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#he's so vain he'd 100% do this

matchascara · 10 months

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CAMBOY SCARAMOUCHE

- IN WHICH: you find out the snarky purple haired boy in your class isn't as much as of a nobody as you thought he was.

contents: NSFW!! slight bdsm, mentions/use of sex toys

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he was the loner in class that spoke to nobody. headphones always on, blasting music that others who sat next to to him said to be j-rock. his aura was silent, cold and mysterious. the only quirk he showed to the public was his doodling habit in class. nobody really knew anything about him, besides his name.

scaramouche.

no matter how many times the blonde haired girl would invite him to parties, or hangouts, he'd never show. she'd pester him endlessly during lectures, only to be met with either complete silence followed by an eyeroll, or, if she's lucky, a scuff and a "stop bothering me." sometimes he'd switch it up and say, "go find something better to do with your free time."

yoimiya was defeated, and you never really quite knew how to help her. "try again tommorow." youd reassure, but, tommorows success was never gaurenteed

so with this, you couldn't believe your eyes when this same quite, snarky, and anti social boy has no problem lewdly showing off his body to thousands of people online--

as a camboy.

and a very popular one at that. always receiving the most gifts, subs, and views each live, he easily kept his place in the top 10 of the main screen leaderboard. his gap moe is what drew you in. his online persona was sexy, and alluring, yet he managed to keep his mysterious aura from his real life personality.

so you became a regular at this site, secretly watching him every other night at 11:30. you watched as he would undress himself on stream, slowly letting his lanky, pale fingers teasingly run along his ab lines until he reached down to rub his cock that throbbed through his jeans, "50 more gifts and i'll stroke it for you. 100 and i'll moan your name. please hurry, i really want to come to you guys." he teased, biting his lip in anticipation.

you don't know why you did it. but you did. with a small fright of hesitation you sent 100 gifts under a lesser known name of yours, your middle name.

with the sound alert going off, it gave scara the ok to lean back in his chair, open his legs and to start unzipping his jeans. "good girl (m/n)" he slurred.

"but i have a surprise for you all today." he pulled out a cum stopper from his desk and bit his lower lip in pain as he inserted it into himself. but his attempts to conceal was in vain and a faint gasp followed by a soft "fuck-" managed to escape his lips.

"you have to tell me when to cum. i'm under your control tonight."

you continued to watch as he then stroked his cock up and down, starting off slow before speeding up the pace as he leaned back with one arm over his eyes moaning and humming your name. "f-fuck, it feels so good. you feel s-so good. i can't-"

and when his soft moans turned into sensual whins, begging for you to let him cum, you wanted to do more than just watch.

you followed scara in his movements, taking off your shorts to play with your aching clit as you listened to him cry your name, he wanted so desperately to come, but you weren't going to let that happen. not yet.

you watched his mouth hang open out of pleasure as he continued to beg for you to let him cum. "please. please, let me- let me cum for you."

"keep it quiet." you sent with 50 gifts.

he bit his lip to seal off any more words, using his free hand to lean over and grip his desk, causing his shoulders to tense up.

you hated how you enjoyed it. how you enjoyed watching your classmate who's usually so silent, and reserved suddenly become a vocal, moaning mess as he pleaded with you to let him cum. and he has no idea it's you. he has no idea you'd see him tommorow sitting by himself in the back corner.

he had no idea you knew his dirty little secret. but part of you wish he did, because you so wanted the fingers that would pleasure you to be his own. just thinking about it made you release your final breath of moans as you finished on your white bedsheets. you sighed. the fun was over.

"cum for me."

scara finally leaned back on his chair upon hearing the noise alert, removing the cum stopper from his cock that throbbed in his hand. he let out a melodic moan, almost a scream as he finally came. it shot up upon his chest, which would drip down onto his lower stomach

he took deep breaths as he did nothing but bury his face in his hands, letting the thousands of viewers watch the breathless, whining mess you made of him. gifts were being spammed, subs were being increased and the live chat had nothing but praise.

he was definitely way more popular than you initially thought.

"next week i'll have a special guest with me." he finally managed to spur.

exiting the stream, you closed the laptop shut. the words "special guest" lingered in your head as you cleaned yourself up to get ready to bed.

but that night was a sleepless one, as all you wanted was to hear scara's whins taint your ears just once more.

#genshin fanfic #genshin smut #genshin x reader #scaramouche smut #scaramouche #wanderer #wanderer smut #scaramouche x reader #wanderer x reader

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firespawn · 5 months

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If Lestat had a Instagram

I've been thinking about this for awhile now because the new IWTV show is having the characters set during modern day so what if Lestat had social media? 👀Especially him being such an obnoxious vain rich guy, I think Lestat is the type to have a social media. 💯He also has a darkly charismatic personality so he would be very popular online. He'd have millions of cult-like followers and he would post incredibly bold things that are not politically correct, naughty, and horribly offensive.So he would regularly get banned and then un-banned all the time. 😖He would be very controversial on social media and in real life - due to his rock star celebrity past and bratty, rebellious attitude of still exposing his vampire nature to the human world for his own sadistic fun. 😅I'm not that dumb so I definitely would NOT openly follow Lestat like the other millions of stupid humans who would think it's totallyyy safe to follow a hot psychotic vampire and not end up hunted and eaten. 🙄For my own safety, I would not click like or comment on his posts and keep my distance but I would lurk on his social media page and keep an eye on what he's posting about because I'd have a morbid curiosity in all the trouble and drama that Lestat would get himself into online. 😅I would privately gossip about his horrible antics on social media because I feel like Lestat would be a fascinating train wreck for me to watch and secretly talk shit about. 🤣Just like he is for me in the TV show. 🤭Season 2 is not out yet and I'm not 100% sure what the production writers are planning to do with modern Lestat ??? I'll find out next year in 2024. 😁But for this post, I used a combination of Sam Reid's portrayal of TV Lestat in season 1, also mixed with Anne Rice's portrayal of book Lestat, and my imagination for fun! 😆I edited the photos to look like real Instagram posts so you might have to zoom in to read the captions clearly or just look at the photos but it is accurate to what I imagine Lestat's instagram page would look. 😂😂😂

Instagram collage:

Photos collage:

#interviewwiththevampire #iwtv #samreid #annerice #lestatdelioncourt #lestat #instagram #lestat aesthetic #lestat moodboard #social media #my edit

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humanitys-strongest-bamf · 1 year

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Levi Taking Care of Drunk!Reader | Headcanons

➼ levi would 100% be willing to make sure you get home safe every time (being sober contact, picking you up, coming to the party with you even though he's not a huge fan of the crowd and how rowdy everyone gets), but he'd be grumbling about how much of a pain in the ass it is the entire time

➼ if you start drunk crying because of his commentary, he'd immediately start feeling really bad and be like "okay, okay, i'll shut up if you stop crying, just please drink this water and eat something" in a vain attempt to get you to sober up

➼ he's obviously very annoyed with these situations, but less so because he actually thinks it's a pain in the ass, and more so that he's constantly annoyed that you keep putting yourself in harm's way. (how many times can you willingly give yourself alcohol poisoning???)

➼ even if you were pressing all up against him and wanting to drag him into the bedroom, he'd obviously say no because you were intoxicated and he's not subjecting you to that (learn consent from levi, kiddos)

➼ he'd wake you up the next morning with some coffee and light breakfast (or maybe lunch depending on how long you were out) in an attempt to help you out with your hangover (although he can't promise that he's not going to make snide comments at you over it)

tag list (i realize i've been forgetting to do this, oops lol): @chaotic-on-main @romantichomicide95 @levis-squishy-cheeks @lovolee3 join my tag list!

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lemonandlime22 · 2 years

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Brother's reaction to mc trying to tackle them

not a hug tackle, but a straight up like rugby tackle

Warnings: gn!mc, cussing, not edited, a little bit of slander

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Lucifer

"stop. don't even try it"

he didnt even look up at you as he said that.

this bitch-

whatever, its not that him telling you not to do something has stopped you before

and it sure as hell isnt stopping you now.

now on to his reaction,

'This little shit-' - luci mid fall

your are 100% getting strung up next to mammon

who is there because luci was in a bad mood

anyway-

the bitch didnt even flinch! hardly any reaction at all

except for the vain popping out of his fiveforehead.

but if you did somehow manage to surprise him, he would only fall a little

like the kind of fall that you would catch yourself with your own lag

(thats probably going to be the best reaction your going to get out of him if you did this)

Mammon

WTF!??!?!?!?

he falls face first into the floor <3

he would be upset that you didnt tell him first

would have loved to try and catch you in his arms

after a minute of you laying on top of him while hes pouting and whining, you start to giggle and he follows suit shortly after <3

you guys end up laying there on the floor in the middle of the hallway for a long while

just chilling

be warned tho

he will tackle you the next time he sees you.

adorable dork <3

Levi

OW-

he was most likely in a chair when you tackled him so..

OW- x2

why would you do that???

is he such a stinky otaku loser that you just had to hurt him??

he ends up whining about how much you must hate him and how much of a gross otaku he is

pls shut him up before i do-

I suggest ticking his sides

that should do the trick

"I guess im so gross that yo- wait what are you doing- HEY- WAIT STOP- HAHAHAH- NO- HAHAHAH-"

irl rotfl

by the end of the torture, he is out of breath and sweaty all while your still on top of him in his tipped over chair.

THIS IS SFW I SWEAR-

Satan

your dead-

im sorry but you are-

he falls forward but catches himself on one his book shelves

which causes a few of books to fall on the both of you

you better hope none were damaged

now's a good chance to start running

the only way you can get out of this is somehow tying this back to pissing off lucifer

that, or you better start looking for a cute cat to shove in his face.

rip

Asmo

how dARE YOU-

you might have just made one of the biggest mistakes of your life-

he was in the middle of touching up his, BRIGHT RED, lipstick

now he has it all over his face, also his outfit is a complete mess from being violently tackled to the ground....

yeah, you better hope Solomon is nearby

because he is the only person that can help you now

it will probably take a day or to for him to talk to you again

and that's if you apologies to him.

all i gotta say is, good luck-

Beel

barely even felt it.

he was eating in the kitchen when you came at him, arms wide open.

from his point of view, he only saw that his human friend really wanted a hug

and who is he to deny one of his favorite people a hug

so after you rammed into him or at least tried to

he just paused, looked at you, smiled, then wrapped his arms around you in a bear hug

after that he offered you a snack and asked if you wanted to go hang out with him and Belphe in their room.

god i love this adorable himbo!

Belphe

I don't think you could

he's always either laying down, sleeping,

or asleep standing up

so you wouldn't get much of a chance to tackle the bitch.

but if you did manage to catch him awake and standing

he would fall straight into the pavement and he'd probably be pissed

only for a minute tho

after that he might fall asleep

surprise surprise

after he falls asleep you aren't going anywhere

his arms are in an iron grip around you

so your just stuck there flailing your limbs around and yelling for help.

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#i starting to really enjoy writing hcs #they are super fun!!#obey me #obey me brothers #obey me boys #obey me mammon #obey me mc #obey me crack #obey me leviathan #obey me lucifer #obey me beelzebub #obey me headcanons #obey me solomon #shall we date obey me #obey me asmodeus #obey me belphe #obey me satan #obey me x reader #lol

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sunsetzer · 5 months

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Assorted FFVI headcanons because these blorbos live in my head rent free: Edgar edition

- He became king at 17 and had to keep up an alliance with the people who killed his father alone for ten years, this man absolutely has anxiety

- Is used to suppressing said anxiety because he has to be dependable

- Definitely had a breakdown at some point in front of his friends and felt mortified; his friends don't judge him for it

- Workaholic- buries himself in his duties so he doesn't have to think about his feelings

- Tinkering as a means of comforting himself

- Actually quite the artist, especially sketching plans for machines, totally has a little notebook somewhere with rough sketches of various things and people he's encountered, Relm finds it at some point

- Doesn't hate kids but really also has no idea what to do with them if he's asked to watch them, will agree anyway (especially if it's for Terra)

- Always forgets to drink enough water

- Used to both hot and cold weather since he lives in a desert

- Outfit covers his whole body to protect from the sun but is very breathable so he's not overheating

- More of a survivalist than you'd expect him to be, especially knows a lot about the desert

- Can MacGyver the most seemingly unrelated useless objects into something useful

- The constant skirt chasing and flirting is intentionally exaggerated and he is not actually Like That to the level it seems

- Very bisexual, definitely has/had a thing with Locke or Setzer or both and also has a thing for Terra (good thing he's got two hands!)

- 100% would be down for polygamy

- Blonde hair is weird for a desert dwelling people with darker skin (related: I just cannot picture the figabros as white, they would burn so bad in the desert) but it's a Figaro royal family thing and of course Edgar is proud of it and vehemently refuses to cut it at all, impracticality be damned

- Uses some kind of special conditioner so even though the desert is hot and dry, his hair is very soft and shiny

- Figaro's native dishes can be notoriously spicy so the twins have a high spice tolerance

- Edgar absolutely deliberately chooses the spiciest dishes his country has to offer when entertaining fellow politicians he does not like, and his guests can't really complain because spices are one of those things that mean status and whatnot, so refusing a spicy meal is like slapping Edgar in the face, so he's just sitting there having a nice time and the other guy is internally on fire (yes he did do this to Gestahl and Kefka, the latter of which barely had a reaction to the pain and deeply unsettled him)

- Zero patience for nobility who look down on common folks

- Visits South Figaro incognito to check on his people, some of them have figured out it's him but they keep quiet about it

- Had the death penalty abolished in Figaro very early on in his reign

- Was personally responsible for the invention of air conditioning

- Gets adorably excited when talking about machines, will completely forget that not everyone understands technical jargon

- Very sentimental, has a collection of mementos from his travels, definitely still has the Gerad getup

- Will never admit it out loud but at least one of his friends has figured out that he can be calmed by stroking his hair, like a cat (it was probably Locke, they've known each other the longest, he definitely tells the rest of them because it's adorable and silly, yes Sabin was already aware of this)

- If he had a choice he'd be living in a little workshop building and repairing things for people instead of running a country

- A little bit vain but not obnoxious about it, mostly because he's supposed to keep up a certain image as the king

- Actually enjoyed being Gerad and not having to be proper all the time

- Is not stuck in Figaro all alone after the game because I refuse to believe they'd all just go back to doing their own things, instead his friends show up to pull him away from working himself to death and help take some of the burden off of his shoulders

EDIT: Can't believe I forgot my own headcanon I've already posted about but: migraines

Can you tell I think a lot about Figaro and the twins, because I think A Lot about them, I think the desert kingdom is very neat and desperately want to see it rendered in modern CG (I can't help imagining it would be like the desert region in ff16 every time the plot sends me there; please square I beg of you)

#i know there are more bullet points here than there were for setzer #i got carried away #i tried to keep it contained in my first post and then the brain rot just took over in the second one lmao #anyway i will yell about how much i love the twins and figaro any day of the week and at anyone #edgar roni figaro #final fantasy vi #ff6 #final fantasy 6 #ffvi #my post #i want more fics about pre-game edgar and i think i will have to write them myself #so be it

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pancake-breakfast · 10 months

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Thinking about this panel in Volume 5 of TriMax.

This is such a crazy question for Knives to ask. Knives hasn't bothered to get to know humanity. All he has is this impression he decided on around a hundred years ago, and it seems like every human he's brought into his circle since then has either been forced to match that impression, or was chosen because they already matched that impression, or some combination of the two.

Meanwhile, Vash has spent the vast majority of his time since the Fall interacting with all sorts of people. And yes, some of those interactions have been terrible. In fact, I'd say some of them are terrible enough that if Vash were to give Knives a negative answer, there's a chance he'd be lying. Not a 100% chance, since Vash seems to put an immense amount of effort into seeing people as individuals rather than lumping them all together as having a singular motive or outlook on life, but definitely a chance.

But for Vash to give Knives an affirmative answer would also most definitely be a lie. Not because he has or hasn't had such feelings, but because a simple "yes" fails to encompass the whole of his experience with humanity. He knows people are nuanced, complicated, hurt, and desperate, and he knows that if he answers yes, Knives will overlook every struggle of every individual that, while not necessarily justifying their actions, provides some some explanation for it. Struggles that may have driven them to do things they later regret. Struggles they might not even have if Knives hadn't crashed them onto this wasteland of a planet.

Knives would just use Vash's "yes" as further indication that humanity must be wiped out, that it's an us-versus-them dichotomy that only has one rather simple solution.

But Vash isn't the type to just focus on the lows and forget the highs, or to forget the nuance that makes people fall into grey areas far more than they fall into black and white. He's been hurt (sometimes terribly) because of this, but he's also seen how his efforts have not been entirely in vain. So long as that holds true, I don't think he could muster up enough hate to genuinely want to wipe out all of humanity. Perhaps he could for a moment (however long a moment may last), but if he actually took action toward it, he'd just end up with more regret.

Heck, only a few chapters back, he expressed that very sentiment to Hoppered.

So instead of giving Knives an answer that will just be misconstrued, Vash dodges the question. Despite Knives' earlier statement, Knives is clearly not in a listening mood, so what else could Vash possibly do?

It seems Knives has very much embraced the mindset of, "Well, if you've sinned once, you might as well just embrace your damnation." It might seem like a bit of an illogical mindset for someone who constantly calls humans "sinners," but Knives sits there for several pages telling Vash that if Vash has ever even once wished destruction on mankind, then he has everything to gain by embracing those feelings and releasing them in a way that takes humanity down for good.

Which completely ignores the Blank Ticket mindset Rem passed down to Vash. Knives denies the possibility of a different path both for himself and for everyone else. The fact that even after a hundred years, his brother still clings to such an idea is beyond upsetting to Knives, to the point that he stops using words to try and convince Vash and instead just resorts to force.

At this point in the story, it's a bit difficult to see how the resurgence of Vash's memories of July will affect him, but I'd honestly be surprised if they'd make him lose his faith in humanity. After all, he seems to be using them right now to help Hoppered understand, and as dedicated as Vash may be to saving Meryl and hunting down Knives right now, somehow I doubt he's sharing these memories with Hoppered simply to buy himself some time.

It might still be a bit before Vash remembers that he, too, has a blank ticket to the future, but even through all the scars and hurt and betrayal he's experienced, he hasn't forgotten that that ticket is something humans still have, even if Knives is determined not to see it.

#trigunbookclub #vash the stampede #millions knives #colored manga #trigun manga #trigun maximum #volume 5 #manga analysis #pancake thoughts

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fan-mans · 3 months

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wazzup dude!

so whaddya got for Narcis Prince hcs? u said you've got quite a few 👀👀

- erporo

YEEHAW I FINALLY GET TO TALK ABOUT MY NARCY BOY THANKLES @erporo

I've been waiting for this for so long mnbjhkgvkjhvkj

(I actually wrote 3 pages of hcs in googles docs just for this ask lol)

Anyways, this is gonna be long so hold on to your butt!

Important ones first!

He is pretty self centered, but he's not a dick about it. At least not much more than the other boxers. He's snarky and gossipy but is actually pretty amicable when you get to know him. He sees himself as superior than others not because of his looks or wealth but because he’s very skilled- something he also values highly in others.

He hates his parents, and most of the rest of his bio family too, but loves the staff at his family’s estate- the staff loves him back quite a bit.

In fact, he respects the workers on his family’s estate and most service workers over his parents or family because the workers actually have skills, unlike most of the people he’s related to, who don't do anything except ride off their wealth.

He's very passionate in everything he does and refuses to cut corners. That's why, although he could get away with it, he doesn't cheat- he's got too much respect for both his own skills and the people he's fighting.

Because of his closeness to the staff of his estate rather than his parents, he grew up pretty class conscious and aware that he got a very privileged life, as well as being aware that people who aren’t like him aren’t people he should hate.

A big theme I have for him is people having to change their view of him: most assume he’s nothing but a vain, bitchy, brat- and while he does act like that sometimes, it’s far from his entire personality. Most of the stories I want to write about him revolve around other people having to get over their own assumptions of him based on his tastes and background, accept that yes, he doesn’t inherently disrespect them because they’re poor or different from him, and open up to his warmer side, even if he isn’t always the easiest to get along with

While he is self centered, and definitely not the best at listening to other's problems, he cares a lot about his friends and will never go back on a promise to give a gift or spend time with them. He deeply values his time with people and doesn’t ever want to waste it- even if that means he has to ignore a 100 degree fever to hang out.

He also pays close attention to people's tastes and interests, he likes learning about others and participating in what they enjoy too. If he seems like he doesn’t care about something someone says- it probably means he just didn’t understand it.

Speaking of: Narcis is still questioning his orientation. While he’s sure he’s attracted to men romantically, he isn’t sure if he likes women romantically or just aesthetically. He also wonders if he's a-spec because he’s very picky about romantic partners and values platonic relationships far over romantic ones. If he had to choose between keeping all his friends and never finding love, or finding love but never having friends, he'd always choose the former.

He's also kinda frenemies with glass joe. They’ve both made off-color comments that pissed the other off but they also enjoy a lot of the same stuff and can get along pretty well when together. However, they both can get hot headed and emotional, so a bit of anger sparks between them every time they do hang out.

Now, he truly loves his fancy shit. But as much as he loves upper class culture, he’s also quite fond of lower class and folk culture as well. However, though he doesn’t want to admit it, he’s scared that if he were to get too close to lower class culture, he’d be rejected because he’s a ‘priss’. In reality he wouldn’t be- a lot of the things and people he wants to interact with would love to have him, but Narcis isn’t quite secure in his place in the world yet.

Despite that, he doesn't have many insecurities. He’s not very insecure about his appearance- he knows he’s pretty no matter what, he just doesn’t like looking (Or feeling) bruised on his face. He also rarely gives a shit what people think of his tastes, he loves himself enough.

While he will throw the occasional tantrum- he’s gotten much better from when he was a kid and has a pretty good handle on his anger. He used to be MUCH worse as a kid.

His ‘mum’ (Nanny) is still a big part of his life and they’re extremely close. She’s the only person in the world who isn’t scared when he has a meltdown or gets angry.

AUTISM- his parents refuse to admit it or tell him but he was diagnosed as autistic v young and has known most of his life cause his nanny just told him lol.

He’s got low empathy, but he still puts in a lot of work to be nice to others cause he likes people and he wants people to like him back.

He generally needs a lot of attention and people to talk to cause he’s such an extrovert- it made his childhood extremely tough and frustrating. As an adult, he's a total social butterfly and loves making friends and hanging out with people. He isn't perfect at socializing but he's p fun!

He almost never restricts himself when having fun, whether it be going places he’s never been, to trying new drugs, he IS the man of the party and always an excellent host of one.

He also loves new experiences and learning things about people. He's really curious about other people’s cultures and loves listening to people ramble on about theirs. And ofc, he's always down for trying something new.

Now for a ton of small ones:

His uncle is a baron, something narcis’ parents want him to take on over his cousin, but that he has no interest in.

He deeply respects service workers- always tips at least 50%. But though he's never rude to servers/service workers but does expect the best service no matter what.

Absolutely never takes people’s shit- he’s too good for that.

Even with his better respect of people, he does sometimes need to be treated as the specialist boy™

Loves watching people get into fights- esp over or because of him.

Super sensitive abt horror and HATES it- he can mostly handle kids horror and maybe a funny slasher sequel/parody, but nothing too serious.

He yellow under his shirt around his neck is actually a cravat.

Most of his clothes are custom made.

He has two types of shoes: White sneakers or white/pale loafers- no in between.

His taste in fashion is p tacky lmao.

Likes tight clothes in general.

Hates the name given to him at birth.

However, he adores narcissus flowers.

Fave color is red, second fave is yellow.

Because he’s usually wearing red, his eyes tend to look a little purple.

6’10- you will never be able to pry this hc from my cold, dead hands.

Yes his hair is naturally that blonde.

He’s got the cutest lil dimples :)

blushes/turns red very easily and quickly.

Has his ears pierced and has a million sets of earrings. He's the same way with chapstick and nail polish.

Really goofy laugh.

If he were to get a tattoo, it’d have to be a v on his chest- for victory.

His greatest flaw is that he’s got terrible bo

Has a 20 step skin care routine

Cries in a very pretty way (Think like ariel or belle in their movies lol)

Will use his pretty blue eyes to pout and beg for things

Giggly and flirty while drunk

Picked up a bit of cockney from not only his staff growing up, but his drinking buddies in London

Actually a big fan of beer and beans n toast

Really loves earl grey tea

Loves spicy shit- even if he can barely tolerate it

He’s lowkey vegetarian cause he just prefers fruit & veg over meat

He doesn’t know how to ride a bike anymore cause he’s so tall.

He likes playing with and petting horses but hates riding them- ofc he knows how, he just doesn’t like it v much.

His parents got him a pet ‘teacup pig’ but when it got too big he refused to get rid of it and it still lives with them.

Absolutely adores a couple of sanrio plush toys Heike gave him for his birthday- he’s got a hello kitty doll and a My melody pillow.

Heike called him narcy-warsy as a joke and got his car keyed. The only person who can call him that is a lover, and even then only ironically.

If he likes you, he’s gonna give you a ton of pet names.

He crushes very deeply and passionately- often to the point where he dips into very unrealistic daydreaming.

V much the big jakt person in any relationship he’s in.

Definitely treats any romantic partner of his not only as his bestie, but as a tiny dog he’d carry around in a purse.

Wants a chihuahua SO BAD but refuses to get one because he knows it wouldn’t do well in England’s cold climate.

Loves basketball

Jane Austen nerd, his fave book is pride and prejudice

Loves rap, hip-hop, and r&b music… even the crappy stuff

Loves horseplay, esp pillow fights- please play in the mud with him, he needs the enrichment

Loves taking pictures- he’s not good at it yet, but it’s a fun hobby for him

Has a million coloring books that are completely filled in lol

Likes the beach a lot- no matter the weather

He collects seashells, all of which he picked himself

Spends waay too much time in pinterest making aesthetic moodboards

Has a deep interest in physics. So much so that he learned the frequency of most glass just so he could cause chaos by breaking it with his voice.

Is a countertenor (Basically he can sing in a typically 'women's' vocal range)

Speaks welsh and slovak very well- though his parents don’t know that

It’s very easy to make him laugh

Dreams very vividly

Basically ignores whenever he’s sick lmao

Pays for everything- always

#I'm sorry in advance #I just couldn't be normal about him #i've been rotating him in my brain a LOT #narcis prince #my perfect boy who has never done anything wrong ever #punch out #punch out wii #headcanons #I put so many together cause I wasn't sure when i was gonna be able to dump abt him again lmao #my hcs

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katyspersonal · 4 months

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🤔 I've randomly started thinking about interpretations of Doll creation (and "abandoning") again.

"Mania" and "Even the Doll, should it please you" were drastic mistranslations and both Doll's clothes and Hair Ornament suggest he felt strong emotional warmth (strong enough to make Doll cry a tear of joy), not "creepy sexual desire", but the rest of the things are up to interpretation and like.... after all, there IS a merit in the idea that Doll was created not in grief after Maria's death, but when Maria was still alive. It is the context that makes it perplexing!

So what if he just really liked Maria, but felt terribly guilty for it. Age gap, status gap, Maria seeing him as father figure and him realizing he is "failing" her by feeling "wrong" kind of love to her and not what she'd need, whatever. He was not a creep, but he felt like one, he hated himself and felt like a garbage teacher and a garbage friend. Even if he didn't do anything wrong towards Maria and never would.

So what if he created the Doll not to take, but to give. He created a version of Maria that he could hold with his most genuine affection and tell all the warm words of love and cherishing that he wanted. To "protect" the real Maria from his feelings that he was 100% convinced were inappropriate and would only make her distrust him or hate him. Maybe being in love is not something that awful, but negative self-image is a bitch, you guys probably know this. He did not want her to lose a friend and/or father figure in him by making things "weird", so those tender feelings begging to break loose got redirected and told to a doll, with him getting lost to the fantasy. Perhaps, separating real Maria from the Doll even helped him to deal with the crush, and he loved that fantasy like her own being now. Not crafted to his tastes, but able to BE loved.

The gem that the Doll cried appeared in a responce to holding Hair Ornament and feeling the warmth from caring for it, but the description does say that he wished these feelings from the Doll, but in vain. I still think that her being "abandoned" refers to the state of Abandoned Old Workshop in general which she is a part of, but if, IF to follow the 'he abandoned her for not meeting his expectations' take? What if, again, it was not a matter of wanting to take, but to give? He wanted to care for her and to love her, and what was so bad about her becoming alive was absence of emotional responce. She didn't feel any happiness or joy or safety; she felt nothing but wish to serve the Hunters and the Dream, in fact. A hollow being with no autonomy or personality. What wrecked him and make him not want to interact was not that she didn't love him, but that she didn't love herself no matter what he'd do or say.

Jhghigh I still think the idea of Doll resulting from Maria's death has more evidence in canon and holds more appeal logically, but also loving someone can just hurt. Like I agree with the sentiment that fumbling for most "accurate" story becomes pointless as soon as right emotional appeal is found and tbh there IS a big potential for sadness. And cute that such bittersweet things could still persist within the horrors of the hunt and death and insanity and general Yharnam desolation. Infatuation is when you are hurting from not being able to GET what you want from the person, but love is when you are hurting from not being able to GIVE.

In either case Gehrman exists just to suffer no matter how his story goes siggghhhh

#bloodborne #gehrman the first hunter #plain doll #see? this is why it's impossible to discuss interests with me #I keep discovering more and more new ways to interpret a thing every time #the potential for rambles is unreal #but yeah if Ive learned anything is that not being able to share your love can and will hurt #you might not even want to be loved in return sometimes you just want to EXPRESS it #and when you can't it might have bad consequences for your mental health

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ahmedmootaz · 5 months

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1.) Does X trust Angela after the events of AiP? He was salty on Angela’s betrayal ear MFoA/LoR so I wonder he changed his mind during AiP or repressed those feelings since Angela’s just a baby.

2.) Despite the nuggets left the library, what does X think of them? Dude did lead and manage for 50 days. And similarly on wanting to befriend them too? Or he doesn’t (to cope with the facility) befriend them?

Dear astrocourier,

Hello! Sorry for the very, very late reply! Again, I've been quite busy these days, but I am here at long last! Do forgive me for keeping you waiting for so long.

I think he's having mixed feelings now. Back in TMFoA, he was bitter that the Seed of Light didn't get to be released and that all of his work in the Corporation was in vain, something that severely affected his perception of her even with some vague memories of the happier cycles he had with her. In AiP, while X still doesn't exactly trust her 100% because of her hostile attitude towards Ayin which would translate to, in his mind at least, some degree of hostility towards him. However, by the time AiP happens, Angela has long since released the Seed of Light again, and so he cannot really fault her for anything since he himself recognises how much pain and suffering she had to endure, so he does not blame her for lashing out against Ayin, so I would say he trusts her to a medium-to-large extent at this point, knowing that her anger at this point is more than justified since she tried undoing her wrongs to the best of her ability.

2. I think X really respects the Agents he used to manage simply because of how durable they are. They've gone through several nightmarish, apocalyptic scenarios and yet they still stood strong regardless of the circumstances, although I don't think he was allowed to interact with them during the Script, so he could only really admire them from afar and have a mutual respect of sorts towards them during his management. It's definitely one of the many aspects of the Corporation that gave him trust issues since he couldn't get attached to any Agent lest they die on him all of a sudden, though if he had the chance, I'd say he'd want to befriend a few, but seeing how he likely has some of Ayin's awkwardness, he'd probably keep a limited group.

Once again, I apologise immensely for the late answer, and I thank you for the fun ask, astrocourier! Until next time, be well, stay safe, and see ya'!

#lobotomy corporation #library of ruina #my writing #ayin #manager x #ask

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acourtofthought · 9 months

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i had this thought last night after my deep dive in your elucien tag 😅 a part of me thinks that the reason lucien also isn’t forcing anything on elain or pursuing her (apart from him actually respecting women and such) is that he feels guilty about the mating bond because he believed jesminda was it for him. we know that after she passed he turned to a more rakish lifestyle, unable to give himself wholly to another… but what if there’s a small piece of him that feels like he’s betraying jesminda by fully accepting the mating bond??

also, i think another reason he keeps his distance (again, besides the fact that he’s respecting elain’s boundaries) is that he’s terrified of beron hurting elain ?? so he stays at a distance from her so he can make sure she’s not in danger. we know beron will do anything to hurt lucien and break him, so maybe keeping away from elain is his way of protecting her?? like lucien and elain both have trauma to work through, and i think that this is some of the trauma lucien needs to work through.

I 100% agree with this and he thinks as much in his POV. The second he realizes his mate is the most beautiful female he'd ever seen it's instantly followed up by guilt. I'm sure that guilt didn't magically go away between then and SF and I'm guessing when we his shared book, we'll find that there is still a bit of his guilt holding him back. Because if he was meant to love Elain, if she was meant to be everything to him, then he probably realized that Jesminda died in vain. He LOVED Jesminda as much as anyone could love another character (from what I gather) but these fae males really hold the mating bond as a sacred thing. He loved Jesminda and figured she was his mate therefore he thought it was ok for them to love one another, thought their bond would snap into place. But but she lost her life because of loving Lucien and I think he's starting to realize that if his bond with Elain had snapped while he was with Jesminda, there's a chance he could have still wanted to try to make it work with Elain and that means Jesminda needlessly lost her life by being with him. And I have NO doubt that Lucien is nervous as to what Beron would do to Elain, Feyre even mentions it as a concern: If they knew Elain was Lucien's mate....It was now another avenue, I realized with no small amount of horror. Another way to strike at the youngest brother they hated so fiercely, so unreasonably. And Beron has never really stopped hating Lucien: "Father," the one now holding a knife to my throat said to Lucien, "is rather put out that you didn't stop by to say hello". And with Beron wanting to ally with Koschei who wants the trove and the son he hates being mated to a female who has a connection to the Trove because she was made, knowing that his mate now resides in the NC with those who have the Trove, Elain could easily be a target of Beron's in order for him to get what he wants so that Koschei in turn gets what he wants. I'm not saying he'll actually get to Elain but I don't doubt Lucien is aware of the ways Beron uses knowledge like that to his advantage. Not to mention once Helion is revealed as Lucien's real father, Beron will have even more reason to hate him. He hates him now and that's just based off speculation. So Lucien has a reason to fear what Beron could do.

#elucien #lucien vanse #elain archer #beron vanserra #koschei aco

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decepti-thots · 1 year

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Not sure if you’re open to doing two of them, but 2 and/or 8 for Prowl pleeeeeease 🙏

2 - What is their grooming routine? (how do they treat themselves in private)

if you called prowl vain he would be wildly insulted. but he is! he's very vain! not in the stereotypical way- he's not a sunstreaker type who wants to look flashy. but he puts a lot of effort into looking exactly like his self-image tells him he ought to, if that makes sense. even the fact that said self-image includes not being the sort of person that cares about frivolous things like appearances ties into it with enough mental contortion, lmao.

he keeps his detailing perfect. he does not like to leave scratches on his bodywork to heal themselves. when he came to earth, he was very particular about choosing an alt mode, because he refused point blank to have one which didn't look right. he exhibits a control over the smaller details of his appearance that borders on obsessive, and might make someone suggest he's focusing on things he can easily control about himself to avoid thinking about things he can't (or won't, for whatever reason) exert that same amount of autonomy over. you know, if they wanted a table thrown at them.

he absolutely hated being in exile because it meant he started to look uncharacteristically scuffed and it really pissed him off. first thing he did on the moon vacation was re-paint himself. which means keeping the damaged eye socket and chevron was deliberate, by the way. he was cultivating a particular image at that time, let's say.

8 - Describe the place where they sleep. (ie what does their safe space look like. How much (or how little) care / decoration / personal touch goes into it.)

nondescript when it comes to personal items (or lack thereof). clean but not all that tidy, despite his best efforts. he's not truly disorganized, but he's not great at keeping the work he brings home to one carefully tidied desk.

the main thing here is, prowl is paranoid enough he never really manages to convince himself he has made a truly safe space, so at least during and following the war he doesn't have a place he thinks of as 'home' per se. there's not really anywhere he can actually feel 100% sure he is secure and unreachable, so to a degree he remains 'on', and in hide-everything-incriminating mode. i'm sure the effect this will have on his mental state over the millenia will be completely trivial and barely worth mentioning. but it means he refuses to have any part of his living quarters potentially reflect anything about what he wants. (if you want to see one possible version of what he'd like his home to be like, go reread the bit in SotW where he makes a fancy-lookin' post-war cybertron in the positive reinforcement prison, imo. and make your own judgement as to what you think it says about his taste. ;))

pre-war, it was still nondescript, but more because prowl didn't ever quite work out what to put in it; he was someone very disconnected from his own sense of taste and wants when he was young. he had a sense of taste, to be clear, but no real knowledge of it or much confidence in it, so he overcompensated with affected ascetism and turned it into a personality trait. this means that during the period he and chromedome lived together, chromedome dictated much of their shared living space- and if he ever thought it was slightly odd prowl seemed fine with this despite being a noted control freak, he never found a way to bring it up casually.

#(prowl liked it bc it felt like cd was making a permanent life with him when the whole place reflected how deeply he'd put roots down #so to speak)#ask meme #long post

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seoness · 9 months

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Do you think Modern!Sandor is a virgin? This is aimed at the book version since his facial scarring is wayyy worse. 😭

I didn't think this would be the question that liberated my writing block, but here we are. Would a Sandor Clegane of our age be a virgin?

Most likely...

but that answer is far too short, so let's break this down!

Sandor would be tied to the Lannisters. In the books and show, their wealth comes from the gold mines of Casterly Rock. In our society, their wealth would still come from mines, just not any close to Tywin's family estate. It would be blood diamonds. They would gain wealth through investing in the American railroad, and much more. Sandor's family would still work as their muscle in some capacity, and I am more privy to imagine them as mercenaries than policemen.

Like in the books, work saved Sandor's life. He's a personal driver for Joffrey and somewhat of a bodyguard. The all-in-all so to speak. Constantly near Joffrey, but never in any photo snapped by any paparazzi or walking Joff down the red carpet or escorting him through a banquet. His scar wouldn't be as severe as in the books simply due to modern medicine, but it would certainly affect how others treated him and how he viewed himself. He could buy sex, but I think he'd more take to viewing porn than going to a sex worker in person. Not because he'd be a prude or look down on them, but rather be reminded of the insecurity that the only attention he could get from a woman would be bought.

Views on women

Now, more often than I dare admit, I wonder if he'd be an incel? In the books, he's hostile to girls. However, I don't think he has the time to really get into that pipeline or any pipeline for that matter. Neither would he be some feminist icon or outspoken ally of any cause. I don't think he'd try for a relationship, simply because he doesn't think it an option. Frankly, I think the Sandor of our society would be more jaded than in ASOIAF. His strength and fitness aren't much put up against a bullet much less a nuke. Our society is equally, if not more, vain.

He'd not thrive, he might not even live

I question if he'd even survive. Sandor lacks in attributes our society values. The Hound isn't charming, he's threatening. He'd have no social support. An insane brother that wants him dead and the feeling is mutual. Like the Mountain with artillery? Maybe Gregor would have been sent to an institution or Sandor would have been the one to go... The more I think about this question, the less his cock becomes involved. Like Gregor killed a lot of people when he was young... wouldn't the FBI or NATO or anyone get involved?! He'd be more liability than worth at that point. Sandor in ASOIAF is clearly a functioning alcoholic, but maybe in our day and age, he'd be more into hard drugs like cocaine. If he still is a functioning alcoholic, does he drink and drive? He certainly did drink and ride. Maybe the body positivity movement influenced him, but I don't think so. He could totally cut himself off from his family though and flee to a remote area. A hermit in the woods? Maybe live on a boat and take a page from the actor that plays him in the show? Like what would his views be on technology even... Another Unabomber? Would his fondness for horses really translate over to cars? I mean, I know plenty of horse girls, and they HATE cars...

Okay... I... He most likely would be a virgin. Maybe dead. Probably dead. Emotional baggage the size of Neptune? 100%

#sandor clegane

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I've been brainrotting about this for a while but like ch//ya having an s/o that's a complete sub that one day wants to try being a dom?? but like overtime they just get v flustered and ch//ya take over,, like they talked it all over before and it's all okay msndm but idk,, I always wanted to try being a dom but I get flustered too easy;; idk maybe I could be v soft dom if kaeya/ childe was also top and we went down on the other nsbdj-

i have a friend who's just like this :)

i think childe and kaeya would adore the fact that you want to try to dom and or top uwu

they're all for spicing things up in the bedroom and exploring kinks mefeels

so when you mention to them one day that you'd like to try something like this they'd be v happy and willing to help you figure out how you'd wanna go about it

ofcccc there's plenty of ways people top and or dom so they'll wanna try their best to understand what you mean uwu

goes thru everything with you; if you want it to be a set time or something more spontaneous, if you want them to initiate a little before you leading or if you want to be the one to decide when and how it happens

also defs the dynamic, if you wanna bottom from the top of if you wanna peg them or if you wanna try bossing them around and tying them up

I've always hc them to be supes experienced so i like to think they'll gently suggest how you can get into the grooves of things if that's what you want

will baby and hand hold you through this because it is your first time trying

so so so proud of you for bringing it up to them!!!! so excited at the prospect too!

with a little discussion and some nudging with them you manage to find the perfect and most comfy way you wanna do

if you get flustered mid way its ok!!!! a ok!!! not a problem!! not even a matter!!!!

will ask if you're still comfy to continue if you'd like them to lead or nudge you a little on what to do

they're both switches so won't be too hard to go with the flow

thinks you're so cute when you're all shy and flustered and have ample patience with you

since kaeya's playing the soft dom/ bottom here he'd mostly just lay back and let childe guide you

gives you so much praise while you're on top of him trying to give him oral

pats your hair and gently guides and teaches you how properly tease + get him off

childe is a very responsible top uwu makes sure you and kaeya are both comfy all the time and that everything is still ok with you

will encourage you a ton and massage your erogenous zones

teases your sensitive spots too but not too much to distract you from your task at hand or mouth because wants kaeya to get his pleasure too uwu

sometimes you get too too flustered and panic like you can't do it or something, they make sure you're 100% ok to continue

and if you've already discussed it before i feel kaeya would coo at you and continue to encourage you uwu

maybe tells you to stay where you are (between his thighs) to watch how childe does it uwu

childe is very enthusiastic about being watched and even more enthusiastic about showing you the ropes

since his mouth is occupied kaeya kinda talks you through the process

his moans and grunts while talking about it

hc he gets off while talking about how he likes being blowed, he's a little bit vain

makes heavy eye contact with you and childe because he wants to make sure you're listening LOL

makes you so much more flustered especially with his husky ass pleasure laced voice mmm

asks you if you still want to lead if not they're ok with switching uwu

if you're supes shy at this point they're happy to flip the dynamic

would shower you with so so soooo much love because!!! you did so well!!!! it's not something easy to do so they're really proud of you for trying!

turns the attention to you also because they know you kinda just want to lie back and forget(tm) about the mess that was HAHAHHAH

if you're ok with going through with it they'd be so hyped!!! more compliments and sooo much praise!!!

childe would lean back to guide you again

kaeya takes more of a back seat this time, no tricks or anything to tease you uwu lays back to really enjoy the moment uwu gets into his bottom mentality HAHAH

childe teaches you when to go harder, when to suck and use a little teeth, praises you for doing what he tells you to

and when kaeya cums, childe is happy to get you (and him) off as a reward you for doing so well

#im no longer in my youth and can no longer churn out like 6 hcs a night AHAHHAHAHA #frankly im disappointed in myself #i thought i could answer more asks before i head out again LOL #shanna writes #not sfw #smut #kaeya x reader x childe #kaeya x reader #childe x reader

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saiilorstars · 7 months

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ch.8: Chloe's Long Way

Steve Rogers x OFC fic • squeeze your eyes for a Bucky Barnes x (2nd) OFC

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Runrunrunrunrun.' Chloe relentlessly tapped her fingers against her temples. The voices were active and loud again, repeating themselves over and over. They insisted about danger coming and running. Running from who is what they wouldn't say.

"Chloe! Chloe!" Natasha yelled in vain. She was sure she'd been yelling the woman's name for a good five minutes and even though they were right in front of each other, Chloe was in another world. "Dammit, Chloe!" She yanked Chloe's hands from her head. "Chloe!"

Chloe unscrewed her eyes to meet Natasha's irritated gaze. "What? Let me go!" She pulled her hands from Natasha's and stepped back.

"You blanked out on me again—you've been doing that more often," Natasha noted. "Are you okay?"

"No, of course not. My best friend is in a hospital because she was poisoned!" Chloe frantically gestured to the hallway bustling with nurses and doctors. "Kind of question is that, Natasha?"

"Easy," warned the redhead, tilting her head. "Those chocolates—they were poisoned, weren't they?"

"What?" Chloe shifted, her head even turning away from Natasha. "Of course not."

"It's the only explanation because the bakery's been cleared. Your chocolates had poison in them which means that somebody was trying to poison you," Natasha pointed at the woman. "Not Seren. It's like I said in the beginning, Cyannide was too easy of an avenue against Seren. To poison her, they need to synthesize something. You, however, are as human as they come" — she flicked Chloe's forehead — "save for a few alien perks, but still 100% human. Who would want to poison you, Chloe?"

"I don't—I don't know what's going on!" Chloe smacked the side of her head when the voices started raging about an 'accident'. Was she going to have an accident now?

Natasha's nose scrunched as she watched Chloe hit herself a few times. "What the hell are you doing now?"

"It's the voices!" Chloe screwed her eyes shut again. "The Hive Mind — it's so fucking annoying lately!"

"Bet this is the reason you hardly sleep, then." Natasha wondered what else the Hive Mind had been doing lately.

"Hey," they heard Steve call seconds before he joined them. They stood only a few inches from Seren's room. Steve wasn't risking anybody entering while he wasn't in there, not even the nurses. He looked between Natasha and Chloe, noticing the pale shade of Chloe's face. He wondered if she'd been skipping sleep again. "So, what do we have right now?"

Natasha had continued to stare at Chloe until she decided that the latter was not going to be very forthcoming on her own. "Well," she said, crossing her arms, "I have nothing but it's not my fault."

"It's not?" Steve said, confused. Whenever Natasha went on a mission, she always got what she needed.

"Yup," Natasha said, "Because Chloe has all the information and she refuses to tell me anything."

Chloe's eyes widened. "What!? I don't know anything!" she practically yelled, attracting the attention of the staff passing by in the hallway.

Steve could see her breathing heavily and those flickering eyes of hers weren't making it any easier to believe her. He'd never seen her act like that. "Chloe?"

"Steve, don't you start," she warned him.

Any other time, Steve would have been gentle and understanding with Chloe...but not today. Today, Seren had been resting from a poisoning attack. She'd been terrified of where she was and she was still terrified. Today, Steve was not going to go gentle on anyone holding out on information that would lead him to the culprit of the attack. "Chloe, you need to start talking and I mean right now."

"But I don't—"

"Don't you dare lie to me right now because I don't know what I'm going to do if you do," Steve stepped closer to her. She ducked her head immediately, trying to avoid his and Natasha's stare at all costs. "We're friends, Chloe, but my priority is Seren. What do you know?"

Chloe swallowed hard. She wasn't used to being on the receiving end of his coldness. "I'm sorry," she said quietly. "I didn't...I love Seren, I would never put her in danger like that."

"I believe that," Steve said, "Which makes it even less clear as to why you're deliberately not helping her."

Chloe looked up at him. "Please...there are eyes and ears everywhere."

"Fair enough," Steve nodded, eyes scanning the hallway. He was wary of everything around them too. "Natasha, can you stay with Seren, please? She's still resting and you're about the only one I trust right now." And he knew that nobody would get to Seren if the Black Widow was posted at her door.

"Yeah," Natasha said. "Where's Seren's family?"

"Resting in their hotel, but they're supposed to be back in a couple hours."

"And where are you going?"

Steve grabbed Chloe's arm, hard, and pulled her with him much like a parent would grab a misbehaving child. "Home for a bit. I won't be long, I promise."

"Do what you gotta do," Natasha said and headed for Seren's room.

"What!? Where!?" Chloe tried prying his hand off her arm when he pulled her for the elevators. She tried digging her feet to the floor to slow him down but that was just another failed attempt. "Steve, where are we going?"

"Home!"

"No! I don't—Seren's here! I want to stay here!"

Steve ignored her and pulled her inside the elevator. "You're not telling us the truth, Chloe. You're always secretive and I let it slide because I have no right to demand anything but this time it's different. This time Seren's life got put on the line because of them and I'm not going to rest until I get the entire truth from you!" He let Chloe go while the elevator started down.

She scooted to the other corner, hugging herself. He had never used any force with her, much less yelled at her. He was absolutely right but even then, she was afraid to speak. "Just let me disappear," she whispered.

Steve was dumbfounded with those words. The elevator opened up.

Chloe straightened up and walked out first. She turned to face him with a new determination. "Let me run," she told him. "Let me go and I promise that whoever did this will run with me. They won't hurt Seren again."

Steve looked around for anyone suspicious. No one seemed to be looking at them. Everyone had a job to do. His eyes landed on Chloe again. He grasped her arm again and pulled her for the entrance doors.

"Steve, c'mon!" she exclaimed.

"You just confirmed that this is involving you," he said. "Now I'm going to need the entire truth from you."

"I can't!"

"Why not?"

"Because it's dangerous!"

"I would assume nothing less."

"Steve, stop!" Chloe screamed with flashing blue eyes. "They're telling me to stop!"

"They?" Steve let go on instinct as soon as they were outside the hospital. "Chloe, who's 'they'?"

Chloe blinked quickly until the blue faded from her eyes. She brought her hand to her temple. "The aliens. The Hivemind has been very active lately. They-they keep whispering to me, talking to me."

"I thought you said they didn't speak to you often." Steve couldn't count the times Chloe would complain about those creatures in the Hivemind ignoring her calls. They didn't want anything to do with her.

"They didn't," Chloe said with a strained voice. "But lately they have. Since my birthday. They...they keep whispering things, like future things. It's like I can see some parts of the future now. It's how I knew Natasha was in the control room on the Lemurian Star; how I knew the bomb was coming. But sometimes they talk too loud, they overlap.."

"But they're saying something," Steve realized. "Are they worried? Are they warning you?"

Chloe nodded. "Yeah, lately it's been a lot of warnings. Before, I was the one who had to try and reach them and even then, they weren't very forthcoming with information. Now suddenly I can't shut them up. I think so. Dr. Cho says it might be because my brain's reached full maturity?"

"Dr. Cho?" It took only a second for Steve to correlate that name with Tony's. "Let me guess, a friend of Tony's?" Chloe nodded and ducked her gaze from his. "Chloe, I don't understand why you wouldn't tell us that you've been seeing Stark to help you out. What, did you think we weren't going to stand for it or something?"

"It's more complicated than you think," Chloe said, exasperated but nowhere near to Steve's frustration.

"Then tell us! I am so sick of SHIELD and its secrets and how it makes its employees feel like lying is just part of the job! You don't lie, Chloe! Why is that so hard to understand? Personally, if it was the reason it got my best friend killed, I'd want to spill every single thing I knew."

"It's just hard, Steve!" Chloe exclaimed. "There are eyes and ears everywhere! I can't trust anyone in SHIELD—"

"I am right here, Chloe! I have been here for two years now!" Steve's voice was louder than usual, and Chloe hated that it was all against her. She hated her position but she also knew that she brought it on herself. "You're always on me about being honest with myself about how I felt about Seren and now that I'm finally doing something about it, this happens and it all points to it being your fault!"

Tears filled Chloe's eyes within seconds. Steve knew that he should feel awful for making a woman cry — he should feel exceptionally awful for making a friend cry. Chloe had helped him in every way that she could to get closer to Seren, to get to know the world better. She had been an amazing friend to him nonstop...

But Seren was the one in the hospital. Seren was the one who ingested cyanide-laced chocolates. She was the one who had to battle for her life. Seren was the one who paid the price yet again for someone else and their decisions. From the moment she could remember, she lived for others, doing their bidding in the name of loyalty. Steve couldn't, and wouldn't, let that continue, not when he had the power to make it stop even for just a moment. This was something he could solve and if it meant forcing the truth out of Chloe then so be it. Seren was done paying for things that weren't her fault.

He grabbed Chloe's arm again, gripping it tight as he dragged her away from the hospital. If she was that concerned with eyes and ears everywhere, then they would head to the one place he knew for a fact was completely free of third parties.

"We're going home and you're going to explain," Steve warned her, leaving absolutely no room for discussion anymore. "Because if anyone else hurts Seren, you're going to answer for it."

~ 0 ~

The impatience got to Steve long before they reached their building. As soon as they stepped inside the building, Steve was demanding answers from Chloe again.

"You better start with where you got those chocolates," he warned as they headed up the stairs.

"I don't know!" Chloe exclaimed. "I honestly don't know! It could've been from anyone!"

"Why did someone want to kill you?"

Chloe sighed.

"Chloe, talk."

"We need to talk to Fury."

"I thought you said you couldn't trust anyone at SHIELD," Steve said sourly.

"Except for Fury! He knows everything about this!"

Steve rolled his eyes. "Why am I not surprised?"

"Steve, it's more complicated than you think," Chloe stopped him on their floor. "This is...this is 7 years in the making."

"Seven?"

Chloe nodded. "No one knows except for Fury and then Tony. Seren doesn't know—she couldn't imagine it."

"Then tell me now," Steve said, teeth gritted. His patience was nonexistent by this point, exhausted both physically and mentally from the past day.

"When Seren took me in, I thought things would get better. I even thought I could eventually go home again. If I learned how to control my powers then I could be around them again, I could explain everything…" Chloe smiled humorlessly at her naive thoughts. "But a few months after I joined S.H.I.E.L.D. I started to get the feeling like somebody was watching me. I thought maybe Seren had some agent looking out for me but when I asked her about it, she told me she hadn't posted anyone. I trusted Seren, she doesn't lie."

"No, she doesn't," Steve agreed. "So?"

"I kept getting the same feeling wherever I went," Chloe went on, "And then one day, I was almost killed crossing the street. This car just came out of nowhere and it almost hit me. It just kept going. That happened two times on different days."

"Did they ever catch the person?" Steve asked. He was following closely but for the moment, he couldn't decide whether or not Chloe was telling him the truth.

"No," Chloe shook her head. "But then after that, more odd things kept happening. Little accidents. I didn't have a parachute when I should have, things exploded before they should've...and the feeling that somebody was watching me kept growing."

"Those first things—those are things from S.H.I.E.L.D.," Steve said. "Are you saying that—"

"There's a mole in S.H.I.E.L.D.," Chloe sighed. "Moles. I don't know. I know it's more than one person watching me. It's why Fury has me all around the world. My missions are always top secret because not everyone can be trusted."

"And you've never said anything to Seren about this? Natasha?" Steve didn't know why he even bothered to ask when he already knew what the answer would be. "Chloe!"

"Fury said it was best not to," Chloe argued.

"But you had Seren. She would have protected you!"

"Seren had to focus on her own training! Fury didn't want anything to distract S.H.I.E.L.D.'s prized possession!"

"She's not their possession!" Steve snapped.

Chloe's hands went up in front of her as she reminded Steve these were S.H.I.E.L.D.'s words, not hers. "I was a kid, Steve. I didn't know any better. I wasn't going to argue with the frikin director of S.H.I.E.L.D. I learned to live the way I do."

"Full of lies and deceit?"

"I didn't say it was the best way to live—"

"It's not a way to live, Chloe, that's my point. You all live in webs of lies, I'm genuinely amazed how easily you guys do it." And Steve was more amazed with the way that Seren hadn't fallen into that same type of living. The fact she remained pure with her intentions and goals made him admire her even more.

Chloe pushed down a lump in her throat, feeling like he was looking at her as if she was his enemy. "This isn't the way I thought my future would look like."

"It would have been different if you had told somebody," Steve muttered.

All Chloe could do was accept her fault and apologize. Looking at her, Steve began to feel guilty for snapping at her. She was deflated, lost, in a sense and him yelling probably wasn't helping. He just really couldn't stand the circumstances and more than anything that S.H.I.E.L.D. was truly the worst place ever and he was working there.

"Alright," he begrudgingly started a few minutes after calming himself, "so do you have any idea about what we're dealing with? Any leads?"

Chloe looked at him, dumbfounded with the question. "You're going to help me?"

"I'm not going to leave you to these people," said Steve incredulously. "If there's moles in S.H.I.E.L.D., then we gotta wipe 'em out quickly."

"That's going to be hard considering I've never seen any faces," Chloe said with a lamenting sigh. "They're good like that. All these attacks have been from a distance. And trust me, I've had some of my connections try to help me. It's all just big waste of time."

"No," Steve said sternly. "Because if you think like that, then you just give them ample opportunities to try and catch you."

"Well they haven't tried in a long time," Chloe said, "Ever since I started living with you, actually."

"Seriously?"

"You do remember who you are, right? You're Captain America. The name holds a lot of weight."

"You really don't know anything about who they could be?"

Chloe ran her hands through her hair. "I mean...the Hivemind nicknamed one of them "the Ghost" and it's sort of stuck but there's not much to go off by. No matter where I go, no matter how hard I stay hidden, they always find me! So I ran—I kept moving!"

"And you've played this off as missions," Steve would commend her aptitude for lying at another moment. It had to take a lot of skill to be able to maneuver an entire organization like S.H.I.E.L.D.

"I had to!"

"No, you didn't!"

"Yes, I did, because I never wanted to put anyone else in harm's way!"

"And yet Seren's the one in the hospital!"

"I KNOW!" Chloe's eyes shined with tears. "Seren's the only person I can fully trust. She took care of me when I was so scared. It should have been me, alright? I know it! I should have been poisoned! I should have died!"

"No, Chloe...I — you shouldn't have died. Neither if you deserve to be hurt." As angry as Steve was, he would never want anything to happen to Chloe either. She was like a sister, a little sister to him and right now she was very afraid.

"It's my fault,' Chloe sniffed until she wept. "It's always been my fault. I was so stupid thinking that they weren't going to do anything anymore. They stopped trying to hurt me a while ago and...I guess I lowered my guard. It's my fault Seren's in the hospital. It's all my fault..."

Steve brought her into a hug seeing her get so worked up. He couldn't stay angry with her knowing that she had no idea what was going on. He was still irritated with her for not telling him any of this before because the truth of the matter is that Seren could have avoided this whole incident if their guard had never been lowered. Things would have been so different if they knew what was really going on within S.H.I.E.L.D.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry," Chloe said in-between sniffles. "I would never let anything happen to Seren— to any of my friends. You guys are my family and I...I was so stupid."

Steve sighed. "It's...it'll be okay. We can all work together now — you, me, Seren, Natasha. We can figure out what these people want from you—"

"It's the Hivemind, it has to be," Chloe pulled back from him. "I wasn't supposed to get it and I did because I went snooping around. Whoever they are, the Hive Mind was theirs and they want it back."

"That would mean they know what it is," Steve realized. "If the Hivemind is what they're after and it's merged into your body…"

"They need to kill me in order to get it," Chloe wiped some of her tears. "I realized that a long time ago. But the weird part is, these attempts to kill me had stopped years ago. I mean, it's how they started but then it stopped. They still watched me and on occasion there were attempts to trap me."

"Like kidnapping," Steve was quick to make the conclusion. "They stopped trying to kill you to kidnap you instead. They were trying to take the tech from you or...observe?" Either option was viable but without having one of those people in front of them, it was all up in the air.

"But then it stopped," Chloe reminded him. "It stopped up until yesterday. They're trying to kill me again after years."

"What changed?"

"...my age?" Chloe couldn't think of another reason. "The doctor I'm seeing outside of S.H.I.E.L.D. said that the Hivemind might be fully accessible now because of my age. I have untapped abilities, hence the future visions."

"Okay," Steve nodded. "Let's get inside and talk for a bit more, maybe shower and change and then — and then," he raised a finger at her, "We are going back to the hospital and we are telling Seren everything."

Chloe's eyes widened. "Everything? Steve, I can't—"

"Stop," Steve warned her. "Do you know that Seren found out about your little undercover SHIELD agent just hours before this whole thing happened?"

"She did...?" Chloe knew that was a whole other lecture waiting for her now.

"Yes, and even though she could've acted like you and everyone else, she didn't lie. She didn't keep it a secret from me. She told me the truth. I won't lie to her, Chloe. Not now, not ever. I'm going to tell her everything."

Chloe gulped. "If...if you're going to do it...then I might as well do it. This responsibility shouldn't fall on you. All you've done is help and protect us. This is my business, I'm going to tell Seren."

"Chloe—"

"I swear I'm going to tell her," Chloe said, raising her hand to promise.

"As soon as she wakes up," Steve warned her. "I won't hesitate to do it myself if you back out."

"I understand," Chloe said with a nod.

"Now let's just go inside and get changed — maybe tell me something else I need to know about — and head back to the hospital." Steve took the lead towards their door. "I don't want Seren to wake up and I'm not there."

"I know..." Chloe said, following close behind, "But I...I'm scared that she's going to hate me. I've been lying to her for years and I nearly got her killed."

"Something tells me that Seren could never hold a grudge against you." Steve said as he got his key out. Just as he was about to slip it into the keyhole, he heard music playing from the other side.

Soon, Chloe heard it too.

"You didn't leave the record player on, did you?" Chloe whispered.

Steve brought a finger to his lips. No, no he had not left it on. Nothing should be turned on and because of that, he took Chloe in the opposite direction. They wouldn't be going through the door—that's what they expected.

They came through the fire escape instead, although Steve had implied to Chloe that she should stay back. She stood firm on her decision; she was done making mistakes. Luckily on their way inside the apartment, Steve found his shield he left lying about. He crept towards the living room and poked his head only slightly out to see. Chloe suspected this intruder wasn't that threatening when Steve's face fell flat. He lowered his shield and came into the living room, prompting her to do the same. Fury was sitting on the couch, in the dark.

"I don't remember giving you a key…" Steve said, slowly and still very much suspicious. After everything he learned today, he trusted Fury even less and that hadn't been much to begin with. If anything, he felt a new rush of anger flourish from his chest. He knew the attack hadn't been against Seren and yet he hadn't said a word.

"You really think I'd need one? My wife kicked me out," Fury said, and Chloe noted that his voice was a touch strained.

Steve didn't bother asking why he just learned this. "Didn't know you were married."

He's not, Chloe thought. She touched Steve's arm, making him look at her. She mouthed her thoughts to him. 'Accident. Accident. There's an accident!' Chloe frowned. The Hive Mind was very adamant about an accident and she began to wonder if it didn't have to do with Seren.

'The Ghost is coming! Run!'

Chloe snapped out of her thoughts when Steve turned the light on and they both noticed the injuries Fury had. Before either of them could say a thing, Fury motioned them to stay quiet. He turned the lights back off then pulled his phone out to write something.

'Ears everywhere' was the message for them.

Chloe paled. If he was saying this to her and Steve, then things were even worse now. Secrecy had been their best weapon so far and to divulge that so easily now...

Chloe was properly scared.

"I'm sorry to have to do this, but I had no place else to crash," Fury went on as he wrote another message for them.

'SHIELD compromised. Winters, they're here and attacking us all.'

Chloe didn't intend on whimpering out loud but it happened. She felt Steve's hand on her arm comforting her. Her worst nightmare was coming true and she had no idea what to do.

"Who else knows about your wife?" Steve asked Fury.

'You and me' was the message.

Fury pulled himself up from his seat and walked a few steps towards them. "Just...my friends."

"Is that what we are?"

'Now, now, now!' Chloe felt an actual static noise in her head. "Aah!" She clapped her hands to her head.

Just as Steve looked her way, three shots were fired through the wall and struck Fury square in the chest. Steve pulled Chloe down with him then reached for Fury to drag him into the next room. Chloe lit her hands a raging blue to fight whoever the hell was in their home. She fired in the same direction that the bullets had come from but to her dismay, the bullets kept coming. Although, she did notice that they only kept going in Fury's and Steve's direction.

Fury reached for Steve's wrist to stop him from leaving. "Don't...trust anyone." He deposited the same USB Natasha took from the Lemurian Star into Steve's hand.

"Chloe, stay here," Steve ordered Chloe as he pulled her back to where he'd left Fury.

"What? No! It's them—" She was already frantic and that boded "accidentally murdered" for Steve. He didn't need to explain that to Seren later on.

"Stay!" he ordered her and took off.

"Oh God, it's them. It's them." Chloe's vision was blurred with tears. She never expected them to make it this close to her and her friends, much less try to kill Seren and now Fury. This wasn't just one person—this was a whole team.

The bullets had stopped coming, giving Chloe a clear line of view into the living room. Their windows were shattered and as Chloe hurried up to it, she could see Steve chasing another figure. The Ghost, she gulped. It had to be.

Steve was on the run, never as fast as now. That was something he noted for later. Whoever this shooter was, he was running faster than a regular human ever could. Could it be an enhanced human? The mole from S.H.I.E.L.D.? Whoever it was, he'd let Steve through another building and countless walls he had to smash through in order to catch up. He took his shot once he was on the rooftop and threw his shield at the mysterious killer. The last thing he expected was for said killer to catch it so swiftly. The shock of it was what denied Steve the chance to catch it when the killer threw it directly back at him. He was on the ground when the killer made his escape.

~ 0 ~

Natasha could shove anyone out her way right now. She skidded to a stop beside Steve and Chloe who were watching Fury undergo surgery. "Is he going to make it?"

Instead of answering the question, Steve rounded on the woman, suddenly furious. "What the hell are you doing here!? Seren's—"

"She's fine, Rogers," Natasha said, side-stepping him to continue watching the surgery. "Chloe pulled her strings."

At that, Steve glanced at Chloe questionably. The blonde nodded. "I have a friend in the CIA. Trust me, nobody gets through her either."

Steve had a few things to ask but the commotion from the surgery drew his attention back.

"Tell me about the shooter," Natasha said quietly, eyes glued up ahead.

Steve was hesitant to but Chloe gave him the nod. She'd asked him the same thing when they were together again. Chloe was certain that they had been 'the ghost' as the Hive Mind nicknamed him.

"He's fast and strong. Had a metal arm…" Steve stopped when Maria joined them.

"Ballistics?" Natasha asked her immediately.

"Three slugs, no rifling. Completely untraceable."

Chloe saw something flash across Natasha's face, recognition. But how was that possible?

"Soviet-made," the redhead mumbled.

Chloe raised an eyebrow at her. She didn't have the chance to ask about it. Commotion came from the surgery again.

"He's in V-tach!"

"Crash cart coming in!"

"Nurse, help me with the drape!"

"BP is dropping!"

"Defibrillator!"

Everyone held onto their breath when Fury flatlined. The doctor went several times with the machine.

"Don't do this to me, Nick," Natasha stepped closer to the glass window.

"Stand back! Three, two, one. Clear!"

But the flatlining continued.

"Don't do this to me, Nick. Don't do this to me," Natasha could get dizzy with all the constant moving but she couldn't take her eyes off them. One attempt turned into three more. Eventually, they had to stop.

"Time of death, 1:03 a.m."

Natasha's eyes glistened. Chloe's mouth parted in shock.

Steve stepped back and looked down at the USB he'd held onto tightly.

~ 0 ~

Seren had long woken up before the group returned. The first thing that Steve did was apologize — multiple times — for not being there with her like he promised before she fell asleep. Seren assured him many times that she was okay. She was doing a lot better now that she didn't need the oxygen mask. One less thing that freaked her out. Plus, she had been with a friend while they were gone. Her more or less content mood made it harder for them to break the news about Fury.

Steve almost regretted it when they saw Seren's blood pressure begin to spike on the machine. "N-n-n-n-no, Seren, calm down!"

"'Calm down'?" She said incredulously, trying to push herself into a better sitting position. "You just told me — our director is dead! He's been murdered!" She went to try and stand up and that's where Steve drew the line. He had to force her to lay back down. "Steve, I gotta — would you let go!?" Her hands were on his biceps, trying with all her might to push him away.

"Can't do that! Lay down, now," he ordered her and, to his relief, she gave up and fell back in bed. She crossed her arms and the look on her face implied he'd be in some deep trouble in the near future.

"Somebody better start talking," she warned and looked at Natasha and Chloe in case they decided to chip in to explain. "Last time I remembered, Fury was well and alive. How long was I out for that to change so drastically?"

"It's really hard to explain," Natasha said, "Mostly because we don't actually have the details to explain."

"Come again? You said the guy was in your apartment," Seren said, glancing between Steve and Chloe. "Which means he was waiting for the target, which means he knew you all."

"I don't know if that was it..." Chloe said quietly. Her nerves were skyrocketing now that she had Seren in front of her. Steve was waiting for her to tell the truth and she had no doubt that he would follow through with his threat and tell Seren himself if she didn't do it first.

"Then what was it?" demanded Seren.

"I call him the Ghost," Chloe said, deciding to start with the easiest bit.

"The Ghost?" Seren seemed very unimpressed. "What is this? Kindergarten superhero class? I want answers and if you're not going to give them to me then I'll just get them myself!" She had only moved slightly forward when Steve easily moved and pinned her shoulder down on the bed. She groaned. "Would you stop doing that!?"

"Soon as you stop trying to escape," Steve said. "Mysterious murders are no excuse for you to endanger your health."

Seren deadpanned him. "I don't like you at all right now."

Steve rolled his eyes. "I'll survive."

"Keep up the sarcasm, I dare you."

"Enough," Chloe interjected. The last thing she wanted was to cause a senseless argument between them because of her. "It's not Steve's fault, Seren. It's mine."

With the mild confession, Seren lost interest in taking more jabs at Steve. She turned her head in Chloe's direction. "Why do you say that?"

Chloe drew in a big breath to try and ease some of the nerves in her stomach. "I...I have to tell you some...some things."

"I'm literally all ears right now. What is it?"

But just as Chloe was about to start, someone knocked on the door. It was Rumlow poking his head into the room. "Agent Soul, good morning. How are you doing?"

Seren fixed herself up as best she could before answering him. "Good, thank you."

"Sorry to interrupt. Captain, Agent Winters, they want you back at SHIELD."

"R-right now?" Chloe said, glancing at Steve unsure. Just when she had gotten a bit of courage...

"I can go and Chloe can catch up with us later," Steve said. He met Natasha's gaze and just as he opened his mouth, she told him that she would stay with Seren and Chloe.

The ginger in question let out a groan. "I don't need a babysitter! I need some damn answers!"

"You," Steve pointed at her, "need to calm down before you make the machine," he nodded at her monitor, "burst into flames."

"I'll make you burst into flames!" Seren huffed.

Steve barely hid his smile at her. Even when mad, she still pulled at his heartstrings. "And I'll let you do that when I get back, promise." Steve headed out the room and noticed Rumlow conversing with the STRIKE team at the end of the hallway. Something about carrying the USB right back to S.H.I.E.L.D. didn't sit well with Steve. He looked around and spotted a vending machine. It had to be safer than S.H.I.E.L.D. and if anyone came looking for it, it was away from Seren but close enough to grab.

Seren was not happy at all when he left with Rumlow, and not even Natasha's little taunts lifted her mood enough to snap back. She wasn't used to being benched. She wasn't benched. That was the point of her and SHIELD. She was the first line of response for these cases and now it turned out that she wasn't allowed to know what was going on?

"You shouldn't be mad at him," Chloe insisted as she came to sit with Seren. "I'll give you the answers, I swear."

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happy birthday lyn ^_^

hello again Anon my dear friends, lidtrdkcfs you’re always so nice to me ‘!!

E lol <no idea what j Tyrol this but alppl did

Ignore end line Reak plz no Ickes Abel $&&&&&

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wow omg i did not at all realize just how messed up i was earlier today when i (attempted) wrote hhqq(

the above ^ portion of my reply... how embarrassing ugh

anywaays srry for taking so long to respond to this that it's no longer my bday anymore but whatever genuinely who give a fuck. anyways my day was half happy half not. so i had plans with my brother (twins so same bday) but i got called into work as always. then i got confused about ho0w long my shift was supposed to be. people kept telling me 8hr then 12hr then 16hr then 6hr etc etc...

my brother was already doing stuff for our bday (i told him not to wait for me) so i walked around downtown for a while. talked to more homeless people. this one guy named carlos said i was an angel god sent to him. he gave me this bracelet (Figure 1, left) that has a bunch of crosses and a portrait of some female saint (mary?) on it. i asked him if it was real, he said yeah, i'm not sure about that but i said oh well, you see this cross necklace i got on (Figure 2, right)? i ain't never took it off since i first put it on real silver i shower with it n everything. and i'm doing the same with this bracelet now so it better not turn my arm green. maybe i'll take it to a jeweler to find out for sure.

he said of course the bracelet is real it's been passed down thru his family and he never thought he'd find anyone worthy of giving it away to but then he met me i guess! then i told him about how i got my necklace the same way from my family! and then he held my hand the one i put the bracelet on and said this long ass prayer i think it was Genesis 49:25 or something like that? (anyone have any idea what it might have been? it ended with something about above & below or something like that). i asked if he was catholic or protestant because i almost thought this was like some catholic rosary prayer thing, but of course he gave the typical "i'm nondenominational" speech. sometime later i said "god damn" and he got real serious and said "dont take the lord's name in vain" and i said "jesus died for our sins so he would want me to do whatever i want until it's time to beg for forgiveness on my death bed" and he said "all will be forgiven in the end..."

then he wanted me to go to 7/11 with him because that was the nearest ATM. he also said "you can get whatever you want in there... anything..." and i repeated "anything...?" and he remained insistent. i'm not sure what exactly was happening here, but the story is that carlos's (family?) don't trust him with his money (SSI) so they give him only like $100/week of it. so since i have a phone and cash app, he put me in contact with this woman isobel. she's the one who transfers him the money always is what it seems like. at first i thought she was another bum, but i think she's a normal person who is a relative of carlos and is just trying to take care of him best she can while he actively chooses to live wrong? but idk. i also asked if this was a money laundering scheme because if so i want to be washing thousands not hundreds etc, but they said no it's nothing like that...

anywho, carlos called isobel from my phone and told her cash app me $100 for him, then we'll go take it from the ATM. isobel of course wanted to talk to me because who the fuck am i? so i took my phone back and said "yo wassup, this is lyn." big mistake. she immediately went OFF on me about "you just met 20min ago i dont know you i dont trust you im not gonna give the money to you." and i was like "yeah i get that well you know what i got $100 cash on me i'ma let him hold on to it regardless of if you cash app me or not." then carlos took the phone back, argued with her for a while trying to convince isobel she "[doesn't] understand, this isn't just anyone this is lyn she's my guardian angel..." to which isobel said "did you hear how she answered the phone? 'yo wassup'? how is that any way to talk to someone you never met before?" (i should mention carlos is hard of. hearing, so he always had me put her on speaker, so this is why i could hear both sides of the convo so well). finally i was like alright enough of this bullshit we're not making any progress like this. made carlos hang up and tell isobel we'd call her back in a min. gave carlos the cash and took a pic of him holding it. sent to isobel. finally she asked for my cash app, sent me the money. never in my life have i met someone so difficult to get along with. fucking bitch.

anyways, then we go to 7/11. idk how to use an ATM for cash app so we try to ask the cashier, but he gets pissed off at us and tells us to leave the store right now. but first i have to go to the back of the store near the ATM again to pick up my jacket and shit that i had set down cuz i was carrying so much stuff from work. and the cashier starts yelling at me that i can't have a backpack in here. like yeah of course i'm gonna leave it unattended outside around here. so i tell him give me a minute i gotta get my shit but he just keeps screaming at me all the way out the door.

there was nothing left for us to do at this point but go stand in a doorway of some closed down building and smoke cigarettes. more & more people showed up every few minutes and without fail they offered me cigarettes (which i accepted) and meth (which i declined). seriously can't believe i said no to drugs for once in my life. i didn't even have any desire to take or use it at all. idk why maybe because i don't see the point of using anything any other way than IV anymore and of course none of these people shoot up either so... then some random guy walked past and asked me how old i am. i said "it's my bday, i just turned 25, what do u got for me? ;)" he nodded at me and went inside a convenience store across the street. halfway thought he was gonna buy me alcohol or something, but he came back out with nothing, so i yelled to him "wait what the fuck? ur really gonna do me like that on my bday?" he looked over his shoulder at me for a second but kept walking away.

then my coworker called me and asked if i could come back to work for a longer shift. so i said goodbye to everyone and they extensively warned me to watch myself i shouldnt be walking around here alone at night but i just said "i wouldnt do stuff like this if i cared what happens to me" and walked away. and then i spent the rest of the night at work. that's about it. so how has y'all's day/week been?

EDIT: OH AND HAPPY SAGITTARIUS SEASON TO ALL !!

#ask #anon #long post

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