being so honest I don’t understand how people can expect you to be doing things constantly every single day. I’m supposed to be on summer break but my university expects me to send in 80 sources for my senior thesis by next week

the very thought of doing school work right now makes me want to cry. I can’t even open a blank document and start writing for my own fics. I can’t even engage in my own hobby right now because I’m so mentally exhausted. how can you expect me to do thesis work? I’ve hardly had a break since finals

my personal life has been an ongoing shitshow since last summer. and has only gotten worse in recent months. how can you expect someone to function in society when you throw one thing after another at them?

I’m so tired and done. but I have no choice other than pushing through it because that’s what’s expected of me! that’s exhausting

My body: I'm so tired and hungry and thirsty this bitch has been on their phone for ten hours straight someone help me please

My brain: I got this bro *sends the everyone hates you chemicals sends the everyone hates you chemicals sends the everyone hates you chemicals sends the everyone hates you chemicals sends the everyone hates you chemicals*

‘nobody cares,’ i whisper as i put myself out there once again, hoping deep down that maybe i’ll be wrong this time

I wanna write right now but my brain is saying no which makes me big sad 😭

Why the fuck am I so sleepy? I’m trying to write but my eyes feel so tired for absolutely no reason 💀

its nice out today but sitting on the couch is just so appealing

the sickness caught up to me so hard I'm listening to cavetown bc I don't have the energy to tolerate metal. guys.

have y’all ever seen your enemy out in public and feel the need to cut all their hair off…no just me cool

On my walk to a tree I'm currently sitting under. I got this 4 leaf clover. Legend by some funny skeleton says that it brings u good luck. Or should bring you luck. Although, I'm not sure what kind of luck I need. I don't eat, I don't need to sleep (sorta).

I'll sit with it to wait and see if it does anything.

I got 2 (TWO!!!!) new wigs today and i want to get into cosplay so badly but I’m suffering from Sleepy Bitch Disease with a side of Covid and I simply am not feeling it

so apparently today is the day i decided to showcase my # true colors while also embarrassing myself but i’m bored and i’m sick and at the end of the day this is my blog so idc if this is read by no one <3 well the thing is while i’m not # that person about funko pops i do like them and i have somewhat of a collection (my brain working harder than god to remember every funko rn) that includes baby yoda (have i watched the mandalorian? no) sabrina spellman with salem (from caos) richie and eddie (fuck you it chapter 2) steve natasha and bucky (still planning on getting thor as well) and shaggy and scooby (i was OBSESSED with the cartoon when i was a child and my late dog was scooby so this is the most dearest thing to me)

WELL the thing is i bought daemon and rhaenyra’s funko pops (but also. WHERE is emma!rhaenyra’s funko???? alicent got two?? justice for emma’s rhaenyra) and since they just announced a funko for caraxes i will buy both caraxes and syrax and i feel ~ at peace ~

mind you i still want to buy a few got ones (hello queen in the north sansa) and also some from stranger things (will my baby) but i refuse to be broke thanks to some square ugly ass plastic toys !

if u don’t want nsfw blogs interacting w u, maybe don’t follow nsfw blogs :))

im so depressed right now its not even funny omg

actually Down Bad by Taylor Swift is about the very specific hell I put my OCs Alice and Olivia through in one of the universes they exist in

Vent:

Its difficult to not feed into what it feels like I have to do.

Writing down number and words isn't going to save me. But I'm feel scared.

yippee