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x-liv25-jamieswife · 21 days

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acacia and grayson head canons

@never-enough-novels requested this so here it is! it might be short bc im so tired but we'll see. this is also my only hcs post today. i think that after im done with my current requests i'll take a break for a few days. i really apologize if these suck. hope you like them <3. @ariscats helped with this. i love her sm. I apologize for any spelling mistakes or things that dont make sense. im too lazy to proof read.

she insists on giving him a hug whenever they leave the other even though he tries to act tough (tries to act like he doesn't want one)

she'll buy him suits she thinks he'd like whenever she's out and either ships them or shows up at his house with them wrapped in gift paper.

they'll sit on the floor and look at old pictures of savannah and gigi in these picture books that acacia has.

acacia ends up creating a separate picture book for grayson (and also has one with the three (sav, gigi, and gray) of them all together - 3 picture books in total)

when acacia first met skye, she 'accidently' poured wine all over skye's white dress cause acacia knows she’s a horrible mother to gray.

acacia asks grayson for fashion advice whenever she doesn't know what to wear. she'll send him pics of options she has to wear and he'll reply with comments for each and everyone of them (like dress #1- this color doesn't match your skin tone as well as the others. dress #2 - this dress is not suitable for winter, etc)

she majored in art when she was in school, she didn't really do anything with her degree but, when grayson shows up, starts trying to teach him all of the things she knows. he already knows how to paint but doesn't say anything so that he can spend time with her.

acacia calls him under the pretense of having a favor to ask, but, in reality, she just wants to make sure he's ok and doesn't want to scare him away by just calling to ask about his feelings.

he spends some time at the graysons manor every year. he and acacia like to just stay quiet and observe the nature/read/paint together

acacia and grayson will go out on nature walks where he takes pictures with his camera and she paints those pictures (she's very talented and the paintings look very realistic)

acacia goes to his graduation (harvard. she helps him decide do go back)

nash calls acacia whenever gray gets sick so that she can come over to hawthorne house and take care of him (cause he can't take care of himself. he always ends up overworking himself and shit). she makes him soup, gets all of the medications he needs, etc (i also hc that she's literally a miracle worker when someone is sick. she can literally make them better with her concoctions in a matter of hours)

when grayson sits down to play the piano, sometimes acacia will appear out of nowhere, sit down next to him, and sway to the music. gray got more confident over time and started singing sometimes too. she'd harmonize with him and shit. basically, its really beautiful.

they love watching historical romances together. they've watched so many that whenever they greet each other, gray will bow down and kiss her hand like all of those men in fictional historical tv shows.

grayson went out to buy acacia skincare at some point in time bc he once saw her bathroom (and thus the products she uses) and he was so horrified he gasped. he made her promise to never use that shit again.

acacia loves birkin bags so grayson gets her one every year for her birthday

when acacia goes on business trips (idk why though cause she has no money but she takes trips in my head), she always buys a pen from the country she's in to give to gray so he can add it to his collection.

speaking of her business trips, grayson stays at her house when she’s gone to water her plants (she loves them).

when they paint/read/take walks in silence, they either listen to laufey or taylor swift.

grayson is really big on labeling things. he labels his binders, notebooks, pens, clothes etc and sometimes acacia sits there with him creating labels for him. (20)

whenever they watch tv, grayson cuddles up in acacia’s arms. no one says a thing, and it stays between them

grayson secretly paints acacia sometimes when she isn’t watching (or so he thinks).

I mentioned earlier that acacia loves plants and flowers. grayson would totally go out, buy tons of different kinds of flowers, and make her custom made bouquets.

although she’s not his mother, grayson still buys her a mother’s day gift (a bouquet of flowers, and smth else (that changes every year) like some new paint, perfume, etc)

they wanted to start learning smth together as a bonding activity of sorts so they got into pottery. they watched videos (cause they didn’t want to get a teacher/attend classes) and practiced as often as they could together. they would laugh at each other in the end cause clay would end up everywhere. they’re now quite good at it and make each other little things every now and then

they are huge fans of listening to music the ‘old’ way. whenever they listen to music, they listen to vinyls or cassettes.

whenever they see each other, they go out and buy themselves bubble tea.

speaking of bubble tea, sometimes acacia will take some of the remaining bubbles (she never eats/drinks all of them) and throws them at grayson to loosen him up a bit. he does the same sometimes and they have what they call ‘bubble tea fights’.

#the inheritance games #jameson hawthorne #grayson hawthorne #avery grambs #nash hawthorne #xander hawthorne #libby grambs #acacia grayson #savannah grayson #gigi grayson

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mylarena · 1 year

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i dont see enough soulmate aus so. inspired by this post by @hyperfixationwizard, soulmate au where drawings and ink on skin show up on ur soulmates skin (not scars bc there would be so fucking much going on with that and im not gonna write abt itdgthfgh)

anyways. soap has always love doodling- with anything. pencil, pen, crayon, marker, whatever he could get his hands on. he’d doodle on anything and everything. the walls (when he was a kid, mainly), paper, cardboard, desks in school, napkins... but by far, his favorite was to draw on his own skin. the thought of his work showing up on someone else, someone he was practically made for and they for him- something that they could share, something that they could keep secret and hold close to their chests- it was enough to make him giddy.

so, he doodled. a pretty flower he saw on his walk to school, curling around his wrist. a bird perched on the bench across from him at the park, taking flight on the back of his hand. the stray cat that hung out on his porch, draped across his thigh. sometimes if he didnt have a notebook with him, messy schematics and notes for devices- no, ma, thats not an explosive, he swears- scrawled on his forearm.

he never sees anything from his soulmate- he checks every single day for any new marks, any words, but he never finds any. still, he keeps drawing. it doesnt usually get to him, the fact that his soulmate doesnt give him responses, but sometimes he cant help but think too much. he wonders if his soulmate likes the drawings, which leads to the thought of them not liking them, or finding them annoying, or if they think theyre bad.

one day, he caves under his thoughts and writes his first question to his soulmate, right under a bundle of primroses- “do you want me to stop?”

he waits anxiously for hours, not knowing if he’ll be able to feel the reply, or if he has to look for it, or if there even will be one-

then he feels it- a sort of pins-and-needles sensation on his left arm. he frantically rolls up his sleeve and his eyes are immediately drawn to the letters that appear on his skin. once the writing stops, he stares with wide eyes at the single word left behind- shaky, smudged, and a bit runny in some spots-

“no.”

and so he doesnt stop.

he keeps drawing, slowly moving from small little doodles of primroses on his arms and songbirds on his hands to sprawling meadows that wrap around his forearms and ravens spreading their wings across his thighs. sometimes he adds words- always short encouragements, positive quotes, or funny thoughts he has. he never gets responses, but he knows that his soulmate is still around by the occasional ink smudge that appears. anytime one appears, he incorporates them into a drawing. sometimes its a silly little doodle, and other times he spends hours creating beautiful, complex landscapes centered around them.

for years, his soulmate holds their silence. soap doesnt mind. he knows that they appreciate his art and words. at least, thats the thought he holds onto. he never holds it against his soulmate- the whole not-responding thing. hes well aware that he can be a lot to handle; hes heard it constantly from the majority of the people in his life. he just hopes that maybe his soulmate can tolerate him more than most.

he was 14 when things changed.

he had gotten home from school, completely ignoring his parents in the kitchen and opting to power walk to his room. it had been a shitty day; he had overslept and missed the bus, causing him to be late to class, and then some dickwads from the year above him decided that he was a good target to snag lunch money from, (really? stealing a kids lunch money? why would they pick something so fucking cliche? god, get some fresh material,) and to top it all off he got a shit grade on his book report.

as usual, his solution to a bad mood is to draw, get his emotions out on a page instead of letting them linger in his mind. unlike usual, though, he decides to bypass his notebook and instead grabs a pen, chooses a clear spot on his arm.

it took a while, but he finally ran out of steam to continue- it had been nearly two hours since he began. he was about to walk over to his bed and flop face down into his pillow when he felt it- the pins-and-needles of words being written that he had only felt once before. his eyes zeroed in on his arm, right under the drawing he had finished.

“two goldfish are in a tank. one turns to the other and asks, ‘do you know how to drive this thing?’”

soap snorts, more due to the situation than the shitty joke itself- and rushes to grab his pen again. no chance he was letting this opportunity slip by.

“why was the strawberry crying?”

“why?”

“because he was in a jam.”

and so the night continued like that- they exchanged shitty jokes back and forth for hours that night, up until soap was called for dinner.

#myposting #soaptag #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #ghost x soap #soap x ghost #ghost/soap #soap/ghost #ghoap #cod mw2 #call of duty modern warfare 2 #ive been writing this all day and its not actually finished but!!!#mydrabbles

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houseofpendragons · 1 month

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I Literally Just Posted One of These But IDC

One thing that really irked me about season 1 was the number of repeat costumes, and upon doing a rewatch of GOT I noticed them a lot there too obviously but I just can’t get past the fact that royals have to have more than two (rather plain at that) outfits. I know you have a wardrobe full 😭

Idk I might make it a series, might not, I just want some more fashion.

So jumping right into it, I’d change this dress during the confrontation scene between Alicent and Rhaenyra from this:

To this:

My reasoning for this is simply bc

1) Rhaenyra has already worn this dress before so like ugh ex. When she was talking with Rhaenys about how the realm will never accept a queen

2) She’s been spending more time with Daemon, she’s coming more into her own and her Targaryen heritage, her blatantly wearing the colors of her house can be a small and some would even call a petty act of defiance against the thought of marrying into another house, it’s also simple enough to be considered a day dress while not boarding on looking like the dress of a lesser house. I’m not saying it looks bad but it suited her more in girl hood, the softer colors and the lack of Targaryen colors symbolizing innocence and someone more of an independent mind then one focused on all that her house is yet. And Rhaenyra at this point in time is taking her role as heir very seriously with her not only feeling threatened by the thought a husband ruling over and through her but also of her younger brother overshadowing her.

And 3) Rhaenyra was a known fashionista, she liked to be jeweled out, and wear exquisite gowns. I also feel like the hair, although I can understand a simple braid due to being summoned so suddenly, I still feel like she’d do at least a half up braid with ofc Targaryen flair thrown into the braid.

Just my thought but let me know what you think. Ofc this is all for fun, I just think that some of the art I find based on the show and characters are amazing and beautiful, and dare I say sometimes the costuming is better than the show.

#house of the dragon #hotd #team black #alicent hightower #aegon targaryen #team green sympathizer #asoiaf #fire and blood #hotd fandom #hotd season 1 #hotd s1 #hotd costumes #hotd fashion #rhaneyra targaryen #queen rhaenyra targaryen #princess rhaenyra targaryen #daemon targeryan #house targaryen

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nataliescatorccio · 1 year

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and also like about the gifsets… some of them take hours to make! colouring, finding the perfect fonts, sharpening, a little to the left no maybe a little to the right no actually if i add more yellow— and it’s just discouraging bc a few years ago we actually received response for giffing like yes if it was a trailer that came out 5 min ago you’d get 100k notes but if you posted the notebook you’d still get 10/20k pretty easily… it was practically impossible to not get a (SIMPLE) gif to 1k I genuinely don’t know how some creators still bend over backwards to make insane edits and end up with 130 notes

yep, gifsets take hours to make. i really don't think some people realise the amount of time and effort gifmakers place into their work (also because a lot of us hyper-fixate on making something look perfect and spend hours on adjusting the tiniest things or maybe that's just me). i feel like a few years ago tumblr really valued creativity but now it just values speed. i see so many beautiful creations on this site that i can look at and see they have had hours of love and care poured into them, but because they were posted a week later than when the content dropped they will never do as well as if that gifmaker had giffed those scenes with no effects straight after the content dropped. and it's heartbreaking. it’s killing creativity. people are creating art out here but users don't care because art takes time and that doesn't fit with their instant consumerism to gobble up content and move on approximately 24 hours after digesting it. i absolutely loathe that this is what this site has become.

#Anonymous #i truly cannot blame creators for not wanting to create anymore #because it's rough out here #and people want to wave the 'you just want notes!' in our faces so they can continue to consume our content without helping in any way #honestly the way people interact with fandom has become so selfish when it used to be about sharing and enjoying content

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your-gay-grandma · 10 months

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Hey Grandma, I'm back, remember me?

Wanted to give you an update on how I'm doing. I've been at an art camp that I absolutely adore this week, but it has brought some probably repressed feelings to light.

I don't know if you remember my other ask, but one of the things I talked about was how I'm pretty chill with what pronouns people use for me. But well, two of the people at camp are nonbinary and/or use they/them pronouns. And whenever people would accidentally misgender them, they would correct them. They were never upset or angry, but they would repeat the sentence emphasizing the correct pronouns.

I have 2 other friends that I spend a lot of time with who use different pronouns than their AGAB (I knew all of these people since we were like 8 so I have spent a long time since they first changed their pronouns working on correctly gendering them), but neither of them will really enforce their pronouns. In fact one of them often doesn't register when they get misgendered in friend groups (probably a side affect of being closeted in a southern US town), and I've taken to being pronoun police. So this week has been the first time in a while that I've seen a queer person standing up for themselves and correcting misgendering.

As I mentioned, I've been using she/they pronouns for a while (also neos now maybe, I haven't had much chance to try them out but they sound fun). But bc I'm afab and fem presenting, most people I'm out to tend to stick to she/her (in public because the last thing I need is to get bullied and in private ig they just forget). I thought I was okay with it- and it's not like you can correct someone for misgendering you when they are using proper pronouns. Idk though, recently she/her feels almost like someone is gently sliding a knife across the surface of my skin, not strong enough to cut but enough to sting slightly. I don't know why, maybe just the presence of other people constantly correcting the use of she/her or he/him? I kind of want to ask my main friend group to stop using she/her for me or at least switch them up a lot more often, but idk how to start that conversation. Any advice?

I'd also appreciate maybe just like a pronoun validation sentence? They/them plus neopronouns (maybe a little bit of she/her but not much) with the name Luna, if you know how to do that.

Thank you so much, your posts always make me feel better 💞

Love, Raven

ahh i love receiving this update from Luna! their messages always brighten my day with their positivity and beautiful journey of acceptance. i am so proud of her!

so wonderful to hear from you, my dear! and so happy to hear you’ve been having such fantastic and validating experiences lately.

as far as asking your friends to use different pronouns for you, i think that’s a fantastic idea! you can just start the conversation (either in person or over text if you have a groupchat or something like that) and explain that you have found she/her pronouns to be less validating lately and you were wondering if they’d use they/them exclusively. i think they’d be overjoyed to help you out!

please keep me posted and remember i’m so proud of you and always here for you!

#ask #ravenlikesbooks

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frecklystars · 3 months

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hi keri!!

I have some really good news! I saw you and ken on a date (in my dream but eh, close enough sjshs)

it was a live theater date (they're doing mamma mia in my city shsh) and from where I was sitting I could see you and ken holding hands!! (don't ask how I knew it was you guys, I just did)

you seemed stressed or nervous about somthing but ken just gave your hand a little squeeze and caress like "keri, my sweet girl" then he gave your knuckles a kiss "apple of my eye" another smooch "owner of my heart" final smooch "everything is going to be fine"

I was watching this like 👀😮💘

side note: I hope this silly little dream I had can you bring you even a fraction of joy that it brought me. I know things are tough for you right now but I'm hoping things get better! I'm so annoyed that people have been copying "my sweet girl"!!

I will admit, ever since I sent the ask about how much I adore the nickname, I have been inspired to step up my game while selfshipping😌 which basically means I come up with sickly sweet nicknames bc "it's what keri and ken would've done🙇🏽‍♀️"

so yeah, sorry for the wall of text, I hope the rest of your day/night goes well!! positivity blast!!! 💖💗💘💓💝💕🌸🌺🌷🐶

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LUCKY CLOVER ANON SWEETHEART I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU YESTERDAY!!!!! :D I hope you're doing well!!! NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR WALLS OF TEXT I shall always welcome every single beautiful beloved word you bring into my inbox <33!!!!!!!

YOU HAD A DREAM??? ABOUT KEN WITH ME???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 WUWHUHWUWHWUHWHUUHW WOWWWWWW WOW WOW!!!!!!!! I am so!!!! honored!!!!! 😭😭💝💝💗💘💓💞💞💞 Thank you so much for telling me!!!!!!!!! What a treat!!!! What a dream!!!!!

That makes me feel SO much better ;-; thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to send me an ask!!! OOGHOGH AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR SYMPATHIES OMG it has been eating me uppp how far away I've felt from Ken lately, feeling very unlovable and replaceable and the "sweet girl" ordeal was like the cherry on top. ofc it's not like I invented the pet name "sweet girl" or anything like that, and of COURSE it's fine if other self shippers want Ken to call them that, BUT I JUST DON'T WANNA BE TOLD ABOUT IT ESP ON MY OWN POSTS AND IN MY OWN INBOX?? SLFJSDFL??? especially when they're like "i took that from your comic btw :)" like WOHOAOOH!!!! WHOAH??? [spongebob voice] BACK IT UP. BACK IT UP. BACK IT UP 🚚 !!!!! I understand these ppl are saying it nicely and I am flattered they loved my comic/pet name idea THAT much but it... stings so bad omfg it HURTS, BRO........... the pet name is so personal to me/my story with Ken and it feels weird for me to now write/draw him saying it to me and no longer thinking he's talking To Me anymore :( BUT!!! i hope i can fix that by spending more time with him (watching Barbie, watching interviews, making gifsets, making art/fics) plus when I go out of town in a couple of weeks I'll stay completely offline for 10 days straight bc I won't be able to watch him sing I'm Just Ken at the Oscars (no cable where I'm going WAH) and I don't want spoilers. and. tbh maybe spending time offline from this hellsite will help Fix Me 🔨✨

I am so. WOWOWO i've read this 5 times in a row AND THE FACT THAT YOURE SUBCONSCIOUS CONJURED HIM BEING SO SWEET??? TO ME??? OF ALL PEOPLE??? Kissing my hand wtf that's one of my favorite Kisses... I think being kissed on the hand is one of the most loving and tender sweet things in the world... hand kisses + neck kisses are my absolute favorite and wowoowowoowwwhuhwuwhuhwhu LAYING ON THE FLOOR IN A POOL OF MY OWN TEARS THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!! and the fact that we'd go to a live theater date!!!! BRO!!!! BRO THAT'S SO ROMANTIC I LOOOOVE LIVE THEATER 🥺🥺🥺💙💙💙💙

LUCKY ANON!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOO!!!! SO SO SO HAPPY YOU'RE STEPPING UP UR GAME SELF SHIPPING!!! "because it's what Keri and Ken would've done" made me SQUEAL swinging my legs in my chair and drumming my desk!!!! I was all excited and needed to let my energy out SLDKFJSLKDFHSDF THIS IS SOOO SWEET!!!!!! Coming up with special nicknames make self ships feel so... idk the word, it makes it feel so much more wholehearted and tender and soft!!! like it's a special connection JUST for the two of YOU!!!! Any time I have a main F/O I try to make them call me something that isn't just the generic "baby/darling/sweetheart" (though I DO use those pet names QUITE often on many, if not all, of my ships) but there is just something about having them call you something pertaining to the ship itself, your story with them, something you know they wouldn't call anybody else But You!!! whether it's them calling you your favorite flower, or something they find synonymous with you like a dessert or a star, or even your own name but rhymed with something else, something silly, or something inspired by a lyric of Your Song that the two of you share, it's just!! it's SO SPECIAL I absolutely adore doing it, it makes the ship feel quite exceptional imo!!

I AM GIVING YOU THE BIGGEST HUGS IN THE WORLD AND ALSO DONUTS!!!!!!! 🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩💕💕💓💓💗💖💗💗💓💓💞💕💟💟💝💘💞💞💓💓💞💕💕💕💕💕 I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUUU THANK YOU FOR YOUR SWEETNESS!!!!!!!!! I hope you have the BEST DAY EVER 🥰🥰🥰🥰☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️!!!!!!!!!!

#anonymous #asks #keepsake #🍀 anon #💌💐#💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-#weepy over Ken telling me that everything will be OK while kissing my knuckles #HE IS MY PRINCE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#thank you so much for telling me this im SO SOFT #i will carry these words with me to work today #i will be tiredly checking in huge trucks and unloading heavy boxes while thinking of ur ken carson dream..................

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heyitssashag · 1 year

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It’s my two year “blog-a-versary”. (I started this “Brain Dump” 2 years ago today.) It was a month after being diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. It took a while for me to actually get in the habit of writing here regularly, but here I am. I didn’t think I’d use Tumblr as a platform, either. Yet (again), here I am. I’m glad I did. I wouldn’t have otherwise come across some interesting stories/blogs/photos and art. Nor would I’ve received some lovely messages from some of you.

So much has happened over 2 years. After reading through a bunch of my old posts, not all of it has been bad, either. lol. Here are some highlights:

I’ve moved (twice) and now residing in a beautiful area in BC.

After 4 years of homeschooling, my kid is now back in a great little school with decent support …and learning some cool things! Now, I can just wear the “Mom hat”.

I’ve taken a number of random courses like screenwriting, Italian language, autism and ADHD specific studies, chronic pain and facilitation training. I renewed my Personal Trainer Certification and completed a Running Roach certificate. Plus, I’ve returned to writing comedy again with my alumni stand-up group and have even done a few shows.

I get to volunteer for an organization that I love and believe in. Helping others follow through on their goals and teaching about how to self-manage their health issues more effectively when living with chronic illness and pain.

I get to be out in nature often, now. Whether that be in the woods, the trails or the beach. All are a short walking distance.

Been well enough to participate in 3 in-person races (2 - 5k’s and most recently a 10k). I’ve also completed 29 Conquerer Challenges.

I’ve learned, for the most part, that people are ultimately kind and compassionate. I’ve been helped a lot over the past few years and I’m incredibly grateful to know that so many people are rooting for both Ella and myself. It’s heartwarming and really helps to keep me going.

I’ve had the privilege of visiting a crazy amount of coffee shops. lol.

I feel honoured to witness and hear others stories of either coping with or supporting a loved one with cancer. I wouldn’t have had that opportunity, otherwise, if I wasn’t on my own journey.

Having the time to read books and be part of a lovely group of women in a book club.

The joy of getting back into creative pursuits I used to love to do like art, music and writing. I even wrote a book and published it on Amazon. It’s a crappy book, but it’s still a book, nevertheless (and I can call myself a writer/author. lol.)

Having the luxury to work on myself. To continue to learn and grow. I’m also grateful to have the time to spend with my kid making wonderful memories.

Ella and I are very lucky to have had the support of my Aunt and Uncle who are awesome people. I haven’t been able to hang out with them much over the years as we used to live so far apart.

Of course, we also now get to spend time with my Mom and step Dad when they aren’t going crazy with their business. We live in the same house but you’d never know it sometimes. They are very busy people but they’re also wonderfully caring parents. I’m eternally grateful for their sacrifices and support over the years.

I know there’s a lot of other great things I’m missing but this is a good start. Writing this has forced me to look at all the positives that have happened. Brightness can always be found in the darkness. Just look up at the sky every night and (if there’s no overcast), you can see the moon and the stars.

Which makes me think of a quote by one of my favourite poets/writers:

“There is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in.” -Leonard Cohen.

On a side note: I got to see Leonard Cohen live in Vancouver in 2012 and it was a fabulous show. Almost felt more like a spiritual experience. Here are a couple of very blurry photos taken with my then “Blackberry” phone.

Anyway, this evening I watched 3 stand up comedy shows on Netflix including: Cristela Alonzo - Middle Classy. Ryan Hamilton - Happy Face. Jim Jefferies: High & Dry. They were all funny but surprisingly, I laughed the hardest at Ryan Hamilton’s show. He’s definitely the “cleanest” comedian out of the 3. I don’t usually have a preference when it comes to that. It tends to get slightly jarring hearing constant swearing but I can listen past it. If it’s both super-sweary and vulgar, it better be also super-funny. If it’s just gross, then I switch it off pretty fast.

It’s after midnight. I should get to sleep now. I accidentally fell asleep earlier for a half hour and my body seems to think it’s rested now. Oops.

#metastatic breast cancer #gratitude list #what I’m grateful for #blogging on my blog #comedy specials

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kiilonova · 1 year

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i am so like. metaphysically exhausted i feel like im going thru so much rn i just need to vent with timestamps

like i have zero money so my card declined on my medical bill today and i have to make a bunch of phone calls to places that are only open on weekdays. and i have to prepare for a market but my heart is just not in it. plus ive been waiting to hear back about some other freelance stuff but it hasnt happened yet. so i just keep working on little bits and praying that it will work out. esp bc i have a tattoo appointment i made for my birthday to keep from totally spiraling but i obviously dont have the money for it right now.

and i have to go talk to bf's parents on monday and convince them that im telling the truth about anything w regards to moving. when they dont respect me and think im just some fairy trying to steal their daughter. and the thing is i am but its obviously for the best. and my parents are excited that im moving back but they cant really help me until july and mostly once we're already over there. and bc of how little money we have were gonna have to get rid of most of our stuff and either fly or drive a car across the country.

and all of this while i am getting sicker and sicker and ive just been getting sicker for years and usually it gets better in the summer but this year it isnt so im really worried about that. all i want is to sit outside in a pretty dress with a fun beverage and draw and write but the reality of my situation keeps creeping in. and its crazy bc the thing is pretty much everything aside from the medical bill is already sorted out and being dealt with and i just have to wait it out. i just cant get over how stressed out i feel and thats whats holding me back from fixing things, leading to them getting worse. they increased my ocd medication but the pharmacy hasnt called me yet even after two days when usually they have it same day.

what is going on. im exhausted. i havent slept properly in like two years. i survive off chocolate chips and microwavables and vitamin supplements. i spend most days alone in my apartment sitting by the window on the computer. this is not living. this is not living. i am supposed to be outside talking to strangers. i am supposed to be making the mistakes of a young adult. i turn 20 in 10 days. i have not been able to stay sober longer than 3 days in a row. i have near-constant short term memory loss. my vision is fading. i cant stand. once a week i go to the park and run until my ribs hurt, which is only about 3 minutes. i wear dresses over my hairy legs and combat boots. i get boba tea and coffee and ice cream when i have 10 dollars in my bank account. why isn't it worth it to live a beautiful life? why is responsibility the beginning and end of my life? when do i get to fuck up without being incessantly punished for the rest of my life?

when i was 17 i came to the startling realization that when something bad happens to me, that is the punishment. before that, and even still, i believed that i had to endure the bad thing and then be punished for the fact that the bad thing even happened. then one day i spilled olive oil all over the kitchen counter and my father helped me clean it up and asked if i was ok. to this day it sticks out as a dream, as if something so kind could ever happen to me. and yet i feel like if i had not been treated with so much hostility, i never would have been radicalized the way i am today. i cant prove either way, but i know that the hostility i am constantly faced with is unwarranted. yet it continues, so what am i doing wrong? the answer is obviously everything.

writing this has calmed me down. i am one of the few who benefits from journaling, even performative journaling, which is what this website is based on. one day when i die just a little bit before my time, my now-bf future-husband will compile my unpublished writing and art and notebooks and tumblr posts into a chronicle of my life, and then i will finally be beautiful.

#cro vent #i promise im fine except that i have no money

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destinywritessometimes · 2 years

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Camilo and Carlos Twin Hcs

First hcs about them together and then some extra about Carlos so I don’t have to make two posts :)

plus a thing I made art by @dos-oroguitas

Carlos was born first and he holds it over Camilo’s head a lot with constant ‘I’m right bc I’m older’ and stuff like that

Camilo is 5 8-7 and Carlos is 5 6-5 and ofc Camilo teases him about it (I feel very strongly about Carlos being short)

They both have the signature shape shifting gift but Camilo prefers shifting into other people while Carlos prefers animals

Camilo’s signature color is ofc yellow and Carlos’ is burnt orange because they were dressed in those colors when they were babies so they could be told apart

Camilo has really warm hands while Carlos has cold hands

When they were younger they’d often shift into each other and switch places, or one day there’d be two Camilo’s and the next two Carlos’

They have a very Weasley twins vibe but I can’t decide which is which

Camilo has a lot of freckles all over his cheeks and nose and Carlos has freckles all over his face and a prominent beauty mark under his left eye with a few other smaller moles on his face

Camilo parts his hair in the middle closer to left while Carlos does the opposite

While they’re all really close to each other, Camilo is closer to Antonio while Carlos is closer to Dolores (also think because of that Carlos knew Bruno was in the walls)

Camilo is a theater kid and Carlos is band kid

They’re ofc a prankster duo, Carlos usually comes up with the plans and Camilo enacts them

Extra Carlos Hcs :))

He has sudoku eyes (don’t @ me ik this one’s true bc it is)

He definitely spends way too much time getting some of his hair to cover one of his eyes (edgy boi)

He has an rbf and feels bad about it bc he doesn’t want people to think he’s constantly glaring at them

His voice sounds a lot like Camilo mixed with Andrew Garfield as Peter Parker (idk if that makes sense but it fits perfectly in my head)

Likes candles, like really likes candles he has at least 6 in his room at any given time

His hair is a lot darker than Camilo’s being almost black, but they have the same hair type

He has an eyebrow slit he made himself

Though he’d never admit it, Carlos is a scaredy-cat, like Camilo gets freaked out a bit at somethings but Carlos will full on scream at the slightest thing

Whenever he’s angry he’s basically that one picture of Kirby with a knife

He loves cats and he often pets at least one stray when he goes into town

Yeah @dos-oroguitas got me hyper-fixated so now expect more content about him coming within the next few days lol

Have a nice day and night !! 🌺 catch me simping over Carlos (bro got me smiling n shiiii)

Edit: the Kirby picture

#encanto #carlos madrigal #encanto fandom #disney encanto #disney #encanto camilo #Camilo Madrigal #camilo madrigal headcanons #Carlos madrigal headcanons

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gb-patch · 3 years

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Ask Answers: July 10th

I really let asks get away from me lately. I was super focused on working on that Patreon Moment. With that done I can finally think about doing other things, so here’s a new collection of answers!

Thank you for sending in questions everyone ^^.

For the new Patreon moment, will you be able to reference it in step 4? Or just like a tiny nod to it if you pick certain choices?

There won’t be. I’m sorry if you were hoping for that! The Patreon moment is meant to be entirely optional, it’s not something that gets you extra content in the main game.

Is the new CG artist the main one now? :0 I’ve noticed theres been a difference in the art style recently. Is the old CG artist still going to make art for the game? :0

The original artist still makes CGs for the game sometimes, but he mainly focuses on character sprites.

Are you going to put the NSFW our life moment on a website other than patreon? I would love to get it but I can't use patreon atm.

I don’t know. I'm afraid we can't release the Patreon Moment on a normal game storefront because we can't mix 18+ content with our family friendly game. If there's some other place similar to Patreon where it's not the normal type of full-scale public content releases we'd consider using that, but I’m not sure if there is another site that’s better than Patreon in that regard. I'm sorry.

Out of curiosity, in all of your games so far, which characters in each were the most fun to write? They obviously don't have to be your favorite characters!

Buffalo Seer in AFA, really everyone in XOD/XOBD is pretty equally entertaining to write, The Guide in LoV, and Cove in OL!

idk if you accept "personal" questions, but is there anything you've been watching/ listening to lately

Mostly, I’ve been watching/listening to Authortube videos as of late! It’s people who talk generally about the process of how books become traditionally published and/or share their own experience as they attempt to be published. I don’t have an interest in writing normal text based books, but it’s really interesting to hear about that world. I’m listening to a video about royalties right now as I answer these asks.

Will one of the desserts we get to pick be fudge? That'd be such a cute reference!

Haha, yeah, it should. Unless I completely blank on it and forget when trying to include the various referential food options.

I don't know if this has been asked previously but what would be the approximate heights for the presets MC can choose from Step 2 ~ 4? Are there any measurement you had in mind? Sorry if I didn't make myself clear kk I've been struggling with my English lately 💀

I don’t know, ahah. I didn’t have any numbers in mind for that. So it’s whatever you imagine it is!

I noticed a bug with the Patreon moment when it comes to what your character wears. When Jamie and Cove are kissing while my character only had dresses selected, I had both the option to remove the dress or to remove the shirt... Picking one of the options to interact with Cove, after he removed his shirt, it had Jamie remove their shirt followed by ther pants despite only having dresses picked.

Thank you for reporting ^^

I keep refreshing steam to see when the new doc for xobd will be released. I noticed you haven't posted anything about it in quite some time. Would it be possible to ask about a timeline/potential date? (If it's even this year—) I know you and your team are probably working super hard, I'm just super curious! ~Thank you!~

There are more stories done, I just haven’t gotten around to publicly releasing them. Hopefully I will have a chance to spend the time on that sooner rather than later!

hello!! i’m not sure if it’s an update but i’ve just replayed our life and at the end i can’t propose to cove anymore? :(( i’ve actually tried playing twice but the options are not there anymore, did you guys remove the options? i’m sorry if you’ve answered this before!! thank you and have a good one :)

I’m afraid things haven’t been changed or removed, so I think you might’ve accidentally picked the wrong things somewhere along the way and locked yourself out of being able to propose by mistake. Sometimes you meant to say you want to get married but instead you mis-click and have it so the MC isn’t thinking about marriage or something. All I can suggest is starting from the beginning of Step 3 and making sure to follow the steps listed in the FAQ. I’m sorry for that.

Did yall remove some of the options for when youre making out with Cove in the charity moment? I could've sworn you could grab his bonkadonk and its not there anymore

This is the same situation as the above. We didn’t remove things and you’re not wrong that there are sometimes those options. But there are various choices you have to make to get those options and it sounds like you accidentally missed something. If your relationship isn’t long-term, you can’t do it for example.

HI IM SO EXCITED I CAN FINALLY GET THE STEP 3 DLC

Thank you for getting it!

Is Shiloh super totally straight bc I’m very gay and a huge Shiloh fan, would my man make an exception?😩

Sadly, he is one of our super straight characters. I’m sorry.

Hi, I have a very dumb question. In Step 2 does Cove not wanna share his drink with us at the mall (or rather why he stops drinking it) because it's an indirect kiss? Or is it like ...weird to him to share? Because if I remember right he eats off our spoon in the birthday scene right?

Yeah, he’s awkward about it because he likes the MC and it feels very personal to share a straw with his crush.

Hi! If you don't mind me asking, who is the artist for OL2? Their style is so pretty!

Thank you for saying so! This is her Twitter- https://twitter.com/redridingheart

Do Beginnings & Always and Now & Forever exist in the same universe?

Yep! XOXO Droplets also exists in the same universe. It’s one big GB Patch world, haha.

Do Pran's parents regret the way they raised him? Do they feel ashamed of it?

No. They’re the type of people best cut out because they’re not gonna change. Which is why Pran does go very limited contact when he’s an adult.

Hi! I just wrapped up my second playthrough of Our Life, and I absolutely adore it, but I had a question. I went to the gallery and found I was missing 2 CGS (specifically Step 1-3 and 2-3) and I had no clue where they would've shown up. Which moments are those found in?

You get it by telling Cove about his dad offering you money to be his friend in Step 1 and Step 2. You can’t get both in one playthrough, since you can only tell Cove the truth once. I’m really glad you liked it!

Hi hi! Please, how tall is Baxter and Derek? Love the game so much and I can't wait to see more!

I don’t know, aha. I think Baxter was around 5′10 and Derek was like 5′8/5′9, maybe. I really am not one who has specific heights for things in mind.

is adult cove a bottom, top, or switch?

A switch, though would choose the top if he had to pick.

I was wondering if there is a way to transfer save data? Even if through the game files. I wanted to be able to transfer my save data from my desktop over to my laptop so that I could continue playing right where I left off from but I'm not entirely sure how to go about that.

If you save the save folder/persistent data of the game from your desktop and put it into the game folder on your other device, that could work.

Hi! Is it possible for us to know the date when our life: now and forever comes out on steam? Sorry if you've mentioned it before but I haven't seen it and I'm looking foward to that happening and just wanted to know :)

It’s gonna be a long time, I’m afraid. There’s no estimate right now.

I started playing Our Life with my sister a while ago, and I think you guys should know that we discovered your secret. >:)

L from death note and Cove are clearly the same person, and this whole game is just an origin story!!

I’ve never seen that show so I’m sorry to say I don’t understand the connection/reference you’re trying to make. I’m pretty out of the loop when it comes to media. I don’t watch movies or TV.

Will OL2 have options for disabled MCs?

I understand if it's too complicated, just curious

Unfortunately, it’s not really something we have a plan for. We couldn’t finish the game if we tried to include every disability and have it be meaningful. It’d just be too much content to create. But if we decide to only include a few, how would we choose which disabilities get to be represented and which are left out? I don’t know. It’ll probably have to be something we don’t include as an option again, sadly. I’m sorry.

playing our life > anything else

Haha, I’m glad you’re enjoying it.

Honestly, I would like to thank Our Life for helping me come to terms with my sexuality. Before, I never would've actually thought that it was possible to like boys romantically and still be asexual. Almost all of the BL visual novels I've read had unskippable sexual content in them and it honestly just didn't click with what I feel. I'm glad I found Our Life. I love the game, the developers, and this fandom so much. Now, I can safely come out as homoromantic AND asexual (at least anonymously here anyway; my parents are still huge homophobes 😂).

Aw, it’s great to hear you felt comfortable being yourself in the game! That’s wonderful. I’m really sorry about your parents, though.

Will the demo for OL2 be on android? Really not sure if I could wait any longer than I have to aha

Yeah, it’ll be available for Android once we eventually release a demo!

Do all these reveals perhaps mean development is progressing ahead of schedule? Please let that be the case I'm already obsessed with Qiu

No, sorry, aha. Art comes along much faster than script/programming-work for us. It’s gonna be a long time before the game is a finished thing you can actually play. But at least we can look at the beautiful images.

Hey! First of all I wanna say I reallllllyyyyy loooovvveeee Our Life and XOXO Droplets! I have over 300 hours of playtime on Our Life… Anyways, I was just wondering, are the Derek and Baxter DLCs going to come out at the same time? If not, which one do you plan to release first? :3

They will come out separately and Derek will be first! Glad you like the game.

I keep replaying Our Life to get every possible iteration and I am loving it <3 I was wondering if Cove gets locked out of his confession because MC was talking to Lee, would it be possible to confess to him in step 4?

Yeah, you can avoid the confession in Step 3 and then get it in Step 4.

Hi, my Cove wears bracelets through step 2 and 3 but I still don't get an option to give him a bracelet? I didn't even know that was possible until I seen someone else ask about it lol

Hm, did you use the Cove creator? Maybe there’s a bug where using the creator to add bracelets doesn’t fulfill the requirement to give Cove a bracelet in Step 3.

Wait, I'm dense, when does Baxter appear in step 2? Is it from big park firework? I feel so bad since i really love Baxter and waiting to buy his dlc.

It’s in the Soiree Moment. You have to be just friends with Cove, indifferent, or crushing but not ask Cove to the dance at all. Then while there you can find someone new to dance with. But if you bring Cove to the dance while crushing, the MC won’t wanna dance with anyone else so you can’t get the scene.

In step 2 when we go to the soiree I made my mc go alone and baxter chooses the mc to dance, i'm curious, why did he pick the mc? sorry if this has been asked before!

Because the MC looked to be around his age, seemed to also be searching for a partner, and had nice legs. A perfect option for him.

I read some of the FAQs, and I saw that we could tell Baxter about the condo that he rented there was previously the mean old grandparents. how do we get the mc to tell him that?

It happens in the DLC Moment “Late Shift”. If you don’t have a job you instead get a longer scene with Baxter.

I don’t know if you’ve addressed this or not, but are you planning on paying voice actors for our life: now and forever?

Yeah, we pay our VAs in all our projects.

hey can i ask how you did the moments thing in ol? im trying to get into making visual novels and while im VERY sure its out of my comfort zone and all that atm i kinda wanna know just for the future, bc im p sure it would work well for something i wanna do :O but its also fine if you cant say for other reasons :>

I’m afraid I’m not sure what you mean. Are you asking how we programmed the screen or something script related? Adding Moments like that is pretty straightforward, though. You just have buttons that open to different labels and then the scripts are essentially individual short stories/vignettes. Good luck with your VN!

Since Autumn becomes gender fluid later in the game, will there be a character who remains as he/him to romance in game?

OL1 has the he/him LIs, OL2 is all about other genders.

I don't want to impose on your creative plans, but a parrot could possibly make a good pet in an OL-type game? They're pretty long-lived and likely to still be thriving by the end even if the MC got them back in step 1.

I do appreciate the suggestion, but I’m afraid it’s not likely going to happen. I understand there are technically some animals that could theoretically live long enough to last the whole game that or we could have the MC only get a pet after some years have already passed. But the many things that would have to be considered/accommodated for makes it just something we probably can’t manage adding. I’m sorry.

As time passes will we be able to see Qiu and Tamarack's other stage arts as well?

They are both so cute i can't wait to be friends with them!

Yeah, we’ll show content from other Steps in the future. It’ll be a little while from now, though.

Can you date Cove and still have your family comfort you in the car?

You can’t get Cove’s Step 3 confession scene if you have the family comfort you in the car. But that’s not the only way to date him. You can get together with him earlier in the game or later on in Step 4.

Is Mc always going to be the one walking down the aisle or could Cove do it? Also could you choose to have one of your moms walk you?

No. Cove wouldn’t want to walk down the aisle like that and the MC automatically respects that. And the MC also gets to have their preferences respected, so it’s up to you whether they want to do an aisle walk or not. You also can pick who, if anyone, walks with you.

Once step 4 is out, will you be able to go the whole game on crush/love without either of you confessing?

Yes, as long as you tell the game you don’t want to progress the relationship. Even in Step 4 it won’t force you to officially get together.

Howdy, so in Step 4, there will be any Romance with Derek that is not part of any dlc?

He’s only a friend unless you get his romance story.

Will the step 4 in OL2 be one big step or are you considering moments?

Step 4 is just an epilogue in both games.

hi kind of a weird question but!! we know tht cliff doesn't start dating again but. wht abt flings? like does he ever do 1 night stands or anything? thank u!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nope. Cliff has a very small interest in sex. If he’s not in a real relationship with a partner he’s crazy about it simply isn’t something he feels a need for, so one night stands wouldn’t even cross his mind.

sorry if you've already answered this, but i was wondering if there were plans for there to be bonus love interests in OL2 like how we have derek and baxter in OL1.

Maybe! There are side characters who could be given romance stories, but whether or not it will happen depends on funding and how long everything else takes to finish.

I don't know if i'm allowed to ask about ol2 here yet, if not u can ignore this or answer it later. My question is can you date one of them and be good friends with the other? I don't want to be strangers with the other bcs i love them both a lot :<

Yes you can!

what patreon level do i have to be to unlock the nsfw moment? im on the $5 one right now, will that give me access to the moment, or just access to the moment progress?

That’ll give you access! Tier 2 and anything higher allows the player to download it.

#our life #ask #gb patch #gb patch games #all projects #Our Life Beginnings & Always #Our Life: Now & Forever

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atalho-s · 3 years

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pairing: tom holland x reader

warnings: none, only fluff, maybe one or two swear words?

words: 1.5 k

summary: it’s tom’s birthday and you’re nervous about the gift you have for him.

a/n: this is the first imagine i ever post here! and it’s the first time i write a story in english. So i’m sorry for any mistake.

Tom woke up to someone kissing his bare chest and he open his eyes lazily. He looked down and saw Y/n on top of him with her arms around his waist and her legs intertwined with his.

- What are you doing? - He spoke a little husky with a smile.

-Nothing... Just waking up the best boyfriend in the world...- she said kissing up his neck. -And to...-she kissed below his ear. - Thank you...- she kissed his chin. - For...- she kissed his nose. -Being born...- she kissed his cheek. - Happy Birthday! -she finally kissed his lips.

- Hmm... I wanted to have a birthday every day just to wake up like this... - he said hugging her tight. - Thank you love. - He said giving her a peck.

- You say that as if I never wake you up like this... - Y/n giggle into his lips, making him smile openly. He was about to reply with a cheeky comment but she interrupted him - Wait! - she said getting up quickly and leaving him a little confused.

- I have a few gifts to give you. - She said and ran to the closet like a crazy person.

She was wearing one of his shirts, which made him smile with himself. He loved when she wore his clothes. It looks a thousand times better on her than him. That was a fact.

She came back after after a few minutes smiling cheerfully with a box in one of her hands and the other hidden behind her back. She sat cross-legged in front of him and Tom also sat leaning his back against the pillows on the headboard.

- Darling, you didn't need to... - he said, trying to take his hair of his eyes, messing it up even more.

- Of course it needed Tommy! Now open it! - She said handing over the box and he took it from her hands looking at her.

They were already 5 years together and looking at her was like the first time. Tom was grateful to have her for so long, to have someone to rely on and talk about everything so openly, and Y/n didn't know what she had done to deserve that british boy who wasn't a boy anymore.

Tom had become a man since the first time they started dating. But still, he was the same Tom he used to be. That was what she loved most about him. He was always kind, funny, he put others first and he always wanted to make others feel happy around him. His smile and the way he tell his stories infected everyone around and she was always delighted every time he started to speak or for just simply looking at her. It was hard to believe that this amazing man, was hers.

Tom untied the box excitedly and opened it to reveal a necklace with a round-shaped pendant.

- Wow darling, this is beautiful... - he said taking the object from the box delicately.

- Open it! There's something inside. - Y/n said smiling.

Tom opened the pendant and saw It was a picture of the two of them, one of the first pictures they had taken together. It was from one of those booth photo shoots. When they went to a mutual friend's birthday party and Tom had insisted they take pictures to keep as a souvenir. So they posed and make faces and laugh the whole time. Those little moments was what defined their relationship. It was something so simple and yet so meaningful at the same time.

- This is perfect love... - he said smiling and looking into her eyes. - Come here...- He opened his arms and she snuggled into them, feeling more at home than ever. He kissed her gently on the lips and pulled her by her legs so she could sit on his lap.

After parted their kiss Y/n intertwined her fingers on his neck and stood admiring him: his little freckles, his messy hair, his nose, his lips slightly reddened, everything still seemed to be a dream.

- Why are you looking at me that much?- he asked with a playful smile. - Want to take a picture? It lasts longer... - He spoke stroking her leg lightly and she gave him a low laugh.

- A picture would be nothing compared to this work of art right in front of me. - Y/n spoke and he laughed feeling his cheeks redden. How could she still make him blush after such a long time?

- I don't deserve you darling...- he said before giving a small kiss on her neck. - Hey and what about the other box you were hiding?- he asked trying to look behind her back.

- Oh, it was nothing...- she said kissing his forehead then his lips again, trying to distract him.

- No... - he tried to speak between kisses. - Y/n...- she insisted on keeping their lips together, but he pushed her away a little, holding her shoulders gently. - I want to see It!

- You won't forget will you? - she said snorting.

- No. So you better give me that mysterious box. - he replied and she looked down a little embarrassed. - What is it darling? - he asked a little worried on his tone.

- Nothing... it's nothing important... - she said crossing her arms something she used to do when she was nervous.

- Y/n... You know you can tell me everything don't you? - He spoke caressing his fingers on her arms making her have some good shivers.

- I know Tommy... I just... I don't know, I think it's bullshit... - she replied putting her hands on his chest.

- Nothing you say is bullshit love ... You know you can talk to me about evertyhing... - he said taking her chin and lifting slightly, making her look him in the eyes. He had that power of making her melt with just one look. He could make her do anything with just those big brown eyes. Sometimes she hated being so vulnerable, bc she couldn't hide anything from him.

- Ok, but if you want to break up with me after that I'll understand...- She said looking at him directly and he raised an eyebrow.

- Now I'm more curious than ever. I could never break up with you! Only if you cheated on me with some guy that i don't know about it. - he said playfully.

- Okay smartass, close your eyes. - She said and he closed but a little suspiciously about what she would do.

- And do not open! -she said getting up from his lap and he put both of his hands in front of his face.

Y/n picked up the box that was on the floor and took a deep breath. It was now or never. She was thinking she must crazy to be doing this now and in that way. But it was what she wanted and she hoped Tom wanted it too. She knelt beside the bed, opening the small box, and cleared her throat.

- You can open it now. -she said and Tom remove his hands opening his eyes, he looked confused seeing her on his knees beside the bed and only then noticed the small box in her hands with a ring inside.

- Tom... - she began to speak nervously. - When we first met, I met one of my best friends. You are and always will be the best person to have around, after I met you I couldn't see myself without you. Everything you do, how you do it, you do it great, you radiate the brightest light... Everything you touch, you do it with gentleness, every person who has the pleasure of meeting you knows how extraordinary you are. Every second I spend with you is like a gift. I love the way you are, I love the way you talk, I love how funny you are without wanting to be, I love how good you are at everything you do, I love you so much... - she said feeling her voice trembling a little bit and he was still in shock, but after hearing her words he smiled and didn't look away from her face not even for a second.

- Thomas Stanley Holland... - she said with sigh. - Do you want to marry me?

He just stood there, speechless for a few seconds. The emotion starting to hit little by little, reaching his eyes. He hated to cry like that in front of others, but it was Y/n who was there in front of him and he never felt as comfortable with someone as he does with her.

- Tom, I... Sorry, I think it's too soon, isn't it? I shouldn't have ...- she said getting up from the floor and Tom stopped her by taking her arm.

- No Y/n, it's not that... I just... I don't know what to say... - he said and she looked him, seeing his eyes was watering.

- Tommy, are you crying? - Y/n asked sitting beside him on the bed and putting her hands on his face watching him lean into her palm.

- No of course not! - He said wiping his eyes quickly with his fingers. - I mean ... just a little bit...- he said and she smiled. - Everything you said... It was so beautiful... I love you so much Y/n!

- So do you ... - she start asking almost crying seeing how emotional he was.

- Of course I do darling! This is the best gift ever! Marry the best person in the world? Fuck yeah! - He said excitedly and she grinned. - I planned to ask you the same thing for such a long time! I’m so glad you did! -Then he pulled her into his lap again, kissing her sweet and gentle, just the way she defined him. The Tom Holland way of existing.

a/n: thank you for reading! I hope you guys like It! Also: the title has nothing to do with anything, but i love this radiohead song sm 😂 and i think It reminds me (only the title bc the song is sad as f) a good relationship, like both complete each other.

Anyway... Happy birthday to Tom! And i'm so sorry for this really cheesy imagine 😆

#tom holland #tom holland imagine #tommy #tom holland x reader #tom holland fluff #tom holland x y/n #tom holland x you #tom holland fanfic #tom holland fanfiction #tom holland birthday #tom holland one shot

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yamagucji · 4 years

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MSBY boys coming home to you

a/n: highly ib by this art of shirtless hinata from insanityqueen go see it if u want a visual of his hc😌 fkjjssjkf this started bc i made a thirst post abt timeskip hinata now here we are 😳😔

Hinata

his flight arrives at 3am so bby boy told you to wait at home instead

all the excitement and adrenaline of being eager of his arrival eventually tired you out so you fell asleep, passed out in your shared bed

it was nearly 4am by the time he got home and when he called out for you, he got no response

“y/n? they must be asleep...”

so he trudged into the bedroom and finally found you fast asleep

careful not to wake you up, he quietly set his things aside and started undressing

the slight movement and light had woken you up from your slumber, and so you peeked an eye out towards the source of the noise

there he was in all his glory, shirtless and smiling down at you

“pumpkin! sorry, did i wake you? eh? no don’t get up, im almost done changing”

you made an effort to greet him, sitting up in your bed slightly- but he beat you to it, lunging towards your figure with his bare chest hitting against your clothes

his added weight on you made your back hit the bed once again

“hinata...” you mumble against his shoulder

“i missed you” / “i missed you so much pumpkin” you both expressed at the same time

he whispers sweet nothings to your ear, mumbling about his trip and how much he misses your touch

the two of you eventually fall into a deep slumber

Atsumu

‘tsumu said he was coming home sometime this week but never specified the time and day

“it’s the element of surprise, babe” ffs😪

the whole week felt like standing on your tippy toes, not knowing when he’s gonna be in your sight

when saturday arrived, you were nearly ready to give up on the idea of him showing up and assume he was joking

but when you opened the door to your house, throwing your stuff onto the side in exasperation, you were greeted by the smell of your favorite food

“love?” you called out, eagerly making your way to the kitchen

there he was in your apron, a smug look on his face as he stirred the pot with a wooden spoon

“miss me babe?”

ofc i do you pissed haired boy

you quickly make your way towards him, hugging his torso and burying your face on the crook of his neck

you mumble, “of course i do. you’re such a dummy for doing this to me love,”

he let go of the utensil and hugged you in return, bringing his nose down on your hair and enhaling your homey scents

he laughs- and you can feel that deep rumble vibrating against your chest and it makes you even more putty in his touch

“hmm, but did’ya like my little surprise?”

you spend the rest of your night being taken care of by atsumu, regardless of his own exhaustion

like you, he’s eager to make up for your time apart from each other ;)

Bokuto

bokuto hasn’t been responding to your texts/calls for over a day now, and you’ve become increasingly worried as time progresses

it’s unusual for him to not respond- you did think of the worst and how something could’ve possibly happened to him

but when you asked hinata and heard that he was doing well, that’s when you started thinking you might’ve done something wrong. but what could it be?

you spend the night cooped up in the couch, hiding beneath your comforter

why is this bby boy not responding to you?? :(

at around 1am, you hear the sound of keys jiggling, followed by the door opening

you perk up, “who-who’s that?”

and in a flash you see your beloved bokuto dashing towards you, leaping on top of your resting figure

“y/n! my beautiful! my love! i missed you,” he coos, bringing his face close to your neck

“kou, i missed you so much! was this your little surprise?”

he brings his face to hover over yours, his bright smile flashing you, “hm. did you like it?”

you chuckle, “of course love! i missed being with you- i thought something was wrong when you weren’t responding to me...”

“ah, sorry babe. akaashi said it’d be cool to surprise you! i managed it but it was so hard to ignore my love”

he closes the distance between you, making earlier’s worries disappear. you kiss long, as if sharing one breath. when he finally pulls away, he buries his face on your neck, emitting a deep grumble

“hmm, i missed your lips so much...” he mumbles, slowly drifting into sleep

Sakusa

sakusa had notified you about his return a few days prior, so you’d taken much of your free time making sure the house was spotless

on the night of his return, you cooked up his favorite food and left it covered on the table so the two of you could enjoy a nice meal together after weeks apart

he was supposed to arrive at 7pm, but press and traffic had hindered him from making it home on time. the build up had clearly made him anxious and grumpy- he couldn’t wait to come home and be in your arms, away from all these people

when he finally arrived home, it was nearly 9pm and the first thing he saw was your sleeping figure sprawled out on the couch, along with the lingering smell of his favorite food

he set his stuff aside, hanging his outer clothing on the rack and making his way towards you

you shift slightly at the sudden noise, and when you open your eyes you find your lover crouching down, fingers running along the side of your face, his other hand taking off his mask

“i’m sorry my love, i didn’t mean to come home so late.”

but you shake your head and dismiss his apology instead, sitting up to embrace him in your arms

“...do you mind taking a shower with me, then we’ll eat some dinner? thank you for making me food by the way, my love”

he’ll take you to the shower, and the two of you take turns taking care of each other, massaging the other’s scalp and shoulders

your time apart has definitely made sakusa a little touch starved, so expect little pecks on the forehead throughout the rest of the night <3

#haikyuu x reader #bokuto x reader #atsumu x reader #sakusa x reader #hinata x reader

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heliarae · 3 years

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3, 4, 6, 7, and 21!!

3. Who/what inspires your graphics/gifs?

I mean, just the groups I'm more into at the moment! I generally do stage gifs so it's just about whoever is having a comeback and if the lighting is cooperative; it really is that simple. Lately it's harder because I don't have a lot of free time anymore. As for my graphics, I just look around on pinterest and deviant art and kinda of make... a conglomerate of a few ideas and do my best to twist and tweak to make it look like something I'm proud of! It's very rare that I just have random inspiration unfortunately. But I won't say it never happens!

4. What do you enjoy about making gifs/graphics?

It's a good creative escape when I have time, it allows me to put some art down on something when I don't have motivation to draw or paint which used to be my go-to creative outlets. Digital art through gifs and graphics, however, is a lot less frustrating in many ways because accidents or things you don't like are more easily undo-able. I won't say it's a stress reliever, because it's not for me, but it is something fun I generally enjoy doing.

6. Favorite graphics and/or gif creators.

Oh man there's so many talented people out there I really look up to. Most of them I found in the deobi fandom people like @hwqll, @cchanhees (tagging them bc we're mutuals, hello lovelies) but also people like @/seulphoria and @/scoups, have done some really wonderful graphics. @/taeminnomuyeppeo .... I am so inspired by their coloring I think it's some of the most beautiful honestly. @xiaojvn also has beautiful coloring. Honestly every creator on this site has so much to offer. (me wishing I was on dash more to see everyone's beautiful stuff....)

7. Favorite graphics/gifs by someone else.

@anyhao's AU series is PHENOMENAL. I would link them all here but please just go to their blog and look them up because they're MWAH amazing and sooo creative! Anything with animations, again I'll mention Han because she was the whole reason I started working on animations in the first place. I just think they add so much to some graphics. This so is not very specific but honestly if I was to link every gif/graphic by another creator that I've just absolutely loved... there would be thousands of links on here.

21. How much time do you spend on a single graphic/gif?

I think the longest I've ever spent on a single set of gifs is probably two hours; if it's any longer than that I have a tendency to just throw it away. The longest I've ever spent on a graphic (post as a whole) is multiple days. Which is why I get upset when they flop lmao. ASK A GRAPHIC/GIF MAKER

#.games #mika🐳#.answered #wow that got long sorry I have a lot to say

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formerprincewille · 3 years

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I was tagged by @pamouche and @borborai in this and I finally gotten around to doing it. Thanks so much!

Fav wtfock s3 things: honestly I could go on for hours about my love for this season it’s One of my favorite things to exist in the entire world. I have re-watched it so many times and it always leaves me feeling so happy. Some specifics: Robbe IJzermans, sweet sunshine, love and light of my life, I would throw myself in front of traffic for that boy I love him so much. He captured my heart in a way few ever have. This boy. He’s just such a caring and compassionate person. He’s got his little shit attitude, and he’s definitely a tiny brat, but he is also so full of love to give. I love that he’s not flashy. He’s not somebody that a lot of people are going to notice in a crowd. He’s overlooked by everyone, including his friends. But when you get to know him you see how remarkable he is, because few people are that genuinely good. And the way he grew from hurt and lonely and angry and afraid to happy and confident and not only accepting but proud of who he is makes me cry happy tears. He’s just the best. But the other best is the yin to his yang, his beautiful, wonderful, cool, bold, funny, sweet, and completely dorky art hoe of a soul mate, Sander Driesen. When I think of what my ideal Even would be, he is it. His heart is just right there for everyone to see and he doesn’t hide it. In fact he’s extra about showing it. He’s also vulnerable and needy and feels so very young to be going through such large struggles. He makes me laugh and cry and I would dive in front of the Skam France car for him as well. Love that kid so much. Sobbe. Do I really need to say it? Holy shit they are everything. Soulmates, best friends, loves of each other’s lives. Their chemistry is so good that it doesn’t even exist in this stratosphere. It’s otherworldly. The love that they feel for each other is tangible. They’re one of those couples that when I look at them I think “now those two are going to make it”. You can just feel it. They also somehow manage to hit on so many beloved fanfic tropes but remain realistic because it’s actually canon. Like when couples in fanfic will call each other pet names but it’s rare you actually see it in canon. But sobbe is like hold my beer and goes all out with it. The way they express their love to each other is exactly what the other one needs. Sander is loud end boisterous and goes all out to make it clear to Robbe and everyone else on earth how he feels about this boy. He gives him things to make him feel special and he’s full of affection for him. Robbe is also extremely affectionate, he tells Sander what he needs to hear to feel safe and loved and they love spending time together. Their love is a balm for one another that soothes them both. And it’s clear that neither of them need the other more nor ever did. They both needed one another and met at a time in our lives that they were both in pretty low places and were exactly what the other needed. And they always will be. Sorry, getting emotional again. They’re the otp to end all otps. 🥺 The Soundtrack. I love every single song on the soundtrack. All of them, and I listened to the soundtrack so much on my Spotify that my entire top songs of 2020 were made up of wtfock s3 songs. They not only have excellent musical choices, but they are all placed within scenes so well that they perfectly complement what is happening in the narrative at any given point. Casa Milan and Zoenne and Robbe aka Flatshare Fam. I want to live there. It is so warm, it is so inviting, and it is filled with such love. The support that Robbe got from Milan, Zoë, and Senne was unmatched. I don’t know where he would’ve been without it. Could you imagine if he had had to live with his dad? How differently his story could’ve ended up? Especially with Milan, having someone not much older than he is who has gone through a lot of the same things he has. He was such a big brother figure and mentor and I’m so glad Robbe had that.

Fav clip: Scuse me I’m not picking just one so Dinsdag 16:31, Zaterdag 09:41, Woensdag 21:21, Mandaag 11:03, Zaterdag 08:44 and Woensdag 16:36

Fav scene: Their Vrijdag 21:21 reunion, morning after, ohn/mbm, singing to a shoe, the hotel scenes, and the grocery store. I’m not really sure of the distinction between a scene and a clip 😂

Fav shot: Oh god don’t make me choose. Their hands in Dinsdag 16:31 is a big one. The dual mirror shots of Robbe after Milan tells him about gay pride before the attack to him bruised and battered after. When Robbe is kneeling down beside Sander in Mandaag 11:03. The shot of Milan, Robbe, and Sander playing the pandemic game all cozy by the Christmas tree. Any shots of Robbe and Sander making heart eyes and/or kissing. Any close ups of Robbe’s face and eyes bc Herbots, man. Good god he’s amazing.

Fav kiss that Robbe initiates: Woensdag 21:21, Dinsdag 07:27 and Woensdag 17:21

Fav kiss that Sander initiates: Zaterdag 09:41, Dinsdag 16:31, and Vrijdag 21:21

Fav Sander dialogue: Can I say everything? Okay okay, I’ll give some examples. “Wow, that’s expensive!” “You and me, a hundred percent forever, in every universe.” “I’m holding onto you and I’m never letting go of you.” “🎵Ground control to major Tom. Circuit dead there’s something wrong.🎵” “Are you going to leave me behind?” (🥺) “Zero stars on booking.com.” “The moonlight was shining down on you and I knew immediately ‘he is the one’.” “Get ready to be mindblown!” “All the way or no way.” “Take it or leave it, eh?” “You could try bribing the teacher.” “Robin.” Also literally everything he said during wtfockdown because there’s not a moment where he isn’t iconic. But a really special moment, “Just because other people are close minded doesn’t mean that you should make your world smaller.”

Fav Robbe dialogue: “You touched me and I’ve never felt something like that.” “That kiss was really *head explosion noises*.” “Not in this universe.” “Sander, there is something between us. I love you.” “Jawel.” (I just love the way he says it, it’s so fuckin cute). “Fuck Chernobyl.” “Always.” And of course, his verse in eenvoud.

Fav hug: Mandaag 11:03 when Robbe holds a crying Sander. Also, does the spooning and cuddling in the hotel scenes and Dinsdag 07:27 count? Because I love that. Also Woensdag 17:21. Or really anytime Robbe is being a clingy koala. And we can’t forget his hug with Milan after he tells him about the attack. He really needed that comfort.

Fav 21:21: Nope. Nah in all seriousness they just hit different. Woensdag is my favorite in terms of clip alone because from beginning to end it is just so beautiful and perfect. The music, the tunnel, the pool, the kiss, just absolutely gorgeous. But at that time everything was still really new between them and the aftermath of that was rough. Vrijdag is my favorite clip in terms of what it means for Robbe and Sander. The clip itself is shorter, but it has much larger impact in terms of sobbe’s relationship. It’s not just their first time physically, but their emotional declaration to one another as well. It comes with a commitment. Also them falling off the bed laughing is the greatest thing ever. They are so HAPPY. So basically my answer is both, just in different ways.

Fav Sobbe instagram pic: Why are all these questions so mean? Okay- their first one together obviously because along with Robbe’s caption it’s just a showing of their love being official. But also the grocery cart pics for their 6 month anniversary. The grocery store pic in Ardennes getaway. Robbe’s bday pics of them embracing they’re SO HAPPY omg. And of course, we cannot forget the pic posted for Sander’s birthday. It is absolutely perfect. I love it so much.

Fav song/scene pair: I have a few- both examples of wildfire obviously, past lives in Zaterdag 09:41, and rebel rebel at the grocery store. But I have two more that are not at all happy clips but are two of my fave clips regardless: life on mars/zaterdag 21:43 (that scene is impeccable along with its followup which I consider them a pair but LoM only plays in the first one) and I found/zondag 15:12 (my god I love that scene it’s brilliant).

Fav message between Sander and Robbe: Woensdag 12:45 when Sander sends Robbe the sketch of them and talks about that kiss earlier being Chernobyl. Also everything during wtfockdown but especially “I love you so much Robin.” “I love you too. So damn much.” But honestly they had so much adorable banter during those clips we were truly fed.

Fav banter on Instagram: lmaooo they’re always so thirsty on main you could pick a million examples. I will say I loved their back and forth about emojis on their anniversary.

I will tag @onzeziggy @everyone-has-their-story @bowieexaminprogress @sanderxrobbee @ayellowcurtain and whoever else wants to do it. This was fun!

#wtfock #wtfam #sobbe #wtfock season 3 #tagging games

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