#i wondered what her story would be bc she's so normal but they couldn't have gotten me any more invested than this
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started watching classroom of the elite today and it's actually REALLY good?? this is wild
#transmissions from the martian#despite being so boring on the surface ayanokouji is a really fascinating main protagonist#or maybe it's because he's so boring?#also .... i just finished ep3 and i am thrilled that kushida is deeper than she seems#i wondered what her story would be bc she's so normal but they couldn't have gotten me any more invested than this
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I had a cute little story idea so you all must deal with my sappy ass
This one's just some sweet short astarion comfort fluff bc I need more of that in my life
(AFaB Tav, referred to as She/Her, mention of periods. 575 words)
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They were more or less together at this point, mutual pining and spending all their time with one another, though neither said it aloud. Tav let him feed on her neck whenever he needed, though he would only do so if she offered first. This was rarely an issue, however, since she had a tendency to make this offer on a daily basis.
Lately, though, she hadn't. For the last several days, whenever the party retreated to their camp for some much-needed rest, Tav would immediately go straight to her tent and lay down.
Astarion paced outside of her tent, wondering whether or not to ask about it. Was she upset with him? Did he do something wrong? Was she finally fed up with him? No, no, that couldn't be it. Right?
After fighting with himself for a while, he slowly poked his head in, seeing Tav curled up around a pillow, her back to him. "Hello, darling...I just wanted to check in on you. Is everything alright?"
She paused, a low grumble in her throat. "...yeah. just been...I dunno...a bit extra tired. I'm okay."
That didn't sound okay. Tav was usually so strong, so energetic...this definitely wasn't normal.
He cleared his throat. "...does this, perhaps...have anything to do with my, ah...lack of feeding these last few days?" He paused, then shook his head quickly. "I-i would like to be clear, I'm not asking for it at the moment! I was simply...inquiring. Trying to gain an understanding, that's all." He chuckled. "Youre the one who always insists upon honesty and 'no more secrets', after all."
Tav paused then let out a long sigh, sitting up and giving the poor, strangled pillow a break. "...Sorry. I....its really rather silly...perhaps almost selfish..." she turned around, looking up at him from where she sat. "As much as I'd love to share right now, I've been losing enough blood as it is...im not sure it'd end well if I were to give up more."
Losing blood? His face paled, somehow more than usual. Was she injured? She didn't look hurt. He ransacked his memory to try and figure out when or where she could have taken such a hit, all the while looking her up and down for any physical signs of pain.
"I...oh dear...uh...if I may ask, what happened, darling? When did you get hurt? Did you fall? Did someone stab you? Who do I need to hunt down?"
Tav was quiet for a moment then let out a soft chuckle. "Im fine, Astarion...really, it's okay."
She...wasn't hurt? Then why was she...
...Oh.
Oh.
His cheeks flushed as bright as his eyes and he was quick to her side, pulling her into his arms. "Darling, why didn't you say so? I absolutely would have understood. You didn't have to hide that from me." He chuckled. "If anyone here knew a thing or two about blood, it would be me, don't you think?"
His comment drew a giggle from the tired warrior in his arms, and she snuggled up. "Thank you, Astarion."
The following days, the rest of the party noticed that Astarion was especially doting on Tav, (or at least more than usual,) being extra snuggly and, in some particular occasions, downright spoiling her. Despite her insistence that it wasn't a big deal, and he really didn't have to go so far, he was incredibly stubborn to ensure that his darling was as comfortable and happy as possible.
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Idk how to end it so
Thanks for reading! :]
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hi!! i loved your overlord angel dust/husk art and i commented about potentially turning it into a fic and adding your art, which you consented to. i was wondering if you had any additional ideas to make it more than a oneshot, maybe they open a casino together with mafia roots, collect souls together, etc…once again, your art was amazing!!
Thank you so much, I would love a fic about my AU (人*´∀｀)｡*ﾟ+
Here are other ideas about the story:
In this AU Angel didn't worked with Valentino, he and Arackniss reconciled before Angel could sign a contract with him
That is not to say Angel wasn't doing sex work, he would take all kinds of offers, from stripping to singing gigs, just for the money
Regarding the backstory of the spider brothers I haven't really fleshed it out but here are some points of it:
They had kind of a strained relationship even though they cared for each other, because Arackniss (or Andrew as I like to think) used to put down Anthony's dreams of becoming a performer like the drag queens he liked to see (in secret) in the gay bars the Mafia used to own back in the 30s (real history btw)
He did this in hopes he would give up, leave it all behind and live a 'normal' life, out of fear their dad would disown him, or worse, kill him
It wouldn't matter anyway because both of them would die together while doing a shady work for the mob (who started the shots? They couldn't really remember)
At the beginning of their afterlife Arackniss avoided Angel with the guilt that (according to him) it was his fault his little brother got shot in the eye. (He was too far, too late, he couldn't protect his brother and now he's dead because of him)
Cause of this angel thinks his brother hates him, but they eventually encounter during a turf war that went wrong
Arackniss sees Angel surrounded and not wanting to repeat his brothers death again, he saves him this time.
They sort things out, and become closer than ever
When Arackniss figures out what angel has been doing for money they decide to start doing mob work again, they're good and people start giving their loyalty and doing contracts with them because the brothers actually care about the souls they own, deciding to learn from their father's mistakes, they respect all of their workers
furthermore, Angel gains more influence because he gave the people he met while being a sex worker, safe and living conditions; every stripper, actor, performer wanted to work with him, and with all the contracts he made, became an overlord
On the other hand, arackniss does all the shady work, sticking to the shadows, not wanting any attention. He is very prod of angel, and becomes his right hand man
Other ideas and dynamics:
Angel calls arackniss An, Andy or niss
Arackniss calls angel Angie, Anni, or Anth. (He never really liked tony, that's what his father called him)
They love each other very much but they're still siblings, they bicker and fight all the time (all their goons are used to it at this point, unimpressed by the brothers shenanigans)
Valentino develops some sort of obsession with Angel after meeting him (this brings problems)
Angel fell first, husk fell harder
They kind of had an enemies to lovers (but not really, more like a rivalry bc angel likes to annoy the cat overlord for fun)
Molly is still in heaven in this AU, arackniss was able to shield her from the family business (he couldn't with angel though, That's part of his guilt)
She died of heart disease before the brothers death
Angel is the spoilt younger sibling
I haven't really thought about how him and husk get together but they will definitely become a power couple
I like the idea Angel performs at the casino
He sings, does drag, etc. (Maybe some pornos too, just for fun)
What caught husk's attention is that Angel cared a lot for the souls he owned, he treated them like the humans they are
That's all I have for now, I will make more art about this AU later, you can use it if you like, whether as reference or inspiration for the fic (*˘︶˘*).｡*♡
Ik this is more about Angel and Arackniss but I really like to focus on their story. So regarding the huskerdust you can have fun with that as I don't have a lot of ideas
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LET'S TALK GENSHIN AND REMURIA AND ARLECCHINO BEFORE I FORGET AND WE'RE ALREADY IN SECOND HALF OF THE PATCH WHY DOES TIME FLY WHEN YOU'RE AN ADULT
I'm gonna start the post with a few paragraphs I wrote just a few days after the patch went live:
So I finished the first Remuria world quest - it was beautiful. And really not as long as I first expected it to be. I probably could have finished it on the first day if I wouldn't have been as tired as I was
First of all the new map is beautiful. You'd think after 3? patches of map expansions where we already got underwater stuff it would feel repetetive but somehow it looks and feels different and refreshing. Maybe because majority of the map are caves where you can walk normally or they're ruins... idk.
I couldn't help but draw parallels between Remuria and HSR's Penacony tho, especially look-wise, the talk of a dreamscape and the theme of music. Especially now after finishing Penacony 2.2 I can't help but feel the two are very similar in certain aspects... the motive of Harmony and Song and Peace and saving a people and Gods? Also the way Remuria looks is so similar to certain things in Penacony? I already said rhis in my post on HSR, this is absolutely no hate whatsoever. I reckon there's only so much you can do with these motives? It's interesting how differently it looks in both games tho.
So yeah, Remuria is beautiful. The music is an out of body experience and encapsulates the whole thing perfectly. I haven't explored all of the map yet, but I like the new mechanisms a lot. The floating books look so cool and just generally the significance of music through it all... *sigh* it's so enjoyable.
So far for Remuria... i definitely missed a few things I wanted to say but it's been like 2 weeks since I played this and I definitely forgot something haha
AS FOR ARLECCHINO THO
First of all she's broken omg. It is kind lf annoying that it'll take weeks to max out her talents, rn for me she's sitting at crowned NA and skill and burst are level 7 each. But she still hits for like over 50k with each normal attack when she has a bond of life. Don't even get me started on her with Yelan MY GOD.
Okay with that out of the way let me talk about her story quest. First of all I find it very intriguing that hyv gave up on the usual pattern of having the second weekly boss for a nation be tied to the Archon and their respective second story quest (besides Mond ig)... i mean yeah Fontaine's archon situatipn is very peculiar but technically Neuvilette has taken over the role for now, right? Neither him nor Furina getting a second story quest makes me think Neuvi's probably gonna get his way later because it'll be HUGE. Again I wanna say that lore wise Neuvi is my fav character... HES JUST SO FNDNDBDN. And Furina is probably gonna get a pretty "random" one at one point kinda like Yoimiya did or Cyno... like its gonna be a good quest but it'a gonna be random. ANYWAY
I wonder how much different I would habe perceived the quest if I hadn't watched the Animated Short about Arlecchino that they put on Youtube... like it's her whole backstory? I could see where the quest was going right from the beginning because of it... that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it, tho
Childe's little surprise cameo made me so happy c: MY BOY. He's alive snd well AND IN FONTAINE. Let me remind ypu we last officially saw him in the last Atchon quest gwtting yeeted into a black hole by Skirk. Then it was mentioned at the end that he was being treated and sent gome to Snezhnaya. Well...
The whole cryptic talk between Arle and Childe was quite interesting... so this project by the Fatui, right? (Forgot the name rn bc it's been a few days since I played the quest) Is it fonna be significant for Natlans story? What does it entail?? THE TEASE NNNNGNNGHH
I wonder if at some point in the game we're actually gonna see Lyney become the new head of House of the Hearth. Like... it's mentioned quite a lot in his story as well as in everything that has tp do with the House and Sröecchino herself... I wonder 🤔
Throughout the story I was reminded that one of the first things we heard about her (Childes voiceline that came out in like??? 3.0 or so???). It was that she would turn her back on and betray the Harbingers (AND THE TSARISTA) without second thought. She even says this herself in her voicelines. I just wonder what her ultimate goal is? To free herself from the curse? Which btw they tell us nothing about in the story. Story is all about the House and its inner workings and Arle's feelings about it and plans for the future (which I love btw but still not quite understand)... we also casually get told that Arle is not even that old??? Like the whole thing with Crucabena is so recent that Freminet remembers her???? Amd Arle was maybe a Teenager when she killed her so like??? She's only around 10 years older than the kids????
So how come she's a descendant from Khaenri'ah? I don't know if I read somewhere abput it or if its a rumor but not confirmed or if its said in her personal story which I haven't read yet but... she'a from the crimson moon dynasty? Or has some ties to it? And her curse is definitely related to it BUT WHAT IS HER CURSE EXACTLY. WHY DOES SHE HAVE IT. If she's only in maybe her late 20s she couldn't have been an actual Khaenriahn citizen (same as Kaeya and he still gives me the same headache thinking about this) so how does it all tie together in the end?? Does it have to do with the God of time maybe??? (Nevermind if this is talked about in her personal story in her profile I haven't read that yet)
So yeah... the fight woth her was so cool. The animation??? I saw people get upset about the fact that Traveler couldn't beat her but I actually love that?? Like... She'a #4 of the Harbingers and has some curse probably tied to Khaenriah and she KILLED A HARBINGER WHEN SHE WAS A TEENAGER??? Traveler nlt being this almighty MC makes them so much mlre likeable like yeah... they are obv far from having their actual power back? It took us ... how many times to fight Shuki No Kami before we could defeat it in the final try to learn all the patterns? The game wants to tell us that there's much more powerful enemies in Teyvat and rhis is only the beginning. Let me tell you yeah we beat Signora but it was Raiden who killed her... it was Zhongli who subdued Azhdaha. We only healed Apep with Nahidas help. Traveler has never been able to easily defeat these big enemies, they always had help. Yeah they have been getting stronger, they've been getting access to more elements but the bis enemies are just getting stronger and bigger too... I wonder where that will lead. Maybe the twins are only gonna get their true power bavk once they're united... ANYWAY
Her weekly boss fight is cool too. Using different mechanisms again, with the whole Bond of Life thing and all. She does this one attack in her second phase that I just... can't get behind tho. Someone always has to be the victim, THE SACRIFICE, to get me through haha. Idk how to dodge or avoid that attack. The one where she floats above the arena and then these bombs? Idk? Come down and basically crash down on the whole arena and I haven't found a spot where you can aboid getting hit and therefore killed immediately idk.
So yeah that's all for now. Very excited to play Cyno's second story quest. Heard only good things so far about it, which is good because I really didn't like his first one 💀 probably gonna get around to play it one of these days. Same as with the rest of Remuria exploration, gonna need mlre Clorinde funds :3
(Gonna add screenshots later, it's been so long that the ones I took aren't saved in the PS App anymore 💀)
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Quit treating me like a wuss!
Peter Parker x fem!wife!reader
Description: after Peter comes home a little scraped up, Y/N tries to help him clean up but he pushes her away.
Warnings: Pet names, Peters kinda mean at first, ends with fluff, poorly written, not edited, quickly written
Story type: drabble
A/N: I am just now starting into write fanfics again and I wrote this one up real quick so don't hate me bc it sucks <3
Y/N hummed along to her music as she silently swayed around the kitchen while making dinner. She couldn't help getting caught up in the moment. As she stirred her noodles on the stovetop and murmured quietly the song lyrics. The serenity was peaceful and helped Y/N feel calm after a stressful week. She continued to dance gently around as she made her dinner. She was feeling so content and happy, not a worry in the world at the moment.
But of course, the moment was fleeting.
As she made her plate of spaghetti she heard a loud crash from her bedroom in the apartment. She sighed, not a doubt in her mind what the cause of the sound was. She sat the pan full of sauce down and turned towards the bedroom down the hallway.
"Peter, is that you?" She calls. A grunt is the only reply she hears, but she would know that grunt anywhere. "I'm coming baby."
When she arrived in her room she wasn't surprised to be greeted with Peter already stripped to his underwear and sitting on her desks chair, clutching his rib cage on the right side. Y/N could already tell it was a knife wound. It didn't look to deep, but it was long and looked painful. He looked upset and grumpy, but who wouldn't be in this situation. It was normal for him to not be his normal peppy self after a fight.
"Come on out to the kitchen honey, I'll get you all patched up and you can have some spaghetti with me." Y/N said gently to her husband. offering him a hand to help him stand up. He slaps her hand away softly, surprising Y/N. It didn't hurt, but she was just surprised.
"I don't need your help I can patch it up myself. Can you just get the first aid kit and give it to me?" Peter struggled to stand up, cradling his side as he tried. It hurt Y/N to see his nose crinkle up as pain shot through her husband.
"Yeah sure. Its in the bathroom, you can go sit at the table by the kitchen I'll go get it." Y/N said solemnly, feeling like she should walk on egg shells not to make Peter more upset. Normally he accepts her help, even while grouchy. She wonders if she might've done something wrong but tries not to over think and be selfish. He is just hurting.
Y/N met him at the table and handed Peter the kit. "If you need help, Ill be eating spaghetti. Since you're fine on your own I'm not letting my food get cold. I'll be right across from you." So, she started eating the room temp pasta and cringed as she watched him try to patch the wound.
Every few seconds he'd either wince in pain or groan because he couldn't get the wound patched himself. He muttered cuss words under his breath as he continued trying. After ten minutes of the torture, Y/N had enough. She walk over to him and sat beside him, grabbing the supplies towards her.
"Here, you want to do it more like this," Y/N started to work her magic but Peter pushed her (not hard) away.
"Stop it!" He raised his voice, his volume was tipping down towards a yell, dangerously close to crossing the line.
"Peter! Stop what?" Y/N asked, clearly offended. She just wanted to help!
"Quit treating me like a little wuss. I can do it myself. I dont need your help. I don't need you." Peter shouted. Y/N felt a lump forming in the back of her throat, but she pushed it down as best she could.
"But Peter, I always help you patch up your wounds after patrol. Its basically a tradition." Y/N started, voice shaky while tears danced in her eyes.
"I don't need your help! Its embarrassing to have my wife clean up a tint little cut. Just be quiet and eat your dam food please." Peters yell slowly faded off at the end of his statement.
"I lost my appetite." Y/N's tears started to slip down her face quietly. She began to walk to their bedroom when Peter called,
"Clean off the plate and the kitchen if you're not gonna eat!"
"Since apparently you can do everything yourself, you can clean everything up!" She called back, anger boiling up in her chest. Why was he so pissed off?
As Y/N laid in bed for awhile thinking, and guilt started to eat at her. She was so dramatic and he didn't deserve that. He was out fighting crime and saving lives and comes home a little grumpy, so what! who was she to get mad at him? She didn't know what happened on patrol that night, he could have a reason for being so mad. She felt the guilt eating away at her and got up, waking out to the kitchen. Peter had grabbed clothes from the bathroom, a shirt and some pajama pants. Y/N always laid out clothes for him in the bathroom so he could shower right away and then change. Judging by his wet hair, he'd showered. Peter was currently starting the dishwasher. He closed it and turned around to face his wife.
"I'm sorry." they said in unison.
"Let me go first." Y/N said firmly and Peter nodded. She pulled him out to the tiny living room, having them both sit on the couch. "I love you so much and you go out every day and night to fight crime and I am so sorry that expect you to come home all peppy and stuff from that. I can't imagine how much it drains you and what those people do and say to you. I'm so sorry and if you need time alone after a long evening just tell me and ill respect it. I'd appreciate if next time you were a little kinder to me, but I will try and understand if you aren't." Y/N finished, looking Peter in the eyes. She looked so guilty and Peter felt bad.
"Y/N, you didn't do anything wrong but I appreciate what you said. Just because I have a long day doesn't give me any excuse to be mean to you. You do so much for me, and I need you. I really do. Tonight was literally so hard to patch up that cut myself. You're right, I just needed some alone time. But that was just a today thing honey, maybe every once in awhile I'll need some time again but I'll try to communicate better." Peter admired his wife lovingly as she hugged him.
"I love you so much Peter." Y/N smiled, pulling away from him. He leaned back on the couch and she cuddled up next to him.
"And I love you sweetheart." Peter kisses Y/N's head and grabs the remote, turning on the tv.
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Ch 52: To You, From Me
Rip: "Want me to pick you up, too?"
Latla: "I hope no one tags me in this..."
And that boy's name was Abraham Lincoln.
This chapter is all about Akira/Anno Un. For plot purposes, UU focuses on how his manga helped the Negators, but there are surely a lot of regular people who love it, too--Fuuko's mom, for one! It holds the record for the longest-running shoujo manga for a reason.
Andy and Tatiana both enjoyed it before they knew about its importance, too. It stands on its own as a story even if the reader doesn't know that it predicts the future, because it's a great story! Fuuko told Top that it was the "gold standard for long-running shoujo manga" and both she and Tatiana were SHOCKED that a young person like Top hadn't heard of it. I wonder what the normal fans would think if they learned its true purpose!
I just realized that if little Akira hadn't been a manga fan, he might've done something else with the story he saw, like make it into a movie or children's books or a spoken word album or an interpretive dance or something. Or even just kept it to himself! And if that had happened, there's a chance that Fuuko would've never known about it, Juiz would've never put the puzzle together, and the people who needed to hear the story might not have ever encountered it.
But the fact that the object he picked up was a G Liner seals the deal. It's for drawing manga! It's like God/the Author/whoever put it there was gently nudging him to make this story into a manga instead of any other medium.
The flashback continues in narration boxes while the current story moves ahead. Rip is running along Autumn's claw while Latla and Bunny get in close.
"Despite that, he never gave up on life, in part because of his mother's desire for him to stay alive. But the other reason...."
TOZUKAAAA!!!! Yes!! I love this!
He had to have a close relationship with a good parent or else the manga may have never happened. What if Akira hadn't overheard her hopes for him? Or if she'd given up on him?
It's all set up so perfectly! And Akira having a loving parent is the key to all of it working out. He wrote all of it with her in mind, even the title! And it did find its way to her, though Anno Un was too late to meet her in person.
I just love that he prefaces the fact that the characters kept him alive with "AND HE HAD A WONDERFUL MOTHER." It's nice to see that.
That's a lot to put on a kid! Poor Akira!
If the bad ending was that the world ended because Fuuko died, it's probably bc killing God is only possible with her Negation abilities and personality, but also hear me out: (ch 16⬇️)
Fuuko's death may have broken Andy, too, and with him weakened, Victor would come out to try to kill Juiz, and then who knows who would ride the Ark!?!
The one-shot contest Akira won was likely in the 70s, judging by the name of the magazine, so by now he's had like 30 years of drawing these characters and writing stories for them. He's their #1 fan! He loves them! How could he not? He doesn't want to see them defeated.
(And that's the difference between Anno Un and God/The Author in the UU-verse. Anno Un knows they're real and wants to help them. God may or may not know the characters are sentient, but only wants to see them defeated...)
Akira found a loophole to his ability by manifesting Anno Un to do the work for him! Has he just been following Anno everywhere all these years?
It seems like Akira may have taken out his soul with Soul Caliber and put it into Anno Un, but I still have questions:
If Akira's body was without a soul, then was his body just hanging out unnoticed somewhere like Fuuko's was when she was in the book?
How did Akira's soul get back into his body at the end of this chapter?
If you have theories, please send them!
Meanwhile, Andy and Rip begin the main attack on Autumn in a very wicked double spread
Hit 'em with the double moons! Without Rip, they couldn't have pulled this off!
The pen shattering as a punishment for changing the future is just cruel! Did God just expect him to live with that knowledge and not try to change it? Or was God afraid of what else Akira might tell them now if he could?
Latla swoops in on her broom-cycle with Bunny and Fuuko and Bunny grabs the core as Andy sets up a Volcano Unluck Bullet.
All of those pieces had to work together and maximize the way their skills could combine for Autumn to be captured. But now that Latla has the core, will the Union be able to get it back?
Awww, that's what Fuuko told Cap'n Andy at the cabin in the book! It makes sense that Andy would be the one to reach out to Akira. He knows what it's like to lose people and how alone Akira must feel.
In the anime, the voice actor for Anno Un, Akira, and the narrator are all the same person, so these narration boxes are Akira's voice speaking and talking about himself in 3rd person.
And we finally see Akira as an older man. He hasn't been acknowledged by another person in so long! Granted, Andy calls him "Anno," which is probably just how it has to be since no one can know about Akira. Still, a fist bump is a fist bump.
"To You, From Me," was a phrase that summarized Akira's feelings toward his mom, but it's also what Andy is giving back to him. Akira's ability forced him to live in a situation where he could only GIVE, never receive. He gave advice. He shared his work. He gave life to a drawing, then gave that drawing his name, his soul, and his fame.
But he couldn't receive things from others because no one could perceive him. Andy's fist bump is the first thing he's received in so long! I wish The Union could find a way to contain his ability and let him live a normal life, like what happened with Tatiana, but his requirements are so strict that there probably isn't a way around it. Still, it would be fun to see him stick around.
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Another normal day in Gray Raven dorm, I suppose?
Warning:- Reposted from Twitter- All of this are just ideas, not actual fanfic with polished writing- Non-cp, female skk- Some of the minor changes can be found
The story happened when Liv wondered why there had been more female skks wandering around their dorm since Lee changed his frame to Entropy.
Lee said he came across some skks asking for his numbers before, but he hadn't seen many skks walking around the dorm. Lucia explained that every time there were a skk asking where Lee was, their skk would always be the one greeted them and bragged about how handsome she was.
That made some female skks disgusted and ran away. However, some didn't give up and still tried to ask for Lee the next day. Liv then asked how Lee became so popular, because she hadn't seen so many skks outside their dorm like that before.
"Ah, it must be that day..." - skk seemed to remember sth, and started to tell Gray Raven about that day when they joined the beach simulator with Kamui.
"How many pictures have you taken Commandant?!" - Lee tried to cover skk's camera, his face turned red.
"Ehe, just thought you are so beautiful bae" - skk made a tehe pero face, and took her camera from Lee's hand. - "But really, beside that image we took after that big mission, we don't really have any more you know...That's why I want to take this chance to take as many photos as I can, for our memories!"
Skk winked again, and looked at Lee with puppy eyes.
"Please, Lee, I have already taken photos of Liv. It would be a shame that we miss one member in our photo album."
"..."
"Pweaseeeeeee"
Seeing skk like that, Lee couldn't help but sigh.
"Just one more, okay?"
"OKAY!!"
After a long time selecting poses, skk finally took the perfect picture.
"This is gonna be reaaaaaaally worth money hehe" - skk thought, the sinister dirty old man smile on her face made Lee shiver.
At the evening
"Hey look, someone just posted on Lee Protection Squa-OMG WHAT IS THAT???!?!"
"It's Lee photocards....AND HES IN A FCKING SWIMSUIT?!?"
"The price for one combo is a bit high though..." *the sound of someone who just transferred 700 RC for 5 combos*
"So you are telling me....that you sold my photos to earn BC, huh?" - Lee's face got darker.
"It's just a little business you know, I needed money to buy you guys some presents too!"
"Do you know how much trouble I had when I had to turn down every single commandants' letters?"
"Don't worry Lee you looks great in the album"
"Lucia I don't think that's the right thing to say in this situation"
"I actually have one combo too."
"No please Liv, not that."
"Com-man-dant"
Right before the possible Civil War could happen, the doorbell rang. Lee stood up and opened the door.
"Who's tha-"
"OMG THIS LEE, MY PRINCE!!"
The girl shouted so loudly that Lee had to turn on sound-cancelling for a few seconds. Behind her was a crowd of skks of all gender, waving their penlights and fans with Lee's photos on them.
"Lee-senpai can I have your sign?"
"Would you mind wearing your swimsuit again, I want to take a picture for scientific purposes."
"LEE STEP ON ME!!"
"Commandant, can you hel-WHERE ARE YOU GUYS GOING??!" Lee tried to call for help but skk, Liv and Lucia already ran far away. After that incidence, Lee refused to let skk take photos again and only allowed Liv and Lucia to touch the camera.
#punishing gray raven#pgr#pgr lee#pgr lucia#pgr live#i am so sorry for my sense of humor#swimsuit lee is cute ngl#not the underpart tho it's haunting me#but i appreciate kuro for that fanservice#i'm shameless#but if we have another photoshoot event please lemme join you guys#imma bring my future Dances of Ripples Lucia coating to join you guys
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Hi:) I know that you have reread Pat series recently (and so did I), and if you don't mind, I would love to know your opinion about Sid and May's relationship and later, their marriage. (That's the question; what follows is my own rambling and ideas;).
While reading this plotline, I had a feeling that Montgomery tried to make an inpression that it was only May's fault and that "poor Sid" was "trapped" into the marriage against his will. I also wondered if it wasn't Montgomery's own reaction or... way of dealing with her son's marriage. Or maybe... explaining him?
Chester married Luella (who was already pregnant at this time!) in 1933 or 1934 (can't remember the exact date, but the baby was born in 1934) and Mistress Pat was published in 1935, so Maud was dealing with that situation while writing the book. Of course, everyone knew it was not Luella's fault and if anything - it was Chester who trapped her, but truth be told - Montgomery was a mother and would always stand by her son. On the other hand; Montgomery and her husband lied about the whole thing and tried to make an impression that the marriage took place earlier (as Chester himself told other people) to save a honor of a family, so I don't think she would put that sort of "explanation" on purpose, but perhaps she was putting her own feelings and thoughts into this book, without even realizing it? Because it might have been easier for her to deal with thinking that her "good, honorable" son had been "trapped" into marriage than with knowing the truth (that he had ruined a girl's life).
I understand that Maud knew the truth - knew that Luella was not this kind of girl - but knowing the truth and wanting it are two different things...
And back to Sid/May... I always felt that May (and Binnies) were rather ill-treated by Montgomery. Gardiners were by no means perfect themselves, but still they felt it was alright to look down on people like this.
Well, thank you in advance! And of course, take your time, I will be happy to hear from you anytime:).
Interesting question! I suspect that it was only the way Sid and May got married that was inspired by Chester and Luella--eloping and then coming home to announce to everyone they were husband and wife. Not the actual marriage itself. It may have been LMM's way of dealing with it, or it may purely be the fact that it makes a good story. Or both. (Actually it got me thinking about the occurrence of elopement in her books, but that's an entirely different topic). From what I remember from Gift of Wings, LMM didn't have a problem, or at least not any major one, with Luella. It was that one Stuart's gf she hated, she made them break up, but she was okay with his next one, who then became his wife.
As for the "trapped into marriage". Yeahhhh, I don't buy that. Anytime I hear something about a man being "trapped into marriage", I go like "really? reeeaaaalllly???" with a raised eyebrow. Marriage benefits men. Make no mistake about that. You've also got to wonder what it was that made Sid such a coveted bachelor for May to want to snatch him. It's possible she only wanted to marry him so that she'd be married to a respectable man, as opposed to ending up an "old maid" which would have been considered a worse fate. But then, that's the fault of the society, not May's.
The Binnies were set up as antagonists from the first book, but I don't really have any feels about them one way or the other, bc I can't find it in myself to care about any of the characters in the Pat duology. I liked Jingle/Hilary and Rae in the second book, but other than that, no... not even the cats. And I couldn't care about the antagonists either. So every time the narrative mentioned the Binnies as negative characters, I just rolled my eyes. It was clear LMM wanted me to hate them, but I just didn't care enough (aside from the fact that being the contrarian that I am, if a book wants me to feel a certain way, I will feel the opposite just because!). But normally I don't like a group of people being presented as only one thing, be it a family or an alien species (that's why DS9 is my favourite Star Trek). So yeah, seeing a bit of nuance with the Binnies would have been good, but the conflict just left me indifferent.
Anyway, there was no "poor Sid". Sid had it well. He lived in clover, to borrow a phrase from Stella Maynard's letter to Anne in AOTI. He had a number of women to at home to fuss over him: his mother, his sisters, Judy and now a wife. He had the best life!
#answered#pat of silver bush#mistress pat#btw it was my first read not a reread but that doesn't matter#i only finished the books for the sake of completion#if it wasn't lmm i would have bailed#l.m. montgomery#lmmblogging
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11, 15, 27 and 30 for Ahaszaai twins (questions for extraordinary muses)? (sorry if late)
From [Questions for 'Extraordinary' Muses]
(if you either want the list or wanna send in some more. Ik I rb'd this a while ago but after this & the blorbo bingo one(s) are answered the askbox is gonna be empty again so open to taking more if y'all want! 💪)
Thank you for the ask @a-master-procrastinator !! I had fun with this one hehe
Some notes:
Gonna take the stance of "ability" being the Force ability that they're most well-known for rather than just the Force as a whole because. That's not "extraordinary" in and of itself in the SWTOR universe xP Click the ability name for the Wookieepedia page in case you're not familiar with the Force ability itself and want a refresher/explanation! :3 For Saarai, it's psychometry and for Ni'kasi it's Force-walking
Also feel like it'd be more fun to answer these in-character for a change so that's what we're gonna do! 😊
Alrighty now that we're on the same page, onto the questions!! :'DD Under a cut bc it's a long post, no specific warnings needed other than spoilers for the Sith Inquisitor storyline if you haven't done it, some swearing, and some mild implied angst <3
11. Have you ever had an embarrassing moment while using your ability?
Saarai huffs softly, her jaw spurs rattling in embarrassment as she ducks her head and mutters. "Lana and Koth promised not to tell anyone!" she whines, staring at her own shoes for a moment, before begrudgingly looking up to answer. "...Yeah, okay. Fine. I'll admit it." the Pureblood shuffles her weight from one foot to another, arms crossing over her broad chest. "Sometimes I forget to wear my gloves, so it can be pretty embarrassing when I pick something up or touch something and all of a sudden I'm bitch-slapped with a torrent of Force visions about all the blood and death and shit that the thing was connected to. Usually I'm er...I'm better at planting my feet and pushing through it but...." a distant look enters her sulfur-yellow eyes, and she trails off for a long moment as if Saarai were somewhere else entirely. If you're observant, you'll notice a shudder of discomfort work its way through the Pureblood's normally-sturdy frame. "But Nathema...that was a whole different beast. I didn't think- Gods, I never wanted to cry like that in front of Lana or Koth but it all hit me at once and I just couldn't help it." It might be best not to press her for more details, whatever she saw in those visions, it clearly was upsetting for Saarai.
Ni'kasi, however, remains quiet at first. Her eyes scrutinise you closely, as if she's trying to decide whether she can get away with giving away information that might make her 'vulnerable'. A soft breath huffs from her nostrils, and she shakes her shoulders out before admitting, her face blank and unreadable of any sort of humiliation or sheepishness that might give away how she really feels about the story she's telling. "....I suppose, the first time I tried to use it. The first time I fought Thanaton. That's what I get for trusting Zash at her word, it never happened again, and it never will. I got cocky, and figured I could handle far more power than I was prepared to." more quietly, she mutters. "Mother was right, as usual. Should've listened to her." her impassive mask of an expression does crack, then, as she flashes a sharp-toothed grin. "Fucker's deader than the ghosts in my head, now so...tell someone about Darth Occulus' greatest fuck up, or don't. Nobody's going to believe you if you do."
15. Would you ever choose to trade your ability for another?
Again, Saarai goes quiet. For a moment you wonder if she's heard your question at all, but when she speaks up it's clear she had, it was just something she genuinely had to put a lot of thought into for a moment. "....You know what? I don't think so." she shrugs, letting out a mirthful laugh and seeming to shake off the melancholy that had taken hold of her moments before. "Listen, as much as not being able to touch shit without gloves on can suck sometimes it's...it's something that's always been there, y'know? It's a part of me, just like the Force is. I think I'd feel like I wasn't whole if I woke up tomorrow and the psychometry was gone."
Ni'kasi doesn't even hesitate before she shakes her head. "No. Not for anything in the galaxy. It was a difficult ability to master, but it...gave me a connection to my family, my mother in particular, that I'm not sure I would've had without it." she smirks, thinking of Thanaton, though her lips settle into a smile that's far more fond as she carries on talking. "I could've found a way to kill that bastard without it, but...having mother there to talk to, even now, is nice. Makes me miss her a lot less than I did before I learned to Force-walk."
27. If you could give your abilities to one person for a day, who would it be?
Saarai's answer this time is far more immediate, and her voice raises perhaps a little more than she means it to in her vigor to convey her point. "NO ONE!" seeming to realize that such a loud outburst might have startled you, she coughs, spurs trembling again, and when she speaks again her tone returns to its normal register. "Look, I'm not even sure if this is something that you can just learn or...or give to someone else. I was born with it, as far as I know. But even if it was possible, trust me, I wouldn't want anyone else rushing into this. It seems cool on paper, and as much as I'm used to it now and wouldn't get "rid" of it, seriously...it gets old real fast. When it's helpful, it's helpful but when it sucks? It really sucks. The constant fear that some weapon or object you pick up is gonna be a metaphorical brick to the face, the nightmares in your sleep...You don't want this."
Lady Occulus folds her arms behind her back, raises her chin and stares down at you, hard. "Why?" she asks at length, trying to parse out why you're prying into that particular question. "Who wants to know?"
(Author intervention (for the actual answer since Kas isn't gonna give it 🤣) : She might entertain teaching an apprentice she trusts, buuuuuttt she'd have to be certain they wouldn't turn on her and use it against her. I mean, that's basically what she did to Zash and Thanaton and she's not stupid enough to open herself up to that same achilles' heel 😉)
30. Name one skill you haven’t yet perfected that you want to master.
Saarai smiles again, a big, toothy grin this time. Unlike her twin, she's not the least bit shy about admitting her shortcomings and even laughs as she does so. "I wouldn't mind learning how to be better with Force lightning. It's not something I was ever good at, I can do a little but...Kas and Lana are way better at it than I am." she gestures at her posture, all bulk and hard muscle. "Doesn't lend itself so well to the artistry and the fine hand movements, does it? Nah, I'm more like...the battering ram that kicks the door in while they do the finicky lightning work. Still, it might be handy to be better at it, bet it comes in handy for short-circuiting those droids, or consoles and stuff."
Ni'kasi sniffs, seeming almost offended that you're still trying to poke into her weak points. When Rai gets more animated discussing hers, however, she seems to consider an answer of her own that isn't too damning to her reputation. A soft chuckle escapes the Pureblood, her eyes shining with an undeniable fondness and admiration for her sister, if you're looking closely enough to notice that is. "...I'm not good with people. Not like Rai is. Bossing people around and telling them what to do? That I can do. But making friends, making people like me? She makes it look so fucking easy and sometimes I wish I could be more like her..."
#Q&A with the fam#extraordinary muse asks#swtor oc: saarai ahaszaai#swtor oc: ni'kasi ahaszaai#the ahaszaai twins#long post#this one was a *LOT* of fun; thanks pauletta!!#i kinda turned this into a defacto interview format but it felt right?#it was fun i enjoyed this a lot /pos :D#lana and koth. your girlfriend would like a word with you /jk#thank you for the ask!#a-master-procrastinator
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What if some girl from their highschool one day approach Mikasa to ask about Eren bc she's interested in him and think he's cute so she makes up a story about Eren being gay just to cockblock him out of jealousy lmfaoo
LMFAO help, this just reminds me of New Girl. Gay Nick 😂 But Eren is probably SO confused??
Eren is confused.
He's confused a lot of the time, Mikasa calls him a meathead sometimes, but today he thinks he has genuine reason to be confused, because Mikasa is acting weird.
Actually, forget weird she's acting fucking looney.
She's been texting him shit all morning like "Ciao Babe", "Hope you're wearing those scrumptious red boots ;)"
He does not own red boots?? What red boots??
Then, comes their afternoon lunch date, a standing tradition after her Monday morning classes and today, she has brought a friend.
She waltzed up to their picnic table with more confidence and swagger than he's ever seen in his life, her hips swaying, and rather than her normal greeting of 'hello', he gets yanked into the most aggressive hug he's ever been apart of.
"Come here you glorious bitch!"
What??
What!!!!??!?!?!
"Umm, Hi?" He struggles out through the harsh grip of her arms around his midsection.
"Play along," She whispers harshly in his ear before seating herself next to him.
"Eren, this is my new friend Carissa," she tells him pleasantly, hand cupped on her cheek as she rests on the picnic table.
"Hi, I'm Carissa, I'm in Mikasa's morning class."
"Hi," He replies gingerly, looking to Mikasa for guidance and she raises her eyebrow expectantly.
"You're a lot less umm flamboyant than Mikasa describes."
What the fuck does that mean??
"Oh you just wait Carissa, he's just shy around new people, don't hold out on me queen. "
"Umm yeah, just umm takes a while for me to open up," he tells her numbly over a bite of sandwich.
"Yup, in fact you wouldn't know it by looking at him, but Eren here has bagged all the hottest guys in our friend group so far," Mikasa brags casually and Eren almost spits out his sandwich, what!?!?
"Oh my god, really? Give me names!"
Mikasa reaches over, grabbing his hand teasingly, "Oh yeah Armin."
That, he can see, he'd always wondered a little if Armin swung both ways, batted for both teams.
"Reiner."
At this, Eren goes into a coughing fit, him and Reiner!??! I mean good for him, but also he would never stoop so low.
"Connie AND Marco."
Connie?? Connie! As if he'd ever go for such a slob, he' honestly appalled.
"Jean."
Eren squeezes Mikasa's hand a little too strongly and she squeaks, "Well maybe not quite Jean, but he's tried!"
Excuse her?? He's tried? So he's gay and he tried for Jean, but apparently couldn't get him?? As if he would EVER try for Jean, in any universe. Absolutely not, he will not have his good name besmirched like this.
"Umm, no honey, Jean tried for me, it was all refusals up in here."
And then, to complete his show, he snaps his fingers in a flamboyant flourish of attitude.
It is the most dramatic thing he's ever done and even Mikasa seems surprised by him while Carissa begins clapping.
Mikasa laughs nervously, giving Eren a firm slap on the thigh for his comment, "How come the good ones are never straight huh?"
He wants to die.
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Babe you said you wanted comments and I love being a cheerleader so have a comment so thought through that I'm a little embarrassed (I literally took notes)
The loneliness that is getting invited to your mum's book club.
Nancy being heartbroken about not being invited 💔
Hard relate to thinking 'what is the most normal way to do something' in a social situation.
Also Nancy's allowed to be angry anyway but when you add wet socks? Unhinged feral rage justified.
If I was at that party I would absolutely have walked in on them because I'd be like, where snacks??? Except I probably would have followed in the first instance because the pretty girls went to get snacks so that's where I need to be and then they would never have banged so basically I'm glad I was not written in.
Giggling at the idea of Nancy smashing the peanut butter BC robin suggested it was an inappropriate snack.
'Her arms were pink up close, from the sun, and Nancy wanted to grab onto her biceps, her wrists, just grab them and let go and then watch her handprints fade away. Which was insane, of course. And which was par for the course, of course.'
Nancy angry at the fridge? fan art, someone, please.
Obsessed with Nancy checking out Robins legs like damn 😍 she has no musculature and she runs stupid, that's hot
Robin being like yeah the bowls are here where I'm blocking you from getting them and doing nothing to remedy that... her mind
Nancy not knowing what to say and just slut shaming robin 💯
'I need to get in there' 👀
'Robin swallowed and Nancy watched it happen. She couldn't feel it, the movement of her throat, from where her fingers were, and she was jealous of that too.' 🥴😩💓
The idea that in their blossoming relationship Robin will look at Nancy's facial expression and not be sure if she is about to commit a crime or fuck her silly 🤌🏻
'That she could have been the one to invite Robin over, that Robin almost definitely would have come if Nancy had only asked. Robin's hands were on her face and her breath was in Nancy's mouth and Nancy was standing between her legs surrounded by the heat of her, wondering if Robin would come now if she asked.' 😩😩😩
'Left to her own devices she wound up doing things like taking on the federal government to avenge her friend's death' happens to the best of us x
I think my favourite line is 'Nancy wanted to rub up against the sound of it.'
Favourite ronance canon trope is robin doing anything Nancy asks her (sexual)
Thank you for feeding us!!
Oh wow thank YOU for feeding ME. <3<3<3
I will address your concerns in list format! Under a cut because this is so long! Which I am not complaining about at all for the record this is making my day!
You know Karen's book club is awful, too. Straight romance novels every month and they just get drunk and complain about their husbands.
No but for real the loneliness of summer vacation when you are in-between friend groups? It's been 25 years but I remember this so vividly 😭 I did not fuck anybody in a kitchen about it though unfortunately.
I think Nancy is often kind of Performing Normalcy in the show and I think being profoundly lonely on top of that makes it very how-it-felt-to-socialize-when-covid-precautions-started-to-let-up. She's trying so hard!
Wet socks are the worst. Anger intensifies.
My excuse for nobody walking in was first of all just that its my story and i didnt want them to, but besides that im like, well nobody asked for snacks actually, and the boys are swimming in the pool and steve is working on his tan. And tbh they probably weren't even in there that long. Anyway they thank you for not interrupting them!
I almost had her pull down a can of Bush's Baked Beans instead of the peanut butter but it felt like very niche fanservice so I refrained.
The sunburn stuff was just there to add specificity and make it feel more tangible. I am trying to trick you into imagining what it feels like.
Nancy standing in front of the fridge mad about being short is so funny to me i can see it so clearly in my mind 😂 She's so mad already and now she's too short to reach the chips?? The disrespect.
I am a Robin-was-terrible-at-soccer-and-only-played-one-season-because-her-parents-forced-her truther. I am also a girls-with-soft-legs-are-cute truther.
Robin was 100% fucking with Nancy re: the bowls. I don't think she fully understood the *way* she was fucking with Nancy, but she definitely knew it was riling her up and she leaned into that on purpose just to see what would happen.
Nancy truly does know better than to slut shame anybody but she also does NOT know how to say "you look so good i want to scream" so uh RIP her principles this one time i guess.
The "I need to get in there" bit was just fun to write. I stand by it. I love that shit.
Throats are sexy. That is all I have to say about that.
I'm pretty sure Robin already has a pavlovian response to Nancy's Felony Face but yeah from here on out she's toast.
That line is probably a little over the top but nobody is probably reading angry kitchen smut for the subtlety so again I stand by it!
It's true though, whenever Nancy has nothing to do she MAKES something to do. Luckily for the federal government she now has something to do (Robin.)
Thank you! I also like that line a lot!
This is also my favorite trope for them 🙏
#bus-vibes#asks#spoilers i guess for that fic i posted yesterday#never be embarrassed for sending me comments like this they are my favorite thing in the world!
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It hurts me to see so many Tamlin defenders these days it's all so triggering for me.
My parents relationship is exactly like what happened with Feyre but only the fact that she never got the chance to get out and she's still stuck and now it's too late. I see Feyre in my mother everyday but I live in a country and community that doesn't care for women opinion and they're considered as being "dramatic", "over-reacting" and "selfish". Exactly the things they call Feyre.
My mother knew while they were engaged that this wouldn't end well but her parents didn't listen to her and they said you should marry him and fix him, bring him children he will be better... bc my father been through some traumatic stuff as well. (Honestly while I was reading acotar and acomaf, I find it a cruel joke) So that was the way to justify his actions. And bc my mother didn't wants us to hate him, she would say this to us as well that it's not his fault but we grow up and we realised this isn't normal as much as he wants to claim he's traumatised. (Sounds familiar?)
my mother gave and gave and gave but never received anything from him still receives nothing from him. And you know what he does to make her shut up and don't complain? He buys her things or for us. He used to pay for my grandparents treatment. Just like Tamlin who paid for Feyre's family to keep her were she is so she wouldn't leave him.
My mother can't go out without being questioned that where is she going, how long she's out, when will she come back? She doesn't have a job!!! And the fact that he's doing it to me and my sibling as well is also very disheartening... I can't go out with my friends without being questioned bc its dangerous outside and you don't know what's coming for you... (I'm being serious this is exactly his words)
And he never hit us or hurt us in physical way that is visible, he hits with his word how he degrade my mother and sometimes us. So no one really sees what we've been through no one believe us bc there's no evidence of it...
And knowing that ppl don't even consider Tamlin an abuser but just a misunderstood character and deserving better treatment from readers while the ppl around him suffered? Yeah... its feels like people are not seeing us just bc he's hot or have money or is powerful or whatever...
I wonder if someone tells them they're overreacting and being dramatic how they would feel? To not be seen and tell them "you're acting childish suck it up"? How would they feel?
And only bc you did some nice things doesn't make you less of an abuser we need to remind that to ourselves... (just bc tamlin help in a war HE CREATED (bc he thought Feyre was his trophy) and help Rhysand to live doesn't make him less of a shitty person that he is...)
ps: this is just my experience I know for a fact that a lot of ppl experienced worse than us. its okay if you ignore this but I only wanted to get this out somewhere that might some ppl see and rethink what they're saying...
First, I'm honored you shared your story with me and I am so sorry that both you and your mother are still in such a difficult situation. It's easy for someone on the outside looking in to say, "why doesn't she just leave already?" but anyone who has first hand experience of what she's going through (either because they have witnessed a love one going through it or they themselves have) know how difficult it can actually be to walk away. They might be struggling with years of their significant other chipping away at their self esteem to the point that they truly don't think they are worth more than the treatment they've gotten, they might be in a position where they can't set off on their own for financial reasons, they might fear for what the significant other might do if they were to leave.
And I do understand why, as you are currently living this, it is triggering for you to see people romanticize Tamlin or explain away his behaviors as "he was struggling so he couldn't help himself." Of course he was struggling however, that never gives someone the right to take their struggles out on others.
I don't think we'll ever be able to stop those who are fans of the Justice for Tamlin rhetoric but hopefully you take some comfort in knowing that the author herself has been vocal about how wrong Tamlin's behavior was. Others can interpret the text however they want but at the end of the day, SJM, the creator of his character has told us that he is a toxic male, that the High Lord of Spring is a "douche" and I think that's all that should matter to you. You feel his behaviors were not acceptable and the one who wrote him agrees.
I'm not necessarily opposed to seeing Tamlin begin to heal but I personally don't think he's redeemed himself at all at this point and I have no interest in seeing him fall in love again, regardless of his one "heroic" gesture in the war. He still physically assaulted his friend afterwards and threw Lucien's clothes on his front door. A year after the war and he's still making no effort to try and be the High Lord his people need.
It's not that someone who was abusive doesn't deserve the opportunity to better themselves but I don't think they deserve forgiveness until there are actual steps being taken to actually better themselves. Since Tamlin still, as of SF, has not made any progress in the right direction, I understand why it's frustrating when excuses are being made for his behavior.
Again, I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. Growing up in that situation often effects our own relationships and self esteem and I hate that you have become a victim in something you never had any say in.
Sending you lots of love ❤️
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rare original content time! and its gonna be me venting
cw: weight "management", weight loss and gain, gynecological issues, doctors, the rona
so either this story starts in my childhood: i've always been a fat girl and have recently discovered that it was basically eating for attention, positive or negative, since i also was a glass child.
or this story starts 3 years ago, with the pandemic. where i gained even more weight. but i also met this guy and he and another friend somewhat motivated me to lose a lot of weight (that i was really happy with and i felt better in my body, happier overall due to exercise). and then last february (2022) not only did i hook up with a guy, i also got myself a nice little BV out of it. and ofc the rona. after the rona cleared up, i went to a gyno who also did an ultrasound and found a cyst. i felt my life implode - i had only heard bad stuff about ovarian cysts.
they told me to not do intense workouts and put me on hormonal birth control. i could barely stand on my 2 legs. and i was depressed as hell. gained a lot of it back. got off the birth control because suddenly the cyst was not on my ovary anymore but somehow adjacent to it and hormones dont help anymore. still couldn't work out.
am also supposed to get an mri that either has a 6 month waitlist or a 100+ usd cost - my monthly pay is about 1k usd so i kinda cant afford it.
i recently took steps toward getting the mri - another gyno visit. now i also have a polycystic ovary (just one of the 2. hormone levels still ok - not pcos).
im also currently getting fired/ laid off and at the time of that appointment, i had just found out and was already exhausted because of multiple failed applications. i was certain that the layoff would happen and was looking and interviewing but got no offers.
when i tried to explain my health situation to my doctor, i ended up crying. she was patient, gave me some paper towels to wipe my face and explained how the procedures were gonna go. i liked the experience overall.
i also gained all the weight i had lost back.
docs want to investigate possible insulin resistance - i got my blood drawn and since then i have a bruise where i was stuck. this has not happened ever before, and i did used to get blood tests for a thyroid issue. im now wondering if this is bc im fat.
went to an endocrinologist - thyroid levels not optimal, and potential insulin resistance that i was hoping they could advise me on.
she calls my name. "how's it going with the weight loss?" i remark that not well.
"do you have endometriosis?"
"im not sure. afaik it needs surgery to be diagnosed and i havent had any surgery in that area. but my periods do hurt like hell and get kinda plentiful, so it wouldnt be a shock."
first few questions go normal, i know my meds, doses, diagnoses. she starts talking about weight loss. i just take it in an "ok im not coming back to her" way. then she starts asking about the cyst. i tell her what i know. she asks "but what does the mri say?" "dunno, they have a 6 month waitlist" "and youre not willing to pay for an emergency?"
now, in her pov, this random fat woman starts crying.
in my pov, all my job hunt stress and worries bubble up - im crying as im typing this ffs, and i do have a job offer currently! i recall how, if i qwere to go on unemployment, i would be eligible for 120 usd a month - i couldn't even pay rent with that! i recall how our transfer within the company was treated - we were told there would be opportunities and we will have to apply, then we applied, got little feedback, and as the other project's start date approached, they started pressuring us (most specifically, me) to do our tests asap and i was literally given 20 minutes on the end of a workweek to decide if i wanted to start on the other project on monday. did not go well.
so i just ended up crying - and angry at myself, since earlier i would just be angry if anything happens, and i was used to working with anger, but i dont know how to deal with crying.
she may have acknowledged that i was crying, saying she knows this situation is not easy but i should do everything to get out of it (no shit).
then, sobbing, i explained that the gyno did not say the mri would be urgent, and she did acknowledge the long waitlist.
doctor goes back to weight loss / eating habits. do i eat dairy? dairy is like fertilizer for the cysts, she says. "i don't drink cows milk. i do like yogurts and cheeses tho." "no, you cannot eat cheese".
what the actual fuck is happening?
she asks me to lay down for an ultrasound of my thyroid (to make sure its all good). i explain that its left side was taken out and on the right, there seems to be just a tiny little lump, and im kinda curious if it grew. should i take off my shirt? nah, just pull the neckline apart.
i would have rather taken it off but k.
she acknowledges that the left lobe is indeed not there, and goes to town with the ultrasound ot see whats up on the remaining right half. kinda hurts but whatever. lets just get this over with.
"how much do ypu weigh?"
"honestly, too much rn"
"100 kg?"
"uhm... [i am above that so i say 5 kg less]"
...
"why did they leave the right lobe?"
fuck knows, lady, it was 10 years ago and im not a doctor. i was an entire child, do you think anyone cared to explain the medical decisions? do you think i understood?
"the theory was that they were hoping it would work at least on its own or that it would make up for the left part"
"well that isnt happening"
"i have noticed. but idk if taking it out now would do any good."
"nah"
tells me i can wipe off the gel and calls me back to her desk while she writes up her report.
tells me that i need a nutritionist for the insulin resistance and refers me to a colleague. then gets back on weight loss.
"the small blob on your thyroid would go away if you managed to lose the weight"
"also don't eat bread. don't have more than 2 slices a day" "i already don't eat bread" "then stop eating pasta."
gurl idk how to tell you but pasta and cheese are the only joy left in my life.
"but you have to go to a specialist. no one can do this alone"
idk how to tell you but im not _paying_ for someone to yell at me to lose weight... i know a lot about diets, nutrition, how a meal should look like, calories, intermittent fasting (btw, have you ever had an endocrinologist recommend intermittent fasting? i heard it was bad for your hormones lol), and i don't want to give like 70 usd for a "specialist" to potentially tell me nothing new. is this arrogant? yes. but again im not rich.
is it cheaper than whatever i would need to do if my body continues to deteriorate? idk. i would have to put it on my goddamn credit card tho.
and then i look on the paper she gave me.
she wrote "emotionally-pshychologically unstable" as a symptom. fuck off the entire way.
i left her office. i cried. i cried some more. i complained to my friends. almost lost it when i couldn't attach a lid on an iced coffee and it spilled on me. i didn't tell my parents because i do not trust them with questions regarding my mental health.
and i read her note about our meet again.
she wrote
"antecedent: right lobectomy.
currently right lobe micronodule"
so that's how doctors listen to fat people.
#cw health#cw weight#cw weight loss#cw weight gain#cw diet culture#cw doctors#cw medical negligence#cw gynecological issues#health#diet#tw ed diet#weight loss#weightloss#weight gain#weight management#disordered eating#emotional eating#vent#i need to lose so much weight#i need to vent
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c3x20 a slice of death
I love this episode already. I've worked in family owned diners with rivalries, I love stories about italian new yorkers & I've definitely seen goncharov (tho that also had russian mafia).
Poor alexis, that is humiliating! This is so sad!
Who has a live band playing?
She's 17 cool. She was 15 in s1e1 & she's 17 near the end of s3. Cool
I love all the nicks & their names this is the life. It reminds me of that steven universe episode with the fry shop & pizza shop.
Not super funny, either of you.
Nick Jr. Uh, authentic, not terrific.
I love the new york pizza scene & how everyone knows who is whom but it's so confusing & I loved this episode so much when I first watched it
Oh but I kept her number!
I don't think there's going to be a second date.
So new york. So italian.
This Is The Best Episode Ever.
Exactly!
Who wrote this episode??? It is amazing!
Maybe they did get it from a medical school, you don't know beckett!
They used the same audio already. I mean it's not a big deal.
Costumes:
Rick: brown coat (gasp browncoat?) & violet/blue shirt
Ryan: tbh he looks like he did in s1 a bit. idk why. So what looks like an aviator jacket, nice dark brown, leather looking, has the fuzz in the hood/collar, no lapels, dark brown tie, actually a good brown, & a plaid-type dress shirt (purple, maybe another shade of purple idk, probs black & white in there too, maybe grey & blue & pink... idk I'm not good with this... I think it's brown actually)
Espt: Leather jacket & normal collared shirt underneath. It's like, safari style almost. Collared so it is fancy enough for work, but the put-together of the blocks is odd.
Beckett: Detective coat. (double breasted light grey trench coat looking thing)
Castle: We should talk to the other Nicks.
Ryan: He's right. Pizza is serious business in this town. (Remember that mafia family who used the pizza shop as a front but then became legitimate bc the pizza was so good?)
Beckett: Ok you can talk to them.
Ryan: wait; Me? no; why?
(why is he upset at this...? I'm also rly sad castle didn't go with him)
Pottery kiln? Like Joy from the The Cat Who series! She made red ceramics & when I say she MADE red ceramics...
RM: I heard you found a body in the oven at terrific nick's
KB: Authentic nick's
RM: OH THANK GOD, the wife loves terrific nick's
lmao full bodied flavour (btw yes I do indeed love his jacket)
Castle that's a heck of a leap
& the audio reflecting the mood XD
Gordon BURNS???
b'y the pic would have also been melted.
Oh. Poor man. Hugs to him.
Oh not the pizza wars XD.
Terrific, authentic, & otherwise.
Sounds like u'r talking from experience espt. Did you survive firefights with gangbangers & then got killed doing a speeding ticket? & then came back to life to join homicide so u could investigat ur own death?
Nice handkerchief, murdoch vibes.
KB: U ok?
RC: Yeah no yeah...
I wonder if he ever did that with alexis, had her colouring while he was signing books.
Espt had that much information thrown at him in that short amount of time he was gone?
Poor ryan, exiled to work talking to all the other nicks, & then exiled again to work computer stuff
Wrong nick bro XD I thought he meant nick jr.
Hold the extra cheese wasn't funny.
Oh def steal the oven.
Ah yes italian new york mobster money laundering in a pizza place?
So the captions are willing to put nada in the captions here but put "speaking spanish" last episode when esposito said it? Seriously? Seriously?? You couldn't write "nada"? Like at this point it's a loanword & everyone knows what it means, but even so you should still write down everything that is said. Not translated, not "speaking [language]" but the actual words.
Like how he says "luds" for L.U.D.s
I love his fake little accent he does "i'll kill ye"
True. You can't threaten to kill someone, it is not covered in free speech.
It's the fat isn't it.
You can find out where things are from a phone call on a cell? That's sus af.
Tips the concierge even tho u'r not really here. Love it.
Rick speedreading moments.
Who would write nicely like that & then spend an entire page of notebook on two lines of writing?
RC: *sees a cool new app*
KB: no
RC: Fine but you don't get to play my angry birds!
Ok that was the funny one, the only funny one. I wonder if they had pizza!
Still do! (he's literally an author)
So WHEN were u in a relationship?
fate <3
(except he withheld the information abt the story he was working on for a reason, if you've seen it before like me u can see why.)
Ryan with the financials!
How big are new york blocks?
Woah a nice transition! Cool!
Nice heck yeah party crasher!
Woah language but martha is right. She's totally allowed to swear in this situation. It's like the kitchen. No swears at my catholic school unless you were working an event with the culinary program & physically in the kitchen.
RC: Bitch!
*realizes what he said & covers mouth*
Aw cyberbullying...
RC: Where's beckett?
KR: Uh, Hall of Records. Tracking down what Burns was looking for. (Pink shirt : ) & also a vest, he looks pretty)
RC: Great. *hands Beckett's coffee to Ryan*
(we know time that ryan & esposito stole castle & beckett's coffee & then switched after one sip that ryan like beckett flavoured coffee & espt likes castle flavoured coffee)
RC: Listen, if I gave you a website, could you have your friends at Tech hack into it and take some pictures down? (bribing ryan & not his friends at tech?)
KR, taking the paper from castle with a little smile: Did someone find naked pictures of you again?
(HOLD ON WHAT? & HAS RICK ASKED RYAN TO DO THIS BEFORE?)
KR: *unfolds paper with a lighthearted little smile at castle's antics*
RC: No. Not me. It's Alexis.
KR: *stops*
KR: *thinking someone posted castle's daughter's nudes & now castle is asking him to take them down*
KR: *looks up at him with fear in his eyes*
(also bc she is 17 her pics would technically be CP & this would be a bigger issue so maybe that's what ryan was thinking. He was thinking they needed to take this to Vice or smth.)
RC: This is for Alexis
KR: *eyes searching*
KR: Uh, this just got awkward. What's this about?
(his voice suddenly got hella squeaky)
RC: Okay. Mean girl at school kiss ambushed Alexis's boyfriend (ryan nods & makes faces in sympathetic outrage) then posted the photographic proof on her website. Alexis is very upset.
KR: Mmm. I-- I could have my friend Tony take care of it. You know, off the record. (Love a good "tony")
RC: Thanks. And, uh, no need to mention this to Beckett. You know how she gets with these things
(Castle and Ryan smile & start to laugh & go to sip their coffees. Beckett appears and grabs her cup from Ryan.)
KB: Things like abusing police resources for your own personal agenda?
RC: Whaat? That's ridi-- No, you don-- No. That's-- that's---
(Castle gives Ryan the OK sign as he follows Beckett to her desk. Ryan slips the slip of paper into his vest meaning he's still willing to help out rick & his daughter even w/o the coffee bribery)
Yes yes yes castle yes ryan this is an abuse of power but that is so valid & I think it's funny & great & I love it
Ryan, trying to act casual after this little thing: Yep?
Espt has a denim-looking dress shirt on what
& then beckett has a nice green scarf & longsleeve
Yo the guy's alive??
Ooh I love a good noire film but why say noowahr instead of nwar.
RC: I haven't heard the story...
Oh... that sucks.. he couldn't even crawl over to hold her. That's got to be traumatic.
Neat, learning abt history. Cool.
So Ryan was in narcotics back in '03, he went into homicide in '06 maybe, & then three years later (I might be mixing this up with Ike Thornton's (fake) death tho) as mentioned in I think that very episode, castle shows up: '09. 03 narco, 09 castle shows up & there is a mention of "three years ago" so, 06 ike dies ryan goes into homicide. idk I'm just trying to get a timeline.
Anyway, I always love it when they bring back character's pasts before we knew them.
& during this Ryan is also fidgeting with his file, point for the adhd ryan headcanon.
Castle never specified HOW to flip it so he could follow the movements. Glad he said to slow it down tho.
Is the man left handed?
Alexis got into a fight? Good for her.
Oh no castle & ryan & tony got alexis in trouble : ( but also XD
Heck yeah girl!
Tho yeah rick you're right violence is not the answer "& then one of you ends up dead in a pizza oven"
& then he quotes beckett & hugs her.
RC: Did u kick her ass?
AC: I kind of did
RC: Good girl.
Good. Even when he tells her retaliation is not the way, he still lets her know.
Bro teenagers ARE criminal masterminds. High school bullies are NOT some dumb-as-bricks doorknob who beats you & but can't chew gum & walk at the same time, they really can be evil geniuses.
Costumes: Castle & beckett are normal, tho I don't like beckett's shirt. Esposito is wearing a boring not-fancy long-sleeve with jeans & ryan is wearing a typical dark blue dress shirt & dress pants, no tie this time, nice grey coat. Really fancy coat too. I like it.
How can you tell someone dialed the numbers for a call but never hit send...? Unless it was already on the phone & they didn't get erased for some reason. Mine closes every time I switch apps.
Esposito, breakin down the doors!
Music is great rn!
The boys just run out the window
Oh so she IS in with the drug dealers.
She's good. She's really good. I'm speaking from the perspective of having seen this before.
It's obvious that he CANNOT be cavallo pretending to be his own right-hand-one.
Poor R+E, out of breath from the chase
So she DID know those names when castle asked her the first time!
OH MY GOODNESS HOLY CRAP THAT'S A LOT OF FIGHTING & POOR RYAN IN THE MIDDLE TRYING TO GET THEM TO STOP
Castle u really just went back on what u & beckett put ur money on?
Whose tab? Whose tab did they put it on? What?
Winner winner pizza dinner & wow that's a lot of smack.
He's a pizza man! He would never disrespect his oven like that! It is SO not his speed castle!
Oh so you wanted to burn down authentic nick's?
Girl if you can call him then that's helping!
See like this is what got my eyes on ryan in the first place, his movements are so weird, like he's walking too big for his body.
Oh & again unassuming middleman is dumb
Is she limping?
why is she in homicide? I thought she was in narco.
also I can't use my question mark button on tumblr anymore for some reason & so it reloaded the page & got rid of a mini fanfictioin I wrote & I am fucking upset. I had added some notes to my liveblog. What the hell tumblr^/ why won't you let me use a proper question mark^/ at least my french é&É still work. Ηοwever, my greek keyboard does not.
Ok sweetheart, just Don't Use Easy-to-Catch Names
Calls ryan & esposito the best detectives.
Ooh une femme fatale
Love the music & oh no please don't be nick's pizza
Oh thank goodness it's stephano's
So mature of Alexis
OH THAT IS A GOOD LOOKING PIZZA
& it seems like all the bonus features are deleted scenes which I have seen. Yuck tho I don't need to see this.
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names drakken has called your character: aquafilter for q. or co coach, which would really just be coach with the repeats. anyway you get it-
LMFAO i love this
A: Who are their exes? Do they still keep in touch?
Seb <3 Yes they are still friends and they make fun of each other all the time. They were really young when they dated and both not really in a place to have a serious relationship so at this point there aren't any real hurt feelings about it.
Also technically Candace but Aquata doesn't really count her... but yeah they are so NOT in touch.
Q: Do they have a good luck charm they often have with them?
Her lucky suit! Aquata has a lucky swimsuit that she would always practice in for big swim events. This is not the weird part. The weird part is that Aquata would also wear this under her normal clothes sometimes for big non-swim-related things, like exams in college and job interviews.
Only a select few people know about the lucky suit. Like I said, it's embarrassing.
U: Would they rather be single or in a relationship?
At the moment, single. It's not that Aquata can never see herself in a relationship, but she's not great at communicating or being vulnerable and those are kind of key in any kind of relationship. It's also why a lot of her friendships are pretty casual, and the people she is most willing to be vulnerable with are her sisters (and even them she's like... ugh!)
A: Who are their exes? Do they still keep in touch?
She also has some ex FRIENDS... I feel like Aquata absolutely had a falling out with some people in secondary and never really made up with them lmao. Open connection if anyone wants it!!!
F: Have they ever had a one night stand?
All the time babeyyy. Her fav person to hook up with is Wendy bc 1. she is hot and 2. they are very on the same page in terms of what this is
I: In general, are they organized or messy?
Super organized! Aquata hates mess and it's a wonder her and Alana are good roommates lol (it's because they're used to each other actually lol)
L: How often do they post on their social media accounts?
Not all that often. She shares a lot of social justice type stuff on her Insta story and Twitter, but personal posts are a little less common. She's posted a few TikTok explainers about issues she cares about.
T: How quick are they to cry?
Not very quick, but if she gets really upset she definitely will. And then she'll get even more embarrassed and upset and it will get worse.
E: Are they the happiest they’ve ever been?
Uhhhhhhhhhh I would say.... no. I think the happiest Aquata has ever been was like when she was nine. But she's doing better lately than she has in the past. She's spending time with her gym friends. She's training for a marathon! She actually finds the mock trial team kind of... fulfilling?
R: When’s the last time they had a birthday party?
Does messaging everyone she matched with on Tinder to meet her at Pixies at the same time on her birthday count as a party? I think it does lmaooo
C: If they had to pick one sport to play/watch which would it be?
Swim <3 But lately I am thinking she should get into roller derby. I think it seems up her alley.
O: How much have they changed in the past five years?
Hmmmm. I think she's found more of her purpose? When she first graduated and realized she couldn't be in the Olympics after all, she was totally aimless. But I think Board and her petition have reminded her there is a world outside of swim and there are real changes she can fight for.
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Special Chapter Part 1 : A rainy day
Author's note: Holy shit, I'm finally back with something!! Never expected it to get this lonf but I got a bit carried away with writing some cute scenes 👉👈 It also kinda helped me warm up and clear my head about where I want this story to go. Also got too busy with gushing about how cute Vi is in this story a a a. Hopefully you'll enjoy this and dont be too confused if some sentences sound weird when Vi's speaking bc she's still trying to master the language (i hope i didnt write it too weird aa) i also havent proofread it properly bc its midnight and im tired 🥲
Summary: You and Vi had been living together for some months now. Things were going pretty well between the two of you with some feelings blossoming here and there. Going through a lazy rainy day, the both of you were spending it normally like any other day. That is until you get a great idea. Oh, you genius.
Words: 7437 Words
Warnings: none except maybe some swear words?? And definitely some awkwardness with some cute moments on top of it.
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Vi was sitting on your couch while watching TV. Legs on the table and her top slightly pulled up, showing her abs while scratching her stomach. An "Oof" came out of her mouth as she patted her stomach.
"Pff, you okay?" you chuckled turning to look over the counter of your kitchen, a plate and a towel in your hand.
She peeked over her shoulder to take a glance at you before shifting her eyes back onto the TV screen.
"Just feeling - uhhh- full after that much food" she curtly said, eyebrows slightly furrowing as she clicked her tounge.
"Was it good?" you asked her as you put a plate into one of your cupboards.
"Yeah yeah, was good" she absentmindedly threw up a thumbs up, not looking back this time.
It had become a habit of you both to use a thumbs up or down for good or bad and was one of the first things you had agreed to use to talk to each other.
She was randomly switching through the channels, searching for something interesting that she could watch and wouldn't have to struggle too much with deciphering what they were saying.
It had been some months since she had landed into this world. The beginning was pretty rocky and stressful.
It had taken a while until the both of you had gotten used to each other. She herself had to tone down a lot of her fighting instincts and her brashness. Pretty much her tendency to get impatient and all that.
She wasn't one to get violent against someone, who couldn't fight back and didn't mean any harm but she was the type who would definitely get loud when they're riled up.
Unfortunately was it you who had gotten yelled at by her during an argument and frankly, you were whaling after that due to bad experiences associated with yelling.
So she basically had to get her shit together to make this work.
Well, it was just really frustrating to be somewhere you didn't know shit about and she quickly learned that she had to let herself trust you.
Nowadays, there hasnt been a single moment where she hadn't been thankful towards you since you were literally turning everything upside down to make her feel comfortable.
You gave her a roof, new clothes, three days a meal, would take the time to teach her your language bit by bit and she'd teach you some of hers in exchange.
Not to mention that she had started to stare at you more often with a strange tingly feeling welling up in her chest a month ago.
Whenever she'd catch herself doing that, she would distract herself with her phone or go outside for a jog.
Or just look anywhere else but you.
Yes, you even bought her own phone and it was mentally challenging to explain to her how the wonders of a phone worked with hand gestures and roughly thrown in words buuut it somehow worked.
And today the two of you were living through a lazy rainy day, completely comfortable with each other.
Vi's thumb continued to press the button as she mindlessly browsed through the channels.
Putting the last dish into the cupboard, you heard a small "wow" escape from her lips.
Raising an eyebrow, you layed the towel next to the sink and made your way towards the couch.
You stood behind her as you put your hands onto the couch, leaning slightly forward and moving your eyes onto the screen.
It was a documentary about the mountain animals.
Glancing down at Vi, you could see an entranced expression on her face.
Mouth parted slightly open and her eyes resembling those of your little brother whenever he would watch his favorite Ninja from Ninjago do something really cool.
Your heart was literally squeezing so hard from how cute she just looked.
You tap her shoulder, making her lift her head back to look up at you.
Fuck, she looks even cuter from this angle A A A A
Giving her a soft smile, you ask "What are you watching?" while pointing with your index finger at the TV.
Blushing faintly by your infectious smile, she gave you a loopsided one back and moved her eyes back onto the screen.
"Uhmm it's about... mountains aaaaand animals. Yeah, mountains and animals." She repeated twice to make sure that she had said it correctly.
Beaming down at her and nearly choking with pride, you lean down to put your arms around her neck.
"Hey, you got it right!! See, it's getting better and better!!" you told her, giving her a short but tight squeeze before releasing her from your grip and jump over the couch to take a seat next to her.
Vi could feel her heart wanting to jump out as you had squeezed her.
< Holy fuck >
She felt her hand tighten it's grip around the remote controller.
Letting out a shaky breath, she could feel her face getting warm and it didn't help that you chose to sit pretty close to her, your legs almost touching each other.
You turned to look at her and saw her face getting red.
"You sure you're okay?" you raised an eyebrow at her while gently pressing the back of your hand on her forehead.
That only made her burning face even hotter.
"Holy shit, Vi! You're burning up! " you said to her, a worried expression on her face.
"Nonono, it's okay. Just feeling a bit hot." she told you scrambling a bit to find the right words. She took your hand and gently pried it off of her forehead but not letting go of it.
Giving your hand a light squeeze to reassure you that she's okay, she lets go of it and points towards the TV.
"Have you - uhhh- seen mountains?" trying to quickly change the topic to stop her face from burning up, she now wanted to slap herself for asking you such a question.
< Great fucking job, me. Wanted to ask if she's been to the mountains but at the exact moment, I can't remember the damn words. >
Luckily you knew what she had meant with that question since after a while you've developed a knack for deciphering her words.
Glancing at the screen, they were now showing some pretty panoramic shots of the mountains while explaining how mountains formed.
"Hmm" you hummed as you stared at the screen in concentration, Vi looking slightly tilting her head to the side and waiting for your answer.
Your eyebrows and nose were a bit scrunched together, your mouth forming a bit of a pout.
"Cute.", she muttered under her breath as she looked at your pensive expression.
"Did you say something?"
"N-No, just waiting for your answer"
< Oh my god, this can't get even more awkward >
"Hmm, well I've only been once to the mountains with my grandma." you said to her, emphasizing the "once" with your index finger.
"With who?" Vi had understood the first part but couldn't recall what "grandma" meant in your language.
"Ah, wait" you told her, quickly holding your palm towards her to urge her to wait as you got up and when towards the shelves hanging over your TV.
You took the picture of you with your grandma and you with your parents in your hands. You went back to the couch and plopped down next to Vi.
Pointing at your mom, you said " So this is my Mother", you moved your finger to the other picture "and this is my Grandmother but you can also say 'mom' or 'grandma' so it's easier to say."
Meanwhile Vi was internally gushing about how adorable you had looked as a child as you explained her who was who.
You took a look at her and saw that she looked weirdly intrigued by a simple photo of you and your relatives.
Deciding to tease her a bit, you hold back a smirk as you hold the pictures up infront of you and ask "So a question from your teacher. Who is my 'Mother' and who is my 'Grandmother'?"
Rolling her eyes at your antics but knowing you only wanted to test her, she decided to play along.
"So this is your grandmother and this is your mother." she had pointed first with her finger towards your grandma and then your mom.
"Was that, right?" she asked seeing as you weren't saying anything and just staring at her.
"Oh come on, Y/N! What's the answer?" she threw you a deadpanned look. Okay now she was slowly getting annoyed because it was just a simple question and you were unnecessarily dragging it out.
Snickering, you put the pictures onto the table infront of the couch and shrugged your shoulders.
"What do you think?"
"UGH, I'm taking a shower" she threw her hands up as she stood up from the couch and went towards your room to get herself some fresh clothes.
"Okay, okay - pff- you were right." you yelled after her while trying to contain your laughter.
"Yeah, yeah. I know!" she yelled back from your room and came out with a bundle of clothes, throwing you a glance as she shook her head and huffed through her nose.
She couldn't really be annoyed at you for being so annoyingly endearing.
"Don't use up my purple shampoo bottle, please! It's my favorite one." you yelled before she could shut the door.
"Thanks. I'll use it aaaaall up cause of your stupid question." she quickly said but loud enough for you to hear before she shut the door, not waiting for your reply.
"From where did you learn the word" stupid"?! " you exclaimed playfully shocked.
" Someone just swears a lot in this house and it's not only me" you heard her muffled shouting as the sound of running water followed.
"It's not Vi without some swearing, I guess" you chuckled to yourself. Due to her steadily improved speech, her comebacks were also getting better. You weren't trying to belittle her but she just sounded so adorable whenever she would retort with something with that cute accent and more or less broken speech. She was trying real hard to come up with more elaborate words to not burden you with having to keep using simple speech so she'd understand it well which would lead to you having to reassure her, that she doesn't have to force herself to improve since it would come naturally and you were for sure not one to pressure someone.
Looking at the screen, there were now credits rolling down.
You recall Vi's awed expression and you were feeling happy that she wanted to know if you had gone to the mountains.
It was probably out of curiousity but you had a feeling that she also wanted to know more about you.
Well, you were hoping for it and not to mention that your chest couldn't stop welling up with pride because she kept steadily improving.
You couldn't blame her though because who would want to stay in a world where you couldn't understand anyone.
Secretly you were hoping that maybe you were one of the reasons for her eagerness to master the language.
Okay, Y/N. Get down from your high horse, yeehaw but it's a clear sign that I'm not that bad of a teacher, amirite
Glancing at the pictures on the table, you decided to put them back onto the shelves.
Gently putting them back, you hold a longing gaze at your grandma.
"Damn, grandma. If you could just see what's going on at my place. You would have been really happy about having someone who you could finally feed many many plates of your delicious cooking. She would have definitely loved it." you whispered as a slightly sorrowful smile started to creep onto your face.
" Maybe we could have gone to the mountains together again with her. "
The trip with your grandma in South Tyrol was one of the fondest memories you had of her. Just hiking up these mountains, your lungs being filled with such fresh air and the view.
Oh boy, the view.
It was just so majestic for 7 year old Y/N as your grandma gave you a loving pat on the head while telling you how proud she was that you've managed to push through and hike up with her.
The image of you and your grandma standing next to each other while taking in the view is something you would never dare to forget.
"It would be nice if she could see it too." you told your grandma as you merely got her kind smile and the silence of the picture for a reply.
Taking a step back to take a last look before having to start cooking, your mind began to shift gears.
Your eyes widened as a sudden idea popped up in your head.
A really fucking great idea.
You heard the door open up, an indication that Vi was done with her shower.
She was drying her hair with a towel while holding your favorite shampoo in the other and peeking inside the tiny hole of it.
"Okay, so there is little left of your shampoo. You can thank me lat-"
Moving her head up, she could see you standing infront of the shelves.
Precisely infront of the pictures you had shown her earlier.
She stood there for some seconds, watching if you'd react at all.
"You okay, cupcake?" she asked you, while quirking an eyebrow at you.
Startled you turn around, your mood having done a full 180 degree turn as you beamed at her.
Quickly walking up to her, you grabbed her by her shoulders.
"Oh my god, Vi!!"
"W-What?"
"OH MY GOD, VI!!"
"Oh my god, Y/N!! What is it?!" she grabbed your right shoulder while mimicking your voice by making hers a pitch higher and shook you slightly back and forth just as you did.
"I. Am. A. Genius." you told her and with each emphasized word moved your face closer to hers until your noses were nearly touching.
Wide and confused steel blue eyes were looking at you as you could feel her hand clenching your shoulder a bit.
You were too excited to notice her shaky breathing and flickering eyes.
Exhaling deeply, she pushed you a bit back from her and gave you a smile.
Sooner or later you'll be the death of me
"O-Oh, was I too close?" you asked her, your beaming smile morphing into a worried expression and your grasp on her shoulders weakening.
"Nono, you just - uuhhhh- fuck what was that word again?"
"Surprised you?"
"Yeah! Surprised me! So everything's okay." she reassured you as she tucked a stray hair behind your ears, her rough hand softly brushing against your cheek.
"Oh okay then I'm glad" you said while you let your hands slide down from her shoulders to take a hold of her wrists.
"So why exactly are you a genius?" she asked. She was trying real hard to keep her eyes on your face so you wouldn't notice her nervousness and she really didn't want to make you worry again.
She couldn't really move her eyes elsewhere too since your oversized shirt, which was sliding on one shoulder down and your shorts, that stopped at the middle of your thigh were honestly not helping her at all.
You had to bite your lip to contain from squealing out of excitement (while making Vi experience some real hard gay panic) as you inhaled and exhaled deeply.
"So as you know, I've got a summer vacation starting soon, right?"
Vi only blinked at you and shifted her eyes left to right until they went back to look at you again.
"Wait, what's a vacation again?"
"I basically don't have to go to work in 7 days and this time for 14 days!"
"Ohh, cool! And?"
"That's it."
Vi blinked once.
Twice.
Thrice.
"Wait, that's it?"
"Yeah."
"Pff"
She slightly pushed you back as she was trying to contain her laugh but ended absolutely failing that task.
"D-Did you just *wheeze* shake me and yell at me, just to say that you had a vacation? I-i mean that's good for you! You can watch TV or sleep longer aaand so on."
Owlishly blinking at her, you booped her nose.
"I'm a genius."
Gently shoving your hand away from her face, she put her free hand onto your cheek.
"A cute genius." she told you as she pinched your cheek.
"H-Hey, my cheek! Also what did you just say?" you asked as you rubbed your now violated cheek while squinting your eyes trying to mimick her glare.
She only gave you a loopsided smirk as she leaned slightly towards your face.
"Nothing." she said as she turned around to go back to the bathroom but not before roughly ruffling your hair.
"S-Stop it! Oof, you're such a tease sometimes." you grumbled to yourself as you tried to clean the mess up she had created on your head.
"What did you just say?" came from the bathroom.
"Nnnnnnothing!" you mimicked her as you went to your room to grab a small piece of paper and a pen.
"Real funny" came as a reply as you heard her open the fridge.
Huffing through your nose while shaking your head, you started to write down a list for the things you would need for your 'endeavor'.
Luckily you still had your old hiking backpack and boots but Vi needed some.
That's where your good friend Amazon had to help you out but you definitely gonna drag her ass to go shopping with you since you wanted proper hiking shoes were really important and you didn't want her to suffer from blisters.
She'd probably not even mind that but only the best for her, am I right?
You chuckled to yourself as you were nearly done with the list.
Your plan was gonna be perfect and it was gonna be a surprise for Vi.
You really had to stop pampering her before you'd end up broke but how could you not when you've got so many things to show her that she hadn't been able to experience in her world.
Either these things didn't exist or it was just due to her living circumstances.
You had went over to write another list for your groceries as you heard a knock on your door.
Before you could reply, she already came barging in with a popsicle in her hand and the other holding the door's handle.
"Why did you knock when you were going to open it anyway?" you quirked an eyebrow as you questioned her antics.
Nonchalantly shrugging her shoulders, she took a bite of her popsicle while shifting her eyes towards your list.
"You weren't naked soooo" she reasoned as she stepped closer to take a look what you had written.
"Classic" you huffed while a smile crept up to your face as you finished your list.
Vi stood behind you as she looked over your shoulder, enjoying the perks of being some inches taller than you.
"Aha! Finally done" you exclaimed, aprubtly standing straight and bumping the back of your head against her chin.
"Ow!"
"Oof, sweetie? You okay?"
Immediately turning around, she seemed pretty unaffected by it while you were rubbing your head.
Realising what had just happened, you quickly put down the pen in your hand and grabbed her face.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry! Is your chin alright?" you asked her as you tapped gently onto her chin so she'd know what you meant.
Letting out a soft laugh, she booped your nose.
"I'm okay, munchkin. But you gotta buy some popsicles because I just ate the last one. Maybe I'll forgive you after that." she smirked at you while holding her nearly done popsicle infront of your face.
Not letting her tease you this time, you stole her last bite of it.
Vi could only gasp in shock as she moved her eyes back and forth between you and her now gone popsicle.
Only the stick was left in her hand.
"My popsicle?!"
" Our popsicle. So now let's go buy some new ones before someone starts to cry about it. We gotta buy some groceries anyway."
Huffing through her nose, she stuck her tounge out at you.
"Then go and throw this into the trash for me". She took your wrist and before you could react, put the popsicle stick into your hand before letting go and made her way towards your wardrobe.
You could only deadpan at her but decided to let her take the 'win' and took your list with you.
"Tell me when you're done" you told her as you went to the kitchen.
"Why? You're missing a show." You could literally hear her smirking.
.
.
.
.
"Oh come on, atleast say something, Y/N!"
Snickering as you closed the cabinet under your sink, where your trash can was, you made your way back, finding her only in her black jogging pants and white sports bra as you went into your room.
Turning around with a shirt in her hands, she threw it over her shoulder while eyeing you.
She was suggestively wiggling her eyebrows at you. "Came for the show, pumpkin?". You rolled your eyes but decided to amuse her for a bit. To your advantage, she was standing not too far from your bed.
I can play her game too
You began to walk towards her. An eyebrow of hers raising up as if daring you to show her what you're planning.
Pressing your palm onto her chest, you pushed her back, using up little to no force. She was clearly letting you do this since she had still that shit eating smirk on her face.
Her legs had hit your bed as you pushed her down with some force, making her fall onto it with a small "oomph".
She propped herself up onto her elbows as she layed on her back, waiting for your next move.
"So now what, munchkin?"
You didn't reply as you bent over her.
Seeing her eyes widen for a fraction before she tried to cover it up with another smirk of hers, made you feel prouder than you should be.
Wait until I do this.
You began to crawl on top of her and made yourself comfortable on her thighs, effectively straddling her.
Now this was a view you could get used to.
Seeing her beneath you was kinda doing things to you.
Kinda? More like fuck, she's cute.
Vi was too far gone. There was no use hiding her blush now as she really didn't expect you to be this bold since you were usually the one who would try not to invade someone's personal space out of nowhere.
Especially not like this.
But she was definitely not complaining.
Your bare thighs were within her reach. Your oversized shirt showing a bit of your cleavage as it slid down your shoulder.
She gently put her hands onto your knees. She didn't dare to move her hands further up, not wanting to ruin things between the both of you.
But those delicious looking thighs would nearly make her mouth water at the mere sight of them.
Feeling her slightly shaky touch only made your smirk widen as you put more weight onto her thighs, pressing yourself further into her.
Her breath hitched as you saw her squint at you with a dangerous glint in her eyes.
"Cupcake, you're killing me like this"
Wondering if you've made her that flustered that she was slipping out words in her language, only made you let out a soft laugh.
"Are you that nervous, that you're speaking in your language, Vi?"
Before she could give you a reply, you leaned down until your noses were nearly touching each other.
Seeing her eyes from this close just took your breath away.
Just like you could feel the warmth of her breath hitting your face.
Her entire body was feeling pretty hot.
Chuckling, you tilted your head slightly back to give her a kiss on her forehead.
Putting your hand against her cheek, you stroke it gently as you looked her in the eyes.
"Come on, silly. Let's go before the shops start to close cause we're taking too long to get ready " came out as a whisper as you sat straight up. Not even waiting for her to say something, you went to your wardrobe and took out some blue jeans and an oversized hoodie with a dog paw print on the front.
"We'll go after I'm done changing my clothes so you better be ready till then" You took a glance over your shoulder and to top it off, blew her a kiss before going to the bathroom.
It took her some seconds to process what just happened. She raised her hand onto her forehead, gently stroking the spot you had just kissed.
"Fuck, she's driving me crazy" she mumbled as she closed her eyes, letting out a long breath she had been holding the entire time.
This time, she would let you have this win.
Forcing herself to get up, she threw on a tank top and a hoodie over it. Replaying the same moment over and over in her head until she heard her voice call out to her.
"Vi, could you take the trash out with you?" You were already putting on your shoes in the hallway as Vi came out, mumbling something under her breath. Taking her silence towards you as a win, you decided to let her be as she made her way towards the trash can in your kitchen.
Omg, did I fluster her that much??
Trying not to slip out a snicker, you glanced at your phone, glad that you had enough time to buy some groceries and other necessities for your surprise trip.
You put hand into thr pockets of your jacket to check if you've got everything.
Wh-? Where are my keys??
Lowkey panicking, you made a quick stride towards your room.
"Excuse me, where is it??" Frantically looking around in your room, you couldn't see it. This was another peak moment of yours. The key had been in your pocket for days and as soon as you needed it, it's gone.
Meanwhile Vi had been standing in the hallway with the trash bag beside her. Suddenly hearing your loud swearing snapped her out of her thoughts. Chuckling to herself, she went to the coatrack, where some of your other jackets hung.
< Huhh, which one did she wear yesterday? >
She began to randomly dig through pockets until she felt something cold and metallic graze her fingers.
"Y/N, come back. I found your key!"
"OOF where the fuck was that thing?" you came out of your room, huffing exasperated.
"Well, it was in one of your jackets." She said as she pointed at the jacket you had worn yesterday.
"Oohhh, now I remember. Oops, forgot about it" you shrugged your shoulders as you threw a sheepish smile at her. You only got an eyeroll and ruffling your head as an answer.
"H-Hey!"
Snickering, she gave you your key and pinched your cheek as she turned around and took the trash bag with her.
"Well, now you got it back so let's go, cupcake."
"Yeah yeah but thanks anyway. Wouldn't have found it without you." You told her as the both of you exited your apartment and walked towards the building's door.
Vi only gave you a smug smirk over her shoulders as she opened the door.
"Glad I can help you, cutie" Holding the door open for you, she gave you a wink. Sooner or later your eyes would fall out from how often you've been rolling your eyes these days.
"Ever the charmer, are we? Also you still haven't told me what cupcake or the thing you just said meant." you asked her as she threw the trash into the trash bin standing near the entrance.
Turning around, she shrugged her shoulders at you and still had that smug ass smirk on her face." It's a secret. "
You squinted your eyes at her.
" Sooner or later I'll find it out or I'll just make you say it"
She whistled at your cute intimidation.
"Cupcake, you can't even hurt a fly."
"Ugh, let's just drive already" You jammed your key into your car's door and opened it.
Following your lead, she went inside and plopped onto the passenger's seat.
"Waddya wanna listen to?", you asked her as you plugged in the AUX cable into your phone.
Vi blinked at you, processing your words in her head.
"Uhh, you mean music?"
"Yeah"
"Ohhh uh not sure. I'll listen to what you listen to" she said as she shrugged her shoulders.
"You know what, I'll let you choose what we should listen to". You put your phone in her hand as you turned on the engine.
She gave you a smile, happily took your phone and opened up Spotify.
"Oh okay. Then I'll find some good music" she chirped while scrolling down on your playlist.
You smiled at that as you slightly leaned towards her to boop her nose.
"I'm sure you will"
Vi only scrunched her nose at you as you began to drive your car out of the parking lot.
----------------------------------------------------
"Finally home."
Vi dramatically exclaimed as she kicked her shoes off. Dragging the bags with her, she let them drop onto the floor as she plopped face down onto the couch.
Chuckling, you closed the door behind you as you set the bags down.
"Come on, it wasn't that bad." you mused while slipping your shoes off.
Vi scoffed. "Excuse me? We went to like what - ten? - yeah ten or more different shops! And we have like so many fucking bags! Instead of maybe sitting down for a bit or eat something , No! We had to hurry because someone took too long at the clothing section!" If anybody would have told you before meeting her, that going shopping with her would make her behave like the biggest baby in the world, you would have never believed them.
She was able to take down anyone that stood her way and wouldn't even think of complaining even if she would've gotten shot by a bullet.
But shopping? You could hear god tell you to have mercy on her.
Sighing, you dropped the bags in the hallway and made your way towards the couch.
Not gonna lie but her being a big baby after that is so adorable but also exhausting.
Maybe it was some 'elderly sister' thing (even though she's two years older than you) but her being all whiny and dramatic just made you want to pamper her more.
You stopped in your tracks.
*Gasp* Maybe that's her goal. Well let's not question her before she'll disappear outta nowhere just to come back and say "Aah, I went out for a jog and maayybe got into a fight with someone but now I feel a lot better"
Shaking your head at your weird thoughts, you went towards the couch and stood behind it.
Peering over, she still hadn't budged from her position.
"How can you breathe with your face getting stuffed into the couch?"
"I'm fine, thank you." she replied into the couch, her voice getting muffled by it.
Walking around the couch, you crouched down and kneeled infront of it and next to her head.
Poke
Poke
Poke
"Stop"
She turned her head, her cheek pressed against the cushion as she squinted at you. Normally, she would have retorted with something playful or cheeky but this shopping trip had really snuffed all her energy out of her.
Carrying the bags itself wasn't a problem and she adored the look on your face whenever you would find something to buy for her.
She had a hard time getting used to that and is actually still trying to adjust since she had never known or experienced being pampered like that at all. She was usually the one that had to look out for others. She was their pillar. Their leader and the one shouldering everything.
And now she was living a level of comfort that she had never thought of being able to witness.
It would just get stressful after a while since shopping seemed to somehow enhance your endurance and speed because even after having been there for months, she still wasn't able to memorize where to find the things you need. It was especially difficult in the bigger city near your small one since it was loaded with a huge varity of shops and having to search for you every five seconds in those huge crowds was just exhausting.
So Vi wasn't feeling too bad for being dramatic because 1. She was hungry and 2. Having to fear losing you and being left alone in a city she didn't really know how to manuveur through was not helping her at all.
-She just hated the thought of losing you and being left by herself at the end-
Letting a soft smile grace your lips, you tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and cupped her cheek.
"Was it that tiring, Vi?" you cooed at her and began to gently stroke her cheek with your thumb.
She closed her eyes and let out a pleased sigh at your soft touch. Putting her hand over yours, she opened her eyes and her gaze having softened significantly.
" Yes. Yes, it was tiring. You would always be gone whenever I would turn around" You felt her hand slightly clench as she spoke her next words.
"I just... don't really like it."
Your heart ached.
Hard.
She felt bad as she watched your loving expression turn into a hurt but apologetic in mere seconds.
Not wanting to see you like that, she gently pushed your hand away as she sat up.
"But it's okay. It's okay if you have fun and we got to buy some good stuff too."
Don't mess this up, Violet
She told herself as she proceeded to get up feeling the need to go outside to calm her head.
"No!" You exclaimed as you grabbed her wrist, making her stop in her tracks.
Turning around, her heart dropped to her stomach when she saw your face.
You were angry. Angry at yourself for not having been more considerate and leaving her alone but you couldn't deny that you were also angry at her for trying to run away after she had just started to open up about her feelings.
You wanted her to feel comfortable enough to finally share her worries with you. You knew how difficult it is to open up while having to deal with the fear of being judged or possibly ruining something but at the same time, you were aware of the consequences of bottling it up and that would never end up good.
Glaring at her, you pulled her back.
"Sit." you demanded as you pointed towards the couch.
"O-Okay" She quickly obliged, not wanting to fuck it up further. It was rare seeing you angry and she would have never expected you to be angry at her since you had shown nothing but patience.
Except maybe that one time but that's another story to tell.
You made her take a seat next to you. Her eyes kept shifting away from your intense gaze and thankfully, you noticed that.
You put your hand on her cheek and made her look at you. Cupping her cheeks with both hands, you began to rub them.
Blinking, she got confused by your antics.
"W-What are you doing?" she managed to voice out but it only got muffled by you squishing her cheeks.
"I'm distracting you."
"You're what?"
Stopping, you put your index finger on ther forehead and poked it.
"Making you stop your thoughts. Your head. From thinking or just working in general."
She took your hand into hers to stop you from drilling a hole into her head.
"Why?" she asked as she furrowed her eyebrows at you.
Sighing, you pulled your hand away and scooted a bit to the side.
You patted your thighs.
"Head."
< What the fuck, can she stop being so confusing >
"Uhhh, those are your thighs?"
Snorting, you shook your head and put your hands on either side of her head.
"No, Violet. I want you to lie your head on my lap or to be specific, my thighs."
You were afraid of her eyes falling out from how much they bulged at your words.
Not to mention that her face literally exploded and honestly, so did her heart.
"I-I uh fuck."
You shot her a look.
"Okay, okay. I'll do it."
"Good." You chirped.
Slowly she layed her head onto your lap and made herself comfortable as she layed on her side.
She was sure that she had ascended to heaven.
< Fuck, they're soft. >
She was beginning to melt in your touch as you started to stroke her head, even slightly scratching her scalp.
She let out a shaky sigh, a warm feeling spreading in her chest.
"I'm sorry." Hearing your words snapped her back into reality as she turned to lay on her back.
"I-" Gulping, you looked anywhere else but her , having to sort your thoughts out and to know what to say next.
Suddenly you felt her finger gently graze your cheek making you look down at her.
"What are you sorry for, munchkin?" she asked while continuing to stroke your cheek.
Gazing at her loving steel blue eyes and her concerned expression, you let out a deep exhale.
"I'm sorry for always running off like that. There was just a lot good stuff to buy and so many things that would look good on you or we'd need for this apartment and more but that lead to you being left behind and that was really shitty of me. It must have been really stressful and scary for you whenever I would disappear. "
Somehow to your tough luck, your eyes started to glaze over.
" Oh, baby. " she gave you a soft smile as she put her rough hand onto your cheek. You instinctively leaned into her touch, yearning for her reassurance that she wasn't mad at you.
" Ssssshh, it's okay it's okay. Just... just hold onto my hand next time? So I won't have to go and search for you, of course." she said as she threw in a shy but sheepish smile at you.
Slipping out a weak chuckle, you took her hand that had been stroking your cheek and laced your fingers together.
" If that helps you then I will. I also wanted to say thank you for telling me and don't you dare run away as soon as you tell me about your worries."
Frowning at your words, her eyes began to shift away from your stern but loving gaze.
"I-I wasn't running away." she firmly stated as a frown had started to form on her face.
"Okay, let's say you weren't running away but you went away as soon as you told me about it and I wouldn't have been able to talk to you about it if I hadn't stopped you from leaving."
She could only stay silent as she clenched her hand, that had been previously comfortably on her stomach, into a fist.
You noticed it and slowly took her fisted hand into your free one. You gently pried her fist open and brought both of her hands onto your face making her shift her eyes back to you.
"What I wanted to say is, it's okay to tell me about your worries. You don't have to if you don't want to but I will always listen to what you say and that I'm here for you. You don't have to deal with this alone as long as you talk to me about it. I mean I can try to read it from your face but that's kinda difficult. " You tried to end it with a joke to lighten up the mood but realised you had failed as you saw her eyes start to glaze over.
"Oh my god, was my joke that terrible?"
She let out a laugh as she grasped your face, pulling you closer to her until your forehead touched hers.
"You're so cute, you know?" she smiled at you while stroking your cheek with her thumb.
Your face had become unsurprisingly hot and judging from her chuckle, she felt it too.
"D-Does that mean that it was good?"
"No, Y/N. It was terrible."
She nuzzled her nose against yours as you pouted at her words.
"But I'll forgive you since you're so cute, sweet cheeks"
You tried to playfully glare at her but couldn't as her warm breath hit your face and that damn sweet smile of hers was making you feel things.
Not to mention that her mouth is so close too
"You better do that and you'll also better tell me next time if something bothers or worries you, okay?"
"Okay" she nodded as she pulled your forehead towards her lips and planted a kiss on it.
You let out a shaky sigh, feeling everything you've discussed dawn on you more.
"I-I want a hug. This discussion made me feel kinda sad."
Chuckling as her lips lingered on your forehead, she answered. "Wasn't the kiss enough for you? Do you need more?" she teased.
Pulling away, you let your eyes linger on her face.
Only bashfully taking glances at her lips.
"Hmm, how about a k-kiss and a hug?" you whispered, feeling a bit shy.
"If you want."
"Yeah, I want to."
She pecked your forehead as she sat up next to you.
Leaning her back comfortably on the couch, she patted her lap and opened her arms.
Beckoning you to climb onto her lap with a smile and a nod, you crawled over to her.
She closed her arms around you as soon as she made sure you were comfortable and let chin rest on top of your head.
It had become some sort of habit for you to climb onto her lap whenever you would feel down. She was a bit nervous at first when you had first asked her for a hug but since the both of you were pretty touch starved, it didn't take long for it to be fundamental for the both of you. After a while it had progressed to you sitting on her lap. Forehead kisses were just something extra that had slipped in after some time but Vi wasn't sure if she'd be able to refrain herself any longer from kissing you for real.
But that would be a problem for another time. Right now, she was relishing in your warmth while you listened to the soothing sound of her beating heart.
Tracing your finger on her arm, you could feel her muscles through her hoodie.
"I haven't asked you what you wanted for dinner yet."
You heard her chest rumble as she let out a whispy laugh.
"Well, we could have some pizza again if you want?"
You let out a snicker at her suggestion.
"Didn't we have that yesterday?"
Your body shook slightly due to her shrugging
shoulders.
"It tastes good and I love it when you make it."
"Good thing we bought too much of that pizza dough last time."
"Oh yes, that's really good." She pecked your head and began to stroke your back.
"But the pizza can wait, so you can rest for a bit."
You tilted your head to look at her.
"What about you?"
"I'll rest as well. As you can see, I'm feeling pretty good right now" she replied to you as she put her hand onto the back of your head, shifting it to it's previous position and moved on to stroking your head.
You let out a dreamy sigh as you nuzzled your cheek against her chest.
"Then I'll do that but what about the grocery bags on the floor?"
You heard her let out a sigh as she tightened her arms around you.
"We can do that later but now you rest."
You let out a drowsy snicker.
"Okay, okay. Could you wake me up in 30 minutes?"
"I'll do that, cupcake so sleep well"
"Thank you, Vi."
You felt her soft lips press onto the top of your head.
"Anything for you, munchkin."
Were her last words before you let your eyes droop, burrying your face into her chest before drifting off to a short nap.
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