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Sorry for having opinions on every engineering post but like you guys know I have opinions on engineering.
#totes bro#i regularly say i really think engineers are some of the worst people#just get like a fucking humble job doing something necessary idk what the big deal is not making a ton of money#will daddy not be proud of you? is that what youre scared of?#theres a reason that literally all of my coworkers come from a low income background#because Daddy would be so not proud of us#for not getting a cool job :(#if you dont make a lot of money people see that as a failure#and they care more about that than what they actually achieve professionally#if you're not from money 68k is a really well paying job but if daddy is a P.E. maybe youre sad#what i mean by engineering is competitive is that everyone is trying to big dick contest with each other for no reason#and so the working environment can suck because people are too obsessed with looking good that they put other people down
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some of yall should consider unlearning your superiority complex regarding drugs for real. you can talk about the issues with drugs from production to trade, addiction and social consequences without demonising individual drug users. if you want to be supportive of homeless, mentally ill, prostituted, traumatised and otherwise marginalised women - who obviously are not all on drugs but might be at a higher risk - you cant go around and scream about how evil they are for struggling with addiction and substance abuse.
a lot of people with substance abuse issues have started young and often have a family history of drug and alcohol abuse. and if this is the case for you and you didnt develop addiction - congratulations, good for you. if you could just turn addiction on and off, a lot of people would be a lot happier, but fact is that most people with addiction will relapse even if they try going sober, and guilt just makes it more difficult to stop.
if i have to see one more feminist comparing drug use to watching porn i will go feral. porn is harmful to the people in it and women as a group, drugs are primarily self harm. which is an issue but not a moral failure. a lot of porn consumption is literally getting off on violence, the product is the harm done to others, meanwhile buying drugs - like many other products under capitalism - is supporting a system that sadly exploits the most vulnerable without enacting or even engaging with violence yourself. and additionally, a lot of women exploited by the sex industry are on drugs. now what? they are the same as porn consumers? fuck off.
of course it is unethical to buy drugs when it directly supports gang violence, and i understand that someone whose home and people they know have been destroyed by drug use or the drug trade doesnt have the patience for drug users, but its also extremely oversimplified to think these issues will be solved if people just stopped buying drugs. 
blaming drug users for gang members raping and murdering women as a feminist is fucking wild. a woman smoking a joint is responsible for a gang member sexually assaulting another woman? like okay. people also dont need chocolate or coffee which is produced under infamously exploitative conditions with no regard for human rights, should people stop buying that also, or is it more useful to the workers to establish fair trade and urge governments to force corporations to adhere to human and workers rights? what good is it to coca farmers to demonise drug users when gang violence is a result of systemic destabilisation of governments and poverty in production countries as well as the war on drugs, which is directly supported by the demonisation and stigmatisation of addicts?
and dont get me started on gendered aspects of gang violence and how masculinity and machismo play into it. if gangs dont sell drugs, they go more into human and sex trafficking, weapons, and other shit, as long as corruption and poverty are not alleviated. the local drug dealer is also just trying to get by and make cash in a rigged system.
in my humble opinion, legalisation of production, trade and consumption would help both the regions where its produced and the people affected and exploited in the drug trade as well as addicts because a fair trade, workers rights and unions and so on could be established, and money saved on persecuting drug dealers and users could go into rehabilitation programs, and taxes could be used to support everyone involved. resources wasted on the war on drugs could be used to fight remaining gang activity. and so on!
drug use in dedicated places and moderation just like alcohol is not the issue, the issues are one: the production and trade, which is illegalised and criminalised and because of this in the hands of brutal gangs (while other products under capitalism are in the hands of unregulated corporations who care as much about human rights and dignity as gangs do); and two: addiction and other consequences of substance abuse like lowered inhibitions and the link to domestic abuse and other violence, which is also not helped when drug users are stigmatised and buying drugs is criminalised.
i completely understand if you personally take issue and voice criticism of buying drugs especially towards privileged westerners as someone from a country of production, all im asking is some more nuance and as a feminist, compassion with women who have substance abuse issues. no need to coddle anyones feelings, but most addicts - especially women - already feel bad about struggling with addiction and frankly dont need women telling them what a terrible person they are for it, or be told they are just like people who get off on sexual violence.
#long post#i already know people will unfollow over my unpopular drug posts but so be it#some issues are not black and white#and you can point to the consumers choice but then dont get stuck on individual solutions to systematic problems#and telling addicts to just stop… lmao thanks i bet they hadnt thought of it#and the social consequences are not that different from alcohol which is legal and probably too normalised in many cultures#singling out drugs as the root of all issues is just regurgitating conservative rhetoric#drugs
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Okay so
I did some research and apparently this "tumblr is dying" thing is KINDA true
What it is is that, Automattic, the company that runs Tumblr, is moving all employees off of tumblr and onto other places. Some are saying this means they have a "skeleton crew" running it, but there's more.
Apparently Automattic ALSO just posted about job openings at Tumblr! So what the heck right?
The way I interpret this is that Atumattic isnt writing off Tumblr yet, but they're changing the management of it in hopes of making it profitable. Which means whats coming most likely isnt Tumblr getting taken down...but instead, Tumblr becoming EVEN MORE like other social media sites. Something I've been predicting for years; after all, to corporate upper management, they see our user numbers (which are still quite significant), and the lack of profits, as a failure to monetize properly. Which is why i WAS against all this "dont give Tumblr money they suck lol", not because they didnt suck...but because it can get a whole lot worse. But again, in search of a great thing, we squandered a good thing. Such is how capitalism works; if you cant pay the tithe for mediocrity then they will make it worse and enforce the tithe MORE. Capitalism never seeks greatness, it only seeks control. I do understand the completely valid hatred of the management Tumblr had, but trying to make it perfect was always a fucking fantasy. No matter how much you withhold your pay, they can always replace you with people who wont.
Anyways. I'll probably stay here unless it gets controlled by republican loonies. If it DOES get controlled by them, well, you can find me on Bluesky. I'm also gonna start back up on Instagram I guess. But both of those are going to be for business/art. Socially, well. No place left to shitpost in a way i enjoy, i'll probably try to get more into discord, where my name is pixeljade, same as here. I guess.
Honestly i'm hoping forums, and other independent online spaces come back. I'm sick of corporations. I hope every corporation explodes and dies. They only seek greater control in desperation to please their bloodsucking shareholders. Death to capitalism.
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Hello! How are you today? I don’t know if you can ask this through tarot or whatever other spiritual means, but could you please ask each BTS member how they manage to stay so disciplined throughout life? Thank you and I hope you have a nice day!
How do BTS stay disciplined through life
For entertainment purposes only
I wanna start off by saying that intuitively, the first thing i got is that it is not always about just discipline. Sometimes its their personal values, the fact that is it their job, they have each other, they have the support of ARMY, and the entire company is gather around their success stories. Individually they all have different means of staying disciplined, but it is not a personal or moral failure for other people to not have their disciplines, especially if they dont currently have the means or support they do currently in their career.
Kim Namjoon:
A mix of both thoughtfulness and inspiration. He plans a lot. A lot of him in the past also wanted to prove himself, as a leader, as rapper, as an artist and idol. It's balancing when to take it slow and when to go fast.
Kim Seokjin:
A lot of it is about how far he has come, and how further he sees himself go. He is constantly realizing dreams and finding new ones to look forward to. He also remembers a lot of the struggles, of when BTS almost stopped being BTS. He has gained so much passion for music, even dance and performance over the years.
Min Yoongi:
He finds so much joy and excitment in music. Its like it is giving him fresh breaths of air everytime. That is where his soul shines the most. He has some regrets from the past, where he was not taking care of himself as much and was struggling more, but he is now golden.
Jung Hoseok:
He knows he's THE DEAL. He knows he is both admired and envied for his dance skills. Bro shines and he knows it. He knows his team depends on him and he depends on them, and he loves seeing them grow. He also know to go with the flow, work when he can but not so hard he can get seriously hurt. He balances taking care of himself, his mind and body bc he knows they are his work tools. He learned to cherish them the same way car lovers cherish an old car to make it work as long as possible. His discipline also comes from how healing dancing and rapping is for him, it's a balm over his old woulds, especially the fact that dance is now his career when his family struggled with money when he was younger and him as well before debut.
NB: I dont think i have ever seen Hoseok talk that much in a reading i published.
Park Jimin:
I think he struggled more with not working than with working. He has such high expectations of himself he is currently letting go. He is learning how to be more compassionate with himself and how to be more in tune with his intuition and himself in general.
Kim Taehyung :
I think he is relying on less-than-healthy behaviors to tap into his inner resources. He has very difficult periods, where his emotions run wild and he has a hard time staying grounded. Overall, his stability and passion are his crutches in order to keep a hold on his emotions in difficult times.
Jeon Jungkook:
Seven started playing on someone's tiktok next to me lol
So he's saying his type of discipline is not about forcing things anymore, but abotu doign with the cards you have been dealt with. Got hurt ? Work without worsening it. Too tired or sore ? Work on singing or do voice warm up exercises. Things happen that we have no control over, but if we have true discipline, then long term effort will matter more than random bursts of not being able to work it out. His music is his passion and happiness and he's going along with its flow .
#bts tarot#jungkook tarot#yoongi tarot#hoseok tarot#namjoon tarot#jimin tarot#seokjin tarot#taehyung tarot
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Hello, I'm from Gaza City because of the war,my house was destroyed. We lost everything,my family and I did not have anything left. We left our homes in search of a safe place and we were displaced three times to different places to survive, but unfortunately there's no safe place in Gaza. My mother is very sick and she's a kidney failure patient in need of treatment outside. She suffers from LS. Help me and my family to survive. Please, your small donation can make a huge difference. A friend outside Gaza has come in to help me run the donation program so that my mother can be evacuated
IM Sorry, I cant do it, I dont have money nor bank account, because Im a minor but if you see this can you send a link to know where to put the donations? I will do anything to make it reach lots of People!
#free gaza#gaza genocide#free palestine#From The River to the sea#donations#donations needed#donations for palestine#donations appreciated#donate
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This is my boy Charlie
If you give me your ear I'd like to tell you his story.
I found Charlie at a shelter in 2019 and I fell in love right away. As I was getting to know him the workers told me that he had come and gone from the shelter often, the most recent time coming back from a family with small children who tormented him. On the white patch on his chest there was a blue stain from a sucker that was stuck to him. One of his previous owners had claimed he was so aggressive that they completely declawed him. This poor baby had been picked up and dumped in 7 years. Needless to say I couldn't leave him there.
When I brought him home he was extremely skittish, not wanting to interact with anyone and hiding under my bed basically for 3 days. But it didn't discourage me, I sat on my floor putting food and water where he could get it and just calmly talking to him about anything. By the night of the third day he ended up jumping up on my bed and laying by me. Anytime I moved he would tense but eventually we both fell asleep.
It took a long time to build his trust but 4 years later and we have an unbreakable bond. Every second it took to build was worth more then I can imagine. It's cliche but it was really him who saved me.
The last year he's been having some weird behaviors, the most blatant one is peeing everywhere. I mean everywhere. He peened on beds, clothes, the carpet, just about anywhere but the litter box. I took him to the vet right away and found he had a UTI. Great, I can take care of that with antibiotics! But after he finished them he was still peeing outside the litter box. I thought then that maybe it was the stress of having two new dogs in the house, something behavioral. I did everything, got special litter, picking everything up, got hormone therapy, anxiety meds, spending extra time with him. Everything. None of it was working and I was at a complete loss. I had him checked for another UTI but it came back clear. Eventually I took him to a different vet and asked for a complete blood check because I knew something was wrong.
It turned out something was wrong. Charlie has diabetes. When I tell you I was heartbroken for taking so long to figure it out, thinking it was behavioral, thinking it was nothing but a UTI... words don't describe how guilty I feel. But I'm glad I caught it early, before I found him in keto acidosis. I'm very blessed
The only issue is I am in a horrible financial situation. I'm barely making by and a lot of the time I can't afford groceries. I never let this stop me from giving the best care to my pets, in fact that's where most of my time and money goes to (other then my own medical expenses as I have many disabilities). Instantly I knew I needed help affording insulin for him.
That's why I'm here. I have a GoFundMe that I will use to save up enough for a year of insulin. If I could get a year I'm hoping I can get out of my issue and save up enough to be able to afford it myself. I know it's a lot, I know it's a long shot but I'm hoping for a miracle. I know many people won't be able to donate but even if you just share this, I will be eternally grateful.
If you've made it this far, thank you so so much. Thank you for listening to me and I hope this is able to reach the people who can help me take care of my baby boy
PLEASE SHARE 💙
!!UPDATE!!
Hello everyone, I thought I would make an updated fundraiser as well as give more information to what I have learned over the year since making my original fundraiser.
Charlie is in heart failure. I still haven't accepted this, even while looking up treatments and seeing the life expectancy. I'm stretched thin with his diabetes treatment and I'm not sure what any heart treatments would be. He is my old man now, 11 years old and still has a car engine purr. This fundraiser is for insulin for a year, which I'm hoping to make the best year of his life.
I want to thank everyone who even took the time to read this, it truly means the world to me.
#gofunme#anything helps#please share#fundrasier#diabetes#diabetic#insulin#my cat#cats#furbaby#help me#go fund him#please help#share#chronic illness#animal illness#share awareness#funding#pets#love pets#sharethelove#shareable#please#i need him#I need help
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~~Montgomery Sass~~
Aka.. let’s talk about Madisons (probably undiagnosed) BPD from someone with BPD.
Madison is Canon very rejection sensitive and fears abandonment heavily. She’s quick to tell someone to just go ahead and leave but we see in apocalypse she’s actually sad when she feels like everyone has forgotten her, and it’s also shown when she proposed her and Zoe share Kyle, but ends up being left out.
Madison has never held a stable relationship OR a friendship.. she’s so quick to quit because if she quits first, then people won’t leave her.
A lot of her attitude is a show, she’s a movie star who never really got any positive attention from her parents. They used her for fame and money and that was it.
It’s a toss up between who her favourite person could be between Zoe and Cordelia, Zoe is on her level and madison take it upon herself to be the leader, and make sure Zoe ‘settles’ in. However cordelia is very much so the only R E A L mother figure Madison has ever seen, and we see her do a lot to try and seek her approval… between the lines of her bad girl..
I DONT NEED ANYBODY
….Act that she has going on. It’s made clear that she D O E S and wants people to be there for her and recognise her good doings among her bad. Her moods swing in an instant as soon as she feels threatened, especially by sense of failure or FEELING like no one else believes in her. She doesn’t pass all of the seven wonders and she’s so quick on her exit because she doesn’t feel like there’s a reason for her to stay if she’s not good enough to be the supreme.
We also hear about Madison’s past with addiction with drugs and alcohol at such a young age. But she needed a way to cope right? Being the bread winner for her family she had a lot on her shoulders. But she does a lot of reformation and we see that through out the show along side her EXTREMELY.. impulsive behaviour and hot headed anger. She sets a curtains on fire because a boy rejected her, she puts Misty in a coffin because she unbeknowingly threatens her safety, in A) becoming supreme and B) just getting attention from cordelia.
And instead of feelings like she can talk about her feelings?? which shes never been allowed to do, she acts impulsively.
We also see her recklessness at the party, she finds herself too deep in a situation she thought she had control over and is then embarrassed when Zoe tried to tell cordelia what happened and WHY madison flipped the bus.
We see madisons Great Depression after her brush with death. She just wants to feel SOMETHING, and if that be pain then so be it, she talks through feelings of emptiness and numbness during her monologue. She’s lost touch with reality.
But what can you expect… when you’ve just dies and come back to life.
This is just a very brief overview of Madison’s behaviours, she’s a good person underneath all of her armour, we see that when she offers to help Violet before she leave the murder house. Madison aside from all the shitty things she did, had a lot of shitty things happen to her and she was doing her best. I think given the chance and a safe space that was less hectic we would have see a lot more of her softer side.
#ahs headcanons#headcanon#ahs coven#ahs#american horror story#madison montgomery#multi royalty#multi royalty ooc#multi royalty edits
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Misunderstanding
Pairing: Bloom x Sky, Bloom & Andy,
Rating : T
Genre: romance, friendship, love
Length: short.
Who would have thought that living on earth would have been a nightmare for the boys? Not only were they facing troubles, but they could absolutely not fit in this society. Hell, Timmy out of them all had found a job easily...
Their relationship with their girlfriends had deteriorated immensely and that was a shock. Riven could barely control himself. He was jealous and anxious at all times. Brandon was angry and desperate to make up with Stella. And Sky wanted nothing more than to behead that Andy guy.
Tree boys were barely on speaking terms with their girls. Here they were, sitting like morons on the Fruity Music bar stools listening to Andy's group getting ready for the night. Sky could not even glance his way, let alone listen to his voice every single night. He had discovered a side of himself he loathed more than anything. The jealous and arrogant kind of the prince. A little voice in his head had been born in the last months, telling him stuff that before would have put him to shame.
At school, he was far from being the only prince. He could at least remember seven other princes all spread out in all grades. However, out of them all, he was the most influential one. Heraklion was massive when it came to its power and its money. Being an alley to Isis, Domino and a few other kingdoms did have its perks. However, Sky was very different from those princes. He absolutely despited the royal conception of classes and power. His dad had forced him into adopting it, but Sky was not conservative, classist doctrines and it showed a lot in school. In comparison to the other royals, he never showed off, preferred to hang out with "normal" people, and hell, he had ditched a princess for a "commoner". But now, at that precise moment, he was frustrated. The little voice in his head was telling him to show Andy how rich, how smart and how powerful he truly was. This was not him.
"Merlin, I sound like my dad..." He wishpered, dropping his head in his hands.
"What"?
"Nothing Helia, Forget it." He mumbled back to his friend.
"Well, i dont know what happening to you but Andy is coming toward us and I don't think he wants a glass of water."
At this, Sky straightened his back and looked at the dark-headed musician. True to Helia's words, Andy was coming toward him. He rolled his eyes and could not stop himself from tightening his jaw, a flash of the musician hugging Bloom coming to his mind.
"Hum, hey Sky. I just wanted to ask if I could speak to you real fast?"
A few swear words came to his mind. "Get the hell away from me" he wanted to scream at him, but he stopped himself. From the corner of his eyes, he could see Riven's face getting red. Oh how fun it had been to bond with Riven over the common enemy.
"It's about Bloom, I think I need to clarify a few details with you."
Sky thought he could punch him. He hated how her name sounded in his month. Disgusting. Sky felt someone nudging him and saw Helia's eyes on him. He sighted loudly and followed Andy outside of the bar.
"Alright, you have five minutes." Said the blond, crossing his arms on his chest.
"Yeah, right. Sooo..." Andy was struggling. The guy was bigger and taller than him and it did make him uncomfortable. Not mentioning the way he carried himself. That was intimidating. Andy thought he looked like some emperor walking around the place. Well, the truth was close enough... "I wanted to clarify the situation with Bloom and me... I know I did say we used to date, and it's not completely false. But, the thing is, it was a very long time ago. I don't feel that way about her at all." Seeing Sky death glare, he understood that he needed to give more context. "The thing is, I love messing around with her. Telling Stella and Musa that I used to date Bloom was just a sort of... Inside joke, you know?" He cracked a smile expecting the same from Sky. Well, that was certainly a failure. "What I mean is that I do care about Bloom" Sky tensed. Wrong move he thought. "Buuuut, I see her as a friend. A little sister."
"What the f-"
"Wait it sounds a bit wrong like that considering you guys all think we actually dated." Sky was now lost. "I mean we did. But we were like eleven and I think it lasted like tree weeks..."
Sky's mouth dropped. He looked at the musician, completely lost. He would not even call that dating...
"It was just a way to annoy Bloom you know... Tell her friends I was her ex... It's not wrong but, I mean, hum, not true either. Like it wasn't serious at all. We were kids and had no conception of what love or a relationship were."
"I don't understand... You always hold her hand, you hug her..." Sky was loosing his patience.
"Because that's always the way we behaved. Listen man, I have known her for years. Like maybe since kindergarten. And we always did that. So yeah, I get it, it does send the wrong ideas, but that's not what we are. Bloom isn't like that"
"I know that, thank you." Sky cut him.
"I know dude. I'm not doing this for you, but for her. She hates what's going on but she's mad at you for jumping to conclusions. I also know how stubborn she can be. Believe me when I say that she made our childhood hard! You guys don't know how times she would get into fights because she was too stubborn. The girl could not contain herself..." Andy laughed at the memories of a small Bloom, pigtails and all, running after other kids to show them how right she was.
Sky took a deep breath, he certainly did. But how could he not? Stella had said he was her ex. And Mitzi had been telling him the same over and over. Maybe she was truly evil like the girls said. Oh how fucked was he... Understanding his reaction, Andy patted his shoulder quickly and left him alone. He did not want to be around when the couple would discuss their issues. Still, he left, a small smile on his lips. He liked the guy.
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This one was in my drafts for months. I much prefer this version over the mess season 4 was...
Here are some similar ff :
Witch love
The Queen's Garden
rain on us : Part 1
A nightly routine : Flora/Helia
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i defeated Disco Elysium
dont worry i bought it before the za/um buyout
i have nothing but good things to say about this game
HOWEVER
i am weak
okay so it takes a lot of energy out of me to play this game. usually i can sit my white ass down and crank out some solid gameplay for 8 hours straight if you dont stop me, ive got high gaming stamina. i remember (very little of) the time i played Dead Cells for 40 hours straight. i can play DE for like.. an hour and a half tops
i dont really know why! i can play emotionally involved games, i can play text-heavy games, and i can play management games without breaking a sweat. theres just something about this game that drains me
again, i love this game. the setting and the presentation and the dialog and the characters and the mystery and the politics its all perfect, no notes.
but like...
okay so. i wake up. the sweet old lady is really into cryptids, and also casually racist. then i talked to the hardie boys, who all expressed their hatred in me in unique ways, which i deserve because im a cop. then one of them kill me. reload save
then i kill myself. reload save
i talk to the bookstore owner who is making her child work in the cold at dawn. i break into the back of her store, haunted by the ghost of business failures. i backtrack to kims car for a flashlight, mindful not to run as he passively made fun of me for it yesterday. theres an ice cream machine i cant use, an empty polar bear fridge, and a half-finished ARG with a password i dont know. i waste money i dont have on a book about The Pale because im desperate to make this poor bastard no longer reliant on booze
then i talk to fucking measurehead. hes the "racial realist" that speaks in all caps and kept telling me to bring my army to war so he can make my "ham sandwich race" extinct, offhandedly mentioning the importance of The Pale
it is noon
i think i just get overwhelmed. theres so many stats and checks that i need to keep track of that i feel my eyes start to get heavy. again, i cannot stress enough that this is not a complaint i have against the game, this is just be recounting my experience with it
speaking of, my build! heres some screenshots of how i shook out in the endgame
for my stats, i tried to have a more speech-focused build early on, and that was a baaaaaaad idea. i spread myself out too evenly and didnt have a crutch stat so i was just kinda mid at everything, especially since i didnt wanna rely on substances. this is a roleplaying game and MY raphael ambrosius costeau is using his erotic self-asphyxiation induced traumatic brain injury as a fresh start!
i uh. probably shouldve said this earlier but i feel its important to stress that im not making any of this up. these are all real things that happen and exist in this game
anyway, as the final demonstration of my playthrough,
woah this reminds me of high school
beyond that, i dunno what else to say. its *Disco Elysium*, i dont think its possible to make a tumblr account without seeing people sing this games praises. please pirate it so you dont give copyright trolls more money
#defeated#disco elysium#god damn it really took a month to finish this#in my defence i didnt like skipping past any narration#that includes everything from idiot doom spiral and the interactive objects
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The Counsel Of God
MEMORY VERSE OF THE WEEK
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+ Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
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VERSE OF THE DAY
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+Psalm 73:24-25 You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. 25 Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth.
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** SAY THIS BEFORE YOU READ; HERE’S SOME CHRISTIAN TRUTHS **
I AM LEAD BY GOD
I AM LISTENING
I AM LEARNING
I NEED JESUS
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When the Holy Spirit leads us , we do not have to worry about anything. We don’t have to worry if he will tell us the wrong thing to do and we don’t have to worry about him deciding later to change his mind; when God guides us, nothing will go wrong unless he wills it; a lot of times, we look at trouble and problems as a bad sign, but sometimes they aren't we must look at them as part of the process.
Every day its essential that we ask God what do he want us to do, how do he want us to handle this or that and he will tell us EXACTLY WHAT WE NEED TO KNOW. Many of us like to do things our way instead of listening to the Holy Spirit . The lord guided David about big and small things because David tried his best to include God in everything. That is why the verse says, "You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny." because he knews who will guide him, he knew who will bring him to where he should be.
Many of us feel that we are behind because of what we see other people have, but we aren't; some of us are right where we need to be. God has a plan for our lives, and he isn't going to rush us through because we want to be somewhat , or on a different journey , no my friends. God is going to take his time with us and allow us to grow according to how he sees fit
Verse 25 : Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth.”
See, he said, I desire you more than anything on earth”. We can desire money, lots of food, vacation, housing, etc., but David said, I dont care about all these things; I desire you. If you think about it, if David wrote this during his time as a king, he had everything, but he didn't care; he just wanted him, and if he wrote this being a shepherd boy, he had nothing and still wanted God he desired a relationship so deeply with God that nothing else matters, and that's how we need to be , we must not desire gold or riches but just God because when we seek God. We desire him wholeheartedly; we won't need anything but him, and he will take care of our needs; what are you needing? What are you desiring? What are you longing for?
Verse 26: My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.”
David tells us here: my health, my failure, and my spirit might be at their lowest, but God will forever be my strength; he said he's mines forever; he claimed God as his, and a lot of people can't do that or say that, they desire so much to be theirs that they don’t have room in the heart for God, but David did, what we have to understand what's in our heart comes out, it might come out in our speech, it might come out in our actions, but we have to be careful what we allow to entertain us or who we fall in love with or what we give our time too. We must allow nothing to stop us from spending time with God; we can't allow emotions to dedicate our lives.
Verse 28:" But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.":
It feels so good to be in the presence of God, to serve him, to know what he wants. When we say I make God my shelter we are saying I gave my heart to him, I gave my mind to him; I gave him life when we genuinely do this, our ways won't be like it used to be it will be totally different, we will steer away from things of the flesh we wouldn't want to make him unhappy or grieve the presence of God.
We have to make sure also that we tell everyone about his goodness, give testimonies of hard times and now good times, and tell them what he brought you from to where he placed you right now, we all have a past and it’s not so great but when we surrender our life to God it don’t matter .
Psalm 73:1 Truly God is good to Israel, to those whose hearts are pure"
At the beginning of this chapter, this verse was stated, but within this verse, it tells us when our heart is pure, we are closer to God than we can imagine; when we have a pure heart, we desire the things of the spirit and not the things of the flesh.
**Today the Holy Spirit wants to lead us through whatever we have going on , he wants to show us a better way to handle situations and people , David, Peter , Saul , Moses all trusted in God , and they did nothing more or less then what God have them strength to do . In this season of our life whether we are in the waiting season or lonely season , whatever the case may be we must trust in God .
Jesus was led into the wilderness by the Holy Spirit and he was tempted by Satan when God leads us he is preparing us for something great he is preparing us to build and grow in him ! Are you ready to do that in your life ? Are you ready to allow God to guide you through your season today . ©Seer~ Prophetess Lee
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Heavenly father help us to be led by you alone we seek your guidance about the things we have going on in our life . Lord we desire more wisdom and knowledge ,we ask you to pour out your wisdom unto us show us your ways please . Father we know that we must submit to your ways and we will . We ask you to forgive us if we have defied you in anyway. Please help us to be more focus on hearing your voice if it’s anything blocking this please remove it . Lord we want to be a person after your heart please help us to do that day and night in Jesus Name amen
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+ Isaiah 30:21 And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.
+ James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.
+ John 16:13 When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.
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Proverbs 8
Revelation 22
SOS 2
Acts 3
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#bible#bible quotes#christian quote#daily devotion#daily devotional#inspiration#scripture#bible verse#christian life#christan life#holy spirit#holy bible#bible devotions#bible scripture#bible study#bibledaily#christian bible#bibletruth
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i do think that every older western white tourist who gets marriage scammed is a little bit at fault, especially when there is a considerable age gap.
im not saying a relationship with someone of a different economic or cultural background can not work or is unrealistic, but i think a lot of these people look past red flags (for example the age gap, moving too fast, love bombing, secretive behavior and how their friends and family react to them) because they WANT someone who is younger and financially dependent on them and has to stay with them for a while after they marry to get citizenship in a western country where they hope to have more opportunities.
and yes, i think often they also fetishise the „exotic“ looks or have white savior syndrome. if youre on vacation or travelling in/to a country where people are way economically disadvantaged, and someone with a huge age gap strikes up an intense relationship with you, you should be wary and i think those people arent actually as naive as they act when everything goes south, i think they willingly ignored it. why would someone 20, 30 or 40 years younger than you from the other side of the world hit you up on social media, with no prior connections to you? be for real.
i know there is a lot of manipulation going on and i also do feel a bit bad for the women that happens to because women are raised to chase true romantic love and after a certain age, get treated like a failure for not having a husband. meanwhile sex tourism is predominantly a male issue and men get raised to use money to make women do what they want and they see a wife as a maid and sex object anyways. that is also why „mail brides“ are a thing but „mail husbands“ not so much.
i know that loneliness can make you do stupid things but come on maybe consider a partner with less of a power imbalance?
please dont read this as a general statement on intercultural relationships, they can and do work. but maybe for a relationship to work you should start out with someone your age who you met under inauspicious circumstances and who you can have a proper conversation with, which means someone who either speaks your language or you speak theirs. how is there supposed to be an equal relationship when there are racial, cultural, lingual, economic AND age differences and disadvantages? what do you even have in common?
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complaininh
hoping praying i can switch my schedule soon. spoke to my manager today, she said somebody on afternoons is quitting so that works for her. not quite sure who it is she means but, neat.
i keep having like. a daily fucking mental breakdown and i am not okay with it. even when I'm okay, my future feels like it has been stolen. i force myself to look at my goals, but they feel pointless and unsatisfying. nothing is good. i live only to talk to other people, but even that can hurt. I can't create right now. i barely want to.
I've been eating a lot, trying a variety of things, desperately hoping something will satisfy this emptiness. it's making me worse. I can't talk about food stuff with anybody though. or about drinking. just in general people in my life are so used to me being uptight, neurotic, and in control - if i mention im struggling w overeating or drinking theyre like "good :) you should eat more." "oh cool, you're drinking again, i missed drinking w you" like hun no... but i dont want to show them how bad it's getting.
these r people i get to see once every few months. so like. i can mask it to be like I'm doing things reasonably for the time we r together so they don't understand. they don't understand that I've been falling the fuck apsrt again. im almost to the point I wouldn't mind being hospitalized again. maybe i need intensive fucking treatment. idk!
my memory has been like a sieve too. every day blends. an ongoing nightmare with bright spots where i get to talk to people.
it's so stupid that I'm making good fucking money but I'm almost as miserable as when i was homeless. at least then i had fucking company.
i normally clean my house daily w a weekly deep clean but somehow it's gotten disgusting all of a sudden. I don't know when i stopped cleaning. I don't want to fix it. im just fucking hiding in bed n trying to brainstorm. how can i fix thisbhow can i fix me. I can't do this alone humans arent meant to be alone but my pride is so damn big. the shit I say constantly on the internet i would never say irl. but theres stuff ive been too scared to say on the internet too.
if i wasn't so scared of guns idve been dead two weeks ago. if i wasn't a coward I'd use the pills i got in march. i want to live though!!!! i really fucking do!!!! but this alone shit is unbearable. I don't even feel like a person. i feel so unworthy of life of living. everyone else seems to be so connected and i can't find my way in. whens the last fucking time i was held? when did i last feel loved? I don't want to chase people away with my insecurities so i bluff like i think im important to some people but its just. so fucking hollow somehow. when i die i will be forgotten in a week. i both want that and im terrified of it. but there's no point in staining someone with my presence after i can no longer see that and feel that so its better if everyone forgets. if this is just a natural thing. expected.
god though last time i tried to kill myself with pills that was so fucking awful and disgusting and they straight up told me it wouldn't have killed me anyway even if i hadn't been taken to the hospital and i dont want to risk failure again it was so fucking expensive anf ruined everu relationship i had for a long fucking minute
blogging shit helps me feel like i can survive, somewhat. reading stories helps somewhat. i feel a little of the love others place into their creative works and it sustains me. i remember that all of my feelings, even the emptiness, I'm sharing these feelings with everybody. but at some point art won't be enough. stories won't be enough. I can't do this forever i need fucking help. i need something to fucking change.
my pride is not that easy to break so im still gonna try and do it independently. idk. make some lists and timetables and organize my thoughts and wait for some fucking. motivation. force myself along because dawn will come.
gotta clean my damn house. figure out how I'll pay the dental bill, if I'm buying plane tickets or not. research local events, classes, costs, times. if it's all in a spreadsheet I'll use it. oh right, fix the room light that's sparking for some fucking reason, I've been lazy so i taped over the switch instead of doing anything. food, I've only got alcohol and desserts and my blood sugars been fucked. hh. this isnt a coherent list exactly but its a start. i have picked myself up before and from worse. and hey, i have some money saved. if i cancel the trip I could even go a few months without working.
n maybe i should just cancel that trip. in this state it would probably be a waste. but maybe ill be better in two months. maybe i need to get the fuck out of here for a bit.
wish I didn't have to make my own decisions
ok editing. i went out of my way to make this message annoying to read hard to get tobthe important point that's dumv of me this is a cry for help tbh . i know yall can't help. i know. im practicing for when i do it irl. but it does bother me that idk if this is read or not if this changes things. if you do read dropping a heart would be appreciated? gonna assume my measures succeeded and nobody read this otherwise
#ramble that topic skips so much im barely following me#cry for help placed somewhere it can only be seen by people who cant help#tw suicide i guess
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I dont think i like totks plot.
Zeldas sacrifice is touching and a good place to go with her character. I just wish the rest of the games plot was as good as that
Botw was about failure and sacrifice and love and finding small joys in the wasteland and protecting quiet mundane life
And totk just doesnt really live up to its themes. Themes being: community. A good theme i really want to enjoy and in same ways there are parts where its done well- but the flashbacks with Rawrrawr, Sonia, and Ganandorf are very disappointing
I dont know what any of them really believe in. I dont know what makes Rawr guy a good king. I dont know how he interfaces with his kingdom. I dont know how sonia interfaces with her kingdom.
Like the theme of sacrifce being imparted onto zelda was good but???? Community should have also been imparted onto Zelda too. Or maybe in reverse, community imparted from Zelda to Rwarwu. She is a good ruler, she is willing to get into the dirt and rebuild hyrule with her own two hands. She has a relationship with the common people of hyrule. She wants alliances with people. In contrast Rawr just kind of seems like an asshole. Gannondorf may be evil but i cant help but feel having a guy kneel to you and swear loyalty is bad for relations.
He is a bad guy, i do doubt there was anything Rrrrrrr could have done to pacify him peacefully, but thats where ganons role as a villain / dark reflection / foil comes in. Show him being a bad leader. Show him rejecting and devaluing his community. Show him refusing to make sacrifices on behalf of his people, show him demanding them to make sacrifices in HIS stead. He had an army of gerudo standing behind him in one flashback and it was like the writers just forgot about them. The next army he gets are the monsters, gerudo are no where in sight. What happened there? Where did they go? Did they reject him? Why? When? Or did he reject them? How did they feel about this?
When i look at the plot i see a bunch of really cool building blocks that could have been used to tell a compelling narrative about kindness, community, team work, vs the inherent self destruction of cruelty and arrogance. Instead, the memories just sort of seem like building up to zeldas sacrifice. They could have done all those things together if they wanted. They had the time and money.
I got excited for ganon thinking i would get literally any context for his motivations. Windwaker ganon was based and basically in the right. I dont know why that was a one off. I think they need to retire him as a villain if im being honest. But if theyre going to keep him around the least they could do is let him be a character with thoughts and beliefs and values. The scene in windwaker where ganon spares links life because hes only insterested in the triforce, gives him a lot of layers in very little dialogue. You know. Efficient storytelling.
Gannon is my favorite villain. Or i thought so. I had played zelda titles before windwaker, but windwaker had really stuck with me. I think i just liked windwaker ganon. He was a bad guy, absolutely justified in rage against the gods. He cared for gerudo people and their suffering. He was willing to spare links life because doing so was senseless and pointless [until everything became pointless to him]. He had his own character arc. I actually hated that bastard Daphnes got in his way. Like the gods he destroyed the rest of the kingdom rather than allow it to fall into the hands of someone else. Making me feral. Let ganon have depth.
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An analysis of the song The Fear by Lily Allen through the lens of Dabi's character
top 10 unlikely pop songs belonging to metal-coded characters
I wanna be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever, I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamondsI heard people die while they're trying to find them
He's angry and mourning the childhood that was taken from him. He wants the extravagance his father shows publicly, the money and the resources that come easy to him but never to Dabi.
(cont. below)
And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cause everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at The Sun and I'll look in The MirrorI'm on the right track, yeah, I'm on to a winner
He took off his clothes shamelessly on live television, showing the wounds that he claims were indirectly inflicted on him by his father. He looks in the mirror, seeing his scars grow, seeing his self-destruction take physical form, and he is glad of it. The more scars he has, the more it drives his father mad.
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymoreAnd when do you think it will all become clear?'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear
He's losing his bearings, becoming more unstable by the minute. He just wants to be accepted, he wants his father to realize what he inflicted on him, and he wants his father to suffer. This clouds his mind as fear of failure takes root. What if he dies before he reaches his goal? Before murdering his father and siblings?
Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But it doesn't matter 'cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumptionAnd it's not my fault, it's how I'm programmed to function
In life, the people who get recognized are the ones on TV, and not the mothers behind them. Dabi exposing his secret on TV overshadows any neglect his mother ever showed him. He's packing plastic, he is practically built on plastic surgery. His skin grafts, most of his organs, even his voice aren't truly his. "Consumption" works two ways: people consume the content he feeds them through his live stream, and his flames consume everything in their path. Since his childhood, he has been driven to want recognition, to surpass All Might, to be in the spotlight, it's how he was literally programmed to function.
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cause I'm killing them all on my own little missionNow I'm not a saint, but I'm not a sinnerAnd everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner
He doesn't want anyone's help during his fight with his family. He doesn't need any physical help a tall. He needs to do it himself, on his own little mission. This is such a personal quest that he didn't even tell his closest friends (the league). He admits he'd not a good person, but he's also convinced he's in the right, that he was driven to this by neglect and abuse. As long as he's getting thinner (burning himself up, destroying his own body) he feels good, because it means he's destroying something Endeavor made. He craves the destruction, it brings him peace and satisfaction to see himself wither away.
Thanks for coming to my color-coded ted-talk :3
Also dont look at the single uncolored letters. tumblr is being so homophobic rn not letting me edit normally
#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha#analysis#boku no hero academia#mha#my hero academia#lily allen#so sorry but also im correct so im not sorry at all
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the home to polymira lovelace, aurelian rust and thalia amaya. information about all of the scvrred souls can be found here. under the cut is a basic rundown of each muse.
polymira lovelace: tw for death, parental death
almost exclusively goes by polly. very seldom called polymira.
orphaned at a young age after a factory fire took out her parents.
reaped at 15, considered an underdog like most from district 3.
played the social game really well and utilized her strong memory to pit the careers against each other. careers died very early those games and she basically had all of their supplies.
taught to make traps by beetee.
became the pariah of district 3 when one of her traps killed her district mate. she didnt know she even killed him until after she won.
two unintentional kills to her name, both from traps. one intentional kill when it came down to her and the last tribute.
works as a mentor.
protégé to beetee, both as a mentor and as an inventor.
own voice autistic, with some adhd traits
very blunt and straight forward, but in an honest way, not in a mean way
often doesnt understand how she comes off to people
struggles with social relationships, but a very loyal friend when she is understood
strong sense of justice, very distrusting of the government and pro-rebellion
special interest in sleight of hand and mechanics
aurelian rust: tw for death, parental abuse (allusions), generational abuse (allusions)
mom is a career victor from district 2 and expected to carry the lineage. it did not happen.
aurelian has a sister who died in the games.
his brother never got the opportunity to volunteer, and nor did aurelian. both of which were failures in their mother’s eyes.
worked as a weaponsmith with a specialty in swords afterwards.
all and all, a good husband but not a great dad. the same pressures his mother put on him, he now puts on his young kids.
brother lost a child in the games, but hes hoping his kids dont end up like that.
was a little too excited for the 75 games to be adults. volunteered immediately.
seems a little too excited to go into the arena.
aurelian is a bootlicker, totalitarian who 100% believes that the capitol says.
he wants nothing more than honor for himself, first, and his family, second.
he does not care what you think of him, since he is the son of a career victor. 100% continuing the cycle of abuse the capitol tends to instill and encourage when it comes to career and family lines of victors.
thalia amaya
princess from the capitol
comes from old money and one of the top sponsors. they treat it like betting on race horses and gambling. some you win some you lose.
became a games superfan when she was a teen, and made it her goal to work for the games.
even if she is a gamemaker, she has a lot of respect for the tributes and victors, alike. she knows she could never do what they do.
that being said, she is often in contention with her higher ups since they want to craft stories, and she knows the fans want whats raw and real. but as executives are, they want what sells, not whats proper.
walking contradiction. has a high potential to flip to the side of rebellion depending on how her arch plays out.
also a strong potential to be the rebellion’s worst enemy.
says she respects the tributes, but has a god complex when it comes to them. struggles to see them as people instead of objects. think celebrity worship.
so objective that she comes off heartless. very logical.
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bioethics blog 1
Hi deep thinkers and smooth brain babyloves, I'm blogging for posterity now. who knows how long this will keep up <3
Its day 2 of my Bioethics class and I am already ahead of the curve. This is a 2 week 3 credit hour rollercoaster and I started the dang thing front row seats with our arms up. Anyway, I just got done reading the passage in the book about the ethics of Christian Scientists and others who don't believe in medical treatment and how horribly common it is for parents to be providers of maltreatment on religious grounds. I thought the quote from the supreme court ruling about the Prince V. Massachusetts case was incredibly sharp and on point. It said, "Parents may be free to become martyrs themselves. But it does not follow they are free, in identical circumstances, to make martyrs of their children before they have reached the age of full and legal discretion when they can make that choice for themselves"
beautiful logic. brilliantly written. chef's kiss. i just wish it were that simple. cults are so so powerful. belief is terrifying when diametrically opposed to any facts or logical processes of any kind and those people represent the ultimate opposition to logic-- Healing by faith alone bc your wounds and ailments are a symbol of your failing relationship to god, not the reality of being a goofy little delicate meat machine. all systems can be vulnerable! But I digress... We're not going to spiral down that rabbit hole because here i doth present the only conversation I ever *knowingly* had with a Christian Scientist Nurse.
I did hair for about 8 years professionally in my 20s. This is from nearing the middle to end of that 8 year period. I had seen this woman a few times but infrequent, maybe once or twice a year but she alwys came back to me and she was sweet, pretty with lots of freckles and very bright eyes. It was probably 4 or 5 visits before she came out to me as a Christian Scientist Nurse. She was always really sweet but kind of in that guarded yet pleasant way-- Not a moral judgement just an observation based on the premise that people kind of let you know how to they want to be engaged if you let them (and hairdressers who pick up on this make better money). Anyway, she started venting to me about how hard it was to treat with people and work with them with end of life care and that sometimes she wishes she could sneak in some real morphine or some drugs that are more effective than ibuprofen. And i said yeah i cant imagine how painful dying of old age is, I dont think i could do it without hard drugs XD Then I asked her what it was like to provide care like that but not medication and she said that its basically just regular hospice care. sitting talking, helping with the little things. Holding their hand and listening. I was really nice and pleasant but she kept going on about people she was "treating", more elderly and end of life care, more diabetes related complications. I was just floored. flabbergasted. What could I say to her face but holy hell i was upset and confused hearing all of this willful ignorance, failure to comply with practical medical advice, idk what to call it bc faith "healing" implies people get better and they dont. they die.
So thinking about it now years removed seems so strange. Cuz like at what point are you not a monster for pretending to offer treatment but only offering hollow words and hand holds. Its so strange. I still dont understand if that is good or evil. If they truly believe they're doing good, how can we make them see the harm or be responsible for truly setting aside their moral stances for the betterment of their kids when they see it as a complete failure of faith. failure of faith or not, I certainly wouldn't call it moral to withhold medication or to promote the rejection of modern medicine. Plus, by the morphine comment, it felt like she knew that medicine would work in some capacity so i just dont and will never understand the decision to choose to suffer and to choose to witness and support suffering like that.
anyway maybe i'll write my paper on christian scientists and how fucked up they are. religion is a cancer sorry not sorry
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