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tammysart · 1 year

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Batgirl and Robin, Oracle and Nightwing...

Barbara Gordon and Dick Grayson against the world.

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aroanthy · 23 days

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kiryuu sibling stasis post-32 is so interesting to me. nanami tries to leave and is (temporarily but also, crucially, violently) prevented from doing so by touga and akio. after this experience she puts distance between herself and them: she leaves touga’s phone in the car, she resigns from the student council (though she dons her old uniform still), she repeatedly dismisses and undermines the authority of the rose code, of end of the world, of akio, of touga. but she’s still in ohtori, isn’t she? uncomfortable with the idea of leaving, uncertain if it’s really possible. she tried before, and it hurt her. deeply. it’s so interesting to me, nanami’s agency and how she limits her exertion of it after 32, when she realises it for what it is. contrast that with touga, who accepts this weird stalemate between them, who is, really, uninterested in having any relationship of any kind with nanami if he can’t gain something from her. he’s very passive with her after 32, compared to the passivity he’d always feigned towards her before in order to stoke reactions from her and then exploit them. i was thinking about how touga has always been able to sever his relationship with nanami, but chosen not to; first out of a sense of obligation (‘we should live to help each other’) then a realisation of how that could be exploited. i was thinking about how nanami has never realised her ability to leave, in part because it is limited by touga and the harm he does her. i was thinking about the desperation and confusion akio calls out to anthy with as she leaves. i was thinking about how different that is to the kiryuus’ strange semi-breakdown; touga doesn’t want or need nanami, and nanami might love her brother but she cannot trust him or feel safe around him, doesn’t want to see him anymore; she’s itching to leave, and just a little scared (you know, because last time she tried that her brother assaulted her), and he’s not doing anything because ignoring her means he doesn’t have to deal with the emotions of her leaving or staying. something something gendered power dynamics something something tragic siblings

#local kiryuu sibling enjoyer has thoughts about them #i wrote this like three days ago but it’s getting posted now i have to speak my truth #touga loves a bit of inaction #nanami doesn’t but what the fuck else is she gonna do?? be brave? she tried that already #and she WILL try it again and i don’t think touga will try particularly hard to stop her #i think he might try a little but in doing so he’ll just become more aware of how much he doesn’t want to do that #and is only doing it bc of a vague sense of obligation to a perspective on life that he’s already questioned a la utena #im just. i have so many feelings about them. i bet none of you were aware of that fact already #i am once again wondering: does touga love nanami? what does that mean for each of them?#and im concluding: i really don’t think he does #i think he’s felt obligation to her and turned bitter towards that emotion and her in turn #i think he has no idea how to feel about her so he ignores the problem and exploits HER feelings as he thinks he understands them #until he realises that he doesn’t and has to deal (a little bit) with the ramifications of that #touga and anthy when nanami makes them self reflect. or swagever. the 32 way. neither of them would ever admit this but it’s true #dais.txt #her tragedy her triumph

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sea-buns · 6 months

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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

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fideidefenswhore · 5 months

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Every single JS novel follows the same blueprint of Jane being appalled and horrified at Thomas More’s execution in 1535, she cannot believe evil skanky AB ~made~ Henry do this…. and then by May 1536 she’s always chilling in Chelsea (More’s house which was seized by the crown) like… tehe.

#it’s not even dissonance so much as lack of continuity?#like I understand why they lean in so hard to the same emotional blueprint of her reasons for #her involvement in ousting the Boleyns from power #but like somehow she’s always over this horror and not feeling the slightest bit of guilt or even uneasiness #about being served and kept in such splendor in the literal place which was the more family home ?#it’s … sommmething #*religious / emotional #disclaimer that this is about fictional iterations not the actual historical person #so hope off my dick #altho i am genuinely curious over what she might have felt about it …#about both that is. his downfall and her being lodged there with that sort of dark legacy hovering #I’m rewatching the Thomas more centered episodes in s2 #I can’t even remember if they mention Chelsea is where she’s stay in the s2 finale … idts ?

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aroaessidhe · 7 months

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2023 reads

Saint Juniper’s Folly

YA paranormal mystery

follows a foster kid returning to the small town he grew up in, who runs from the judgemental townspeople and ends up magically trapped in a mysterious house in the woods

a boy who lives a boring life in the town until he finds him, and wants to figure out how to save him

and the young witch from the town over who’s heard the woods calling since her mother died, and wants to help

m/m, friendship & investigating a mystery

#Saint Juniper’s Folly #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this is….okay #writing is quite young - it feels like middle grade. would be fine bc i like middle grade but it's a bit at odds with the fact that #they’re 18 and talking about college soon and driving round in cars a lot #There’s very little ghosty or spookiness - it’s more just about the characters and their developing relationships #I felt like there were quite a few pivotal scenes missing? Like it skips from the kid being back in this town for the first time #to suddenly he’s stuck in this house in the woods. We don’t see him go out there; realise he’s stuck; or anything.#(unless libby skipped a chapter in my audiobook again?)#It also felt like it skipped any of them like testing the supernatural stuff? They go straight to researching the house’s history.#Once the end is revealed it makes sense I guess - but it’s like the because the author forgot to make the characters (who Don’t know)#do the first logical things you might do in a situation like that. idk.#the boys hating each other at the start felt manufactured for some hate to love thing instead of for any reason.....I didn't buy it #Also my pet peeve of: having a character call her dad by his first name! …….but it's an indication of their bad relationship. okay then.#(I know that is also a real experience but MAN sometimes people just do that it's not always a sign of emotional neglect!!!!)#Anyway - I didn’t hate it by any means; there’s just a few little things that didn't work for me

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age-of-moonknight · 9 months

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What If…? Dark: Moon Knight (Vol. 1/2023), #1.

Writer: Erica Schultz; Penciler and Inker: Edgar Salazar; Colorist: Arif Prianto; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #What If…? Dark: Moon Knight #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Luminary #Marlene Alraune #Raul Bushman #get his REAR Marlene #I think what I like so much about this story is that it’s a bit of a reverse fridging #where it’s the boyfriend who dies early on and motivates the heroine’s journey into vigilantism and revenge #and even then this isn’t a true fridging as Marc’s loss is still distinctly felt after his passing #as opposed to being completely swept aside #and I think they quite adeptly side step the accusation of ‘oh of course Marc’s passing is being grieved in this story #because women are more emotional while a dude would have just moved along :////’#by alluding to Frenchie’s own grieving process #indicating that this is simply a story that takes a more human approach to how comic book characters might react #to losing a loved one #who’s not completely forgotten nor completely idolized (which I think is a role Gwen Stacey fell into a lot in 70’s-90’s Spider-Man comics)#but instead they wrestle with a complex individual’s legacy who could simultaneously inspire frustration and the desire to do great good

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13eyond13 · 1 month

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw:#i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced'#or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought'#or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too'#sort of way...#it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

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truethes · 7 months

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so i have finally (finally!) managed to get my new theme 80% done ... as i have, i felt it would be better to give this it's official small announcement!

yeah we expected it but i've added wrio.

#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#HDFJDKSDHFDJAJSDHDJA i mean ...#the wrio journey has been a long one #bc im aware i hav so many muses. im sure its overwhelming for some. and im sure ppl might find it excessive #( which if i do and this puts you off interacting im really sorry. ily guys )#but i was pulling for neuvi and i jokingly went. if i get him maybe ill write wrio too #my first ten pull .. i got neuvi.#my twitter was full of his tea memes. and as a tea loving brit. it just felt fair u know. FAIR.#i now just have the final* chara pages to write . but im putting my theme to one side to start touching my drafts because <3 #i finally also got round to watching the end of the interdarshan championship event and have a lot of kaveh emotions too so itll be a bit o #everything this afternoon im emotional #final felt more appropriate here GFDHJAK

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deputy-morgan-malone · 1 year

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What’s Your OC’s red flag?

@adelaidedrubman tagged me to take this uquiz to find out my OC/s’ red flags, and I’d actually already taken it for funzies, so here it is immediately.

Tagging @turbo-virgins, @marivenah, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @noetikat, @ishwaris, @josephslittledeputy, and @statichvm - sorry for any double-tags and no pressure! Anyone else who wants to do this, consider this an open tag.

Deputy Morgan Malone (FC5 OC)

manipulative

you're probably a passive aggressive person. you frequently lie, and gaslight to get your way. you never want to be held responsible for your actions so you avoid situations by either victimizing yourself, belittling others concerns, hiding the truth, and using threats to harm yourself or others

#so i hate this result for morgan #which as per usual had led me to thinking 'or is it something about her i don't want to admit??? because she's a mary sue????'#but lying is something she's properly against and doesn't like doing and actually finds quite stressful #having to maintain a story rather than just act in accordance with what she really thinks is happening #passive aggressive - maybe??#she doesn't always connect with other people well and if she felt judged would probably rather duck out of the conversation somehow #and she wouldn't be aggressive about it #but mostly she'd just leave #go huddle in her room or sulk or go for a LONG hik #*hike #if she was trapped in a situation she might get a little passive aggressive - making comments and maybe playing the martyr a bit #to try to get people to leave her alone #'using threats to harm others or herself'...not really #idk she *can* be a bit manipulative in dire straits or under emotional strain but it's not one of those results i really love for her #tag games #uquiz

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crescentfool · 9 months

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updated my tag list :3c

nothing much, just some additions/rearranging things around!

#lizzy speaks #also fixed up my bio a bit and put a link to my screenshot sideblog for anyone who wants to access it without following !#might start reblogging more ghost trick but i'll tag spoilers with 'ghost trick spoilers' ? (so so good game id hate to spoil it)#havent updated my tag list since mid-october 2022 and given that there are some things i rb that weren't there i decided to give it an upd8 #unrelated to the actual message of tag list updating. thank you to everyone who is kind to me!#i feel like a melted puddle AGAIN !! i love people!! im so glad i could be born and have met so many wonderful people #i thnk people would be rich if they got a nickel for everytime i felt emotional about the beautiful things in life... wah

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death2you · 11 months

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just finished yakuza 0…

#flashing.#well not Technically. i beat the game like three times and it kept crashing at the credits so im giving up for today :thumbsup: but i saw #the post credit scene. with makoto and the watch😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 im fucking killing myself ... the fact that majima just had 2 give everything #up. literally everybody who cared or interacted with him died in some way and its like. 😟😟 bro what the fuck...#i understand why he felt some typa way toward sagawa and makoto but i feel like they could've done a little bit more with nishitani...#i liked his character though so i GUESS they've done their job but. i wouldve loved having more scenes w/ majima & nishitani before he die #yakuza 0 REALLY loves killing its characters though. nobody was fucking safe!! fuckin tachibana oda nishitani sagawa awano... FUCKING LEE..#i LOVEDDD nishiki though. every emotional scene he was in just slayed so hard. literally stole the show..#the scene in the forest where he tried to spare kiryu and the scene on the boat where he said that he wanted to cross the line together.#NISHIKIYAMA AKIRA YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!#the ending part where they tell everybody's futures really worried me though.. like 😟😟😟 what do you mean nishiki changes. what happened..#when i first saw that i instantly thought about the cliche in black movies where they tell every1's future at the end 😭😭#OVERALL. I REALLY REALLY ENJOYED THE GAME!!!! it wasnt too hard maybe a little bit easy toward the end but such a lovely cast of characters #& the substories and things you could do in sotenbori & kamurocho is really fun ^___^#after i try and Officially beat the game i wanna try and 100% everything.. i might not do Everything but most of it i wanna do #like the five billionaires/stars storylines & stuff... but thats if i can even officially complete the game...#oh god such long tags. anyway.#canon that majima has legendary pussy #95

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sapsolais · 11 months

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#so i was hoping 2 have a pride icon ready for today but #i was suddenly Struck Emotion at 5 am and wrote out a whole comic i think i might want to make #because it just hit me like. Wow. i'm ***alive***#SHDKFHGK and i'm putting this here bc i think this might be a bit too heavy (sorry twitter circles)#but just like. really. wow #6 years ago i didn't think i'd make it very far nor did i want to #i spent so long lashing out at myself and clawing at my own skin because i was confused and lost and scared and hurting #and here i am #a bit ago i was putting on the bandaid for my t shot next to some particularly harsh scars #and it Hit me so hard i was sittin there tearing up shdkfjg #it's hard to put into words but. fuck #wow #i feel like my body is actually Mine and Me and i am *in* it #this makes me sound a bit like a stoner i think SHDJFHDKHF but it's true!!! i am not high just.#spiritually sitting with the me a couple years ago that felt miserable and alone for her first pride month #the me that didn't quite get it yet #Feelings.#ough #sap says #*i* did this. i found and Made me all on my own. wow ;;

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gottarunfromthelaw · 1 year

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Playing disco Elysium and really really don’t like how relatable [redacted] is.

#technically I’m not supposed to know he’s Harry #but sadly that is a spoiler I got #really loving this game. really wish I could not adopt the racist theory but if I gotta play pretend to solve this murder #I guess I gotta. but also there has to be another way? I failed the check of punching him.#so far haven’t ‘adopted’ that yet and probably won’t till I find another way #but. yeah.#the utter loneliness and self loathing. the mirror scene was a lot.#the ledger hidden in the clip board… was a lot and yet.#felt that.#the little bits of kindness. the violent and disgusting thoughts and impulses that you constantly have and have to keep in check.#that itch. that want that need for something #also the constant internal back and forth between thoughts. logic. and emotions. also the impulses and useless thoughts #just. wow the creators of the game really got down the human brain well #the thing vents #anyways sorry cop Harry is very. very me.#shouldn’t even be in that job #honestly just doing what I would personally do for my first run so might end up very neutral and probably go more logic and empathy build #probably not the most fun builds but empathy stats gave me very interesting conversations

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hallelujahonmytongue · 1 year

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I’m so angry because I’m watching a TV show and there was a nun character that told one of the main characters who’s an ex catholic that God would be waiting for him when he’s ready to come back, and I instantly started sobbing and I could feel the presence of God just like I always used to be able to but I’m so fucking tired of this happening over and over again. I’m trying to block it out and not let myself be comforted by it because in october when I lost my faith I promised myself I would never go back to God because what He did to me is unforgivable.

I don’t give a shit if He’s pursuing me because He loves me, I can’t keep getting tossed around like this. I so badly want to start going to mass again because I love everything about it but I can’t because God fucked up too badly this time and it’s like an abusive relationship if He can torture me and let bad things happen to me and then expect me to come back to Him just because He loves me and can make me feel His love against my will.

#I’ve calmed down a bit now and I realise that it’s just that the show was referencing a bible verse and it triggered some latent programming #in me #it’s not feeling the presence of God; I’ll never truly feel that again and I never felt it in the first place #it’s all me interpreting emotions a certain way; the way I was primed to as a child #I just hate this so fucking much I hate the feeling that I have no control over my own beliefs and right when I have agency and stop #believing; God always finds some way to pull me back #I’ve been watching this great atheist youtube channel where the guy is an exvangelical and he talks about his trauma and the manipulation #tactics and the like #it’s been really healing to see him deconstruct all the things that hurt me #I forgot quite how hurtful they are though! well; I’ve been reminded #it’s okay. I’m okay. it’s not God coming after me and it’s okay if I still don’t believe in Him because He’s not real and He can’t send me #to hell #oof that was rough #anne speaks #probably some of you might be offended by this but I actually don’t care because you can believe whatever you like and I’m not talking about #that. this is me dealing with my own trauma and it has no bearing on what I think of your beliefs

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arklay · 2 years

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oh. just thought about how shit it would feel for diana every time [redacted] is tender with her after she told him she loved him and he hadn't said it back. big oof

#like i have said right like it didn't matter to her if he said it back right? and that she just wanted to tell him cause that's how she #feels and she wanted him to know. and that's all true like if he never says it back then so be it like she will deal with it and move on #(aka her denying she really wants this and just rationalising her emotions rip in pieces) but that doesn't change the fact that her stomach #drops every time whenever he is soft with her because she's still so confused. she doesn't know if he feels anything back for her but then #why would he be so tender with her? she hates that she let herself have feelings for him. hates that she's in love with a man who might not #be able to give that back to her. because for as much as she says she doesn't care for romance or that she doesn't need it deep down she #has always wanted such a connection with someone and she has that with him. they get each other. she's never felt so *known* before but #then why doesn't he love her back? and it's like diana pleaaase he does!! he does so so much!! he just doesn't want to admit it to himself!#like them both just having these overwhelming emotions for each other which they haven't really felt before and both don't know how to deal #with it oughghg and diana just like knowing okay yeah we are friends and he's shown he cares for her but does he love her? and she just #doesn't know. she's so confused. so him being soft always makes her tense up a little bit after she tells him she loves him and he just #stayed quiet. it didn't feel like a slap in the face at a time but after all this time oh boy it sure does now... like arhghghgggh idk if i #am wording what i'm trying to get across properly but i am having so many emotions about them tonight send help #and yeah this was about the somft spicy thought i had like literally okay so beforehand like not even very soft moments but she was #standing in the doorway while he was just relaxing in bed and he reached a hand out and she got so like eeeee right but then sitting on the #edge of the bed and tentatively taking his hand cause her stomach just feels so tight and she's so oughg bye i am passing away #pair: ewskers #leah.txt

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handcat · 2 years

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girl help! my mental health has reached a low point! 🤪

#not my lowest but also my meds dull my emotions a bit so #haha #you ever feel like you’ve tried so hard to improve your life and you wind up in the exact same place you started #like the problem is indisputably me so #what do i do abt that!#also i’m now seriously considering that i might be autistic? idk #but it would explain how I CANT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE OR AOCIAL SITUATIONS AT ALL #and like idk #my brain is a mess i’m realizing #and i was feeling shit this week anyway then i got COVID and bc of that i’m missing a concert i really wanted to go to #so that’s just compounded everything bc now i’m stuck at home for a week #alone with my thoughts #and my thoughts suck atm #haha ahahah at a low point #like i’m good i’m chillin #but also i fear things may never improve #i think it feels so bad bc i got to a high point last year where i really felt like i’d turned things around in my life and now i’m back #i wish someone could just tell me how to act so that people will love me #i feel like i’ve figured out how to make people like me but i struggle so hard to have friends #like i can’t manage more than one person #and then i realize everyone has slipped away and it’s my fault bc i never talk to anyone #i want a script for how to do friendship bc baby i haven’t figured it out!#and it feels like everyone else knows!#where did you lear. this!!! how!!!#like what topics do you text people about #how often should friends hang out #how long does it take to become friends with someone #what do friends talk about #i feel like i’m trying to mimic everyone else but people can Tell #at least i’ve got my cat

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