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shinondraws · 1 year

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People on Twitter being like "ooh aah but to make art you need EXPENSIVE SUPPLIES AND TECH, art is TRULY the most ELITIST pursuit and thus it is right to rip off and degrade artists because that is how we make art ACCESSIBLE TO THE PEOPLE."

Fucking hell these people don't care SHIT about making art accessible. All they are making is excuses. To make art you need something that money can't buy and that is the WILL AND DRIVE TO MAKE SOMETHING YOURSELF. Everything else follows.

You can use literally whatever you have at hand to start drawing. Printer paper and ball pen. Free art apps and mouse. That's how I and many others started.

The funniest part is that never in the history have good art materials and resources been so cheap and accessible. My first drawing tablet was the size of a fuckin oven tray and had maybe 2dpi resolution and no pen pressure. With the price of that thing you can now get a very good tablet that you can make pro work with. It ridiculous.

As for traditional art, just use fucking whatever. I used absolute garbage paper that is Bad by any measure and yet I didn't care because I wanted to CREATE and so I made these pieces that I was so proud of back in the day.

Garbage paper and garbage colours. Free art software. These pieces are still very dear to me.

People are just mad that there are no shortcuts to art. People are mad that this shit takes TIME AND EFFORT to build up.

If you want to really create something you will fucking sit on your ass and probably cry but you will make the effort to put down some marks.

I am not sure that these whiney babies even want to make art. It sounds like they just want the clout and they are mad that the shortcut they found isn’t met with awe and praise.

These fucking dildos are mad that art takes skill and effort and they are mad that artists ask for recognition of their skill and effort while they are not willing to put in any of that themselves.

Fuck you.

#ramblings #i am so tired and so angry #this absolutely won't sway my desire to make art because i realized something important #i make art because i love creating #i love the act of it #and nothing can take that away from me #and i know now that it is something that I posses and that those people don't #so fuck them

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leviathanessinthebog · 5 months

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hey fellow lgbtq+ fellows, how does ot feel to be a part of an international extrimist organisation?

#soon lgbt will be considered extrimist organisation in russia #i am so tired and so angry #russia #lgbtqia #politics

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 7 months

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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd)#because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

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wombywoo · 6 months

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Just laying some ground rules because in this past week I've seen more nonsense™️ than I have in my entire online experience thus far and this wombat's just about had it🤦‍♀️

starting with #1--if you see my stolen art (or anyone's art for that matter) on pinterest DO NOT repost that art on social media. like AT ALL. period.

#2--STOP tagging VA's in my twitter posts. If I wanted them to see it, I'd do it myself. this just reads like you're the one that wants attention, and it's annoying. bye.

#3--whatever this shit is.

the audacity of not only reposting art, but running it through a tween-idol filter ??? If you can't handle my boy's raw, unchiseled anglo saxon jawline, then gtfo 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

finally #4--DO NOT ACCUSE ME OF MAKING AI ART!!! I can't even fathom how you've reached this conclusion, but making a callout post about me where you claim you have 'proof' is the most ludicrous thing you could've done for yourself mate, because if you want proof, then how's this:

just an example of hundreds of digital artworks I've made in the past...6-ish years?? maybe before AI was even a thing..🤔

Anyway--kindly get the fuck of my lawn 📣📣📣

#I'm sorry for this #but I am ANGRY #and tired #I'm just here to do my thang so let me do it in peace 🙏

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fridayyy-13th · 6 months

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i swear sometimes i think people forget that Jon's s1 skeptic act was just that—an act. it was an act!!! he believes the statements!! he's believed them since episode one! do we so soon forget that he denied the statements were real because he knew the Eye something wanted him to be scared, and he knew that was bad, so he decided to act like the statements just didn't scare him? remember, he was working with extremely limited information ("when i record the tape statements, i feel watched, like something knows i'm afraid, and i don't want it to know that"), and came up with a genuinely solid solution with what he had! not his fault that the thing watching him was a literal unknowable eldritch entity that feeds on fear, and he was just some underqualified archivist.

#sorry. saw a post and got a little angry about it #like bro! he literally tells martin in a fan-favorite conversation that it! was! an! act!#we KNOW he's believed in the supernatural since age eight!#i'm so tired of the ''lol haha jon didn't believe the OBVIOUSLY real statements but they still spooked him'' posts #i will not take this blorbo slander #leave my guy alone he tried his best. and was scared out of his mind while doing it #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #friday chats #it's like 1:30 am if this is moderately incoherent don't come at me

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blluespirit · 14 days

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back on my 'zuko is aroace' agenda. if i have to see one more post arguing about shipping i am going to start biting people. he's actually a single dad and never marries thanks bye.

#obv you do you but i for one am TIRED of the discourse #i hate it!!! i hate it so much!!!!#i love being in fandom but sometimes it makes me *starts screaming*#i search up the character and it's just a tirade of angry posts arguing abt who loves XYZ more or they looked at each other so #there is NO DENYING they're madly in love #like you can ship anyone u want but babe... its so fucking deniable!!!!#so anyway aroace zuko truthers where are u #zuko #jack talks

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fuck-spock · 2 years

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okay some of yall are just ignoring natives at this point where is the outcry??? how loud do we have to scream? how many of us have to go missing or be found dead before you start screaming with us?

please sign the petition to let us keep our children! and educate yourself on the true history of turtle island: hint, you gotta talk to real natives to get the true story. history is written by the victors.

#im sick and tired of having to be so loud just tk be ignored #my people are being attacked #our children are being taken #it is legal for us to be killed by whites off the rez. please will you fucjing help us already?#ndn #native #i was stolen from my culture and trust me it leaves such a vacancy in your soul #every day i wake up thinking about how we were nearly killed out #and how our home has been over run and poisoned with chemicals #im gonna smoke some weed and calm down now but just know i am always angry aboit yhis #ughhhhhhh i need some peace

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sukunasdirtylaugh · 1 month

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fwb toji who is furious when you come home (you let him crash at your place) telling him with a broad smile that the mechanic was kind enough to give you premium air on your tires "for only $120 for all four tires!" and he's fuming, already on his feet, "no no sweetheart," he tells you, "they scammed you. why didn't you call me in the first place?" and suddenly you're shy, giving him a shrug that nearly wounds him if it weren't for the hard thumping of his heart. "give me your keys, baby. I'm gonna take care of it."

#and 30 minutes later he's back with your full refund plus a full years worth of a free oil change and tire rotations as an apology gift #from the shop #I love the idea of him angry #like am I invisible to you?? it kinda wounds his ego ngl so after this you can bet that he's on everythinggg #leaky kitchen sink? he's got it #he becomes your own personal handyman and you don't mind it one bit #jjk #jujustu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen #toji #toji zenin #toji x reader #toji fushiguro #jjk toji #toji x you

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fortheloveofexy · 5 months

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i just saw MORE AI fanart in the andreil tag.... what the actual hell is wrong with you people??

do you not understand how much work REAL artists put into our craft? or do you just not care? are the two seconds of gratification worth insulting and harming the people who have created the fan content you so eagerly consume?? is your gluttony for New Content so great that you will drown fandom tags in AI-generated drivel, drowning out the real creators who helped build this fandom in the first place?

#i am so angry and so tired of seeing this shit!!#i don't like having to yell about it but fuck dude!!!#what the hell else are we supposed to do!!#fandom meta #aftg #aftg fandom #AI art #fuck AI

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mixmangosmangoverse · 3 months

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Honestly I hope these people continue doing these boycotts and strikes until they get to the realization that their phones and computers are Israeli made so they can finally stop talking shit on the internet and I won't have to see them ever again. Leave the internet to just the Jews from now on

#mango rambles #personal fruits #jumblr #ישראבלר #if i seem angry it's because i am #I'm so fucking tired #just saw a literal disney artist saying to boycott disney. good fucking luck with that #anyways everyone most phones use israeli technology time to abandon your phones. leave me alone

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that-foul-legacy-lover · 3 months

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I giggled at this thought so have it as well

Sagau + legacy who tends to hijack Childe at his whims = playable abyss moth :D

oh goodness i was not in a good mood but this made me feel much better thank you

it's a glitch, it has to be a glitch, there's no other explanation for it! you've scoured the internet, watched countless videos, even uninstalled and reinstalled the game multiple times- but nothing could explain why, out of all characters, Foul Legacy had spontaneously become playable and was currently sitting in your party, exactly where your Childe should be. to his credit, he was INCREDIBLY strong, easily sweeping any bosses and enemies you met along the way, but the fact remains that he's not a playable character in the first place! you're worried that your game is being hacked in some way, but when nothing else happens for a few days, well... you can't deny that it was kind of fun to have a character no one else had, and you've always been fond of Childe's Foul Legacy form- you refuse to admit to spending at least half an hour just watching him on screen gushing about how cute he was (he even has his own idle animations!!)

on his end, in the digital world of Teyvat, Foul Legacy is absolutely thrilled that you haven't reacted too badly to his presence- he feared you would hate him for occasionally using Childe's place for himself- he always gives it back afterwards, he promises! Legacy works hard to destroy any enemies in your path, silently trilling in happiness whenever you compliment him. since he's not much in the way of words, he curls up into a comfy Abyss moth ball if you ever put him in your teapot instead of simply standing there, perking up and fluttering his wings when you approach him. and as he promised, he ALWAYS gives Childe back his body at the end of the day- the Harbinger's a little confused and disoriented, but you always greet him enthusiastically when you log in the next day, so he's not really complaining

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johannestevans · 10 months

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Hi, as an intersex trans masc person I was just wondering if I could ask/clarify a couple things about your posts about being referred to as "afabs"

This is entirely out of a desire to better understand other perspectives so I'm sorry if its a bother, it isn't intended that way

Is it that you generally dislike being referred to as afab because it references a gender that is not your identity, or is it specifically it being used as a noun that causes the issue?

If it is the noun issue, could I ask if you can elaborate on why?

I was under the impression that afab/amab were useful and accepted ways to refer to someone's physical sex at birth, which is what is relevant in discussion about pregnancy etc. Have I misinterpreted something here?

(I'm also autistic so idk if I've missed some tone issue or sarcasm or implication here, I'm just trying to understand better so I don't offend others)

I hope you're doing well and thanks for your time x

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS "PHYSICAL SEX".

And even if there were, right?

Calling me an "AFAB", the implication is meant to be that BECAUSE I was assigned female at birth and had ~female parts~, that means I must have ~female parts~ now, as if these things don't change with time and hormones and surgery, as if because I was erroneously described as female, I am the same physically as I was as an infant, and therefore I share in common everything with anyone else who was also described as female at birth, erroneously or otherwise.

Of course anything to do with being "female" isn't my fucking identity, as a man.

AFAB and AMAB stand for Assigned Female at Birth and Assigned Male at Birth.

Being assigned male or female was an event that happened in the past. I was also a fucking baby at birth. I'm not a baby now, am I? Just because I was an infant then doesn't mean you would prefer to me as an ex-infant or previously an infant. That has 0 bearing on my identity as an adult. It's bizarre to bring it up.

AMAB and AFAB are perfectly useful terms to describe that specific event - the event at birth when you were assigned a sex, incorrect or otherwise.

What relevance or frankly, business, is it of anyone's what sex a ten-year-old was assigned at birth? A twenty-year-old? A forty-year-old? A seventy-year-old?

There are loads of trans people who never went through the wrong puberty, and have had various surgeries. There are plenty of trans people who have been stealth since they were kids, where many of the people around them never had any idea they were trans and/or intersex, and they just went through the puberties they were most comfortable with.

There is no "AFAB" or "AMAB" experience that is universal to everyone based on what sex they were assigned at birth. That is a lie, it is a fiction, and it's not even a convincing once if you actually talk to a variety of other trans and intersex people. Words to the contrary are generally just based in gender essentialist ideology.

What does it have to do with anything, except that some freaks basically still think of assigned sex at birth as what you "really" are, or having a big impact on your current identity in perpetuity?

In a few years, the abilities of surgeons around uterine transplants will have improved. Within twenty years, I expect we'll see more trans women having pregnancies, and in general more people carrying pregnancies after having womb transplants and other organ transplants.

Just say "people who can get pregnant". Just say "people carrying pregnancies" and "pregnant people".

Stop trying to imagine that someone's ~femaleness~ or ~maleness~ is what the crux of the matter is here. Stop trying to project the male and female """"""biological""""" bullshit onto people when it doesn't apply to them.

There is no such thing as universal biological or physical sex under male and female categories, let alone shared experiences based on those categories.

Just eliminate that shit from your mind. It's a fucking cancer.

#musings #anonymous #i'm not angry at you anon #but i am so tired of this bullshit and i hate when it feel slike people are jumping through hoops to keep calling me female #or to define me based on how i was supposedly once a girl or a woman #when i never was

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griancraft · 19 days

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I wish more people were normal about POC, and specifically black, characters in the MCYT fandom. I mean, for obvious reasons related to CCs and all that, but also bc I often feel like I’m doing something wrong because sometimes I’m one of the only people I know how is getting like? Stimming flappy arms excited about my favourite black characters? It’s not like I’m singling them out either I get the exact same way about my favourite non black characters?

It’s jarring to get into skyjacks and see almost equal amounts of art of Jonnit as everyone else because I’ve been in this weirdly passively racist fandom for so long. People are so weird about like CANON (silly canon but) biggri and they make them weirdly toxic when they were so sweet. If it was Scar and Grian you people would be all over it. And dude fucking whatever happened to the way people drew Ponk. And, it’s not even just black ccs and characters. Don’t get me started on the way a lot of Dteam fans back in the day (and still some qsmp fans) talk about Asian women like Tina.

#obv if you’re black your input is more important than mine #this is just important to me because a lot of my favourite characters and CCs are black and this fandom treats them like crap #and obviously??? because black people matter generally??? even if I wasn’t really into their content I still would be upset #I don’t watch tina! I don’t watch p0nk anymore! I can still feel angry about this!#and you should be too #sorry including Tina in there makes this flow weird she’s Asian oops #sorry I am. so tired

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fisheito · 26 days

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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking #my immediate thought was #i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him #bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent #but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally #it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying #the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias #then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought #i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him #AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND #originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went #WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN #BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS #but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it #i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding #so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown #i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said #kuya #yakumo #yakuya

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creekfiend · 14 days

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I think the very worst thing about being this sick and in being this much pain is just the bone deep exhaustion I feel

I want to connect with the world and it's like trying to touch the sky when you're lying at the bottom of a well. I can reach my arm all the way up as long as it will go and I can't touch anything I'm too far down and I can barely even see it from where I am and there's no way I can reach it at all

#and I'm so tired I'm so so tired I can barely feel the anger and the terror I'm so angry and I'm so scared and I'm so tired of being #like this #I want it to be a different way I want to be a whole person #and I don't even have the wherewithal to feel that I can feel it but I can't feel it all the way because I can't feel anything #I can't feel anything all the way there's something wrong with me there's something inside me that's just wrong #sick #i feel like maybe i am dying.

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616wandanat · 1 year

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Marvel is once again whitewashing and erasing another of it’s Romani characters for their cinematic universe. The character, Lilia Calderu, has been established as Romani since her first appearance in comics in 1973.

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#i am so fucking tired and angry #though not surprised that marvel is pulling this shit AGAIN #of course they would whitewash more of their own characters #lilia calderu #agatha coven of chaos #coven of chaos #anti mcu #mcu critical #marvel critical

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