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lamiue · 9 months

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Crowley heard it.

"While they were eating for the first time ever a nightingale actually did sing in Barkley Square. Nobody heard it over the noise of traffic but it was there."

“Listen, hear that?”

“I don't hear anything.”

“That's the point. No nightingales.”

#crowley is in more pain than us #when will they be happy #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens season 2 #david tennant #michael sheen #neil gaiman #ineffable husbands #i need them to heal my soul #ineffable idiots #i am in pain #crowley #aziraphale #aziraphale and crowley #aziracrow

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blorbosinmyheadcentral · 5 months

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This came to me in a vision

#tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #tadc caine #caine #pomni #showtime #caine x pomni #pomni x caine #tadc showtime #showtime ship #tadc fanart #tadc comic #Animation takes forever; have this thing in the meantime #Sometimes. I need them to be soft. It heals the soul #Supervised Machine Learning #sort of #long post #my art

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raepliica · 11 months

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protecting each other

#trigun #cw blood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash the stampede #vashwood #my art #hurt/comfort #i needed to draw them covered in blood #nothing more romantic than going ape shit when your buddy is injured<3 #and then lovingly tending to his wounds and staying by his side to comfort him<3<3 #they both would blame themselves sm for letting the other be wounded #ww wouldnt try to argue with vash that its no use for him to feel guilty and would just be there until his mood is better #while vash would try to understate his pain to try and reassure ww but he would totally see through his bs #THEY NEED TO COMMUNICATE PROPERLY IT MAKES ME GO CRAZY #vashwood nose nuzzle heals my soul #raepliica_art

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comradekatara · 4 months

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that meme isn’t even topical you losers

#id in alt text #avatar the last airbender #atla #mai #sokka #mai&sokka #modern au #(technically. altho my canon future designs for them are quite similar tbh)#memery #art #mart #sometimes i just need to draw them together. the sillies #it’s honestly so healing. their friendship is like a balm on my soul #anyway merry chrysler or whatever

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trunklewunjle · 2 months

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I did some twists and turns to the Dreamtale I included in the server me an my friends rp in, and I’ve been kinda hyper fixated so I did a little thing

I don’t like perspective but im going to have to eventually learn, soul shattering I will never be the same once i dominate it

Yea the fucking tree told him to shoot night because everyone is so mean to him so I just yknow she might as well also be mean to a fucking seven year old who knew no better

Dreamtale (Dream and Nightmare) Belong to Jokublog

#undertale au #utmv #dream sans #nightmare sans #dreamtale #wow jaja im actually normal for once?? I don’t have anything to bark at but WROFO WROOF AUUUUUUUU howling in pain for them they are devasta #I love them sosososo much I have been putting Dreamtale animations on loop and songs that remind me of them I love them I want to hold them #and give them hugs and tea and give their little heads little kisses and and show them that they both deserve to be loved #I want to show Dream how to read and write and I want to comfort nightmare i want to tell him that he’s capable of being loved too and he #deserves the world #I cried I cry I always cry when I think of them I will always cry for them I will always mourn for them they have my entire being and soul #would kill for them please be nice to them they have done nothing but suffer and cry and be angry I need them to be happy please let them b #happy please I cannot explain how much I want to scream and bang my head on a wall when I think of them and their relationship I break and #cry urgrurghr why why why why why I have such a brain rot I just want to see them hangout and smile and call each other brothers and call #each other family I need them to gossip and pinky promise and cook together I need nightmare to teach dream to read and write and dream to #teach nightmare how to have fun and heal their inner child I need them to do brotherly things and cause destruction together

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transsextual · 5 months

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had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity....#ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid .#but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis .#of course im not doing it like them .#so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul.#:)#yeah .#i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :)#speak #materialization #ok2rb

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bluegekk0 · 3 months

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what if i drew fpk and grimm cuddling for the 1052th time. what then

#god drawing them just #it heals my soul #so sorry to anyone still waiting for their comm i am working on them in the meantime #i just really needed to get the cuddly vibes out of my system #will post soon #gekko.txt

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goofalicousgooberface · 5 months

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Listening to mitski and doodling my favorite fag

DESPERATELY need someone to rant abt him with 😞😔😔

#scott tibbs #him and Adam being soooo toxic heals my soul #speaking of which I need to finish my 500 fic wips of them #saw #the scott tibbs documentary #my art

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tindove · 9 months

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“Look at you, you’re gorgeous”

#I love them so much #I needed to try my hand at angel Crowley #it was a must #also I think I finally have Aziraphale down so WOO #This scene heals my soul #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #Aziraphale #Crowley #angel crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #good omens fanart #my art #good omens spoilers

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synthshenanigans · 9 months

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Continuing from my last post bout Mind, we also need to talk more about how paranoid & untrusting/second-guessing your mind can be cause i think its very interesting

#as somone whos way too paranoid for its own good i like seeing it portrayed into mind #im not projecting you are shush #but like especially the way he sometimes assumes heart is lying or doing thing for attention/pity #cause its like when your brain would tell those things #or maybe thats just my mental illness talking #also not trying to paint heart as innocent here this was just a mind post #heart can also be a bit self centered or the whole claiming to be the victim thing #but also thats not bashing heart either i love the guy too #this is just me looking at some lyrics and how the characters operate and going #“omg hes just like me fr fr” and projecting #none of them are okay and its fun to characterize the reasons why #heart always claims to be the victim mind thinks hes better off without the rest & souls answer to the problem is to off everyone/himself #all bad thoughts but to heal we must take funny lil guys and make them sad #and project said feelings & thoughts unto them #okay im realizing a main reason i like hms/cjs music is i might relate to it too much #im fine i swear #i haven't even talked about the fact i like his two wuv hokum all ye faithful & hallelujah covers a lil too much #i need a cj's music trauma bingo card/j #okay rant over #chonny jash #cj mind

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electrobiology · 2 months

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this is going to be an annoying rant so feel free to ignore it but so actually are there no good universities in all of the united states that don't leave you in lifelong debt?????? like hello???????? everywhere i look at that seems interesting and doesn't have reviews talking about how no one cares about you and you're on your own the entire time you're there or the staff/students are -ist/-phobic or no one does work and just goes to parties or other such things they're talking about the expenses. i want a degree because i need one if i want to do anything but i don't know if i want it enough to be in debt for my whole life. and why is the us like this. i just want to go somewhere else this country does not seem worth it to me. i want to go back in time and find a way to sink every european colonizer ship that landed on the land of the americas

#genuinely the more i look at college prices the more reasonable it feels to just go overseas somewhere instead... japan #if i'm gonna be paying at LEAST 15000 a semester wherever i go why don't i go do that in japan where i'm actually passionate about the #language and have reasons to use it and a potential to do something with it and can get places without a car and. etc #and the 15000 semester is a 15000 YEAR #only reasons the idea of being in america has ever appealed in the slightest to me is that it's a little easier to be openly queer #in certain places. not all of them!#and it's probably one of the most racially diverse places #whenever i look online people say that degrees in japan aren't worth anything but i feel that might just be them being racist #surely there are numerous people who went and got degrees in japan and are living happily. and idk bc they aren't on reddit #or posting on blogs or anything #god i feel UGHHHHH i hate everything #i know that as a Country with History japan is not particularly better than the us i know #but it's just the small things like being able to get places w/o cars and not have to pay an arm and a leg to heal like a small cut i got #that needs to be stitched. or not paying my whole body to pay off the debt of going to college because getting an education is #just not what they. want from you. they want your soul and your entire life in their hands #why am i living in this world #1 am thoughts i know but god

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gunsatthaphan · 2 years

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“is it better?”

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nerosdayinanime · 8 months

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crippling need to draw this image i have of sabigiyuu pressed back to front, giyuu holding onto the arm thats hand is splayed over his stomach/ribs, easily leaning his head back onto sabito's shoulder, his soft barely-there hold on giyuu's neck with their cheeks gently pressed together

#until the vibe to Do Shit comes back just imagine it for me ok? plz? im almost to tears thinking of them being soft #giyuu's trust in him so complete its second-nature and sabito's unwavering support & passion #FUCK GOD DMANIT I CANT USE WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW THEY FUCKING FEEL ABT EACHOTHER. GIYUU BIG DOE EYES @ SABITO LIKE HES HIS ENTIRE WORLD &#SABITO HOLDING HIM LIKE EVWRYTHING HE NEEDS IS RIGHT THERE IN HIS HANDS.#FUCK #GOD THEY MAKE ME FUCKING INSANE I CANT EXPRESS HOW INTENSE IT IS AT THE SAME TIME. THEYRE EACHOTHER'S *EVERYTHING* SABITO'S PASSION GIVEN #DIRECTION & GIYUU'S UTTER DEVOTION HAVING SOMEWHERE TO SHINE #THERES A REASON VIGI!AU SABITO THOUGHT FAKING HIS DEATH WAS THE ONLY WAY TO KEEP THEM BOTH ALIVE & REGRETTED IT SO DEEPLY ANYWAY #CLAN AU: SHIT MARRIAGE +ADULTERY GIYUU BROKEN AND HURTING YEARNING FOR SCRAPS AND SABITO BEING THERE TO HEAL HIS WOUNDS & GIVE HIM FEASTS #THEY WANT TO GIVE EACHOTHER THE WORLD THEY WANT TO GIVE EACHOTHER THEIR VERY SELVES FOR THE CHANCE OF HAVING KNOWN THEY WERE LOVED #WHOLLY AND UNHESITATING #i need to make them worse in my aus theyre not unhinged about eachother enough they need to be sewn together at the hip souls entwined #auuhuhh #i need to go to sleep #sorry for the mental illness moment ill do it again #sabigiyuu #loserboy giyuu posting #fratboy sabito posting #sabito #giyuu

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katyspersonal · 1 month

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3 for Aldrich, Aldia, Willem & Laurence

9 for Maria

11 for Micolash & Aldrich

24 for Laurence

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

3) What first drew you to this character?

As for Aldrich, I vaguely recall finding out that he checks the traits I like the most? He was one of the characters I've learned about through fandom and not on my own, and I think this ancient meme about summarises it:

Also:

@val-of-the-north SHUDDUP you're basically so horny for Laurence/Logarius/Snatchers that you can't even picture them in your mind in any way but being naked!!!!!!! *casts the stone back at u*

With Laurence, like with Mico, it was the very first glance at the character in Youtube compilation with boss themes and concept art image. I did not know the lore yet, but the design and the music made me imagine Laurence as sort of aged, sagely librarian. I could not imagine back then that his boss fight would be him being a "helpless abhorrent little mewmew" as kids call it! Heck, I thought he'd have dialogue despite the monster form x) In a way, my first impression was not wrong, with the cut content of him actually talking even in a beast form, and implication of him being a son of Cainhurst cut content librarian NPC! I have intuition for cut content before having information, hahaha!

I have nothing to say about Willem. It might be a memory gap thing, but I swear at some point I feel I was turned off and then booted back up with liking this character already installed in my system x) As for Aldia.... ugh for fuck's sake... yeah, it was this legend:

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I was absolutely floored by this stupid vid even without knowing any context, but I also instantly liked this character. I didn't even know his name yet, but the voice acting and long yapping about philosophy already pulled me in XD (Also unironically, this video is precisely how I give relationship advice fhfhdds)

9) Does this character remind you of anyone you know? Does that affect how you see them?

Yeah, I know this person. I know them very well. I know them more than anyone else. Someone who was misguided (by their destructive influence mentor figure, by their own foolishness and past history, or combination of both, who can tell anymore?) into committing awful things, then despaired over their sins and attempted redemption but also failed in some way? This person is me. At some point I've found myself in front of horrible truth about my past life and personality, and knew I was guilty and sullied forever. That it was over for me as a human being, but that didn't matter, and I could only keep people safe by locking myself away and trying to serve something better.

......annnnd it took a few years of more informed people to (metaphorically) shake me and slap my face into lucidity, explaining to me that I've fallen for the "BPD demonization" that was going far beyond than my individual failure as a friend, and we are always accused of abuse and causing irreversible harm when the worst we do is being emotionally overbearing. I kept losing trust to those friends, telling them that they were enablers who tried to gaslight me into thinking I was not 'that much of a monster', until it was other people with BPD who 'shook me and slapped my face into lucidity'. xd Nonetheless, even though now I know the truth about how society treats BPDs, I remember the feeling of being so monstrous and harmful that I was not even allowed to "touch" people with my dirty hands, how my reality used to be. So, I could write Maria going through this effortlessly, especially considering what she did was more plain and tangible!

In fact... thank you for asking me about this, because I kept wondering why I had such frequent dreams about being Maria, and why the Maria in my dreams acts like abused child that took back control against Gehrman despite my portrayal of the guy being so different. And now the puzzle is solved! That part of me still lives inside, it seems.

11) How did you “fall in love” with this character?

Already answered this for Micolash here: ( x )! As for Aldrich, it was through properly analysing the bigger picture and context of his actions. I've figured that his madness was, in fact, being informed on what was far too ahead of everyone else around him! He, like the rest of the cast, is trapped in the rotting, doomed world in which the only choices are 1) "die with dignity" or 2) commit something unthinkable from moral standpoint for a chance to escape. And will morality of the rotting world will matter in the new world anyways? Won't it all be left behind and be forgiven?

The guy also tried to take everyone else he could with him, like sort of a fucked up Noah's Arc! I can tell that they reused the concept with Rykard, at least, I am glad they know what works xD I'd say that the sadism he experienced upon eating people was either result of insanity (he understood a thing no one should understand), or still didn't exclude the bigger purpose (egotistically revelling in how holy he is helping everyone and doing what no one else dared, which would be like my Laurence). In any case, I have the strongest respect to the courage it takes to transcend the bonds of morality and compassion in order to to greater good. Being burdened with the knowledge of how the world really works, and choosing to push through instead of still being bound... This is why I also like Fauxsefka; learning how this world works, she chose to turn people into Kin so they can't ever become beasts. I am weak for this trope, you don't understand.

24) Do you ever dream about this character? If so, describe a dream you once had about them.

Laurence appears in my dreams only in two contexts: 1) Micolaurence or 2) dreams about finding secret files in Bloodborne that reveal his canonical appearance before beasthood! I can tell the latter comes from my everlasting unsatisfaction with my design for him, because I love it but it doesn't feel "fitting" and I can't identify why!

The former, I think, fandom rubbing onto me x) In two of these dreams, I was Laurence. In other two, I was Micolash. In one of Laurence dreams it was mutual, in the second one I was in love unrequited. In one of Micolash dreams, it was mutual, and in another it was not.. Basically, my dreams allows me to experience this ship from every possible angle. o_o Waiting for more I guess fhhdfsfd

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Thank you for asking! And.. without exaggeration, you've just done quite a psychological work on me by just asking the right thing. I need to think about that, hahaha

#bloodborne #dark souls 3 #aldrich devourer of gods #laurence the first vicar #soulsborne #ask replies #personal #memories #dreams #honestly I remember Maria in my dreams hiding in the closet like an abused bullied child.. that big strong woman reduced to this #and I finally know why it was this way #I'd rather not sully Gehrman with something as dirty as my stepdad of course he deserves so much more and he is his own man #I just don't like the approach of turning characters with their own stories and personality into vessels for my trauma #it feels like frenzied flame: you got infected by it and you have unending need to spread it. to scorch the world in your pain.#I don't think this approach would help my healing but instead make me feel worse by nourishing the trauma #I am keeping it sealed away from the world forever now </3 #see this is why it hurts me so much when gehrman haters accuse me of being insensitive to people that want to project their negative-#-experiences with men and misogyny onto him even if that means twisting the actual story and character. I do have a reason to do it myself #I just choose not to because I personally dislike the idea of making fandomry about myself more and about source material less #I don't want to bring the pain and horrors inside me into something that doesn't have them. some things can stay clean!#the passive aggression between canon worshippers and fanon enforcers is something that cannot be avoided in the fandoms #and I disapprove of the lie about 100% peace and mutual respect between the 'camps'. we will never FULLY like each other #each thinks their approach is more productive for the community. and that's fine!

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unsurebisexualcore · 9 months

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Y’all I just had the most awful moment of panic when I deadass could NOT remember Winona Ryders name. Like I thought so hard I felt my brain like physically expand trying to remember I just could not manifest the name in my brain, I thought I was going to have to look it up in absolute shame it was awful.

Anyway can we please have more of Joyce with her children, and like all familial relations in s5? Like it’s not like it wasn’t there in s4, but I miss the like s1/s2 dynamics where familial ties are one of the most major conflicts or impacts. Like I feel like Joyce has barely interacted with Johnathan since s1, but in that season their conflicts and relationship was so interesting because you have Johnathan having to assume the logical head of the household while Joyce maintains the emotional aspect of being the mother of her sons. I need them bonding and that mother/son dynamic back especially because he’s her oldest kid and had to step up and help raise Will after Lonnie left. Now that Hopper’s starting to fill the role of father figure (which again, I’m literally shaking with excitement to see how he learns to step back into those shoes again), I want to see Johnathan realizing he doesn’t have to play multiple roles at once, and him and Joyce slowly healing the wounds Lonnie left and becoming like a mother and son again yk?

And then for me personally I need to see more of Nancy and Mike’s dynamic, I mean we see hints of it throughout the seasons like Nancy saying she was happy Johnathan was there to protect Mike in s4 and such, but like I want more of that. As an older sister to a younger brother if I found out what kind of danger that little shit was getting into, I wouldn’t let him out of my SIGHT, especially if s5 does take on a more apocalyptic setting. Like give me more of them bantering and arguing yet fighting tooth and nail to keep each other safe, hugging and comforting each other when the other breaks down, just having that protective yet familiar bond that siblings have because at the end of the day it’s an important part of their character.

Like the friendships on the show are insanely strong and influential and vulnerable , but family plays an equally important role, and gives the show incredible heart

and it makes me cry

#byler #stranger things #johnathan byers has a special place in my heart #and let’s be for real #his and joyce’s dynamic in season 1 was EXPLOSIVE #like there was so much there every interaction was so impactful and emotional and always hit you where it really hurt #and I need more older sister representation in the show okay #like all throughout s3-s4 I’m like THAT IS YOUR BROTHER/SISTER WHOSE BEEN GOING THROUGH *insert batshit crazy thing they went through in s4 #I think I’m just upset I didn’t see them hug at the end of s4 or really interact at all #my soul needs this to heal it’s what the doctors recommended

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bluberimufim · 3 months

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Theo saying "I used to have a brother a long time ago. I no longer do" 🤝 Seth saying "I don't have a mother. And you don't have a daughter"

#they <3 #absolute queens of rejecting the families that have hurt them #bonding over how their families suck <3 #i love them. get that healing besties.#the whole family theme in this wip is turning out so tasty. my god.#it's one of the parts i'm particularly proud of #i need to make a mini essay on it istg #but as always i will probably forget #no bc i need to tell you all about my characters' relationships with their families #there is 1 (one) healthy family dynamic in this series #Flick ffs do NOT fuck this up in book 2 #writing #my wips #writeblr #devourer of souls wip

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