Chomps on him

I feel like I post lots of low rendered ‘cute’ art here that it feels uncomfortable to place more rendered art pieces with heavy shading and a completely different a tone??? (What am I talking about)

I’m posting this,, as a test 

hi, i unfortunately need help covering a combined bill that rounds to roughly ~$1500 due to the vehicle i share with my mother + my only transportation to work being suddenly very out of commission.

$500 is renting the cheapest vehicle we could for a week, the rest is for the part we need to repair it and the repair itself. the issues with it have already cost me hours at work.

i work 'full time' (a little under 40hrs) making minimum wage to support myself + my mom and our animals and we'd been coasting by despite having a $600 vet bill we were chipping away at. right now im prioritizing trying to get this $1500 off our backs.

if youre able anything helps, truly, even just reblogging this. thank you so much in advance (pls dont tag with b00st/etc)

♡ v3nmo: @/rookwind

♡ p@/pal: @/ceeqyinn

Sir Mobbert Psycho since I impulsively rewatched the first 5 eps again

me when i decide to go and look back at some Encanto fanarts since I just rewatched the movie (and it was bangers) and then Im met with an INSANE FUCKING AMOUNT OF INCESTUOS FANARTS

was abt to make a silly post about how at this point i barter with the universe for a bf like "please id take care of him and walk him and dress him up", like a child begging for a pet, and then i think abt how as much as i want an actual pet I don't think im fit to ever have one of those either

Everytime someone says I'm wasting what god gave me I grin and say good

my last post got me thinking so im gonna do a poll to see what u guys think

id love to do a second poll like this on twitter and compare the results. they’d probably be very different from what i’m predicting the response to be here But also twitter is a notorious hellscape and im not setting foot in there. also theres a typo in that last option we isn’t supposed to be there.

EDIT: some clarification bc my wording may have been a little confusing: if two characters are not related in canon, but their voice actors are related in real life, would it be weird to ship the characters?

the council will now decide your fate

im sorry i really shouldnt have said all that. i fucked up

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sorry yall that i complain a lot.......i try to keep the vent posts to a minimum cause i dont want to be all completely negative and stuff. and also my problems are unimportant compared to other people's struggles and world issues and human rights violations like. Palestine and shit. i just like posting things. and it makes me feel better. also i want my few followers to care to kno that im having hard times and thats why i cant post new art or projects. i know anxiety and depression and financial troubles and just existing in america is a struggle for a lot of people and i dont mean to bring everyone else down by being. pathetic abt things so sorry for posting venty stuff all the time

So i've thought about it a lot and i think i like the neopronouns xe/xer or xe/xim

For some reason it just resonates with me. Like, i am the two binary genders and neopronouns tend to be used by people who are non-binary in some way so idk. I know the probouns dont have to be for a specific gender but...

And also i really like being bigender. Its important to me to specify that yes it is just two gender that i feel and what those two genders are stay the same. Having my pronouns be she/he/xe might imply that i have more than just two and of course it doesnt work that way but i feel like that is the impression it will give people.

When im feeling less gender like i am today, just talking about myself as xe comes naturally and i think its just because of me thinking about it so much but also i do kinda like it, especially cuz i kinda really hate they/them in reference to myself

I dunno. I just kinda feel like adding xe is somehow abandonning part of my identity for some reason even though that makes no sense at all

I've felt really good the last few days (relative to how I normally feel). I had a megameltdown on Tuesday, I think, and felt better since then. It's made me question myself and wonder if my symptoms aren't caused by an illness but instead are stress or...something else? How is it that I cry for like an hour straight and then feel better?

Well, for one, my parents caught me in the act of exploding. So they've been very attentive to me and especially in helping make sure I eat in the last few days. Here's the other thing though.

I have been...SO STRESSED at not being enough. I can't help, can't write, can't sleep, can't drive siblings places (at this point in typing, my forearm is cramping and painful) can't wash dishes etc etc etc. And I kind of just gave up on Tuesday. Since then I have pretty much not done anything but feed myself, care for my dog, play Minecraft with my brother, and write. That's just literally all I've been doing. So maybe the reason I'm feeling better is that I gave myself permission to rest? I don't really know. It may also be the increase on my ssri.

Im scared of my symptoms being middle-ground. If it gets better enough to be tolerable, but not better enough to work effectively. I guess that's because I spent all of 2023 in that place and it was awful. Working and then doing nothing except sleep at home. Every day, too exhausted to function. Right now, not working, I'm at least happy enough to do things I love (when the brainfog lifts enough). I don't want to go back to pressing myself fruitlessly.

I guess I'll get another symptoms/illness check next week, because I'm driving a long distance (known trigger for pain) to go to a concert (known trigger for fatigue) SOOOOO we'll see lmao

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

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