.""

How much would it cost a year to own a car like a Ferrari in INDIA? pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... answer?

a car like a porsche 911 or ferrari f430. how much would it cost a year to own. dont include the buying cost. include everything else. like insurance, tax, fuel cost, everything, etc.""

Which company provides the cheapest car insurance in the UK?

I recently passed my driving test, so for a first time driver its going to be high but what if i am an additional driver""

Will my car insurance rates increase? Please help?

I have a lease with the full mandated insurance in FL and I have Geico. There is construction on my building and while my car was parked in it's space apparently a rock or some piece of concrete from my building must have hit my moonroof and shattered it completely. I must have this fixed ASAP and am still working out who between my condo association and the construction company are going to pay for this. In the meantime I need to know if I call Geico about this incident will I be in jeopardy of having my rates increased? The car was parked in it's space, I was not driving, and it was not my fault. Thank you for answering.""

Health insurance after you've turned 18?

My mother receives Social Security checks and insurance (She had cancer, and can't work due to other conditions brought on by the chemotherapy) and because of this, I had medicaid. I turned 18 last month and I'm wondering if I automatically get cut off from her insurance, or if I stay on the plan because I'll be a student in the fall. I know the system for this changed recently, so I have no idea if I still have insurance or not.""

Insurance quote changes?

hi recently i have been looking for insurance for my car that i have purchased. i have recived a quote of 2500 on a 22/01/10 last week, 4 days later the quote has changed to 3000? i have been using go compare.com, y the sudden change? i havent changed nothing since my first quote so i do not understand this change ps i am 17yr old who has purchased a mk golf 1.4s hence high insurance price thanks in advance""

What are average prices for small business insurance?

This is for my high school project. Please answer!

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/20-yrs-old-im-wondering-how-much-insurance-would-600cc-thompson/"

a post about my crush. i need to let my feelings out somewhere.

i hung out with my crush two nights ago and not to sound like a 2010 taylor swift song, but it was a fairytale. but like, my kind of fairytale. i can’t even explain to you how relaxed i felt the whole time i was with him. when i like someone, just being around them makes me feel at ease. there’s no awkward silences, or uncomfortable body language. that’s how i usually determine who i want to be around, and who i’d rather stay away from. he doesn’t make me feel weird around him, and i don’t overthink. i’m literally..... just..... living in the moment. there. is. no. other. place. i’d. rather. be. i love that feeling. i love carrying alone with a clear mind and carefree attitude. i love not worrying about the next move, and enjoying what’s right in front of me. that’s how he makes me feel!!!!! two days later, and i still don’t want the night to end. i can’t wait until i see him again.

he’s so funny. his humor is cute. and dorky. and i kid you not, i was probably wearing this goofy ass smile the whole time. i remember being so nervous about meeting up with him. i mean, i went alone. i didn’t want him to think “wow this bitxh really has no friends.” i was worried that i’d get there and he’d already be gone. it was supposed to be a casual meet up, i mean WE’RE FRIENDS, but the virgo in me always has to overthink the worst case scenario. but i arrived at the bar, with the big upstairs room that looks over the horrendous view of dirty 6th. it’s funny how we lose our minds in such a dreadful place. it’s even funnier how that doesn’t bother me at all as long as he’s around. the bar wasn’t as crowded as a saturday night. the room was kinda empty, and the floor seemed like it stretched for miles. i walked starting at the ground, and glanced up every few seconds trying to spot him. in the midst of getting caught up in my own thoughts, i notice two feet planted right in front of me. i look up and see him...... my crush!!! it was like a movie. deadass. it was like we were the only two people in the room. he gives me a hug, and looks happy to see me. every negative thought in my mind vanishes. “hey there you are” he says. “we’re actually about to leave, but come on, you can hang with us.” bet. i’m up for it, i’m up for anything. we find his friend, his best friend, and we head out. we go to his bar across the street. his friend, who is a dj, finds interest in the dj playing that night and goes up to talk to him, leaving my crush and i alone. just like any other modern day romance, he buys me a beer and we stare at each other awkwardly (but like, cute awkward) and small talk until we get bored of the place and leave. the three of us continue to bar hop around. the whole time my crush was being the life of the party (cancer nodded). we people watched from the upstairs at this one club, and started throwing straws at people becuase we’re immature, but geez. i was laughing the whole time. everything felt lighthearted. he’s so..... cool.

then shit started to get rocky. we arrived at what would be the last bar of the night. as soon as we arrived, his friend decides to leave. i panic. this would mean my crush and i would be alone!!!!!!! fuck. his friend leaves and we sit there on this picnic table until i break the silence by saying “we should take a shot! your birthday shot!” he agrees, but also, a little distracted. “i think i’m going to talk to her.” i turn around and see this white girl sititng at the end of the table. “oh....” i start, “uhhh well okay” i stand there, a little awkward. i’m really sure what to do. i’m not about to get a shot for someone who is just going to leave me there alone. he turns around to smile at the girl, and she gives him this awkward smile back. i see her make eye contact to this guy in line buying drinks. ah ha! this girl’s already taken. do i tell my crush? well, i try, but he chooses to be a guy and not listen. hm. “i think i’m gonna go to the bathroom first.” i tell him. then i leave and let him realize on his own.

while in the bathroom, i begin to reevaluate this whole situation. 1. i know that i like him. 2. but he thinks we’re just here as friends. 3. jealously in an ugly look on me. 4. if what i think is true then that girl is out there with that other guy and he’s sititng alone by himself. i pull up my boss ass bitxh pants (even tho i was wearing a dress), and go back out there. listen. im a virgo. a mutuable sign. whatever fate decided for me, i was just going to have to deal with it. i walk back out and sure enough, he standing alone that THAT GIRL IS WITH THAT GUY!!! i let out a sigh. i knew it. i either had two options. 1. to walk back to him and act petty, distant, and uninterested bc what the fuck. or 2. pretend nothing happened and i wasn’t bothered, and be his friend. i chose the latter. i went up to the bar, made sure he didn’t see me, and asked the bartender to order me two of the sweetest shots. i knew my crush wasn’t a big fan of straight shots, which is why it would be a good idea to give him something sweet, that would drown out the taste. i got the shots, paid, and literally danced my way back to him. nelly’s “hot in here” was blasting on the speakers. he turned around to see me, and fuck, got this big smile on his face. “here you go!!! i got the two most sweetest shots!! they should be good.” i don’t know what came over me, but after that incident, i started being more talkative and open and less shy. it was a great idea on my part. earlier in the night he mentioned how he wanted to get high, so i asked him, “how long do you want to stay here?” and he responded, “i’m ready to leave when you are.” and i said “let’s go get high!!” and we ran off. from then on the vibe was different. i have it separated into two parts: before the white girl, and after the white girl. it was as if the beginning of the night was the opening act, not really sure how the night would go so we were both playing it safe. but after we left the last bar, everything felt more personal. we were actually having real conversations and joking like we hung out everyday. it reminded me of the first night we met. everything was so fast paced, but time was still going slow enough for us to wallow in every second. there was this rush!!! this burning energy that wasn’t going out anytime soon. there was literally not a dull moment. out energies bounced off each other, quick. and there was passion. i swear.

we arrived to his car that was parked at his best friend’s place. we got in his car and he quickly realized that the weed was left in his friends place. we waited for his friend to get home and went inside to get the highest of highs!!!!! “this is my friend _____’s place. as you can see..... i don’t bring just any random girl up here. consider yourself lucky ;)” asjsljsl!!!! i want to pull all my hair out. we sit down and this bitxh pulls out the weed and off we go. i notice that he has a cancer lighter..... ummmm my kink??? he points over to his friend’s dj set and his friend begins free styling while my crush and i start falling in love *ahem* i mean, talking in the background. i feel like this was one of the most crucial nights of the night. i’m kind of glad we weren’t alone because being around him and his friend, in a setting where he’s probably very comfortable, caused me to get to know a side of him i hadn’t seen before. he’s very talkative, very smart, and very opinionated, but not in a rude way (cancer nodded, again). i think what attracts me the most to him is that he seems pretty normal, like, real. he doesn’t try to be anybody that he’s not. what you see is really what you get and i like what i see. we started talking about school. he asked me what my major was, 4 months after knowing me. how hot is that?? my worst question ever is “what is your major?” i told him i didn’t know. instead of saying “well what do you like to do?” (which is my second worst question), or making me feel like a dumbfuck for not knowing, he said “hmm. well you’re really good at reading people. i can tell. and you also seem like you’re really good at talking to people too. maybe a therapist? i don’t know. i’m not telling you that that’s what you should be, but it’s always an option. i nod in agreement , and he continues, “but you’re smart, and i know you’ll figure it out.” what a perfect answer. what a perfect response. i proceed to ask him about his school life, and he gets a little stiff. kind of the way i do when people ask me. “uhhh well, i was supposed to graduate next semester, but i don’t think that’s going to happen. i have a lot of stuff going on, and i might have to be a part time student.” but that’s okay. you finished when you finish. i reassure him and then he reassures the both of us, and the next topic of the conversations appears.

i don’t know. i like him because he’s not put together, and i see a lot of that in myself. i love whenever i see my own reflection in somebody else because it’s easier to resonate and empathize and it always makes me feel more comfortable. it’s an indicator that i’m about to let my walls down, no control. we went to mcdonald’s after we got high as a kite. he drove. his friend sat in the back seat. i sat in the passenger. the windows were rolled down. i felt so chill, and i cannot reiterate how comfortable i felt the whole entire time. he started asking me questions about my best friend, noting that our friendship was “so cute.” he continues to make dumb jokes. ugh god, he’s so funny. he pays for everybody’s meal (ugh cancer nodded, once again) and then drops me off. by that time it was 4 am.

im not worried or stressed about this crush anymore. i think tuesday gave me a lot more confidence than before. i think my next move is to continue hanging out with him and being friendly. i don’t want to rush something that i really want.

HOLIC - 42 | jb x reader

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pairing: Im Jaebum x Reader

genre: enemies to lovers au | roommate au

warnings: a quick lil break from angst, so this is just suggestive fluff basically

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“Today’s the day,” was the first thing out of Jaebum’s mouth on Monday morning when the two of you found yourselves in your kitchen, preparing to have your—already traditional—bowls of cereal for breakfast before he headed off to work and you went back to your bedroom – that had become a torture chamber, really, since you hadn’t had a proper night’s sleep in what felt like a century.

For a moment, you weren’t sure what he was talking about but, after noticing the empty gym bag he’d tossed by the kitchen island and the dressy, collared shirt he was wearing, you remembered.

“Oh, your last day,” you sighed wistfully – he did not; he was more excited to move on than to reminisce. “Are you nervous about leaving the radio station?”

You knew he was – he told you so right after he’d gathered enough courage to let his boss know that he was leaving his position at the radio to pursue singing – but asking seemed fair, especially since Jaebum looked unusually chirpy.

“A little,” he admitted. “But it’s the good kind of nervous. The kind that gets your adrenaline pumping. I’m scared of what I’ll do if this doesn’t work out, of course—”

“It’s okay, I’ll raise your allowance if that happens,” you joked.

He just gave you a look, ignoring what you’ve said, and continued, “—but I’m also excited to leave that place and finally start doing something I’ve always dreamed of doing. Maybe I’ll have a breakdown over this later, not sure. It hasn’t really sunk in yet.”

“Yeah, that’s probably normal,” you nodded, taking a moment to finish chewing the crunchy corn flakes before adding, “will you be celebrating?”

“I wasn’t going to,” Jaebum said, pouring milk – that you’d left on the counter for him – over his cereal and taking his usual spot across the kitchen island from you, “but then I told Mark I was quitting my job to focus on singing,” he paused and then, out of fear of sounding overly pretentious, added, “or whatever. And, well, he wasn’t hearing it. So, long story short, we’re going to get drunk at his bar later tonight. Don’t make other plans.”

Normally, you’d have jumped at the chance to get drunk and have fun – even if it was on a Monday night, also known as, the Night Before a Yet Another Dreadful Tuesday at Your Gallery – and hanging out with Mark was always a blast. But this time you recalled the last conversation you’ve had with him – and then, consequently, realized that Mark knew about Jiho while Jaebum did not know exactly – and you found yourself fearing the night at the bar more than you feared the inevitable encounter with Jiho at your gallery tomorrow.

“Tonight? On Monday?” you asked, your question surprising him. “Unlike some people, I have work tomorrow.”

“In all the months that we’ve lived together,” Jaebum began after dramatically—and loudly—putting his spoon down, a very disappointed expression on his face, “you have never refused to get drunk with me on a weekday. Even if there wasn’t an actual occasion.”

You sighed because he was, of course, absolutely right – you’ve gotten drunk with him despite what the calendar showed – but also because you did not want to skip this night—especially since it was meaningful to Jaebum—and yet, you couldn’t help but still try to find a way out of this.

“Can I just congratulate you at home?” you asked even though you knew what his answer was going to be. “I promise it’ll be just as special.”

Trying not to get swayed by the offer – guessing what his soft spots were wasn’t difficult and Jaebum momentarily hated himself for having such a weak will when it came to you and all the potential ways in which you could have congratulated him here – he persisted.

“How about later, once we’re back from Mark’s?” he said. “I’ll see you at seven before it gets too crowded—”

“It’s Monday, Jaebum.”

“—and then—okay, wait, have you never been to a bar on a Monday night? You’re in for a surprise. You don’t know what Mondays do to people,” he countered. “Anyway. We’ll bail in an hour and then I’ll take up on your offer to congratulate me away from everyone else. How does that sound?”

“It sounds like not at all what I was suggesting.”

Jaebum tsk-tsked at this, continuing with his tongue in cheek, “I cannot believe I mean so little to you that you’re willing to skip my party just because it’s—”

“Oh no, don’t do that,” you cut him off, shaking your head. “You know that’s not what I was trying to say.”

“Oh, do I?” he raised his eyebrows, a ridiculously offended expression on his face – if singing wouldn’t work out, he should give acting a chance. “All I know is that you’re saying no to me even though you know how special this day is for me, I—”

“Jaebum—”

“But it’s fine if you don’t care about me,” he turned around on his chair, purposefully eating cereal with his back turned to you.

“It’s astounding,” you said, your voice louder, “how big of a child you are. I swear no one would believe me if I told them.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said and then, after he finished chewing, added with a quick look at you over his shoulder, “but that is very offensive. It’s like you’re kicking me while I’m already down.”

Even though you did feel a little like hurling your bowl of cereal at him, eventually, the small pout on his lips – that he would never admit to having – as he continued to look at you over his shoulder, and the expectant gaze of his eyes played on your heartstrings a little too hard and you couldn't help giving in.

“Fine,” you said. “But we really are leaving after an hour.”

You realized that one hour was not going to be how long you stayed here at all because, as soon as you and Jaebum arrived, every single one of his friends was suddenly all over the two of you. Before you even got to the bar, almost all of them had already stopped to give you a quick hug and pat him on the back, mentions of how proud they were spilling from their lips. You’d already learned that his friends were surprisingly easy-going but you’ve never seen them drunk like this—at 7 PM on a Monday, no less—and, as they progressively consumed more alcohol – Mark’s bar was never going to go bankrupt as long as he remained friends with Jaebum – they only seemed to grow friendlier.

You weren’t actually sure if Jaebum was friends with half of the city or if Mark had just invited every alcoholic in the vicinity to congratulate Jaebum tonight, but the place was crowded and nearly everyone stopped by you to say hi as they circled the club, drink after drink in their hands . Even the dancefloor at the back of the bar that you’ve yet to see in use was full of people throwing their hands in the air to a dance mix that was playing on the speakers.

“I’ve had so many drunk people breathe on me,” you spoke once you and Jaebum finally managed to reach the bar and he had helped you climb on the sole empty stool in a very gentlemanly gesture, “that I already feel drunk.”

“Yeah, my friends go all out. It’s why I love them so much,” Jaebum laughed, settling down next to you, one of his hands resting on the small of your back. “You smiled, though. Several times, too. That’s more times than I’ve got to see you smile at home.”

Your stomach sunk at this and you found yourself clearing your throat uncomfortably. “That’s not true. There’s just been a lot on my mind lately, I’ve already told you.”

He waved his hands dismissively before turning around to look for Mark – who was, for once, actively doing his job instead of chatting with you two – and then announcing cheerfully, “and that is why you’re getting drunk and not talking about anything that stresses you out. It’s just drinks and no talk tonight. Okay?”

“Ah,” you felt yourself smile, “it’s so nice of you to make it sound like I have a choice.”

“Hm, what can I say?” Jaebum played along, his free hand sneaking around your middle until he had wrapped his arms around your waist. “I’m always pleasing others.”

You raised your eyebrows, countering with a playful smile that matched his, “how many others have you pleased in your life?”

“Uh, who cares?” he replied in a purposefully deep voice that was supposed to mock every guy ever and then nearly broke character when he heard you laugh, “you’re the only one that matters.”

“Great line,” you said. “A bit overused but you can’t go wrong with a classic.”

“I’ve got some better ones up my sleeve,” he wiggled his eyebrows for more effect, “but I need, at least, three shots before I can say them without wanting to swallow a bag of soap.”

“Now that has my interest,” you turned to give Mark a wave as a way to catch his attention, “we need six shots here as soon as possible!”

Jaebum frowned just as Mark nodded with a laugh and got the shot glasses from under the bar, heading towards you two. “Wait, six?”

“Of course,” you said. “If I’m going to have to sit here and listen to your pick-up lines, I need to be drunk, too.”

“Good to see you both,” Mark spoke, fist-bumping Jaebum and giving you a clumsy half-hug over the bar. “I’ve got to tell you, though, you two are way past pick-up lines already.”

“Oh, you haven’t heard?” Jaebum joked. “We’re actually doing everything backwards. Yeah, once we’ll reach the one-year mark, we’ll go on our first date.”

Mark laughed and you were going to as well but the mention of the “one-year mark” suddenly expanded the cavity of your chest so much, all you could do was just grip the bartop tighter so you wouldn’t fall off the stool from all the beats your heart had just skipped – not that falling was possible with Jaebum’s arms around you but still. This was the first time he had openly talked about the future of your relationship – and so easily, too – so you didn’t really blame your heart for already overworking itself ten minutes into your night-out.

“Not sure how that works,” Mark replied, getting the bottle of vodka from the shelf of drinks behind him and then – in a way that was meant to show off and nothing more – pouring it into all six of the shot glasses in one fluid motion, not a single drop spilled. “But, I guess, sometimes, I’m not sure how you two work, either, so maybe it all makes sense in a completely nonsensical sort of way.”

“Oh, profound,” you said. “I already can’t tell if that was a compliment or not and I haven’t even had a single drink yet.”

“I work at a bar, honey,” Mark said, picking up a towel he’d left on the bartop a few feet away and throwing it over his shoulder with a dramatic flair. “Everything I say here is a compliment.”

He walked away to serve the other customers before you could reply. When you turned your surprised—and impressed—expression to Jaebum, he was shaking his head.

“Pretty sure Mark just told me he’s not actually my friend and it’s just been customer service all along,” you said.

Jaebum laughed. “I’m almost positive it’s one of those days when Mark warmed up a little before coming to work.”

It took you a moment to understand what he was hinting at but – one shot later – you glanced back at Mark, your eyes wide.

“Can he drink on the job?” you asked – pointlessly because he had already revealed, on your very first meeting, that he “tried” not to drink on the job – and then shook your head. “No, nevermind. I get it. I’d drink on the job, too, if I had the opportunity.”

“Hey, what did I say?” Jaebum said unexpectedly loudly. “No talking about stressful things. It’s not that kind of night.”

You turned back to look at him. “Shit, sorry, that’s right. What kind of night would you say this is, then? Will I finally get to see your best moves on the dancefloor?”

“Oh, who knows,” he teased, finishing another shot and then glancing around the bar. “I do know how to drop it low, so why not show it?”

You clapped your hands giddily – courtesy of the intoxicating scent of Jaebum’s cologne – and then laughed a lot louder than you normally would – courtesy of the second shot of vodka you’d just had. “Please do! I don’t know what brought this change in your attitude upon but I am loving it.”

“Well, it’s a special night,” he said. “And Jackson’s not here to film me and tease me for the rest of my life, so why the hell not.”

You had just picked up the final shot when you paused. “Jackson’s not here? How come?”

“He’s out of town doing something for his family—oh, hey, actually, it’s probably photography-related,” Jaebum answered, following suit and picking up his last shot glass as well. “But I didn’t ask, I’m sorry. I was kind of more focused on myself. And I acknowledge how selfish that sounds.”

“No, it’s perfectly understandable,” you said, finishing your drink in one quick gulp – and only frowning at the taste for no more than a second – and clumsily jumping off the bar stool.

“Whoa, careful,” he warned, coughing as he tried to steady you on your feet at the same time as he was doing his own shot.

But you weren’t worried about being careful as you reached for one of his hands on your waist, intertwining your fingers instead, and then exclaimed, “let’s go!”

He raised his eyebrows. “Go? We’re not supposed to leave for—”

“To hell with leaving,” you said, “we need to get you on that dancefloor so I can see what I’ve been missing.”

“Oh,” he laughed, the faint intoxication making you both feel so excited, it was almost silly. “You haven’t really missed anything, I’m pretty sure I’ve already shown you what my hips can do.”

You blinked your eyes, his words taking you off guard, and then punched him right on the shoulder.

“Hey! Keep it PG, would you?” you said, the tone of your voice about as laid-back as it could be to let him know exactly how serious you were. “We’re in a public place.”

“I’m just saying!” he tossed back, allowing you to guide him deeper into the crowd of people that had gathered in the middle of the bar.

Not all of them were dancing per se, most of them were too drunk already, so they were just responding to the loud music by swaying their bodies around in a good old dance move that you were sure was called “tall grass in the wind.” The only people actually actively jumping around and laughing were all Jaebum’s friends, so the two of you were pulled right in until you were suddenly in the very epicenter of the crowd.

“One day,” you said to Jaebum as his hands found their way back to your waist. He didn’t seem to hear you – his friends weren’t just dancing, they were screaming along to the lyrics – so you repeated yourself louder, “one day it’ll be your song playing here. I hope we’ll still be here to hear it.”

You didn’t know why you said it like that but Jaebum – although already feeling his restraints loosen as his body welcomed the alcohol – frowned in confusion. He hadn’t expected you to show any insecurity about the future of your relationship – and, actually, you hadn’t, either – especially not when everything seemed to be going so well.

���Of course,” Jaebum said, each word radiating confidence. “Why wouldn’t we be?”

“Well, you know,” you said, trying to laugh it off even though it was obvious that some part of your subconscious was very much insecure about you and him despite the alcohol you’ve already consumed, and despite having heard Jaebum talk about your “one-year mark” mere minutes ago. “Things happen. People change.”

“That makes it sound like you’re about to break up with me,” he said. “And, if I were you, I’d really reconsider. We still have around nine months left on the lease.”

You chuckled with a shake of your head. “Why would I do that? I’ve worked so hard to get rid of your ex-girlfriend. I don’t want to become one myself.”

You didn’t realize it then – your mind was too preoccupied with the smell of his cologne, the feeling of his hands sliding down to your hips, and the sound of utter joy coming from his friend’s mouths as they had the time of their lives, dancing around you – but this was the first time Jaebum didn’t freeze at the mention of Suji.

“What’s the matter, then?” he asked instead. “Where are these doubts coming from?”

“There are no doubts,” you replied. “I’m just saying. I want to be here, listening to your music with you.”

“Okay, let me one-up you,” he said. “I know you’ll be here, listening to my music with me. And, hey, maybe we won’t have to wait for that anniversary to go on an actual date. Maybe I’ll take you out on the day I release an album.”

You liked the confident way he talked about this. You liked the way he didn’t give in to his doubts by adding an “if that ever happens” at the end of his last sentence. And you liked the way he seemed to keep thinking about taking you out on a proper date the whole night tonight.

“I’d like that,” you said, the alcohol in your veins sending electric sparks throughout your body and mind. “Don’t get me flowers, though. I never know how to look after them.”

“Oh, that’s fine,” he replied. “I’ll look after them.”

Both of you laughed, the happiness on your faces mirroring each other. The sheer simplicity of the situation you were in – no Jiho, no exhibition, no worries – made you feel all the more infatuated with him, so, powered by the liquid courage provided by Mark at the bar, you suddenly leaned in to press a kiss to his lips and felt his hands grip your hips tighter.

“Here’s an idea,” Jaebum said when you pulled away a moment later, his eyes still on your lips. “How about we bail out of here early?”

You laughed again. “Oh, no, you said an hour. We haven’t been here that long.”

“I just wanted to get you out of the house,” he admitted. “You looked like you could use some fun. But now I’m thinking I may have overestimated my own ability to stay away from you. I think we can have a lot more fun by ourselves.”

Drunk Jaebum was another one of your favorite versions of him and you couldn’t help chuckling as you allowed him to pull you closer until you two turned into one, slightly ill-balanced, body of motion. Neither of you bothered to keep up with the rhythm of the song that was playing as you moved in perfect sync with each other but in a completely haphazard way to all on-lookers. Not that you cared about anyone else in that moment.

“I always have fun with you,” you whispered into his ear. “And I’m sorry I’ve made you worry by looking all dead inside for the past few days.”

“It’s okay,” his hand rubbed soothing circles on your back as he responded to you. “I just wanted to make you smile.”

“You should focus on celebrating,” you said then, pulling away slightly to give him a smile.

“I am,” he replied, his grip on your waist tightening again as he refused to allow you to pull away further.

You smiled at this, no words necessary, and the two of you returned to your own world where no stressful tomorrows existed and your lives were stuck in the happiness of this moment. You were almost delirious, honestly, but like most people who have gone insane, you weren’t able to recognize that this was only temporary. That this wasn’t real. That, soon enough, his arms would let go of you and reality would crash down all around you.

But, lost in the thrill of the moment, all rational thought abandoned, you didn’t think any other reality existed. Just this one, where you and him were dancing together—very literally—to the beat of your hearts beating as one.

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The 3000th Millenia: Part 2

I was in Art when the dreaded news came to my ears. Both Art lll honors and Music lll Honors were gathered in the library; whispers and murmurs spread through the air like wildfire.    "Alright class! Both Mrs. Kasandra and I have decided to have a conjoined project between Art lll honors and Music lll honors! Your partners have already been picked out for you. I know that you wanted to pick your own, but we couldn't allow that, I'm sorry."    "Ok, that isn't that bad."    "Today is your planning period, you and your partner will get to know each other and will create a mix of music and art to portray a common denominator in both of your lives."

   I quietly listen to the names being called, waiting to find out who my partner was.    "I hope they don't mind my drawing style and that I'll be drawing and not creating some fancy sculpture. When will they-"    "Mane Foster"    "About time."    "It's pronounced Måne ma'm"    "Oh, sorry. Måne Foster and Sorin Ross"    My blood ran cold and my face paled "WH-WHAIT WHAT!?!?" Sure enough when I looked over to Sorin he was already on his feet and moving over to me.

   "Oh god..." I groaned inside. Sorin sat down across from me, which sorta surprised me. I honestly thought he would sit right next to me and flirt with me. "So then. Were partners!" the blond chirped with a happy expression. I was terrified, and intrigued at the same time to get to know Sorin; especially after finding out his parents hadn't been in his life like mine had. "Looks like it" we chatted a little not really finding out anything because he was constantly flirting with the other girls at the table next to us!

   The bell rang and I sighed, "this is due next Tuesday, you" I said in a stern tone, making Sorin look up at my standing form. "Are coming over tonight so we can finish this. Got it?" He blinked once twice and we stared at each other. Me glaring at him and him staring me with an expression that resembled a cut- a kitten, yea a normal kitten. "I don't know where you live..." Groaning and rolling my eyes I took a scrap of paper and scribbled my apartments address on it. "There, now you do." With that I turned and left.

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   I walked into my apartment and quietly padded to the window to see if Dolly was back yet, which he wasn't. It was normal for Dolly to be a little late so I was ok with it. Turning I walked to my room and retrieved my sketch pad; sitting down at the island I flipped open the book and began to work more on the drawing I planned to publish anonymously to the school for the ceiling mural. All the Art classes had been given a prompt, 'the missile had been fired at the moon, and landed. The moon...', and told to draw what happened to the moon. I decided to draw a moon that looked like a broken mirror. (Drawing in 3000th Millenia (1)) It was an elegant drawing.

   The door bell rang, to my surprise, I got up from my seat and walked over to my door which was being nocked on repeatedly. "Alright, alright. I'm coming Im coming!" I growled, said nocking stopped and I opened the door. I would forever regret changing into my pajamas, a simple whitish blue tank top that had a low neck so it showed a bit, pajama shorts(basically booty shorts), and an extremely messy bun, early. There stood Sorin gaping at my me.

   My jaw dropped, I had completely forgotten that he was coming over to work on that project. "U-ummm" I looked away "J-Just get inside!" I squeaked. My face turning red from embarrassment, indefinitely embarrassment. He walked right into the kitchen and then found my sketch book. "Oh wow!" I turned my attention to him at that exclamation. "H-Hay!" I quickly snatched up the book and held it to my chest "it's not done yet so you can't look at it!" I snapped. Sorin held his hands up in surrender, "sorry! I didn't realize that I couldn't look at it, but it's really good!" he chirped.

   Then the little devil of the hour came nocking on the window. "Hmm?" Sorin looked over to see Dolly tapping on the window with his beak. "Oh that's Dolly, my pet sparrow." I sighed opening the window for the little bird, and in fluttered said bird right over to circle above Sorins head as if asking "who's this? Who's this?" Dolly then landed on my shoulder and faced Sorin with a curious look,    "Dolly this is Sorin, Sorin this is Dolly. There now you both know each other."    "Hello Dolly!" Sorin chirped.    "Chirp" replied the bird.    Sighing and shaking my head I set my book down.

   "Ok so what are we going to go on about, SORIN GET OUT OF MY CABINETS!!    "But I'm hungry." :'(

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   "So now that we've settled how bout we work on our project." I said through granting teeth. "Ok" was Sorins response. Suddenly his phone went off. "Oh god what now?!" I groaned in my head. "Oh, Oh no. Oh shoot! I've really got to go, sorry Måne, but this is extremely important, and I've got to go now. I'm really sorry, how bout tomorrow you come to my house. Here's the address" Sorin said in an extremely rushed manner righting down his homes address on the palm of my hand with a blue pen. "Ok, bye. Again I'm really sorry it's been a blast but I've got to go! Bye" and sure enough there went the blond demon. I groaned out and flopped backwards onto my couch.

What the actual heck!