i’m so serious when i say i don’t understand how people come up with OCs or stories

i always see those posts like “can’t sleep at night bc i lay awake thinking about my little guys” or “i want to read stories about my OCs but then i remember i’m the only one who can write stories about my OCs” and i want to relate to them bc it seem so fun

i’ve made an intentional effort for such a long time. like i try to create backstories for my sims but i can’t even give them a name that resonates with me. they’re just pretty little people i spin around in CAS and that’s it. i’ve tried to find inspiration from real life, my own personality, fiction, etc. but nothing sticks

i feel like that’s one reason that my edits are so stale, i just don’t feel anything for the sims beyond thinking they look nice.

being so honest I don’t understand how people can expect you to be doing things constantly every single day. I’m supposed to be on summer break but my university expects me to send in 80 sources for my senior thesis by next week

the very thought of doing school work right now makes me want to cry. I can’t even open a blank document and start writing for my own fics. I can’t even engage in my own hobby right now because I’m so mentally exhausted. how can you expect me to do thesis work? I’ve hardly had a break since finals

my personal life has been an ongoing shitshow since last summer. and has only gotten worse in recent months. how can you expect someone to function in society when you throw one thing after another at them?

I’m so tired and done. but I have no choice other than pushing through it because that’s what’s expected of me! that’s exhausting

Aaaaaaaaah I’m SO happy at my new job so far! The park director loaded me up in her truck at one point and took an hour to just drive around and show me all of the nooks and crannies of the park, all the campsites, the trails, etc. I saw an owl taking up residence in an oversized birdhouse, and on the drive back up to the office, an adult bald eagle flew right over us! It was incredible.

The hours are gonna be a lot more consistent too! The park office is only open eight hours so I’ll be working open to close every day I work. Which means I have to learn to get to sleep earlier and stay asleep longer because I’ll now be having to get up at 6:30 every morning… 😭 But for everything I experienced today, and the promise of getting to do and learn even more? Worth it. SO worth it.

if you’re clout chasing on the internet i’m sorry but i have zero desire to be associated with you what so ever, if you are petty and can’t grow the fuck up and deal with problems like an adult, again, i don’t want to be associated with you. i’m fucking tired of childish actions and those who only do things in order to swipe at someone else. please just fucking get over yourself get a fucking life and live for yourself and stop trying to live to make yourself “relevant”. no one fucking cares, and i sure the fuck don’t

i’m so tired i feel like no one around me wants to talk about palestine and i’m tired of trying to make people care, i’m a bit tired in general so i think i need a week or so of break

yeah yeah blah blah projecting onto steve harrington but the fanon idea that his parents are so absent that he doesn’t have an older person to turn to for advice really hit me tonight. like not having a parent to guide you when being 24 feels so fucking hard uhhh sucks!!! no one to call when you’re editing your resume or you’re applying for an apartment or you are in a bind financially or you’re making soup for the first time and don’t know what to do. i just want to be parented? cared for? looked after?

chan rejecting azula is a good thing though? azula is a lesbian

Anon, my post was not about Chan rejecting being good or bad but rather that she got her feelings hurt. Anyways, Anon, Azula being a lesbian is a hc just like her being bi. Her sexuality was never clarified in the show. you can believe her being a lesbian that it valid, I’m not going to berate you or anything since there is nothing to berate. Everyone can have their hc about her sexuality. I’d just recommend you not to push your hc on others and say then they are canon. I’m not saying that was your goal with this anon ask, I’m just mentioning this for the future since it makes you look like an obnoxious rabid fan and I already saw some of those on twitter. Since we are on the topic I’m going to just throw in that I see Azula as Bi.

Edit: btw everything I’m saying is from my experience, I don’t deny that others are pushing their hc on people who like the lesbian Azula hc or that they are the only ones doing it.

CHRONIC RECURRING LAZARUS PIT MADNESS ISN’T REAL, CHRONIC RECURRING LAZARUS PIT MADNESS ISN’T REAL, CHRONIC RECURRING LAZARUS PIT MADNESS ISN’T REAL, AND IT WASN’T A PIT SIDE EFFECT THAT JASON TODD WAS SHOWN TO GET WHEN HE WAS HEALED ANYWAY! JASON TODD DID BAD THINGS AND HE CHOSE TO DO THEM! HE’S NOT A SAD LONELY LITTLE IMPRESSIONABLE BABY WHO CAN’T MAKE HIS OWN DECISIONS OR EXCERCISE ANY SELF-CONTROL! STOP TAKING AWAY HIS AGENCY! STOP MAKING HIM A BORING GUILT-RIDDEN WOOBIE! JASON TODD STANDS BY EVERYTHING HE’S DONE AND HE DID IT ALL BECAUSE HE WANTED TO! SHUT UP ABOUT LAZARUS PIT MADNESS ON MY POSTS!

At this point idk what my brand is anymore cause I do so many things. I’m a jack of all trades ig

RARGH screamy day and it’s barely 9 am

I’m sorry for tooting my own horn but I just. There’s someone over on AO3 who just bookmarked my last fic and I went to check out their profile and it was ALL EMPTY except for that one bookmark. On my fic. Like do you get it I’m going to go crazy I’ve never felt so honoured in my life. I think I might cry over this actually

I was having a good day today for the first time since like…august and then someone said something and I’ve spiralled into anxiety grip ‘imworriedimworriedimworriedimworried’ brain and I’ve spoiled my night fr

turns out my sleep schedule is absolutely shot to hell, after spending most of the weekend in bed. i’m a tired in bed by 9pm girlie. right now, it’s 15 minutes to midnight and i am RESTLESS and UNWELL

What really pisses me off when people are like. No child should be friends with an adult; it’s (insert word/phrase that has been misused so much it’s kinda ceased to have meaning to me anymore) is… My older friends? Even though I’m 28 and yknow. An Adult. Have literally saved my life. Like not only do they have more knowledge about how things work (like Medicaid and food stamps and student loans and resumes and and and all the other shit nobody bothers to teach you and can be hella confusing/nearly inaccessible unless you Know but is hella important/can really fuck up your life if you’re not careful) and like…more experience so when they tell you “it’s gonna be hard, but you can handle it” or “I know it looks scary, but it’s not that bad and I promise you’ll get through it” or “it doesn’t matter if don’t graduate college, look at me. I didn’t. I’ve got a stable, well paying job. It’s not impossible to be comfortable without a college degree. And look at (other friend who is sitting right next to them), they worked their ass off for a double degree and currently not using it! You’ll be okay, you’ll figure it out.” your brain can actually believe them cuz yknow. They’ve been where you are. They have that life experience. And they’re not gonna lie to you because they love you and respect you too much to do that.

Like I don’t want to make it sound like friendship is a commodity, but older friends and intergenerational friendships can be so extremely valuable, especially to vulnerable younger people in abusive households. And I don’t even mean like in that they can offer you a place to crash cuz not every friend is gonna be able to do that and that’s OKAY. But maybe they can still help you in other ways. Even if it’s “just” holding your hand and validating your fears while you cry your eyes out but reassuring you that they believe in your ability to work through it. They believe in *you*. (And yes, I REALLY appreciate the same sentiment from friends my age and it’s also extremely helpful and I love them so very much. But it just sorta hits in a different way coming from an older friend. Not in a way that’s better or worse. Just different.)

Also something something seeing that you have a future when you can’t see past the next year or six months is just. So fucking reassuring.

Also. Older friends are just plain fun. I love my older friends and my life would be so much poorer without them. So yknow. Fuck people that condemn intergenerational friendships.

Also also something something something ‘fuck you for making me feel terrible/paranoid about wanting to offer my own experience to those younger than me. To help them in any way I can. As another fantastic and dearly beloved friend says. “If you start sounding like my mental illness, YOU are the problem and maybe need to re-evaluate some things.”’

how do u make friends with people on the internet as a 23 year old with niche interests. just how

I’d like to think I’m somewhat of a strong person, maybe I’m not, but I’m tired of always being sick. I have covid again (4th time) and if you throw that in to the mix with an autoimmune disease I feel like I’m never going to be a healthy functioning human again, which then triggers my depression and it turns in to a vicious cycle.