I decided today to move to a big city on my own and I’m so scared. Knowing my family will not speak to me again, I won’t get to see my cat again either, living with a stranger, and I’ll be all on my own figuring things out. I’m terrified.

how am i losing motivation for a fic 160k words in

Parallel Lines and Brothers.

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say it with me everybody: personal health is completely immaterial to morality, including mental health. leading a mentally unhealthy lifestyle (or what you perceive as a mentally unhealthy lifestyle) does not a bad person make. no one has to socialize, exercise, have healthy coping mechanisms, or lead (what you perceive as) a fulfilling life with fulfilling hobbies in the same way that no one has to go to the doctor to get a broken bone reset. both of those types of management of personal health are likely to be beneficial to the individual, but they are in no way moral requirements or debts owed to society. they do not actually say anything about a person's principles, personality, or actions towards others. additionally, people know themselves and their own situations better than you do. maybe a person judges that the physical and financial toll of going to the doctor outweigh the benefit of getting their bone reset, maybe a person just does not have the capacity to develop healthy coping mechanisms at this point in their life, and yes, maybe a person feels like they are totally fulfilled by "media based" hobbies alone and would feel no difference in their life if they picked up a loom. just like. let people be sick without accusing them of being representative of the lazy, degenerated state of modern society.

wdym that everyone who stayed back on the island stayed back for love. wdym everyone that ran to save themselves also did it for their love for each other. wdym people tried their best to save the people they'd spent two weeks fighting cuz at the end there was love THERE WAS LOVE.

thats what the qsmp has always been about. it's love. all kinds of love. and what you're willing to do for that love. its love its love its love

Thaniel was my friend also. I played with him, grew up while he stayed the same. He made me who I am today, and then he was ripped away from me, same as for you. But you need not be alone any longer. You need not invent friends. Thaniel is back. He is waiting for you.

did house just sincerely refer to wilson as being queer or am i brainrotted to the sun and back

coroner voice the short stories got her

(I have received... several invitations. I do not think they're seriously expecting us, but it would be rude not to attend, right?)

Request here

Trent seeing ted lasso at a queer club

something like this?

where's bruce wayne giving his kids hugs that are a little too tight and a second too long after they let go because who knows when or if you'll be able to ever hug them again

where's bruce wayne who goes to his kid's recitals and school events when he can because he wants them to be able to see their father's face in the crowd

where's bruce wayne who hangs up and says i love you or that he's proud of them or to be safe because it can be the last thing he's ever said to them. the last thing they ever hear from him.

where's bruce wayne who is a nervous, over involved wreck because he knows how cruel the world can be

where's bruce wayne sucking in a breath and shaking anytime the phone calls because it can be the one to deliver fatal news

where's bruce wayne who's eyes water up when he realizes how much his children grown

where's bruce wayne who makes sure all his kids know they can always return back to the manor. for a day, for a lifetime, there's always a room. that they'll always have a place to stay and it'll always be their home too

where's bruce wayne who checks on his kids before going to bed, who visits the empty rooms too just in case and out of habit

where's bruce wayne who bandages his children's scrapes and bruises when theyre 20 because they'll always be his babies

where's bruce wayne who supports his children and let's them know they never have to be alone

where's bruce wayne who had his parents and childhood so violently ripped away from him that now he gets to be what he always wanted - a father.

once tim meets lucy’s parents it's all gonna click for him why she got so defensive about his belief in her taking the detectives exam.

Can we talk about the fact that Nerevar probably sucked just as much as the Sharmat? ‘Cause personally I think the comparisons that can be drawn between Nerevar and Dagoth Ur are kind of interesting. I like them as reflections of each other. I like their rule as hard to tell apart.

They both want the people who they don’t think should be in their homeland out of it. Between the Nords and the Dwemer for Nerevar, and the Imperials and other outlanders for Dagoth I feel that’s a clear similarity.

They’re both killed by the people they love/trust—whatever you want to call those relationships— because they are both oblivious to their wrongdoings and to noticing if they’ve happened to antagonize someone they care for.

They are also both charismatic. They are both capable of convincing people to follow them with just their words.

Now…maybe they could be different for why people follow them, but I don’t think they are.

On the one hand Dagoth Ur relies on his dreams and corpus to bring people under his rule. Which most people, I feel, would probably consider to be against their will.

….. but can we talk about the fact that Moon-and-Star (the ring) is Nerevar’s corpus and dreams? Like it basically functions the same way. It’s a psychological manipulation tactic, right? Maybe a more socially acceptable one in his society, but a manipulation tactic nonetheless. It is capable of making someone swear loyalty to something they otherwise may not have. Like.. if he didn’t have that ring, it could be a very real possibility that absolutely no one would have paid him any mind. He would’ve never been the Hortator, and maybe never even remotely notable.

Like .. I just… yeah. I… gods forbid the nerverine know who they are, and look at Dagoth and see a mirror—do you know what I mean?

(sorry this has been rotating in my mind for over an hour now, so I figured I’d make a post about it >:333 )

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now

Backrooms level where wanderers find themselves in a friendly desert community where the sun is bright, the moon is beautiful and strange lights pass overhead while they all pretend to sleep. The future is here, and it's about a 1000 feet above the Arby's.